#i guess there's a sense of relief?

[vociferans]

@ that reblogged ¡wtv post. What the fuck.

[edenscompanion]

consulted a bunch of jp players' dictionaries and. yeah a lot of the words just dont have an english equivalent

[shithowdy]

I had the opposite of your ER inducing gas pain. For years I had nights with excruciating abdominal pain that when I farted would get better. Until it wouldn't and I went to the ER after a full night waddling around and desperately trying to fart the pain away. Turns out I had gallstones and was just suffering through them for years. Oopsies.

Oh noooo I'm glad you figured out the problem though!! I'm waiting for the day my gall bladder fails me, I know I am unkind to it.

[baekuras]

Started AFK Arena, got Eugene as my first Legendary, liked his design but was worried I might not like his story bc I haven't yet read many of them and it didn't seem like a story/event heavy game, finally gave in 3 days later Anyhow order of operations: -love it, joke around why there isn't a series about it -no there actually is a comic and other ones too -read them all -actually go back to read Gavus and the kids stories as well -learn you basically JUST missed all them being introduced like 4 months ago -hide your pain by consuming everything NOW -it's 7 am i haven't slept since yesterday where am i

[patroclus-rex]

i can only hope in my lowest moments that i would be someone’s blorbo and they would consume my suffering with glee

[bugdogg]

Wait shit, is this what burn out is 😀

[unnecessarilygrandiose]

the issue begins when you begin to see an entire group of people as subhuman--even if they're on the side of objective wrong. if you see all bad people as subhuman, you're less likely to notice your own self turning into someone as cruel as them--because those people aren't human right? they're a bunch of freaks and monsters and offsprings of the devil. they all want us dead. they rejoice in our suffering. and nothing i can say or do is going to make me like that, because i am human.

before you know it, you're becoming them. it starts with wanting them dead then it goes onto wanting anyone who's associated with them dead and ultimately you become so obsessed with the act of hurting the cruel mass murderers that you completely forget you started this with the intention of protecting people who are vulnerable to being cruelly mass murdered.

and that's how you go from feeling repulsed at seeing your best friend come to the defence of her naive overprivileged prep team to creating a bomb that it kills off her sister, a girl you loved like a sister yourself, a girl you fed and protected.

the issue isn't wanting a bunch of genocidal people dead, it's when you become so obsessed with wanting them dead you forget that there are people in the crossfires, people with lives at stake, people who are going to become collateral damage in your thirst for revenge.

it's not unfair to want revenge. but it's not right to hurt people who are as much victims of the actions of horrible people as you are.

[satanfemme]

Do your ocs know each other and if so how do they feel about that.

they do! my book is gonna be split into two parts, and kurt (the protagonist) will meet billy at the beginning of the second part. at the time, kurt's looking for someone to kill but instead clocks billy as "like him" (this can be interpreted as either "also trans" or "also a serial killer", both are correct).

that said, their relationship is FRAUGHT. it's a friendship/enemy/romance mix, largely due to the fact that neither is very good at being a person. kurt's too isolated from other people to even understand them, and billy's not good enough at reading other people to match their tone. so most of their interactions are like

kurt: please be serious for once in your life. please learn opsec. please do not get us arrested or killed. billy: uhmmm ok but what if I were silly about it tho :3 this is so fun lol kurt: what the fuck are you talking about. this is not fun. I am literally going to kill you if you keep acting this way and I'm not kidding!

+ added is the fact that billy hasn't actually killed anyone before meeting kurt (and may have even lied to kurt about this fact until after their first kill as a couple 🤫) making billy a very stressful amateur student for kurt to mentor.

which might make u ask why kurt's even mentoring billy in the first place instead of kicking it out/killing it, but (besides the romantic/platonic feelings he feels for it despite everything) that's because like... how often do you meet another trans serial killer? also kurt's a very lonely person anyway. tldr: kurt doesn't feel like he has a lot of options here when it comes to making friends.

that's all^ focusing mostly on kurt's emotions tho. billy mostly just loves kurt! there's some conflicting opinions there too, especially when kurt's an asshole to it. but because billy's just a bit too oblivious to pick up on the serious nature of a lot of this, it struggles to take even the personal drama as seriously as it should. instead, it'll mostly just get very frustrated over kurt being an asshole/distant/angry all the time ""for no reason"".

in short, to billy murder is a game, to kurt murder is a necessary and dangerous lifestyle, and they both love/hate each other over this difference.

[lunar-fey]

THEYRE FINALLY GIVING ME REAL PAINKILLERS.... GOD BLESS

[lightandfellowship]

tfw you say you can't face your friend if you let anyone else die...buuut then you let everyone else die and come face to face with that friend again, even though you don't realize it at the time because she's hidden in someone else's heart

[cyphertaehyungie]

✨☁️💌🌙💫

[xcziel]

i seriously think maybe covid DID do something to my brain, but it was ... somehow winding back the clock to the time when i cared about music??????

cut bc of personal rambling

like i haven't listened to the radio in YEARS

i used to be all up on everything popular music as much as i could in my teens (no internet) and then in my 20s i had subscriptions to spin and alternative press and i worked in a store where i could access rolling stone or billboard at will etc.

(this is after i went through a period of being desperately poor, so like the mid 90s was just radio i had no money)

but like in the last ten, fifteen years i had just gotten ... tired of everything i heard, couldn't be bothered to look for more music really. i still lived my favorites but i hadn't added more than maybe ten songs to my library (other than cdrama tracks lol) in as many years it seems like

and then for some reason last year i started picking up the occasional new song i liked again

maybe it's having a place to live where i can play music out loud? but i lived the the same place back when i enjoyed music and dancing around the apartment and then when i didn't ...

i really don't know, but this spring/summer i have downloaded and *listened to* more music in six months than in the last twenty years probably

stuff that i *could* have heard the first time around but only now am i interested - i just don't get it.

maybe the thing about covid messing with the brain and memory storage is right and for some reason it like, cleared the cache on my music storage in my brain and now there's more room?

like i am still incredibly picky and not all listening to like *everything* but i am still enjoying it a LOT

it's just weird for me personally to hear a song and go 'oh hey i LIKE that i need to hear it again' and i find i worry that my interest will just ... turn itself off again

so far though it is SO nice

[lith-myathar]

disordered eating talk in the tags

[just-rogi]

i got an autims diagnosis*** after months of therapy and im so happy :3

[kanameows]

got to love how the bees and undead had such polarising normal polls while jun easily swept eden's poll with an 83~%

[floral-hex]

taking an edible for me is “this is a bad idea. this is a bad idea. thisisabadideathisisabadideathisisabadidea. oh hey this isn’t so bad. this is nice. nice. nice. nice. aaaaaaaand I’m sleepy.”