#i dont want to discourage ppl

[smiggles]

I’m curious if you’d be willing to say why it’s not for most people ?

The most prominent and easiest answer is that

Being an artist who makes their living off of commissions means that you must rely on your ability not to burn out

And with how low most artist need to charge you must produce a continuous amount of art without burning out (impossible challenge) or hurting yourself

You also must rely on never having an emergency that stops you from drawing for more than a few weeks (typically, depending on your prices)

There's a LOT more that effects why I don't recommend living off commissions but I'd go forever

[judithan-xing]

My pinned post about commissions has done literally nothing in terms of actually getting me commission work so I think I'm gonna replace it with a giant disclaimer of like 'i literally draw fuckin whatever if you only like my art from one fandom you will be sorely disappointed because I do not stick to any one fandom, please open your mind and heart to my ocs'

Cuz yeah

I've been getting a ton of followers for my sonic art which! Awesome! I'm glad ppl like it! I take such long breaks from sonic that it's unlikely I'll be drawing any more of them before the end of the year

[britneyshakespeare]

"7-day free trial" bullshit. What happened to God's ordained 30?

[swordbreakerz]

I get rly jealous of painters (digital and otherwise but mostly digital) sometimes bc they have the skill and knowledge to be able to do style studies of famous painters, and I frequently have the urge to do some kind of leyendecker study but I patently CANNOT paint, at all, I don't even rly render I am a flat colors and cel shading kind of artist so it would just be kind of useless to attempt bc the style I make art in just isn't the kind that I can do those kinds of experiments in and it feels Bad

[psycherprince]

third hot take of the day is that yes "boycott fatigue" is. yikes. but we're not doing anyone any favors by pretending large boycotts don't take any effort whatsoever. like we talk abt "invisible labor" in the household when talking abt feminism, which is the cognitive load of knowing what has to get done even if the tasks are divided, and having to keep track of who is doing what (wrt childcare) and the preferences of your family when cooking/grocery shopping/etc. Other ppl have explained this better than me but the point is. It does take cognitive effort to keep track of what you can and can't buy, and which companies own what, etc etc.

We can acknowledge that yeah it does take effort and yeah it can be annoying that you have to make some kind of change, but also still maintain that complaining abt that right now is insanely tactless and irrelevant. Like yeah you DO have to remind yourself not to buy sabra hummus or the starbucks brand creamer or whatever but like there's a genocide yknow get some perspective

[dandyshucks]

sorry i keep seeing posts abt this and its making me laugh a little to think about because. i really hope ppl are not looking at my blog that gets <5 notes per text/art post usually and thinking "oh no they must be so sad that theyre getting ignored :("

i am just frolicking in a field of dandelions and daisies over here and occasionally a little butterfly floats past and lands on me (someone likes/reblogs a post of mine) and it makes me happy but i never expect it. and now i wonder if theres ppl watching me frolic and looking at me with big sad eyes and shaking their heads going "oh no... that poor lonely soul... they must be so sad they're not getting more butterflies in their field..."

i promise you that i am having a grand old time over here HFDSGJKL i am quite honestly happy as a clam with what i've got. in fact sometimes i almost wish i could have a smaller following and i only have 50ish followers at the moment, some of which have gone inactive already HFDSHGDJKL like do i enjoy the attention that i get sometimes? yeah of course, it's great, it feels good, it's cool that other ppl are interested in what i post enough to give it a like or occasionally a reblog. but i'm never expecting it or looking for it fdsjkl, it's genuinely just a bonus to me !!!

(i do however enjoy reblogging other ppls stuff and want to do that more, i just have ... Le Maladie Chronique HFDSJKL. WAIT HOLY SHIT YALL I JUST GOOGLED THE ENGLISH TO FRENCH TRANSLATION OUT OF CURIOSITY TO SEE WHAT IT ACTUALLY IS AND I GOT IT RIGHT. I WAS JOKING. THAT WAS A JOKE. I MADE THAT TRANSLATION UP WHEN I TYPED THAT OUT AS A JOKE. OH MY GOD HELP. me when i guess french correctly just off the cuff holy shit HFDSJKL the only thing i got wrong is it's a feminine word/phrase/label/whatever and not a masculine so it'd be "la" and not "le" but if i'd been actually seriously attempting a translation i would've guessed that bc it follows the same pattern as other feminine words in french LOL)

[horrorsequel]

WHY AM I ALWAYS SO SAD !!!!!!!

[skyeateyourdonuts]

i love finding a youtube video about a topic i know nothing of and watching the video to hear about someone who discovered smth, did some research, and decided to compile what they had to tell an audience about it. thats so fun!! tell me what u learned and i will have a head start in learning about it before i do my own research <3

... what i Dont love about watching these videos is scrolling through the comments to see shit like "u didnt mention..." wherein the video maker certainly Did mention u just wanted to correct them OR "well ur wrong about all of this bc My life was..." followed by "this was more enlightening than the whole video" even tho the og commenter talked about smth completely unrelated.

idk why this happens on smaller content creators or esp smaller female-presenting content creators but it has Got to stop. just bc they dont "rank" the topic (yes im talking to u plainlydifficult 😡) theyre "educating" (i use this lightly) the audience about does not mean theyre not a person and it def doesnt mean theyre someone u should just click on to stomp on. id also go as far to say lots of smaller content creators who do historical or scientific topics do better at showing their resources and the facts as is than bigger accounts on yt that claim to be historically or scientifically accurate.

okay im rlly mad about this. stop shitting on people who actually put work and effort into topics and concepts theyre intrigued by and interested in and thus wanna share what they found in a neatly compiled video. watch ur non sourced videos about serious topics somewhere else

[thaltro]

came to check your page post-comm to find out you're getting discouraged from posting original content?? i came to your page cause i LOVE that stupid little sans au that you made. it literally made me love your art. idk if this'll get buried under asks but nightwatch content is super appreciated by so much more ppl than you think i was literally on vc with my friend a few hours ago and they were like "YEAH I LOVE THALTROS ART... I LOVE NIGHTWATCH SOOO MUCH I WISH THEY'D POST MORE" LOL just wanted to say i hope you dont think people "hate" your art now cause of the artstyle change -- i actually really like it and i think your art has a very certain charm to it. soz its 2am and im extremely blind while writing this (no glasses) but i literally only wish you the best bro. bless

This cheered me up thank you sm 🙁 in return I know you like Blue and fell so here is some art of my versions (and @bawmbo)

Thank you sm I’m just going to keep going and making nw content- I get really nice asks like this encouraging me too.

Here’s my blue and red or scell and dr blue in nightwatch. I love them dearly, they both met each other in the omega timelines college program and stayed friends since.

I can’t understate how nice asks like this are thank you thank you 😊

@bawmbo look at the art mr boar- it’s your son

[creatingblackcharacters]

hey there! so, im making a character who's Black, anddd i need help with them. badly so.

(sorry in advance bc this character isnt That developed or at least not as much as other OCs i have)

alright, they're an afab teen under the non-binary umbrella (im not sure on what gender i should give them). they're in a friend group with two other teens, one of whom found out she's trans, and that made them go like "wait maybe im not cis". they live in an extremely conservative christian town, and they're one of the few black kids there (it's an awful place to live, i make that very clear), which makes it so that they're not very connected with LGBTQ not POC communities - which is why their friend was the one who introduced queerness to them. they're the quietest of their friend group, quite autism coded but i dont think I'll really specify it, and they're a pretty normal kid all things considered (a bit of a self-insert personality wise lol)

when i first thought this character's gender arc, as the story will be very visual (animatics probably), i thought of them experimenting with gender by trying on their older brother's clothes. seeing they like how it looks, they decide to pick up a pack of scissors and cut their hair themself.

now, i remembered "oh fuck, POC usually don't like to have their hair messed with do they?" (i have read a bunch of posts abt that so im 99% certain lol-), then noticed how white the whole arc looks (i need more contact with POC i live in White Hell i have no other reference ;;), and that kinda discouraged me from writing them to the point i almost scrapped the whole character arc and even the concept- which is also why they're not as developed as they should be.

now, the actual question! how to write their transition arc, while also remaining respectful and realistic? also, have you noticed anything in this ask that's kinda fucked up, and how can i fix it if so? im doing my best to represent many groups of ppl with my OCs and i want to be accurate sorry if this ask is very long ;;

thank you so much for answering, and thank you for this blog!! you're very cool :)

So first, I deeply want to apologize for how late I am on answering this. I didn't want to answer without being informed, but I also know how much you want advice.

First, if this character is Black, say "Black" not "POC". Even in your head, start making that decision to be specific every time. We have a specific identity, we are not every man, and it's annoying to be referred to so generally when we have an identity.

For the hair part, check out this lesson. If your character decided to cut their hair off themselves, then it's not exactly an issue- it's their hair! It'd be different if it was someone they didn't know and trust touching their hair. You may feel free to refer to my entire syllabus if you want to do the reading to see if there's anything else you may have missed!

As for your question on their transition, this is the part that I was wavering on answering, because I'm currently doing the reading myself for a lesson I'm writing. So at the moment, all I can really say is to read narratives about and by Black trans people, and what that meant for them! That's a cool list I just found, I'm gonna save it for later as a reference.

It's not going to be received the same way as a white person transitioning, no; perception of gender identity and expression are going to be different depending on who's looking. For example, what does 'Black androgyny' look like to white people if they already believe that we have 'masculine' features? Thus the existence of the term 'stud'. Or how long hair is deemed feminine, but there are plenty of Black and Indigenous people whose hair growth is essential to their identity and has nothing to do with "making them girly".

I think what I plan on getting into more detail on in my lesson- and what you'll need to understand- is that following or even subverting gender "norms" is dependent upon what those cultural norms are, and how they might conflict at times. So to write a respectful narrative, you're going to have to understand what it means to live at that intersection. I hope this all made sense 😅 this is why I'm not confident in that lesson yet.

[b0tster]

do you have any advice for a trans fem that will start HRT soon? Nervous at the same time ready to be who i want

dont be discouraged if u dont get the changes u want in the first few years! changes can be slow!

also, hrt ishnt magic! if u want those curves, make sure to exercise and, most importantly, eat*!!!!! *welcome to the bunlith nuance corner. no, encouraging ppl to eat more doesnt mean that im saying eating more is an easy task that anyone can achieve. im aware that theres ppl with eating disorders, lack of funds, or who live in a food desert. please dont try (and fail lol) to attempt to cancel me over this like last time thx thx 💙

[ozmodai]

So we know that you love Pyrroh; I wanna use this as an opportunity for you to ramble :) What is it about Pyrroh specifically that makes you love him the most; what is it that tickles your brain just right that drives you crazzyy about him? I wanna hear it!

GO OFF ABOUT PYRROH, HUH... dont mind if i do

(making ppl look at his face again)

JUST IN GENERAL he's a fun guy to think about for me. he's fairly easy to drop into most situations, different AUs, and interactions. where some of my other trolls are withdrawn or awkward or generally unsociable, as troll society doesn't really breed Community well (outright discourages it even), pyrroh's extroversion and curiosity lets them bounce well off others.

and while that makes it sound like he's more well adjusted, he's not LMAOOOOO he's fucked in the head and i like that a lot too

pyrroh's aware that he's conventionally attractive and uses it to his advantage. people are drawn to his surface but rarely bother digging any deeper than that. he makes himself insignificant using the spotlight, gets close to people by not letting anyone close. he seems friendly and laidback so most tend to trust him implicitly and by the time they've opened up to him about everything, they don't usually realize that they never really learned anything about him.

pyrroh is uncomfortable with being being known, so they embrace what people have already made up in their minds about the kind of person that they are - someone pretty and frivolous and ignorant - and lets their real traits and thoughts get lost in the void because it's easier and safer. since the last time he acted on his own, he ended up with a physical reminder of why he shouldn't whenever he looks in the mirror.

on the other hand, when there are those that aren't swept up by his facade and even dislike him for it, he's drawn towards them in turn LOL like pushing magnetic poles together and the repelling force renders them weaker (in this case, the walls pyrroh puts up). it's scary, but a part of him does want to be recognized as the self he's lost.

pyrroh is a liar and he's haunted and lets people walk all over him to protect himself and he stays silly and i like him a whole lot

[mstowel]

this is a lot of posts for me in 24 hours, but there are a couple things i saw/experienced at the show in relation to audience & stage door behavior that i think is important to know to discourage that behavior. this is gonna be super long, so bear with me <3

tldr: be quiet during shows & be respectful to those around u at stage door

first the audience behavior. i was sat behind two people who i have had the unfortunate luck of sitting behind at an earlier show a few weeks ago. so this doesnt go for all audience members, but i have heard other situations like this as well. the ENTIRE show, they were lip syncing to the songs and dancing (which ok worse things have happened, but it was incredibly distracting for the people around me, who kept complaining about their behavior). they also were literally quoting the scenes out loud. like, would say the character's lines before the actor even said it themselves. it was actually insane? like fully ruining scenes and moments in the show, because they clearly wanted people around them to know they had seen the show before. behavior like that is just rude and incosiderate. if u wanna sing along and act out the dialogue, maybe stay home and watch a bootleg? people paid a LOT of money to see the actors perform, not random audience members. it was really frustrating to a lot of people sitting around me, and to me as well. so just dont do that maybe?

for stage door behavior, im gonna name one person (bc multiple ppl have had issues with them), but leave the other two unnamed because i dont think anyone needs to receive unnecessary hate. there were a few people at stage door who werent at the show, and i understand that that happens all the time and u cant really do anything about it! but it was people who often brag and post about going only to the stage door without seeing the show and take up a few spots at the front. like....this is not the first time they've done this, and also they were maybe involved in a certain dming and food situation from a while ago if u guys remember that....so. no hate to them, free will and all, you can do what you want. but like, the repeat offending of constantly stage dooring without seeing the show is wild to me.

for the named person, broadwaypolaroids needs to chill tf out. i know multiple ppl who have had issues with her, and i never really cared to think about her until the last few times i have stage doored (all of which she has been at) where she is just so disrespectful not only to the actors, but the other fans who were at the show waiting to talk to the actors. she was fully interrupting fans conversations with certain actors to make the actors take at lesat 3 or 4 photos on her dumbass camera. she also was fully blocking the way for actors to leave and forcing them into stopping to take pictures. also insane that she charges money for these pictures and i think more people need to be talking about it, but maybe thats just me. i also one night saw her be rude to security because trevor (who was on as pony that show) didnt sign playbills in the section she was standing in. mind u trevor was outside for lile 15 minutes really taking his time with the fans. she went up to security and basically demanded they get trevor to come back outside. it was literally one of the more insane things i have ever witnessed. anyways, that turned into a rant. but the behavior from her last night was seriously not cool and shes just a rude person from what i have seen.

anways! lets remember to be considerate and respectful of those around us, both at the show and afterwards. everyone is there for the reason of enjoying the show and maybe getting to compliment the actors' performances after. so just be quiet during shows and be kind to those around u, in seats and at stage door. its truly not that hard. ok bye! <3

[blueberrylovv]

I love ur blog the meals you eat are so pretty but simple and I feel like I can actually achieve it, I've never eaten >1000 before what is that experience like for you??

hello! thank you sm im so happy you've been enjoying my meals :3

to be completely honest i naturally eat around 1k a day, now im tyring to limit it to 800 so im restricting only a little bit compared to what would be my normal desired intake so im not struggling much so please keep that in mind because if your desidere intake is highet than mine it could be harder for you but i guess these are a few things i think could help you:

don't overcomplicate it - like you said my meals are rather easy and simple (a yoghurt bowl, salads, some kind of protein rich thing like cream cheese or vegan meat alternatives or roasted chickpeas with veggies) it's because i really really love cooking and im always tempted to try more and more complicated recipes but i know they would never be as low in cal as the simple things i make so i try to stick to the simple, no prep/v little prep meals. i buy the same ingredients every time i do a restock just to not get tempted into experimenting and making something that would be way over my daily intake limit

i eat what i enjoy - simple as that, i enjoy all of the meals i eat, i dont force myself to eat smth that isn't tasty to me. i know one of the adives people give is to make food an unenjoyable as possible but it doen't work for me, im more likely to binge later so i'd rather eat 1k a day of things i enjoy over eating 500kcal of smth that i dont particualry like and it leaves me craving other things.

follow your own patterns not what other people say - ik ppl tend to advise to not eat in the evening but for me it makes me sleep better (i have some big trauma form my childhood with going to bed hungry and i will have a straigh up panic attack if i get hunger pains if im laying down to sleep, if it's during the day idc but going to sleep? totally different story) and also I prefer doing omad so I'd rather eat later once and have only coffee in the morning than disturb my day flow by forcing myself to eat around noon.

don't lose your mind over 100kcal over - my bmr is around 1600 I try to do 800 a day so I'm already eating half of what I should be eating, if I go 100 over that initial 800 it changes nothing I'll still lose but it might prevent me from a binge. keep some 100kcal foods in your house, something that you know is below 100 so you can eat it without checking how much exactly it is, you dont evne have to log it into your tracker - that will take away some mental workload and the feeling of regret, just be prepared to sacrifice those extra 100 from time to time to keep yourself from binging, it will be better in the long run

not every day is the same - sometimes you'll feel like eating more some less if you would like to you could try not counting dayli but weekly so instead of hitting 1k a day focus on hitting 7k a week. yes yes ik big number scary number but I think it could be less overwhelming. I love to do lists, they help me keep track of things and stay motivated but I can't do daily lists because if I miss even one tasks on it I will get discouraged and drop everything so I do weekly lists instead and I chose what I want to do when, as long as it gets done in the week all is good, some days I feel better and i'll do multiple tasks some of them days ahead of the deadline and some days I feel bad so I don't do anything. eating is similar, some days maybe you'll have to run some errands or maybe you will have to study for a test and you'll need to eat to stay focuses or maybe you'll be meeting with a friend or maybe you'll have food in the fridge you don't want to throw away and waste money - eat more than 1k that day and then try to even it out on another day as long as your average is around 1k a day (again around not under bc that 100kcal over won't kill you I promise) you will be okay

figure our what works for you - I could never be one of those 'multiple smaller meals a day' girls, I swear by my omad bc if I were to eat small portions/snacks multiple times a day every time I'd eat I'd get hungry, that's just how my body works, omad is how I can stay consistent. figure out what works for you, if you prefer one bigger meal or multiple smaller ones; if you prefer warm meals or are cold ones fine; if you prefer meal prepping/planning days in advance or are you a go with the flow kinda person.

all of this will be a trial and error kinda deal so be prepared to struggle a little bit at the beginning but at the end of the day knowing youself and your body will save you, yes take inspiration from other people but at the end of the day you are you and they are them and your journeys wont ever be 1:1 copy of each other.

i hope i helped you at least a little bit, like i said im not altering my 'natural' too much so it's not that big of a struggle to me and now that im posting my wiaiad updates regularly it helps me even more to stay consistent and keep myself accountable. i'd say just try different things, don't throw yourself off to the deep end and start slowly, adapt as you'll be going, ask for help and advice but at the end of the day be prepared to not follow it if it turns out your body is not compatible with it. if you have any more questions feel free to ask and for now i wish you good luck, i hope you have a lovely day, remember to drink your water and stay safe <3

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oops small edit: also these posts i made some time ago are important i think [1] [2] okay that's all byeeeeeee

[specific-dreamer]

i love rewatching slimes bc i notice new things everytime

yk that little break in ggah at the beginning right after dally says “we ain’t got money but we got something to prove” ? steve does a lil dancey dance and they all yell steve :(

“some of us are smooth like james dean / some of cold and a little more mean” darry’s obvi the james dean type of greaser. i wont go into depth rn but when he tell pony he’d crash and burn if he wanted to be james dean i dont think he was tryna be mean or discouraging. the thing abt ponyboy is tht he feels too much, he wouldn’t be able to keep his cool and play his cards right. ugh ill circle back to this later i got so many thghts

pony’s got a bright ass fucking flashlight. that’s not important but there’s no way soda falls asleep when pony’s using it 😭

bob is all over cherry in fatd. emotional drunk bob you are canonical to me and me only

“far away from tulsa where people can be people and no body puts you down” poor baby really is in his own world. he is in the bible belt in the 1960s and he believes it’s only tulsa where ppl puts you down 😭😭 like no wonder darry’s so protective of him

omg i never noticed cherry and paul were talking to the cop during rrb

idk which soc it was but one of them bastards tried to take bobs jacket from cherry and now i got beef with him

“do i look like julie andrews” that’s been on his mind for a minute poor baby 😭

then when johnny says he looks like burt lancaster and pony looks offended, johnny also looks offended. like the look on his face reads “alright damn my b” i love them sm ur honor

someone please tell me if i’m tweakin, is pony fighting bob in the rumble. i’m abt to lose it oml

“you gotta go back to school and graduate it’s two more years” ponyboy’s in 10th grade :(

“you’re gonna be the first curtis boy to go to college” you tryna tell me darry dropped out of high school :( im about to pull a dallas winston hold on

“and we love you” sodas was lookin at ponyboy until darry said that. then he look at darry in surprise. i hate it here sm have i mentioned that

bob is also looking down on everyone during finale (tulsa ‘67) and all the socs looks towards him when pony sings “to the hopeless boy with the reckless grin

and with that gn everybody i’m going to bed before i cry over bob again

[1nvder-z1m-lvr]

tbh the ppl that respond to me are genuinely so fucking dumb that i wanna kms more than i already wanna. like im actually so done with this cus of how STUPID ppl are. feeding into clear ragebait is encouraging it, not discouraging it. to the ppl who somehow dont know this. i genuinely might just take a break from this shitty website and go on a diff one for awhile, cus ppl on here genuinely make me wanna blow my brains out. same with that "feet pics when shit" that one account is sending me. no, im not uploading feet pics anytime soon and im not even considering doing it. that shit is nasty, go find someone weird thats into nasty shit like that. the arguements ive gotten into on one of my posts abt scene being poser culture and music based are also so fucking stupid omg - scene was first a subculture when they first started wearing it, it gained its on culture, which makes it not a poser culture. and it started completely off of music and scene clothing style came after that -- meaning its MUSIC BASED. ppl say it has sm crossover with emo or call it a poser of emo (THEY ONLY SHARE HAIR HELPPPP), but then say scene isnt music based? if they have sm crossover than part of that crossover would be them both being music based. then theres the posers whos only comebacks is "the world is still spinning..." and "scene is fashion based!" . to "the world is still spinning..." yeah no shit thats what its meant to do?? and "scene is fashion based!" is just an excuse to be a poser. no, being a poser doesnt even matter but ppl are so fucking dumb that i seem overdramatic abt it. im done with this post, if anyone wants to talk to me my discord is fuckmylife500 , my space hey is czrlsz_ , telegram is czrlsz . im taking a 2 month break, i will answer dms on here sometimes, but not much.