#i feel like a hypocrite too bc i'm sure i also had these problems

[blastlight]

how advanced are 3rd grade math skills supposed to be, because I'm helping my littlest brother with his homework and I'm honestly getting a little concerned

[kaycode1999]

Hi! So, tbh I had a hard time choosing but I think I would go with Transformers Animated 2007, mainly bc THE AUTOBOTS ARE SO TINY 🤧

And overall it's a great twist to the story

(Although if you want to just pick whichever universe would suit me best)

Anyways, onto my personality:

I consider myself to be very outgoing and extroverted with a slight fear of confrontation (Be it known, if my guts tell me to run I'm out of there). Many people also say that my presence is extremely hard to ignore, that they relate me to the color yellow and I'm easy to spot on the crowd (probably bc I speak loudly and don't stop). I also like to see the nice in everyone and everything, and I am hopeful for stuff to change for the better.

On the downside, while I tend to be very happy overall, I have big moodswings where If I'm reminded of a big insecurity of mine (my weight, for example) I can get sad immediately. Also doesn't help that I'm a daydreamer and overthink a lot. Honesty would be a very important for there to be comunication in the relationship, although It's very easy to tell whenever I'm upset since I become cold and shut up.

In general, I do a lot of Physical contact (ofc, I ask first if the other person is comfortable with hugs and stuff) and like complimenting my partner.

Should also mention that I'm responsible but not organized, very carefree and silly

I like history (mostly Movements for the rights of the people, be it for the POC community, Lgbtq+, workers, etc), swimming, astrology and hearing people talk about their interests.

My dream aesthetic is a mix between cottagecore and Overly feminine clothes, I LOVE Pink and Orange, they are my favorite colors ♡

Although I tend to have problems with taking care of myself (I believe it's because of my adhd, but I'm getting better at it :D)

My pronouns are She/They, I'm a demigirl, demisexual and demiromantic, and have to get to meet people for me to fall in love.

My type would include people who like to tease (like compliment a lot just to watch the other person blush), people with many hobbies and have a sense of helping others. Bonus points if they ramble about their interests and we can have discussions about themes like History or personal morals.

Who I don't want: (Idk if they are included or not but just to be safe) none of the children please, also not anyone who is a hypocrite or coward bc not my type :/

I match you with

TFA Prowl

He is more on the introvert side though he converses with people easily. His personality works well with extroverted people as his calming presence brings a nice balance.

As I said he has a very calming personality so you don't really have to worry about confrontation with him

He adores your positive outlook and sweet nature. It’s one of the reasons he fell for you to begin with.

The good thing about him being calm means that he's able to handle any mood swings or sadness you might have. He's very good at helping you through it and making you feel better.

If you're feeling insecure he’ll always make sure you know how much he loves you and that he thinks you’re absolutely beautiful

Because he really does think you're gorgeous. He’s from Cybertron so he doesn't understand the issues you have with your body at first. But he's very intuitive so he quickly begins to understand that human society makes people feel bad for not having the exact body types they deem acceptable so he understands why you feel and react the way you do

Communication with him is very easy and he's also very in tune with you. Most of the time he's gonna know how you're feeling before you even say it

He’ll give you space if you need it, or if you just want him to be there with you he'll do that too. Whatever you need

He's not used to physical contact at first but he likes it if its with you

He helps keep you organized and you also help him loosen up and have fun

He is fascinated by human history so please talk with him about all of it because he is eager to learn and he is all about furthering the rights of marginalized people

He's been to space so he'd be happy to tell all about what he's seen and learned

He doesn't want to nag you to take care of yourself like he's your parent or something. So instead he will help you to find products or ways of doing things that will help you

We've seen how he is with Bumblebee so he is definitely someone who likes to tease, but with you it's more flirty. If you tease/flirt with him he's definitely a flustered mess, but he’ll turn around and do the same to you

[someguyinc]

hello i saw you in the notes talking about arthur and morgana's relationship and i would love to hear you talk more please. i am unhinged about them.

(no pressure tho if you don't feel like it)

this is literally the best thing someone could say to me after a 16 hr flight 😭 bless u anon

also me too. so i'm just gonna ramble ab my headcannons and then also their canon relationship below the cut bc it is so interesting to me and i really have a lot to say and i really mean. A LOT.

so let's start off with season 1/pre-canon and the source of all their problems: uther pendragon. uther pendragon is fucking insane and possibly one of the worst parents ever,,, like def top 10 worst fathers i think

pre-season 1 time line as I see it:

- he marries ygraine from the house of du bois after becoming king,, probably like 3-7 years after,, he claimed he loved her (heavily debatable!!) and she seemed to as well so they assumedly married for love

- now uther has a best friend at the time: Gorlois (now if this is his name-name or surname i'm not sure so i'm just going to go say surname since they're nobility) This man is known by Uther had the bravest man he's ever met,, and his wife the Lady Vivienne probably lost him in battle bc later in season 3,, Uther says a much and says Lady Vivienne was: "lonely so he consoled her"...

- now, this is where my headcannon comes in,, I'm pretty damn sure morgana is older than arthur,, meaning that I'm pretty sure that Uther cheated on ygraine out of that shared grief and around this time ygraine probably was showing growing signs of being barren/unable to become pregnant which probably worried the court ngl

- so morgana conception happens,, vivienne goes away,, gorlois thinks she's his,, during this time uther finally gives in and sacrifices ygraine's life for arthur's and ultimately blames it on arthur/all of magic (remember the talk w uther and nimueh when he says: i wish he'd [arthur] never been born bc it meant losing ygraine essentially like,,,. ok. wow.)

- now season 1: there is so much evidence uther is an abusive shit:

- he throws both of his children in jail whenever they toe the line in a way he doesn't find amusing (ie: s1e4 and s1e12)

- arthur straight up says (he's about 20/21 atp): i never knew you were proud of me,, in fact i always thought i was a disapointment (meaning: uther never went out of his way to show him otherwise for a solid 20-21 years.)

and uther doesn't actually say he's proud of him he just goes: i wouldn't wish for another son (after drugging him so he wouldn't duel being a hypocritical king)

so all of this: leads back to morgana and arthur's relationship

morgana and arthur in season 1 have a somewhat tentative relationship,, we can see that most of the kingdom thinks the two of them are going to marry one another (including themselves at times) ie: gwen saying morgana would make a great queen one day,, but they also bicker all the damn time

snipes here and there,, but ultimately it usually comes down to their differences in how they reacted to their upbringing from uther:

arthur became the dutiful/exceptional son: he became a knight at 20 (usually took knights till mid twenties-early thirties), later we learn he led druid raids pre-canon (this traumatized him also again fuck uther) this would also be exceptional seeing as he probably wasn't a fully fledged knight even then, and is known throughout Camelot (and most of Albion tbh) as a master swordsman,, and while he did have his own thoughts on magic he often bit his tounge in front of his father in order to prove himself,, we also know that unlike morgana: he learned exactly how to navigate around uther so he could do what he wanted against uther's will while not embarrassing in front of the court (ie: when he went to go save gwen after saying to his father and the court that it was probably a lost cause)

morgana was the people's princess,, but she def got the "i am my father's daughter" syndrome BADDDDD: we see in s1 she's often stood up to Uther in front of the court numerous times, so much so that when she gets thrown into prison (s1e12) it's not the first time,, arthur tells her: "i promised him that this would be the last time you acted out against him like this" (paraphrasing) and morgana replies "you're a good man, unlike your father" (line that makes me insane)

they are parallel from the start within these two episodes specifically!!! many may argue morgana was good and kind from the beginning,, but she often did things FOR HER OWN MOTIVES!!! when she helped gwen's father to escape without consulting gwen,, it confirmed it for me. she may have convinced herself it was for gwen,, but she never even asked,, she did it to piss of uther not thinking it all the way through,, opening his cell and leaving him to fend for himself against a bataillon of knights. now i'm not saying morgana has never done anything out of pure kindness,,

but whereas arthur is constantly set up as a righteous and noble man in his heart but his actions can appear to be... for lack of a better word, extremely dickish

morgana's actions appear to be kind and generous, but can often endanger those around her in her conquest for the things she wants, sometimes ending in death. (AGAIN NOT ALWAYS!!!)

NOW this leads me to the fact that once again they were the only two who grew up under Uther really and are the only ones who know what that's like,, they probably already felt more like brother and sister by the time s1 hit just bc of that but endured it bc they weren't blood and swallows the fact they were probably gonna be married but you can see it in the scenes alone,,

morgana does push arthur to be better and to challenge the things uther taught them bc that is what she instinctively does!! morgana questions uther and in return teacher arthur to question uther (ie: pushing arthur to save merlin in s1e4, helps him to strike down valiant s1e2, makes him argue back when gwen was wrongfully imprisoned s1e3) and we see that morgana does care for arthur!! she threatens sophia when she noticed something is off and often rushes to the defense of her friends,, her tactics can be destructive though just in a parallel way to arthur's

arthur's destructiveness comes from his inability to choose a side, or based his assumptions on prejudices something that becomes even more apparent when morgana turns away from Camelot and it's people

morgana was probably rooting for arthur as a king for a certain point,, but even though the grew up together and she should know arthur's MO is usually 'just say yes in front of dad and do whatever the fuck is just later' morgana doesn't trust him. and as her powers grow this also becomes more apparent and her support wanes until she believes someone else should be on the throne,,,

and when she learns that uther is her father??? that's when she flies off the deep end.

now for me morgana being older than arthur is one of the only reasons why she would have a valid claim to the throne!! we see that mithian as the only girl succeeded her father as QUEEN not just princess meaning the laws of succession COULD include women it just depended on the region,,

now imagine being morgana:

you grow up at home with your father, he is kind, brave, and gentle, and a fearsome warrior, he is the kings best friend. he dies and you move in probably around the age of 8 and you see this 6 year old boy. you later learn the kingdom expects the two of you to marry. you're still grieving but you know what this means. you take the etiquette lessons, you learn to wield the sword, you become proficient in horseback riding, you gain the education fitting of a queen. you are 15, the prince is 13, he is already one of the most promising squires. it's alright though you're learning to love him, not as a romance though (not anymore at least, he tried to flick his booger at you once at the age of 8, the flame was staunchly out out.) you two appreciate one another, you get older, it is improper for the two of you to be alone together, you witness your first execution. he's being killed for the crime of sorcery (he saved a little girl from a burning building), you don't understand. you meet your maidservant, she is one of the most lovely people to grace the earth. you love her, as a friend. you grow older, you're still expected to marry the prince (he is 18), he has killed many. he has watched even more die. he is different, you are different. you watch another man die for the crime of sorcery, you don't understand. two years pass, you're tormented by dreams you cannot comprehend but always seem to come true, a serving boy arrives, he changes the prince again. you watch another man die. you don't understand, but you hold your tounge now until later. the king's temper is short. years past and the sleeping draughts aren't working, your dreams are getting worse. your maidservant is in love with the prince. you're jealous, you don't understand. you think you have magic, you see the prince become his father. you don't understand, you just want someone to tell you it'll be alright. after years of anger and bitterness you finally understand, you hate the king and all he's done, the world would be better if he were gone, arthur would be better if he were gone. arthur loves him anyways and it kills you. you meet a woman who claims to be your sister, both of blood and in magic. you take her hand, she promises to teach you all there is to be taught. your anger for the king festers. the prince you once loved turns out to be your brother. the king you hate turns out to be your father. you beg him to recognize you, and give you the family name you were stripped of. he doesn't. you kill him. you kill s lot of people. you don't care if they're innocent or not anymore. you connive, and you plot, and you scheme. you try to kill the prince, who is now king. your sister dies. you miss your best friend, the handmaiden who is now queen. she says she hates you. you hate arthur. you die trying to make him as miserable as you.

now arthur:

one day your father brings a girl home, everyone is telling you that they you expect to marry. father doesnt say anything. you think she's pretty, you accidentally flick your booger at her and she looks at you like you've wiped horseshit on her dress. you watch a man die for the crime of magic. you don't understand, you will soon. your father looks at you like there is someone he can't stand to see. he cherishes this girl he's brought home. you work harder than any squire seen before. you get promoted early, everyone says it is just because of the king, you beat them in everything so they can't secondaries you ever again. you watch more sorcerers die, your father says it is because they killed your mother, you secretly feel like a bad person because you don't understand why all sorcerers deserve to die for the crime of one death. even if it is your mother. you twist her ring. your father's ward is beautiful, you try to impress her, she's too busy hanging out with her maidservant. you get older and complete your first druid camp raid, you don't understand, so many of them are women and children, so many of them die anyways. you change. you grow older, you become the youngest knight in camelot, you think it will turn your father's ward's attention to you, she's infatuated with owain, the oaf. you get older, and you meet the most insufferable boy with the most outrageous ears and the most obvious lies. he changes you. morgana becomes more distant. you learn that your mother's life was given for yours, you try to kill your father. the manservant you trust most in the world says that sorcerers lie, you finally understand. you hate sorcery and despise any practitioners of magic from now on. you grow older, you begin to fall in love with your sister's manservant, you understand her infatuation. you grow as a prince, and person, you gain alliances in unlikely places, you don't think you'll marry morgana anymore. you learn your father's ward is your sister, you watch as she usurps the throne. you don't understand. you fight back. you become king. you marry the love of your life. she betrays you with a close friend. you become lost. you forgive her, you trust again. you are fighting your sister. always. you don't even recognize her anymore, you wonder if you ever did. you later learn that magic was never evil, on your deathbed, and that your soulmate had it the whole time. you wonder about your sister. she tries to kill you again. she dies in your best friend's arms and all you can think is how she finally looks peaceful for the first time in forever. you die the same way not too long after.

anyways: morgana and arthur parallel each other so hard it's crazy,,, and the pendragons are a family of self-fulfilling prophecies

like that is your sister/brother and you love them and you hate them and nobody else couldn't possibly get it and they hate you but you will always love them and you are home but you can never go home and -!

[butch-reidentified]

hi, in a post you recently said 'if you're ever questioning if something you're experiencing in a relationship is healthy, please don't hesitate to reach out to me and ask', so i was wondering if this was okay? if not, please ignore and sorry for the convenience. i hope this isn't triggering but it includes bdsm and rape fantasies.

i'm very lucky to be in a relationship with a man who made it clear for day 1 that he wasn't going to hurt me during sex, pretend to force me, or engage with any of that. i used to be big time into bdsm but over the last 10yrs i've been doing more feminist reading and having conversations with others and tried to unpack all of that, which has left me wanting to distance myself from it. i stopped justifying and defending bdsm, stopped engaging with bdsm-content in fiction and stopped watching porn all together. i got more involved with anti-prostitution and porn advocacy too.

the problem is that i'm still engaging with it internally. it's like a switch flips in my head when i'm with my partner and i construct this world where i'm being forced but can't show it. i used to think it was because of prior trauma and i was trying to get a sense of control, but it just feels like i'm using that as an excuse. it's a big thing in the bdsm community to justify it by claiming you're 'working through your trauma' but i was supposed to be past that now. it's been years so i feel like i don't have a good reason to be still doing this.

do you have any advice? once again, thank you.

I'm glad you asked! it wasn't exactly what I was talking about in the post - more internal rather than interpersonal - but I actually can relate in a sense. my wife tells me that sometimes when I get super stoned (which I rarely do tbf), I talk about wanting some fucked up things. I definitely THINK about some fucked up things. I'm quite far out from any posttraumatic mental effects, so I also don't feel that that explains it, and I'm fairly sure I had some questionable fantasies prior to my traumas, too. i wouldn't call it kink, though, bc they're not inherently tied to sex nor arousing to me on their own. I think I like violence and adrenaline and always have, and I don't really care which direction the violence goes, I just find it fun. but that's not a "need," as men would have you believe. it's just a quirk of my personality, and while I choose not to engage with it outwardly (I don't start unnecessary fights but I don't shy away either), I also refuse to make myself ashamed by it. there is no such thing as a thought crime. your stances against prostitution, porn, and, yes, bdsm as well, are not compromised or hypocritical because you have those thoughts. let them be, observe them, and release them as feels right to you. i think the idea that we must analyze such things to death is rather Christian in nature and likely in origin: the idea that our thoughts and desires can be sinful themselves, or that they speak to who we "really" are. I think that's a load of shit. I don't believe anyone who would claim to have never thought (or even desired!) some really unhinged shit. humans are weird! I'm glad I have someone I can tell all my unhinged thoughts to without judgment, but none of it means I'd ever act on such things.

tldr, we all have some out of pocket thoughts (beyond just intrusive thoughts, to be clear!) and I don't believe there's anything wrong with that on its own, nor are we obligated to explain them

I don't expect everyone to agree with this, but it is where I stand on the matter

[theloveinc]

Can we know why she went from best friend to fat footed bitch please👀😂

No worries if not, I'm just up late

lol i actually think i called her a fat footed bitch BEFORE we stopped being friends (altho... probs not much before) becauseeeeee... the last year we were friends was rocky for me and her.

BUT, and prepare yourself: it's really LONG and convoluted because TECHNICALLY it was all a misunderstanding (and related to some unaddressed trauma she had), but basically... her and her sister INVITED me and a plus one (who ended up being my friend) to go see a concert with them and carpool to the train station together, where we'd all subway to the venue. This part all goes fine.

BUT, it's on the way home, after we've trained back to her car... when it's like 2 in the morning, that she (ex-best friend) tells us that she's not planning on taking me or my friend home. She's just driving back to her house where she'll leave us to do whatever for our own ride, BECAUSE, she says, "we never asked for her to carpool us back home."

And this is kind of a problem because... since we just assumed she'd give us a ride home, WE HAVE NO BACKUP PLAN, and neither my mom nor my friend's family is picking up the phone, and so essentially, if she doesn't drive us, we're stranded in the middle of the night.

Of course, as my friend argues (even though I know she'd never call one for herself bc she was terrified of men) we could've gotten an uber... but it's both really late at night and, because this was just after highschool and I WAS FRESHLY 18, just an awful idea.

But the thing that makes it even more weird... is like, as we're arguing, her sister (who literally co-owns the car with her) offers to drive instead... and it's only then that she finally agrees to take us home...

Except that, once we're on the road, SHE PURPOSEFULLY misses our exit and just goes to her house anyway??????? (and by this point, i'm crying, not really because i'm upset at the scenario as a whole, though that too, but because i think she's just not acting like a friend AND BEING hypocritical, as well as the girl who i invited is chronically ill and needs to get home for her medication and bathroom and etc. and I just feel so bad)

So we eventually get to her house... where, once arriving, she just fucks off!!!!!!! and leaves us outside!!! And thankfully, her sister (who is actually still my friend, I love her lol) offers to go back and drop us off at home...

But the whole thing just ends up spiraling because... WELL, there's a lot of reasons, lol:

I left a bunch of makeup and a jacket at her house and text her to make sure i can pick it up later... and she yells at me (over text) about always being selfish asking other people to do stuff for me

This starts another fight where I tell her I just want an apology for not driving me home and that i was never expecting her to drop off the makeup LOL

She doesn't apologize and instead texts a mutual friend trying to get her to talk to me too

and i just stop responding to her altogether

And by the time she messages me again, a couple months later (by which we're both in different states having started college), NOT WITH AN APOLOGY, just simply saying she didn't realize the whole thing would take such a toll, I'm still too hurt to talk to her.... and that's basically the end of our friendship.

OH AND THE WHOLE INSTAGRAM REPORTING THING happened bc her sister invited me to christmas dinner soon after that and she immediately uninvited me... and i made another post about her having made me cry, which her new friend sent, as well as all these other screenshots of posts I made, to her.

i also did eventually get her a birthday gift (as an olive branch) when i was finally not angry and hurt.... but she never ended up acknowledging it (which wouldn't have been super weird except... i was literally at her house celebrating with her sister and she never once spoke to me).

-

SO YEAH. You probably weren't expecting so much but... here it is!! took me like 45 minutes to type out and i'm pretty sure it's still not the best description but........... THAT'S HOW I GOT MY HEART BROKEN BY A FAT FOOTED BITCH (she's also a zionist now tho so lmaooo i really dodged a bullet there) !

HOPE THIS WAS A GOOD BEDTIME STORY ILY

[fireopal-tash]

This is probably the most controversial ask on this but do you hate how Connie was handled in future and something about her speech to the cgs's immaturity made her a bit hypocritical because she somehow contributed to Steven's meltdown? As well one of the reasons why you ship Steven with spinel and connverse shippers attacking you?

Again a very controversial loaded question, it's something I was wondering about because people not liking Connie and connverse shippers supposedly being toxic

Ok, this is going to be long!

(I'm unsure if it's really controversial, some people just take this stuff too seriously and too personally 😅)

-> Let's start with: I like Connverse. However, I liked it more before SUFuture or maybe way before, around the 3rd, 4th season? Those two acted closer to a puppy love (cute) rather than an actual romantic relationship, which makes sense since they were kids and experiencing all of that for the first time (I think)

I didn't take it very seriously as I was more interested on the story being told than the ships

-> Now, I don't hate Connie

(although she's not even close to my favourites, she's still cool as a character)

but yes, I do hate how she was handled in SUFuture. I can understand that the others were crying and saying how it was their fault and so not helping at the present moment,

(which, btw, it shows that they at least take responsibility for what they did, that they feel guilt and remorse, unlike some...)

but Connie's reaction... It left a very bitter taste and strong disgust. The shouting helps even less than crying. If she did that with me I wouldn't have been very happy with it, that's for sure.

And she's not even that different from the gems! She hurt Steven multiple times, especially on the emotional aspect of things - from the very first time they met to later on -

(example: giving him the silent treatment. I understand she was hurt, but he was hurt too. That was... not a kind thing to do, and they should just have talked it out, even if it takes many times. Communication is key, right? Also, what's up with Lion? I never understood why would Lion prefer to take Connie's side... It just doesn't make any sense)

She was young, so it is understandable that she would let her emotions get the best of her. But that doesn't excuse the fact that she didn't take responsibility for what she did to Steven (nor apologise or explain anything)

+ she lied to her own parents, again

(she lied many times, even after telling her parents about her training on how to use swords, example: Steven asking to marry her)

What she did was yell at the others and proceeded to do as you said: To be hypocritical

She literally didn't see what was in front of her: Steven falling apart (Steven made it pretty clear, actually!) so it's hard to understand how she didn't see it... Even worse, the fact that she had to act as if she knew better that everyone else when she's the youngest and with less experience. She has traumas of her own but the crew made her as if nothing ever happened to her. Honestly... Even a stranger could have noticed something weird going on with Steven!

I'm not saying that bc we are viewers, but because Steven was more obvious in certain scenes, and with Connie even more so

She didn't explain herself, didn't apologise, she just left him there, alone. She's smart, she should have seen it, shouldn't she? Well... If she's so smart, so brave, so strong, so skilled and so mature, why didn't she?

Unsurprisingly, her faults only appear when it becomes relevant to the plot and never to paint her as the one to be blamed, but Steven or others. But that's it. She was perfect for the rest of the show. No traumas, no problems, mature, bla bla bla

It's, frankly, very annoying and not at all relatable

It made me dislike her during Future. I would have preferred if the crew left Connie the way she was before... I hurts to see so much potential wasted or wrongly used

-> SUFuture has many odd things with the way the characters were behaving tbh (I can't blame it solely on the crew; they weren't given much to begin with, but still)

example: Spinel with her traumas, she's not just a clown or a toy. It doesn't makes sense for her to be suddenly sooo happy and normal and "fixed". Maybe the idea was that she was faking it... Idk, but it didn't feel right. Plus, she can understand Steven better than anyone, so why not use her?

Or Greg. Again, I understand he wasn't perfect. No one is. But like... He was actually a good father: He cared about Steven, he provided for him even if that meant not spending as much time with his son. And even if the crystal gems didn't know how to properly take care of a human kid, they aren't the only ones. We, as humans, can be worse than them at something we are supposed to be good at

+ Steven had opportunities to ask to go to school or the hospital, but he never did. Greg once told him he could go to School but Steven's response was: I'm with the crystal gems all the time. With Connie (and other people in Beach City) Steven probably learned a lot about what was normal for a human kid, like going to the hospital. He never said anything either. When he got hurt he never said anything to anyone, so how was Greg suppose to take him to the hospital? Or anyone else for that matter

Let's not forget the fact that gems are not citizens, so Steven technically doesn't exist. Plus, how much do humans actually know about gems? Even Beach City, as close as it is to gems, doesn't seem to understand or know anything about them

-> Personally, I don't know why Connverse (or even not Connverse) shippers attack Stevinel shippers, that's something that I will never understand despite all the... words used against us. And I do not care. Really, it's very immature of them, so why should I?

However, that is not the reason why I ship Steven and Spinel

Connverse and Stevinel are not opposites. Liking one doesn't automatically elimine the other

Ship wars are stupid, immature, and negative. Unwelcome. It shouldn't have ever existed. Many use ships as an excuse to hurt others without any regard, being anonymous making them 'brave' and uncaring about who's behind a screen, while also using the excuse of 'saving kids' - which they aren't-

I don't want any excuses, kids from real life were hurt, and it's not okay

-> Steven and Spinel have many similarities:

- they both felt abandoned (in their own way, at least)

- both have Pink Diamond/Rose Quartz in common. Although, Steven had his father and the crystal gems but he was not completely alone like Spinel was

(not in a family type of way, that's not how gems work unless they call themselves as such: siblings, parents, etc. Family in gems exists only since Steven was born, and only related to him. Literally. It was said by the crew. The Rose Quartzs from the zoo are a good example of that! The Diamonds can be and/or act like a family, but they really weren't, it's mainly fans who saw them as a dysfunctional family, and a good example of that, too)

- Both behave/react in similar ways

(Positive, happy and kind when 'younger', reaching to others, saying NO in that same way when someone they care about was leaving, their pain turning into anger against others and danger to themselves... Even changing their forms to assimilate/show the way they feel!)

- Both are pink, too xD

- They both are my favourite characters and are also the easiest ones to draw for me 🤔 😊 xD

-> Anyway, what I mean is that there's many reasons why people ship who they ship, whether bc of the aesthetic, their chemistry, their interactions...

I felt like they had potential. Potential to help each other, to understand each other, etcetera

Another thing. Spinel is a sign of growing up and leaving behind your childhood, forgetting too, and Steven was growing up. They both were a sign for the viewsers who were growing up, together, while watching the show

No more puppy love. Connie and Steven have a good friendship, but I don't see any romantic chemistry. To me it feels forced for them to be together in that way. It also makes me feel as if all childhood friends have to end up as romantic relationships just because they had a crush, or the fact that they were close. It feels like all shows do that, lately. It's tiring

[snow-and-saltea]

hummm. im just shooting into the dark with no expectation that anyone will actually answer me, but this is something ive been sitting on a bit.

usually when i experience something disturbing or traumatising or smth puts me in extreme grief, i don't talk to anyone about it. that's usually the default until me-on-therapy reminds me that, actually, you need to talk to people about these things, you need to let people know what you look like and how you feel.

but im confused. do i reach out to people as im experiencing them? bc on one hand i think that's bad bc im just putting this weight on them, knowingly, because i cant handle it myself. but on the other hand, when im left alone long enough, i can figure out the "answers" or reaffirm myself somewhat. or at least enough to keep myself manageable.

but like as i start to think about all the times i kept to myself to find the answers for myself... i realised that it wasn't smth i did naturally, it was just something i had to do to get by. a lot of my issues started with not being able to talk to someone about things and because i am and feel so alone in experiencing grief and sadness and anger, that in itself becomes a sort of "trigger" as well.

im just confused i guess. this might be a chicken or the egg first situation. im not sure if i was just predisposed to solve my own problems (and that in itself caused other accidental problems) or i was just forced to solve my own problems, and bc of doing it more, was able to get better at it even though it wasn't my natural inclination. but the answer is prolly somewhere in the middle; i am someone predisposed to try to figure things out on my own in my head both because it was convenient for me (didnt have to confront the fear of asking for help) and because it came naturally (not good at asking for help so i got better at it on my own).

i know that i'm very much an introvert though, which i feel confident in saying. even in positive or neutral times, i liked engaging with the outside world (Doing Stuff, talking w people etc), but i had no problem just absorbing things by reading or watching stuff and staying in my head about them. i'm trying to break out of my shell more about sharing myself w others to be friendly and create Good Vibes / encourage honesty and transparency w others (bc its important to me). but other than that, i don't have much of a desire for attention as a person, and i really like privacy as much as i'm allowed to have.

i do let my walls(?) down consciously when the situation necessitates, but it doesn't come easily or naturally for me to talk about myself, just because i like to flow along w the conversation getting to know others instead (but i realise that's hypocritical of me to only take in information and not give them out, so i try to make conscious effort towards that end). i've also been realising and discovering the small joys and fears that comes when someone sees you, in any shape or form, and how... energetic it makes me. the thought that someone thinks of me even when i am not there makes me tear up. the thought that i have people i might never meet wish me well makes me tear up, too. the thought that i could hurt and be hurt by these people makes me scared. but its all one and the same, so i try to welcome it all equally. only welcoming good times while chasing off bad ones makes for fair weather friends, which is definitely not what i want to be.

hummmm. im not sure where this thought leads me for now, but ill end this here and come back to it if ever. thank you to anyone who decides to read my rambling

[thekimspoblog]

I mean the fact that Vacuum Repair Guy wasn't involved in Kim's disappearance was a bit disappointing; that's at least partially what I'm getting at. That the two of them got embroiled in something so dangerous and yet when she up and left her witness-protection act was so shoddy. We seem to at least be in agreement that the ending was kind of rushed and weird, and that's leading to a lot of confusion about what the show was even trying to say.

I guess I'd need an example of one other time Jimmy's hurt feelings took precedent over letting Kim do whatever she wanted. Because I'd need both hands to count the times she did something which wounded his pride, and even if he complained he quickly chose to stuff it down and smile. That's not healthy either, but it shows how much of an exception for her he makes with his pettiness.

I get what you're saying, that Jimmy also avoids facing his problems. And you need to understand that even if I'm trying to paint Jimmy as a white knight, that's not a good thing. I just think that if we're talking about things Saul tells himself to be able to sleep at night, "Everyone already thinks the worst of me so why not prove them right" is only half the equation and "Everyone else hates me but they're all hypocrites and they're wrong about me because actually I'm a hopeless romantic and I'm doing the mature thing by handling the dirty work" is the other half. That's what was comfortable. But I reiterate: "dealing with his problems" in this context would have meant unburdening himself of this terrible secret of what happened to his colleague and rejoining the "right" side of the legal field by cooperating with Eriksen. And even in a parallel universe where he wanted to do that, he couldn't have. So this secret had to just sort of weigh on his mind and continue to warp his perception of morality.

A lot of this comes down to the fact that ironically we still never SAW an average day in the law offices of Saul Goodman. In BCS we get to see this devastating chain of events that lead up to him launching his practice, and in BrBa, we saw him interact with ONE client who was such a pain in the ass to work for that it eventually torpedoed his career. But we still aren't given key details like... what percentage of his clients were cartel and who were just regular poor people, whether Jimmy breaking the law to serve the interests of his clients was a regular thing, how often Mike offered him "jobs" and what kind, whether Jimmy ever rejected those job offers, or what his relationship to Gus was leading up to him recommending him to Walter.

No matter what the answers are to the above, most of this was probably of his own volition. But I just think it's silly to put Jimmy's time as Saul into either extreme of free will. He wasn't some helpless woobie who only did bad because the mean Mexicans made him do it. But I also think it undercuts the impact of the story to say that we watched this man spend six seasons building a cage for himself, and then conclude that the door was wide open and he could have left at any time. Yes, Jimmy had choices, he had lots of choices, he made bad choices, and so I think it makes sense to say that those bad choices trapped him. I'm pretty sure once you become a cartel lawyer, you can't just say "wait never mind". To say he wasn't reluctant about all of this ignores most of the scenes in the story. And if the events of BCS didn't culminate in him being more likely to be drafted into further cartel activity than any other upstanding lawyer in the city, then why did this character even need an origin story? If all this bullshit didn't serve to fuel a narrative where by the time Saul met Walt, he already felt like he had made too many mistakes and was past the point of no return, then we're back to Square 1 where Walt recruited some random ambulance-chaser, and he agreed because greed. I am distorting things a little; I admit that, but my point is that if you don't do that, then there's still a massive disconnect between BCS and BrBa. If Jimmy didn't feel the least bit trapped in his life as a criminal lawyer, then BCS only "explains" Saul Goodman in that it vaguely gestures at why he's such a glib asshole. All the talk of stupid mistakes escalating to dire consequences, all the talk of not realizing you're in over your head until it's too late, all the scenes of Jimmy sweating bullets, kneeling in the dirt, begging for his life and insisting he didn't think it would turn out this way, served no thematic purpose in the long term. And that would be dumb.

Also even if "duress" and "having no choice" are the same as far as the courts are concerned, as an omniscient audience casting judgement on JMM's soul, we can make a distinction. If someone puts a gun to your head and tells you to get in the car, it's still a choice to get in. Even if my little fill-in fic were true, that wouldn't mean Jimmy was a good person. Working in an industry that kills hundreds to protect the life of one woman (who is frankly kind of an asshole) would just be a different flavor of immoral. And it's a more interesting flavor than him just being heart-broken and cynical. Just because I think Jimmy would absolutely jump at the opportunity for some grand romantic gesture like turning himself in to clear Kim's name (because he's literally done this repeatedly before), and he looks down on Walt for not doing likewise, doesn't mean Jimmy can't be a selfish bastard in every other capacity. His "whatever makes Kim happy makes me happy" mantra IS selfish; it's selfishness by proxy. Even confessing at the end of Saul Gone was (as Mr. Acker put it) "saying whatever it takes to get what you want".

BCS ret-conned Saul's character into a man who would do anything for love, even if that thing was objectively evil. A foil to Walt where even if doing crimes actually did benefit his family, it still wouldn't justify screwing everyone else over. But even before that, you watch BrBa carefully and you can get the weird vibe that Saul cares more about Skyler than Walt did. But yeah, also sometimes lawyers can advise on the best course of action and still not take it themselves. Because again, in the bunker scene, when Saul talks about "facing the music" he's not really talking about the noble act of taking responsibility; he's talking about an act of damage control which would be too little too late, and Walt wasn't even willing to do that.

i forgot how cuckoo bananas crazy it is for Saul to give his “stay and face the music” speech to Walt in the basement of the vacuum place

[lady-of-the-spirit]

I still love LO (I have a soft spot for most things Hades x Persephone related 😅), but I really wish Hades' obvious special treatment of Persephone was actually treated as such. Not even neccesarily by Hades and Persephone, but just make it clear that Hades is in the wrong here. You know what would be funny? If or when Persephone is put to work again, she actually proves to be so bad at it that Hades finally sees what everyone else has been telling him this entire time.

Also, the age difference. Sure, they're gods. But given how shocked Hades was that Persephone was only sixteen and not sixteen hundred, they clearly have established age limits. I think I saw this in another Hades and Persephone comic too. Point is, why not just go the Rapunzel route and just make Persephone into a very sheltered adult? Or just not bring up the age thing at all.

And Persephone looking like Rhea... Oedipus complex much? Unless it's just a visual thing, which doesn't really help, either.

Honestly, out of all the things in this series I'm most annoyed with, it's actually a pretty minor one and that would be with how Hestia has been portrayed so far. Everyone else more or less has something in common with their original counterpart in one way or another, but Hestia is just made out to be hypocritical and borderline condescending. Even as someone who tends to separate myth from adaptation, it doesn't make it any less annoying. Hestia is an incredibly minor character in general and I'm not even a devotee, so it shouldn't bother me this much, but it does, and I! Don't! Know! Why!

One thing this did make me realize though is that I don't mind Athena being in a relationship since I literally thought nothing of it when her being with Hestia was confirmed (or maybe I'm just desensitized to it at this point), it's her having children is what I have a problem with (looking at you, CHB!). Although, you would think that if any of the virgin goddesses were to be in a relationship, it'd be Artemis and now I kinda want an AU where her and Athena are either pining after each other from afar or are secretly dating and Hestia is just completely oblivious to it either way.

Sorry for the rant, btw! I just have a lot of feelings right now!

Always feel free to rant in my inbox anon! I welcome it.

ESPECIALLY BECAUSE YOU'RE RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING.

(my own rants below the cut)

Persephone was hired without a proper interview and without knowing how to use a computer or the software her job required. That just SCREAMS special treatment. I've said before, while Persephone may have won the job "fairly" through the chess game, I HIGHLY doubt that Hades would have given anyone other than Persephone the chance to play him.

Really, the fault of Persephone being underqualified for the job lies with Hera, Hecate, and Hades - Hera for forcing Persephone to go to the job, Hecate for not making sure Persephone knew what she was doing, and Hades for letting everything she does slide. Her lack of qualifications mostly had to do with her not knowing how to work the software. She did get Minthe to show her how to use it, but I don't think we got the chance to see if she became better at her job afterwards. so it's anyone's guess if she can actually do her job now.

I would not have a problem with the special treatment Hades gives her if the narrative didn't go out of its way to show that it wasn't special treatment. Persephone is a paid intern and Hades says himself he does not pay the other interns. This is BLATANT favouritism but it's never brought up. Instead we get Hades being all "this isn't special treatment I'm just doing this with her bc blah blah blah" and it's BULLSHIT.

I'VE BROUGHT UP THE AGE THING BEFORE AND I SAID THIS EXACT SAME THING. The age thing didn't need to be a factor at all! Like, they're immortal gods, we don't need to know their physical ages. Why should we care? They're immortal and they're GODS. Persephone could have passed for a very small woman.

The Rhea thing bothers me SO MUCH. She and Persephone could pass as mother and daughter more than Persephone and Demeter. Add that to the way that Hades is called "a spitting image of Cronus" (and the parallel between Hermes saying his mom deserves nice things and Hades saying Persephone deserves nice things) sets off some warning bells. Also? Rhea should have been green and purple instead of Demeter. Hades takes Cronus's colouring, Zeus and Poseidon get Rhea's colouring. Automatically makes way more sense and gets rid of the weirdness of Persephone looking exactly like Hades' mom.

Anon I agree SO HARD with you on Hestia. I'm also not a devotee or worshiper or anything, but I always liked Hestia most out of the pantheon ever since I was little, and her portrayal in LO offended me almost on a personal level. Like, she's a goddess who just wants everyone to be kind and avoid family drama!! She doesn't even get any big myths!!! why'd LO do her so dirty?!

also I want that pining au now. someone get on that. someone give Artemis some nice things, she really needs them.

Yeah, overall I still enjoy Lore Olympus enough to not cut myself off from it entirely, and I want to see how things work out, and I’m not immune to cute HxP moments, but jeez does this series have a lot of problems. I don’t think I was this vocal about this series until after I became more critical of it lmao

[noro-noro-noro]

I'm not a huge Ganyu fan, but why do you hate her so much 😭

i'm glad you asked!! this got long so i’m putting it under a readmore

i think she is so boring, & i think she is ugly. the horns are cute. red horns on light blue hair is cute! but the hairstyle sucks. the outfit sucks. i'm sick to death of seeing ganyu art with massive meat globes. it's not even sexy!! i feel uncomfortable for her!!!! and are you seriously wearing a cowbell???? a cowbell over your skintight figure-hugging suit & then some kindd of "skirt" thing if you could even call it that. you're the secretary for the most powerful woman in liyue & you dress like this. there are better looking characters in game you could sexualize & people choose ganyu. and her NA strings show her ass every 3 seconds. to be fair nobody uses her NA but like ....mihoyo recently got yelled at by a group for having characters be too sexy, which is why 4 characters got alt skins that were more conservative. and ganyu is still going to show ass. (to be fair a lot of female characters show ass too just for like...moving and breathing. jumping. NA strings. swimming. & i also hate that. @ ayaka)

i don't like her voice acting either - i'm sure her VAs work very hard!! & that's fine!! but i'm tired of all these unnecessarily high pitched voices. this is a problem with..i guess the industrry?? maybe?? lots of asian media go with the "high pitched voice = cute" kind of thing & i don't like it. anyway it's not a specific problem that ganyu invented, but it's another reason i don't like her.

and there are 10 billion overworked waifu type characters in the game already, & she's like "woe is me...i'm so lonely in the human world...i'm the only adepti in human society (yanfei is right there).....oh no there was a misunderstanding so i'm running away forever without trying to clear it up.." how are you gonna be 200+ years old & act like this. i like seeing her when she's comfortable in situations. it's annoying that the only times i remember seeing her comfortable in positions is when she's working. i hate how her overwhelming fandom characterization a lot of people to characterize her as a stupid shy blushing socially-clueless idiot. i barely remember her story quest.

you may think this is hypocritical bc razor is similar at first glance, with the whole “oh no, i don’t fit into wolf society, & i don’t fit into human society! what’s a little guy to do?” except that ganyu has had her entire life to feel like she doesn’t fit in & hasn’t made any progress towards solving it. razor gets kicked out off wolf society due to his actions protecting humans in his story quest, which i guess happens relatively recently in the timeline of the game. this happens like a week or two ago. he’s also just a kid faced with a hard decision. i’m sure whenever they make his story quest part 2, we’ll see how he deals with it then. also i think razor is cuter & i like his design, his voice acting, his playstyle, etc etc.

& even though she's a great cryo dps, her playstyle is so boring... just go stand on the other side of the room & click & hold & you can only attack once every like 5 seconds!! admittedly if your ganyu is built well you can hit like 20-50k damage on original hit + bloom damage if you crit, but you know who else can do 20-50k damage in 5 seconds? my razor hits for 5-20k on average, & it doesn't take NEARLY as long for him to do so - i think he can do his full NA combo in 5 seconds for ~60k if he crits on every hit. which he might not. to be fair. anyway one Hu Tao crit vape CA on a normal enemy does like 60k & that takes one second. Itto can output like 200k damage during his Q in 5 seconds. ganyu does have AOE on her charged shots, which is nice, but I dislike bow charged attack playstyles sooooo much. i need a cryo dps but i hate her so bad i skipped her for ayaka, who i also really dislike personality-wise but at least she’s fun to play.

thsi doesn't mean i'll flame anyone i run into that uses ganyu. if you like ganyu, good for you! especially if you're playing ganyu & about to carry me in a domain or something. this “barfo-ness” only applies when she appears in story quests. for me, personally, i'm not about any of that. her only appeal to me is her position in the meta. & sometimes when artists draw her in alternate outfits. & also since she’s a few hundred years old, she can probably share a lot of lore with us, or tell me about zhongli. i love grandpa

[autumn-foxfire]

Seen too many people say Tomie was a good mom because "she still loved him!" "she got him that plushie!" "she gave him that letter!" And I'm trying so hard not to use the "yeah but it squicks me out bc she reminds me of my mom esp when people write meta explaining her" card bc I know you're not supposed to project on fictional characters like that, yada yada can't be a hypocrite with what we say to villain stans.

(+) but its just so unhealthy. I hate seeing Hawks feel guilty about "turning his back on her" and "not saving her" when he's been expected to since he was born. And he's not obliged to care about abusive or toxic parents. And who tf says he didn't save her, ahem. She should take some responsibility herself. He literally went through all that training and saved her from poverty. Being proud of him doesn't mean much when she was the one asking why he was even born or what good was he

(+) until money came knocking in the form of the Hpsc. And look, I get it. Not all bad parents will be on "be utter crap" mode 24/7, there's gonna be cooldown periods where they're semi-decent. And it shouldn't erase the hurt, it doesn't make all the bad times "okay" all of a sudden. But I think it hurts because Hawks is so forgiving. He doesn't mind. That one moment does wonders to make her a more preferable parent to him

(+) even tho I think her true colors would be right back to how she was before without that fancy house and her child bringing in all these luxuries. "Let's hope you grow up as strong as this guy." Doesn't feel as sweet to me, I'm sorry. Maybe she means it? Hori always sprinkles in good and bad traits. It's realistic and complex, but I need to think it over more. My feelings keep changing about this line.

(+) Rn I'm stuck on "it's just a comment, it was before she presumably got worse, anyone could say that to their child but is it hope out of care or hope bc anything else would make Keigo so pointless?" Still. Doesn't. Erase. How. She. Hurt. Him. I'll respect Hawks's feelings about this, but I don't think its healthy for him to feel guilty like this. Give him a better family please, its obvious his sense of self-worth came from her.

I understand how you feel Nonnie and I think on this matter, it comes down more to personal feelings rather than hard facts.

For me, I agree with your view that Tomie wasn’t a good mother. She was neglective to him at the worst and verbally abusive to him too and has probably been the root to many of Hawks self-esteem issues that we’ve seen him express in adulthood.

I think Tomie’s feeling for Hawks were complicated because she was an abused and mentally ill woman. Hawks was clearly an unwanted child (...and damn does that hurt to write) whose birth caused issues for her and her relationship with his bastard father and we see this expressed many times in the chapter (with both parents berating him for being born like he had any choice in that matter).

However, her going out to buy him the Endeavor plushie and going against the rules set by their abuser to do so also shows us that she does care about Hawks, even if a little. Sure Hawks might have excused it as “to shut him up” but it takes more then just that to go against an abuser and her comment to Hawks about hoping he grew up to be as strong as Endeavor also shows us she cares about him.

Tomie may have loved Hawks but it requires more then just love to be a good mother. I’d argue that Tomie was a bad parent towards Hawks and her treatment towards him shouldn’t just be brushed off because she was caring at times.

Her running away from her problems again, putting herself above the life of her son, shows us that she’s not a good parent, in my opinion. Just like how she put her child at risk by making him homeless, she put him at risk once again and can’t even bring herself to apologise to him for doing so. She’s not ready to face her problems and if she keeps running, I don’t think she ever will be.

Hearing Hawks blame himself for not “saving” his mother hurt me too because it should never be the obligation of the children to save their parents, especially ones who have hurt them in the past and he’s done plenty for her to begin with. However I think (and hope) this was just to showcase to us more of Hawks more negative traits where he tries to blame himself for everything that goes wrong (like he did when the League joined up with the MLA and formed the PLF).

I hope someone tells Hawks there is nothing wrong with cutting ties with someone who has hurt you too much and you don’t have to “save” them at the expense of yourself just because you’re a good person. I don’t want him to blame himself for Tomie anymore.

...Hawks past hurts me so much because it’s such a complicated situation where he was failed by both his parents T-T

[calpalsworld]

Not "autistic anon," but also autistic, (being called maybe ableist made me want to put this out there before go to bed) i thought Zane was depicted that way purposefully by the writers. He has stereotypical traits like taking things literally, and has an actual humor switch. The writers have done things with Zane before like have him lose bodily autonomy (during that one Wu's teas short) and did something with his voice be it making him unable to be understood or talking too loud and the forced pirate voice by Jay. (what you're doing isn't too different from that, right?) I thought it was just a little iffy to distort his body and memory bc that could be interpreted as something not that I'm sure what exactly, it's some kind of disability. I dunno. I'm not good with putting this to words. I hope this makes sense.

Sorry I went to bed but now I’m awake 😭

Also I ended up totally spilling all my thoughts here rather than only specifically replying to you please forgive me context: my scary zane concept design, & my ninjago rewrite i refer to a lot 

Im a little confused but I think I get what you're saying? You're saying the Ninjago writers absolutely DON'T write Zane well (you listed examples of this) and you don't want me to fall into the same trap?

I had the opposite logic earlier. I thought: If Ninjago writers made Zane have stereotypical autisitic traits while also being a dehumanized robot, I may as well embrace it, say he is autistic blatantly, while also making him do funny/cool non-human robot things, so its clear as possible the two aspects of his character are literal and separate and not a metaphor for each other. But you're right! I do have a choice and I dont have to embrace things! :)

Like there were a couple ways I was gonna reject the original, for example, I never wanted Zane to have a funny switch, and I hated how other characters could fuck with Zane and he didn't even care 😬. I want to change that stuff. So youre right, if I am changing shit like that, it would be counterproductive for ME to GIVE him MORE traits along that theme. 😬😬😬 I should try to feel less obligated to portray Zane like he originally is. I still like the concept of "scary zane" (for reasons i explain below the cut) but I might tone it down a bit like with the claws and weird proportions and shit. I’d def make him look more skeletal and undead. That was my original intention, but i didnt execute it as good as I could have.... idk if anyone could tell thats what he was supposed to be like...my bad! But rn I dont wanna redesign him I wanna draw other stuff like normal alive Zane. Sorry LMAO 😳. Like I said in some earlier asks I think, I think Im gonna focus rn on how I should portray season 1 normal not dead Zane so thank you and feel free to share any other Zane thoughts ^_^ SOME OTHER THOUGHTS:

Also I Wanna Argue Some Stuff But I Understand its a Weak Argument Since All of This Context was Just In My Brain (so don't take this as an argument, just as me rambling): I don't want messed up things to happen to Zane and for it to just be ignored. I think if Zane is going to have fucked up things happen to him, as all characters must, its best for it to happen during a season where he actually addresses his feelings about being a robot (learning to accept that he will always be himself, regardless if hes "human" or the "original" or whatever. (thats how I always interpreted his emotions)). But I wouldn't have the other Ninja be very phased by Zane's looks because the whole point is they already love who he is (seasons 1-3 were about getting to know Zane) and now Zane himself just has to learn the physical, robot part of him is okay. Its about person-hood rather than humanity. Because the season focuses around Zane's soul, and because he lost his original body, I feel like I could mess around with his current, temporary body and have fun and make it scary. Because that body should be irrelevant. I understand it possibly being upsetting for an autistic character to be designed like this, but other people I talked to see it the opposite way. They find it comforting for him to look so different but still be himself and be so loved. SO IM ABSOLUTELY NOT saying its wrong to be bothered or to hate it or to feel any way. Just that I personally think it would be cool for Zane to be portrayed with a little spice lol, so thats why I like scary Zane for season 4.

Another Thing I Wannna Say But Is REALLY Hypocritical: (this isnt directed at anyone I just REALLY want to say this) I know I say "this is Zane but scary, he looks like fnaf" so he's obviously dehumanized, but I always felt like "scary" is more of an objective fact. Its an instinct. But what's "not human" is subjective. I think there is a problem with saying anything different from "average" human is dehumanized because that could extend to real people. Lol I know its bad for me to compare FNAF-ass Zane to real people, but I mean he could be real. People can have exposed teeth, and people can be shaped weird. And when someone first sees a person who looks like that they'll probably think "woah those features are scary" by instinct. And that surprise doesn't make someone ableist obviously. But bring that person’s humanity into question is NOT an instinct, and is fucked to shit. This is kinda a bad point for me to make since its about the fictional FNAF Zane I drew, and I am NOT implying ANYONE was thinking like this. [especially not the original asker anon who I am totally forgetting about at this point OOPS]. But I just thought it was an opinion of mine I couldn't go without mentioning when talking about dehumanization and disabilities.

^^^ I think you (anon) understand what I mean and might’ve said the exact same thing as me if you were writing a long ass response? I think this because you started to bring physical disabilities up and you said it was "a little iffy." ^_^ So we agree, but I don't see Zane's relation to real life disabilities as "a little iffy" I see it more like "complicated"? IF THAT DIFFERENCE EVEN MAKES ANY SENSE?????? I feel like a lot of things about Zane are really just complicated and need the right context, rather than the concepts necessarily being wrong -- NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT! THATS THE WHOLE REASON I DO THIS STUPID REWRITE! XD thats why a lot of my rewrite SO FAR has been the same concepts and plot beats, but different dialogue n specifics and such. I like a lot of concepts in Ninjago but I dont think they were presented correctly.....! :( So I guess all we can do is wait and see if I make Zane offensive or not....???

Also something about the memory part - yeah i agree i was surprised no one thought that was weird to make jokes out of his memory issues..... BUT I am like 100% firm on making his memory take longer to come back because I think its stupid how quick Zane was able to recover from literally dying. Like its just dumb to me. Hate it. (also bc memory & soul mechanics is ummm kinda important in my rewrite.... for reasons). Another memory thing btw, I was going to make his original amnesia come from hitting his head in an attack against the Skulkin when they stole his dads corpse, rather than his dad fucking choosing to make him forget. (its a sweet & iconic scene, but Um, WHY?!!!?!?!?!?) He has to follow data recovery instructions he finds in his dads diary. I think in that context it makes moments of memory loss somewhat different for Zane's character? Instead of loss of autonomy associated with disability, its a literal violent loss of autonomy associated with being traumatized by physical force. Idk how to phrase it exactly but I think that makes some vibes different?

Sorry, I think I got really distracted, and I don't know if I responded well to your points. Because uhhhh I think I agree with your stance actually? If I understand correctly? Fuck Ninjago writers for making the robot lose autonomy (a stereotypical robot theme) while also making him seem clearly autistic (NOT A HAPPY THEME FOR AUTISTIC PEOPLE) and not addressing it. And also auuugh Zane with a weird body is a difficult topic - kinda sussy pretty iffy.

Lol anyway idk if this made any sense and I REALLY rambled on you. but this was nice 👉👈 more Zane criticism pls love you and i love zane. i hope u dont feel mad at me because then it would be weird that im saying that lol. if you do feel mad at me tho you can send another ask (ILL TRY TO JUST LISTEN NOT RAMBLE NEXT TIME) but assuming ur chill rn, love you thnx

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[bciwasinlove]

Hi. I have not been on twitter or even in the fandom long enough so i came here to ask you about something. What's with the song claiming thing? Suddenly ziams are claiming songs that have been claimed as larry song. No I'm not gate keeping. Pardon my word choice.I'm not English. But I'm just curious. As long as i have been in this fandom, no control was a larry song the moment it came out and everyone was ok with it and even ziams never claimed it before.now suddenly they are like oh liam also wrote it? Home has always been larry song considering the timeline, him leaking and all, ziams never claimed it before, now suddenly home is a ziam song too? 18 was taken as a larry song from the moment ed said it was written from 1D perspective and everyone was ok with it considering how Louis used to literally serenade Harry like turning his whole body,changing pronouns etc. No one had a problem untill now. Suddenly in 2020/21 ziams are claiming it. Why didn’t they do it before? Why now? I'm just curious.

Warning selfies have been a thing with Louis for years. Now suddenly it is linked with liam too? How? Did he do it before or something? I genuinely don't know. So let me know plz.

The whole devlin thing, devlin album came out in 2017 i guess and they comparing Louis tweet with zayn tweeting that is from 2016. How does that make sense?

Also some people say larry closeting didn’t work but ziam did...awful thing to say. If it didn’t work then there wouldn’t be so many antis and they are still going through so much. People wouldn’t believe Harry dates every woman that breaths around him. And they claim there are two bbg in ziam relationship right? Why did they need two bbg if it worked? I mean if the closeting worked? Bbg has nothing to do with relationships.

Idk if ziam was real or not but I'm sure gigi was pregnant, she had that symptoms, pregnancy glow,tired face and all. Now whoever the father may be..idk.

I'm not convinced about ziam and how does that make me hypocrite? Also there are some "if this counts(larry),this counts too(ziam)" thread. what's with the comparison?

Sorry about the rant.

Hello anon wow this is long a lot to unpack so I'll start with your song questions.

Idk why ziammies are suddenly trying to claim songs that have ALWAYS been larry related. Especially when Liam said in an interview that Louis and him were a song writing duo for 1D BUT that he wrote the melodies and it was Louis who wrote the song lyrics. Last I checked melodies don't equal meaning of a song so how are these songs about ziam?

Some examples of this....

They are trying to claim Home but Liam said the song was personal to Louis and how when he read the lyrics he didn't want to change them. Home is also a direct response to If I Could Fly with ONLY Harry on the credits. Home was leaked by Louis the night of Belfest when Larry found out BG was being taken pasted the birth of a kid and it pissed off Louis so he leaked Home as payback bc it was clearly a loud song management didn't want on the album.

They are trying to claim 18 but the song was written by Ed who said [compared to other 1D songs he wrote for them] he wrote 18 with a 1D member in mind. [That is why we claim the song at all.] Ed was closeted in the band to Harry next being Louis and Niall he was the least closeted to Zayn and Liam. Side note Ed has a song called Friends that he said was about 2 friends of his who fell in love and when a fan yelled L&H he laughed/smirked and said init so it makes the most sense 18 was written with Harry in mind. Plus 18 is about meeting/loving someone sense they were 18 and it was only Louis who was 18 when they all met and it was Harry who would scream NO 16 when singing the song. Also larry changed the lyrics to HIM and would stare directly at each other when singing 18 livem According to ziam MPs ziam weren't a couple until at least 2 years into the band so why would 18 make sense for them also given they were both 17 when they met & none ever went NO 17 when singing it.

They are trying to claim No Control but that song as we know is about the morning after sex and the second round they end up having. Like stated before Louis wrote the lyrics to 1D songs and Niall plus Larry always made it DAMN CLEAR what that song was about. Also remember when Harry would always jam out hard core when Louis would sing his part in No Control aka majority of the song. Yeah that song is Louis song no doubt.

They try to claim Alive which makes no sense bc Zayn nor Liam is on the credits at all only Louis. They say it's bc Liam said he related to the song ok I see that but still he didn't write it and still how does this song equate to ziam? Alive is more a song used as proof Louis isn't straight bc it's about self exceptance of who you are even tho others around you for along time made u feel there is something wrong with you. It's about Louis who is more confident part way through the story being told and then helping his lover [who seems to be a bit insecure about themselves] except and love who they are. Since Liam didn't write on it the relationship aspect couldn't be about him and Zayn. Since he said he just relates to Alive at BEST it could mean he might not be straight but it can't be used as proof of who his partner is when he didn't write on it.

There's others but I think you get the point they have always been larry or hinting at Louis sexuality songs so I don't get why or how they are suddenly saying their ziam songs? Myself @lovemylarents and @fearlessmoon09 think bored people in quarantine is what happened to change the landscape.

To your next question warning selfies...

So warning selfies was something Louis did everytime something BG stunt related was going to happen. He started it and did it a ton back in 2016/17 when BG stunting was massive for him. Liam never had anything to do with warning selfies and Louis warning selfies were ALWAYS like I said BG related so suddenly ziammies going Liam does warning selfies for things involving Maya or Gigi makes no sense. It was ALWAYS a Louis thing.

For the Devlin thing...

You hit the nail on the coffin with that one the album with the song Cold Blooded that had the lyrics "so is it true XXXX fathered a baby? I don't really think so, if you ask me he don't like ladies. Could have been HARRY, yeah, I bet it was HARRY" [emphasis on Harry bc I saw a ziammie change the lyrics to Liam] came out in 2017 while Zayns tweet was done in 2016. Unlike Louis tweet which was specifically about this album not just the artist and tweeted during the height of BG stunting. So not the best comparison. They really should fact check before making these "larries are hypocrites" threads bc veteran larries know and fact check everything.

Next thing you mentioned what I call their slogan "larries closeting didn't work but ziams did that is why less talk about/believe in ziam then larry" piss me off so much and what you said it right. If larry's closeting didn't work then we wouldn't be here complaing about how the GP sees Harry as a queerbaiting womanizer, how solo henries who want to have sex and suck Harry's dick exist and how some locals don't want to join Louis fandom bc they think Louis and his fans are homophobic or that twarries exist thinking Louis is a deadbeat dad. Tell me again ziammies how their closeting didn't work? It is so invalidating to everything larry has been put through. Also if larry's closeting didn't work but ziams did then why did they need 2 BGs for Ziam and only one for Larry? Myself @kaybutlarry @babyhoney-28 and @onlythebravestan are still waiting on an answer to that question haven't gotten one.

As you said about Gigi yes she definitely looked more pregnant then Briana ever did. The reason I don't believe in their BG with Gigi is bc their story is inconsistenent. Side note back when Liam had a kid no one besides a few on tumblr ever said it was BG 2.0 they didn't start saying BG 2&3 until Gigi happened. Back to inconsistenences so their original story when we first learned Gigi was pregnant was it's fake just like Briana there's no kid, then when Gigi did the livesteam showing she had a bump and a round face you get when pregnant the story changed to she's pregnant the kid is just not Zayn's.

Then I recently saw some who [after the kid was born] went back to the story the kid is fake there is no kid OR they are using a child actor. Unlike Louis BG they don't have a consistent story that makes sense. Also the kids are never shown unlike with Louis kid F gets posted every damn day with creepy and bad photoshop, and a million articles about how he is Louis twin to shove it down our throats the kid is Louis. The situations have NEVER been the same with Louis vs even just Liam kid.

To your last point ziammies keep calling and making threads about how larries are hypocrites bc we don't believe what they do which is damn annoying bc they constantly say just leave us alone why do you care we exist but then constantly make threads like that getting mad we aren't all ziammies. If your going to make threads against us then yeah were going to say something and respond to your threads the way we would to a debunking larry anti thread. Their threads like that are either using funny coincidences of larry that we don't use as concrete proof to compare to ziam OR their ziam version of our proof has been debunked already like the Ziam Levine Stylinson sticker on the bears. [If you want more info on that ask @lovemylarents.]

They constantly take what is a larry proof and say it's also about ziam [Example the songs] or have a ziam proof that mirrors a larry proof. [Example the devlin thing or selfies] In their threads they always compare miniscule larry things that aren't our MAIN proof. See the miniscule proofs are the house and the big proofs are the concrete foundation that without it those miniscule things would not be able to really count as proof of larry and the larry house would fall. Ziammies ONLY have miniscule proof not a very solid foundation so I'm unsure how long their house will last.

I have been in this fandom for 10 years I have seen MANY ships come and go [Examples: Ziam, Ziall and Narry] but the one ship that has always been here was Larry. Larries have been here for 10 years, Larries are the ones who are talked about in the media, Larries are the ones constsntly gaslighted, Larry is the one ship that needs to be denied a bunch [poorly might I add] there's NEVER been any other ship or ship group people have hated, gone against or talked about this much besides Larries/Larry.

Funny [not for us] but funny that Liam goes through all the trouble of gaslighting Larries and talking about EVERY Louis stunt but he never mentioned Ziam which is a ship that actually involves him or the Ziammies who say Bear isn't his kid. Why did he talk about US and not THEM which involve him? Also funny Liam can easily say the word Ziam but Louis can't pronounce an EASY @ just bc it has the word Eroda in it.

My mutrals and I all agreed we didn't give af that ziammies existed until they kept talking shit about how we aren't ziams to and then go why are larries acting like antis hating us. First off it was NEVER larries hating on them it was toxic solo Zsquad and solo Liam stans who were. We didn't get involved until the entire tl was LARRIES ARE HATING US AND BEING HYPOCRITES. Second off and my last thought it's easy if you don't want us in your replies then don't make threads about us being hypocrites and use easily debunked ziam proof or miniscule larry proof to mirror bc we will point it out bc you think were hypocrites thank you.

[olwolo]

Oh yeah it's pretty much a metagame thing lol it's hard to point out where things end and start tho bc like one of the reasons I feel that c!tubbo is like that is bc cc!tubbo just really wants to play minecraft with his buddies lmao so ig it's hard to distinguish between both so that's probably why the audience kind of think like that. Like when phil and techno heard that tommy died and stuff like that. And yeah I used to be kinda :// about clingy duo drifting apart but you're so right, and that last stream before wilbur came back just shows how much they are still there for each other despite carrying on with their lives, it's really refreshing to see they grow more independent and strong but somewhat together. Tommy had the hotel, tubbo and snowchester and ranboo with the syndicate and just living with phil and techno overall just seems like a healthier thing because despite all that, tommy still calls for help when he needs to face his trauma and mine stone for wilbur etc etc. Really nice to see ugh c!bench trio my beloved.

And UGH I KNOW RIGHT? C!wilbur @ big q be like "you're being petty and I love it" meanwhile I'm right here @ Wilbur like "you're being petty and and I love it." Man is out there lowkey ignoring everything around him and only listening when he wants to ugh fucking hypocrite (unfortunately, affectionate). Cc!wilbur really knows how to stick it to the man and like, to every single one of his viewers lmao and I love how c!quackity is like really holding himself from giving a shit to whatever he's planning!! We love character development and MAN imagine both wilbur and techno meeting at the prison like... how awkward would that be for techno lmao if they managed to put quackity in there returning from his daily visit I wouldn't mind either. But real talk here, what are your thoughts about techno helping dream break out of the prison? I need a specialist opinion for this bc my mind has been all over the place for that lol it seems like something that will eventually happen but ?? idk if I want that tbh ?? IT'S WEIRD bc IT'S COOL but also,,, idk,,, they always surprise me with these kind of stuff too so there's that and maybe I'm c!techno apologist so my opinion really isn't reliable lmao 🧨

yupp the metagaming seems to be a problem for some of the audience and from what i've seen it leads to unnecessary drama and shitting on characters for ccs just doing a bit or applying fanon to canon... personally i tend to heavily disconnect the characters from the ccs when i interpret the story which is very helpful imo

and god, my thoughts are all over the place rn but. bench trio. yeah. as for the breakout. spoilers for techno's stream under the cut:

alright, i'm pretty sure c!techno is going to help c!dream escape lol and personally i cannot wait for more team chaos content. i think it's safe to assume that techno will escape the prison using the statis chamber when dream finishes writing down everything techno asks for regarding the prison and will probably break him out after that? can't really tell if phil will get involved but i wouldn't be surprised, same thing about niki and ranboo. though it would be interesting to maybe see wilbur involved in the breakout plan since i don't see him being able to visit anytime soon dsjdkfl i just want techno, dream and wilbur to interact even if briefly cause i cherish the antagonistic dynamic they had going on around the 16th. though i'm completely prepared for something to happen that will just derail my expectations for where this storyline will go at any moment as always. either way dream and techno being roommates is hysterical to me

[la-paritalienne]

hi, I hope I'm not bothering you.. I wanted to know your opinion on something.. basically I'm in a shitty situation and I don't know what to do with myself.. a couple of weeks ago I happened to have breakfast with 4 of my classmates and they kept talking shit about other people in my class .. in particular about one person that I was getting a bit closer to and did nothing wrong to me.. so I found myself in this situation and I though "ok shit what do I do now"..

you’re comfortable w me publishing the whole thing right? i have some very wise mutuals so maybe someone will want to chime in, that’s why i thought it was best to post the whole thing, i hope you don’t mind that i did (if you do, just tell me and i’ll delete it of course!). i’ll put everything under a ‘read more’ just in case. (including my reply!)

I thought they were quite decent people so I started to agree with some things and in the end I let bad things slip out of my mouth.. I thought "ok I don't actually know that person that much and everyone keeps saying how bad she is so whatever.. I can't just stay silent or leave"... so I didn't do anything that day, but I felt so bad about what happened and I thought about it the entire day to decide what was the best thing to do..

I wanted to keep talking to that person but I couldn't because I talked shit about her the day before and I couldn't even look at her.. so I decided to tell her everything that had happened. I didn't want to say that the others talked shit about her too, but of course she asked and I just couldn't not tell her.. I knew this decision would mean that i'd never be able to talk to the other girls. I didn't even want to because I hate people that do nothing but talk shit about others (I know, ironic)

so nothing crazy happened, she understood the situation and we got over it.. however I felt really uncomfortable while I was with her because the other girls were probably wondering wtf I was doing with her after saying those things.. and i didn't want to tell them I had told her everything because I didn't really care about them, and I thought they were just shitty people.. but little did I know I fucked up.. then (unfortunately) me and a couple of other classmates (including 2 of those girls)

have a spare lesson once a week.. basically what they do is talk shit about others all the time and I feel really uncomfortable everytime and I just don't want to make the same mistake and I just sit there silently.. in our class there have always been these kind of problems, and everyone is aware of the fact that this happens.. but I don't think it's ok.. well so today was the breaking point of all this.. today we had to choose our class president and one of those girls decided to run for it..

during her speech that friend of mine raised her hand and asked her "why do i have to vote for a person that talks shit behind everyone's back?".. she was giving her reasons and in the middle I decided to step in and defend my friend.. nobody else agreed with us.. basically everyone is ok with everyone talking shit about them.. and she won obviously.. I didn't feel really good and I really wanted to go talk to her to explain some things..

so I went to the bathroom (where she was talking with another girl) and I explained that I understand if she thinks that I'm two-faced and hypocritical and she said "well yes I do".. i told her that I apologized to my friend after what had happened and that in that process I couldn't not mention them.. I told her everything I thought and that her behaviour makes me uncomfortable.. and that conversation was so weird.. it's like she knew exactly what to say to make me feel an awful piece of shit..

soooo... i’ll be as brief as i can bc the situation actually seems quite simple from here. also, i’m leaving on a trip later today (this is mainly to inform you that in case there’s a follow up, i’ll happily reply, but i can’t guarantee when! in a few days max, ok? but probably sooner!)

you said you could handle harsh, so here it goes. 

you make it sound very complicated because it sure feels like it in your head, and i don’t want to diminish your problems, just trying to give you some perspective, alright? truth is, only one thing stands out to me in all of this: you’ve found yourself a very good friend. someone who was able to understand that you were ‘pressured’ into talking shit about her, and instead of going like ‘okay but you have a free will and the ability to shut up – or even defend me – why didn’t you??’ (that’s what i would have said in high school to someone i considered a friend but who decided to trash talk me just to win over a cool clique, tbh! not saying it’s the right thing, it’s actually less mature than how your friend reacted, probably, buy i mean, she could have told you something along those lines and not be wrong, technically... right?) but no, your friend accepted your apology, understood your point of view, didn’t blame you for a mistake you made, which is fair bc you owned up to it (which you should be proud of! shows you’re quite self-aware). she stuck with you. she’s someone who isn’t afraid to say what she thinks, also, and to stand against the popular bitch. 

so like........ why do you care about everything else? the popular bitch is a bully and people will always like her best bc she’s charmed them somehow, but you... you are smart, you have your friend, you’re uncomfortable w her and her friends... so why did you even feel the need to confront her? do you need her to like you? newsflash: not everyone in high school will like you. or did you want her to understand her behaviour is wrong and change? newsflash n. 2: you can’t make her. you’re smarter, you’re kinder, you’re more compassionate, you’ll be more serene if you stop talking to her altogether. she thinks you’re a hypocrite when actually you’ve been real to everyone, including those who didn’t even deserve it (her!). so what? i mean, she was probably talking shit about you before, she will after. in a few years, you’ll never have to see her again. i’m sorry she pushed the right buttons to make you feel like shit, but you’ve only been upfront w everyone, unlike her, so why would any of her words mean anything to you? i know it’s hard, but it’s the first lesson in high school. some people are just toxic pieces of shit. stay away from them. (and those who stand by and let this happen and fall for the bully’s ‘charm’? spineless idiots at best. stay away from them too.)

let me know if you read this and don’t hold back if you have something to say, of course. ♡

[nemirutami]

Excuse me for being a weirdo who backreads people's blogs, but I had a small additional question regarding your answer to this ask here: /171315404167/ Do you also hate Alcor? If so, I'm incredibly curious to know why, since never harbored any ill will towards humanity and genuinely cared for the protagonist. (I realize I'm a little biased as I ship them together, but that's beside the point) I do agree most of the characters' motives and views were pretty selfish though.

I LOVE DESU ASKS.... AS EVIDENT BY THE VERY LONG REPLY... (SORRY!)

I’m glad ppl are reading them bc sometimes I feel like I’m yelling directly at a wall and my opinions are just bouncing right off, but I have an answer for that. 

I think the game did Alcor disservice in how he was represented. He would have benefited more from being impartial (but he isn’t impartial- and I’ll go more into detail about how he meddles to tip the scales) but I will admit anime!alcor was worse and just a sloppy attempt at making a NGE reference- but I won’t go into that because I could write an essay about how shitty the DESU2 anime is (I think everyone can- no one that played the game liked it and I can’t blame them).

The characters I actually can’t stand are: Yamato and Ronaldo. Because they’re actually the ones that actively go out and wipe out even ALLIES for their own benefit, not gonna lie- I might hate Ronaldo just a tiny bit more because of Makoto’s fate events, even if Yamato is just as bad if not worse. On top of that, they’re both awful hypocrites and unlike Yamato where I can kinda see the appeal, Ronaldo is completely unlikable. Even so, I can enjoy ships with Yamato in them. Tho I ship absolutely no one with Ronaldo because why would you evoke that kind of suffering in anyone. 

Everyone else is either bordering on annoying, bland, or just a mean spirited asshole. I feel more sympathy for Keita than I do for Hinako because at least Keita calls everyone a piece of shit, whereas Hinako seems to single out Daichi to shit on... on Daichi’s own route. Fumi also talks down to everyone, but in this case, Daichi’s just caught in the crossfire. Similar with Airi, she hates EVERYONE apparently, and will even punch Jungo. Hinako tho seems to specifically target Daichi on his route like... what the fuck is your problem? You called him an idiot twice in 1 battle Hinako holy shit, go chill??? I will never let this go because BOY was just BREATHING and she went “UGHHH YOU’RE SO STUPID” LIKE LET HIM BREATHE HOLY SHIT IS HE NOT EVEN ALLOWED THAT ANYMORE? 

Anyways, onto Alcor.

There’s a lot of plot holes and inconsistencies surrounding how the summoning app actually works (Alcor invented it after all, and gave it to us to use) and all these inconsistencies just make Alcor look bad from a writing standpoint (more of that below). He could have been a good character had he not been written poorly (Much like Yamato and... like 99% of the cast really. Even Daichi suffers from shit writing and I’ll never forgive them for this.) and had the plot not fucked him in the end and basically had him destined to die even on Daichi’s route (which sucks but is understandable since he is a septentrione) perhaps I’d have actually liked him. 

I tend to love characters that obsess with the protagonist, and they’re usually my absolute FAVORITE characters. I’m really surprised I didn’t jump on Alcor’s ship with the protag because it HAD the setting I absolutely adored for relationships to form? Especially the alien/human dynamic since I came into DESU2 right after exiting NGE so I was IN THE MOOD. Alcor in and of himself was just. Not satisfying to interact with (bored me to tears too) because of his cryptic messages that (more than anything) just waste time and bring the player nowhere unless they rank up to like 4 right before Yamato basically THROWS EXPOSITION AT YOU AND EXPLAINS THE ENTIRE PLOT ON THE 2ND LAST DAY (it’s even worse and comes even more out of nowhere if you haven’t interacted with Alcor at all in his fate events. More disservice. They should have made Alcor’s fate events more intimate and given Alcor more plot relevant lines within the plot itself instead of his events. Much like... Daichi really. They fucked up with Daichi by making his fate events more relevant to his character growth than the actual plot. I guess they did the same for Alcor but truth be told, I remember so little about Alcor because more than anything Alcor just bored me. Never quite pissed me off. Just bored me.) 

Ok, but onto the cake. The things that made me iffy on Alcor’s character in general.

Alcor supposedly gave humans fire and culture and blah blah. Already this is telling me to practice immense amounts of disbelief since it’s well documented how these things came about, but I suppose if no one actually knows the history then they can accept this at face value? I wasn’t tho. He acted responsible for it and it put me in disbelief and just made me think he sounded like an idiot. It also made him seem very arrogant, because it implied people NEEDED to be given culture, and that we just didn’t develop culture and diversity on our own. It implies we were all lifeless husks until he came along and granted it to us. Which is insulting.

The fact he’s a septentrione isn’t foreshadowed well and is very obvious from the second we see him floating and talking to other demons/septentriones since he clearly knows what they’re saying. Not really a character-specific issue. Just more problems of bad writing. “Who is he...” Daichi have you seen a HUMAN float in space like that god fucking damn it i love you but why u so duMB WHY YOU ALL SO DUMB IT’S CLEARLY EITHER A DEMON OR A SEPTENTRIONE, THE REAL QUESTION IS- WHY IS HE HELPING US?

Btw that’s another point. Why is he helping us? Oh, right, because he messed up.

He doesn’t want Yamato’s world, but he gave Yamato the power to reform society. Then, when Yamato tries to do what Alcor granted him the means to do, he’s like. Hm. Well. Shit? This guy’s a fucking psycho. Time to place my bets on the protagonist instead (which he does favor a lot- which doesn’t make him impartial really since he clearly favors explaining things more to Hibiki/Protag than anyone else in the game, and it puts everyone else at a disadvantage when a GOD LIKE ENTITY is behind the protag boosting him to make the “right” choice for humanity). I know Alcor was fascinated by humans and wanted them to live (which is fine), yet he didn’t bother to warn the MILLIONS that died (and remained dead in one of the endings- thanks Alcor) due to his negligence. Knowing about it and at least not issuing a warning is cruel. Sure, he gave people the demon summoning app, but the app was considered a “prank site” (nice advertisement, Alcor) as Daichi said at the start of the game (which i hate more than Yamato himself. Daichi. This. This idiot. This idiot signed his best friend up to a DEATH SITE just cus LOLS- the writing is bullshit, and I really disliked early Daichi, too. I disliked some of later canon-Daichi too because he was just rendered to a joke outside his Fate Events). The writing is really unfair on everyone, and it doesn’t help that the app doesn’t work the way it’s advertised to work anyways, seeing as Alcor can twist it to do what HE needs it to do at any time.

For example, the app is said to send death videos regarding people you’ve made a bond with, but clearly that’s all bullshit considering Alcor manually sends Hibiki a warning (and only Hibiki alone) of Otome’s death video so that NO ONE BUT HIBIKI CAN SAVE HER. This implies he can manipulate the death videos personally and exclude others from receiving videos. This. This is not kind. Not at all. I know he was testing Hibiki, but at THIS RISK? Losing Otome can FUCK YOUR PERFECT RUN and outside game mechanics, ELIMINATE ANOTHER HUMAN LIFE. If he wanted to, he could kill characters he actually doesn’t like this way by basically not sending the videos out to people, which, if you don’t go to save Otome right away- will be the end of her. He’s putting all his bets on you alone and testing you by cutting off everyone else from the app- potentially hindering backup to save Otome. Sure, you save her but you can just as easily kill her. I can’t say this wasn’t a sleazy test because he was basically playing with Otome’s LIFE and showed no signs of remorse. Some love for humans you have Alcor. Shit dude. This isn’t kind at all.

But I guess these are my main qualms about him- at least the ones I remember- but take everything I say with a grain of salt bc I tried to avoid confrontation with him completely in my 2nd and 3rd run so I have vague memories lingering. I don’t hate him? I can actually like him if he’s written well by other people, but given how he is in the game, I can’t say I ever enjoyed interacting with him. He didn’t annoy me other than the 2 times I’ve stated above, where he basically talks down to us about how we got to our culture and how he kinda lets Otome PERISH if we don’t respond quickly enough. I know it was a test to the protagonist’s will, but aren’t the septentriones a test enough of my conviction, Alcor, honestly. Unlike Airi, Hinako, Keita, and everyone else, Alcor doesn’t annoy me at all. Io annoys me more, if not only because the game wanted Daichi to be plot relevant only for Io to get all the spotlight. Io is genuinely maybe the better written character- it’s just such a shame they flipflop on her as a lead when in any other game, she could easily have been a lead. Her love triangle kills any enjoyment I get from her at all tho and just makes me bitter. More bad writing- who would have guessed.

Tho from a shipping standpoint? You can ship Alcor with Hibiki for good reasons, obviously. There’s a clear connection and fascination there that doesn’t surprise me people flock to (because I would have been there too had they just written him better). I don’t really mind the ship itself. When I say “i don’t mind it” I just mean I don’t feel anything for it and I’d probably not draw it for myself. There are really no ships I hate or really... dislike? There’s just stuff I don’t ship, but I can definitely ship Hibiki/Alcor if it was for a plotpoint of some kind in a fic or art or whatever. It depends on the idea really. 

I guess it’s too late to say something like this so far into the post, but I like to believe that ANY ship works if the construction/buildup to it is good enough. I believe you can make any character do/say anything under the right circumstances with the right motives without it being OOC or feel out of place. I’d like to think talent is wicked like that- a double edged sword of risky ideas that can either make or break your interpretation/perception depending on how you build it up. Though, that takes effort. Something DESU2 sadly lacks in a lot of ares, but it’s still a game worth playing for the experience and I wouldn’t not recommend it for the good parts that are (while few) really, really good.