#i forget ppl dont have themes anymore. times have changed

[henosiis]

oh yeah i need to make a real pin for this blog huh

[charliespringverse]

iwbft - friday: a brief summary of my annotations

all highlighted quotes: 111

· ouch/ow/owie: 4

· real/felt/relatable/so true: 3

· aroace: 0

· ☹/☹☹/☹☹☹: 6

'I'll never forget what dear old John Lennon said: — we dont compliment wife-beaters here, dot

I've still got The Ark. — have u tho

Juliet was upset? Even after our big argument? I thought that was it for our friendship. — that's some bpd style thinking babes x (note: i 1. have bpd and 2. don't think fereshteh does, i just found it funny bc i'm p sure i've had this exact thought)

The idea that I had in my head. It was all something I'd just . . . fabricated. To make me feel a bit better about myself. So I had something to just... believe in. — oooo parallels

he sings - words I don't know, and a tune that goes somehow perfectly with the chords Rowan is making up on the spot - 'to Saint Peter he will tell: One more soldier reporting, sir. I've served my time in hell.' — listerrowan cowriting era?

'You've got a wet face,' he says. He walks up to me and starts dabbing my face with another paper towel. — playing the rowan role...............

'Do you ever imagine what would happen if we just ... ran away?' asks Lister, suddenly. I glance at him. He's looking at the window too. — nsync

God, I could do anything right now. — king u r so not thinking straight ♡

D'you have friends around you? People to support you?' I mumble something about being fine and close the door. Enough of that. — he hates that ppl don't see him as human but rejects it when they do because he barely knows how to Be human anymore ☹

It's not a crush. Not infatuation. I mean love in the 'I will think about you every day for my whole life' sense. Love, like the desperate ache to hold on to something useless, even though you know that if you threw it away, nothing would change. — *p.311

We catch eyes across the aisle and both laugh at the same time. The sound echoes around the empty church. — i love when they get to just be people ☹

'Are you talking about Jimmy or are you talking about me?' I ask. — i think they've got far more in common than either of them are ever likely to realise, at least until they're a long way past it

Strange how comforted I feel just holding it. Strange how I feel so much for one simple object. Even if I threw it away, nothing would change. — p.293 Jimmy + the knife the same as angel + the ark, once again tying those two things to the wider theme of faith

[yb-cringe]

Wah ty... Joey pulling out the lanterns during his fight with Shadow Girl this episode was such a rough moment... As much as she probably shouldn't have helped Scott and Sausage grief his area, him pulling out the lanterns she had just returned to him in order to chase her off was extremely cruel considering that he was there for the task force. I think a lot of disabled and mentally ill folks empathize with the fear that they'll screw up and suddenly those close to them will turn the things they can't help against them and seeing Joey weaponize her sensitivity to light because he was upset with her was! Bad! I think there is a lot of tragedy in their friendship that was beyond their control with Joey going from Shulk to the Fairy Prince, but it doesn't lessen how horrible it must have been for Shadow Girl to see the one person she trusted suddenly start to demand she change and wield her struggles against her. As much as I hope she has a happier life as her new origin, I also hope she's not over the ways that everyone, from Scott and Sausage, to the Task Force, to Joey, wronged her as Shadow Girl. She deserves to demand that they make it right and she deserves to find a group of folks that will care for her unconditionally, even when her needs don't align with theirs. I'm... honestly not thrilled about the idea of her only getting to find happiness after death and rebirth without being a Shadow Crawler anymore bc I've seen that story before and it is often very ableist, but with the nature of the server and with hopes for cc!shubble's writing, I am cautiously hoping that the respawn won't be the end of things... All this to say i hope Shelby is still angry and doesn't forget and maybe next time someone gets the shadow crawler origin, she'll be able to make sure they don't have to feel as miserable as she did. She literally deserves the entire world and also has a right to kill whoever she wants This also isn't meant to be like. anti-Joey as either a content creator or a character, I think he is fantastic both in and out of character!!! It's just my thoughts on the story as a whole and that particular moment

yeah! well, ok i have thoughts:

- i said the whole ‘shubble stumbling onto a mental illness/disability vibe’ as a very LOOSE thing. i mean, its definitely something ppl can relate to and vibe with as a feeling but we should also probably step back and realize that its. Not the purpose of the story cc!shubble is telling. like thats a cool connection to make, but cc!shubble Not living up to that expectation isn’t bad or ‘feeding’ into abelist narratives. At that point, you’d be putting the expectation that because WE see a story this way, that the creator needs to adjust their narrative thusly.

which, yeah, isnt great. she didnt make it as a neurodivergent/mi/disability story, she stumbled onto the right path by accident. its minecraft roleplay and it makes sense that she’s vibin with that story and can take it wherever she’d like. Your frustrations with an abelist narrative stem from people who KNOWINGLY make mentally ill/disabled characters and then kill them off/cure them/etc and spread the idea that ppl cant live happily with themselves. Which is definitely an issue- however. you’re uh. not gonna find the answer for it in a mcrp.

thats not to say i dont sympathize! id also love for like. single crumb of good representation in media and also. yeah i think it was intentional for the other characters to treat her Badly to set her up for a sort of comeback so— we’re all definitely empathizing with her as a character. who knows where the story is gonna go tho, im kinda hoping for an unholy trio reunion tbh.

tl;dr— c!Shubble has a relatable narrative and connections, however she (cc!shubble) IS NOT making a story with the intention to represent these themes and expecting her to withhold to standards that dont Apply here will only lead to disappointment.

anyway yes uh. got off track there but. Yeah! these past few episodes have been Brutal w the betrayals and shit. totally get why c!joey was pissed hoWEVER…. i would kill for shadow girl…. beloved…

and Wow these past few episodes have been heartwrenching. definitely FELT that as someone whos Needed accommodations in the past only to be made fun of for needing them— oof.