#i have a good number of seungkwan requests

[xinganhao]

🎭 svt when idol!reader releases a breakup song.

anon → "may i request when idol!s/o releases a breakup song? maybe for like a promotion or a comeback but not because of svt iykwim"

⌗ ┆ i have a soft spot for my earlier idol!reader work so it was fun to revisit them <3 a little more crack, less headcanons than usual lol

‧₊˚✩彡 includes: idol!reader, f!reader, established relationship, pet names, fluff, crack, [short] headcanons under the cut.

🎭 headcanons .ᐟ

— drama line ✩ seungcheol, junhui, mingyu, vernon.

all the boys are bound to kick up a fuss one way or another, but nobody throws a tantrum like choi seungcheol. that man will be on your case for weeks. "why couldn't it have been a love song? why are you so good at singing about breakups?" junhui is equally dramatic, though in a different manner. he goes down the route of spite. the song is officially banned in the dorms. if anyone plays it in his vicinity, he will honest-to-goodness glare them down. as far as he's concerned, you have no reason to be crooning about situationships when you have a perfectly good partner waiting for you at home! mingyu is in the exact same boat, by the way. he is personally offended. he knows he's been a good boyfriend. and you're out here singing like he's broken your heart? oh, hell no. mingyu is going to get ridiculously over the top with his boyfriendisms to prove a point to— well, maybe just to himself. in contrast to the rest, vernon takes a different approach. a little moral high road, if you will. he doesn't whine about it, but he does get— in the other boys' words— 'emo' about the whole thing. an instagram rebrand? frank ocean being one of his top artists of the month? ... you get the picture.

— sweetheart line ✩ joshua, soonyoung, wonwoo, seokmin, minghao, seungkwan.

a good number of the boys would take the breakup song with relative grace. joshua is aware that it's strictly work, but he doesn't miss out on the opportunity to tease you a bit about it. he'll take any opportunity to remind you of how much he cares about you, even if it is in a roundabout sort of way. wonwoo usually errs more on the side of rationality, too, though this breakup song scares him just a teensy bit. he doesn't bother you about it; he'll cope in his own little way until he comes around. (he's not opposed to reaffirmations of your love, though.) at this point? soonyoung and seungkwan can be a comedy act, really. we have soonyoung apologizing for every little thing he's done, just so he can ascertain that you will not be writing about him in your next album. and then we have seungkwan who assumes the song is a not-so subliminal message of some sorts; he is immensely relieved when you tell him that you're not, in fact, ending things via comeback. and the sweetest of them all. seokmin doesn't care if it's a four minute song. he'll take apart every single lyric, offering you reassurances that you don't even need, until you have a hard time performing the song with sincerity because your boyfriend has made it much less convincing. meanwhile, minghao spends hours ruminating before just asking outright. he's a bit shy at the fact that he's potentially overthought this, although he'd much rather be overprepared on being a good boyfriend than fall on the other end of the coin.

— revenge line ✩ jeonghan, jihoon, chan.

did you think jeonghan was kidding about couple's therapy? absolutely not. booking a session for the two of you is, in part, a joke, sure. but he's also a believer in therapy, anyway, so it becomes one of your... admittedly weirder dates, but there are certainly worse ways to unpack this non-issue. jihoon and chan stick to what they know best. jihoon's teasing of a 'response' song just means that there's going to be a certain track in the next mini-album that may or may not answer the questions/refute the claims/reassures the worries of your breakup ballad. he's classy that way. chan, on the other hand, has a lot less finesse. he's not so subtle in the way he literally makes up a routine— is it a slow song? he'll do contemporary, then!— and posts it for everyone to see. he needs everyone to know that he is unbothered. flourishing. in his lane.

[veethefreeelf]

How many chances are too many chances? Y.JH

This is part 2 to ‘How many times does it take to get smarter?’ Get ready for a rollercoaster of emotions and I’M SORRY ฅ՞•ﻌ•՞ฅ

Summary: 

It’s been 6 months since the night you and Jeonghan went your separate ways. You’re sure he has moved on and you… are working on moving on. Nothing can go wrong, right?

Wordcount: 14k (SORRY)

Warnings: pussy slapping, some spanking, slut is used a lot, oral f. receiving (face-sitting), vaginal penetration - unprotected sex, Jeonghan is hot and bossy - dom af, cream-pie, slight dumbification 

Requested: yes, by popular demand 

P.S - Italic is for thoughts mainly from the characters’ perspective and quotes. Bold is for text messages/calls/voice messages between characters

It’s been 6 months since you had seen each other. Since you told him everything you had been holding back for years and he walked away from you. He walked away from your friendship as if everything you two had shared over the years had been meaningless. As if you were replaceable.

You were doing okay. In the first few weeks you had cried yourself to sleep. You even destroyed all the pictures you had with him like a teenager in a movie. But eventually, it started getting easier. Waking up and not getting a single text from him or call during the day got easier. You started getting used to the silence.

You had also put the pictures you ripped apart back together. Very clumsily but you tried. You loved some of those pictures and they contained some of your very favorite memories with him and all the boys. You couldn’t get rid of it. You couldn’t also look at them so after you fixed them, you decided they would now live in a permanent corner in your closet in a box and hopefully, one day, you’ll be able to look at them again and smile.

In these 6 months, things have been going well with everything else in your life. You got a promotion. You and your family had been closer than ever and you had great friends who had helped you put everything behind you. Well… most of your friends.

Some of them, like the one calling you right now, wanted nothing more but for the both of you ‘to stop being fucking idiots and be together’. It’s been a struggle balancing seeing the boys and not seeing Jeonghan. You had mostly skipped all of your usual gatherings because you knew he would be there. You knew you would be the one losing the boys. They had been friends for far longer than you had been in their lives, so when a falling out like this happens, of course, you would be the one that would walk away.

This however, has made all the boys very annoyed. They have all called you at some point to tell you they were angry at you and wanted you back with them. ‘It isn’t fair’ they kept telling you.

You agree. Nothing about this is fair. It’s sad. For everyone. Everyone lost something, somehow and you blame yourself for it.

You should answer the phone though, otherwise, the boy known as your twin would cause absolute mayhem in all of your lives. He has already threatened you about it enough times for you to know he would do it without hesitation.

“Hello, Kwannie. Calling in the middle of the day is not very on brand for you. You good?” you asked.

“I’m amazing. I am calling you in the middle of the day because you have decided to ignore Soonyoung and he is now pouting and making my life hell. I have many questions. Number one: How dare you?” Seungkwan is the first one they use when they want something from you. Fair enough. Not even you want to deal with the anger of your friend.

“Kwannie… Now, now… That’s no way to speak to me even if you are using Office quotes which I very much appreciate” you said with a teasing tone.

“Haha very funny, Y/N. You have been hilarious in the past 6 months, you know that? Amazing. And as much as I would LOVE for you to continue being this way, I am the one that has to deal with the consequences of you ghosting all of us” he stated in an incredibly monotonous tone. You know what’s coming next and it’s mostly why you have avoided them all.

“Seungkwan, I haven’t ghosted any of you. I’m busy, you know that… That’s all…” you said in your best apologetic tone.

He laughed dryly and added: “You can’t be serious. I know you’re busy, promotion and all. But you also know after everything that happened, communication between us and you has been extremely difficult. You barely show up to any of our usual outings, you don’t speak in the group chat. Look… I get it, I do. But we shouldn’t all be punished because one of us is a complete idiot, and I know you know that too”.

You knew he was right, they didn’t deserve any of it. It wasn’t their fault. But how can you just show up to things with Jeonghan there? How can you join in the group chat with everyone while you know you have his number blocked and deleted everything related to him on your phone? 

You had done a pretty good job moving on in every other part of your life. But not here, not with the boys. You didn’t know how. You hadn’t found that balance yet and you weren’t sure you were ready to see him yet. Or at all.

“Your silence is deafening, Y/N” Seungkwan spoke on the other side of the line.

“I’m sorry… You know I am but… I’m not ready, Seungkwan. And to be honest, I’m not sure I ever will be” you said sadly.

“Hey… We’re your friends too, you know? Don’t push us away, please. Not anymore. That’s all we’re asking. Well… Soonyoung is also asking for you to come to his party this Saturday. The guys’ performance team was picked to go to the international competition and he wants you there to celebrate. We all do”.

Seungkwan always knew what to say to get you to cave. It was why everyone called you twins, you always knew what to say to get the other one to do whatever you wanted, no matter what. 

“They made it? That’s fucking amazing. Tell them--”

“Tell them yourself, Y/N. Saturday. Soonyoung’s place. 8:30. Not gonna lie to you. He’ll be there. But you don’t have to interact with him. It will be a big party and I won’t leave your side. Promise.” he interrupted you but you get it.

You’re not sure if you should go. This doesn’t sound like a good idea at all. But you miss them. All of them. Hanging out like before, playing beer pong, letting Seungkwan destroy everyone at Karaoke…

“And this has nothing to do with your personal interest in beating Shua and Vernon at beer pong, Boo Seungkwan?” you asked to lighten the mood a bit.

“Well… If your falling out with Jeonghan gives me the opportunity to pair up with you after all these years, finally, and destroy them… I call that an added bonus!” he said jokingly.

“Is there a theme? Hoshi always has a theme…” you asked.

“College. Yes, I know… Don’t ask. He said college and everyone went with it” he said with a distaste but you know he loves Hoshi more than he would like to admit. Even if he swore to keep calling him Soonyoung out of spite.

“And, if I go, which by the way, I am not saying that I will… You won’t leave my side? The whole night?” you asked and he reassured you right away.

“Of course. I promise. He won’t have a chance to talk to you, I’ll keep him away. I would also volunteer to take your phone but we both know you have him blocked so that’s not going to be necessary”. 

Weird. You haven’t told anyone you blocked Jeonghan. I mean, it’s an easy assumption to make but he seemed confident when he said it. You wondered how he knew.

After you promised you would think about it and heard Hoshi cheering in the background, you talked a bit more about your lives and what has been going on and you hung up after a while of catching up.

You spent the rest of your Sunday thinking about this. You know Seungkwan will keep his promise and you know this isn’t a trap but… you’re not ready to see him.

You don’t know if you’ll be strong enough not to speak to him. Sure, you haven’t spoken to him in the last 6 months but you have thought about unblocking him multiple times. Maybe going to this party is not the best idea.

Friday night comes at you fast. You were so busy the whole week that the week flew by and you are now panicking about tomorrow. You hadn’t thought about this party most of the week, you hadn’t had time and here you were. In front of your closet, trying to pick clothes that say ‘college’ apparently and wondering if you should even go at all.

You know if you called any one of them right now and told them you weren’t going, they would collectively be mad at you and even plot to get you there somehow.

It’s too late to back out. You’re going tomorrow. And… you’ll be fine. Seungkwan will be with you and you will hang out with the boys and you will ignore him. 

You started laughing out loud. Ignore him? Please, you want to think you are so important in his life but if you were, he wouldn’t have left you the way he did. He probably doesn’t care that you’re going. Why would he even want to speak with you? Leaving was his choice. 

After 30 minutes of hurting yourself and staring at your closet, you start getting several messages from all the boys. You knew it. They weren’t going to let you out of this one and they had decided to collectively torture you. Using Shua and Vernon’s emotional blackmail was a bit much but you knew they were throwing everything at you to make sure you were going.

You pulled out your regular college outfit and set it in your chair next to your bed, made yourself some warm tea and went to the couch to binge a show. ‘Hopefully the tea and the show will make me fall asleep’ you thought.

You were wrong. You barely slept. You kept moving around in bed, trying to fall asleep. Heart beating out of your chest. You don’t know how you’ll survive this.

You decided to keep busy the whole day. It had worked during the week so you went to visit your sister and see your nephew. He would keep you occupied. He had brought a light into your life you didn’t know could be there and you know he will always keep you entertained and you will do the same for him.

This had all gone well until your sister tells you they have a birthday party to attend at 4:30 so you’d have to leave pretty soon.

Great. Of course. 

As soon as you got home, you got a FaceTime call from Lily. 

Lily was your best friend since middle school. You had been through everything together and you were as close as sisters. You had introduced her to the boys shortly after you had met them and she fit right in. Not only that but she fell in love. She and Seungcheol have been together since they met. ‘Love at first sight’ they both said. You had always been jealous of that. It had always been so easy for them. Meeting, falling in love, growing together. You were also unbelievably happy for them, especially Lily. She deserved the world.

“Let me guess… Outfit check?” you asked after answering the call.

“Duh! Let me see what you chose! We could match tonight. It’s been such a long time since we wore matching outfits, Y/N! Since college actually, which is the theme. Do you see how perfect this is???” she asked excitedly.

“There’s a reason why we haven’t done that since college, Lil” you laughed. 

“Oh come on! It would be hilarious!” she tried to convince you.

“Seungcheol left you high and dry, huh? So now you come to me for a matching outfit? Your second choice, really? Hmm… Not very convincing, I must say” you started teasing her.

“Hey, it’s not my fault you are both boring…” she said pouting.

“Look, I already picked it out. You’re not gonna like it, so Seungcheol is probably your best option between the two of us” you laughed as you warned her.

You knew her taste, she had always been way braver than you when it came to outfits for parties and, only on special occasions, did you let her win and change your whole outfit. This is definitely not one of those times. She knew that too.

“Fine. Don’t need either of you. See you there. Will be mad” she said and hung up on you.

You knew the game, she’ll pretend to be angry but by the time the party starts and you’re there she has already forgotten and all the love comes back immediately.

It was still fairly early. 5PM. You had 3 and a half hours to kill. You were tired. You had barely slept. ‘A nap it is’ you thought.

It sounded like a great idea and it felt like a great idea until you woke up and realized you had forgotten to set your alarm. It was now 9PM and your phone was blowing up.

Everyone was pissed. Damage control. Call Hoshi. He seemed the angriest from all the texts and missed calls you had. You explained it to him and told him you will be there. He sounded skeptical but he finally let you off the phone to get ready.

You had gotten ready in record time and managed to get to the party before 10PM. 

As soon as you walked in, you felt at home. You missed this. So much. Too much.

You hear several screams and noise and you know you've been spotted.Seungkwan and Hoshi rush over to you being the loudest people in the room as usual.

“You boys sure know how to make a girl feel welcome” you tell them with a big smile.

“Took you long enough. The beer pong tournament will start soon. Start drinking, warm-up. Come on, Y/L/N. This is THE YEAR” Seungkwan tells you.

“Quiet, Seungkwan. This is the outfit you chose, really?” Hoshi looks you up and down.

“How dare you? I spent most of my college years in this sporty outfit. I look amazing, thank you very much” you stated and squinted your eyes at him.

“You also didn’t get laid often in college did you, Y/N?” he asked cockily.

“Well, not all of us can be the slut of the campus, Hoshi. You earned that title, very early on” you teased him.

“I missed you… Never disappear again, we will all chase you down” Hoshi said sincerely.

“Yeah. yeah. Emotional get together, we are all in tears, wow. Now, let’s go, Y/N. We need to destroy them. Warm up” Seungkwan interrupted your moment with Hoshi. 

Suddenly, you see out of the corner of your eye movement towards you three. 

 Shua, Vernon and Seokmin are all running towards you. Seokmin picks you up and spins you around very excitedly.

“Is this a rom-com in the nineties? Put her down, Seokmin, we all missed her and want a well deserved hug” Shua said.

You hugged the three boys. Vernon didn’t say a word, just gave you a knowing nod. Very typical. 

“Congratulations on the promotion, Y/N! We all heard about it and we are so happy for you. You worked so hard, you earned it” Seokmin said while holding your hand.

“Yeah, we wanted to take you out to celebrate but… it’s been hard reaching you most of the time” Vernon said looking in your eyes. There it is. The guilt trip. You deserved this and they knew who to choose to make you feel that way.

“I know, Hansol. I’m sorry. I’ll be better from now on. Promise” you said sincerely. 

While you were all silent, sharing this moment, a scream, more like a screech, echoed through the party and you all looked in it’s direction.

Lily. Yup. Very obvious. She is walking as fast as she can in her heels towards you with a huge smile on her face and with Seungcheol right behind her.

And there he was. Right behind Seungcheol. Walking in your direction. 

And he wasn’t alone. Of course. Next to him was this cute, small girl with big eyes. She looked so innocent and small. Just his type.

All of your worries disappear. He’s not going to talk to you. He never cared. You truly had been such a fool for so long. You wonder how you never saw through it. It doesn’t matter. You decide to focus on the people in front of you that truly love you and are so happy to see you.

“You were right about the outfit. I hate it” Lily says after hugging you and dropping her smile.

You rolled your eyes. 

“Yeah, yeah, it’s the reason I didn’t get laid in college. You’re too late for that joke, Lil. But thanks, for the clear and unconditional support on your side, as usual” you said annoyed.

“Come on… It’s not the only reason… Your resting bitch face and bombastic side eye were the main reasons you didn’t get laid in college” she said and everyone laughed.

“Okay, it’s been nice seeing you all. Leaving now. See you all in a year” you started to turn away.

“No way you’re leaving. It’s been months, you owe us this. Better bring your A-game tonight, Y/N. Some of us aren’t in a merciful mood” Seungcheol pulled you back into the group.

“That’s all you got for me, Seungcheol? You’re getting soft” you said, challenging him.

“It’s your fault. Left me all alone with all of them. You brought this on yourself” he said, narrowing his eyes at you.

“Hi, Y/N. Congratulations on the promotion” Jeonghan spoke, almost whispering. He sounded nervous. 

Everyone whipped their heads around to look at Jeonghan and then you. They kept looking between the two of you. Some of them expected you to blow up and some of them expected you to be polite and cordial. You surprised all of them.

You looked away from Jeonghan without speaking a word. You turned to Seungkwan and locked your arm with his.

“So? Lead me to our victory, partner. Or should I replace you before we even start?” you asked him.

“Absolutely not, you’re mine. We’re gonna destroy all of you. Prepare yourselves” he stared at Vernon, Shua and Seungcheol specifically.

Then he led you towards the alcohol. You were extremely thankful for him.

Seungkwan might have met Jeonghan before he met you but there was a reason everyone said you must have been twins in another life. He suffered the way you did, his reactions were similar. Your side eyes? Unmatched. The only thing you were mainly different was in pettiness. He had the ability to be much more petty and cruel if needed than you. Until tonight. 

Seungkwan was proud of you. Maybe it didn’t look polite but Jeonghan had ripped your heart out, put it through a blender and served it back to you on a silver platter. You owed him nothing. He made his choice when he left you and he is reaping the consequences.

Hoshi and Seungcheol stood on top of the living room table and warned everyone:

“Beer pong tournament starts in 30 minutes. Sign up with your partners now!”

“Keep drinking, warm up, I’ll sign us up. We got this!” Seungkwan tells you immediately.

He was way too excited for this but you understand him and everyone else. It had been far too long since you had all been together, relaxing like this, having fun. And it had been even longer since the beer pong partners had changed.

Usually, you and Jeonghan were always a team. The cheater and the angel who convinces everyone their moves are within regulation due to some unchecked loophole. Shua and Vernon, the americans. Always a team. Always made it to the finals against you and Jeonghan. Seungcheol and Hoshi were always a team. An unlikely one but one that always worked. Seungkwan always forced Woozi to be his partner even though Woozi just wanted to be left alone. Everyone else was pretty okay partnering up with whomever was available and they didn’t put too much effort into fighting everyone for a partner. Mingyu and Wonwoo, Seokmin and Dino, and lastly, Jun and Minghao. They were the good ones. The ones that played for fun only. At least in this game.

This time around, Woozi finally thought he would get some peace but Jeonghan was forced to pick him since obviously you would not be pairing up with him. 

You joined everyone around the table and started a conversation with Lily who always got bored watching you guys compete. Well, until Seungcheol started to lose, then she got mad at everyone. It was adorable. 

You could overhear Jeonghan trying to convince Woozi to join him and at that moment a voice you did not know breaks you out of focus.

“Hi! I’m Haneul! Jeonghan invited me here tonight. The guys are pretty close, huh? Wanted to see if I could join you girls while they play and maybe find out a few secrets about Jeonghan” she giggled.

Lily looked at you and then back at Haneul. 

“Hi, Haneul. I’m Lily. This is Y/N. We met the boys in college. Or, Y/N met some of them in college and then we all got put together into this insane group. How do you know Jeonghan?” She asked her. 

She really knew you inside and out. She knew you weren’t going to speak a word to this girl and at the same time, you wanted to know everything about her. You hated it. You hated him. He made you this way. This poor girl had done nothing to you, yet here you were hating everything about her for absolutely no rational reason.

“Oh, from work. I just started at the company and I got assigned to Jeonghan’s team. He’s such a great guy--”

You walked away. Nope. Not tonight. You worked hard to get over him. You knew this would be a reality one day. Sure, you thought it would happen much later but you have to face it now. He’s here with someone he thinks is worthy of him and that he clearly wants to have a serious relationship with. He never brings anyone around the boys unless he means it. And she was so perfect for him. Your complete opposite.

You want to vomit. You hate this. You hate it here. How are you supposed to play a game and have fun when this is happening? It was way too soon. You shouldn’t be here, you knew. You knew this was a mistake. You started thinking of ways out. Trying to find a way to sneak out, turn off your phone and hope in the morning, the boys feel forgiving.

“Stop trying to figure out a way to sneak out” Seungcheol spoke beside you. 

“How did you know?” you asked him, sounding sad.

“Because if I were you, I’d be thinking about the exact same thing” he answered and put his arm around you to comfort you.

“I missed you, Cheolie” you said, resting your head on his shoulder.

He kissed the top of your head and asked “Is that why we barely spoke these last few months?”

“Not you too, Cheolie…” you said as you moved away from him.

“Come on, you know we have to. You disappeared. You both said your… ‘situation’ wasn’t going to change anything but it changed everything. You both deserve the shit you’re being handed by all of us” he said as he sipped his beer.

“So you’re giving him shit, too?” you asked, also sipping your drink.

“Oh he’s got it so much worse than you, Y/N. You have no idea the kind of pain we unleash on him on a daily basis” he said and smiled at you.

You knew he meant it too.

“Good. He’s earned it” you said and you both laughed.

“LET US BEGIN!” Hoshi yelled at the top of his lungs.

He jump scared everyone in the room and Seungkwan was ready for murder. Poor Mingyu had to hold him back from Hoshi as Hoshi ran off laughing as loudly as possible.

‘Some things never change’ you thought to yourself.

The tournament started and everything was going well. You were distracted and having fun, finally. And Seungkwan never left your side. Well… that’s not entirely true, but every time he did, he made sure one of the boys was there to prevent you from running away. 

You and Seungkwan had made it to the Semi-finals. A place Seungkwan had never been in all of these tournaments. He always blamed the cheaters but now here you were. And you were going to face Jeonghan and Woozi in the semi-finals.

Of course. You looked up and sighed. The universe really enjoys watching you suffer. It’s like it knows how much you love competitive Jeonghan and has decided to torture you even more. Because it’s not enough he looks that good and it wasn’t enough when he walked towards you with a little girlfriend behind him, no. That wasn’t enough. You needed to suffer more.

Seungkwan grabs you by the shoulders and makes you stare at him.

“A little creepy, don’t ya think?” you asked him and laughed.

“Stop laughing. Look at him. I want you to put your pain to use” he said, and almost growled at you.

“Excuse me?” you asked, but you knew what he was going to say next.

“He brought a girl here. Look at her. Very cute. Just his type, isn’t she? And, he barely tried speaking to you. Get angry, let’s destroy him” he told you while staring at you.

“Seriously, Seungkwan? That’s low” you said.

“You know what’s low? Knowing you were coming and bringing her. Use it. I need this win, Y/N and so do you” he said as he let go of your shoulders and started focusing on your adversaries.

You get what Seungkwan is doing and you know if you were Sengkwan you would be able to channel all of that energy and anger towards winning, but you’re not Seungkwan. This is where your personalities diverge completely. Right now, all of those thoughts, everything that has happened tonight… You are trying your hardest to just not cry. Do. Not. Cry. 

Long story short. You lost. Bad. You sucked. Bad. And you wanted out. Bad.

As soon as the final shot sinks and the match ends, you get out of that living room and you go hide. 

You need to breathe, you can’t breathe there. You’re suffocating.

You don’t know how long you stay in the guest bathroom. You’re on the floor, tears running down your face and your breathing has finally started to stabilize. ‘You’re fine. You’re okay. You’ll be fine’ you kept telling yourself over and over.

You get up, clean your face, take one last look in the mirror and try to make yourself look presentable. You needed to leave this party. This was too much, too soon. The boys would have to understand.

You leave the bathroom and as you’re about to leave the guest bedroom, he spoke up behind the bathroom door.

“Not even a hello, love?”

Your heart started beating so loudly, you started shaking. How dare he? How dare he do this to you? You looked back at him over your shoulder and said:

“Don’t make the wrong choices and expect no consequences, Jeonghan. You shouldn’t keep Haneul waiting.”

And you left.

You left. This time, you had the power. You closed the door behind you and you started getting ready to leave. Some of the boys ran over to you.

“I had fun, I did. But I have to go, okay? I’m sorry Soonyoung. And congrats to you boys, you deserve this. You worked too hard so kill it, okay?” you said with a weak smile on your face looking between Hoshi, Jun, Minghao and baby Dino.

They all gave you a huge group hug and let you leave.

You got home and you cried yourself to sleep, again.

You promised yourself you wouldn’t cry for him anymore, no matter what. But here you are. In bed, crying.

You wonder if you even understand Jeonghan at all. If you ever did. He left, didn’t try to contact you but tried to speak to you when you first walked in the party. Brought a new girl to the party he knew you would finally be at and pretended to sulk when you didn't answer his greeting.

You have no idea what he wants. You never did. But it doesn’t matter. Not anymore. 

In a way, now you can heal. You saw him with someone else, the worst possible scenario in your head and you survived. Barely. But you did. You’ll learn to navigate these feelings and you’ll get better at forgetting him.

Tonight was difficult but tomorrow will be better.

It had been two weeks since the party. You had been busy and hadn’t had time to think much more about it. And, you also didn’t want to think about it or talk about it at all.

So, you may have been ignoring the texts the boys sent and even Lily. You just didn’t have the energy at this point. You were still drained and trying to find your bearings.

You knew this wouldn’t last much longer. They were very persistent when they had to be and when they wanted to be. 

Today you decided to have lunch delivered and eat in your office. It was one of the days you needed to be in the office and you were already drained. You didn’t expect any visitors, especially at lunch time but there’s a knock at your door.

“Who is it?” you asked from your desk, pausing your Youtube video.

Lily doesn’t even reply and just opens your office door and comes right in.

“Well, hello there. Why did you knock if you’re just gonna make yourself at home either way?” you asked her playfully.

“I’m mad at you. This is the silent treatment, in case you’ve forgotten what that feels like” she said as she crossed her arms.

“Not much of a silent treatment if you stalk me all the way here AND speak to me or is it?” you asked again.

“You’re unbelievable you know that, Y/N? We barely speak or see you for 6 months, you show up to one party, leave abruptly in the middle of it and start to ignore us again and you still think this is a joke? Keep pushing us away like this and one day none of us are going to push back anymore” she said and your smile fell from your face.

“I’m sorry, Lil. Jeonghan caught me alone at the party and… I had to leave after that. I couldn’t be there anymore. I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I wasn’t ready to see him yet and definitely not ready to see him with someone else so quickly after our falling out” you said honestly.

Lily sighed and smiled sadly at you. 

“Let’s talk about it? You haven’t talked to anyone about it since the falling out. I really think it’s time you share your burden with someone. You can’t keep carrying this alone. It’s going to keep suffocating you. Let it out with me, yeah? Tomorrow? I can come over, we can spend the day together, talking and binge eating and drinking. Like the old days. Let me be your friend, Y/N”

“Deal” was all you said but it was enough to make Lily smile more brightly. 

She hugged you and said her goodbyes and your day continued.

Maybe she was right. You had not talked about it with anyone. Maybe you’ve healed as much as you can on your own. You need support. You need your friends.

The next day you woke up and you were excited. You hadn’t spent a full day with Lily like this in a very long time. You missed this so much. 

You went out for a quick grocery run to get all her favorite snacks and drinks and some other additions you needed for your home and you decided since you weren’t going to bring too much back that you would walk to the store. You could use the fresh air.

As you were walking there, you kept thinking about what Seungkwan had said before. He knew you had blocked Jeonghan but how? You hadn’t told anyone and sure, it could be an obvious assumption, but he knew. With certainty. 

You couldn’t stop thinking about the possibility of Jeonghan having tried to contact you after that night and finding out he was blocked. How did that make him feel? Why did he tell Seungkwan? And did he try to contact you more times after that? How many more times?

‘Why do I care? Why am I torturing myself?’ you asked yourself. But you know why. Deep down (maybe not that deep down) you wanted him to try to contact you. You wanted him to feel like shit when he realized you blocked him, and you wanted him to keep trying to contact you.

You just wanted him.

How pathetic is that? He keeps hurting you and you keep wanting him. Always.

After you got home and prepared everything for Lily’s visit, you sat on your kitchen counter staring at your phone next to you.

‘Don’t do it. Don’t do it. I shouldn’t do it. This is a fucking bad idea. Stop being weak. Don’t do it’ you kept telling yourself over and over again. As you were about to do something very stupid, your doorbell rings and you thank all the heavens and Gods above.

You opened the door and a very excited and happy Lily barged in.

“Did you miss me? How long has it been since we did this? Feels like forever…” she said as she started taking out her blankets and pillows and setting up your living room for a proper girls day.

“I want to unblock Jeonghan. Is that stupid?” you asked abruptly and so quickly that Lily thought she misheard you.

Lily slowly turned around and looked at you with an eyebrow raised.

“Why?” she asked.

“I just… Seungkwan mentioned before that he knew I had blocked Jeonghan and I thought that was weird because I didn’t tell anyone anything and it got me thinking that yeah, I know, he could’ve made that comment based on an assumption but you know Seungkwan, he doesn’t say or do things he is not certain of and that made me wonder if Jeonghan had tried to contact me after that night and if he did, what did he want to say and how did he feel after being blocked by me” you said all in one breath and so fast that Lily almost laughed at you.

“Easy there, we have all day, no need to say things in one breath like that. Don’t want you passing out on me” she said, now laughing out loud.

“Sorry… So… Is it stupid?” you asked her again.

“Of course not. What you two shared… I know we never talked about it but I actually saw myself and Seungcheol a lot in you two but you know, in a completely dysfunctional and delusional way of pretending you didn’t love each other” she said as she laughed lowly and you sat down on your couch.

“Look… I don’t know what he wanted to say but I can confirm he has tried to contact you after that night. Several times actually. Seungcheol told me. I’m assuming he told Seungcheol, Seungkwan and probably Vernon and Shua. He knows they would be his best bet at convincing you to unblock him but none of them wanted to help, I guess. At least Seungcheol didn’t.” she said and you looked down.

“I know he fucked up. But… and don’t hate me for saying this… You did too. And I think you know that. Sure, he fucked up in a much more serious and permanent way but you two just kept hurting each other for years. It’s always been so complicated when it should’ve been easy.” she continued.

“I also know the Y/N I know is a very forgiving person and has always given people second chances. Not saying you should forgive him just like that. But maybe you can hear him out. He clearly wants to talk to you about it and you clearly miss him and want to know what he has to say. Just because you give him a chance to explain, does not mean you will forgive him and want him back in your life.” 

She finished her speech and you looked at her with tears in your eyes.

“How long have you been holding that in?” you asked and laughed.

“6 whole months actually. Seungcheol kept stopping me from saying anything and he kept saying you were too angry. Not ready to hear it just yet” she said and was crying with you now. 

You both looked insane. Crying and laughing at the same time, holding each others’ hands but this was exactly what you needed.

“I hate it when he’s right” you said and laughed.

“Oh, same. And he is always right. The boys were all on your side, you know? Always giving Jeonghan shit.” she added.

“I bet… Seungcheol told me that at the party too” you told her.

“So… Unblock him. Don’t tell anyone. I won’t either. And we’ll see if he tries to contact you again or not” she told you and moved to turn on the TV.

“To be fair, it’s been 6 months. Not sure he would keep trying for that long” you told her as you started to open some of the snacks and drinks.

“Don’t say that. I know for a fact he kept trying and hoping you had unblocked him so he’ll definitely try again” she said as she started helping you with the snacks.

You nodded and… Unblocked him. You did it. It felt weird. You wanted him to reach out but you were also scared of what he would say if he did. And, if you were being honest, you were still so angry at him for leaving you. So you’ll know that if you decide to hear him out, that first conversation is not going to be pretty no matter what he has to tell you.

The rest of the day went by fast. You talked and vented to Lily about everything. Just like you did with Jeonghan on that day. You had told her everything, you had cried together and laughed and after all of it, you just watched a few episodes of a show and before you knew it she had to leave.

You said your goodbyes and promised each other you would do this way more often.

You felt happy when she left. Lighter. You cleaned most things up and decided to go to bed early. You were feeling tired. You were feeling as if today you were finally going to get some real sleep. Lily was right. You needed this. You needed to vent and share your burden and now that you had, you felt relieved.

You wanted to take full advantage of this opportunity. You turned all your notifications off, did your nighttime beauty routine and went to sleep. You fell asleep so fast and you slept like a baby. At last.

Sunday morning you woke up so well rested and a bit confused from sleeping so much. You honestly don’t remember the last time you woke up after 11AM and it felt great. You stretched, yawned, opened your blinds and smiled. 

Wow, you really did feel so much better after being and talking with Lily. It helped with some of the pain and she was right. You didn’t know if you would give Jeonghan a chance to explain himself yet but if you did, that did not mean that you were going to forgive him and that your lives would again intertwine. 

After showering and cooking breakfast, you went to your dinner table facing your window to eat and you remembered you had turned off your notifications for the night so you went back to your room to pick up your phone and turn them back on.

You started eating and checking your notifications when you receive a notification you didn’t think you’d receive this soon.

It was a text from Jeonghan. Apparently sent late last night.

“I know I haven’t texted you since before the party. I didn’t know what to say. I’m sorry isn’t enough. I wanted to give you time but these weeks have been shitty. I’m miserable. I wish you could read my messages and see how much I’ve been suffering without you. I keep texting you pretending that you read them. How pathetic am I? Doesn’t matter. I’ll keep being pathetic until the day you give me a chance to explain everything. I miss you terribly, love”

You kept reading it over and over again. You didn’t know what to do. This is not something you can do over text. This also is starting to seem like a very bad idea at this moment. You know he probably saw the message was delivered, unlike his previous ones. 

Jeonghan is very much feeling like you. Confused. Not quite sure what to do. Send another text? No. Not over text. Call you? Maybe it’s too soon, maybe he should wait to see if you reply at all and then try to call you. A voice message? Hmm, not ideal but it would give him a better platform to at least try to convince you to meet with him and let him explain everything. 

A voice message it is. But it can’t be any voice message, he decided. He needed to write down everything he needed to say in this message. He needed to be clear and straight to the point. Just like you always have been.

After hours of writing points down and recording himself and hearing it back, he decided to just go for it. No matter what, it won’t be perfect. But it’s all he’s got. He has this chance and he can’t afford to waste it. He can’t afford you blocking him again and not being able to get his second chance.

You spent hours trying to avoid staring at your phone. You cleaned your whole apartment and decided to play some games to distract yourself. ‘You don’t have to respond. If he means it, he’ll reach out again. Be patient, Y/N’ you told yourself.

And sure enough, your phone dings a text notification. You’re so nervous. It’s just a text and you’re so nervous. You look down at your phone. It’s a voice message. No. You can’t hear his voice. Why does he know you so well? 

You wanted to wait to open it. You really did. But you couldn’t. You reached down and listened to it.

“Hi, love… I… I don’t really know how to start. I can’t believe you unblocked me. And, don’t worry. I know this doesn’t mean that you’ll hear me out or forgive me but you know I have to try, right? Maybe you don’t. I know you’ve been feeling like you never mattered to me. Like you were never worthy of me. And it’s all my fault. In all these years, I’ve been so blind and I’ve hurt you so much. I wanted to beg you for a second chance but… This isn’t my second chance. It’s not even my third. I’ve hurt you more times than I can keep count and you have given me multiple chances to redeem myself and I always disappointed you. I kept asking myself, if I were you, would I forgive me? Would I give me another chance? How many chances are too many chances? How many times will you forgive me before I learn? Truth is, if I were you, I would be done. Completely. I’m sending you this on the very slim hope that you are better than me and that you will at least let me explain everything. Even if after you hear it, you won’t forgive me. Please… Let me explain myself. Meet with me, one last time, love.”

He was crying for most of his message. You could hear it and it was tearing you apart.

Part of you wanted to meet with him but the other part of you was still so mad. Could he just beg and cry and get away with everything? You deserve better than all of this, you know that now. You’re not sure what to do. You needed to weigh your options. 

You sent him a simple text: “I don’t know. I’ll think about it. Please, don’t message me anymore. I’ll reach back out when I have an answer.”

He liked your message and added nothing else. Jeonghan knows you well and he knows to respect your boundaries, always.

You spent the next few days thinking it over. You kept remembering Lily’s words. Listening to him does not mean you will forgive him and it might even help you with closing this chapter in your life, if that’s the final choice you’ll make.

But somehow, every time you tried to message him and tell them that yes, you will hear him out, you couldn't pull that trigger. You were scared. You couldn’t pinpoint what was holding you back.

You decided to call Lily. She would help you, she would know what to say to help you through this.

She picked up after a few rings.

“Hey! How have you been? How’s the… situation we talked about Saturday?” she asked and you could hear some background noise and echo.

“Am I on speakerphone, Lil?” you asked back.

“Yes, I’m cooking dinner and Seungcheol answered it for me. Is this not a speakerphone conversation?” she asked you and you replied right away.

“Actually, if Cheolie is there and wants to give his input, I would appreciate it. I’m… confused? I don’t even know the right word to describe what I’m feeling right now…” you replied and you immediately got an answer from the other side of the phone.

“I’m here. Tell us” he said, straight to the point. You too had always had that in common. Cut through the bullshit and get to the point.

“Well, Saturday after me and Lily spoke, I decided to unblock Jeonghan. I just… Wanted to know if he tried to reach out and if he would again and he did. That same night actually. Long story short he sent me a text and a voice message begging me to meet up with him and let him at least explain. He said a lot of things… I don’t know how to feel about them? I told him I would think about it and I thought about it. A lot. I want to hear him out but every time I go to message him the fear and hurt resurfaces again and I just… Can’t… I mean… Does this mean I shouldn’t listen to him? I need help…” you said and waited for a response.

“You should hear him out” Seungcheol said simply.

You didn’t know what to say so he continued.

“What’s the worst that can happen? You fight? Good. You need to fight. You both need to tell each other everything you’ve been holding inside since you met. You need to scream at each other and understand how annoyingly frustrating you both are. And if after that fight you decide it’s not worth it, you’ve given him too many chances, then you’ll know and you’ll be able to finally get closure and truly move on. Let’s face it, Y/N. You won’t fully move on until you get your answers. All of them.”

“I really do hate it when you’re right…” you said and the three of you chucked.

“But I’m always right, Y/N. Meet up with him and come running here if you need to” he told you.

After you hung up with them, you decided you needed to rest. You had a migraine. Tomorrow will be a new day and tomorrow you’ll let him know.

The next morning you decided to call Jeonghan before starting work. You knew his schedule and you knew he would be up. You couldn’t do this through text and you won’t.

He picked up immediately.

“Hello, love. Good morning. Did you sleep well?” he sounded the same. Asked the same questions he used to before. It felt familiar and nice.

“Hi, Jeonghan. Good morning. Yes, I did, thank you. I hope you did too. Look, I’ve decided to hear you out. I don’t want to talk through the phone or in a public place. I have a feeling this conversation will be… difficult to say the least for the both of us. Can I come over after work this week or is the weekend better for you?” you asked him.

“Tonight. Come over tonight, please.” he said without any hesitation.

“Okay… Tonight it is. I’m working from home so I should be done at 6PM. I’ll be there by 7” you stated plainly.

“Okay, love. I’ll be waiting” he said and he sounded as if he were smiling. It made you want to smile as well but you didn’t.

“See you then, Jeonghan” you said and hung up.

You weren’t ready to see and speak to him but were you ever going to be?

Tonight, everything will be out in the open. Finally. You will both put all our cards on the table. No more secrets. No more hiding. And then, you can both decide how to move forward. Together or separate.

6PM comes quicker than you anticipated and it’s time to get ready and meet with him.

You got to his apartment and the nerves started kicking in. ‘You got this’ you told yourself right before you rang the doorbell. 

He must have been right by the door because the door flew open almost right after you rang the doorbell.

“Hi, love. Come in, please” he said and gave you room to walk towards the living room. He sounded nervous. He looked nervous too. It made you feel good to know you weren’t alone in this. 

You walked in the living room. It was clear he prepared for your arrival. The room smelled like the candle you loved and kept buying for him so he would always have it when you came over. The lights were dimmed and he had put music on in the background. He had water and snacks on the coffee table and your pictures together were still up and visible to anyone who walked in his house.

Fuck, you missed him so much. You want to stay strong but you are already feeling so weak.

You sat on the couch, turned your phone off and looked up at him with raised eyebrows, silently asking him ‘What are you waiting for?’.

He sat on the couch with you, turned his phone off and started speaking.

“I love you. And no, I don’t mean in a ‘best friends’ type of way. I’m in love with you. And yes, I am fully aware those are the exact same words you said to me 6 months ago. And you should know I’ve wanted to say these words back to you ever since that night. I’ve always loved you. Since the very beginning. I have been trying to figure out why I didn’t see it or why I kept telling myself that I didn’t love you like that but honestly, I don’t know why I did it. I know I’ve always been afraid to lose you. To have you look at me with disappointment in your eyes. But before that night, I told myself we were just friends and were always going to be just friends. I had convinced myself of that fact and I don’t understand why.” he said with tears in his eyes now. 

“Fuck, I know what a cliché it is to only realize what I have in front of me once I lose it, trust me. But the night I left, I remember thinking how happy I had always been with you, around you, in your presence. How lost I was before you walked into my life and it all made so much fucking sense. You and I made sense.” he continued. 

You were staring in his eyes and it was your turn now to turn your poker face on.

“Only after I met you did I set up all these rules about my dating life. No one was ever worthy of dating me simply because they weren’t you. I kept making these excuses… To myself, to everyone around me. But I was just too stupid to see that I was making these rules in hopes of finding someone like you. Because I’ve always known since I met you, Y/N, that I’m the one that is and never was worthy of being with you. But if there’s anything I have learned in all the years we’ve known each other is that there’s absolutely no one like you, not for me” he continued.

“I wanted you for so long that when I saw the chance of having you, I took it. No hesitation. I don’t regret that first night and never will. What I will regret is never having kissed you that night and the conversation that took place after it all happened. What I said, the way I acted. Like you were just another ‘fuck-buddy’. I will never forgive myself for that and I don’t expect you to either” he said as tears kept flowing down his face. 

He never wavered and kept looking at you while he finished up his speech.

“I know I don’t deserve another chance. I don’t deserve forgiveness. But I still had to ask. I had to try. I love you and I am begging you to give me another chance. At everything. Being your best-friend, your lover, your partner. I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you, if you’ll let me” and he was done. 

The only sounds in the room were the sounds of you both crying. Why did he only decide to tell you all of this now? Why was life so unfair? You don’t know if this is enough. His words are beautiful but they always have been. You needed more. Much more. 

And your anger starts winning over your forgiving side. You still have a lot to tell him before you even make a decision about this. He needs to hear how much he has hurt you. 

“Am I just supposed to be moved by this and forget all these years? Forget all the words you’ve said to me, all the little comments and jokes you made about me not being your type and not even being close to what you wanted?” you asked him.

“You know me well, Yoon Jeonghan, which means you know my memory never fails me. I remember every single cruel thing you said and smirked about. I remember the restaurant you never took me to no matter how many times I begged you to because ‘That is way too romantic for us, love’. And you want me to believe that after you’ve said all of these things you went home and felt bad about it?” you were getting angrier and angrier.

“You don’t love me. And you didn’t love me back then either. You love the way I make you feel. You love how desperate and pathetic I am and always have been for you. You love that I worship the ground you walk on. You love the feeling of having someone willing to do anything for you, willing to sacrifice their own beliefs and self-esteem to get even a small portion of your attention. You love having someone beg you to take them out, begging you to see them. You love all of these things and anytime someone gave that to you, you stayed” you were getting harsher now. 

“That’s how you found your ‘fuck-buddies’. You always chose the most desperate ones because you always loved the way it made you feel about yourself. That’s why you kept me around. You kept all of us around for different feelings. We were all desperate for you, yes. But their job was to keep you satisfied sexually, while mine was purely emotional. It wasn’t love. Not for them and not for me.”

You said and started getting up from the couch and collecting your things.

“I was never different from them. Not in the core of the matter. In the end, we all got hurt and you always left, unburdened and ready for your next fling to satisfy your ego” you said as you began to walk towards the apartment door.

You looked over your shoulder and told him: “I don’t know if I can forgive you. I know I don’t believe you. I wish I did. I really do. But my memories of every little thing you did over the years that hurt me are keeping me from letting go. I’m glad we both got to say what we always needed to say to each other. I’m not sure we’ll see each other again, but if we don’t, we can at least have closure now. Goodbye, Jeonghan.”

You got home that night and you were just… Numb. You couldn’t cry anymore. You didn’t want to scream. You just sat on your couch, staring at your wall, not knowing what to do and how to move on from this. From him. 

You fell asleep on your couch that night and woke up the next day feeling even worse.

You reached out to both Lily and Seungcheol and they were very supportive but they also made sure you knew they weren’t going to advise you any further. The next decision was entirely up to you. 

The next week went by so slowly. You still felt like shit and it seemed to only get worse each day.

It may sound stupid but you missed him. You had just seen him. You had a bad fight. Yet, you missed him. 

You went to your closet and took out the box of pictures you had hidden there. You started looking over each one of them. All of them were attached to such great memories. Memories of days together, nights together, vacations together. You were always smiling brightly. You remember all those feelings. Everything he had made you feel when you were together. 

You started to regret some of the things you said last time you saw him. He cared for you deeply. You could tell from the pictures and from all the good memories you had. He always protected you and made sure you felt safe and warm. Your friendship was nothing like the flings he had. You went too far. You wanted to hurt him but you weren’t fair in your accusations.

You’re pretty sure that’s why you feel like shit. You thought saying these things to him and hurting him would make you feel better. It would leave you satisfied knowing he was hurting like you did all those times. But it didn’t. It made you feel so much worse than before. 

You fucked up and now it was your turn to fix it. You knew if you went back there, it would mean you would forgive him. Were you ready for that? Was that what you wanted?

You dropped the pictures, grabbed your keys and left. 

You were standing in front of his door wondering if you should ring the doorbell. He might be busy. He might not even be home. You didn’t even know what you were going to say. Fuck, this was a terrible idea. You need to leave. Now. Go home. Regroup and come back with a plan.

The door opened and a tired Jeonghan was staring at you, blinking in confusion with his jacket halfway on his body.

“Hmm… Hi… I wanted to talk to you. I should’ve called or texted before. Sorry. I should leave. Sorry” you were shaking and started to leave but he grabbed your elbow and stopped you from moving.

“No. Stay. I’m not busy. Talk to me. Please” he asked you.

“You were leaving though… I feel bad… I--”

“I was out of whiskey. Was going to buy more. It doesn’t matter. Stay. Come in. Talk. Please, love” he interrupted you and he never let go of your arm. 

“O..Okay. Yeah. Okay” you nodded and went inside his apartment.

He took off both his jacket and shoes and you did the same. You looked around. The house was messy. Very unusual. Jeonghan was a creature of habits and he hated messiness. This was your fault.

You decided to be blunt again. 

“Did you mean it? What you said last week? All of it?” you asked him nervously.

“Yes. Every word. I know it’s hard to believe but I meant every fucking word” he responded just as bluntly.

“What about Haneul? You brought her around the boys… To the party…” 

You hated that you asked but you had to know everything before giving him a permanent answer.

“She invited herself. Pretty much blindsided me into joining us. She’s been following me around the company. I’ve made myself very clear. I’m not available and it will never happen but she wasn’t backing down. I’ve been really tired. Exhausted, after losing you. I had no strength left in me to fight her. I would just ignore her until she gets the message. Not my finest moment but I couldn’t care less” he said plainly.

You nodded and started getting really nervous. You gulped and asked him your final question.

“I was an asshole last week. I’m sorry. I said a lot of things that weren’t fair. I wanted to hurt you. I regret most of it. After all I said, do you still want me? Want us? Want to spend the rest of your life making it up to me?”

“That’s all I want. I want all of it. I deserved your words. I deserved to be hurt. I should be the one apologizing. But fuck yeah. If you give me that chance, this last chance, I will never let you go again” he said as he walked closer to you until he was so close you could feel his breath on your lips.

You looked up at him.

“Deal. I want to forgive you. I want to move forward with you. With us. But I have a few rules…”

He looked in your eyes and started to smirk. You were giving him a taste of his own medicine. He knew this wasn’t going to be easy but he would do everything to earn you back.

You moved away from him and started to put your shoes and jacket on, getting ready to leave.

“No sex. Not in the beginning. I want romance. Lots of dates. We have similar tastes and you know me better than anyone. Choose wisely” he laughed and nodded along.

“Kissing is very much allowed and encouraged. This is obviously an exclusive relationship and I am to be called and to be treated as your girlfriend, always” he kept smiling and was starting to tear up. He couldn’t believe how lucky he was.

“Anything else, princess?” he asked.

“No princess. I like baby much better. Or angel. Other than that, no other rules. For now” you answered him. And before you left, you walked towards him, intertwined your hands and asked him sincerely:

“I missed you, Hannie. Don’t make me regret this, okay?”

“Never, baby. You’re mine now. I missed you so much, too. Let me take you out tomorrow, yeah? First date?” he asked back.

“I can’t tomorrow. Friday I’m free. Pick me up after work?”

“I’ll be there, baby” he said and you turned to leave.

Right before you left he told you “I’ll be texting you. Don’t ignore your boyfriend, baby. He’s very needy”

You laughed as you nodded and left his apartment.

You got home that night and you couldn’t sleep. You were so happy. Is this even real? This wasn’t a dream, right? And as you were having these thoughts, Jeonghan texted you just as he promised right before you left his apartment.

Next thing you knew, a month flew by. Your first month together as a couple.

So far he’s kept all his promises. He was the one worshiping you now. He always texted or called to make sure you were safe and happy. He took you out on multiple dates a week and always made you feel like you were the only two people in the whole world.

On your first date he took you to the restaurant down the street from his place that you always wanted to go. You had a feeling he was going to pick that place and you made fun of him for it but he kept saying ‘I told you, baby. From now on, I will do everything to earn your forgiveness and love. Clichés and all’.

After your first date, he took you home and kissed you so gently by the door. 

You never thought you would feel this way. You felt complete. The happiest you had ever been.

During this month together, he never made any additional moves on you. 

You had kissed. A lot. 

Made out like teenagers. A lot.

But he always stopped it and ended your date there.

You knew you asked for this in the beginning as one of your rules but you couldn’t take it anymore. 

You needed him. You knew you had to be the one to make the move or show that you are ready. Otherwise, he will keep respecting your boundaries no matter how hard you want him to disrespect them.

Today you met up with Lily for lunch. The guys and Lily had barely seen the two of you. You only had time and eyes for each other and everyone was letting you two enjoy this new relationship without any interruptions.

“You are glowing, you know that, Y/N?” she asked as she ate.

You laughed and told her “I’m just so fucking happy. I never thought this would happen. He’s been so amazing. And it doesn’t feel different. I mean, our friendship. We’re still infuriating with each other but now we just have the added benefit of kissing to shut each other up.”

“And fucking” she said loudly and you hushed her while you two giggled.

“We’re in public, asshole. And about the fucking…” you said.

“Nothing yet? I gotta give it to him. Never thought he would be able to last this long without making a move. Good for him” she said and kept giggling.

“Good for him? I am dying here, woman. I’ve tried everything. All my moves, all the signs and he just won’t do anything” you whispered.

“It’s your fault. You made it a ‘rule’. You should know that not only would he take this seriously, but he would also use this to torture you for as long as he could. Possibly until you begged him to fuck you” she said again way too loudly in this very public restaurant.

You looked around after shushing her and you realized what she just said. Oh my god. He’s doing this on purpose. Of course. You should’ve known better. You gave him a challenge and he was punishing you for it, the little shit.

“I love that you are only realizing this now” she said and kept laughing.

“Shut up and finish your food” you bit back at her.

You had a date tonight with Jeonghan. You had offered to cook for the both of you. More of an intimate date. And you were going in for the kill tonight. You were done waiting but you were also going to have some fun with him.

You had this pink dress in your closet that you bought almost a year ago. You were saving it for a really good date or so you kept telling everyone. And we’re here now. 

Pink is not your usual pick but this dress is a killer. And an added bonus: Jeonghan loves seeing you in pink. This dress is just short enough. Obscene cleavage. A bit corseted. Enough to let your natural curves speak for themselves.

Underneath the dress, the smallest thong was covering your pussy and of course, no bra.

You had covered your body in the watermelon body lotion he loved smelling on you. Very little makeup and hair down. Just how he liked it on you.

Everything was ready and waiting for him. Food was ready and in the oven. You had set the mood with the candles, lighting and music in the living room and dining room and your bedroom was certainly refreshed and ready to greet him.

When you opened the door and he had the chance to see you. You knew you made all the right choices tonight. He stared you up and down and gulped.

“Like what you see, Hannie?” you asked and walked away from him towards your kitchen.

He came up behind you before you could reach the kitchen counter, turned you around and kissed you. Deeply. Full of passion. Until you were both out of breath. He started touching the bottom part of your dress with his fingertips very lightly.

“‘You look absolutely gorgeous tonight, baby. Why haven’t I seen this dress before?” he asked.

“Well… You weren’t exactly the best boy to me for a while. But now… Now you deserve to see it. All for yourself, too” you said, still panting and recovering from the kiss.

And in a very Jeonghan fashion, he completely surprises you with his next question.

“Has anyone else seen you in this dress, baby? On a date? Who have you worn this for before me, hmm?”

You smiled and whispered in his ear: “No one else but you.”

He almost growled at you and started leaning in again to kiss you. He had that look in his eyes you knew all too well and you moved away from him.

“We should eat. Food is getting cold, Hannie” you said and moved towards the oven.

He stared and narrowed his eyes at you but he knew what you were playing at. He knew you too well. Let’s see who has the most self-control tonight, then.

You had a great meal. He complimented your cooking as usual and kept holding your hand every time he saw the opportunity to. 

Everything was perfect. 

You two started cleaning up after eating and you kept talking about everything that was going on in your lives.

Everything was always so easy between the two of you. 

You both sat on the couch and decided to watch a movie together. He was very touchy during the whole movie. His hand was moving higher and higher up your thigh and every time he moved it higher, he sighed, almost moaned. 

You were so fucking wet and he had barely done anything. Tonight had to be the night, right? ‘He wasn’t that evil’ you thought.

When the movie ended and his hand was almost completely underneath your dress, he moved closer to you, leaned in, held your chin in his hands and started to whisper against your lips.

“I should go, it’s getting late”

He laughed after watching the disappointment in your eyes, got up and started getting ready to leave.

You also got up and grabbed his jacket to stop him.

“You can’t leave yet” you said shakily.

He hummed.

“Why’s that, baby? Something you want from me?” he asked as he walked back over to you.

Okay, you can say it. It’s fine. Just ask him. Tell him, do anything.

“Ugh… Nevermind. Just… Drive safe, I guess” and you tried handing his jacket back to him.

He licked his lips, ripped the jacket from your hands, threw it on the couch and started walking you backwards towards the living room wall.

Once you were backed up against the wall, he placed both hands on each side of your head.

“Is it so hard to ask to get fucked, hmm? Not like you haven’t done it before. What’s with the pride, baby?” he asked.

You stared at him with uneven breaths but stayed silent.

“You know me, baby. Either ask me what I want to hear or I’ll leave you here against this wall in your probably very small and very wet panties” he said and started kissing down your neck.

“Stay. Fuck me” you said hurrily and barely in a whisper.

“You have to do better than that, baby. Ask me nicely since you’ve been a tease all fucking night” he said and now one of his hands was on your thigh, rubbing circles.

“Please, fuck me, Hannie. Please. I can’t wait anymore. You’re driving me crazy” you begged and he must have liked it because you felt him chuckle against your skin.

He pulled your dress up and slapped your clothed pussy. You moaned.

“Now that wasn’t so hard was it? You’ve wanted me to fuck you for a while now. Was wondering when you were going to start acting like a greedy little slut. My greedy little slut” he told you while he cupped your pussy.

“Hannie…” you moaned.

He moved away from you and started walking to your bedroom. You followed him. He sat on your bed and started unbuttoning his shirt while licking his lips and staring at you.

You stood in front of him.

“Take it all off, baby and come sit on my face” he told you.

You were nervous. You hadn’t done this before. Not with him. But you were also excited.

You took it all off, just as he asked and you started moving closer. He layed back on the bed and beckoned you to join him.

You did. You laid on top of him completely naked and you started kissing each other. His hands were everywhere. You couldn’t get enough of him. 

He stopped kissing you and started moving up on the bed to straddle his head and he dove right in. No hesitation. No words. No more waiting. He was eating you out like a starved man. You were holding on to the top of your bed and his hair.

He was being sloppy and loud and moving up and down between your clit and your hole. He spanked you hard and moved one of his hands to your folds. He started fingering you using two fingers while sucking hard on your clit. 

You were so fucking close already. This was fucking embarrasing. You start shaking and moving away from his mouth and he spanks you again.

“Don’t fucking move away from me again. Don’t you dare. Don’t be embarrassed and cum. Let go. Cum” he told you then while pushing your hips back down on his mouth.

And as soon as he pushed you back down and continued his movements, you started falling apart and moaning his name so fucking loud. 

He didn’t stop then. He kept going.

“Hmm… Sensitive… Can’t… Hannie…” you whined.

“Shhh baby, you can give me more. I know you can. Fucking give it to me. I’m fucking greedy” he started fingering you again, slower this time and started marking your thighs with his mouth until he saw purple marks all over your inner thighs. 

You kept moaning and whining and you were getting louder and impatient. He laughed and moved back on your clit.

This time he added a third finger and kept sucking on your clit. It was a mess, you were sure of it. His face, his fingers. You had never felt this wet and this sloppy before and you were getting closer and closer.

With his free hand, he cupped your breast and twisted your nippled between his fingers and you came again with a cry of his name.

You started slumping on the bed while you were still panting and he moved you off of him and laid you on your back.

He started kissing down your neck and taking his clothes off.

When he was fully naked and on top of you, you grabbed his face with both of your hands and you looked in his eyes. You wanted to know what he was thinking. How he was feeling.

“I love you, baby. So fucking much. Let me have you now, yeah?” he asked as he looked into your eyes. Almost as if he knew that you needed that, you needed to hear him say it.

You kissed him again and tangled your hand in his hair.

You both gasped when he started pushing into you and you both moaned when he bottomed out completely.

“Fuck, I missed you so fucking much. This pussy was made for me. I might not last long, baby. It’s been too long since I had you” he whispered in your ear.

“Hmmm, what about since your other ‘fuck-buddies’? How long ago was that?” you asked and he stared in your eyes and got very serious. You hated that you asked it but you need to know the answer.

“I haven’t been with anyone else after you. I thought that was obvious, baby. I want you. I spent all these months wanting you. No one else” he said and started kissing you again.

You stopped kissing him and asked him to start moving and he did.

He held your hips in place with one hand and with the other he intertwined your fingers together and he started pounding into you. No mercy. He was desperate for you and you for him.

“Fuck, Hannie… So good… Feels so fucking good… Don’t stop, please…”

He grunted in response and kept pounding into you.

You were getting closer again and he felt it so he moved the hand that was holding yours to push down on your stomach and kept pounding you hard into the mattress.

“You’re so close aren’t you, baby? I can fucking feel it. You’re squeezing me so hard, baby. Fuck… Let go. Let me feel you”

He leaned his forehead against yours and you came again. This is the loudest you have probably been. You feel shy all of a sudden but you can’t say anything coherent. You’re mostly babbling at this point and he starts laughing at you.

“Don’t tell me I fucked you stupid, baby. Use your words properly, you’re a big girl”

“Hannie… s’good…”

He kept laughing and kissing you and he leaned back to move one of your legs and place it on his shoulder.

He was now squeezing your thigh of the leg on his shoulder with one hand and grabbing your tits with his other hand and he started slowly thrusting into you. So you could feel every vein and every ridge on his cock moving inside of you. This felt like torture but you knew he was delaying his orgasm as much as he could.

“Look at you… My angel… You’re so gorgeous like this under me… Fuck, I’m never letting you go. My good girl… Hmm? Are you my good girl, baby? Answer me”

You started nodding.

“Yes… Yeah… Yours.. Good… Good girl…”

It was your turn now to surprise him. You grabbed his hand that was on your tits and moved it to your neck.

“Fuck, baby… Want me to choke you? Can’t have anything nice, can we? Calling you my good girl and you start acting like a greedy little slut again”

He chuckled and started thrusting into you with much more force and speed. The hand on your neck started squeezing lightly and you started whining and feeling closer and closer to the edge again.

“Gonna cum one last time, hmm? With my hand around your throat like a slut? Yeah… Fuck yeah… Cum with me then, angel”

He leaned down to kiss you and you started cumming again. This time your vision turned white. You thought you were dreaming. This felt surreal.

You kept repeating his name over and over again and when you said ‘I love you’, he finally came inside you with a grunt and a low moan in your ear.

He laid down on top of you as you both recovered and he kept playing with your hair and calling your name.

“Baby… You okay? Was that too much? Come back to me, don’t fall asleep yet, we need to clean up”

You laid with your eyes closed and hummed.

“I’m here, Hannie. Just… Give me a few minutes… I think you broke me” you said and you both started laughing.

“Good broken though?” he asked.

“Fucking amazing broken” you answered and you kept laughing together.

After a few more minutes of laying together in pure bliss, he convinced you to get up and take a shower with him.

He had to hold you up for most of it. You were so tired. He kept poking fun at you and all you could mumble was ‘your fault’ and he started chuckling.

You shared a bed for the first time as a couple that night. You remember feeling like this was supposed to have been happening since the very beginning of your friendship. 

You knew you wanted to have him with you here for the rest of your life and all you could do was hope he meant every word he said and that he would want the same with you. It was the best sleep of your life that night.

You woke up the next morning to the sounds of Jeonghan singing to the music he was playing and what sounded like cooking. 

Fuck, you were starving. But first, you had to make yourself look presentable. He always looked so good in the morning and you… Well.., you had more of a rough appearance in the morning so you needed a moment to collect yourself before following the sound of his beautiful voice.

You went to the bathroom to do your morning routine and afterwards you joined him in the kitchen.

“Good morning, Hannie. What are you cooking, baby?” you said as you hugged him from behind.

“Hmm… Morning, angel. Just some eggs and sausage. You didn’t have much more”

“Sounds delicious, thank you” you said as you moved to sit on the kitchen counter behind him.

“We have to replace all those photos, baby” he said as he turned around to look at you.

You knew he meant the pictures you had ripped apart and put back together after your falling out.

“I don’t want to. I like them this way. It tells our story. It’s a little broken but in the end it got put back together” you said and smiled at him.

He smiled and turned back to the stove.

“You just want to get our kids on your side and have me as the bad guy, huh?” he asked and you chucked.

“Kids? Getting a bit ahead of ourselves, no? Let’s not make promises we can’t keep. We both have done enough of those” you said and he nodded and laughed.

You felt so happy when he said that but you didn’t want to sound too eager. You knew you wanted to spend the rest of your life with him but you still were scared that he would regret this eventually and leave you again.

What you didn’t know was that this time, he wasn’t going to let you go anywhere, and he was never going anywhere without you.

He was going to spend the rest of his life by your side, earning back every once of trust and love he lost from you before.

He was okay with you still being guarded. He knew you had nothing to worry about and he would prove it to you. Soon enough he will take out the engagement ring he bought after your first date and he will make sure you stay by each others’ side always.

The ultimate pinky promise.

It’s here guys and it’s a monster 😭 I really hope it lives up to your expectations. I’m still nervous about everything I write! Please let me know in the comments and such if you liked it  💕 Thank you for supporting me! CHEERS 🥂

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[hannieehaee]

Hii! How would Seventeen react to knowing that his gf is insecure about the size of her breasts (small breasts)?

18+ / mdi

their s/o being insecure about their small breasts

content: mentions of sex, body worship, insecurities, etc.

wc: 608

a/n: thank u for requesting sorry i took so long</3

masterlist

seungcheol -

as distracted as he becomes when he sees or hears anything about your boobs, he'd push those thoughts aside to comfort you about your insecurity. he'd be very vocal in letting you know how much he enjoys and loves your body exactly as it is!!

jeonghan -

giggles at you for some reason. he just finds it very silly, like how can you possibly not understand how pretty and perfect your body is? will coo at you and baby you and reassure you through all means necessary in order to make you see just how pretty he thinks you are.

joshua -

reassures you that as long as your boobs are involved, he's always having a good time. size is a worthless metric to him when it comes to boobs. a real boob man knows that size doesn't matter as long as a boob is present.

jun -

very confused. does not understand how why when who what. he's always been very enthusiastic about how much he enjoys your boobs, so it makes no sense to him that you could possibly feel insecure about it. literally will not understand the issue at hand.

soonyoung -

becomes a complete idiot the moment your boobs get brought up as a topic of conversation. any negative comment about your boobs goes in one ear out the other.

wonwoo -

so nice and sweet to you, basically babying you as he shows you just how pretty you are and how much he adores the size of your boobs. will get you on his lap and very meticulously demonstrate how much he likes you just as you are.

jihoon -

he'd really try to comfort you and reassure you over how beautiful and perfect and majestic he finds your body, but at the end of the day, he's just a man. any conversation about your boobs is just a lost battle when it comes to jihoon. he'll lose any bit of focus when you bring up your breasts.

seokmin -

he'll make you feel better through jokes, making himself the butt of any joke in order to make you realize that you're perfect and he loves everything about you even if you don't feel the same.

mingyu -

whines at you, fake annoyed that you'd insult or complain about one of his favorite things in this world. depending on your mood, he'd either coo at you and reassure you OR ease you out of your shirt to show you how much he likes them regardless of size.

minghao -

so sweet about it. would take your insecurity very seriously and do everything to make you see how its just a superficial thought and completely unfounded. will give you a whole speech about it but will still comfort and reassure you throughout.

seungkwan -

whines, huffs, cries, does everything to express his disagreement towards any negative feeling you have towards your body. cannot understand how you'd ever not be as obsessed with your boobs as he is (or your entire self for that matter). will tone it down and actually comfort you if you need it, but will mostly want to enthusiastically express his love for your boob size.

vernon -

his brain cannot really process a possible insecurity over the size of your boobs. you could bust them out at any moment and he'll forget how to speak either english or korean.

chan -

yet another member confused as hell as to what there is to be insecure about. as the number one fan of your boobs, he'd even be kinda offended at the insinuation that there's anything wrong with your boobs. will enthusiastically show you his love for them if you let him!!

[svtfilthandfiction]

hi!! love ur posts so far :) would like to request how seventeen would fuck/please you on your birthday ty <3

How Seventeen please you on your birthday

A/N : Hi Anon, if you sent this on your bday, I'm sorry for the late reply butttt, Happy (super) belated Birthday!! If it's not your bday, save it for your birthday!!

Seungcheol - Firstly takes you to an expensive dinner and promises you that he has another surprise for you at home. The second you get home he's taking his shirt off and leading you to the bedroom for some birthday sex <3 (that's the surprise)

Jeonghan - "It's all about you" lets you do whtv you want to him, he just lays on the bed and actually shuts up for once. You wanna sit on his face? Go ahead. You wanna ride his dick to get off? Sure. You wanna use him for your pleasure? He's your good playtoy.

Joshua - Also takes you to a fancy dinner because he's a gentleman. He's more of a gentleman when he gets down on his knees and spreads your legs, diving into your cunt because he knows how good it feels. Doesn't stop until you cum couple times.

Junhui - Gives you orgasms as gifts. Like he does give you an actual gifts buttt every orgasm is an extra gift. Tries to give you as many orgasms as the number of age you're turning, but doesn't want to tire you.

Soonyoung - He is your cake. Places pieces of cakes on him and tells you he's your birthday cake. You end up eating cake off of his body, but when you get to his abs you can't take it anymore. Ends up with him fucking you on the kitchen counter.

Wonwoo - Is a little more gentle with you just bc it's your birthday. Slows down the pace and fucks you slow and deep until you're coming around him.

Jihoon - Asks you what your sexual fantasies are and makes them come true. It could be anything, he's down as long as it pleases you. At one point he knows you're inventing but goes along with it because it's your birthday <3

Seokmin - Won't let you touch him because this is about you not him. Would beg you to sit on his face and use him to get off. He might use his fingers too, but not his cock (maybe later on) bc he insists that this is about your pleasure not his.

Mingyu - Uses his mouth, fingers, cock, whatever to make you have the best orgasm ever that you'll remember every other coming birthdays. Finger fucks you until you're squirting and then licks it up before giving you his cock >>>

Minghao - Decorates the bedroom with petals (or confetti) and all that like it's your first time having sex. He just wants birthday sex to be meaningful and passionate, not just random sex.

Seungkwan - Does all the things you like most to please you. If he knows you like it when he rubs your clit that way then he'll do it that way. No teasing, just pleasuring you bc its your bday

Vernon - Boy eats you out until your legs are shaking and clamping around his head. you don't think you've ever felt this good cause damn, he really knows how to please the birthday girl.

Chan - Let's you dominate him for once bc he knows how much you wanna try. Let's you dom him around, call him names and use him like a toy for your pleasure. Ends up liking it way too much.

Hello, sorry for the late post, I hope you enjoyed this one! Happy birthday to those bday girls reading this rn! Requests are currently closed!

[fairyhaos]

seventeen and being cafe workers

requested by anon: "hi! i really liked your take of svt having a cold! what are your thoughts on svt as cafe workers? thank you for your hard work! "

notes: LMAO this was actually sm fun

masterlist

seungcheol

he doesn't know why he's working in a cafe tbh. he doesn't even know how it happened. jeonghan brought him to the cafe he worked at one day and the next thing he knew, he was being hired as a barista at that very same place. oh well, he supposes it's kind of fun (?) to work alongside such chipper people, and it encourages him to talk to a vast range of people while he works

jeonghan

assistant manager, sleeps in the back room half the time, only ever gets called out for it by chan. somehow a master at handling orders during rush hour, though? gets through coffees in a flash, taking orders and yelling at minghao to get on with it and also packaging pastries and working the cashier and still smiling and greeting people nicely. but don't call for his help until it's rush hour again okay he needs another nap now

joshua

doesn't actually do, like . anything. he's out there on the floor chatting to people and (sometimes) taking orders and (not really) clearing the tables and smiling and doing nothing whatsoever. gets away with it bc he's pretty and good at talking to people so it gains them more customers anyway. works in a cafe, but doesn't like coffee. asks people if they want a cake instead when they ask what coffee he recommends

junhui

bright and sweet and has the weirdest recommendations when customers ask him how he normally takes his coffee. either looks like he's buzzed up on way too much caffeine or looking like he's about to doze off any second. has probably slept during a lull in his shift before. whizzes around the shop with his broom going "wheee!!" while he's cleaning up when they're closing up the coffee shop for the day

hoshi

bids all the customers goodbye with a wave and his signature move (his horanghae hands), gets slapped on the head with a tea towel by woozi every time he catches him. is always stealing the pastries from inside the display during the lazy times of the day, swears he's innocent and pins the blame on poor seungkwan who was on the other side of the cafe at that time

wonwoo

has literally every customer in their early 20s giving him their phone numbers/ asking him if he wants to go grab something to eat with them. typically hides behind the coffee machines and doing the barista work bc ngl he's kinda terrified because one time this lady just Kept Coming Back to talk to him and his social battery was just not up for dealing with her level of bright chatter. 

woozi

he gives me manager vibes. he's the one who scolds mingyu whenever he gets within a three foot radius of the coffee machines, who hits hoshi over the head for his excessive tiger agenda, who lets jeonghan sleep in the back room but denies that it's because he's lowkey scared of him. very very good at manager-ing and can also barista when it gets too busy. the cafe would fall to pieces without him tbh. 

minghao

one of the best baristas ever. memorises complicated orders in the blink of an eye. rattles off the order back to the customer when they claim that he made their drink wrong and then raises an eyebrow and goes "isn't that what you wanted, sir?". grins almost sadistically whenever someone orders an insanely caffeine-loaded drink. is in horror at junhui's coffee preferences. 

mingyu

isn't allowed near the coffee machines after that one time he almost broke one of them while pulling the lever too hard. is great at doing cashier work because he's such eye candy, pulls in the greatest amount of tips because of it. sometimes works the floor, but that's also risky bc there have been times where he's gotten in the way of his colleagues as they hand out coffee and spilt it all down his uniform

dokyeom

brighest sunshine smile ever. asked to work mainly morning shifts, and woozi agreed because putting seokmin and his sunshine brightness in an evening shift would probably make their tired customers feel even more exhausted while talking to his unending brightness. has gotten the second most amount of numbers given to him after wonwoo, but the clueless boy doesn't even understand why

seungkwan

that one chatty barista who talks about anything and everything to anyone who looks at him too long while he's working. hates the opening shift. always complains long and loud at how sloppily the shop was cleaned up by the people on the closing shift of the day before. scolds hoshi when he snatches a cake pop when he thinks no one is looking. 

vernon

Good And Honest Worker™. nothing to say tbh, he's just actually genuinely good at the job. everyone wants to be put on the same shift as him. gives customers song recommendations too whenever they ask him what drink he recommends they have. once tried to write the prop-up sign for the cafe, was laughed at by woozi bc it looked like it was written by a child

chan

newbie. doesn't know how to work the coffee machines, isn't allowed to figure them out in case he becomes the next mingyu and destroys the machine that was almost killed by the guy's hands. is in charge of drawing smiley faces on the coffee cups. writes everyone's name wrongly on the cup, and yet calls it out flawlessly every time as he hands them their coffee with a beam and a chipper "have a nice day!"

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[horangare]

hiii ! can i request ot13 reaction to their bff sending them a really spicy mirror pic? i just did this to my guy bff today on accident and i need this to cope 💀

ofc! also sorry i’m getting to this kind of late, but here it is!

seungcheol : gets so flustered and just stares at the picture. he has no idea what to respond cause he’s so horny. prob send you a picture of his bulge and a text that says “look what u did :(”

jeonghan : calls you to ask about it, shamelessly fucks his hand the whole time and doesn’t stop even when you realize what he’s doing bc “you just look so fucking good in that picture”

joshua : leaves you on read bc he got hard as soon as he saw it and also bc he can’t believe you sent something like that to him. asks you to come over later so he can get answers (and get rid of his boner)

junhui : sends you one back. now you’re both turned on.

soonyoung : he gets so excited and annoying he’s probably like “i knew you always wanted me” and “i didn’t realize you were so hot” n shit like that

wonwoo : he’s rendered speechless for a lil minute but tells you about how good he thinks you look and how much better you’d look on his cock.

jihoon : didn’t realize it was you at first and texted you saying you had the wrong number. when you texted back asking wtf he was talking about that’s when it clicked. gets shy if you ask him what he thinks about it.

seokmin : gasps SO loud and doesn’t look at his phone for a while. then caves looks at it. then looks away again. keeps doing that for a while. he’s very conflicted okay he didn’t expect it to like it so much and he’s blushing the whole time.

mingyu : sends you a voice note of him jerking off and moaning hella loud. shameless pt. 2

minghao : tries not to let it affect him so much but the more he thinks about it the harder it gets for him to ignore it and goes somewhere private to take care of himself (looking at your pic the whole time, ofc)

seungkwan : “did you mean to send this to me” “maybe” you keep giving him really half hearted answers and he gets more and more frustrated bc how can you be so hot?

vernon : he either sends something like “you’re hot” and leaves it at that, but if he was already kind of in the mood he’d text you how much he just got turned on. 50/50.

chan : literally loses his mind. wishes you could be there with him so he didn’t have to care care of his problem by himself, but the next time he sees you just know your done for.

[jae-bummer]

More Than Fine

Request: Hi hi and welcome back!!! For prompt list, number 4 and Seventeen woozi please? Happy writing and have a great day hehehe

Prompt:

4) “You look good in my clothes."

Prompt list can be found HERE.

Pairing: Seventeen Woozi x Reader

Genre: Fluff (with spicy undertones)

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"Mingyu! Mingyu, come ooon!" you groaned, pounding on the sliding glass door.

Cupping your hands to your eyebrows, you bonked your head into the window, trying to see inside. Empty.

"Kim Mingyu, you awful, awful himbo," you whispered, your eyes now beginning to dart around in panic. Surely he didn't...he wouldn't have...

You wiggled the door handle again, but your worst fears were only proven. He locked you out.

"Damnit!" you gasped, slowly sliding down the length of the window and plopping on your butt. You had only stepped out on the balcony for a matter of minutes to hydrate the wayward plants that were begging for water. Seungkwan had taken up gardening, and contrary to his belief, plants needed more than pep talks to stay alive.

As you had stepped out, you were certain you left the door cracked open behind you. Mingyu had seemingly been waiting patiently on the couch. The two of you had plans to study his English workbook so he could prepare himself for Seventeen's upcoming world tour.

Apparently he had other plans.

You bonked your head against the glass again just as thunder rumbled across the sky. It was only a matter of seconds before rain started to pelt you, drenching through your clothes only a few minutes after.

"I'm going to kill him," you whispered, looking longingly toward the phone you could see sitting on the coffee table in the living area. "It's going to be a slow death."

Closing your eyes, your body began to mutiny against you. Shivers began rocking through your shoulders and down your spine, the wind picking up as the rain did.

"You know," a muffled voice said softly. "Jeonghan just cleaned that window."

Popping your face up immediately, you could have wept with gratitude. Woozi was standing on the opposite side of the window.

"Jihoon," you said with a weak smile. "Can you please unlock the door?"

Furrowing his brows, he looked down at you incredulously. "It's unlocked."

"I'm sorry, repeat that? I think I have water in my ears," you squeaked. You could feel the beginnings of embarrassment pumping under your skin. "It won't open."

"Aaaah," Woozi nodded knowingly. "When the weather gets bad, the door sticks."

"The door sticks," you repeated, a numb feeling sweeping through your body.

With a few pulls, and a surprisingly attractive view of Woozi's arm veins, he had pretty much seamlessly slid the door open.

"What were you doing out here anyway?" he asked, amusement dancing in his eyes as he accessed your situation.

"Watering the plants." You still hadn't made any move to get up, choosing to wallow in your own misery.

"But it's raining," Woozi said with all of the sense in the world.

"It was not ten minutes ago," you whispered.

"Don't you use the weather app?"

"Jihoon," you started, slowly getting up from your seated position. "Where's Mingyu?"

"He went to go get food with Wonwoo. Why?" He asked, tilting his head.

You stepped through the door, Woozi immediately sidestepping to avoid the dripping rain falling from your clothes. "Did he tell you I was here?"

"He said you were doing something and you would meet him at the restaurant," he said, shaking his head in misunderstanding. "And he texted you about it."

You motioned helplessly to the phone sitting on the small table to the side of where the two of you were standing. Recognition clicked and all of Woozi's cylinders were beginning to fire with understanding.

"Well, shit," he mumbled.

A few moments passed in silence.

"You look miserable, let's get you warm," he hummed.

You felt your shoulders relax at his words. "Can I shower?"

"Yeah, but I think all that's in there right now is Vernon's 3-in-1 shampoo. I'll dig out my stuff from my shower caddy," he said, leading you toward the shared bathroom.

"You would have a shower caddy," you grumbled. Since you had met the boys of Seventeen, Woozi had always been a bit of an enigma to you. You weren't terribly close, as he was most often locked away in the studio, but what you had seen of him was very carefully pieced together. He was guarded, and seemingly a bit self conscious. You couldn't figure out why. He was gorgeous and hardworking. In your opinion, he should be the picture of smooth confidence. You noticed how he thought before he spoke and treated his members with consideration and kindness. You wanted to get to know him, but had never managed to get around to it. Plus he had always made you feel slightly thrown off somehow. You felt yourself wanting to impress him, wanting to make him laugh. His smile was like currency, and you needed more transactions.

Waddling to the bathroom, you attempting to keep the drips minimal as you followed behind your savior for the day.

"I'll grab the body wash and towels, feel free to get the water started," he directed. Taking a few steps forward, he immediately walked backward and looked you up and down. "Clothes, I'll get some of those too."

"Dry ones preferably," you grinned, but this only caused him to nod before he disappeared again. Why did you insist on talking? He probably thought you were a total goob.

Puffing out a sigh, you glanced to yourself in the mirror, mildly horrified by your reflection. You looked like someone had attempted to drown you and came dangerously close to succeeding. Just the look you wanted to achieve, especially when conversing with an overwhelmingly attractive man.

You winced away from the sink and moved toward the shower, cranking the handle almost as far as it could go in the direction of hot water. Steam shortly began wafting around you, but you continued to shiver, your wet clothes weighing you down.

"Maybe I can slip in before he gets back," you muttered to yourself, eying the slightly ajar door. Surely if he didn't see you, he would just leave the stuff and shut the door...right?

Wrong.

Just as you had begun to peel off your top, you heard a sharp intake of breath.

"Yaaah," Woozi hissed. You spun around to find his eyes wide, taking you all in. A blush appeared across his cheeks before he realized he was openly gawking. Throwing one hand over his eyes, he pushed the other out before him, flinging forward the items he had been carrying.

"I'm sorry!" you gasped, immediately throwing your hands down, but your shirt just wasn't coming with them. The slick fabric remained stuck around your shoulders, the heat of mortification flooding your body.

"Just...just..." Woozi stuttered, setting the items down on the floor before you and peeking occasionally through his fingers to see what he was doing. "Take it."

"Got it! Yup, thank you," you groaned as you heard the door click shut.

Closing your eyes, you took a deep breath, and counted to ten. After your shower, you would explain to him that you weren't trying to be a creep, you simply thought you could get in the shower before he came back.

Stupid, stupid Y/N.

Taking hold of your shirt and finally yanking it from your body, you began to work on getting off your other garments. You didn't feel true relief until the hot water was smoothing out your muscles and your earlier nerves. A shower almost always could fix a situation.

Too bad it couldn't fix your memory. You found your thoughts continually slamming back to the look of panic on Woozi's face as he saw you nearly half naked. Panic and something else that you quite couldn't explain.

You really hoped he didn't think it was your weird way of coming on to him or a horrifying joke that you were playing. Woozi was nice, wholesome even. Sure, he was incredibly attractive and talented, but all of your friends were in their own ways. You shouldn't be yearning for him to make you feel special. To forgive and admit that he may not have been truly horrified by what he saw.

Turning off the water, you slipped out of the shower and began to towel off. Lifting the clothes Woozi had dropped on the floor, you realized they were a pair of his notorious short shorts and a faded tee. You pulled them close to your body, your mind whirring in every direction. You hadn't considered that the simple pieces of fabric would be his. Of course that would be the obvious choice if he was going to fetch you clothes, but for some reason it hadn't clicked. After the brief moment you too had awkwardly shared, this somehow felt oddly intimate.

After spending as much time as you thought was acceptable hiding in the bathroom, you finally gathered your resolve and opened the door. You could hear soft music floating from farther down the hall. Before you could talk yourself out of it, you shuffled your feet in the direction of the noise and found yourself appearing in Woozi's doorway.

Leaning on his bed, he looked up from his phone and toward you. His cheeks were immediately flushed again as he took you in.

You opened your mouth and closed it again, opting to watch him watch you.

After a moment, he cleared his throat before giving his head a small shake. "You look good in my clothes."

Yup, you had definitely slipped in the shower and hit your head. "What?"

"My clothes," he repeated quietly. His eyes darted to yours and then quickly away again. "You look good in them."

"Oh," you breathed. "Uh...thanks."

Woozi nodded, setting his phone down. Judging from his expression, he looked like he was having an internal struggle with himself. Motioning as if he was going to stand at least three times, he finally chose to do so and crossed the room to stand before you.

"Look, Jihoon, I-" you began, but cut yourself off at the sight of his hand reaching toward your t-shirt, gripping the fabric near your hip.

"You?" he asked quietly, gazing through his lashes.

Suddenly your brain evacuated all thought. The only thing ringing like an alarm was the fact that he was touching you. After that humiliating moment, he was choosing to be this close.

Right, the humiliating moment.

"I'm sorry about the bathroom," you said, your voice coming out surprisingly breathy. "I-I thought I could hop in the shower before you came back. I was just...so c-cold from my clothes and-"

"Are you still cold?"

You were on fire, but you didn't want to tell him that. Rationally, you knew it could mean he'd stop touching you, but if he did that, you were pretty sure you were going to die.

You gave a weak nod, tracking his movements closely as he reached forward and grasped the fabric at your opposite hip.

"I hadn't really expected to...feel all of the things I did," he said, his blush now spreading toward his ears. You could tell he was using every ounce of confidence to make it through what he was doing. "If you were okay with me seeing you that way...please let me know. I should have knocked, or let you know I was coming. I really am sorry..I admit I feel a bit shameful for looking so long."

"Oh," you said softly. This wasn't quite what you had expected.

"It's just...i don' know, Y/N," he whispered. "Something clicked that I hadn't expected to and...if you want me to back up, I will. If you don't feel the same and I'm making this awkward just say the word."

"This is fine," you found yourself saying, reaching up to set your arms on his shoulders. "More than fine."

[miraclewoozi]

congrats on 500 followers! 🥳🥳🥳 may i request seungkwan & angst prompt «am i supposed to just let you go?»

TIL DEATH DO US PART. -b.sk

500 follower party <3 ( accepting until 14th March ! )

pair : bsk x gn!reader. prompt : " am i supposed to just let you go? " wc : ~900. warnings : zombie apocalypse au. implied character death/'turning' and mentions of death by being bitten and also slightest implications of murder. blood. gore/body horror. angst. please drop me a line if i've forgotten anything.

You’ve never known pain like this.

From the middle of your bicep all the way down your left arm, every inch of flesh is burning. Your hand is a dead-weight, anchored to the metal floor beneath you with the thrum of the infection working its way through your veins. Seeping into your muscles, pulsing through to your erratic heart, already winding into the depths of your brain. Dust and grit scratch your eyes every time you blink and the tears welling up in them do nothing to soothe your abraded corneas. You’re weak. Fading. Clammy, feverish…

But Seungkwan, beaten and bruised yet somehow otherwise okay — most importantly, unbitten —, begging on his knees in front of you? 

That’s somehow what hurts the most. 

“I’m not leaving you,” he says for the third time, swallowing back his own tears. You know anger is a symptom and you're consumed with the need to ask him why he’s fighting this, why he's being stupid, why he won't just leave. But even quicker than the frustration was able to build up, it ebbs away: a droplet falls from the corner of his eye and makes a solitary path down the side of his face, distractedly silencing you before the words come out. You watch it cut through the ever-present layer of dirt no one can quite seem to scrub off before it clings to his jawline. Then, it continues to roll down his neck, mixing with the dried blood surrounding a day-old cut and turning from grey to pink, before it finally reaches its destination, disappearing into the shredded collar of his old t-shirt. “I can’t— I can’t do this without you—”

“You have the others,” you tell him with a shudder. Your head feels a thousand tonnes. Even your eyelids are weighing you down. 

He doesn’t have all the others, though. Not like he used to. When you first met Seungkwan he was with twelve other men: his band of unlikely brothers. A found family, navigating their way through hell with a few beat up guitars, a janky old radio and a can-do attitude. Four of them are gone now. Two to the virus. Two… otherwise. 

And now, he’s going to lose you too. Lucky number five. 

“I can’t—”

But as much as this will be hurting him now, he isn’t going to be alone once it happens. He won't believe you if you say it, but even as you fight through the fog you know you need to convince him that it's true.

“You have to,” you grimace. “You know I’m not still going to be me when—”

“Don’t say it,” he snaps, standing up to his feet and pressing his long fingers into his scruffy hair. 

“Seungkwan—”

“What— am I supposed to just let you go?”

You hold your breath as he starts to cry for real. He’s shaking, head to foot, and the scuff of heavy boots just outside the door tells you his friends have heard him raise his voice. You hear the handle start to squeak, but he desperately calls out for them to stop. No one comes in, but you’re sure they’re still waiting out there on their haunches. You can't blame them.

He manages to pace back and forth six times before the next wave of scorching agony crashes through you. You stiffen. Your toes curl. It pulls the fingers of your working hand into a fist and you can hardly even manage to breathe through it. But before you can so much as blink, Seungkwan is right back on your level, crouched with one hand on your cheek and the other curling around your good forearm. It feels like he’s covered in very fine, very hot pins and they’re all piercing your fragile skin, but the gentle pressure gives you something else to focus on: with gritted teeth, you manage a tiny smile.

It's not a good thing that the pain starts to subside, that your extremities start to go numb. You know that. So must he.

“I won’t be the one who hurts you,” you say, chest stuttering every time you try to take a breath even when the stiffness eases and your limbs turn to jelly. “Please — you can’t let me—”

“I love you,” Seungkwan chokes, tears falling freely, snot dribbling from his nose. “I’m going to love you forever. Just— just like we said—”

“I know,” you nod, closing your eyes to the feeling of his cool forehead pressing against your own. His hand travels up your arm, over your shoulder, resting at the curve of your neck. “For better, for worse.”

He laughs weakly, the musk on his breath ten times stronger than usual.

“In… in sickness and in health,” he continues, mumbling through the long kiss he presses to your prickling temple before he forces himself to pull away. Another involuntary spasm from you is apparently the catalyst that brings him to his senses and Seungkwan seems to realise he doesn’t have much time left before it happens. It registers that there really is nothing he can do, not when you no longer even have the strength to pull your lids back open.

You think you hear him say he's sorry, but his heavy, defeated footsteps are the last thing you hear as fear starts to roll in. There’s a creak as the door swings open on its hinges, and a harsh clang that follows: you jump, even as your mind grows cold and distant and everything starts to go dark.

There's a click. The lock. Then a deafening cry: a frustrated, angry sob, and a set of fists slam once against the door that now serves as your prison.

I'll waste away in here, you think.

Maybe that's the virus talking.

Maybe it's not.

[sweetkpopmusings]

seungkwan best friend headcanons <3

a/n: another post for another lovely anon ! seungkwan is, as we all know, an icon, and i'm very envious of anyone and everyone that gets to call him their best friend !!! pics not mine <3

content: fluff | wc: 0.8k | warnings: none! | pairing: bestfriend!seungkwan x gn!reader | requests: open

seungkwan, through and through, is your number one

he's the kind of friend that just immediately feels important because he Gets. It.

when you two are together, you're actually unstoppable

like two baddies one porsche can exist in the same room and that's you and seungkwan !!!

tbh if you are going to a party, hangout, event, etc together, he will want to coordinate outfits

"i don't care if it's lunch with seokmin-hyung and soonyoung-hyung we HAVE. TO. SERVE."

and serve you will!!!

he will also serve you plenty of iconic reactions during that lunch because booseoksoon is the trifecta of comedy and seungkwan's role is reminding everyone how insane dk and hoshi are lmao

he just LOVES exaggerating his facial expressions and reactions when he gets secondhand embarrassment

if you are the one who embarrasses him, which happens from time to time, he will never let you live it down

any time one of his members comments on how you're cool/funny/smart/etc seungkwan will start listing every uncool, not funny, dumb, and embarrassing thing you've ever done

he's even including your preteen embarrassing stories like ??? why is he trusted with these secrets they're simply ammunition

good luck trying to bring up any time he's made a fool of himself or replying to his roasts by using memes of him via text or by holding up your phone during the conversation that's what i would do

in response to your efforts, he will double down. you and your pride are not making it out of this conversation alive

like boy!!! shutup

but he will not. his love language is making fun of you <3 and calling you cute but that one's usually done behind your back because he doesn't want it to go to your head

he does want to build you up though. in a very genuine way, he wants you to be confident in who you are and he will destroy anyone and anything who gets in the way of that!!

he leans on you for that too

no matter what's on his mind or where he's at, he knows he can go to you for comfort and reassurance

he's also the kind of friend who is SO real with you

like he won't sugarcoat things and will be honest with you so you don't get into any situation/mindset that's bad for you

he's very thoughtful in his honesty, and he never gives any criticism without it being constructive

but he values your trust so he wants to repay that by being transparent and telling you what you need to hear, even if it's not what you want to hear

and because he works so hard to be that real with you, you naturally adopt that approach too

any time he comes to you with a question, high-stakes or low-stakes, he can expect 100% honesty

you two really just hold each other up <3

it's like the dynamic in booksmart when the girls are dramatically complimenting each other like THAT'S the energy you and seungkwan have

it's a friendship serve! it's a friendship slay!

he's always inviting you to do stuff

going to a party? you're invited. going shopping? you're invited. going across the street to get a coffee? you're invited.

he just loves being in your presence and wants to hang out as much as he can between both of your schedules

like whenever he's with you he's having the time of his life

sure a lot of the time he shows it by rolling his eyes at you or deadpanning to anyone in the vicinity / the imaginary camera

but when he sees you he just goes :D because that's his bestie right there!!!!

y'all jam out together

karaoke is a state of mind

and seungkwan is the embodiment of that

he's the kind of best friend you blast lizzo with while you're dancing around the living room in your pjs

speaking of pjs

he actually loves sleepovers

like even if you can't spend the night together, he wants optimal sleepover activities and energy whenever possible

he probably buys you matching fuzzy hairbands to wear while you do sheet masks and watch movies :,-) they're ridiculous and that's why you love them :,-)

will take seventeen quizzes with you and laugh his ass off no matter which member you get assigned. unless it's him. then he is BEAMING with pride

and he will brag about it to every single one of his members, saying wow! my impact! so powerful!

if you're there when he's bragging, you absolutely need to drag him on how you're morphing into him because you're losing brain cells or something

seventeen will die laughing and praise you like the champion you are

meanwhile seungkwan goes from shocked to angry to impressed to proud

because once again he's thinking "that's my best friend right there!!!!"

all in all, seungkwan is the kind of bestie who makes you laugh harder than anyone else, and he's someone you can trust more than anyone else :,-)

he's loyal, caring, funny, and ready to fight at all times <3 good luck <3

seungkwan hmu if you're free this weekend we can get iced americanos and blast 00s pop music !!!

[mountainficss]

ISNWJWBWNBWKWBWJWBWJEBEJENWKWNWJWNWJBW

HELLO?2&2£282£2£22£2£ FUCK?2&2!2&2£ SEUNGKWANNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

oh my god i JUST read ur seungkwan drabble and wait. wait . i need to walk u through my thoughts.

i saw ur post abt being busy with work and that u were working on ur asks. i was literally clicking on ur url to come to ur inbox to tell u to TAKE UR TIME and that there’s literally no rush. even if u took days to get to it i would be more than happy just reading ur old work . so i was like ‘you’ll feed us well in a couple of days there’s no rush hehe’ and then i catch ur url at the bottom of my screen and i’m like . oh another post!!

so i tell myself i’ll read that before coming to ur inbox and telling u to take ur time with ur asks. and then i see what it is. um. what the fuck.

number one. ur genuinely the loveliest and sweetest person for posting that today. even AFTER u said u were busy. i wasn’t expecting it today and i was more than happy to wait for it. so the fact that it came out TODAY. i’m in awe of u and ur too nice. i feel bad sending in so many repetitive seungkwan reqs so i was more than content to wait for u but. ur too lovely. ur too too lovely.

ALSO. what the hell. oh mygod. that drabble. oh hell. i was going insane i’m STILL going insane i feel crazy i feel insane i feel sick UR CRAZY. it’s so good so good i think i got lightheaded i’m gonna read it a hundred times ur. ur. he’s. seungkwan. fuck. oh. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

it’s genuinely so perfect and so amazing and i’m soooo thankful u wrote it thank u thank u thank u. i love u. thank u. OMG i’m obsessed with it i love it

and as always. take care of urself. put urself first always . we love u 🫂🧡

: 🍊

BABEEEEEEE I LITERALLY LOVE YOU TO PIECES LIKE I’M SO GLAD YOU LIKED ITTTT. you have no idea how weak my writing for doms is oh my…i was worried it wouldn’t be well written but AHHHHH I’M SO HAPPY YOU ENJOYED IT 🧡🧡🧡 that’s all i ever want omg

but yes i got a lot of work done ahead of time, so i was able to start on some of my requests ;) and YOU’RE the lovely one for being so patient omg i’ll always make time for you sweet people <33 i genuinely enjoy writing all of your requests so much and i’m so thankful people take the time to read them. i just don’t want you guys to ever think i forgot about y’all because that’s never the case 😭🧡

thank you sm again for supporting my works babe i love you so much omg. pls stay safe and keep coming back because i love to hear from you!! 🧡🫶🏽

[gguksgalaxy]

aw you're so welcome! 💓 i'm a multi fan but i read more svt fics than any other groups and i'm excited to see a new svt writer <333

he bias wrecked me in 2021, jeonghan was my bias for five and a half years and seungkwan just.... took that top spot. how rude 😂

i always feel so so nervous requesting things, even when writers/ccs are like PLEASE REQUEST SMTH i'm sitting there like omg i'm so nervous <333

but since i'm here, i would love a seungkwan fluff and number 11 <33 also pls take ur time, there is no rush to write it 💓

Thank you so so so mcuh for your kind words!! I have your request added to my list and I'll @ you once it's posted!

Also, seungkwan really got you THAT good huh? after 5.5 years of jeonghan. Wow. I'm usually like loyal once I settle, so I'm pretty certain Joshua will stick with me. Tho I will say I'm like not 100% sure if I've settles so jfdklajg;a i'm mortified at what Seungkwan's going to do to me ahahah.

and I get being nervous when requesting! you shouldn't feel pressured to and all. But i'm glad you did! thanks for making my day a bit brighter

[neoyeppuda]

Number One - Seungkwan scenario

Request: Svt beg you to tell them which member do you find the most attractive, you tell them it’s Seungkwan and he’s very shocked.

Word Count: 902

A/N: Ah, anonie I hope you and everyone else like it!! I’m sorry it was a bit sad at first ㅠㅠ I kinda felt bad about that OFD episode wherein Seungkwan’s last in visuals plus people who don’t appreciate Boo’s visuals and talents because boy is he gifted (@my friends and some carats I see online). Ps: HOW DO YOU INSERT A BLOCKQUOTE ON THE TUMBLR APP IT DOESN’T LET ME HTML CODE MY WAY OUTTA THIS ANYMORE ASFGHKLL I’m a retard -Clar

“Hey thirteenth!” Everytime Seungkwan heard that nickname you could see deep creases in between his brows and a frown on his face, ignoring whoever was calling him. You had to admit, he had the right to. It wasn’t exactly the best nickname you’d give to a person to constantly remind them that they were ranked last in looks out of twelve other men. Seungkwan had his pride too. “Seungkwan?” Soonyoung called him once more, but still no response. He’d continue calling him until Seungkwan snaps at him, “what do you want?” His sudden outburst startled the older member, leaving him at a loss for words. You ran after him, asking him what was wrong. He ran to his room, locked the door and screamed at you from behind it, “you won’t understand (y/n).” When you came back Soonyoung asked you what was going on with Seungkwan. You shrugged, it came to the two of you so suddenly you didn’t know what made him so angry. He was the type of guy that laughs everything off as if it didn’t bother him at all.

Even if it did. Bottling up emotions isn’t always good, you have limits. Seungkwan couldn’t stand it anymore. He thought it would stop as time went on, but it stuck to him. “Hey thirteenth!” the constant reminder of him ranking last in visuals out of everyone else haunted him. He was insecure enough as it is with every other member so talented and handsome. He felt like he needed to make a place for himself too, but everything else was just bringing him down. Will he ever be good enough? Everyone was just better in things that can’t be changed; height, looks, and talent. What could he do? “Say, (y/n),” Soonyoung’s eyes flickered with curiosity, “what would your rankings be?” A few members overheard and joined in on the conversation, agreeing with Hoshi’s question. “What do you mean?” you stuttered, averting your eyes from any of them. You just didn’t want to answer at a time like this. Seungkwan was still upset and you didn’t know why. “Come on, you know what we’re talking about,” Seokmin whined, “it wouldn’t hurt to tell us.” It went on until you finally gave in. All of them gave you big grins and rushed to gather the other members.

They dragged Jisoo, Chan, and Seungcheol away from their cup ramen, they woke Jeonghan up, and they broke into Seungkwan’s room to drag him into the living room against his will. The energetic duo made everyone stand in a single line, “ta-da!” they exclaimed. God knows why they were so excited about this. You sighed, eyes drifting towards the frowning man at the end of the line, furrowing his brows and folding his arms. “Can I start with last place?” your question was immediately rejected and you asked if you could start with the second to the last place instead. They liked the idea and you began ranking them. Some agreed, and some didn’t. Only two spots remained, first and last place. Soonyoung and Seungkwan were the only ones left and the former one was pretty confident about his victory over the other. The blue haired boy stood tall, smiling with pride. “Seungkwan,” you mumbled, approaching the boy. He met you with widened eyes, somewhat upset and confused, “aren’t you supposed to pick who your number one is?” You smiled at him warmly, “silly, you’re my number one.” He suddenly laughed. The mocking tone he had as he looked at you dead in the eye, asking, “this is a joke, isn’t it?” “Don’t joke about things like this,” he growled.

His arms folded and he shifted his weight to another foot, still maintaining intense eye contact, “did you do this to laugh at me? Because I’m not going to believe this.” He eyed every other member in the room, “who thought of doing this, huh? Stop making fun of me.” Everyone turned silent as Seungkwan continued talking with blind, hating rage. His words felt directed toward you, it was you who chose him as first place after all. Tears welled up in your eyes and you apologized to him, “I meant it Seungkwan. I’m sorry I made fun of you.” He turned and looked at you with his eyes still held fierce gazes. His features slowly softened and his frowned turned into a small pout as he whispered in a weak voice, “really?” You only nod with an embarrassed smile. His eyes were very wide, in contrast to the eyes earlier, that squinted at you with contempt and anger. His jaw dropped and his features brightened, “really really really really?” He laughed in delight; he could not believe it. Pure joy rushed thoughout his body, tingles went up and down his spine and he couldn’t stop smiling.

The diets, the endless vocal practices, and the efforts he made to stand out in shows; all fruitless efforts that made him strive to push his limits. All this time he struggled and struggled to become someone he wasn’t, but then you came along telling him he was just perfect the way he is. He could no longer hold in everything and just brush it off; tears slid down his cheeks and he gave you the warmest smile in the world. He softly called out your name and pulled you into a big hug. “Thank you.”

[leejungchans]

strangers-to-lovers au with uni classmate!seungkwan

༉‧₊˚✧ for my 1k event !

requested by @seungcy : HIII WIFEYYY CONGRATS ON 1K MUAH MUAH <3 i hope ur taking good care of urself <3 luv u sm muah; may i request 🫣 uni student kwan strangers to lovers where kwan wants to get to know fem!reader so as a way to slowly open up to her, he buys her snacks and leaves them by where she sits along with little notes <//3 KINDA LIKE A SECRET ADMIRER 🫣 and they talk this way for a couple months and reader wants to know them better so kwan gives them his number and then they meet up and yeah <3 fall in luv kiss kiss smoochies very fluffy i love him i won’t him yes yes 🫣🫣

a/n: hai waifey 💗💗 i hope you like how your req turned out muah muah!!!! AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY I HOPE YOU HAVE A SEGGSYLICIOUS DAY EVERYONE GO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY WAIF RN >:( 💗

word count | 2.1k

pairing | boo seungkwan (svt) x f!reader

genre | fluff, humour (a lil), university au, strangers-to-lovers au

warning(s) / includes | food mentions (please lmk if i missed anything!)

you were his classmate in one of his electives

it was one of those easy-a courses where the professor reads off the slides and you can afford to not pay attention and still do pretty well as long as you memorise everything

so most people pretty much either skipped class or blatantly didn’t pay attention, treating the lecture as a 2-hour podcast for background noise

seungkwan wouldn’t say he was the best student, but he thinks it’s a safe estimate that he tried harder than 80% of the people who even showed up to class

it wasn’t a very fun time though </3 with people either dozing off or doing their own thing, he hadn’t made a single friend in the class because it just felt awkward to suddenly approach someone halfway through the semester :(

sometimes vernon snuck into the auditorium to keep him company whenever he didn’t have tutorials <3 we love friends <3

but the lecturer was just so good at lulling people to sleep that he’s usually out cold half an hour in </3 once again leaving seungkwan to his own devices </3

boooooooo (affectionate)

the class had to do an individual presentation on an assigned topic, and in the lesson following the deadline your lecturer randomly picked twenty people off the name list to present theirs in front of everyone

that was the day you caught seungkwan’s eye <333

everyone else before you didn’t bother trying to look like they were interested in the topic, which was understandable, but that meant their presentations were barely engaging and he was fighting to keep his eyes open 😭

but then your name was called, and he heard murmured apologies from a few rows behind him as you made your way down to the podium

you were so cute with your glasses, the large lens complementing your bright eyes perfectly as you shyly began speaking

but perhaps the most attractive part about you was your attitude; you were cheerful and friendly, not excessively so, but enough to have the bored audience paying attention

seungkwan could tell you were nervous: your voice quivered a little at certain points and you fumbled over your words a little whenever the computer was being slow and refused to move onto the next slide despite your frantic clicking, but you recovered quickly after each time

you ended your presentation with a shy smile and an awkward little bow that made some people (including himself) giggle good-naturedly, and he watched fondly as you gave the lecturer a polite nod before practically running back to your seat from embarrassment

he snuck a glance over his shoulder at you, smiling to himself when he found you ducking your head to shield your flustered face from the people sitting near you

he took an instant liking to you that day; you just radiated such positive vibes, and he admired that 🥺

poor kwan wanted to your friend so, so badly, but he didn’t know how to approach you without coming off weird or awkward ;-;

by a stroke of luck, you sat directly in front of him in the next class, an idea popped into his head when you left the auditorium during the 10-minute break

he bought a chocolate bar that morning for when he got hungry or wanted a snack, but then he thought it might be nice to give it to you instead in case you needed a pick-me-up, and who doesn’t like free food?

so he whipped out the little pad of sticky notes he always brought with him (they’re cute—they have little bears holding tangerines on the bottom), and wrote you a short message

you came back to your seat after a quick bathroom break to find a chocolate bar on your tray table along with a small note, you looked around a bit but everyone seemed busy doing their own thing, looking completely inconspicuous; you had no friends in this class so you knew it wasn’t a prank, and no one came up telling you it was meant for someone else either

it left you confused, but you weren’t about to complain about a small act of kindness from one of your classmates

seungkwan couldn’t see, but you had the biggest smile on your face as you read the note, your finger tracing over the pretty, neat penmanship

i hope you like chocolate ^v^ good luck with your classes if you have more after this one!

you did have another class later in the day, and it was a tough one too—your mystery classmate has a good hunch, it seems

your friend seokmin noted the skip in your step as you met up with him for dinner that night, and you excitedly pulled out the chocolate and the note to show him

“looks like someone has a secret admirer,” he affectionately teased, but it couldn’t be, right? you never talked to anyone in this class aside from that one time you asked a boy for a spare sheet of paper. plus, the class has over a hundred people, you’d be practically invisible

you thought you just got lucky that one time, but the notes kept coming for every lesson that followed, and the snack or drink that came with each sticky note was also different every week

even the girl who sat next to you during one of the lectures gushed over how sweet the gesture was when she saw you reading the note, and it led you to realise just how much you liked this mystery person, how they managed to get you to look forward to a morning class on a monday

deep down, you were dying to know who they were because they seem so thoughtful and easy to talk to; you’d love to meet them to thank them for their kindness and maybe even treat them to lunch or dinner as a sign of gratitude. who knows? perhaps you’d even end up being friends

and technically, you knew it’d be easy to catch them in the act—pretend to leave your seat and spy from afar until the mystery person made their move, but you resisted the urge with all your willpower, because if they wanted to reveal themselves, they would’ve; the fact that they didn’t told you they most likely weren’t comfortable with doing so yet, and you wanted to respect that

so you decided to communicate with them another way: by leaving them a snack and a little message of your own

bonus: it was also a great chance to finally break out your hoard of adorable stickers and notepads <3

your messages to each other got longer and longer; from just a few sentences wishing the other a lovely rest of the day, to short paragraphs telling each other little tidbits about yourselves and your week

you found out that they like tangerines (which made sense given the sticky notes they use), that they’re a journalism major, and that they like playing badminton and hanging out with their friends when they have free time <3 all of which you found completely endearing

seungkwan loves your notes with all his heart ;-; he honestly wasn’t expecting you to return the gesture, simply wanting to do something nice for someone who seemed like a fun person to be around, but the fact that you did has his heart racing and heat rushing to his cheeks

all his friends playfully teased him for how giddy he acted whenever he showed them your notes, but for once he didn’t really mind the teasing because he was far, far too whipped to care

lich rally bought a little folder to keep all your sticky notes so they wouldn’t get all crumpled in his bag <3 he reads them whenever he’s frustrated with something, because knowing you see him as a friend despite you two not even knowing each other cheers him up after a long day :(

you were having so much fun exchanging messages this way that it didn’t hit you until the second to last lecture that you’d potentially never get to genuinely know this incredibly sweet person in your class

and while you knew there was the chance of them not wanting to reveal themselves and preferring to leave this in the past once the semester ended, you still wanted to give it a shot ;-;

seungkwan’s hands were shaking a little as he read your note

you totally don’t have to agree if you’re not comfortable, but i’d love to meet you :’)

suddenly, he’s hit with a wave of self-doubt </3 it’s a lot easier to seem cool over paper or text or basically anything that didn’t involve spontaneous, on-the-spot situations, he’s not sure if you’d find him as interesting or fun to talk to once you got to know him irl :(((((

you didn’t hear from him that class, which made you a little sad, but you were ready to prepare yourself for the inevitable outcome that you’d never know who this person is and that this all would simply remain a fond memory in your uni life </3

the week leading up to the last lecture, all of seungkwan’s closest friends hyped him up so much 😞 they knew how much he liked you and from the notes you wrote back it was clear that you liked him just as much

after a lot of encouragement, he wrote you the final note and dropped it off at your table during the 10-minute break

let’s meet up after lecture today >< i’ll wait for you by the water dispensers outside the auditorium

to say you were vibrating with excitement after you read his note was an understatement

finally!!!! you get to find out who your mystery friend is!!!!!!!!

you could barely focus for the rest of the class, which wasn’t a huge deal anyways as the lecturer was simply going over the answers to your quiz

you kept glancing at the clock in the hall, at your watch, at the time on your laptop, then the time on your phone, eagerly counting down the minutes to the end of class

when your lecturer dismissed everyone, you were so nervous that you felt like you were going to throw up, for a split second you wondered if this was a good idea, but you ultimately decided to take a few deep breaths to compose yourself before heading outside

most of your classmates had already dispersed, not wanting to linger on campus for any longer after their last lecture of the day, so it was easy to narrow down who your mystery friend was

as you walked over to the water dispensers, you couldn’t help but think how it was almost too good to be true: standing next to the dispensers was a cute boy with the fluffiest hair and squishiest cheeks, wearing what looks like the softest sweater ever as he anxiously rocked back and forth on his heels

maybe this is a coincidence? maybe he isn’t the person you’re looking for but a cute guy who just so happened to be waiting for someone else?

all these questions brewing in your head were squashed when he gave you a shy smile as you drew closer, a quiet “hi” passing through his pretty lips

it was awkward, but not uncomfortably so

“are you…?” “the person who wrote you the notes? yeah, that’s me.”

you noticed how he wrung his hands together nervously as he confessed, and hoped that the warm smile you gave in return would be enough to reassure him

“it was so sweet of you to do that for me, thank you. i’m y/n, but you probably already knew that.”

he chuckles, cheeks still tinged a rosy pink, “yeah… i’m seungkwan.”

“well, seungkwan, i don’t have class after this anymore, so do you want to get lunch together?”

his eyes almost bugged out of his head at your invitation, but he quickly recovered and eagerly agreed, telling you he knew about this new place just outside campus that had really good sushi

you honestly couldn’t believe your luck: he was funny, sweet, and kind, and the two of you chatted like you’ve been friends for years as you ate, even going to get coffee together after because neither of you wanted your conversation to end <33 after a few more months of being friends and getting to know each other, he asked you out properly during one of your coffee shop study dates 💗

and now after almost two years of dating, the two of you still kept those notes from all those months ago in a little box tucked away safely in a desk drawer at your apartment

and when your friends asked you two if you were going to save them to show your future children, seungkwan merely responded with two playful, haughty words

“yeah, and?”

a/n: will proofread tmr bc it’s 3am rn and i have to get up for class in a few hours HWJSHAJ anyways waifey if ur reading this i hope you liked this :’))) 💗💗 ily a lot teehee kissies smooches

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[hannieehaee]

Hello👋, and an unusual request I think, but could you do a reaction to the members having an S/O who is a supermodel from the 2000s I don't know do whatever you want, like those famous models on Tiktok like Gisele Bündchen, Shalom Harlow and Vlada Rosylakova, I've never seen anyone asking for something like this and I'm curious what it would be like, I'll be very grateful if you answer my request💕

their s/o being a supermodel from the early 2000s

content: established relationship, f!reader, fluff, etc.

wc: 672

a/n: so sorry about how long this took me!! i used to be really into models when i was younger but im still not sure if i did this justice! i hope you like it though<3

masterlist

seungcheol -

super cocky knowing he scored a supermodel gf lol slips it into conversation any time he can, always flexing which show you were walking on next and carrying around magazines you're in the cover of.

jeonghan -

another cocky one. ends any argument with anyone by asking who's dating the supermodel? oh, that's right. it's him! but as cocky as he can get, he'll still be mesmerized by you any time he gets to see you on the catwalk, playing with the bounce of your hair after a show, amazed at all the volume they give you.

joshua -

he's like those nfl wives. will attend any and every show/event you have, dressed to the nines as he admires your beauty. super in tune with you and the business of your life.

jun -

you'd be such an iconic duo as an actor and supermodel couple. he'd invite you to his events and you'd invite him to yours. would sing your praises any time he could, literally stopping mid interview if he saw you walking by just to admire you.

soonyoung -

so giggly and blushy lol. let's say you were walking for a lingerie show ... well he'd literally become a shell of himself as he watched, completely hypnotized by you and already thinking up ways to sneak backstage so he can admire you up close. always gets bashful when you're all dolled up and show him any type of affection after a show.

wonwoo -

he's not one to focus too much on looks, but he can't help but feel this immense sense of pride at looking at his gf and knowing everyone either wants you or wants to be you. adores you past your looks and engages a lot with your lifestyle. keeps updated with your diet, your brands, your exercise routine, your hair care, etc.

jihoon -

even though he's used to your beauty (he still counts his lucky stars every night), he'll be incredibly intimidated any time he attends your events and sees you on the catwalk. literally needs to be slapped out of a trance every time.

seokmin -

your number one supporter. he'd have to be reprimanded the first time he was in the audience for one of your walks, not realizing he wasn't supposed to cheer so loud oops. he'd always be backstage just in time to kiss you good luck and rush back outside to get front row at your walk. literally collects any magazines you're in and prints out your shoots.

mingyu -

he kind of looks like the epitome of supermodel so it'd be a match made in heaven. he'll actually be super interested in all the intricacies that come into your lifestyle, always asking about the process behind your hair, your outfit, how you do your walk, which companies you're in talks with. he's just super interested in it all.

minghao -

he adores how passionate you are about your modeling career and is incredibly supportive of it. makes you meditate with him before any important show, knowing how nerves may get before any important event on a stage. he's absolutely mesmerized by you and the confidence you carry on and off the catwalk.

seungkwan -

attends all your shoots and shows, carrying a (designer) bag full of all your must haves from hairspray, water bottle, lip gloss, resistance bands, you name it! also, he's obsessed with you but that's a given.

vernon -

this man is whipped as fuck. literally forgot how to speak the moment you walked the catwalk at your first lingerie show, practically drooling at the sight. still stutters around you sometimes because you're just so pretty to look at.

chan -

he feels like he won the lottery. no shit the guys give him about anything ever beats the fact that he's the one dating a supermodel. literally groans any time you take him with you to a show and give him a sneak peak of the outfit they got you on. has no idea how to handle you like he's just happy to be there.

[finallydelight]

Thank you so much for the request, I love it when they are very detailed! I hope it is like how you imagined and lives up to your expectations! I appreciate your kind words and support <3 requests are always welcome! Normally, it would have been uploaded sooner, but I had to make changes to the original post and tumblr wouldn't me save it, so I had to make an entire new post. I hope you enjoy it!

I'll Always Look Out For You | Ming Chapter

April, 2021

''Hey guys, have you seen this?'' Seungkwan asked the other members of the vocal team. He motioned for them to gather around his phone. 

The five of them looked at his screen. ''What the hell..'' Woozi mumbled. 

Seungkwan had shown them a post someone had made leaking Ming's phone number and also the ones of other members. The person's reason for this is that Ming had allegedly been ignoring their advances and rejecting their love. 

''Why would someone do this?'' Dokyeom didn't understand why people were like that, leaking the personal information of someone. Jeonghan rolled his eyes. ''Another person who sees our Yerim as their personal property and thinks by doing this it will grab her attention.'' 

''The post says that she has been ignoring his advances, but she has never mentioned anything about someone bothering her, at least not to me.'' Joshua commented, reading the post again. 

Woozi shrugged his shoulders. ''Maybe he hasn't been bothering her and he just wanted to leak the phone numbers.'' 

''Yeah, or she accidentally picked up when they called. Yerim would have said something to one of us if this person had been actually making advances towards her.'' Dokyeom suggested, not believing Ming would keep something like that from them. 

Jeonghan walked back to his seat. ''Let's just hope the company handles this well.'' 

-

''Yerim-ah!'' Coups called for her. 

Ming was laying on the couch watching a movie on her own. ''Yes?'' 

Coups took the space next to her. ''The post is taken down and the company is arranging new numbers for us.'' He said to her, rubbing the back of her head. ''That's great.'' She smiled at him and brought her attention back to the movie. 

''They didn't bother you, right? In the post they said something about you ignoring their advances.'' He asked her, still confused as to what the person meant by that. 

She didn't turn her head, her eyes glued to the screen. ''No, I got nothing.'' She answered him. 

''Alright, good.'' Her nonchalant attitude made him less worried. She didn't seem to be worked up about it, so why should he? 

''I'm gonna have dinner with Jeonghan and Shua later, you can join us, if you want?'' He invited her. 

She shook her head. ''No, that's okay, I don't really feel like going out.'' She declined his offer, smiling at the leader. 

''Okay, but we're probably gonna be back late, so just wanted you to know that.'' He said to her, getting up from the couch. 

As she watched him leave, she felt the guilt creeping up on her. The truth was that the person had in fact been bothering her. She didn't like lying to her members, but everyone has so much going on at the moment, she didn't want to add anything more to the chaos. 

At first, it was just phone calls. Throughout the day and for weeks on end, this person would call her. For a while they actually stopped, she felt relieved and concluded that the person must have given up. However, that was short-lived. 

Calls turned into texts, consisting of love confessions. The individual, who she assumed was a man, wanted to be with her, get married, have kids and move to a foreign country. Obviously she was weirded out by it, but the texts were harmless, so she didn't mention them to anyone. 

She tried blocking his number, but the texts kept coming back. Her lack of response must have also pissed him off, cause the love confessions gradually changed into full on threats. He told her that if she had a significant other, he would kill her and her partner. 

The threats didn't really scare her, because they didn't contain any truth. She wasn't in a relationship with anyone nor was she going on dates. 

Eventually, it started getting worse. Before a schedule with the other members, Ming had to be at the hair salon. While her stylist sat her down in the chair, a staff member of the salon approached her. ''Excuse me, Ms.Kim, someone left their contact information for you.'' They handed her a paper with an email address, a phone number and even the number of the person's work phone. Ming thanked the person and put the paper in her bag, not planning on doing anything with it. 

This started happening more, at the nail salon she went to monthly, the house of her vocal coach and even at the place where she did her pilates classes. 

Ming knew that she had to mention it to one of her members or at least someone of the company, but she didn't. She wasn't the only member that had these privacy issues due to fans who cross the line and she didn't want to be a burden by adding even more problems. 

She had the dorm to herself that night, as Joshua and Coups were out with Jeonghan and Minghao was having a movie night with Vernon in his dorm. 

She was scrolling through social media on her computer in her room, she loved seeing what the fans were up to and how everyone was doing. She wasn't able to access her phone anymore, since it got overwhelmed by all the phone calls and text messages. 

She was enjoying everything, until a certain long post caught her eye. The post was from the same account that leaked their phone numbers. It started with the person saying that they had been trying to pursue a relationship with Ming for several months. They further said that they hadn't been able to sleep, eat and felt sad since it came with no results. They continued saying that if she was secretly dating and kept it from them, it would hurt them so much that they would have to end her life. A few minutes later another post was uploaded, stating they had plans to go to the Seventeen dorms and approach Ming to discuss their relationship. 

What freaked her out was the fact that they knew the exact area where their dorm was situated. ''I really should've gone to dinner with them.'' She said under her breath. She continued scrolling through the account, seeing if they had posted anything more. 

Her attention was grabbed from the screen by sudden noises coming from the front door. You need a code to enter the dorm, so when she heard someone putting the wrong code in as it buzzed, she started slightly panicking. For a couple seconds it was silent, but soon she heard the person pressing the digits again, but this time they were right and the door opened. 

Calm down, Yerim. You have three roommates, it could be any of them. 

''Coups?'' She called out, silence. 

''Shua?'' Silence. 

''Myungho?'' Again, silence. 

She could feel her heartbeat starting to pick up and her hands started shaking. 

''Hello?'' She called out again, but there wasn't an answer. 

She closed her computer and got up from her bed with shaking limbs. Her mind was going crazy with panicking thoughts. 

They're here. They have found me. They're gonna hurt me. They're gonna kill me. 

She tried to open her bedroom door as quietly as possible. She stopped herself, realising she had to have something to defend herself with. She frantically looked around her room, trying to find something that could hurt someone enough it would give her time to run. Ming opted for a pair of scissors that she had used a couple days earlier to cut out pictures that she could hang in her room. She quickly grabbed them with shaking hands and made her way out of her room. 

She could hear commotion in the living room. Her chest was tightening from the anxiety she was experiencing at that moment. Her steps were slow, yet she felt like she was going fast. How closer she got to the living room, how harder it became to breathe. 

She was about to take her first step into the living room, but was stopped by someone grabbing her from behind. ''Yerim'' 

She dropped the scissors from her hands and started screaming like she had never done before, while trying to separate herself from the person that had grabbed her. 

''Woah woah woah! Hey calm down!'' 

She started hitting the person as they still were holding on to her. ''Let me go!'' 

''Yerim, calm down, what's happening?'' She felt more hands on her, grabbing hers so she stopped hitting the person behind her. 

''Yerim-ah! It's Joshua, stop hitting!'' 

She stopped trying to get herself loose and saw Coups and Jeonghan standing before her. She looked behind her and saw a shocked Joshua. Her body became too heavy for her and she fell to the ground. Gut-wrenching sobs tore through her chest and tears ran down her cheeks. 

Coups, Jeonghan and Joshua had gotten back a bit earlier than intended from their hangout, deciding they could still have some drinks at the dorm. While Jeonghan and Coups started taking drinks and some snacks from the kitchen, Joshua went to the bathroom. When he left the toilet, he saw Ming weirdly walking to the living room. He thought it would be funny to scare the girl, but he quickly panicked upon her reaction. Jeonghan and Coups flinched hearing Ming's sudden ear piercing screams, but reacted quickly and ran to the hall. When they were met with the sight of a panicking Ming hitting a clueless Joshua, they were taken aback, but quickly went and tried to help. 

Ming started yelling at them through her sobs. ''Why didn't you answer me?'' ''I thought someone had broken in!'' 

Jeonghan crouched down and tried to hug her, but she slapped his hands away. ''No!" 

''Yerim-ie, just calm down, alright? You're safe, we're here.'' Coups started talking to her, in a soft voice, contrasting her screaming. Her yelling stopped, but the sound of wailing kept echoing throughout the apartment. 

Coups slowly approached her and crouched down next to Jeonghan. He grabbed her hand, letting out a sigh of relief as she didn't move away from him. 

''Just breathe, alright? In and out.'' He started to guide how she should breathe, trying to get her heartbeat to slow down. After a while, her breathing matched his and the tightening in her chest was almost gone. 

Coups cupped her face upon seeing her gradually calm down. ''Yeah, just like that, good girl.'' He noticed the tears were still escaping from her eyes and tried wiping them away with his thumbs. 

While Coups was busy with Ming, Jeonghan stood back up from his crouching position. His focus turned to Joshua who was standing behind him. He took notice of his shaking hands and his raised eyebrows. Joshua noticed his friends looking at him. 

''You okay?'' Jeonghan mouthed. 

Joshua merely nodded, still in shock by the event that happened earlier. 

''Come here, we'll get you off the floor.'' Coups put her arms around his neck and he lifted her up from the ground. It was like a father picking up his kid when they're too tired from walking. 

He sat her down on the couch and went back to the kitchen to grab her a glass of water. Meanwhile, Joshua and Jeonghan sat on each of her sides on the couch. Joshua put his hand on her knee and Jeonghan grabbed her hand and rubbed her back. 

The leader came back from the kitchen holding a glass of water and he sat down on his knees in front of Ming while giving it to her. ''Here you go, don't drink too fast.'' She did as he told and slowly took sips from the water. When she was finished Coups took the glass from her and put it on the coffee table. 

''So,'' Jeonghan started, ''you want to tell us what just happened?'' His eyes observed her face, waiting for her to start talking. 

She was still shaken up, her mind was all over the place. ''I thought there was an intruder, I was scared I was going to get hurt.'' Her voice was still quite scratchy from the crying. ''Why did you think you were going to get hurt?'' Jeonghan asked, a bit confused by her answer. 

Ming remained silent, not wanting to mention the threatening posts that the stalker made, knowing she would probably have to come clear about everything. 

The guys glanced at each other, not understanding her silence. ''Yerim?'' They all looked at her, but Ming's eyes stayed glued on her hands in her lap. 

''Yerim, what's going on? Jeonghan asked you a question.'' Coups nudged her knee, thinking her mind had drifted off and she hadn't heard Jeonghan. 

She hesitantly met Coups' eyes. "I lied.." She mumbled, looking back down again. "What do you mean?" Joshua spoke up for the first time. 

She took a deep breath. "That person who leaked our phone numbers, they have been bothering me the last couple of months." She revealed it to them.

Coups was about to start his scolding, but Jeonghan stopped him before he could. "What have they been doing?" He tried to sound as calm as possible, knowing that if they started scolding her, she would shut down and not tell them anything.

"Uhm, well at first it was just phone calls and texts, but then they started leaving their contact information for me at like my hair salon and stuff," she explained to them, "but then cause I didn't respond to them, they leaked our phone numbers and after you guys left they posted that they were gonna come to our dorm and they even got the area right-"

"Shh, remember to breathe, you're working yourself up again." Jeonghan interrupted her, putting his hand on her chest to check her heartbeat. She took a couple of deep breaths. ''They know where we live.'' She finished off. 

''Where's the post?'' Jeonghan asked, turning his phone on. ''It's from the same account as yesterday.'' She replied to him. 

After a couple minutes he found the post and showed it to the others. ''Jesus Christ, what a fucking psycho.'' Joshua was just disgusted with the whole situation. 

Coups broke his silence. ''Did they ever try to talk to you in person?'' He asked her, worry evident in his voice and on his face. 

Ming shook her head. ''No, I don't even know what they look like, I've never seen them.'' She answered him. 

''I don't know if that makes me relieved or even more worried.'' The leader said, standing up from the ground. The three members on the couch could see the frustration and anger radiating off of him. 

Joshua straightened his posture. ''I think we should call the company.'' He suggested, already grabbing his phone in his pocket. 

''The company? Shua, we have to call the police! This crazy stalker needs to be fucking locked up!'' Coups argued with him, raising his voice. 

''We don't need to call the police.'' Ming spoke up, not wanting the situation to get out of hand. 

Coups turned to her. ''Yerim, this is gonna sound cruel, but by not telling us, you let it get this far. We know you probably meant well, but now you need to let us handle it.'' Despite his frustrations with her, he tried to sound calm and collected. 

''I didn't want to tell anyone, because everybody has so much going on already. People are stressing about the comeback, other members have the same privacy issues and Mingyu is still on a break. I just didn't want to add more problems.'' Ming told them, truthfully. 

Jeonghan gave her a sad smile. ''We understand that, Yerim-ie. But you also have to understand that that person wants to hurt you, they don't see you as a person, they see you as their property, as their product. We have to take drastic measures, we need to take care of you and prioritise your safety.'' He explained to her, the desperation and sincerity in his voice brought the tears again to her eyes. 

''We just want to protect you, because we care for you and love you.'' Coups continued. 

Joshua rubbed her back. ''Maybe we should continue this tomorrow, when we all have a clear head, you know?'' He saw everyone getting upset and he didn't want anyone to say things they don't mean and then regret later. 

''Yeah, good idea.'' Coups bid everyone a quick goodnight and disappeared into his room. Joshua did the same a few minutes after. 

''You're gonna be fine?'' Jeonghan asked her, the pair was still seated on the couch. She gave him a timid nod. He got up from the couch and opened his arms, to which she got up as well and put her arms around his waist. ''If there's anything, just call me, I don't care if I'm sleeping.'' He told her. She chuckled, she felt touched by that, knowing he's a light sleeper. ''I will.'' 

''Good, now go sleep, I'll let myself out.'' He gave her a quick kiss on the head, bid goodbye and left to go to his own dorm. Ming started her usual night routine. Quick shower, skincare routine, taking her medicine and putting on her pajamas. 

She made her way over to her room, but stopped once she passed Coups' room. She absolutely hated seeing him so worried and knowing she's the reason for it, makes it even harder. 

She knocked on his door and waited for his sign that she could come in. ''Yes?'' Upon hearing his permission, she opened his door. Coups was laying in his bed, playing with his phone. As soon as he saw her open the door, he put his phone away and sat up. ''Hey, little one.'' 

She sat herself down on the edge of his bed. ''Are you mad at me?'' It had been bothering her since he told them goodnight. 

''No, I'm just frustrated, that's all.'' She could see he had calmed down from earlier, which made her a bit more relieved. 

''I'm sorry, I should've said something from the beginning.'' She apologised, fiddling with her fingers. Coups noticed and grabbed her hands. ''We'll talk about it tomorrow, we should go sleep now.'' 

''Can I stay with you tonight, please?'' 

The tone with which she said, broke his heart. It had been a while since she last asked him if she could stay with him. She used to stay with him a lot when they were younger, mostly when there would thunderstorms or when she was sad.

He opened his sheets for her and she laid herself next to him. ''Thank you, I really appreciate this.'' She moved her head on his chest and he put his arm around her. 

''Goodnight'' 

''Goodnight, I love you.'' 

''I love you too.'' 

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Purple Converse

Summary: Little disputes lead to love? And maybe a late-night drive helps reel it in altogether.

Oneshot

Fluff, Mutual Pining, Strangers to Lovers au

Word Count: 2,366

Dino [Chan] X Reader [Mentions: Seungkwan]

Not Requested

[A/n: I have had this in my drafts since last year and have been meaning to finish it. Three days before it turns a year old, and it’s done and published :). Also, I wrote this at different times throughout the year, but it generally takes place in October ig?]

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Chan never saw someone as stunning as you. When you walked in, it took everything in him to look away. He was doing three double-takes all at the same time. One at his outfit, two at his friends, and three at you. How was he going to survive the night? Well, he is sure not taking this sitting down, he thought to himself. He asks the one person who knows everyone, “Kwan, who’s that?” Seungkwan looks over to where Chan is looking and smirks back at him. “That’s (Y/n). They belong to the co-ed on the other side of town.” Chan nods, “Um,... are they single?” Seungkwan rolls his eyes, “Of course, you’d ask that. And to answer your question, yes, yes they are.” Before Chan has the chance to leave, Seungkwan says, “If I find out you hurt their precious little heart. I'm not talking to you for two months.” Chan smirks over at him, “Doesn’t sound too bad.”

Before Seungkwan can smack him upside the head, Chan moves towards you. He starts thinking of all the ways to start a conversation. When he notices you wearing the same color converse as him, he comes up to your side and says, “Purple Converse hits differently, doesn’t it?” You turn around, and he swears he nearly melts into the floor. You look down at both of yours converse, “It does. It’s nice to see someone else who has good taste in colors and shoes.” He smiles, “Same here. What’s your least favorite brand of shoe?” “Adidas.” “Fair, I’m not a fan of Sketchers.” You gasp, “But Twinkle Toes?!” Chan can’t help but bite back his laugh, and he says, “You have to admit it’s a copy off of our shoes.” You cross your arms over your chest and pout, “Yeah, but Twinkle Toes light up and sparkle!” Chan smirks, “You can’t tell me you wouldn’t buy light up Converse if they came out with them?” You shake your head, “That’s not what I was saying. I was saying that you come into this Fraternity and dare to insult Twinkle Toes.” He shrugs, “I belong to the Fraternity. And I’m sure it’s heard worse. And it was more aimed at Sketchers, but yes, I dislike Twinkle Toes.”

That’s how you and Chan ended up talking on the couch for the rest of the night, moving away from the Twinkle Toes dispute. To different topics to argue about, like what’s the best color, and why is it blue? No, it’s definitely Green! The best texture is velvet. Oh, that fabric makes me want to shrivel up and die, but I guess it’s better than tulle. The worst fabric is tulle; you have me there. The best guitarist? I’d say, Eric Clapton. Any man that proclaims that they are God. Are already ruled out-- And it’s definitely Jimi Hedrix.

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Chan started up most of the arguments that night. But it seemed more often than not you were winning. As it grew to be two am in the morning, the two of you called it quits until you saw each other again. Not before you guys exchanged numbers, of course.

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Hey! I was wondering if you wanted to meet up in the cafeteria?

Chan <3: Yeah, I can be there in ten!

Which lightbulb is best?

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He raced to the cafeteria, throwing on his purple converse and purple cardigan to match. The boys never saw him move so fast, but Seungkwan immediately knew the boy caught feelings.

--[Pov change]--

After grabbing two pumpkin spice lattes from Dunkin, I grab a table for two. I watch over the entrance and wait for him to appear. And when he does, it takes my breath away, ‘was he this good-looking last night? I thought he was beyond cute last night,... But oh,... he’s taking my breath away, omg.’ I wave him over, and he smiles and walks over to the table, and I can’t help but smile back. I tell him, “I wasn’t sure what kind of coffee to get you, so I decided on getting us pumpkin spice for the season and all. Is that okay?” He grins and gives me a nod before he sits down. I smile back at him as he says, “Fluorescent is the best--” I shake my head at him, “Incandescents are--.” He shakes his head back at me, “Fluorescent, not only comes in soft yellow light like incandescent now. But it’s also better for the environment.” My jaw drops, “I did not know they had a soft color! That is cool, but at least an incandescent will keep you warm.” He raises an eyebrow, “And that’s supposed to be a positive? Edison stole his work, you know.”

Chan pats himself on the back and leans back while taking a sip of his latte. He looks me in the eyes and asks, “What’s your favorite color and why?” I go on about (f/c) for a few minutes before turning the question on him. And he tells me, “It used to be blue, but the color purple has been growing on me lately.” I can’t help but laugh and look down to see our shoes matching. He seems to notice it too, and we click them together with a laugh, and I tell him, “I have to agree purple is a pretty good color.” That’s when I ask, “What’s the best food in your opinion?” And that’s how we spent the rest of the evening talking and laughing until the cafeteria closed up.

He offers to walk me home, and I agree, and we talk about various things, like how we miss certain things from home like his grandma’s kimchi. And how much I miss my mom’s cat, we carry on like that until we reach my dormitory. It wasn’t until I was up the steps and in my room that I realized we were holding hands the whole way there. I’m not sure if he noticed it either. At least, if he did, he didn’t mention it. We were so comfortable with each other that skinship just came naturally. And now I’m hyperventilating. I just held his hand?! And I didn’t ask him if he wanted to go on a date with me?! No, because I didn’t pay attention, I was too lost in his eyes and our conversation to think.

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Chan <3: Hey!

Hey! :)

Chan <3: Are hotdogs a sandwich?

It’s one piece of bread instead of two so,... no.

Chan <3: But don’t you make open-faced sandwiches with pb & j?

You have me there, but I still stand by what I said.

Chan <3: They are a sandwich. Let’s agree to disagree.

…

…

Fine.

Chan <3: Yes!

Is water wet?

Chan <3: I don’t like that…

--5 minutes later--

Chan <3: I just searched it up, and it says it’s a property of water, and it technically isn’t wet.

Yeah, I don’t like that either…

Chan <3: Goodnight!

Goodnight :)

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I’m bored in College Algebra sitting next to Seungkwan when he asks, “So, (Y/n), how’s Chan and you going?” I gasp, “How do you know about that?” “Honey, there isn't a thing I don’t know.” I blush, “I think it’s going pretty well; I really like him, you know.” He nods, “Well, I know for a fact that it is going well. So, when are you guys going to make it official?” I blush and look down at my purple converse, “I also noticed that you two haven’t stopped wearing that pair.” I scratch my neck, “These shoes are just the most comfortable to wear. We uh held hands for the first time last night.” He grins, “Sure, that’s why you both wear them, ALL the time, even when it doesn’t go with the outfit. Because, that’s something you of all people would do, uh-huh. But alas, that’s my favorite couple!” I squint at him, “I thought your favorite couple was Seungche-” “I’ve moved on. I must endorse the most likely to succeed.” I shake my head at him with a smile playing on my face.

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Later that evening, Chan texts me to meet him outside my dorm. I rush down, trying hard to conceal the smile plastered on my face. He rolls down the window and waves me over. I wave back and open the door, my excitement clearly showing on my face. “Where are we heading?” He smiles, “For a drive along the coast.” I smile, “Wicked.” He turns on the radio to an oldies station, and I laugh, “I didn’t expect you to like this.” He smiles, “These songs make me want to dance the night away with the love of my life.” I grin, “Yeah,... the love is sweet and sincere.” He nods, and with that, we settle into a comfortable silence letting the music filter through the speakers.

We're two city blocks away when he hits a red light and asks, “What do you wanna listen to?” I smile before I pull out my phone, “Do you mind?” He shakes his head and gestures to his aux cord. I plug in my phone and turn on my late-night drive playlist. He can’t help but smile as the first song comes on, “You like the King of Pop?” I grin at him, “Who wouldn’t?” He smiles brightly over at me, “I like that attitude.” I smile and ask, “Favorite song?” He slows down as he approaches another red, “Billie Jean and you?” “The Way You Make Me Feel,” I tell him, and he asks, “How do I make you feel?” I feel my ears turn red before I tell him honestly, “Giddy inside. I never know what we’re going to talk about next,...” The light turns green, and he waits at the light and turns toward me, and tells me, “I feel the same way.” Before focusing back on the road.

Not too much longer before we come up upon another red light before he looks over and goes, “McDonald’s or Wendy’s?” I scrunch my nose in thought, “While Wendy’s has killer frosties, I’d say McDonald’s is more of a late-night drive type of food.” He smiles, “You have me there.” He pulls into the drive-thru, “What do you want?” I tell him a medium chocolate shake and nuggets would be fine. “Two chocolate milkshakes and a twenty-piece nugget.” He says without a second thought and pulls up to the window. And before I can hand him my card, he already has handed his over to the cashier. When he sees me gawking at him, he winks and goes, “Gotta be quicker next time~.” I roll my eyes, and we wait at the second window. He places the two drinks in the cupholders and hands me the bag of nuggets.

I shove a straw into each milkshake and hand him his at the next red light. After two traffic lights, he parks in front of a turnpike so we can watch the traffic go by, “Do you ever wonder where these people are going? And if you’ll ever see them again?” I nod, “Sometimes, I wonder if the person in the fast lane has to pee or if they have a need for speed?” He laughs, and I smile over at him, “Do you ever see what you think is your friend's car and then end up waving to a complete stranger?” He nods, “It happened to me once when I swore it was Seokmin’s car. And I look over, and I’m waving at a college professor,… It was so awkward walking into that class later that week.” I laugh, and we eat our chicken nuggets and drink our shakes while talking about various things between bites.

He’s driving us back home, and we fall silent as the streetlights flash over the car. And buildings blur past as the speed limit rises, the songs permeating through set a soothing mood. Our arms rest on the middle console, and like before, our hands bump once. And we move away for a moment before we settle back, and they bump again. He stops at the red light, and we exchange a glance before interlocking our hands. And I couldn’t help but feel giddier.

When he goes to drop me off at my dorm, I can’t help but feel a little disappointed that the night has already come to an end. I unclick my seatbelt and look over to see him unbuckling his and opening his door. Before I can even move my hand to open my door, there, he is holding it open for me. I can’t help but giggle behind my hand and step out of his car. He shuts the door behind me and walks with me up to my dorm.

“Well, this is me.” I tell him as we reach my door, and he says, “Well, I guess I’ll be seeing you later!” He smiles and goes to walk back the way he came when I let out, “Wait!” As Seungkwan’s words ring out through my head, ‘So, when are you guys going to make it official?' He turns on his heel to face me, and before I can regret it, I ask, “Would you consider tonight our first date?” He smirks, “Only if there are many more to come.” I grin, “Then, a first date it is.” The two of us grin before he turns back around, and as I unlock my door, he goes, “Wait!” I can’t help but smile, “After our first date, aren’t I supposed to kiss you goodnight?” While looking down at my purple converse, I tell him, “Depends on how you view the steps.” I watch as his matching purple set comes into view, and that's when I feel his breath fan my face as he brings my chin up to look him in the eyes. And instead of kissing me on the lips as I had thought, he kisses my forehead. Leaving me wanting more, I gasp, and he smiles before releasing my chin and skipping away. I shake my head with a big smile on my face, already excited for our next date.