#i hate living here

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 ๑•̥﹏•̥๑ OMG this is so fucking sweet, gosh I just wan't Sol to lurne self love. Im so excited to meet Ruin aswell. Its ganna be oh so wonderfull.*.☆⸜(⑉˙ᗜ˙⑉)⸝♡.*

( also im insainly curios about Sol's potental injury or even some sort of disabulity. It be aswom if hes like me an y/n and has some sort of cronic pain or invisabule disabulity. Like in y/ns scar is visabule when not hidded under clothes but the sideeffects and c-ptsd are invisabule. Gosh it be awsome :].

Affter cut it me talking about my own disability's an my fears of using a mobility aid becuse of where I live

Sorry to put all this under ur lovely wholsome art im ganna reblog it agin without all this persinal junk under it muddying up the format. :]]

also I might start drawing mysef with a cain bc somestuff's getting worse in ik I should have one for flair ups ( my back an joints hurting more then usual and losing controll or feeling in my hands arms an legs ,idk what it is bc doctors suced when i was younger an told me i was making it up or simply just fat. I belived them bc i was a big kid a hole butch of outhr stuff but ive lost ove 50 pounds and its not getting better its acculy getting worse.) or when my leg gose out on me but im scared to get one bc im afraid of what it repersents,an the posabule target it will put on me. I hate living in the Amarican south, like I was fucking born here an im not ingnorant like some of these mf ik not all of em but its enughf to make you feel unsafe i was raised not the same an have been excposed to some of the worst an best people and sides of heth care ,Cps ,an the mental heth programs and school districts. I dont hold my knolige aginst them i just with they could lurn and grow perfurabuly not how i was forced to,i will never understand willfull ingnorance .i just whant men to stop being emotshinaly ingnorant and blind to all isuse out side of them self ,an i want the women to know that just becuse thats what they where tought and gromed in to dusent mean its correct or just, im so fuckin done with the toxic crishtian mentalitys full of greed hate an sexisum,abolisum, homaphobia, racisum that run like wild fier threw here. i acctuly live in a decently less hatefull part of the south but its still here. An thats the annoying part bc ik there doing it to keep ppl like me quiet thats why i refuse to me silent about my mental helth but im kinda a hipocrit bc I still mask and im nurvis about using mobility aids. Fuck I should so the younger ones arnt scared but im also young .I hate feel responsabule but if i dont who will ,ik its not that big of a deal even if it feels like a silent persinal protest ... Fuck im so off topic but hey ..yall dont seem to mind . Tbh im scared an I hate that I am, I need to show people that i excist even by simply useing a cain or being un-masked in public,but im scared of being hate crimed.ive always protected peope in need when i was younger id get phisical involved during moments of bulliying bc of racisum an abulisum like in mental hospitals i attaced a staff member for bullying an outhering my roommate with downsiynbrom bc well she needed to shut the fuck up and her words wher leading to my roomate getting bullied by the outher kids in tje unit, i still think there pussys tbh mostly bc they saw the unjustice and didnt acked even tho i know they where fully capabule of it bc theyve attacked staff for lesser things. Im not nessasarealy proud that i hurt that woman badly but i take pride in my acctons of protection but im scared that no one will protect me like ive protected outhers all threwout my life even to my own detrament. I dont excpect anyone to mostly becuse no ones protected me before but what if i have a flair up an i cant walk or protect my self. The cain would help but would also be a visual. note for bad ppl to know to target me. I know its a provlige to get to even way the options of using a cain but im still scared. ANYWAY AWSOME ART SOSOSO COOLIOOO ☆◦☆

SolRuin.... Matchies.

Ruin just existing is going to constantly deal psychic damage on Soleil I think.

( GITM belongs to @venomous-qwille !! )

[ibelieveinunicornz]

In a city full of: I'm a:

[sailermoon]

[kaleldobrev]

I am taking a mental health break cause this election gave me a lot of anxiety and PTSD.

[silverhandgf]

i need to smash the tv and my mom's phone so she stops watching candace owens daily

[joelalorian]

Gonna be a fun afternoon and night. For perspective, I’m in North Port on the inland side. We’re riding it out at home and fully expect to lose power later today.

[wordssricochet]

it's really hard to romanticize life rn

[momoironokagi]

istg if trump wins i’m more more jumping fr

[chadillacboseman]

Season finale of America looking insane

[pookiepiss69]

having a shitty mother is not for the weak

[fraddit]

Made the mistake of implying I was down about the election results during small talk with my mother in law...

[morkify]

I love sitting here slowly rotting away as I watch my rights get stripped from me piece by piece <3

[kuronell]

This one month… this one singular January has felt like the longest month in years. I guess hearing new news of the horrid shit the people running this country are up to damn near every other day can really fuck with your perception of time.

[maximumbandbiscuitsalad]

my skin is like paper

i draw on it

water it

and cut it

like it's made of paper

but it's not

they say: "don't cut it"

but we gotta cut to grow something better

[nullheaven]

Too fucking hot

[the-sn0wy-0wl]

Where the hell can a person get a Noah Kahan album in this fucking country??