#i feel like im getting better at drawing the hedgehogs

[temptear]

A couple more amy and stone sketches to get it out of my system

[cracklewink]

mister hot topic im a huge fan

[prince-less]

I think I'm funny

Bonus aftermath:

Inspiration and image with actual meme text under da cut

My friend made the joke in a call while I was showing them some of Maria's dialogue.

[aether-weather]

SAGESUNE MIKU >:DDD

[cdrspages]

he came for the album’s color scheme … stayed to prepare for their tour alongside rouge and amy ❤️🖤

stream flo lol

[verdemoth]

oooooooohh the agonies the curses the torments aughghghghghg

[naoknowswhat]

This is the most beautiful post I have ever read up to this point of my life <3

(Silver the hedgehog supremacy🤍🤍🤍)

A few days ago was my first anniversary on Tumblr. I usually check this app to cheer me up with random drawings about Sonic the hedgehog, and I will be forever thankful to y'all artists for giving me the happiness I've sometimes needed to continue.

To celebrate this "milestone" I've decided to give you a very little introduction to my drawing history, and finally upload some of my artwork yippee.

I started drawing less than a year ago. Before that, I was scared of even trying to draw something. I thought I was bad at it, and I was born like that. Long story short, a very close friend, @naoknowswhat (Who is also the one who introduced me to Tumblr) forced (😱) me to draw something on a random wall under a highway, so of course I drew Sonic.

After finishing it, I thought it didn't really look that bad, so that very night instead of sleeping I tried to draw something on my phone. I basically took a screenie from the Sonic Mania Aventures series and tried to copy it, although I also tried to add something original, like the background. And it came out... actually looking pretty good

I mean, "pretty good" assuming it was my first ever drawing lmao. And the most important part, I enjoyed every bit of it. It was relaxing and fun at the same time, I loved it. It was also pretty weird going from thinking "I draw like a 5 yr old" to "Holly shit I actually enjoy this" in like 12 hours.

Some days later I tried to draw Tails, and omg I love it but I just couldn't get the motivation to finish it.

It was SO WEIRD actually finding a drawing of mine "cute"? wtf. What isn't cute is that according to Ibis Paint I spent 14 hours on this. I especially remember struggling with the shoes so god damn much.

Then I just stopped drawing until summer ended and I had to return to high school. I've always had problems concentrating in class, so the same friend recommended that I should draw in class. At first I found that so unbelievably weird, but then I tried it, and andbwjksns. I just loved it. And somehow it allowed me to concentrate better? There is no way. It felt like magic. I'll show you some drawings abajabvsn

I've also been practicing for a long time to draw without references. And although it's super duper hard, I'm slowly getting better at it. I drew this on my classroom table a few months back and I still feel proud shut the fuck up

So yeah I feel like that was everything. From this experience I've learned that your only obstacle is your self-esteem (and your monthly income). Alr have a good night ☺️ and long life to my son Silver the hedgehog. Such a cutie.

[couch-house]

2023 baybeeeee. havent done an art summary in a while since i basically stopped drawing early 2020 and didn't get back on the horse until mid-2022 (i wonder... what could have caused that!) i dont feel like my art has really changed this year, only in the ways that I draw specific sonic characters (looking through my archive is fun bc i can see the progression of the diseases known as Giving Them Big Eyebrows and Drawing The Monoeye) and--more exciting 4 me--my practice with paneling comics! :)

i think the progression is much more noticeably when you line it up with last year's sonic art... i can see all the Milestones.. more talking abt that under the cut

May: couch gets into sonic. June: Yucky Sonic 1.0. this was also the month when i Heard Of fleetway super. July: couch comes back from brazil, having read stc. this is also when i start dong actual short comics. compare may -> june -> july. (also please forgive whatever tf i was doing with skintones. i needed some practice)

august: merger au takes shape. dog invented. also i just really like that speed racer sonic mspaint picture. its fun :) september: deep in the fleet mines. october: i lose a lot of steam and mostly just doodle. another comic comparison for those three months:

november: frontiers comes out. i go crazy mode and make that sonic + knuckles comic with the pretty backgrounds and LOTS OF TINY TEXT. december: winter break AND im tired. january 2023 i come back insane crazy mode and write some fanfiction?? still havent finished that LOL. made some nice cover art :) february: i shift into knuckles mode fora month. make another comic. this one is much better i think :) november -> february

march: i shift into transfem metal sonic mode. also just stick to a lot of doodling. also write more fanfiction. crazy. april: transitory period as i shift back into stc/exit: sonic mode. may: more fanfiction. more comics. i really like how both of these turned out :) while the last two were definitely taking a lot more notes from stc, i think around here i start paying attention to and trying to learn from more creative panelling from artists i admire. like @/superemeralds THOAM and @/starrjoy's pandora au.

june: i play sa2 and it's good. july: i play unleashed and it is both miserable and good. i get in kind of an artistic frustration zone and wiggle my way out. august: idk i think im just chillin. super react dot jpeg happens. it's not even named that, it's named after the other image on the canvas, which was maria holding baby shadow. more comics.

september: i burn out for a bit. get real tired. eventually get back up and make more comics. the goal here and last month has become "try to make more interesting panel shapes. I've noticed other artists don't just use rectangles--try playing with irregular polygons and see where it gets you." well it gets you mixed results as you learn :) also i think after that pause i accept the monoeye into my life. sigh...

october: oc showdown starts and @/neurotypical-sonic asks me to make some halloweeny art :) feels like i dont do much this month bc i focus on those. november: A LOT OF ART?? INSANE. more oc showdown stuff. i play shadow the hedgehog (2005). it's good and i love it. i draw a ton of shit on one canvas for it. Fucking Dember: i have shifted back into stc/EXIT mode. motivation's a little weird bc work's a little weird. doing commissions also makes it weird. well im having fun and being myself :) a final handful of comics from this month:

idk maybe ill do something sicko crazy b4 the end of the year. mayb i'll follow exit sonic's example and #GetWorse. who knows :) well this is fun i love looking at my art and seeing and noticing things. thank u all for your support and I hope we all have a great 2024!

[vani-candy]

I'm so OBSSESSED with your fang story! Will you be writing more? 🥰😍😍😍😍😍

THANK YOU SO MUCH, im glad you like it!!!!!!

i'd like to get back to Swan's Treasure at some point in the future!!! i took a break after the latest chapter because i felt very burnt out afterwards (everything went wrong while making that chapter LMAO).

i meant to get back to it earlier, but various factors (mental health crashes (all good now dont worry!), shifting interests, my gamer side taking over (MABINOGI ASTROLOGER UPDATE SOON I GOTTA PREPARE!!!!!), art blocks) have kept me away from it, and i dont want to halfheartedly shove something out. i absolutely wanna avoid burnout cause thats a surefire way to kill your enjoyment of literally anything!

but i'd like to get back to it! i'll probably take my time on this next chapter so i dont burn myself out, plus it'll look better! i have a problem where i feel like i need to shove something out quick like im sonic the hedgehog lol. its okay if you're not sonic the hedgehog, all arting speeds are valid!

tl;dr: eventually! hopefully soon! stay tuned!

P.S.: admitting it now; im in the process of changing up Mitty's design again cause her current fit is rather difficult to draw. it's a special outfit, but i stupidly overdesigned it. which is bad when she's, in essence, made for comics you want to get out in a decent timeframe. work smarter not harder!

[ratt-fried-this-pasta]

☆ Welcome to my Blog ☆

★ 〔ArtFight〕 ★ ★ The Napoleonic Bubble 〔discord link〕 ★ ★ Spam Alt: @xin-thorns 〕★

My name's Elton or Hyacinth (or Hya for short). I'm a trans guy who is asexual (synonym for awesome /j). Also, I'm a minor so don't be fucking weird, thanks 👍

I'm a pianist and violinist but I want to learn the guitar and get better at the ukulele. I also like to sing sometimes. But you might see me post my drawings on here if I feel like it

I'm the owner of The Napoleonic Bubble discord server! The invite link is at the top of this post so feel free to join if you aren't an asshole 👍 dw if you don't know anything about Naps or his era, you can just learn and vibe with us

Feel free to put stuff in my ask box!

Roughly thorough list of my interests + blog tags under the Keep reading!

Interests: (past + present) (theyre all over the place, not everything is on here)

★ Alt/Rock/Metal Music (MCR. PTV.) ★ Classical Music ★ Conrad Veidt (Cesare + Gwynplaine) ★ Cyberpunk 2077 ★ David Tennant Media ★ House MD ★ I Have No Mouth & I Must Scream ★ Junji Ito ★ Les Misérables (25th Concert) ★ Napoleonic Era ( Lannes & Junot <3 ) ★ Omori ★ Saw (I-VI) ★ Shadow the Hedgehog Real-Time Fandub ★ Tarot Cards ★ TF2 + Emesis Blue ( BLU MEDIC <3 ) ★ The Phantom of the Opera (25th) ★ Will Wood (and the Tapeworms)

Tags:

#funny hyahya ╰➤ ( funny shitposts and whatnot ) #huemusic ╰➤ ( me playing music :D ) #hyacinthart ╰➤ ( all the art im proud of :D ) #hyagaming ╰➤ ( gamer time ) #musik musik musik i call this musik ╰➤ ( musician life related posts, tbh crying over music theory ) #napoleon bonapainting ╰➤ ( all posts about my painting of Napoleon Crossing the Alps) #napoleonic bubble ╰➤ ( about the napoleonic discord server I own )

[domsanim]

new pinned because shit hit the fan WOOOO

HIII my name is Dom (its almost like my user is domsanim) and i draw sometimes

i do want to get into animation so i might animate occasionally (they will be bad)

-prns: any

-bisexual genderfluid(wowza!)

fandoms/things i like (oh boy this'll be a doozy)

•strikethrough text means that i havent finished the thing so don't hit me with earth shattering spoilers 😔

Music Artists/Bands: NateWantsToBattle, Chonny Jash, Weezer, Tally Hall, Miracle Musical, Black Veil Brides, Jhariah

Webcomics: The Dummy's Dummy, Artifisouls

MCRP (Minecraft Roleplay): DreamSMP (Story, not actors), MINE Nights at Freddy's, Life Series

Streamers/Youtubers: Wilbur Soot, TommyInnit, Ranboo, Slimecicle, VenturianTale (FUCK the frye brothers)

Animated Series: Murder Drones, The Amazing Digital Circus, Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss, My Hero Academia, Death Note, Cyberpunk: Edgerunners, BNA: Brand New Animal, Jujutsu Kaisen

Video Games: Minecraft, Overwatch 2, Five Nights at Freddy's, Undertale/Undertale AUs, Danganronpa, Final Fantasy 7, OMORI, Portal, Half-Life, Your Turn to Die: Death Game by Majority, Doki Doki Literature Club, The Henry Stickmin Collection, Subnautica, Sonic the Hedgehog, Pressure

Extra that i dont feel like categorizing: Spider-Man, Jekyll/Hyde, S.C.P Foundation

wow that was a lot. anyways

where else i exist

i tend to be in a lot of places. luckily im not very difficult to lose sight of.

Youtube: DomsAnim

Steam: DomsAnim

ArchiveOfOurOwn: DomsAnim

Insta: domsanimations4169

TikTok: @/dom-toretto-but-better

COOL PEOPLE SHOUTOUTS!!

@furinzii my lovely lovely wife who produces bangers almost as consistently as i do. keyword, almost./j

@milesthemagical bestie westie (who also got me into chonny jash funny story)

@akihelux homie (i hear they're working on a tadc au comic so if that tickles your toes then maybe check that out when it happens)

@wadelovessillies god

ok thats all

also follow for the content not fandom i think (even though i'm kind of everywhere) i mainly post about things im currently obsessing over or my beloved ocs

[mealbits]

i think what i love the most abt ur art is that ur always drawing things you clearly enjoy and u can tell bc of the way ur works all look like they were made with love and i guess what im trying to say is how do i do that lol

I GET HOW U FEEL SO MUCH. truth is back in liiike 2020 i was exclusively creating art for this blog in a 'What Does My Audience Want?' mindset, and if you do want to get into fields that center around Art/Design for An Audience theres no harm in doing that in moderation(but back in 2020 it felt like all i did was make art for other people lmao). one major thing that helped me make this blog more about My Art for Me and less My Art for Someone Else was rethinking how and why i made art. my art was 'the thing i have to put on my blog today' but nowadays its more 'this project im doing to learn XYZ while also drawing what i want to draw' (i also have more projects and ideas overall because of it!!!! thats also something i noticed just now lol) that shadow gijinka i just posted used 2 be a ditched sketch from. last week? i forgot abt until i lined, colored, and rendered it just for fun (and to do some more paint-adjacent rendering cuz thats my jam) since i do plan to get into commission work this year i am aware i gotta prioritize more Art Studies and 'Learning how to draw for other people, figure out what they want, etc.' or whatever. uhhh tldr i wanted to get better at art without hating art so i do studies with shadow the hedgehog and anime girls.

[fictionkinfessions]

im feeling sentimental right now but i wanna yap a bit. preferably at my slingshot (purrfurably if you will /silly)

when i first started remembering you i was trying to nail your vibes down, and remember more about our relationship. i still don't remember a lot but i do remember you had some sort of energetic and confident fun to you that is solely unique to YOU and nobody else that i can remember in any of my lives. you remind me of what basic understanding i have of sonic the hedgehog a little (i do not kin from sonic and im not really a sonic fan, it's just something about your silliness and the way you spoke with confidence and energy)

i remember when we were together your voice became so gentle as opposed to when we were out doing things, or in phights. there was something so about you that i can't quite place yet, but i know i valued it a lot.

a lot of people draw you with a long cat tail, but your fluffy bob tail was super cute to me, especially when you wagged it a little. i thought it was super adorable and i loved seeing you so happy

i remember you were competitive and didn't like losing. there was one memory i have where we met up in crossroads with rocket (who, for context of anybody else reading this was part of the main friend group of me/sling/skate as well as sword) to go on a phight and you were super super excited. you were super pumped but when we got there we ended up losing and you got frustrated because you thought you threw the game (which may i add you didn't. it was just an off day maybe, and everyone in the team is responsible for a win or a lose, it doesn't affect your personal skill). you didn't really want to interact with anybody, and i understood that and i just put my tail on your lap and sat beside you in some sort of comfort.

and i don't know how long from that memory it was, but you were feeling a lot better and we went on a date in the crossroads and i was so happy to see you feeling better. i kept trying to subconsciously wrap my tail around your legs as we were walking, and i didn't really realize it a lot of the time hehehe

you were also brave. i am not sure why my memories always pertain to banhammer beating me up or somehow you (in that one memory where we lost the match he kinda slung you across SFOTH and i was like FUUUCK) but i have a memory where i tripped in some sort of way because banhammer was on my trail (i had just shielded Shuriken who promptly was able to get away after i stepped in for support) you shot at him rapidly and then taunted him when he was about to hit me with his hammer... and like, pissed him off. we locked eyes for a second and you gave me this mischievous smile before running away after he made chase towards you. i didn't really process it until later but i really appreciated it (would rather not have a life end with being crushed by some huge object for the THIRD TIME and gods forbid it be by banhammer /silly)

i remember sitting down somewhere. maybe at your place with shuriken and vinestaff and everyone else (who I don't think was there) or at my place (i am unsure where exactly) but i was watching you take cookies out of the oven and oh my gods they were some of the best cookies ever. i loved seeing you smile as we shared warm treats together and absolutely melting in utter bliss at your baking skills

i miss you, and i'd love to talk. and perhaps if you'd prefer not to reach out, hey, i get it. all i wanna say for that is thank you for the memories. you mean a lot :]

i hope i got everything right with this one. what an essay of a 'fession oopsiiiiee. if you see any mistakes noooo you didnt /j

-boombox (#🕹️👾🎸)

x

[vivy-nx]

always been a big fan of sonic rush. here are the Characters (playable)

also late happy 30th to the blue lad

[erensonly]

Cuddle Buddies (Bakugou x Black! Reader)

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                             ~Chapter 5: FaceTime?~

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Alright, let me tell you something. When you actually sleep, like really get some decent sleep, you will refuse to wake up, solely because you don’t sleep as much as you should. So when you felt your phone vibrating endlessly, it kinda pissed you off. Rolling over, you grab your phone.

Bakuboy💥

gm dumbass

get up big head

get up im walking you to school

ARE YOU IGNORING ME??

                                                                         Big Head🐥

                                                                        why tf you blowing up my phone??

                                                                        needy ass

                                                                        ill text you when im ready

Walking to the bathroom, you handle your business, hop in the shower, and put on your uniform. You walk to your vanity and just look for a minute, not knowing what to do with that mane on the top of your head. So you go with a simple looking, but actually kinda hard hairstyle. A slicked back ponytail.

Finally finished, you fix your edges and grab your lipgloss and mascara. You know the drill. Walking downstairs, you see a big ass pomeranian talking to your mama. Why is he here?

"Good morning mama," you walk towards her, kissing her cheek. "Why are you here?"

"Because I can. Your mama let me in."

"Duh. Lets go. Bye mama"

"Yeah, bye mama." This cocky fuck. Dragging him out of the house, you punch him in the stomach. "Don't call my mama 'mama'. We ain't married."

"Don't hit me." He bonked you on the head. Like deadass bonked you on the top of your head. "And if I marry you, I can call her 'mama'."

"I- No comment. C'mon before we're late."

Finally arriving at hell, you go to sit down and plan how much you're going to pay attention today. Then Denki walked up to you. You two hadn't interacted much besides small talk here and there. He was cute, kinda pervy, but cute.

"Hey Y/N!"

"Hey Denki. You need something?"

"I was wondering if I could... maybe get your number?" He was very shy. It was adorable.

"Yeah." Taking his phone, you put your number in his contacts. "Text me, kay?" You smiled and turned back around. Then, you noticed it was colder than Santa's ass crack. Putting your arms in your shirt, you put your head down, waiting for Aizawa.

"Damn, it's cold in here." You hug yourself closer, trying to trap any body heat in. One thing you hate to be is cold. Cold is bad. Very bad. Then, you felt a tap on your thigh. You were going to kill this boy one day.

But he handed you a hoodie. Maybe he won't get killed yet.

"Here big head. I saw that you were cold." Awww he was shy.

"Thank you," you muttered, flustered. If you weren't black you would've been blushing, but you can't. The hoodie smelled good. You ain't never smelled something so heavenly in your entire existence. Putting it on, your mood was instantly lifted, but you wouldn't show it.

                                         ~Timeskip to lunch ~

Grabbing your bento box, you walk the cafeteria. Looking for an empty seat you hear someone yelling. "Big head! Come sit here" You look to see the Bakusquad sitting at a table together. Walking towards them, Bakugo scoots over so you can sit next to him.

"L/N, hey!" Denki said.

"Hi Denki!" Then you saw a pink blob, a red rock, and tape dispenser. "Hey Sero. Wassup Mina. Kiri, hi," You said to everyone, facing your attention towards each person. Opening your bento box, you see some wonderful, delectable, delicious gumbo and garlic biscuits. You grab a spoon out of the bento and start to eat, then you notice everyone staring at you.

"What? Is there a problem?" Then they all looked away awkwardly. "No... Of course not."

"So what are y'all looking at?" Looking at them confused, you realize that they had probably never seen someone eat gumbo before. "OH! Y'all wanna try it?" Everyone nodded their heads. Usually, you didn't share your food, but they were curious so maybe this one time you could share. Grabbing an extra spoon, you give everyone a spoonful.

Their eyes lit up instantly. "Big head, what is this?" Everyone looked at you expectantly. "It's called gumbo. It's really big in the States as well as other places. You like it?"

Without even answering, he grabbed your spoon and bento and took another bite. This motherfu- You looked at everybody else. "You guys like it?"

"Y/N, this is amazing! I need to have more of this."

"I can probably get Mama to make some more and you guys can come over and eat."

Then you turn and see this blonde bitch still eating your food. He completely pushed his food aside and started gobbling yours. "Damn! Slow down, this ain't even yours." Taking it back you eat more of it. Enjoying it, you feel someone staring at you. Mind you, everyone has been talking throughout the whole lunch break up to this point and whoever was staring didn't stop.

"What Bakugo? You want some?" He turned around flustered. Of course would be flustered, emotionally constipated bastard. "Here," you push the bento towards him to let him eat again. Before he could start eating again, you take the spoon. "Say thank you."

"Tch," he scoffs. Giving him a look, he mumbles, "Thank you, dumbass." Better. "You're welcome, asshole."

"You two are cute." Mina. Of course she would say that bull. "I know I'm cute, I don't know about him though." You started to laugh at Bakugo. The punched your thigh and kept eating. This big ass hedgehog just punched me. Cocking your hand back, you slap the back of his head. As soon as Denki, Kiri, and Sero heard that you hear: "I like ya cut G."

That pissed Bakugo off. He started yelling and cursing at us, drawing attention to the table. Ew, attention. "Shut up! Stop yelling you damn hedgehog. You got everybody looking at us like we some damn fools. Be quiet!" Silence. "Thank you."

It's time to go now, grabbing the spoon and the box, you start to walk back to the classroom. Noticing you still had the hoodie on, you realize that Mina wasn't only talking about you sharing your food. Discombobulated, you put your head down and wait for everyone to get back.

~Another timeskip because I'm too lazy to write anything else for this part~

Finally, the end of the day. No more being social with people. You start packing up as usual. Getting ready to walk out the door, you realize to still had the hoodie on. You started to take it off, then a hand stopped you. "Keep it." Unsure, you look at him. "Are you sure? I can give it back if you want it."

"If I wanted it back, I would've taken it already. Keep it, big head."

"Thank you. Now, let's go" Grabbing his wrist, you drag him to the exit. It was the usual route, and more bickering amongst each other. Finally at home, you say your goodbyes and start to open the door when you felt a tug on your hand. Then a kiss on your cheek.

He snickered.  Was he copying you? Sneaky fuck. "Text me," was the last thing he said before walking away towards his house. How dare he be so smooth all the time. You were gonna catch him slipping one day.

Walking inside, you start to unwind. Sitting down at your desk to get started on the homework you didn't finish in class, you remember to text Denki and Bakugo. Now you were distracted. You and Denki sending memes and tiktoks, and you and Bakugo with your usual bickering and casual flirting.

After you finished your homework you went to lay down. Then, you got a text from Bakugo.

Bakuboy💥

FaceTime?

Before you could respond you had an incoming FaceTime call. Answering the phone you propped your phone up , grabbing your bonnet/scarf and started to wrap your hair while you two started to talk.

"What are you doing, Big head?"

"Wrapping my hair so it stays protected while I sleep and because it saves time so I won't have to do too much in the morning."

You continued to answer his questions about your hair. You two had been talking for hours, about everything and anything in between. Eventually, you heard a snore. He was sleeping. Looking at the time you saw it was 3:53 A.M. Sinking further into your bed, you slowly start to fall asleep.

You finally felt at peace while sleeping since It had happened. You could get used to it.

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And that is a wrap. This piece of crap shouldn't have taken 3-4 days to write but it did. As always, I hope yall enjoyed it. And thank you soooooo  much for 400+ reads on Wattpad. I really appreciate it. I go on wattpad everyday, and everyday there is a new surprise for me there. When we hit 500 reads, I will try put out a new chapter everyday for a week. Thx for reading ♥

[dumbassbitchdisease]

kind of a rant atp but i've held onto this for too long:

i always see things that i used to like in middle school that i genuinely really enjoyed watching/doing that i think about now and have mixed feelings about.

like sure, i stopped watching MLP, stopped drawing my little Sonic OC, pulled back on watching certain shows, but was it because i stopped liking it? or because i felt judged for enjoying the things that i do?

i see updates on shows, fandoms, or other things that i really liked and i get excited, it makes me want to enjoy those things again and really, what's stopping me?

sure i wrote my silly little crossover fanfics that i cringe about now, but it got me into writing! sure, i drew ponies and hedgehogs all the time, and filled up my brain with the show and all these little things about them, but it genuinely helped me improve my art - drawing side profiles and hair for example! making these one-time "i swear they're a new oc im making a story for" characters helped me flesh out the backgrounds and personalities of characters i have now! listening to specific artists, i feel the nostalgia, it's relaxing, even! having the lyrics almost flood into my brain, hearing my favorite part again, knowing when the artist takes a breath, or paying attention to the background, knowing everything about it, the instrumental, the highs and lows in their voice! it makes me think of parts of my life growing up that probably made me the Weird Kid in their Weird Group but did i care? fuck no! i had a good time! i had fun! i had anxiety then and i do now but these things made me happy! the only times i felt embarrassed to like the things i did was when other people would comment on it, my friends liked my art, my parents were relatively supportive/okay with it, but seeing friends outside of school? the ones that didn't really care? other family members? they made me feel childish for liking what i liked, but i was a child, why wasn't it ok? who would it hurt? who did it hurt? the only person that felt hurt was me, it was a blow to the stomach to see people's faces full of judgment for something that didn't even concern them. it made me feel embarrassed to enjoy these things. it made me feel so dumb, lame, pathetic, whatever, it left a sour taste in my mouth where the sugar once was.

i feel like im getting really sidetracked but at the end of everything my question is: why stop liking the things you like because others don't get it? why stop enjoying the things that make you happy because of something somebody else said? will i really continue to hold onto the scraps from updates i hear from someone else because i feel like i'll get judged again? or will i start to enjoy these things again? why am i going to hold back on the things that make *me* happy for the sake of others who don't even give a fuck?

i'm older now, yeah, sure, so i have more of a mental "fuck you too" attitude when people ask me if i still really like "X" with a sneer or with words laced with judgment, looking down on me, like yeah, i like this, it makes me happy, it's my life, fuck you !!! i don't owe you shit! sorry you're a bitter little fucker that wants to tear me down so you can feel better about yourself! let me enjoy my things!

"oh you're 20, you're too old to enjoy your plushies, those are kid's shows, that's just a cartoon, do you still draw your little characters? why would you buy that book? that album? that song?"

BECAUSE IT MAKES ME HAPPY, BECAUSE IT MAKES ME SMILE, BECAUSE I LOOK FORWARD TO ENJOYING MY THINGS EVERY DAY, BECAUSE IT KEEPS ME GOING I DON'T OWE YOU AN EXPLANATION FOR THE THINGS THAT MIGHT BE SMALL BUT KEEP ME ALIVE IT KEEPS ME GOING IT GIVES ME MOTIVATION!!! i don't fucking care !!!! how dumb it sounds !!! you're not me !!!!

fuck what other people think, you keep doing the things you like, you do it for yourself and your happiness, you don't owe anyone shit