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sinfulforrest Ā· 1 year ago
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I don't usually make posts like this, but a minor liked a load of my DoL stuff and I feel very uncomfortable by that, so I wanted to let folks know that @/juazwax is a minor and reaaaallly shouldn't be in this space, and they seem to be interacting with other DoL content too.
Don't send em any hate, just block them and move on and maybe let others know about this so that they're aware about it.
Minors- this space isn't for you and please don't interact with 18+ blogs that very clearly state that they don't want minors about, thank you. It makes us adults feel uncomfortable, and it can put you at risk from other potential creeps and weirdos that could be lurking around.
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buggiesnax Ā· 1 year ago
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Kingdom Hearts 4 news is surely on the horizon, right???? right???? please???????? Missing Link?????? anything?????? I'm experiencing withdrawal
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kxsalt Ā· 3 months ago
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hello! i just wanted to say that i really enjoy your stories but i had a little critique about the most recent one you posted.
i didn't like that u had the men ignore her safeword. isn't the whole reason it's present, to ensure that the play is fun for everyone?
i understand that this is a fantasy and it might not reflect your real world values, but i dont think we should be promoting the ignorance of a safeword.
i think what u cud have done is make her use a fake safeword that was meant to be ignored and the men cud hv given her just a bit of aftercare.
but that's just my thoughts, maybe im thinking too much into it haha
anyways i really really enjoy your writing, this was just one thing i got a serious ick about so i decided to send an ask. i hope you won't consider it rude :)
have a great day!
Hello, thanks for your question.
The simple answer is that you are absolutely right - in practicing actual kink and sex those consent tools such as safewords must be used and respected.
The more complex answer is that fiction exists to explore ideas in a safe way. In no way is it an endorsement or promotion of the actions in that particular story. Broadly, using erotic fiction as a model for actual sex is inadvisable.
I make the point that almost all stories omit important consent tools and conversations that happen before or after a scene. We as writers do this to make our stories engaging. Including the 'fake safeword' in that story would actually destroy the purpose of that particular work: To emulate something that cannot be ethically practiced. To take a snapshot of the feelings that people are trying to evoke when roleplaying a scene of this nature, and put those feelings front and center.
Furthermore, some people will prefer to read a fictional account depicting an act of non-consent over a fictional account depicting an act of consensual non-consent. As those works are fictional, they are both consensual. This story just isnā€™t for you - and that's okay, it's meant for someone else.
That said, the nature of the story does lie outside of my normal scope of writing. Consent is a recurring theme in my work, and I do aim to add content warnings to stories that would be unusual to the average audience member. Therefore, I will add a non-consent cw to that post.
If you're looking for stories that emphasize consent, I would point you towards A Few Weeks and Laughter Over Dinner. If you're looking for stories that depict a consensual context in CNC, I recommend Have Fun, Stay Safe and CNC Tonight.
Thanks again for reaching out. I see this as a valuable discussion, and I appreciate you voicing your concerns.
All my best,
-kxsalt
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hadesisonlyalad Ā· 10 months ago
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yk i dont post a lot on tumblr but we all saw that red flags post so im gonna take a moment of ur time to say something on each merc and the red flags listed for them. im doing a read more incase u havent seen the ā€œmercs red flagsā€ headcanon post and it does not flood ur page
both the medic and engie things with ā€œnot wanting to spend time with you/wont make time for youā€ is SUCH bullshit if that was the case they wouldnt even date you. and then ur telling me engie tf2, DELL CONAGHER, would NEVER want to take you on a date? like ever??? u are INSANE. And then sorry to tackle medic and engie in the same paragraph but they had a lot of common ā€œā€ā€ā€ā€red flagsā€ā€ā€ā€ā€ that were listed. why would he yell at you. he hardly even yells in general (based off comics and voice lines) if anything hes just kinda a loud person šŸ’€ AND YOU BRINGING UP ONE THING WONT MAKE HIM SUDDENLY IGNORE YOU FOR DAYS LIKE?? he KNOWS hes committing medical malpractice btw. he would not leave you for bringing that up he is WELL AWARE of what hes doing. and we see him CANONICALLY DISCIPLINE ARCHIMEDES IN MEET THE MEDIC, WHY WOULD HE TOLERATE HIS BIRDS ATTACKING YOU????
also why are we listing an addiction as a ā€œred flagā€ what the fuck is wrong with you. i get not wanting to date someone with an addiction, its a valid concern, but thats SO much more serious than a ā€œred flagā€ or ā€œickā€??? LIKE ARE YOU OKAYYYY???????
AND THEN HEAVYā€™S RED FLAG IS ā€œhe has traumaā€ FUCKING. PACK IT UP GUYS IG IF YOU HAVE TRAUMA YOU CAN NEVER BE IN A RELATIONSHIP. (/s) WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU.
iā€™m fine with the miss pauling ones, at least two of them, because yeah, itā€™s canon that she doesnā€™t have the most time and i imagine if ur not a merc or work in that area a relationship might be a bit hard? but shes an honest person, i donā€™t think sheā€™s gonna lie to you. idk im very neutral about the pauling ones, if anything theyre the most in character of this shithole list.
all i have to say for pyro is like. yk those people who hc pyro as aroace except theyre super weird about it? like theyre either infantilizing them or have weird ableist feelings about pyro? yeah thats the vibes im getting. actually wait where did u pull codependent pyro from actually wtf
i think the ā€œtryna live like hes 20ā€ thing for spy is really fucking funny šŸ’€ like go girl go live through that middle age crisis!!/j no but seriously. hes dating you hes gonna think youā€™re a 10, and even then YOUā€™RE SAYING IF YOU AGE AT ALL HEā€™LL LEAVE YOU??? CANON MILF LOVER SPY. ā€œOFF TO VISIT YOUR MOTHER!ā€ SPY TF2. WILL LEAVE YOU IF YOU GET OLD AND AGE AT ALLā€¦? HE LIKES HIS WOMEN LIKE HE LIKES HIS WINE MOTHERFUCKER: AGED. sorry bad joke lets keep going uh- i think the other hcs are garbage too i just really hate specifically this spy hc. just this one specifically.
im not a sniper connoisseur, my friend will is way better versed in sniperā€™s characterization, but even i know this isnt sniper. ā€œthinks if he argues long enough heā€™ll winā€ā€¦? ā€œcannot support you in anythingā€?!!?! ā€œIF YOUā€™RE HIS FRIEND AND YOU TWO GET INTO A BAD ARGUMENT PREPARE TO NEVER SEE HIM AGAINā€ IM GENUINELY AT A LOSS FOR WORDS. I JUST. I DONT..? WHAT DO I EVEN SAY. I DONT K N O W WHAT TO SAY. BUT IF I DID KNOW WHAT TO SAY Iā€™D BE SAYING VERY BAD THINGS.
i dont think scout is misogynistic- i see why people think that but me personally i just think he has no game and people mistake it as violent misogyny for some reason. but. listen we know scout is a dick we do okay but he loves women. why would he cheat on you.? bro heā€™d be glad u picked him šŸ˜­ AND THEN THE PERIOD THING?? he was raised by a SINGLE MOM do you REALLY think shes gonna raise him and let him think that way about a natural body function. im speaking entirely from the single mom experience and the answer is NO!!!! also how is loving your mother a red flag. being the youngest child is also a red flag, i guess. and having issues with his dad. (/s) also, second verse same as the first: IF HES DATING YOU HE THINKS YOUā€™RE A 10 WHAT IS SO HARD TO FUCKING GET ABOUT THISHXWHBVWBWBXvqvsbs?1?2!2ā€™wndjwke
uhhh soldier wasnt. here for some reason. so nothing to say about him.
anyway leave ur opinions below. i rly dont wanna get into any tumblr drama or internet drama at all bc it scares me dearly and im always self conscious about leaving a bad digital footprint especially over something as petty as tf2 drama but i cannot stand for this slander I CANNOTā€¼ļøā€¼ļøā€¼ļøā€¼ļø sorry if u also think im mischaracterizing anyone here i only put hours of studying into my fav mercs and thats. abt it,, listen im silly okay
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lpsgirl109 Ā· 5 months ago
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This is a post for @just-allovertheplace because they brought up a point on one of my Phin posts and I wish to elaborate
So when I say some of Phin's actions should've been a result of her own ignorance, I dont mean like, all. The attacks against Roxxon should absolutely be done from a place of hate, those fuckees killed her brother and are selling off nuform as a clean energy thing despite Knowing it's harmful. Everything against Roxxon is fine to have been malicious intent
What I mean with that post is I feel there should've been an emphasis on Phin not really thinking about the damage her attacks may cause to innocent people until after the fact. She's not putting civilians in harm's way just for shits and giggles, Roxxon is her first priority and her grief sort of blinds her to how she may be hurting others in the process. The reason I like to add her warning the people at the rally to run is that the fandom Loves using that scene to call Phin a horrible person for putting Rio in danger. And in my honest opinion, some of that can be equated to bad writing, since Phin is sort of all over the place in terms of her actions. I can definitely word this better when I finish my replay of the game but like, there's moments where the narrative villainizes her a bit Too much and it leads to people hating her more than sympathizing with her, which really doesn't work when the point of her arc was to make the player feel bad for her by the end, not cheer for her death.
This is why it works better for me if she's going into these attacks clouded by her own rage and not entirely understanding the consequences until after it has been done. She doesn't want to hurt innocent people, she wants to hurt Roxxon. She just doesn't realize innocent people Did get hurt until the action is already done. And one could say I'm watering her down and making her less evil or some shit, but I also do this because I don't really like how her or the Underground are handled in the game. You have to tread carefully when playing with the "character figting worse character is Doing It Wrong and is therefore just as bad" trope, especially in the context of the 'worse character' being a corrupt rich asshole in charge of a corrupt company who is knowingly making people extremely sick with his product just so he can sell it. And the game uses this trope pretty poorly, with how horrible Phin and the Underground are portrayed. The Underground is a literal terrorist organization and Phin herself shows no care for the people she hurts in the process of taking down Roxxon. She doesn't even care that the Underground is getting sick from handling the nuform, and that's a scene that really Icks me because there are Connotations behind saying the black girl trying to fight a huge corrupt organization that killed her brother has become no better than the white man who owns said organization and just about takes Pleasure in what he's doing. I really hope this is not a hot take and I am not the only one who thinks this.
Anyway, that's largely why in my rewrite, I tone down both Phin and the Underground a bit. If they were the only villains in the game and weren't fighting any sort of higher power, I'd probably be fine with them the way they are. It's the fact that their goal is to stop a large organization from harming the city with their product, and are written as terrorists who don't care about the innocent people they hurt that makes me look at them and go Hm. This was not handled well. At all. It's why in my opinion, Phin works best if her attacks are never meant to hurt innocent people, rather she's sort of in over her head and didn't think about the damage she'd be causing until it was too late. And like this also checks out when you remember she is an 18 year old girl, yeah she's gonna fuck up. Girliepop never even made it to her 20s /ref
Anyway this has been an episode of Peg Speaks
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miintsprigz Ā· 6 months ago
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I decided to liveblog my thoughts on the new amazing digital circus episode!ļæ¼
Another long post incomingā€¦
But uh SPOILERS!!!
ā€¢Oh this is a nightmareā€¦just based on the weird movementsā€¦
ā€¢Thatā€™s such a terrifying nightmare legitimately. I know the ā€œI donā€™t wanna play with you anymoreā€ jokes will abound butā€¦imagine if she DOES actually abstract at some point. And this was foreshadowing. Also, the fact that sheā€™s so terrified of being forgottenā€¦ Oh honeyā€¦ we could never forget you!
ā€¢I donā€™t ship them (PLEASE DONT KILL ME) but Ragatha and Pomni are so sweet. But goshdangit Ragatha your fEELINGS MATTER STOP FAWNING.
ā€¢THE GIANT BUBBLE BLEEP AHAHA
ā€¢ā€Zoobyā€ PFFT.
ā€¢LARPING. SO POMNIā€™S CANONICALLY ONE OF US HUH, GIANT DWEEB (affectionately)
ā€¢Idk why but I really like that gummy elephant. Itā€™s so cute!
ā€¢ā€Theyā€™ve even got little candy bugs here!ā€ Dā€™AWW.
ā€¢Soā€¦Caineā€™s God, huh.
ā€¢ā€Iā€™m not a child you donā€™t have to hype me up.ā€ Fair point. Still get icked out by r34 tho.
ā€¢ā€I call shotgun!ā€ Ok I admit heā€™s fun at times.
ā€¢PLEASE LET GANGLE HAVE ONE NICE THING I BEG OF YOU
ā€¢The graphics did get a serious upgrade. I love it.
ā€¢Huh, so the AI have personalities even when they arenā€™t being watched, if the gummy bandits are AI.
ā€¢Ok never mind Jax is a pain again.
ā€¢YEAH YOU CUSS HIM OUT POMNI!
ā€¢Aw well at least Kinger is trying to help.
ā€¢ā€Now I have no bridge!ā€ EAT IT RABBIT
ā€¢Gosh this really is so silly I like it.
ā€¢Jax makes me hate him more almost every time he opens his mouth.
ā€¢DID HE JUST SHOVE RAGATHA IN THE FACE?! AND BLACKMAIL POOR GANGLE?!
ā€¢Sorry Iā€™ll stop talking about Jax, I just really donā€™t like him (love him as a character, pisses me off as a person).
ā€¢OH GOSH NOT THE GLITCHING VEHICLE
ā€¢Oh no that poor gummy dude! I love his Aussie accent too (I think heā€™s an Aussie)
ā€¢OH SHOOT HE GLITCHED THROUGH THOSE ARE MODELS!
ā€¢Yeah that must be unnerving. Poor guy.
ā€¢Thereā€™s our girl!
ā€¢ā€Under the mapā€ makes me think she designed it. ā€œWhat are you on about?ā€ Makes me think he IS an AI. But heā€™s becoming self aware. ā€œWhereā€™s mumā€¦ā€ oh no this poor guyā€¦
ā€¢Aw Pomni is being nice to him.
ā€¢Well I love this fella already. ā€¦but I already knowā€¦thingsā€¦hhhhhhhhhh.
ā€¢Hah, Willy Wonks reference.
ā€¢OH SHOOT ITS A RAGGEDY ANN MOVIE REFERENCE. Fudge is silly, I kinda love him. But also YIKES HE ATE PEOPLE.
ā€¢ā€Is it really murder if itā€™s delicious?ā€ FFFFFFF
ā€¢I STILL HATE JAX BY THE WAY, please donā€™t kill me for that. Really only cares about himself, I so badly want to see him get his just desserts. Iā€™m sorry if you love him, I love to hate him, I promise itā€™s nothing personal
ā€¢Poor gummy havin a crisis. I wanna hug him.
ā€¢See Pomni is actually nice. Imo anyway. She wants to help sheā€™s just nervous. Attagirl, Pomni. Youā€™re trying your best.
ā€¢Iā€™m seeing the I Have No Mouth references. And AW sheā€™s inviting him to come with!!! Good lass.
ā€¢POMNI DEVELOPMENT!!! I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!! BEST GIRL!!!
ā€¢Gummigoo, good lad good lad
ā€¢Her knowledge on the programming. Her KNOWLEDGE. EEEEE.
ā€¢AWWW THEIR LITTLE SMILES
ā€¢This is an oddly pretty landscape here, with the teapots.
ā€¢Kinger with a bucket on his head HAHAHA
ā€¢ā€I donā€™t think she really likes me that much.ā€ Honey if only you saw what ONE EPISODE spawned in regards to art of you two.
ā€¢KINGER IS THE TEAM DAD. I REPEAT, KINGER IS THE TEAM DAD! ā€œI remember when you were new here tooā€¦ā€ And just like that, he lost it.
ā€¢OWCH FUDGE GOT BONKED.
ā€¢PFFT ya know as a mildly emetophobic person, I normally hate vomit jokes, but these are kind of funny.
ā€¢ā€Good to see you lads.ā€ AWWW.
ā€¢Aw the duplicate worked out.
ā€¢ā€Iā€™m so unbelievably disappointed right nowā€ GOOD, COPE SEETHE MALD
ā€¢Pomni is genuinely a sweetie. We can see it now. I love that.
ā€¢Also the Princess is lovely, I adore her, hope we see her again.
ā€¢Oh shoot. Big boom. OH NO FUDGE.
ā€¢NO!!!! GUMMIGOOOOOO!!!! I knew it was coming but STILL.
ā€¢Itā€™s so sad that she got all this development and now it seems like sheā€™s back at stage one
ā€¢Could gummi have been human after all? Is that why Caine looked horrified???
ā€¢BRING HIM BACK PLEASE!!!!
ā€¢Awww Zoobleā€™s little comfort.
ā€¢Oh shoot, funeral for Kaufmoā€¦thatā€™s so sadā€¦ awā€¦ thatā€™s good though. Itā€™s how they keep their humanity.
ā€¢LEMME HUG THEM PLEASE!!! AW RAGATHA HONEY ITS OK
ā€¢AWWW GANGLEā€™S DRAWING!! THEY WERE BUDDIESā€¦ AAAA
ā€¢Even Zooble seems sad. Zoobleā€™s nice deep down too I think, theyā€™re just apathetic. And who can really blame them? When youā€™re stuck in a digital reality, completely disconnected from your own humanity, sometimes thatā€™s how you cope.
ā€¢Notice the only one NOT MOURNING is FRIGGIN JAX. What a dingus.
ā€¢I really love seeing a resolution to Pomniā€™s nightmare, where she realizes that people would miss her, and that they would mourn her if she was gone. I think thatā€™s an important thing for her to realize. I guess she isnā€™t back at stage one after all.
ā€¢I WANT A PLUSHIIIIIIE
ā€¢But yeah, this episode was absolutely amazing, it made me feel so many emotions, and I canā€™t wait to obsess over the TV tropes page with all of its new details!
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kindestofkings Ā· 1 year ago
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when i meet the band they ask, "do you have a man?" i can still say, "i don't remember"
matty healy x reader
face claim: amelia dimoldenberg
childhood friends, reader and matty healy have been the ultimate power couple, with his success with the 1975 and her increasingly popular online series. unfortunately, things don't always stay perfect forever...
authors note: this took me FOREVER but she's my baby and I hope you enjoy!! Absolutely no hate to gabrietta shes seems really cool, but i needed the drama lol
yourusername and chickenshopdate
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chickenshopdate when will they get it!! my quest for love is still ongoing. TWO more dates lined up for this season, lets hope I don't get ghosted xx
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yourusername mwhahah you guys are gonna love them!!
1975fan1 oh my god please please have matty on we've been so patient 1975fan2 fr i need to see more of my parasocial parents yourusername dont think I know a matty ?? is he the one who sings about chocolate?
trumanblack well fit xx
yourusername stranger danger !! 1975fan2 hahah you'd swear they haven't been dating for like 5 years 1975fan3 AND friends for like 7 years before that
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chickenshopdate No crashing here, just crushing. šŸ˜ My date withĀ @charli_xcxĀ is out on Friday!šŸ’•
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fan1 holy shit this is my roman empire
yourusername watch out @bedfordanes75 imma bout to steal your girl xxx
bedfordanes75 two can play at that game hun xx charli_xcx guys please theres enough of me to go around trumanblack and me yourusername @trumanblack sorry who brought you into the conversation?? trumanblack love it when you're mean to me x rass75 AH my eyes
1975fan1 damn they're both so hot, i fear the boys of the 1975 have rizz...
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yourusername sadly Miss XCX wasn't the one for me, or i wasn't the one for her whatever blahblahblah
im giving love one last try next week before i give up and let my mum set me up!
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1975fan1 omg matty liked this post maybe he's the last date?
1975fan2 me when im delusional xx 1975fan3 you do know they're going out years? he likes all her posts babe x
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chickenshopdate it's the one you've all been waiting for.. my date with @trumanblackĀ @the1975Ā is out THIS Friday!
keep the hopes low guys he can't be funny in his first language let alone a foreign one xx
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1975fan1 OH MY GOD i was right this is everything
rass75 you picked the wrong band member love
yourusername if you weren't too busy being cool and mysterious, it could've been us falling in love over chicken nuggets xx trumanblack oi rass75 back off
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yourusername just broke the internet so i think i'm good to hardlaunch my current placeholder @trumanblack x
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trumanblack babe you look so cool
yourusername BAHAHA did you quote your own lyrics to me?? thats an ick I might have to rethink this placeholder thing, rass75 are you free? trumanblack stop tryna replace me, hurts my feelings
trumanblack posted on their story!
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-go watch me be fit and cool on a date
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1975fan_base in honour of @trumanblack and @yourusername's groundbreaking date i thought we should all love on the old pics of the two and the guys from her old insta!
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1975fan1 parents literally my parents
1975fan2 so so cute they've been together so long !
1975fan_base ikr!! they make me believe in love
1975fan3 shes doing gods work giving us those photos
yourusername šŸ’•šŸ’•
1975fan_base ahhh omg HI!!
yourusername posted on their story!
trumanblack reposted onto their story!
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more boyfriend content cause he's giving out it's ruining his "cool" image lol
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bedfordanes75 cant ruin what was never there in the first place 1975fan1 IM SO OBSESSED WITH YOU TWO AHH
four weeks later
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tmz SPOTTED !! the 1975's frontman matty healy was seen out on a loved up walk around NYC today with gabriette, despite him and his long term girlfriend being seen together just over a month ago. Do we think the previous couple had broken it off already or is the singer adding cheater to his name?
let us know what you think down below!!
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1975fan1 oh my fucking god men I cant
1975fan2 nooo I hope he and yourusername broke it off before this, shes too good for this shit!
1975fan1 doesnt even matter its very quick to already be in a relationship after ending one that lasted like 5 years...
1975fan3 this afternoon?? tmz you guys are disgusting putting this up, what if yourusername finds out through this!!
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1975fan_base guys i cant be delusional anymore yourusername just unfollowed matty and all the boys šŸ’”šŸ’”
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1975fan1 noo I cant stop thinking she found out through tmz, hard day to be a 1975 fan....
1975fan2 how can he cheat on the girl who he wrote when we are together and about you for !!
1975fan_base genuinely makes no sense men are TRASH
1975fan3 feel like you guys should've seen this coming he's written so many songs about cheating on his girlfriend
1975fan2 literally no one asked!!
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yourusername oh hi! hope you've missed me? let's play 2 truths and 1 lie: it's awards season, i'm fit as fuck and men are trash.
fans of chickenshopdate don't fret we'll be back with another season soon! it's time to level up on english singers, im looking at you @harrystyles xxx
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yourusername god 1'm so bad at games there's 3 truths there isn't there?
fan 1 AHAHAH you are so iconic, gone for three months and you come back with this fan2 make him payyyy
florencepugh the real queen of england right here!
yourusername šŸ’•šŸ’•
harrystyles i'm a pescatarian so what about just a regular date love x
fan 1 oh she's such a girlboss I hope ratty healy regrets every decision he's ever made!
bedfordanes75 gonna smash it! call one of us back when you get the chance <3
(liked by rass75,1975adam and charlie_xcx) fan3 eek the fallout of a couple in the same friend group right there
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shreddeddescent Ā· 1 month ago
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ugh i do have one more drama bomb for the worst case scenario that is the thing that will actually piss everyone off more than anything else, like the final ick, and thats all to do with like.....ok i said no one is coping well at all right. everyones having trauma sex dreams? about the worst fucking shit in the world? nobodies coped with that well.
this will give everyone an actual ick. and im genuinely really sorry. but if i talk about this and youre still okay and nobody eats me alive, then maybe this whole dumb thing could just be posted and ill just be like "HERE its fine and im sorry"
Iā€™m hoping by now we can understand the nuances of this situation. that this is only happening because the characters have been through the most horrible thing imaginable together. please try to be understanding of that.
cw in general for the usual shit. seriously. dont traumatize yourself to read this. and def dont read it if youre not aware of the rest of this timeline. the nuances are important.
leo and raph have just done something stupid to cope. something thats their choice as a one time thing to get the trauma of the assault and loss of bodily autonomy out of their heads. they do something they consent to. its not a choice they made lightly, its something theyre really ashamed thinking is a good idea. but they decided 'hey. i think I need to choose to be stupid, and i think you have the same idea, cuz at least we can both choose to be stupid together. stupid fucking teenagers who can regret their own choices instead of his, and dad has no say in it. and if he has no say he has no power over us, he doesnā€™t control us, and i can look at you without thinking of him.'
and then it literally does turn their nightmares around. and they can literally laugh in his nightmare face about it.
and then they go to therapy about it. to make sure theyre okay about it, and they actually seem to be. and i think they actually are. thats why its extra fucked up that they now know big mama took advantage of them. because they thought maybe it was okay after speaking to her and now they have no idea. and theyre pretty ashamed, leo in particular. but also like... it did actually get the cage dreams to stop for them. but thatā€™s why leo got so high, cuz he thinks he finally felt ok and THEN he was proven right when they learn about the egg napping. and now he thinks heā€™s fucked everything up worse by ever thinking what they did was okay.
thats when the fucking kids show up to talk.
is everybody.... hhhhhhhh is everybody okay with that. cuz this is genuinely the final missing piece Iā€™m overly censoring the snippets Iā€™m posting about because its happened in the background. but Iā€™m genuinely hoping that since this whole thing is fucked enough already that these little nuances can be respected. its not a thing they're ever doing again. its a thing they did to feel like fucking dumbass teenagers instead of mindless fucking traumatized animals who are trying to raise their little brothers on their own right now.
its not something id post the specifics of. but the before and after of how that happened and how theyre handling it. because its part of the reason they need help.
please dont throw pitchforks, im really just trying to be honest about the effects of this heinous shit. its all coming from a very serious raw place so i hope you can understand. its not something that was added lightly.
and if you understand and respect that, maybe i can just post the story and say fuck it. cuz its a really fucking.... ugh. like this is obviously the 'ive lost my marbles i need a diagnosis' story. i dont need to say that anymore, but maybe some of you need to read a story like this as much as i needed to write it. i dont mean that in a presumptuous way, but more like... i think maybe im hitting a nerve.
im sorry.
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racharii Ā· 7 months ago
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coming from an enby whos tme (tho i myself am not transmasc), i feel like a lot of transmasc people are doing this "have their cake and eat it too" thing where they want to be perceived as men or men adjacent, in our society a part of the oppressor class, while also still wanting to benefit from structures meant to protect against said class. specifically ones that have been set up in queer spaces. ive met quite a few trans men who were just as vehemently misogynysitic as your average dude bro. and (this is speculation based on convos ive had with trans men im not in every transmascs head) a lot of transmascs have a lot of internalized misogyny that they project onto trans women. ive had an irl ex friend of mine say something that i think encapsulates this particular issue fairly well. this was like 8 years ago, we were talking about trans rep in media (specifically orange is the new black iirc) so im paraphrasing; 'its messed up that we (afabs in this context) are sidelined for people who used to be men, we cant escape the patriarchy.' that was horribly transmisogynistic, so lets unpack it.
it assumes that trans women are just men
it assumes sex essentialism, that they and i were just women. that we were just poor Females having 'our space' encroached on by mean 'former men.'
im not saying that all transmascs think like this ofc. #notallmen. im saying that some do, and enough transmascs have internalized misogyny and not enough self reflection.
just because you are trans doesnt mean you are immune to bigotry and recouping oppressive structures. none of us are free of Sinā„¢ļø. you as an individual have to make an effort to reflect on your thoughts and actions and how they might affect yourself and others, so that you are not a willing participant of our communities oppression.
for example, ive talked a lot privately about my journey to being a better person, (and pobodies nerfect, its always a learning process, you always will have things you can improve on. and thats okay, were all just human) i initially hated it/its pronouns. 'it' gave me the ick. i was called 'it' as a kid incessantly to make fun of my gender presentation, i couldnt fathom someone else finding peace and even euphoria in using it/its. i bought into the conservative talking points about neopronouns and it/its being detrimental to the trans community. they were "the bad transes" and me? well i use they/them but shakespeare used the singular they so im fine :), im one of the good ones. then one day, i was listening to some video essay idr what or who, but something they said stuck with me, "if it/its makes me happy, why do you care? how does 'it' hurt you really?" my trauma is not everyones trauma, people will find comfort in things that i wont, and thats okay. 'it' hurt me when i was young, by cruel kids and uncaring adults. why am i hurting my community, my fellow transes, by continuing to deny them their autonomy to identify how they like? so i got over 'it.' i saw the real harm was the fucking wedge being driven between us by conservative grifters trying to pick off the weakest in the herd before they go in for the rest of us.
visibility isnt necessarily a good thing for marginalized people. transfemmes are the biggest target of hate in our community atm. they unfortunately serve as the canary. global fascism is on the rise and to be frank, a targeted hate campaign against a trans woman is asking for her to be killed. outed, paraded as a freak, doxxed, swatted, killed. protect trans women, fascism doesnt stop with one group nor will you be saved by being "one of the good ones." trans solidarity, even the people you dont like, even if you think theyre icky or gross or whatever the fuck else you do Not give up trans solidarity. you dont make callout posts, you dont send death threats, you dont send hate mail, if you dont like someone Block Them and move on.
we stand together or we will be eradicated.
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youremyheaven Ā· 7 months ago
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OH MY GOD?! My bharani friend would say the same shit verbatim when we were still close and me or my magha friend wanted to talk about our feelings! Girl this is scary I just got flashbacks! She did the same thing to me as your Venus friend did to you too, my bharani friend would literally tell us that she couldn't talk to us cause she was talking to her friends, like are we not your friends?! We've known each other since we were 7! šŸ˜­
I have to state the contrary in regards to Venus men however, because they can be and are as insane as the women. I have various Venus men in my family, including my Purva ashadha moon conjunct Venus father. Venus men are extremely image conscious, they do a lot of charity, are polite, charming, but most of the time it's with the goal of getting something out of you. I personally feel like the experiences you've shared of Venus men being kind to you and then being overly sexual, giving you the ick, is their true colors showing.
Venus men, just like the women, are prone to be captivating, and we definitely shouldn't romanticize or idealize them, or any other placements. All the ones I've observed are serial cheaters, have had multiple failed marriages, and love bomb their partners until they get bored and move on to the next pretty thing almost immediately. The absorbent nature of Venus is very palpable, I knew one Purva ashadha sun conjunct Venus man who literally morphed into his girlfriend's a la Brad Pitt, he was always In a relationship or situationship, he was sleeping with a girl and then ended up getting into a relationship with her best friend and breaking them up šŸ’€
So yeah, also, I think it's important to emphasize that it's not a one size fits all universe, people are their entire chart, not just their dominant planetary energy, what works for one person will not work for another, which is why I refrain from glorifying or villainizing any specific energy, otherwise the occult and astrology community will never beat the space racism allegations šŸ’€
Venusian women šŸ¤šŸ¼pretending their friends dont exist lol
ykw i agree, i definitely think men are never nice without some ulterior motive (and the ulterior motive usually comes from being attracted to you) i think ive really tried to believe that people/men are nice because theyre nice people but every day it dawns on me that its not true lol,,,
i just realized that my grandma is Purvaphalguni Moon and she's the same as my creepy friend from college. always touching me inappropriately, making lewd comments about my body, often body shaming me and other girls/women, one thing about my grandma is that she WILL sexualize tf out of both my mom (her daughter) and me. she always gave me the ick but now ive made the Venus connection lol. she's super religious too and is completely devoted to god (which is something i explored in my Venusian cult post).
nooo not the Venusian love bombing šŸ˜©šŸ˜©ngl it kind of describes me tbh lmfao,, i never thought of it as an issue but i can go overboard with my affection and then cut them out without second thought when i feel "done" (šŸ˜¬šŸ˜¬)
i agree that everybody's the sum of their whole charts (and the sum is always greater than the parts<33)
tysm for sending this ask, it was vv thought provoking <33
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torialefay Ā· 4 months ago
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Also, I wanted to piggyback on the anon who sent in that ask about how 'I like it changed their view on the members and they feel guilty about it.
It's completely okay to get the ick by your bias or discover traits they have that you don't find desirable.
The parasocial relationship kpop gives you pressures you to view these men as gods when they are just guys in their 20s who are famous.
And I think decentering these men help (at least for me) remain delulu w/o ignoring the potential šŸš©.
Like Chris is my ult bias and there's a few things in his natal chart that gives me the ick like the fact he might have gaslighting tendencies and guilt trip in conflict.
And I feel it's okay to think like that because we're humanising them above idolising them.
It's a perfectly normal and healthy thing to do ā¤ļø
i agree 100%. i also felt like i related to anon in that sense.
i had posted i guess kinda smth about this along the same lines of like "yeah this is what i needed to not be as delusional." i mean i get the ick from chris all the time too (sometimes good, sometimes bad), but i agree that it's a good thing. it makes them human... which i feel like a lot of fans dont really want to admit šŸ˜‚
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zeltqz Ā· 1 year ago
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niyaaaa do u have any tips for people who wanna get into fic writing? šŸ‘€
i donā€™t really get how the whole posting format for fics works on here tbh šŸ˜­ and like your info area itā€™s so cool
YEAH OFC!! btw dm me your username so i can follow and support you <3
tip 1- the posting format isnt that hard to get used to actually its just you create a tumblr text post and then copy and paste your fic onto it, add the tags and stuff then post it. if you want to add banners, headers and stuff to make it look better then go ahead, just add images to the text post
tip 2- the info area is the same as above, just add pictures of your choice etc to the text post, add your information, name, age, fav things etc and then to link posts to your post, highlight where u want the link to go, then copy the link of the post u want linked then press the hyperlink that looks like two chains linked together when you highlight the text if that makes sense? sounds like a lot but its rlly not i promise haha
tip 3- always type your fics on other apps like word or google docs since they have an auto save feature!! i dont reccomend typing your fics on tumblr since one if the app crashes, it doesn't automatically save your work so everything you wrote will get deleted (some versions of tumblr do have autosave, my laptop has it but my phone and iPad doesn't, so i dont rely on it)
tip 4- idk if you want tips on actual fic writing or just how to get your fics onto tumblr but ill help you with that anyway. with me when i write fics i always imagine it out in my head. theres some of my fics where i just went with the flow and wrote wgatever came to mind and those are the fics i hate the most because they dont rlly make sense to me. theyre always so random and it just seems rushed and bad.
i picture my fics like a scene in my head and whatever i want the character to do, think, say or feel i write that shit down asap. i use other online sources to help get more descriptive like the emotion theasurus <- honestly one of my favourite things to use ever, they have so much body language to use for every emotion in the damn book
dialogue is also something i find difficult. i've improved i personally feel like but its still hard for me especially if im writing a new character. i never want to make the character seem OOC so i do lots of research before hand. i normally use the wiki to read up on a characters personality.
for example i'll use ran for this since he's like 99% of my account lmao. in the wiki, he's described as "naturally whimsical toward others which makes him inscrutable" though ran doesnt have many scenes in the manga (which i hate bc i love him sm) its impossible to actually write him down to a tee so i use that naturally whimsical description to make him playful, charismatic, carefree etc, going off what little information i have with him.
getting a characters personality down is what can make or break a dialogue. for me when im reading a fic of a character and their dialogue is so OOC it puts me off and i dont even wanna read. so i apply my same fic icks to myself and think if I don't like seeing this and that in a fic, why would I incorporate those in my fics and have ppl get put off it if they have the same fic icks as me?
hope that makes sense!!
tip 5- dont rush yourself at all. i used to rush a few of my fics and i just ended up hating it so much after and fought bck the urge to delete them so many times but then i'd see people's comments and realise i was being too harsh on myself. i'd keep them up but i'd just hate seeing them get attention.
rushing only makes you hate your work and the quality of your work will decline if you are not in the right headspace.
thats also why i have the don't rush me thing in my rules because not only is it annoying to see people constantly asking for updates, it also makes me mad because i know i'll just put out a piece of garbage if i did rush.
also another tip don't give yourself deadlines!! if you know your writing consistency can be a little sloppy, don't tell your followers that you're going to upload every so and so day. if something happens and you miss the deadline, you'll feel bad and rush something out and most times out of ten, a rushed fic doesn't do well. so take your time and don't rush.
tip 6- dont listen to what other people say or feel obligated to write something you don't wanna. establish your boundaries!! for example, from day one i started this blog i said im accepting requests but i will not write anything to do with non-con, incest or minors. i made sure that was out there so i wouldn't feel uncomforable writing anything i wasn't comfy with.
there are people on this app that may like your writing and request you to write something for them. you are not obligated to write anything for anyone! don't feel like you have to just because they asked nicely.
if you want to accept requests you can im not saying you shouldn't, im saying don't feel like you have to. you always have a choice. its your blog.
tip 7- remember this isn't a job. you're allowed to take breaks, allowed to have a personal life. don't feel like you need to be updating every day. i used to think i was obligated to be uploading consistently at least every week because i was obsesssed with engagement and seeing peoples comments and was scared if i took a break ppl will unfollow. now i honestly don't care. i'm not active as much as i used to because of school and that's fine! if ppl want to leave, let them. don't feel like you're forced to keep being active in order to keep your follower count stable.
tip 8- this app can get really toxic sometimes. luckily enough i've only had one toxic anon in my inbox and i've been on this app for a year. some people have so many, some ppl get harrassed etc. if that happens to you just be prepared since there's no actual way to find out who's behind anons. you can turn off your anon options which means if ppl want to inbox you something then their account will be showing. some people arent comfortable with that and that's fine! i keep mine on because i want people to feel comfortable on my page.
just remember though if you ever feel like this app is getting overwhelming take breaks! for the sake of your mental health take breaks. i know so many writers on here that took breaks and came back healthier and stronger.
i feel like this tip goes for social media in general. as much as i love social media im aware how unhealthy it is. breaks are so important for you. remember that.
i can't think of anymore tips right now but if i have some more i will edit the post and add it on.
if u have anymore questions about the tumblr posting format dm me and ill help you out :))
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riki-dazed Ā· 6 months ago
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OMG UR BACKKKK!! IVE MISSED U SM UR ONE OF MY FAVE WRITERS ILYY ā¤ļø "pretty boy" was SO good i love the way u write, idk how to explain it but ur works are just so good and ur one of the few writers i dont get the ick from when reading fics LMAOO
ik ur not as active anymore and, if there is a specific reason, i just wanted to tell u that ur wellbeing is the most important thing and i hope ur doing great, and that if taking breaks from tumblr is what u need to feel good then thats exactly what u should do <3
i also wanted to say that i can tell you put so much effort into ur works and i really appreciate all of the time u spend to share ur writing with us, u seem like such a sweet person like u dont have to post ur writing but u choose to and it makes me so happy šŸ˜­šŸ’•
- šŸ”
the ick thing omg that's like the nicest compliment i could have ever receivedJHHAGH THANK YEW šŸ” ANONšŸ˜­šŸ™šŸ»
i truly do take forever to write cause of how annoyingly picky i am nsjdjwj the way that i would personally rather choke than post anything rushed.. thank you sm for liking my writing & for being so sweet,, things like this make me wanna keep trying to improvešŸ§ššŸ» i hope u have a lovely rest of ur day/night šŸ„ŗšŸ’—
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bulletproofscales Ā· 1 year ago
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so this blog turned 5 years old today
for sappy rant šŸ‘‡šŸ‘‡šŸ‘‡
i cant believe its been 5 years since i first started as bangtan-chub and now bulletproofscales. if i had known then what this blog would turn into i wouldnt have been able to believe it. this blog has seen so much of me, i literally started at 15 and im turning 21 next month.
i love this blog so much, i love that i started without any writing experience and that its something i actively and enthusiastically have worked on so consistently. this really feels like _my_ thing. not because im particularly good at it, but because ive just really put my all into it. i fell inlove with writing, and the fact that theres a group of people AT ALL who are willing to tune in and read what i post is still insane to me.
ive never been the most open about my personal life in here, but this place has always stood as a place of joy for me. when im feeling my lowest i can always turn to this blog thats consumed me for 5 years now that i worked entirely on my own on, and feel pride that i was able to make this, and write all these fics (as shitty as the first ones that i refurse to re read probably are). this is something i icked up myself and stuck with out of pure self indulgence and enjoyment. writing brings me so much joy and i really dont plan on stopping any time soon. any member of this community, lurker, writer, fanartist, roleplayer that stepped foot in here has a a fond spot in my memory.
so really thank you for iving me this space and this attention to what i do. it motivates me so much, and i wanna keep on putting out works for all of you! happy blog birthday to me!!
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doggerell Ā· 4 months ago
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for the kink ask meme!! hope u donā€™t mind if i send a few :)
- breathplay
- knifeplay
- intox
- cnc
- corruption / mind-break
- bimbofication / dumbification
- ā€˜cest stuff (whether in roleplay [eg. fauxcest] or in fiction! personally i find it a fascinating theme to exploreā€¦ but very much understand that not everyone feels the same lol)
- ageplay
looking forward to hearing ur ratings!!! šŸ«¶šŸ«¶
hell yeah
- breathplay. another good 8/10. for the choking/suffocation anglešŸ‘ŒšŸ‘Œ I once passed out from choking (I had low blood sugar and was going off v little sleep, I wasnt being choking v hard) and it freaked my ex tf out even tho I liked ahaha. but yah from the dom side its Scary I wont do it to my partner either rn even tho theyve asked ausghd. very RACK
- knifeplay. 7/10. crazy good. this is what your wfh soldiers are doing on the clock.
-intox. 7/10 in fiction. I loove alc and party and hard drugs intox, but could not give less of a shit abt weed intox. this has unfortunately completely reduced to a 0/10 irl I discovered the hard way how dangerous this is. sometimes alc intox really upsets me for this case now too. hit or miss. used to be one of my favs, stay safe kids. pleeease please please dont use alc or drugs as a crutch to get you through sex. I know this seems obvious but if you werent gonna sleep with that person sober u shouldnt be doing it while inebriated
-cnc. um. 10/10 no notes. not like my Thing rn Ive entered a very soft period in my kink life but this is one of my historical top kinks for sure
- corruption/mindbreak. I like a little corruption, turning an innocent little thing dirty. I dont care for mindbreak much tho, esp in a cnc context cause [reason redacted cause it makes me sound crazy] lukewarm. 5/10
- bimbo/dumbification. only hot to me if Im Extremely horny. sometimes my dick takes me places I wouldnt go with a gun (extreme misogyny kink). too inconsistent Im not giving this one a rating
-incest/fauxcest. it ebbs and flows. I dont care abt it too much rn and the kinda ā€˜cest posts horny blogs here on tumblr make really do nothing for me. depending on the ship it can be crazy good tho and youre right abt it being a fascinating theme to explore in fiction, I think movies/books dealing with incest or emotional incest can be really compelling. I love disgust and guilt as themes so thats when its at its best. just not super fandom/hornybrained abt it lately. also fauxcest being big in t4t is so real actually.
- ageplay. usually boring to me. littlespace is not like an Ick so much as I babysat one of my college friends while she went into littlespace so much that its completely devoid of sexual feeling to me. I can like a little older teen rp on occasion, just not my Thing rn.
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strwberri-milk Ā· 6 months ago
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What are some inspirations for your writing? And what resources would you suggest for new writers? (Ex: YouTubers, blogs, books, etc.)
P.S. Iā€™m not exactly sure if you answer questions such like these, but if you do not, then you do not need to answer this or can clarify that because I havenā€™t seen you post stuff like this or post any rules on not asking questions(?).
And btw, I love your writing and I hope you have a good dayyy! šŸ’–
i love when people ask me about me bc it makes me so happy to exist in peoples mind i just want to be Thought about i love answering questions about myself/my interests!! when i ws fourteen i wrote a whole fuckjing masterlist on how to write but its no longer releveant LMAOOo also i yap so much so this is all under a cut LMAOO
tldr: i totally suggest 1) listen to music you dont mind zoning out to 2) read a variety of books to develop style/voice 3) write things you want!! if youre intrigued/intersted by smth it makes it a lot better!!
also pls for the love of god use paragraph breaks istg i refuse to read anything that is One paragraph long. a smaller ick of mine is the refusal to pargraph break after dialouge bc idk it just makes me :( but its not that bad overall lolol
tbh the only thing i recc for new writers is reading!! im a strong believer that if youre a strong reader you can become a strong writer!! i wanna get back into traditionally published books/classics but the issue w doing an engl [literature] degree is i was reading ballparck 15-20 books/semester and it just got so exhausting that i struggle to get back into traditional publishing but im trying to get into it!!
if youre like jsut getting into reading i think starting at middle grade books is good bc theyve got a good variety and easy readability so theyre like. not as daunting. and also!! variety is so great!! i have REALLY strong opinions about some currently published authors but also ive never been really someone who's super into reading books bc its by a specific author bc i think you can accidentally end up trapped too bc authors have their quirks and its like. you might end up only writing in that fashion bc thats all youre reading so variety is good to diversify and find what you enjoy about writing!!
me personally i really like flowery words and descrptions!! i wanna evoke emotions and trigger associations through sentenes that are *just* long enough and evoke longing!! or horror!! i tend to gravitate towards fantasty/romance/psycohological horror/mystery so those are the books ive been reading in the last ten years but before that i stanned warrior cats and historical fiction so hard. more recently though i read exclusively xreaders sorry guys i need my escapisim but!! i definitely think bridgerton Changed something in me so i think i pulled some of my writing voice from there too!!
also!! music is a big part of my writing process - when i really wanna focus on put on more lowkey music - oohyo is a big reference for the general vibe when im listening to music to write. rn im going to be listening to a lot of hit me hard and soft bc that album (billie eilish) is a sound that i like (kinda haunting, bouncy idk). lana del rey, k r&b or rock/power ballads as well if im feeling it (rn im going back to utsup/maretu/other vocarock prods) - music just helps me hone in when im trying to write thousands of words on top of each other lolol
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