#i dont want to call this vent art but it is Angry Art because i am Pissed Off.

[starmolts]

if you can breathe, you can labour.

[poisonouspastels]

[queenbeebumblebee]

Introduction to this account!! (UPGRADED)

Hello hello!

My name is Queen bee, but most people call me Bee.

I'm Genderfluid, i go by SHE/THEY pronouns! I'm okay if You use he pronouns on me

I'm Lesbian and Asexual.

I am a mutifandom arist and Tickle artist! Mostly into BBU and perhaps fnf here, i may also may or may not post non Tickle content here!

THIS ACCOUNT IS STRICTLY SFW. I am 15 (just went next level this year) so i'm a minor.

Im a STRAIGHT UP LER. Im not actually really ticklish nor do i like physical contact. I'm not a Lee, nor switch, nor Ler leaning switch. LER.

Tickling is not a Kink nor a fetish. Its a comforting thing and fun way to bond with others.

I'm kinda looking for moots here.

I speak spanish, but mostly English here.

Okay, anyways.

RULES.

I do NOT allow NSFW here.

Fetish and kink blogs are recommended to DNI, i am uncomfortable with it.

i don't allow racists here

This is a safe space for LGBTQ+ (if you're a MAP, a z00phile, a incest, homophobic, or something like that, GET OUT! This blog is NOT for You.)

Do not pressure me on posting often, i Will post sometimes, but ONLY sometimes.

I am not comfortable with sharing personal info, so PLEASE DO NOT ASK.

Don't hate me because of My drawings or tickle art, if You are just here to drop hate on me, please look somewhere else, don't waste your time.

I take My time on art requests or Hc requests, so please be patient with me.

DONT BE WEIRD.

If your account is minors DNI, get out of here, You are breaking your own rule.

You CANT repost My art, You can REBLOG.

DO NOT COMPARE ME WITH AI, i am not okay with that, plus i take My time with this.

Be Nice with others here, i don't want disrespect in My account.

This blog IS SFW ONLY.

Anyways, i hope we get along! And have fun!

Anyways

Here My tags:

🐝🗣️Queen bee talks - post

🐝🪶🗣️Queen bee tk talks - post is Tk related

🐝🎨Queen bee art - showing art

🐝📜🪶Queen bee Hcs - tk Hcs or normal Hcs

🐝🐐🪄 Queen bee into BBU - BBU related

🐝🏨Queen bee down to hell - Hazbin Hotel related

🐝😒The Queen is angry - rant

🐝😭The bee is sad - vent

🐝😲✨ Queen bee reblogs - rebloging a post

🐝😃👍 Queen bee answers - i answer your asks!

🐝🔎Queen bee search - searching for moots of tk related stuff

🐝🪶☺�� Queen bee tk fluff - wholesome tk art

🐝🪶🎨 Queen bee tk art - tk art

[randomscropio]

Vent because I need to get this out so that someone knows

Warning: vent, body insecureity (kinda), hating oneself, not getting help, feeling guilty over small things

If someone were to ask me if I'm fine I'd say, "I'm fine" even though I'm not.

I'm not fine.

At all.

I constantly worry if people actually like me and I worry that they won't be there when I need them most. I constantly fear that no one likes me, sometimes I stay up crying because I don't think anyone likes me and because I hate myself.

I hate how much I worry. I hate how the littlest things can be too much for me. I hate how much I hide and how much energy I put into masking my pain. I hate how I'm self conscious about my weight dispite me being a healthy weight. I hate when I was writing this I cried. I hate how much I procrastinate. I hate how much I deny that I need help.

I hate how I have so much dispite doing absolutely nothing, all I've ever done is existed and I've gotten so much, I have a loving family, friends, a house, clean clothes, food that I like, a good school, art supplies, I have things that some people could only wish to have and I have done nothing but be here and live.

I hate that. I hate how little I like to be touched. I hate how I can't tell anyone I actually know any of this. I hate how I can't stop crying when I start. I hate how I sound. I hate how people at school call me a "furry" whenever I draw dragons. I hate how I can't draw humans or hands properly. I hate how much I hide behind the mask I wear. I hate the fact that I have to mask my feelings. I hate how whenever I speak, no one hears me or listens to me and I feel like it's my fault somehow. I hate that part about me. I hate how I feel guilty over little things like forgetting to unload the dishwasher or feed the family dog. I hate how I still haven't told anyone.

And yet dispite all of this, I know someone out there has it so much worse so I don't reach out for help because I know that someone needs it more than me and I don't want to take that away from them. I hate that about me too.

I don't wanna die but at the same time I hate myself and sometimes I wonder if life would be better for everyone else if I was never born. I hate that too.

I hate how I can't tell anyone I know any of this because I'm scared that they'll do something that will put me in an uncomfortable situation or that they won't even care.

I hate how scarred I am about the future. I hate how lazy I am. I hate how all I do at home is sit in bed, take care of myself and look at my phone all day. I hate how little sleep I get. I hate how little effort it takes me to make something for other people to see and be happy about, but when i try to make something to vent with (like this) it's nearly impossible and takes so much time and effort. I hate how many things I hate about myself.

I have so much but I'm not happy. Why am I not happy? I want to be happy not sad, scared, angry, or lazy. I just want to be happy again. So why can't I be? Why can't I be happy, that's all I want at this point. I hate that part about me too. Why can't I love myself like how I act like I do? Why can't I love myself? Why can't I be happy? Why is it that I have to hate myself but at the same time not want to hurt myself or kill myself? Why am I like this? I always say I'm fine, so why can't I be fine? Why do I need to feel like this? I've felt like this for a while but don't want to get help because, again, I don't feel like I need it as much as someone else and I'm scared that if I do get help I'll automatically put the mask back on and just waste their time. I want help but at the same time I don't... why am I like this? Why can't I accept how I am and love myself for it?

Please dont comment anything mean, this is just me trying to get my feelings out and be heard, even if no one will listen or see this post, I just want to get how I feel out. Thank you for listening

[magicalslug]

Life update

...Because those are always fun.

In yet another thinly veiled attempt at writing something that's totally not a vent, you get to hear what I'm up to today.

I'm planning an itinerary for ~a trip to NYC~

(this stays between us bcus this is a V1SA requirement but i aint planning on THAT. I just need it to make any plane trip to canada cheaper instead of direct. bcus apparently your plane landing in usa for even a microsecond requires you to have a v1sa for that. SO fun)

Anyway. Of course it has to be believable. And idk maybe one day it'll be real bcus you know, I do want to watch a broadw ay play LIVE someday.

So I had to do a little research and watch some videos because i had no idea what to put down on it other than "watch musical at 7pm" on it.

And i watched some guys videos about "nyc tips! best places to go! best locations! dont do this here! dont miss this!" type of things.

And the more i watch the more.

Sad? I get?

Traveling abroad is so expensive. Traveling at all is a luxury.

I... I will never live the kind of life that lets me throw money into the fire like that. To travel all over. To enjoy that type of vacations.

Because (and this is the part where i wonder if this isn't just because my brain has been in a terrible state lately) traveling for vacations is kind of a waste right? We all think that? We're all disillusioned by prospect of being away from the worries of your daily life for 3-4 days and then coming back to your nightmare again to live it until the next time you can afford the Momentary escape? Yeah? We're all on the same page?

(What do you mean it's just me?)

It's just.

I've been so sad lately.

"ignoring your friends because it's all too much" type of sadness. "sleeping it off almost daily because it's all too much" type of sadness. "having The Thoughts again almost every day again" type of Sadness.

And it feels like nothing will ever make it better.

And i keep thinking that I know why. I know why i'm feeling like this. But it feels like deflecting the blame.

It feels like i'm lying.

But it must be because I'm back living in the place I wanted to escape from, that i got a momentary escape from it, and now that i'm back it feels like.

Like I was right.

That I will never be free.

And time is running out to escape from it.

And I'm losing anything that made me happy. That made it worth it.

I don't have my freedom. My peace of mind. My art! I can't do art anymore! The friends I had made are now too far away! And the friends I have here are so far away I can't even visit easily!

And I'm so fucking tired and angry and sad all the time!

And stuck living with someone that I hate. And that hates me back.

And guess what!!!! We ALL HAVE PROBLEMS!!!

YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE LIVING IN HELL!!! YOU COMFORTABLE LITTLE POSH THING!!!! WHY ARE YOU SUCH A SORRY LITTLE THING!!!! PATHETIC!!! MEDIOCRE!!!!! STOP FUCKING CRYING !!!!

i DON'T LIKE IT WHEN IM MEAN. BUT NOW IM MEAN ALL THE TIME.

I'm.

I undid so much work in just a few months.

I wanted to live. I really wanted to live. Did you know? I kept calling myself immortal. I kept saying it to friends. I kept going "oh duh, I will never die so jot that down" and i don't think anyone ever asked me why I kept insisting on it.

But it's because it was a comforting thought, a clutch to hold onto. I will never die, so it'd be pointless to be s uicidal. A grandiose claim to train my brain into not wanting to die anymore.

(And though it wasn't the only thing that helped-- It worked. It had worked.)

And reclaiming my life had felt so easy. When I wasn't stuck living with my abuser.

But now I'm back here again. And I hate my job that sucks the life out of me. And I hate where I live because it's just a constant loop of being dehumanized while trying to play nice with the hand that feeds and chokes at the same time. And i hate myself most of all for being so weak.

So weak for it all.

Living my life should be easy. Someone else would not crumble under things so easy to live through. Someone else would be able to defend themselves. SOMEONE ELSE WOULDN'T BE SO PATHETIC.

Because I was getting better. And I was happier. And it wasn't perfect. But I did think for a moment that I was going to make it.

"Where do you see yourself in 5 years"

Dead. Dead if i'm lucky.

I lost everything. Even now I feel how I'm losing myself.

What good am I for anymore. I failed at everything.

"You're never too old to start living life!"

Well that's the thing.

I am getting old.

Too old to keep dreaming of ever achieving anything important.

Anything good.

Anything worthwhile in this world.

So why even wait for more time to pass.

Why not cut our loses.

And leave the world while a few people still care about me.

I want to jump in front of the metro.

I want to jump so badly.

And it'd be so easy.

So easy.

It would welcome me with open arms.

Death would be asking what took me so long.

Why I made her wait.

Why I wasted my time.

Why I wasted everyone's time.

I miss my grandpa.

[gravellymistaken]

vent over people making dumb arguments about ai already below do ignore me

(Not really mad at this person in particular this is just a stupid argument ive seen regurgitated over and over again like its some gotcha. at the end of the day that person was advocating for unions which is great but im pretty sure theyre ALREADY working towards that so. whatever. im just frustrated.)

I will never get over comparing ai to human inspiration. I do not care if someone copies my art, i dont care if someone saves it and uses it for inspiration, i don't care about the person that may or may not have seen it. because at the end of the day that is a single person using something for personal use. in a way that connects to who they are. and that person can only go so far with what i have before they find another, and begin to add themselves into the mix.

Most people are aware of this possibility when it happens, and when it goes too far when it comes to reposting, monetization of their work, and flat out stealing their are RESOURCES to take it down. And yeah, the management for that is ALREADY REALLY SHIT.

Artists are supported so unbelievably little these days that nobody cares to see them as individuals. we're "products" that shouldnt be afraid to be "copied" as if an ai is the same as a person with likes and dislikes and tastes and specific choices made with their art, because theyre, you know. individual?

And nothing being truly original is a solidarity between human existence, a call in response to wanting to represent what the other has in your own human eyes, so they too may understand you. If nothing is truly original then why do we keep on making art. wouldnt we hit a point of true understanding then? we just start repeating ourselves over and over again? is there really nothing new to bring to the table anymore? why do we even bother?

I don't want ai generated art trained on peoples intentionally thoughtful pieces, even if they did it for the "vibes," i want real human connection. i dont want art made by a robot. You cannot be angry at us for not expecting or wanting this new tech shoved onto our laps "because thats just how it is"

and honestly i dont know what the right answer is for all this anymore, i really dont. it feels too far to get a grip on things, to enforce a rule that they have to ask each artist and compensate them. they could even commission artists to train their models with, but no theyre going to do whatever they want "because who knows whos seen your art already"

Im so tired. i didnt become an artist for this. I'm a blip in the sea of much more meaningful art but im starting to lose my motivation to post. If nothing i do is truly original, then someone out there is going to do it better. an ai will eventually learn to do it better.

I dont do it to be the best out there, i dont do it as a product, i do it because i am a human, and humans make art, and we love to see what humans make.

i get that this is all late stage capitalist garbage but god.

i dont want art from a robot.

[rauhallinen-hauki]

replace mad max with ff7 and f//ury r//oad with ff7r, rewrite some of the context on that last post and u get the average og 1997 ff7 fan experience

on a related note...

(im using shepvance as an example because its the one special interest that i get the most shit for. but this applies to a lot of things im into.)

"Why shepvance? why Adrian and not Gordon? Why not ship other ~better ~ more normal ships? what compells you in this, to be frank, borderline-crack ship? or do you just hate everything that isn't weird inocuous niche bullshit? also why do you draw Adrain with hairy forearms and chest and slightly overweight? don't you know that any man that doesn't look like Sephiroth is ugly and therefore boring and why is he with Alyx who is so much hotter again and-"

there is nothing wrong with asking. i'm glad to talk and explain my thoughts and feelings. it just gets irritating when every single time someone sees that I've drawn or written or done anything with this pairing it is alway "why why why why wh-". shepvance isn't even the first rarepair I've been into, but for some reason it just perplexes most people to such an extent that they can't help but get really anal about it.

me liking shepvance doesn't automatically mean that i hate every other pairing involing these characters. even if there are pairings out there that i hate, i do the obvious and just ignore and or filter/block what/those that I don't wish to see. i don't shit on people. wich brings me to the next point...

you can dislike, hate and despise shepvance. you can be neutral on it. you can also like, love and adore it. wichever way it is I don't care. just please, please don't shit on it in the viscinity of fans.

i'm not here to "spread shepvance propaganda" or anything like that. i'm just here to do share my art with the world, throw my things in my little corners of the internet (aka me everytime i post things into my accounts).

i'm here to express myself. im not forcing anyone to like my art or fanfics or shitposts or whatever. even if you happen to like shepvance, that doesnt mean that you automaticaly like my art. i have my own style and takes on these characters, and not everyone is going to like it. and that's great!!! that thing is called having taste! individuality! personal opinions! prefferences! but thats the thing: if you like it, great. if you dont like it, great. just dont bitch and mean into my ear everytime i do a harmless thing you, personally, dont like

if you aren't hurting anyone, then you can do whatever you want. so why is it that people lose their minds the second you happen to be into some niche but, again, nevertheless HARMLESS thing that just so happens to not be as popular or as liked by most people?

anyway im not sure what exactly im trying to say with all this but if you somehow find this post then i guess the tldr is:

-if you aren't hurting anyone, then you can do whatever you want. other people might not like it, and thats fine. but dont let that stop you for doing what makes you happy. again, if you aren't hurting anyone, you should do what makes you happy. life is short as hell anyway, so use your time wisely

-instead of wasting time bitching and moaning about someone being into some harmless thing you dont like, focus on the things you actually like. go write a fanfic of your fave character. go for a walk. there is way too much unessesary hate in this world already. its ok to vent and be angry but going berserk all the time wont get you anywhere in the long run. i know this from experience

-dont go to the circus if you don't want to see clowns, dont come to this blog if you dont like thunderdome, etc

(this isn't directed at anyone in particular. every mm fan i've interacted with so far, f//ury r//oad fan or not, has been polite and friendly. its just a sentiment i've seen a lot lately and i need to write it down. wring down stuff helps a lot ok. and no its not that serious im just tired lmao)

"oh hey. you like mad max?"

me: "yeah, the original trilogy only. it means a lot to me, it is my fave set of films ever."

"so you dont like f//ury r//oad?"

me: "no, i don't. nothing wrong if you do tho."

"why don't you like it?"

me: *politely explains why I, personally, in my own subjective opinion, dont like f//ury r//oad nor am i interested in watching f//uriosa. i watched f//ury r//oad. without biases, went in blind knowing the basics and having seen the original trilogy only once at the time. didn't like f//ury r//oad. just not my taste. simple as that. again, nothing wrong if you like it.

"OMG WHY DO YOU HATE EVERYTHING NEW!!! NOT EVERYTHING HAS TO BE AMATEUR 80S SHIT, DONT YOU KNOW THAT MILLER HAS GOTTEN SO MUCH BETTER AT MAKING MOVIES??? AND THAT AUTOMATICALLY MEANS THAT THE ORIGINAL MM MOVIES ARE INFERIOR AND SHITTY AND THAT IF YOU LIKE THEM YOU ARE SOME CLOSE-MINDED CONSERVATIVE WITH BAD TASTE (DESPITE F//URY R//OAD NOT EXISTING WITHOUT THE LEGACY OF THE ORIGINAL TRILOGY, ONE THAT IS ARGUABLY THE MOST INFLUENTIAL PIECE OF POST-APO MEDIA IN FILM) UUUUUUUUUUUUGH JUST TAKE OFF YOUR ROSE-TINTED GLASED (DESPITE YOU NOT BEING EVEN BORN AT THE TIME OF RELEASE OF THE ORIGINAL MM TRILOGY AND HAVING WATCHED IT ONLY THREE YEARS AGO AS AN ADULT SO NO "NOSTALGIA" THERE) AND WAAAH WHY DONT YOU LIKE THE THING I LIKE AND-"

me: *long, exhausted sight of pain. i figuratively die of cringe

like why do you give fuck. im not going to shit on you because you like f//ury r//oad. so why would you shit on me simply because I don't like it?

is me not liking f//ury r//oad a crime against humanity or nature or all that is good? no. but you're sure as hell are making it sound like it is.

[thirdhandidiot]

HELLO LGBTs

DONT YOU THINK ITS TIME FOR A REVOLUTION?

NONE OF THE OBEY ME CHARACTERS ARE CIS BECAUSE I SAID SO, ITS TIME WE START PROJECTING ONTO THEM

•i want to see non binary Satan who couldn’t understand why talking to people was making them angry and started lashing out for seemingly no reason, having to go to Lucifer in a fit of angry tears, desperate for help because it hurts so much, why does it hurt?

•I want to see Beel, who passed so easily, worried his twin would grow to despise him because he never had the same ease transitioning socially, getting called the girly one of the two, always being smaller, weaker next to Beel, and Beel hates it so much, he feels guilty

•I want to see Miku Binder Levi projecting onto fictional characters to avoid thinking about his own problems, wearing baggy clothes and locking himself away, jealous of the other brothers, scared of rejection

•I want gender fluid Asmo, proud of their ability to seemlessly shift between presentations, calling mammon in tears, begging him to come pick her up from this guys house because he’s yelling slurs at asmo, who is sobbing please don’t call me that and they won’t stop

•I want to see the great mammon, who is so confident one day, but the next can’t stand the sight of his body, especially when he shifts and you can see his scars, barley hidden by his jacket, who always feels like his screams are just a little bit too high pitched

•Lucifer, so proud, hurt by memories of before, presenting hyper masc at times, afraid to show any emotions because even though he knows it’s not true, he can’t help but think people will see his as more feminine, and he can’t do that, not again

•I want Belphie, who pretends it doesn’t bother them. ‘Why should I care what some lesser demon thinks of me?’ but is kept awake at night, when everyone else is asleep, no one to help as they spiral in insecurities, their voice echoing in their head, the cruel words twisting, stabbing–

•Lord diavolo, whose parents had been so relieved because ‘that means you can be king– we were so disappointed when you were born female’ and it never sat right with him, even though he’d been lucky enough to transition young

•Maybe even Luke, who only Simeon knows is trans, getting upset when he’s called chihuahua because my voice isn’t that high, is it? But determined to stay closeted and so never being able to tell them why they should stop, and he’s not that small, he’s an average height for boys his age he’s checked, so many times

–But I also want to see sleepovers between the brothers (they agreed it was simpler to keep calling themselves that and that it was better than letting Mammon or Levi pick a new name) where they, just for one night, put aside the bickering and tormenting eachother just to make sure the others are ok, because they all know that they’re struggling in their own ways, and for one night they all sleep in the living room, eating food, watching comfort movies and following whatever self care routine it is that asmo is on currently, everyone gets a face mask, no you can’t opt out lucifer, you’re working too hard again, you’ll get wrinkles and that just won’t do, let us take care of you– and Levi! When was the last time you washed your hair?! That won’t do, come with me, let me do it for you I have these amazing bath salts I just know you’ll love

–I want Diavolo, helping them all transition as quickly and as secretively as possible after he finds out. He wants to be there for them, ever since that night lucifer came out to him, sobbing, pride forgotten because he doesn’t want to be that person anymore. He can’t, he spent too long living that lie for his father, he just wants to be free. Simeon telling him he’s changed and being so proud of him, you look so much more relaxed. Diavolo being so happy to know that lucifer is happier because he struggles to talk about it because Lucifer still believes he‘s wrong or broken in someway, pride too much to overcome, but when it’s just him and diavolo, sometimes he can talk about it, lift a weight off his chest

–I want to see them big eachother up in the way that only siblings can, oi that jacket looks good on ya, can I steal it? I’m gonna get junk food because I deserve it, what do you want? I want them to support eachother on bad days, just silently making them tea when they’ve started into space just a little too long, ruffling their hair on the way out. I want a deal between them to let the others know if something is showing in public, whilst in the house being comfortable enough and trusting eachother enough not to judge because really, they’re all in the same boat here

I can’t be the only one here guys. C’mon. Let make this happen. Tag me. ANYTHING YOU POST I want to see it, I want to see your vent art, I want to hurt with you as you project your troubles, just so that your not alone. @7fckingidiots made a Post Abt the Brothers amd it was my final snapping point, Ive got so many little sketches of Satan, they’ve become my muse for any practice drawings, amd I wanted to say something before but yea, check out their post guys I’ll try Link it. But I mean it, tag me, I want to reblog everything you do, make our own supportive family

[fizzysquish]

I'd really like to hear about your opinion on the ahit fandom if youre ok with sharing? love your writing by the way!!

Oh wow I actually didn't expect anyone to wanna know yifhfkhck

And thank you!

Alright this is.. Gonna be long and most likely have some spelling errors every now and then but bear with me.

Tw- talk of pedophilia, swear words

Tldr at the very bottom

The ahit fandom..

...sucks

But also doesnt? Its kind of hard to explain. In general, if you just glance at the fandom it will either come across as pure or as a shit show. This fandom has some serious problems.

This fandom has a lot of drama happy people in it. Im not going to name names or anything, cause there's no point, but it does. A single scroll through the tags will tell you that much. And this isnt me saying 'people can't have opinions' or what have you. What im saying is that there are people in this fandom who live just to stir up drama and make others angry.

Or, in a lot of cases, instead of just saying a persons opinion, they'll swear up a storm and say they hate certain people or call certain types of fans 'the problem with the fandom' and like.. That just makes you sound like an asshole honestly. And it hurts people, too.

(And nobody can tell me it doesn't. Ive had to reassure too many venting and upset friends because of it. It hurts people.)

Also, because you know I have to mention this and it fits perfectly after this first paragraph- subcon. Snatcher.

I legitimately do not understand why some people hate snatcher so much. And I also cannot understand why some people will specifically target snatcher fans at times.

Snatcher is a big comfort character for a lot of people. Wether its for personal reasons (ex- mine is because of my own past dealing with abuse and trauma), or if its just because they make someone happy.

Snatcher is a comfort character, and the whole story surrounding subcon is so so interesting and fun to explore? And so what if people enjoy it? I can understand that it can get frustrating seeing so much of it, especially if you like something else, but that is no reason to target snatcher fans (or.. Any fans in general) and/or make people feel bad for having fun.

Fuck, thats how you make people leave the fandom entirely. I understand it can get frustrating, but just.. Try to be nicer? Try not to make people feel bad for having fun? Please?

And before anyone tells me "it's not about that!", i want to point out that I often see posts like "don't let the snatcher fans see this-" and other things along that.

If you want me to believe its not about that, prove it. Cause as far as i can tell, it certainly is.

(Also as a note- who cares is someones thirsty??? Like

Just block them and avoid if it bugs you so much?? It's not that hard dude)

-THIS PARAGRAPH MENTIONS PEDOPHILLIA, SKIP IF NEEDED-

Another serious thing to mention is the pedophilia in this fandom. Feel free to skip this part  if it makes you uncomfortable, but its something i need to talk about.

There are pedophiles in this fandom. Ive seen the art and the fics (no matter how many times i scrub my eyes, because its disgusting and horrible and just- eugh-). There are pedophiles here and its easy to come across them because they just.. Aren't afraid to post in main tags. People follow them. People support them. Granted, not everyone, and generally most people know to avoid em, but they're still there. They havent been kicked out or ostracized. And it disgusts me.

I know this whole paragraph could be argued that "that doesn't represent the fandom!" Or whatever but.. This is a younger audiences welcome game guys. Its advertised as 'the cutest 3d platformer!'. Kids can and do play this game.

There is pedophilia in this fandom, and i feel its important to mention.

-END OF PARAGRAPH-

Also, some people in this fandom just.. Suck. Plain and simple. Some people in this fandom are just genuine assholes. And said asshole just like harassing others and causing problems. There's a literal shit ton of drama and problems with this fandom, and honestly it's.. So dumb??

This is literally just a video game and people are just having fun. If there's a problem, treat it like a grown up and either ask the causes to stop and why, or block and move on. Simple.

Now lets move onto the good parts of this fandom, yeah?

First of all- there are some serious sweethearts and amazing people in this fandom. While there are some that suck, there are more that are actually just here for a good time and to make good content.

Ive met some of the nicest people ivs ever known thanks go this fandom. Ive created friends who I seriously consider family. And most people ive talked with or even just ran across have been pretty cool.

This fandom is also generally very welcoming to new people (minus the assholes), ive noticed. Some people get into it really easily just because eveyones generally friendly and supportive. Which is always great!

Also, the fanworks people in this fandom create. Can i just talk about how fucking talented people are??? Its pretty amazing to see how people create things for this fandom.

People will take the story that gears for breakfast showed and they'll run with it, and create these amazing au’s and stories and 'what ifs' from it. Its just.. So amazing to watch people use what we've been given just weaved it into something.

(And this isnt even going over the mods and the stories those create, which always amaze me.)

So with all that laid out, do i think the fandom good or bad?

...i think its both.

The fandom itself has some serious problems in it. It gets unnecessary drama nearly every other month or so for no reason. There are some truly disgusting people and some absolute assholes, but the majority of people are actually pleasant, fun to be around, and welcoming. As long as you be careful of who you follow and use critical thinking skills, its not so bad.

Im not going to lie to someone and say it's all honkey dory. In this fandom, you will inevitably interact with either a creep, an asshole, or both at some point. There is a likely chance that you will have your feelings hurt in some way in this fandom. Ive see it, ive heard about it, ive experienced it.

All that being said, if you curate your viewing, follow people that seem/are cool, and use the block feature (don't. Debate it, if youre unsure about someone just block em)... Its a very fun fandom filled with both heartfelt creations and memes, and has plenty of potential new friends.

So its both good and bad, yeah.

Tldr-

Fandom has lotsa issues but overall is fun, just make sure curate your experience for yourself and dont let what drama pops up or what assholes say get to you.

[merildae]

So i was tagged by @kawaiichurchburner, thank you :D

1. What do you prefer to be called (name wise)? Rose

2. When's your birthday? april 30th

3. Where do you live? Massachusetts 

4. 3 things you're doing right now? combing my hair, drinking coffee, and listening to music

5. 4 fandoms that have piqued your interest? DC Comics (mainly batman) last Podcast on the Left, Hades game

6. How has the pandemic been treating you? rather poorly, my mental health has been absolute shit and ive struggled with feeling hopeless and isolated w

7. A song you can't stop listening to? i wanna be adored by king woman

8. Recommend a movie: the original 12 angry men

9. How old are you? 24

10. School, university, occupation? i do art restoration and am applying to either a museum studies or global cultures masters program next year

11. Do you prefer to be hot or cold? cold

12. Name a fact others may not know about you? i am very good at sewing, i can create patters and tailor and drape etc.

13. Are you shy? not really, im actually quite outgoing

14. Preferred pronouns? she/her

15. Biggest pet peeve? people who chew with their mouth open

16. Rate your life from 1-10? 4

17. What's your main blog? this one

18. List all your side blogs and what they're for. i have one sideblog for venting and poetry that i bar anyone from viewing/following

19. Is there anything people should know before becoming friends with you? i dont like texting so if i dont respond for extended periods of time its not because i dont care its because i am doing other things and dont enable notifications on any aps etc. i dont like feeling chained to electronics/ being accessible 24/7.

i tag whoever wants to do this!

[putting-your-ocs-in-my-fannypack]

I apologize but i believe i am going to do a small vent about an ex of mine. SO lets get into the story...

My family is not very supportive, mainly since they are Christians and they think my being bi is just a phase to fit in. What they didnt know is i had a girlfriend (and boyfriend, it was a poly) for a long time, 3 years. And those 3 years were a hell because of the girlfriend. She would constantly argue with me on her views about kids or having kids, and like, i respect anyones opinions on subjects like that, but she would never respect mine. She would say like "if you have a kid id rather move out or worse" and we would have constant arguments. MAINLY when i was out with friends, and she would often pull me into arguments with one of her friends who is significantly younger then her, and get upset when i took the friends side. But in my fucking defense, if you call a literal 14 year old a whore for getting their first boyfriend, then im not going to take your side. And would go crying to our boyfriend when i started pointing out how she fucked up and told him stuff that i was saying to her to make me look bad which would get me and him into arguments. She would also talk down to me, acting as if she was smarter then me just because she was homeschooled and going to college early, like she would go on to do to her next partner who i am best friends with. She talked down about my art and said she was better, and yet she traces- and i dont mean tracing reference poses- i mean tracing literal art, like not even hiding it well.

And she would also fetishize gay men or men in general. She would talk about how uwu cute they are and automatically get upset when a character she desired wasnt gay and then practically accuse us of being homophobic. Which is ironic, because she "hated" men. She was pretty fat phobic- and body shamed, often when i gave her characters who are a little chubby, shed turn them into a stick. And would constantly make ocs buff and sticks because she felt uncomfortable making them any other way. Which is generally fine, draw your ocs how you want, until she started drawing our ocs like that whenever she "gifted us with fanart". Which is another thing, she yelled at people when they gave her fanart and called them theives (even though she ripped off others ocs). And also made comments about getting me skinnier, but also boasted about she had more attractive traits then i did. I am slightly overweight, and like, thats something I've accepted because genetics, but she always made me feel ashamed for how i looked.

Then comes the racism. Deadass. We had an entire recording, where she said she did not have white privilege because she was bullied for being white at a school full of POC kids. However from her recent behavior i dont think thats the case. She tended to call me exotic which i always found weird because im from california. Im just mexican. She also called her ex exotic, who was also mexican- who she would point out occasionally, also had a nicer body then me. But when she had her latest partner who was my friend kai, who is african american, she called her colored, not a person of color. Colored. And would often cry about how she was victimized by the police because she was "raised by mexicans" or "7% native american" or "raised by native americans" it would constantly change, and say how the police in california (which she claims to have lived all her life which is bullshit because i know for a majority of her life she's lived in a different state) that 30% or 90% of gang cases are where white people are killed.

She constantly tried to relate to us in situations that frankly. Did not apply to her.

And then she would white-wash characters. She has a habit of doing not normal skin colors to avoid actual skin colors, which is totally fine. But when you base a character on a POC person, like almost entirely on said person, even down to the mustache, then make them LIGHT LIGHT purple when they are a fairly dark skinned person. It doesnt really bode well. AND THEN, she culturally appropriated something. She based a character on the egyptian god Set, kinda made him look like Anubis somewhat and gave him a mark of Horus, even when we warned her like 1) set is horus's enemy, vis versa. And 2) not all egyptian gods have a dog head. She also gave him roman armor and the name of a greek god, etc.

I cant post this on my instagram, because i feel shes still stalking me and i feel uncomfortable posting it, knowing one of her friends might see and show her. When she gets upset she victimizes herself or gets violently angry, and punches herself.

And she would also behave very inappropriately towards minors, making innuendos and sexual jokes or comments. Primarily to minors who were my friends. Stalking my mutuals and trying to befriend all of them, coincidentally. They were ALL 15? She is 18. And i have lectured her on this before i cut her off, but she doesnt listen. She never did

I apologize for the long vent post.

[psychokangaroo]

M3 Diary: Infernal Medicine pt 26 because that's what I'm calling it now.

Kind of stuck between the exhaustion and the pending hospice/goals of care transition/deaths today, I saw something pretty amazing that reminds me of why I loved psychiatry from a long time ago.

We walked in on this patient who is in DKA and grouchy and very hungry and thirsty. Hes angry. Hes angry that he doesn't get to eat food. The intern was not getting through to him at all. And he was starting to swear at all of us and refusing all treatment.

And then my senior did something pretty remarkable. She stopped. She shushed the intern in a nice way, and she stopped. She let the grouchy yelling patient finish. And then she let him fall silent. And then she started replying to him in a quiet and firm voice, empathizing with bis feelings, and somehow getting him to understand why we are doing what we do.

And it turns out, all he was irritated about was not knowing thr plan and feeling not being cared for.

By the time we finished, the man sheepishly apologized for yelling and saying that he's also bipolar and working on his mood swings too, and he's very grouchy today. And what started as an aggressive encounter turned into a softly pleasant one.

Not to toot my own horn, but this encounter reminded me of my first patient at the VA, with a highly intelligent and opionanted man who is probably considered a "difficult" patient, mostly because he likes to set his own schedules within reason amd wants to know everything about what and why he's getting the treatment that he does.

And as a black man, its completely understandable why he is the way he is, given the way that medical research has failed BlPOC again and again. The man was irritated ans done the first time I saw him. Almost right from the get go, he reminded me of the hospitalized patient I saw on psych consult way back in September when I started third year. And I remember all the ways I learned to listen to patients from that rotation. I put my notes and ny pen away, and took a seat on the windowsill next to his bed. And just let him talk, asking him questions about what is the most important thing to him, what matters to him, and how to make everything better. And when there was silence, I remembered what my own therapist once told me in jest (hey, feel free to keep silent. I'm a therapist. I am very good at dealing with silences).

And I came often too. The man was a little lonely. My personal patient list was pretty empty, and he had few visitors. I end up spending an hour or more chatting with him every day, mostly him talking. We talked a lot too, probably beyond what is generally considered appropriate professional conversation, like religion, politics, gender/sexual identity, his own background and my allusion to my own traumas growing up. I think he grew to trust and like me, and I think he was more trusting of us to at least giving him good options he can trust. At least, that's what he told my attending.

Both my patients and thr patient today reminded me some of the things that have fallen into the back if my mind these days and what made me love third year. Medicine is as much about the science of providing treatments with the best evidence for treatment as about the art of building relationships with people, some of whom distrust you and/orndislike you. Its easy to brush them off as difficult people, but more often than not, these people are understandably frustrated for very legitimate reasons. The hospital is a stressful place, and they sometimes need someone to vent to before they feel comfortable with accepting new information from thr endless stream of people parading in and out. And one of the most magical things that I've been told during first year and I now see applied in real time was thr magic of silence. Taking a breath, sitting down, and let your patient have a moment to finish their thoughts, rest, and process. Thag silence isn't awkward. It is restorative, taking people out of the din and chaos and into a moment of peace.

PS. Several years ago, I got into a fight with a classmate I started medical school with. She was talking about patients/colleagues in a way that is almost like she has quite a bit of internalized misogyny. She complained about fitness moms getting a boob job. She complained about bitchy nurses giving her an attitude. She complained about mean co-med students. I called her out on the way she describes her female colleagues. She blew up on me for calling her not super compassionate and promptly blocked me on facebook. I was pretty frustrated with her at the time, but also worried I may have gone too far. Besides, maybe she did happen to meet particularly annoying coworkers and patients. After all, I had not done my clerkship at the time so how would I know? How can I judge?

But now that im almost done with clerkships, I feel that mg criticism of her was more justified. I met some people who are tired and frustrated, but never in a malignant way that she described to me. Amd I have met some interesting situations. I have been yelled at. I have been cursed at. I have been threatened (although the pt is very unlikely to carry out the threat, plus she was manic). I met people who have murdered or committed other serious crimes. I dont know what it says about my distress tolerance, but none of that seem all that bad to me. In the end, these people are in a bad place, and in need of help. And despite all the "scary" encounters, in the end people re just people, flawed and human, much like myself. And I think that it is my job to lend a hand, not only with providing treatments but also doing the simple job of slowing down and offering am ear

[tandytoaster]

Tw for mentions of animal illness (cat) and abusive parent stuff.

The 2 are not related in the way u would think, my mother would never. I'm putting the warning up here in case if the tw tags don't cover how ppl word their muted phrase or if they don't use the mute option at all

Suzie Q is sick (kidney failure they somehow missed despite my mom taking her back to the vet several times due to her peeing an excessive amount), and it's really tempting for me to mysteriously leave the amount that her vet bill will cost, Or at least even half of it, in my mom's mailbox

I love Suzie Q and I miss her, and I'm afraid that I might not be able to see her again 😔 My mom is being an absolute megabitch, worst she's ever been in my lifetime (thankfully i dont have to deal with it I just have to hear about it). There's a bunch of shit going on, her usual shit with being stressed out about the kids (her own fault since she doesnt kmow how to raise them and shes the reason theyre like that), her health problems, her being mad about Angie (her sister) visiting their brother for one day out of the week that he's here visiting and she's so pissed she doesn't want to see him at all if Angie is gonna be there that One Day (also her own fault, she hates Angie for bullshit reasons and its to the point Nanny is actually afraid of what my mom will do if she sees Angie), she's stressed out about me coz I'm 1. Not talking to her, 2. She Didn't see me on her birthday 3. I dont want to see her on my birthday either 4. She's mad that I deactivated my facebook and 5. She thinks I'm going to kill myself because of some vent art I posted on instagram, in which I have her blocked from so she's like, stalking me. And as above, she's worried about Suzie Q and how much money it will cost.

Money is the thing that gets her the most angry, and she's been calling Nanny and screaming at her, unprompted about Angie visiting my uncle for One Day and whatever else.

Originally I was planning on giving her the list of reasons why I hate her sometime soon, but last night after Nanny told me about Suzie Q I realized that if I did that as soon as I wanted (about a week after my birthday), I think it would kill her. Like seriously actually give her a heart attack or stroke, she's at risk of those things already before all the things I listed, so its very real. So! I'm not going to do that.

(Interestingly enough something she would tell us all the time when she was mad at us was that we're going to give her a heart attack. The dramatic irony of the situation is astounding)

Anyway that's why I'm seriously considering sneaking her money without her noticing. Because I love Suzie Q and I figure if the money thing is taken care of, she'll calm down at the very least a little bit, and maybe not verbally abuse my grandmother as much

[one-abuse-survivor]

✨Hi! Recently after a year of therapy i finally managed to properly stand up to my abusive father and show him his scare tactics, yelling and name calling etc dont work on me (they do but it’s important that he believes he has no power over me in that way) and i started feeling angry again (i wasnt able to before for some reason) He treated me like shit again today and i was left with this unbelievable rage+

✨+I was literally shaking and i ended up just crying out of helplessness but it didnt help with my anger at all. Do you know what can i do to let out that anger in a safe way? Or just deal with it instead of holding it in (of course without hurting others etc)

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Hi, nonnie! I'm really glad that therapy helped you stand up to him and that you're able to feel anger again :)

I'm going to list some of the things that I do when I need to let out my anger, but if anyone reading this has any other suggestions, please do add them!

- Running, jumping, biking, and any physical activity in general. Even just running at max speed for around ten seconds can help me calm down when anger is overwhelming me. If you can't, standing in a space where you won't hit anything and shaking your arms vigorously can also do the trick!

- Phone notes. You know when you need to VENT every reason you think a situation is unfair, but you can't think clearly, so making a public post or even ranting to a friend is probably a bad idea because you just can't filter your own words right now, and also you know people trying to help or brushing you off are just gonna frustrate you even more? Open a phone note. Write all your thoughts down. No one has to see that—not even future-you if you delete it right away, lol—so there's no reason to filter your words. (Venting to friends is also valid and important though!)

- Vent art. For me, this usually comes in the form of drawing lines and circles with a bullet point pen pressing down as much as I can (putting something like a notebook underneath in case I break the paper). You can also write stories, or create less abstract art if that's what comes to you in the moment. Honestly, go wild. Again, no one else will see it if you don't want them to, and, who knows, you might create the next bestseller!

That's all I can think of right now. Anyone reading this, please feel free to add your (safe) ideas to let out the anger if you want to. Also, anyone reading this, please know that there is nothing wrong with feeling anger! In fact, it is the natural, healthy reaction when you're being hurt, disrespected, or when someone is trying to step over your boundaries, and feeling guilt instead of anger when something unfair for you happens to you can be a sign that you're being abused (it was for me). What's not okay is to be violent toward others or other people's property, but as shown above, there are many healthy ways to deal with anger and none of these make you a bad person!

[ogkunty]

Furcadia Toxicity

The complete log file is provided, everything here is unedited, this all transpired publicly and should be available for everyone to have access to at all times. Thank you. (19:14:03) Tacada: watching the riot police going (19:14:21) Kixy: Protesting doesn't do anything. (19:14:23) Kunty: Nah, tell people to spend time with their fucking families they keep trying to ride dicks/cunts out of (19:14:23) Tacada: theyre taking the hong kong approach the protestors. using cones n water to stop tear gas nades (19:14:32) Kunty: they riot if quarantined. (19:14:33) Ditty: god (19:14:37) Ditty: turned out as expected (19:14:45) Ditty: Kixy: People will make a bigger stink out of not being called the correct pronoun than anything important. (19:14:48) Ditty: so peoples pronouns are important (19:14:52) Ditty: not sure why you have to bring that into this lmao (19:14:58) Puffin: ^^^^^^ (19:15:01) Ditty: Maya: Just offer free heroin and meth, you'll see enough people. (19:15:02) Ditty: so thats gross (19:15:07) Ditty: not sure why you have to bring that into this either (19:15:08) Kunty: IDC about pronouns, why is that even a thing? (19:15:09) Kixy: The point was that people get more angry over stupid shit than anything serious? (19:15:15) Ditty: pronouns are not stupid shit (19:15:19) Kunty: They are (19:15:21) Kixy: Yes they are. (19:15:27) Puffin: Riots are the language of the unheard, fam (19:15:29) Kixy: Compared to SO SO many things. (19:15:34) Ditty: why do we have to compare (19:15:39) Ditty: peoples identities are extremely important (19:15:41) Ditty: you cant rank it among other things (19:15:54) Ditty: did you know humans have the capacity to care about multiple things at once or are furcadians not able to do that (19:15:55) Tacada: sorry ditty i started all of this O.O (19:15:57) Kunty: I agree with Kixy, pronouns are NOT important in comparison to riots, killings, and corona. (19:16:03) Ditty: why are we comparing them (19:16:06) Ditty: answer the question

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The Devil’s Den Discord Meanwhile... Yes, you may Join.

/6:33 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: IMAGINE SEXUALLY HARASSING PEOPLE AND BEING TRANSPHOBIC AS FUCK ON FUCADIA [6:34 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: LITERALLY JUST FOR ATTENTION [6:34 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: WHO FAILED YOU [6:35 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: JK ITS YOUR OWN FUCKIN FAULT [6:35 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: "THE DEVIL'S DEN" THIS IS SOME SERIOUSLY TEEENY EDGELORD SHIT [6:35 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: ESPECIALLY WITH YOUR GROSS RAPE FANTASY THESAURUS-FUCKING DESCRIPTION [6:36 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: UNAPOLOGETIC SEXUAL HARASSERS SHOULD BE SHOT [6:39 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: jesus your discord server is dead as fuck [6:39 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: small wonder you have no friends [6:39 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: you are human garbage(edited) [6:43 PM] Hellcat: I'm here to fuck ass [6:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: its completely dead its no use [6:44 PM] Hellcat: Plague queens are my fetish tho [6:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: im here to fuck ass and fuck bubblegum [6:45 PM] Hellcat: Who failed you lmfao [6:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: yeah i had to rethink that cuz that'd mean it's someone else's fault [6:46 PM] Hellcat: It smells like poop and semen [6:47 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: as expected [6:55 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: [REDACTED] just thought yall should know your friend is a gross transphobe who repeatedly talked about my partner's genitals after being asked not to [6:55 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: and also claimed corona was a good thing because the world needs a "plague" [6:55 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: attention seeking teen edgelord bullshit [6:56 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: could only respond with "k" when it was brought up [7:08 PM] Ill: ? [7:09 PM] Ill: Logs please @Xzfgiiimtsath#6669(edited) [7:11 PM] Ill: It is without saying that unless evidence is provided, everything else is simply hearsay. I’m sorry to say that, without visible proof of this outrageous claim, you’re kind of just making empty accusations and slanderous character bashing. ): [REDACTED]  [7:12 PM] Ill: Oh, I guess they just wanted to troll. ): I’m sorry, hopefully this can be cleaned up. [7:28 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: OH HI [7:28 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: JUST ASK HER SHE WONT DENY IT [7:28 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: she was pretty proud of it on furc [7:28 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: i can post logs but judging from your response to that you'd just say i'd edited them lol [7:29 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: is it really hard to believe that she'd say something like that? seems pretty in-character for her [7:31 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: i mean you guys jerk it to beast porn tho i dont have high hopes for any moral outrage here [7:31 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: but if there were any trans people in the server id def want them to know [7:33 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: she was shit-talking people who care about their pronouns [7:33 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: my partner, who is trans, tries to explain to them what's wrong with that [7:35 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: then Kunty's response is to repeatedly talk about not wanting to hear about their genitals(?) which has nothign to do with pronouns and wasnt part of the conversation [7:35 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: when asked to stop talking about their genitals she continues unabated just to piss them off(edited) [7:36 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: you can choose to believe im just making this up for no reason if you want, but that would be really fucking brickheaded of you [7:37 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: care more about your shitty transphobic friend repeatedly who was bringing up my partners genitals randomly and without their consent(edited) [7:37 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: @ill [7:40 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: again, 0 hopes for you response, youre a fantasy animal r*pe enthusiast who says things like, "It is without saying that unless evidence is provided," [7:40 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: holy fuck get your head out of your ass [7:41 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: but ill STILL warn you of your transphobic friend since judging on your art youre lgbtq+ [7:43 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: are you just gonna wait til i leave again to respond? figures [7:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: you didnt even ask them about it, just "NO EVIDENCE SO ITS FAKE" [7:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: you'd really go that far to defend this person when you have no idea what happened? [7:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: god you fucking suck [7:44 PM] Ill: Okay but [7:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: but nothing [7:44 PM] Ill: You are actively here [7:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: wow youre a fuckin genius or something eh [7:44 PM] Ill: Why are you being aggressive? [7:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: because im pissed [7:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: obviously [7:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: stupid question [7:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: why are you deflecting [7:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: and defending your transphobic friend for no god damn reason [7:46 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz [7:46 PM] Ill: Okay, I understand that you are in an emotional state right now, but I would really need you to calm down first before coming off on a rage to people that have no idea what you are upset over. [7:46 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: ? [7:46 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: read my post dumbass [7:46 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: then you'd know [7:46 PM] Ill: No [7:46 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: LOL [7:47 PM] Ill: Here is why [7:47 PM] Ill: The stupidest things we say are said out of Anger. [7:47 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: are you legit like 14 [7:47 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: im wasting my time [7:47 PM] Ill: I will advise you a little more directly that you take time to calm down before you come venting. [7:48 PM] Ill: No, I am asking you to be an adult [7:48 PM] Ill: And not a raging tween with a hormone spike [7:48 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: said the literal child who thinks having emotions means "not being an adult" [7:48 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: lmfao [7:48 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: not being pissed about transphobia is a character flaw [7:48 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: work on it bitch [7:48 PM] Ill: I emphasize with your anger, I am not saying it is wrong to have them [7:48 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: emphasize with my anger [7:49 PM] Ill: I am saying that you are abusing everyone else for things we have no knowledge or control over [7:49 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: what the fuck are you talking about [7:49 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: im warning you about your transphobic friend and youre being a piece of shit about it [7:50 PM] Ill: You are acting like a child, I’ve been there and done that - it does not end well. Please take time to self care for yourself first so you can be an adult that can have a calm conversation [7:50 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: and you also fantasize about r*ping animals so again: 0 hope for you to have any concept of why things are wrong [7:50 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: total fucking human garbage [7:50 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: [8:05 PM] Ill: I am going to go step away before I address this further, I am losing some patience very quickly. I am kindly asking you to do the same so that you may take time to care for yourself during this clearly highly emotional state you are in. Maybe sip some cool water, dab your cheeks with ice, and/or take a moment with a loved one that makes you feel safe. I do not know what else to recommend here, I do not assume ignorance right away when meeting people, and I would like to think that other people can also step back to rationalize themselves down from tensions like these. I call this being an adult, growing up enough to get beyond yelling and throwing every accusation at someone simply because you’re angry. Accepting that it could be possible there is a grave misunderstanding, or maybe even misinterpretation of intent/meaning. As a person that never gets these opportunities to rationalize issues away from pure misunderstood hatred, I have never seen the actual outcome. In the adult world here, if we are angry with someone that offended us, we can’t just go into their family bbq and be screaming like lunatics about how their goat fuckers based solely on our interpretations, either. That would lead to calling the police... it doesn’t get you anywhere ... not in the adult world. You need to stop and care for yourself before you come guns blazing. You don’t DO this in the adult world and then call the adults staring at you like a tantruming toddler “children” because they won’t feed your anger. I’m sorry, for whatever it is you feel WE did to you specifically. You came here, though and whatever your assumptions are, I understand that there is no arguing with you or reasoning with you beyond you are the victim of some unproven atrocity. 

- Xzfgiiimtsath#6669 - Hellcat#0186

(19:15:15) Ditty: pronouns are not stupid shit (19:15:19) Kunty: They are (19:15:21) Kixy: Yes they are.

[sxyurii]

Hey, I've been your follower for years now and recently I've been through a breakup and I saw your post about it and I feel really sad I don't know how to move on and I just wanted to ask could u give some tips 😢❤❤❤ Love you and your blog so much!!! Sending you much love

Omg hi angel!!! 💕 im really sorry to hear that :( It sucks but we gonna get thru this baby

This will be a long post but also for anyone whos going thru a breakup rn, I'll type out everything that I wish someone told me before 😂

HOW TO WIN A BREAKUP

Ok so im gonna put shit that I know from expierence and as a psychology major so we have some gold hacks here on getting over a breakup 😏 First, I've personally had like quiete few breakups and honestly that FIRST ONE is ALWAYS the worst. If this is ur first breakup im rly sorry but its gonna suck for a while LMAO just remember that first one is the most painful but once you get over it its like antidote for life. No breakup will hurt that much as far as I know. Now lets start. U broke up youre sad, alone, crying, now what?

1. Call your friends. ALL OF THEM. I always felt my breakups before they happened and with this recent one I summoned all of my friends and they were all there with me before and after it happened. Venting helps and emotional support will be the first thing here. You are very vulnerable and sensitive right now and your emotions are all over the place probably. You're sad, angry, confused you wanna kill him all of that shit and having people there with who you can let out all those emotions is SO SO SO important i cant stress it enough. Dont bottle emotions D O N T its tempting but its toxic as fuck and it prolongs the healing. Buy junk food, have girls night, cry to your friends and talk about it until you don't feel need to anymore, cry more. Use all emotional support u can get, ur girls got u. BONUS TIP therapy helps alot. Ive been to therapy to help me sort my emotions out and its been super helpful. Remember also friends arent therapists, sometimes a professional help to guide thru emotions is the good choice too.

2. DELETE EVERYTHING you have that reminds you on them. I personally dont have hard time with it I know some people do but its also one of the most toxic things. Delete the pictures, chats, unfollow them block them even if u have to, mute, delete the songs that remind u of them. Literally erase their existence from your life. Due our brain not knowing difference between someone breaking up w us and someone dying pain we feel is intense and gets to point we feel physical pain. Memories trigger emotional responses and keep opening the wound. You need to heal. Patch it and let it heal. Dont poke it by seeing still things that remind u of them.

3. dO NOT STALK THEIR SOCIAL MEDIA. DONT DONT DONT. ITS LIKE DRINKING POISON EXPECTING THEM TO DIE??? What you could possibly find that will make u feel better??? Them posting that they miss you and want u back??? Nah sis, social media presence of people is so biased and its SO EASY to fake anything. You can misinterpret alot and you might also see stuff that will hurt u. Some of my exes (idk abt this last one tho bc I never stalked his social media since we broke up and im super proud on it) would post stuff that they know would hurt me or make me jealous or just some shady shit and you dont want to go in a place where u know someone just wants to hurt u. You are better than that. Protect your mental peace at all costs.

4. Journal. With this recent breakup I wrote like alot about it, i took my emotions and wrote paaaages. Let it all out. Draw abt it. Find ways to turn your pain in art.

5. DONT TEXT YOUR EX. CUT THEM OFF. its the best for you. You cant heal in a place you got hurt. If you wanna text them handle phone to ur best friend. I know whenever you are alone u will feel so lonely but trust me better call your friend than hit up ur ex LMAO We all still think we want our ex back even some time after breakup. We tend to idealize our exes in our heads and remember only the good times and stuff and then its just painful illusion. I know i did that alot with my exes so with this last one i decided to prevent it. Best way for that was to make a list of all the things he did that would hurt me, make me sad or mad and that i just didnt like abt him. Whenever I would feel im thinking I miss him I would read that list and see he wasnt so good and there was a reason that relationship ended. It will come to point u will see you werent happy and you will be slowly letting it go. He aint shit trust me.

6. Usually it takes 3 weeks for the worst symptoms of breakup to subdue bc our neurotransmitters need to balance again. Love is a drug and breakup is like withdrawal from cocaine addiction. Your body and mind will go through symptoms same as cocaine addict. Remember to be kind to yourself. Take care of yourself. I know for me issue was I would be like "get over it" and not allow myself to be hurt abt it. Be kind, you are going though huge emotional trauma and you deserve all the time and space to be hurt and feel it. Feelings are like visitors, you just have to accept them with out resistance and let them pass. Acceptance is the key.

7. Focus on yourself. You were so used on putting effort and energy into that person. Take all of that energy and put it back in YOU. Be selfish. Treat yourself. Date yourself. Write things you love about yourself. Rediscover your passions. Focus on school. On your beauty. dYE UR HAIR DO A TATTOO DO UR NAILS DO A FACEMASK PLAY SONGS SINGING HOW EXES AINT SHIT Fall in love with yourself. This is something that you will be ready to do when you processed all the emotions in healthy way.

8. Idk did i forget something but just to add this. "This too shall pass". You will heal. You will mend. Never close your heart to love again. You deserve love and one day you will have it. Dont let your pain make you push love away. Breakups are extremely good for self growth and be grateful for it because trust me you will grow so much and you will learn so much about yourself.

I hope I helped at least a bit 💕 I keep feeling like I forgot something but know that you and anyone can always hit me up in DMs and ask for help. Im always open to help anyone and dont hold back. Im sending you so much love honey 💖💖💖💖💖