#i guess im in a beach-y mood lately

[love-is-a-pearl]

[sophsbookstore]

Monaco Nights

Charles Leclerc x hairdresser!reader ｡･:*˚:✧｡

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Word count: 934

A/N: sorry i've been gone everyone! My school just finished school so now I will hopefully have more time to write!

Charles comes home in a grumpy mood, after Ferrari continuously flopping, and little to no points for the team once again, his unsuccessful weekend is heavily affecting his mood. He arrives at Y/N’s apartment in the middle of the night, knocking on the door, hoping she's awake to comfort him.

A small knock and the sound of buzzing from her phone woke her up. The girl checks her phone, noticing a text from Chalres saying he is outside. Y/N as well as Charles’ family have been watching the races, they all understood how hurt the driver must be feeling after another devastating weekend for Ferrari.

Y/N gets out of bed, sliding some slippers on as she makes her way to her front door. She opens the door, the pair looking at one another before Y/N holds her arms open for Charles. He gladly lets himself in, holding his girlfriend as tight as he can before the pair pull apart and walk deeper into her apartment.

Quietly they walk over to Y/N’s bed, the girl getting under the covers as Charles anxiously sits above them, staring blankly at the decorated wall in front of him. Y/N watches him in silence wondering what was running through his mind.

“Do you wanna talk about it?” Y/N whispers inching herself closer to Charles.

“How did this happen, me and carlos? I'm just,” he pauses, “Im at a loss for words I guess.” he falls back onto the bed, his head now laying on the pillow. Y/N cuddles into him, placing her head on his chest.

“I'm sorry I'm over so late, I was just too anxious to go to sleep.” Y/N lifts her head, resting her chin against him, now looking at him face to face. 

“You know what my mom and I used to do when I couldn't sleep?” Charles looks at her and shrugs. “We would go on a walk.”

Y/N lifts herself off the bed, going to her closet to put on a pair of walking shoes and one of Charles sweatshirts. Grabbing an extra sweatshirt for her boyfriend who came empty handed. Charles lifts himself from the worm mattress and takes the sweatshirt from Y/N’s hands.

“So where exactly are we going?” Charles questions the determined girl in front of him.

“We are going wherever our legs take us, or at least until we get tired enough to head back.” Y/N smiles at her boyfriend, taking in everyone of his features before reaching her hand out for Charles to take.

Gladly, the driver locks his hand in hers, the pair leaving the apartment, Y/N locking the door behind them. The pair makes small conversation as they exit the building, keeping quiet, not wanting to wake up anyone around them.

When they finally make it outside the moon shines brightly above them, Charles takes a moment to look up, taking deep breaths as Y/N starts stretching beside him. Once she's done the pair start their walk hand and hand around Monaco. Y/N still being fairly new to the city, Charles acts as her tour guide, pointing out all the major touristy spots while giving her little historical facts about each part.

Y/N could tell the walk is getting him out of his head and calming him down. No one loves Monaco more than her boyfriend and seeing him talk about his love for his hometown just makes this walk all the more special.

The pair find their way to the doc, Y/N wrapping her arms tighter around herself feeling every breeze around them. Charles shows her everywhere, taking her closer to the beach letting her get a closer look at the blue water.

“It's so pretty.” Y/N lets the warm surround her hand, before pulling it out and turning back to Charles.

“It is very pretty, I really want to take you and my family on my yacht, especially with the summer weather it would be perfect.” he looks out at the ocean ahead of him.

“I would love that.”

“Perfect.” Charles and Y/N start walking back to the street. The couple taking in all the sights and sounds. “Your maman is a smart woman, the walk is helping…a lot.” Charles says, directing his attention back to his girlfriend.

“She is isnt she?” Y/N smiles, “I'm glad you're feeling better, do you wanna maybe head back now?” Y/N tries to hide her yawn.

“Of course mon amour.” he pulls Y/N closer, giving her a small kiss on the forehead before the pair walk back to Y/N’s apartment arm and arm. 

When they get back, Charles holds his hand out to take Y/N’s keys, unlocking the door for them as he holds the door open for his girlfriend who goes straight to her bedroom. Charles locks up behind her, taking his sweatshirt off, going through Y/N’s drawer to see if he had left pajamas there. Luckily he had.

The pair change quietly before slipping back into Y/N’s bed to cuddle. Y/N falls asleep first, her body cuddled into charles for warmth and comfort, Charles arms wrapped tightly around her as he admires his girlfriend.

“Thank you mon amour.” he gives her one last kiss before falling asleep.

[gladerwolfstarkimagines]

Azula x Female reader series: Part 1

Reader is Azula's personal maid and has been since childhood. You enjoy your job, not just because you’re in love with the princess but also because you’re very good at it, shown by the fact you’ve worked closely with Azula for years without a scratch or banishment on you. When Azula Zuko Mai and Ty-lee are sent to the Ember Islands Azula brings you too but when boys at a party start flirting with you Azula reacts badly, very badily. You argue and she demands you return home but after a talk with Zuko you realise Azula's actually jealous. When you confront her about it the confident scary princess is replaced with a shy bashful girl.

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Part Five here

Part Six here

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You felt free here on the Ember Islands. Sure this was work and you had to tag around after Zuko, Azula, Mai and Ty lee, but nobody here knew who they were so they couldn't boss you around too much. So here at this party you’d been invited to by some boys at the beach you were literally free, your royal companions all dispersed and none of them called you to follow them so you roamed around happily content. You basked in the feeling of relaxed happy people, everyone here was so friendly. You'd naturally been nervous and suspicious when they'd started talking to you for no reason but they just seemed like nornal teenagers so you talked back and soon found yourself laughing and joking with the people unaware the others were having a worse time than you, Zuko and Mai were arguing and Ty lee's advice riled Azula making her more and more angry as she watched you chatting and smiling with some boy.

You were still talking to the boy who’d invited you when he tensed smile gone as he fixated on something behind you. You turned to see Azula stood there, an expression on her face you knew well, anger. "Y/n i need to speak to you" she told you turning and striding outside before you could reply. You excused yourself and followed her unsure what you’d done. Mai and Ty lee watched you, Mai sending you daggers so you supposed it must be bad. You reached outside and shivered at the cold but Azula didn't seem effected. "what’s wrong princess?" You asked her hesitantly. Azula spun to face you and you knew this wouldn't be good. "Whats wrong?" She laughed "whats wrong? I invite you here and you embarass and humiliate me". You frowned "Azula I'm sorry but how?". "Really? Tell me you’re not naive enough to think those boys just wanted to talk to you?". You blushed and frowned "Azula we were just talking...". "You are my personal maid! Your actions reflect on me y/n". "I know that Azula, im sorry if i disappointed you". "You are a royal maid you should not be consorting with peasants!". You nodded bowing your head "im sorry princess". Azula was made angrier by you using her title, something you’d dropped here on the island and Azula was annoyed she’d come to like it which spurred her on further. "but then you obviously think high of yourself, flirting with my brother, how long have you liked him?". "Zuko?" You asked completely shocked "we weren’t...". "He doesn’t like you" Azula snapped "he argued with Mai and was using you to make her jealous, if you were wondering Mai didn't like you before and certainly doesn't now". You gulped "ill apologise to her, i didn’t mean anything...zuko just came up to me". "Zuko? are you so familiar you forget his title?" Azula snapped, angry you used her title and not his, "like you’re such good friends". "No i...its just a habit I've gotten into here, I'm sorry princess". Azula glared "well it appears i shouldn't have invited you here, you were clearly not ready, it was too much for you to handle, you have disappointed me and will return home immedietly". You were stunned "you're sending me home because of tonight?". "Yes, i think it wise to keep you and my brother seperated". You gasped "but i don’t even like Zuko Azula! He doesn't...i won't speak to him the rest of the trip if that is what you want?". Azula did feel a surge of excitement at your words and was tempted to agree and make you promise never to speak to zuko again, you would just speak to her, but she bit back her desire and stood taller "no that won’t do, you are to leave here, go straight to the villa without speaking to anyone, pack and go to the boat to head back to the fire nation where you will wait for my return, understood?". You went to argue but her glare made you stop and you gave in "if that is what you want Azula". She hated the way you said her name now, it almost made her feel guilty. Azula pushed that thought away and barged past you, not even looking at you.

You walked through the party eyes fixed on the door, ignoring the friendly people who called your name, and walked straight out onto the street. You started in the direction of the house your head swimming at Azula’s mood swings. She’d been fine the whole trip, why was she acting this way now? You hadn’t been concentrating where you were going and paused on a path lost. You saw someone up ahead and walked closer when you saw they were throwing things. You hesitated and went to walk away when you saw it was Zuko. He was clearly angry and you thought it best to leave him alone and started back up the path when he looked up. "Y/n?" He asked spotting you "what are you doing out here?". You swallowed uncomfortable, already breaking a promise to Azula "im lost, i was looking for the villa". Zuko frowned "you’ve gone way past it, what’s wrong?". You looked at him shocked "nothings wrong" you said hastily and "i just need to return there and quickly". Zuko nodded "let me guess Azula’s orders?". You nodded avoiding eye contact "can you tell me how to get there please". Zuko nodded and started walking in that direction but you didn’t follow. "I think it’d be best if you just told me, you do not need to show me". Zuko looked at you confused but shrugged and told you the directions.  "Why do you need to go there so quickly anyway?" Zuko asked "is Azula meeting you there?" He asked carefully. You felt heat rise to your cheeks and shook your head "no she..the princess wants me back at the capital". Zuko frowned "why?". You sighed in frustration, why couldn’t he just let you go? "I angered her at the party" you shrugged and zuko frowned "how? You were friendly and happy..how did that...ah Azula was jealous". You looked at him shocked "what?". "She was jealous, she asked you to come, you were supposed to be here for her and her only, yet you were giving your attention to other people" Zuko’s eyes showed he recognised something and he lowered his head "she was angry you talked to me wasn’t she?". Zuko saw your reaction and nodded "y/n im sorry, i was childish i saw Mai talking to another guy and wanted to make her jealous too but i didn’t know any other girls so i talked to you, it’s my fault Azula snapped at you". You were amazed a royal had apologised to you and stared at Zuko who waited for your response. Finally you coughed and looked at him "it’s not your fault prince Zuko". Zuko frowned but knew you were uncomfortable so nodded "she was just jealous that’s it". "I don’t believe the princess gets jealous" you couldn’t help saying but Zuko shook his head. "she’s only human y/n, just like i got jealous seeing Mai talking to that guy she got jealous seeing you talk to that ched guy". You blushed at what zuko was implying and too late he realised what he insinuated and tried to back track but couldn’t. "Can i please go?" You asked him and Zuko nodded "of course..so you go back along this path for about 3 minutes then.." when someone called his name. Your blood froze as Azula appeared on the path. Her smiled dropped when she saw you were with him. Zuko saw you tense and stepped forwards "Azula...". "I told you to go home did i not?" Azula asked you "you defy me again?". "Azula she didn’t..." Zuko started but Azula cut him off "leave us brother, i have to handle y/n". Zuko stood his ground but you nodded to him "go prince Zuko, i need to speak with the princess". Azula laughed "you give my brother orders?". But Zuko glared "can it Azula, you’re getting what you want aren’t you?". Azula’s eyes flared but she didn’t say anything, watching Zuko until he was out of sight and then the two of you were alone on a dark path.

Azula launched into a verbal attack stating all the ways you’d angered her and you let them wash over you watching her. She was jealous, what zuko said was true! You’d known Azula was a possessive person but didn’t think shed be so possessive over you, that she’d care enough to be..the thought made your stomach flutter and Azula noticed your expression and glared "are you even listening to me?". You frowned and looked up at her "are you jealous?". Azula spluttered her eyes bright with rage "jealous of you! Why on earth...". "Not jealous of me" you said quickly aware you had to tread carefully "of Zuko and that guy at the party". Azula stiffened and glared at you "why would i be jealous of them, because they spoke to you? You certainly hold yourself in high esteem". You shook your head "there would really be no reason to be if you were...i was merely talking to them, nothing else, it wouldn’t even matter if they wanted more because they’re not my type". Azula snorted "why on earth would i care what your type is?". "Just so you know my loyalty to you will never be questioned, especially by a boy Azula, boys...they’re not my type". It took Azula a second to register what you were saying and then recognition showed in her face and she lowered her gaze from you. She actually looked slightly flustered, something you’d never seen and you watched eagerly. Azula nodded "i see that is...good to know, not because...just it’s useful to know that is not an issue, for your loyalty that is!". You nodded softly, still Azula could barely meet your eye and that made you smile. "I still think it’d be a good idea for you to return home however" she said softly "you know i cannot go gack on a punishment". "Of course princess" you bowed and Azula paused "but i will be back soon anyhow, so really you’d just be preparing things for my return, yes?". You nodded "everything will be in place for your eagerly awaited return princess". Azula grew embarassed again and you almost laughed to see you could have this effect on the great and powerful Azula. "Head for the boat now" she told you "you can still make the midnight boat, I will send you your belongings tomorrow". You nodded and bowed "thank you princess" and walked away. You could feel her eyes burning into your back and couldn't help but smirk. Maybe things would be more interesting in the firenation now...

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Ngl I loved when we got to see the normal(ish) teenager side of Azula! Not sure if im gonna make this into a series or not but I’ll see.

[wolferals]

👄 whiskey lips*👄

arón piper imagine

*

„Hey y/n... shh wake up."

I was woken by someone shaking my shoulder.

It was Alvaro, I figured after opening my eyes and being hit by the sunlight right into em.

„Huh?" I asked tired and slowly sat up.

Thats when I realized I really had fallen asleep at the beach.

I slowly looked around and saw that the boys were gone.

��The guys are back at the house. You are burned."

He spoke in his cute accent.

I scanned my body and saw that, in fact, i was really red. Well I didnt use sunscreen because I just came down to the beach to bring Arón his phone which he had forgotten. Then we ended up splashing each other in the water and then I unfortunately fell asleep.

„Yeah. Uh thanks for waking me. Let's go."

I got up, grabbed my bag and walked next to Alvaro back up to the house Ally, their manager, had rented for us for a couple of days to get some rest from all the traveling lately.

„When did the guys leave?"

I asked Alvaro when we walked up the stairs.

„Like uhm... 10 minutes ago."

I nodded. „Okay."

Alvaro and I didnt really talk the rest of the walk. Not because we dont like each other, it was more because Alvaro was a rather shy guy and so was I. So no one ever started a conversation.

I do like Alvaro, but i feel like we just dont have too much in common.

When we arrived at the house I walked in first, directly to my room to immediately moisturize my skin from the already burned incident.

Then I took off my bikini and put on a comfy bra, a big shirt and some shorts before walking downstairs meeting the guys in the living room.

Arón, Itzan and Omar were shirtless, for whatever reason. I mean Miguel and Alvaro survived as well even tho they were wearing shirts.

„Hey sleeping beauty, uh damn u got burned."

Itzan said and put away his phone looking at me grinning.

„Didnt you use any sunscreen?"

Omar asked then and started laughing like crazy seeing my beetroot red face.

„Noo, because I never meant to fall asleep. Why didnt any of you wake me?"

-„Arón wanted to but we felt bad because you were sleeping like a baby."

Aw he wanted to wake me because Arón knew I would get burned, i told him before.

„Well..." was all I was able to say before Itzan pulled me down at my shorts making me sit next to him on the couch with me legs on his lap. „So girl, how you doin in general?"

Itzan grinned at me, then touching my cheek trying to feel up my sunburned skin.

„Im okay."

-„Can we watch a movie and order some food?"

I then suggested and looked at all the guys.

„Actually Omar cooked for us. But for a movie Im totally in. Lord of the Rings?"

Arón words made me smile. He remembered how much I loved Lord of the rings.

The rest of the guys apparently noticed mine and Arón's staring because they started making kissing noises and i heard stuff like „uhh guys hitting it off hard" of „Arón get her".

We all started laughing and Itzan grabbed my leg and said:"Yo Arón, she's my babe tho, u can have her but first u gotta pass me."

I hit him in the shoulder. Not for the „she's mine", for the „u can have her".

I've always seen Arón as an amazing guy. He's beautiful as hell, has the nicest personality ever, is caring and loving yet he hasnt had a good girlfriend at all.

Thats why he's mostly really awkward around me, he just doesnt know how to behave around a girl. Especially a girl that keeps staring at him, preserving his beauty.

„Alright let's watch a movie."

Miguel spoke and we set up the movie and Alvaro brought in the food spreading it within us.

*

About an hour into the first movie my head kept falling down and my eyes got really heavy. I felt bad because they were watching the movie because of me but i got so tired that I just got up and said:"I'm gonna go sleep. Nighty guys."

-„Ey! No kiss for papá?" Omar asked confused grabbing my arm.

„No way. You'll get a hug but thats it."

He seemed pissed but nodded. So I gave him a hug, said good night to the rest of the boys and headed upstairs.

The moment I opened the bathroom door I heard a „Wait"

from behind me.

„Arón." i smiled.

„Whats up?"

He came up to me and asked rather shyly:"Might I get a goodnight hug too?"

I smiled even wider from all his cuteness.

I took a step closer to him and pulled him in a nice warm hug. He put his arms around my waist and held me really close for a while, giving me the opportunity to inhale his sweet scent of the chocolate he had eaten before.

„Buenas noches y/n." he then whispered and smiled at me.

„Goodnight Arón." i giggled and entered the bathroom real quick.

I have never giggled from anything a guy has said.

What is he doing to me?

Without thinking about it, I got ready for bed. When I changed into my pants I noticed something in my back pocket.

It was a little note saying:"You looked pretty today."

Was that from Arón? But it seems more like something Miguel would say. I was wearing those pants sleeping at the beach, so everyone could've put it in my pocket tho...

I then walked to my room, snuggled into bed and watched some videos before putting my phone aside and turning off the lights.

I still heard the guys downstairs but I just ignored it and tried to sleep. Unfortunately I couldn't because they were talking really loud, so I slowly headed back downstairs.

„Hey uh guys?"

They all turned around to look at me.

„Could you please keep it down a little bit?"

They nodded and Alvaro said:"Of course y/n. Everything for you."

This led to even more noise coming from the guys.

All except Arón.

Where was he?

„Night."

I went back to my room and kept staring into the dark, still thinking about the note. I dont know the guys' handwritings so it really could've been everyone.

And still i was wondering where Arón had been.

Something that second made me get up to walk to his room.

I knocked at the door lightly and got a „yeah" response.

I slowly opened the door and saw Arón sitting on his bed with a lot of polaroids in front of him.

„Hey?" he spoke, which sounded a little bit like a question. „I didnt know you collected polaroids."

Before he could answer I sat next to him on the bed, looking at the photos.

„Yeah uh my mom got me a polaroid camera for my birthday and i kind of like to capture moments on instant film."

This simple fact made me go crazy. I've always been a big fan of polaroid cameras, i had 4 to be honest:D

„Thats amazing."

I looked into his eyes and saw the sincere agreement in his brown puppy eyes.

„Can I take a picture of you?"

He then asked rather shyly and smiled at me.

I laughed a little embarrassed because i really hate it when people take pictures of me.

„O-okay." I answered and smiled back.

-„Smile for me." Arón took a camera and held it in front of me.

„No wait."

-„yeah?"

I laughed again and said:"Lets take one together."

He hesitated for a second but then agreed and I sat right next to him.

„Alright, ready?"

I looked at him smiling and nodded before looking back at the camera.

-„I,2,3."

And the flash went off. Seconds later the instax wide film came out of the camera and I took it with my left hand.

„Dont shake it." Arón said.

I gave him a serious look and spoke:"I know. I have a polaroid myself."

He grinned, then took the picture out of my hand and we kept staring at it as it was developing.

When it was clear i started smiling. I was smiling into the camera while Arón stuck his tongue out looking at me.

It was honestly super cute.

„Here." He gave it back to me.

„You keep it."

I smiled ever wider but then said:"No its your film. You bought it, that shit is expensive."

Arón grinned again and then simply added:"No you keep the picture and in return we take some more with my phone, then i got some too."

Laughing I agreed. He took his phone and we started taking some selfies.

At first we really took it serious to take some pretty pictures but at some point we didnt care anymore and were just goofying around.

„I love this one." i laughed and scrolled through his phone.

I was having a lot of fun and I guess Arón did too because I have never seen this guy so happy. Laughing all the time and he literally got out of his comfort zone I could see that.

Usually he was really serious but right now he was relaxed and seemed to be happy.

Which made me happy since I knew about his past and all.

„Send them to me!" I laughed and looked at him as he was looking at the pictures himself. He was honestly so beautiful, jesus christ.

„Do u think the guys are still downstairs?"

He asked without looking up.

„Should we check?"

-„Yeah."

Arón and I then walked through the hallway. The guys made some noise so they were obviously still downstairs.

„Hey guys." I said and jumped onto the couch sitting next to Omar.

„I thought u wanted to sleep dude." He hit Arón in the leg as he sat down as well.

„Yeah but i couldnt. I met Y/n on the hallway when I went to the bathroom and we decided to join u guys again."

Wait what?

He really denied hanging out with me. Was he embarrassed?

„Nice. We actually wanted to hit this beach bar in 30. Do you guys want to come with us?"

Miguel spoke.

Im actually not a big fan of partying but right now i was bored as hell and since i love dancing, why not?

„Im in." i said.

All the boys looked at me in confusion because I usually never go out with me. They know how much I hate clubs and alcohol.

„Wow okay. Arónsky?"

Arón shook his head.

„Oh come on dude. Even y/n is going."

-„Nah I'm not in the mood to partying."

I looked at Arón and decided to work my female charme to make him go with us. „Aróny, please come with us. For me."

The guys started groaning again but Arón started laughing.

„Alright. But no one is going to make me drink anything tonight."

So we got up to get ready for the beach party event we saw a sign of.

„Back in the living room in 30 okay party people?"

Omar ordered and we all went into our rooms.

*

*

After 10 minutes of staring at my closet I decided to wear a boho dress Ive bought recently. Since it was very hot out still I only needed the dress and some shoes.

I then applied some make up, not too much though, and put my hair into a half up bun.

Then I went downstairs where I met Itzan looking just fine as always. I gasped because he looked so good. The loose shirt made him look even broader.

„Damn girl u look hot."

He grinned and put some dished into the sink.

„I could say the same about you Itzan."

He laughed a little and then came up to me.

„I like it, a lot actually."

He scanned my body, making me slightly uncomfortable.

„Thanks." i whispered and looked to the ground.

„Nah come on, look at me."

He lifted my chin with his thumb. When my eyes met his soft brown ones he smiled and mumbled:"You'll dance with me tonight, im telling you."

I laughed a little, of course I would dance with this guy. He's a god on the dance floor and I could learn a lot from him.

„Oyy guys." I immediately stepped back and turned around.

„Oh y/n lookin good!" Omar cheered and came down to us.

„Thanks." I smiled and then sat onto the couch with my phone in my hands.

„Alright I'm done." I heard Arón's voice coming from the stairs.

Fuck he looked good. Itzan looked hot, yeah, but Arón's outfit gave me chills everywhere.

„Wow." i whispered and looked at him.

Apparently I said it louder than i thought because Omar started making kissing noises again and Arón looked down slightly embarrassed.

Fuck...

„Chicos y Chica, estamos aquí."

Alvaro and Miguel ran downstairs looking good as well.

„Alright lets hit the party."

Itzan grabbed my hand and pulled me with him, outside the house.

„Jeez Itz. Chill. Im coming."

He laughed with his funny dirty laugh and started running down the stairs to the beach with me on his arm.

„Guys hurry up!" he yelled back to the guys who were just laughing at his eager running.

*

When we all had arrived at the bar we already heard some good latin music playing and people dancing.

„See u later guys, y/n follow me."

-„Wait what?"

Before I understood what was going on, Itzan had pulled me with him to the bar.

„Have a drink and then we'll dance." I laughed and nodded. „Alright, but only one. I hate being drunk."

Itzan knew that I hated it so he understood and ordered me a Sex on the beach. (Classic him:D)

For himself he got a Bacardi-Cola and some shot I didnt even know.

„And go." We chugged our drinks really fast and once the glasses were empty, he pulled me (again) to the dance floor. He started moving his hips right away and I was feeling a little uncomfortable but after a while I got more and more fluent in my motions and at some point Itzan and I were grinding against each other (in a non-sexual way tho) and I was having a lot of fun.

Itzan was such an amazing dancer and guy but still i had feelings for Arón and i definitely wanted to dance with him after that. Itzan spun me around so his stomach was touching my back. I could feel his abs just right and his breath against my neck.

„Me gusta como tu mueves tus caderas baby." he whispered in my ear giving me chills.

I didnt understand what he said since I dont speak Spanish yet he turned me on somehow.

But no! I like Arón, not Itzan.

„Do you want to get out of here hun?"

I immediately turned around and looked at Itzan who was biting his lower lip.

„Itz I'm sorry... But i honestly like Arón a lot and uh I dont want to hurt you, you're amazing at dancing but dont hate me for saying that."

He smiled and answered against the loud music:"I knew you liked him. Even though you're beautiful as hell and I'd love to have u as well. But im fine, you go girl. Get your man." Once I turned around I saw Arón dancing with a girl.

And it was not just dancing, they were basically all over each other. He met my eyes, looked at me for a second and then didnt even hesitate and grabbed her face to kiss her.

My mouth fell open and I stared at them kissing for a while before something in my brain reacted without thinking.

I turned back to Itzan and pressed my lips onto his. He kissed back immediately and i put both of my hands on his half exposed chest.

Then I turned us over so I could watch Arón in the corner of my eye. He did the same. We were kissing other people but staring into each others souls like we're crazy.

But he started it. And i wouldnt be ready to make him win. I pulled away from Itzan, bit my lower lip and said:“Lets go."

He grinned, grabbed my hand again and we left the party. I turned around, meeting Arón's look once again. He looked confused.

Well i wasnt planning on sleeping with Itzan, i just wanted Arón to believe i would.

We walked away from the beach party until I spoke:"Can we please just go somewhere else? I need to get away for a little." He looked at you in confusion but then seemed to read your face and nodded. „Claro." You two then made your way back to the house where your plan was to turn on some music and have your own party.

The second you had entered your bedroom to get changed, you heard the front door open and a girls laugh downstairs. Immediately you walked out the room again and looked down to see Arón kissing that same girl from the party. No, no, no! You swallowed and thought about it for a while but then decided to destroy this. You knew he was playing. Quickly you made your way downstairs and coughed to make them both look at you. „Hey." you spoke with a fake pissed tone. „Baby who the fuck is she?"

Arón looked at you confused. „Baby?" the girl asked and looked between the two of you.

„Your girlfriend?"

You then walked towards her and spoke:"Yes, bitch get the hell outta here."

Before saying anything else she left the house, looking very pissed.

„What the fuck y/n?" Arón walked up to you and grabbed your arm. For a bit you just looked at him and then did something you couldnt believe alcohol had made you do. You grabbed him by the neck and kissed him. Just like this. He kissed back but seemed to hesitate a bit.

The kiss didnt last too long because he pulled away eventually.

„You bitch." he spoke and it shocked you. His face was straight and he stepped back. But he then started to grin and you calmed down again. He didnt actually mean it.

„You did this shit with Itzan to make me jealous hm?" He came closer to you, making you step backwards. „Hm?" he asked again

You swallowed. He was so fucking hot.

„Maybe."

He grinned and pushed you further backwards until your back hit the kitchen counter.

„Speechless much hm y/n?"

His cockiness turned you on.

You just shook your head. „No."

Before you knew, his whiskey lips were back on yours, making you close your eyes.

He basically owned you that moment. And it was all you wanted.

After pulling away he grabbed your hand and wanted to pull you out the house. „What are you-?"

He laughed and leaned down to whisper in your ear:"We're going back to the beach but this time you'll be grindin that ass on me alright?"

[swearronchanel]

9.01

Ok it took forever to find a working link here we go

1965..

- Omg the ceiling falling on her during labor gtfo

- “Where do we begin? What marks the start of any new adventure?” Tell me, Mature Jenny

- I’m so emo ugh a year ago today (well tomorrow) I moved to London for the semester 😭 I miss it so much..

- THE BEACH BOYS😍 hell yea the tunes

- I WISH THEY ALL COULD BE CALIFORNIA GIRLLLLLSSSS

- Love Trixie’s robe, I need one

- Here’s her damn electric shaver 😂

- RIP Churchill, except not really bc you know racist, eugenist, etc😂

- You tell em Patrick! He sucks

- The turners now have a cohort of children and now rabbits lmaoo

- Tim’s been sent to boarding school, see ya never bro

- ANGELA SPOKE ?! HOLD THE FREAKING PHONE ITS ONLY BEEN HER WHOLE SILENT LIFE ON THE SHOW SJSJSJS IM SHOOK

- WAR HORSE

- skip that funeral Phyllis

- Terry wants to look after his mom how pure

- I want his camera ugh, wait till I get a vintage film camera

- Ok not to ruin the mood but Nonnatus was demolished once before, this is repetitive (I know the 60s brought demolitions but still lol)

- 7 months in squalor 😭 so sad ugh

- Phyllis to the rescue with some polite fighting words

- The cucumbers on the eyes 😂😂 I love them

- Here comes the tights competition lmaoo

- GORGEOUS GAMS, my new blog name

- Cyril gazes at them? 😂😂 who is looking at ankles? I’m weak

- I love her modesty it’s sweet lol, and I love Trixie who is modest in other ways😂

- Phyllis and sister hilda dancing and holding hands is pure AF

- I really like her, I want sister hilda’s backstory! but sister Francis tho - eh lmao I’m not sold yet

- Fred and his first wife’s picture omg let me rip my heart out, I’m glad he’s got violet now 😭

- But the little moment is realistic, we should see Patrick mention Marianne

- sorry Churchill I’m not mourning

- Trixie’s houndstooth coat is a look

- “Your values which I respect” I love her 😂

- Lucille doing the cross, felt

- Terry and his mom in the flat !! my heart

- Love my nurses showing off their legs even if this is a filler storyline *cough Trixie deserves better 1965*

- I love that Phyllis took the photos, we love a supportive mother figure

- The baby in the trash can I can’t 😭😭 it’s not just a thing of past and it’s heartbreaking

- I love Fred ok, he’s just a pure older white man. There are few

- I forgot Sgt Wolfe existed oops

- Like primrose hill ugh my heart I miss London

- Mother Mildred back on her bullshit and I love it

- She’s annoying in the best way 😂

- Sister Mj 😭 if she passes this series IM OUT THIS B! I can not handle *insert Lucille Bluth from Arrested Development saying I won’t hear it and I won’t respond to it*

- Is this Valerie’s bitch ass cousin LMAO ??

- Val pls go see your grandma, I cant stress this enough pls all of you go visit your grandmas if possible, life is too damn short and I know it too well

- Terry is the cutest child omg love him

- “Will he look like me?” Just rip my heart out would you ??

- So is this lady the mother?

- I’m calling it

- HOW DO YOU SPELL LACTATING LMFOAOAOAOA

- sgt Wolfe out here on his law and order detective shit

- What’s up with Terry?  he better not die or I’m fighting

- If something happens to this poor kid I’m going to be personally offended

- “It’s not convenient right now” me at anything, everyday of my life

- Lucille is so cute even when she’s trying not to panic

- Phyllis to the rescue, again

- I love babies but this show just makes me not ever want children LMAO

- If I have to get up on my knees to push out a baby, just slice me open

- Idk why but i wish they would’ve wrote Phyllis telling someone she gave a baby away that she obviously had out of wedlock. Don’t ask why I just feel like it could’ve worked?

- Omg the diphtheria in his mouth🤢vaccinate your damn kids !!!!

- “Everything is supposed to be moving forward” FELT THIS SHELAGH! the world seems to take 2 steps forward and 15 back..

- also loving her new hair tho

- “I haven’t got all day” mood af, Stan Phyllis Crane

- “We’ll be whichever of those you need most” Mother Mildred knows what to say

- I’m glad Trixie is there tho

- Miss Higgins is lowkey underrated, she’s only been a gem lately

- “There’s nothing worse than feeling unfresh” true af Trix, I would’ve never survived without indoor plumbing or soap or anything

- Shawty delivered her own baby?!! She’s BRAVE brave

- DID THE PRIEST KNOCK HER Up?? IM CALLING GOD

- “MOTHER Mildred” put some respect on her name

- I smell shadiness in this church

- SOMEONE HAVING A MENTAL ILLNESS DOES NOT MEAN A PERSON IS BROKEN !!

- Mother Mildred PLS throw some hands for the sake of the Lord almighty

- “Smells of his chemistry set And clearisil” ahh yes what all the cool kids smell like these days you know 😂😂 rip Tim, not gone just moved away till who knows when

- ANIMATED GIBLETS LMAOAOA NOW THTS MY NEW BLOG NAME

- I love shelagh when she says random ass shit 😂 reminds me of her sister Bernadette days

- But Where’s sister Julienne in all this??

- “And I would feel more at ease if i remained” TELL EM MILDRED

- Not too sound so gen y or whatever us late 90s babies are but this priest is only giving me ~bad vibes~

- The Reggie pic😭 I love it

- Fred adding the newspaper clip to his memory box I can’t take it

- Violet my blue eyeshadow queen, I love it (I’m wearing it again in 2020, it was a look that one time)

- “Family meant no space” 😭 I just want terry to get better and reunite with his momma and new sibling

- Omg Brenda 😭 where is your ex? I will wring his neck out

- Trixie😭😭 the childhood traumas tonight whew,..

- It makes me so sad ugh

- Sister Hilda has a velvety accent if that makes sense lmaoo

- “Do you know who the father is? FATHER” MOTHER MILDRED DRAG HIM! YOU KNOW IT AS I DO

- Omg this little girls arm! help her

- Trixie’s two piece little set is so mid 60s and cute

- “I was running away from something that was hard and it was too easy” felt that Val

- But I’m so glad she’s gonna go see her gran

- TERRY IS OK GOD BLESS 😭

- “Pass the tea cakes to this end” LMAO I guess I am Mother Mildred

- Sister Julienne is like probably like thank God Mildred is finally leaving 😂

- They won runner up! 😂😂

- FISHNETS LMAO I love it

- Aww sister Frances made a blanket, pure

- SLAP HIM WITH THE CANE MILDRED

- it’s her pimp cane😂 I love it when you call me big mommaaaa

- I KNEW HE WAS THE FATHER!!! I AM PERSONALLY CALLING THE LORD TO SMITE HIM

- Violet framed Betty’s photo wow bye let me ducking cry my eyes out

- I love the buckles <3

- So what’s the next move with the demolition??

- “The past is never lost to us, we carry it with us...”

- THEY GAVE TERRY TIM’S BLAZER WOW MY HEART !!!!!

- “...the way we embrace it has the power to change everything” 😭😭

- Aww the Turner babies and rabbit babies

- Ok that was a good episode 😭

[honeymoonjin]

bts reaction - you get harassed in front of them

A/N: done as an anonymous request. I really had fun doing this, I haven’t done one in a while! 

Jin

• I feel like jin would be one of the members that is more likely to get upset than angry

• He hates that a so-called fan would run up to you and slap you on the ass after jin was kind enough to let him take a selfie with the two of you

• He hates even more that there’s nothing he can do except make sure you’re okay

• He makes some excuse to the boys to leave early, and you have to drive him home, wincing at his sullen expression

• When you get inside the dorm, all he wants to do is snuggle up with you and watch some Gordon ramsey reality show

• After a few hours, when the other boys start returning and it gets late, he notices you’ve fallen asleep on his shoulder, so he carries you to his bed to make sure you won’t wake up with their noise

• As you sleep, he gets out his phone and scrolls through twitter, too riled up to sleep

• A video of the encounter is trending, and he notices the outpouring of support for you among army, notably the top hashtag in south korea is “respecting bts means #respectingy/n”

• He also sees all the grainy, low-quality screencaps and fan-taken photos of his upset face after the event, with army jumping to send their messages of love to him and you and hate to the male army who thought this was okay

• Each one of the members comes in, some one-at-a-time, some in pairs, to wish you well and hope that jin got a good night’s sleep

• Yoongi even sends taehyung to give him some leftover soup that he had prepared for the others for dinner in jin’s absence

• When jin finally lays down to sleep he spoons you and holds on tighter than he ever has, needing your comforting presence and touch to relax him

Yoongi

• Yoongi is an extremely blunt guy, so when a man approaches the two of you and blatantly flirts with you, he asks him to leave and says you’re taken

• The guy screws his face up and says that you’re ugly anyway and you have terrible tits, followed by him grabbing onto one of said tits and giving it a rough squeeze

• Yoongi immediately jumps up once you bat the guy’s hand away and rub away the ache, and again tells him to leave

• hoseok automatically turns to you to lead you away from the scene and comfort you while yoongi confronts the guy

• since they’re out in public, bts were still being accompanied from a distance by some security personnel, and they rush forward once the man reaches out and shoves yoongi

• yoongi doesn’t swing back, but instead storms moodily back to you as the guards drag the man away

• he tells you you need to stay with the members at all times (since he knows you were eying up the ice cream cart down the beach) and throws you his shirt to cover up

• he loves your body and thinks you should have the freedom to wear whatever clothes you want, but he also feels uncomfortable with the way guys look at you, and this is the last straw for him

• throughout the afternoon, some of the boys come and go, splashing in the waves, getting food, the maknaes even build a sandcastle with a moat, but yoongi keeps you by the bighit umbrella, close to the staff and somewhat away from the crowds

• you don’t complain, knowing that he’s just worried about you, but it is kind of boring just chilling, so you start kissing his neck, and running your hand up his thigh, anything to get him in the mood

• his testosterone is clearly still raging from before, because in no time at all he’s growling into your ear, “you’re mine, baby girl” and lifting you onto his lap, facing him

• under the shade of the sun umbrella, he pulls your bikini shorts to one side and fingers you until you bury your face in his neck and quietly come on his fingers

• he pulls them out of you, licks them clean and tells the staff to let his members know the two of you are going home

Hoseok

• it happens as you’re leaving the public bathrooms, so you keep your cool and don’t bother telling hoseok then and there, knowing he’ll only freak out

• he notices your change in demeanor and asks you a couple times if you’re okay

• you keep deflecting him until you get home at the end of the day, and you admit that a guy had approached you and tried to put his hand up your sundress and feel you up

• hoseok’s sweet, concerned attitude drops and his face hardens

• “you should’ve told me, jagiya. Then I could’ve gone up to him and shown him what he gets for touching someone without their permission”

• “this is why I didn’t tell you, hobi. I knew you’d react like this.”

• “is that right? Well, I’ll show you how I react”

• You regret not telling him about two hours later, when you’re pinned beneath him and begging him to let you come

• “hearing that a man harassed you makes me very angry, y/n. if you had told me, I would’ve got my anger out on him, but now we’re alone and I have to take my frustrations out on you, do you understand?”

• It’s a long night, and you’re exhausted by the time you tuck yourself under the sheets and snuggle up against him

• His dominating personality has finally left him, and he kisses you softly, admitting in the silence of the night that he was just scared that something worse would happen and you wouldn’t tell him

• You promise you’ll be more upfront in the future, and he sighs contentedly, falling asleep with an arm wrapped loosely around you

Namjoon

• If you saw that clip of joon cocking his eyebrow at the press conference the other day you know exactly what the fuck im talking about

• Sweet boy namjoon was just enjoying his day out with you and the boys, but some asshole had to come up and pull at the string of your swimwear bottoms, causing it to just about fall off you

• This means war, and dom joon comes out to play

• He dumps a picnic blanket over your lap while you fix the knot and leaves his band members to look after you as he goes off after the guy

• You can’t hear what he says, and you can see he’s not being physically aggressive, but the look on his face has you feeling all kinds of ways

• The asshole goes pale, holds his hands up in surrender and jogs off

• When namjoon comes back and sits with you all again, everyone asks him what he says but he just tenses his jaw and shakes his head

• He’s in a shitty mood for the rest of the day but doesn’t do anything else

• At least not until you get home

• “that man clearly didn’t understand that you were mine. I guess I’m not doing a good enough job at marking you up, now, am i?”

• By the time morning comes you can barely walk out to the kitchen, and your neck and thighs are littered with hickeys far too dark to cover with concealer

• Namjoon just looks up at you over a sip of coffee and grins

Jimin

• Jimin isn’t exactly scared of confrontation but he’s more a fan of passive aggressive tactics

• Meaning instead of going after the guy that groped your ass as he walked past, jimin will be complaining to the other members about it for the next five hours

• “it’s just so disrespectful, who even does that to a girl anymore?” “…yeah, we heard you the first time, chim.”

• Clingy jimin mode: activated

• You need to go to the bathroom? Want to go get your jacket from the car? Too bad, jimin’s glued to your side and he’s not going anywhere

• Pda turned on to the max so that he can try and assert some dominance, so you’ll be sitting on his lap on the beach the whole afternoon

• He figures nobody can grope your ass again if it’s pressed up against his dick

• Of course, he wants to make sure you’re okay, though you can tell he’s more bothered than you

• At one point, he’ll start drawing lazy circles on your thigh with his finger, or resting his chin on your bare shoulder just so that you can feel his presence

• While you laugh it off with his bandmates, he pouts and whispers into your ear, “are you really okay?” only cheering up once you insist about eight times you are

Taehyung

• He knows he shouldn’t, but when he sees the skeevy guy run up to you and shove his hands between your legs when you’re bending over in the sand to pick up a shell, taehyung throws a punch at the guy

• Security run over, but the two of you were going for a romantic walk along the coastline as the sun set, and you were a wee bit away

• You stand up with a shocked squeal and watch in horror as taehyung’s fist catches the guys jaw dead-on, sending him flying

• As the man is sprawled out on the wet send, taehyung stares at his own hand in shock, beginning to hastily apologize to the man for hurting him, even though that man had just assaulted you

• He never meant to be violent, and he’s flooded with shame when security does catch up and lift the guy off of the ground. He can see the way the man’s bottom lip is split and bleeding, and he feels overwhelmingly guilty

• You’re patting him on the cheek and asking if he’s okay, even though he should really be asking you that, but he allows himself to rest his chin on the top of your head when you pull him into a tight embrace

• You thank him profusely for defending him, but you can tell how terrible he feels, especially when the boys run over and Jungkook starts cheering him on for that ‘sick blow’

• He becomes quiet and pensive for the afternoon, and you stick by his side, putting on the shorts and tee you had arrived in and leaning on his shoulder as he stared out onto the horizon

• You knew he was analyzing his reaction and wondering where that violent streak came from, since he had never really been a possessive boyfriend in the past

• After a few hours of solemn silence, you call over jin and tell him that you’re going to take taehyung home

• He’s still deep in thought even as he walks inside and collapses on the couch, so you run a bath and lead him in, sitting in front of him with your hands on either side of his face, pushing back his floppy bangs tenderly

• He zones back in once you press your lips to his, and the two of you make love in the bath passionately and in no hurry

• Once the two of you finish, he starts to become a bit more lucid, and although he’s still quiet, he cheers up a bit when you join the other members as they return, the eight of you watching one of taehyung’s favorite animes for the millionth time

Jungkook

• Jungkook can sometimes be the cockiest guy on the planet, but when it comes to real life situations, especially with strangers, he’s totally out of his depth

• He’s not actually with you when it happens, but instead looking for crabs along the wet surf with namjoon

• Namjoon jabs him on the shoulder and points, and he looks over to see you in a heated argument with a man he doesn’t recognize

• He runs over immediately, but by the time he gets to you and asks what’s happened security has already broken up the fight and made the man leave

• You tell him in a rage that the guy had asked you out, and then slung his arm around your waist and tried to pull you into an embrace when you said no, saying he ‘only wanted a hug’

• Jungkook stares off at the guy being escorted away with a dumbfounded look on his face

• He doesn’t really know what to do to help you, especially since you seem to be absolutely furious rather than hurt or scared

• He just keeps apologizing and offers for the two of you to go home

• You shake your head and tell him you want to stay and have some more fun while it’s nice and warm, so he reluctantly agrees, but while you’re topping up your sunscreen, you catch him running around all his hyungs, whispering in their ear and looking over at you

• You obviously can’t hear what he’s saying, but for the rest of the day you notice how there’s always at least two members around you, and they seem to be being extra nice

• Taehyung doesn’t splash you, even after you do it to him, hoseok doesn’t do that thing he always does where he jabs you in the ribs when you’re not looking, and yoongi offers to share the hot chips he brought from the little food truck in the parking lot

• Jungkook himself is also extra nice, and you think you must’ve caught him staring at you a million times today, making sure you’re alright and not upset

• Later that night, when the two of you are in bed, and you’ve already fallen asleep, he runs a hand through your hair and whispers, “I’m so sorry I couldn’t protect you, jagi. I’ll do better next time.”

[crunchyspicysalmon]

I was tagged by @mellowyellowwitch!! Thank you!!

1. Are there any songs that make you cry? What are they? Do you have a specific memory with them?

We could be here all day alkhdla (12H Pisces moon problems). The ones off the top of my head I’ll list: A Little Fall of Rain // Les Mis Cast (2012); The Gunner’s Dream // Pink Floyd; Ride // Lana Del Rey; My Love, My Life // ABBA; 13 Beaches // Lana Del Rey; Don’t Let the Kids Win // Julia Jacklin; Wish You Were Here // Pink Floyd; End of the Earth // MARINA; Believe in Love // MARINA

I think I’ll end it here lskdhlksf 

2. Do you like wearing jewelry? If so, what type/style?

I don’t wear jewellery too often, but I do have this cute layered necklace that has moon, star, and gem charms! I got it in a surprise bag from Ardene’s LMAO but it’s my favourite necklace! Otherwise I don’t really wear jewellery but I’d like to get my ears pierced at some point soon. 

3.Do you believe that there is another human “out there” for you to love and for them to love you? This doesn’t necessarily mean romanticly.

Yes of course, I don’t think just one though. We can have soulmates throughout our lives I believe, romantically or platonically. 

4. What’s your ideal aesthetic like?

Totally late 1960s/early-mid 1970s. I love bell-bottom jeans! I also like the basic 1970s band tee tied in the front and bell bottoms.

5. How do you prefer to listen to your music?

Always loud whether it’s earphones or out loud at home (but im also not totally inconsiderate to my neighbours, especially after certain times). 

6. What do you think about spirituality?

I think it’s totally great as long as you’re happy and you’re doing you, yk?

7. Do you ever daydream? Care to say what they’re about?

I can be a realist, but I do daydream a lot of scenarios that usually don’t happen LMAO!! Mix of my 12H Pisces moon, and 7H Libra venus lmaoo. 

8. If you could ever go back in time where in the world would you go and what time would it be?

I had to think about this one, but I think in the earlier 1970s, being able to see Led Zeppelin and Pink Floyd live while high. That would be such a spiritual experience for both! 

9. Do you have any role models? Who are they and why?

I don’t really know who I look up to. I was thinking Lana Del Rey, but I never saw her as a role model, but more so as an inspiration.

10. What do you want to create in this world? What do you think needs to be created?

I don’t really know, I just think that everyone deserves to be loved and have their story heard. I want to make a safe space where everyone can be comfortable I guess? I’m going into social work for that reason. 

My questions:

1. How do you usually find new music?

Usually on Spotify, I use Apple Music regularly but it’s easier to find other artists on Spotify. I’ll also find new artists through my sisters and friends! 

2. What are you proud of, but never have an excuse to talk about?

Honestly how I’m proud of how I was able to overcome a lot of mental issues over the past year! I’m also proud of being fully able to accept who I am regarding my bisexuality and it’s made me also a lot happier and confident!

3. Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?

I don’t even know tbh. 

4. What do you think the world will be like in ten years?

I hope more accepting, and empathetic. I feel we’ve been losing compassion for one another a lot lately and it’s depressing and emotionally exhausting to see.

5. What’s something new you learned today?

I can’t find my debit card, I learned that today LMAO!

6. Have you ever been to a concert? If so, what is the best concert you’ve ever been to?

Yes I’ve been to a few! The best I’ve been to was probably MARINA last September! I was pretty much front row, and it was the best I’ve ever seen her perform (I also saw her in 2015)! She seemed so much happier and I just loved LOVE + FEAR so much as an album, it meant a lot to me when I was going through a hard time. 

7. What makes you feel supported?

Knowing people have my back when I need them! 

8. Do you have your favorite fictitious character? If so, who is it and why?

I definitely do but I suddenly can’t think of any at all... no thoughts head empty..

9. What music put you in a good mood?

Definitely ABBA, they’re just so fun and happy and disco-y I love it!

10. Where’s the weirdest place you’ve found something that you lost?

I wouldn’t say weird, but for me I lose a lot of stuff and it always ends up in the most obvious spots which is so dumb!! But also I find a lot of stuff in old suitcases, bags, or drawers. 

I tag @roberts-dick @passingthetime @sickaddiktions @marauderofworlds @kountessbathory

[slusheeduck]

Rule: Answer 11 questions and ask 11 more

UNLESS YOU’RE SLUSHEE.

THEN YOU ANSWER 44.

SO HERE WE GO, YOU MONSTERS.

@alreadyinmotion (I’M ONLY ANSWERING ONE SET)

Podcast/music you’re listening to right now? Well, RIGHT now I’m listening to “Celtic Music for Sleep,” but recently it’s been a lot of Elder Scrolls. For “Sonance” I listened to Mozart’s Klarinnettenkonzert and the MITJ soundtrack, including just Lisztomania (the theme version) for four hours straight.

You can have anything in the world to eat right now.  What is it? I just ate, so I’m not that hungry. But I guess I could go for some tonkatsu ramen.

Zodiac sign? Cancer.

What’s something you’re excited to do this week? GOING TO DISNEY TO TRY MY LUCK AT GETTING A MIGUEL MUG.

Favorite article of clothing? My oversized flannel shirts.

A food you want to try? Oden. God, I want to try oden so bad.

Favorite food when you’re sick? Plain noodles. Coincidentally also my favorite “It’s 3 am and I’m drunk and starving” food (if chips/fries are not an option.)

Favorite thing to do for others? Make them laugh.

Your best friend/sibling/S.O. wants to hang out! What do you do together? Best friend: Binge on anime. Sibling: Binge either Baking Championship or Real Housewives.

What’s something you’re proud of? Honest to god I am so proud of the fics I’ve put out for the Coco fandom. While I haven’t been ashamed of my fics, I’ve never been like HEY LOOK AT THIS I LIKE THIS THING I MADE before now.

What’s something you want to plug in and have people check out ;)  (Promote your OCs, AUs, webcomics, etc! Or your friends! BOAST, ALL YOU CREATIVE BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE) Well, if you want an idea of what my original stuff is like, Wit reminded me today that I have my script Troubadour on my original works page. So, yanno, maybe check that out? I’m constantly ready to talk about “Hates Everything About Adventuring” Caena and Murder Goblin Edrys.

@im-fairly-whitty

1. What part of a creative project excites you the most? Probably writing out intense emotional scenes--any scene where someone breaks down into tears or, more favorably, explodes in a rage that becomes tears is when I’m at my writing peak.

2. If you could teleport anywhere in the world RIGHT NOW but could only stay for 45 minutes where would it be and why? I think I’d go to Paris. I love Paris a lot, but the whole travel aspect is not great. So if I could just pop over and get some bread or whatever, that’d be super rad.

3. Favorite animal. WHY ARE YOU ASKING HARD QUESTIONS WIT. Let’s say a penguin. Because I would absolutely be a penguin if I could.

4. If you where a dog what breed would you be? I’ve actually been doing a lot of dog research lately for reasons, and I think I’d be a shiba inu.

5. Favorite trait you value in a friend. Not being socially draining. It’s kind of a weird trait that is entirely based on my own perception of the person, but as someone who’s almost cripplingly introverted, it’s so nice to find people I can spend time with and not feel like I need to hide for a week afterward. 

6. Favorite season? Moodwise: Fall. Weather-wise: Spring.

7. Coolest injury/scar story you have (if you want to tell it). I dislocated my knee because I got too excited about a boy and I sprained my wrist in show choir.

8. What color would you paint your bedroom if you could choose? Honestly? Like a nice warm brown, maybe with darker stripes.

9. Favorite TV show. Right now probably Mozart in the Jungle.

10. Something you’re proud of? I ALREADY ANSWERED THIS I DON’T NEED TO BE PROUD OF MYSELF ANYMORE.

11.Superpower you would most want to have

Shapeshifting. I cannot express my frustration at having to look like the same person all the time.

@upperstories

If you could have any kind of pet with the means to care for it properly, what would it be? A lion. I freaking love lions.

Favorite time of day/night? There’s about five minutes when the sun’s setting, when it’s just dipped below the horizon, where the sky’s still lit but the trees and buildings look like black paper cutouts against it. That’s absolutely my favorite time of day.

Favorite color palette I’m a sucker for neutral, foresty shades. Greens are my fave.

Are you a swimmer or a sand-castle sculptor? I am a “Why did you want to come to the beach so bad, Slushee, you hate the beach and you know you hate the beach but you kept whining about how you wanted to ‘feel the ocean air’ and now you’re here and you hate it but you can’t go home yet because the drive would have been a waste so I guess we’re going to sit here and sulk for an hour”-er.

If you ever got to meet your hero(ine) what would you talk about? I’m terrible when I meet people I look up to, so I’d probably just stammer into silence and slam my head into a camera. That’s what I did when I met Lee Unkrich.

Clearance Aisle or Thrift Store? Both.

If you had enough money for the house if your dreams, where would you live and why? I’d live in a fancy loft in a hipster-y city. I’d love to check out Boston, but I don’t know if I’d want to live there. Paris is another good option, except that I’d have to speak French all the time. 

It’s raining like crazy outside. How does that affect your mood? TIME TO OPEN ALL THE WINDOWS AND LISTEN TO IRL RAINYMOOD.

Would you rather go on an adventure by yourself and make new friends on the way, or depart on an adventure with the friends you now have? I went on an adventure by myself, and it was a wonderful experience. I think I’d like to go on one of those again, but for now I’m very happy just staying home.

Favorite sound? Moving water. The sea, a river, the rain. So long as water’s moving I’m loving it.

Would you rather journey to the very bottom of the ocean or to outer space? Space is infinitely less scary than whatever’s going on with our oceans.

@calliopesquill

1. What do you wish more people knew about you? I wish more people knew how much I love pretty things. I’m a complete sucker for pretty things.

2. What place or thing in the world would you most like to see? Right now I really want to go to Japan. 

3. When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up? When I was REALLY little, I wanted to be a dentist. Then I became more sensible and wanted to be an actress.

4. What style of clothing do you think you look silly in? I look TERRIBLE in rompers. It’s a disgrace.

5. What would your alebrije be? (Yes, you can pick more than one!) My cat would absolutely be my alebrije, Pepita-style. Except grumpier and more demanding.

6. What movie are you most looking forward to this year? Uh...I honestly don’t know what movies are coming out. Wreck It Ralph 2 looks pretty interesting.

7. What is your favourite thing to cook? Onigiri’s pretty fun to make.

8. What is one skill you would like to learn? I really want to learn how to paint someday.

9. What book do you think everyone should read? OKAY THIS IS TOUGH BECAUSE BOOKS THAT TOUCH ME WILL PROBABLY NOT TOUCH YOU SO IDK.

I do think Ella Enchanted is a must for most little girls, though. That’s where I learned that main character girls could be angry and feisty and sarcastic, and it’s been a huge influence on all my writing.

10. What is your Hogwarts house? SLYTHERIN.

11. If you could dress like/make a costume of any character, who would it be? Is it cheating if I’m already making an Hector costume for Halloween?

OKAY NOW TIME FOR MY QUESTIONS.

You get to visit any historical time period. Where do you go?

You’ve switched places with your most recent favorite character. How screwed are you and why?

Come up with a catchphrase. This isn’t a question it’s an order.

What’s your usual soundtrack while doing creative things (or do you work in silence?)

What’s something you consider a guilty pleasure?

Tell us about the last book/short story/fic you read.

Talk about an animal. Just like, any animal.

What’s your favorite part about the medium you work with (art, writing, music, chemicals, whatever)?

Beach or forest?

What’s a style you’ve always wanted to try but haven’t been able to get the nerve/money to go for?

What’s a lyric that gets stuck in your head easily?

TAGGING 11 PEOPLE

WELL JOKE’S ON YOU GUYS, THE ONES WHO GOT TAGGED ABOVE ARE PART OF THIS QUESTION HELL.

JOINING THEM ARE @scribblrhob @lacendydreamer @seasidefanasties @humanityinahandbag @beckytailweaver @geod23 @white-throated-packrat

ENJOY.

[your-lord-koneko]

11 Questions Ask Meme

Tagged by @suitboxers like over a month ago, sorry bro ^^;

1. What’s your favourite music genre? i dunno it changes depending on mood, but usually some sort of punk to metal

2. If you had to choose between being financially set for life or gaining a random (and I mean random) superpower, what would you choose? if financially set means i get shit i both need AND want, lets put it this way: WHO WOULD GIVE THAT SHIT UP.. if not tho, powers are cool

3. Cruchyroll voted Shouto Todoroki as 2017′s official Best Boy - do you agree? And if not, who’s your best boy? Sora.

4. Fire, grass or water? what generation?

5. Would you consider yourself a weeb, a nerd, a geek or none of the above? nerd and geek. youve met me right?

6. What’s your middle name? If you’re like me and have two - what’s your least favourite middle name? Alexander and James. ikr? i couldve gone by Alex, hows that make you feel? (i dont particularly like either tbh, nor my first name, the fuck reason did you think i go by koneko? XDD)

7. Do you like waffles? noooooo course notttt WHO THE FUCK HATES WAFFLES?? THEYRE SO GOOODDDD

8. What’s your favourite dead meme? UPD8!!!!!!!! (sue me)

9. Would you consider yourself a millennial, Gen Z, a baby boomer or within that weird late 90′s murky period where shit’s weird and you haven’t got the slightest clue? i mean im late 90s but i fit with millennials so fuck it that one. technically late 90s kids are still millennials that literally the definition even is they feel out of place

10. Would you battle Nate? yes.

11. Would you set Dan on fire? also yes.

i guess i tag:

@galaxywolves @kingblastie @pedantricks @softlygasping @ninjazure @egg-artz @@hopewitch @n00byn34d @suitboxers @capebanana aaaaaaaaaaaand aleks again butthe dumpsterfire wont link

MY QUESTIONS:

1. r u gay?

2. r u god? and if no, y not?

3. art thou fabulous? (if you say no youre lying >:OO)

4. you watch japanese cartoons? if so wos ur fav bruh?

5. if you were an animal what suits you best?

6. fairy lights?

7. multilingual?

8. cold or hot?

9. if you said cold, chilling in a snowy forest by a frozen lake, or the top of a mountain? if you said hot, relaxing on a tropical beach or in the same fucking  forest but without the snow? if youre to indecisive, pick from any of them.. yes. i like forests fight me..

10. sweet or savoury?

11. if you said no to Q1... you sure? is p fun..

[girlfriendkisses]

1-49 please !! the ones you’re comfy with/want to answer 💕

1. If you didn’t have to worry about money, what would your sex toy collection look like?

I think those big fancy vibrators and that cool super adaptive bed which I don’t think counts but I think it’s sexy so it counts

2. If your body was indestructible, what things would you do?

Lmao get fucked. I’m starting to stretch myself out again which is a process but going quicker this time but I would like to be normal and just like you know be ready. Guess I just need someone to finger me regularly for medical reasons ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

3. What kinks do you like in theory, but not in practice?

Well I mean I have darker kinks that are just for fan fiction purposes that would be not good in real life but like that about it. Oh I really like public sex but like we are anxious people so probably wouldn’t go down well

4. What’s your favorite physical sensation?

Interesting question, I like it when people play with my hair and like trace my back and arms. It tickes really nice when my bf touches my neck.

5. Have you ever gotten off to a TV show or movie?

As a kid I would watch the sex scene from my step mother is an alien on repeat and I think that counts.

6. What kinks do you wish you liked more?

I wish it was easier for me to be more dominant naturally! I like it but there are steps that get me into the mood or get me comfy. With time it will improve tho 😤

8. What would be the gender-makeup of your dream threesome?

I think that were too possessive for that. And gender makeup is weird phrase. Thorin oakenshield and thirteen only.

10. Do you enjoy taking/sending nudes?

I am pretty exhibitiony and I like to be looked at and admired so yeah I’m very into sending nudes

12. Would you be a stripper and/or visit a strip club?

No but I would dance for my bf and look like an idiot doing it

13. If other people weren’t an issue, what public place would you want to fuck?

Literally everywhere, if it were not an issue I would fuck absolutely anywhere. And when I’m drunk/high I really do not care. Was at a party once and had to physically restrain myself from sucking my bfs fingers.

14. What would you change about your sex life?

The time intervals in between it happening probably. It’s rlly hard for me to practice and get better when I only have sex a handful of times a year 😞 miss my bf

15. How fast do you cum? What’s your record?

I think I’ve only really orgasm’d like twice that I can remember, both had to be assisted. But like getting to the point I’m chill with stopping is like 5-10 minutes

16. Would you ever go to a Kink convention?

Yeah I went to one early this year/late last year (can’t remember) and that was fun; not for a full convention tho, just like a day

17. Do you consider yourself part of the BDSM community?

Not anymore no, I don’t really Interact with a community .

19. Whats your favorite type of porn? (Gifs, videos, audios, animated, erotica, etc)

Fan fiction mostly, I like comics too and sometimes porn when I’m really having a hard time but it takes a while to find what I like

20. If you could have sex on any drug with no repercussions, what would it be?

Shrooms probably, I’m scared of chemical drugs

21. Would you fuck any of your exes?

Yeah! My last ex for sure. Get it babe, Bc it’s you

22. Favorite after-sex food?

My bfs Pus*y , or like his Diet Coke, chocolate cake and grilled cheese

23. What’s your favorite room in the house to fuck?

Bedroom or living room

24. What was your first kink?

Medical experimentation via gummy bear aliens

25. Do you like being scratched/scratching your partner?

Yes very much so both ways; keeping the right amount of nail is key

26. How much pain do you like during sex?

I like spanking a lot 🥰 my birthday spanks were fun ; I don’t really know because I haven’t tested it

27. How long can you keep a sexting convo going?

Pretty long ! I mean I have years long rps going but I don’t really think that counts because that’s just writing and I don’t really get off to it . I used to spend like whole weekends just sexting in my prime

28. What’s your favorite sex story to tell?

Well on principle it’s the time I fingered a girl in a tree because it was in a tree or annual New Years sex on the beach for like 4 years, just because like cool stories to tell. But I personally like to think about when my bf would play with my pussy under the blanket when my roommate was home

29. On a scale of 1-10, how kinky would you say you are and why?

In theory I’m an 8 but I haven’t had time to test it out

30. Have you ever cried during and/or after sex?

I cried during my first orgasm which was a fun time . And other times I have cried also

31. Do you like to dress slutty in public?

I do! But people are weird so I do not anymore. I like to go out looking hot but going without bf is just asking for issues

32. What’s your favorite thing to do to someone else?

Ah well I have an oral fixation and I really like to finger my boyfriend while I suck him off, quickest way to get him off and he gets the loudest 🥰

33. Are you into temp play, and if so, do you prefer cold or hot? (ice or candle wax, etc?)

I like wax play a lot! I tried ice and it was not m thing but the wax was nice

35. What’s the highest age you would sleep with?

Doesn’t really matter but probably late 30s or it would just get weird

36. Do you like cucking? In either position?

Nope nope nope ; do not touch them. However I thought about making my ex boyfriends watch me with my daddy but I am just like that

37. Could you get off on your own porn/nudes?

Okay embarrassing but yes actually I have jacked off to my own porn videos

39. What’s your daily orgasm record?

My Jack off record is probably 10+ times in one day

40. Can you have sex when you’re sick?

No not really, due to the breathing and the dizziness, at least I really can’t be an active participant

41. What’s your least favorite thing about sex?

The joint pain afterwards but that is any activity

42. Do your friends know about your kinks/sex life?

I mean yeah but a lot of people think that I am only baby and cannot top which is false because I can and will . And I make too many sex jokes for my friends to not know I’m kinky

43. In your opinion, what kinks are overhyped?

Lmao punishment and like handcuffs , I like rules a lot but like being afraid if you break them shouldn’t be apart of kink imo

46. What is your favorite way to tease and/or be teased?

I like anticipation type stuff, denial until someone asks me for what they want or breaks and just takes it 😳✌🏻 light teasing touches and stuff

And being teased I don’t really know I like touches over underwear under clothes and if you touch me or say things to me in public or just during the day I will be absolutely soaked by the time we get home/mess around and that’s facts

47. Bra or no bra?

I have no choice

48. Do you like being naked during sex? What about causally?

It’s hard for me to be naked, I haven’t really been fully naked with anyone besides my bf but it’s something Im working on. Ass out at all times tho

49. What is your favorite thing to hear during sex?

Well I like it when my bf calls me babygirl and um I like the noises he makes. Especially the noises he makes when I’m fucking him or he’s getting off on my ass because I’m like yay I’m glad he’s having fun and it is sexy

I can’t remember anything else really but I am a big fan of dirty talk so I hope there is more of it in the future but I know I have problems talking when I’m feeling good

[ghostparadoxa]

Tagged by @blighthound (thank you!!)

Rules: answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 blogs you would like to get to know better.

Tagging: anyone who wants to do this, just say i tagged you!

a - age: 19, turning 20 in march

b - birthplace: virginia

c - current time: 7:48 pm

d - drink you last had: dr pepper

e - easiest person to talk to: thats hard, i have trouble speaking to everyone haha

f - favorite song: i dont know if i have a favorite anymore, but i guess ill always like weird fishes by radiohead

g - grossest memory: oh man my memory has been so bad lately, its like im living in a fog... oh ive got one, while we were house training the dog she had an accident under my bed. i went to clean it up and realized there was another dog shit that i accidentally smeared across my entire arm. that wasnt fun 

h - horror yes or horror no: yes but i have to be in the mood for it

i - in love? no, but i want to be

j - jealous of people?: yes sadly

l - love at first sight or should i walk by again: not sure. ill fall for people easily but logically i know i should probably get to know them a little better

m - middle name: no thanks

n - number of siblings: 3

o - one wish: to be able to recover from my mental illnesses

p - person you called last: my little brother

q - question you are always asked: “how old are you” people think i look younger than i am

r - reason to smile: things arent how they used to be

s - song you sang last: honestly i cant remember

t - time you woke up: 1:30 pm, which is way better than what it has been haha (4:30 pm) 

u - underwear colour: some dark blue rn

v - vacation destination: just the beach probably so i can relax

w - worst habit: pushing on my nails which breaks them

x - rays: teeth

y - your favourite food: dont really have one

Z - zodiac sign: pisces

[werenzki]

Andre Burakovsky #2.2

Anonymous said: Hayyyyaaa! May I request a part 2 of the Andre Burakovsky friends with benefits where they end up together or something fluffy pleeeeease?

Anonymous said:Is there going to a part 2 to the André imagine????

Anonymous said:hi omg i loved your andre imagineeeeee so much are you going to do a part two?

A/N: shit this one got long and i didn’t know how to shorten it so im sorry :\ also it ended kinda abruptly so sorry about that too.. but i needed to get some an imagine wether it was crap or not, just hope you reader liked it :)

Word Count: 4,181

You’re drunk

You giggled at the text and leaned back against the back of your seat. It was just past eleven here in California, meaning it was almost 2 in the morning back in Washington. Yet Andre was up texting you back. And stating the bluntly obvious fact, you were totally drunk.

Some guy bought me a couple shots

Some guy?

Yup

After sending the one word reply you found that you were no longer even smiling down at your screen. Your mind was racing a million miles. Was he jealous? Andre never really acted jealous. There had been some times - very few - that a guy would hit on you or Gina would mention that you had to meet some guy she knew, and Andre never showed any signs of jealousy. It was kind of disappointing.

Because there were many occasions when you felt jealous. Like when a group of you went out to this restaurant after a Captails win and a handful of woman flirted with Andre all night. Even seeing attractive girls comment on his Instagram caused a spark of jealousy inside of you. But you played it cool and reminded yourself to relax and he was just a friend.

“What are you frowning about?” Gina asked, a slight slur to her words.

You two had gotten a night to yourselves here in California. Which obviously had to be spent at the nearest bar along the beach. What first started off with two martinis quickly turned into taking shots with some flirtatious men and now sipping some mixed vodka drinks after they had left.

“Nothing,” you shrugged and watched as a grey bubble with three bouncing dots appeared - but then disappeared quickly.

“Oh don’t you nothing me!” Gina shouted across the table at you. You looked up from your phone and saw her pointing a finger at you while narrowing her eyes. She too was drunk. “You are my best-est friend, the god mother to my child and practically my sister okay! So I want to know what’s wrong,” she exclaimed.

You licked your lips and looked back at your phone again. Andre must’ve backed out of replying entirely. “I, uh, don’t really know where to begin,” you shrugged.

“Just tell me what’s got you so bothered, babe,” she had a softer voice now.

You let out a sigh and looked at her again. “I think I really like Andre,” you stated, for the very first time, out loud.

Gina’s lips immediately curled upwards into a smirk. She leaned back in her chair and lifted her glass to her lips, taking a long sip of her drink. With the twinkle in her eyes, you knew this conversation was going to be a long one.

“Well,” she sat up again and leaned on the table top, “it’s about time you admitted it,”

“What?”

“It’s obvious, to me at least,” she shrugged. “You’re my best friend, I kinda noticed things were different with that boy,”

“Things are definitely different,” you inhaled and then took your drink into your hands and sipped the vodka slim. As you got closer to the end, it got stronger, but with how intoxicated you were you didn’t really notice.

“So just tell him,” Gina shrugged her shoulders again.

“It’s not that easy, G,” you sighed.

“Why not?” She asked, her eyebrows furrowed together as you rubbed the side of your face and managed to sigh yet again.

“Things are just complicated,”

“How are things complicated? You like him, he has to like you, you two would make the cutest freaking couple. Just date!”

“It’s not like that,” you paused and licked your lips, “we’re kind of, like, fucking,”

“Wait, what?” Gina questioned with wide eyes and her mouth gaped open.

“We’ve had sex, multiple times,” you stated casually and sipped the remainder of your drink.

“I’m so confused,” she took a moment and crossed her arms at her chest. “Like it’s just some casual thing?”

You nodded, “I think the term you’re thinking of is friends with benefits,”

Gina continued to stare across the table at you with shock written across her face. Eyes wide and jaw dropped. After another moment she shook her head and took a sip of her drink - nearly finishing it.

“So it’s like a whole no strings attached thing, but now..” Gina trailed off, raising a brow.

“There’s strings,” you admitted while letting out another sigh.

You stirred the ice cubes in your cup and watched them twirl around. Things were so normal and casual only mere weeks ago. Now you couldn’t go an hour without thinking about Andre. Dating was complicated and when you thought about that commitment you got stressed out because of how crazy life got. Not only did you have a busy life and demanding career but so did Andre. And all these thoughts could mean nothing - Andre probably didn’t even see you as anything more then a friend.

“Well then make it official,” Gina said.

“It’s not that simple, G,”

“Why not?” She questioned, “you like him, and I know he likes you too, Y/N,”

“You don’t know that,” you stated.

“Well with the looks he gives you and how he’s having sex with you plenty of times then I’d say it’s a good guess,” she explained.

“It’s also a good guess that he’s not into me anything more than a friend, and that he’s having sex with plenty of other girls,”

“I seriously doubt that,”

“Well,” you breathed and looked back down at where your phone sat - still no text back from Andre. “I seriously don’t know anymore, G,”

Gina didn’t respond right away, a short moment of silence between the two of you let the whole conversation sink in. This situation with Andre was supposed to be a secret. You had managed to keep it that way for months now. You guessed it was only a matter of time before you told Gina.

“I’m sure things will work themselves out, babe,” Gina said while reaching across the table and patting your hand. You glanced up at her and mirrored her smile.

“Just, don’t tell anyone about this, please,”

“Of course not, this is your life and it’s all your choice,” she said while giving your hand one more squeeze and then leaning back into her chair. “Good choice though, Andre’s cute, how’s he in bed?” She teased.

“Gina,” you groaned but she gave you a knowing look. You narrowed your eyes at her, “too freaking good,” you answered which earned a chuckle from her and made you chuckle as well.

The weekend getaway ended too soon. You were setting Lucca down onto his feet as the three of you walked through the Carlson’s front door. You and Gina set down your things as Lucca ran towards the voice of his father that came from the kitchen. As you heard the happy squeals come from the little boy, you smiled and followed Gina into the kitchen to say hello to John. But you soon realized that John wasn’t alone as you walked into the kitchen.

“Hey,” Andre said with a smile.

“Hey,” you smiled his way but kept to yourself as it seemed he wasn’t going to give you anymore of a greeting.

Gina must’ve noticed the awkward encounter and offered you a glass of water, which you got yourself as she was engulfed by her husbands arms. Grabbing a glass from the cupboard, you filled it up at the filtered tape and then leaned against the island counter.

“How was your game yesterday?” You asked the boys.

“It was good, went to overtime,” John stated.

“We won,” Andre added while shrugging. You noticed his body language was still a bit off, he then stood up straight and leaned down at where Lucca stood to ruffle his mess of curls. “I’ve gotta get going though,”

“Already?” Gina asked, looking at you quickly before looking back at Andre as he took a couple steps towards the front door.

“Yeah, I’ve got some stuff to do,” he stated. “I’ll see you guys later,” he waved and then was gone just like that.

Gina turned and sort of gave you a frown. You shrugged in response to her obviously realizing how awkward and unusual that whole encounter was for you. John seemed to barely even notice as his son was begging for his attention, showing off his Mickey ear hat and laughing as he tickled him.

“I should get home,” you smiled and put your glass into the dish washer.

“You sure you didn’t want to stay for dinner?” Gina asked.

You shook your head and walked over to where your bag sat. Picking it up, you slung it on your shoulder and picked up your car keys off the small table beside the door. Gina followed you to the door and was frowning again.

“Thanks for such an awesome trip, G,” you said while bringing her in for a hug.

“Of course,” she muttered while rubbing your back. “Text me soon, okay?” She said as you pulled away and opened the front door.

“Okay,” you nodded, “bye boys!” You shouted to Lucca and John before walking out of the house and to where your car was parked on the road.

A whole two weeks and a half had passed, without a single word from Andre. It was weird and made you feel sort of sad. You sat in the back of the bakery, slowly typing your inventory report at your desk as the day came to an end. Sundays were already usually pretty slow because most people were settled into their homes before a long week of work. But with the mood you were in the past while, it seemed like every day dragged on.

All of a sudden your phone started to ring, buzzing on your desk as you were finishing up a column. Only two more to go before you could get out of here and go home. You glanced at the phone and saw Gina was calling.

“Hello,” you answered the phone.

“You’re coming to the game tonight, right?” She asked.

“Uh,” you paused and looked at the time in the bottom of your computer screen. The game was late for a Sunday, but you still hadn’t planned to go.

“Oh come on, babe,” Gina all but whined, “Lucca and I miss you,”

“It’s been a week since I last saw you two,” you stated with a chuckle.

“Yeah, a week too long,” Gine grumbled through the phone.

You chuckled at her behaviour again, after knowing Gina for so many years now, it happened often when she’d whine till she got what she wanted. And like usual, you were about to sucker into her. You let out a long sigh and looked at the time again.

“I’ll be out of the office in an hour, I’ll have to go home first, then I’ll meet you at the arena,” you said.

“Yay!” Gina cheered, “did you hear that Bulldog! Aunty Y/N is coming to the game,”

You chuckled, “I’ll text you when I get into the arena,”

“Your ticket and pass will be at the box office-”

“As usual, I know,” you cut her off.

“I’ll see you soon,”

“See you,” you said before ending the call. As it ended, your phone screen was on your recent calls. And somehow, you noticed Andre’s name - near the bottom - and it caused your smile to fall. Going to this game meant you’d finally see him after all this time. Three weeks was two weeks longer than any other time you hadn’t seen or heard from Andre since first meeting him. In fact, you’d even receive texts from him during those times. Something was wrong.

What if he was seeing someone? Like this was his way of cutting all the ties and ending whatever it was you two were doing. With that thought, it felt like your heart broke. Well at least you chest did start to ache a little bit. Over these past few weeks away from Andre, all those feeling you had started to feel had only magnified and were swallowing you up whole.

After closing up the bakery, you drove yourself to your apartment and went upstairs to quickly get yourself freshened up and changed before heading to the game. You changed from your plain black tshirt and leggings to a pair of dark blue jeans, a stripped tank top and you threw on a beige cardigan too. After slipping into your black booties, you reached for your keys and purse once again and were out of the door with no time to spare.

“Oh my goodness, Y/N,” Lauren Oshie, TJ’s wife and mother of the cutest little girls ever, gasped as you walked through the VIP doors and practically ran into the small group of the Washington Capitals wives and girlfriends.

Lauren still had her youngest, Leni, on her hip while she stepped around Gina to wrap an arm around you and hug you tightly. You chuckled and hugged her back just as tightly. As you pulled away you noticed the toothless grin on Leni’s face. You sure did love Bulldog, but these two little girls held a place in your heart too. Especially when Leni’s chubby cheeks were covered in your chocolate chip cookies.

“Lauren,” you copied her excited voice and she chuckled.

“I’m so glad Gina finally got you to drag your butt to a game, you haven’t been in so long,” she exclaimed. It had been awhile, even before all this weirdness with Andre came up. You have been really busy with the bakery.

“And on a good day it seems,” you said, “all the kiddos are here!” You stated and lightly pinched Leni’s cheek.

Around you were quite the handful of little children, all dressed in some sort of Capitals merchandise and rocking the red. Brandi Holtby gave you a quick hug before having to run after her three year old daughter, her son whom was only a few years older seemed to be more interested in whatever Lyla was doing. Then there was Mandy Alzner who was holding her shy little girls hand, three years old and still hiding from the hyper Bulldog who was smitten from day one.

After saying your hellos and ending up holding Lucca to your hip, you were all making your way to the suite the group of you were sitting in before puck drop.

“Lucca,” you sung out his name in hopes to get his attention, but like mostly everyone else in the arena his eyes stuck to the game being played.

You only smiled and continued to point the camera at him, snapping a cute picture of him leaned on the glass in the front row of the suite, captivated by the third period of the game. Quickly adding it to your Instagram story, you then shut off your phone screen and turned to watch the game as well. It was the last half of the third and the team was still up by three whole goals - one of which was scored by Andre.

From past experiences, you knew that Andre would be over the world to even be playing tonight but with a goal under his belt too that meant he’d be in an even better mood. Which made the talk you were planning on having with him be a little easier. Through the past two periods you had been thinking about how you were going to grab Andre after the game and actually talk about whatever it was happening. Wether it meant you were going to stand there and hear him say he’s over whatever you had going or if you were going to blabber out how you actually like him now.

“So have you figured out the whole Andre situation since we last talked?” Gina asked while lingering behind the rest of the girls with you.

“Nope,” you sighed.

“He still hasn’t talked to you?” She questioned, you shook your head, “I’m still shocked that he cancelled on coming over when he realized you were last week,”

“Yeah, me too,”

“So what do you think is his issue?”

“I’m not sure,” you shrugged, “but I’m going to find out tonight,” you stated while holding open the door that lead to the one staircase before the back hallways where you’d stand and wait outside the dressing room for the boys.

“You’re going to ambush him, aren’t you?” Gina asked while raising a brow.

“I kinda have to,” you exclaimed.

“I mean, you’re not wrong,” Gina said, “I hope it goes well between you two, and that he doesn’t go hurting your feelings or else I’m going to have to hurt him,”

“Uncle Andre,” Lucca said - well in a slurred barely pronounced way. But the two of you understood the little boy.

“Yes, Bulldog,” Gina cooed, “momma’s gunna have to beat him up,”

“Why are you beating me up?” Andre’s sudden appearance made you nearly jump out of your skin. Turning around you looked at how he looked so damn good in his suit you wanted to kiss him right there. But instead you rolled your lips into your mouth and crossed your arms at your chest.

“For getting pushy out there,” Gina covered herself up quickly.

“They started it,” Andre whined. You chuckled under your breath, and that was when he turned his attention to you now. And for the first time since before you left for Disney, he actually looked at you for more than half a second.

“Hey,” you smiled.

“Hi,” Andre mirrored your smile - which was a better sign than all the crap he’d been tossing your way lately.

“Can we talk?” You asked, cutting straight to the chase.

Andre furrowed his brows but was quick to nod his head. He first said goodbye to Gina and Lucca, then you did as well with promises to call Gina later - obviously to fill her in on this talk. Then the two of you were walking down the hall till you peered into an empty room, grabbing onto Andre’s arm and pulling him in before shutting the door behind the two of you. The room was empty besides the many tables and chairs lined up, making you think it was some sort of craft services place for media maybe.

You leaned against one of the tables, resting your butt on the top, while staring down at the toes of your booties. Andre stayed put where he stood just a few feet across from you. Then he cleared his throat and as you looked up at him, he seemed to look as nervous as you were feeling.

“You wanted to talk?” He asked.

“Yeah,” you nodded, “about how we haven’t been lately,”

“Uh, yeah, our lives have been pretty busy this past while, hey?” Andre tried to play it off but you knew he was just trying to brush it away as nothing. It wasn’t nothing, he was avoiding you.

“Oh yeah,” you said, “super busy,”

“Sorry?” Andre said after a moment, causing you to look into his eyes for the first time since getting into the room. In that moment, staring into his stupid dreamy eyes, you felt overwhelmed by the feelings you had for Andre. After years and years of not dating, or being interested in doing so, that was all you pictured when looking at the boy standing in front of you.

“Why are you avoiding me, Andre?” You asked, your voice softer now.

“I’m not,” Andre said but it wasn’t convincing.

“Yes you are,” you scoffed, “you didn’t even go to John and Gina’s last week cause you knew I was going to be there. You haven’t texted me, you haven’t dropped by the bakery, you haven’t even called for a freaking booty call,”

“Life’s busy,” Andre shrugged. Now he was avoiding eye contact, which only frustrated you.

You stood up from your position against the table and crossed your arms at your chest while taking one step towards Andre. He shifted where he stood, staring off at the wall instead of at you. Everything was pointing at the fact he could actually be seeing someone else. And thinking of that hurt you, bad.

“Please don’t be seeing someone else,” you nearly whispered the pleading words. But with that sentence, Andre’s eyes shifted back to yours. “Is there someone else?”

“God no,” Andre shook his head. Then he was shutting his eyes closed and he rubbed his face, obviously he had to be tired from the game but you were sure this conversation wasn’t helping. Even you felt exhausted.

“I get it,” you said, “we’re just supposed to be friends and the sex thing is all casual but-”

“The reason I’ve been avoiding you isn’t because I’m in love with someone else, Y/N,” Andre cut you off - both admitting to avoiding you and that he wasn’t seeing someone else. “After getting that text in Cali, about some random guy buying you shots, I got jealous,” he stated.

“You did?” You questioned, peering at him through your lashes while you were sort of frowning now. Honestly you were unsure of how this conversation was going.

“Yeah, really jealous,” Andre nodded, “but I knew that we were only friends and that the sex was just a benefit or whatever, this was only supposed to be casual,” he stated while pointing between the two of you, “but I got jealous and I realized I had to step back before I fell even more in love with you,”

You held your breath with the last six words fell from his mouth. He was in love with you? You swallowed and could hear your heart beating in your chest. After all that you had said, Andre managed to freeze you up with one simple statement. He took another step forward till he could reach down and lift up your chin, making you look up at him now.

“You don’t date, and maybe you friend zoned me,” Andre chuckled while brushed the pad of his thumb over your skin which caused you to smile, “but I couldn’t stop my feelings for you,”

“Me neither,” you admitted, “I haven’t stopped thinking about you since I last saw you, and I hadn’t felt this nauseous because of a guy in forever or maybe never at all and it kinda scares me,” you kept on rambling out the truth before taking a moment and simply staring into Andre’s eyes again. “But it also kind of is exciting too,”

“So now?” Andre asked, brushing your skin again gently.

“Now,” you breathed out and ended up smiling like a complete fool, “you kiss me,”

“Yeah?” Andre taunted, smiling widely as well.

“Yes,” you bit down on your bottom lip, causing Andre’s eyes to fall to your lips instantly. Then he didn’t waste another moment to press his lips down onto your and you two shared a long awaited kiss. Your fingers locked at the back of his neck while you got on your tip toes to get more comfortable with the kiss.

You could’ve stood in this empty room all night and kissed Andre till you could no longer feel your lips. But as you pulled back and looked into his eyes, you saw how tired he was from playing and wanted to get him to bed more than anything and rest up. Bringing up one hand, you let your fingers glide through his short hair near his ear and smiled. Honestly, you probably hadn’t stopped smiling this whole time.

“You played really well tonight,” you stated. Andre’s hands squeezed both your hips as his fingers found the loops of your jeans.

“I’m really glad you came,” Andre said.

“Me too,” you smiled.

Andre yawned, then leaning down to rest his head on your shoulder. You giggled and lightly scratched his shoulder blades. “You should get home, get some rest,” you said.

“I know,” Andre muttered against your shoulder.

He then lifted his head up just a bit, taking you slightly off guard as his lips pecked the bare skin just after your cardigan. A chill came over you, as his lips trailed up to your neck and then your jawline. Your eyes had fluttered closed again, in a daze from his touch. Even after sleeping with Andre, this all felt sort of new and more raw in a way.

“I don’t want to leave you though,” Andre admitted, “these past few weeks have been rough not seeing you, and now you’re in my arms and I don’t want to let go,”

You almost melted in his arms right there from his words. You could’ve always sort of guessed Andre would be a romantic, because he was always sweet, but this was making your head spin and your mouth hurt from smiling. Snuggling into his chest, Andre adjusted his arms around you and held you to his body.

“I missed you too,” you said.

[vivaciousyellow]

y: neverwhere by neil gaiman

...or actually, rather, nevermore of the-raven-by-edgar-allen-poe kind because guess what ya bitch is feeling downright feistily angsty what’s new? this isn’t. 

dear victoria,

i binge ate today.

it felt worse than usual because i’ve been trying really hard lately to watch what i choose to put into my body and at what quantities. and not to mention i’m already rather devastated about my thinning hair. am i being vain? i need nutrients nutrients nutrients nutrients nutrients

someone just chop all my hair off 

maybe i’ll be so compelled to get more angular cheeks and chin due to the unflattering amount of exposure i’ll stop eating for a bit

late last fall, i began wondering what it would feel like to just make the cut. a cut. the excuse i recited to myself in objection was that the only access to sharp things i had were the dirty ass communal kitchen knives. and i was too anxious to go to the 100 yen shop and have to ask to buy my own. and i was too scared to do anything with my hair clippers (also from the 100 yen shop, aka the best place on earth, aka heaven, aka i should be investing in items that are of the most excellent Made In Japan quality because sustainability but you know what the things in there are so high qua you wouldn’t believe your eyes ten million firelies it’s less than one wholeass USD). 

i confessed to david in the winter that i didn’t know how to feel happy anymore

but at least now i understand why people might want to feel pain

i shouldn’t have started the day eating two packs of ramen. now im about to end the day with two. but fuck, the bag of cheerios i downed in the interim with my litre carton of milk is wreaking mild havoc. last time i drank four cups of milk i was in fifth grade, reading a book by the huge bay window of our first home, my parents’ personal prototype of the American Dream. and honestly, i didn’t even mind getting diarrhea for it. it was in the late afternoon, just a smidge past golden hour. mom and dad had gone out, it was just my sister doing unrelatable teen things in her room. there might have been a CD player involved? was i sitting on the pastel purple stool or was i reclined into the lazy boy chair? was i happy or just content?

anyway, it was the perfect time to overdose on lactose and whatever, the milk was delicious. #yolo beaches

even tho it was skim. lmao i just needed to drink water but opted for tasteless murky bullshit instead. and now i can’t tell if i want to shit my pants because of lactose intolerance or because of my seminar class on wednesday. 

so, this is the one year anniversary of my first depressive episode since the social worker in high school called me troubled. i’m so scared this monstrous sense of hopelessness and dread is reviving itself upon the fertile ground of unresolved issues i’ve seemingly kept ready for it, so tip top swanky spanky new.

why can’t i do better? why am i throwing this tumblr irredeemably back into the dark times of angsty xanga-livejournaling (victoria, hee~elll~lllllpppp)? am i even allowed to snarkily refer back to those ‘dark times’ when i’m only vicariously living through my own blurred memories of my sister typing secretively away on her old ass chonky laptop as she sat wrapped in darkness and metal chains, dressed like a chinese-knock-off emo grunge kid?

i can say that because she literally got most of those clothes and necklaces from china i swear

excuse my pathetically unrecognisable attempt at edgy humour, all i can think about is how that one fleeting whimsical thought i had earlier about self-induced vomiting is becoming increasingly substantial. 

i feel like the protagonist in neverwhere by neil gaiman. but like only in the sense of a very loose interpretation on what similes are supposed to accomplish and based on a very loose interpretation of what the book was about.

1. like i’ve become unrecognisable and/or easily forgetable but to myself so like i see the world (read: my body) going on and operating as usual, but like i know i’m missing something (read: me? my place in the world? what?)

2. or like suddenly, i’m being forced to navigate a slightly and increasingly very off version of the world that i’d never been exposed to before where that world is my reality of mood fluctuations that are very confusing but, ultimately, of mild uncertainty. are fluctuations, quantum measured in uncertainty? 

3. oh physics? wherefore art thou? 

4. have these vague, inaccurate references to the plot piqued your interest? please say yes because it’s a great book. even though i told myself i was gonna focus on WOC writers. so much for that. 

5. dammit, ying, smh.

i wonder what my various overblown quotidian fears look like. you know, people have been doing inktober themes, very inVentively visualising various mental illnesses. (give me at least one instance of alliteration per post or give me death)

but im too scared to face mine. 

i’ll just keep eating instead.

happy spoopy season.

-ying

..of course with love but am i even capable of love cries in rolling my eyes at myself can’t even see those damn irises anymore

or should i say

nevermore

[justanotherhpfangirl]

the ice-cream ask: all the questions.

Ouuutch. Here we go.

       ice cream asks    

chocolate: when was your first kiss? Well if you mean like proper kiss, that really matters, i was fifteen? I guess i was fifteen yeah, and his name was Loïc.              

french vanilla: how old are you?  Way too old! No, im almost 2 actually.             

cotton candy: three places you want to travel to?  ICELAND. New-zealand and Canada.          

strawberry: a language you wish you could speak?  I’d love to speak Italian..             

coffee: favorite cosmetic brands?  Mainly Kiko tbh, i love their lipsticks!!            

mint chocolate chip: indoors or outdoors?  It really depends on my mood, but i think im more of an indoor person          

cookie dough:  do you play any instruments?  Oh how i wish i could…             

rocky road: favorite songs at the moment?  Castle on the Hills - Ed Sheeran ; 505 - Arctic Monkeys ; Lost on you - LP           

butter pecan: favorite songs for life? Apologize - Timbaland ; I’m on fire - Bruce Springsteen ; Snap out of it - Arctic Monkeys ; The River - Bruce Springsteen, … i can”t, there is plenty more.              

cheesecake:  what’s your zodiac sign? ARIES PRIDE.     

toasted coconut:   the beach or the pool?  Let’s go to the beach, beach, let’s go get away ♪           

chocolate chip:  what’s your most popular post? The picture of my Marauder’s map!      

bubblegum:   books or movies?  Books ♥             

pistachio: manga or anime? Anime!            

salted caramel:  favorite movies? The HP series ; The LOTR series ; Kill your Darlings ; Brokeback Mountain ; Dead Poets Society ; Neverland ; A Clockwork Orange ; La la Land, …           

birthday cake: favorite books? The Hp series and the LOTR series as well ; L’Etranger (The Stranger) ; Wuthering Heights ; Pride and Prejudice ; The Farseer Trilogy              

moose tracks:  favorites for manga? Fruits baskets was my very first! + any good yaoi tbh.         

orange sherbet:  favorites for anime?  SAO ♥ and Death Note.             

peanut butter:favorite academic subject?  GIVE. ME. MORE. LITERATURE.              

black raspberry: do you have any pets?  No         

mango:  when and why did you start your blog?  :) :) :) :) :) :). Two years ago. Do i really want to remember why i started this one? Back in 2014, late 2014, like in November i think, i was really really close with someone im not friends with anymore (god bless), and used to have another tumblr dedicated to a band but i couldn’t really reblog things i wanted to, since i was kind of carefully watched by this “friend”. And when we finally split up, i really, really needed somewhere to go and bury myself since i thought i had pretty much lost every person i held dear at the time. So here’s the reason (i’ve actually never told this to anyone before) why i started this tumblr.             

mocha:ideal weather conditions? I love rainy days.                

black cherry: four words that describe you?  Hmm i like to believe that i’m funny, kind, caring and sensitive.       

neapolitan:  things that stress you out? UNIVERSITY. People. Being surrounded by people. Myself. Being out of my comfort zone without one of my friends.         

raspberry truffle: favorite kind of music? Rock, Indie, Pop.         

chocolate marshmallow:favorite brands of candy? Haribo              

toffee: a card game that you’re good at? I’m a killer at tarot, tbh, people don’t wanna compete against me anymore.              

lemon custard:  do you eat breakfast?  Every morning (if i do not oversleep)             

dark chocolate:  turn ons?   Smells. Like perfumes tbh. A geeky, funny personnality. And nice hands.        

fudge: turn offs?  Chewing food with one’s mouth open, i can’t. I just can’t.             

peach:   how do you relax? Y O U T U B E              

praline:    a popular book you haven’t read yet?  The Perks of being a Wallflower, though i own it!

superman: do you like sweaters?  Oh man i love jumpers way too much.             

cherry:   do you drink tea or coffee?  Both!*

                dulce de leche: an instrument you wish you could play? Piano!!              

blackberry:  have you ever laughed so hard you cried?  My sweet buddy @koldkat knows this better than anyone! 

ginger:   a new feature you wish tumblr could have?  Idk.. I kinda like it the way it is!             

blueberry lemon:  favorite blogs? Tbh i don’t really have some favourites          

almond:  favorite mean girls quote? “Oh my God, Karen, you can’t just ask people why they’re white. “               

butterscotch:   what color are your nails right now?  No nailpolish on!          

cinnamon: have you ever been confessed to?  Yes, a few times.             

blue moon: have you ever had a crush on someone? HAHAHAHAHA tell me about it. I’m an easy crusher.          

cappuccino crunch:   do you take naps?  Oh man way too much for my own good.            

mint:   the most embarrassing thing you’ve ever done?  I’ve done so many tbh. But i don’t think i really wanna tell the internet about them. (Léa, remember that time i helped Alexia with some pictures u kno wat i mean)             

brownie batter: do you like sushi? Sushi’s love sushi’s life.               

key lime: where do you want to be right now? Far, far away. But i’d be fine in the UK or in Paris rn.              

red velvet:do you wear prescription glasses? Yes, i do!

green tea:  favorite flavors of ice cream?  Vanilla, Coconut, Strawberry ♥Oh maaaaan that was a long one to do! But anyways here you go babe thanks for asking these, hopefully you know me better by know… *cheeky eyebrows wiggle* as if you needed this to know me better than anyone. (And also i kind of enjoy doing these asks so really thank you)            

[nofeelingsandallthefeelings]

june 25, 19

lmao 

a move to la, alex breakdown, 3 beaches, 2 day rental car, countless messages on dating apps, first hills party, blackmail, std scare, and $$$$ later, I am writing....

I think I just shut down sometimes when things are happening to me, I dont know exactly how to process them, i guess i do the ostrich thing. Actually, I know i do the ostrich thing. 

also part of me wonders if my nyc trip was a decision made in a manic state, as well as many decisions I have made as of lately. I think I am coming down from a major high of mania , but again, I can never tell bc it feels like I am on the up and up, like im on the cusp of amazing things, and everything is amazing. Idk i was on drugs the whole time and drinking everyday. Now that I have been in LA for 2 weeks, its setting in that i am a whole ass woman and I have to actually really in real life prioritize my health and school, which I had not been doing. I will be honest, the school I havent been doing, I need to schedule it in there.

Lost by frank ocean was my mood in carries apartment the whole time i was in there. I just cant be contained, idk what else to say. 

and I self indulgenetly please the idea that I falsely want that in my life via my ideation of having a partner that will inspire me to settle down and see the free things in life, and I make myself believe that and then I snap out of it, but really though, i need to stop indulging in this behavior everyday, if i try it for a week i think i will snap back into my actual mode, aka my goals. y

I dont want this move to be like nyc, its similar timeline, i just want to be happy and explore. so how am i going to do this? bc i feel like i am starting to sort of shut down again and i dont want that to be the case. I want to be on top of my shit, but i have been feeling defeated and weak as of lately.... 

-focus on me, the present

-write more, everyday about what i like or dont like about the city

-go to meditation class

ill think of some other things...