#i feel like my writing has been . pretty poopy lately

[sharkpupsblog]

😨 Lost Horse! 🐎 PART 10. Before the storm.

Sabine x GN! Reader fanfic!

Hi!!! Silly part out today!!!! I have made so many parts for this… i am having so much fun writing but I really have got to put some restrictions on myself 😭💔 anyways Nothing else to say today so! Enjoy!!! :D

Summary: you and Sabine go on a date while on your date you open up to her.

Warnings: foul language.

“When I was a kid my dad told me this trail was haunted” you rode side by side with Sabine. The girl looked to you “haunted?” You nod giving her a smile “he said he always saw weird things on the Firgrove trail.” You narrowed your eyes “he said he saw…” You lower your voice to a whisper “aliens!” You whisper yell. Sabine rolls her eyes at you “and you believe him?” You shook your head “not anymore” Sabine takes notice of your words “not anymore?”

She repeats, and you nod “I was six when he told me” you continue riding down the trail. “I was too young to think my dad would lie so I was terrified of this trail” you look around the trail. “Maybe he wasn’t lying” you continue looking around. Sabine wonders what it is you are looking for. “I mean if Garnok and Aideen exist what says my dad didn’t actually see some aliens on the trail?” Your mare neighs, she lowers her head to the ground to take a bite of some grass.

“I haven’t seen any aliens” Sabine looks up at the sky. The sun shines bright above you both. It’s a nice sunny day. Perfect for a trail ride date. “So your dad-“ she looks back down at you “is a liar.” Now it’s your turn to roll your eyes at her. “Are you saying that because you seriously don’t believe or because you hate my dad?” The girl smiles she tells you it’s a “mix of both.” Any hopes of introducing the two washes away from you. It’s definitely best not to introduce them.

You fear they will kill each other, or maybe your dad will have Anne do it for him. Yeah, your dad would most likely have Anne do it for him. “Even if I liked your dad, I seriously doubt I would believe he saw E.T out here” Sabine watches as you dismount, and you walk over to a tree. At the roots of the tree some moss is growing. The Firgrove trail was where you got some of your supplies for Farah. The trail not only served as the perfect date spot but also a great gathering place. You grab a handful of moss, and you take a little Ziplock baggie out of your pocket.

The moss is carefully stuffed into the baggie. While you put the moss up your mare grazes. Khaan is still walking, but he comes to a stop when he reaches where your mare is. The Friesian joins your horse in grazing. “Can’t wait to see the look on your face when a cool spaceship comes flying by” you walk over to your mare. You put the Ziplock baggie full of moss in your saddlebag. You grab another empty baggie. It goes into your pocket for later.

“What kind of plants are you looking for?” Sabine dismounts to allow Khaan to graze. You smile when she walks over to you. “In this area there is moss and rubia” you hold out your hand, and Sabine takes it. No more riding from here on its walking. You walk, and Sabine walks with you. Behind you both your horses slowly follow you. They graze as they follow. Sabine helps you look for moss. She only helps with moss because she has no idea what rubia looks like.

While you walk, and look for moss and rubia you also talk. You tell Sabine that you learned how to play a new song on her guitar. It’s an easy one to play for a beginner like you. You also thank her again for giving you the guitar. The girl handed it over to you because she knew you would use it. She really didn’t want to have the guitar sit in her closet anymore. It felt like a huge waste of money to not use it.

The guitar was in good hands now. Hands that would definitely play it and not stuff it in a closet. “Did you talk to Katja yet?” You stop your plant searching, so you can look at Sabine. “She said she sent you a message about plants in Wildwoods” Sabine would take you herself but after what happened with the druid stone, she wanted nothing to do with Wildwoods.

You knew why she didn’t want to go back there. She told you her reason why a while ago. She told you when you mentioned the plants located there. You wanted to go but you did not know the area, so you asked Sabine to come along. The girl told you she couldn’t. The explosion of the stone left her and Khaan terrified to go back. What was supposed to be just another normal mission turned into the mission. The stone’s explosion left more than physical scars.

You understood her fear perfectly. “I did and she told me to meet her there Friday” Sabine couldn’t take you, but her friends/co-workers could. You met Katja first. You met her because she bumped into you and Sabine in Hollow Woods. The witch was headed home to the valley, and you accidentally bumped into her. Katja wanted you dead she really did, but she realized you could be used for info. The woman tried her best at getting info. For one full week she tried to get you to spill as much as she could. You had absolutely nothing important on you.

It was clear you were just Avalon’s kid. Not a future druid or a Soul Rider just a druid’s kid. The next week the witch decided was going to kill you with an ice storm when you were riding home alone. She thought it was best for Sabine to have no distractions. You ended up finding her before she could get a proper storm going. She had her violin with her, that’s how you found her. You told her she played beautifully, and it was enough to flatter the witch into not killing you. She would say it was pity for you that made her change her mind.

“Jay said she’s going too since she has more knowledge on plants than I do” you met Jay when Sabine introduced you both. Sabine introduced you to her in hopes of Jay being able to help you with your plant search. She also did it so Jay wouldn’t pull the shit Katja did. At first the girl didn’t really care for you. She started caring after you gifted her a book. Sabine told you that Jay liked books. You wanted to make a good impression, so you gifted her a book.

The girl appreciated the book and her no care mindset changed towards you. You were on good terms with all the Dark Rider’s. You were now not only hiding one criminal from your dad but three. You were hiding three criminals from the druid’s most wanted list. If your dad ever found out, you were surely going to get in huge trouble. You were fine though. All your meetings were secret and in places your dad would never go to. He would never find out. Hiding this secret made you feel really guilty, so a part of you wanted him to find out.

Maybe you could get him to like your new friends and your girlfriend. You were getting tired of hiding this big of a secret. It was too much for you. Due to your heavy thinking you went quiet. Sabine noticed it, she gave your hand a squeeze directing your attention to her. “Everything okay?” Sabine’s look held pure worry for you. You looked to her giving her hand a squeeze back. “I’m fine” you gave her a sad smile “I just-.” Before you could tell her what was bothering you, you were interrupted.

Your mare neighed behind you, and Khaan whinnied. You looked to the horses seeing Khaan trying to nip at your mare. The Lipizzaner backed away from the Friesian trying to get him to leave her alone. Sabine redirected you again, she wanted you to speak about what was bothering you. The horses were playing they would be fine. She was focused on you and you only at the moment “You what?” You looked back at her. You were glad that she kept catching your attention. You wanted to talk to someone about what bothered you.

You needed to talk to someone before guilt ate you up. “I feel really guilty about keeping you a secret from my dad” you let go of Sabine’s hand. You backed up needing a little more space to talk. She understood she stayed where she was. She listened as you talked about what bothered you. “Lying about Khaan hurt and lying about you hurts more because this lie is much bigger than the one about Khaan” you hugged yourself. “You’re my girlfriend” you took a shaky breath in “I want him to know what you mean to me but-.” You looked up at Sabine.

The girl frowned when you looked up at her. “I fear that if I tell him about you, I’ll be putting you in danger” you did not want your dad to hurt your girlfriend. Sabine sighed she bit her lip. The girl was thinking about what to say to you. She thought maybe meeting with Avalon might make you feel better, but she saw no safe way to do it. She also thought that maybe telling your dad about her without meeting might help, but she didn’t want to get you in trouble.

There was no way to tell your dad about her without some kind of trouble. You knew this too. You had reached that conclusion many times. Whenever you thought you had come up with a way to fix your problem it always ended with someone hurt or with you in trouble. “What do I do?” You put a hand up to your mouth when a sob escaped you. The horses neighed behind you, and they ran at the same time you sobbed. You hoped your girlfriend didn’t hear the sob, but she did.

Sabine quickly reacted upon hearing your sob “we will find a way to tell him.” She held her hand out it was an offer for comfort. You walked forward moving past her hand you went straight to her. You wanted a hug. She gave it to you. The girl held you close to her. “You won’t have to keep this secret forever” Sabine kissed the top of your head. She kept thinking of a way to meet with your dad. While she thought of a way you stayed in her arms.

You were doing your best not to cry. You did not want to cry and ruin the mood more than you already did. “Maybe you can-“ Sabine was interrupted by the sound of one single horse running back to you both. When you heard her cuss, you knew something was wrong. You quickly got out of her hold so you could see which horse was running back to you. It was your mare she let out a shrill neigh she bucked at the air. Where was Khaan?!

TY FOR READING! :D

[willel]

Tbh, it has always been kinda ridiculous for the characters to not try to break off Will's connection to the UD in a real way in S3 or previously, I wonder if the Duffers realize that though. The kid can feel the UD actions and he sensed that the MF has returned, but none of the characters actually think it about breaking Will's connection to that place to end Will's ever lasting trauma. They are just so casual about it and it has been bothering me for some time.

Even in S4, when Will reveals that he can feel Vecna and he is connected to him still and it has been him this whole time, Mike is deeply worried and scared too kinda but that is it? He does not say anything that much, he just says that they will kill Vecna. But no one really thinks that it is weird and dangerous for Will to have been connected to the UD and Vecna for years. Are they just gonna wait until Will is in a definite life threatening situation again? Because that makes the characters kinda look dumb if anything, no offence.

It definitely should have been a red flag for Mike when Will revealed that he can sense Henry, but no, there is no actual panic over that. Just saying that they will kill him. 😅 Ofc Will is going to be put in danger again bc of that connection, esp if he spies or tries to track Henry in some way. And Will is in his most vulnerable state now too emotionally and psychologically, so good luck i guess. They will have ti spend time on breaking Will's connection as a necessity this time. Lets hope it is not too late for that...

There was some discussion about this a while back and I don't remember the conclusion I came to but here is the conclusion I have now.

In this moment, Mike decided what happened and they never really questioned it again. Even the adults and teenagers.

Maybe it's a repeat of this moment in season one.

"Ah yes I see. These children know more than us. I believe them."

WHICH ISN'T BAD, they were pretty much right about everything happening in season 1 thanks to El's input.

This moment in season 2 doesn't make Mike wrong either! He was right, Will isn't having flashbacks. He's literally looking into the Upside Down. Maybe he's right, Will gained the ability to look into the Upside Down. I'm sure Mike explained this to Joyce when they were together. Then Hopper, then Jonathan, then everyone else during group discussions that certainly happened off screen to get everyone up to pace.

They investigated and pondered about him being possessed of course but I don't think Mike and the rest of the gang REALLY thought about it deeper than that. At this point, they just all accepted "Will gained powers while he was in the Upside Down."

From season 3 onward, they haven't questioned his connection to the Mind Flayer SPECIFICALLY. That is totally separate from True Sight and they never acknowledge it. Joyce is probably completely unaware of it actually, Will hasn't told her a thing I'm sure.

The party showed no concern about it in season 3. They didn't even find Will suspicious after they discovered the Mind Flayer was possessing people again. JONATHAN DIDN'T REACT TO WILL HAVING A PANIC ATTACK IN THE MALL LIKE?????? (that's some poopy writing right there. That part specifically)

Now in season 4, Mike doesn't question it whatsoever. He looks scared. Confused. Then concerned. No urgency to tell anyone. Doesn't ask Will more questions about it. Just a shoulder pat, "Don't worry, we'll kill him :D" (Will doesn't look convinced in my opinion, lol)

They investigated and pondered about him being possessed of course. But they never went beyond that for some reason.

But Will? I think Will HAS wondered about it and he's kept his mouth shut. I would like to crack open his brain and see inside.

Either way.... I do think all this is leading to the team being caught off guard (again) and will screw them over for a good part of the season for sure.

If these theories are true, than the people who have been paying attention such as us will be slapping our foreheads like "WHY DIDN'T YOU NOTICE SOONER CHARACTERS?! YEESH"

But.... I've seen the kinds of things the general audience thinks about and posts about. I've watched countless ST theory videos and discussions. This is NOT on their radar at all.

[heliarae]

Happy 2021 everyone! It’s 11:37MST  as I’m writing this, but I know quite a few of you I’m about to mention here are already in the new year. I wasn’t going to do a wrap up, but everyone’s wrap ups just made me so sentimental, coupling with the year this has been, I figure I might as well write my own. As everyone has already mentioned, 2020 has been one wicked ride, and while we’re all inclined to look at the totally awful things that have happened this year, please take a moment to reflect on the things you’re grateful for, on the lessons you’ve learned, on the skills you’ve honed, on the friends you’ve made, on the growth you have encountered and the troubles you’ve overcome.  It will be very liberating to let go, but please bring these things with you into the future. We are all stronger than we were before, and I think that’s something to celebrate despite everything. 

I just want to thank everyone who has followed me since I established this blog in February of this year; little did I know I’d be thrown so far into it. You all are amazing people who give me great support and encouragement, but there’s many of you who are my mutuals (although you may not know it! since this is not my main blog) who really have lit up my 2020 in a special way. There are some of you I have grown to be close with, and a few of you that I hope to get to know more in the coming year! 

If your handle has a ⋆ next to it, I’ve included a probably sappy message about how much I love you after all has been said and done. If there is a ♡ next to your handle, we’re not mutuals but I admire your work so much. So without further ado, these are the people who have made my 2020 a little bit brighter:

#-h

@3tbz​ ♡ // @anyhao​ // @babysejun​ // @baejoonyoung​ ♡ // @cchanhees​ ♡ // @chaeunwoo​ ♡ // @chanheeh​ // @chawoongs​ // @creker​ ♡ // @crekeranti​ ♡ // @djxiao​ ♡ // @ericz​ // @forjh​ // @haknew​ // @hanbinist​ // @heartsjoy​ // @heoneyology​ ⋆ // @hwqll​ ⋆ // @hyeopz​ ♡

j-l

@jaemtens​ ♡ // @jaeyounqz​ // @jjyubi​ ♡ // @jnugsubin​ // @joonyoungs​ ⋆ // @jsuh​ ♡ // @juyexniez​ // @kevcob​ ♡ // @kpophours​ ⋆ // @leehajoon​ // @leeseungjuns​ ⋆ // @leeshyunjaes​ ♡ // @lhyunjaes​ (@/realstraykids, @/hwiyyoung) ♡ // @likealwaysmp3​ // @lkeonhee​ ♡ // @lovcobie​

m-z

@minhos​ ♡ // @monunivers​ ⋆ // @neomark99​ // @praydastle​  // @prince-dongju​    // @puppyseunghun​ // @runawayera​ // @saltys​ ♡ // @seungs​ ♡ // @seungssik​ // @shuhuas​ ♡ // @soppasofi​ ⋆ // @stealerz​ ⋆ // @su-beanie​ // @subinis​ ⋆ // @sunlightwoo​ // @taeks​ // @taeyongleee​ ⋆ // @youngjo​​

⋆ Rainah;; We’ve been talking for just over a year at this point, but I consider you one of my closest friends. You’ve always been super supportive, and although you are incredibly stubborn at times, I actually am quite fond of that about you lmao. You always hype my creativity and let me vent to you about it when things are being difficult. You’re really just all around an amazing person and I’m so thankful to have met you because you made me 2020 pretty dang special when it was turning out to be pretty dang poopy. Thank you for being you! 

⋆ Han;; Your bubbly personality always makes me smile whenever we interact and you’re honestly one of the sweetest people I’ve ever met. Although we became mutuals in late 2020, I hope that in 2021 we will interact more when I stop being incredibly shy. I hope to become friends with you in the new year!  

⋆ Dani;; Although we’ve been mutuals for a little longer, I’m slowly becoming less and less intimidated by you. You’re honestly so sweet and lovely; yet another person I want to get to know better in 2021 because you really have made my 2020 that much better. You are super friendly and open and I hope that 2021 will give me the courage to be more talkative with you!  

⋆ Anna;; Another one of the sweetest people I’ve ever met. One of the few people who consistently reached out to me to ask me how I was doing as a person, and let me just say, I think for a lot of us that means so much more than any kudos of our work. You really made an effort to see me as a human, and you’re so sweet and friendly. I’m very glad to have met you, and I hope we can become closer in 2021. 

⋆ Shelby;; My best friend in the whole universe. 2020 took us on a great ride in January and all was well, but it has kept us apart for too long at this point. You are the most wonderful person I’ve ever met; the most supportive, encouraging, compassionate, wonderful sunshine of my life. Although it’s been many years since we first began speaking, I feel every year we grow closer! I hope that 2021 will grant more opportunities for Shelea time because 2020 totally jipped us!  You’re the best.

⋆ Bom;; We haven’t been mutuals for very long and we’re both so multi I honestly do not know which fandom I associate meeting you with (but I think it was verivery?) Anyway you are so super sweet and supportive and although, again, we’ve only interacted a few times (are we seeing a theme here? It’s me who is shy) I want to get to know you more in the coming year! Thank you for always supporting my things and overall just being a wonderful human being. 

⋆ Sofi;; one of my mutuals I’ve gotten closer with this year! We still don’t interact much, but you are such a ray of sunshine and one of the sweetest people I know; you deserve the best. Thank you for always hyping up my creations and being there to vent about anything and everything. I still hope we’ll talk more this coming year and become even closer friends! 

⋆ Qiu;; Again, again, again, someone I wish to talk to more in the coming year. We’ve interacted a very limited number of times but I can tell you’re the type of person I want to be closer with. You are sweet and considerate. Here’s to interacting more with you in the coming year! 

⋆ Paula;; One of the sweetest and most supportive people (I like these types of people as you can tell). You are always willing to gas everyone up about their creations, and I just think that’s wonderful, because we all need some great encouragement in our lives. I’m always jealous of your super perfect and beautiful coloring, but I know what you’ll say in response to that. Let’s talk more in 2021! 

Everyone have a safe, wonderful, productive, inspiring, and liberating 2021! ♡

[dc41896]

Up All Night (Sequel to Due Date)

Pairing: Kenny CrosbyxBlack Reader

⚠️: Slight angst, fluff

“I know Bubs you’re hungry, but mama had to go to the bathroom.”

Lightly bouncing the crying one week old on his shoulder, he does his best to hum her favorite nursery rhyme as he walks around her room, but only to be met with more tears and wails.

“Only a week old and already criticizing my singing huh?,” he chuckles to himself as you return to the nursery.

“Hi baby! I know you’re hangry I’m sorry,” you smile, Kenny gently placing her in your arms after you were comfortably sat in the grey plush rocking chair.

Like clockwork, as soon as she felt your chest she knew what would be coming next and immediately calmed down. Although you should be used to it, you couldn’t help but laugh to yourself watching her immediately settle down, and feel a sense of pride that you not only carried such a beautiful being but was also her source for a multitude of things.

“Welp that’s something else she’s got in common with you,” Kenny laughs squatting down beside you, playing with his daughter’s feet.

“Excuse me? Don’t pretend like you don’t get dramatic when you’re hungry too. Need I remind you of push not pull?”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“Woww so you’re just gonna lie in front of your daughter like that? Can you believe him love?,” you jokingly gasp making him laugh.

“Speaking of food, you hungry? Because I’m not gonna lie I’m starving.”

“Yea I’m a little hungry,” you softly laugh. “After I put her down I’ll come help.”

“It’s ok I got it, you relax,” he smiles, standing up to kiss your temple before exiting the room.

Ever since you first found out you were pregnant, Kenny made sure you didn’t want for anything. You needed something off the top shelf? He didn’t even wait for you to ask before reaching up and grabbing it for you.

You had an incredible craving at 11 o’clock at night? He didn’t groan or complain, but grabbed his keys, or helped you in the car so you could get whatever you wanted.

However, that wasn’t really different from how he treated you before a baby was even thought of. Whatever he could do for you, he would no matter the time of day.

That’s if he didn’t have work that is.

But even still, there were times when he asked what you ate that day, and if you said “nothing” or that you hadn’t had time yet, after he got off he’d be at your front door holding a bag of takeout.

“Daddy’s really been taking care of us huh Bubs?,” you whisper, lightly grazing her tiny arm as she sleeps.

Momentarily interrupting your quiet state, you hear a knock at the door followed by familiar voices instantly making you smile.

“Ohh looks like you have a few guests,” you smile, fixing yourself up the best you could before joining the small get together in your living room.

———

“Aww look how gorgeous she is!,” Sheryll quietly gushes as she hugs you. “And mama also is still as beautiful as ever.”

“Thank you! I definitely don’t feel it though,” you softly laugh, carefully sitting on the couch to not wake the baby.

“What’s her name?,” Tali asks, peering over the arm of the chair to get a better look at the small bundle.

“Oh yea did you guys find a name? When Crosby sent us the picture in the hospital he said you guys were still deciding,” LaCroix adds.

“We did, and would like to introduce you guys to Peyton Rose Crosby,” Kenny smiles placing an arm around your shoulders as he sits next to you on the couch.

“That’s such a pretty name guys. I’m surprised big guy helped think of it,” Hana smirks making you giggle and Kenny roll his eyes.

“Well when we first talked about kids Kenny always said he liked the name Peyton. Then when we finally saw her for whatever reason Rose kept popping in my head and the rest is history,” you smile looking down at your daughter slightly stir in her sleep.

“How are you guys adjusting to parent life?,” Clinton asks from his seat next to LaCroix.

“It’s going,” Kenny chuckles. “I’m sure you guys can see how tired we are from the bags under our eyes.”

“Yea it’s gonna take some getting used to, but you guys will get the hang of it. Plus at least it’s bags from being with your family versus having to work late,” LaCroix responds as everyone lets out a light chuckles in agreement.

You don’t know why, but at the mention of him going back to work you felt a sense of worry flash through you.

Not that you weren’t concerned for his safety every time he left, but looking down at your daughter, now awake with brown eyes concentrated on you, you guessed you were now worried for her too. You wanted her father to be in her life to watch her grow up, be there to walk her down the aisle, and see her have kids of her own.

Trying not to get lost in your thoughts, you focus back on your friends as they gushed over Peyton more now that she was alert and making noises. Letting Kenny pass her around so everyone could have a turn holding her, you smile to yourself hoping that good times, like this, would never end.

———

After a while longer of conversations and laughs, the team had to leave before it got too late. Not before offering their help with anything you guys might need of course.

Both of you sitting on your bed, Kenny talks with Peyton while playing with her hands as she lies on his thighs. Looking up at him with deep brown eyes, it was as if she understood everything he was saying.

“Babe she’s already so smart! She’s gonna end up being a scientist or something I know it,” he smiles, kissing her cheek before turning to look at you. Quickly trying to wipe the running tear from your face, you give him a soft smile hoping he doesn’t notice.

“Hey what’s wrong? Talk to me.”

“It’s dumb really, I’m probably just being overly emotional,” you reply with a sniffle.

“Still, tell me how you’re feeling.”

“It’s just hearing you guys talk about work started making me worry. I know what you do is dangerous and of course I already worry everytime you leave, but now that Peyton’s here it’s like I felt it more if that makes sense.”

Pausing, you feel more tears well in your eyes as you look at your boyfriend’s soft yet concerned expression. “I just don’t want her to grow up without her dad and I don’t want to lose you either.”

Carefully lifting your daughter so she would be lying on his chest, he pulls you closer to him with his free arm so you could rest on his shoulder. Your tears dripping down to his light blue shirt as he lightly grazes up and down your back.

“Babe I wish I could promise you I’d come back every night, but we both know I can’t. I know that doesn’t help with your worries but just know I try to be careful every time I leave so I can get back here with you and you too,” he answers kissing your head and Peyton’s respectively. “Plus what if I told you that I worry about you guys too?”

“You do?”

“Yea, with some of the cases we have, I always think about you at the clinic or even times you’d just be out with Bubs and how anything could happen. I just try to remind myself in that moment you’re more than likely safe or, if I can, I’ll call or text and sure enough, you are safe and I calm down.”

“Plus I’m sure that’s why you’re with FBI. To make sure everyone, including us, is safe,” you smile lightly rubbing your fingers across her slick hair.

“Exactly.”

Feeling your worries fade away, you knew the only thing you could do was stay positive that everything would be okay. And remembering the amazing people he worked with, you knew deep down he was being well looked after.

“Thank you,” you smile as you sit up to kiss his lips.

“I feel like all I did was listen, but you’re welcome,” he chuckles.

“Still you’re always there to listen or help me through whatever, and I thank you for that.”

“Well when you love someone, you do whatever you can to make sure they’re good,” Kenny replies kissing you again.

Breaking the silence between you, small noises escape Peyton’s mouth as she begins one of her all too familiar cries.

“Daddy, someone needs a diaper change, and from the smell I’m getting it’s a big one.”

“See how mommy always gives me the poopy diapers Bubs?”

“I do not! You’re holding her so you might as well,” you giggle.

“Mhmm sure,” he responds getting up to clean the fussy infant.

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[baconpal]

Bravely Default and BD2

Here it is, the partially prompted bravely default rant/retrospective/whatever the fuck!

With the announcement and demo of bravely default 2 out now for a bigger market than the original game ever had, I feel that as a massive fan of the original I should put some amount of effort into explaining what the appeal of the original is, why bravely second missed a lot of the appeal, and why bravely default 2 has been very, very worrying so far.

If you care about any of that, come on in and I'll try to actually avoid spoilers this time and make this a more legitimate recommendation of a game than usual.

THE APPEAL OF BRAVELY DEFAULT The games obviously have a beautiful art style, especially when it comes to the backgrounds. Every city is like a painting, a beautifully composed shot that you see from just one direction to give you one very strong impression. While the overworld and dungeons are fully 3d and do not have as strong of an artistic impact, they are still very competent and have good colors and cohesive elements. The character design, including the job outfits, the monsters, and all the villains are just top notch. Simple, evocative designs that make the most of the 3DS' limited hardware and build upon the teams skill in making handheld games look good. (its the same team that did the ff3 remake and 4 heroes of light, which looks absolutely kino on original DS) The music is also consistently excellent, with great use of motifing, a full and varied orchestra, and many good slow paced tracks for most of the non-combat segments. Shit like "Conflict's Chime" being the main battle theme, "Infiltrating Hostile Territory" being a common dungeon theme, and "That person's name is" as the rival boss themes makes even the seemingly repetitive songs a constant joy to listen to.

The story is pretty decent, it's not the best part of the game, and there are definitely some aspects of the story some people loathe, but the characters (specifically ringabel fuckin love him) are pretty good and the make for an enjoyable experience. The side material like D's journal are really well done and integrate into the main narrative well for how tucked away and ignored it is.

The gameplay and systems are also some of the best of any RPG I've played, and I've played far too many. The job system from ff3 and 5 is brought to an even greater depth with the addition of universal job abilities, allowing any character of any job make use of another jobs features to create an endless depth to strategy. The way various jobs can mingle together, and how no job is completely perfect on its own makes for very compelling team composition and unit design. The extensive amount of jobs helps as well for replay value and for assuring that no easy winning strategy is found by all players.

The BP system makes battles take on a very unique pacing as the player and enemies can choose to save up turns or blow them all at once to make more complicated strategies possible, or to make the most of an enemies vulnerabilities. This powerful option gives the player a meaningful way to capitalize on their knowledge of the game, while also allowing them to make truly detrimental mistakes. That may sound not good if you're a fucking baby, but nobody wants an RPG you cant lose, but losing because you fucked up is much better than losing because the enemies are just stronger than you or anything to that effect.

But the single greatest part of bravely defaults, which creates the games wonderful balance and unique design philosophy, is that the player is expected to hit the level cap long before finishing the game. Reaching level 99 should occur somewhere just after the middle of the game, at the point where the player has access to almost every job and has encountered almost every type of threat. Reaching level 99 brings with it a certain security, the implication that from then on, all enemies will also be level 99, and that any failure to defeat an enemy will be a result of a bad strategy or the players own mistakes. The game is not easy, and is certainly intended for veteran final fantasy players used to the games with job systems and changing up your entire party to combat a single encounter. Leveling up is not a slow grind part of the game, as you have a lot of control over the speed and frequency of battles, and it is not difficult to keep up with the games level curve.

The other layer to this unique design is that the game expects you to "cheat", or use strategies that would be overpowered and frowned upon in most other games. Bravely default easily expects you to know or discover strategies such as: applying a status to all enemies and killing every enemy with that status using another spell, cycling a counter move over and over to have a nearly invincible party member, applying a healing attribute to a self-damaging character to get huge damage at little cost, casting reflect and dangerous spells on your own party to bounce them at the enemy, or duplicating a move that does maximum damage 15 times in a row. The game builds all of its encounters with the knowledge that your team will be the maximum level and that you will be using the most vile tactics you can come up with, and the game will do the same. Bosses and even common enemies will employ equally vile tactics using the exact same moves that you have access to, meaning you can learn from your enemies or quickly grasp the enemies strategy through your own experiences. One of the late game dungeons is entirely optional, but involves several fights against parties of 4 just like your, using the same jobs and skills you have gained during the game as a perfect test of your ability to develop counter-strategies, instead of relying on your own overpowered tactics. This type of design is really not something you find in many games due to the prominence of grinding or the lack testing strategies, and it is the most true appeal of bravely default to me.

BRAVELY SECOND EXISTS I GUESS So bravely second, a direct sequel to bravely default, definitely is a video game. It uses the original game as a base to generate more content, but completely misses the appeal of the original, and the new content added makes the experience even less focused. Overall, it's still a fairly alright RPG, but it fails to follow up on bravely default in a meaningful way or to provide as compelling of a gameplay experience. Here's some of the things it fucked up.

The game reuses almost everything the original game had, including the same music, world map, and most of the original's towns and dungeons, while adding a few of it's own. Going through areas you've been before never feels good, and the new areas lack the quality or brevity of the original game, leading to uninteresting areas that overstay their welcome, despite being the only break from repetitively reused content.

This extends to the classes but in an even worse sense. One important trait of the original jobs is that they were not perfect by themselves. While every job provided some useful abilities to be shared with other classes, or provided a good base with which to make a character, no class was without flaws. The new classes in bravely second are a lot of the opposite, they are closed loops that think of everything they could have to make a good standalone character. The 4 starter classes you get in bravely second are all brand new, and there's almost no reason to use any class besides those 4 as they are just insanely good. The priest and magician specifically augment magic in a way that makes spells infinity scalable into the end game, completely trampling on any other magic classes territory without needing the extra effort of grinding a new class out. Many of the new job concepts are actually really interesting, like going back in time to return to a healthier state, or a class that changes the stats and attributes of all units in a battle, allowing for all new kinds of strategies; but these classes lack any opportunity to be used to their full potential since they don't mesh well with other jobs and are limited by their self-centered design.

Another completely missed aspect of the original is the level curve discussed before. Bravely second only really requires you get somewhere in the ballpark of level 60-70 to comfortably beat the final boss, and getting too leveled up is really hard to avoid if you are plan to try out various jobs.

Second also fails to account for how many incredibly strong strategies the player can come up with, and even introduces some of its own strategies that it has no way to counteract, such as halfsies (the first skill the first class gets) pretty much splitting the game in two by tripling the value of items like phoenix downs, and allowing for fool-proof strategies by making 1 character focus entirely on defense, effectively making the party unkillable. Essentially, if you play second after having played the original (like any sane person would) then you will absolutely destroy the game with no sense of satisfaction.

The story is also a large step down, enough to become an annoyance, as the writing style changes to a strange romantic comedy situation with, for lack of a better term please forgive my sin, anime writing, but like bad anime writing, ya know the kind of shit that makes people write off all anime cus a lot of it is awkward and unpleasant to listen to. The story tries to mess with some big concepts like "what if new game + was a real thing???" and time travel and shit like that but it doesn't mesh with the tone the rest of the game has and that tone doesn't mesh with the world or art style and it's just a mess.

BRAVELY DEFAULT 2 SEEMS KINDA POOPIE SO FAR So unfortunately, the big appeal of bravely default being part of it's end game makes it hard to judge how 2 is gonna go given we only have a demo of the beginning, but given that the original team behind bravely default has slowly been stripped out of the series as it goes on, the outlook is bleek.

Most immediately obvious is that the artstyle has made a horrible transition from handheld to console, somehow even worse than pokemon. The areas are all fully 3d and lack the style or compositional excellence of bravely default, and the outside environment look like asset store products. The small proportioned characters with simple features to be readable on a small screen have been replaced with identically proportioned characters with excessive detail and ugly features, and look horrible up close on a big screen. Only the negatives of the art style have made it over, and everything good has been made unsavory. The character and enemy design overall is much worse as a result, everything is messy, unclear, and clashes with everything else. It's an absolutely shocking downgrade.

The characters themselves are overly hammy and feel like shallow attempts to have a similar party dynamic to the original without having identical character types, and the writing as a whole doesn't seem to have improved from second, which was already quite a step down from the original.

The gameplay also has not done anything different or interesting yet, and seems to be selling itself to people haven't heard of or gotten enough of the BP system. Enemies being on the overworld as opposed to random encounters shows they have dropped the player agency over encounter frequency, which is dumb. The battles lack any of the flow the original had, especially when using the battle speed option, as the camera does not present everything very well and changes position often as a result. Overall, I have not enjoyed the bravely default 2 demo and feel it shows nothing but a continued decline in the series that likely should have just been a single game. With the release date being set for sometime this year, I feel there is no chance any amount of player feedback could save the game or even begin to pull it in the right direction, as it seems to be fundamentally flawed with an inescapable feeling of shovelware.

SO WHAT? Basically, all I wanted to say here is that the original bravely default is a very unique experience I think every RPG fan should give a good chance (and just do all the optional stuff during the "repetitive" part of the game, it's where all the best content is you bozo) and that the sequels are NOT the same experience. I guess it's kind of mean to just say "hey don't buy or like this new thing cus its not like the old thing" but people should know why there's a bravely default 2 in the first place, and should fight for what made the original great. I worry that BD goes down the same sad path that FF did, becoming a completely hollow, middling series that strayed so far from it's home that a whole new series had to be made to give the fans of the old style a place to go.

Thanks for reading, and hope you got something out of it.

[staplegun77]

it’s like 6:13am and somehow i’m still up

i know i should be asleep by now but it’s not like i don’t WANT to be asleep it’s just idk been hard lately

in the meantime i’ve been thinking about myself and my “status” pretty much like those health bars in video games except instead of “health” just things like “self confidence” “strength” and “smarts”

and i’m sure you’re guessing those are all pretty low and u are absolutely right (almost)

ever since i was a kid i’ve had a foggy idea about life and just being alive in general (or so it felt like)

i would just have these moments where i’d just look at my arms and hands to think “this is me i control this finger in any way i want to its all in my command”

i always wondered if other people thought that same way but then it’s like “duh” i’m not the only one who doesn’t have a complete grasp on reality and life that’s literally what the human race has been trying to do ever since consciousness was developed but it’s still just so fascinating when you really get in that zone

if anything or anyone would like to let me know i’m not the only one (not that it’s a problem or anything) that’d be cool

my original reason why i decided to write this is because i was feeling pretty poopy for other reasons and i had this account laying around

but i actually feel better :) if you took the time to read this (even skim read) that’s awesome and thank you

[berserker-official]

So I’m making a list of things that I think ought to be changed in For Honor. This list does not include any changes to the heroes because that would require numbers and frame rates and such and I have neither the time nor patience right now. Remember these are my personal opinions, so don’t shit on me too hard. If you have a different opinion or your own idea, let me know!

Dedicated Servers

This is probably the most obvious one. Peer-to-peer networking is an awful idea. Players with bad internet connections will slow gameplay down for everyone, players can see each others IP addresses which is a big security risk, and without any sort of server to counter cheating, lag switches are pretty popular. Not to mention altogether it’s killing the player base.

Matchmaking

While I’m a pretty decent player, nothing feels more dreadful than me picking up a new hero and starting from scratch and you see the enemy team are all renown 5+ with 108 gear. I’ve also been on the other side, where I’m playing my renown 4 Lawbringer against level 1 heroes. Let’s not ruin new players trying to have fun learning the ropes.

Rewards

We’re two rounds into the season, so we can all see how rewards work. 3 boxes for the winner, 2 for second place, and 1 for last. This is probably the worst way to reward players I’ve ever seen. Sure, Ubi wants us to pay for steel to buy boxes, but giving us such a small number of boxes for two weeks of dropping assets down is very disappointing. If you want us to really fight, up the ante. Maybe even reward factions some steel for taking the most area each turn. If this disappointing reward system is for just rounds, I would hate to see what they give to season winners. This leads me to my next idea.

Better Faction War

This entire meta is pointless if each round comes down to the last turn. Instead, maybe a sort of tally-point system. Here’s an example: Each faction starts with 20 spots, so the round starts with 20/20/20. Then the first turn ends. Vikings take 3, knights take 3 but lose 1, and samurai lose 2 (I’m just spitballing here idk the exact number of spots wo win or lose). This means that it’s 23/22/18. The total score is 43/42/38. This would keep going until the round is over and the total scores for all factions would be tallied up, and whoever has the most points wins. To me, this seems mich easier, and a better incentive to use my assets to defend as well as attack.

Menu Changes

My only complaint here is that I want to see my orders as the match loads or even mid-match, so I don’t have to memorize what I have to do in between matches.

Colosseum Mode

I like Elimination, but I hate being ganked or watching the person I’m up against being ganked. Sure, I could just do Duel, but theres no EXP in there. Colosseum would be a 4v4 mode, but 3 of each team are in the bleachers while 1 from each team square up. When that round is over, the next two come up. It could be by process of elimination or best of, but I wouldn’t mind Lawbringer dabbing while my teammate can hash it out without fear of being interrupted.

Steel vs Scrap

I’m pretty sure I’m the only one out off all my friends that use scrap to level up my gear. It’s completely pointless to have otherwise. That being said, I don’t wanna use my steel to change the visual look of my gear while I’m trying to save up for that sweet execution. Let us use our scrap for our gear. Don’t let it just sit there collecting dust.

More Layers for Emblems

While I have seen some cool emblems (except for the billions of Uchiha ones, ugh) I think five slots might not be enough to really let creative emblems shine. Give us more layers so we can truly show who we are.

Recently Played With List

Overwatch has one of these. I wanna be able to report that offensive emblem or griefing without having to do it mid-match or at the end, and even then I might lose my chance because they might drop due to network issues or rage, or leave immediately after the match. It helps Ubi find the problem children and it helps me with having to mot do it before it’s too late.

Loadouts

LEMME RENAME MY LOADOUTS I KEEP FORGETTING IF I’M PLAYING MY REVENGE OR THROW LOADOUT THIS WOULD REALLY HELP

Game Modifiers

We can see them but can’t do anything with them unless it’s a custom match. Maybe I wanna play Elimination PVP with no gear modifiers. Just pure skill and no revenge builds.

Punishing Rage Quitters

I want this to happen and I’m sure it will but as I’m writing this I see a huge problem: would the game be able to tell the difference between rage quitting and poopy network quitting. If yes, go for it punish the salty babies. If no, fix the network because I don’t wanna get in trouble for no reason.

Emblem/Symbol Creator for Hero Armor

Let us make custom symbols for our heroes. It would be neat. I would love having dickbutt sprawled across my Warden’s helmet.

Different Orders

Holy fuck I’m tired of Elimination/Skirmish orders give us more Brawl/Duel orders please.

[sodasyrup]

DAILY ANON SPAM

i really let these build up

DAY 315: nah lol it okay. I was able to write, I was just staring at the screen. and I wrote more until I finished the second chapter today!!!!

congrats on writing!

DAY 316: THIS THUNDERSTORM IS A STRONG BOY TODAY OH FUCK!!! I actually heard the thunder even with my earbuds in max volume 😳

i fuckin love thunderstorms..........

DAY 317: I didn't get to write today 😔 honestly quite tired but I got to have hot chocolate so that's good

WHORE

DAY 318: I was able to write and we're supposed to have really bad storms today!!!!! also I almost fell asleep before doing this lmao

Whore redacted

DAY 320: in a gift event and got my giftee. I'm so excited to start writing for them!!!!!!

day missing?

DAY 321: I was so distracted today and I don't know why 😔 also I really want a switch so I can play animal crossing but I don't want to burden my parents

oh.... if u get a switch we can play naminal crosigns 

DAY 322: OH MY GOSH, THAT'S AMAZING!!! GOOD JOB!!!! :D!!!!!!!!!!

COLLEGE TIME BABY!

DAY 323: this whole week, 0/10 for me. I've been so forgetful and keep procrastinating. the only reason I am able to finish what I have done so far is because of sprints 😓 oh well! but I'm tired so sleepy time night!!!

oh babe sorry. i hope u slept well

DAY 324: dunno if I already mentioned this, but I'm in two birthday events and I already reached the first minimum word count for one of them and am halfway to the other event's word count minimum!!! :D

time to pass the MAXIMUM WORD COUNT

DAY 325: I GOT MY UNDERCUT SHAVED AGAIN!!!! HOORAY!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK! YEA! GAY! RIGHTS!

DAY 326: my legs hurt from standing so much reorganizing my clothes 😪

id rather die than organize my clothes

DAY 327: I WENT OUTSIDE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A MONTH AND WATCHED TWO MOVIES I RENTED!!! Sonic was really good and Birds of Prey too!!!

outside......... *smacks u* dont get infected 

DAY 328: my knee HURTS!!! also I really hope I can get a new laptop soon so I don't have to worry about it and can write freely

*rips out ur knee* you deserve so much 

DAY 329: I have one day left of "school" and I doubt I even have much to do and I hate it :( but how have you been? are you doing good?

u did it..... today was my last day of work! twinsies....even tho im LATE

DAY 330: I'm gonna miss everyone but at least soon I will be able to sign up to finish my driving lessons and then focus on my writing completely :D

oh fuck epix! i cant drive im gay

DAY 331: my knee hurts but I finally figured out how I want my gift fic to keep going!!! also I hate america once again but I love the people who are rioting because honestly, I'm surprised we haven't lost our patience sooner

FIX UR FACKIN KNEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also god america is awful but my heart goes out to the protesters 

DAY 332: don't know if you've heard about pride///fall but be careful, okay? also I'm pretty sure there was a protest not too far where I live. however it ended, I'm just proud

ive heard of it but idc too much ive been around for awhile i know the internet well enough to just shrug it off. more concerned for others

DAY 333: dude it's okay. don't force yourself to answer them all at once. almost all of my daily anons have been written while I was half asleep in bed anyway, I vibe with that

owo........i answered them ALL

DAY 335: thanks dude. it's just painful to see innocent people be hurt or k*lled. nothing about this is right and I hate so much of this world right now. I can only hope things get better from here

MISSING A DAY

also yeah it sucks so much but we can work towards something better, together

DAY 336: I made ramen two hours ago and ate it. in the middle of the night. my stomach may not agree fully but I don't regret it. also I cannot type at all today

i think ramen just does that? makes u shit ur pants

DAY 337: currently crying because I just finished reading a fic and I'm just emotional. I knew what was gonna happen because of the major character death warning but jesus fuck, it hurt so much in the end. I loved it. 15/10

i cant read angst no comfort it makes me depressed

DAY 338: I've had a headache this whole day 😔 and I think I'm starting to feel bored and lonely. I might take a walk at some point or just sleep a lot

:^(

sorry man, NZ has been out of lockdown for awhile. hope you feel better soon

DAY 339: I said fuck it and had ramen again at like midnight, however much my stomach disagrees be damned. and now I am sated uwu

RAMEN MAKES U POOPY!

DAY 340: sleeby... but playin sims... and eating cheese... mmmmmmm 😋

sims......chehze....... mlemlemelme

DAY 341: leggy hurts but I have ice cream so I guess it balances out uwu

dude fix your leg serious go to a doctor or something

DAY 342: it was raining today!!!! and I loved it!!!! it was so windy!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love rain when im not in it

DAY 343: I finished drawing a second of and started my third! I love them all so far

ART! CONGRATS!

DAY 344: I was sad today but I had two cups of hot coco and did several sprints so I'm feeling better now :)

coco is very nice, you deserve it

DAY 345: it got cold all of a sudden??? excuse me, how rude. anyway, it's hot chocolate time!!!! imma add a little salt

the cold is me sucking away ur- wait wait wait salt in your fucking coco?

DAY 346: it was cold as a BITCH last night and it's cold again!!! 😭 at least I got blankets and hot chocolate 😋

SALTY HOT CHOCOLATES?

DAY 347: I might have allergies, idk. but I can finally finish up my driving lessons!! and I finished my required hours so woohoo!!!

i’ll sneeze in ur mouth to fix ur allergies 

DAY 346: okay but real talk- I'll probably stop doing these after I do a whole year if that's okay. and I finishing up my driving lessons!

THATS FINE BABE one whole year like. fuckin dedicated!

DAY 349: I just realized I messed up the day number for the last one *dies* goddamnit. anyway, early sleepy time!!!!!! uwu

you’ve messed up a few but its ok bc youve done this for a fucking YEAR

DAY 350: MY BODY FUCKING HURTS????? rude. I don't even know why, it just did

im gonna remove ur bones

DAY 351: oof writing is hard and drawing is hard. goddamnit life is hard. BUT THAT WON'T STOP ME

i wish i had hands to draw and write

[theweeklyration]

The Weekly Ration; Issue #1

Welcome to Working Title!  This is a Rip-Off (read rip-off) of FlyDay by Sean Callahan.  After he announced he was taking a break on Friday, I did feel a little blah about it and a minuscule amount of "oh shut up Sean" about it.  To be fair, he's felt that way about me on multiple occasions and we'd never tell each other this till month's after the event because we are passive aggressive gentlemen.  Anyways here's a piece I worked on that really hurt me because I had to research the subject matter.

Investigating the Trash Heap that is the douche-fuck, steroid chugging, centrist bait for unfunny fuck bois at open mics,  piece of shit Joe Rogan with no ad-hominems (toward Joe Rogan) except the title where I get to berate his stupid fucking face.

Ad-hominem.  In philosophy and debate it is told to us that as soon as you use an Ad-hominem you lose the argument.  The theory is as soon as you get into name-calling you become too passionate with hate or distaste that your stand-points fall apart because they are based in anger.  You can have an argument solid with foundations, truths, and thought out research but as soon as you call someone a poopy head you lose.  You get nothing.  Good day sir.  I personally think this old standpoint is invalid as a passionate argument coming out of the mouth of someone who isn't a robot has more umph to it.  But this is the driving force of these kind of argument freelancers.  With the title out of the way that clearly shows I lose, I present the rest of this article that hurt me and I'll show you on the doll.

Let's begin by explaining what a Joe Rogan is.  A Joe Rogan is a 51 yr. Comedian, MMA Commentator, Actor, and Podcast Guru.  He has a high ranking podcast with a very impressive record of being no. 1 or in the top 5 on Itunes and several other podcast streaming sites continuously for years.  On his podcast he goes into depth with interviews with people of all different walks of life ranging from angry white guys to angrier white guys.  To his credit, I'm only 80% jesting.  To his credit he is a good interviewer for the type of podcast he is presenting.  He's had some interviews that made me see perceived monsters as human and golden gods as flawed specimens.  In the rare times I've checked out his podcast, his interview with fucking angry red-tinted moron and fuck face Alex Jones (see title) actually had Alex Jones out-of-character and being a fairly down-to-earth alright guy.  Until he called liberals pyschic vampires (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MkMnwFZyNrw&t=23s), but I imagine doing a show like InfoWars will irreparably have long lasting side effects.

As does doing The Joe Rogan Experience.  Joe Rogan is very into hallucinogens and will appear on his show stoned numerous times, more than not.  He talks about their mental health benefits and existential properties that have helped him and recommends them to his guests, audience, and everyone in the world essentially.  I am very in favor of the good hallucinogens do and support that narrative.  He even talks about the benefits of a deprivation tank which I want to try for myself and encourage anyone to as well.  However, the goal of most "trips" is to destroy your own ego and perceived world view so as to attain a higher plateau of thought.  Joe ignores that side of the journey and with child-like wonder just says "whoa dude".  I mean, it is pretty "whoa dude", but that's not the end goal of those journeys.  You want to come out changed, your perspective advanced, and less depressed.   Joe fails to go past the "oh shiny" phase of trippy drugs, even DMT and Ayahuasca which puts most people on their ass and forever humbled to reality.  His blase approach to taking "whoa dude" drugs has even lead to him emboldening contrarian, damaging viewpoints.

Joe Rogan is essentially a libertarian,although if asked he says he is not affiliated with any political party.  This stance is held-up by many of his viewers/listeners and is basically the "well I'm not them" argument.  It's having your cake and giving it to the 1%.  That stance makes him and many with this worldview, see themselves as bullet-proof and hyperbolic Supermans who can give a platform to any sort of ideological monstrosity because "well I'm not them", "whoa dude", or "I don't know about all of that."  Interviewing Milo Yolopoopmouse (read YolilelaleeTrump) and "hearing him out" as he talks about "Daddy Trump"(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vZ8KSh9bd6w)without calling out Milo's fascist viewpoints only makes more Milo YugiOh!cards.  This is where Joe gains so many followers.  Joe Rogan, who "doesn't affilate with any political party" finds himself emboldening centrists.   

Centrism is the agnosticism of politics with much more dangerous, physical, and desperate real world applications.  Agnostics question, compare and contrast while Centrists, at least of late, are just stirring up ill-will and trying to come out of as the better person.  The "I don't give a shit" approach to something like an existential question of God ultimately doesn't have nearly the same impact of seeing an Anti-Fa Militant and a Proud Boy fighting with the response "both sides are bad."  Fence sitting on God, fine.  Fence sitting on the abject horror of quickly rising fascist dictatorship, not fine.  Very not fine.  One of the least fine things you can be doing in this or any other year.

This centrism has found him an allegiance of militant fans who take what he says and doesn't say to the extremes.  Because Joe is so dismissive or non-argumentative with the ideologues he brings on his show it empowers his viewers/listeners to continue their movements.  Joe may hate Trump like any other breathing person with a speck of human decency, but he has Trump fans who have more blood push into their sexual organs when Alex Jones and Milo are guests.  Joe may hate racism, but "hearing out" a radical racist gives entitlement to NRA supporters who have wet dreams of home invasions.  Joe may think you need to get laid,  but having an Incel rant about outright misogyny leads to an asexual self-made eunuch plot his revenge.  Take a fucking stand is what I'm saying.  Just because you yell a lot on your show doesn't mean you're arguing.

I avoid arguing about Joe Rogan as much as I can, however, I am a comedian as well.  I go to open mics regularly, get booked on shows, and want to basically not work so I do comedy.  I've been doing it for over 4 years now, and I love every moment of it.  No surprise, when I first got into comedy I found Joe Rogan endearing and "sticking it to the soy boy beta cucks" (that exact term is from It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia.  Obviously 4 years ago it wasn't really around but I'd be sure to say that phrase if it existed back then).  But as with numerous examples in this article and more I can't type as my eye is already twitching enough, I found definite faults with Joe and didn't see him as the hilarious contrarian I once did.

Because I realized he's not even contrarian, he's opinion-lite.  He's centrist.  He's straw man argument.  If this or the rest of this article (obviously disregarding the title) feel ad-hominem now, my only excuse is I'm not very good at this and this is my first time writing one of these articles in several years.  Something that makes me chuckle to this day was a clueless, middle-aged guy trying comedy for his first time.  He came up to the deck, trying to bond, form a connection with us.  His opening remarks were "Wow, Joey Coco Diaz and Joe Rogan are here on the same night!  HOW DO I CHOOSE?" which didn't lead to the glad-handing and praise he wanted but a quick "Joey Diaz" from most of the deck.  We returned to staring at our phones and avoiding eye contact with eachother.  We're comics, we're anti-social weirdos who want to be loved by strangers but only when we have a mic in our hands.  He felt crushed while simultaneously thinking we don't like comedy, which is only true of most of us.  

If you want the anger and passion you hear from Joe Rogan but with a punch and bravado I suggest Doug Stanhope.  Doug Stanhope "doesn't give a shit" but he has real umph and vigor.  He has a contrarian viewpoint to almost anything, is hyperbolic, and hypocritical.  He's everything Joe Rogan wants to be but far more in-depth, entertaining, and outright funny.  Contrarian and definitely not a centrist trying to hide centrism with yelling and looking cool.  Now if you excuse me I have to run away from these new comics.

Hope you enjoyed the first of many of these weekly installments.  If you are interested in becoming part of TheWeeklyRation Comrades you can email me at Kyjot.bunny@gmail.com to get the weeks installment two days earlier on Friday as part of the mass-mailer.  Otherwise you can continue following this blog where it’ll be posted on Sundays.  This is a project of mine that I was directly inspired to do by Sean Callahan, my best friend and wonderful writer who did a weekly mailer called “Happy Flyday”.  Thank you for your interest!

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Happy New Year!

Can’t wait to see what this year has store for me!

I hope lots of new and good changes come my way!

I have set lots of New GOALS for this year that I want to achieve! 

Wish me Luck!

I feel like I started the First Day of This Year on a Good Note!

I had today off from work which was a good thing because I’m sure today the hospital would have been crazy busy since it’s the day after New Years Eve and people would be pouring into the hospital because they have nothing better to do.

Since morning I’ve been productive because I wanted to start the New Year Fresh! 

I woke up at 9 am. 

Worked Out to get myself Energized & Heart Rate Up for 30 mins! Did some sit up and push up because I want my baby fat around my tummy area to disappear. My main goal is to get rid of my baby fat and tone up this year and maybe lose little bit of weight! Want to continue this 30 min work out each day if I can.

Ate Breakfast. Eggs, Cheese in Tortilla to feed my tummy

Cleaned the Whole Apartment & Bathroom Throughly! Wanted to just start out the new year clean. Brushed and Mopped the Floors. Cleaned the Fridge of Expired Food. Put away my Laundry from a week before lol. I know I was lazy. Made my Bed because it was a mess. Dusted the Shelves and Tables bc dirt builds up so easily on black furniture no matter how much you clean. Threw away trashed!

Grocery Came from Fresh Direct and I putted it away. Had a relatively good first experience with Fresh Direct. Everything looked fresh as their name states and everything came on time with nothing missing which I was happy with. Now my fridge is stocked with food. =) Thank You Naan for keeping my tummy fed!

Spend good 20 min in shower today to relax myself! LOL 

Talked to Ami and Gossiped about Party and the last 2 weeks when my poopie came from Canada and how today she finally left back for Canada. Ami has to go to work tomorrow which is early the most years. Ami said Abu went to go play cricket with his brothers. 

I did my Work Stuff such as powerpoint presentation for floors tomorrow, listened to the present lecture for friday, and I do have a journal club article presentation done just in case. I also logged all my surgeries so I am caught up. And logged my Patients. Only thing haven't log is Duty Hours which I always keep to do with Naan because it makes him happy seeing colors. But yes with work I am pretty much caught up! Shockingly I am not nervous for being on Floors tomorrow because I think after being on IMED, being on floor for Podiatry is gonna just be so much easier...just only challenge is now I have less people helping me which is fine because I will manage. Only thing worries me is how much changes will come now since we are short on people. I don’t mind handling OR and Floor at same time because I do need the extra OR Cases!

I checked on my loan status for consolidation and how much monthly payment I need to pay. This makes me nervous because I saw the monthly payment as 2400 almost per month and I’m like how the heck do I pay this?  Tomorrow I will call and make sure if I can lower it and see what my status is on consolidation of the loans.  So much for being open 24 hours a day guys! lol Kidding!

Prayed! For a Good beginning and your health naan along with my parents. Just Overall a Good Year with hope for lots of good things store this year! 

Napped for a bit! To re-energies myself!

Wrote a long ass message for my chacha who works for Car Dealership because I need a car soon. He prob thinks Im crazy for writing that message, but I’m just anal about having all my questions answered. I get annoyed when I forget to ask things and then its too late. So I rather write it out all at once, re read it and then ask someone to read my craziness before I submit it so I have everything I need to ask him. Hopefully this car things get sorted out because it’s another thing that worries me constantly.  Just nervous about driving here in NY.  Just haven't been driving for 4 years so Im gonna be rusty. 

And lastly now just resting and waiting for Naan to come home so I can spend time with him before I go to night night and restart my day tomorrow!  Muaah Can’t wait for you to be home!

I know you had a rough day today Naan! I am glad you made it through! You are  amazing!! I am proud of you!! I just want you to come home now and rest and feel better. You need some bed rest because you’ve been on your feet all day! I wish I can be there to give you a head massage and feed you and take care of you once you got home. And you can sleep on my lap while I run my hand through your hair. As I am finishing this tumblr, I think you are heading towards the parking lot to go home! Get Home Safe and I’ll be waiting for you to be home soon!!!  Eat and Come to Bed!!! Muaah I LOVE YOU!!! Happy New Year Naan! Can’t wait for what this yes has store for us. I hope we have many more years together. I just can’t see myself without you these days and the thought kills me inside if that has to change. I feel like your perfect butter half of me that completes me thus far! We will stay positive and see where our fate takes us and hope for the best jaan! Just very thankfully that you’ve been part of my life for the last 8 months. You’ve made such a huge difference in my life in such a short time and from far away! I can’t thank you enough! Thank you for all the encouragement and being there for me and taking care of me on daily basis and making sure I am fed and well rested.  You spoil me so much and I love it! =) Just can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you! And I saw a star today while looking through my window, and I did wish for something...can’t tell you what bc then it won’t come true...but let see if this wish comes true! =)  

Muah!!! Come Home Soon! I LOVE YOU!