#i feel unmoored

[scribefindegil]

there is no real meaningful distinction between Art and Craft, however i personally can only do the type of Art that is also extremely Craft. i need to make physical things with my hands and use tools and manipulate little objects and hoard all the specialized knives. otherwise i will start biting.

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

I’m very good overall at staying grounded in the moment but girlies it’s getting harder and harder to not be aware of the uncertain future and the faltering in my hands trying to juggle of the present

[pangur-and-grim]

HMMmmmm I'm considering doing a certificate program at my local university.

my formal education is all in illustration and evolutionary biology, whereas my writing knowledge has been mostly self-taught from reading books and thinking "hey, wouldn't it be funny if I made one of those!"

I don't think 'having a certificate' would help me in any way re: waving my education around for clout points, but it might make me understand books better. and also it'd be nice to be back in a class environment, where I might be able to make writing friends.

the cats have definitely skewed my idea of what's affordable though, because I'm looking at this like "hey, that's less than a Pangur hospitalization bill 😊"

[waywardted]

You ever wonder why we’re here?

[vaguely-concerned]

sophia seeing cailan's body hanging there when they go back to ostagar, and suddenly all she can see even through the rot and the ruin is just how much he looked like alistair...... :'(

a mental image that totally will not haunt her through alistair's many years on the throne as rebellions and assassination attemps come and go. doesn't send her unhinged and unwise even a little

[patrice-bergerons]

I am still in the pits of despair but the extended time makes it less likely that it was writing related in the first place. Which means it's either a small blip (feels too strong for that tbh); seasonal depression is setting in (it's november; I will die if this is the cause) OR I am completely adrift and feeling like dying because...work is too free right now.

This is the easiest to fix root cause so I should perhaps root for it but also COME ON. I want to crawl into a ditch and die because what? I don't have engaging and urgent work? WORK? A lack of work is what's killing me? I am salaried, I get paid regardless. I will kill me myself instead at this point, what bootlicker capitalist behaviour is this???

[probayern]

damn i missed you guys this has to be the first time in weeks that i've posted more than like 5 things in a day. i can't waaait for actual bayern tomorrow

[entiretorridaffair]

and i can go anywhere i want anywhere i want JUST! NOT! HOME!

[alwaysalreadyangry]

1) i am on holiday at the folk festival we go to in devon every year. it’s nice! i am listening to folk music and watching folk dancers and i have no signal during the day! i thought oh great i can do a mild digital detox!!!

2) england (and northern ireland? but afaik not scotland or wales so just saying the UK isn’t accurate) is in the middle of a spate of race riots and fascist pogroms. having no internet during the day means i get back to the place i am staying every evening. which does have wifi, and download all the horrible news to my brain at once.

3) parent unexpectedly in hospital today, trying to get updates with no signal, while sitting down in a tent watching morris dancers. absolutely absurd.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[jon-withnoh]

It's almost exactly a week since I got back from my trip and boy howdy is it time to become grounded in my life again. I went back to work pretty much immediately despite jetlag, had minor dental surgery (as you do less than 72 hours after an intercontinental flight) and am not exactly feeling like I'm fully back home yet. Part of that is definitely the knowledge that I'm moving again so soon, but it's not time to lean into that restless feeling quite yet or I won't actually recover from all the excitement of the past few weeks.

[foursaints]

anonymous opinions you say? i think you’re really cool but in the english teacher that is definitely going through a divorce way

okay i take back my enthusiasm about the ask game . because it's suddenly getting a little too real 😭

we're doing the anonymous opinion ask game

[almiacastle]

Good things have happened before. Good things will happen again. Good things have happened many times. Good things will happen many times more. Yes, this is true of bad things as well, but there is a unique power in One Good Thing. It might not save you, or fix everything, or make better your wounds, but it will be proof that goodness is still present in your world. Good things have happened before, and they will again. For me. For you.

[asterdeer]

if i don’t make a new Little Guy i think i’m going to actually lose my mind

[newlyy]

while I was ha ha hee hee-ing myself through law school, did I ever consider that one day I might actually have to prac—have to practice—practice law— I can’t even say it

[transgamerism]

how do y’all imagine wyll reclasses after losing his warlock abilities if he breaks his pact with mizora? i can imagine the blade of avernus, for example, being an oath of vengeance paladin.