#i fukcing WISH i died instead

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I'm illiterate and just listened to the audio books so i probably missed it but what did dumbledore do please rant to your heart's content

sklfjfdk i accidenyl exited the page so now i gotta rewrite everything, theres probrably more, but its late.

left harry alone on the doorstep of relatives he doesnt fucking know int he muddle of the night, as an infant, without consulting anyone and against the wishes of another proffessor.

i will reiterate, did no legal checks, barely a background check (which he then disregards) and then doesnt fucking check on the kid again for 11 years.

had arabella figg spy on harry meaning either he knew how harry was being treated adn ignored it or arabella was an unreliable spy which he would have known

the special boy can play dlying murder soccer at 11 no problem, but you need parent permission to go tot he little village apparently

would have know sirius was innocent or at leave could have gotten him a fair trial because fukcing everyone got a trial, bellatrix got a trial, wha tt he fuck

keeps information from harry to get him to do what he wants basically, straight up said that eventually he was keeping shit from him because he accidently started caring about him meaning he said Whoops my

everything to do with the philosophers stone, if we ignore the fact that he was basically baiting harry into there, he still placed a dangeorus artefact surounded by dangerous traps to lure a dangerous man into a school full of children who, as we see, could easily get past them (or, yknow, fucking die like the trio almost did)

similarly, set the mirror of erised there, knowing anyone could come across it when its been known to drive people mad

kept the school open with a fucking bassilisk on the loose, what the fuck, he was alive and teaching the last time that happened, he was there for moaning myrtles death

locked sirius, yknow the abuse victim with the 12 years of trauma, in the house he was uuuuuh abuse in? like, there were other places he could have none, literally any black property, out of the country, any other house that could be hidden, literally.

allowed hagrid to teach, like i like hagrid hes cool but he literally can not be trusted to run a classroon, he brought a fuckign illegal dragon into the school

allowed teachers to dole out bullshit punishments includign sending 11 year olds into the forbidden forest at night, locking a 13 year old out of the dorms while a mass murderer is on the loose and doing  nothing (presumably) about a grown man trasnfiguring a child into a ferret

no, seriously, letting 11 year olds wander around the murder forest int he dead of night searching for whatevers MURDERING THE FUKCING UNICORNS

is so clearly biased towards gryfindors, its wild

continued to send abused students back to their homes, no matter how much they begged to stay at hogwarts

treated 11 year old abuse victim grew up in london during ww2 tom riddle like a fucking evil mastermind from the first time they met instead of like, getting the kid therapy.

high key, even if he didn’t trust tom riddle, letting him teach at hogwarts would have given him a way to directly supervise him at all times!

*gestures towards lockhart*

*gestures towards grindlewald*

*gestures towards the dementors*

shld have snapped the elder wand in half, but thats just a pet peeve

allowed remus to teach without insuring he would be taking his wolfsbane and having no safely measures in place for when he didnt, putting the whole school in danger

in my opinion, his ignoring and avoiding harry during 5th year and not fucking helping him or telling him shit directly led to harry and co storming the ministry, going right into a trap and sirius fucking dying.

did jack shit about hte marauders almost bullying, sexually assulting adn almost killing severus, and who knows who else they treated like that, and continued to downplay their abuse until he fuckign died.

prepared no one for his fuckign deaht, wow

groomed harry, a child, to die, as a child, with no knowledge as to why he had to sacrafice his life until the very last moment. lets be honest, the final battle could have happpened at any age for harry and dumbledore would have let him fucking die.

had the same general low regard fro muggles as teh rest of the wizarding world

employed filch, the functionally disabled squib, to be the glorified janitor of a magic school.

did nothing to help harry during the triwizard tournament thing which is pretty fucking wack considering he was 14 and completely unprepared.

doesnt tell harry jack shit. doesnt tell anyone ajck shit.

in general acts like an abusive father figure who does whatever the fuck he wants no matter how much it hirts others because its For The Greater Good. no im not projecting, shut up.

also heres a long as reddit thing about why dumbledore sucks that i have been recomended but havent read through

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Brendol Hux for the character ask.

1. How I feel about this character

I’m really fond of a version of him that absolutely doesn’t exist in canon, though it’s based on some canon elements. He has a particular position in canon that I think is cool -- being a link between the problems/evils of the Jedi Order and the evils of the First Order -- and there’s no way to take that really good content and bestow it to a different character because it IS Brendol’s thing. So I’m remodeling the mean dad man. I can make other mean dads but I can’t make many other architects of the stormtrooper program.

But basically, as a guy who is ideologically descended from the Jedi, he’s the sort of villain that ought to have been more accessible. You should be able to read about him doing appalling things but be invested in what’s going on so you can understand those appalling things in a wider context. It should be engaging to get stuff from his POV. I don’t think we’ve had any Brendol POV content in canon at all, and canon writers seem like they’re not particularly interested in making him someone you want to see more of. Plus, I don’t think they ever want to talk about how messed up the clone program was. Brendol being inspired by the clone program only implicates the Jedi if Brendol is relatable enough that you can see how the Jedi playing fast and loose with morality could have a corrupting effect on others.

Besides that though his British boarding school aesthetic is good actually, and the times he’s allowed to be affably evil really sold me.  

2. All the people I ship romantically with this character

As most of you know, Armitage’s mother, but an OC named Moira who is Palpatine’s daughter and is a powerful Dark Side user who was an Inquisitor for a while and then hides out on Arkanis doing her own thing. She and Brendol are gross and sappy together, even though they do have some pretty major relationship troubles. Evil power couple.

Maratelle, in the sense that she used to be in love with him back when he was hiding the worst of his ambitions.

I’ll put Sloane and Rax on the same line here because I lowkey like the idea of either of them having a thing with Brendol, sort of an X with benefits situation because they’re all having depressed midlife crises.  

3. My non-romantic OTP for this character

This will be hard to convey without a lot of context but I created another OC, a FO officer around Finn’s age who used to be a trooper, that would have a relationship to Brendol kind of intentionally paralleling Rey and Luke in TLJ. Brendol survives his canon death but lives in exile (no longer evil) with Moira, and then this OC discovers them while trying to save stormtroopers on Starkiller from this supernatural disease that is connected to/caused by reconditioning. It’s like when Rey discovers that her hero wasn’t what she expected but worse, but in the end my OC and the Hux parents have this very tentative, pained familiarity… I was inspired by in canon Brendol sort of approving of Zare Leonis for being nicer than he thinks is appropriate, so my OC comes along aggressively trying to do the right thing and Brendol is disillusioned with his old career and he lets himself care about one more person, someone who he once terribly wronged (by, you know, kidnapping). Yah he get redeemed in that story im just fukcing rolling with it u know how it is... it’s also inspired by the idea of redeemed Vader sticking around long enough to have quiet domestic scenes especially since this version of Brendol has a very damaged body (considering how he canonically died). But instead of being a cyborg he’s a, uh, sea monster chimera for some bonus Lovecraftian vibes and because Moira is a monsterfucker and she put him back together.

4. My unpopular opinion about this character

Most of my opinions about him are unpopular but it’s not like there’s a ton of discourse around him though, since he’s not  seen as a seductive threat to morals like Kylo Ren lol. I don’t think the people who have strong negative feelings about Brendol because, say, they love Armitage, would really be offended by my version. So my opinions are not super contentious, just unusual. Also, it’d be hard for other people to come up with the same ideas about Brendol as me since I’m inventing so much of my own content for it. 

5. One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

Would prefer canon not do anything more with him because I want to keep my playground of ideas going.

However, I think he could have been in TLJ as part of the arc that culminates in Finn and Rose vs Hux and Phasma. He could start off with Armitage as a parallel to Leia with Poe, and he’s not really Armitage’s villain because I want to make sure to emphasize how his villainy affected Finn and Rose (Finn is obvious, and the Order kidnapped kids from Rose’s homeworld too). So he wouldn’t be abusing Armitage for his failures, in fact he’d be forced to watch Snoke doing that, and Armitage is clearly hurt and angry that his father won’t/can’t protect him but it’s not that they completely hate each other. But later Finn and Rose could clash with Brendol in that execution scene, so they get to talk about their backstories a little more, and Phasma could shoot Brendol as part of that deleted scene where she kills the troopers after Finn reveals her treachery, and then Armitage actually watches his father die but he’s not ok with it actually and I think all that would be solid drama. 

[maewestside]

THE PRIVATE LIFE IS DEAD: Long Live Karma... by heidi siegmund cuda, aka @maewestside

So there we were, Tigger and I, trying to find the South Pasadena chapter of Indvisible lol as we marched in the July 4th parade, and she’s giving me an earshot on political theory and trying to keep me focused on the narrow focus of the law and what it is you can prove. Well, to be specific. What Bob Mueller can prove.

Tigger being an aces attorney and veteran politico is the leader of our #truthsquad pack, which really isn’t a pack and has no leaders, but rather, a group of very smart women, and the men who fuel us with support and wisdom. We somehow all found each other getting truth out on twitter. And cuz it’s life during wartime, we became fast besties. With my #freepress goggle of media-chicanery expertise that can only come with 30 years of putting 80 pounds of shite into a ten pound bag, I seem to attract both left and right brainers, or as I like to think of them, a cosmic angel posse of renowned global experts on myriad subjects. We are all a bit mad, you know. Quite. We are putting country and love of humanity above everything else. 

Gee how I love these brainiacs who bravely get truth out on twitter hour after hour, day after day, complex stuff that we break down to brass tacks, a whodunit as told by global bravehearts. We’re exhausted, we do at great personal peril, but no sleep till Brooklyn as I always say. 

And the truth shall set we free and already is. Insert butterflies here.

IMPEACHMENT MARCH

What a simply perfect day. July 2. We were feeling im-peachy waltzing through the streets of #dtla with those thousands of kin who feel the smartest move at this juncture is for all those 70 percent of Americans who ain’t too keen on the Pageant Queen Regime to march on Washington and demand the Defenestration of Scamalot. Are we not Men? Are we not Women? Were there not dogs, babies and strollers all concurring: our country is sinking under the weight of thugs. And just cuz it’s a different kind of war… the dropping of cyberbombs in collusion with ma$$media running interference for lucre… doesn’t mean you can’t pay attention. 

Your personal data has been weaponized. 

We know that whenever there is intense mysery, a small few greedy fukcs are profiting. But this mawb bo$$ and his toadie$ take the cake, I mean, every move is right out of the #geezersplaybook. Erl.

I recommend rather than trying to follow the money to oil etal, just donate your car, and take public transit, bike, lyft or walk, work from home and help save the world from gangsta$ and thug$ out to create misery and profit off wars and such. Not to mention the clean air thing.

That’s how I got to the “Impeachment March” in #dtla, riding on the Metro and making friends with other do-gooders.

For more on that, our hero, Vlad. Gentle readers: please pay attention to your Romanian, Ukrainian, Russian, Hungarian and Bosnian friends. They will tell you about how rights are taken away incrementally so a small greedy few thug$ can profit:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4VUT-z9LbD8

TO RUSSIA WITH LOVE

Whenever a people are demonized, we must always clarify: It ain’t the people, it’s the leaders, the despots, the glory hunters, the power whores, the usual suspects who cause all that misery but look pretty on TV.

So because it’s been a minute since I read Pasternak and watched “Doctor Zhivago,” I figgered, “Better bone up on the Russian Revolution, agin.”

Plus it’s a good excuse to rekindle my love jones for Rod Steiger and Julie Christie, as well as the costumers and art directors for the David Lean epic. 

Here are the cliffies: 

“I wish they’d decide which gang of hooligans constitutes the government of this country!” 

That line uttered by a man, once rich then poor, who just wants to get on with the libretto. Ergo, it doesn’t matter if it’s pre-Revolutionary Russia or post-apocalyptic America, we all share the same frustration. And currently, our leaders $uck.

Another zinger:

“The private life is dead… history killed it…”

#word

We lost our private lives to data miner$, and we gave it away freely to take cutesy wootsy quizzes to figger out which ‘80s popstar is our spirit animal. This was valuable data in this election, our information now used to tell shady fukc$ how to market to us. 

In 2016, it was used to mislead us by creeper$ out for an #ROI, and they surely got it. We are currently fukced till impeachment of all creeper-a$$ociate$ of the mawb bo$$.

While the world is upended by misery and now those trying to do good are allowing rogue character$ to divide them, dirty deals are being done dirt cheap and as long as you keep watching Der Propaganda TV and take the Meds They Push to Keep You Watching, you might not know who dunnit.

But c’mon now, we know #scamalot is laden with felonious monsters, we have the court docs to prove it. We also know fraud occurred. We have the docs to prove that. But why run down the hill to eff the first cow? Why not just walk down, after assembling the puzzle of the Big Con, and take out all hundert or so?! 

Just pray Bob Mueller, within the letter of the law, can round up all the Horse$ Arse$ and get us some kind of justice.

Meanwhile, we in the Resistance will be marching and pushing #peoplepower cuz something’s gotta give.

DEFENESTRATION

Good thing, glory hunters are defenestrating themselves. And because the private life is dead, and because the internet killed it, why not take advantage of it till reparations and live by karma. All your deeds become you. So shed your baggage and step into the light. Let karma and truth be the stuff that guides you until we can lasso in all the Big Brother$.

YOUR POINT, THEIR VILLAGE

Sometimes Glory Hunters don’t care what village they burn to make their point, and during these cybertreasonous times, that should be of concern to all Americans.

If we can’t unite now after being played by a TV Carny with catchphrases, then this is no longer America.

NOBODY LOVES POETRY LIKE A RUSSIAN

Because I am concerned by the #goonsindrag who kiss the ar$e of the Popular Vote Loser so good they got cabinet post$, I am paying close attention to my friends from Moscow, Kiev, Bosnia, stories I’ve collected over the years that tell a more clearcut picture of what war looks like and how it’s played out in modern times. 

It starts with the silencing of truth. 

My friends from the Eastern Bloc consist of gals who came for modeling gigs that turned out not to be modeling gigs.

My friends from Eastern Bloc countries consist of tough beauties whose family members starved and died. They had no food. 

Check out my friend from Bosnia, and what she has to say about those who vote based on hate and greed:

https://twitter.com/foxycuda/status/825165047693316096

INDEPENDENCE DAY

Our #freepress #truthsquad #knowledgeswap posse has made so many friends in the past few days because people from throughout America and in countries #acrosstheuniverse know love when they feel it, namely love of country, love of humanity, a desire to do better. 

We’re just trying to pump information as quickly as we can. We broke the ol timey investigative model of waiting till sweeps to sell fear and loathing, and instead, we are the wind beneath each other’s wings, building a sturdy global bridge of worldwide expertise chiseling away bit by bit at fraud, at the Big Con.

PLOP QUIZ

So please give us your hungry, weary, truthseekers and we will do our best to comfort you with truth. The misery that is upon is merely the passing of greed… allow it to pass…

And a final word of caution friends: next time you get the opportunity to take an online personality quiz, think twice: the country you could be preserving just might be your own.

******

Author Heidi Siegmund Cuda is honored to be swimming in a twitter stream of do-gooders. Follow her at @foxycuda and she’ll connect you to a whipsmart crew making the world better, one tweet at a time.

(impeachment marchers #dtla july 2) 

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Sunday april 19th 2020

Wow i really can't keep any of my promises huh.  It's almost laughable how i thought i would ever be able to handle anything.  Even something as simple as keeping up with a journal.  Something that might honestly help me I don't know.  Anything is better than living like this.  I cry the whole time I'm awake and when I can finally sleep I'm too exhausted to even dream. This is the worst my anxiety has ever been. I can't breathe and my heart is constantly beating out of my chest.  I can hear it pounding in my head 24/7 and it wont leave me alone.  I  want to be left alone but feeling alone is killing me.  I want to die. I want to die so bad more than I want anything.  I keep thinking how much easier it would be.  There is such a big disconnect between me and everyone i care about and i don't know if i'm just imagining things or if it's real.  I'm the only commonality so it has to be me.  I'm the problem.   Sometimes when i cry i think about the bottles of pills i have, all the ones to make me sleep.  If I take too many I might not wake up. They told me not to do that but i want to sleep so bad i want to sleep forever.  If I die I won't feel guilty about it because I'll be dead.  But thinking about wanting to die all the time makes me feel bad.  If it's over then the bad feelings will go away too.  I won't have to worry if me being gone would make people sad because i'll be dead it wont be my problem anymore.  I won't have to think ever again.  I dont want to think i want my brain to shut up just shut the fuck up forever.  I had to hide the pills because I couldn't stop thinking about swallowing all of them and finally getting some rest.  No one came to check on me all day so I could do it if I wanted to and no one would notice until I was gone.  I could die.  Anyone who would actually be upset would get over it eventually.  They say it only takes 2 generations to be forgotten, it might be even less for me. I've never accomplished anything that would be worth remembering.  Everyone I love could find someone else, someone who doesn't have thoughts like mine and someone who isn't broken.  They all deserve so much better than me but i'm still here so they haven't realized that yet.  If i was dead they would.  I wonder how much different my life could be, there's no real point wondering because it's not possible but entertaining the thought for a second is nice.. Maybe in a different world I could be happy.  I should be happy.  I have friends and my brothers and an amazing partner i love so much but i'm a selfish piece of shit and i can't be happy for them.  They all deserve better than me.  I'm struggling to put on a happy face for them and they deserve someone who doesn't have to try.  It feels like everytime i find something to make me happy it's so short lived.  I can't hold onto anything I care about.  It leaves and then I have nothing.  I'm writing this to no one no one is going to read this or care but still writing it out is making me want to scream no no no no no you shouldn't do this.  God my brain wont shut the fukc up how can someone so stupid habe so many thoughts.  Its nothing of substance im an idiot but fuck just SHUT UP stop thinking stop stop no more i hate this.  I hate it so much.  I should be asleep it's 6am i just need sleep i need to sleep but instead i'm writing this.  Putting all of my shity thoughts out into the universe and for what no one cares i don't even care what i have to say.  If i don't care how can i expect anyone else to.  I already know what they would say right now “it's my job to care and i love you.”  i'm very sorry that's the case.  I love you more than you will ever know but i dont deserve any of that love back.  I'm selfish and mean I don't even want to be alive right now.  Loving me must hurt.  I'm sorry to anyone who does.  I wish I could change that. I wish I had never even existed. Everyone's life would be better for it.  I would get my wish and no one would be hurt.  I just really hope i don't wake up today when i do finally go to sleep.  I haven't been taking care of myself at all, maybe I'll die since I can't even get out of bed.  I could get a blood clot or die of malnutrition maybe maybe maybe.  I'm a coward and can't do it myself so that's my only chance.  If I died of something natural that would make people less sad right. Me being alive just wasn't meant to be they would see that.  They would see they deserve better.  All of them deserve so much better than me.  I'm a bad friend, a worse sister and a terrible girlfriend i dont deserve any of the happiness I've been given. 

[theday]

2) oK MY CONCERT EXPERIENCE BEGINS AND LEMME TELL U IT WAS QUITE A RIDE OK ok so in the car ride their my friends and i belted all their songs (im p sure my parental got annoyed but who cares its MONSTA X) and then when we got there we got our hightouch bracelets and our tickets and then stood in line and like my friends and i felt really confident so we made this whole plan to have the whole auditorium say something to monsta x like after their intro we would go *hoot* monbebe like introducing

ill put the rest of the concert exp asks (tm) in here too so its together

3) ourselves (didnt work because it was too loud but everyone was in on it it just didnt go very well because there wasnt the time) but then we secretly got in early instead of standing in line (oops) because we wanted merch so we went to the MERCH AREA AND I BOUGHT A SHIRT AND THEY ONLY HAD LARGES BUT NO REGRETS OK CUZ I LOVE IT SO MUCH and my friends and i split a light stick WHICH IS REALLY BEAUTIFUL BY THE WAY. and then we eagerly waited to go in but we could hear them rehearsing and we got

4) so overjoyed that we almost died before the concert. anyways the DOOR OPENED AND WE DASHED INSIDE AND GOT TO OUR SEATS BUT OF COURSE Mx didnt come out until like an hour later because the kings they are and THE WAITING WAS TOO MUCH and then later THE LIGHTS WENT OFF AND THERE WAS THIS COOL INTRO INTRODUCING THEMSELVES AND I STFG I ALMOST FAINTED BECAUSE THEY CAME ON STAGE AND DANCED BEAUTIFUL AND I SCREAMED SO HARD YOU COULD HEAR ME FROM ACROSS THE WORLD AND I KEPT JUMPING UP AND DOWN AND

4) (sorry i forgot what number) THEY PERFORMED ALL THEIR BOPPY SONGS although a little salth they didnt perform stuck but its ok i understand AND THEN THEY HAD AN INTERMISSION WHERE THEY TALKED AND CHANGKYUN LOST HIS WALLET AND I ALMOST CRIED BECAUSE OF COURSE THIS CHILD DID AND JOOHEON TALKED ABOUT SALTY PIZZA AND THEY DID AEGYO AND I CRIED OK time for the real salt so during a song they started throwing candy to the crowd and I TOUCHED A PIECE OF CANDY AND TEH GIRL IN FRONT OF ME FUCKING TOOK

5) MY CANDY THAT WONHO THREW AT ME AND I STG I ALMOST STABBED A BITCH (excuse my language) and like I RECORDED BASICALLY EVERY SINGLE SONG BECAUSE I WANTED TO PRESERVE THE AMAZINESS AND KIHYUN AND JOOHEON SANG MIRROR AND I ALMOST DIED BECAUSE IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND then a while later they were like this is the last song AND THEN THEY WERE LIKE PSYCH WE GOT MORE and kihyun lowkey tripped but its ok and WONHO HURT HIMSELF AND HAD TO GO OFF STAGE BUT ITS OK HE HEALED AND CAME BACK BUT I CRIED FOR

6) the chILD I WANT HIM TO BE OK AND THEN THEY DID 5:14 AS THEIR LAST SONG AND I STFG I ACTUALLY ALMOST CRIED BECAUSE IT WENT BY SO FAST AND I DIDNT WANT TO END and you know what they did U KNOW HOW IDOL GO INTO THE FLOOR AFTER THEIR DONE FUCKING MONSTA X PRETENDED THEY WERE GOING INTO THE FLOOR BY GRADUALLY CROUCHING DOWN AND I ALSFJLSFKJ THEYRE SO CUTE LIKE LITTLE BUNNIES I WANTED TO PROTECT AND THEY WAVED AND THERE WAS LITTLE VIDEOS IN BETWEEN THAT WERE LEGENDARY AND THEY TOOK PEOPLES PHOENS

7) AND TOOK SELFIES ON THEM AND IM HERE LIKE KIHYUN ILL THROW U MY PHONE ok but like when they walked on stage i forgot how to breathe THEY LITERALL GODS IN REAL LIFE OK LIKE ACTUAL BEAUTIES NOT EVEN A LITTLE. ok so high touch. ALSFJS CHANGKYUN WAS FIRST AND HE HAD HIS GLASSES ON AND I WAS SO SHOOKEN BECAUSE CHANGKYUN IS GORGEOUS OK LIKE GORGEOUS AND I HIGH FIVED EACH AND EVERY ONE OF THEM AND SHOWNU IS LIKE A LITTLE DAD AND WONHO WAS A LITTLE BUNNY AND LSJFLSJFLS OK SO WHEN I GOT TO KIHYUN

8) HE FUCKING HELD MY HAND LIKE NOT EVEN A HIGH FIVE AS I WAS WALKING AWAY HE WAS STILL HOLDING MY HAND AND I HAD TO LITERAL LET GO BECAUSE MY TIME WAS UP AND HE WAS STILL HOLDING IT AND AS SOON AS I HAD TO LET GO I STARTED CRYING LIKE WITH REAL TEARS I JUST WANTED TO GO BACK OK IT WAS THE BEST EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE ok im sorry that was so long its just that it was so precious

DJJDSJJSJ I WISH I COULD YELL THE SONGS TOO BUT I ODNT KNOW HALF THE LYRICS SO I ALWAYS MESS UP AND PLEAE HDHSJJHS THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN SO CUTE... JUST DOING UR OWN INTRO ;-// i hope one day itll happen :-O i wanna hear mbbs sing for monsta x tbh.. mydays do it a lot and it sounds absolutely magical

and!!! im glad you managed to buy stuff even if you did . cheat..... omg that sounds so fun wtf... id love to go to a concert but the thought of it kind of scares me?? the only concert id consider going to would be a day6 one dude when we finally reveal ourselves please.... show me the videos id die omg... did u guys do the fanchants ;-/ honestly the whole experience sounds so cool id get a stroke and im so proud of them... they really did a world tour... it still amazes me after all this time :-O 

DJNJSJJ THE WALLET.. I WATCHED THE VLIVE WHERE HE TALKED ABT IT PEPLJNSK ITS SO FUNNY WHAT A LOSER.... omg.. thats so cute though... that they gave out candy :-( its such a cute idea i can imagine them doing that during white sugar ;-0 shit that sounds rly fun and amazing wtfbhjbhdhjs concerts are always amazing tbh... its nice to see you enjoyed yourself!! and kihyunshddsh monsta x aka the group that trip over nothing WDYM HE HURT HIMSELFNFHDKJS...... healed in less than an hour i love a living breathing legend omg.. stop that sounds os fuckijg cute?? the crouching down thing and taking selfies on peoples phones how lucky!!! thats rly.. so cute :^( 

kihyun oh my fukcing god please... hes so precious and sweet i love you mistr yoo what the fuck!!! hes so nice and really the sweetest boy on the planet!! im soosososo happy you got to experience that and thank you for sharing it with me!!!! it was a joy to read and i know it must have been a while but i could still feel your excitementndjhjss i love reading about people’s experiences theyre so cute youre so cute thank you for sharing and im glad you had fun with the monstas!!!!