#i feel unmoored

[scribefindegil]

there is no real meaningful distinction between Art and Craft, however i personally can only do the type of Art that is also extremely Craft. i need to make physical things with my hands and use tools and manipulate little objects and hoard all the specialized knives. otherwise i will start biting.

[whiskeysorrows]

sobering realisation that i spent a decade of my life trying to die and that some of those years were recorded on this blog

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

I’m very good overall at staying grounded in the moment but girlies it’s getting harder and harder to not be aware of the uncertain future and the faltering in my hands trying to juggle of the present

[bogkeep]

being in-between books is a liminal state and therefore leaves your soul very vulnerable

[ibrithir-was-here]

Is there a word for when you're reading or listening to something, and suddenly it starts reminding you of the last time you read/listened to it, but its tied in with a bunch of really vauge, really weird memories you'd totally forgotten about? That feel more like you're remembering a dream but there's just this strong sense of attachment to the current activity, but the events/topics of the half memories feel really disconnected to the activity?

And then you just feel a little bit unreal/unsure of reality for a moment?

Is this anything? Am I losing my mind? 😅😬

[skitskatdacat63]

Tysm for the tag @brawngp2009 !!!

Rules: make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous and tag as many people as you have WIPs. People send an ask with the title that most intrigues them, then you post a snippet or tell them something about it!

Carriage fic illustrations

^ + sequel (Seduction Game)

Emotional Damage fic(Elbow Room)

Truth fic(Machiavelli quote goes here)

5+1 Crossdressing Masquerade Bet(Clothes Make The Men?)

Historical portrait ask game sketches

Funeral fic

Vettonso if they were teammates at Ferrari and went to Wrooom(chibi comic)

Vettonso silly argument(chibi comic)

I think that's it??? Luckily I got to strike chair wip off that list!!! Finally .....

I shall tag no pressure hmmmmmmm @rubyreadd @lil-shiro @pitconfirm @wewentcarracing !!!! <3

[vaguely-concerned]

sophia seeing cailan's body hanging there when they go back to ostagar, and suddenly all she can see even through the rot and the ruin is just how much he looked like alistair...... :'(

a mental image that totally will not haunt her through alistair's many years on the throne as rebellions and assassination attemps come and go. doesn't send her unhinged and unwise even a little

[patrice-bergerons]

I am still in the pits of despair but the extended time makes it less likely that it was writing related in the first place. Which means it's either a small blip (feels too strong for that tbh); seasonal depression is setting in (it's november; I will die if this is the cause) OR I am completely adrift and feeling like dying because...work is too free right now.

This is the easiest to fix root cause so I should perhaps root for it but also COME ON. I want to crawl into a ditch and die because what? I don't have engaging and urgent work? WORK? A lack of work is what's killing me? I am salaried, I get paid regardless. I will kill me myself instead at this point, what bootlicker capitalist behaviour is this???

[holedyke]

im feeling so conflicted about my future like ever since dropping out against my will everything has been so bleak and i thought i wanted to continue in the medical field i even did a shadowing in sterile processing and i liked it but i dont know if i want to make that a career or even work there for a bit being there just reminds me of everything i lost like im grieving my years of grinding toward one thing and having it just pulled out from under me and i could get a job in spd and make good money but i really dont think i want it. i know i have to get out of my moms house bc being here is killing me it always has but im so flat broke i dont know when that can ever be. my friend offered me a part time barista job but its like 45 minutes away and i think im willing to do it but i just know my family will be dissatisfied and disappointed that im not doing anything of substance and even if i do it it wont be enough to get me out of here and if i take it what can that even mean for my future where can it lead me ive loved medicine for so long and thought it would be my path but this whole situation has turned me from it, i cant know what i want anymore

[lorelune]

honestly post-o4o and with cons approaching fast i’m like. what do i do with myself

[probayern]

damn i missed you guys this has to be the first time in weeks that i've posted more than like 5 things in a day. i can't waaait for actual bayern tomorrow

[entiretorridaffair]

and i can go anywhere i want anywhere i want JUST! NOT! HOME!

[alwaysalreadyangry]

1) i am on holiday at the folk festival we go to in devon every year. it’s nice! i am listening to folk music and watching folk dancers and i have no signal during the day! i thought oh great i can do a mild digital detox!!!

2) england (and northern ireland? but afaik not scotland or wales so just saying the UK isn’t accurate) is in the middle of a spate of race riots and fascist pogroms. having no internet during the day means i get back to the place i am staying every evening. which does have wifi, and download all the horrible news to my brain at once.

3) parent unexpectedly in hospital today, trying to get updates with no signal, while sitting down in a tent watching morris dancers. absolutely absurd.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[foursaints]

anonymous opinions you say? i think you’re really cool but in the english teacher that is definitely going through a divorce way

okay i take back my enthusiasm about the ask game . because it's suddenly getting a little too real 😭

we're doing the anonymous opinion ask game

[cappurrccino]

seasonal sads kicking my ass, feeling like my life is locked into the wrong path, wondering if it was inevitable that I would end up a wretched mass of wasted potential, or if there's some point where that first misstep happened and it just snowballed from there