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Delicious in Dungeon PV 3 | The Canaries
#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#mithrun#cithis#lycion#otta#fleki#pattadol#tansu floke#cithis ofri#mithrun of the house of kerensil#dungeon meshi spoilers#delicious in dungeon spoilers#every time i forget what a pain colouring anime is#so this is too messy for my proper blog#but. mithrun.... <3#i cant wait for his fight scenes#also his voice is sooo good hsdfsdhf
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AAUUGGHH IM SO HAPPY WITH THIS(took me so long but we don't talk about how this has been a wip since early november) but ANYWAYS
they are just so <333 i will never let go of this ship and in my head they are a lovely couple under the mistletoe every december, they read stories together by the fire and drink hot chocolate together <<333
anyways, happy holidays everyone! christmas or whatever you celebrate and if you don't celebrate at all then i hope you have a good day/night!
#utmv#ink sans#nightmare sans#inkmare#ink x nightmare#undertale au#undertale#my wacky stuff#eldritch rambles#happy holidays!!!!! :DDD#also Inks blush is a pain in the ass to drw idk why i forget every time but GOD DAMN i spent like 2 hours trying to get it right/lh#matterafact everything about him too#nightmare is my simple king <3#i wanted to give him more design on his sweater but i didn't wanna spend anymore time on this than i already did#Ink would force him to wear one though#i think anyways
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Munakata swung the saber down with his arm perfectly straight, like becoming one with the blade, and touched Fushimi’s left shoulder ...Keep the order firmly. You are now a blue guardian of justice.
#k project#project k#munakata reisi#reisi munakata#fushimi saruhiko#saruhiko fushimi#anisource#animeedit#my graphics#they look so pretty in this scene so i couldn't resist giffing it#not to mention how much i love the way it's described in the novel#just two wet cats having a moment in front of the whole clan#every time i forget what a pain colouring k is
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How did you manage to handle not one, but FOUR separate accounts in fl? I recently made the account for my HD little guy but having to do the tutorial again just seems miserable
there's... weirdly several answers to that question, actually??
a HUGE part of it is due to the way FL is structured. the 10-minute action timer is a core part of the game on a fundamental level, and the fact that i can very easily run out of stuff to do on one character and thus have an excuse to quickly and easily swap to another is just... convenient? satisfying? i'm not entirely sure how to explain it. the fact that i can make progress even while i am fundamentally simultaneously Not Making Progress is like pure dopamine for my freak insane awful little brain. there's just something really pleasing about spending all of my actions pursuing The Goal Of The Day™ on one account before casually swapping to another and doing the same without feeling like i'm wasting time or acting to the first account's explicit detriment. the downtime helps! the recharge time helps! the structure really really works!!
i'm technically only actively playing three, maybe two accounts minimum. the only reason the fourth (the one that'll be my future BaL playthrough) currently exists at all is so i can get his earlygame completely out of the way now and not have to waste time running through it all later, when what i actually want to do is play the ambition i've made myself wait a full year to play. and also getting free goodies as seasonal stuff happens,, something something surprise tools to help us later. the only two accounts i'd say i'm really "actively playing" at the moment are caeru and lark- and of the two, lark takes the most priority, since his ambition is the one i'm currently pursuing in earnest. for a couple months now- despite being My Main FL Character- the scoundrel has actually been pretty inactive on a gameplay front outside of the occasional progression in TLC and discordance content. purely by virtue of having Very little left to do outside of Very long-term grinds and vanities. they're in their "now what?" "now you can start playing the game" era. they've graduated to previous protagonist background cameo in a sequel anime series. they're like the yin FLPC equivalent of red at the top of mount silver. they're Literally just vibing rn. i only keep posting about them regardless because i'm insane and i will never ever ever ever ever let that bat go. but yeah, big TLDR, outside of doing the bare minimum to keep making waves/notability up every week, i'm not actually spending that much time on accounts i'm not currently actively interested in playing. and that accounts for way more gaming spoons than you might think.
i have a virtually lifelong history of playing MMOs, especially and specifically world of warcraft. i was born in the endless grind for useless video game pixel vanities and/or bragging rights. molded by it. you all have merely adapted to doing the same piece of content a pointlessly excessive amount of times for literally no reason besides whimsy and folly. me? i've done my time. i've served my sentence. i've spent weeks doing the original burning crusade netherwing dailies. i've devoted days to running praetorium over and over and over again, back-to-back, nonstop, long before square enix cut it in half and made it NOT take at minimum an hour and a half per run. i've perfected my silverwastes + auric basin goldfarming strategies. i've (almost) crafted dragonwrath tarecgosa's rest. i've killed the sha of anger so many times its dying scream of agony is embedded into the very fabric of my being. ""only"" doing making your name content four times over? that is nothing to me. it means nothing to me. it is so infinitesimal i can do the persuasive seduction quests in my sleep. it's not a matter of handling misery, or having the capacity, or even sighing as i remember the brass embassy raid segment of the watchful questline seriously i don't know why i keep forgetting that exists or what even is my problem with it i just am so consistently mildly inconvenienced by it and its highly specific resource requirements and it is the worst thing ever. maybe i'm just so used to the scoundrel's near-infinite money and troves of disposable items that i've completely forgotten what being poor is like. despite having done that step 3 fucking times now. ahem. anyway. i have transcended the feeble mortal bindings of my resistant-to-grinding flesh and ascended to a higher plane of enlightenment, they may call me insane but they will be the ones left laughing when they see what that "insanity" has wrought, i've usurped them, i've usurped them all-
hacks and coughs and awkwardly clears my throat. i mean. uh. um. Ahem.
the empress' court artistry + tales of the university nerfs helped too.
#and yes#before you ask#i have forgotten which account has which items/has done which content many a time#i think the most painful incident was forgetting to keep up the scoundrel's making waves while i was still playing nemesis with caeru#given that im trying to build it up to 12 and reset their specialization... that was uniquely painful#then again they have like 40 BDR so it wasnt actually that inconveniencing lmao#fallen london#ask#long post#sorry for the infodump + sudden villain monologue.#all jokes and personal accounts aside i totally get the apprehension abt doing that stuff again#it's not for everyone. not by a long shot.#im only doing this because im genuinely invested and in love with this silly little browser game#and way back when i started i made a (only half metaphorical) solemn oath to experience all of its ''main stories''#and truly see everything it has to offer#(bc i like. physically cant do hyperfixations by halves. i need to consume Everything abt the thing or i'll explode)#(and even then i'll probably explode anyway. it's either completely drop it or go All In until it stops taking up so much space in my brain#(and. given the track record. that is not happening with FL for a while yet)#but like. that isnt actually normal behavior. just. just to clarify.#from what ive seen a VAST majority of people do not go out of their way to play literally every ambition#and that is so valid. it is so overwhelming. you have to juggle so much.#you have to play the earlygame So Many Goddamn Times.#(as i said. served my time. did my sentence. i am my scars. etc etc)#the best advice i can give as someone who's so completely desensitized to that repetition it doesnt even phase me anymore?#the same advice i can stress to all FL players. legitimately just take ur time with it. play when you want to.#dont when you dont.#sometimes you have to grit your teeth and bear things. and when it comes to alts you Will have to grit your teeth and bear it all again#but the beauty of this being a game that one plays for fun is that unlike. say. crushing deadlines or annoying coworkers in real life#you are completely within your power to decide when where and if you want to grit and bear it all#..wow this is ADVANCED yin rambling holy shit. i actually reached the tag limit. i think this ask should be put on some kind of list
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okay like. this is something that rolls around in my brain a lot but i think it's geniunely so funny, and super interesting the way how poison ivy's portrayal has slowly changed over the years.
like she started off as basically a plant-themed femme fatale and then shifted a bit more but still mostly just a femme fatale, but also with plant powers. and then she's a "crazy woman" ecoterrorist seductress who like, has some points i guess but the narrative is all about how she's 'doing it the wrong way' and how she's 'too extreme'. but like now. yeah she's a relatable shut-in lesbian with anxiety who actually is completely in the right ideologically bc yeah we fucked up the planet.
#also did everyone forget that time ivy literally mind controlled the whole world#and was like controlling everyone bc she just wanted the pain and fighting to stop. like. can we talk about that.#like she literally has god-level powers at this point guys#if harley ever died we'd all be completely fucked bc she's literally the only thing that keeps ivy from going actually full kill-all-people#which. yknow. valid.#we are fucking up the planet. and she can FEEL it. like do u ever think about how every second of every day she can feel everything dying.#oughhh she's such a tragic and sad character i love her#mostly me rambling/going back to my roots#dc#dc comics#poison ivy#pamela isley#comic meta
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Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid I definitely didn't edit and cut this comp up myself I definitely didn't add the stupid ass music myself stupid stupid stupid I definitely found this online and just took it from there dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb I want to banish him to sitting in a corner permenatly he doesn't. Shouldn't. Get. Take him OUT of the driver seat of my brain he doesn't need to be there he d9esnt get a say in this take away his seat at the table gone removed out of this he doesn't get rent free, in fact he has to pay the most massive fee conceivable and I know that if I said this out loud I'd probably sound exasperated and a little breathless and fumble my words and groan and sigh and huff and make incoherent things to where I almost sounded upset but really with each muttering and long sigh there'd be a hint of .nof. of ....mfif8fifuidis soossssssssom.ssson.mthibg. something.mor.e.more. something more. Than that. The way someone sighs when walking past the bakery section of the grocery store and trying to pretend and act like they don't want it. They sigh and mutter that they don't need it but you can hear it and see it in their expression. Alas. This is over TEXT. And clearly I. Have been nothing but oh so the upmost convincing in my endeavors that. Scrolls back up. Scrolls back down quickly. Blankley stares at my keyboard. I want to slam a plank of wood sideways horizontal-motion across the back of his head.
#using every last ounce in my being to not answer that ask from the ask game about him.#“for whoever youre thinking about most right now!!!” my brain has been d9ing some hard pingponging but.#today.ghhhhhrhrrhhrugguigigughhruhhgggg#today he. I run away Loney Toons style where a cloud of dust in the shape of me is all that remains.#I actualt have a second cli0 i want to talk about but nay. not. yet. im already in shambles judt doing this one.#im so. DISGUSTTINGLY not not in love with him. that it makes eberythint i feel about him worse.#im extra freaked out about him and what he would think about me because i extra care about him and.#Im still in that stage where I. have uet to pro0erly wrap my mind around the idea of the. feeling being reciprocated.#I got the hang of it lately with Aziraphale and Crowley. so I've been so kuch gorgeously free-er to imagine many rhings with them.#And to talk about them a bit m9re freely.#But gee this is. this is like. like. im Sisyphus or something. aka that onr greek guy sentenced to pushing a rock up a hill for enternity.#And any time it neared the top it rolled back down.#VET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!!!@@! Shaking my head until he pops out lleasirrhusd88s7dye#plucking him out with a pair of tweasers i just.#youre giing to hear me say all this verbatim nearly anytime i mention him for a good while but. my goodness.#He's got me so nastily messed up he needs to atone to his crimes. at least i. at least I dont want to hit him square in the face anymore.#I would be a liar if I said it hasn't gotten better. but i swear smoke just starts pouring ojt of my head.#hello everyone. here is the biggest prime example of where I break so hard that my brain shuts down into insults.#this isnt denial this is just a failure to convince.#i almost want to start another epipsde but it is late and I fear qhat I may come across and dont wanna upset myself this late at night.#But at the same time like i said i have gotten a bit better about it. I'm not. not every thought i have about him anymore is etched in pain.#As my first few posts may have indicated. where I got so grossly upset I had to wip up some technical vent art over it.#Im not getting as chronically upset im jus.t MAN WHYS IT SO HOT IN HERE.#nono guys im. naturslly like this. my hands are always sweaty. huh? what? no. forget about that. ehat are you? a lawyer? go away. shoo.#i gotta quit before i run out of tags to rven add his tag. which i should also obliterat.e#Doctor🤎💙#i hope he chokes on his next drink for making me feel like this.
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I ate two pizza slices and just remembered I'm lactose intolerant
#I'm supposed to take a pill before I eat dairy but noooo I just had to forget#every time#once I was out and at my cousin's house#we were getting ice cream and I was about to walk off with my bowl#one cousin walked in and said “Aren't you out of pills?”#I went “:(” and my other cousin started to take my bowl away????#I slapped his hand without thinking 💀#I still ate the ice cream too#I'll live just in pain
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Based on a painting of Princess Victoria by Winterhalter
#my art#1860s fashion#victorian fashion#19th century fashion#not me painting more pearls#every time I see them in a painting I go 'ooh pretty'#and forget how much of a pain in the ass they are
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Viktuuri week day 6: Love
#no one said love had to be happy#love can also be the indescribable pain of abandonment and longing because some times cupids arrow just hits at the wrong time#and i love making my little paper dolls suffer#i had actually planned on making all the pieces for viktuuri week sad or angsty in some way but i ran out of time and fluff is so much fast#but ive had this piece planned since like july so i was NOT giving it up#also this is the only piece with my trademark flower symbolism and i couldnt just not stick to my brand#the flowers used are sacred lotus; red spider lily and camellia japonica dahlonega if you wanna know their meanings in hanakotoba#look at me being nice#giving you the names instead of you having to figure it out on your own#i really do sometimes forget that other people havent spent hour long sessions researching flower language and symbolism#so like if you wanna know the meaning of a flower ive used in a piece just ask#i will happily rant about my thought process#anyway ANGST#yes i did take great pleasure in getting to draw every detail of this and especially his pained facial expession#AND THE HAIR#drawing the highlights gave me life#and just MMM i loved drawing this so much#yuri on ice#yoi#yuri on ice fanart#yoi fanart#fanart#art#arom antix art#arom antix#viktor nikiforov#viktuuri week
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i need to draw fwhip more my knees hurt and i have to take it out on him
#ow ow ow chronic pain#its so annoying its like minor enough that i keep forgetting to bring it up at the doctors but like it happens every time i walk somewhere#saymbles#fwhip#chronic pain#i GUESS#ow#for context on the fwhip thing my post rapture fwhip design (for pretty much every series) has his right leg amputated above the knee and#chronic pain pretty much everywhere else#L dont get blown up next time bozo#sorry
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My little old lady dog has never liked me, no matter how many French fries I've bribed her with, but tonight she climbed into my lap and is laying down and won't move. At first I think it was because I was eating, but I finished the food and now she's layed down and cozy and won't move. I'm trapped under a little old lady dog who normally hates me. I want to sleep. What do I do.
#she was a rescue from a meth house when she was 8#we didnt think she'd last a year#now shes 13 and making it everyones problem#she has 14 teeth and puts them all to good use#she loves begging and whining for food even if its spicy or chocolate#literally was eating a spicy chicken sandwich and mnms earlier and she whined until i was done#and she has never liked me. i brought her home from the shelter#every time i came home to visit she geowled. i rarely get to pet her. occasionally she snuggles next to me for warmth#but thats it. ive tried to win her affection with snacks#but i think she has doggie dementia and just forgets who i am#but tonight she climbed into my lap and first it was def for the food i was eating#whoch was full of onions and garlic so i cant share#but then i finished the food and she just stayed#like shes layed down and comfy and possibly asleep by now#and she refuses to be picked up. its painful for her. so i cant just gently deposit her on the couch#shes a part of my lap now. but its 1am and im sleepytired#please advise
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my knee pain has been getting worse and worse lately and now it's just painful for me to walk literally all the time so that's cool
#used to only be when moved it in certain ways that weren't too common. now i just . can't bend my leg at all pretty much unless i'm sitting#and i know part of it is my fault because i have terrible posture and keep forgetting to do the exercises i was given 5 years ago#because i was doing fine for a while and didn't think i needed them anymore (<- stupid) and also i never remember to do anything even when#i want to#i'll try to start doing them again but i don't really know what to do if it doesn't work because i can't keep just pushing myself through#pain every time i go anywhere (including the 10 steps to my kitchen)#m
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the only thing these period cramps are cramping is my style rn

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Uh oh sisters! Turns out the body keeps the score
#who could’ve predicted this#every year I forget what October means#I forget what memories are lurking just beneath the surface#and it manifests in an array of ways as my body tries to communicate to my brain that this is The Bad Time#last year it was a horrific pain flare up#the year before it was a depressive episode#and this year it’s a dissociative episode#including the worst dissociative spell I’ve ever experienced while I was laying in bed on Friday#and I haven’t been able to think of words or form memories or pay attention to shows and books#and finally I was like ‘why is this happening? what’s causing this?’#and I remembered#and now I can’t unremember and I’m stuck with the memories again#it’s officially been ten years since those fuckers carved out the last good pieces of me#cheers to a decade of trying to forget 🥂
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NOO I FORGOT MARTINUS' CHEST HAIR AGAIN this is so sad.
#the problem with having a character who has a lot of body hair is that it is a Pain in the ass to draw. however theres no way he#would shave and no way he wouldn't be hairy ...#so i have to try and remember it every time. but sometimes i forget...#ficposting
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