#i dont play abt intimacy guys...

[kaogens]

Vash and wolfwood having a nap

sobs a little

[satoruhour]

T!!! do you ever wonder what it’s like to lose your virginity to Gojo? personally, I think he’d be so sweet but he’d tease here and there just to make you cry a little 😋

a/n: fem!reader, discussions of losing virginity (both you & gojo), oral f! receiving, fingering, p -> v sex, praise and soft dom dynamics, protected sex, aftercare

losing v-card w/ gojo i think would be def sweet !!! ok for me theres like two versions: the ver where youre both virgins and losing it to each other and the other where u are the virgin. i would think gojo as a virgin is cute and clueless, but he learns fast enough, BUT when its the two of you being virgins it’s just so adorable bc you guys are still new to this and intimacy feels so weird and stuff. you bump heads the first time you try to kiss, gojo isnt sure what to do past making out

you figure it out together, you both have weird perceptions of what sex was bc you heard it from your friend and gojo sometimes watches p*rn but it doesnt rlly have that same kick. he also doesnt want to hurt you. virgin gojo gasps at everything lol when u first remove ur shirt and he sees your breasts. gasp. removes ur pants and sees u in underwear. gasp. pulls your underwear away from you. loudest gasp known to man. 

compliments you a lot, but sometimes he uses the terms in a weird way “you have such… symmetrical labia, babe!” like WHAT. ? its endearing that hes trying his hardest but also … 😭dude. like i said he learns fast enough but in the dynamic where u are both losing the v-card to each other you two are a lot more reserved and nervous! lots of mistakes, mishaps, you thought u could suck dick but you gagged and you had to take a min against his thigh to just rest. you two talked like his dick wasnt in ur hand the whole time 😭�� it was funny

even with the penetrative sex, gojo bought like flavoured lube and ate a bit just to try it and youre panicking when he tips his head back and squeezes the lube into his mouth HELPPP like yes its safe to put in ur mouth just … dont. clumsy and a whiner, cums really fast into the condom and pouts when it ends like bitch u didnt even make me cum yet ! apologises profusely and proceeds to eat u out like you deserve. this second time is infinitely better hes getting good!!

okay virgin reader on the other hand .. yes! he would be so sweet (my fav), and be a soft dom but his playful antics and comments sometimes catch you off guard. a lot of dirty talk to ease into it and a lot of praise but also he emphasises for you to tell him if anything hurts or if youre not feeling it any more. is very skillful with his hands and makes you beg long before the real thing

“my hands feel nice, yeah?” as he’s kissing down your body and his hands wander, they stay above the water for quite a while, just feeling you up but once youre comfy youre nodding to him and he says “i need a verbal yes, darling”LIKE STOPPP BEFORE I FALL IN LOVE W U … he cares about ur consent and being vocal in what you want. hums a lot when he sees u in all your glory, smiling to himself when ur shirt first comes off and your perky tits are just begging to be played with. takes his time, a lot of body worship!!! says stuff like “dont be shy, i dont bite.. unless you want me to” to tease you but is so gentle w/ your body

makes u cum first on his tongue too, like at least thrice for u to know what you like in bed, but also to show u that your partner’s pleasure always comes first in the case for guys bc if ure not worshipping and groaning abt ur girls pussy .. what r u even doing atp? is pretty lenient when giving you oral with u as a virgin, doesnt want to overwhelm you so his ministrations are slow. hes also still getting to know your body, what makes u cum and the sensitive parts on ur body, “oh…? you like it when i do that?”, “does my sweetness like my fingers in her?”, “pussy looks so perfect, doing so well” is pretty goofy for your first time, sometimes cracking jokes in between too.

also deprives u of ur orgasm just to see how youd react to it since its ur first time and will apologise with kisses. u wouldnt put it past him to do it again when ure more familiar tho but since this is an introduction to ur body of some sorts he’ll be nice <3 doesnt let u suck him off on the first, always, he’s prioritising you

talks you through as he slips in. before when he was hooking up and fucking around he never liked to fuck people who are virgins just cause he doesnt like to see the pain on their face. it hurts, a lot, you have to admit, and gojo lets you take all the time in the world to scratch at his back, hold onto his arms, breathing with you as he inserts his cock inch by inch. satoru on the other hand is.. going insane by his standards. u just feel so warm and tight inside he has to do everything not to slam into you, and while he hates that the tears at the corner of ur eyes was bc of him, he’s desperate to see you crying in pleasure next time

“that’s it, baby, you need to breathe.”, “bottomin’ out soon, you okay?”, “good job, sweets, you took all of me!” does the jokes even thru penetrative sex just to see you laugh. the first thrusts r also pretty painful or rather uncomfortable, gojo kisses you to distract you from the pain when his hips move, “it’ll lessen soon okay? you’ll be moaning soon enough” you trust gojo, nodding into the kiss before your pussy’s pretty much accustomed to his dick in you and the pleasure settles in and hes all “there we go…” hes grinning so largely it scares you a little but his hips pick up pace just a bit more and youre having the time of your life. praise praise praise !!! so much of it. you’re cumming soon enough and gojo tries to memorise the way ur pussy feel bc he doesnt want to push u past ur limit, but is surprised after when you change positions and start riding him, hiding your shy face in his neck

teehee. it takes a while to get better ofc, gojo is rlly big that u still need time to adjust but that first time will always stick w you bc of how caring he was 💟 did aftercare like a pro too, cleaned you up in his bathroom, washed your hair and let you wash his body, wiggled his eyebrows and teased you about having shower sex, lots of kissing in the shower and everything was very soft. u slept like a baby that night

[tyunn1ngz]

hueningkai nsfw alphabet

cw: gn!reader i think ? to the best of my ability anyways and no gender is stated regardless

a = aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

total softie!!!!!!:( wants to be held and wants to hold u and its just oh-so delicate and tender just two lovers in ur own little safety bubble— giggles w hushed pinky promises that u will meet in ur dreams that night

b = body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

on himself his lips and his fingers— his lips on urs, his fingers in u; his fingers in ur mouth, he’s obsessed w it all, he likes it so much

on u ur thighs and tummy!!! marking u up all over and squishing the skin under his fingertips, rubbing over ur tummy when hes inside u just to watch u squirm and gasp .. ( ；∀；)

c = cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

his cock gets so wet when hes hard n he cums a lot its so cute really especially cuz he’d get so shy abt it <3

d = dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

gets off to ur voice sometimes— like listens back to voice notes u’ll send him even if all u r doing is talking abt ur day and gets himself so hard out of nowhere he loves hearing u

e = experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

a big virgin w no idea what hes doing before u but thats ok!!!!! thats what practice is all abt !!!!!!! more fun for u especially bc hes such an eager learner <3

f = favourite position (this goes without saying)

spooning or riding — spooning is so intimate and he can feel up ur thighs and tummy so nicely that way, or dip his hands to bring u more pleasure to ur sex; and u riding him means u can take the reins and he’s very into that! use him to get urself off honey!

g = goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

silly for the most part, its more relaxing and comforting that way, sex isn’t some performance between u two. but sometimes it feels like his brain just melts and pours out his ears so thats when it’ll seem more serious, bc u’ll have just a soft big eager puppy on ur hands then :<

h = hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

for my own personal bias. No shaving. all his body hair in tact. everyone listen to me bc that is SEXY. his happy trail ohhgod

i = intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

very intimate, has to be touching u at all times it’d be like chopping a limb off if u told him he wasnt allowed to touch u. loves rubbing his cheeks against urs idk thats just a thing in my head

j = jack off (masturbation headcanon)

cracks knuckles what do u guys know abt PLUSHIE HUMPER kai who steals sprays of ur perfume or lets u cuddle a specific one so it’ll smell like u when he fucks it later and cries ur name softly … what do u KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!

k = kink (one or more of their kinks)

nipple play. make this boy cum from just playing w his nipples i swear to god. and when hes more on the dominant sides of things definitely dacryphilia imo

l = location (favorite places to do the do)

just the bedroom !!! but maybe a quickie in the bathroom at a party could be up his alley too whos the say ;p

m = motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

watching u get changed or get ready in general, defo also gets so hard when u do smth as simple as sit in his lap and move a little too much hes just too easy !!!!!!!!!!

n = no (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

nothing too rough and violent, and not heavy on the degradation either. just a tiny bit sometimes but hes more abt praise!! dont b too mean to him he’ll get stuck in his head :( not too fond of too much degradation towards u for this reason too! just a little if its what ur into but he prefers being nice to u its just in his nature no matter how bratty u get w him </3

o = oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

a giver, bc it means he can make u feel good and also be between ur thighs which make for great earmuffs! not very good at it sometimes but his eagerness makes up for it!!!! other times he’s absolutely expert w his tongue its insane

he does love receiving tho!!!!! as much as he won’t admit it bc he thinks it’ll make him selfish for some reason Σ('◉⌓◉’) loves when u take him especially deep— rly makes his thighs shake and u have to keep ur hands on his hips to keep him from practically fucking ur throat >_>

p = pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

gentle but kinda fast ? he gets so desperate and pathetic that he needs it to be faster but he can’t hurt u so he’s gentle by nature. he’ll get a lil rougher when he’s closer to cumming tho or if u rly push for it<3

q = quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

don’t happen often but when they do they’re the hottest thing in the world. he either goes so dumb hes basically melted into ur arms and pleading, almost in tears or! he’s finally treating u like u won’t break and just taking what he wants, whispering how good u feel and how a little part of him wants someone to walk in and see u breaking in his hold :3c

r = risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

a little! nothing crazy but if theres a more tame fantasy u wanna try he’d defo be down, and he’s happy to tell u his own fantasies, even if his face burns up w embarrassment w every word. not too fond on risks, not big ones anyway but little thrills r always fun!!!! ฅ/ᐠ. ̫ .ᐟ\ฅ

s = stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

doesnt last long the first round especially but he’ll go as many rounds as u want. obsessed w how u feel when u cum on his cock so if u orgasm once and its not w him inside u ur gonna be going again and even then it might not be enough he’ll be overstimulating the both of u to the heavens— just be aware of that !

t = toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

lowk vibrator obsession, loves watching u use it, loves using it on himself, loves using it on u, u using it on him— u both using at the same time, pressed up against either side of it and crying into each others mouths .. could also see him loving the idea of having a fleshlight. Gulps. ＿|￣|○

u = unfair (how much they like to tease)

teases u a lot when hes in charge just to see ur glassy eyes and pretty lips form a pout, but hes pretty hypocritical bc he doesnt like to be teased and he’ll get so pathetic when u do .. sigh

v = volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

louder when hes closer to cumming, whimpers and gaspy moans that grow louder and higher in pitch the closer he gets, probably likes to stuff his face in a pillow or plushie to keep himself quiet bc he gets so embarrassed but he sounds so pretty :((((

w = wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

never really puts u in ur place when u act bratty but one time he just snaps and ur legs were trembling for a good two days after; good thing he was back to his little angelic self and carried u everywhere

x = x-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

big hes hung asf. personally im a little more interested in the 50 pounds of ass he carries around but ig his cock is also important in this category

y = yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

HIGH! .. once he gets a taste of sex— of you, he is insatiable woooo boy

z = zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

hes not conking out until ur asleep first!!!!!!! so however long ur awake for after all is done, he’s up too!!!! no matter how hard his eyelids try to droop closed ok and if ur not sleepy hes not either (he is but just keep talking ok he’ll keep fighting it off)

[girldriveroscar]

CRACKS KNUCKLES heres some parasocial nonsense. pls dont take too serious im just being silly.

insp by @inchidentally the 814 essay GOAT… Hi.

Okyeah analyzing this video and recent posts.

So Like. oscar piastri being the normalTm guy whos still w his hs sweetheart, wears graphic tees and beat up af1s and still vacations w the guys he grew up w, who was actually kinda socialized (as well as any other well-off posh kid who’s parents could afford the luxury of fucking them off to boarding school i digress).. but like, he played pranks w the Lads and got congratulatory slaps on the back, his first crushes wer probs navigated in small talk during class and walking together in the halls? generally just a guy who balanced his social life and Career to Some relatively healthy degree so it’s not like Completely foreign to him how to talk to girls and make friends. and so he gets that building an intimate relationship w someone is mostly just hanging out, experiencing new food tgthr, new movies, walking around a new city, he just gives such a NORMAL GUY answer of a perfect date, and i think part of being socialized the way he was gave him the understanding that grandiose gestures of love kinda just come off as disingenuous. oscar jus reads as a guy whos never resorted to showboating bc his introduction to romance was just like anyone else, awkward shuffling and bonding on the weekends over pizza and homework. and even as a formula 1 RACE WINNER GUY W MONEY hiiiiii, he still has such a cute simple recipe for a perf date bc hes been through it. he knows how to court someone bc it worked and its been working!!!

then on the flip u have THE peacock tm, shirt unbuttoned so low might as well forgo it atp, lando norris whos perfect date idea is hi, (wtf.) YACHT. and sex (exhibitionist freak. sorry who said that…) like boyyyy oh my god shakes him by the shoulders u are so not normal. lando norris, who’s always ben a little comfier than his peers growing up. always out of place bc his dads pockets were Open and Ready to ensure he never had to worry about pinching pennies in a spar for some chips after class Yeah and he doesnt even know it bc thats NEVER been his life? yeaaa and add in a dash of Always being on the race track, never rly socializing w. girls or boys who weren’t in direct competition w him, turning 19 and immediately being sized up to his older hyper-masculine charming And sexy teammate. (getting carried away mb)

lando himself explaining that having to grow up so fast and be a good boy (His words.) prevented him from finding his footing in social settings and only now being able to experience these things at 23/24?!

i digress now also factor in his (alleged…) favorite movie is a silly romcom?! (also maybe just peacocking tho bc “girls love a guy w a soft side” and lando wld know bc he watched one movie about it…. like srsly u want me to believe the hangover and stepbrothers belong in the same category as Romcom u dont rmbr the name of okk weirdo)

so yea of course a boy who’s never passed notes to his crush in class, never asked anyone to a dance, never pulled pranks w his schoolmates, Understands intimacy thru cheesy romcoms an weekends emptying his dads wallet on flights to wtv racing event. LIKE OF COURSE he thinks romance is wtv he can mimic from A. how his dad showed him love (…$$..) and B. what the movies r saying ! (thats socially repressed twin.) AND THE GAG OF IT ALL!!!! is he puts on this front, so suave so playboy, “i have sex and let me announce about it publicly in case u doubted it” when the reality of it is like? dude u are thirst-liking instagram models while oscar is Getting it every night ur such a loser omfg.

just Like. Ugh the contrast of oscar whos so secure in himself in his dad shorts and ANKLE socks and lando who just grew out of his awkwardness in his early 20s and now Needs to slut himself out to make up for lost time.

(AND. the double gag is landos still so obviously not secure abt the fact he Doesnt Really Know what hes doing that every one can see it ouhmygodd lando x chernobyl levels of imposter syndrome u are so complicated and angsty U TEENAGE GIRL. holds a can of diet coke to his lips. there there girl. there there.)

[ja3mln]

streamers!dreamies as your bf

special 1k!

cw: female reader, pure fluff.

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mark

at first he didn't really want to introduce you bc he was scared of the hate you'll get but his viewers immediately accepted you and now he loves streaming with you. loves playing chill games like animal crossing or the sims 4 but also loves games where you need to play in team like fortnite or overwatch (you both keep dying trying to save each other but you dont care). obsessed with doing reacts and mostly with you (bc he gets to hold your hand and see you all excited hehe) doesn't really like showing affection on streams but does it behind the camera like putting his hand on your tight or holding your hand and playing with it when he's just chatting or reacting. his chat always asks abt you when you're not here and he gets pouty bc you're getting more attention than him from his own viewers. gets all happy when he sees you in the chat bc he loves when you take time to watch his streams. talks abt you a lot without even realizing it. "oh y/n have the same shirt", "wait this place looks so cool i wanna go with y/n" (he literally write down the name of the place to show you later), "this game is so cool i have to try it with y/n" (he calls you immediately to ask you to come over). "hold on i got a text from y/n" and the chat always trases him abt it: "we get it you're in love!!🙄" "stop pausing the video to talk abt y/n we're trying to watch😡".

renjun

don't really care abt haters and you do too so he didn't really have a problem introducing you asap. can't focus at first bc he can't get used to you sharing his passion, it really warms his heart. loves when the chat compliment you and he gets all clingy and smiley when they did bc he's just so proud to have you. more a switch player like mario or zelda games but when he starts playing more raging games like valorant or call of duty, he takes it really serious and play for his life and it surprises you everytime. watches animes or cartoons with you on stream bc you both love it and his viewers does too. loves doing diy with you bc it's so relaxing. loves doing vlog streams when you're going to the grocery or to the park bc he gets to film you both holding hands and being all lovey dovey. will give you small kisses everywhere on the face but the lips bc he wants to keep some intimacy. tweets about you a lot: "hi everyone i love my gf", "can't stream today i wanna cuddle y/n all day sorry guys". bought spare headphones and a controller for you so you can always join him whenever you want.

jeno

oh this man loves showing you off. he will not hesitate to show everyone that you're his. lets you sit on his lap while he plays, gives you a kiss when he feels like it or gives you long stares that just makes his chat scream (mostly bc they're jealous of what you both have). this man is obsessed with war games like battlefield or call of duty and gets bored when he plays chill games (but sometimes gets into it bc it's with you). can get really serious and don't want to be bothered when he's focused and you know that so you just watch him play and cheer him up. also loves playing horror games with you bc it's so funny. his viewers are so supportive and also always makes comments on how they're going to steal you from him so he gets clingy and hold you close while teasing them: "oh try me i'll fight for my life if i need to.". always posts pictures of you on instagram and spend minutes talking abt it on stream "y'all saw my new ig post? she's literally the prettiest girl ever i knoow", "should i post another one? ahhh my girl looks so good". always reassure you and shower you with love when you get insecure bc of the few hate comments you get.

haechan

he can literally spend a whole day on live. like this man really needs to touch grass sometimes. but his viewers are so loyal and supportive that they accepted you immediately (ofc there were hate comments but hc banned those ppl lol) and it just made hc so happy bc he loves sharing his passion with you. can someone get this man off league of legend and valorant? like you always try to convince him to play something else and sometimes he does bc it's with you but as soon as he can go back to his games he will. oh and you both loves reacts sooo much and he's mostly known for those reacts bc you both are just so funny. loves small horror games bc he can hold you while he plays bc you're scared and he also likes making fun of your reactions. takes breaks just to call you between games "say hi to the chat baby", "can you come over i miss you". when it comes to showing affection, he gets more and more comfortable with time, starting with small kisses and touchings to sitting on his lap and small neck kisses. you get worried a lot bc of the time he spend on playing games but he always reassure you that he's fine. has 2 days off in the week to spend time with you and rest. even if he spends a lot of time on his pc, he always listen when it gets too much for you and try his best to give you the attention you need.

jaemin

this man is crazy in love with you so he introduced you to his viewers as soon as he could. it got a lot of bad reactions that he didn't expect but he didn't really paid attention bc he's just happy to introduce his baby. obsessed with tycoons mostly cooking one and loves playing it with you. also a lot of Minecraft, he builds houses and tell his viewers that it's your future house with 3 cats and 2 dogs. does reacts sometimes but only when you're with him. loves showing the pictures he took of you (he keeps some of it for himself ofc). he doesn't really like kissing or holding you on live bc he likes keeping this moments between you, when you're alone but he doesn't hesitate to compliment you in front of the chat. "look at my babyyyy", "oh my god why are you so cute", "i can't concentrate you're too pretty", "oh my god you did so good sweetheart" (and he gives you small cheek kisses when he can't resist it) always takes time off to spend it with you and give you the attention you need. like he can cut a stream anytime if you need him (even if it's just to go to the grocery bc you're craving something) and his viewers got used to it.

chenle

talked a lot about you during his streams but didn't really introduced you at first bc he was scared and shy (even if his chat encouraged him a lot) but once he did he didn't regret it bc streaming was even funnier with you. loves playing funny games and mostly sports games (get him off nba2k pls). you mostly watch him play and comment but he tries to involve you as much as he can. loves when the chat compliment you and even gets a bit shy bc he's proud that you're his. not really affective on live but teases you a lot and looks at you with so much love that the chat teases him and he gets all shy everytime. gets complains from the viewers bc he's always teasing you: "leave our baby alone!😡" "you're so cruel omg😔". and he always goes like "it's my love language leave me alone!!". always makes sure you're comfortable with it ofc, he will always asks you when the camera's off if you're okay with the teasing. face times you during streams to ask you random questions "hey what is the name of the new noodles we tried the other day?" "am i bad ta nba2k? my chat is bullying me help". always makes sure he have free time to spend it with you bc he's way more comfortable when you're alone.

jisung

really really shy at first (even now but less). he talked abt you before and his chat always asks him to invite you but he'll get shy and just change the subject. but you appeared on his live by accident one day. "hey jisung did you see my- oh...", "hum... guys this is y/n. my girlfriend." was very surprised by his viewers positive reactions and got more and more comfortable with you being around during his lives. even bought spare headphones for you. he mostly does reacts like tv reality shows or animes bc he loves watching those with you and even more on live. don't play a lot or when he does it's chill games bc he gets stressed easily. he loves playing Minecraft bc it's relaxing and also you love watching him playing it. also loves playing the sims 4 with bc it's a mess. hates when you makes him play horror games (but found himself having a bit of fun) whenever his viewers asks him to play a new game he just goes "nooo i want to play it with y/n" and pout. loves irl streaming when you go to the arcade. small attentions during streams like getting you snacks, making sure you're comfortable or caressing your tight (bc it's behind the camera) when you're getting anxious. has a lot of free time for you bc he doesn't stream a lot (like 3 times a week) but when he does it's long streams.

[earlysunshines]

HEELLLOOO!! AARGRGRHH (felt like that thru all the fic

ok firstly, I know I say I love all your fics, which I do ✋, BUT the sixthmember reader ones are soo,,,,,, god still to this day 'you always had me' is my all time favorite, seriously i've reread it so many times..just talking abt it makes me WAIT have I left a review on that one?? wait I dont think so j was too shy back then and started on the spiderminiji................man I could but it will be just me gushing about that dani (<3).. but if you want it yk....

idk I think the yearning hits deeper when they basically live together and can't really run away from each other, like what happened on the minji one arhrgh😖yeah

anyways!!! review ✍️

actually fun fact™ couldn't leave a review sooner cause it was my mom birthday this day 7 kjhhsk is funny how it works cause her birthday is 07/10 and mine is 07/01 !! (day first, month second.. here is like that) and god there was so many content on this hanni's birthday waah it was good

so!! heh I loved the little exhibits uhggh so cute I think I already stablish here that I LOVE casual intimacy likeARHRGHELLO? BACKHUGS?? they laying down so comfyshhhhg man wdym yn was all oblivious pls not loseryn.....

the soobin segment was so cute :( really like his words BUT THEN girlie yn loserism in "this is for the girls"??? like girl c'mon... and then dani </3 heh she's the friend who knows it all i love her, her teasing are just right

and they talking againaaag was so cute AND THE I LIKE YOU TH WAY PEOPLE DO IN LOVE SONGS ??!!????😭😭😭OOOH oh they are so in love oooh this was good 🚶

thank you the food!!!aaah I loved it got me feeling all giddy, have a great week ahead!! much love 🫶

-🤟 :]

girl bye i’m so ready to answer this u don’t even KNOW

i loooove writing sixth!member fics but also i’m scared to bc im scared of being repetitive but it also gives me so much creative freedom to throw overused adorable tropes in so a win is a win!! i LOVED writing the dani one omfg. don’t play.

girl leave as many reviews as u want i ENCOURAGE you know how i feel ab them… i love them esp from u!!

yearning hits deeper when it’s angsty and close proximity wbk….

awwww happy late birthday to your mom!! that’s so lovely😓my mom, dad, and i are all the same signs (astrology elements like idk earth wind and shit) lol idk if that matters tho

LOSER YN!! CASUAL IMTIMACY!! lowk projected so bad in this one.. i project in all of them sorry not sorry. also yeah smth ab making soobin the man of friendship makes sm sense to me like idk much ab bgs but in my head he’s just a guy like some nerd guy idk im not deep into bgs idc enough unless its nct LOL

one thing ab me im always gonna have one of the members instigating…but anwyays THANK U FOR READIGN I LOVE YOUR FEEDBACK HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND MUAH!! much love sent back!!

[who77o7]

I fucking hate my life. I am getting NO pussy and am extremely a LOOSER. did not go to track and field bbq - did not think too hard about aversion to it - and instead went to coffee shop. Took friend. sat at different tables. Spent afternoon in park with him+dog. frisbee. now mind did i not really want to do these things but he asked and then he brought the frisbee and the blanket and I guess I had kind of asked him if he had the cigarettes. Earlier in the coffee shop (what espresso makes me want a cig jus to calm my nerves) ... and then he asked about taking a fucking grounding walk with his dog. THe frisbee caught me offguard but it was fun to move around I guess.

and now all my track and field groupies are downstairs. Playing Mario cart. I live with two of two of them, can stand two of them, like three of them and kinda feel respect n intimidation for three of them, one of them is kinda weird, one of them is kinda boring n stiff, wish I were better friends with all of them except like kinda one and thats a long story.

and i think the problem is me - if there is a problem in why one of us cant stand each other. Because I have religious trauma. and I feel somehow triggered when I am with these people. Are my feelings of anxiety apparent because I feel I am acting inappropriately? like these things are now allowed, because iit was something I missed out on, therefore didnt deserve, and if I dont deserve it is because it deserves to be taken away from me in punishment.

So Basically I still hat e hanging out at my house sp make your fucking space nice so i can come and hang out in it.I'll work on making myself comfortable. I guess, Fuck You C and I. I and C. are you guys fr having fun down there? are you tired and overwhelmed? who went home first? what are your temperaments? I am a fucking evil vampire. is anyone mad at me? MY friends would be cooler to hang out with. If they all fucking knew each other. having friends that all know each other would be dope. Even a small group, if the small group knew all the people around their area from seeing them around because the things you need are walking distance away. like fr, circle in. like the streets in japan, hi angelica! the say hi! I hope you're still alive! I need to practice typing with my pinkies. I havent done it in forver, actually, and i sometimes forget were they keys are. which is crazy because how have i typed every fucking day of my life and I still trip up? why do my fingers twitch?

but it does sound pretty fun down there. too bad I would be too shy to do anything. i hate being a fucking freak LOOSER >:C I wish i could be cool around N and P. B too, and D but hes weird. but not as weird as C. I screams too much. everyone seems rly judgemental when i feel weird n I always feel weird. D says "you're weird" n "you suck." someone just came to complain abt the noise omg. they're whispering. "helllaa awkward." theyre quieter now.

I shake a lot when im nervous and i pretend im not there. i wish i didnt get nervous so easily. I guess I really hate being around other people. I dont know how to work them, to make them tolerate me. to have a damn personality worth remembering.

and see why do i feel like its my fault?! Like I did something ???somehow??? messed up and ruined peoples fun, and in so doing ... t\riggered their distaste and annoyance??? judgement and outcastment with them???!!

Anyway back to me getting no pussy , everyone is GOING TO THINK that I was FUCKING MY FRIEND because we were hanging out jn my room. Smoking a joint and watching hannibal. NOT FUCKING. he is not my type aand fucking dudes has got to be so far removed from emotional intimacy. Fuck I think that s why its a bit weird with n, because I see my gender identity as intimate , but when Im asked straight up i vomit it out because I want people to understand, but remember i vomit it, unfiltered chunky ugly smelly tangled hairball mess of emotional self awareness, understanding, and coping.

during PRIDE MONTH. i want to. know lesbians. I want lesbians to fall in love with me. FEm lesbians where are. you. mask lesbians. fem lesbias. masc lesbians.I am transmasc, but not a trans man. I may still be genderfluid. I just needed people to understand that I have that masculine side, that side where I feel aligned to the masculine spirit, when i told them that I was a man. Because I needed them to feel the seriousness of my desire to be aligned as such, that if i could switch i would, that if i could be born again i would switch and be sitting in that room down there at 20 years old instead of sick in bed,

and fearing that my identity will make me an object of ridicule and shame, afraid to be seen intimately and rejected and scorned. or worse, patronized and objectified.

I am insecure. aj FUCK YOU for singing that song that made me so angry and disrespected, but I DONT KNOW you weren.t trying to help me feelings but FUUCk YOOU i didnt like it. but whatever you;re fucking annoying but youre my only chill friend rn. like I hung out with a couple others and they just arent the people i am able to relax with.

[lastwave]

ok hi hughnation . my harry du bois system rant . if this post breaches containment let me preface w we Are a system and no one's experience is universal love and pease on earth.

also im gonna use two things here: Harry* (to refer to how the system presents itself to singlets as one cohesive unit) and harry (the alter/cohost)

SO LIKE. stares at harry and the skills. i do not think they have 1 singular clear host. theres harry and then a few cohosts (this changes depending on what u pick as the signature skill) and it's usually a good 2 people in front and 3 ish more shoulder surfing at any given time (idk the medical term for when ur not in front but u are observing weve just always called it shoulder surfing)

i shouldn't even need to elaborate on this but Half-Light is a trauma holder. a good portion of the passive half light checks are fight-or-flight responses to situations that. Do not need them. thats a trauma response babey, probably stemming from the 15th Indotribe days.

(skip this paragraph to avoid s/a mention) also, depending on the route you play, the dolores dei dream Heavily implies that Harry* had severe intimacy problems even before they got together. and the way everyone in the system talks about intimacy and sex is. Not healthy beyond the point of "bi guy so deep in the closet". esp on the intimacy front. when talking to Lilienne, there is a passive Suggestion check that says "You dont have to be guarded right now." implying the Entire Rest Of The Game he is guarded as hell. with everyone, except maybe a few small moments with Kim. make of that what u will.

it is also VERY evident that Harry* has childhood trauma. he grew up in a wartime hospital (almost guaranteed to see some fucked up shit there) and had polio as a kid. (being deathly sick is traumatic. obviously). id also like to point out how instead of being one subject, pain threshold and endurance are two separate alters. implying a need to be able to separate those things to function and survive (ie being a child in a wartime hospital with polio. based on the triage system the soldiers were probably the first priority, and Harry* proves in martinaise he has a lot of experience having to keep going while sick, putting Pain Threshold and Endurance and symptom holders, probably)

and there's also a very unique situation with Electrochemistry. they probably formed to deal with addiction. but no one in the system ever learned the proper way to deal with it, making it knowledge no one has, and making Electrochemistry massively self destructive to themselves and the system as a whole. if u do a sober playthrough tho, they start to chill out.

and then theres shivers. who is weird as hell. i didn't exactly understand what her place in the system was until i read a post interpreting Harry* as a figure directly tied to the Pale (which is controlled by faith). take the church raid for instance. Harry* destroyed those peoples faith and in response, a swallow formed. joyce also, in contrast, describes Harry* as a reflection of the city. if Harry* is in fact directly tied to the Pale, then Shivers makes complete sense. she's there to act as a filter between Palefuckery and the human brain. having that kind of premonition unfiltered would make anyone crazy suicidal and a little unhinged. ESPECIALLY if all he was getting was doom saying shit for so long (which is what is implied based off the convo with Idiot Doom Spiral)

so yea. harrier du bois is a system

im not gonna go thru ever single alter but if u have questions abt what we think of specific ones PLS send us an ask

someone remind me to give my harry du bois system rant tomorrow

[ririspace]

Hey! Can I request Gi-hun comforting the reader and sort of being like a father figure to them during the game?? Yeah as you can tell, I have issues with my actual father 💀

is everything alright at home??😭but yes of course!once again i am sorry for any grammatical errors,english is not my first language

GI-HUN AS YOUR FATHER FIGURE DURING THE GAME HCS!

father figure gi-hun is so precious man..<\3

contains angst at the end,other than that its just fluff

tags: @jeonselca

also i feel like this song suits the hcs

he too sees you as his daughter(or child),so the relationship is mutual

hes the one that dragged you into the group since you helped him once during his fight with deok su and sae byeok

would definitely offer you food if the food given to you wasnt enough,he dont mind sharing

gives you warm smiles and gaze every time you shared eye contact

if you asks him to sleep besides him,he’d join you without hesitation.he doesnt want you to feel anxious or scared abt the next game,although it might take one of you guys’ life—he’d pat your back,put an arm over you so you’d feel safer :,)

dont be afraid to ask him a hug or to hold hands with you!he knows how stressful the situation is and physically affection with ppl makes him calm too :))

he wont let you stay awake or participate in the night parol watch,as he worries it might tires you for the next game.but if you really wanted to,he’d watch your back all the time.

if you share your stories with him,he will always be there to lend an ear,no matter what the topic is.its calming to have a little intimacy/bonding moment in stressful time.you’d exchange stories and vents to one another without any judgements

cracks you dad jokes,all the time 😭

afraid to go to the toilet alone?fear not!he will be waiting for you outside the stall to keep you company,its nothing weird dw

if youre hurt,he would definitely make a scene to call the guards,he doesnt care if he embarrass himself,all he want is for you to stay alive as long as you can,as you mean a lot to him.

during the riot,he would make sure youre always close with him,not letting a single bruise or scar on your body,he’d feel so horrible if you got hurt under his care

will always be by your side or close to you no matter what,he feel responsible to care for you.he loves you as much as he do to his daughter

he would always pat your head as his gesture for “good job kiddo”—or just casually head patting you

he doesnt mind if you call him as “dad” or “mr.gi-hun”

would sing songs and karaoke with you to release stress,hes a fun man to hang out with—his singing might not be the bestes but he tried,ok?😭

although theres some times where he’d snapped,he would immediately apologize,so its no worries

bestest father figure you could find and have under a week

what ifs interactions with you in(SPOILER ALERT/ANGSTY)

episode 6

you both would be excited because youre confident that you’d make a good team with him,it goes well until the announcement.would any of you willing to kill each other?

both of your hearts dropped.neither both of you played the game until the last 8 mins.you spend the rest minutes of the game period crying and grieving over each other, this is it?killing off each other??he feel like hes killing his own child.he cant do that.

but would you kill him?obviously no.he has a daughter to look after to,a mother to take card of.you’d rather sacrifice yourself than killing your own father figure.

it was devastating.your last goodbye with him hurts both of you to the core.you guys hugged for ages.he wont let you go,how could he?but he had to.and you know he should.you let go of his arms gently,giving him a signal that it is time,this is the end of your relationship and adventures you experience these past days.

“thank you for giving and showing me what my father could’ve give me.thank u,mr.gi-hun.”you cried,as the guard points a gun to your head.

bang.

episode 9(skipped some of the early part of it-so in this context it is basically your death scene):

devastated,he holds you in his arms,grieving.his own ‘child’ died on his hand.his dirty hands.hes a sinner.

you reassure him at your last breath that it is definitely not his fault,its just how the game works.you asked him to fulfill any wish you have in mind.obeyed,he promised to fulfill your wish(es).

he’d be so depressed after the game.he feel numb,he’s a sinner.he killed his ‘child’ for his own good.he’s guilty.he blame himself everyday and wished you both couldve met in a better way.imagine the relationship you both couldve have.oh well.

[gotenandtrunkz]

Consummate post of Truten scenarios

Bc honestly sometimes it just eats me up inside

- they're hanging out as guy friends and bros but then what they thought they could do as a normal encounter ends up registering a bit differently, e.g. they watch porn together and it gets weird rather than they being confident theough to the end, they kiss for fun and for the sensory input but it ends up feeling like a bit more than that, they take a sensual bath and the line between metairony and genuinity gets crossed, they make out, Goten sticks his tongue in Trunks's ear and Trunks actually likes it, etc etc

- they dont see each other for a while (incidentally, they have a falling out, trunks goes into space in GT, etc) and when they reconnect they are very happy to see each other and the consummate (sorry to use that word twice in the same post) affection has no reason to limit itself to the accepted conventions of platonic intimacy. But this is a Truten post so they fall in love as well

- maybe not romantic maybe not sexual but they develop a sensual relationship. I can see that . That's pretty much what I've been saying. Sensual attraction. Goten does love to bite ppl that's true

- The idea that one of them is Not Straight and has some sort of attraction for the other and it probably goes unrecognized for years. Breaks my heart. Then they fall in love ❤

- "just a little bit" by Kids of 88 but with less sex appeal . Trunks is stressed out from work and Goten in his sensory-seeking ways gets him to take a bath with him and there are bubbles and scents and hes rubbing his shoulders and Trunks doesnt know how he got here in life but also hes not surprised bc Goten has always been this way. Domt know where I was going w this one. Well I can see it feeling a bit like, like Goten's lust for strange encounters is insatiable. Like Trunks has no choice and has never had a choice in the matter. But this is a lifetime truth so hes not feeling indignant or defensive, hes just resigned to this weird back rub with no thoughts or feelings in his head. And it feels almost selfish and scary in that sense, like bonding with someone who needs you rather than who loves you; like Goten just needs to have this sensory bathtub adventure and it has nothing to do with Trunks, and this is going to go on until they die and no satisfaction will be reached for either party. But if Trunks were to express any of this in words then Goten would be like "Trunks what the fuck are you talking about." And honestly yeah that was some weird shit to say tbh. Trunks isnt a sensory seeker in the same way but he does have a certain relationship with the senses (his sense of smell is very particular and sensitive I think for example) (it's the family autism) (Tarble is the same way btw) and having been reared alongside Goten has only made that more true. But Goten doesn't think of it like that and he honestly finds fulfillment in sensory adventures. He loves to be able to do this. And he loves being helpful tbh. Hes glad that Trunks is willing to try to relax and let him do this. Like honestly "dont worry abt nothing" type of relaxation. Align-your-chakras-and-come-back-to-yourself relaxation. The one thing tho is that Goten has put on some "mood music" that is Rob Zombie playing on low. But then they fall in love anyway

- smth abt the back of Goten's neck in GT. His clean hairline. Something abt Trunks coming back from space a changed man and he and Goten catch up and end up at the skatepark after dark like old times and they share a hug. Something abt the gentle scent of Goten's neck, the exposed skin and clean hairline. Smth abt comfort and familiarity and titillation all the same. Something about "Dude did you just sniff my hair." Anyway

- idk smth the pain and frustration of falling in love w someone you're already sick of but having a knot in your chest to contend w anyway really gets to me. It strikes fear in my heart I think

- FROOT OLIVER NELSON MIX. Young love and all that. The majesty of what predates language. The ardent mystery of love and sex and the winds that you cant see but drive you nonetheless. Thoroughly distressing yet inexorable. Your very necessary mind is meant to just accept that it cant understand what it cant put into words. Really gets to me sometimes

- Oh yeah and of course the idea that Trunks is the president of capsule corp and he lets that slag Goten waltz up into his office and sit on all of his furniture

- Goten is NOT a slag but a very caring soul <3

- Trunks is honestly a very chill dude. And Goten doesnt really give a shit about anything. Therefore the objectively correct way to portray Truten is that theres no drama or feeling but they just like start dating or whagever. But this post is for the things that really get to me sometimes so we're not gonna include that stuff

- Goten Shows Off His Gay4Pay Skillz and slonks silly-sloppy on his shit WITH the scallywag swag. And then they fall in love

- the idea that there are some real constrained emotions present. Teen angst and "I hate you so much" by Anarbor. Whatever

- Oh I forgot about the one wjere Trunks has to wear braces for his janked up city-boy teeth and Goten finds it disturbing and irresistible that he has metal in his mouth ("it's not natural....") and he keeps trying to lick his braces and he keeps trying to get Trunks to eat gummy things so that he can clean his braces with his tongue like a fun scavanger hunt. And literally Goten is the one who keeps putting his mouth on his but he keeps reeling back and with genuine fear saying "DUDE STOP TRYING TO KISS ME! IM JUST TRYING TO LICK YOUR BRACES.." and Trunks is literally not doing anything hes just trying to keep his eyes on his video game and hes angry about this. And Goten keeps kissing him anyway. I'm sorry this was suppsoed to be a serious post let me try again. Ok how about Goten is self-assured in this and keeps trying to tempt him with gummy worms and the such and he knows on some level that hes being funny but honestly he doesnt know what this is doing to his buddy Trunks. Like this is the most action thag Trunks has ever had and idk hes saving face but sometimes he plants bags of gummy worms where Goten will see them just to put the idea in his head. And he does this with shameful and desperate fervor. And he plays it so cool and is like "Goten that is SICK I'm not gonna let you do that again.." and he means it and the disgust is real. But on some level he craves the intimacy of having someone lick his braces. It's fucked up

I think that's pretty much it thanks for listening lol... Post originally drafted on 8.31.22

[nsfw-froggie]

hi hon ( sorry if calling you that makes u uncomfortable ) i was wondering if you could do a sapnap nsfw alphabet and can i be 🦋 anon by any chance?<3

welcome 🦋 anon ! (also it does not make me uncomfortable :D)

nsfw alphabet: sapnap

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

he is very sweet! he will clean u up, ask you how he did, and cuddle u (he would probably tell dream abt it too djdjdjdjjd)

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

his favorite body part on him is his dick...

his favorite part on you is ur face <3

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

he likes to cum in ur mouth when u give him head, and he also likes to cum on ur thighs or ur back

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

he really wants to have a threesome with you and dream (and maybe george,,,or punz...)

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

he isnt very experienced, he probably goes to dream and asks him for help

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)

cowgirl!!! he loves when u r on top

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

hes probably very serious, if its both of ur first times, you guys would make some jokes

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

he doesnt really shave it a lot, but sometimes he does. his hair down there is a couple shades darker than the hair on his head

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

i dont think he would be thst romantic,,but sometimes he would? maybe like if u guys got back from like a date or dinner with the dream team

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

he doesnt jack off that much now that he’s dating u

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

daddy kink, anal sex, begging, degrading, exhibitionism (probably with dream n george watching)

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

maybe the couch?? but he really likes doing it in beds. it doesnt matter whos bed

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

sitting on his lap...😁

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

age play and cnc

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

he loves receiving, he doesnt like giving u head thst much cause he thinks he is really bad at it, but he’s so good at it

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

fast and rough 😩

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

he prefers clothed sex quickies cause u guys dont have to take off ur clothes and put them back on again

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

yes!

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

1-3

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

he has vibrating underwear to tease u when you’re in public or when you are around dream or george

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

he doesnt tease u that much

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

he is very loud. sometimes dream will come in and tell him to be quiet 😊

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

u guys probabky fuck everyday. hes horny 24/7 jdjfhdjjd

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

hes like...maybe 5-6 inches? he isnt that big, but hes very thick 😳

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

very high. again, hes horny 24/7 and will fuck u anytime u guys arent busy

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

maybe like 5 minutes after??

[t4tbruharvey]

clarvey :)

heh heh can't wait to headcanon things for this extremely popular ship with plenty of canon content to base it off of

who hogs the duvet: harvey <3 clark's not going to stop him when it starts and also what if clark has to go do superman stuff at night :'( if he has the duvet harvey will be cold :'(

who texts/rings to check how their day is going: clark he's a njb

who’s the most creative when it comes to gifts: hhh probably clark?? it's going to become apparent that for a lot of these i'm saying 'clark, as a substitute for emotional intimacy'

who gets up first in the morning: clark, he does not sleep as far as i remember. but also if not then harvey he's uh. he's THAT girl

who suggests new things in bed: HALLIE. hallie have they. did they. oh god....

who cries at movies: UHM well. genuinely if i'm playing this dead serious and taking the context of how they've acted in this relationship thus far in writing it? harvey

who gives unprompted massages: i dont wanna think too hard abt that one. clark

who fusses over the other when they’re sick: clark??? clark would have to he doesnt get sick??? clark by default???

who gets jealous easiest: harveyyyy he goes on that paranoid spiral when he's being FUCKING LIED TO to be fair! but like it's in character for him to be jealous

who has the most embarrassing taste in music: clark. taylor swift fan

who collects something unusual: UHHHH UMMM UHM UH harvey i thiiiiiink he has the natural tendency to do that. dont ask me what he collects he just would i think

who takes the longest to get ready: harvey because clark has superspeed

who is the most tidy and organised: hm. deliberates. clark but JUST

who gets most excited about the holidays: CLARK DEFINITELY like omg omg the holidays are so fun for him he's going to do so many fun and interesting things and now he gets to take a BOYFRIEND with him to holiday events and harvey is like. enjoying himself but mostly because clark is

who is the big spoon/little spoon: clark big spoon!!!! as if he'd allow himself to be held!!!! he's putting himself in a protective position because he can't be emotionally vulnerable but he can be steady and reassuring!!!!

who gets most competitive when playing games and/or sports: CLARK he grew up on a farm and harvey isn't a sports dude

who starts the most arguments: h. harvey. in his defence 1) it's his job 2) he spends a good portion of clarvey being lied to

who suggests that they buy a pet: clark he's an animals guy! had they lasted long enough they would have gotten a dog!

what couple traditions they have: hating batman <3 no uhhh umm yeah no that's all i got

what tv shows they watch together: it's in times like these i wish i'd read hallie's post. i dunno man. new girl

what other couple they hang out with: bruce and ms vale but it's not hanging out it's bruce trying to break them up disguised as a double date and clark would have to take bruce aside and go what the fuck are you doing

how they spend time together as a couple: probably showing each other their respective hometowns and what they love about them and then like going to museums or something and THEN lying to his boyfriend/being lied to by his boyfriend

who made the first move: clark :-) he was just SO cool and suave in that interview totally 100%

who brings flowers home: uhhh gut says harvey on this one actually he would do that i know it to be true. in my heart

who is the best cook: hm. probably clark? truly don't know but just know i hold it in my heart that harvey IS good at cooking. clark is just probably better

[meltwonu]

| 🍒 CH-CH-CHERRY BOMB! 🍒 |     [CHAPTER 7]

pairing; dom!seungcheol x camgirl!reader

this chapter’s notes; camshow, fingering, daddy!kink, dirty talk, ‘cuz you can touch touch me~ 😏 ur gonna need to imagine headband/bandana wearing left&right cheol for this cuz that’s the fantasy i was imagining for this chapter the entire time i was writing it hehe 🍒 quick apologies to anyone who thinks this is moving a little slow 😩 I literally don’t know how to shut up and I end up writing too much LMAO and as always, thank you for the continued interest! Have a great weekend bbys! 💕 

chapters; 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - ?

dom.cheol has donated $400

therealchan99: yea this is about right on course

dom.cheol: what, did u miss me? 😏

gentleman_josh95: loosely

chwenon: more like the obscenely large donations were missing lolol

You jokingly roll your eyes, exhaling deeply as you push your toys off to the side of the bed. You’d just finished your Saturday show without a hitch, albeit feeling a little lonely. “Aww, c’mon you guys! Don’t tease~” Glancing around the room, it did feel a little odd to you now that Seungcheol wasn’t there but he had called earlier in the day and told you that it might’ve been better if he stayed back.

In truth, you understood exactly how he felt.

Part of you was ready to throw all caution out of the window when it came to Seungcheol and he felt it too. But at the same time, you knew it wouldn’t be that easy and that there were still things that the two of you needed to discuss before deep diving into intimacy, especially when it came to powerplay.

kitty_junjun: hey dont take this in a weird way but like

kitty_junjun: i feel like i saw u earlier today…

universe_WZ: ooo i never thought abt that before

sleepy_wonu has donated $75

xcaliburDK: have ppl recognized u irl before? :o

dom.cheol: i feel like i might’ve seen u irl before too…

Your cheeks bloom a hot pink; a nervous giggle on your lips. “Oh! I mean, yeah, there’s been a handful of times. I’ll wear wigs out sometimes though. Can’t have people calling me out in a grocery store, y’know?”

kitty_junjun: wait so maybe i did see u? I dont wanna give out locations tho…

“Maybe! I’m still out on my little weekend trip and I was out and about earlier~ if you see me next time, don’t hesitate to say hi! I promise I don’t bite~” You pause, leaning closer into the webcam as you wink.

“Unless you want me to~”

You start running a bath right after you end your show, stretching and turning on some music as you start to unwind. Thankfully you didn’t have a tiring show today, so you decided to take the rest of the night to pamper yourself in preparation for your day with Seungcheol.

Biting your lip, you pick up your phone, already seeing a multitude of messages from Seungcheol on your lockscreen.

cheollie ✨: don’t forget ur glass of water!

cheollie ✨: also don’t forget i’m picking you up at 9:30am

cheollie ✨: hope ur ready to spend all day at the roller rink with me baby

You can’t help but grin, already excited to see how Seungcheol spent his day at work. Typing a response, you quickly hit send before setting your phone down onto the nightstand and making your way to the bathroom.

‘I can’t wait! I’m so excited~ u promised me free skates and free food so don’t forget!!’

It’s exactly 9:29AM when Seungcheol messages you that he’s downstairs.

You check yourself in the mirror one last time, smoothing down your dress and hair and grabbing your bag before you rush down to meet Seungcheol. 

There’s a mild feeling of nervousness that pours over you, but you quickly shake it off once you see his blue headed figure standing outside of the lobby.

“‘Cheollie!”

He turns around to face you just as you stop in your tracks; gasping when you see the cute way he’s styled his hair for today. “Whoa… wow, uh, j-just.. Wow. You look great in bandanas...”

Seungcheol laughs, eyes forming crescents. “I don’t usually work the weekends so I thought I’d spice it up a little. Guess it looks good?” You can only nod shakily, mentally cursing yourself when you feel the arousal already pooling inside your body. He winks at you once, opening the passenger’s side door as you slide into his car.

“Hope you’re ready to have a boring day at the roller rink with me.” He gives you a tight lipped smile, shutting your door before he rounds the car to get in on the driver’s side.

“I’m telling you, it’s not going to be… y’know, anything crazy.”

“Who says it has to be! I’m excited to see where you work and anyway you promised!” You tease, poking him in the arm as he starts the car. “I know, I know… I just---I don’t want you to be disappointed. I bet you thought I was some rich old hotshot before, huh?” Seungcheol shoots you a glance, smiling gently.

“Mmm.. not really.”

“No? You didn’t think I was some lonely CEO with loads of money with a thing for camgirls?”

You laugh at his response, placing your hand over his on the gear shift.

“Nah, if there’s anything I thought about you, it was that you were way too nice to be on some camming website.”

The two of you have idle conversation as Seungcheol takes his time to drive to the roller rink. In all honesty, he was a little nervous himself, although he’d never say it to your face.

“Oh my god, is that it?! It’s so cute!”

He parks close to the entrance, turning the car off as he jogs over to your side to help you out. “‘Cheol, you know you don’t have to be so sweet~” You pout, latching onto his arm as he locks the car.

“Oh but I do. You deserve to be spoiled once in a while!”

A blush coats your cheeks yet again, shy eyes fixated on the floor as he walks you towards the entrance. “Yeah, but all you ever do is spoil me… That sybian was no joke and my god, Seungcheol, the price! I almost had half a mind to return it…” You end in a mumble. Seungcheol laughs, opening the door for you as you unlatch from his arm and step in first.

“You’re worth spoiling. Now stop worrying, okay? I promise I’m not up to anything illegal in order to afford your gifts.” Giggling, you lean up to kiss him on the cheek, nodding firmly.

“Fiiiiine, I trust you, y’know?”

“I know, baby. I trust you too, now let’s go meet my best friend who’s going to play butler for you today.”

He leads you over to the concession stand where an equally tall yet bored male stands. “Hey, Jeongguk!” The said male looks up from his phone, eyebrow quirking when the two of you walk up. “Uh, hey Seungcheol-hyung…” Seungcheol feels a weird tenseness fall over the three of you, clearing his throat to get Jeongguk’s attention when he finds the younger male staring.

“Um, this is my friend. She’s---uh, she’s gonna be hanging out here for the rest of the day. I promised her that you’d give her free food, so uh, just--just let me know how much it is so I can tell Namjoon to take it out of my paycheck.” Jeongguk grins, a sly look in his eyes when he finally meets Seungcheol’s concerned eyes.

“Sure! Can I talk to you over there? It’s about our paychecks actually.” Jeongguk turns to you, leaning over the counter. “Sorry, employee only info, ch--uuuuuh, you know the deal.”

“Yeah, of course!”

Jeongguk points off to the side, gesturing to Seungcheol who follows suit.

The younger male makes sure they’re a safe distance away, watching as you pluck your phone out of your purse before he starts talking in harsh whispers. “What the fuck, dude!? You’re---no, you’re not fucking Cherry. She doesn’t have a boyfriend so what the fuck?”

The blood drains from Seungcheol’s face; the feeling in his fingers going numb as his throat goes dry. “Wuh--what? What are you---what are you talking about?” Jeongguk scoffs, eyes rolling jokingly.

“So, hyung, how do you know her?”

“You’re asking me?! How do you know her!?” Seungcheol’s eye twitches just as Jeongguk shoots him an incredulous look, arms crossed in mock annoyance. “I’m a horny boy, what can I say.”

“Please do not ever use those words to describe yourself again.”

The younger male stands in silence, nodding in thought.  

“Fuck, wow, I should’ve noticed. All those extra shifts you were taking, the reason why you could never come hang… You don’t like working here as much as Yoongi-hyung but you--holy---holy shit, wait--you… you can’t be…”

Fuck, here it comes.

“You’re fucking ‘dom.cheol’ aren’t you? You’re the one always leaving her insane fuckin’ donations all the time… and the gifts.. Oh my god. The ‘cheol’ was from Seungcheol, I should’ve known...”

Seungcheol dies a million deaths inside his head; the ringing in his ears becoming unbearable while Jeongguk stares at him in mild disbelief. “It all clocks out, holy fuck. No wonder you were so fucking eager to pick up so many extra shifts…” Seungcheol’s mouth opens and closes a few times, unsure what to say.

“I mean, fuck hyung, I--I’m kind of impressed but wow. You think you know a guy, huh?” Jeongguk laughs, patting the older male on the shoulder. “She’s only one of the hottest camgirls out there right now. You’re a lucky man, hyung.”

A weird possessiveness washes over Seungcheol, hands gently balling up into fists at his side. “Okay, well, she… she’s just here to chill, alright? Don’t do anything weird. And most of all, don’t say anything weird either.” The younger male nods, already walking back to where you were standing.

“Hey, sorry, hyung’s paycheck is gonna be pretty sad next week and I had to let him down gently. Anyway, I’m Jeongguk. You are?”

You give him a fake name; shaking his hand over the counter as he grins at you.

“It’s my pleasure.”

You spend the first two hours on the floor skating; catching Seungcheol’s eyes on you from time to time as he sits nearby cleaning skates. The place seemed pretty empty, which was something that Seungcheol was immensely glad for.

Eventually you skate off out of the rink, making your way to Seungcheol who smiles at you when you come sit next to him. “Told you. Bored already, huh?” The two of you share a laugh, watching as the few other people continue to skate around the rink.

“I mean… it’s different! Right about now I’d usually be six episodes into a new series or something… It’s nice to be somewhere else and doing something different.”

He nods in return, slightly pouting when he turns to face you. “I hate that you have to go home tonight.” You mirror his sentiments, lips quirking into a sad smile.

“I know… I don’t wanna go home…”

Seungcheol bites the inside of his cheek, eyes flitting over to Jeongguk. “Hey, maybe we can bail a little early. This place is pretty dead anyway, and I--I can have Jeongguk clock me out when he leaves. My shift is supposed to end at 3PM and it’s noon now so… We can leave in a hour? Maybe get a late lunch?”

“Seungcheol… I don’t want you to get in trouble…” You mumble, brows furrowing in concern. “Really, it’s okay! We can just hang here ‘til then and still have time to get dinner!” He sighs, knowing you were right. Now was not the right time to be testing the waters with Jeongguk and Namjoon.

“Okay, okay, you win, baby.”

It takes 45 minutes.

45 minutes and a free drink from the concession stand before your mind starts wandering.

You watch Seungcheol converse with Jeongguk behind the concession stand; his cute laugh sending you into orbit when your eyes meet and you can’t stop the thrums of lust pouring over your body when a certain idea pops into your head.

Seungcheol turns his attention back to the younger male and you quickly start to unlace your skates and put your normal shoes back on before Seungcheol’s entire break gets taken up. 

You walk up to the two; Seungcheol cleaning off his hands before he exits from behind the counter.

“Seungcheol…” You softly call out; a look of concern crossing his features when he stops in front of you. “Hey, is everything okay?”

“Yeah, mmhmm! I just--I need to talk to you, if that’s okay?” Jeongguk already turns to leave, wiggling his eyebrows at you.

You drag Seungcheol away, tugging him towards an even emptier part of the roller rink as the concern builds up inside of him. “I have an idea.” He feels himself gulp, already anticipating what you have to say.

“And…?”

“Well… It’s… It won’t t-take long I don’t think, just… hear me out?” You question gently, head tilting cutely up at Seungcheol who already knows he can’t say no to you. “Okay, shoot.”

“Wh--what if we… film a small POV v-video… like, not a live one! Just a small upload on my channel to test the waters maybe? I just---you don’t have to say anything and--and it’ll be quick, and--and like, nothing major just a little, um, f-fingering and--oh my god, sorry, I shouldn’t have a-asked, that’s just---I’m s-sorry I was thinking about it and it kinda got to me and I’m---I’m kinda already wet just thinking about it and--”

“No, let’s… let’s do it. To be fair, people seem to like risqué public things like that right?” A crimson blush falls on Seungcheol’s cheeks as he turns the tables, wrapping a hand around your wrist as he walks you to the employee restroom. “It’s… there shouldn’t be anyone in here so we should be safe.” He mutters, checking to make sure before he ushers you inside and locks the door behind him.

“I don’t know what to do so you’ll have to guide me a little here, baby.”

You nod, pulling your phone out and opening the camera app. Scrolling, you put it in video mode, clicking the red button before passing it to Seungcheol. “I’ve never done it either but I’m sure I can just… crop it and I m-mean it’s meant to be a little shoddy, right?” You giggle nervously, body already on fire when Seungcheol makes the camera face you. “You don’t have to say anything if you’re not comfortable with your voice being in the video, I just need… this.”

You reach for his free hand, playing with it as you run your fingertips across the veins. “I’m sorry, daddy… I just… I couldn’t help but think about your fingers inside my tight pussy...” Seungcheol almost loses his grip on your phone; palm clammy when he watches as you bring his hand underneath your short dress.

“Please… please, won’t daddy fuck me with his fingers? I promise I’ll be good for the rest of the day if he lets me cum on his fingers…” You whine.

Seungcheol isn’t ready to have his voice heard yet, so he nods, fingers twitching in your hold.

You take this as an okay to continue, dragging his hand up until his knuckles graze your panties. “O-oh, fuck…”

This time Seungcheol takes the lead; his own body ablaze when he can already feel your wetness soaking through your panties. He presses into it, digging his fingers into the wet material until it sticks to you like a second skin. “D-daddy, please, please, put them inside, I need it!!” You mewl, trying to keep your voice down as much as possible while still being audible enough on camera.

He shoots you a look; one that tells you to hike your dress up until your soaking panties are seen through the camera lens. And you easily follow, holding your dress up as Seungcheol drops to his knees, angling the camera upwards until only his fingers and your clothed pussy are in view. You spread your legs a little more, back resting on the wall behind you.

“Please, I can’t wait any longer…”

He gulps once, saying a prayer before he slowly pushes your panties to the side. And you all but lose any semblance of sanity the second he runs his fingertips through your wetness, pussy clenching around emptiness. “Fuck--fuck me, please!”

Once Seungcheol deems his fingers wet enough, his eyes meet yours, asking for silent consent before he makes any further moves. You nod frantically, fingers gripping the material of your dress tightly.

Seungcheol bites his lip the second he starts sinking his first finger into your tight warmth; already feeling the drool pooling in his mouth when you moan loudly. He starts a slow pace, mentally noting just how obscenely wet you are when he drags his finger out slowly. “Ngh, daddy m-more, please, I can take it, I wanna be f-full~” He gives it a few more thrusts of his index finger before he adds his middle finger; this time slowly sinking both digits into your pussy as you whimper above him.

His eyes flit up, mesmerized when he sees your face contort in bliss. “O-oh my god, I’m--I’m already so close… Daddy’s fingers are so much bigger and thicker than mine, it fuh--feels so good…” You mutter; squirming when Seungcheol doesn’t move.

And it takes him a second; too fixated on the way your tight walls only seem to suck his fingers in deeper.

But he starts a moderate pace, scissoring and curling his fingers inside of you until you’re reduced to whines and soft breathy moans.

He can already feel you getting tighter around his fingers after a few more minutes; doubling his pace when you start to beg.

“Oh my god, oh my god, ‘m so close, fuck! P-please touch my clit, daddy, please make m-me c--cum!”

Seungcheol feels his cock throbbing in his pants but he focuses on you, thumb immediately on your clit as he rubs harsh and quick circles on the swollen nub. He doesn’t know how much time has passed or if his break is over, but the look of absolute pleasure on your face is enough to make him not care.

He curls his fingers into your g-spot, holding them still as he continuously rubs your clit until you’re cumming; thighs shaking as you let out shaky breaths above him.

“Oh m-my god, daddy!” You mumble in a hurried frenzy, thighs clamping around his hand between your legs as the pleasure washes over you.

Seungcheol lets you ride out your high, gently wiggling his fingers inside of you as he starts to slow down.

“Mmh… Seungcheol…”

Oh fuck.

He definitely liked it when you moaned his name. 

“Y-yes…?” It’s his cue to turn off the camera, shaky finger pressing the ‘stop’ button. He gently slides his fingers out of you, muttering an apology when you wince.

“You don’t have to say sorry! It’s just… ‘m sensitive…” You mewl, already missing the feeling of his fingers inside of you. “Y-yeah, of course! I, um, I hope that was okay? I’ll give you a second to get cleaned up, I’ll uh, run and get you some water.”

You nod in response, thanking him before he quickly washes off his hands and bolts out of the restroom; ears and cheeks redder than a tomato.

Once you’re alone, you quickly open your camera roll, clicking on the video as you hurriedly crop out the beginning and end, making sure that the short video didn’t have any incriminating details before you open up your camming homepage.

There’s a moment of unsureness that makes you pause. You bite the inside of your cheek, weighing the potential outcomes of posting this to your page. 

But before you can change your mind, you quickly start the upload; adding a title and a short description before you lock your phone to let it process.

In the meantime, you get cleaned up, checking your appearance in the mirror once before picking up your phone again. Unlocking it, you find the upload has finished and you exhale sharply, publishing the video before locking the device again.

You move to exit the restroom, already finding Seungcheol holding a bottle of water on the other side.

“Oh, there you are! Everything okay?”

“Mmhmm! I uploaded the video before I could change my mind so I’m a little nervous…” You trail off, accepting the bottle that Seungcheol passes you.

“Well, the good news is, we’re bailing, now. I told ‘Guk to clock me out so we should get out of here so I can get your mind off of that.”

He shoots you a genuine smile, offering his hand which you take.

“Let’s fuckin’ get some ice cream, I think we deserve it.”

Seungcheol takes you on a scenic drive, taking you to an ice cream shop further away from town.

The two of you sit down in a booth towards the back of the shop and he helps clear your head, talking about various topics to keep your mind off of the huge risk you’d just taken.

“Anyway, that’s one of the reasons why I’m never bar-hopping with ‘Guk again. He’s got no limit, nobody can keep up and nobody wants to keep paying the uber fees.” You laugh as Seungcheol finishes his story, taking a sip of your milkshake.

You can’t help but sigh after a few seconds, pouting at Seungcheol who blinks questioningly at you. “‘Cheollie, I don’t wanna go home…” He stares back, unsure of what to say. A million different thoughts run through his mind in the split second before he opens his mouth.

“Why don’t you stay with me for a couple more days?”

Seungcheol doesn’t understand the gravity of his words until they spill out of his mouth; a panicked look on his face when you go completely silent in the seat across from him. “I m-mean, uh, I mean, like, fuck. I’m sorry, that must’ve been way too out of bounds. I just---it’s just, you don’t want to go home and---and I can take care of you while you’re here! Even if it’s just a couple days. I can help you film too!” He curses himself for rambling; immediately shutting himself up.

“I--I don’t want to bother you, ‘Cheol… That’s really too kind of you…” A shy blush coats your skin; chewing on your bottom lip when you shyly avoid his gaze. “A-and my filming stuff is back home too… I brought a few toys with me so I could film my weekend shows but--but my camera…”

“I can ask Jeongguk!”

You shoot him a bewildered look, brow quirking. “He--he streams sometimes too, like, video games ‘n shit. He actually offered me his extra equipment a while back, if I ever wanted to get into it myself. I can ask to borrow it, if you want?”

You drink in his words, unsure. The thought of staying with Cheol might’ve danced across your mind a handful of times, but now that the offer was on the table, you weren’t sure how to respond.

You trusted Seungcheol, and you knew by now that he would never do anything to hurt or betray you. But this was a far leap from how things were the last time you’d seen him.

“Listen, I can see the cogs in your head turning, baby. You don’t have to if you don’t want to, I’m not forcing your hand into anything you don’t want. But I know you’ve been wanting to get out a ‘lil more and… well, in truth, I think it’d be nice for both of us? I can take care of you while you’re here with me and we can keep each other company.” He pauses, smiling at you from across the booth. “But I can also take you back to your hotel room and let you pack so you don’t get home too late.”

“‘Cheol I trust you.. It’s just that… I’m s-scared…”

“Scared? Of what, baby?”

The warmth blooms inside of you; shy eyes meeting his.

“Scared that I’m not gonna wanna go home…”

Seungcheol takes it easy for the rest of the day and doesn’t make an effort to get an answer out of you. He takes you around the city, tugging you into shops he thinks you’d like and walking around with you aimlessly until the sun goes down.

But time seems to go even faster once he takes you to dinner; a sigh on his lips when he knows he has to bring the topic back up.

“I hate to ask but… I have to take you back to your hotel after this so…” Seungcheol trails off, leaving it open-ended for you.

“I know… I just want to know… Why do you like me so much?”

The question takes Seungcheol by surprise; eyes wide as saucers. “I--I’m sorry I don’t follow?” You chuckle under your breath, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear.

“It’s just… we were strangers, kind of, before Friday, you know what I mean? And now you’re offering your place to me to just… crash at for a few days? What if I rob you blind? Or what--what if you try something with me that I don’t like?” You suddenly start catastrophizing; mind going a mile a minute with potential outcomes.

“Hey, whoa, whoa, wait. Calm down, sweetheart. It’s okay! Breathe!” You let out a shaky exhale, groaning as you hide your face in your palms. “God, ‘Cheol, ‘m sorry, I--I really want to stay with you for a few days. It’s just that my brain is going light speed and I can’t keep up. I really like you too, you’ve been nothing but kind and sweet and you’re so handsome, it’s just so crazy to me...” Your words are slightly muffled but Seungcheol catches it, a soft chuckle on his lips when he leans his head on his palm.

“I’ll sleep on the sofa and leave you alone. You can take the bed. Hell, you can even rob me blind and I’d say thank you.”

He reaches his free hand over, fingers circling your wrist as he pulls your hand down. “And I’m offering you my place because I like you as you. You’re cute and funny, and so fuckin’ humble. And I want to get to know you better. In person, y’know?”

“Y-yeah… I wanna get to know you better too. And it’s only a couple days right?”

“Right.”

Seungcheol drives you back to your hotel, a smile on his face when he sees you in better spirits.

He parks his car in front, turning to face you. “So I’ll just wait here while you grab your things and check out, okay? I’ll contact ‘Guk to see if I can swing by and take that extra equipment he offered.”

This time you nod cheerily, body buzzing with excitement as you hurriedly step out of his car. “I’ll be quick!”

He gives it a moment before he picks his phone up, taking a deep breath before typing out a message to the younger male.

‘Hey, ‘Guk I have a favour. Get back to me asap if u can.’

Jeon 🥴 : bold of u to msg me…

Confusion crosses Seungcheol’s features; fingers hovering over the keyboard. ‘What are you talking about?’

Jeongguk takes a second to send a screenshot, Seungcheol’s cheeks burning a crimson colour when he sees the content.

Jeon 🥴: it’s the employee restroom for me.

Jeon 🥴: bruh it’s also the fuckin way i knew it was u before i even played the video… fuck man is that why u too so long on ur break? u do kno u went over right, I clocked it cuz i was expecting u to come back sooner

Jeon 🥴: for the rec im not mad, actually im impressed just cant believe this is u

Seungcheol ignores Jeongguk’s messages, instead opening the screenshot again and re-reading the video title.

‘I was so needy… 🥺 so I asked daddy to finger me in public…’

Jeon 🥴: bitch i kno ur reading this im dropping the hyung bc u kept this from me!!

Jeon 🥴: after i even offered u my extra camming stuff u were already doing it behind my back…

Seungcheol rolls his eyes at the younger male’s dramatic nature, fingers quickly swiping across the keyboard.

‘Alright, I’m sorry okay? I just didn’t think my online habits needed to be public knowledge and for the record, that was the first time I’ve ever done anything like that. I promise no more secrets, unless absolutely necessary. And also speaking of that extra equipment, can I swing by and grab it from your place?’

Jeon 🥴: r u gonna cam now? u got one sip of the devils juice and now ur all in?

‘Would u stop being dramatic oh my god. It’s not for me, it’s for ‘cherry’. She’s going to be staying with me for a few days and I fully expect you to keep your mouth shut on this.’

Seungcheol grimaces when he calls you by your online handle; already feeling unfamiliar with it.

Jeon 🥴: o i c. sure, u can come pick it up, simp. I’ll make sure she’s got all the necessary things before u get here and u owe me one!! i fully expect u to come stream with me at least once for keeping ur secrets 

‘It’s a deal. I’ll be there in an hour and a half.’

A sigh escapes Seungcheol’s lips, his eyes dancing over to your figure that skips towards the car. He locks his phone just as you tap on the glass, popping the trunk before he steps out.

“How’d it go? All checked out?”

“Mmhmm! Did you get in contact with Jeongguk? What’d he say?”

A nervous laugh spills from his lips as he puts your small luggage in the trunk, slamming it shut before rounding the car to open your door. “I’ll help you get settled in at my place and then I’ll drive over really quick and grab the stuff from his place.”

You hop in his car, fiddling with the seatbelt until Seungcheol slides into the driver’s seat.

“He didn’t ask what you needed it for?” Gulp. Shit.

“I just told him that I was thinking about streaming, for--for gaming stuff. He was okay with it.”

He’d tell you the truth. Soon, he promises.

No. Now.

Seungcheol sighs, hands on the wheel as he stares straight ahead. “No, no, I--I can’t sit here and lie to you. Jeongguk knows you. I’m sorry I couldn’t tell you earlier, I told him to keep his mouth shut because I didn’t want him to bother you while we were at the roller rink.”

“I--oh…”

He can only nod; eyes dancing over to you as you play with the hem of your dress. “Yeah, I--I’m really sorry. He--He also found out I was ‘dom.cheol’ too and, fuck, I--I don’t know, I kind of panicked too. I hid that part of me from everyone I know so it was just… it was a lot.”

You meet his sad eyes, shooting him a small smile of your own. “It’s okay! It’s a little funny that happens right after that ‘kitty_junjun’ says he saw me in person too, huh? I mean, thanks for trying to protect me at least. It must’ve been weird for you too.”

“Yeah… If you’re not comfortable anymore, I… I’d understand too.” Seungcheol prepares himself for the worst, knowing that there was a chance that this was goodbye.

“Are you kidding! What’s one person gonna do? And you said he’s your best friend and you trust him… I’ll have to take a leap of faith on that one but… I trust you.”

You lean over the center console, kissing him on the cheek. “And anyway, as long as he’s not one of those weirdos asking for ‘favours’, I think we’re in the clear, right?”

Seungcheol grimaces; as long as it’s from me and not you, he thinks.

[touyaz]

What are other acts/scenes besides sitting on a roof together do u find to be intimate? I’m in such a soft mood imagine the solace of rooftop conversations with Dabi about daddy issues and broken hero society🥺

I GOTCHUU. Once I started writing this I couldn't stop. You may be sick of the words intimate and personal by the end of this <3 I've also sprinkled characters into this; mostly the haikyuu boys but some bnha & jjk dudes are in here. Too many to list :')

Also wanna preface by saying a lot of these ideas are already in my fics/ wips (I've mentioned it at some points, but not for everything), so pls don't copy agdhskf i know I don't own these concepts but if you are inspired by this then pls dm me so we can work it out & plagiarism won't be an issue later (just to err on the side of caution !!) :))

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One of the biggest things that screams intimacy to me is knowing someone else's passwords??? Sure it may be a breach of the site's policy lmao, but it speaks volumes abt the bond of trust you have w that person. Knowing their password & having access to their private things, but never taking advantage of this is just,, insanely intimate to me. You cannot do that w just anyone.

Also eye contact is something that is just so intense & intimate. Knowing your lover's eyes are on you, knowing all their attention is on you. Literally being the centre of their world. It's something that's so small & simple, but when your eyes meet & you realise they've been staring at you the whole time as you've been focused on smth else, it suddenly feels so overwhelming <3

Basically anything from +this post here. It's about Bakugou, Shouto, Dabi, Keigo, and Shigaraki & little intimate acts catered to each of them.

Sending/ receiving voice notes over the most mundane things. Just,, a person replying to your texts with voice notes so you can hear their voice & play it on repeat however many times you'd like. They don't care if they sound weird, or if they're in public & people are staring at them, they just want to talk to you.

a lot more under the cut!

Okok I meant to make a separate post about this but I cba so it's here now. I always see those Big Guy does Something Macho like opening a jar for you or reaching way up above for smth you want which is great!! But more than that I love thinking about the Big Guy doing smth so small and gentle for you. I think about big pro hero Bakugou kneeling down for you and lifting your foot to his knee so he can re-tie your laces properly for you. I dont even like him like that, but i think about big and bulky Ushijima gently handling a necklace he bought for you, those massive hands of his fiddling w the tiny clasp until the point of exasperation before he finally manages to connect the hooks together.

The entire concept of non-sexual intimacy, where you take smth that's usually sexual and make it innocent, makes me roll around and scream. E.g. bathing with your lover which I kinda described in +this Bakugou fic, like touching each other just to explore each other's body, deriving pleasure & comfort & peace from the feel of their skin alone. I have a Shiggy wip where I wanna explore this more than I have in my Bkg fic, & it's also gonna have brushing someone's hair and taking such good care of it. Putting oil/ treatment in their hair to make it stronger. Being so, so gentle as you brush out the tangles. Idk abt you but when my hairdresser shampoos my hair, I always get sleepy but force myself to stay awake, but I think if you're w your lover it's so much more personal bc you can allow yourself to fall asleep knowing they'll take care of you as best as they can, you don't need to worry about anything but the feel of their fingers over your scalp.

Also more on non-sexual intimacy, you can have things like licking & biting which may sound kinda gross but doesn't that make it all the more personal? Like i don't mean biting in a possessive sense to mark someone up, I just mean gently sinking your teeth into their skin so you can feel them beneath you. Reminds me of that quote 'isn't bite also touch?' - I can't remember the context of the quote, but it just makes me think abt all the different ways you can touch someone without your hands. Brushing your nose against theirs, feeling their eyelashes flutter across your cheeks, tangling your legs with their own when you lay down, etc. Kinda wrote about biting in this Vampire Shouto thing +here but I think this ventures more into the sexual side of it without being entirely explicit. The Shouto fic also reminds me of the intimacy of wrists which I'll talk about a little later!! Licking…… honestly I think that's self explanatory in terms of intimacy. You wouldn't just lick a stranger. You're after the taste of your lover. Love as consumption and whatnot. It's the divide btwn gross & fun and who else to toe that line w than the one you're most comfortable with?

Literally anything from my food as a love language post +here (has the main bnha boys). Don't think I need to expand on this bc eating/ sharing food is an act of love itself <3 but also I will expand on this idea bc i think about your lover taking the lollipop out of your mouth and putting it in theirs for a quick taste before giving it back. I think about drinking from the same straw without batting an eye, and feeding your lover with your own spoon. Smth so familiar and intimate about putting your lips where theirs were just moments ago. Which also leads me to sharing lip balm/ chapstick. And even just like… sharing creams, or letting someone else rub lotion under your eyes (also in my Shiggy wip :p), or your lover sitting still as you spread a face mask over their cheeks (in a Keigo wip :p).

Okay wrists!!!!! Like I said before in the Shouto fic, biting there is something that can be SO personal. It's just such a tender area that anyone touching that place feels intimate, feels like they're unbelievably close to you. I also have an unhealthy obsession with thinking about Sunarin w an anklet. Hear me out!!!! It's such an out-of-sight place right?? Like no one constantly looks down at their feet when they're going about their daily lives, but there's still that acute sense of belonging every time you walk and feel the sway of metal against the soft skin of your ankle. If I remember correctly I think I put ankle kisses in +this Yandere Kiri fic (tw dark content lmao) bc again!!! It's such a tender place!!! The idea of kneeling down, bowing your head to kiss that area…… Doesn't that just paint the picture of worship? Isn't that sacred intimacy at its finest??? Also other parts like the inside of the thighs, behind your ear, crook of your neck, etc. I'm also obsessed w non-sexual massages especially to high tension areas like the lower back & neck (I'm 100% projecting rn bc i want this, but there's smth so personal abt letting someone touch you so deeply to relax your body - like without the expectation that you'll return the favour, they're just working their muscles for as long as they can to make /you/ feel better, pushing past the strain in their own body to see that sleepy smile on your face, to feel your body unwind & go lax beneath theirs).

Here's a lil character concept dump (; Inumaki makes playlists to tell you how he feels without saying a word himself. Atsumu buys matching clothes, except it's not stuff that's like,,, his shirt says Don't go bacon my heart and yours says I couldn't if I fried,,, he literally buys the exact same top. When he sees you wearing your one, he'll immediately change into his so you two can match. On a train, Osamu holds onto the pole/ hand-held handle, and lets you cling onto him so you don't have to touch it & dirty your hands. Sakusa isn't too fond of reading out loud but when you hand him a book you want to read he can't say no to you. Megumi helps you with laundry & whenever it gets too windy he tells you to go back inside & that he can handle putting up the rest, he doesn't want you to fall ill. Going grocery shopping with Kaminari & he keeps putting things that aren't on your list in the trolley bc he knows how much you love them. Kirishima will shamelessly unlock the door, use the toilet whilst you're having a shower & then hop in with you right after. Itadori will make you a lunch box & put in a little note for you telling you to have a good day, saying you look cute, etc. Oikawa will write you a little message in your book, wait for you to reply, and then send another message back until the page is filled w more meaningless conversation & inside jokes than actual notes from the lesson you're in. Iwaizumi has an album of pictures solely for you & he looks through it more than he'd ever like to admit.

Also just…… the mundanity of your life. Like doing dishes. One person washes, the other dries and puts them away. But also,,,, one person pulls them out of the dishwasher and the other puts them away. It's like, it's not even necessary for 2 people to do that task, but you do it bc you love the person & you want to help them even with the most trivial things!! Even if you have better things to do!!! <- Mattsun does this all the time <3

Even more boring things like cleaning a room together…. putting half-broken sunglasses that you just found on your lover; them finding an old baby picture of you and framing it for their bedside table (Tendou!!!!!!). Looking over scrapbooks/ photo albums. Also I just. Have this vivid image of Kita re-painting the outside of his house while you de-weed the driveway. Also tending a garden together. I think I've spoken abt Bakugou doing it, but now I'm thinking abt Gojou who definitely has more serious things to be doing & he doesn't have the greenest thumbs, but it's practically embedded into his everyday routine to water your plants before he goes to bed. Something so intimate about getting down and dirty & doing gritty things like this w your lover, where you start clearing out on either ends of the flower bed & meet in the middle and work together to finish the job off (Nanami <3). Or where one person mows the lawn & the other makes lemonade before getting started on trimming the bushes. Just like,, any moment with two people working in tandem is so intimate to me. You don't even need to speak, just be aware that the other person is right beside you.

Smth similar to the rooftop scene, for me, would be late night drives. Maybe you're on an ice cream run, maybe you flip a coin to decide which way to turn next. Either way it's just about living in the moment with that One person. Wrote about it in +this Hanamaki fic (tw dark content. Starts off with dc but this part with Makki that I'm talking abt isn't dark at all, so you can still read it if you scroll to it). Like it's just you and your lover against the world. The car is like your little bubble of personal space & the only one you're letting in is your lover.

I know throughout this I've been saying your lover, but nearly all of these are smth I've experienced & they haven't been w a lover. The rooftop thing was based on an exp w my dad. We didn't sit and vent to each other, we were cleaning the roof & he was telling me abt how he used to do this as a kid all by himself. The sharing food/ straw/ spoons thing is based on what I do w my family. We don't think abt it in some indirect kiss kind of way, it's just natural. We don't even ask to have a sip of the other's drinks, when we're at a restaurant we all just go around tasting each other's drinks. It's just routine. The late night drive & coin flip thing I did w my sister bc we were bored & wanted to get ice cream then drive around with no destination in mind. The playlist thing some random guy I no longer speak to did for me. The letters/ notes are based on letters I sent to/ received from childhood bff & I've stored them away in a shoebox. They're v cringe but they remind me of more innocent times. My current bff sends me voicenotes of his dreams & random jokes to make me laugh. My brother does the Atsumu & Mattsun stuff. I did the toilet thing with another bff, but I know my parents have done the same & they've showered together (like in Kiri's), so again these acts aren't limited to romantic relationships!! My point is just that there is so much intimacy in your everyday life if you're looking for inspo & you should cherish those moments while they last so you can look back fondly on them <3

As you can tell I love romanticising my life & inserting the most trivial aspects into my fics/ wips :)

[mikeshanlon]

okay some 2.05-2.10/overall thoughts about obx s2

i think cameron family was definitely the most intriguing and well done dynamic this season. tbh i wish ward stayed dead one bc i hate him but two bc that was SO interesting to see how rafe and sarah further fray and butt heads and having to deal with shit now that he’s gone. the idea of rafe versus sarah, learning more about rafe’s psychopathic behavior... i don’t like or condone any of rafe’s actions and i still think if you want him to be this uwu redeemable character that’s hella dumb but he was definitely one of the most intriguing subplots. 

sarah went through so so so so SO much this season it’s insane. but it did make me enjoy her so much more and madelyn did amazing so hats off to her

big john being alive is just so stupid imo. he should not have even made it to that strip of land in season one. totally illogical. also i think it’s much more emotionally impactful for john b to have no family, to see how complicated his relationship with his father was but there’s no way salvage or fix the fight or resentment they had and show that love, and to further motivate his hate of ward. no offense to big john (but also offense bc he neglected john b a lot lmao) but i was more emotional abt him being dead than seeing him alive like i felt literally nothing other than this is dumb. i would’ve been MUCH more interested if the twist was that we saw john b’s mother and that she was involved somehow/knew something. then you have a whole new character and dynamic to play with and its not just like . completely stupid lmfao. let some dead characters stay dead!

i absolutely hate that slave owner lady and god the whole aspect of them like disturbing cecilia’s resting place and those mfs having the cross when it belongs to pope’s family yet being like u guys stole ughhh so enraging and heartbreaking. i loved seeing pope have more of a main role though and i do hope that continues in s3 but we also see him in more of a main role than just being tied to that storyline especially because it’s so traumatic

maybe evil and partially biased even though i did like them even more this season than last but i wish john b and sarah had stayed broken up a bit longer. i think the divide about ward’s death was an understandable reason two break off for a bit and something where both sides are right to feel what they feel. i do not like that it turned into a jealousy thing at the bonfire, like 🥱, the difficult emotions wrapped up in ward’s death is much more compelling than john b talking to that random girl and sarah with topper. i wish they had more time seperately to unpack their emotions and have seperate character development. john b and sarah are v cute and i enjoy their devotion but also them being essentially married at 16 after dating for like a couple weeks is. a lot. while i don’t necessarily love teen dramas that flip flop love interests around all the time i think essentially having your two main characters be Forever Committed as both season finales is just like..... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. they can be each others endgame ship but it would be interesting to explore their break up more even if we dont see other love interests bc i think internal conflict would be interesting to see (stuff that is not just ward wants to break them up or they get jealous). they would not have to be together for john b and sarah to still be devoted to saving each other i don’t think and would’ve been interesting to see them have tension on the island before getting back together. but i also think part of it is chase and madelyn being together so they won’t make their characters really Break Off but . oh well ig. i also enjoy the jarah dynamic when they are mad at each other it’s fun

speaking of the pogues being on a random ass deserted island is v intriguing but im like okay how will these bitches survive lmao. but hopefully it allows for some more of that s1 intimacy. also so glad cleo is with them!!!!!

i wish we had more solo kiara and sarah moments that were not just like.... oh so what’s going on with your relationship. like did they have a scene that passed the bechdel test lmao? honestly i think there were too many moments that were like so what’s going on with your relationship abt kie/pope and john b/sarah--not to say there is zero place for that at all but like i’ll expand on, i think s2 somewhat faltered in displaying some of the non-obviously romantic ships, like of course we saw them together and there were some great group moments and banter and stuff but i think s1 was more character and dynamics skewed and s2 much more plot skewed and focused more on romance than friendships. i feel like some of those scenes could’ve been chances for platonic developments or like. checking in on all the TRAUMA they have??? i did enjoy kie and sarah protecting each other a lot but i also do think they probably still have shit to work out together from kie’s kook year/their friendship and i hope we see that. also can kie have more plots that are not just about her relationships or even her friendships with the pogues pls

i hope i never have to see luke maybank’s crusty, dusty, musty ass ever again. poor jj mannnn :(

let’s speak about john b saying sarah’s name bringing her back to life versus jj saying pope’s and pope coming back no yeah....... soulmatism

overall i think s1 and s2 had very different objectives and tones and both did well delivering them but i hope s3 we get a happy medium. s1 was much more intimate, summer show with friendship and love and a goonies esque treasure hunt. much more focus on dynamics and character development imo. s2 was JAM packed with plot and much more action movie. it was very entertaining and they had some great moments and i enjoyed both and how the handled such a bigger/elevated season but i think something thats kind of frustrating is after everything it feels like we ended up with a lot of things not changing. like yes of course there are differences like they are deserted and we have icon cleo and some other villains in the mix and stuff like that. but i feel like. okay so ward and rafe still won and got even MORE gold. jarah are together and like way too committed but okay happy for them. i feel like other than sarah’s hate for rafe and ward further solidifying and kie and pope deciding to be friends not a lot shifted in the friendship dynamics, or who is working together, etc. sarah and pope got the most development which i love that for them but i wish we saw more with the others

[vent-inside-bitch-outside]

pain.

the game no longer updates, there was no new content. I will be compiling additional instances of this sort of thing. not sure why i feel so compelled to do this, to see other people feeling what i feel i guess? A decaying forum for a dead game with a gaggle of lonely people babbling about fictional animal people, feeling the exact same way i felt.

something about the phrase “vile reality” really resonates with me. Perhaps what’s happening is that i leaned too hard into the escapism and i dont wanna face reality again.

its a niche community admittedly but still. I kinda hate myself for immersing myself into this whole thing.

somebody had a similar experience with a different character. im not sure what i want to gain from this. A sequel? that’d have different characters. More story to the character i like? more story would still end eventually. I feel as though my reservations in posting this is this is where i go to complain abt things i cant complain abt to anyone else and also where i share my deepest feelings? but i also can’t help but imagine some unseen 3rd party in the future reading this and judging me, even if they dont know me. Maybe they send it to their friends: “guys haha look at this weirdo i found on the internet.” That’s probably my inner critic manifesting itself as like, other people in my own imagination or some such shit like that. I suppose if i reword this i could discuss it with my therapist tomorrow. you know, minus the furry sex game stuff. I need to stop playing this game so goddamned late at night. but like FUCK i will never have what video game protag i controlled had. will I? no, i wont, because it was a dating sim. A work of fiction. i could never even hope for a facsimile of what was presented in that game. also i just got like a weird brush of deja vu and im just noting that to expel it from my system but like. I hope if any unrelated party is reading this they can at least understand my melancholy attitude, I’ve been fed an idealized version of what love is like, which ends immediately after the relationship is established beyond the “dating” phase mind you. What’s the pay off?  a sex scene. That’s it. I want intimacy, i want that connectedness, but im equally repulsed by the notion of opening myself up like that to another person. I hate myself in too many little ways to ever pursue that kind of love portrayed in that game. I find myself unattractive, my depression induced poor habits repulsive, and i think that my real genuine self is unlovable. its difficult for me. I had it for a moment, it was in my grasp. Even if it was fake i fucking felt something man. what’s gotten into me that i’m rambling so god damned much on this page lately? at any rate it helps me sort out my damn feelings to ramble like this. Another reason i hate myself: this isnt like the romanticized mental illness this like, the weird and unlikable mental illness that i am displaying here. If im afraid to be open about this on a blog by and for myself, how could i ever open myself up to another person?