#i feel like when you're like 12-14 you have very specific kinds of interests in fandom. and i had too!!! but once you're older than that it

[fitzrove]

32 and 40 for the musicals ask game??

32. favourite musical where no one dies

Omg, I had to think about this for a bit hahaha... I guess it's the aforementioned mean girls xD Since basically every other musical I like has characters at least implicitly die.

40. favourite musical you used to like but don’t anymore

I had a phase in like 2016-2018 (this is where the mean girls stuff comes from) where I liked every 2016-popular teen musical. Don't blame me ajsjdj, I was a literal teenager, I was the target audience... This included dear evan hansen (which I now think is terrible) and be more chill (which I find only a bit bad). I actually own the original book BMC is based on and did like it when reading it as a teenager, though I wouldn't necessarily recommend it to anyone because it's very early 2000s. (The author of the book tragically passed away quite young, though, which makes the mental health themes in the book come across very frank and real to me... which is why I'm, in a sense, less inclined to judge some aspects of it.)

[fictionadventurer]

7 & 9-12 for Wives & Daughters, 14-21 for The Galleries of Stone, 1-4 for Brine & Bone, and 7-10 & 16 for The Blackout Book Club, please?

Wives and Daughters

7. how does the story compare to your initial impressions of it? has it surprised you yet? how?

I was under the impression that it was a sweet nineteenth-century English countryside story, like a lot of the type of classics I read, but also very long and unfortunately unfinished. I was surprised at how engaging I found the writing (at a time when Victorian authors could be very hit-and-miss with me) and how gripping I found the story, and how layered and lovable all the characters were, and how satisfying it was despite the lack of ending. And I was completely surprised to find that not only did I love it, but I might have found a new favorite novel.

9. give the most UNHELPFUL and/or SILLY summary possible.

Girl falls for a bug-collecting dweeb who is dumb enough to fall for her flashy, unsuitable stepsister who doesn't care a straw for him.

10. if you made an amv about this, what song would you set it to?

Are there good songs about sisters? (I'm sorry, all of the music questions are going to have horrible answers)

11. if you were put in the main character's position, how well would that go for you on a scale of 1-5?

I mean, I'd probably do a lot of what Molly does, and things seem to work out pretty well for her, so 5.

12. assuming your loved ones would be there, would you want to live in the world of the story?

I can't say I've ever wanted to live in Victorian England, but within that time period, I'd say Elizabeth Gaskell's kind and gentle English countryside is about as good as it gets, so I wouldn't seek it out, but if I wound up there, I could be happy.

The Galleries of Stone

14. how likely do you think this story is to break a reader's heart? If you're not done with the story, just guess.

There are some heartbreaking elements, but overall the vibe is so cozy and lovely, with all these people finding a place to belong, that the heartbreak is more for things that happened before the story than for anything that happens within it.

15. what time are you most likely to be found reading/watching this story? (time of year, time of day, season of life, whatever makes sense to you)

Either January (when I first read it) or at the end of Lent (when I tend to go back to my favorite indie-published cozy fantasy ebooks)

16. do you think this story has broad appeal, or is it meant for a very specific audience? if it's more "niche", what kind of person would most enjoy this story?

I agree with @lover-of-the-starkindler that the cozy fantasy niche is growing.

17. compare this story to your usual tastes. how does it differ from what you've already enjoyed?

The magic system isn't quite the kind of thing I usually like (a bit too woo-woo), and I've never been fond of anthropomorphic animals in fiction, but she makes it work well.

18. compare this story to your usual tastes. what parts of it are exactly the kind of thing you've always loved?

I love domestic fantasy that focuses on the details of daily living and the differences between cultures. I love stories about big, loving family and strong marriages, and this story gives them to me like nothing else does.

19. pitch an idea for a sequel or spinoff novel for this story!

How about a spinoff set on a completely different mountain (maybe the green one, with all the wind chimes), with a sculptor who takes multiple different apprentices and things work in the usual manner, and we get to see the daily lives of these people who occasionally come into contact with Aurelius or something.

20. what's the WORST thing about this story, in your opinion? (feel free to be positive, e.g. "it's not longer", if you want!)

The epithets! They drive me absolutely bonkers and make parts of it almost impossible to reread.

21. based on this story, would you be interested enough in the author to read their other work?

Yes, but unfortunately none of the author's other work looks appealing to me.

Brine and Bone

1 what got you into this story?

I don't remember how I found it, but I like fairy tale retellings and this one was cheap, so I bought it. I found it a forgettable straightforward retelling the first time I read it, then one Lent when I was in the mood for light fantasy retellings I picked it up again and was blown away by the depth and beauty of it.

2. describe it in one or two sentences.

Sentence 1 (retelling description): A "Little Mermaid" retelling from the point-of-view of the woman who the prince marries that retains Andersen's original ending

Sentence 2 (story description): A woman reconnects with the prince she's loved from childhood when she finds him after a shipwreck, but their romance is threatened by the appearance of a beautiful, frightening magical creature who may want to claim the prince for her own purposes.

3. quickly list 3 things you like about the story!

The romance, the appreciation of natural law, the heartbreaking beauty of the ending

4. assign this story a hyper-specific genre name

Theological romantic horror fantasy fairy tale retelling

The Blackout Book Club

7. how does the story compare to your initial impressions of it? has it surprised you yet? how?

It pretty much lived up to my initial impressions of it--home-front WWII fiction about people coming to find home and friendship in each other--but I was surprised at how delightful the book club minutes were. They were my favorite part of the story.

8. what questions are or were you most excited to learn the answers to while experiencing the story for the first time?

I can't remember specifics anymore, but there was one old lady's backstory that I was interested in learning about.

9. give the most UNHELPFUL and/or SILLY summary possible.

While a worldwide war rages, a bunch of people sit around and read books.

10. if you made an amv about this, what song would you set it to?

Some kind of WWII-era Big Band music.

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

when i tell you i am frothing at the mouth reading through your metas. oh my god. obsessed with everything you have to say. we seem to have a few of similar opinions and theories regarding dazai and i love it. he’s my absolute favorite character in the series and second favorite character out of fiction overall and i just LOVE what you have to say about him so much!! your theory on him being the book’s seal? BRILLIANT oh my god so interesting. i’ve never had any real reason for it nor specific idea of why they’re wealthy, but just today i was talking to a friend about how i’ve always kind of had a feeling that he grew up wealthy, and so when i saw the one of him being the son of mafia benefactors it caught my eye so fast. i just have this image in mind?? as him as a young child, right after the war ended — maybe he’s 11 or 12? — sitting silently in the back of a full classroom, maybe at a private school (his parents are neglectful, always having had preferred to send him away rather than raise him), observing all of his classmates with an apathetic expression on his face. he doesn’t fit in with them; he never has. always excluded, and most of the time, it’s of his own accord. he doesn’t feel like them, doesn’t understand why they are just so… different from him. he often is punished by his parents for it, the purposeful seclusion and all the things that come along with it, because despite the fact that they neglect their other duties as parents, they never forget to punish him. omg i’m getting so carried away describing this i’m rambling again LOL sorry!!!! -from, frog!

Hello Frog! :)

Sorry this took me so long to reply! I'm really glad you're enjoying my analyses, and that you shared your thoughts with me!

Dazai is a really fascinating character. For all that we follow him in the story closely and get to see what he was like and how he changed at different ages, he's very much still a mystery. It makes it really fun to theorize.

The "he had a wealthy family who were probably associated with the Mafia" comes from three places:

He's stated to not be an orphan in Fifteen, or connected to Mori in any way before their agreement. But he had to be someone, or some random 14 year old wouldn't make any sense as a key witness whose word would be believed by the Mafia.

He clearly knew the Old Boss and vice versa, but he's apparently never seen death up close before, nor was he a part of the Mafia. That doesn't make it seem like he's the Old Boss' son or grandson or anything. Maybe he was a nephew, for Hamlet reasons. (That actually might work, considering irl Dazai wrote his own spin on Hamlet... food for thought!)

Oba Yozo's backstory in No Longer Human, as an alienated young boy who couldn't seem to feel or understand the importance of the things his wealthy family placed importance on, and so disguised his true feelings and fear of being "found out" by clowning to make everybody laugh. (Overly simplified, but I don't want to get too into it in case you haven't read it. The author also came from a wealthy family, so I feel pretty confident about this take on his backstory!)

If you enjoy Dazai backstory theorizing, @daz4i has some good headcanons. You've already read mine, but I've since written the first chapter of a fic called Clear Eye on ao3, which does kind of go into my own interpretation of it. There's also lots of other theories out there that are worth a look!

And of course, maybe you have written something yourself in this span of time... (if you have, please let me know!)

[hammieslice]

20 Questions For Fanfic Writers!

I got tagged in this by the lovely @onewhoturns, and I'll tag some others at the end!

1: How many works do you have on Ao3?

I only have 8 actually published there, but for reference, I went into my WIP folder and found over 100 more... So I do write things! I'm just really really bad at actually publishing them.

2: What's your total Ao3 word count?

Assuming I've done my math right, my current total word count sits at 262,909. Most of that is probably the longfics I've done with Turner, but there are almost certainly some hidden gems in there as well.

3: What fandoms do you write for?

Well, I haven't actually written and published something for a specific fandom for a while now, but my more common interests these days are Genshin Impact, Fire Emblem, Metal Gear Solid, Ace Attorney, Shadow & Bone (Netflix TV show specifically) and a few sporadic others! But my past works were for Oxenfree, Destiny, Ava's Demon, Homestuck, Overwatch, Critical Role, The Magnus Archives and Half Life.

4: Top five fics by kudos?

That would beeee So It Goes, Blue Hair, Red Jacket, A Different Angle, One Foot, and finally Holy Spirits!

5: Do you respond to comments? Why/Why not?

As much as I love getting comments on fics, I don't often respond to them. I don't really have enough published to get engagement super often, and even then, I'm just not the kind of person to reach out at random simply because I've heard too many Internet Horror Stories(tm). But, maybe if I do publish more in the future, I'll make a habit of answering then!

6: What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I... Don't really know? Most of my fics are either one-shots or unfinished multi-chapter works. There's probably something really angsty in my WIPs, but since it's never seen the light of day, we'll never really knows.

7: What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

Hmm. Hm hm hm. That would probably be a toss up between A Different Angle, which is just meant to be a nice, feel-good oneshot, or Pyrite-50: Quiet Moments, which is a kind of character study of one of my Destiny PC's.

8: Do you get hate on fics?

Since I only have 8 published, and I'm not like a super-duper popular author, I don't really think I get hate. All of the comments I've seen have been really sweet and lovely, which I'm thankful for.

9: Do you write smut?

I've been known to partake... On occasion....... <- Currently hiding most of it away in that damned WIP folder

10: Do you write crossovers?

Aside from the every-so-often "AU fic inspired by another piece of media", no, not really. But maybe that will change sometime! I wouldn't be truly opposed.

11: Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not as far as I'm aware!

12: Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope. My reach, like I said, is pretty minimal. But if anybody were to ask, I'd say go for it, as long as I got credit as the author.

13: Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Most of my published fics are co-written! My co-author was actually the one who tagged me in this, Turner. You can go check out all our Oxenfree stuff on Ao3 right now.

14: What's your all-time favorite ship?

Oooooh, this one is hard. The one I've undoubtedly written the most for is jonalex, but I'm a huge multishipper, so I've never really preferred one pairing over another before. It's always so dependent on my mood! Can I just say all of them?

15: What's the WIP you hope to finish but doubt you ever will?

The forgotten Kaz Brekker/Darkling smut. It sits in its little google document, taunting me. I know that you're there. I KNOW.

16: What are your writing strengths?

I'd like to think I'm good at metaphors? Generally, getting into a character's psyche is what I strive for, and when I get it right it feels like a real achievement. I've also been told that I'm very good at making dialogue that feels real, or that flows in a way that makes sense, which is something else I'm really proud of.

17: What are your writing weaknesses?

Finishing things. Fight scenes (of the physical variety). The two big F's.

18: Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Seeing as I am a person who only knows one language (and guess which one that is), I don't often write in other languages for my fics, because I'm a liiiiittle too scared of fucking up. On the rare chances I have, I usually use someone I know as a translator, but that limits me on how many languages I can conceivably use. As far as foreign languages in other fics go, I'm all for it!

19: First fandom you wrote for?

It's either Harry Potter, and that fic has now been orphaned to the wind, or maybe Homestuck?

20: Favorite fic you've ever written?

Of my published fics, it has to be So It Goes. That one has a special place in my heart for a multitude of reasons, and not just because Turner and I got to write it together. Of my WIPs, there's an unnamed freemance fic that I've been dying to finish that I just recently found again, and it made me fall in love with my writing for a second time; in a strange way.

Tagging!!

@artemis-crimson @reddgiant @starchemist @starlit-bawka @cranehusbands @duvirii and basically whoever else wants to do it.

[georges-chambers]

for the ask game: 10, 11, 12, 14, 23, 24, 28, 29, 30 :)

Thank you so much for all of these, they'll likely be extremely fun and I'm very glad you wanted to know <333

10. "What's something you're excited for?"

Getting to spend more time working on different birth chart analysis' for different people (including you specifically of course) some time today. And getting to wear the new cap my father just sort of discovered he had (was originally gifted from my mom in Ireland to her father, worn by him for a while before he gave it to my brother who then gave it to my father, but it didn't fit him, but Does fit me), it very much goes with my 'not beating the Victorian workhouse ghost' fit.

11. "What's your ideal date?"

Depends what our similar interests are or if we have any, because if so, probably something involving that, but in general. Well again it'd depend on surrounding circumstances, but quite probably going to different places around the coast near me somewhere, probably including nice museums we could visit.

12. "How are you?"

In longterm life things, I think I'm doing very well. In terms of immediate, short-term things. I am. Trying👍 (to Not be very irritated and do rather impulsive things about it.)

14. "Favorite feel-good show?"

This one's a bit hard because there aren't that many TV shows I just rewatch recreationally but I think there are like. 3 different ones of 3 different kinds: The Terror because it's always something I can distract myself with and love rewatching, Magicka Madoka as almost more of a vent thing to feel more towards than anything else (the Terror can also do that), and Aerial America/Antiques Roadshow because both feel like I'm slightly sedated even if I'm not and just being explained oddly specific or completely non-specific, extremely general things very calmly. Like they can be easily hypnotic to me.

23. "Favorite piece of clothing?"

Green wool jacket I'm Currently Wearing <333 it's thickly packed sort of wool but in a way that's very flexible and insulating, the 2 main pockets feel Infinite, the buttons are Probably plastic but look and feel wooden and are Also large and very sturdy. It has lasted so many years and will probably continue to. It is also part of the Victorian workhouse ghost fit. I'm always very glad when it gets slightly cooler so I can wear it again.

24. "What's something you do to de-stress?"

I usually just try to put energy into something else which sometimes works but sometimes does not, but I do have friends i know I can always complain about practically anything to.

28. "Hugs or hand-holding?"

Usually hand-holding, possibly/occasionally hugs.

29. "Morning, afternoon, or night?"

Afternoon <333 I have the most energy and the light is usually most beautiful or useful.

30. "What reminds you of home?"

The sea, little wooden humanoid figure toys, certain kinds of buildings. I'm not that good at describing it. Also of course certain kinds of small houses in the forest. And of course Rocks.

[silverxsakura]

Thank you for the tag @come-chaos !!

20 Questions for Writers

1. How many works do you have on AO3? I have two accounts, which combined would make 195 works total. For this game I'll stick to my wickersnap account to make it easier for me to answer - 66.

2. What's your total AO3 word count? Again in combination that's 917,549 words. wickersnap makes up 620,800 of those exactly.

3. What fandoms do you write for? Primarily Star Wars. I've also written >1 work for the wizard school fandom, x-men, detroit: become human. I plan to write more Star Trek in future

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? fizzing sours Pastel Drawstrings Relinquish We Were Younger in Our Daydreams Twin Blasters

5. Do you respond to comments? Yes! Even if they've been sitting there forever, I believe it's polite to. However if you're rude or just asking for more I am not above ignoring you.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Aureate, maybe. I don't remember most of what I've posted man it's too much, and I don't do a lot of angsty endings.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? I think I'd suggest Counting on your Fingers because of the build up to get to that point, but then again it's been a while since I looked at that fic.

8. Do you get hate on fics? I've had some interesting comments before lol yeah

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Yes, anything I feel like. I can't speak for realism but I've covered an array of kinks for better or worse

10. Do you write crossovers? No

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Don't think so

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? No

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Not quite

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? This is a trap

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I don't want to say any of them because it's sad and makes me feel guilty

16. What are your writing strengths? I've been told I'm very good at creating atmosphere, specifically something comforting or nostalgic. Ah also that I was skilled in juggling the large cast of fizzing sours while keeping it coherent and cohesive and giving most everyone time to develop and be relevant.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Takes me fucking forever and I refuse to draft. If the drive isn't there I will not write.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? If the perspective character is meant to know what it means please translate it. I also don't like when it's in italics, it's still dialogue.

19. First fandom you wrote for? Voltron Legendary Defender. The first fic I ever wrote though was for a niche oneshot manga I don't remember the name of and on a slip of paper I kept in the breast pocket of my school blazer.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written? This also feels like a trap. Effloresence, because AOS Spock was really really fun to write

No pressure tags: @elthadriel @yellowisharo @chocmarss

(Questions copied below)

20 Questions for Writers

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

3. What fandoms do you write for?

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

5. Do you respond to comments?

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

10. Do you write crossovers?

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

16. What are your writing strengths?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

19. First fandom you wrote for?

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

[m34gs]

For the ask: 12, 13, 14, 20!

Thank you for the ask, friend! From this ask game. No specific fandom or media, so if media is necessary for the answer I will choose the most applicable one for me for each question!

Alright, this got away from me a little. Under the cut she goes. Warnings for: murder, serial killers, true crime, Jeffrey Dahmer, and some very very very abominable behaviour that makes my gut churn and my blood boil.

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

I don't know if I pay close enough attention to what fandom dislikes to know which characters are unpopular, I kind of just hang out in the spaces that have the things I like, so I may be like "Oh this character is super popular" and it's like no...no Meags. they're not. It's just that you followed five blogs dedicated specifically to that character in the past three days so you're seeing a lot of stuff about them.

If I had to pick one that I *think* would be unpopular, that I like, it would be Inca Kasugatani from Fire Force. I think people don't like her because she's completely self-centered and just wants that adrenaline rush; she just wants that thrill of whether or not she will survive. I think this is an interesting trait to have in a character and one that is not explored near enough in female characters. I find it a bit refreshing, especially that she followed what seemed in alignment with her character and chose the side that seemed more exciting to her. So many times a character will be set up as 'this person only pursues what they want' only to make some weird choice that doesn't align with their wishes, but shows no development up to that point, leaving me to wonder where the heck that choice came from.

We know I love an unhinged fictional character, and Inca is no different. She's coldblooded and does not care what others think. Don't get in her way, because you will not walk away unscathed.

I would never want to force someone to like a character, or to make someone feel like they have to justify not liking a character. I do feel like she would get more love if she was a boy (I can list a plethora of male characters who are self-centered, thrill seekers, cold and low or no empathy who are loved by the masses; I pay enough attention to fandom for that) or if she was on the side of the protagonist, or both, but that doesn't mean everyone has to like her or else they're being sexist or whatever. I don't really care that much if other people like her or not. I just think she's fascinating and I want to see what else she does.

13. worst blorboficiation

Hmm. Well, typically what I dislike is when characters who are complex and dynamic get boiled down to one character trait. That being said, with fiction I tend to try and live and let live.

Real people however? Oh that will get me. That will tick me off. Ignoring for a moment that I kind of find the "blorbofication" of real living people in general just distasteful, I'd have to say the one that gets me actually riled up, the one that disturbs me the most, is the "blorbofication" of Jeffrey Dahmer. Yeah, you heard me. People are out here treating real serial killers like they're some sort of fictional character to thirst over or call their "precious little meow meow". I don't care so much what people do with fictional characters, but if you're gonna glorify and thirst over a man who brutalized actual living people? Disgusting. Difference between serial killers and fictional characters? Uh, fictional characters don't hurt real people. It's just sickening. They sell merch with his face on it. Some call him "daddy"; I've seen the freaking tiktoks. Sickening. Disgusting. Makes me rather uneasy with the True Crime as a whole. Like, at least have the decency to treat the subject of True Crimes with respect and solemnity it deserves. The victims were real fucking people, ffs.

I don't hate all true crime; documentaries, reading articles, etc, I don't hate on the topic as a whole, and I even read and watch my fair share, the true crime fandom is not all bad, but you gotta treat the victims and families with RESPECT. You gotta recognize that some of these victims...their families, THEIR MOTHERS. ARE STILL. ALIVE. How would you feel if one day you're doing ok, you've finally managed to move forward with your life, and even though you miss your SON WHO WAS MURDERED, you can still live...and then BAM. Some asshole is wearing his murderer's face on a t-shirt like he's part of some fucking boy-band. How gross.

14. that one thing you see in fics all the time

"This character is the mom (gender neutral) and this character is the dad (gender neutral) and the rest are all their children" - this dynamic isn't *bad*. It's just done a lot. Don't get me wrong, I do love it as a found family dynamic. But I would love to see more "these two are clearly siblings and this is the feral child that pretends not to care but secretly does and these are the gay uncles and here's the vodka aunt and there's granny with her multiple lesbian wives" or "this one is clearly The Child and everyone else are the Responsible Older Siblings because they CANNOT be left unsupervised EVER" or something different once in a while. A family doesn't have to be "mom" "dad" and "kids". It can be so much more.

20. part of canon you found tedious or boring

Naruto - the flashbacks. So many flashbacks. Often the same flashbacks. Flashbacks *within* flashbacks. Enough. I get it. There's an important scene you want us to associate with this moment. But we already are. I honestly would zone out during some of them because they were just so long.

There you go, there are my answers! Thanks for asking. Hope you find them interesting :)

[villanevehaus]

here i come

1- first things first: getting to read v’s pov at this specific moment its everything we could ever want, just like you posted after last month’s ch in your dash abt how everything changes only for vil now that she knows the role she played/plays in eve’s life is much showed in this ch bc i felt it was complete. its like there was some missing piece lost out there and with vil’s mind being displayed the whole puzzle was beginning to take shape. obvsl bc you’re the writer this makes sense, but now your post almost seems as a premonition to ch 16 bc it fulfills it’s promise. 

2- how much she can restrain herself on showing no sights that something shifted whilst all of this drops on her lap, not to mention the other add-ins given by clueless eve and eve’s presence herself.

3- the final confirmation through her pov that shes the mordale/the one who shot eve

4- realising Eve's the one who stabbed her!!!

5- damn if Vil’s not playing w fire by stretching purposefully in Eve’s sight

6- with Vil’s pov now you can see how much they’re the same. vil questions herself just the same way eve does.

7- its awkwardly comforting knowing now how vil’s mind operates and how many questions and doubts i had were cleared or/and confirmed just by giving the girl the mic.

8- im still confused abt vil’s blood tainted with eve’s to be such a top secret for eve. im just as curious as vil. gonna keep ma thoughts to myself 

9- Folie à deux. you did NOT haus

10- i find it really interesting how you set oksana in the story as someone completely different from villanelle, but it’s awaken when certain scenarios comes to light. it gives so much complexity and depth to the character.

11- i wanted to know if vil went back to her bed after eve’s nightmare of if she stayed a while w her. dunno if you can answer that tho

12- well i dont blame at all julia for being enamored by vil enough to ask her on a dinner date, just like i dont blame eve for being insufferably jealous 

13- its so delicious to read the possessiveness innuendos. “Because I want her here.” “Because you want me.” “My consultant.””Yours” “Mine”

14- pleeeeeeeeeease vil begging for praise from eve on her first documented kill. god i love this.

15- vil seemed really thoughtful and touched by the russian food and the chef, it was truly genuine of her, i didnt feel like she faked it. sharing the candies w eve regardless of her on-face jealousy and cunty behavior looked so personal, it was like she was sharing whatever kind of life oksana had as a child in the shape of a candy.

16- its quite visible when strucks in eve that she was being rude enough to have vil teach her how to “sorry” sign.

17- is the grind an orphan’s season 2 the dialogue you added last minute? please i cant with these two actually discussing cannibalism

18- vil’s wondering abt making all of eve’s meals and leftovers!!! couldve been so gentle if it wasnt for the

19- yay! vil’s been cleared up! no threats on sight!

ps: you dont have to answer all of them and im not expecting you to!! i just throwned'em down.

:)

#anonwho #phew #tme

i will answer the ones i can !!

3. yes, confirmed she knows she shot eve and eve stabbed her; she is viper! neither of them have any idea about mortale tho

7 & 8. trust the process, my friend- if you're confused, you're meant to be

9. folie à deux- séparée avant, mais ensemble maintenant <3 genuinely one of my favourite little lines from tme

10. tysm !!! i am glad it seems to be coming across well

11. i can answer it! they fell asleep together, the phone rang with their wakeup call, and neither of them mentioned anything about it as they got up. author's note, it was some of the best sleep that either of them have had in years

15 & 16. i go crazy about in this post !!! throws up and dies !!!

17. yes :)

18. excuse you its very gentle, she just wants to keep her fed

[shippp]

doing this ask game in one fell swoop because i need a reason to talk about elliott 💕

1. how did you discover your f/o’s content?

honestly I don't remember! it was probably on tumblr. I originally played sdv on mobile, i just remember seeing the app and being like "oh stardew, I've been meaning to play that game, and i have the money yo buy it rn" so i got it

2. how old were you when you discovered your f/o’s content?

i started playing stardew around 2019, so, i suppose i was 14

3. describe the first time you watched/played/read your f/o’s source content.

as i mentioned i was playing on my phone (which was terrible. the controls are hard + i do not recommend). I'm kind of terrible at video games so even in stardew i was struggling, i have a distinct memory of one of my first days trying to buy and eat bread and it was such a struggle, and then i accidentally gave it to someone instead of eating it 😔

but yeah on my first playthrough i initially got married to shane because i loved his character arc & him getting better but, much like everyone else, i was quickly disillusioned. we got divorced the moment i earned enough money to do it. and then i romanced both elliott and harvey for a while, and in the end decided to marry elliott :) best choice i ever made i love him sm

4. who was your first favorite character when you initially got into your f/o’s source content? was it your f/o from the very beginning?

as i mentioned shane was the first character i pursed but i was always fascinated with elliott. i still really like harvey & sebastian & sam's heart events etc but elliott is my boy <3

7. are there any specific scenes/chapters/moments of your f/o that you find yourself going back to revisit more often than any other?

the letters he sends in his 14 heart event <3 ugh it makes my heart melt. i just love him. and it's especially helpful since at that point in canon you're physically separated & i can read and reread them when i miss him, and do my best to feel like he's just out traveling.

8. are there any scenes/chapters/moments your f/o is in that you skip when you revisit their source content?

no!! every scene w him is important to me lol

10. if you could change one thing about your f/o’s source content, would you? what would you change?

more elliott (also more dialogue with everyone. but more elliott is my first priority)

11. do your friends/family know that you’re into the content that your f/o comes from or do you keep this interest to yourself?

yeah! i talk to them about my stardew games pretty often.

12. did you know what self shipping was when you first discovered your f/o’s source content?

nope!

13. do you have a favorite line your f/o has ever said?

this was a great excuse to go back through all of his dialogue. nothing stands out as one favorite but i will say i like the pair of "you probably wouldn't like it inside my cabin. it's dark and full of spiders," which is common dialogue usually near the beginning of the game/low hearts with him, and then "if you find a spider in the house, don't squash it! just let me know and i'll take the poor thing outside," which is dialogue you get after you're married. its so cute like aww he actually likes the spiders :) that's probably why they feel comfortable in his cabin lmao

14. what’s your favorite outfit your f/o has ever worn?

his NEW WINTER OUTFIT. i fucking love winter clothes on anyone i think it makes someone 10x hotter especially if it's like a peacoat etc. look at my boy!!

15. do you own any merchandise from your f/o’s source content? what is it?

no 😔 i should buy some though.......

[third-generation-female-warrior]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

I was tagged by @nightfall-1409, so, here we go!

How many works do you have on ao3?

A proud 11!

What’s your total ao3 word count?

321, 918 published, a godly amount of unknown beyond.

What fandoms do you write for?

Star Wars, The Bad Batch specifically.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Not to brag or anything, but you might recognize some of my classics like: Tales From Marauder Lane, Remnants of the Republic, The Boy Who Came to Dinner, The Rumor at the End of the Hall, and The Way Forward

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Of course! I love interacting with my readers and going "director's cut" on them.

What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

The Way Forward by far. It's that sad but hopeful ending, I cried writing the whole damn fic, but that ending, OH, it still gets me.

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

The Boy Who Came to Dinner. Super cute, wholesome family hijinks.

Do you get hate on fics?

No, but I have gotten some REALLY passive aggressive remarks and not very constructive criticism.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

No, I want to, haha, but I don't think it would be good. I'm very much a tasteful fade-to-black kind of person. We'll see, though. If I write smut, I know what I want to write, and it will probably be published anonymously.

10. Do you write crossovers?

Technically, yes(??) Jedi: the Video Game Series and Bad Batch Crossover, but I guess, since it’s all in the Star Wars universe, not really.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No, thankfully. *knocks on wood*

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, but I have worked on translating a person's not-use of Mando'a for another person's fic. Like, the section was in English, but it was supposed to be Mando'a. Still working up the courage to tell them...

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes, in the days of old. I miss it.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Oof. You're talking to a multi-shipper. For example, Merrical has my heart right now, but I have also written some Cal KestisxOmega stuff and I loved doing that, and I do have some MerrinxOmega stuff on the backburner of my mind, but that’s neither here nor there.

15. What’s a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

Oof… probably… This Night, For Them. Painful admission…

16. What are your writing strengths?

I’ve been praised for my dialogue, nailing down character voices and such. I think I also have intricate and interesting concepts.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I wish I could write more emotion. I feel like I’m not emotional enough, I wish I had more of a prose-y style.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

It comes weirdly natural for me. I do have bilingual or multi-lingual characters, and I just kinda… understand how that works, how they would say or express themselves and when they would slip into native tongue.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Ninjago. That’s all I’m going to say on that.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

I’m torn between Remnants of the Republic or Tales From Marauder Lane. I will go back and re-read both and be like, “This shit was genius. I wish I could bottle this” and I loved the fan reactions from them. Remnants, I think, will be my answer, if I had to pick one, I just LOVED that, and I loved writing it.

I don't have anything to add, but I hope people who like my fics are patient with me, I'm sorry for the haitus!

[starspatter]

ok now you do all the fic meme answers (or whichever ones you're comfortable with answering) :)

1. approximately how many fics would you say you read in a year?

Not a whole lot, tbh. Depends on my mood. Maybe 20?

2. approximately how many fics would you say you write in a year?

I tend to write in bursts, so I can spend a year spitting stuff out (though they then stay in drafts forever >.>; ), and then nothing for a long time lol.

3. what’s one character that you write in fics or rp that has changed your life, one that you couldn’t do without?

DCAU Timothy Drake/Timmy Todd ='3

4. what’s your favorite au premise?

I'm always interested in the Justice Lords verse, though I do miss my friend's and my "Domestic SuperBats AU" where Bruce and Clark are married with Kara as Clark's daughter and all the Robins and Batgirl are adopted. <3

5. what’s the optimal wordcount for a fic? (it, of course, depends. but what do you like?)

I like short drabbles I can read quickly, but if I'm going to sink my teeth into a chapter fic then I don't really have a preference as to length - just the hope it will eventually be finished.

6. describe a fic that has or would bring you to tears. links appreciated.

I know I gushed about it at the time, but I'm still appreciative of "Acceptable Losses" you wrote from my suggestion prompt, since you hit me hard with the surprise "Red" connection. ;~; It's a really important symbol in my other big fandom fixation, expressly being the "color of heroes". ;o

More recently is "Performance Piece" by fight_knight, which I've mentioned before but is an intriguing take on DCAU and comics Tim switching places post-RotJ. Specifically though, Chapter 8 got me good since it also surprised me by lining up almost exactly with a headcanon I have of Steph being the only one DCAU Timmy allows to cut his hair, but I couldn't fit it into my own fic so I'm happy someone else (sorta) did it. ='> (I hope the author does continue someday...)

Aside, I had actually wanted to use this opportunity to plug this fic to you since I don't recall if I ever shared it before, but it looks like the author deleted... OTL

7. describe a fic that has or would make you smile very hard and bury your face into your pillow / potentially scream a little bit. links appreciated.

If someone other than me were to write fluffy (or angsty) DCAU TimSteph I would die tbh.

8. what kind of fic do you like to read at 3am? be as specific as you dare…

Honestly probably my own fic draft since I still go back and revise chapters and that's typically the only time I have to do so.

9. what’s a fic you’ve thought of while you were drifting off to sleep?

See above.

10. what’s a huge fic project that you’ve always wanted to work on but never can find the time?

My old ItsuHaru fic for my first OTP from The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya (and my even older idea for a Gary Oak x Molly Hale fic from Pokémon, which I suppose actually predates the former in terms of "OTP" obsession *shot*)

11. what’s a fic you’ve thought of while showering/bathing?

Uh... Don't think I typically do so during that time? o.o;

12. what’s your go-to plot bunny and/or trope when you’re daydreaming?

Anything to do with my ships: DCAU TimSteph, ItsuHaru, and ShinAyaki are currently the main ones, tho I also entertain some crack/crossover rarepairs on occasion.

13. make up a fic title for a brand new fic you’ve never thought of before.

Not really new, but I've always wanted to use the title "Lights Fantastic" for something but could never think of what.

14. tell us about a fanon misconception that often shows up in fic about one of your favorite characters, and why it’s completely wrong

all the JayTim in RotJ fics or comicverse AUs in general but I usually just ignore those

15. do you experience synesthesia when you write? what about when you read?

No.

16. have you ever written something fluffy that made you feel happy, then pulled back because you didn’t want to get comments about writing something ooc? any other situations similar to this come up?

Not so much fluffy, but tbh I always wondered/worried if Tim cries too much in my fic, now even more so from your answers lol. ^^; (It does happen less so later on as he continues his recovery, fwiw.) In general I get concerned about writing DC characters OoC in any capacity since I didn't grow up with them - especially when it comes to the comics as I know even less about those versions. =x (Also some of the more... controversial scenes/ships in my stories. *cough*)

17. if a 12 or 13 y/o approached you for advice on starting to write and publish fanfiction (whether for personal enjoyment or in a friendly, age-appropriate public/internet space), what would you teach them?

I'd say don't let motivation slip away. If you're interested and inspiration strikes then go for it. Just write for your own enjoyment, and don't let outside circumstances stop/discourage you.

18. what’s a very small headcanon that you have that could easily be a novel-length fic if you had the time?

Idk about novel-length but I still like the idea of Veronica Vreeland having a crush on Bruce/being the "princess" type who promises to marry him as kids. Their parents would arrange playdates when young, and being the spoiled brat she is one day she sees a bunny in Bruce's garden and goes all Veruca Salt, demanding her daddy to get it for her. Bruce points out though it has a partner, and his dad/mom told him "rabbits can die of loneliness". That's when she decides she's fallen in love/is determined to wed her "prince" someday, and tries to confess to him by making a snow bunny - unknowingly right after his parents' deaths - but he ends up hurting her feelings like in this scene from Kanon. ;(

She watches over him from a distance as they grow up, how he refuses to play with her anymore and retreats from high society. Even when he eventually returns to the rich Gothamite circle and agrees to host/attend parties with her he still constantly pushes her away, keeping at arm's length for some reason. Until one day he suddenly grows sullen and morose again, completely shutting himself off and becoming a recluse, even letting his company fall to ruin... When she goes to visit him in the future after figuring out he's the one who saved her daughter for his final act as Batman, he still rebuffs her efforts to get him to come out and engage with others, so she repeats those words back to him before sadly leaving: "Rabbits can die of loneliness, you know."

19. who’s that character and what is a specific canon moment for that character that you can talk about for centuries and just never ever get tired of it?

DCAU Timmy and really any of his moments in the tie-in comics since they're criminally unknown (pun not intended), although for within the show itself the "Never Fear" and "Growing Pains" eps also count.

20. have you tried to get people in your life on board with your fanfiction or is it all super secret because they’d never understand?

I mean I'm still waiting for a friend to read my fics but as for other non-writers then no.

21. hurt/comfort specific: have you ever written a hurt/comfort fic that reflected something that you have personally been through in your life?

No comment.

[rikiflrts]

— ꒰‧ 𝐃𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐲'𝐬 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭 𝐋𝐢𝐬𝐭 ༉‧₊˚✧

after what seemed like forever, i finally made my own prompt list! if you wish to request for the prompts that you’d like to use with a certain member, then feel free to choose any of the numbers displayed and tell me about them in the ask box (^^).

also: please be specific with the genre that you'd like to imply with your chosen prompts, thank you~ ♡

1.) "i just wanted to give you a hug"

2.) "dumbass we're lost now thanks to you!" " i already got lost in your eyes from the moment i met you but you don't see me complaining."

3.) "please don't talk to me right now, im not in the mood"

4.) "how are you so beautiful?"

5.) "my hoodie looks great on you"

6.) "how could you..."

7.) "i trusted you"

8.) "i didn't tell you to trust me."

9.) "you're leaving? just like that?"

10.) "no stop you're making me blush"

11.) "and if i am?"

12.) "just shut up and let me play with your hair"

13.) "so this is what falling in love feels like"

14.) "how are you even real..?"

15.) "are you being for real right now?"

16.) "...did you just sniff me?"

17.) "if you're that mad then why don't you just take it out on me?"

18.) "i don't mind"

19.) "you dumbass, i said i like you!"

20.) "i used to have this huge crush on you (laughs)" "used to?" "well, yeah.. i dont really like you anymore"

21.) "can i hold your hand?"

22.) "are you nervous?"

23.) "less talking, more working!"

24.) "im in love with an idiot"

25.) "but you promised me that we'd get married!!" "for the love of god, ____ we were 5 when that promise was made!"

26.) "but i still love/like you.."

27.) "this reminded me of you"

28.) "his/her/their smile is really pretty.."

29.) "just confess already!!"

30.) "you're an idiot." "yeah. your idiot."

31.) "are you even paying attention?"

32.) "does it look like i care?"

33.) "i don't really care"

34.) "it's been a while since i last smiled like this"

35.) "oh crap im starting to feel the butterflies again"

36.) "I'm scared, okay?! i can't do it"

37.) "what are you so scared of?"

38.) "im scared of falling.." "dont be, i'll catch you."

39.) "promise..?" "promise."

40.) "i guess promises really were meant to be broken."

41.) "you made a fool out of me!"

42.) "im sorry, its not you.. its me."

43.) "what about our promises??" "what about them?"

44.) "please dont go"

45.) "is/are they/he/she all you're ever going to look at?im already right in front of your attention is still focused on them/him/her."

46.) "that's it..?"

47.) "cuddle with me"

48.) "no."

49.) "his/her/their eyes were like pools; so deep. I fear that if I fall, I might never come out and reach for air."

50.) "i love spending time with you"

51.) "let's just be friends"

52.) "im sorry, im afraid of commitment"

53.) "im afraid of it too. why don't you just take this risk and overcome your fears with me?"

54.) "if its you, then i dont mind."

55.) "i love your smell"

56.) "what's that supposed to mean?"

57.) "first love really never does die huh"

58.) "hey, you look really familiar" "oh, really?" "yeah. you look like my soulmate."

59.) "if you like me so much then just marry me already"

60.) "wait i can do that?!" "your gullibility really amazes me sometimes."

61.) "are you dumb? be honest"

62.) "im not in the mood"

63.) "are you okay?"

64.) "you look horrible" "oh wow gee thanks for pointing that out sherlock"

65.) "what's in it for me?"

66.) "do you..like me?"

67.) "do you like him/her/them?"

68.) "but i wrote you letters.."

69.) "they mean nothing to me."

70.) "wow! i haven't seen you in ages, how have you been?" "we literally just saw each other 5 hours ago."

71.) "wipe that smirk off your face, its annoying"

72.) "aww, why? are you perhaps threatened that you'll end up falling for me?"

73.) "i think im going to puke"

74.) "are you blushing?"

75.) "aren't you tired of comstantly running in my mind?"

76.) "i can't get him/her/them out of my head"

77.) "your laugh sounds really pretty"

78.) "i love how your eyes sparkle whenever you're invested in something"

79.) "im falling"

80.) "oh no im catching feelings"

81.) "do you ever stop talking?"

82.) "let me get that for you"

83.) "its okay, i can pay for myself" "no. i wont let you" "but i have my own mone-" "shut up and let me spoil you!"

84.) "i refuse to stay in the same room with the likes of him/her/them!"

86.) "it was pretty obvious.."

87.) "come here."

88.) "stop doing that to yourself!"

89.) "you deserve better."

90.) "just leave. i dont want to see your face anymore."

91.) "i hate you." "the feeling's mutual."

92.) "didn't i tell you to leave me alone?!"

93.) "was it so wrong to love you..?"

94.) "if you really love me then just stay away from my sight."

95.) "you feel like home"

96.) "i love hugging you, it makes me feel safe"

97.) "i could kiss you right now!" "you're very welcome to do it."

98.) "i can't keep playing pretend"

99.) "let's put an end to this.."

100.) "i think im actually catching feelings"

101.) "this is getting dangerous.."

102.) "give me another chance"

103.) "give me one reason why i shouldnt leave."

104.) "im going to do it! im finally going to confess to him/her/them!"

105.) "you've got to be kidding me.."

106.) "i knew what i signed up for. im not surprised."

107.) "he/she/they has/have stars in his/her/their eyes and im captivated"

108.) "i love you" "nice try, but im not falling for that"

109.) "is it that hard to fall in love with me?!"

110.) "well if you put it that way, then yes."

111.) "you look happy"

112.) "you look happier without me."

113.) "can you guys please change the dare"

114.) "who gave you the right to toy around with my emotions like that?!"

115.) "i got played.."

116.) "stay out of my sight."

117.) "you're an eyesore" "you're an eye candy"

118.) "why are you still here?"

119.) "why..?"

120.) "stop making fun of me!" "make me."

121.) "was i just some kind of sick joke to you?"

122.) " i really like you "

123.) "i don't know how to express my feelings that well but i just want you to know that i'd take a bullet for you"

124.) "i'd do anything just to see you smile like that again"

125.) "what are you staring at?"

126.) "i think i have a crush on you" "you think? you're not even sure?"

127.) "take my hand"

128.) "let's get out of here."

129.) "you should wear my clothes more often"

130.) "i can teach you how"

131.) "I'm here for you"

132.) "you can use me to forget about him/her/them"

133.) "even if the world turns againt us, as long as we have each other, then we'll be alright."

134.) "you're all that i need"

135.) "you're all that i ever wanted"

136.) "you're all that i have"

137.) "please don't leave me"

138.) "I'm sorry."

139.) "look at me."

140.) "look at me and tell me that you don't love me anymore."

141.) "you're an idiot."

142.) "i don't love you anymore."

143.) "did you just drink from my cup?" "and if i did?"

144.) "im going to kill you!" "you don't scare me"

145.) "stay with me a little longer"

146.) "i knew it.."

147.) "i should've known.."

148.) "are you jealous?"

149.) "i made you a playlist"

150.) "when will you ever look my way..?"

151.) "im fine with looking at him/her/them from afar"

152.) "he's/she's/they're out of my league"

151.) "im scared of getting rejected"

152.) "back to square one"

153.) "I'm tired"

154.) "what do you like about me?"

154.) "i'd rather starve than spend time with him/her/them."

155.) "if i'm an idiot, then you're a coward"

156.) "i dreamt about you last night"

157.) "it was a nightmare"

158.) "it's the little things that he/she/they do/does that drive me insane"

159.) "i like you more than i should"

160.) "be mine"

161.) "it was too good to be true.."

162.) "i had a crush on him/her/them"

163.) "i never really thought that i'd end up falling for you"

164.) "you're adorable"

165.) "you mean the world to me"

166.) "you meant the world to me"

167.) "what happened in the past stays in the past"

168.) "careful, you might end up falling for me"

169.) "very funny, mister lover boy"

170.) "lets go out on a date"

171.) "i'm so lucky to have you"

172.) "where are you going?"

173.) "sometimes it really just gotta be like that"

174.) "hello good afternoon, what's your order?" "hell- oh wow.. you please" "im sorry, could you say that again?" "wait no! i meant- uh..oh dear.."

175.) "he's too good for me"

176.) "stop giving me mixed signals"

177.) "i guess it really just wasn't meant to be"

178.) "im not interested in you"

179.) "i cant get him/her/them out of my head"

180.) "where is/are he/she/they?"

181.) "you took my pillow so im going to use you as a pillow"

182.) "why are you avoiding me?"

183.) "did i do something wrong?"

184.) "please talk to me"

185.) "im not even his/her/their ideal type"

186.) "it wouldn't hurt to try"

187.) "you smell like me"

188.) "i like my scent on you"

189.) "that sounds weird if you put it that way"

190.) "can i call you tonight?"

191.) "you should smile more often"

192.) "i hate it when people tell me what to do"

193.) "lets wear matching outfits!"

194.) "im arresting you." "why? i didnt do anything wrong" "yes you did, you stole my heart and i want justice!"

195.) "i guess i got too caught up with my fatasies to notice that he/she/they never really liked me back in the first place.."

196.) "you're the answer to all my prayers"

198.) "you should go home."

199.) "let me come with you"

200.) "run away with me"

last updated: 12/30/20

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[theepisceswriter]

300 MILESTONE WRITING EVENT. (CLOSED, BUT REGULAR REQUESTS ARE OPEN)

OMG HI BESTIES, I recently gained 300 besties and I can’t even begin to tell y’all how thankful I am for all the love and support all of you have given me in this short amount of time that I’ve owned my blog. I thought I was going to be a flop lowkey but you all proved me wrong LMAO. So to show my appreciation for you all, I decided to finally do a milestone event like I was supposed to do a long time ago but shhhhh, don’t be shy to send in a request bestie! I promise I don’t bite unless you know you’re into that kind of stuff 🙈 

MASTERLIST (tba once the first requests is complete or I get a couple of requests) 

 HOW THIS EVENT WILL WORK 

♡ listed below underneath the readmore cut are 90 prompts  for you to choose from that are broken into categories (fluff, smut, angst, & crack) 

♡ You can send in one prompt or mix and match them together along with a character of your choice, two characters for a ménage a trois situation if you want to be extra, or a character x character request 

♡ You can be as descriptive or as vague as you want with your request. 

♡ For example: “prompt number 13 (or the prompt by itself) + prompt 31 for Jean & scout!reader after he thinks you’ve died while in a battle but the two of you reunite later on” or just “Prompt 19 for Shigure Sohma” and even request who you want to say the prompt!

♡ In return I’ll write you a drabble based off the request that varies from 500-1k words. 

Requests specifically for this milestone event are open until 04/25/21 or until I say they close because I’m lowkey terrible at putting a time restriction on things. 

 WHAT FANDOMS THIS EVENT IS OPEN TO 

♡ ATTACK ON TITAN 

♡ JUJUTSU KAISEN 

♡ BLEACH 

♡  FRUITS BASKET 

♡  DEVILS LINE 

♡  FIRE FORCE 

♡  DEATH NOTE 

♡  JOJO’S BIZARRE ADVENTURE 

And any other animes/mangas mentioned in my rules post, even the ones in my currently reading/watching list, but the ones listed up above are the main ones.

PROMPTS LIST 

 FLUFF 

1. " hey, so... i know you haven't been feeling great, so i picked up a few of your favorite snacks, drinks... "

2.“ wait , did you just say you love me? “

3." it's okay. i promise you, i will be here when you wake up. "

4." wow... you look... you look amazing. "

5." you're shivering. here, take my jacket. "

6. “ i love you. “

7. “ what? ME have a crush on YOU? whaaaaaat?! haha! what? pfft … shut up! “

8.“ jealous?! i’m not jealous! “

9.“ wow … your smile is breathtaking. “

10.“I want to be more than friends. “

11.“ let me take you out on a date. “

12. “   it  seems  that  you  get  impossibly  more  beautiful  every  single  day .   ”

13.“ so … do i get a goodnight kiss? “

14. “   i  notice  that  you  keep  looking  at  my  lips .   you’re  criminally  unsubtle .   ”

15. “   i  think  the  kids  are  awake  …   ”

16. “   i  ran  you  a  bath .   get  in  it .   ”

17. “   there’s  no  greater  blessing  than  looking  at  my  child   &   seeing  your  eyes .   ”

18. “   let’s  just  get  in  the  car   &   drive  somewhere .   anywhere .   ”

19. “   i  just  can’t  believe  that  you’re  mine ,   now .   ”

20. “   no ,   you’re  not  going  anywhere .   you  have  a  fever .   ”

21. “   every  time  i  wake  up   &   you’re  there  next  to  me ,   i  wonder  if  i’m  still  dreaming .   ”

22. “  i think i might be in love with you.  ”

23. “ i love you, every part of you. even the parts you don’t like. ”

24. “  you know, if you moved in we wouldn’t keep having to say goodbye like this.  ”

25.“Come watch the sunset with me.”

 SMUT 

26. “i’ve been waiting all day…”

27. “can i come yet? Please let me cum.”

28. “you have to be quiet if you want to cum.”

29.“ wow … you’re hot when you’re angry. “

30. “i want you to touch yourself for me.”

31. “just shut up and fuck me.”

32. “i’m gonna fuck you until you beg me to stop.”

33. “i want you to forget everything and everyone else but me.”

34. “make me.”

35. “they’re gonna catch us—”

36. “You’re beautiful when you’re all flushed and wanting.”

37. “You can be rough with me, I won’t break.”

38. “Did you touch yourself, thinking of me?”

39. “Please, please, touch me.”

40. “I want to bury my face between your thighs.”

41. “You can beg better than that, I think.”

42. “Ride me. Slowly, that’s it.”

43. “Come taste yourself on my fingers.”

44. “are you gonna be good for me?”

45. “did you just yawn?”

46. “how much do you want to cum?”

47. “you sound so pretty when you moan”

48. “tell me you’re mine”

49. “I’m going to put a baby in you tonight.”

50. “Is this your first time doing anything?”

ANGST 

51.“ please just … leave me alone. “

52. “ i don’t love you. “

53.“  you don’t have to talk, we can just sit together.  ” 

54. “ stop trying to fix me.  ”

55. “  you’re right, you are a monster.  ”

56. “  loving you is killing me. ”

57.  “ you’re bleeding! ”

58. “  why can’t i be enough? ”

59. “  just stay still. let me hold you. ”

60. “  if you’re so intent on going down this path, then i’m coming with you. ”

61. “  i miss the way you used to smile at me. ”

62. “  i need to know that you’ll be okay. if something happens to me… ”

63. “  why won’t you just let me go? i’m not worth it. ”

64. “  please don’t go. ”

65. “There are more lives at stake here than the ones you care about! What gives you the right to decide that one person’s life weighs more than countless others?”

66. “I miss the old you.”

67.“I wish we knew each other sooner.”

68. “  even when you smile, your eyes are still sad.  ”

69. “Promise me you’ll find me in our next lifetime.”

70. “ don’t do that— don’t shut down on me. let me in.  ”

71. “ why aren’t you scared of me?  ”  

72. “ would you kill for me?  ”

73. “  i don’t like the way they look at you. perhaps i’ll cut their eyes out.  ”

74. “  yes. i killed them— but i did it for you.  ”

75. “I think I’m pregnant.”

 CRACK

76." what in the actual fuckily duckily. "

77." how do they know an animal is extinct like?? you looked everywhere?? "

78." why is it called creepypasta and not fettucine afraido? "

79." no offense to myself but what the fuck am i actually doing. "

80.“ … why does this card say ‘ happy 3rd birthday ‘? “

81." ted just be letting anyone talk. "

82." i wonder when the bermuda triangle stopped working. not a lot of drama there anymore. "

83." no wonder the ice caps are melting, i'm fucking HOT! "

84. “crying is very punk,  trust me,  i do it all the time  and i am a punk.  ”

85. “your inability to learn complicated handshakes is tearing this friendship apart.  ”

86. “  what do you mean a thesaurus isn’t a dinosaur? ”

87. “  i’m not interested in being polite or heterosexual.  ”

88.“It’s probably the Illuminati anyways.”

89. “ you’re lucky you’re cute. ”

90. “ Might just headbutt the wall and knock myself the fuck out.”

91. “You deserves the world but all i can give you is my anxiety and depression.”

[elytrafemme]

hello! as usual I hope you're doing well :)

I've just finished reading the new chapter of cough syrup and I'm back for my obligatory post-read rambling in your asks (i hope these aren't annoying btw)

Fucking great chapter, it was so good. You continue to impress me with your ability to portray raw emotion. I found myself heavily relating to cs!ranboo in this chapter (concerning? perhaps.) and all of it felt so real because it was so well done (/pos). I think the constant repetition of words and phrases was excellent in capturing that sort of spiraling helplessness and gradual breakdown. That's an incredibly hard thing to write because often times it's so hard to comprehend, but it seems like you just do it effortlessly.

I loved the paper crane scene, it reminds me of things my best friend and I used to do in high school. The fact that they kept giving the paper crane little head pats was super sweet and I just really love that detail.

Also here are a few lines I particularly enjoyed from this chapter:

"It's easy to imagine himself wandering aimlessly, lost in the blurs of forgetfulness and never having an anchor to attach himself to. Nothing to remember and nothing to find, wholly disattached and forgetting over and over until he inevitably dies."

Again, incredible chapter, so excited for the next one!

hi!!! hope ur doing well too aiilov-c ty for stopping by :DDD

these are absolutely NOT annoying they make me really happy so thank u for doing them! they mean lots to me :]

at long last... among a sea of people i've made cs!tubbo kinnies, i have ONE cs!ranboo kinnie (/J) seriously though, thank you so much! i think the actual writing process when trying to depict someone having a spiral is really interesting and honestly fun to do; it's kind of neat to figure out how each character ticks and how they handle stress/sadness/grief/etc.

cs!ranboo's is always pretty interesting to write (and i'm always nervous whether or not i do it justice, so i'm happy to hear i do!) because a LOT of it is, as u pointed out, sort of about francticness and repetition of thought (as well as words but that kind of buckles under that) because when he's stressed, his mind is either scattered all over the place, or it completely shuts down

vs cs!tubbo, for example, where he also can get panicked, but it usually takes very specific things to make him panic in a similar scattered way. not sure how to describe how he handles emotions because i'm sort of figuring it out as i go, but def different from cs!ranboo and very fun to sort out!

initially when i was editing this chapter i had been so lost in writing like chapters 12-14 that i had completely forgotten where i put the crane scene and thought it ended up in like chapter 14 for some reason? so when i was editing i reread it and i'm really glad i included it in chapter 10. partly because chapter 10 is so heavy without it holy shit, but also because it's very sweet i think :) paper cranes are so lovely and i'm glad it was nostalgic!!!

not to get too heavy here but i'm really glad you enjoyed those lines because the specific feeling that they were meant to capture constantly is a pain in the ass to try and figure out how to describe, so i'm glad it stuck out if that made sense?

i think that one of the most terrifying things for cs!ranboo is the fear that one day he could just disattach and kind of... float? and lose touch with reality. he struggles with derealization as this chapter touches on, and that plus dissociation plus his memory issues means that it's a really major fear for him. honestly, i don't even know (from a writer's standpoint but also like a human standpoint) if that fear is ever going to get resolved. i think that may be one of those things you're always terrified of happening but hopefully you find 'anchors' that make it easier.

whether or not cs!ranboo does or if that disattachment gets worse, we will see :)

thank you so so much for the nice ask, seriously, it means so much. hope ur well :D

[rammoram]

Kindaichi Yuutarou Analysis

Disclaimer: I am not a professional psychologist in any way. I simply find psychology and reading into characters very interesting. Please correct me if I say anything incorrect. 

This is also not an anti-Kageyama post. I'm simply trying to put Kindaichi in a new perspective in the most unbiased way I can. I'm only putting information I found from research into this post. Thank you. 

Kindaichi is undoubtedly my favorite character in Haikyuu. He's also one of-what I consider to be- the top most misunderstood characters. No matter the reason for it, a pretty significant chunk of the Haikyuu fandom seems to have a bias against him. And while I can't force anyone to change their opinion on his character, I'd like to try to describe some of his actions and reactions in another perspective. 

This is gonna be a pretty long post, so the rest will be under the cut~!

Things I'm going to talk about(in order):

Character Traits

Classical conditioning

Explanation/definition

How it's shown with Kindaichi

Examples, episodes & timestamps

Obstacles

Confirmation Bias

Overconfidence 

Examples, episodes

Overview

Basically a paragraph where I repeat everything I explained but with less explanations involved 

Character Traits

First, I want to list a few things about Kindaichi that we already know without doing a thorough character study. These are traits that are very obvious and can be hard to miss. 

What we already know about him: he's stubborn, emotional, kind of awkward, he can be oblivious, and he holds onto grudges. 

Of course, there are other traits he shows that could be easily identified. But these are just some of the more obvious ones. 

Some of these traits, specifically being stubborn, emotional and holding onto grudges, can actually help us understand his actions easier. 

Classical Conditioning

Definition: 

Classical Conditioning: Continuously pairing two stimuli( an unconditioned stimulus and a neutral stimulus) so that the neutral stimulus(which becomes the conditioned stimulus) gains a conditioned response. 

Explaining it in simpler terms: 

Classical conditioning is basically pairing two things together a lot so that they end up being associated with each other.

(This is definitely not the best definition or explanation. If you're still confused I would suggest looking up classical conditioning for more information)  

Defining responses and stimuli: 

Unconditioned stimulus: something that will naturally get a response. 

Unconditioned response: the response to an unconditioned stimulus. 

Neutral stimulus: a stimulus that doesn't get the same unconditioned response as the unconditioned stimulus. 

Conditioned stimulus: the neutral stimulus after being continuously paired with the unconditioned stimulus. The conditioned stimulus will get a conditioned response. 

Conditioned response: is the same response as the unconditioned response, but it is a response to the conditioned stimulus after continuous pairing. 

How it's shown with Kindaichi: 

Alright. To explain this, we have to look into what happened during middle school. 

As we all know, Kindaichi had a pretty hard time keeping up with Kageyama during middle school. When we first get introduced to them, it's shown that if Kindaichi messed up or reacted late to a toss, Kageyama would get pretty angry and yell at him, telling him to do better. And it's shown that this happened multiple times during games. 

From that, we can very easily label the responses and stimuli that would occur during classical conditioning. 

The unconditioned stimulus would be getting screamed at and criticized. 

The unconditioned response would be Kindaichi feeling hurt or upset

The neutral stimulus would be making a mistake

The conditioned stimulus would also be making a mistake

The conditioned response would also be feeling frustrated and upset. 

So basically, what we have here, is that Kindaichi would start associating messing up during volleyball with getting screamed at and feeling extremely upset and frustrated if he messed up even a little bit. 

Also yes, I understand that messing something up during a game can cause a bit of frustration, but please consider that a lot of the time during middle school, Kindaichi got yelled at even when he scored points. 

Examples of when Kindaichi shows signs of this: 

There are three specific scenes where Kindaichi shows subtle signs of classical conditioning, but they tend to get pushed aside as him respecting his upperclassmen tremendously. But this makes sense, considering that these signs are, again, very subtle, and definitely won't stand out unless you're looking for them. (or I just overanalyze everything that has to do with Kindaichi-)

The first scene happens on episode 19 of season 1, right before the first match between Aoba Johsai and Karasuno. During spiking drills, Oikawa says something along the lines of, "sorry, Kindaichi. That one was a bit high." 

The normal response to this would be very casual or laid back. But Kindaichi rapidly replies with, "yes! I mean-! No!" 

A lot of people seem to take this scene as Kindaichi being awkward. But it almost seems as if he's trying to say, "no! That wasn't your fault!" because he'd gotten so used to thinking everything was his own fault. 

The approximate timestamp for this particular scene is Season 1 episode 19- 14:20 

The second scene is very similar to the first. It's on the 22nd episode of season 2, where Kindaichi doesn't react to one of Karasuno's spikes in time, and Iwaizumi comments on how stiff he is. Similarly to how he responded to Oikawa, Kindaichi's reply is, "yes! No!" 

Again, this seems to be brushed off as Kindaichi being awkward with his upperclassmen, but it's shown that Kindaichi seems to be quite comfortable around them, and only reacts like this when someone corrects him on something. This shows that he isn't used to being corrected in a civil way, and doesn't seem to know how to respond to it. 

The approximate timestamp for this is Season 2 episode 22- 16:33

Another thing to consider is that directly after this(during the same episode and timestamp), Kindaichi seems to take a lot of responsibility for the entire team, putting a lot of the blame on himself. This, again, suggests that he believes everything is his responsibility due to the events in middle school. 

The last scene is the one that stands out the most to me. It's during the 23rd episode of season 2, in a flashback. During this flashback, we see Kindaichi missing one of Oikawa's tosses during practice. Then we see Kindaichi remember that Oikawa tells him he can ask for adjustments, and essentially has to remind himself that Oikawa will help him before actually expressing concern to Oikawa. This shows that Kindaichi wasn't used to getting treated properly, or getting support, when he wasn't able to hit a ball. 

The approximate timestamp for this scene is Season 2 episode 23- 19:12

If we look at these scenes, we can come to the conclusion that, not only did he associate making a mistake with getting shouted at and feeling horrible about himself, but he was also conditioned to think that his setter wouldn't be there for him when he needed it. This can explain a lot of Kindaichi's resentment towards Kageyama, and why he acted so crudely. 

Obstacles

Psychological obstacles are pretty much exactly what they sound like. They're hurdles that get in the way of socialization and mental growth. With Kindaichi, two specific psychological obstacles stand out to me. Confirmation Bias and Overconfidence. 

Confirmation Bias:

Confirmation bias is an obstacle where people will only acknowledge information that align with their personal beliefs and ignore information, no matter how reliable, that goes against them. 

Overconfidence: 

Overconfidence is when, as the name suggests, someone is too confident in their beliefs or judgements. These judgments are not as accurate as they may seem. 

Examples: 

Kindaichi shows a lot of signs of confirmation bias during Karasuno's practice match with Aoba Johsai. These can be seen throughout episodes 6 and 7 of season 1. 

The most obvious time we see Kindaichi struggling with this obstacle is when he refuses to acknowledge that Kageyama has gotten better after Kageyama attempts to talk to him. 

Another example of this is when Kindaichi first confronts Hinata. He talks about how horrible Kageyama was as a setter, and while that was true for Kindaichi, it wasn't the same for Hinata, or for Karasuno in general. It seems to be a mix of both confirmation bias and overconfidence here, as he ignores the fact that Hinata says that Kageyama's skills were good, while also making judgements that were more severe than reality. 

This shows that, while Kageyama did greatly impact him, Kindaichi had a hard time with psychological obstacles. They messed with his judgement and accuracy and ended up slowing down his mental healing in the process. 

Timestamps: Season 1, episode 6- 5:50

                      Season 1, episode 7- 10:12

Overview

After taking the time to analyze Kindaichi's character, we can see that he's more than the "angry guy who hates Kageyama." We can clearly see that he was conditioned to associate making a mistake with being treated unfairly and feeling crappy, and that he wasn't used to being treated in a civil way. Kindaichi also appears to deal with psychological obstacles, which slow down the healing needed to let go of middle school. This also suggests that Kindaichi thinks with more emotion and let's that guide his decisions. He's a very complex, relatable character and should be viewed as such.

[far-off-flower-fields]

0: 5'1"

1: Basically 27

2: UK4.5-5 US6.5-7

3: No

4: Sometimes

5: Sometimes

6: 18-ish

7: Yes 3

8: I need both arms done, and yes I do mean need, I don't think people will stop being assholes about scars that are obviously SH any time soon and having to be covered any time I leave my room or my partner's room, or any time someone comes in causes me sensory issues from heat and thing constantly touching my elbow-pit.

9: Yes 9

10: Yes probably more in my lobes next

11: My partner, or our cats don't have a proper best friend who is purely my best friend

12: Engaged

13: I mean I have to actually know and trust you even then I dunno anything specific, unless the question is what do you think is attractive, as in an aesthetic judgement which is a totally different question

14: Lots of things, anything on my DNI is a good start, again if I don't know you or trust you it's not relevant

15: Probably Matilda

16: You're nice to me for a start, but also if you believe in human, and animal rights, and caring for the environment and we share a couple interests. Also if you can be patient with me because I'm very skittish to begin with and will literally be scared to message you first because I'm annoying. Talking about platonic and non-platonic relationships with this.

17: Right now I miss my cat because I'm at my partner's place and she can't come with me

18: just based on how long it lasted and how consistent it was, the bullying, I still have nightmares about that shit

19: I don't do well in social settings, but a good conversation with just one or two people actually makes me feel better sometimes, they're just very hard for me to come across

20: Lack of impulse control definitely messed my life up the most, also I somehow both annoy and bore people.

21: I try my best to be kind? I dunno I don't really have anything

22: I have nothing in mind, I'm guessing this means career-wise, but I can't think of anything that won't make me sick, maybe something I wind uo doing as a hobby will just wind uo taking off or something?

23: I'm the oldest, we're too different to get along they're a centrist who is gradually leaning further right now that they have a career. They were the child who got the most attention, and bullied mecmy whole life. They're really not a good person.

24: Shitty, emotional neglect and I never met any of their expectations considering my grades in school were decent without too much effort besides turning things in on time. Also they're not good people.

25: Some sort of activity and nice food.

26: Outside of obvious things like the things on my DNI which involve people being crappy people. People who smoke downwind or blow it straight out right onto you, the sound of polystyrene rubbing together, knives on plates, people who intentionally trigger your fears for a "joke", "joke insults"

27: i mean I can describe my Fiancé (also girl/boy isn't very inclusive just saying). He's about 6', brown hair short sides long on top, beard, glasses with rectanglish grey metal frames, plus size, blue eyes, gets dimples when he smiles.

28: I can't pick to be honest. Also dunno whether it has to be someone I know personally or if it could be anyone.

29: I thought I could fix my problem myself. I try to avoid lying though, I'm not good at it.

30: I never like being prescribed hours I have to wake and sleep because I have sleep problems, I don't like spending time with people I don't like or know for that many hours, I don't like the system it serves, I can't interact with strangers without panicking, I hate that people feel they csn just say and do what they want with regards to you, I'm not great with authority figures or situations you aren't really allowed to leave, I hate how many things you have no say over and how people manage to mess with the things you should have say over, I don't do well leaving the house alone. I hate the pressure to meet standards that aren't designed to be accessible. I hate that your value is often determined by what your job is, I hate that your ability to live is essentially held over your head. Nothing at all is designed to be accessible so prepare for sensory issues and migraines, many workplaces are straight up dangerous and you can't even pee when you need to. People feel responsible for keeping you "in your place" and telling you what to do, but don't feel responsible if they make you upset. There are social rules which aren't explained and are hard to follow. People are different at work than out of it so it's hard to actually know anyone. "don't forget you're here forever" is how it actually feels. Minimum wage isn't enough to live on and that's what most people get. Straight up favouritism is common in most workplaces, and nepotism.

31: Received from my partner...

32: Being called slurs, or hearing people use them jokingly. Being called boring, or annoying. Being told to shut up. Hate the word panties yuck.

33: I think I would like (in no particular order) clever, fun, kind, sweet, thoughtful, creative, good, good at the things I want to be good at, because those are things I try for. Also I know I like compliments about my taste in things like music or hobbies.

34: Most things! I think my only preference is not blonde hair but even then there are exceptions. I also tend to prefer longer hair. Most of my preferences are personality related and that involves being a good person basically, the best they can be.

35: Basically the same as I like in women. Super "macho" men also absolutely don't do it for me though.

36: Somewhere that I literally don't think exists. Good free healthcare, free education, libraries, guaranteed basic income, access to all basic needs covered, no import fees, not a police state, ethical alternative to amazon, cares for tyeir environment, access to plenty of toy and hobby shops, no immediate neighbours, laws protecting the ability to keep emotional support animals, free animal care (vet, food etc). Land belongs to who it's actually supposed to and the museum isn't full of stolen stuff. Human rights. Obviously you'd pay tax, but it would go to the right things, not building new sports fields no one asked for and most people voted against, the police, the military, and weapons like it does in most places, and taxation would be according to income. A country is supposed to serve its citizens. As things stand right now there's nowhere I want to live except I want to live rurally, but I'll probably not get that.

37: I don't like my teeth/smile.

38: in no particular order, singer/songwriter, author, artist, beautician, early childhood teacher, fashion designer.

39: I like most of Ben & Jerry's vegan line-up, except the banana one. I'm not a huge fan of choc chips. I loved hokey pokey last time I had it. Most things with caramel.

40: I am interpreting this to be trait/lifestyle, not like a specific person because I don't want to be someone who already exists because I don't want their problems. I wish I was skilled at many things, more patient, less impulsive. I would like to not have my mental health shit, orto be able to handle it. I want to be likeable and kind. I'd still be vegan and keep a lot of my interests and preferences. I'd like to have enough money to be able to eat well have my own place and enjoy my hobbies with extra to help others because I'm sick of watching people with money use it wrong. I want a friend. I want to be able to care for more animals. I want to really enjoy things. I want to speak several languages, and use them. I'd like to be fit and in better physical shape, and have a routine that includes yoga and other things I enjoy and the space to do those things. I'd like to have surroundings that make me feel happy and inspired. I'd like to have all of my scars tattood over so I can comfortably wear what I want and stop having sensory issues caused by not being able to especially when it's warm. I'd like to do something I enjoy and care about to earn my living. I'd like to be able to actually marry my Fiancé without it ruining me financially. I'd like distance from my parents and brother. I basically want the things lots of other people already have.

41: If there weren't a pandemic I'd love to be exploring the biggest Mandarake in Japan, looking at my favourite things with a pocket full of cash, in the middle of a dsy of thrifting and exploring shops relevant to my interests.

42: The new vegan cookies from subway. That was last night but I have nothing I can eat until dinner because I don't get paid until late tomorrow night.

43: I don't tend to describe people as sexy unless I know it'll specifically make them feel happy? Last person I called sexy was my partner. I prefer words that are less loaded with sexual connotations. I think the famous person I always found the most beautiful was Amy Lee.

nosy anons let's go

0: Height

1: Age

2: Shoe size

3: Do you smoke?

4: Do you drink?

5: Do you take drugs?

6: Age you get mistaken for

7: Have tattoos?

8: Want any tattoos?

9: Got any piercings?

10: Want any piercings?

11: Best friend?

12: Relationship status

13: Biggest turn ons

14: Biggest turn offs

15: Favorite movie

16: I’ll love you if…

17: Someone you miss

18: Most traumatic experience

19: A fact about your personality

20: What I hate most about myself

21: What I love most about myself

22: What I want to be when I get older

23: My relationship with my sibling(s)

24: My relationship with my parent(s)

25: My idea of a perfect date

26: My biggest pet peeves

27: A description of the girl/boy I like

28: A description of the person I dislike the most

29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend

30: What I hate the most about work/school

31: What my last text message says

32: What words upset me the most

33: What words make me feel the best about myself

34: What I find attractive in women

35: What I find attractive in men

36: Where I would like to live

37: One of my insecurities

38: My childhood career choice

39: My favorite ice cream flavor

40: Who I wish I could be

41: Where I want to be right now

42: The last thing I ate

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

44: A random fact about anything