#i had to process the vid so it took long i literally just stared for a minute before i do anything

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'hughes doing hughes things' EXACTLY 🥹🥹🥹

(Vancouver Canucks @ Minnesota Wild, December 3, 2024)

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Hoi! anon again!! so i wanted to ask something abt Dotwd this time. i wanted to ask if you had any "what-ifs" abt twdg & Dotwd. like what if lee & clem went with lilly during episode 3?

Ooooh you don't know WHAT you just asked me o(〃＾▽＾〃)o

[None of this is canon to DoTWD, by the by]

So on a Discord call with my friend, I remember he asked me this SPECIFICALLY. Because we were watching a TWDG "What If" vids on YouTube and one vid was what if Lee went with Lilly. So he asked me, in the context of DoTWD, how would that play out if it were to happen.

Well, not-really-spoilers-anymore but Ben is written to be Rachel's brother. And personally, I can't see Ray leaving Ben permanently in any scenario, that's just not her. Not to mention Lilly doesn't trust Ben at fucking all. So how would that work out?

Lee would have to lie to her. But the minute she realizes, and Clem does, she'd be piiiised. I don't think she'd talk to him for a minute. Hard snub him. Personally, I believe Ray would abuse any opportunity to get back to him.

But the one I wrote for is Lee leaving her with Kenny, Ben, Travis and Chuck. Since Lee isn’t there, neither is Clem. She’d be crushed along with Kenny who’d rightfully feel betrayed. The train would take longer w/o him, meaning they’d put Duck down before leaving, and Katjaa would die just the same as in canon. This also means they missed Christa and Omid.

I think Ben would confide in Travis about what happened, and Travis would be the one to tell him to keep that shit quiet.

They get to Savannah. Molly tolls the bells and they get to the manor. Since there’s only 4 of them, they’d all go together down to River Street and see no boats. They find Molly (after Kenny gets his ass folded) and she helps them get back to the manor with Ray’s convincing. Meaning no Vernon.

So, they’re herd and stuck moping the boat situation. Ray wanders outside to be alone. I should to mention that Ray would be really quiet and reserved since Lee took Clem and left with Lilly. I mean, seeing your father figure literally abandon you and take your surrogate sister with him for someone who tried to kill your brother and killed another member of the group is a lot for a now 9-year-old to fully process. I think like she would feel confused and hurt more than anything. As to how she’d find the boat; she’d probably just open it for no reason, she’s naturally curious. When she finds it, she runs inside and gets the guys (Molly sticks around still).

Kenny inspects it and says all it needs is gas and a battery. Travis suggests Crawford, they go to Crawford. Minus Brie and Vernon, Molly would handle the role of where everything is but it’ll take long due to less people. Ben doesn’t do that dumb thing Telltale made him do for comedic effect but let’s say the walkers banging on the door causes the axe to slip from the handles and it’s go time. Ben, thinking it’s the end of the line, confesses, and Travis has to stop Kenny’s (big) ass from mauling Ben. Kenny says he’s not getting on that boat with them, but Ra says she’s not leaving anywhere without Ben, and Travis is more on the lines of “I know he fucked up royally but we can discuss this when we aren’t about to die”.

They get through to the armory and Kenny gets that shotgun and covers them from behind. The get to the window leading out. Molly, Chuck, Kenny go first.

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That bell goes off next to Ben and he gets snatched by Oberson like in canon. Travis would be the one to grab him, but he’s struggling. Ben tells him to let go, but Travis won’t hear it. Ray calls for Kenny to help them. Kenny comes back, but the look he gives Ben, it’s full of contempt, malice and disregard as he looks away and descends the ladder.

Travis isn’t strong enough to hold onto him alone. And Ben eventually slips from his grasp, and lands on the bottom of the bell tower. Crack.

Travis just stares until he hears Chuck hurry them from the ladder. Having to drown out Rachel’s gut turning screaming, he grabs her and escapes the tower.

The way home was awful. The time there was worse. Travis could get the girl to calm down even for a second. Throwing every object she could pick up at the fisherman, screaming any insult she could conjure at him until Molly told Travis all the noise was going to draw attention. Travis had to drag the poor child upstairs and lock her in the office until she just stopped. She did, after and hour. When she ran out of projectiles to throw at him, and energy to throw them. After a while, she just wanted to hide, and wanted Travis to go away.

Travis obliges, and he leaves her. He sits at the top of the stairs and just… thinks. He can still feel Ben’s grip around his hand.

He keeps replaying it, over and over. The sound of him screaming as he plummeted to his death, the sickening crack as his body collided with the wood, Rachel’s mortified screeching, and Kenny. Watching. Ignoring. Complicit.

Travis sees Kenny come near the stairs.

T: “Don’t. Don’t you fucking come near us.”

The older man doesn’t argue, and returns to the bottom of the stairs.

Eventually, it was time to leave. The boat was repaired. The choice of who was coming was to be made there and now. Kenny didn’t want to in Savannah any longer.

Molly opted to go on her own. She was always better on her own anyways.

Chuck was still displeased with what happened at the bell tower, but seeing as he had no other plans. He chose to go.

Travis, on the other hand, didn’t know what the fuck to do. It hasn’t been three hours and he’s being forced to chose between staying behind in a dead city or going with the asshole who was complicit in his best friend’s death. At that point, he retreated back into the office with Ray, who’d bawled herself into a restless sleep. He had to think of them; himself and Ray. She’d have another meltdown if he chose to tag along with Kenny in that stupid, fucking boat. Hell, he’d have to make sure she didn’t murder the man or toss him overboard in his sleep. On the other hand, staying in Savannah with no chance to make it out alone was a death sentence.

Travis shook the girl awake. Tiredly, she looked at him, silent.

T: “… he fixed the boat.” R: “…” T: “He said—” R: “I don’t care.” T: “…” R: “…” T: “We can just get on. Ride until we dock somewhere, and go our own way. How’s that sound?” R: “…on our own?” T: “On out own. Anywhere you want.” R: “Anywhere?” T: “Mhm.” R: “… we can’t stay?”

Travis shook his head.

T: “This city’s tapped dry. And it’s full of walkers. I’m not gonna promise anywhere else is safer, but Savannah’s dead. I’m sorry.” R: “… Then mama’s dead, too, isn’t she?” T: “…” Rachel sat up, slumped. R: “…I don’t really care… I’ll wherever you go… just don’t leave me too, okay?”

Travis realized, he hadn't even fully processed that they'd both been abandoned at the same time. Just, discarded. Not even an after thought.

T: “Promise.”

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RIIIIIIIIIGHT SO.

I just finished chapter 13 of Dog At The Door and holy hot cross buns batman if you're not reading this fic you NEED to. It's literally one of the best written fics I have ever read in my life and I've been reading fanfiction for over 15 years, lol.

I went back and reread the entire fic to lead up to chapter 13 and I decided to treat it like I used to treat things I had to read in college so I took notes as I went and please I am warning you this post is incredibly long. Almost 3k words. PLEASE do not hit that "read more" button unless you're good with having to scroll past it all and also spoilers ahead. Proceed with caution.

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Rereading Dog at the Door reactions (spoilers, obviously):

· Doc finding Ren’s body to be cold and for a second thinking he’s actually dead—my heart

· “That’s Ren, alive and kicking.” Oh…no, Doc. No it’s not.

· The first “Where is my hand?” hits different the second time through

· Gah the ice and winter imagery ALL over the place—my English degree brain wants to watch and see if that shifts to warmth at any point as we go? Thoughts for future Red to think.

· It’s fascinating to me to see Doc constantly thrust into the prey role. This is a guy who is very much not that person normally, but something about the Red King is beyond anything he’s really encountered before—or at least not since Dinnerbone—and it pushes him into an entirely new role that he clearly chafes in

· “I should get back to work on your new arm soon,” he says, making a mental note to add claws to the fingertips. Honestly Doc why tho. XD

· “It feels like something Ren would want him to do.” </3

· Side note: I just watched Doc’s freaking hour long shulker farm vid, and that’s making it a lot easier to hear his voice in this fic

· I’m more curious about the hand.” New Ren laughs a bit at his own words, as though there’s something funny about that phrasing. I MISSED THIS LINE THE FIRST TIME THROUGH

· The bead curtain being cursed hippie treasure XD

· The fact that Doc just so quickly accepts that Ren is gone—maybe not permanently, but at least for now—is kind of heartbreaking. Because you know he hasn’t really accepted it, he’s just… deciding not to feel anything about it. Just nod and move on and pretend you don’t need to stop and cope with the possible/probable death of your best friend and the fact that Someone Else is wearing his skin. That’s so sad.

· “high-fiving the finished hand with his own metal hand.” Aww… Doccy.

· “He shoos away the images of New Ren holding him up by the throat supervillain-style and turns around.” Hmmmmmmm want that fanart. Scary New Ren/RK is good stuff. (post-chapter-13 Red popping in with a WHAT THE HECK)

· “that makes him seem like a ghost in Ren’s body.” YA KNOW. LIKE HE IS.

· Okay side note time: why is the Red King here? Ya know? Like – in 3rdLife the idea of a possessing spirit of bloodlust makes some sense. But why stick around? Was RK trying to escape the 3L server, or was this not deliberate? At what point did he take over from Ren—at Black Heart Altar? In which case, was the whole idea Ren’s to begin with, or was he influenced? Maybe it happened the first time Ren died? The Red King took over then—or at least started to? Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts, thoughts…

· Wait more theories—what if RK is connected to the ????? entity that spoke to Martyn when he died? In which case, cMartyn said he was considering making that canonically a Watcher (he ended up not doing it, but he also didn’t do anything that contradicted it either). I’m not saying RK is a Watcher… but boy he sure does stare a lot, don’t he.

· Holding the screwdriver like a dagger—mmmm

· Okay funny thought: all this frost, RK’s gonna need to be real careful about rust lol. And straining the metal, tbh, all that freezing and thawing is going to have an effect but the rust idea is making me laugh

· Until I realized it would look like blood and it’s not funny anymore

· “Renbob is in the beanbag stuffed next to the driver’s seat” right so is this where Renbob sleeps because I have been wondering—

· “something about having two people look like Ren when neither of them are makes Doc stop to take a shaky breath” *sob*

· “Renbob clears his throat, looking up at Doc with a smile that is so obviously fake that it hurts.” Ugh the LOT of you stop repressing everything you’ll give yourselves a collective hernia

· “he’ll probably have to break the news to the other hermits, too, Iskall and False and all the others.” All these painful lines I somehow missed the first time through

· Awww warm air comes in when Renbob opens the door—with the flowers and everything, Renbob is so easily associated with spring, I love this contrast.

· Aaand there it is, yup, RK is shocked to see his face on Renbob, and Renbob is shocked to see that this is so clearly Not Ren.

· They both recover pretty quickly, though. Survivors, both of them.

· RK calls Renbob their “ferryman” and I’m not sure if I was supposed to get “crossing the river Styx” vibes from that But I Did. (does RK think he’s dead? That they’re all dead?) (post-chapter-13 Red here with a little bit of wordless screaming.) (and also a bit of pride that I picked up on this.)

· “And what a help you’ve been! Fixing me up, replacing my hand.” Hi yes, 911? there’s a dagger stabbed into my feels.

· “he’d rather remember rage than see another person’s heart break.” Dang that’s such a raw line. Oof.

· ”the Red King says, his voice hoarse with tears.” Really interesting that this blood deity can feel such emotions—like, anger or even fear, I can get. But to see this entity upset to the point of tears is fascinating.

· “There is a crown on Doc’s workbench.” Right, yeah so like—is RK unwillingly manifesting these artifacts? Because that’s wild, man. …how long before he manifests an “enchanter”?

· “I’ve never seen it [the crown] clean before.” Okay that definitely implies that maybe RK didn’t come around until after Black Heart Altar?

· “The Red King has the crown in his lap when Doc turns back around, claws gently tracing over the engravings, leaving frost patterns behind.” I really wish I had art skills because there’s this image in my head of a drawing of the crown held in RK’s hands, with his face (one eye glowing, one in shadow) reflected in the surface, and frost patterns following behind a claw that’s daintily tracing the surface. But I can’t draw so—

· RK asks for a change of clothes. What was he wearing when they rescued him, I wonder? The Red King outfit with the fur capelet? Or Ren’s Stargazer outfit? Which begs the question: where does Stargazer fit into all this? Was Ren’s return to Hermitcraft RK free, but when he came so close to dying to Sith, RK found that as a gateway to take over? (Post-13 Red here, Looking Intently at this note.)

· Awww… the image of a one-legged RK clutching new clothes to his chest and hopping down to change in the bathroom… That’s weirdly endearing. He’s less menacing when he stands up somehow. Less lurking, maybe.

· Oooohhhhh he messed up his back sleeping on the floor. Gotcha.

· Doc keeps telling himself (and RK) that saving him and working on these parts is “the right thing to do” and while he’s not WRONG I just want to see him realize that it’s not only the right thing, it’s realistically the only thing, because if he didn’t, then he’d have to deal with the fact that he’s lost his best friend and we can’t have that.

· “I don’t need to eat” ummmmmm no hold on this definitely implies that RK is possessing a dead body and I’m not okay with that where is Ren

· LOLOL “I can’t stand to see [you do] this” is such a raw line to be about watching Doc eat cereal with his hands

· “The voice doesn’t belong to who he thinks it does.” Ugh, Doc. This isn’t the first time he’s lost a close friend to Something Else, something otherworldly.

· “All of them are waiting for him, waiting for him to do something more, something better—” aaand there it is. Doc’s characterization in this fic in a single sentence.

· Doc waking up and thinking he’s seeing Ren and RK’s hesitation and the gentle “I’m not Ren”—OH MY HEART

· RK’s coffee = Renbob’s friendship bracelets

· Randomly can I just say that I love how RK’s dialog is all in italics? It concerned me at first because I thought it was going to keep pulling me out of the narrative, but instead it really just feels right. Also I’m looking forward to the moment when he says something and it’s not in italics because it’s REN and oh my lands please give this to me I beg you (post-13 Red here with a bit more mindless screaming)

· “watch your tongue with me, Atlas, because I’m the one person you can pass the sky to.” Okay okay okay—English studies brain coming out. This suggests that there is a burden RK and Doc can share: something Doc is currently struggling against that only RK can help him with. In the moment, I don’t know if this is really fair of RK to say—after all, Doc does technically have Renbob too, if we’re just talking about Doc’s unhealthy coping mechanisms. In fact, if that’s the context, then Renbob is a much better fellow-Atlas because he and Doc have known each other much longer and they’re both dealing with the loss of Ren. BUT, knowing about the upcoming conversation where Doc and RK both realize that they’ve lost someone (Ren for Doc, Martyn for RK) this line suddenly has a lot more weight. Again, I don’t think that in that moment RK quite has the right to pull this zinger. But in later context, it turns out to be true after all. They are the only two with this particular shared pain.

· Doc upset with himself because he can’t get over his “stupid hang-ups” DOC MY LAD. “I’ve lost my best friend, you’re in his body, and I don’t know how to process any of these emotions” is not a “stupid hang-up” PLEASE stop blaming yourself for everything!?

· “I’m so tired” in the middle of his nightmare—oh my gosh. That hurts so much for some reason.

· I also very much wish I had the ability to draw the image of Doc with tears on his face, staring dead-eyed down at his workbench while RK looms over from behind, pinning his wrists to the table with one metal arm and one frost-bitten one, a look of exasperation and concern on his face. Why can’t I draw the things

· “How do you know Etho” “I watched him die.” OW ow ow ow ow

· Doc takes this as calmly as only someone used to living in a world where death has low consequences can. Oh. Oh—that means… huh. Doc isn’t used to losing people permanently on any basis, especially not death. So no wonder he doesn’t know how to process Ren being gone (I can’t bear to write “dead” there). He literally doesn’t have context for it… and what context he DOES have is like—I mean, Etho and Bdubs came back. Ouch.

· “Twenty-five.” The Red King makes the number sound like a threat. Yet another banger line I missed the first time through. Imagine waking up and thinking you’re in 3rd Life again but instead of 14 players there’s almost twice that many and you think you don’t know any of them.

· I still don’t quite understand the “when was etho added/should have known there was something different” bit or why RK is so emotional about it… but I have trust that it’ll make sense at some point. (post-13 Red: ...is this something about the fact that he thinks he's dead...so he thinks Etho has died before? Like, that 3rd Life wasn't Etho's first hardcore? ...I feel like I'm almost grasping this but I'm missing an element somewhere.)

· And now a sword. RK. My man. You need to stop manifesting things—especially when they scare the ever-living daylights out of you.

· I absolutely adore the in-universe lore that Fire Aspect is a PvP enchantment because it threatens dropped loot, and yeah I very well might steal that. (Along with something I read at one point who-even-knows-where that Knockback is a coward’s enchantment, because I love that too.)

· He really shouldn’t. / Doc picks up the sword by the scabbard and hands it to him, hilt extended. Doc you already trust this guy so much and you don’t even know it—but is it just because you still subconsciously trust the face he wears? Or is it something deeper?

· Ugh, the “I was supposed to kill someone for him” conversation/scene is SO FREAKING GOOD

· “I don’t want it. Not like the crown.” Why, though? Why doesn’t he want it? Because it’s more to do with death than kingship? OH. Oh, I hadn’t even considered that. I’ve been thinking of RK as this like, god of blood and vengeance but maybe he’s not. Maybe he hates the bloodshed (“the blood! It’s drippin’ in me eyes… I’ve been blinded by the violence…”) just as much—more?—than Ren did/would have. Huh. That’s a new facet.

· Oh my heart the “have you ever lost someone and it was your fault” line. Dagger to the feels. Dagger to the feels.

· This like… “I’m on a roll and even though I know I should stop I really don’t want to” mode? Man. That’s relatable. Especially when you’re working to avoid dealing with something else.

· “Not making it for you—it’s for Ren” oh ouch ouch ouch the denial suddenly breaks through it’s okay, Doc I’m with you on this

· The second time reading through it’s far clearer that Doc has a blind panic attack here—when he starts rambling that Ren’s coming back, he’ll be there for season eight and RK goes to…do whatever he was going to do and Doc just blanks out. The manic productivity should have been a warning sign, the poor guy is crumbling.

· “Doctor” and “he’s not sure he deserves that title right now” UGH Doc needs a hug someone please hug him and tell him it’s all going to be okay. Someone please hug me and tell me it’s all going to be okay.

· “his hand on his throat” over the scar from the Red Winter axe? </3

· “I did do that. I have done that.” RK admitting to it actually having been him in Doc’s nightmares?

· Okay sorry the conversation about beating Dinnerbone will never not be funny to me

· RK mentions that people used to call him m’lord or Ren, and then mere minutes later you have “Ren. You couldn’t save him because of me, could you?” He knows exactly what’s going on here. Not maliciously, but he’s no dense-head, he’s put the pieces together. (post-13 Red: MOST of the pieces. Most of them.)

· Watching Doc slowly stop fighting his nightmares—like, the first time, he fights. The second time, he accepts it but still struggles. And this time… this time he gives up before it even starts. That hurts, man.

· Good grief the whole “get my head chopped off” / “you really don’t want that” bit. O.O I’m not sure what emotion I’m feeling but I’m Feeling An Emotion.

· “Snow’s new. Dream’s not.” </3

· …Doc’s not gonna be a fan of snowier-snow after this trip…

· "Dr. M77" Actually he’s Doc Monster, RK, but we’ll let it go. XD

· OKAY BUT THIS EXCHANGE? The “how are you feeling” / “better” / “you’re a bad liar” / “I said better not great” that’s such a good exchange and I don’t know why every other time I’ve ever seen it used they stop at the lying accusation? Doc with the snappy comebacks, man.

· Aaah, Doc and RK, two establishment bros bonding over a shared disdain for hippies.

· The bit about the fella who wore an iron helmet and called it a powdered wig—fear is in my heart. *shoves Scar into an obsidian box and blocks it closed*

· “Who was Ren to you?” </3

· Doc is more than willing to spread the flames, to sear his loss into RK’s bones. / The king’s face stops him. Ren’s face stops him. Holy CRAP is that a good set of lines. So much going on there, and ALL of it good.

· Again. I wish I could draw. I would draw RK sitting on the edge of the bed, gently hugging a collapsed-in-on-himself Doc. </3

· “And I hate the devil that forced us apart, that mixed my blood with his.” *adds another layer to Scar’s obsidian fort*

· OKAY STARTING CHAPTER THIRTEEN I made the mistake of logging into Tumblr earlier and saw people screaming so I’m sure I’m not ready for this but here we go

· Oh no RK has been hippie-ified

· “You started a paramilitary organization because you have hay fever?” *dies laughing*

· Ugh I need to go back and watch s6 I’ve only seen the tail end of Mumbo’s side of things and there’s so much I don’t know.

· HAHAHAHAH I do know the trident bit though—

· Wait he said Scar

· PANIC

· “Kingslayer. bloodthirsty. Time King. The coward. And the mastermind behind it all, the loyal soldier to the very end, the whole damn reason either of us are in this mess.”

· HOLY CRAP HOLY CRAP HOLY—

· “Is this the afterlife I deserve? After everything, this is the hell I’m going to endure?” I AM SCREAMING

· Doc pinned to the wall with ice, struggling to breathe—I CAN’T WHAT IS HAPPENING

· ((You know I’d get through this a lot faster if I stopped pausing to write reactions—))

· “A break in the ice. A whisper of spring.” Symbolism. Symbolism.

· “Ren was dead when I found him again,” NO I REFUSE TO READ THIS

· “don’t use the hand I built you to hurt yourself” DOC. SIR. MY HEART.

· RK don't run, RK get back here—what are you—

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· I

· JUST

· ACTUALLY

· SCREAMED

· AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

· *several long moments of just breathing*

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· *rereads*

· Holy crap on a garbage cracker with an extra serving of what-the-heck sauce

· REN

· REN

· Okay lol okay hahaha calming down

· I literally threw myself back in my chair away from the computer reading that last paragraph. I don't usually... physically react to things I read. LOL. Heh. I’m. Ah. I’m not emotionally invested in this or anything.

· Holy crap.

· Okay. Okay. Okay.

· Um.

· Great chapter, guys. Awesome stuff. Really good. I’m absolutely okay right now and it’s all totally fine.

· …please enjoy your break and get lots of rest and I very much look forward to the return of this fic you have no idea.

· I need to go breathe for a little bit.

EDIT: no, you know what--I'm not going to be a nice polite fangirl over here and quietly hope y'all see this I'm straight up tagging you, @fluffy-papaya and @betweenlands. THANK YOU but also how dare.

[bangtanger]

CONTENT CREATOR YEAR IN REVIEW

was thinking for 84 hours where should i post it but as its my creator blog i m doing it here <3 i was tagged by @taemaknae @suhdays @ynki @honsool @jjeongukie @taeyungie @dearbangtansonyeondan @lifegoesmon @everythingoes @flipthatjacketjiminie @yoongi-bts @jiminslight @hopekidoki @cowboyjinbop @yoonqiful @jcngkooks @pjmsdior @hobeah @balenciaguks​ @jinvant @hobibestboy @vjimin @yoongikook AND THANK U SO MUCH FOR INCLUDING ME T_T ik maybe its not a big deal but its a big deal to me and im touched :(((((((((((( also gimme some time to check all ur posts 👉👈 also im in a mood to say that ive collected many pokemons here djfksfhsakjddld ok nvm 

also sorry for a long post ik tmblr fvcks things up sometimes when there is keep reading so dont fight me plz <3

❀ first creation and most recent creation of 2020 

ok this is the fist one (still very pleased with colouring here T_T the stage lighting was,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, well yeah as always lmao) and this is the most recent (TBH DKJSKDSDK I WISH MY MOST RECENT POST COULD BE A DIFFERENT ONE THE ONE I WANNA MAKE FOR A MONTH NOW THE ONE ID PUT A LOT MORE EFFORTS IN SO IM A LIL FRUSTRATED i literally just missed giffing but couldnt watch anything new so took an old vid i wanted to gif once I DIDNT EVEN USE MYCOLOURING PSD IT LITERALLY HAS ONLY COUPLE OF LAYERS uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :( but whatever,,, it just kinda doesnt show the difference -_-)

❀ a creation u r really proud of 

well 👁👄👁 there r quite few,,, and the main reason is colouring most of these r comps and i a b s o l u t e l y sucked at comps and esp at making the colouring consistent there lol so lets begin lol  1 (u have no idea how muchi love this set) 2 (i fucking mastered it i wanted to remake it for two years and i finally did!! 60 fps smooth good moments iconic performance iconic hair colour his attitude bruh and ofc the fact that i could do sth with colouring,,,,,, and chose such an unusual colour scheme that i doubted jckdckfdk and it still worked out 🥺) 3 (lol i had this idea written down since 2018 as well and this year i could finally collect all moments i needed and oh boi yeah,,, AND COLOURING I COULD ALMOST yeah almost do sth decent with it there r still couple moments id changed but im pleased) 4 (im so happy whenevr i see this CUZ IT ALL WORKED OUT it was such an impulsive comp i literally only saw couple moments for past few years as well where i could see three of them in one frame and suddenly I WAS LIKE I FUCKING MUST POST THOSE MOMENTS SOMEHOW and im so proud of colouring it looks so well T_T) 5 (the colouring ofc im still :o that i could get rid of that shitty shit dkksjkj AND THE MOMENTS ITSELF?????? AND BLACK SWAN???????? EVERY PERFORMANCE???? HAIR?????? OUTFIT???????? EVRERYHTIGNM???????? HIS FUCKING STARE? FACE??? DONT MAKE ME CONTINUE AAAAAAAAAAA also if im not wrong this set in particular made me start my before/after posts 🥺) 6 (i jujst love everything about it e v e r yt h i n g also i could made ppl believe that jin fr has purple hair here when in reality its brown djhfdhskdf one of blending modes or adjustment layers worked this way lol) 7 (i wont even comment this tried a great tutorial with great beautiful resuls for the first time ever and it worked out so well and i like it so much and the whole yoongi here,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, also love me some borders that add cinematic feels to some gifs or just make them pretty in a dif way just like i did with prev post i mentioned imo lol) OK LAST ONE 8 (I USED A VIDEO OF STARS AND ADDED IT TO THE GIF FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER I FUCKED WITHMASKING FOR 3 HOURS GRRRRRRRR THIS IS SO HUGE FOR ME!!!!! i cant even explain whew IVE NEVER DID ANYTHING LIKE THIS BEFORE SO I WAS REALLY PROUD TOO even tho i fucked masking up on some layers lmao but lets not pay too much attention to it 👀)

❀ a creation that took u forever

ohhhhhhhh i think this one cuz the moments were long i couldnt decide what do i want to include + it ts file so u kno,,, the speed,,, of processing,, + somehow decided to put them all together + fucked with colouring + had to get rid of the logo and as we know japan likes a lot of big braight text around haha and draw hair in moments where logo made it look blurry + had to adjust the order and all that stuff but getting rid of logo was the longest part 

❀ a creation from 2020 that received the most notes

whew this iconic one im still amazed tbh they looked soso incredible and im glad how everything turned out here <3 (could change some colouring on bg tho so it could look better and more hq :c)

❀ a creation u think deserved more notes 

lol this one cuz i was so hyped to make it cuz their concert in saudi arabia is one of my fav things in the world and i waited for so long to have mood and energy to go throught it to find jk moments and i couldnt choose some for this comp for so long and just,,,,,, overall,,,, the way he looks here............................................................... its a special comp to me haha ill def gif more of it i have shit ton of clips left and also there r other members and i just want to sit and enjoy yhe whole thing to so may find more stuff to gif here lol

❀  a new fandom u joined an a creation u made for it 

i didnt join anything heurheru

❀ a creation u made that breaks ur heart

OKAY LISTEN DSJAKDJHFDKJ THIS ONE IF U KNOW U KNOW AND IM SURE IT BREAKS ALMOST EVERY HEART tbh whenever i see soft smiles or soft interactions or anything like this im just :’( <3 even my serotonin boost tag does it to me cuz its too precious T_T

❀  a ‘simple’ creation that u really love

this one cuz everything about it ah and this one 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

❀ a creation that was inspired by someone else

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm idk maybe this one ? cuz i never did anything like this before and maybe i saw someones beautiful headers and decided to try one too ? i could do a lot better there is not enough depth but oh well,,, lol

❀  a favourite creatin created by someone else

oh its gonna be hard :) dear every conten creator i hope u dont mind if i wont go though the whole 2020 gif tag but choose form the most recent ones i loved? u know how much i appreciate ur content cuz i never stop screaming about it in tags but truly there r more content makers and i want u to know that i really love ur content :(

@syubb welllllllllllll i wont even comment this is iconique.....

@jinv T_T val i miss u but there should be bday comps with that BIG ASS IMAGE THAT HAS ITS PARTS ON EVERY SINGLE GIF I CANT EVEN EXPLAIN that icant even find dfjksfskj

@jung-koook i literally couldnt choose ehdskjdjksd but i decided this one cuz its sososososososososososososososososososososo well made every single detail here is chefs kiss

@kkulmoon i truly really cant get enough of ur colouring lately T_T

@minhope !!!!!!LITERALLY EVERY PANTONE COMP OR ESPECIALLY 7 YEARS WITH BTS PANTONE ONE IM AAAAAAAAAAAAA and lmao i think this is one of the most reposted things ive ever seen on internet T_T

@jjoon hng amy u know how i feel about ur content T_T decided this one cuz f l a w l e s s 

@hopekidoki stuff like this makes my jaw lie in the floor dsjkdj

@flipthatjacketjiminie idk whats up but it makes me scream like a madman every time i see it.........

@lifegoesmon i cant even explain why i chose this one but everything here is so incredible !!!!!!!!1

@hobeah one of those good fucking bye ones.....

@taeyungie this made me feel so many things and a whole ass a w e so cool T_T

@jiminfilter i will never shut up about bts core jungkook one should also be here

@seoksjin THE COLOURS I SCREAM OH MY GOD O HMY OGD I JUST WENT TO CHECK OUT AND SAW THIS AND IMMEDIATELY DJKSJD DECIDED THIS IS CRAZY THE PASTELS THE PINNKS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA EVERYHTGIN but also those birthday posts ahhh T_T

@jinvant i wanna YELL but also u know how much i love ur quality and blacks  T_T and gfxs too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@yoongi-bts i love everything here with my whole heart!!!

@everythingoes SHOUWLD I EVEN EXPLAIN WHY

@hobibestboy THIS IS SO COOL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THE COLOUR SCHEME

@joenns  I WONT EVEN EXPLAIN IM SO HURT HES SO THIS IS SO T____________________T 

@jjeongukie idk i cant get enough of skin tone!!!!!!!!!!!!

@chaylani i really love the colouring and love these posts with highlights T_T

@eklipxe COLOURING AND EVERYTHIGN

@oncupid cant get enough of every colouring ive seen <3

@jiminslight THIS WHOLE GIF RIGHT HERE

@6dis-ease COZY AND PRECIOUS T_T

@ofkimtaehyung I LITERALLY HAVE NO WORDS ITS SO PRETTY

@taee it was really hard to choose too T_T decided to go with this cuz,, u kno

@yoonqiful CUZ THESE COLOURS DRIVE ME INSANE

OK THIS IS GETTING TOO LONG KDSFJSAKDL I WOULD ADD A LOT MORE CUZ THERE IS A LOT MORE TO ADD BUT IVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR THREE HOURS I BETTER CHILL 

❀  some of your favourite content creators from this year

ok i may forgot someone + in no order in particular + literally every creator that i follow/whose content i reblog @taeguks @tearuntold @cyphertaehyungie @love4hobi @kimnamtaejin @taejoon @jimiyoong @namkook @taeyungie @jinvant @jinv @6dis-ease @jiminrolls @daechwitas @syubb @syuga @jjeongukie @cowboyjinbop @hope-film @minhope @hopekidoki @joonie @namgination @jung-koook @faerieth @kooksv @lifegoesyoon @yoonqiful @j-sope @chaylani @jiminfilter @jjoon @everythingoes @varietae @seoksjin @dearbangtansonyeondan @ofkimtaehyung @yoongi-bts @gaypeople @seokjinyoongis @agustdfeatrm @joenns @houseofarmanto @namjoon (will miss forever) @thebtsgenre @honsool @vjimin @seokjinite @jiminswn @taee @hobeah @lifegoesmon @taemaknae @gukgi @kkulmoon @flipthatjacketjiminie @jintae @jcngkooks @ynki @yoongikook @yoongiandthebiaswreckers @jiminslight @gwkie @oncupid @eternalbulletproof and many more <3

OK SO i wanna say a special thanks to every content creator ever and also i wanna say that im really glad to be a part of this community all of u r so cool and creative and make such beautiful things and many of u made me feel EMOTIONS with ur sets or not only sets ill be forever grateful that i discovered bts and for everything they do to me without even knowing ALSO THANK U FOR STILL BEING HERE ON TUMBRLDSDFKJ yeah this year was less active there were few issues many ppl went on twt but thank u for still being here also happy new year <3333333 i think i sounded deeper and more emotional when i was commenting ppls gifs :| but its almost 2 am so i hope u will understand dkfjkfsjk im happy there is this corner on the internet that feels cozy and so welcoming <3 i love u i wish u a better year ahead <3 ok for checking notifications purpose ill tag my blog lol @eternal-bangtan

[whorefordean]

just tell them × g.d

warnings: a few bad words, little bit of angst but it gets fluffy

word count: 1.6k

pairing: Grayson Dolan x reader

prompt: Hello! Can I get a grayson dolan imagine? Where they are secretly dating both of them are famous youtubers and she’s also a part of the sister squad and before filming a vid they got into a fight and throughout the whole vid grayson is salty to her and she had enough and almost walk out of the vid? Ends with a fluff? Thank youuuu! 💗 from @teamquacksonholland

IM SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG!! IT’S NOT EVEN GOOD :(

“What the fuck do you want me to do?” Grayson bellowed at the top of his lungs. He threw his hands up in the air, and his face was flushed bright red.

“Grayson, why can’t you understand that I don’t want the fans to know about us? We’re doing fine without the whole world knowing about us dating!” I screamed back just as loud. I ran a hand through my hair and turned around to walk into our shared bedroom.

“Because I love you, and I want the world to know,” he scoffed like it was the most obvious thing in the world. I groaned loudly. He knew what he was doing.

“Grayson, please just wait. I don’t want to tell the fans yet, so drop it,” I begged him while walking down the hallway. I passed by a wide-eyed James in the hallway. He offered me a soft smile, and I very quickly returned one.

“You guys okay?” James quizzed gently. I nodded and wrapped my arms around him. He rubbed my back comfortingly, then went to find Emma to discuss the video. I walked down the rest of the hallway and quickly changed into a “Sisters” hoodie. I quickly walked out of our bedroom and made my way into the living room where everyone was waiting.

“Are we recording in here or on the purple couch?” I asked everyone, silently praying it was in here due to the lack of room on the purple couch.

“Purple couch, duh!” Ethan exclaimed. I sighed quietly, not wanting to be cramped between everyone considering this was my video. I nodded and grabbed my phone from the table sitting in the middle of the room. Everyone followed after me and settled on the couch while I set up my camera. I clicked record and squeezed myself between James and Emma. I glanced over at Grayson saw the slight scowl on his face causing me to grimace. I sighed and pulled a smile on my own face.

“Welcome back guys! As you can tell by the title, I’m back with my only friends filming another basic video,” I spoke energetically causing most of the group to laugh. Grayson smiled slightly but stayed silent.

“As the title says, today we are doing a Q and A, and before you come at me in the comments, I know this is a very generic video. However, we have been getting very many questions that you guys want answers to,” I said quickly.

“Grab your teacups, kids. The tea is about to be sister spilled,” Ethan jokes, causing me to cringe slightly at how awkward he sounded. James and I shared eye contact and burst into laughter. Grayson spoke aggressively under his breath. I huffed and turned to face him, leaning in front of James to see him.

After answering about 10 questions, Grayson was getting snarky.

“Do you have something to say, Grayson?” I asked him bitterly with a sarcastic smile. He lifted his head up, not realizing I heard him.

“Actually, yeah, could you please just get on with the video?” he replied back with the same sarcastic smile. I huffed and turned back to face the camera.

“Okay, next question,” Emma announced breaking the awkward silence. “Why does James always look fed up when filming with the Sister Squad?” Emma laughed as she read the tweet from her phone. James laughed and leaned forward getting ready to answer the question.

“Listen if you guys were to hang out with these people you’d get it. They can be a handful, and it literally takes hours to film one video. It can get exhausting. I love them though, I guess,” James spoke truthfully. I smiled and leaned into James.

“Aw! We love you too, James!” I giggled. Grayson opened his mouth to say something but decided against it. I was very quickly becoming agitated at his childish behavior.

“Grayson, if you want to say something, just say it,” I spoke up. He looked at me and contemplated his next remark.

“Why can you tell the fans you love everyone else except for me?” he asked hatefully. I groaned, angry that he was bringing this up again. We were almost done filming this video, and all I wanted to do was end it and start editing.

I sighed, “Grayson we only have a few more questions, then we can argue all you want, but I am begging you. Please shut up.” He folded his arms over his chest and flipped his hair back. If I weren’t so annoyed with him right now, my heart probably would’ve stopped at how adorable he looked.

“No, I wanna know why you won’t tell the fans about us,” he demanded. I scoffed and stood up.

“Grayson, if you keep asking I swear to you I will walk out of this video,” annoyance leaking through my words.

“It’s your video, babe. I’m not gonna stop asking until you stop avoiding it. We’ve been dating for almost a year, and you still won’t say anything. Are you ashamed of our relationship or something?” he asked with a sudden sadness lacing his voice. Grayson was now standing right in front of me, and James, Emma, and Ethan all quietly exited the room.

I sat down on the couch and pulled Gray down to sit beside me. I grabbed Grayson’s hands and intertwined our fingers.

“Baby, I swear you have my whole heart. I love you so much more than I could ever put into words. You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me, and I could never be ashamed. I want to tell everyone that you’re mine. I really do, but Gray, I like that we have this one thing for ourselves. The fans know basically everything about our lives except for this. Don’t you like having a little bit of privacy?” I asked with tears welling up in my eyes.

Grayson sighed and pulled me into his lap. He wiped the few tears that fell from my face and pushed a few stray strands of hair out of my face. I buried my head into his shoulder, wetting his shirt in the process.

“Please don’t cry, love. I hate seeing you cry,” Grayson begged while wrapping his muscular arms around me comfortingly.

“I don’t want you to think that I don’t love you or that I’m ashamed of being with you because I’m not. I wanna be with you for the rest of my life,” I mumbled into his shoulder.

Grayson’s body shook and a smirk formed on his face, “Are you proposing to me, Y/N?” I shot up with fear in my eyes.

“No, no, no! That’s not what I meant! I mean yeah, of course, I wanna marry you. I mean have you met yourself. You’d be the perfect husband, but I just meant that maybe one day in the future, maybe we’d get married but we don’t need to talk about that. Unless you don’t wanna marry me. Oh my god, you don’t wanna marry me,” I rambled on. I swiftly stood up from Grayson’s lap.

“I don’t know what I was thinking,” my hand found its way to my hair and tugged at it, “Ugh, why am I so stupid.” I paced back and forth, switching between biting my nails and running my hands through my hair. Grayson grabbed on to my hips and pulled me back down to sit on his lap.

Grayson put his hand on my cheek and turned my head to face him. Before I could register what was happening, Grayson’s lips landed on mine. I quickly kissed back, placing one hand on his cheek while the other fell to rest on his shoulder.

Grayson was the first to pull away, keeping his hand on my cheek. He stared at me intensely causing blood to rush up to my face. He smiled cheekily and pecked my lips.

“I’m gonna marry you one day. You’ve been my best friend since we were kids. I’m not letting you go,” he said sweetly. I grinned widely and grabbed his hands in mine once again. He rubbed his fingers across mine.  I smiled when his fingers grazed across my empty ring finger.

“Gonna put a ring there one day,” Grayson mumbled. I smiled and ran my free hand through his fluffy hair. I pressed a kiss to his forehead as Grayson kissed my knuckles.

“I’m sorry, Grayson. We can tell them. I actually have an idea for an announcement,” I told him, grinning wildly as I thought about all the clips I saved from previous videos I made with the twins. Sometimes we’d forget about the camera and show each other more affection than usual.  

“We don’t have to, love. I’ll wait as long as you need me to,” Gray said softly. I shook my head softly, smiling at him.

“I wanna tell them. I want everyone to know that I’m dating an angel sent from God himself,” I said smirking, causing a blush to make its way up to Gray’s beautiful face.

I giggled and pushed my lips against his. He lips moved slowly against mine. Grayson’s hands traveled lower down my back. I quickly jumped up. He whined loudly with a pout on his lips. I laughed at how cute he looked. I took a few steps forward and clicked off the camera.

“I have to go edit, but I would absolutely love if you came and cuddled with me,” I told Grayson, who was very quickly making his way to our shared room, completely ready to cuddle. I laughed softly and made my way into our bedroom.

[bards-witcher]

Ohm and Cartoonz reading fanfiction about each other? Ohm getting flustered and Cartoonz getting flirty while they read? Eventually, Ohm reads a part of it where he grabs Luke's shirt and pulls him into a kiss, but Luke starts saying how unrealistic it was because Ohm would never do that, but Ohm's like, "You wanna bet?" and suddenly Luke is the one getting flustered.

Thank you for the prompt!! I hope you enjoy It, although I feel like I may have diverted away from it too much :/ I’m always happy to redo it if you like :D

[Ohm POV]

Toonzy: u up?

He stared at the discord message that popped up on his screen, smiling at who sent it, of course, Luke would be the only other person awake at this ungodly early hour of the morning.

Ohmie: yh why?

Toonzy: You know how when you get bored you search weird shit and you just keep going further and further in?

Ohmie: please don’t tell me you started watching pimple popping vids again, I don’t want to see or hear that shit

Toonzy: Nah I started reading fanfiction

Toonzy: Of us

Toonzy: It’s…. interesting to say the least

He stared at the screen in front of him as he processed what Luke had sent him, he could feel his face heating up at the thought of what Luke could have read. He’s not going to deny that he’s fallen down the same hole and actually enjoyed whatever colorful scenarios their fans made up, but that was a secret he never wanted to bring to the light of day.

Giving a sigh he pressed the call button, only a few seconds passing before Luke answered it, a terse silence filling the air between them.

“So, fanfic huh?” he felt awkward speaking and he’s sure it’s quiet enough that you could hear a pin drop.

“Yeah, I had some free time so decided why the hell not, and yeah…” He could hear Luke clear his throat, a tell-tale sign that he was caught off guard and/or he messed up, sometimes both. He tried to hide his laugh as he thought of some of the times during games the older man would try and throw something so confidently that there’s no way he could fail, only to miss and pause before clearing his throat as he tried again. That train of thought was stopped when Luke spoke up again “seems to me that the fans are trying to tell you something Ohm, you’re my bitch in every story I’ve read”

He couldn’t hold back his laugh at the comment “Fuck off, you’ve been my bitch in those fics plenty of times”

“Oh yeah? Prove it?”

It was a silent challenge, one that could potentially change their friendship for good or worse. He decided to ignore the implications of his choice as he gave his answer “Give me a sec”

Despite it being almost three in the morning they spent the next few hours swapping fics between one other, often narrating parts of the story they thought funny or outlandish.

“Why does everyone think you like drinking coffee? You out here spreading lies Ohm? Do I need to come punish you?” Lukes’ booming laugh came through the speakers which were coupled by his own giggles and flustered face. In the back of his mind, he was trying to ignore the fact he was enjoying this a lot more than he should, as well as that last remark Luke had made which had almost sounded genuine.

“Hey, I drink coffee plenty of times thank you very much”

“Heart attack in a cup is more like it, whatever the fuck you’re drinking sure ain’t coffee anymore”

“Whatever, my big strong muscle man, why don’t you go rip your shirt off”

“THAT WAS ONE FIC”

He couldn’t stop the laughs spilling out of his mouth as he could hear Luke try to gain back any semblance of control he had “Well you’re the one who had some kinda kink for it, can’t blame me for trying to please my man”

Now they were both laughing, his face red whether from breathlessness or something else, he wasn’t too sure. He could feel an undercurrent of electricity between them, even though they weren’t actually together. It almost felt as if they heading towards a cliff edge with no plan on stopping.

“Besides, I need me a man who actually has balls, you know, someone who can still use the bathroom despite there being a tiny ass spider in there” Luke only laughed harder at his own remark as he waited for his response.

“Hey! That thing was huge, I wasn’t gonna go anywhere near it. If you’d have seen it you would’ve reacted exactly the same”

“Ohm. It was literally the size of my pinky nail”

“Not my fault you have weirdly large hands”

“pfffttt, if you can’t handle an itty bitty spider how the fuck you gonna do anything in these fics huh?”

“Says who?”

“Says me, bitch. Not tryna be funny Ohm but the tamest thing here is dragging me in for a kiss and I doubt your capabilities to do even that”

“Wanna bet” he made his voice deeper than usual, the one he knew got under Lukes’ skin and made him squirm, a secret that had been admitted to him over a drunk call and something the older man had seemingly forgotten the next day. Silence rang through their call, he can faintly hear the sound of Luke moving around in his chair, but no other response was forthcoming. “Unless you’re not ballsy enough that is”

When no response came still, he started to panic, thinking maybe that had been it, he’d finally driven them off of the cliff edge. He was about to apologize before he heard Luke clear his throat, and he couldn’t help but smile at himself as he heard the false bravado in Lukes’ voice “You know what sure, I ain’t afraid of a little bet. Ain’t like you’re gonna be showing your face anytime soon anyway”

“1-year time limit and the winner gets $50. Goodnight Toonzy” He ended the call before Luke could reply, smiling to himself as he shut off his computer and started to get ready for bed, smiling at the ‘Deal’ Luke had sent him before going to sleep.

[Luke POV]

It was that time of the year again when he would travel to LA for E3, to not only get a good look at the games coming out and the chance to play them but to also spend some time with his friends and the odd fan here and there.

There were a couple of days left on the deal he’d made with Ohm which felt like a lifetime ago. For the past month, he’d been counting down the days before he’d cash in, every other day sending the masked gamer his PayPal link in preparation for it.

A tiny thought in the back of his mind couldn’t help but feel disappointed though, a small part of him had hoped that between the fanfiction reading and the flirting that there may have been something there, that maybe something could happen, it was just waiting for that final spark to send all their boundaries to ashes.

He’d traveled with Mark to the expo, only noticing when they got to their floor that his friend wasn’t in the room next door as was planned.

“Thought you were supposed to be next to me?”

“Said they had no rooms together, this was the best they could do” He decided to ignore the side eye Mark gave after his comment, how he seemed to be antsy to get into his room almost.

He pegged his weird behavior to tiredness before letting him escape to his room, both planning on getting some time to rest before they headed out that evening.

He couldn’t have been in his room for more than 30 minutes before he heard a knock on his door, letting out a sigh, he got up off his bed to answer it. He’d expected to see Mark or Anthony or any other one of his friends standing there, but he had no idea who the man in front of him was, although a small part in the back of his brain was niggling at him that he knew him.

He couldn’t stop the appreciative gaze he swept over the smaller man, at his messy brown hair and flushed cheeks to his toned body and nonchalant smile, how he stood there with a glint in his eye as if he was holding a secret.

“Hey Toonzy”

He knew that voice, he would be able to recognize that voice anywhere but his mind somehow couldn’t put the dots together, how the man in front of him was his best friend. He doesn’t know how long he stood there, eyes wide and mouth open as he tried to process what was happening, finally able to stutter out a response.

“Ohm? What the fuck are you doi-“ Before he could finish his sentence he saw Ohm reach for him, giving himself a firm grip on his hoodie before tugging him forward, he barely managed to stop himself from falling before lips were pressed against his.

It only took a moment for his brain to scream at him to kiss him back before he was reciprocating, the both of them not caring who saw them as they stood in the hallway, their kiss getting more and more heated until eventually, they had to break away for air.

They both smiled down at each other as they caught their breath, Ohm still had a firm grasp in his hoodie, almost as if he was scared to let go. Despite the fact that he really wanted to continue kissing Ohm, he grabbed the younger man’s hands and pulled them off of his hoodie before throwing the man and wink and heading back into his room.

“Luke, I’m sorry, did I-“

“Don’t get your panties in a twist Ohm, I’m only getting your $50 for your services” He couldn’t stop himself laughing as he saw the look of indignation on Ohms’ face before the man somewhat composed himself and had a wicked gleam in his eye.

“You’re lucky I don’t spank your ass because of that, now shut up and get on the bed” He couldn’t stop the shiver that Ohms’ comment sent down his spine, especially because he was using that deep voice that always had some sort of effect on him.

“Yes, sir” Not one to be taken lightly he walked over to Ohm who had started to make his way into his room before picking him up and over his shoulder, ignoring his shriek before dropping him onto the bed. The way he was now sprawled over the bed, cheeks red and breath heavy as they stared at one another was a temptation he was never going to be able to refuse.

It’s the next morning when they’re both tired and sore, wanting nothing more than to stay in this room and this moment with one another.

“Who do you think’s gonna be the first person to recognize you? Anthony?” He spoke into the quiet of the morning, enjoying the feeling of having Ohm wrapped up in his arms as the smaller man chuckled at the words.

“Wanna bet?”

[baguettelord]

“How I Write” meme thingy

Ooooooh thankyou @barbex for tagging me :3

Is there a snack you like to eat while writing?

Honestly...not really. I’m a savoury sort of person, so chips and biscuits is my deal, but I always get salt or flavourings or even greasy crap over my fingers and it gets in the keyboard and on the mousepad and just ugh...no. Can’t really do that. I do sometimes take breaks to indulge in bad eating habits, though. I do, however, drink a LOT. Usually hot black tea with a crapton of sugar, but depending on the weather I could drink other stuff too.

What time of day do you usually write?

I am TERRIBLE with procrastinating, so I usually start out late morning or just after lunch time and then....get distracted by literally anything for hours on end. I seem to be most productive VERY late at night through to the early hours of the morning where most of the household is asleep, I have free reign of the living area and kitchen and there is no background noise, save from the occasional car outside.

Where do you write?

Back in the day I would be stationed at a computer desk with a tower, but my room is cramped and FREEZING in winter or a literal oven in summer. So more recently I’ve migrated to the kitchen table, which is nestled in a weird little alcove in my house. I also tend to be struck by INTENSE creativity when I should NOT be, like at work or during really bad events like funerals.

How often do you write a new thing?

This is...a problem of mine. I literally had the idea for the fic I’m doing currently in JANUARY. I haven’t even finished the first chapter. :/ I do get ideas fairly regularly but I force myself to shelve them if I’m already working on something important to me. Sadly, this usually ends with a lot of lost ideas. :[

Do you listen to music while you write?

I used to do it a LOT when I started out, in like the first 3 or 4 years? I was more focussed back then. Music inspires me so much, but If I try to write with it in, its usually incredibly distracting. I can occasionally get away with it if I’m playing it very quietly (and practically ignoring it) or if I’m playing something that isn’t super catchy (like nightwish or instrumental music) I get the most out of music by listening to one or two songs just before I start writing and letting my daydreaming run wild with ideas.

Paper or laptop?

I have used computers to write since...maybe 2005-2006? Back in the day my computer(s) were not very reliable so I took to a strange habit of printing out what I’d typed up and writing it into an exercise book. Buut since I finished school, using pens for any length of time hurts my hands (and my handwriting has degenerated) so I just use a laptop now. Its so much better - the editing alone is a HUGE reason to use a laptop, but aside from that, my fingers can move a lot faster on a keyboard than with a pen.

Do you have a special pre-writing ritual?

Ehm, its not so much a ritual as it is a series of procrastinations I usually feel the need to partake in? Get home, make food and watch one or two youtube vids (MiniLadd ftw), check facebook, check the news, do some buzzfeed quizzes, jump on tumblr and fuck around for way too long, perhaps listen to some music, get interrupted 1000 times by my mother for various irritating reasons...and then stare at a word doc with a blank mind for at least 20 minutes before forcing words to exist.

What do you do to get into the writing?

A couple of things will bring me inspiration and get the ideas flowing. Music is one - I might listen to a few songs (and occasionally sing as well) whilst indulging in pre-writing procrastination like tumblr and let myself daydream a little. (Also, doing this in the shower is fucking amazing because there’s no distractions) Also, fanart. Seriously. Most of what I write is fanfiction and I find that if I read too much fanfiction when I’m working on something, my work tends to absorb some of other people’s style or wording or ideas. I don’t really like that happening, but I struggle to avoid it. Fanart helps bring fresh ideas into my mind without doing that too much because I can see certain characters in certain depictions and my brain will tell me a story of how they arrived at that situation, or be inspired for other characters entirely. Art always seems to do this really well for me because it gives you a snapshot of a moment in time and you usually have to fill in the blanks yourself. Also, if I’m a little rusty on my topic of writing, I will play the game its related to, or binge watch the series, and never be afraid to look things up. I always seem to work better when its fresh in my mind, especially where canon character behaviour is concerned.

Do you have a reward system for word counts?

No. The value of my work is not relative to its length. I reward myself on completion, regardless of the size of the work. For me, its quality over quantity. That aside, I also struggle a LOT with meeting targets, so setting word count goals puts a lot of stress on me, makes it less enjoyable to write and if I don’t meet the word count...that would be a failure to me. When I set out to write a story, its about creativity and ideas and bringing together elements of a world, characters, places, events to create something beautiful, to touch the reader, to inspire, to make them feel joy, pain, fear, to take them to a world I see in my mind and share with them. It has never been about structure, about time, about numbers, about RULES.

Is there anything else about your writing process your readers don’t know?

Well, I guess there’s a few things. My English has gone to absolute shite since I left school, and sometimes my words get jumbled coming out of my head. I do my best to proofread, but there’s always something I miss. Don’t ever be afraid to point things out to me that don’t make sense (but also try to keep in mind that I write in Australian English so some spellings are different)

I don’t get around to posting much, and I know this is a problem. This is because a lot of the time my process is very slow. I try hard, but my working environment is full of disruptions and distractions. My home life is...difficult and my mental health can often be a block to productivity. There also isn’t an alternative environment for writing because I have physical and psychological needs to meet.

When I DO finish something and actually post it, YOU, the reader, are what keeps me going. Your views, your kudos, your favourites, reblogs, COMMENTS. If you want more of something? TELL ME. I will write it. Legit. Drop me an ask. I will find a way to incorporate it into a story I’m already writing, or I’ll write a standalone or SOMETHING. You want more dextro-amino romance? Done. You want demons possessing animals? Done. You want an all-women Stargate team? DONE. You might think you’re a viewer, looking at a picture that’s already been done, but no - you have a hand in this too. If not the current work, then a future work!

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