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Are you an alter in a system? Is the host or another alter in your system kind of in hell rn and struggling to take care of themselves? Here’s a list of shit you can do to help them out. Body care edition.
First up. Get in the damn shower. If that’s all you’ve got in you, great! Bask in the warm water and enjoy your chill time, it’s still a good way to refresh. But while you’re in there, if you feel up to it…
Wash your hair with shampoo and/or put conditioner in it.
Use a sugar scrub or other exfoliant on your body, especially back, chest, and joints— this one’s especially good if you’ve been struggling to wash up lately.
On that note, wash your body with soap! If you don’t have a soft towel in arm’s reach, just slap it on there with your hands. Still does the job.
Wash your face.
Shave if you’re into that.
Wash your feet, ears, and neck— commonly forgotten places!
Maybe shampoo your hair again if you haven’t done so in a while.
Run the water cold at the end to theoretically benefit your hair, skin, and mood.
Once you’re out of the shower, you can do other body care stuff. For example—
Brush your teeth!
Maybe even floss them!
Use mouthwash if you want!
Use whatever skincare products you like and/or have on hand.
Use lotion in a scent you enjoy.
Use body spray or perfume in a scent you enjoy.
Use deodorant. Measure with the soul.
Brush or detangle your hair.
Style it or use a hair product if you feel so inclined.
Put on some chapstick or use a lip scrub.
Short section on medical care.
Take prescription meds if you have any.
Take Tylenol or other OTC stuff if you find you need it.
I find this one extremely important— clean and cover any applicable wounds on the body.
Get dressed in an outfit that’s comfortable and / or makes you happy. Now you can worry about stuff like food and drink.
Firstly, drink some water or any other beverage of choice. Caffeine is fine, sugar is fine, it doesn’t matter, it’ll still get SOME amount of water in you.
Then…
- If your host hasn’t been eating much or has been eating food that’s more quick & comforting than technically “healthy”— make or get a meal or snack with a focus on nutrition. Protein, plants, whatever.
- If your host has been eating the same stuff every day— make or get a meal or snack with a focus on variety. Colours! Textures! Tastes! Etc.
- Just generally, if your host or any of you have been down lately— make or get a meal or snack with a focus on comfort. Maybe something you’ve loved since you were little, or something you discovered more recently. Something that reminds you of someone or something you love. Just something to get your spirits up.
Finally, regardless— make or get yourself a little treat. You deserve it.
#plurality#system#system stuff#caretaker alter#system caretaker#system community#did system#plural system#pluralgang#plural community#system love
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ok last post of the day
I still think Ludinus is delusional with this tape because like. He's trying to convince a dysfunctional family of fuck-ups that a dysfunctional family of fuck-ups isn't worth saving.
someone correct me if I'm wrong, but I think his whole point is "the gods destroyed Aeor rather than destroying their siblings which would have been the easy solution that would've ended the war"
but the thing Ludinus isn't getting is that Bells Hells would understand the gods. They almost killed each other over a sword like two nights ago. Laudna has an evil dead lady in her head slowly gaining more and more control over her. Orym is destroying himself to get the job done. Imogen is a couple rock bottoms away from being a vessel for Predathos. Fearne's daddy issues might end the world. Chetney refuses to talk about his problems until they are staring him down. But they will not do the "easy" thing. They will not get rid of each other because the idea of that is so unfathomable that they would rather try and fail to save each other than succeed at anything less noble. So Imogen and Laudna try and make a relationship work. The whole group agrees to at least try to communicate. Orym protects them, even though logically he should probably neutralize at least some of them in the best interest of the world. Fearne relies on her friends to tell her the right path. Chetney makes them gifts and slowly unravels the hidden parts of himself.
it's not whether the gods are right or wrong. It's not "poor wizards" or "the gods should have just left". Morality has always been a shifty thing in this campaign, so at this point I think it's out of the equation. Now what matters is what Bells Hells see when they look at this tape. Do they see what Ludinus sees, a bunch of illogical decisions that ended a great (read: dystopian) wizard city? Or do they see themselves reflected in gods-made-mortal?
(and for the people who really want to talk about the morality of this, I'm now like 95% sure Predathos is not going to stop with the gods so we have the end of the world to contend with)
#i love grey morality#i eat that shit up for every meal of the day#but again this comes down to Ludinus cutting off all meaningful relationships#and therefore not understanding a family that will stick together at all costs#you can't show a group of people a reflection of themselves#and expect them to agree to killing it#cr downfall#critical role#critical role downfall#bells hells#cr3#cr spoilers
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Wow threats of violence and death woe is me. Bitch it's been like this for years if you hate me kill me already and if you don't plan to just shut that shit spitting asshole mouth of yours.
I have nothing to lose if he actually carried on with it, he'd do me a favour. It's funny to me he thinks he scares me and its even funnier he gets more angry when I laugh.
Bro I got used to your abusive shit, it's another day of you being an aggressive coward to me after I ignored you for months even if you wanted a reaction. I don't give a shit lmao
#misc#i cannot take him seriously#i remember i used to be scared back in 2019 lmao bruh hit me if you dare. ill make sure you never step foot in this house or out of a#jail cell for years#what's funnier is that i dont even talk to him he just attacks me like this because he hates me for no fucking reason other than jealousy.#because weve had the same shared trauma but he fucked himself up on purpose to be pitied and i held on and now im independent#and he hates that he cant have my attention anymore after all the years ive been the one TRYING SO HARD#homecooked meals and covering for his ass. cleaning his piss and puke and lending him money anf shit. listening to hi.#bro didn't even care to be nice the tiniest bit to me when i was on the floor after fainting or vomiting blood or when i needed rest because#i was going to work with a fever 10 hours a day to pay hospital and home bills.#lmfao abusive fuck#out of everyone ive left im glad he can see every day how good im having it since i stopped talking to him. thats why hes angry and follows#me around and stares and curses me out. im just quiet. neutral. no expressions no words. and it pisses him off. good eat your liver out#over it bitch#im leaving in 3 hours anyway lmao
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#i have to say this somewhere or im gonna go crazy#so at a preschool. you HAVE to have one adult sitting at every table when kids are eating. and you also need a person in the hall#for kids getting their lunchboxes and going to the bathroom and shit ok. are you with me here. this makes sense#so today. my 2 coworkers had already taken the chairs bc i got caught up in the hall but i was so fucking hungry that i just ate standing u#which was fine. like i could just put my lunch down if someone needed my help and i Did that ok it was fine. no one was left alone#but later at SNACKTIME. it took me forever to get these 2 kids in the room and seated ready to eat & by the time i got in some kids were#already finished and ready to go to the playroom. so i was like ok i guess I'm not eating for the latter half of the day because they cant#be left alone. and my 2 coworkers at this point were sitting with the snackers and they looked fine so i looked after the Players#intermittently glancing to the snack tables to make sure everyone was fine mind you#So what happened here was.#There was a 20 second interval between the time i glanced up to see 2 adults at the snack table. And the time i glanced up to see#a completely unsupervised snack table. one kid STANDING UP ON THE TABLE blowing raspberries and pointing at the other kids#could not have been more than 20 or 30 seconds that i wasn't looking and NO ONE TOLD ME they were leaving the room#if i had been WARNED that they were leaving i would have prioritized the snackers and sat with them so no one choked and no one fucking#stood on the table#but they both just left for whatever reason without saying anything#and when i brought it up after school they were just like. well marty you were eating too much during lunch#next time you should eat before coming in to work so you can give the kids your full attention#??????? i already skipped a meal today for that exact reason?? how is it my fault that i don't want to starve?#am i actually in the wrong here because it's driving me FUCKING nuts. that was NOT a safe situation and it obviously can NOT happen again#but the issue was a lapse in communication not me wanting to eat food so i don't actually die#and those were two different times of day so they're not even relevant#obviously there are bigger issues in the world than this but i feel like throwing up over it. this was not my fault#I'm sorry that you guys can survive off of like 1 spoonful of granola and a single acai berry for the entire day but im not built like that
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I hate how hard it is for skinny people to understand that weight is genetic. Like of course you can be fat in a skinny family or skinny in a fat family but it takes a lot. Like my family, extended and all, tends to be overweight. My fiancés family on the other hand tend to be skinny. It all just depends on your ancestors and your metabolism
#this also means it’s hard as shit for me to lose weight#literally went to my fiancés camp and his cousin was the thinest bitch I’ve ever seen in my life#vs one of my cousins probably weighs like 400 pounds#and you could say it depends on eating habits and income but that’s not true either#my family has always eaten pretty healthy#like salads are genuinely one of my favorite meals#and I walk 13k+ steps a day because of my job#I used to bike every single day and even took up light mt biking at one point#point is by all accounts I’m active and eat right (with exceptions)#I’m still considered obese#additionally#my brother is relatively well off#and is a bit of a health nut#like is super active and basically only eats organic#he doesn’t drink soda except on special occasions and instead drinks a protein coffee#as well as being vegetarian#he’s still overweight#it’s just not in our dna#and I hate that people refuse to accept that#anyway rant over#welcome to the shitshow
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#This shouldn't be a surprise but seriously no one actually cares about my survival yes I've asked for help why would I get help#I'm functionally nocturnal and I keep staying up for like 48 hours and then sleeping for a day and I never know where I am#Or what day it is or if it's morning or night#Normal humans eat three meals a day and snacks right I think I maybe eat a snack every other day#I just don't feel hunger and my body hurts and cooking is so much effort I don't have#Weed used to help me be able to eat easily but now everything is just so hard and no food in house n cant go to store bc of ptsd too scary#I keep telling people when they ask that I am doing badly and need help but they as always just tell me to go to the store and buy food#Because it should be easy for a normal person!!! That would be such helpful and kind advice if I were normal#But I am not I am severely sick and traumatized and driving hurts so bad and stores give me panic attacks#Seriously if literally nobody cares about my struggling why not just be euthanized at this point?#This problem is so inconvenient to everyone and I have done all I can to convince people that I'm worth the inconvenience but :(#If I were worth talking to or visiting or helping people would have done that and I would be fine but I am not and that's okay#I genuinely don't mind being a husk at all#I'm just weirdly sad about it right now maybe because I think I feel hungry but genuinely I can't tell thanks autism#I also haven't been able to do my t shot in like three or four weeks I keep trying but I literally can't get the needle in :((#I imagine less testosterone in my system also makes me tired and lose my appetite#I'm so fucked up and nobody cares that I start my day at 8pm and am active and reply to emails and shit at 4am#Why would anyone notice that first of all but still. I would notice.#When even strangers are struggling I notice and I will do anything for anyone but it's selfish upon selfish to expect it back I understand#I keep looking for arfid and ed affirmations to help me but I can't find anything good#Genuinely . what the fuck#Just fucking need to be someone's dog feed me walk me put me in a cage teach me how to be better and treat me like I don't know shit#Because I don't I'm so stupid I can't even feed myself I'm dying please help me
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work anxiety starting before work itself hahahahaahahahahahahhhaha
#IM BAKCIJ THE FUCKIGN BUIDLIGN .AGAIN. AUSUSUXHEHWHGLHKF#im grateful i have an internship for this summer with the way the job market is like currently.#im grateful that i have the opportunity to lessen the burden on my parents shoulders. im grateful that this job can pay rent and groceries#and tuition for a few terms im grateful i get to gain experience while still in school that will hekp me in the future#IM GRATEFUL FOR ALL THIS!!!!! BUT STILL I FUCLING HATE EVERYTHJGN#i hate being unable to eat anything ir sleep at night bc all i can think about is shit i have work tomorrow i have to email this guy and#finish these tasks and impress my manager and be approachable and enthusiastic and eager to learn and not make any mistakes#and not fail anything bc im getting graded on this its alwags grades its always the fucking grades#isnt it. it was the grades that had me crying on walks home from school when i was 9 and it was grades that made me waste away 9th grade#it was grades that made me unable to stomach anything during weeks with tests and it was and is still grades that#dictate every single fucking part of my life#and even tho the ppl who used to yell at me for getting a B in math in 5th grade are no longer yelling at me for getting 60s in linear algeb#ra and stats and calculus and cs#haha.ha when ur university is famous for its.. horribly high suicdie rates#i find that the yelling comes from me now. ive replaced the adults who would sit beside me at the dinner table#yelling bc yea guess what 8 year old me didnt understand division at first#god i hate this school so much. i hate what im studying im gratefula nd am so privileged to be ahle to further my educarion and receive#all these experiences mot everyone can have but god everytime i return to the city where the school is#i feel like throwing up and sobbing and just never ipening my eyes again#haha yea. i hope i csn get a job to support myself in the future#i hope i can still have time for hobbies#why si everyone at school so good at everything#ive met more people who have passed their rcm 10 and arct exams for piano than those who havent#i have classes with people who have already published research papers with professors in the states#my classmates can breeze through a cs assignment while still playing fir varisty teams. working out everyday. goijg ti parties.#eating and cooking balsnced meals each week. having a social life..the whole combo#meanwhile i get overwhelmed because i have to respond to an email and finish an assignment in one day#how do i become like them#why was this about work anxiety at first and why is it about the eternal imposter syndrome and lack of self confidence#i just want money man... i dont give a shit about snything anymore
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#just wrote my first song in over 2 years#spent the entire day working on a messy demo of it in audacity and was so absorbed i forgot to eat#that's how you know haha#and i've been so impossibly depressed for so long that doing anything feels like a completely foreign behavior. a memory from a past life#and i mean Anything. going for a walk. cooking a meal. Talking to people. all as unfamiliar and wrong to me as eating a book of matches#so the fact that i did something like this today without giving up and letting myself give in to pain and rot is crazy to me#i'm now kind of wiped of energy altogether though surprised i'm even able to type this#not one thing can be predicted#i'm still depressed as shit but#maybe i'm not wholly done for just yet#i still feel overwhelmed by every breath i take but#hmm#tomorrow i might try to get out some of my long untouched musick gear and working on an actual recording of whatever this is. so it doesn't#die in audacity smothered in nasty audacity reverb it deserves a better life it's barely been born#may the circle be broken#audio#Spotify
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not beating the ibd allegations right now
#Every time I eat the slightest thing my stomach immediately hurts and I have to shit#maybe it’s cause it’s my first meal of the day? Idk#I think my fucked up eating schedule messed me up probably also I need more fiber#Probably not severe enough to actually be ibd#Shitpost
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tfw u show up to the dr appointment and you haven't eaten in like 48 full hours and they ask you about your eating habits and you say you fast pretty often in accident because your stimulant messes up your hunger response
and they just look you up and down clearly not believing you before starting The Weight Loss Conversation™ and get told that fasting will guarantee you weight loss
#God I wish#I've only ever been able to lose weight on extremely low calories#I can lose a bit of weight per week on a sub 800 calorie diet#I can lose weight at the rate expected of most people if I cut it even more#Like if I literally don't eat every other day on sub 800#Neither of those are sustainable#And they usually end up with me binging like the fat person people think I am#I'm currently maintaining my weight#I only drink 0 calorie and 0 sugar#I eat one meal a day at around the 1000 calorie mark#And I eat a snack around 100-200 calories around 3pm because otherwise I get nauseous#But I'm fat still so no one believes me#Man I've been fat my whole life#Parents put me on diets and shit from the time I entered kindergarten#When I was in third grade and only gaining weight they decided this wasn't working#And started making me just skip meals#Until I was 12 or 13 they fed me the same size portions I fed the 5 year olds when I worked at a daycare#I remember learning what kind of foods the kids at school hated at the lunch line#So I would have something to eat at lunch#Or I remember scrounging around for quarters so I could actually buy some food#I remember church having pizza parties and catering events#And overeating to the point of vomiting#Only to clean up and eat more because I didn't know how long it would be#Even as a teenager#Parents would order out getting nice steak meals#And not get me anything when there's nothing even at home to eat#Sometimes they'd eat out and they'd come back with like half a chicken breast and a pile of veggies for me#Most of my childhood I barely thought of the weight aspect#I just knew I was hungry and needed to figure out how to get food#As a teen I started eating like they said because I was ashamed and it still didn't make me lose weight
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i’m LITERALLY the hungry little caterpillar :/
#sorry um. DEF not an ed thing but most of the time when i stop eating it’s bc i’m bored of it. bc i just never get full. like i eat 5 meals#a day bc i’m ridiculously hungry every 2 hrs. the whole fast metabolism is definitely a 17 + good genes + school stress thing but still#sooo fucking annoying. anyway hi meal number 5 rn i might eat this whole container of biryani#<- and im not like. gaining weight ever which is not actually ideal i’d love to bulk up but im scrawny as shit#sorry uhhh#ed mention#?#in case#okay well the i never get full thing is a massive exaggeration obvi but like still. it’s ridiculous
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Washed my hair for the first time in a week 🥹🥹 made myself a meal 🥹🥹🥹 gonna maybe do something baking 🥹🥹🥹
#okay im sorry but i need to share some mentally ill thoughts just to get them out of my brain#so uhhh#disordered eating cw#<- like heed that warning please#anyway uhhhhh#i really desperately want to binge eat#bc the last week i have been.. severely neglectful of my physical needs so moral of the story...hungry 🧍#but ive been in this game long enough to know that if i eat a big meal rn....i will fuvking die#like level 5 tummy hurt...will most likely throw the fuck up#so...i am desperately trying to hold myself back from doing that#but every fiber of my being wants me to go into the kitchen and eat everything in sight rapid dog style#like i just had a nice breakfast#i am not physically hungry anymore#but its just the#'I've been without proper nutrients for the last 5 days and now my body wants them all' mixed with the#'i had a stressful week and i know that pack of oreos in the pantry would feel so fucking good'#like its so emotional based#which is even harder to deal with then the physical shit#gooooooooood#why did god have to give his toughest battle ((literally just eating the proper amount of food)) to his dumbest soldier ((me))
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making chicken nuggets for dinner because the little beastie in my brain hates eating anything that isn't portioned into tiny bite-sized pieces
#it's me#the neuro diverges#if i could just snack on things all day every day and not have people think i'm weird i Would#i can eat the amount that makes me feel good without worrying about wasting food or w/e#i don't have to cook anything super complicated#maybe i'd make a bowl of oatmeal here and there when i know i'm going some place that i can't eat food at#but i genuinely think i would eat a lot healthier than i currently do#because all of the easy-to-make stuff (as in. easy enough for ME to make) that counts as a meal#are shit like three-minute ramen and those pre-made meals that you chuck in the microwave#or *occasionally* a grilled cheese#but if i could just snack?#get me a box of ritz crackers. some shredded cheese and pepperoni/salami. a bit of mayo maybe.#boom mini sandwiches#maybe some salmon dip to mix it up or that chive and onion cream cheese#get me those veggie platters and a container of whatever small fruit is in season (so long as it's not strawberries)#get me a bag of pistachios#get me some peanut butter#or get me some butter and some brown sugar and some bread#toast up the bread slather on the butter add brown sugar#add some sliced banana on there for a bit of fruits#genuinely 90% of my troubles with eating comes from the expectation that i eat full meals#if i had a bunch of snack food available i could very easily eat and keep myself healthy
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this is your gentle reminder to stop fighting against your adhd and instead structure your life around it
buy a pack of chapsticks and put one in the pocket of all of your coats and jackets because you always forget to bring one and chapped lips is sensory hell
leave important things where you can see them. if they go in a box or a drawer you will forget they exist
put any appointments or deadlines in your phone calendar As Soon As you get them. set a reminder for a week before, a day before, an hour before, as many as you need as often as you need them.
when that little voice in your head says "i dont need to write that down, ill remember it" that is the devil talking!!! write it down anyway!!
plan for down time. have a few hours at the end of every day to just do fun stuff like engage in your hyperfixations. even if you didnt get all of your work done that day, have the rest anyway. you probably spent the whole day beating yourself up for not doing what you Should be doing, so you still need the break.
if you never eat vegetables because its too much effort to chop and cook them, get the frozen or canned shit. it doesnt go off for ages and you just have to microwave it. theres no point buying fresh vegetables if they just keep going off and being left to rot in the bottom of your fridge
if you struggle to decide what to have for dinner every day, take the decision out of it. choose a set of meals and eat those on rotation until you get sick of them, then choose some new ones and do it again.
its not stupid if it works! our brains literally have a chemical deficiency. you are allowed to accommodate yourself. go forth and stop making your life more difficult than it has to be because "this shouldn't be this hard". it is hard, so make it easier.
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#I LOVE SOJU MORE THBN ANYTHING ELSE IN THISNWORLD#food tastes so good#nothing bothers me#so spicy but it’s worth it#indomie mvp#man i couldn’t be having this meal sober#holy smokes#i got class tmr but i’ll be right as rain in a few hours#😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁#holy shit who bought that indomie flavour#spicy chicken something#it’s like getting punched in the mouth with every bite#i do have. startlingly poor spice tolerance for a person of my nation. though#i can hear some sort of ambient hum#but cannot isolate the source#either insects or water pump outside#wish i had money for more alcohol but i got class tomorrow anyway#lockingnin#i love my cat he is an extremely spoiled little man child but he is my man child#biting me#idk what i’m doing with my life just living it up as much as i can for as long as i can ig#one day i’ll die but i don’t have to think about that right now#i can feel the sleep creeping in damn i didn’t even have that much today??#didn’t eat a lot though granted#yuzu so soft so cute he loooves me#somebody listen to this song with me#Spotify
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JOB ACHIEVED. FINALLY
#it's only 16-ish hours a week and the pay kinda sucks BUT it's a job and it's a job I can do without killing myself so#$600/month is miles better than $0/month let me tell you#and I'm probably gonna apply for food stamps as well which will help a lot. then I can save a lot more bc I'll have smaller food budget#but god I'm so happy like. $400/month to my parents is going to make such a huge difference#like that'll make up the difference in bills PLUS give us enough extra grocery budget to eat actually good meals#like we've been surviving on mainly canned tuna and white bread and like. very cheap dinners#like the most vegetables we eat is when we have cheesy brocoli rice for dinner rip#I miss when we had curry and pesto pasta and homemade lo mein and stir fry and egg rolls...#we used to have vegetable heavy meals almost every day and now it's just sadness#recently I was craving vegetables so bad I drank a v8. I normally hate that shit but that day it was delicious#(tbc I hate it as a drink but it makes a fantastic ingredient for like. chili and stuff)#anyway all this to say vegetables are on the horizon!!! as are having little treats and stuff!!#also also the vocational rehab place FINALLY called my mom back (apparently the person in charge of returning messages#got fired because they just. weren't doing their job for months 💀)#so my sister is gonna start the process of working with the vocational rehab ppl to get her a job too#which is good bc like. she needs it she really does. she's the kind of person who NEEDS a reason to get out of bed or she just. won't.#and she also hasn't had a job since high school and she only had it for a few weeks before they fired her for a stupid made up reason#(really it was ableism but it was a trash company anyway. glad covid put them out of business. good riddance)#ack these are really long tags sorry but. I'm happy!!!!#shit has been so bad for so long and I finally have a tangible thing I can point to and say look!! it's getting better!!!
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