#i dont like being on socmed anymore

[briwates]

Haven't been active in fandom cuz of irl stuff (work, family, friends) and also just an overall feeling of wanting to throw my phone into the sea

[zapsoda]

worst part about my anxiety is that even though it is currently under control i cant give any advice for it . the reason my anxiety is under control is because i got put on meds for it. not very helpful for people who are not or cant get on meds

[raamitsu]

I FEEL LIKE IT’S A FATE OR DESTINY FOR ME TO WATCH KIMI NI TODOKE CUZ SAWAKO IS TRULY THE KINDERGARTEN, PRIMARY, HIGH SCHOOL AND COLLEGE ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[itsjustaninchident]

I feel like an interesting prompt for Lando would be being with/meeting a girl he likes who isn’t an influencer or popular, just a regular girl who stays more private. (Me for example, a girl who lives in the middle of no where Texas, with a regular business office 9-5 job) lol

You Are in Love

Lando Norris x Interior Designer!Reader

socmed au

summary: seems like mclaren's driver is not available in the market anymore but the real question is, to whom?

warning/s: none

author's note: hello! I am so sorry for taking so long to respond to this request 😭 I didn't know how I would create this and I am still quite scared to take requests but here we are and I hope you enjoy it! A little warning I'm not very knowledgeable about America so I might have overlooked some things and I am sorry for that 😭 and also lmk~ I also chose interior designer as the career for the reader I hope you don't mind >< 🫶 Please request more!

Part 2

yourusername

Texas, USA

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yourusername another tiring week but at least i get to be a passenger princess hehe :)

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yourbestfriend tell him to watch his back i CAN take you back 😏

yourusername dont worry bae im all yours 😉

yourfriend is this the london boy 🫢

yourusername well...

yourfriend when will we meet him👀

yourusername he's a little shy😆

yoursibling mom says she miss him more than u

yourusername i guess i have been replaced in the family now

landonorris

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landonorris another normal but lovely week

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user1 this is so out of character of him😭

user2 fr why is this kinda lowkey of him to do though👀

user3 am i thinking what you're thinking

user4 is he yknow the d word 😭

user7 okay pack it up people he can have a life that does not concern us at all

danielricciardo 🤠

user9 what's with the emoji

maxfewtrell when will u be back here

user5 oh OH

user6 since when are you interested in architecture 🧐

user6 trying to connect shit...

user7 no you're not go get a life

user8 baes take all your delusional asses elsewhere 😭

yourusername

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yourusername golf isn't as bad as i thought

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yourbestfriend am i really about to lose you to some guy who drives in circles???

yourusername nah still urs babe 😆😘

landonorris

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landonorris golf kinda day

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maxfewtrell you got beaten up bad...

landonorris she was just lucky

maxfewtrell sure...

carlossainz55 i guess ill replace you as my golf buddy

user1 why are his pictures so boyfriend coded lately?

yourbestfriend that's really a nice pic i wonder who took it? 🫢

yourusername 🤐

user2 the comments from max and carlos😭 who's able to beat this man in golf😭 i need to pay my respect

yourusername

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yourusername fun week in canada :)

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yourbestfriend I should've went with you!

yourusername definitely! 😭 It will be so much more fun with u around luv :'(

lilymhe hope to see you again !

yourusername looking forward as well! I miss u alr 🫶

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lando.jpg canada you were fun 😏

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user1 DID HE JUST HARD LAUNCH?!

user2 I AM NOT SO READY FOR THIS

user3 i genuinely think he has no idea what he posted....

user4 LANDO WHO'S THAT IN THE 3RD PHOTO

danielricciardo mate I think you're not supposed to post the 3rd photo...

carlossainz55 she will definitely kill him

maxverstappen1 im here for it

maxfewtrell so much for being lowkey

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lando.jpg canada you were fun 😏

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user1 no way you're trying to gaslight us

user2 man really said nope not today

danielricciardo i saw nothing

carlossainz55 me too

maxverstappen1 me three

user3 twitter fans gonna have a field day with this 😭

to be continued...

[lynn-tged-posting]

tged webtoon ep 165 spoilers and thoughts below the cut that im not terribly late on this time yippee!

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what if i went up to you and stared at you like this

HAHAHAHAHAAA I LOVE THIS PANEL SO SO MUCH

ive been sending this on like all my socmeds and to all my mutuals/irls. im tormenting them with it it's just so fucking cute and silly . puppy dog eyes javier. pleading emoji. he's just so fucking silly ALKJDFLSDKF HELL I MADE IT MY DISCORD PFP ITS SO GOOFY I LOVE IT SM HAHAHA CUTE CUTE CUTE

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

silly panels aside back to the top!

lloyd. stop hurting me oh god he looks so tired and gaunt and,,, lifeless. it HURTS seeing him like this, the life he once had just,,, stripped from him.

LIKE I WANTED TO SEE HIM WITH HIS HAIR DOWN AND MESSY BUT NOT LIKE THIS BRUH WHAT THE HELL SOB SOB SOB

the invitation oh my god. its so silly goofy but also so so personal its cute as hell its stupid looking but in the most affectionate way possible. the people of the estate really REALLY care about him and god idek if lloyd realizes that bc literally just after this, he apologizes to everyone for not being able to things for them anymore

not even able to get back up to get back to the bed GOD I FEEL SICK

but it doesnt matter anymore whether or not lloyd can still protect them, the estate has come to care for him so much , its not his protection they want they just fucking love him and he doesnt realize that i feel so fucking ill. lloyd i need you to open your eyes and look at this beautiful land, this beautiful home you've built with your own two hands. ITS NOT OVER YET PLEASE GOD ITS NOT OVER

and then lloyd without second thought chooses javier to live. because he really thinks hes just an extra getting in the way, a burden, a bug that shouldnt be there. so he thinks its fine if he, as a side character, is the one that dies SOMEONE PUNCH ME.

he looks so fucking SMALL. alone and in the dark IM GONNA EXPLODE INTO TEN BILLION PIECES. who wrote this fuckass program. SWEAR TO GOD IM COMIN DOWN TO FIX IT MYSELF GOD DAMMIT

AND THEN THE SYSTEM TEXTBOX COMING IN IM SO GRATEFUL PLEASE HELP HIM SOB SOB SOB

im super duper heartwarmed to see that whoever is running the blue textbox is on suho's side. it has never been impartial, huh,,, it just wants to see his wish come true. ooogh my heart.

lloyd looks,,, strangely peaceful here. is he like, paused rn? im not really sure what the system box is up to, but hopefully thisll delay anything from happening while javier is concocting his plan,,,

speaking of!

FATE KICKING IN LIKE TEN TIMES WORSE IS SO DAMN SCARY. THE MULTIPLE GIGATITANS OH GODDD im so fucking terrified. javier please hurry!!! he looks rlly cool on draggy here hehe

I THINK JAVIER AND ALICIAS EXCHANGE TOO IS SO FUCKING HILARIOUS. alicia, upon only seeing javier, immediately is suspicious of lloyd scheming something. she thinks the two of them are plotting again, hence the "what are you up to".

the problem is that it's just javier on this plan. there is no lloyd directing him, so javiers reaction is SO silly fun bc i. dont think he thinks of himself as being. scheming?? bc he seems SO confused at alicia's skepticism here HADLFKJSDLFKJ ITS SO FUNNY

I REALLY THINK JAVIER WAS GENUINELY A LITTLE CONFUSED AS TO WHY ALICIA WAS QUESTIONING HIM PLEAAASEEE

i think javier believes he's just going about business as usual. doing what he can to protect his lord, as he does, all the time, the usual. sure that involves getting an angel to ask the queen for the eye of summer, but that's certainly not plotting on the same scale that lloyd does. javier isnt a schemer. he just does whats necessary to protect the one he cares about the most. hence his goofy innocent puppy eyes, because its not like hes "up" to anything. idk how accurate this assessment is, so pls correct me if im wrong, but I LOVE IT A LOT HES JUST SO FUCKING DEDICATED I LOVE U JAVIER MVP!!!!!

and then raphie shows up yay!! EXCEPT HELP WHY DID HE GET SUCKED BACK IMMEDIATELY WHAT THE HELL he was so underprepared. poor guy. getting thrown around like this sob sob

ALICIA ASKING IF THIS IS SMTH JAVIER KNEW ABT OR IF THEY WERE PLANNING SOMETHING AND THEN JAVIER BEING GENUINELY FUCKING SHOCKED HELP MEEEE "maybe its not a prank...?" LMFAOOOOO

i mentioned this in the last ep post but like. again javier wears his heart on his sleeve he's so fucking protagonist its unreal. hell, not even on his sleeve, he has his heart out on his damn palm sob sob

i think he's shocked here bc he didnt expect raphaels call to play out like that, he prolly thought theyd issue it more seriously. the issue with this being so half-hearted is now alicia isnt absolutely certain that this is the will of the heavens, so she's less inclined to follow along. it doesnt help that her board of nobles (seriously why does she keep these bozos around they just keep yapping) are arguing back and forth abt whether or not to listen. this is kind of a little wrench in the smoothness of the plan... everything now hinges on alicia's whim now.

anyway two more panels javier being menacing/blunt as hell and alicia thinking on her throne,,, god they are so fucking. awesome i love them so much

anyway that is ALL! for this week! the episode felt a little bit slow to be honest, but i think that's because the events of this ep are little things that build up to whats next, so i dont mind it at all (especially since the last couple of eps have been super fast lately)! i really really enjoy this buildup and im super excited to see what happens next,,,

see yall next week! lloyd please be okay! or ill cry! like for real!

[phantasomite]

been a hot minute since i've wanted to return to socmed in some way. twitter suspended (?) all my accs using my phone number for suspicious activity months ago and the site is so dysfunctional i couldn't restore it (the site would break on every captcha i completed), tried again a couple days ago and even made a new acc and i was still marked for suspicious activity lol

but this year has been probably my hardest for the amount of stress and external change ive been facing, so it ended up being good for me anyways. on a positive note ive been taking my personal health more seriously and have been working out and stepping outside my comfort zone.

going forward as an artist im not sure what im going to end up doing, because ive always loved drawing for an audience but i dont feel as strongly about it anymore. thats probably just the stagnation talking though. id like to draw again, most likely for a mature audience, but i still have stuff to work out before i feel comfortable returning to drawing and posting it online again esp w the owed work i have sitting around before my suspension. i do miss interfacing with others through posts though, and hopefully i will be able to reconnect in some ways with my mutuals who know me from xwitter.

i do need to update this account though 🙂‍↕️

[kevinsdsy]

Same anon as the yeppers Shawn one, I have some more stuff I think Shawn would would do (this might happen periodically if you dont mind. SO many thoughts about AFTG and how they speak, and if i have any about shawn i might continue to send them ur way <3)

Weirdly enough I was thinking about it and lowkey I feel deep down in my soul that Shawn would know the swear words (and only the swear words) of a bunch of languages. He’s monolingual, but he knows the raunchiest swear words, and when he and Jean start getting closer he like especially starts learning French ones. This is just another reason for why he needs to have so much press training lol. It eventually gets to the point where he starts pulling out words that Jean doesn’t know 💀 Jean has to start carrying around a French dictionary or smth LMAO 

Maybe this is bc shawn asks Neil to teach him some (shawn + neil would be uncontrollable i fear. The media loves them, their teams fear for their lives every time they open their mouths lmaoo), and because Neil was a teenager (on the run from the MAFIA) in both Montreal AND France he’s absolutely loaded. Canadian and French swear words are different due to more religious influence in Quebec (not francophone ((nor quebecois OR french)), so i dont know all of the differences between quebecois french and france french tho btw), so there’s a high chance that Jean probably wouldn’t be familiar with Canadian ones. Tbh there’s a high chance Jean wouldn’t be familiar with some of the more inappropriate French ones due to the fact that he was so young when he had to leave France 😭😭 or he might have forgotten them because they aren’t in use anymore. Also in TSC it says briefly that he was homeschooled (lowkey forgot about this for a quick sec), so I think he would’ve been pretty sheltered? Wait that took a sad turn but anyways I’m picturing something like this:

Shawn: do u ever just: tabarnak❗or is it just me

Jean: What 

Shawn: omg. 

Shawn: **sacré bleu 

Jean: ??

Shawn: sorry doing a little victory dance. Not me outsmarting a French man at his own game??? Checkmate, putain! 

Jean: ok well I know THAT one

I hope this made sense (idk if half the things i say make sense) and have a good day :) (or night idk your time zone but its like 2 oclock for me <33)

HII OMG i love having you in my inbox and getting to hear about your shawn headcanons fr omg so you're more than welcome to come back hehe

him knowing curse words in multiple languages is actually SO FUNNY to me especially him going out of his way to learn french ones so he can drop them around jean LMAOOO and jean being lost on them 😭 i think he would go out of his way to learn every french curse word to ever exist, just so he won't havw to put up with shawn knowing something he doesn't SHSGDHG

ALSO SHAWN + NEIL MENTION FROM YOU- i need to have some banter between them in my upcoming summer olympics socmed au omgg i think that'd be fun.

thank u for sharing omg it totally made sense hehe <333 (also omg feel like all the oomfs are from different time zones because it's 9 pm for me...)

[scourgefrontiers]

hiiii my break is over :3 i got what i needed out of it even if it didnt end up being a full week. also, ive Learned Some Things that i will now share

so basically i realized i REALLY needed this break, and i didnt know how badly i needed it until i took it. i was addicted to socmed so bad i was dependent on it. but w the break i realized i rly dont Need to be on socmed 24/7 to be happy (which should be obvious but...ya. things like that arent rly obvious until ur faced w them i guess)

i didnt draw as much as i thought i would--in fact i hardly drew at all? which surprised me. but what surprised me even more is that i DIDNT FEEL BAD about it.

usually when i dont draw a lot every day i get super depressed. but i realized that was bc i felt an expectation and a pressure to draw stuff to post to socmed, and if i wasnt "producing" then i was wasting time. but this week i just drew when i felt like it, when i wanted to, and i didnt feel bad at all when i didnt feel like drawing. it was..a big relief LOL

i also got to spend more time w my wife and that felt amazing in itself. we talked way more, had great conversations, and just generally bonded. i loved it

i realized i didnt need huge servers + socmed for all my socialization all the time. tbh? eden is enough 99% of the time. which is. how it should be i think LOL

but ya. going forward im going to be a little less active on socmed still. its great for my mental health and i hate the idea of relying on socmed for everything anymore. of course i'll still be somewhat active and post stuff, but not nearly to the degree i felt i needed to be! im going to feel free to just, close twitter and tumblr tabs when i feel like it. before, i NEVER closed those tabs. ever. and that was a bad sign lol

thank u all for ur patience <3 im gonna post a small backlog of Thangs ive been drawing soon!

[nitazenes]

lmao you mad?

idgaf who sees any of my messy BS at this point. There's no way I could restart or anything because everyone who has ever stalked me has found my socmed

but it's my turn to vent

you have the gall to get petty and vague me and say that you are frustrated when, let's take a look at the facts, shall we?

We were together for over a year and not once did you try to get to know me. Never asked questions. Do you even know how old I am or what gender I identify as? Like the bare minimum bc i dont think you do.

The whole time I felt like you loved your husband more than me and i was just a side piece

I took time to actively invest myself in your interests, researching things you were into, following every blog you made because despite getting nothing in return I still loved you.

You abandoned me in the middle of me being controlled and abused when you were in the exact same predicament previously. Would you have wanted that when you were going through your abuse? Me just walking away to let you deal with it instead of being supportive and understanding.

When I came back to you after that horrible relationship ended you said you still wanted me to be part of your life and you wanted to take time and not rush but you left me believing that you were my supporter.

2 months pass and it's the same shit "good morning" "goodnight" being our only messages through the day. And sometimes i didnt even get that.

I come back to you to tell you that I want to be your partner again and you tell me youre no longer attracted to me. I don't blame you for that, in fact, i kind of suspected you were only into men

Which confuses me because I'm NB/gender fluid/have male alters. i identify as a man sometimes. i still grow my facial hair out sometimes. my legs havent been shaved in years like im not a girl dude so i felt that was a little transphobic

I may look feminine and i may embrace that feminine look currently but im not a girl

None of your alters ever really spoke to me. If we spoke at all that day

Ultimately we dated for over a year and you still didn't know anything about me. In fact In the end there, I was trying to be more of an initiator for you and was even getting pushy about wanting to tell you about my past bc that's how I bond with others. I show them my trust by knowing something that makes me vulnerable but you would give me weak responses to things i was passionate about.

Then I tell you I don't want to be your friend. After all of the above, if i did that to you, would you have wanted me as a friend? No. in fact it kind of felt like you just wanted me to kiss your ass while your real relationship was with your husband.

"We never got over you" BULL.

I wasnt going to post anything about this but yknow what, if youre going to bitch and complain about me, when I tried to give you everything. I was going to send you fabrics that ive saved and kept bc my grandmother gave them to me but I knew you had an interest in sewing so I cut up that fabric to send you pieces. I have a whole box of shit ive gathered over the past year I was going to send to you. I made Kandi bracelets for every alter i met or knew about

and what did you do for me?

take. take. take. But you'd never give.

That's why I dont want to be friends with you because even in your silence, you were hurting me. And at this point, people who hurt me have to go. Im too old for this shit anymore and I have a lot more to worry about than being practically ignored by my "partner" and causing my BPD to split every time I saw you posting about how much you were romantically invested *in a character in a video game* yes, i got jealous over a video game character because you would give that character more thought and attention than your own fucking partner.

So block me on everything, go ahead, everyone does.

I hope you get help. I hope you get everything you've ever wanted, but I don't want to hear a word about it.

This is me closing your chapter in my life. I'm sorry it had to be this way.

-Rey

[mrs-monaghan]

honestly, you, your anons and others jkrrs bloggers r getting too comfortable talking those things about tae AND the members relationship with eo. I think is such a weird move to talk those things about someone that u dont even know, for reasons that u dont even know, even tho jm and jk (the ones that actually knows tae) dont seem to have a problem with none of this. We are in 2023, chapter 2 for more than a year, and we dont get to see the members life anymore. When a member is doing solo things, all we see the others doing is posting/doing live on their public, PROFESSIONAL, social media accs, sometimes mentioning one another, sometimes not. They r supposed to focus on their individuality in this chapter, and to do so, we dont get to see them together anymore. So, why r yall feeling so entitled to say what is happening behind close doors? How can u say that xyz member r no longer close when WE DONT SEE SHIT these days? If we dont see them talking to eo in their PROFESSIONAL socmed acc, this means what exactly? U dont know, i dont know, only them know. And there is a reason for this. I'm sure they fight, they have their problems, but these day WE DONT KNOW, DO WE? Lets normalize having opinions and making those type of statement about the members of BTS and their relationship with eo only when we have enough evidences to do so, what do u think? Because when u shade someone that u dont even know personally, that u dont even see the motivations behind their actions, just because U THINK theres something going on, what does that make u? Rm, Jin, Suga, Jhope, Jimin, V and Jungkook know eo for more than 10 years. They gone through things we can't even imagine, together, supporting one another. But suddenly, in this chapter 2, u and so many are getting sooooo comfortable in forgetting all of this and r questioning their bond, even tho we know nothing. U r so in a fanfic mode that u really believe that jimin is no longer close to tae because of the shit tkkrs do? U really believe that tae, who knows jk since he was 13, is really using him just to what??? feed his stupid fans? As if he doesnt know and love jk for almost half his life? U believe and agree with your anons when they SPECULATE about xyz members dont getting along anymore, x member dont giving a shit about BTS anymore. But i ask u, WHERE R THOSE EVIDENCES TO SUPPORT THIS BELIEF?? Really, where r yall seeing all of those things to confirm this suspicions? I want to know, because these day we r getting nothing, and when they talk about eo, is with love, saying how much they miss being a team. "Ohhh, because jk didnt want to sing a BTS song". So what? Is this yall evidence? Because tae hangs out public with wooga squad? He hang out PUBLICLY with jk sometimes too, and he is part of BTS, as long as i know. He hang out PUBLICLY with jhope too before he enlisted. I'm sure he hangs out with all of them who arent in the ms, we just dont see it. And maybe this is all true. They r no longer close, they dont like eo anymore (except jimin and jk), they dont want to be a part of BTS anymore. Tae is using jk to feed his shippers, so jm doesnt like tae anymore. But, for now, WE DONT KNOW THAT!!!! WE DONT SEE SHIT!!! So, i think we all should start to remember our place as fans. When we start to get footage of members seeing eo, talking to eo, like we did in the past, then we will have enough, not complete, evidences of the status of their relationship with eo. Until that day arrives, yall r basiclly writing fanfics, and worst, letting it changing the way u see BTS and even letting u get too comfortable shading people that jm and jk loves very much. This chapter 2 is really a mess and this fandom is shit

honestly, you, your anons and others jkrrs bloggers r getting too comfortable talking those things about tae AND the members relationship with eo

You want me to be uncomfortable in my own blog? Bitch idts!

(the ones that actually knows tae) dont seem to have a problem with none of this.

So you're just gonna sit there and act like i haven't said this a million fucking times?

So, why r yall feeling so entitled to say what is happening behind close doors?

I'm assuming you've come across my blog because you're a Jkkr? Considering the fact that Jikook have never come out and said they're together, considering that we are Jkkrs because we read between the lines and therefore assume they're a couple, i fail to see why on earth you feel you have a leg to stand on? Why is it okay for you to assume things about Jikook going by what you've seen but yet it's a crime when we do the same about Vmin?

How can u say that xyz member r no longer close when WE DONT SEE SHIT these days?

Umm... who said anything about these days? Jimin putting boundaries with V has been happening for a while now. It didn't start in 2022. When V told Jimin i like you the most and Jimin replying i like you too.... Old Jimin would have said i like you the most, too. Just one example.

Lets normalize having opinions and making those type of statement about the members of BTS and their relationship with eo only when we have enough evidences to do so, what do u think?

I don't know if you're talking about people in general or me and my blog, because we have more than enough evidence. Here i show V hangs with the WS more than BTS. No one made this up because yes, that is evidence. Here i show JK seemed to be avoiding V during JITB.

Also Here is where i defend Vmin btw but by the way you're talking i'm guessing you knew nothing about it 🙄

And there is plenty more. If i speak confidently about something it's coz i've noticed a pattern. Of course i could always be wrong but if i ain't disrespecting nobody i don't see why i shouldn't talk about it.

"Ohhh, because jk didnt want to sing a BTS song". So what? Is this yall evidence?

I think u need to unclench. JK being a Jimin solo has been an ongoing gag for a while now. Maybe if you laughed once in a while you wouldn't be so wound up to the extent of sending this long ass novel to a blogger you clearly know nothing about and have never interacted with before.

They r no longer close, they dont like eo anymore (except jimin and jk), they dont want to be a part of BTS anymore.

I'm gonna need y'all to stop bringing me shit u see u see from other bloggers because this hasn't happened here. Take it to the right person, thanks.

This chapter 2 is really a mess and this fandom is shit

I think this whole ask is shit. Mostly have an issue with your wording. It couldn't be more clear that this is is your first time visiting this blog. Just because i let my anons vent don't mean i agree with everything they say. And i cannot reiterate enough that i sincerely dont have an issue with V since Jikook don't seem to.

You came here with your ot7 kumbaya bullshit that blind Jikookers like to preach on a daily basis like Jimin doesn't side eye certain tkk moments. Like JK doesn't debunk tkk every chance he gets. (which says ALOT about what goes on behind closed doors btw) You wanna pretend nothing is going on with V and that's fine. But you have no right, and i repeat NO RIGHT to come here and tell me how to run MY blog. Especially when it's clear that you know dick about me. You people who act like BTS can't wrong eo or have issues with eo. Acting like 7 members (that's a big number) don't clash once in a while. Acting like that hasn't shown up on official footage. Get out of here, man.

Here and here i discuss Vmin past issues which proves that yes, its not all kumbaya this kumbaya that over at house BTS.

Go sit over there in the corner and judge me quietly or block me like half this tumblr has done but don't you ever tell me what to do ever again or i won't be so nice next time. I respect the fact that you aren't on anon which is why i took this time. But take your own advice and don't assume like you know anything about what i do here. Because if you did u wouldn't have typed up half of that shit.

[pekorosu]

still not quite used to the new schedule but i am... coping. somewhat.

[awesomehoggirl]

how did you come up with the idea for a ctubbo roleplay blog?

OKAY SO!!!!!!! he wasnt realllly intended be a roleplay blog and he still kinda isnt like id honestly call it more of like a parody/socmed. so it was like me and angie and other people were joking about ctub being a girlblogger and i made some edits and then i got the tubbo3091 url for shits and giggles and made a couple random posts on there intending to drop it after like 3 of them. BUT ya ive always loved rp its been a big part of my life even though i dont partake in it with other people much anymore ... its like acting but being a writer so it was inevitable i would get invested . so i got invested and kept going with it and its kind of evolved a lot cause it was just intended for comedic purposes but i love ctub and his story so much so i ended up kind of putting a lot of storytelling in . andd now hes my freako son

[sunb0rn]

TW: friendship breakup

(nung isang araw) one of the bbys from here asked me about handling friendship breaks ups

thing is, though Ive been in a kinda similar situation eh incomparable yung kwento ko sa kanya, like sa tagal and quality ng friendship, tbh.

pero our convo really hit home especially i just recently "saw" the person I consider to have friendship breakup with, lets call her "A"

(today) had some catch up with a long-time friend from here (not active anymore) so na share ko that I stumbled upon A's new blog just last week

common friend namin siya but not from the same circle. if i am not mistaken may group sila of four girls tas ako separately ko sila (A and Vii) naging ka close

wala naman din magawa si Vii sa situation kasi sa socmed nalang din sila nag kikita ni A; hindi na din nag kakausap.

I've already shared something about it, dito; yung bday post ko for her last year, the time i greeted her on ig (bday), and when I got anxious about the message I sent her last Christmas (asked for her address para mag send ng gift and letter).

idk kung gaano na katagal new blog niya kasi nga accidentally ko lang nakita last week when I was checking a long-time mutual's blog.

ni hindi ko ma check yung posts niya kasi nalulungkot lang ako na hindi ko siya makamusta and ma follow. kung sakali naman na pwede ako mag anon, i also dont want her to feel uncomfy if maisip nya na ako yon. :(

i havent really shared yung root for the gap, ang vague kasi and halohalo yung nasa utak ko since last year and for the past fucken months, maybe some other time.

yon, idk. siguro mababaw lang naman tlaga pinag samahan namin compared sa iba, compared sa kwento nung nasa first bullet pero wala, i am just happy knowing her, being one of her ates here, our random kwentos etc.

to A, if you ever sees this I hope things are going great for you. pag keri ko na, i'll check on your blog para naman ma update ako somehow; kapag feeling ko pwede na, i might message you? sana okay na by that time. i'm happy for and proud of you. Ate misses you!! 🧡

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[radio-charlie]

I guess something i wish i could talk abt more is how the scarcity of help being offered certain communities brings about some difficult moral dilemmas. because of how the govt treats them i cant just make posts here and there with details that might get someone in trouble. i do have a few friends v involved in this type of work that i could trust with the information but they are basically running on borrowed energy at this point. so idk.

I just want to say that you know how on socmed there was this brand of SJW thought that was like, oh someones an abuser? write them off cut all contact, tell everybody to do the same. Deplatform them make sure everybody knows abt their shit etc. Sometimes you really cannot afford to do that. Not if you are trying to help ppl with few resources and allies. We would really love to be able to tell certain people to get the fuck out of our face or pretend they dont exist. But if we do that then the ppl we’re trying to help would be deprived of a vital service that v few other ppl can provide. Looking for other ppl also takes time and energy and not many ppl who give a shit abt such things have a lot of those anymore. And yet sometimes someone does shit so terrible that you just have to jettison them anyway, before even figuring out a back-up plan. Its hard to tell what is better sometimes. Whether you’re really just going with your own feelings, as opposed to what is actually right.

Dirty, complicated world forces you to play dirty, complicated games to do the right thing. Like it or not, this is how it is. Save your idealism for your fanfic.

[dloveg]

pathetic is when you realize you dont even like the guy anymore/at all, but you are so alone you still stalk his socmed. I look at his pictures and cant even imagine us being together. we cannot be together, he’s too tall for me. it’s impossible from the get go. I spent so much time in fantasy worlds, so I guess I should not feel so bad about not recognizing that I, 4′10 could never be with a 6′+ guy

[tsukimoos]

hello again stranger (s???) if u saw this pls ignore i just want to useless ly ramble. well i hope this ramble wont turned out empty and useless. i want a solution, either find one or idk maybe find the root of the problem so maybe i can finally fix myself to be better to other people.

am i horrible person? i think everytime i approached a friend i dont think they really want to respond to me yknow? sometimes they just left me on read. i like think maybe they dont know how to respond sometimes bcs i get that. i do that most of the time sometimes. i cant help but think " oh they just doing this so they dont sound mean" " they're forced to be friends with me" why don't u just be straightforward to me. tell me. dont leave me hanging. if u want to end this just say it block me i really dont have any issues with being blocked by another person. we never gonna meet in real life anymore. so just do it? if u dont want to then why do i feel so distant from you. there's like a gap between us. everytime we interact which mostly its me the one who initiated the conversation, i felt like im the only who's trying. like im the one who's holding this friendship together. hell, do u think we're even friends? or my status to u is just ex-roomie/ex-schoolmate etc? not to me at least. ur always a friend to me. where i feel like i wont be judged. i can be myself with u. why? is there something wrong with my personality? am i not suitable for ur friend criteria anymore? Then leave. just go. i dont want to sound childish but unfollow me or block me at every socmed. haven't u seen what she did? just do it like her. its not that hard. just straight up leaving from all the groups we had. you see i always admired her. i like how she distant herself from other people, not caught up with this whole friendship thing. its as if all these years of memories were nothing to her. i wish i can do that. but i cant. because i love u all so so much. i care abt u. but im tired of trying and waiting. maybe i should be like her. another thing i admire abt her is how she's not easily influenced by her environment or what people thought of her. i wish i can do that. im tired of doing this. it made look like a fool. why can u be like that with other people and not me. what's so wrong abt me. why cant we be close? am i the only who thought we are friends? please let me know. why am i so lonely why im alone is it true i deserve thiss is it true im really destined to be alone forever. im tired I'm tired im so fucking tired