#i have been lying awake for 2h now

[airenyah]

love lying awake at 4:30am when my alarm is scheduled to go off at 8:15 🙃🙃🙃

[craftypeaceturtle]

B is for Baby Time!

Summary: They finally get to meet the newest arrival for their family.

Note: Part of a series but can be read alone! The ABCs of their little family! Demus and Royality. 

The beginning- A is for Arrival

Next part: C is for Choas!

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They got the call at exactly midnight. The second it turned to December they had prepared everything ready in case the baby would be early; they would not run around like headless chickens when the moment came. They had a baby carrier filled with blankets and a change of baby clothes that stood guard over their front door. But the 10th of December passed without any update. Remus was particularly insufferable but then again Janus had his own special brand of impatience. But all of that fell to pieces when they finally got the call at midnight that their surrogate had gone into labour. The baby was coming.

Janus blanched as he violently slapped Remus’ arm to get him up. He got up and started storming down the stairs all while silently gaping at the phone. Remus slunked after him before it suddenly dawned on him why Janus would be panicking at a phone call. 

The plan had been to sit at home and wait until the baby was born then drive carefully and calmly to the hospital. That lasted a good... 20 minutes? “Do you want to go and wait in the hospital?” Janus finally sighed. Remus’ fidgeting stopped for the first time since the call.

“Why? Do you wanna sit in a waiting room for hours on end?” Remus kept staring ahead. 

“Well I don’t know about you, but I can totally just sit here for several more hours.”

“We...” Remus sighed and wiped at his eyes, “We should be making the most of this really. Our last night of uninterrupted sleep.”

“Okay then, go to sleep then,” Janus laughed. Remus chuckled.

“Okay, let’s get going shall we?” Remus got up and held out his curled arm like the gentleman he was. 

“We shall... after you put actual clothes on. I’m sure the nurses don’t want to see your manky boxers,” Janus chuckled and pulled and flicked him with the waistband.  

They launched themselves at the car and only just remembered to actually grab the baby carrier. Sitting in the hospital room both felt like a relief and horrifically underwhelming. There were here now! They were here ready for any and all news. No need to keep anyone hanging. They felt productive just sitting there. But also... Both of them were just sitting there. In their rushed on jogging bottoms and baggy jumpers, with Remus’ wild bed head and Janus’ own frizzy hair lying limply against his back. They were both shivering as the December weather leaked into the waiting room. “Just time to wait...” Remus smiled weakly. 

An hour passed awkwardly. The second hour passed both quickly and also as painstakingly slowly. 

Remus’ phone vibrated from his pocket:

Evil Twin Bro- Hey, you know lots of weird stuff about getting different stains out right?

- yep

-also it really isn’t that weird. 

-it’s called being an adult.

Evil Twin Bro- Do you know how to get blood out of t-shirt material?

-is it dried or nah

-soak in cold water

-wash like loads of times

Evil Twin Bro- I’ll kill you if this doesn’t work. Also, why are you awake at 2 in the morning you maniac!

-could ask you 2

Evil Twin Bro- I asked you first. 

-baby’s coming.

Evil Twin Bro- Wait really??????!!!!!!!!!

Evil Twin Bro- Congratulations!!!! 

-haven’t got the baby yet. waiting 4 surro. 

Evil Twin Bro- Are you at the hospital?

-yea

Evil Twin Bro- How long have you been waiting?

-like 2h

Evil Twin Bro- Woah, that’s rough. How you holding up?

-dunno

Evil Twin Bro- You don’t know?

-feel like I’m gonna vomit. but also excited. 

-well I don’t know if it’s good vomit or bad vomit y’know?

Evil Twin Bro- I really don’t. What are you lot doing then?

-J fell asleep. I’m trying to save battery on phone. 

-So just sitting here.

Evil Twin Bro- Do you want me to drop stuff off for you? Pat was planning this whole thing for when you lot got the baby. He was going to cook you lot some fancy dinner and take it to you three. So I don’t mind helping you out! I could give you some muffins (trust me you’ll start to get hungry) and I have an iPad with a few films downloaded so you won’t need wifi. 

-jesus why cant you be like everyone else and send a sentence at a time

-we’re all goiufhgb   

-Hello Roman. This is Janus. Yes, we would greatly appreciate you bringing some stuff. 

Evil Twin Bro- Haha, no problem!

“I can’t believe you’re dragging him here,” Remus sighed as Janus wordlessly passed his phone back. 

“Why not?” Janus answered honestly. His whole being looked dragged down by sleepiness. Remus shrugged and looked ahead. Janus usually put so much effort into his appearance. Even the most basic ‘going to the shop’ outfit was a dramatic black and yellow gothic Disney villain who actually did crimes look. But he was simply shrugged over in the chair. He looked sleepily up to him through his hair. 

“Why was he even asking all that at 2am anyway!” 

“You don’t want him to come?” Janus asked, Remus heaved a sigh and plopped his head on top of Janus’. 

“I dunno... I think I’m just tired and panicky. It’s all good,” Remus muttered off to a whisper. He pressed a kiss to his hair and closed his eyes. 

He didn’t actually sleep. He just wanted to stop all conversation. People continued bustling in and out and Janus managed to fall asleep again with his chin propped up against his chest. He was even letting out a steady stream of snorty snores. Remus kept his eyes closed hoping no one would try to start a conversation with him. Janus was the talker to other people of their relationship. He only opened his eyes when he felt a firm prod to his shoulder. 

“Hey Reem,” Roman whispered before flicking his forehead. 

“What do you want dickbag?” Remus answered without thinking. Janus thankfully stayed sleeping. Roman only gave a pity smile and held out his bag. He pulled out some muffins and bottles of flavoured water alongside the promised ipad covered in glittery space stickers. Remus was too busy dumping the bag on the floor to notice Roman trying to get him to stand up. 

“C’mon.” He gestured to over where the reception was. Remus nodded heavily and gently prised himself from Janus. 

Now that they were further away, Remus saw that another hour and a half had passed. “Woah, you took ages?” 

“Yeah, I thought about waking up Pat and then you have no idea what a nightmare it was trying to find a 24 hour shop. Like it was so much harder than I thought!” Roman now spoke loudly with his on brand gestures.

“Right...” Remus fluffed up his hair and slumped into another chair. Hmm, just as uncomfortable as the other. 

“You okay?” Roman lowered himself to his eye line, looking like he was talking to a spooked dog, “Like really?”

“Dunno. I-I just don’t know. I feel a bit all over the place to be honest,” Remus flung his head back, “What did you lot feel?”

“Pretty much the same,” Roman giggled, “Patton was a mess. I think it’s always one person does fine while the other has an existential crisis. That was definitely Pat. But he calmed down the second he got to see Logan.”

Remus nodded, not entirely sure if he was actually listening or just getting lost in the sensation of his heavy head tipping up and down. “Fair,”

“What’s going through your head right now?”

“Dunno... D-Do you...” Remus started before whipping his head to face the wall behind him, “do you think I’ll be like... I dunno a good dad?”

“Of course,” Roman slapped an hand on his shoulder. He was looking forward at the waiting room with an awkward wonky smirk. 

“Okay listen. Let’s be honest. Being emotional and gross with you just feels weird. I’ve been fine with having a baby before this. This is purely me panicking right now. As you said, I’ll be fine. So we can we not do emotional conversation?” Remus laughed awkwardly but he lightened up once Roman relaxed as well.

“Oh thank god you said it!” Roman laughed and melted back into his chair.

“Why were you coated in blood in the middle of the night anyway?”

“I wasn’t coated in blood,” Roman gasped way too loudly which Remus cackled at. Roman blushed bright red and nodded at the concerned receptionist, “I got the most random nose bleed out of nowhere and I knew you were the entire person in existence who wouldn’t question me.”

“You make me sound like a total weirdo! I would question you!”

“But you didn’t!” 

They settled into silence for a bit before inevitably Remus felt the need to speak, “How the hell did mum ever cope with twins? Like that seems like a lot...”

“Right?! Right after we had Logan, I think my mother’s day presents probably tripled in cost. She deserves it. Like all the same build up and worry but then you have another baby to come!” Roman shook his head.

“Aren’t babies are fairly gross as well?” Remus grimaced.

“Oh yeah! Don’t be put off from it! Oh, I feel so awful but the first time I saw Logan my first thought was ‘ew’. They don’t look anything like babies at first. Like Logan was blue with a traffic cone shaped head.”

“Their head is all fragile and mouldable. Janus made sure to show me pictures of newborns,” Remus stared off into nothing before turning to him with his signature smirk, only a little more tired, “But I am so telling Logan you thought he was an ugly baby.”

“Ahem,” Janus stood before them with an expectant look. Remus smiled and held out his arm which Janus jokingly shoved aside to sit down on the chair, “Hello Roman, I’m guessing you’re responsible for the pile of stuff that was at my feet.”

“Yep! How are you doing?” Roman smiled awkwardly.

“Tired but that’s to be expected. Are you staying long?” 

“No, actually that’s a good point! I really shouldn’t stay out longer. Pat will actually murder me for butting myself in,” Roman stood up with an exaggerated old man groan, “But... please text when you finally say hello to the little guy! I expect pictures!” 

Once Roman left, they wandered back over to their stuff and settled into a long night. Janus tried to stay awake. He knew that Remus was having a freak out. You would think it would be easy with the bright harsh lighting in the waiting room and the constant buzzing of conversation. Yet, his head bobbed lower and lower before Remus finally guided his head to his shoulder. He really tried but the tiredness and mix of emotions left him helpless. Remus only smiled at his useless husband before settling himself into Roman’s ipad. He settled into the Incredibles without much else to do. 

It was 5am when Remus saw the husband of the surrogate walk over to them. He didn’t think about it has he flung himself upwards, flinging Janus wide awake. The guy looked exhausted. “Hey, Remus and Janus?” He asked, thoroughly mispronouncing Janus, with his hand held out. Remus nodded awkwardly before thrusting a still waking up Janus at him.

“Yes, hello.” Janus shook his hand firmly. 

“Hey so the baby’s arrived,” He spoke softly as he walked back into the winding corridors he emerged from. They quickly followed after him, “He’s 6lb and about 20 inches. A little small thing but all healthy and average.”

“Aw, that’s all good to hear. Congratulations,” Janus sleepily smiled.

“Thanks but I think I’m supposed to be saying that to you two!” The guy chuckled awkwardly before he opened a door for them. 

Inside was the mother looking absolutely exhausted, curled up into her pillow with her frizzy hair thrown about the place. Janus subconsciously flicked his hand through his own hair, only now realising that he never brushed it before coming out. Ah well, not like anyone was looking their best for the demon of the baby that woke them all up. And of course there was the star of the show.

The baby was fussing a clear plastic crib looking thing, his reddened arms flinging around with his tiny little feet occasionally kicking. His face was screwed up but at least he wasn’t crying. He was simply laying there. The little boy that would change everything. 

Janus managed to pull away from the sight and say something to the mother. Remus deserved the first moments with their son. 

Remus looked at the mother but she was busy talking so he quietly shrugged before holding his hands out. It felt bad. They baby was clearly still fussy but quiet. What if picking him up set him off? But his hands were also hanging over him now. Sighing, he gently lowered his hands so they just about touched the tiny baby. He was warm to the touch and Remus grimaced at his thoughts that erupted from that. Maybe it was just because he was in a warm room. It felt like he was five years old all over again. It was like when a relative you barely know has a baby and just dumps the baby in your arms because it’s cute but you have no idea how to hold this fragile floppy new human. 

The baby sniffled at feeling his hands slowly worm underneath him but Remus then swiftly took hold of him and brought him to his chest, quietly shushing him without thinking. Thankfully, he settled down instantly. He was somehow both tiny and way heavier than he thought. “Heya little fella,” He cooed as he tried to uncurl his fist. The baby’s tiny little fingers uncurled and pressed back against his own finger. 

“He’s gorgeous,” Janus sighed as he came up behind Remus.

“Aw, he is. What are you guys naming him again?” The mother quietly asked.

“Virgil,” Remus answered but he kept his eyes glued to his baby. Janus smoothed his hand over the baby’s head. 

“Oh that’s a unique name!” The mother chirped.

“Has two people with unusual unique names, it only felt appropriate,” Janus muttered but his focus was completely enraptured by the baby, “Reem, do you mind doing the last of the paper work, then we can leave you all to recovery.”

“Cheers,” The father smiled awkwardly. Remus held out the baby and graciously lowered him into his arms. He perked up when he felt Remus press a kiss to his cheek, god he was clearly felt so sappy today. Not that he could really blame him.

They brought the baby carrier into the room ready to take him home and of course his eyes caught on their supplies. They brought a infant onesie- the cutest and non-halloween themed one they bought- but yet Janus frowned at the thought of trying to wrestle this baby into clothing. He looked much more comfortable pressed to his chest that he did lying down but he still looked like he could be seconds away from crying again. Of course, he couldn’t even begin to understand how stressful birth must be. The poor thing. He awkwardly bent backwards and grabbed the same blanket they bought about a month ago. Despite how much he tried, he couldn’t get out the black marker stain. It was just the first blanket they grabbed when preparing. Obviously. Of course. The first thing they grabbed. He grappled with the baby to gently cocoon him in the purple blanket. The spider web spiral sat in the middle of his back making him look like their little spider sitting in the middle of his purple spider web. 

He didn’t track when Remus came back in. He didn’t even think to keep up conversation with the biological parents. All he knew was that he was slowly stepping back and forth while pressing his face into Virgil’s own squishy cheek. 

Their little baby Virgil. 

[ateezthings]

ATEEZ: Late night car drive

Fluff

Gender neutral :)

Help, I can’t stop listening to Mist, it’s so so so good and also Wooyoung in the chorus soothes my soul, I can’t with this album it’s so good, also the Wonderland M/V is so powerful, I love this era I can’t believe they did all that, I stan the right group.

(Also in this I included my thoughts on who’s dom/sub as in who drives/who let’s their partner drive (although some of them could be switches) so enjoy…)

Seonghwa

- after your fancy dinner date with Seonghwa you didn’t want to go home just yet, so Seonghwa suggested a late night drive

- he wanted to show you some special spots in Seoul, which you had never seen

- while he was driving his free hand rested on your thigh

- as soon as you arrived on the observation deck, Seonghwa got out of the driver’s seat and went around the car to open your car door – being the gentleman he is

- the view was breathtaking: the skyline of Seoul, the trees and the moonlight, creating a magical atmosphere

- the best view however was Seonghwa in his fancy suit, you couldn’t take your eyes off of him… and he noticed: “You enjoy staring at me?”

“Actually I do, I’m so lucky”

- you pulled him in for a sweet and slow kiss

 Hongjoong

- you’ve been cooped up in your apartment all weekend, having no energy to do anything

- Hongjoong called you a few times making sure you’re alright but you insisted you didn’t wanna bother him

- at 11 pm on Sunday night someone knocked on your door and of course it was Hongjoong

“Are you ready to feel better?”

- just seeing his beautiful face was enough to bring tears to your eyes

- he didn’t tell you where he wanted to take you, he just took your hand and you trusted him completely

- after driving for about 40 mins he parked the car in a parking lot that looked abandoned

- you wanted to open the car door but he stopped you: “No need to get out”

- he pulled out a picnic basket from the backseat and put his seat in a lying position

- the car had see-through ceiling (thank KQ for that) so you could look up to the sky and the stars

- while eating chocolate covered fruit, kimbab and eggtarts you both talked about the things that made you worry at the moment

 Yunho

“Uhh… Y/N? Mh, I think we’re lost”

“What? You said you knew the way, that’s why I let you drive” You had noticed Yunho taking seemingly random turns for a while now

“I know it in the daylight, it’s pitchblack outside now, I can’t help it”

- he looked like a lost puppy, it was so cute, so you laughed

“That’s not funny, we’re actually lost in the middle of nowhere”

“I know but your face was so cute”

- and to that he sulked

- you ended up relying on google maps to guide you home

- you ended up talking 3h for a 1h trip

 Yeosang

From Yeosangie: I’m still at the company, sorry, I’ll be done in an hour

stay there, you texted back

- that was the perfect opportunity to take a night drive with him and spend some one on one time with him

- so an hour later you showed up at the company, Yeosang was already waiting on the street for you

- he got into the passenger’s seat

- you could tell he was exhausted by the dark circles under his eyes

- for some reason that made him even more attractive to you

“How was your day babe?”

“just the usual stuff: went to uni, had lunch with a friend, did some studying in the library, although I wasn’t that productive today. I have this really big exam coming up, I should really step up my game for that, or I’ll fail that and I can’t let that happen. So how was your day? Did you get to sing the new song?”

- no response from him

“Yeo?”

- you looked over to him and he was out, he looked so peaceful

- you took his hand in yours, he was so warm

- you kept driving till he woke up 2h later, you knew he needed sleep whenever he could get it

 San

- San drove you both through the city

- you two talked a lot, which kind of distracted him from the road

- you didn’t think much about it but when San kept driving although the traffic lights were red and almost got you both in a car crash, that was it

“San, pull over now! I’m gonna drive”

“…okay”

- he was sulky the whole ride home, he just wanted to show you how well he could drive

- you made it up to him at home in ways he could never refuse…

 Mingi

“Mingi stop pushing random buttons please, I need to concentrate”

“I’m sorry but I’m bored, where are you taking me?”

“You’ll see”

- after a while you arrived at a cliff

- you stayed inside the car, but you could see the sea, you were so close to the edge

“Woah, that’s pretty cool”

“Isn’t it? I saw it on Instagram and I thought this could be nice”

- you let down the windows and breathed the fresh sea air in

- after some time Mingi started playing some songs on his phone

- it didn’t take long for you two to start screaming the lyrics at the top of your lungs

 Wooyoung

- this has been the most nerve wrecking day of your life

- a few days ago Wooyoung mentioned how much he missed his parents and his little brother so you suggested you two could visit them, which you just did

- you were incredibly nervous before but after a while you got used to the whole situation and felt quite comfortable

- now you were on your ride home, Wooyoung on the passenger’s seat

“You did amazing today, I love you”

“Really? Do you think your parents like me?”

“My dad loves you, he told me when you were in the kitchen and my mum is always savage, that’s how she shows affection, so yeah they both like you”

- relying on Wooyoung’s statement you could relax a little

“I love you Woo”

- while you were shifting gear Wooyoung put his hand over yours

 Jongho

“You still awake?”

“Yeah just got home, are you alright Y/N?”

“Yes, I just wanted to see if you would come on a late night drive with me?”

“Always”

- 10 mins later you picked him up, he had a ton of snacks in his hands

- you spent the night with him feeding you various sweets and both of you singing along to the songs he played on his phone

- whenever he got really into a song you loved looking at him because he was so immersed and his eyes were closed

[boulbilehibot]

Sirius's reopened wound

Sorry for my bad spelling had miss use of vocabulary... And verry bad grammar!!! Thank you and have a good day! :D( careful, it's getting a bit bloody)

"Need a space to hide, I need a space to hide, I need a space to hide" Sirius was repeating to himself when a door pops at his left. He can't walk anymore, his legs feels like cotton.Lips trembling.

He open the door, close it, take two steps and falls on his knees, letting out a groan of pain as he raises his T-shirt, soaked with blood. Seeing the cut on the side of his abdomen open again give him the need to throw up.

" No, no, no! Breath! Don't puke!" He tells himself taking deep inspirations

"Te" He cought to clear his throat. " Tergeo! "

The blood disappear from the bleeding wound.

"Damn..." He whispers seeing the gap on his side. This vision make him light headed. The sensation of floating begins.

"Ferula! " Bandages envelopes him but blood only soake them up.

"Fucking Bella! Fucking magic wounds!" He tells himself beginning to panic as he feels himself falling in darkness.

"-Piskey... " He murmurs pointing his wand on the gap as his eyes rolled back in his head. He falls on his shoulder, head landing violently on the carpet forming the floor of the room.

"Shit... Shit... Remus... James... Pe" He begged in his mind before loosing conscious.

"Need to find Sirius, Need to find Sirius, Need to find Sirius! " Thinks Remus in loops.

Sirius had left the dueling class in a hurry. Pretending need to use the bathroom, without coming back. Remus had noticed the frightened look on his friends's face and had decided to left the class as well to find him after about fifteen minutes.

"Need to find Sirius Black!" He tells himself one more time before a door pop in front of him.

"Please be there! " He thinks while opening the door. His heart skip several beats as he see Sirius lying on the ground in a pond of blood soaking the carpet.

"Sirius" Yells Remus kneeling; knees immersed in warm liquid.

"Hey! Can you hear me?! " Remus yell, shaking Sirius's shoulders.

No response.

Sirius stay still, face pale as sheets. Cold sweat on the forehead.

"No, no, no! Come on! " He says voice filled with panic.

He try to see from where the blood is coming from. Remus puts of Sirius's magical bandages.

" Tergeo! " Remus yell, wand pointing the blood on his friend body

He see the deep cut and panic only increase.

"Damn, damn! Hey Pads! Hang on! " Tears begin to roll on Remus's cheeks.

"Think! Think! Episkey! " He says pointing his wand on Sirius again.

"Fuck! Of course not! Feru- "he stopped before even finishing. It Wisibly hadn't work before so it won't work right now.

Remus is totally lost.

" Fuck! Sirius! Stay with me I beg you! Think you freaking idiot! Think! Think! " He pauses before spelling without conviction and with big anxiety.

"Vulnera Sanentur! " The blood clear from Sirius Body and seem to close the gap a little.

Remus can't believe that a spell he had heard Severys Rogue practice one day could save this one worst enemy's life.

"Vulnera Sanentur! " He repeats with more convictions. The wound closes a little more.

"Vulnera Sanentur" He spells again. The gap close himself letting only a thin scar on Sirius skin.

But Sirius chest barely move and his heart skip a couple of beats again.

"Please be alive" He beg in his head, putting his cheek over Sirius face. He feels a light, light breath on his skin and his body relax a bit.

He put Sirius head on his laps. Caresses his sweaty hair.

Remus is in shock. Sirius had loose far to much blood. A paddle of red liquid surrounding them.

He don't know if he should be taking his friend to Madam Pomfrey or not move him at all.

Sirius face his snow white. His parted lips are pale and let escaping little puffs of air.

"Damn Sirius what happened... James certainly couldn't do that to you..."

The door of the room open once more. James entering and quickly kneels beside them.

"Did you do that?! " Asked Remus angrily.

"That? That what? From where all this blood came from?! Asked James fearful and in total incomprehension.

" I found him with blood all over and a deep wound on his side..."

" You think... Fuck! He had lost too much blood! You think I hurt him?! I-I-I don't understand I only use expelliarmus... He fly away but... We all did more than once! ..."

" We have to take him to Pomfrey. " Say Remus, voice still full of stress.

"No" They heard from under them.

They look at Sirius who's eyes are only half open.

"Oh Merlin, Pads! " Say James

" You're awake! Thank good! How do you feel?! "

"Don't - know... "Whisper Sirius with shallow voice.

"Come on, we're taking you to Pomfrey, you're going to be ok. " Tells him Remus

"Said no... Don't want to...Can't-. "

"Are you crazy?! Why?! " Says James.

"- be worse..."

"How can it be worse? You loose so much blood, we don't ask for your opinion Padfoot. " Affirmed James

"She'll kill me... " Sirius begin sobbing. " Please guys... Please"

"Who?! " Asked James and Remus with one voice.

"She'll... " He can't finish his sentence. Eyes rolling back in his head again.

"Pads, hey stay with us! " Yell Remus, gently shaking Sirius's cheek.

"James, he's ice cold! What do we do?! "

James look just as lost as Remus is.

"We... We can't take him to the infirmary... Hold on, I'm getting my cloak. " James says while running out of the room.

"Come on Pads... Don't die on us, you can't. " Remus say tears rolling on his face again.

"You are strong, you will be fine hu?" Says Remus, mostly to reassure himself.

"I just need to warm you up" Remus whisper, scrubbing Sirius's chest.

As he say that, a chimney fire appears with several warm blanket.

Remus take of Sirius's soaked wizard dress, his shirt and pants before carry him in front of the fire. Carefully as if Sirius was made of glass.

His limp body make a dead weight on Remus Arms but adrenaline his to present for him to even think about it.

His cradles Sirius, one hand under his knees, one hand behind his back. Sirius head lolling on the crack of Remus's shoulder.

Sirius eyes fluttered while he was blowing " Re'... ". He's eyes closed again.

"I'm here. Here you go Pads, we are going to take care of you... " He says as he put Sirius down and cover him with one big warm fluffy blanket.

James comes back with his cloak

"What the f...How is he?! " He ask as he walk to them.

"Bad... We need to stay with him and look for him... He could stop breathing or go in shock and die, I think we should let him stay in here..."

Long hours later, Sirius eyes fluttering opens once more. He gasp and remove the blanket off him with a groan of dizziness.

" You're okay Pads, I managed to close your wound. "

"Sirius open his mouth weakly , raising an eyebrow.

"A spell I saw Snape practice in the park one day: vulnera Sanentur." Remus answered him, preventing him from even asks.

"What?! "Asked James

" Well, I didn't know what to do! Blood was dripping to much! I tried... And it work so... "

" How do you feel Padfoot? Here drink a little " Says James as he put a cup off water on Sirius's lips, helping him keep his head straight.

-hng... Hurts... Sirius gasped.

Sirius eyes began to loose focus again and he sink into darkness once more.

He moaned a bit before Letting the water fall on the corner of his lips and loose consciousness again.

Remus, James and Peter had take turn to stay with their injured friend. They was bringing some Broth and tea at each" turn off guard " In case Sirius would wake up.

"We can't take care off him! Didn't you see his condition?! " Had said Peter before taking his shift.

"If he go to madam Pomfrey, he maybe dead in the next summer holidays... " Had reply James, cutting Court to any further questions or guilt.

He had been only drifting on and off this last couple days. Never enough time for them to make him drink anything. His face was pale and his cracked lips too. They was cleaning his wound regularly to prevent infections. Material provided by the room.

His breathing was shallow and would stop for few seconds sometimes before Remus, James or Peter could shook him a little to make his mind and body react.

Remus was with him the second night after they had discovered Sirius bloody and on the ground off the room on request.

Sirius had begin to regain a little bit off color. His temperature had rise a little so Remus had carry him gently away from the fire.

It was past 2h when Sirius begin jerking violently, sobbing and screaming in his restless sleep.

"Hey, Sirius hey! Padfoot! Wake up bro, it's a nightmare! Pad's!" Remus tried to scream louder than him so he could hear him. Taking the upper body off his best friend in his arms. Putting him closer to him, holding him tight and shaking him more and more hardly.

" Come on wake up Pad's! "

Sirius finally open his eyes and stop fighting back Imaginaries attacks.

He was all wet with sweat. Eyes quickly passing from one place to another to assess inexistent danger.

"We-r we?! " He tried to ask, mouth dry as a desert, grabbing Remus shirt and putting himself as close as he could. He would have confounded himself with Remus if it had been possible.

"Shh, shh you're safe, you're in school. I'm here, shh" Whispered Remus in Sirius's hair, soothing him, caressing his hair and rocking his body back and forward in order to calm his friend.

"Sch-school? I - I-'m so scared" Sirius cried out.

"What happened to you? Who did this too you?Your Mom? Your cousin? "

Sirius only nod, sobbing in Remus T-shirt that he was holding tight, face on Remus chest.

"She was - she was doing it- again, to everyone in my dream... I was so so scared. Even you Moony... " Sirius's voice broke with the three last words.

"Hey, I'm here, everyone is just fine, you are the only one hurt here Pads. It was only a very bad nightmare. I'm right here" Remus responded him, tilting Sirius's chin so he would look at him in the eyes.

"Thank you... You- you hide me... "

"I really think you need to go to-"

" I can't Re'! My mother will kill me if I display our family stories. And if she doesn't, Bellatrix will. She told me-- to shut up. That's what I'm gonna do... " Sirius voice was weak but he was clearly certain off what he was doing. Yelling his arguments had tired him.

Sirius's colors quickly dropped. His eyes was fluttering again and he was loosing his grasp of Remus shirt.

"Ok, ok, but please stay awake a little. I need you to take a little strength. Accio bowl! Accio cup of tea! " Remus add with a movement of wand.

Sirius was getting all limp again against Remus chest. Lips slightly open.

This one tried to sit him a little, Sirius shoulder between his arm and ribs. Sirius's chin keep banging on his clavicle before Remus put his head little back to rest on the crack of his shoulder.

"Come on Pads stay awake just a little. You need to take a little vitamin and sugar... " Remus said, puttin the bowl on Sirius unresponsive lips. He was starring at Remus's eyes like if he was out of his own body. Like he wasn't hearing him anymore.

Liquid was drifting off his mouth and Sirius cought weakly. He hadn't take any broth in his organisms.

"Pads... I need you to drink dude...please... " Remus said a little bit desperate. He really needed him to take some strength in order to get better...

Sirius was only slowly blinking, looking at him like if he was empty.

"Ok, you give me no choice here..." Remus said before taking a little sip of broth.

He leaned towards Sirius's face before scealling his lips to Sirius's ones.

Slowly, very slowly, he let the hot liquid field with vitamin left his mouth towards Sirius's one.

Sirius jerked and his eyes widen before relaxing once more in Remus reassuring grasps. Dead weigh, like a rag doll.

He bearly had to swallow. Hot fluid dropping from his lips, to his tongue, to his throat slowly.

Remus saw his technique was working, to his great surprise. He gave Sirius half of the bowl this way. Making him drink "the bird way".

Sirius was sometimes jerking and coughing but he was now to weak to sip by himself and he needed strength.

He did the same with the all over sweet tea mug. Sirius was half asleep by this time. Eyes closed. Body completely limp against Remus.

He finally guided Sirius's back back to the mattress on the ground and let him take some rest.

It wasn't before noon the next day that Sirius's eyes weakly opened again. Remus was with him, hand on Sirius's hair

"Hello sunshine... How do you feel? " Asked Remus.

Sirius had regain a little color but still had large pockets under his eyes and his pretty face was emaciated from the few days he had past without eating.

"Fine... Better... Hungry... Ashamed.." Said Sirius like if he was trying to identify his feelings and needs at the same time he was telling them.

"You've got nothing to be ashamed of Pads..." Remus said, caressing Sirius's cheek. "And don't move, I'm taking you some solid food if you think you can handle it. " He added, taking their map.

"Thanks Moony... Thank you"

"Ush now... Don't worry, you've took care of me more than once, don't you remember?"

Sirius chuckled a bit and blush.

"Just try to stay awake, I won't be long. " Remus said before getting out.

He was right. Only minutes later, he came back with a plate of stew and little pastries.

"The elves made your favorites" Remus said sitting next to Sirius. "Eat up now. Then... You're going to take a bath my friend. "

Sirius smiled awkwardly and ate a little bit off warm, delicious stew and two pastries. Giving the other two to his friend after assuring him that it was too much anyway.

"I really wish to take a warm bath with bubbles! " Remus repeat two times closing his eyes strongly.

"Dude... You're okay? " Asked Sirius.

Almost at the same time, a large jacuzzi appeared besides them with hot towels.

"Cool! " Said Sirius with sparkling eyes.

"Yes! At least, we will have discovered something pretty cool thanks to your mortal wound" Respond Remus with an ironic tongue out.

Sirius put himself on his knees with difficulties and tried to put himself up and steady.

"Need help Pads? " Asked Remus concerned.

"Nah. Can do it... " Sirius said. But stars was already dancing before his eyes with the Incomesurable effort he was making. Even if he was trying really hard to not show it to his anxious friend.

He succeed to stand up and tried to take a step after few seconds trying to regain his balance.

He had bearly left his foot that the knee of his other leg gave up and he begin to fell on his side.

Remus grabbed him quickly before putting his arm around his shoulder.

Sirius looked at him full of a shame he didn't needed to feel.

"Hey... It's normal buddy... Do you know how much blood you lost? 'Cause we don't. But it sure was a lot... Like really a lot. Take your time... We have even made your work and imitate a fake note by the wizards hospital to explain your absence. You just need to get better and not be preoccupied by anything else. Get it?" Asked Remus

"Yes... Could you at list let me undress alone you perv'? " Asked Sirius at his turn, making Remus blush reddish .

He put one off the towel around his waist just like Remus had done and slowly sat to the bottom of the tub by the stairs in it.

The warm bath really helped and he was soon comfortably asleep in his red and gold pyjama.

It took Sirius two more days before being able to walk enough to get back to the common room and classes.

They helped him avoid any more flying and hard task for a little while, that said.