#i forgot my tumblr account existed i am so sorry

[mya0767]

Bear cerato :D

[pardi-real]

Holy cow.

TIL the word for how a word or a name is pronounced is written as "pronunciation". I really thought it was "pronounciation".

Pro-Nun. Well I love Arknights Specter.

That reminds me some years ago I was absolutely bamboozled by "similar" & "available", I thought those were written as "similiar" & "avaible" .

My life is a lie.. all this from being curious on how to pronounce "Berrien County Jail".

[autisticlalna]

the Corundum Conundrum

good morning everyone. we are experiencing.

This timeline... these people... it is all happening as it should but at what cost This wouldn't happen the way it does if it wasn't intended by [REDACTED]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

OKAY. NOT R.C. THIS TIME. EPIC. there's been instances before of Sapphire talking in Galactic on tumblr, although the initial post was in the Skyblock Kingdoms tag--

I forgot - they do not know do they... i am sorry to the ones who observe

COOL. OKAY. not R.C., but.. not Sapphire either! secret third thing???

We changed, you know me

...huh. not R.C., not Sapphire, but we know them.

there's been direct contact with various Rubys. obviously Cherruby, but also Rue, Sapphire (pre-SBK), R.C., and... someone else?

Have you ever met them?

..okay, so we haven't met Wanderer's Ruby yet. not officially, anyway. we know they exist, we know they're dead, and there was theorization that those messages from after the clip was posted were from them, but past that everything is a big question mark.

I wish i could tell, i do! but it isnt the time for it just yet

so... we know which Ruby this isn't. how many other Rubys are on the table?

not shown: Ruby reacted with a checkmark to Ace's message. WHICH IS... FASCINATING... AS THE LOCAL GUY WHO HAS BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT NAVIGATOR'S DEAL IS... but as usual thats its own cluster🔔. the relevant part here is, no, Navigator's Ruby is accounted for.

SURE WAS. (Ruby clarified that they forgot and had to ask, but i will gladly take any opportunity to start vibrating about HCYT again and the implications of having a Ruby involved.)

I like that one

WE HAVE A NAME! Corundum! which as a fun side note was a name suggested for Sapphire early on if i recall correctly, as well as one of the various "Co-" words when false-fullnaming Ruby (Rubidium Corundum).

...royal we, huh?

i'm pulling up the R.C. post again.

what’s interesting is that, in other instances of R.C. speaking to the viewers so far, they’ve referred to themselves as plural– “we”. this includes in the most recent video that started all this: the hidden messages include “This was the only one we could save���, and the description says “We are not sure of their location”. however, here we’re speaking to an individual, or at least someone speaking on behalf of themself and not as representative of the assumed greater whole. “I am always watching”. “Do not tell about my existence”.

at the time, we were assuming the second communication was R.C. due to the encounter earlier that day, as well as their appearance in chat when Solar was trying to cause a distraction for Rue.

i keep going back to what Corundum said: we changed, you know me. as usual, i'm made of red string, but i do feel like that establishes that we've definitely talked to Corundum before. it's just a matter of where. they're like Sapphire in that they're able to breach the fourth wall, but at this point we've been using Sapph as our benchmark because we don't have many other "awakened" (for lack of a better term) Rubys to compare with. i mean, there's tRuby, but he barely knows what's going on and is busy being used as Sapphire's conduit.

in short: oh, god, we have another galactic-speaking time god to keep track of.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Sorry if this isn't allowed but this is less AITA, and more 'would i be the asshole' but... you can take it as a hypothetical as if I did to keep with the format..

So I'm a lurker who [re]joined tumblr not to long ago after deleting my account years ago (not a twitter migrant, i've never even used twitter. just got severe harassment for being aspec during the height of exclusionist discourse and moved to lurking on reddit).

Now I have a very bad memory so I forgot about the bot problem entirely. At first so I followed like 300+ blogs with default profile pic and everything. The whole shebang. Now I'm doing a lot better with not lurking, though I still only reblog art. None of it has been remotely controversial to my knowledge. In fact at first it was only fanart of one specific character so I don't thing this is a controversial ship thing either

During the aforementioned initial period of only reblogging art of my blorbo (am I using that correctly?) I was checking out a blog I wanted to follow and I see blorbo fanart. It was very well done and I wanted to see what other art was made by OP but when I clicked on their blog tumblr said the blog didn't exist. Some googling later and I learned that meant I had been blocked.

At the time I discovered I was blocked, it should be noted I had 0% discourse, and had never talked to anyone on this site anyways. Just pictures of a character OP of the art had drawn. So as far as I know they don't have any reason to block me other than looking like a bot initially. Which I know is on me of course, but if this can be rectified I'd like to do so... although anyone can block for any reason of course.

But let's say hypothetically I reached out in spite of the block. I think I'd have to make another account or ask someone else to message the artist for me. So let's say I do the latter, AITA for trying to clear up this misunderstanding? The artist, in spite of it likely being misunderstanding, still went through the effort to block me

Also apologies to AITA Official if this sort of thing is not allowed. I will understand if you don't post this because of that

What are these acronyms?

[roboj0e]

"girl please" is a neutral phrase lmao but my bad ig. anyway, to 99% of the population a fetish and a kink mean more or less the same thing. if there's a difference could you explain it? thx... btw you're not a feminist if you think it's ok to draw or get off to sexual art of children, even if they're fictional/cartoon... you do realize a lot of shota and loli content is traced from photos of kids, right? my abuser made cartoon csem traced from my photos. :/

My dad used to force me to watch csem and distributed csem of me also exists. I actually get sent it sometimes on facebook who I know are just my dad using sock puppet accounts. Did I win the CSA Olympics? Am I now enough of an authority of this trauma to make unsubstantiated claims? I could trauma dump unsolicited on you too but I have compassion so I won't and also I'm not about to plead for my humanity from someone who won't listen and engage in good faith anyways.

I'm sorry that happened to you but it would have happened regardless of the existence of lolisho. Abusers are gonna abuse no matter what. This was the first thing I learned in therapy. What's funny is it was lolisho that help me realize my abuse. Yes I understood sexual abuse conceptually but I couldn't recognize it happening to ME until I saw my situation reflected back at me in a safe sane scenario. My therapist said it was bc I was repressing it in denial and only allowing myself to fantasize about it in a safe environment was I able to recognize it as abuse. Funny how life works like that huh.

Oh to explain I completely forgot bc I had to write this twice bc Tumblr crashed. A fetish is a sexual reliance on something to achieve sexual arousal or gratification and can be sexual.outside of sexual contexts. A kink amplifies sexual gratification, usually has to do with roleplay or sexual acts/positions/height/weight and has to be negotiated and communicated and consentual. Ppl do use them interchangeably BUT specifically with the word fetishize ur using it wrong in this case. To fetishize something there must be both dehumanization and objectification. U can not dehumanize or objectify fictional characters they are not human and are already objects.

No I don't support sexual art of children. This sort of phrasing is just a deliberate misrepresention so u can position urself as morally righteous and disengage from the conversation early and not have to examine what anyone is actually saying. They are fictional characters. They can be any age, any race and body type and have any name at any time. They are objects. They don't exist and can not accumulate trauma the way you or i can. They do not need protection.

If u don't like it that's fine. Especially considering your trauma. But ur claim is unsupported and wildly inaccurate. Do not projects ur trauma onto others especially as it pertains to facts about criminal psychology and sex crimes. This is unhealthy and will lead to paranoia that same paranoia that brought u to ur conclusion here. This is not pervasive enough in lolisho to be considered a trend or even the default. But you also could be sharing real abusive images/scenarios no matter what form of media u engage with. But that doesn't not mean we should sanitize art and media on the off chance someone could be evil. Your not exempt from the same personal responsibility ur trying to place on me just bc u don't engage in fictional pornographic material and it's not especially heinous when it's fictional art versus and any other medium. We could all be unknowingly sharing and engageing with abusive material but all we can do is protect and believe victims and figure out as a society how to reduce harm.

No banning lolisho or any media is not a solution. Studies show most csem is produced/distributed by parent/guardians. The best way to protect children is to advocate for children rights and the reduction of parental rights. Experts have been saying this for years. Children being treated like property both by law and society is what is perpetuating their abuse. Not fictional art.

Censorship is not the solution. Any historical application of censorship has always ALWAYS lead to the mistreatment and silencing of victims and marginalized communities. This will make it difficult for victims to appeal to censors and share their stories which are valuable for understanding abuse but also valuable bc it is art. And incentivizing ppl to invade other peoples privacy to be sure they have the right identity/trauma to create a specific type of art is fascism. So is censoring or banning that art. This will do nothing but silence and shame victims. This is happening still right now and has happened plenty in the past. Guilt and shame ONLY perpetuates sexual abuse.

This is also forcing ppl to engage in art and fiction with a paranoid analysis FIRST. telling ppl they can tell whose a good or bad person based on what they draw/write or engage with is not healthy and is antithetical to educating ppl on how to recognize abuse. It's irresponsible and It's giving children and teens anxiety disorders. Look at any ex anti/proship anonymous confessions. Look at the damage ppl are causing with this third grade level of word association and cause and effect. Ppl are developing POCD. Me included ALMOST.

Experts have been saying for decades now that fictional sexual material has no link to escalation into sexual violence or engaging in paraphilias. No fiction doesnt effect reality. these same psychologists that have debunked claims such as "violent video games cause violence" have also researched how it operates the same with fictional sexual material. There's no special circumstance just bc it's sex or porn.

Just bc u navigate the world on disgust and paranoia doesn't mean I have to. I listen to the science and research. While also having my own experience to draw from.

As a CSA victim with a SEX THERAPIST do u really think I would not have done my due diligence before engaging in any community?? I've done a hell of a lot of work to get where I am now. Sexually liberated and healthy. Both personal growth and LOTS of research into sex crimes. And I really don't feel like hearing regressive religiously programmed sex negative thoughts on the fiction I enjoy.

I am a feminist tho. I'm just not regressive and reactionary. 🤷🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️

[whochromatic]

I must not read chapter 109 and wait for the chapters to pile up.. I must not read chapter 109 and wait for the chapters to pile up.. I must...

*reads it anyways*

Why did I do that. Damnit, I should've known that reading that chapter would have re-activated my need for more. I was way better off ignoring anything related to Yohaji and just went about my day, not thinking about Yohaji every minute of the hour of the day of the week. But the damage has been done. Now I have to read the whole manga all over again just to satisfy myself once again. But no. That's not enough. I searched every corner to hunt every single content of Yohaji. Tumblr. Twitter. Youtube. Tiktok. Ao3. Our lord and savior Canada's account. The giver of reason in life, one who resurrects the dead, the sailor uniform to my life, Tanamai-sensei's account. I know that the Yohaji content in this world is not enough and will NEVER be. The moment I discovered this manga, I knew that it would be my life. The fact that it had only reached me last year, ber month is unforgivable. Why did it not have content as many as the amount of numbers there are to exist so that it could reach me at the start of it's existence? It should have been Yohaji. Not BNHA! Nothing against that anime by the way. Well, I am grateful that I stumbled upon Yohaji while it had 100+ chapters though. And the fandom being small enough to only have nice and cool people in it. But those fics in ao3 though? Why- I mean, I don't really care or pay attention to them but the fact that the amount of nsfw fanfics is probably (I'm saying probably because they might just be more) equal to the amount of sfw fanfics in there is- I swear, WHY ARE THERE SO LITTLE FANFICS OF YOHAJI?! 3 PAGES?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!? There might be more in other places but I only read in ao3 and Tumblr if I find some there. I'm so thankful for the translators though!!! I love y'all. I love the fandom. I love the characters. I love Yohaji. I love the creator. God- sorry I forgot I can't use sensei's name in vain. I'm telling y'all, Tanamai is the GOAT. A GENIUS!! Your brain is beautiful. What goes on in head yours? Tell and everyone might gain more braincells. What's with you? What's with your humor?? What's with your lore?! WHAT'S WITH YOUR ART??? WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS?!?! SENSEI WHEN I CATCH YOU OHH WHEN I CATCH YOU. But of course, it's not your fault that I'm starving for more Yohaji chapters. One month is nothing to me- IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!!! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO CREATE THIS WONDERFUL AND HEAVENLY HOOK THAT CAUGHT ME EVEN ONLY WITH IT'S TITLE AND ART?? HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO MEEEE?!?! Senseiiiiii*sob* waaaaaahh... Still, I'm sooo happy this is getting an anime this year!! I've been waiting for this ever since I found out it existed along with other Yohaji fans. I knew it would happen soon enough because it's the law. It's a crime to not make an adaption of amazing yet weird yet amazing manga like no other. Death row. DEATH ROW!! It's fine even if it's low quality. As long as it exists, I can finally pass on peacefully- when it airs it better be as good as the manga and look immaculate, I'm telling you. Haha, just kidding. Or am I..? I cannot wait until April or whatever how long it takes for the anime to air just please. Please even the trailer only. But I'm sure everyone is already working hard to make the anime for it. Do your best!! You're doing the right thing! And.... uhm.. 24 episodes... please..? AHHH HARUAKI'S SMILEEE!!! IT'S INVADING MY MIND!! GET OUT! PLEASE GET OUT!!! THIS LOWLY UNGRATEFUL UNDESERVING WORSE THAN DUST BUZZ BUZZ KILLABLE STUPID MORTAL ABOMINATION CAN'T HANDLE OR DESERVE SOMETHING LIKE THAT!! AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!! I can't do this. More. More. More Yohaji. I NEED IT. IF AIR AND SAILOR UNIFORM IS LIFE THEN SO IS YOHAJI!! RAAAAAAAHHH

Also I accidentally deleted a longer version of this and rewrote it with my memory. Thanks for wasting your time on this like I did.

[clangen]

FAQ

Are you a ClanGen developer? I am not apart of the development team.

Are you the official ClanGen blog? Nope, the official ClanGen blog is @officialclangen.

Would you ever give the username to the official blog if they asked? Of course, I'd do it in a heartbeat.

Did you make these sprites? I've put the sprites together in a way that resembles the character but the actual sprites themselves were made by the people who've contributed to ClanGen.

Something in the sprites you've posted doesn't exist in my game! You're either using an outdated release of ClanGen or I've pulled something from the development builds that hasn't come to stable versions of the game yet.

I don't like how you made this character look... Sorry, the sprites are made to reflect my own vision of the characters. I may re-do characters exclusive to books I haven't read yet. A lot of my choices are based on impressions, so my vision might change. If your grievance is that I forgot to include an injury, please let me know! I reference the wiki so this shouldn't happen, but I'm always capable of making mistakes.

You didn't answer my ask! Sorry, it's not intentional. This blog has sparked in popularity and with that, my askbox gets new suggestions everyday. If I haven't gotten around to your request, it's one of three things: 1. It's still far back in the queue. 2. The character you've asked for has already been posted/requested. 3. Tumblr simply ate your ask (or the post i've placed into the queue).

How do you make the sprites? I edit the save file of a single cat and use the "zoom-in" profile feature.

How many people are behind this blog? Just one battle cats fan.

Can I reblog your posts onto my roleplay blog and/or tag as kin? Go for it! I don't mind at all.

Can you make my OC? Warriors has a lot of characters, adding OCs onto my plate would be overwhelming if I'm being honest.

What will you do when you finish all the characters? I might leave the blog as is and come back to update it when new characters enter the series. I've thought about doing designs based on rewrites I really enjoy as well. Is the blog dead? If I'm ever gone for a long time without notice it means I'm just taking a break for one reason or another. I'm very particular with my digital spaces and never silently abandon accounts for clarity. Is it okay if I like-spam or reblog-spam? Go for it.

[phoenix-writez]

I deadass forgot about this tumblr account LMAOOO

HI YEAH YALL ON TUMBLR ARE WAAAAYYY BEHIND

SORRY I'LL FIX THAT

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Entry #3

[CUBFAN]

I'm drenched in some weird black substance, and I can see eyes peering out of the walls.

I had just recently jumped down after revealing a hole in the ground, deciding that chaos truly was an answer that needed calling. Of course, I don't actually know where I'm headed.

But, man, who needs to figure that out? I have a sense that where I'm headed is full to the brim with anger. That just gets me going.

After walking through sludge and eye soup, I find a button. Normally, I wouldn't really press just any button out in the open. But this felt like it needed to happen.

So I pressed it. It opened a large door, kinda felt sci-fi. I slid to the wall, hiding behind the doorway that coincidentally hid me perfectly. I looked inside the room, there were two people chatting up a storm.

“You have no idea what's happening down here, do you?!”

The voice sounded like a woman, but I don't assume. The other voice sounded almost like a gremlin, but with a deep and intimidating voice. That I didn't actually care for, because I've heard worse from Tango.

“Oh, Shrub… you're naïve. Theatre of course is an act, but they all act like children.” The other one said.

Shrub, I guess, began shouting. “They are children! A bunch of teenagers trapped inside of this time capsule! Xornoth, for the gods' sakes, you're so aggravating!”

Xornoth snickered with a sinister hiss of breath as he leaned down towards the mushroom lady, “I am? Awh, a shame.” He pat her on the head, “I pity you. Stuck here with no idea on anything. There, there, little one. I'll be here to save you in your time of need.”

Shrub frowned, she glared at the ground. “No… you've controlled my life far too much already, Xornoth. I can't let you just save me just because I'm stuck in the basement of a maze.”

My eyes widened and I guess I forgot to be quiet, as I quickly gasped and slammed myself back onto the wall so I could be well hidden. Xornoth slammed his hand onto Shrub’s mouth. “Did you bring someone here?!”

Her expression was wild, as she tried to shake her head in refute. She muffled an attempted shout and Xornoth grumbled under his breath, lifting his hand from her face. “NO!” Shrub yelled.

She took a deep breath and veered towards the doorway. “There's no one here. You probably heard wind, or maybe someone else is in this stupid maze trying to get out. Who knows?! There's so many people in this damned building!”

“Damned is not the word I would use.”

“Of course! You'd use perfection! This building is extravagant to you! The best thing that could ever even exist in your plane of life!” Shrub held herself, her fingers tightening on her arms as her face scrunched up with every shout she made.

Xornoth couldn't help but laugh, he began walking away. I heard it, the stomping of his boots against the wooden floorboards. It had been headed away from me, I finally let out my breath.

Arguing fuels me, my mother is the god of chaos and strife after all. But this argument felt oddly draining, like all of my energy was being sapped away as they spoke. I sat down and tried not to be seen.

Of course, that failed.

As the mushroom lady herself hung around the hallway, then marched towards the door. Towards me.

She leaned on the doorway, hands grasping the walls like she was depending on it to keep her steady so the wind didn't blow her away.

She was rather petite, I looked up at this mushroom lady and immediately was frightened. When I said mushroom lady, I didn't exactly mean she had fungus growing in her hair. I saw a mushroom cap on her head, but I assumed it was a funky little hat, and she even wore an outfit that fit her cottagecore yet definitely-lives-in-a-cave aesthetic.

“I almost didn't notice you here,” Shrub smiled nervously. “Nice, uh, glasses, I think? Is that how you talk to people?”

“Weren't you just talking to someone?” I tilted my head as she began laughing. Quickly, she sat next to me and spoke so gently, “That man I just spoke to is Xornoth, I have no idea where he'd come from, or what he's doing here. I'm sorry you heard all of that, or if you don't understand half of what we said.”

“Exactly what do you think I don't understand?”

“The… time stuff? About this place?”

The corner of my lips lifted, only one though. It's a smirk, I never realized I had to explain one before. I snickered and leaned back, “I came here to assist in breaking an important group out of this place. Unfortunately, only one made it through. I'm fully aware this place is one giant time and space continuum joke. I have no idea what's causing it.”

Shrub fidgeted around with her hands. I watched as grass grew from the floorboards, flowers even began to sprout from the wood. She smiled, “Will you call me crazy if I talked about gods?”

“Would you call me crazy if I said I was the son of one?”

Shrub’s eyes widened and her whole body whipped around towards me. I've never seen a smile so bright and innocent before, it made me feel a little guilty. After all, I'd just eavesdropped on an argument.

“NO WAY!” She shouted, “I'm the daughter of Ceres!”

I paused, “Ceres? Like…”

“Oh you know, some Roman god.” Shrub’s hand flapped and went limp, as if she were shoving her words away because they meant nothing. “What about you?!”

“Uh, Eris.”

—

I think I began losing track of time around thirty minutes within that maze. We walked around for so long, avoided Xornoth like the plague, and trapped ourselves in dead ends.

Shrub whined for a while, I guess the mushrooms in her body began to hurt. Because at one point, I glanced at her to figure out the issue and I found a fungus digging its way through her skin.

We made it to a hallway that was splattered in reds, greens, and blues. I scratched the back of my head and stifled a giggle. “Looks like some computer artwork failed here.”

“Computer…” Shrub thought for a moment, “Wait, Cub!” She grabbed me by the shoulder. I turned towards her, “Yeah?”

“Vulcan!”

“...Please speak in terms we can both understand.” My brows lower as I suck air through my teeth, “I can't exactly, y'know, translate Latin to Greek in three seconds.”

“Vulcan is literally Hephaestus! Don't be dumb!” Shrub groaned. “Oh, buddy, if you wanna see dumb, you should see my friends back at camp. Especially the Hermes cabin, good lords.” I look away, back at the RGB modern art on the walls.

“If we're gonna theorize Hephaestus, the best we can do is figure out what this was made for.” I waltzed around, taking samples of the paint and anything I could find.

Shrub shivered, “You think this was just sheer pettiness on his part?”

“Of course it was, everything he does is petty. Should've been the god of being petty, but all the gods are.” I tapped on the walls and felt a pressure change immediately. “Uh,”

“WE'RE FALLING!!” Shrub held onto the nearest thing. Unfortunately, that was me. And we fell faster, because I'm no parachute.

—

We woke up in a ditch, and there we saw him. Laying on his side, my eyes widened in fear and surprise. “Who is that?” Shrub whispered. “Are they dead?”

I got up and walked towards him, poking him. “Cub! What are you doing?!” Shrub stood up.

“...Impulse? I thought you left with the rest of them. What's going on? Why are you…” I looked to my right. A wrench, I picked it up quickly and stared at Impulse. “Your gift is here, buddy. What's going on?”

I pulled him to where he now laid on his back. His lips were covered in fuzz and blood, and his head was a mess. I looked back at the wrench and found blood sticking to it, “This is hours old. Probably days.” I dropped it.

“Cub, what's going on here?” Shrub walked towards me, the concern living on her face along with all the dread.

I sighed, “Remember how you brought up Vulcan?”

“Yeah…?”

“Impulse is his son. Not Vulcan’s, but Hephaestus’ son,” I turn to look at her. “He brought us here for a reason. He told us to find Impulse.”

Shrub got lost in thought, I watched as she peered down at the floor once again. The floor this time was concrete, dry and painful to even step on. She seemed to count the lost pebbles that mixed in with the concrete. Her eyes closed.

“The fate of machine will be washed away by hands that prey on the day.”

“...Hey, I heard that prophecy.” I frowned. “Just before I got here.”

“So did I.” Shrub sat down next to Impulse, “Prey on the day…?”

“Is there some type of Apollo kid here?” I looked around, “Don't see one.”

“I'm the closest we have to day. I'm the feast… the farm, the crops, the nature.” Shrub planted her face on her hands. I glared down at Impulse. “We'll find the answer soon enough, I think I know who's doing the preying.”

Impulse never moved from his spot.

I didn't know if he was ever gonna move again.

[shallow-between-stars]

Oops.

Hi, um, yes! Hello!

So, uhh, it's been seven years. I recovered my account about... a month ago and that was an ordeal, then did nothing with that for a bit, then lurked for a bit and am now posting.

SO WHAT HAPPENED YOU ASK?

Short answer: Life.

Long answer: Life, pets, work, and a side of what I think was HORRIBLE BURNOUT.

I didn't really notice I was pulling away from Tumblr, but I kinda did, which is absolutely my bad. Then, y'know, shit happened.

I got back from China in... 2017... promptly lost my job, ended up with a new job I loved for a company I hated, worked there for five years or so. Had to people, like, a lot.

My job was entirely dealing with people. Mostly people under 12. And my poor, introverted soul really struggled with that most days and came home, crashed on the couch and slept. When it wasn't school term, it was holiday care, when it wasn't holiday care it was school term. I was responsible for a lot, including making sure a daily average of 30 kids didn't hurt themselves.

And, y'know, about a year into that, my father (who I love a lot better at a distance) and I had a conversation (started by me) about my moving out of the family home. Mum and Dad basically refused to let me rent and (I'm showing my upper middle class, here, sorry) bought me a house that I am slowly paying them back for.

Yes, I know, and I am so very grateful for their support.

My dad and I shopped together and picked out a (unbeknownst to us) house-flipped 30 year old property with a great back yard and some small things that needed fixing, and I packed my bags and over the course of a week, I moved in.

And then I did what every responsible new home owner would do and waited until I moved in and was settled before making any more drastic life changes.

...

...

...Yeah. I'm lying.

I got two dogs. Ranger, who is the end result of putting all your points into Charisma and Constitution and using Wisdom as a dump stat, and Rogue who went the Int/Dex route but forgot that constitution exists. Seriously. I had her a week and she nearly died from -eating chicken.-

(She's allergic, we have discovered in the interim. She's also five now, arthritic and incontinent, the very definition of THE BEST DOG WITH SHITTY HEALTH ever. I'd say she's the living embodiment of 'adopt, don't shop', but the other dog's adopted and has an almost 1:1 ratio of "years alive" and "windows broken because he got scared".)

So. I worked a shitty job for five years (and through Covid, my job was considered an essential role which meant I worked straight through the pandemic, with children, which was low-key terrifying), and then in an episode of "nepo baby" a friend of my mother's got me a job at a high school for kids with behavioural issues where I worked for the better part of last year teaching EAL/D to refugees. I loved the kids to pieces, but as you could probably tell from the 'refugee' part of that sentence, these kids came with very heavy stories and my heart was broken for them more often than not.

Anyway, due to a contract kerfuffle at the end of last year I found myself out of that job, but my boss stepped in for another episode of "nepo baby" and sourced me a -new- job with a friend of hers working at a different school, where I am now. Still teaching high school, still teaching EAL/D and still loving every minute of it.

Anyway, I'm writing again, which is great, and something that I haven't managed to do consistently for years (See: HORRIBLE BURNOUT) and am excited to be -almost- ready to post some new content to my sadly neglected AO3, where the last thing I posted was about... two and a half years ago and at the tail end of Covid.

Surprising no-one, the content I have most recently written is Kal and Bull.

Surprising probably a lot of people, I still haven't played Baldur's Gate 3, but I've got three weeks of holidays in about a month so maybe I will play it then? Maybe?

[dunktape]

i'm actually blushing kicking my feet smiling stupidly here in my living room watching u guys react to my posts and everything so quickly ouhhh ,, thank you guys so much for the support I HABE 100+ FOLLOWERS ALREADY

a bit of rambling underneath the cut ,,, x'3

when i just started drawing digitally i was just doing tweening animations which didn't get a lot of attention ,, but then i made a new group of friends who i shared my work with — to which one of them introduced me to tumblr !!

have just been snooping around for a year or two , not really interacting with anyone ,, started a mogai / editing blog with my puppyboy — quite exhausting for me actually , but posting was fun , so i went back onto this account

started off pretty slow and also with a few problems — low motivation , pretty sad ,, even then TWO SUPER POPULAR CREATORS reblogged my stuff and im so grateful for that

when i started uploading emotes i actually got so much more attention ??? woah ???? you all just started invading my blog chewing and drooling on everything /silly ,,, and it's been so fun to draw ur requests , answer ur asks , talk to everyone ,,,

the black cat emotes are so silly and cute !!? the yellow guys are so tiny i wanna squeeze them they're so eepy and stupid ,,, /aff

SOMEONE ASKED FOR FENNEC FOX EMOTES ,,, FENNEC FOX ,,, /VERY POS anon whoever you are thank you i almost forgot they existed 🫡🫡 i'm gonna enjoy drawing them a lot

ALSO gonna work on the fnf emotes first ,, ive never drawn these characters but boy am i excited to try !!!

the fact that garfield anon has even NOTICED ME is such an honour ,, what did i do to deserve this orange cat lover on my blog /aff

might draw yippee emotes/gifs too after i finish the other two emote requests !!

overall just thank u guys so much for ur support ,,, im currently going through some things , have been through things that im still trying to process and cope with as well , and my biggest distraction is forms of art ,,, and it really makes me happy to know u guys like my art too , it's comforting even — like i haven't put so much effort into any of this for nothing . bc now it has an actual purpose — to share with u guys . really sorry for the sappiness but really , thank you so so much

[sillyangstyimp]

Important for my followers!

SO. First of all, big apology to anyone who still remembers my existence and was waiting for me to continue stuff with my cuphead au. I've been delaying posting about this for a while (idk why) but I think I've burnt out on cuphead related art. I still love cuphead and all it's content, i just cant seem to draw much stuff for it anymore :(

I felt kinda bad for a while because even though I kept trying to make comics and stuff for it, I could never finish them. And as much as I love cuphead, my interest has moved to other medias. So, this account is going to become a more general art account for me, along with a lot more reblogs about all my other interests and fandoms I'm involved in.

So if you are someone who just followed me for cuphead and don't want all my obsessions on your dash, feel free to unfollow me! But still a huge thanks to anyone who expressed interest in what I did make and post. (and a major apology to anyone who sent me an ask that I never answered. I am so sorry, I don't have any other excuse than I just forgot)

If you don't mind following me, expect a lot more reblogs of art and other things as i am finally understanding how tumblr works. Some of that stuff might be horror things though, with blood and gore so be careful.

As a final thank you, I'm planning on making a big post with a lot of unfinished cuphead art works along with really old (bad) ones I drew before I had this account.

Once again, sorry to disappoint any of you, but at the same time I've realized that this is my blog, and I can post whatever I want to post. Thank you guys ♥

[udunie]

So I know it’s been 5 years but do you think you’d ever continue writing Exit 27? 👉👈

Heyo, nonnie!

So, this is not directed at you at all, I swear, it's just something I feel like I need to get off my chest...

This is the third ask in the last week I got about updating something (one of them was a clearly marked, completely finished fic???)

I know I have a lot of WIPs, believe me, nobody knows it more than I do, what's more, I would hazard a guess that nobody is bothered more by my WIPs than I am.

Whenever I feel the smallest motivation to write and open a new document I'm already feeling incredibly guilty about not doing X or Y or Z instead, and it's just making everything so much harder.

In my darker moments I've considered just... fucking deleting every fic I have on AO3 that is not completed, so that I didn't have to look at them and be constantly reminded. (Heck, many times I thought about deleting my whole AO3 account and my tumblr and starting over just so I don't have an army of WIP skeletons in my closet... because sometimes I get asked about updating something in the comments of something else...)

There are a few reasons why a fic doesn't get updated; I'm stuck with the plot cause what I planned originally just isn't working and I don't know how to make it so, I lose inspiration either cause I feel like what I've written is shitty or cliche, and sometimes I just get tired of a story for some unknown reason or or or...

Please believe me when I tell you, no story is left unfinished because I forgot it existed, or I'm just being an asshole and withholding the rest of it just to spite you. If I could finish them, I would, I promise.

And I know that every time someone asks, it's with genuine good intention, because you like my stuff and it honestly should be a compliment, but it's still just making me feel more down about posting anything that isn't an old WIP that I'm not able to finish...

I don't know what the solution here is... But pretty much the only asks I get on tumblr about stuff I've written is asking for more and it's not helping.

I'm so sorry, dear nonnie, I swear this isn't about you, I know this is very much a me problem, I've just been thinking about this a lot recently.

So yeah. I don't know when/if Exit 27 will get updated. I would like to say it will be, but who the hell knows.

[noblest-roman-of-them-all]

Hi. I'm new to Tumblr and I haven't made an AO3 account yet but I just wanted to say I love your writing so much, especially the Remus and Janus stuff. I've read Growing Pains like 5 times this week. I love your take on these characters and the angst and the Remus taking care of Janus shedding.

I'm sorry this took me so long to answer, for a while I was just too happy to let it go, then I forgot the inbox existed at all.

This message really warmed my heart. Growing Pains is a piece that I am very proud of and that I spent a lot of time weaving together. It went through so much revision. To hear it talked about like this is so validating and it truly makes it worth all the time that went into it. Thank you so much for not only taking the time to read it, but to share with me how much you enjoyed it. It truly means the world to me.

Sanders Sides is an incredibly important series to me, it has taught me so much about myself, albeit unintentionally so, through all of the characters in so many different ways and has truly helped me to better accept myself and the way my brain functions. It has truly been a postive influence and has made a positive impact on my life that has helped my grow as a person. So I am very passionate about the fics that I write for it. I want them to be as positive for other people as the series has been for me. And if I have done that in even the smallest of measures, then I would be very happy indeed.

[radley-writes]

Hello again! I am still shocked by your possible existence. I also don't have a Tumblr account yet, so you'll be forced to wait a while for pictures of Oliver and my other three cats (sorry). Moving on, I am very sorry to say (that I am almost positive) you got Oregon wrong as well. Although I do not live there, I have visited and have checked with native Oregonians and it rhymes with wagon. And dragon. You can also think of it as Or-uh-ginn or Or-ginn (how I usually say it). (continued)

Hello, Ne(e)vada-nonnie and Oliver!! It's lovely to hear from you again! I too am still debating my own existence - if you come to an answer regarding whether or not I am real, please do let me know! I might have to fill out some tax forms or something. x

IN MY DEFENCE for the video, I read all three of your messages, then promptly forgot about the first one! But you have taught me how to say Oregon (the wagon comparison helps!) Now let's see how I do on the others...

[englishmagic]

Today is an emotional rollercoaster

Putting the mess under the cut because dear lord I shouldn’t be making people read this why am I bothering tumblr with my shit I’m sorry you guys

I put my foot in it on Facebook and a misunderstanding of mine was perceived as offensive which led to profuse apologies which only made things worse, a situation that was difficult to handle on account of my brain’s whole “won’t allow me to make a single mistake without wanting to kill myself” approach to existence, which makes getting called out on my shit a helpful but harrowing experience

And then I went for coffee with a really cool girl I haven’t hung out with since the summer and she had so many cool ideas and wants to be actual friends and keep in touch and said I was cool and SHE is actually way too cool for me, so you know, that was very validating as a person

But then I might have committed to more than I actually have the capacity to do bc hey I’m mentally ill 😬 oops I forgot that for a second huh

But also I shouldn’t expect the worst always and whether we start five thousand creative projects and start working out together or just end up going for coffee from time to time this friendship is still a good thing

But also when I got home I can’t access the Facebook conversation anymore which means the comments are deleted or I’ve been blocked so I can’t really see how the conversation ended and that drives me mad with anxiety because Bad Brain takes it as proof that I was the villain of the piece and there is no way to make up for the hurt I’ve caused and I should just cease existing immediately and I’m half a mind to message the page it was on and ask “yo sorry for being a dick earlier are we good” but I know that’s a bad idea bc it would be hoisting the responsibility of protecting my precious feefees onto someone I may have potentially hurt. Or not. I don’t know; I didn’t see the end of the conversation. But it is one of my favourite pages so I hope I’m not entirely persona non grata.

Anyway I should focus on being creative or applying for funding for my existing projects or being happy about my new friendship or resting up because I have a full day of work tomorrow and im Dreading It.

[jamespottersdaisy]

HELLO MY LOVE IM SO SORRY I WAS MIA IVE BEEN BUSY THESE DAYS AND I FORGOT COMPLETELY ABOUT TUMBLR 😭😭😭😭😭

HOW'S EVERYTHING GOING TELL ME EVERYTHING

I haven't read the fanfic yet, but I will. I started reading kingdom of ash and I'm not physically well. I've been reading this series for three years since the first one came out in my native language and I'm so scared to finish it. but I'm really excited to end it, hopefully before I have to go back to class

okay so, about my guy, he does not want a relationship and I'm not sure I want one with him either. he's really sweet with me and a really good person and I consider him my best friend. yesterday he told me I looked pretty and i started laughing so hard I ended up crying from how confused I am.

but you know something that was really weird and unexepected, I started talking with a friend of his with whom I played chess. the other day we talked all day, since I woke up til I went to sleep with the biggest pause of thirty minutes to eat. it was weird but it never felt forced. and I told him to learn lover on the drums and he sent me a video playing it that got me giggling kicking my feet.

it's so cute you write little notes for your notcrush, being loved by a writer. does he know you write or that you have a Tumblr account with amazing fanfics and hyperfixations?

IM SO HAPPY I MET YOU THIS YEAR AND IM SO GRATEFUL YOU EXIST. SENDING YOU LOTS OV LOVE

-🌕

HI BABE!!!

things are so hard istg my finals are coming but im handling it well i think, I MISS WRITING!

it's okay you'll read it when you have the time! im reading once upon a broken heart! I finished caraval 🤓 how's your book going

ALSO HE LEARNED HOW TO PLAY LOVER???? MAN I WOULD FALL IN LOVE THAT'S SO FRICKING CUTE!!!!!! how's everything been tho since that?

me and my not crush are good, I do write things for him, and i showed them to him a few days ago, and he got so emotional YOU SHOULD'VE SEEN HIM!!!!! also no he doesn't know about my Tumblr yet LQLKDKAK

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! IM SO GLAD YOU'RE IN MY LIFE I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH