#i have been laid low

[vulcanette]

my period has me fading like frodo on the banks of the river after being stabbed with the nazgul blade at weathertop

[daincrediblegg]

Honestly kindof embarrassing for the x reader community that nobody will write anything other than daddy dom content for conventionally attractive males these days. Nobody gets actually weird anymore and it’s just sad

[gingermintpepper]

Recently, I've been thinking a lot about lineage curses.

The line of Ouranos is infested with curses - generational malice that's sunk its claws in deep and cannot be cleansed. I think of it as a curse of love - an affliction that is something like a paternal equivalent to postpartum depression - the men of the line of Ouranos were, for a time, unable to bond with their children. Ouranos himself adored his wife but despised his children from the moment they were born. It was disgust perhaps. Or maybe plain fear. Or maybe there was no reason but a deep wrongfulness that he could only attribute to the birth of his new children. But he hated them and his hatred bred hatred. His hatred bred Kronos.

Kronos oddly, is the spitting image of his father. Why he would so exactly resemble the father he despised, who knows, but he married a goddess of the earth - the mirror image of his mother - he loved his wife and his people - the mirror image of his father - and, like that father, all his kindness and good sense died the moment he became a father. What was it about Ouranos' blood that made Kronos mimic even the method of torment? To lock his children away in the dark, cold emptiness of his stomach. To feed them the same doubts and fears that his brothers were fed as babes? What anguish paranoia must be to turn the Golden King into a shaking, spitting beast.

That, then, is the fate written deep in the blood of Zeus. Great king, destined to be overthrown by his children. Great king, doomed to live in fear of the son that would rend him limb from limb and scatter his sex to the ravens. Ah, but what is Zeus if not an enigma. That strange child fed on goat's manna and raised by his mother - is that the difference? That Zeus alone was showered in the hopes and dreams of his mother - that his father was nothing but a target to kill, an opponent for him to conquer. Is that why his curse of love mutated not to encompass his children but his lovers? What other name is there for he who eats his wife to gain her wisdom? What other name but cursed is he who pursues the stars until she becomes dead ground? And when he has a child who is his spitting image, dark eyed and blood-heeled, what can he do but hate?

(Zeus, at least, battles the demons in his blood on his own. Maybe that is the mother in him. Maybe that is why he swallowed Metis while she was still rich with their child. Maybe swallowing a mother restored that missing paternal hole all his father's line had simply been made without. Maybe that's what he tells himself when he looks upon his children and knows he's made things different for them, no matter how much he dreams of keeping them locked in a cool, dark place, pretty in display cases just for him. Maybe that's just his father in him.)

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

re: your tags in your reblog about how taylor hasn't felt the need to fly back to the states during the euro leg and how travis was the one to go to her during his off season and the surprise pikachu of it all for her. think there are several things that have elicited that reaction from her where she's realized no, it didn't have to be the way it was despite maybe being made to feel the opposite at the time

Yup.

Again this is probably veering close to territory I don't/shouldn't get into on main because ultimately I don't think there's anything to add and it's all stuff we'll never know.

That being said, lol, I think there's been a lot in the last year that Taylor's discovered that has made her wonder about why she felt she needed to do things the way she did, and I don't even just mean in terms of her relationship. We've all kind of seen her blossoming in ways I suspect surprised even her.

But relationship-wise, I wouldn't be surprised if the way things seem to have felt easy and secure from the start with Travis made her wonder why it couldn't have been with other people in the past (ahem) and more than a little angry for a bit about how easy it is for her current partner to be supportive in a way that comes naturally when her previous one(s)... was(were) not. Obviously I can't speak for Taylor, but I certainly would have a moment of Petty Betty-ness for a little bit.

[sunshinesalmon]

okay after a long week, things are lookin up!

[phagodyke]

okay is it actually my new meds making me feel shit or is it me choosing to listen to sufjan stevens before 7am on a work day. 😶‍🌫️

[whereisthedamndaddymanual]

Sometimes I wonder about worms. Like where the fuck do they come from. You can dig and find them but it isn't like there are tunnels, they are just there, snails pace serpentine through the dirt and granules. At a depth shallow enough the dirt above doesn't crush them, yet deep enough you gotta dig a bit to really find them down there.

Just squirming and waiting to get hooked in some fish on a time waxing off the full moon.

[chronomally]

Leaving pilates class like a newborn fawn crawling out of a pond

[littol-bun]

i love being an age regressor ૮ᴖﻌᴖა ♡⁠ tonight it feels very affirming and comforting. I've kind of always had to look out for myself and be my biggest supporter, and there are a lot of strange ways this feels like a second chilhood at times.

like i regress to being younger, but I'm also a girl now in a completely different place with completely different circumstances/social circles etc. yk?

but when i feel rly small and my reality feels so big, it makes me happy that older me is there for me to make the important decisions and guide us there :3 it's like i am holding my hand through this, i haven't had an adult rly look out for me like this and it's so nice to have one now!!

i don't have to be scared of big changes, I'm doing good and I'm here for me and i can take it easy. i have someone who is helping me ♡⁠ i have someone who is keeping me safe. they work hard so i can be little ^.^ thanks big sis hehe ✌🏾

ouggghh im not little anymore but (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) ♡⁠ yeah. when i am little i can still like.. function as an adult n talk to ppl n stuff. but it's also like, well like i said before ig 0:

like im smaller but different‚ subtly. still me‚ but someone else since I'm like.. a teen?? that i never was. my childhood was nothing like my adulthood so this rly is a whole new thing little me has needed to learn 2 navigate emotionally/mentally.

but as i become more aware of when I'm in a little headspace and not, the difference in perception stands out to me a lot more. i can't articulate it very well... oughh. this is giving me very specific questions, but on that note — i am happy to feel so safe and looked out for when I'm little 😌💕 i used to feel scared and helpless but it's different now. we're doing this together 👩🏽‍🤝‍👩🏾 i got ya lil sis

[illegiblewords]

Dungeons and Dragons-related thing! Heroforge updated, so I decided to try my hand at some Abyssal tieflings. From top to bottom gave influence tied to Demogorgon, Pale Night, Yeenoghu, Obox-Ob, Orcus, Pazuzu, Zuggtmoy, Fraz-Urb'luu, Baphomet, Graz'zt, Dagon, and Juiblex.

[abyssaldyke]

Bruh not to be gross but at this rate I'm gonna be an environmental toilet skeleton in an early 2000s video game

[orchideae]

Please remind me to go feral about the look on her face during this and the repercussions of it across the board, because this is a monumental moment.

[morgan-aleghieri]

Dragged Cessalie through Dohn Mheg this evening, got drowned by malevolent frogs, etc etc. No big deal.

Meanwhile, i was completely taken out by Cessalie conjuring these two images while Ardbert was waxing nostalgic about Voebert. It's no exaggeration to say i felt like i had been hit by a sack of bricks for a solid 20 minutes. 😭💔

Hazel must have had the same cutscenes but i did not recall them at all from his playthrough. 😵

[terrainofheartfelt]

Things I did today:

My job while half the dept was out—so really I did my job and my coworker’s job

Reached out to people I hadn’t talked to in FOREVER (lovely but still socially exhausting)

Confirmed a meeting for a Thing tomorrow

Asked 3 separate people for references for said Thing (not sharing yet because I am nervous/trying not to give away too much identifying info lol) and got yes-es from 2

Picked up my online order from a local bookstore which was all my xmas gifts for my family

Did 2 loads of laundry so I can wear what I want this week to the: 1 xmas party, 1 best friend hang, 1 punk show, 1 date with The Girl, and something else I’m sure I’m forgetting

Made a batch of homemade fudge for season gifts

Showered and ate 3 meals and took my meds

[johanna-swann]

You know, I loved 9 and 10 to bits and I did enjoy 11 and 13, but the Doctor works best for me when he has eccentric great-uncle energy. Really excited about Ncuti Gatwa, too, and I hope we get at least two seasons with him, but after that I do hope they cast an older actor again. Maybe an eccentric great-aunt? 👀

[thedevotionaltour]

im so allergic to miller man without fear the only reason i haven't actually killed that man for writing that story is due to not being 616 canon (no matter how hard some writers push). what if every character was characterized bad and it brought absolutely nothing to the table