#i eat healthy. i try to take care of my body. but yknow what? its HARD as a disabled person to exercise!!!

[lesbipede]

fat girls you're everything to me okay. the people giving us shit for being fat don't know anything.

[lemontongues]

yknow ive been thinking again lately about how i would like to see more realism in batman content, both canon and fandom, but not the Dark And Gritty kind. the kind thats like.

yes actually he is highly emotionally intelligent and does understand himself quite well and has just accepted that he is A Freak and decided to roll with it rather than being so horrifically emotionally repressed that he can barely even acknowledge that what hes doing is based in trauma. hes been in therapy since he was like 9 years old. he studies human psychology extensively both for himself and so he has better odds of predicting whats gonna go wrong and how when hes up against a rogue or negotiating a hostage situation or whatever. he meditates for two hours a day and is fully capable of keeping a healthy handle on his anger 98% of the time. he's nice to people and fun to be around and sincerely caring. if he were just Always Right but super isolated and reactive and cruel and controlling everyone would fucking hate him and no it wouldnt be enough to sustain his crimefighting activities, thats a stupid lone wolf fuckboy fantasy

he has a strict 9pm bedtime that he only breaks for mandatory WE/brucie activities or emergencies. if theres a gala where he needs to rub shoulders with ppl to gather intel or keep his company running he'll do it but hes Not Happy about being out until midnight and cuts out early as often as possible, and when hes chasing the joker around until 3am hes lamenting his poor sweet circadian rhythm that did nothing wrong ever in its life the whole time. when hes batmanning hes expending a fuckton of energy and he needs to make it up and have a well-established routine to counteract the punishment hes putting his body through. on a similar note, this man is building braces and compression into his suit and doing extensive physical therapy exercises every day of his life bc he wants to have helpful little things like "knees" and "shoulders" by the time hes 40, and hes probably eating a small farms worth of assorted leafy greens and several chickens per day

he is simply Never drunk and he doesnt actually have that much sex. hes really really good at faking a) being drunk and b) getting a high priority phone call from lucius the minute someone hes making out with starts trying to get his shirt off. he also does a lot of "hey look i gotta get out of here with my reputation intact, can we help each other out and pretend we're gonna go fuck?" kind of negotiating with ppl (see: his 9pm bedtime, plus sometimes hes gotta slip away from an event to be sneaky), which is how a lot of the more wild stories about him start circulating lol. this is a man who's regularly getting gassed/injected/etc with highly experimental substances created by maniacs trying to torment or kill him, he does NOT want substances like drugs or alcohol in his body that could potentially interact with them, and the last thing he needs is to be dealing with a pregnancy or sti scare. plus if he can play it safe with someone and have them think of him as a nice and trustworthy dude who just has a bonkers reputation, all the better for his batman activities!

idk i just feel like theres unexplored potential in a lot of that stuff bc so much of recent batman mythos is like HES SO HARDCORE AND CAN DO ANYTHING AND HES ALWAYS RIGHT CAUSE HES SO PARANOID AND DISRESPECTFUL OF PPL AND THEIR BOUNDARIES BUT ITS OKAY BC ITS IN THE NAME OF BEING RIGHT and im like. okay. gotta admit that i dont rly find that believable or in line with my values. can we talk about WE's sweet sweet employee benefits package and bruce designing his suit to take most of the impact off his knees when he jumps off a roof. members of the jl discovering that he gives shockingly balanced and insightful advice about their mundane personal problems. bruce printing his own batsymbol envelopes to leave people cash after he misaims his grappling hook and breaks their window. things of that nature.

[neoheros]

how would haikyuu boys handle the quarantine? feat. pretty setter squad

sugawara koushi

respects the quarantine a lot

it’d be very hard to get him out of the house especially when it involves other people

has stocked up on literally every kind of canned food

“we don’t need to go to target, we’ve got a house full of food !!”

gets up at about 9 - 10 am

but he likes to sleep early

if you don’t sleep early, he doesn’t mind staying up with you if you ask him to but don’t expect much of him since he’s most likely out like a light after 11

he makes sure you wash your hands every other hour

it’s kinda repetitive but he cares yknow

eventually you’ll get so bored of staring at the same things that you promp him to go out with you

he’ll say no the first five times

and you’re just like 🥺

he’ll eventually agree but on the condition of bringing alcohol wipes and surgical masks

“NO DAICHI WE AREN’T ACCEPTING COMPANY !! ITS THE LAW !!”

kageyama tobio

he’s a baby

take care of him please

tbh if the two of you aren’t living together, you most likely have to be the one to help him stock on food and necessities

but if you do share a house/apartment then he’d go grocery shopping with you every now and then to make sure you don’t run out of stuff

i’m talking you in the shopping cart and him complaining about it being heavy but not letting you get off

once you get back in the car though he makes sure to put sanitizer on both your hands and the moment you get home, he reminds you to wash them

his sleeping habits are kinda out there

most of the time he sleeps early, but there are times when you see him on the couch under a weighted blanket scrolling through tiktok at 3 am

no matter what time he sleeps though, he always get up at either 9 am or 2 pm

no in between

if he wakes up at 2 pm then that’s because he doesn’t want to let go of his grasp on you

is the big spoon all the time

and no you’re not gonna get to squirm out of his embrace, i’m sorry

kenma kozume

i’m just gonna be blunt here

this kid is grateful for the quarantine

of course he’s distasteful for the pandemic and stuff but c’mon he’s a teenage boy with a full ass gaming system and you think this isn’t a life he’s dreamt of?

like kags, you’d most likely have to be the one to make sure he’s stocked up on food and stuff

whenever you both would go grocery shopping together he’d always go for the junk food like sodas and lays chips

knowing this fully well, you get the things needed to actually make a proper meal

y’all know damn well this boy goes to sleep at 6 am and wakes up at 2 pm

it’s how his body clock has adapted and there’ll be times he’ll try to sleep with you at 11 pm but he’s just staring at the ceiling and moving and flinching and at this point even you can’t fall asleep with all the ruckus he’s causing

“K E NM A LEAVE THE BED”

“no, i’m trying to be productive by sleeping early and then i’ll wake up early then we can have a good day together.”

“baby i’m sorry but neither of us will be able to sleep at all if you DON’T GODDAMN LEAVE”

when he’s not gaming or having kuroo yell at him for barely participating in his online classes, he likes to have you in his embrace

most of the time if you’re not up doing daily things, the two of you are in bed just hugging

or you’re in the living room scrolling through tiktok and he’s in the bedroom also scrolling through tiktok

and when you both find a funny video you call to each other and then show it and go back to doing your thing

goals ngl

oikawa tooru

no

if i were to be stuck in the house for a month with this man i would cry

he’s a morning person for fucks sake

he gets up at 8 am and goes to bed before 11 pm and yes he will drag your ass in and out of bed so you guys can start and end the day together

it’s so sweet i’m not gonna lie but holy fuck my dude

he goes on morning walks and runs and sometimes he’ll ask you to come with him and tells you you’re missing out if you say no

but most of the time he’ll let you sleep in when he’s gone and you wake up to either your favorite starbucks drink or a protein shake he made you

oikawa tooru = healthy quarantine lifestyle

the two of you have cabinets and pantries full of food, both healthy and absolute junk

he tries his best to steer away from that stuff though but sometimes he doesn’t mind eating through them when you two are on the couch and binging old nickelodeon shows

with his bad knee, you also take into consideration how important it is to be exercising and keeping his regimen up

so even if you cry blood from running with him too much, you never mind coming with him since it’s for him to get better

he’s like one of those white moms who’s always out for a walk and always cleaning the house

whenever the two of you would go out for a quick raid in target or walmart, he always has to hold your hand

because “who knows what’s out there now that the world is ending, babe? gotta keep you safe.”

bro i love him so much i miss his stupid face oikawa i didn’t mean it come back home baby

akaashi keiji

when i tell you this man deserves an award for being the best boyfriend on earth

ugh he’s just so ? perfect

quarantine life with akaashi !!! is so !! romantic and domestic and beautiful

he insists on going grocery shopping alone, keys in his hand, him wearing a jacket over his hoodie, jeans and sneakers with a cross chain

this man is a sight for sore eyes

but even if he does insist on going alone so you can just sit back and not get exposed to the corona

you always tell him you like it when you’re with him especially when you do domestic stuff like shopping together and driving together at night with the windows down

when you’re shopping together, he’s the one who pushes the cart with his right hand and his left hand is intertwined with yours

you go pick out the stuff you like to buy and he tells you whether or not to put it back because let’s be honest he’s 90% of your wise decision making

he’s a light sleeper who has a good bed time

but when he wakes up at 2 am to see you leaning against the bed frame with the comforter over your head watching tiktoks

he doesn’t mind propping himself up next to you as he leans his head on your shoulder and watches what’s on your fyp

(he falls asleep there 97.9% of the time)

you love him

[babysizedfics]

I need to know about doctor mama lo taking care of a sick baby Virgil if you would like pretty please. I dont wanna ask on the in character blog cuz I feel like it would be weird to ask for details and lo seems kinda busy anyway lol.

hey tumblebee!! yeah yeah lets do this, Im gonna write it so that ppl who dont follow the other blog can understand too

WARNING IF U HAVENT ALREADY BLOCKED THE TAGS ILLNESS TW AND VOMIT TW THEY ARE VERY PREVALENT IN THIS

also this is a VERY long headcanon!!

so last night vee got ill, he had been regressed in the afternoon with patton and he was acting much more fussy than usual - not being entertained by his cartoons, not having the energy to play with his rattle, pretty much constantly whining and pouting and he gets very wriggly when he's fussy

patton assumed it was because vee had been upset earlier that day. at one point vee started gripping his stomach, and patton assumed its because he was hungry and could smell the food roman was cooking

but when dinner came around no matter how hard patton tried he couldnt get vee to eat a morsel - he kept turning his head away from the food and whining. at one point patton and logan both managed to convince him to eat a spoonful but his face crumpled with a wince and it looked almost painful for him to swallow it. it was at this point logan noticed he had a faint sheen of sweat on his forehead

things fell into place quickly after that - logan checked his temperature and it was indeed slightly higher than was healthy, they noticed vee's hands were trembling and he was constantly on the verge of tears :(

while patton cleared away dinner and excused roman who wanted to go and craft in his room, logan took vee to his bedroom and tried to check for more symptoms, since vee was non verbal and unresponsive totheir questions. he tested his tummy by pushing it a little to see if the pain got worse when he released it (this is a test for appendicitis) but there was no reaction thankfully except vee being upset by logan not cuddling him. he checked his throat for any redness or infection, nothing.

vee's crying became more pronounced and eventually he was in constant tears, occassionally pleading 'mama mama' through sniffles and hiccups and whines of pain :(( Patton brought him a baby bottle of cooled tea made with fresh mint leaves since that is supposed to help stomach pains. though he left the room again since logan thought it was best not to crowd virgil. Vee's crying had dissipated but he was strangely silent and seemed almost loopy now. he only drank a little of the tea before he pushed it away with a gag.

logan immediately took him to the bathroom knowing what was coming, and sure enough vee threw up into the toilet, crying between gags. logan dutifully managed to keep vee in his lap the whole time and held his hair and rubbed his back, telling him he was such a good boy the whole time

Thankfully it didnt last long as there wasnt much in vees stomach to be emptied. he was shivering and sweating and flushed and had lost all energy. he wasnt even crying anymore, just whimpering under his breath. with a bit of a struggle logan managed to show him how to rinse his mouth out with mouthwash - though he had to hold vee over the sink and pat his back to make sure he didnt swallow it

during all of this patton wasnt able to help because of his heightened empathy, if he sees someone throwing up the likeihood is he will too and that wiuldnt be very helpful! so instead he drives to the store to pick up some medicine and ice pops - and comes back with half the store including some actual baby medicine smh - ((im actually begging u to read that linked post i think its so funny))

it was originallly meant to be logans night to put roman to bed but understandably patton took on that task instead. after roman was drifting off patton pokes his head into vee's room. he had hoped to find lo and vee asleep but they werent. they were lying in the dark with an in the night garden audio story playing on a portable speaker and with vees salt lamp and star night light lighting up the room in a soft glow.

logan offered a strained little smile and nod to patton as he stroked vee's hair and cuddled him close. vee was completely out of it honestly. his body was wholly lax against his mama, his lips were in a permanent pout and his eyes were puffy and wet. he barely even acknowledged his papa coming in, his teary eyes just settled on him for a moment then dropped back to the bedsheets without a reaction. he kept lifting his thumb up to suck on it but logan kept capturing it and apologising as he brought it away. Vee shouldnt suck on his thumb and logan doesnt want to give him a paci while he's ill. understandably, baby vee was completely miserable.

patton asks if logan thinks vee could handle a popsicle or plain crackers at the moment but logan disagrees. he doesnt expect either of them to get much sleep so he will make sure vee eats something in a few hours. with a gentle kiss on vee's forehead patton goes off to bed, confident that logan will be able to look after vee and will come get him if theres any issues

logan and vee really dont sleep much at all. Vee drifts off for a few minutes at a time then gasps awake from vivid fever dreams. logan keeps ice cubes in a bowl by the bed for vee to suck on if he needs to cool down and wraps a couple in a flannel to press to vee's head when his fever rises in the middle of the night.

around 3am logan jolts awake and realises he had drifted off. and vee isnt anywhere in the room. he panics momentarily, bolting up from the bed and dashing to the closet to see if virgil is in there - which he tends to do when he is overwhelmed - but then he hears sniffling from the bathroom.

he finds vee, no longer regressed, curled up against the side of the bathtub with his bangs clinging to his sweaty head. vee is the palest person logan knows but he looks positively grey at the moment

'can i help in any way?' he asks, aware that he doesnt need to baby talk at the moment but still eager to look after this bundle of miserableness

virgil just groans under his breath and clutches his knees to his chest. 'i.. i didnt know what to do with the..' he gestures vaguely to something on the floor

logan notices virgil, being not regressed anymore, had obviously wrestled off the diaper he had been changed into the night before and not known how to dispose of it

'its ok, ive got it' logan wraps it up in a bag and puts it in the trash can they have in the room for just this purpose

'sorry.. m stupid' virgil croaks

'You're not stupid.' logan says firmly as he washes his hands 'You're ill and probably delirious from the fever. it's alright virgil'

theres quiet for a bit longer, virge's head pressed against the porcelain edge of the bathtub likely in an attempt to cool his fever. logan stays there with him for a while just waiting. then suddenly virgil starts sobbing and buries his face in his hands.

'sweetheart, tell me whats wrong please' logan hurries to kneel beside him, lifting his hands away from his face. that wouldnt help the fever

'i dont feel well' virgil cries pathetically, tears rolling down his face.

logans heart breaks 'no, you dont. i'm sorry little one, i know its not nice'

at the nickname virgils thumb raises to his lips again, which logan hurriedly intercepts. 'i'll make you a deal, okay? you're allowed to use a pacifier, but you have to use the same one everyday until you are better. we will need to sterilise it every night too.'

vee sniffles and nods, then chokes 'm not a baby right now though'

'that doesnt matter. you dont need to be regressed to want one of your pacis, vee'

vee is unresponsive and starts scratching at his pyjama pants. logan gets a feeling he isnt saying something. then he notices virgil's pout is much more infantile than his adult ones. 'are you feeling little, baby?'

with a harsh shake of his head vee starts crying again. he whispers 'dont wanna be a b...' then cuts himself off and whimpers

logan cards his fingers through virgils damp bangs. he knows what virgils mind has jumped to. 'were you going to say you dont want to be a baby?' he lifts virgils chin up to look at him 'or that you dont want to be a burden?'

virgils pale lip wobbles 'same fing'

'no sweetheart, no no no,' logan sits on the tiles beside vee and pulls him into his lap. virgil goes willingly. logan rocks his baby as he says 'youre always always allowed to be a baby and its never ever going to upset your family. even if you're an adorable wonderful brave baby boy alllll of the time' he scribbles his finger on virgils rosy cheek and delights at the tiny smile it earns him. 'but especially when you're feeling yucky. you feel a bit yucky today dont you, little one?'

vee nods with a pout

'but yknow whats not yucky? softies and pacis and diapers and lots and lots of cuddles with mama' he holds virgil tighter to prove his point. vee sighs and drops his head to nuzzle against his mama's neck. logan feels he still has a slight fever. 'i know what might help you feel less yucky. does my sweet baby want a sweet ice pop?'

thankfully vee nods against his shoulder and grips tight onto his pyjama shirt, preparing for when logan lifts him up

he first makes sure to change vee into another diaper and even decides that he should wear one of mama's t-shirts as a light dress so he doesnt get as overheated by his pyjamas. at this point vee actually giggles for the first time pretty much all day as he feels the tshirt swish lazily around his legs. logan makes a mental note to observe whether little vee might want to try wearing dresses if the feeling sparks this much joy (at this point logan is unaware that vee has secretly been trying skirts and dresses in his room for months, and roman found out a few weeks ago, but vee isnt ready to tell the cgs yet)

by the time vee is in his diaper and mamas tshirt dress and has a paci and jiji clutched to his chest he is a lot calmer and happier. he's still very ill and exhausted and teary, but theres a tiny smile on his face instead of a pout. in the kitchen he picks a strawberry ice pop and it goes down well, logan convinces him to have a cracker too though vee is in such a young headspace by then that he is just sucking on it, which logan supposes is fine too

by the (real) morning vee is still regressed and has managed to have a couple hours undisturbed sleep. its not much but its better than nothing. logan didnt fare much better. by then vee misses his papa and asks for him and logan hands the responsibility over to papa patton, trustinf the other caregiver enough to catch up on a quick power nap himself

but yes, the main thing is vee thought being ill was a burden enough that he shouldnt be regressed too, but logan makes him see that its okay. vee is regressed pretty much the whole time he is ill over the next few days because its stressful and painful and its a lot easier to feel comforted when ur a baby

yeah! gosh that was long, theres probably a billion spelling mistakes! feel free to ask follow up Qs if i missed anything u wanted to know abt this event

[voidselfshipp]

Sweeping Wind

Cw: food, blood, injury ment and suggestive content ahead. Eye contact for the GIF.

Ok to rb.

Summary: yasuo is saved by a shapeshifter, and in their journey togheter he finds that his feelings for her are not what he thought they were.

The night set on ionia, a lone Man walks through the pastures, heavy with regret, sorrow and tiredness he takes a swig from his alcoholic drink.

He sets camp on a hill,and rests with his sword nearby.

Its late when he wakes up, in the dead of night he looks around him, peeking his head through his tent.

He finds a small lizard eating his leftovers, he chuckles Bringing the poor creature in for the night, it seems to stare at him, and blinks.

The Next morning he resumes his travel, the lizard now resting on his cloak accompanies Him.

He had some suspicions about the animal he was carrying, there was something odd, he couldnt quite place what it was.

It all made sense as he scaped from a pack of bandits,that quickly followed behind him.

Yasuo was badly injured, he ran through the forest as much as he could holding his side.

Suddenly the lizard jumps off his cloak and transforms, at first he thought his eyes were playing tricks on him, but he was thankfull that whatever came to his aid appeared.

He then layed on the Grass against a trunk, he sees the silouhuette of a woman, he blinks a couple of times, until the blurry images become one.

From under the veil of a hat is a woman, that carefully was desinfecting his wound.

-- stay away woman!-- yasuo tried to reach his sword but falls back on the tree.

-- easy there-- she said putting a soft warm hand on his cold body, he shudders.

The misterious stranger wraps his sides once his wound was stiched up.

She then leans back pulling back the veil, leaving it on the upper part of her hat.

Yasuo softly sits up, and with confusion in his eyes, he looks at her-- who...what are you?

-- im jerico, im a shapeshifter -- she answered.

The Man tilts his head-- but werent shapeshifters gone?

-- im one of the last ones--she said with a heavy and sad tone-- I was scouting ionia after years of not being here, I stumbled on you, and you took care of me, so now ill do the same

Yasuo was stubborn and hard headed, yet, his cheeks warmed up and he looked away-- thank you-- he said, sitting crosslegued, arms hung loosely.

-- you should rest, ill make you some dinner, and set up camp, the nights falling in quickly-- jerico said, doing as she says she would, preparing a makeshift bed for yasuo.

Then she made dinner.

Yet the Man couldnt get his mind to wind down, he never could, but this time, this time was different.

He looked at her face, being illuminated by the Fire, her eyes fixated on the pot with the food.

He smiles for a brief moment and then lays his head back down on the makeshift pillow.

His eyes felt heavy, he turns to his healthy side and decided to sleep, feeling jerico put her cloak over him, it smelled like her, and it only made him fall quicker into slumber.

When he woke up, jeri was Gently nudging Him, a Plate of food in hand.

She gives it to him, as he wraps himself in the cloak.

-- thank you-- he muttered, eating his food-- where'd you learn this recipe?

--Many years of travel, and experience-- she said smiling at his sudden interest.

They stay in silence for a moment, then the Man says-- shapeshifters live a long life, I presume you have a lot of stories to tell..

Jerico nodds-- I do, would you like to hear one?

He nodded.

And so she told him some of her adventures, from the deserts of shurima to the grounds of demacia.

-- and where were you born?-- he asked.

-- I dont know, my home probably doesnt exist anymore...

They shared a tent for the night, they were too close for his liking, and both told themselves that the only reason they cuddled the night away was because of the very thin blanket.

The Next morning they arrived to a city, jerico knew someone so they stayed in a nice appartment.

Now here were these two, arguing in the bathroom.

-- jerico I can take my own armor off! Thank you very much!

-- yasuo! Let me help! Youre in no condition! Besides its not like im going to undress you!

Yasuo snorted-- wouldnt you like that!

Her cheeks turn red-- fine! Go and undress, ill wait outside-- she stomps outside and slams the door shut.

The ionian felt very accomplished with himself, he finally got her to blush!.

He took off his clothes and got into the tub, he gave her the okay, and she helped him wash his hair.

Jerico was in love with yasuo,he came out of nowhere like a rampaging wind, sweeping her off her feet in an instant, as she combed the shampoo out of his hair with warm water, she looked at yasuo, he should leave his hair down more often.

She just wanted to Cup his cheeks and kiss his pretty face.

Now as he washes his body, she sits on the floor with her back against the tub, giving him some privacy. Talking about what they would do after this.

-- well, I was hoping that youd stay with me for the rest of my travel, if you so desire

Jerico smiled-- well only if you want to

He splashes a bit of water on accident as he emphasizes -- yes of course I want you to come with me!-- he then clears his throat-- I mean, yes, id Appreciate your company...

--Ill go make us something--she then stands up And presses a kiss to his cheek-- if you need anything call me

She then walks out of the bathroom to the kitchen leaving a flustered yasuo behind her.

Its night,as she prepares some tea, she sees the ionian Man leave the bathroom all changed, the casual clothes he was wearing made him look cute, his hair was down, as opposing as his up and tight ponytail.

He Walked to her and helped her make tea, and now with the lights off they look down at the Window to the city below.

--yknow, this kettle is very beautiful-- jeri said pouring some tea for them-- I wish I had one

Yasuo smiled-- well, since youll be coming with me, you can Keep it-- he looked at her and taking her hand he shyly interlazes their fingers togheter.

Jeri smiled, and drank from her cup, not before she raised it in a toast-- for our adventures

He chuckles and clinks their cups togheter-- for us -- he smiles and drinks too.

It was a surprise to no-one that they cuddled that night, yasuo softly Turned jerico to face him, he caresses her cheek softly.

He spent years running away, following the wind from any sort of relationshipp, he did not want them to get hurt, everyone he loves was dead, and he didnt want to loose her too.

But that night, in that moment he knew, he loved her and at least he'll try to Keep her safe.

They lean in and he hesitantly presses his lips against hers, smiling as she puts her hands on his waist, he mimicks her and hugs her waist.

-- I love you-- he whispered to jerico.

Jerico with eyes half lidded, out of tiredness, and smiled, pressing her forehead against yasuos-- I love you too..

Needless to say that the wind has finally found its path.

[jamesvanriemsdyk]

Hi! If this is weird you can totally ignore!

I’m starting college next year and will be the first in my family to go. I’m kinda nervous and was wondering if you have any advice?

Congrats on finishing your degree!!!

hi love! its not weird at all, pls dont worry. and thank you! finishing ur degree is much wilder than starting it, i promise.

i have like. a TON of advice lmao. lots of it youve probably heard before: dont party, make sure you start studying BEFORE the last minute. eat healthy and MAKE SURE YOU SLEEP - mental health in college can get SUPER dicey, and these two things are absolutely vital in trying to keep it together even a little bit when you really feel like youre losing an edge.

time management is KEY - i schedule EVERYTHING out. i take a day at the beginning of every semester and schedule everything out, but its easier to start with weekly schedules. make sure you know what your week looks like; you dont have to do the exact assignment you schedule out, but when you schedule time to work then WORK. be strict with urself.

i didnt go to a traditional college, but if you are: join extracurriculars. find the things you like; if you're lgbt+, join local queer clubs. do improv, a sport, book club, anything. its really important to have fun while ur at college, plus youll make friends yknow?

form relationships with your professors. email them when youre confused, talk to them before and after class, go to office hours. some suck absolute ass, but a lot are INCREDIBLE resources, and if youre considering grad school (or even like. just for a job post-degree), theyll need to write your rec letters. especially try and befriend the ones in your fegree program!! my education professionals have been so valuable to me, and its super important to use your professors as the resources and experts they are.

i probably have more, but for now this is the last one: get a therapist. if u have healthcare, shop around for the right one. if u dont, use your school's healthcare and take FULL advantage of the mental health services your school offers. dont wait, dont procrastinate this. your first week of school, get a therapist. whether or not you have mental health issues or have in the past: get! a! therapist! if you can! if i were smart i wouldve gotten one the MOMENT i started college. the one i have now is just. such a help. and regulating emotions SUCKS ASS when youre exhausted and overworked and probably not eating nutritious enough food and everything else college entails. dont be ashamed of it either: if someone makes fun of you for having a therapist, tell them they could use one too.

i hope this helps! college is a lot, both good and bad, and its a wild four years. your brain and body do a lot of developing, and it's important to take care of them both. 💖

[bma-2020]

Okiedok here’s the delio. I have a list of all the blogs from the last six months who’s actively either responded to a meme i sent, responded to a message ive sent, replied to something regarding mally herself, has actually written with me, written a starter for me from my liking a starter call, has at least liked a starter i wrote for them to awknowedge it exists, all that jazz, i have a lot of open field so it’s not just a possible tumblr didnt let them no option anymore, because i send memes to everyone who posts them that i see. I reply to most peoples ooc posts. I like most starter calls I pass by. I try my darndest to actually interact bc i know how it feels to be ignored and its… i’ve been called one before so i’m using the word, thats fluffing cunty behavior, and honestly if you complain about not being interacted with but never even try when i try with you, ya being cunty, end of. I gotta list. That list only entails Mally because she’s who I care about the most. I’m probably gonna start instilling a new rule in all my blogs that if you ignore Mally and/or Darcy( @tasedandconfused ), since I would say they’re my two main blogs tho darcy gets ignored even more than mally does, probably bc i denied canon and left it entirely we know fandom hates that, if either of them is ignored then… Ya out of luck, I’m gonna unfollow you. I’m debating soft blocking everyone who ignored me on both of them but I don’t want to like be mean and deny the chance to eventually try again but at the same time i shouldnt feel bad for taking a stand and saying this is bullsheet, idk my anxiety says im awful for giving a fluff about myself but also i should give a fluff about myself probably, ive nearly died in the last three months, my brain almost exploded, i just had three root canals on one corner of my face, i have to potentially get surgery on my inner ear which i cant even afford, i dont got time to deal with only being used for like smut memes or like as a resource blog or utter bs like that, i dont got time for it. So new rules here. 1: If Mally or Darcy are not acknowledged, written with, responded to, viewed as more than just their fluffing bodies? ya dropped, im unfollowing, potentially soft blocking, which means blocking and unblocking for those not in the know, on all accounts I follow you on. Every single one. I know most of my muses are on sideblogs but despite not being able to send memes from sideblogs you can block people from sideblogs fun fact, i will do that if i have to. 2: I’m gonna be posting SCs, PCs, memes, etc. I like and respond to plotting calls, starter calls, i send memes, all of that. If I don’t get any response within.. I’m giving one week for people who don’t run on a queue and a month and a half to people on a queue based system, if i dont get anything within that time like at least an im being like ‘its posted’ or ‘its queued i wanted to let you know in case tumblrs a fluffbutt’ (i do this sometimes if i dont get even just a like on the starters i post so i at least know people saw it since i know tumblrs bs, i wait until the day they’re active to do so in case theyre busy yknow) basically i need acknowledgment at all. No you can’t claim this is abt follower count bc when you unfollow someone they inevitably unfollow you too, thats gonna drop my following, not as quickly as soft blocking would but i wanna be fair i guess, which leads to: 3: I’m basing this on your activity too, like if i like a think and you’re gone for a month after that its fine, im not gonna unfollow you unless you never come back or youre online and posting others just not mine because that tells me youre specifically ignoring me and im gonna drop you for that end of. I’m done with the bullsheet im done w the dillish behavior, i love friendship but if im giving and never receiving thats extremely one way and not gonna work. I check through my follow list weekly and i go back about five-10 pages on someones feed before i unfollow them to see their actual activity and see if theyre here or if its a q so. I’m thorough basically. 4: You dont have to be active with me on all your blogs, i mean i’d prefer it but thats hard as fluff so essentially if you have like five blogs and are just like trying w me on two or three thats fine. Ten blogs, four or five with at least a plot formed is cool. Multis just one muse is all I’d need. I’m not gonna unfollow the blogs youre not writing w me on if you at least write w me on some. Again, specifically Mally and/or Darcy. If you ignore both of them, we’re done. I havent been active on darcy because of being ignored and its a huge butt mess and im just tired i wanna use my babies, you don’t get to have my ‘better�� muses like i know a lot of ppl only follow me for my boys or my villains, you don’t get them if you ignore my baby. But, there is a limit there too. 5: If you never respond to a meme or thread even once with Mally or Darcy, or post a starter, i reply, its never replied to again after a month, I’m unfollowing and/or soft blocking for that too. Bc that means youre just raising my hopes to fluff with me or get someone else and honestly, youre even more cunty than than the people just flat out ignoring me if you do that. And this isnt a specific person, this is five of the people actually on my list. Yes, my list is also annotated with specifics again I was very thorough on this yesterday, I hyperfixated I’ll admit it, I’m in a fluffing depressionary bubble and being told to get over it because people want something they dont deserve to have to. I am a believer that people deserve good things but if youre purposefully being cunty… no you dont. 6: No I’m not releasing my list, maybe I will and I’ll omit the urls because I don’t want people being buttholes to each other too but otherwise, yall not seeing it im not giving a callout because… really thats just unnecessary here. I don’t think yall are toxic people or something i just think yall are unintentionally being cunty. And no I don’t mean everyone that follows me i mean the ppl that add up to what i’ve documented so far and fit the bill of butthat that i’ve shown, its behaviors yall gotta check before ya wreck. Yes there will be some people who have priority, everyone has those people, I write w kathryn on other platforms since she doesnt go on here as often but when Kathryn returns from war here (if she does cause she also agrees most ppl on this platform are cunty, i feel really bad saying that word so often but im gonna keep doing it i recently deleted an ask saying I was a huge cunt for not sending someone smut memes when I didn’t even follow them or know they existed so, again the travesty of this place is nutballers) same with owly, alex is here too, my most active partners are always going to be priority because theyre the ones who show the most interest and the most care. I understand that with others as well which is why I have the timeframe set up, because I want to be as open and shizz as possible while atill being firm i guess. I don’t want to have extreme double standards like its impossible for double standards not to exist at least a little bit but I want to avoid a golden chest full of them I guess. 7: I don’t have a seven rn, this was an even number and it bothered me. Seven is nust my warning that I’m bittery writing this on mobile so formatting is not real but i tried my dandest to make this look like something people might actually mind. I dont want to be butty, i dont want to be awful, i dont want to start drama or have drama but that shizz comes around anyways so i might as well make my space as okay for me as i can cause im supposed to avoid stress so my brain doesnt almost explode again, like again i almost fluffing died i dont need ppl fake being my friend or anything, i want stuff to be real and clear. I want to be happy to be on here again and have fun like i used to since my health is plummetting and I’m not allowed to go outside near plants by myself anymore because i welt up. I have plants outside my work place and im surrounded by chemicals all day long I’m welted from here to new york constantly and never comfortable in my own skin because of it and constantly see people online acting like these actual real problems are pretentious because ‘its an excuse’ when, im a fluffing sagittarius, do you know how much i want to magically be a millionaire so i can pay for friends and my own medical stuff and go on traveling and adventures, be outside probably not camping bc as a pagan i know thats a death sentence but like be outside, lay on grass, go back to swimming because i used to swim competitively and due to health reasons i can barely even go in a pool anymore because theres too much sunlight which, bit plot twist i know, im fluffing allergic to vitamin D and the rays of the sun, so go figure, attempts to be healthy kill me more, i also cant eat most plants and am constantly dying from just eating food, they dont know whats wrong with me. i cant fix it by going ve/gan for a month inf act i tried and it almost made my heart stop thanks society. These arent excuses these are the lives of disabled and diseased and to a lesser but still very real point, ethnic lives every fluffing day. This is real shit and its murder and online and gaming? It may be all I have soon since I can’t just go out and make new friends cause, again, I’d fluffing die. I get sick going to the mall or the movie theater, I miss theme parks so much but have to minimize it to weeks i dont have work so i dont get fired for having a welt while working in the beauty industry. I may have to get a degree online and change my field entirely because of my illness that nobody understands. People even make fun of it constantly online and I wish I could just drop online entirely because of how unbelievably ableist the entirety of the world is, i wish i could drop humans in general for their ableism, but i cant. I don’t have choices in most cases, but throwing away people who maybe purposefully maybe unintentionally thats why i’m giving you this warning and will be repeating this warning for awhile, this is where i have choice. I have to use what little choice I have in life while I can since everytime i go to movies or a concert or a theme park i almost die because of not having an immune system that functions or being in certain air qualities pr being near plants or unclean people, I may not have much time and I gotta do whats best for what little mental health I have, and if that means dropping people i care about and really want to write with and do things with but who ignore me then, i guess so be it.

[hideouspumpkin]

your ratatouille sounds lovely and veggies + hummus + bread + friends at a lake side is very lovely too!!! ❣️ also thank you for your very insightful answer, i very much agree!!! a little while ago i was watching a video of natacha oceane and in it she was talking about how, when her relationship to food was a healthy one, she didn't give much thought to food throughout the day, but she made herself food when she was hungry and enjoyed it while she had it (1/4)

whereas when she wasn't having a good relationship with food she was thinking more about it throughout (planning when and what to eat and how to get through longer periods of time without eating), and it made me realise it's kind of the same for me in a way. i love meal times because it's often the only moment that i get to sit down and connect with my boyfriend when we're having a busy schedule and it's the emotional connection to it that makes it special, but of course (2/4)

food is still a need as you say, to get enough nutrients and vitamins and all the things you need for your body (and mind) to like stay strong and healthy. i also wanted to clarify that im just speaking from my personal point of view!!! for me, ive been trying to build a better relationship to food because when i was going through a really bad depression this & last year, i lost my appetite and food wasnt a thing to enjoy at all, and going through recovery (3/4)

found that spark of joy again for cooking and baking and trying out new things and cooking healthier and enjoying spices (!!!) instead of making a simple pasta every night. but apart from food there's also been a whole bunch of other things that i learned to appreciate more like connecting to friends and being home with myself and the sky and i think all those little pretty things in life are so important and for the first time in my life i really learned to see them in full colour (4/4)

ALSO are we now basically exchanging letters like Julia Child and Avis DeVoto were? 🥺🥺 i hope you're having a lovely evening and that you're taking good care of yourself!!! ❣️

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hi !!! i totally get the whole “sitting down and enjoying people’s presence” because my brother and i go to eat at my mom’s every other week and it’s not that much about the food but it’s abt seeing each other and keeping that connection alive and that’s what make those meals so important to me even when i struggle with eating and all that !!! Also idk where you come from, even tho i think its present in every culture, but in france meals are not only abt eating or structuring the day but they’re abt eating with people, like culturally most of us see meals as something you do with other people, family or friends, and i love that but it made it hard for me  to see meals as something as important when i started living alone because ahfgghsf im alone  and it’s weird yknow ? So im trying to learn to enjoy my own company whenever i eat, but its not the same...people....we be needing people...

I also understand totally what you mean abt finding that spark of joy again after a tough time and im so so glad you got yours from food !!! I think it’s a good way to stay grounded and to heal, a simple way to learn to live life again and its a beautiful thing to find that thing, or things, that make you open your eyes to life again !! especially bcse wanting to try new things, just the fact that you’re ready to be wanting to take “risks” instead of letting life carry you and repeat itself, bland and unexciting, and its v important for people who struggle mentally wise i think (life is abt wanting to take risks) so yeah im glad you found your thing ❣️

I knew abt Julia Child but i didn’t know who Avis DeVoto was so i looked it up and omg their relationship it’s so amazing and cute and i kinda want to read the book that compiles their letters now agfsfs and I'd be happy if we kept exchanging our own (much faster to be received) letters 💌

(i’m having a lovely evening thank u, hope u had a nice dinner and a nice day today ❣️)

[harryisntstraight]

I hope my question isn't to invasive, feel free to replay or not. I wanted to ask you some trips to study? I've seen we are dealing with same things depression/anxiety/fucked up sleep.. I tried with some medication but they make me so exhausted. I spend my days lying in bed without motivation and feeling shitty cause I see people graduate but here I am wasting my time, but I can't help? I've lost interest in everything, especially in uni :((

ah omg of course its fine to ask! honestly though i really am probably the worst person to give this kind of advice because i’m pretty much in the exact same boat as you, depression/anxiety/fucked up sleep is literally the story of my life at the minute sjdhfsjkdhfs. i think like the main thing i always tell people who ask me for advice with this sort of thing is to not suffer in silence, dont think that you have to deal with it by yourself or that its not important enough to get help for. almost every uni has some kind of student support service that deals specifically with mental health thats set up to help people in ur exact situation. it differs from uni to uni but usually you can make an appointment online through ur uni to see someone who can give you help and support. like funnily enough my mum is a uni tutor and she deals with a lot of students in similar situations to you, and she always tells me that theres no problem too small or no problem that they cant at least kick start help for. like, she had one student who came to her that was really suffering with anxiety and needed to see a doctor but their anxiety meant that they didnt feel capable of making an appointment so my mum arranged the appointment for her, and now the student is getting counselling & therapy and doing a load better. like, one thing i really believe in is that if you feel like youre experiencing depression or anxiety or any kind of mental health issue then getting help for it is really important and the first step to getting better. like ur brain is part of ur body yknow? if you were experiencing bad pains in ur chest you’d want medical advice, just because the pains inside your head it doesnt make it any less important.

but serious stuff aside i think over the years i’ve picked up a few sorta coping strategies that help me to get work done when i’m feeling really bad. i think first of all its a good idea to try and get yourself up and out of the environment you spend most of your time in. like i find it impossible to do work in my bedroom bc i associate that area so much with just chilling yknow? so i always take my laptop to the library to do work, that way youre sort of like tricking your brain into putting itself into work mode. even if you dont get that much done, you’ll still feel like you achieved something because you got up out of bed and spent time in a positive environment. also it sounds lame but eating healthy is a big help, if you dont have the energy or motivation to cook healthy meals, then just having easy healthy snacks like an apple or some nuts or carrots and hummus is totally fine instead. like you’d be surprised how much more motivated just drinking a glass of water and eating an apple can make you feel. its really important to be kind to urself, do nice things for yourself and give urself a reward when you accomplish something even if its something minor. even if all you do that day is get out of bed, brush your teeth and read a page of your syllabus, thats something and at least youre trying. 

honestly, theres so much pressure and expectation when it comes to uni that it can really mess you up and damage your mental health, especially if it wasnt great to begin with. i think if you really feel like youre at a point where you just cant cope with uni and dont want to do it anymore, then really consider maybe taking a year out or something. doing things at ur own pace is really important, theres no time limit on how quickly you complete uni or if you even complete it at all. i know its a cliche but ur mental health and wellbeing really is more important than ur academic career, u should put urself first and take time to understand what you want and what realistically ur capable of. this is a lot of words but i really feel what youre going through and it sucks :( basically long story short, definitely try talking to someone whether it be a doctor, student services or even just a tutor you get along with. see how things go and take care of yourself the best you can but if you still feel like shit and still have no interest in uni then maybe think about whether you really need to be there or not and if its gonna make you happy in the long term. love you and i hope this helped a lil bit 💖💖

[buddyfaith]

I just failed an online quiz for class so I’m gonna do a longwinded character assessment that brittany reblogged for mama debeste to cheer myself up. feel free to challenge me on anything tbh.

1) I sort of like the idea that mama debeste was also a foster kid, but like- she’s 8 or so years removed from her foster siblings? like I don’t think there’s anyone in her age group to hang out with. I think she’s closest to the youngest brother? he’s 7 years older than her or something and usually was the one who was sent to ~babysit~ but actually this little kid is sort of neat. Self-same brother isn’t dead but he’s not. there. I sort of like the idea of military deployment for him. they exchange letters when they can.

2&3) okay so I’m finally gonna make up a healthy marriage and it’s these people. the Fosters (lmao) are a very elderly couple who suffered heavily from Empty Nest Syndrome in like the 70s and have been taking kids in ever since. They are VERY OLD but very kind.

-mama foster is a short woman who likes to garden even though it sometimes fucks with her Arthritis. She’s very plainspoken and knows exactly what the internet is but has some trouble accessing it by herself. Her sense of humor is very deadpan, which doesn’t match her face at all but that makes it much better. mama debeste is a Good Kid who picks tomatoes and collects caterpillars in jars. mama foster has some trouble with younger kids because sarcasm is hard sometimes and her temper is a little short but she loves mama debeste. mama debeste’s favorite part of the usual day-to-day is watching wheel of fortune with her.

-dad foster is a guy who likes to hike. its getting hard for him but he can still go thanks to his kids. they go whenever they can and picnic. mama debeste sometimes gets a little ahead of him to put the collected caterpillars back into the wild. anyway dad foster has like an incredible appreciation for nature and I’m sorely tempted to make him a Bob Ross-esque landscape painter. he’s the kind of dad that gives you candy before dinner and winks. he connects easily to mama debeste because she’s young and likes to get dirty and messes up a picturesque scene just right enough for it to be painted.

when the kids grow up the Fosters have pretty much come to accept that they’ll lose contact with them. mama debeste was determined to not do that and visited regularly but then her own kid died. She went back to see the Fosters for help and they told her that it wasn’t right, not so soon, but losing children is as much a part of life as losing parents, and that she can still come back from it. Mama debeste told them she was leaving for Zheng Fa and they told her to be careful, to be safe, to be smart, and to be kind above all. They were smiling when they said it but there was an air of finality about it, because they knew they had lost her, too.

4) aside from her house burning down with her child inside??

I like to think that her and her brother went wandering around on streets and stuff together and saw some regular stuff yknow. stray animals helping each other, hurting each other, people doing about the same.

Once her brother punched a guy in the face on the subway for spitting at someone and that sort of justified retaliation always stuck with her.

5) mama debeste carries around a swiss army knife like a girl scout, a shitty plastic cigarette lighter, a keychain that was probably a gift that has her house keys on it, two or three pieces of nicotine gum, an instant camera, and her wallet (which in turn contains her driver’s license, Interpol id, library card, two credit cards in Blaise’s name, several pictures of the kiddos, and about $400 in nonconsecutive twenties)

6) mama debeste dreams of her kid. like. what they (he, I’m vaguely leaning towards) would be like growing up and stuff. she also dreams of Zheng Fa and the forest.

7) mama debeste killing people maybe unnecessarily is kind of my jam and they don’t haunt her per se but sometimes she trips over their bodies literally. sometimes she imagines shooting herself because what the hell, she’s a bad person. anyway mama debeste also hates funerals so probably those too and [fire noises].

Silence, notably, too. If you’ve got kids there should never be silence. if you’re anywhere natural there should never be perfect silence.

8) hi welcome to Interpol here’s a paper target except we didn’t tell you there was a watermelon behind the head so that the red explosion would disturb you into perhaps not firing sometimes.

(it failed.)

9) the Fosters are actually fairly well off despite having So Many Kids with expensive extracurriculars and stuff? because they had like, regular people expenditures, it was a little bit more of a natural life. Blaise’s blood money is far less wholesome which is one reason mama debeste goes to such great lengths to get rid of it fast and frivolously. She burns the money in an attempt to warm the home.

10) mama debeste is a sundress lady or a biker leather lady with no inbetween. The former is an expression of serenity and safety. I think the latter gives her more confidence, like the Interpol days.

11) she couldn’t get back into her fucking burning house. the second time she felt so scared was when she realized phoenix was in the second house doomed to fall.

(there were little bits, in the middle, where she lost phoenix in a crowd or sebastian swallowed something he shouldn’t have.)

12) lmao marrying blaise debeste actually. she’s shot people with less conviction, less assurance than she had standing on the altar.

on a calm of a different note, the forest is her friend and the first time she saw phoenix try to paint a tree was great.

13) HAHAHAHAHA next question. (idk if mama debeste: forensics expert is exactly canon but she’s definitely less sensitive to blood than she should be)

14) mama debeste will never forget a face as long as she lives.

15) mama debeste is concerned with the concept of Doing and will blow through all of blaise’s blood money so that her kids can like, have experiences and stuff, but her preoccupation is more spending and acquisition than frugality or anything.

16) let mama debeste be happy 2kwhatever. she knows she probably never will be so she tries to make others happy.

17) her brother made mama debeste a teddy bear out of felt and button eyes and pillow stuffing. he told her later it was because he was really attached to the one he was supposed to Hand Me Down to her but that’s only half-truth. Its name is Growls.

18) probably wisdom considering “ambition” burned her crops and poisoned the kid’s groundwater honestly? blaise seems like the kind to both hide behind and weaponize that word.

19) mama debeste doesn’t say anything. like she’s the ultimate in something is bothering her but she sticks to the gentle smile persona and lets wounds fester until its way too late. this trait is kicked up to eleven with blaise and the kids, which is part of the reason that phoenix has such a sunny memory of her.

20) I don’t think she does compare herself to anyone except for Greg and Desiree Delite. The former is for validation in her parenting style. the latter is when she’s really loathing herself and thinking about what she could do if she would just fucking leave blaise and this petty revenge shit behind and take the kids somewhere–

21) I mean technically the only bad thing that really happens to mama debeste that’s her fault is that she fucking dies and she knows it. she takes sole responsibility for that.

she splits responsibility with people she killed because tbh most of them sort of. deserved it.

she blames blaise for almost one hundred percent for everything else.

22) mama debeste appreciates honesty and kindness. she likes thoughtfulness and dedication to a hobby. she also likes good parents.

23) mama debeste will fight the westboro baptist church. she will also fight anything that reminds her of herself before she loved the kids. and also blaise debeste and everything related to him.

24) mama debeste trusts no one except for maybe people that phoenix trusts. She genuinely likes Greg and lets phoenix sleep over there even though she’s only met him a handful of times.

25) hahahaha mama debeste is the ultimate in seeing through people. she’s super suspicious of strangers and people she doesn’t know getting close to the house. acquaintances are graded based on how much they hate blaise (maximum hate being minimum suspicion). the only people close to mama debeste are phoenix and sebastian.

she worries about what might happen to phoenix and sebastian.

26) I’M CALLING HER MAMA DEBESTE FOR A REASON because at the end of her life she’s really really devoted to the safety of her kids. For the long childless period in the middle she believed that kids could be tools for revenge, but she never really lost the mothering touch, as it were. Shi-Long Lang remembers her very very fondly.

27) have you ever played a really long game of clue with someone and they figure out the answer but instead of running to the pool and announcing it they walk into the foyer and shoot the murderer in the face? yeah. the last logic battle with the ~true antagonist~ of aai2 wouldn’t have even happened because she would have shot him on sight.

her conflict with blaise is too personal for that though so they have a marriage of hate and she’s biding her time. I think that once her USE THE CHILDREN plan broke down she lost sight of whatever her goal was which ultimately ended up killing her.

28) mama debeste is a fan of the fists and an even greater fan of shooting things but she does her absolute best to remain passive and unassuming for as long as she possibly can.

29) I think mama debeste wanted to help people? she definitely had like, a brain surgeon phase, but once that passed I think she settled fairly well on public service through Interpol. there was probably a speaker that came to school or something tbh.

30) mama debeste won’t eat mushrooms and passes this trait onto her kids. she hates socks and sandals. wash ya damn hands. blaise debeste. she also isn’t a particular fan of praying mantises specifically.

31) welcome to the forest. three people are there, herself included. One of them is drawing, the other is fumbling around in the picnic basket looking for an orange. it is later in the day, but evening isn’t in the sky yet. The breeze is gentle and smells like pine.