#i hate having tiffs with her it saddens me to no end

[lungsareforlove]

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[killian-whump]

OUAT 2x20: Rewatch Blog

Hey, everybody! I’m back with another liveblog of me rewatching Once Upon a Time! I can tell you’re all really excited to get into this episode, which is entitled “The Evil Queen” - Ooooh, exciting!

Wait, what’s that? You’re wondering where the liveblogs for 2x16 through 2x19 are? Look buddy, I don’t come into your house and ask where your liveblogs are. I just... I don’t know, man. I can’t read suddenly.

There is one for 2x19, actually... but I don’t recommend reading it.

Anyway! Let’s get on with the show...!

“Actually, I prefer it with the lights on.” Classic line. Classic, classic.

Also, I love the way you can see flashes of his actual discomfort and frustration throughout this scene, even though he’s trying to play it cool and be all sassy - particularly when the bag’s yanked off of his head. Mmmm... Love that look.

Ah, love this whole scene. Gooooood scene.

Oh, a Regina flashback. Lovely. Nice outfit, dear.

“Kill them all.” Ooooh, that’s pretty dark. Still a great outfit, though.

“Are we really going to leave Regina behind?” I mean, it’s not like that’s a bad idea, Snow. It’s not like she’s your bestie or something and you guys had a little tiff here. At this point, there’s really no reason for you to be worrying about her feelings if you leave her behi-

“Henry won’t like it.” OH, WAIT A TICK. That’s right. You’re just going to jump to another realm with the woman’s child and not tell her. At least they seem conflicted about how to handle the situation in this scene. I mean, yeah, it’s a bad situation and it’s hard to know what they should do. At least the writers are having them acknowledge that in this scene.

“I don’t think so.” I can never unsee the evil panda blooper... AND I WOULDN’T WANT TO <3

That necklace looks like it’s made out of safety pins, though.

I love it when Regina and Rumple banter, though. They’re such fun to watch - two sociopaths bickering over trade agreements and other nonsense. Always a good time :D

Okay, Regina... You had me all the way up to “They die.” XD Like, did she reeeeally think that would work?! This is all just... uncharacteristically stupid right here. I mean, Henry’s not going to go for this. Why would she think he would?

“What I truly am - a hero.” “Not if you kill everyone.” DUUUUUUUH.

“How could I ever love anyone who would do such horrible things?” The writing in this episode is really kinda... weird? Like, if that was honestly where they wanted to put Henry’s character, that would negate, like, 99% of the rest of the series. Sometimes they just make characters say totally naff things.

“Why would you even tell me this?” MILLION DOLLAR QUESTION.

“Because I don’t have anyone else to talk to.” UNEXPECTED SADNESS.

This scene’s like a car crash. It shouldn’t have ever happened and is just plain unpleasant for everyone involved. I’m gonna erase it from my own memory.

Seriously, this writing is just... Regina’s smarter than this entire scene. The initial innocence over how hated she is was cute, sure, but she’s smarter than to forget she’s in disguise and let herself come off as a crazy woman.

“And this is where I grow my pot...”

“Captain...” Why does she look/sound pleased? My HQ heart rejoices :D

“...Once you realized your murder didn’t take.” Only on this show, haha. On any other show, that line would be hilarious.

She actually looks concerned about him having been abducted :D Shut up, I know I’m imagining things. JUST SHUT UP AND LEAVE ME BE.

“I took up with your mother for a reason.” And that’s because I am a lonely sub and I need the guidance of a dominating woman to reach my full potential. “Perhaps the three of us could re-establish an alliance.” Imagine how I would thrive under the care of TWO Dommes!

Shut up, that’s totally how the scene went.

Aww... Poor bunny’s sad that Cora died :( I mean, I know he’s faking just about everything in this scene, but he does look genuinely saddened by the news, and I like to think he was.

I really wish Hook had been sincere in this scene. They both need friends, and here they are and it seems like the start of something nice, and... It disappointed me on first watch, and on each and every subsequent one, when it ends up that he was playing her :(

I mean, you’d think he’d go for her plan, seeing as it will result in the end of Rumplestiltskin... and he has more history and more reason to side with her than with Tamara/Greg.

Well, maybe he would’ve changed his mind and sided with her, if... you know.

Shouldn’t Emma’s superpower have told her straight out that Tamara was lying to her when she said she could trust her?

Oh, okay good. It did. And she’s telling Mary Margaret about it.

Who... doesn’t believe her. Great. Wonderful. THIS IS HOW SHIT HAPPENS, PEOPLE. This is how bad people get away with doing that shit.

Oh, alright, that’s a plausible reason for keeping a lid on things. I GUESS.

BAHAHAHAHAHA HENRY. “I heard everything.” THANK GOD, KID.

He’s still limping. How precious <3

BADASS SNOW WHITE TO THE RESCUUUUUUE!

Alright, I forgive you for being a stick in the mud when your kid tries to tell you her concerns about the newcomer in town who is obviously up to no good.

Hahahaha, he’s so put out by the fucking elevator.

Oh, he played her so well, getting her to put that cuff on herself.

But really, babe, maybe you shouldn’t stand so close to the edge of that cliff there, especially with the Evil Queen standing right there with you. You know you can’t really trust her, right? I mean-

LOOK AT HIM FLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Ooooh, that was some thud. That had to hurt.

AHHHHHHHH I LOVE THE GENUINE FEAR ON HIS FAAAAAAACE.

How does he know she’s Maleficent, though? I mean, she looks nothing like Maleficent did in the Enchanted Forest, even if he had met her back there... And why would he know anything about her being in the basement of the library?

Still a great one-liner, though.

She’s kinda super creepy, isn’t she? And that screaming. Yikes.

WOW, THAT WAS SOME BLOW. LOOKIT HIM FLY.

He looks like he’s in a lot of pain... Poor bunny. :D

Ahhh... That’s a sad scene between Snow and Regina Wilma T_T

“I need a why? You never need a why!” HAHAHAHA You tell him.

Umm. How do praying mantises “hide in plain sight” tho?

Oh, gosh, I love Emma teaching Henry sneaky sneakster moves.

Hahahahahaha. “Oh, hell no, I taught her that!” XD

More feels between Snow and Regina Wilma...

“Startling, aren’t I?” Yes, you are, baby. “Some people say... striking.”

“You couldn’t have survived that.” And yet... XD

“And honestly, I almost put a stop to my plan.” I like to think he would’ve. I like to think he was actually opening up to her when he was talking about revenge, and that he might’ve - might’ve - sided with her instead of them, had she not, you know, thrown him off a cliff to his almost-certain demise XD

I’d still REALLY like to know how Greg and Tamara saved him from Maleficent, tho. I mean, sure, they have a way against magic, but it seems to consist entirely of their little cuff thing - and I’m pretty sure Maleficent wasn’t in the mood for new accessories. Also, we find out later that they only have the one cuff, so...

“I said you could call - didn’t say I’d answer!” Never change, Rumple XD

Why does the actress in the mirror shots keep looking... happy? XD Regina is not happy at this moment. Whoever or whatever she looks like, she ought to at least look grumpy.

Ugh. I still don’t like Greg and Tamara. They’re just... annoying to me.

“Bag her.” Hahaha, Greg, you fucking tool. Who says that?

Oh, that’s the end!

PEW PEW PEW PEW PEEEEEEEEEW

[this-is-tad-blog]

I thought Tiff would be different.

Who the hell am I? Who the hell am I to say Sarah Smith really died? That bitch lives within me. I thought I needed to kill her in order to reveal myself...except the problem I didn't realize, was that I don't even know who Tiff is anymore. I'd love to lie and say that I do, or say that I wanna be all of these things but when in reality I am COMPLETELY fucking clueless. I'm angry with myself. I over think everything out of habit, I'm used to not being appreciated by people and I'm fucking terrified to be loved. I've spent so many moments wishing for someone to give a shit when I should have been giving a shit about myself. Of God, I've handled too many things the wrong way. I secretly sink into these depressive states of mind and then try to convince myself that I'm happy. Sometimes I am truly happy, which I have been extremely happy for the passed couple months I will say. But I still don't feel good enough. I don't feel that I amount to what some people expect. If I do what makes me happy, I feel that someone else is unhappy. I'm so worried what everyone thinks of me that I'd just like to rip my fucking brain out somedays. I'm not sure how anyone is suppose to love me when I don't really love myself. I wish I was different. Wish I didn't over think things, assume things, care too much or either care too less. I wish I knew how to fix myself. I wish I knew how to stop these shitty feelings. I think I'm alot better than what I have been...but it's still a problem when I can't find it in my own heart to love myself. At this point it's not about anyone else...just me, Tiff. Maybe Sarah. Who the hell knows? I've tried to be different, more open minded and less gaurded. I don't know where it's got me honestly. I have a handsome man in my life who I really, really enjoy spending time with. It's so fresh and new and I've soaked in the happiness like a bone dry sponge. But then for no reason at all, and I mean not a single reason at all...I question whether I deserve his kindness. I question whether I am good enough, if he really thinks I am what he wants. And I think to myself what a shame and how sad it would be to find out that I am not what he thought. That I am just some selfish, lost person. Just another disappointment. That I end up as just some stupid meme quote on social media. I fear that this could burn out and all that will be left of me is ashes. It doesn't make any sense to me...none of this. Why I feel the way I feel. Why I fear the future so much. Some days all I feel is like I'm dying to live and I can't even do that right. I hate all of these fucking words on this post...because I hate to admit any of this. I hate the whole post. I hate that I have so much hate. It saddens me very much. It saddens me to even reread this before I hit the post button. It saddens me to think it could sadden anyone else reading it. I know I certainly never want to read about a person who doesn't love theirself. Please help me. God, please send me help.