#i got sick and they legit just said okay. text us when youre 100% better.

[sparklehoard]

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[dreamingofaizawa]

Guys My Age

Title and concept inspo: Guys My Age by Hey Violet

Soft Dom! Aizawa Shouta x Medium-sized Fem! Reader

Quirkless AU

***18+ Fic***

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Warnings: Age gap, praise kink, DD/LG dynamic and terms, use of the words daddy and sir, light bondage, overstimulation, smut. 

Word Count: 4.1k

Author’s Note: I KNOW, I know, I write a lot of Aizawa fics, and they’re all DD/LG stuff. I know, okay? It’s an obsession, I’m in love with this man. Anyway, another soft dom Aizawa, but reader isn’t very well-versed in intimacy. Also, reader is what some would call medium-sized. Not necessarily big, but definitely not small. This is for all my medium-sized girls, including myself. I was very self-indulgent with this one.

Part 2

Enjoy~

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You’d always been told you were mature for your age. It wasn’t until recently you realized how true that statement might be. You’re currently 21. And very, very single. You’ve had a total of six different relationships, and all of them fell through for one very simple reason. The boys you dated were just that. Boys. They were extremely immature. Only ever wanting to ‘hang with the boys’ or stay at home. No effort was put into the relationship on their part after the first few weeks. You didn’t understand why these vastly different boys were all so adamant on staying inside.

You’d tried desperately to get them to go out on dates with you. You offered to pay, and drive, and literally anything else. But no, they were too busy playing video games or getting higher than the damn sky. Don’t even start thinking about sex. You hadn’t got any of that shit since your first ‘boyfriend’ at 17, who used you like a sex doll and broke it off once he found someone hotter and sexier and altogether better in his eyes. You were sick of it. So you did the last thing you’d ever want to do. You went on a blind date.

You’d stumbled on a website last week that allowed you to set up a blind date with a stranger. It seemed legit, and had background checks on all participants. It also allowed you to put in any preferences you had, and matched you with someone that had similar preferences and hobbies. The age range you put in? 30-35 years old. Because guys your age just didn’t cut it. You needed someone more mature, someone who could treat you like a woman, not some girl.

Today, almost a week after matching with someone, you were standing outside an italian restaurant. You didn’t know his face, just his name and age, and that he was a teacher. Aizawa Shouta, 31 years old. And he’d sent a single message when you matched.

Meet me at this location on Saturday. When you enter, I’ll be at the back corner table. Semi-formal. 8 pm, please don’t be late.

It was blunt and straightforward. You liked it. You just hoped he wasn’t quite this blunt in person. You’d put on a black knee-length cocktail dress with a halter top and a partially open back that fell to the small of your back. It accentuated your shoulders and the top half of your torso before fanning out at your waist, the silky material falling and swaying around you. 

You slipped on simple white heels and silver jewelry, with a white clutch purse. You’d decided to pull your hair into a loose half-up half-down, a silver comb pinning your hair in place, minimal makeup and clear lip gloss. For the first time in a while you felt pretty. You knew you weren’t exactly small, but the way you were dressed gave you confidence.

You looked at your watch. 7:55 pm. You took a deep breath, straightened out your dress, and stepped into the restaurant. The host asked if you had a reservation, and you told him you were meeting someone who already arrived. He let you pass, and you walked back to the table Aizawa told you to meet at. He had his back to you as you approached, but you could see his broad shoulders and muscular frame easily. 

He wore a white long-sleeve button down, sleeves rolled up to his elbows, and a black vest fitted to his form. His slacks were also fitted, showing off his muscular thighs. His long raven hair was pulled in a half-up half-down similar to yours. You hadn’t even seen his face yet and he looked delicious.

Your heels clacked on the wood flooring, and as you neared the booth he turned to look at you. You stopped next to the table and got a good look at the stranger. He was beautiful. His dark bloodshot eyes looked tired, the bags underneath giving him away and only adding to his appeal, and a scar curved under his right eye. A sharp jawline, with a tamed scruff, and thin lips in a neutral expression. You were about to introduce yourself, but he stood from the booth and held his hand out, palm up. “You must be (y/l/n) (y/n).” You smiled at the gesture, and placed your hand in his. “That’s me. And you are Aizawa Shouta. It’s a pleasure to meet you.” He pulled your hand to his lips and placed a kiss on your knuckles, before leading you to your seat.

As he sat down, you noticed a bottle of wine sitting in the center of the table in a bucket of ice, and two glasses of wine halfway full. One sat in front of you, and the other in front of Aizawa. He began the conversation with a rather specific question. “So, (y/l/n), why are you on a dating website looking for men that are so much older than you?” Normally you’d take offense to a question like that, but the way he said it was pure curiosity. So, you answered. “If I’m being honest, it’s actually pretty simple. Guys my age just don’t know how to treat me.”

He raised an eyebrow at that, a barely noticeable smirk tugging at his lips. “And how do you want to be treated?” You smiled a little at the implications behind the question, and answered. “I don’t want to be stuck in my room while my ‘boyfriend’ plays video games and smokes weed. I don’t want to be ‘one of the boys’, and I don’t want to have to plead and beg to go on a date or spend time with him. I want to be treated like a woman, not a girl. And I want to spend my time with a man, not waste it on a boy.” 

At that, Aizawa smirked and sipped at his wine. You both took a quick look at the menu and ordered when the waiter came. As you ate, you talked about random subjects and hit it off quite well. The date went by quickly, and at the end of the night you’d exchanged numbers. “I look forward to another date with you, Ms. (y/l/n).” “The feeling is mutual, Mr. Aizawa.” 

When you got back home, you undressed and cleaned your face and got into bed. As you lay there, your mind drifted back to the date, and how undeniably handsome Aizawa is. The way he spoke to you like you were his equal, and looking at you like an ancient treasure. He was everything you wanted, without even considering anything sexual. Little did you know he felt much the same way.

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When the date ended he texted Hizashi to let him know he was free. Hizashi, of course, called him immediately, and began drilling him about the date. “How’d it go Sho? Was it a rando with a thing for older guys? Did she want a sugar daddy?” Shouta rolled his eyes. “No, Zashi, she wasn’t looking for a sugar daddy. She was...actually really mature for a 21 year old. She knows what she wants. I admire that a little. And I won’t lie, she’s quite beautiful. Not the generic, model, beauty-pageant, barbie doll pretty. It’s a natural glow she has. It’s...quite mesmerizing...”

Hizashi exploded on the other side, laughing at the new infatuation his friend had for a blind date. “I hope she’s your type, Sho. I mean physically. I know how much you like them with a little meat on their bones.” Aizawa groaned at his comment. He knew he was just teasing, but that his blonde friend was 100% right. He knew he had a type, and he’d be lying to himself if he hadn’t looked at your full figure quite frequently. 

He’d taken in your dress, how it showed off your shoulders and back. As you climbed into your car and took off your heels, he trailed his eyes up your legs, getting a small glimpse at your thick thighs. When you sat up behind the wheel, he revelled in the small rolls showing through your dress, wanting nothing more than to squeeze them and kiss them and bite them...

He shook away the thoughts that were threatening to take over his mind. “Shut it Hizashi. Her body is none of my concern, and is most definitely none of yours. I enjoyed the date and that’s what matters.” The loud blonde gasped dramatically, “Oh my god she totally is! Damn you go get some Sho!” Aizawa just ended the call.

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The next date was planned once again by Aizawa, and it was only a week after the first. It was a simple coffee date at a small cafe. You talked casually about the things you enjoyed doing. You convinced him to let you take care of the next date, which you decided would be a relaxed ramen date. You’d gotten comfortable around each other, and after about six more dates, he invited you over to his place for dinner. Of course, you accepted.

He’d sent you the address and apartment number, and you stood outside his door in dark jeans, black flats, and a beige sweater with a white tank top underneath. You knocked on the door, and when it opened he greeted you with a peck on the cheek. It had become a normal greeting, since you’d gotten so close, though the gesture always made you a little shy. He told you to get comfortable as he finished up dinner, and you sat at the kitchen table and admired him as he worked in the kitchen. He wore fitted blue denim jeans, and a black cotton t-shirt, his hair pulled up in a bun. 

No matter how many times you looked at him, he was always just as shockingly handsome as the first time you saw him. His t-shirt left his toned arms exposed, and it was fitted to his torso, showing off his muscular frame. Your eyes traced the outline of his muscles from his shoulder, down his arm, drifting to his hips and up his back. You didn’t notice him glance back and smirk at you. “Like what you see kitty cat?” Heat rushed to your face at the realization that you’d been staring, and the fact that he’d noticed. And that name… “K-kitty?” you barely whispered, before quickly apologizing. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to stare.”

You didn’t think he heard the first part. You were wrong. “It’s alright. And yes, kitty. Don’t like the pet name?” Your face burned at the tone of his voice. “N-no, the name’s fine, you just...caught me off guard.” He chuckled. “I should do it more often. You’re cute when you’re flustered.” You didn’t think your face could get any hotter, but it did. You tilted your head down and away from him and bit your lip, letting your hair fall to hide your face. You’d never gotten this kind of attention before, and you had no idea how to handle it.

You were too busy trying to calm your breathing to hear him approach you. The proximity and demanding tone of his voice made you jump a little. “Look at me, kitten.” You swallowed and took a breath before turning your head to him, and he hooked a finger under your chin, tilting your head so you were forced to sit up taller. He moved even closer, your shoulder brushing against his abdomen, and you nearly had to look straight up to look in his eyes. 

Your eyes began to drift away from his, and he jerked your chin up higher, silently commanding you not to look away. You brought your eyes back to his and held his gaze, and after a few moments he smirked. The hand under your chin moved to stroke your cheek with his knuckles. “Good girl.”

He quickly dropped his hand and went back to the kitchen to finish preparing dinner. It took you a few seconds to let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding. You panted a little, trying to calm yourself from what just happened, and clasped your shaking hands together. But they weren’t shaking from fear. In fact, you couldn’t quite tell why you were so shaky and out of breath. And the praise from him sent a shiver down your spine.

He managed to distract you while you ate, and you had completely recovered from whatever that was earlier. After dinner you moved into the living room and relaxed on the couch while you talked some more. Soon he’d leaned his head back and closed his eyes, still talking and listening, but clearly relaxed. Once again you found yourself distracted by his body, following the muscles in his neck down to his toned chest and abdomen. And again, he noticed. “I can feel your eyes on me, kitten.” His voice was low, a rumble of smooth baritone. You found yourself turning away to hide your face again, and the command in his voice controlled you with ease. 

“Don’t look away from me, kitten.” You turned back to him, and when your eyes met his, you looked away, and he let out a low growl and your eyes snapped back to him. He adjusted and sat up, your eyes still fixed on each other. He pat his leg, “Come here kitty.” You blinked at him, not quite prepared for such a demand. His eyes darkened a little and his voice dropped to a growl, “I won’t ask twice.” 

At that you got up and went to sit on one of his legs, but he pulled his knees together and shook his head. So you climbed over and straddled his legs on your knees. He grabbed your hips and pulled you so you were fully sitting on his lap, your core dangerously close to his growing bulge.

Your eyes were still locked on his as he leaned close to you, his hands rubbing circles into your hips.  He leaned past your face and whispered into your ear. “Can I touch you kitty?” You took a shaky breath and nodded. He laid a light spank on your ass and you jumped. “Use your words kitty cat.” “Y-yes, you can t-touch me.” He laid a kiss on your neck and whispered ‘good girl’ before moving his hands under your sweater and tank top. He ran his hands up and down your back, and he gripped the fatty flesh of your stomach and hips, kneading it in his palms gently as he worked his way up your body, leaving feather light kisses along your neck and jaw.

The intimacy had you quivering, and the way he nearly worshipped your body had your breaths coming out shaky and heavy. Shouta caught on quickly. “Is it safe for me to assume you haven’t done anything in a while?” he said in your ear. You started to nod, but quickly caught yourself, “Y-yes.” He stilled his movements and wrapped his arms around your waist, resting his chin on your shoulder. “Tell me what you did before this.” You took a breath and explained the situation as simply and quickly as possible.

His arms tensed, clearly upset that you’d been used like that. But he didn’t pry into that right now. “So you haven’t explored anything? Like any preferences you might have?” You shook your head quickly, “N-no...why?” He chuckled. “Well, kitty, you’re quite submissive. If you’d let me, I can help you explore this side of you.” You swallowed and nodded. “Y-yeah, I think I’d like that.” He hummed into your neck, “We can start tonight, but only if you’re comfortable and you want to.” You took a few moments to think about your answer. This man had been nothing but good to you. He treated you with more respect than all the boys you dated had combined. And you trusted him. “I...I’m comfortable starting tonight.”

“Alright kitty. Now, listen to me closely, because this is important, okay?” “Okay, I’m listening.” “Good. Since this is new to you, we need to establish a safeword. Is ‘roses’ alright?” You nod. “Okay. Now if anything ever gets too much for you, if you feel uncomfortable for any reason, if you need to stop for any reason, or if there’s a medical emergency, you need to use it. And that goes for me too. If I don’t like where things are going, I’ll use it. Once we use the safeword, everything will stop right there, no questions asked. Understand?”

“I understand.” “Okay. Can I trust you to use it if you feel the need to?” You nod, “Yes. I’ll use it if I need to.” He kisses your neck, “Good girl.” The praise makes you shudder, and you feel him smile into your neck. “Now, kitty, I want you to address me as either ‘Daddy’, ‘Sir’, or ‘Master’ when we’re like this, do you understand?” “Yes.” He spanks you a little harder. “Yes what?” You jump at the contact “Y-yes Sir.” Another kiss on your neck, “Good girl.” He leans back and taps your arms, “Up.” You lift your arms and he pulls off your sweater and tank top at the same time. 

His hands come back down on your shoulders, and he runs his hands down your chest and stomach, taking the time to remove your bra and knead your breasts. He wraps his arms around you and stands up, and you wrap your arms around his neck and your legs around his waist as he carries you to his bedroom. He puts you down on the bed on your back and takes a rope out of the bedside table. You let him take your hands and tie your wrists to the bar at the headboard. It’s not uncomfortably tight, but a few experimental tugs tell you it’s solid and you won’t be getting out of it unless he unties you.

He trails kisses down your body, unbuttoning your jeans and removing them as he goes. Once your jeans are off, he loops his fingers in the band of your panties and pulls them off. After that, he leans back and just rakes his eyes up and down your body, eating up every inch of your skin. “You’re such a pretty kitty.” His words have you shuddering and blushing. You’d never been called pretty before, and you knew why. You were a little bigger than other girls. You weren’t necessarily insecure about it. You didn’t care all that much about how people saw you with just your looks alone. But you knew Shouta was admiring your body after knowing who you are as a person, and it made you a little giddy.

His mouth and hands were all over you, squeezing and groping, sucking bruises onto your skin. His touches were sending waves of heat through your body, and pooling between your legs. You desperately wanted him to touch you there, and you whined and rolled your hips up into the air. “Such a needy kitty. Be patient. I’m not done here yet.” He rolled a nipple in between his index and thumb, pulling the other into his mouth and teasing it with his tongue. You mewled at the sensation, and he switched his mouth over to the other side.

Your legs were rubbing together, begging for friction, and he finally moved down to your dripping core. He took a finger and slipped it over your folds. He groaned as his finger collected your slick, “You’re so wet kitty. Are you this wet for me?” You nodded your head frantically, and he laid a light smack on your pussy. You let out a soft whimper, “Yes Sir, it’s for you,” you answered quickly. He hummed, “Good girl. I didn’t even need to remind you to use your words.” He kissed the inside of your thigh, and moved to lick a stripe up your folds. You gasped at the new feeling, never having anyone’s mouth down there before.

He slipped the pink muscle into you easily, groaning when he tasted you. The sound sent vibrations through your dripping cunt, making you squirm at the pleasure. He looped his arms around your legs, dipping his fingers into your core and using the slick to rub tight circles onto your clit. An unfamiliar sensation built in the pit of your stomach, your muscles tightening in your abdomen as it got stronger. You knit your eyebrows together, and in between heavy breaths you gasped out, “S-sir...it feels strange.” He raised his eyebrows at the statement, and increased his pace until that coil inside you snapped, which didn’t take very long.

Your back arched off the bed as you let out a loud, sharp moan, your legs shaking from the intensity of your first orgasm. Aizawa kept lapping at your pussy, letting you ride out your high, and once you were relaxed and panting on the bed, he lifted his head and wiped his chin. “Kitty, have you never cum before?” He asked, a small smirk tugging at his lips. You shake your head, “No S-sir...Is that what just happened?” He chuckled, but didn’t answer the question, “You’re going to have fun tonight kitty.” You didn’t have time to question what he meant, though, because he slipped a thick finger into your core, and you mewled as your walls clenched down on him.

The game he played went on for what felt like hours, and you lost count of how many times he’s made you cum. He’d fucked you and cum multiple times himself. You’d already squirted several times, and tears were streaming down your face from the overstimulation. It felt so good, but it was starting to melt your brain and the title of ‘Sir’ drifted to ‘Daddy’ as it went on. All the muscles in your body were burning from flexing so hard, and your wrists were feeling raw from how hard you’d been tugging at your restraints. It felt so, so good...but it was too much. He leaned down close to your face and kissed at the tears, “You’re doing so well babygirl. You got one more for me?” 

You giggled lightly at the praise, your mind fuzzy, unable to form coherent thoughts as he thrust his hips into you. He stilled his movements and caressed your jaw. “How are you feeling, kitten?” Your eyes looked up into his, struggling to stay open. You giggled a little as you answered. “It’s… I f-feel…” You knit your eyebrows together in concentration, searching your brain. “R-roses?”

Everything stopped, and he instantly reached up and tugged off your restraints, and pulled your exhausted body close to his chest. Your breathing got heavier, and your chest got tight, and fresh tears fell down your cheeks. He held you tight, kissing your tears and petting your hair as your cries died down. He held you like that until your breathing was normal again. You slowly opened your eyes, weakly calling out to him, “Daddy?” He kissed your forehead, “I’m right here kitten. Tell me what you need.” You nuzzled your head into his neck and mumbled, “Water. Can I have water?” He wrapped you in a soft blanket and stood up, carrying you with him. “Anything for my kitten.”

He set you on the counter and made a glass of iced water, holding it up to your lips. As you sipped, he rubbed your back and kissed your forehead and neck, and he didn’t stop or move until you had drained the cup. He left it in the sink and picked you up again, taking you to the bathroom and filling the tub with warm water. He turned off the tap, took off your blanket, and carried you into the tub. He washed the both of you, massaging your scalp, and you let out a sound like a pur, which he smiled at.

When he was done, he stood you up and wrapped you in a fluffy towel, dried himself with one, and carried you back to bed. You curled into him, and he wrapped his arms around you. “Are you okay (y/n)?” You nodded into his chest, “Yeah, I’m okay. It was just intense.” You could hear the smile in his voice as he spoke, “Thank you for using the safeword. You did so well for me kitten, trusting me like that.” You nuzzled into his chest some more, relishing in the heat his body gave. 

You loved the praise he gave you. It made you feel warm and fuzzy in your belly, and it felt so good. Soon you were drifting into a deep sleep, comfortable in Shouta’s arms. This was nice. You’d be happy to let him guide you, let him take care of you like this. One thought drifted through your head as you drifted.

‘Guys my age could never.’

[allthingskiszka]

My Favorite Asshole Pt.4

This is a Jake Kiszka x reader story but will involve the others.

This will be a multiple part story and pretty lengthy, I also may be slow to upload because my work schedule is pretty crazy. with that being said here we go!!! (p.s sorry about any errors I will proof-read but may miss something)

Word Count: +1,700

Part One  |  Part Two |  Part Three

As the bell rang you and Ronnie walked to the auditorium making your way to tryouts, as you got to the door Ronnie said

“You’re going to kill it, I’ll be in the library waiting to hear the results.” she said with a sweet smile

“Thanks, Ronnie” you said taking in a deep breath as you walked through the door

For some reason, you were extremely nervous as you walked in you noticed there were a lot of girls waiting to try-out as well. You didn’t see the boys so you took a seat towards the back by yourself you put in your earbuds listening to “Hopelessly devoted” preparing. right before you put your left earbud you heard a booming laugh coming through the doors you immediately knew it was Josh who was followed by Sam, and Jake. All the girls turned and looked in the direction of the boys, that’s when you realized all the girls there were there for one reason...the boys. You just shook your head you looked in the direction of the three and they were clearly scanning the crowd for someone you noticed there faces started to drop until Sam noticed you, he started walking in your direction.

“Well well well, look who it is, Songbird in the flesh” Sam said with a smile

“We were worried you weren’t here” Josh said with a soft smile

“y/l/n, you know what the funniest thing is, all these girls think they are gonna be Sandy” Jake said with a smirk as he sat next to you.

“You guys know what’s even funnier, all these girls are here because they have the hots for you all. If looks could kill I’d be dead 20 times over right now” you said with a laugh taking out your earbud.

“What no they’re not.” Sam said with a wired tone

“Wow guys are so blind I swear, they are legit drooling. Is Danny trying out?”

“We can’t help it we are so good looking, and nope, it isn’t his scene” Josh said

You guys were interrupted by Mrs.Jones she handed Sam a sign-up sheet

“Alright everyone listen up there is a sign-up sheet being passed around, Starting in the back of the room. That is the order we’ll try-out in, once you try-out you can either wait in here or in the hall please wait until no one is singing to exit the room. Sam you want to come up and sing for us”

“Sure thing Mrs.Jones” Sam boomed you just rolled your eyes and giggled a bit. Sam got up there and sand his heart out, he then went through the prepared script he did great. When he got done some girl waved him over he walked over to her to have a conversation. Josh was next as he made his way to the stage, you could feel your nerves you started bouncing you knee as Josh started to sing. he was halfway through the song as you felt Jake’s hand grab your knee he leaned over and whispered

“What happened to the annoying confident girl from yesterday?”

“I was confident till an asshole told me I sucked, and until I saw all these girls”

“You do suck, but you’re more talented than these girls” he smirked and let go of your knee

“Wow thanks Jake, real confident boost” you just shook your head and brought your attention back to Josh as he finished it was Jakes turn he stood up and looked at you

“Hey y/l/n, try not to zone out on anything, I can’t deal with you looking at me like a piece of meat” you just rolled your eyes and sent a middle finger in his direction. as Jake made his way to the stage Sam found his way back to you and sat down. 

“Songbird I figured it out”

“Figured what out dork?”

“You have the hots for Jake... He’s your type” as these words left his mouth you felt sick, and immediately shook your head no. While you liked Jake, Sam couldn’t know.

“Your so stupid Sam, I do not”

“Wow Songbird you’re really lying to yourself...and me”

“Shut-up, I’m trying to pay attention”

“Yeah because Jakes on stage” you roll your eyes and try to keep the heat from rising to your face

“Sam you’re annoying”

“Don’t worry y/n, I got this”

“Sam you better not do anything, I will kill you”

“So you do” Sam said a little too loud your head snapped in his direction along with half the people in the room Mrs.jones looked and your direct and told you guys to keep it down. Jake finished and it was your turn as you walked up to the stage your nerves slowly vanished the first note rung out and you gave it your all, once the song came to an end you looked at Mrs.Jones who had a smile ear to ear you looked to the back of the room and Sam and Josh were giving up a thumbs up. There was no Jake, you felt your face fall a little but you recovered quickly your thoughts were quickly interrupted by a cough coming from the corner of the stage you look in that direction and there was Jake with a smirk looking right at you. You just shook your head with a little smile and focused back on the task at hand. You read your lines so relieved that it was over, and you nailed it. As you walked back to your seat you stuck around for a few more people to try-out you decided to go to the library with Ronnie, you let the boys know and told them to text you towards the end of the tryouts. You walked into the library and sat next to Ronnie and pulled out your homework deciding to get a headstart for over the weekend. you guys made small talk for the next hour until you got a text from Sam that the results were about to be announced. You and Ronnie packed up your stuff and made your way back to the auditorium you guys walked in and sat next to the boys who had required some female attention after you left. They looked kind of relieved to see you and Ronnie Jake moved his bookbag off the chair next to him for you, as Josh did the same for Ronnie.

“So how did it go?” Ronnie asked the boys

they all answered saying it went great one of the girls nearby jumped in our conversation and said she was almost 100% positive she got the part of Sandy Jake looked at me with a smirk and rolled his eyes, you gave a little laugh and hit his arm you could feel eyes watching you. You looked up at Sam who was giving you a funny look and raised his eyebrows, you just grew quiet and shook your head. Josh told you that no matter what happened we were celebrating at there house tonight and invited everyone standing around jake seemed kinda annoyed 

“Actually Josh can we maybe celebrate tomorrow so I can have a relaxing Friday?” Jake asked in a serious tone

“Yeah I agree with Jake, it’s been a long day” Ronnie added with a concern in her voice knowing that Jake did just break up with his girlfriend.

Josh Nodded “ Tomorrow sounds great” he boomed

With that Mrs.Jones came out to the stage to read the results 

“Okay everyone quiet down, I’m gonna read the results now. Everyone who auditioned today should be very proud of themselves even if you don’t get the part you wanted this year, we could still use your help with running and setting up for the play. Once I call your name please make your way up to the front of the stage if your name isn’t called and you would like to help with the production stick around I’ll be passing out a signup sheet. If you're not interested in helping out then please exit the room and thanks for trying out.”

as Mrs.Jones read down the list you heard Sam and Josh get called to be supporting actors and as Mrs.Jones came to the last three parts Frenchy, Sandy, and Danny.

“okay and for the role of Frenchy we have Maddison, Finally our two leads for this year product of grease will be y/n and Jake, Congrats everyone it’s been one heck of a tryout day”

You froze when she said your name, you were in shock you couldn’t stand that was until Jake stood up next to you and shook your shoulder breaking you for your state of disbelief. “Earth to y/l/n, we need to go to the stage, you got the part, dork” Jake said pointing up to the stage “Oh yeah, sorry I zoned” 

“Hmmm interesting I’m not standing up there yet” he said licking his lips

“I’m never gonna live that down am I Jake” you said as you rolled your eyes and laughed 

“Negative y/l/n” he said with a laugh. as you guys made your way up to the stage everyone congratulated you. Mrs.Jones told you all we would on Monday after school, but for now to go enjoy the weekend. everyone got up to leave and Ronnie asked if you wanted to stay the night at her place then you guys could get ready for the party tomorrow, she said Josh could swing by your place so you could grab some stuff.

“Yeah sounds great”

“Cool, Songbird we just have one question”

“What's that Sam?”

“How do you feel about horror movies, because it looks like the perfect night to have a marathon”

“I love horror as long as I have a blanket” you said laughing

“We totally have blankets, and plenty of strong men to protect you” Sam said shooting a wink in your direction

“Sam how many times do I have to tell you, you're a boy, not a man. Also, no chance in hell am I sitting next to you” you sent back and everyone laughed including Sam

“Great, you can sit next to Jake” he whispered so you could hear you felt the heat rise to your face. As you thought about the opportunity you would have in a couple of hours.

~To Be Continued~

Sorry, I got this up a little late I was a lot busier than expected this week. I’m gonna try to upload twice a week, but we will see. I also want to open request so let me know if you have any!! Thanks

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[suckit-aynrand]

wow okay.

i just now finally got the guts to softblock my ex’s tumblr after a fucking year and a half.

ive wanted to rant and piss and moan about that whole debacle on here for so long but because she followed me etc. i never did because i didnt want to stir shit up

i shouldve done this a long time ago because every time i saw a post she reblogged i’d feel sick to my stomach and get really depressed tbh.

so now im trying to release all my shitty feelings by writing it out....

she was my first kiss and then she ended it before we were even able to give it a chance even though i’d liked her for over 6 months prior.

she was a fucking bitch though and made me feel so shitty about myself... unfortunately, i have an issue where i need everyone to like me so the more someone doesn’t care about me the harder I try and any drop of affection from them is like a drug.

ok so like she told me she was gay in like february or some shit and i told her I was bi because i was still trying to figure my shit out and then I started developing feelings for her (ie, see above) which i’d never done before because id never opened myself up to thinking about a girl that way and never with guys except for feeling ill....

so yeah, we were friends for a long time and i really liked her that whole time but i was fucking what 19 and had never done anything with anyone and was really nervous about stuff like that and, especially because of her personality where she’d be a total bitch 75% of the time and shoot down anything i said (which id just brush off as a joke or whatever and laugh) so no way in hell was i going to ever fucking make a move and i’d sleep over at her house (she lived at home) and she knew I had no experience and i told her id never even kissed anyone and she’d call me a “spring chicken” and shit because i was such a fucking everything virgin

we spooned once but i was so nervous and freaking out because im bad with touching people in general because i have this huge fear of doing something wrong and being rejected and totally overthing everything??

we also had this stupid bullshit thing about “ymir and krista” from attack on titan- shut the fuck up, i know, but like it was kind an apt metaphor for our personalities and looks (besides height because i was taller than her) so i remember and breaking point in my crush was when there was a “pick ten pictures that represent your aesthetic” on tumblr or whatever so i picked a bunch of pics or whatever and then one that was ymir/krista and i tagged her to do it too (do your sleuthing on your own time fellas) and she ALSO put a ymir/krista pic in hers so i was like HOLY FUCK IS THIS KISMET??? and then got my shit together to admit to my sister that i liked her and was bi (lol... that was a while ago...) and planned to ask her out myself.

anyway, like the next night, and incidentally on the night of the Supermoon in 2015 (when there was an eclipse on the night of the supermoon) i stopped by her job at gamestop when i was at the mall with friends to say hi (which i would do whenever possible... again, i was/am desperate for affection) and she said she was getting off soon and her grandparents were in town and were going to dinner at a place at the mall and would i like to go with so i was like sure so we went and then I went back to her place with her family and we sat outside to watch the supermoon and we were like holding hands and shit because it was cold and it was montana in late september etc. and i was nervous and all but all blushy and excited because of my previous nights shit, and then we eventually moved onto the back porch and she asked me if id want to date and i was like yes and then her homophobic grandparents came out to see if we were still watching the moon or whatever and then we went in to her room where i slept over and when we were looking out the window she kissed me and i was super nervous and blusy so it was like just a quick peck but it was my first kiss and i wanted to do it again but also i was scared to (like... because of her? and i was scared she wouldnt want to?)

so then the next morning i got a ride back to my place by her mom because i had an early class and we kissed (quickly again) before i left and then the next night i slept over at her place again but we didnt kiss at all... after that i would keep texting her and trying to make plans and stuff - i wasnt a student at the time but i lived close to campus so i was always like let me know when youre free and i can come up and meet you for lunch or i can come up and do anything because i wanted to see her and shit and she’d always be like “im busy with work/school/band etc.” so i was just like ok let me know when youre not and id visit her at work when i could but i didnt have a car and she was working and i didnt want to hang out in gamestop or whatever so id just pop in and it was awkward...

id said earlier that i wanted to go to the rocky horror show live that they did downtown so i saved up over $100 to get us tix and dressed all slutty for it (for her but also for rocky) and she wasnt really into it and i was trying to make it fun etc. and i had planned for her to stay the night at my place afterwards because i had an extra mattress under my bed for guests (THAT I LITERALLY ONLY BROUGHT WITH THE SPECIFIC INTENTION OF IT BEING FOR HER) but she said she had to go home or whatever and so i drove her home and walked her in and we kissed (quick kiss again) as i was leaving and then we kissed again, but like a couple little kisses in a row, and i was trying so hard to do it right but i was so nervous and that was all good (except she told me that my fucking MAC LIPSTICK didnt taste good... that fucker....) and then i left and continued to try to meet up with her and then one day she asked me if i was free to come talk to her on campus so i tried to dress up all cute and then she broke up with me.

the break up was so weird too because she was like “ive been too busy to see you, and ive been having a really hard time with my mom lately, and my dads cancer just came back and i want to still be friends and maybe next semester we can try again” and all and she was like crying (like a little bit) so i didnt want to be dramatic and make her feel bad so i tried to keep it light etc. (like i always do because im a fuck) so i was like its all good im so sorry youre having all this shit let me know if i can do anything etc. and then i hung out for a bit to try to make her feel like it was all good (even though i was devastated inside..... im just really awful with my emotions...) and then i left and was in a trance for a few days.... like even though practically nothing happened i didnt know (and still dont know???) what happened???

like....... was it because i wasnt really making any moves??? because i was trying like especially at halloween etc.????? and like she was the one who asked me out?????? like... i was also open about the fact that i’d be moving away the following summer most likely because i was changing schools and whenever i’d bring it up before we were “together” she’d legit like tear up and be like “you cant leave” and shit...?? was that why???? and like this still really gets to me even though it shouldnt and she truly was very hurtful to me in so many ways beyond this bullshit??? i just feel like i expended so much effort on building my relationship with her and never got any reciprication? 

like... there were a couple of times the following semester where she’d text me and ask to get together with another friend or whatever and i really really really wanted to say no but that word isnt in my vocabulary because im an anti-confrontational pushover so we would and it would be so weird for me but id really really work to pretend like it wasnt and then i moved.

and i really honestly wanted to message her and be like can you just be open with me about why because i feel like i got no closure and i thought about doing it a bunch but i never did because im a coward and scared of putting other people in situations that might make them uncomfortable because i know how uncomfortable they make me and how much i hate it???? i also thought about asking a mutual friend if he knew anything about it because he was closer with her but i didnt even know if she told any of her friends/family about it because she was super open about being gay but didnt want me to be open about our relationship because, in her words, “they’d say we told you so and we knew” and she wanted to prove them wrong for as long as possible or something?

but now like a year and a half later its sooooo way beside the point and too late so like i cant do it now.... but i havent been in another relationship obviously and like last semester i was getting really unreasonably jealous over her ambiguous snap story about getting ice cream with her girl and how much she loves her even though im more than halfway across the country from her and now ive definitely calmed down and have faced the fact that she was a bitch but like i still feel so stuck with no closure and also am terrified that i’ll never find anyone else? and i also know that its my fault but i wish i knew how much and what i could do better in the future because im terrified of making the same mistakes again and feeling this emptiness?

i wish this were easier. im so sorry for spilling all this shit but ive been bottling it up for so long and have only ever told my sister and even her i didnt tell everything and i feel free now that i wont be seeing her posts anymore and can hopefully let this settle even more....

[wearethebeat-blog1]

Meet Coty!

I’m all about food and I have a thing for photography and vintage antiques. I love color and words and my house has a lot of both. I’m totally new to this “being a parent / mommy” thang to my little itty bitty mini me whom i call my PINEAPPLE PRINCESS with the help from my husband slash best friend slash partner in crime slash my forever. 

I met my husband in 2013 from an online website called POF (www.pof.com). Yes an online dating website. Through all the fishies i finally found the ONE! We talked for the longest time and at the time we were both talking to other people. Finally July of 2013 we met in person. I was out at dinner with a girlfriend at Applebees. Few drinks in i texted him where i was and apparently he lived in the area. So i invited him and he was on the way. Remind you i was drinking. I was nervous (even though i’ve done lots of online dates), then i saw his truck past the window and my girlfriend goes “Is that him!?” Didn’t think at the time that the guy in a baseball cap and blue jeans was going to become my forever. Eating and drinking led my friend to become sick (she was sick to begin with and i encouraged her to come out anyway i know i know im a bad friend but she loves applebees like me!) and she had to leave at that moment. SO she askes the “guy” to take me home and boom she squealed out of the parking lot. Which he thought “oh two girls going to the bathroom, her friend said that as a set up”. It was true, she really was sick and left me to find a ride. Great thing was he did give me a ride home and we made plans for that following weekend to hang out. Fast forward a couple months I followed the boyfriend to his cabin in the woods. When i say woods, i mean it. Woods on woods. After a weekend retreat i fell in love with the little place. He told me he was planning on moving up full time in the cabin and it was up to me if i wanted to move in with him or stay back in Milwaukee.  At the time i worked as a professional polynesian entertainer for a group in Milwaukee, Wi. I also gigged as a Go-Go dancer and dj’ed events around the Milwaukee area and called Spearmint Rhino Gentlemen's Club my home base. Yes i was a strip club dj and no i do not regret it. It was a FUN time in my life and was grateful to the management to give me that chance to DJ/MC. After a long decision i said “SURE”. 

I left everything i knew in Milwaukee to start a new life in the country. It was a hard journey, but it was one to remember. I left my favorite job to work in a factory. Hard work. I learned skills and trades that i now use at home. Especially tools. Not just your regular screwdrivers i mean sockets and air guns and hi-potting. I worked on the line wiring control boxes to harnesses that i attached to the engine of the generators. Both of us worked there. After a year or so my boyfriend left to pursue another job at another factory for more pay and i stayed because i was comfy. Time went on and i decided to change jobs and followed him there because well the benefits were better. We worked building washers and dryers for commercial and home use. Not going to lie this job was WAY harder but as time went on it became easy untill....i got pregnant! It was planned. he was 35 i was 25 and he wanted a kid before 40 and i wanted kids! So working and being pregnant was HARD and uncomfortable. 

2017 of April we decided to get married. Yes, i walked down the aisle at 8 months pregnant. It was a small wedding with just our families and it was great. I rather have a small group of people and feed them good vs 100+ and feed them crappy. No we didn’t get married for family and we didn’t do it for any religious views. We did it because: 1: we love eachother, duh. 2: why not, we aren’t getting any younger. 3: we found our forever....eachother! 

Its a struggle. Nobody said this mommy gig was easy. I wasn’t afraid of the birth (legit 20 minute labor!) i was scared of the NEEDLES (and they said its like getting a tattoo, nope its not!) and healing of bum bum bummmm....yes down there. The crying was unbearable and i felt so defeated. Giving up felt like and option, but i knew i couldn’t. This baby girl NEEDED her MAMA.I learned as time went on the struggle has gone down but you may feel isolated. Tired. Alone. But I realized there is a gigantic group of people who are just like you and me. They are called mothers. They know what it feels like to love a child more than life; feel their child’s pain; to move the stars to be with their baby.

We were fortunate as a family that i could become a FULL time stay at home mommy to little PINEAPPLE PRINCESS. We are at a point in our lives where we are “okay”. No we aren’t “rich”. No we don’t have any inheritance. No he doesn’t have a office / career job.  With careful planning and where we live, gave us that opportunity to be “okay”. 

[at-the-end-of-the-day-and-always]

J U N E

June 1 2017; 2:57 am

Putangina na-love nanaman ako... huhuhu gago kinikilig talaga ako pag ganon!!!!! Puñeta. 😭😂 Today we went out and then ended up hanging out with Alex and Wil. I like your friends, they're nice. Pero puta mamaya ko na gagawin 'to. 3:03 na and I'm so antok na. HAHAHAHA I love you!

Part two; 2:30 pm

So ayun nga, last night was fun. I enjoyed talking to them. Mostly Wil kasi kami lang nakaupo e HAHAHA. You know me naman, daldal is always good for me. So like, no big ganaps, chill chill lang ganon. I texted Alex pa ng, e. I thanked her hahaha. Wil din sana buuut I have no contact with him pa e hahaha. Thank you for introducing me to people — specifically your friends. Wala lang, nakakatuwa. Kasi I get to be, in a sense, more part of your life than I already am. It's cute hehe. Thank you.

Part three; 6:23 pm

Okay so before your board broke, I saw you skate a bit pa and putangina, why the hell and how the hell do you look more gwapo??? Tangina it's so ehsjdixjdidkd. HAHAHAHA. Gwapo ka, yun na yon. Yoko na mag elaborate. 😂 So anyway, went with you to John's and omg I'm sorry for ditching you, ish, to catch up with Kat. Sorry babe!!!! Minsan lang naman HAHAHA. Pati you were with sila John naman so yay hahaha.

Part four

It's 2:28 am and I'm doing this muna before I sleep. So ayun, nag heart to heart kami ni Kat and we talked about so much things, bitin pa nga. Kat told me, she commented na “tangina Nyks yung last na kita natin pati ngayon, isa lang ulit sasabihin ko; seryoso ka talaga kay Kirby noh?” And she was rambling about how she's so happy for me, she's glad I have you, and I finally found someone to finally invest more than one thing with. Kasi nga it's the first time na ganito ako with a guy, let alone a boyfriend. So wala, thank you. I super appreciate everything that you've been doing for me. More than I've let you know, more than I show. Kat told me din na at some point, we'll fight and I know that naman. Like I said, I'm not scared if we argue. That's normal naman, it's inevitable. Things won't always have a good flow but eyyyy, we got this!!! I know we do. So yeah, yun lang!! Hehe. And I noticed that lately, almost everyday ako nagawa ng notes na ganito. Wala, share lang. HAHAHAHA. I love you! ☺️ So much. 😌

June 2-3 20177:19-7:26 pm

You said na you're leaving. Obvious naman na we're not in good terms right now. Ikaw naman kasi??? You said na you're tinatamad and want to sleep, tapos you're going pala. Now, we're okay na. Pinuntahan mo ako here sa room and made me aya to go with you to sila Alex. And I appreciate the surprise, babe. I really do. Pero, sinabi mo sakin, like now lang, na you don't feel too good pala. Your back hurts. Edi sana you stayed home and rest, diba? You should've told me na ganun din, para hindi ka na namin pinapunta. I would love to spend as much time as I can with you. That's what I want naman. Pero, sleep mo nga, I don't wanna compromise it, yun pa kayang you're not feeling well physically? Sabihin na natin na kaya mo, fine. Nothing too big, okay. Pero diba, point ko, I'd want to have you rest as much as I can. Kung kaya naman i-put on hold yung other things, especially if it involves going to me/going somewhere with me/doing something for me, go. Take care of yourself din muna no matter how much you think na you'd rather do other things. It's for you din naman e. Okay???? I'm sorry for getting annoyed nalang din, medyo OA na yun. Pero yun nga, I just want you in a good shape lang naman e. But thank you for making up with me, and bringing me out to hang with you and sila Alex. I appreciate it.

12:54 am

Thank you for treating me the way you do kahit sometimes, we don't always jump on the same page immediately. Awhile ago Kat made me realize din na we may not fight, like a huge ass fight na we get so angry and shit, pero we get annoyed with each other at some point. And she pointed it out na if ever we really do have a misunderstanding, we can handle it naman. Kasi with (little) things like this, we're able to handle it well and immediately naman. So what more if we're in a situation that needs more attention from us, diba? So yeah, wala lang. Thoughts/realizations lang, ganun. I don't always say it but hopefully it's obvious naman, pero I'm always here lang. Always always always

June 5 2017; 12:43 am

Kinikilig nanaman ako sa sinabi mo huhu HAHAHAHA. You made kwento about what Alex and Wil said kasi and na si Jasper, gusto ako maka-close HAHAHA wala, tuwa ako. I wanna befriend them not just because they're your friends but because I like their personality and all din kasi talaga.  Anyways, you feel sick nanaman na ewan. Take care of yourself!! Siyempre diba iba pa din kapag ikaw nag-aalaga sa sarili mo. For the record, I love taking care of you. Kahit na sometimes you're so lazy nalang din talaga. Hahaha. But yeah, I don't mind. It's fun naman. I do it because I want to and because I can. So, yeah. Short daldal lang from me todaaay hahaha. Feel better, babe!!!! I'll always be here to take care of you whether you're sick or nor, whether you need me to or not, whether you want me to or not. Here lang me alays. :)) I love you!

June 6 2017; 3:21 am

I love you!! It's so cute na you made vm pa na you love me HAHAHA. I was annoyed until 5 minutes ago. You legit turned my frown upside down hahaha. I was a bit frustrated na kasi e. Di ako makatulog ulit. But thanks to yoooou, I'm in a better mood. Hahaha. 😂9:09 pmBakit ganon tuwing wala akong ginagwa na ccute-an ka lagi... HAHAHAHA. Wala lang, it's amusing na ewan.

June 7 2017; 4:44 am

Ano ba talaga, ha? I don't feel good na nga, ganyan ka pa. Lalo akong nagagago dito. ._. Di ko maintindihan kung galit ka o ano. Bahala ka nalang muna diyan. ._.5:19 amAnd just like that, okay na tayo. Kasi naman!!! Super nakakatunaw nalang talaga when I read your messages na nag eexplain ng whatever. You're ma-drama but it's okay, I am din naman. 8:45 pmI miss you na. Legit this is the only thing for this part... HAHAHA. Why am I so clingyyyyyy. I shit you not, I wasn't like this talaga before.

June 8 2017; 3:04 am

Times like this where I wish I can do something to make shit easier for you talaga. I know I don't have to, I don't need to. But I want to. Sometimes kasi it seems like you carry so much weight on your shoulders and I just want to try to make shit easier for you. Not completely, yeah. But at least nababawasan. It sucks na I can't do a shit ton of things but I swear, I'm always here for you lang talaga. I promise you can count on me.

June 9 2017; 2:27 pm

I'm almost done with my pamper shit and Alex said na she's gonna go to me here sa SM. I'm kind of nervous kasi it's my first time to be alone with her. Baka mainis sakin or smth. Alam mo naman ako pag nag-umpisang dumaldal, e. 😭😂 But getting with her, smooth sailing naman conversation. It started with one topic tapos for sone reason, dami na namin napag-usapan agad. To the point where we couldn't continue talking kasi we were with Jasper na, ibang topic na. 😂

1:27 am, June 10

And honestly it was fun. I like Alex. She's really nice and genuine also. It's not hard to talk to her or be open about opinions, and I appreciate that. You know me naman kasi HAHAHA. Same with Jasper. He's really cool and chill, nakakatuwa. So far, it's him and Alex I'm close(?)-ish to. Ayoko naman pangunahan sila or mag assume kaya may question mark pati ish. HAHAHA. Thank you for introducing me to them. Thank you for choosing to make me a part of your life even more, and a little bit more every day. You make me feel so loved and special, it makes my heart flutter. I love you.

June 10 2017; 11:15 pm

I'm wearing your hoodie again and boiiii it smells so good talaga, pota. For some reason your scent's so comforting. I just love it. Pero naiinis ako kasi sinisipon ako, di ko maamoy hoodie mo. 🙄 HAHAHA. High key praying for a gloomy/rainy weather tomorrow so I have a bugger excuse to use your hoodie out and about. Hehe. HAHAHAHA. Feel better, baby boy! 😜 You're sick nanaman kasi, hay nako. I won't always be there to take care of you pa naman.

June 13 2017; Around 8:13-9:30 pm

From sitting behind me to sitting in front of me to me sitting on your lap na. 😂 My legs are like, wrapped around you na while we're sitting down. I feel so smooth every time I get to type shit and you're around. Lol.

June 14 2017; 1:44 am

Anyway, I love you. I love you and thank you for deciding to be a part of my life the way that you are right now. For hugging me just because you feel like it, for telling me I'm cute just because you find me so, for holding my hand and kissing the back of it, just because you want to. For pulling me closer even though I'm fairly close to you already just because you can. For telling me that you love me because you do. I'm just really thankful na you're there. Most, if not all, of these dated notes probably have the whole "thank you" vibe and prolly repetitive or whatever but who caaaares. Yun nga point ko for this, para alam mo na-ffeel ko and thoughts ko. So yun. I don't say it all the time pero I hope once you read these, you realize na I value you din talaga. Di naman kasi ako 100% expressive/vocal with everything. Dinadaan ko lang sa "cute mo" comments or whatever. Basta talaga when you read these, hay nako kiligin ka nalang sana. HAHAHA.

June 17 2017; 7:02 am

Omg ka talaga HAHAHA. You're the sweetest, I swear. :(( I love you so much!!! I don't do the whole "so much" thing often but ahhhh I love you so much talaga, swear hahaha. Honestly I cried. 😂 Kasi it's just so heartwarming to know these things. Sometimes kasi I feel like I haven't done/don't do as much for you pero every time na you suddenly do your long/string of messages, I feel and see na I'm able to do shit for you naman pala without having to actually do something. Super nakakatuwa na ganun pala kasi ganun ka din sakin e hahaha. You do a lot for me without having to actually do something. So wala, eto, thank you ulit. Thank you for everything. I love you.

June 20 2017; 8:45 pm

Naiiyak ako. Naiiyak ako kasi kanina parang ang cold mo na ewan. I understand pero nabigla nalang din ako. It scares me kasi pag ganun. When someone I'm close to grows cold/distant all of a sudden. Then kasama ko pa physically. Wala, scary talaga yun for me hahaha. Eventually, I know na maiiyak ako. I hope you're okay enough. Alam ko naman na you're probably upset and whatnot. But yun, I hope you're okay enough.11:30 pmGago eto na, umiiyak na ako. HAHAHAHA. Hay, grabe. Alam mo, sobrang love kita. Habang tumatagal, lalo kong na-rrealize yun and lalo ko na-ffeel. And I'm not complaining naman (wag ka din mag complain, di ka dapat mag complain. HAHAHA). There's nothing bad about it naman. Kanina Kat told me something along the lines of “don't justify or make excuses for his actions just because you love him” and I know that naman. It's just that on my end, it's me choosing to fight you back with understanding rather than also doing something that would cause more damage than good. Kunwari you get annoyed, I won’t make patol and go get annoyed din. I’ll

June 21 2017; 4:17 am

Okay na tayo!!! I mean, it's not that we weren't okay. But like, ayun — drama drama (don't take it in a bad way) lang hahaha. Naiyak ako nung binasa ko message mo. Hehe. I was talking to Richard pa and gago!!!!! I thought you were gonna break up with me, puta HAHAHA. Stopped breathing for like 30 seconds. 😂 I skipped agad sa dulo to see how the message would end and I was so relieved to see the “I miss you babe” sa dulo. HAHAHAHA. Tangina moooo. 😂 Sobrang mini(????) heart attack moment nun, bwiset. Pero ayun, naiyak nga ulit ako. I was mumbling the message to myself, forgetting na I was talking to Richard. Actually mid-first paragraph palang, teary eyed na ako. Honestly sometimes super baba talaga kasi ng luha ko HAHAHA. Then ayun naiyak ako ng tuluyan nung sinabi mo na you realized it wasn’t something, it’s me. Wala, sorry, mababaw talaga girlfriend mo minsan. HAHAHAHA. Hay, I love you. I mean all my “I'm here for you no matter what”s, okay? I’m here lang and I’m not going else where, no plans going anywhere. Count on that talaga. I’m glad you messaged me. I’m glad na we got to talk before we both slept. I had plans messaging you din naman kaso pag patulog na ako para di ako kabahan sa replies mo or whatever. HAHAHAHA. Abnormal din kasi ako e. 😂 Pero yun!!!!! Glad that we ayt. :))

June 22 2017; 12:30 am

You hung up to eat. I'm eating magoes. Lol, wala. Share lang. I'm just happy na kahit papano you're okay naman. I know shit's hard for you talaga basta always remember nalang na I’m one of the people in your life who will always want you to be in a good place and help you be there also.

1:37 am

Parusa ba? HAHAHAHA wawa ka naman, okay lang yan. Mapapalitan mo din yang vape juice mo. Sobrang funny kasi nag ccomplain ka na talaga HAHAHAHA.

June 23 2017; 4:42 am

Napaisip lang ako bigla... comfy na din pala talaga tayo with each other noh? You're playing Shape of You kasi and wala. I remember that day sa Starbucks one time with sila Arianne. April 5. Omg yes, I remember talaga HAHAHA. Pero yun nga. Wala lang, ang fun, ang cute. I love you!!! Sobrang sanay na ako sayo, promise HAHAHA. May times na parang naiinis ako pero swear, hindi. Parang ano... I can't explain e. Basta pag nainis talaga ako or nagalit, di ko naman ako madadaan agad sa mga lambing mo e HAHAHA. Pero ayun, I don't think naman magagalit ako sayo e. Or maiinis big time. I think not. Maybe it's just me pero yun feeling ko e. Hahaha.

June 24 2017; 4:56 am

Finally done reorganizing and transferring this whole note thing from notes to here sa evernote. You’re currently trying to sleep for the second time. It sucks to hear na the chances of you not enrolling is high. I can only imagine the burden you feel and to me, it feels heavy. What more pa kaya with you? The one who's going through all this. Like what you said, I make shit easier for you just by being there for you and I stand by it. I'm here lang. Tangina nagsawa ka na siguro i-read 'tong notes thingy kasi puro “i’m here” nalang nababasa mo HAHAHAHAHA. Pero kasi yun totoo e. Andito lang naman akoooo. I won’t always be able to do (concrete) shit pero I’m here. I won’t et tired of telling you na I’m here lang beside you just as much as you tell me na you won’t get tired of telling me na you love me and all that (That too, won’t get tired of telling you na love kita. Hehe, love you!).7:07 amYa girl hasn’t slept and well, I ain’t sleeping no more, lol. I just remembered the whole scenario last night sa Tropical where you told me na nakatago ketchup sa ilalim ng bed, dun hahanapin ng anak natin. Di ko talaga tanggap kung bakit sa ilalim ng bed???? HAHAHAHA. Hanap ka ibang place, gagu.

June 26  2017; 3:56 am

I’m about to sleep palang and I just wanna say hi. So hi. HAHAHA. I love yoooou. Thank you for being here.

June 27 2017; 11:59 pm

Kilig :(( HAHAHAHA hay. I love you! 🤗 I'm glad na you're going to enroll. You deserve that. Basta umayos ka this school year ha!!!! HAHAHA. Forreal tho, ya girl's glad. :)) Thank you for today!! Today was one of those days na sobra sobra ko na-ffeel na love mo ako. I mean, sobra ko naman na-ffeel today but today was one of those “extra” days. Extra feels, ganern. When you fucken sang Perfect while you were tryna feel better from palpitating. Ded. 😩 HAHAH. The moment also where you told me na you listen to Runnin' Home To You when you're sad tas you think of me. Ded agen. 😩😂 Then!!!! The “wag ka nang umasa na papakawalan pa kita.” The “everything i want and i need, is with you.” and tangina your bet with Ivan ha... HAHAHA. It's so comforting to know na even though you know there's no gurantee you can say na you and I will last long because same. I want us to last the longest possible.

June 29 2017; 3:43 pm

I miss you?????? Tangina HAHAHAHA. Nakakaiyak, ang clingy ko. 😭😂 I'm so not like this talaga. Hay the things you do to me. 😂

June 30 2017; 5:13 am

It's 5:13 in the morning, and I haven't slept. A good sleep, at least. I fell asleep for an hour??? Or so and woke up and deadass couldn't go back to sleep. You seem to be sleeping well, I'm glad. I hope you are. I'm reading a book. I'm reading a book and it made me think of you. The guy character reminds me of you. How he treats the girl, the thoughts he has and whatnot. He reminds me of you.