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Flashing lights prologue

Series; actor Drew x actress reader

Summary: Drew gets involved in the worst scandal of his career. One way to solve it? Proving to the whole world that he’s the sweetest lover to exist. Who better to help than the one person he can’t stand? You, an A class actress with an alcohol addiction. So, will Drew clear up his reputation, or leave with a bigger mess to clean up?

Genre: fake dating, enemies to lovers(?, slow burn, angst, smut,

Warning: mentions of alcohol, swearing, mentions of k!lling oneself, mentions of rape & sa, mentions of drug usage, smoking & vaping,

⋆.˚ please dont copy my work, if inspired please tag me

⋆.˚ this is entirely fictional, if uncomfortable then don't read

♡⸝⸝ chapter 1 | index

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Talk about a scandal. 

‘Drew Starkey, rising star from OBX, impregnates girl and refuses to take responsibility.’ ‘Drew Starkey impregnates girl and forces her for an abortion.’ ‘All to know about OBX star that SA a girl.’

Even an interview starring a random girl that claims to be pregnant with Drew’s child. 

If Drew knew going to the club a week ago would cause such big damage to his career, he would have never stop foot in there. But being stubborn and a sucker for fun, he just needed the relaxation that clubbing would offer. 

His PR manager Henry, who Drew’s only sees once a year, is surprisingly quiet. He sits across Drew, staring at his laptop. His typing makes up for the quiet and tense (at least for Drew) atmosphere in his manager’s office. 

“I’m sorry,” Drew starts, genuinely, his eyes shifting between his manager Jeff and Henry. “Look, I don’t know who that woman is. She’s lying, alright? I didn’t even talk to any strangers last night. Just my friends. And I was careful with how much I drank-”

“Calm down, we didn’t accuse you of it,” Jeff chuckles, also surprisingly calm and not scolding Drew. Normally, Jeff would scold Drew so hard that it took Drew back to the days of being coached by his dad. “I’ve worked with you for almost ten years, I know you wouldn’t do that.”

Hold up. Was this a dream? He fucked up real bad, why were his managers so forgiving? So… calm? This felt way too strange. They should be furious right now, thinking of a solution and threatening to kill Drew. So why were they so gentle with this situation?

Drew adjusts his hat, pocking his tongue against his cheek. Without thinking, he simply says, “What?”

Jeff glances at Henry, who nods, looking up from his laptop. Drew furrows his eyebrows at Jeff, who simply looks away as Henry starts. “Fine, Drew. We’re all fucking pissed at your mistake. Do you know how many sponsors have asked to break up your contract? Even after we’ve came up with a clean statement? For fuck’s sake, Drew. You’re fucking thirty now, and you still act like a fucking child!”

Drew licks his lips looking away. Okay, this was the Henry he saw yelling at other artists, and what he expected when he walked into the office this morning. But now that he was yelling at him, it felt horrible still. After all, who likes to be yelled at? 

“I’ve had to pull multiple strings to help you, to clear your name up. So you better hope this is your last mistake,” Henry continues. 

Drew couldn’t help but ask, “what did you do?”

“We’ve come up with a plan,” Henry says, walking over to the printer. He grabs the paper, taking a quick look before placing it on the table in front of Drew.

Drew’s eyebrows furrow, sensing something really strange. 

And he was right. On the top of the paper, it read, “Fake dating Proposal.”

What the fuck. He reads through the first sentence in his head, with widen eyes, “In order to save Drew Starkey’s career, he must conduct a year-long fake relationship with Y/n Y/l/n.”

He falls back in his seat. “You’re not fucking serious. This is the strings you had to pull? This is fucking ridiculous! How is this-“

“Drew!” Jeff yells, making him shut up. His face was slightly red, sweat dripping down his forehead. “Drew, trust us. We wouldn’t cause more harm. This, this will save your career, save you.”

“but out of anyone-“ Drew adjusts his hat once again. “Out of anyone, and you chose her?”

“She’s the best choice of right now, and the only one who even agreed. Drew. You’re not in the place of choosing. You sign, and you accept it. Or it’s the end.”

He couldn’t believe himself right now. Literally. Out of every solution, every person, it had to be you. You, the one person he can’t stand. You, the one person that gets him worked up and annoyed. It was like the end of the world for him. 

Worse, his manager seems to agree with this solution. As if he doesn’t know how much Drew despises you. Jeff places the pen next to Drew. “I hate to say this, but Drew, you’re screwed unless you do this. We see the vision, and in a few years, you’ll see it too. Just, just treat this as another acting class, okay?”

Do I have a choice anyways, he thinks. Drew rubs his face in annoyance. Fuck. Damn you and damn himself. Getting into this stupid situation in the first place. 

He looks at the contract again. Sees your name again. And his head hurts a thousand times worse than a hangover. 

He reads through the contract terms, cringing at it. 

‘Must show up at five or more public evens together.’

‘Must show PDA at public events, such as touching, holding hands, kissing etc.’

‘Y/n Y/l/n must talk sweetly about Drew Starkey, and steer away any negative comments.’

‘During the course of this fake-relationship, being seen with any other costar of the opposite sex is forbidden.’

Much more was listed, at least twenty terms were on this contract alone. So this is the real thing. 

And at the bottom, Drew sees what was offered. Wow. You get offered millions of dollars, while all Drew receives is a clear to his scandal. 

He should at least get half the amount you’re earning, considering that he has to put up with you. “How can she get so much cash?” Drew asks, curiosity killing him. 

“Because she’s got nothing to gain from being with you,” Jeff states matter-of-factly, that hurt Drew’s ego more than it should have. He also noticed how much money this was, almost all the money he earned from acting in OBX. Wow. So not only were you a moody bitch, but a greedy one as well. 

Drew rubs his eyes aggressively, a frustrated yawn coming out. He so is going to regret this. The worst decision he ever has to make. 

You better be the savior to his career, or he was going to kill himself. 

Drew signs, pushing the paper away as if it had some kind of disease. 

Henry forces a smile, grabbing the paper. Drew gets ready to leave, but Henry stops him. “Where are you going?”

“Home. I- that was enough for me.”

“No, no. You’re going to Y/n’s filming set.”

“What?”

“Yes, you heard me. Her manager gave the green light, so you’re going.”

“Fuck, it’s only like, a minute since I signed.”

“Hey, I’m saving you right now,” Henry says. “Now, you want your sponsors back or not?”

Drew curses under his breath, never wanting to punch a wall as much as right now. “Fine. I'll go. But I can’t promise that I’m hugging or touching her or anything. She’s a complete stranger to me.”

“We just need a couple of photos to leak out,” Jeff says, grabbing his jacket. “I’ll drive you there.”

“Fucking hate you Jeff,” Drew says, walking out the office. “Henry you asshole.”

Either his managers heard and said whatever, or they didn’t care. But cursing at people who's helping him ‘save’ his career was the least of his worries. His head is just consumed with meeting you again, the brattiest bitch he's ever known.

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ִ ࣪𖤐 a/n: i'm sooo happy for the support and how much people liked the teaser! i was giggling seeing the reblogs and likes.

anyways, thought i should release a prologue first, to give drew's pov of this situation. apologies in advance for y/n's character and anyone who can't handle her! but i'm so excited for you guys to read ch1, which will be released later this week! like or comment to show support, really appreciate it <3

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know its for the better - begin again au ☆

wc: 1.8k

tw: drinking. angst. family angst. kinda fluff. slut shaming. I think I got them all

ryan leonard x hughes sister au

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ryan and frankie walked down one of the busiest streets in boston; frankie hoping to find inspiration and ryan trying the make sure she doesn't kill her self doing so.

he couldn't understand why she was so reckless with her life? she was very loved and important to so many people. i mean he knew he loved her when he first met her. why couldn't she see how amazing she was?

"I have my fake with me, plus the bouncer adores me so i think i can so get you in" she says acting annoyed but secretly happy. even though she wanted to act like ryan coming along with her was a drag, it wasn't. she liked having him here. it made her feel seen.

"frankie, i still dont think this is the way to solve things" he says to her as they get in line to go into frankies favorite bar.

"not everything has to be solved it just has to be dealt with, and this is how im dealing with it" she said with an eye roll.

ryan opened his mouth to say something but stopped when her phone when off. he sees her screen light up with a Group FaceTime call; her brothers. but to his surprise she declines?

"spam call" she waves him off after she sees ryan eye her skeptically.

"you didn't tell them yet?" he said after a moment.

ryan knew her too well.

"nope" she says popping the 'p'. "and I dont plan on it anytime soon" she adds.

"so you just plan to lie to them for the rest of your life?"

"its not lying, its avoiding. I dont lie" she said not looking at him.

"I think you’re scared to tell them because you know once you tell them. It’ll be real" he says looking at her with a challenging look.

"ryan. this is real life right now, your not dreaming" she says sarcastically, wiggling her fingers in his face.

she was so cute. even if she was being a pain in the ass.

they got to the front of the line, where the bouncer was and frankie was quick to whisper something into the bouncers ear. the bouncer eyes running up and down ryan, before ultimately deciding to lift the rope and letting them through.

"I dont think I want to know what you told him" he said to her as she pulled him by his shirt collar. something that he found to drive him crazy.

"dont be dirty, I just told him you were my gay friend. so dont get with any girls tonight please. he'll know im lying"

your the only girl I want.

"im here to watch you, not to get with girls and party" he says seriously as she orders them drinks.

"no. if im going to let you follow me around like a puppy tonight your going to party with me mr. leonard." she says handing him the drink throwing him these eyes. eyes that have gotten her everything she's ever wanted. those eyes. eyes that made ryan want to complete every wish she's ever wished.

"if I take this shot with you, you have to listen to me, tonight. I know you like to run away. so dont"

"okay! yay!" she says as she pinky promises him.

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frankies hallway filled with giggles as ryan said another dad joke. she kept her promise and didn’t run away. it was one a.m. and it had honestly been the earliest she came back from a night out. and to her surprise she was only tipsy. ryan had actually kept her good company all night.

"did you hear the rumor about butter" he says while leaning against the wall as she looks for her keys in her purse.

"ryan shutup please" she said laughing.

"okay. I wouldn't want to spread it anyways!"

"oh god" she said as she looked at him with so much adoration. she didn’t realize how much she needed someone to care and to show they cared. the way ryan did.

“thank you ryan” she said seriously. and a thought couldn’t help but bloom over her mood as she realized what was most likely going to happen.

“anytime pretty” he said as starred into the eyes that make him want to do flips off rooftops.

“I know drew is your teammate and everything, but like please dont be a stranger”

“im sorry?” ryan was confused to what she was trying to say.

is she drunk?

“like im saying since i won’t be around as much anymore and you guys are probably going to wanna be respectful to drew and stuff, just dont be a stranger. so please if you, will, and gabe ever see me just dont be afraid to talk to me. i’ll always be nice.”

ryan couldn’t belive his ears. she thought they were all just going to stop talking to her?

“franks. just because my teammate is an asshole doesn’t mean we dont care about you. you are a person who is easy to love and unbelievably smart. and im sorry drew couldn’t see that. you dont deserve that at all” he said looking into her eyes as Frankie’s eyes couldn’t help but water.

this was the nicest thing a guy has ever told her.

“you really think so” she whispered just realizing how close they were standing next to one another. he smelt like what frankie would call a comfort smell. and as she looked at him she just wanted to trace every one of his freckles while he told her everything that’s ever happened to him.

“I do” he said. luckily for ryan. this wouldn’t be the only time in years to come he would say this to frankie. they both leaned in as frankie stood on her tiptoes and kissed him. a kiss that made her stomach do flips. a kiss that made his stomach do flips.

ryan couldn’t help but wrap his arms around her waist as she wrapped her arms around her shoulders and bring him closer. the kiss felt like they’ve searched for one another their whole lives. it felt right. time stood still.

ryan pulled away first as he realized they were both tipsy and she was probably more tipsy then him. the insecurity of she was going to act like nothing happened tomorrow creeped up on him.

“what’s wrong” she said with a hand on his cheek. her heart dropping when he pulled away.

“im sorry, i shouldn’t. we shouldn’t. we’ll talk tomorrow, go inside frankie” he said stepping away from her.

“did I do something?” she said feeling her heart drop.

“no- its just- i don’t want you to wake up tmrw and regret this, i want it to actually mean something and I dont want to be just another guy to add to your roster” he says not knowing that made frankie feel like shit.

I mean she knows herself she's the type of person to have a good time. but the fact he just thought she was going to play him? is that what drew thought when she was getting with him.

maybe thats the reason he never opened up to me

“dont worry your far from it now ryan!. have a good life” she said opening her door.

“frankie i didn’t mean it like that-“

he couldn’t even explain himself because the door had already slammed in his face.

frankie didn’t know why ryan saying that hurt her so much but it did. he basically just called her a whore in her mind and she wanted to run into her room and scream into pillow. but of course her life never went her way.

standing inside were two out of her three brothers looking like they wanted to strangle her.

“where the hell have you been” luke yelled. as jack got off the phone with whoever he was talking to. mumbling something about how frankie just walked in.

frankie was actually speechless. she never thought her brothers would make the trip to boston to see why the hell she was ignoring them.

“out of all the irresponsible things you’ve done in your life , this has to be the worst. mom was so close to calling the cops. she’s on her way with dad. we thought you were dead!” jack scolds her as she takes off her coat.

"thats a little dramatic"

"no! it isn't. we gave you space but then imagine our surprise when your coach calls and says you quit!" luke counters back. "if your having a manic episode or whatever they call it, tell us. we'll help you" Luke adds in a gentler tone.

frankie wanted to do nothing but run away as she just starred at them. the fear she had been running away since she quit was standing in her living room and they were standing their angry.

"does mom and dad know" she said after a long silence.

"yes. we all have. we've been waiting for you to own up to it and tell us though" jack answered.

"is everyone mad at me" she said as her eyes filled up with tears.

"im mad that you've had us worried sick. I mean I had to resort to asking rutger and gavin to ask their world jrs teammates if they've seen my own sister" Luke said with a scolding look. one that looked scarily similar to her mothers.

"dont listen to him, I dont know why you were s scared to just tell us. its not going to change anything between us" jack said as he walked over to his little sister and gave her a hug.

frankie didn't like hugs. she felt so awkward with them but in that moment she wanted nothing but to sob into her older brothers arms like she once did when the other girls at school were making fun of her because she played hockey and didn't do dance or cheer like the rest of them. she needed her family.

"cmon Luke" she said opening her arm out to her brother who stood of to the side. Luke accepting because he could never stay mad at his little sister.

"just dont ever do this again. if you want attention go find yourself a lover or something" Luke said laughing as they pulled away.

"hey! none of that" jack said not thinking anyone was ever going to be good enough for his sister.

"dont worry jack, I need a break from boys" she said with a sigh as she remembered what happened with ryan about ten minutes ago.

"dont talk to us about your boy problems thats why you have Quinn" jack said gagging.

"quinn also wants you to call him" jack said as he started walking to her guest bedroom.

"you good?" Luke said as he started settling into her couch and noticed her sister looked as if her mind was far else where.

how do I tell him I ruined my reputation. everyone thinks im a slut.

"I dont know"

[broke-on-books]

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I've been seeing posts about Scooby Doo popping up, so I thought I'd share this:

(Source: The Scots Magazine, Feb 2023) Full text below.

This actually happened. I am obsessed!

The passion! The energy!

Amazing!

Such signage!

(Images: Daily Record)

A brilliant effort all round! The children of Scotland saved a pop culture powerhouse the world would be poorer without. I can't believe this. I love this so much.

Text of the article:

FROM THE VAULT

Strange tales from the archives. This month – How furious fans of cancelled cartoon rose up in protest.

By CHRIS Ferguson, Jan 12, 2023 (The Scots Magazine)

THROUGHOUT the ages, principled protest has been a hallmark of youth – a rite of passage for many. Today it is Greta Thunberg and her army of teen climate activists, or Extinction Rebellion protesters, who make headlines.

In the 1960s it was the Vietnam War objectors and Campaign for Nuclear Disarmament believers who set out their political agendas.

In later decades young people swelled the ranks of those demanding an end to apartheid in South Africa.

They were at the barricades as then-pm Margaret Thatcher introduced the poll tax and back out again to try to stop the 2003 invasion of Iraq.

Another generation, too, had the courage of its convictions. In 1971, youngsters rose in anger at a threat to remove cowardly canine Scooby-doo from their television screens.

This was in February after the cartoon had been running for two years. Although the decision not to commission another series had been taken in the US, the BBC was the target of fans’ fury because it had to pass on the bad news to young viewers.

Within days of the announcement, an army of parka-wearing children sporting knitted jumpers and questionable hairstyles was formed.

Across Scotland children grouped together with placards, just like so many other worthy protesters before them. In Glasgow, the massed kids marched on the BBC Scotland headquarters and, in Dundee, they gathered in outrage in City Square.

Petitions were raised and demonstrations took place across the country and, by April, the BBC announced a further series had been commissioned in the US.

Legend has it these Scots Scooby fans had persuaded the American television executives to reconsider.

Hanna-barbera, the animation company behind Scooby-doo, never forgot the Scottish reaction.

A spokesman for the company said, “We’d never had a response like that before, it was very exciting.”

Beneath the main text of the article is an illustration of Scooby Doo and the gang accompanied by the pull quote: “An army of parka-wearing children was formed”

The title and byline of the article are also accompanied by a black and white photo of a boy in school uniform sitting with a little black dog in his lap, grinning and holding a sign reading "We've saved Scooby Doo" with an illustration of Scooby. The caption reads: Jimmy Brown fought to save the cartoon."]

[usuratongaychi]

Drawings + Rants + Headcanons/Naruto AU

i finally had some time to draw my versions of tean seven (minus kakashi). im gonna detail more of my AU later in the post but here are the designs and some notes.

For sasuke, in one of my other posts i had the theory that sasuke keeps his hair short to avoid resembling itachi, and thats why it is longer in time skip, because he is coming to terms with his trauma and still loves itachi. I also gave him similar creases to itachi, just from stress.

tbh im not too sure about this naruto design…but at least he isnt balding like before💀.

for sakura, i actually really like her older design, so i just drew her working. she would have her hair up and i gave her sakura blossom hair pins and eyeshadow.

also i havent drawn in forever so..thats why its messy.

(the rest of this is me rambling on..)

Now for changes i made to the story:

1. Narusasu endgame (yk im a stan)

I would have both of them be joint hokages, so technically both are the 7th. I know Sasuke is referred to as the shadow hokage, but that doesn’t really entail anything. I think it’s important because Sasuke would know just how important reform is for the village and shinobi system, but since people are still suspicious of Uchihas, Naruto would be the face. This fulfills Naruto’s dream, which when you really think about it, his dream was just to be loved, not really to be a politician. Naruto has seen how unfair and corrupt their society is, so he would completely work with Sasuke to make sure things like Danzo and Hiruzen’s corruption, child soldiers, hyuuga slavery and the “Uchiha Incident” dont happen again. I could explain more of this in a later post.

2. I would have Hinata look up to Sakura more, instead of Naruto.

I think it makes a bit more sense, Sakura is brave, outspoken and independent, just like Hinata wants to be. I would have Sakura be her first friend, since she can’t stand to see people be excluded or alone. That leads me into changes I would make for Sakura’s story.

3. Sakura. In the original, I would keep her kind of bratty attitude until things get serious in the Zabuza arc. Seeing her close friends so close to death, while not being able to help much would challenge her to become a protector. This also gives motivation for her to learn healing and medicine when Tsunade comes around. Sakura would be the “rock” or “glue” of team seven, which makes sense because she is the only one of them that came from a stable home.

Sakura initially resents Sasuke for betraying the team, but seeing how dedicated Naruto is to saving him, she decides its worth it to help bring him back. Besides if she didn’t, naruto would just endager himself trying.

4. Sasuke. I would have Sasuke after he realizes Itachi was manipulated into a genocide to protect the village, still go through him “i’m gonna destroy the village” phase, but when Naruto defeats him, they make a promise to change things, so no one else will have to suffer like that. I would also show more of the psychological effects of witnessing Itachi’s murders. One of my headcanons is that he’s pretty thin, since trauma survivors tend to have chronic stomach pains. He’s probably pretty paranoid about others betraying him, so he does it to them first (probably why he pushes naruto away so much). Sasuke is also probably still ostracized or “othered” for being an uchiha, since that is what the village is told about them. People still pity him, but dont come near him.

5. Naruto. 😭I actually made up a whole theory on why Hiruzen didn’t take great care of naruto, bc to me it just doesn’t make sense. it’s kinda a dumb theory and doesn’t rlly have anything to do with canon, but- what if Minato wanted to expose the corruption in the hidden leaf and get rid of the foundation, so as a sort of revenge, or just general distaste for Minato, Hiruzen doesn’t really provide for Naruto. 🤷‍♀️idk. A change I would make is to have naruto mature more to match his age. Like ofc it makes sense for him to act out for attention esp when he was younger, but i feel like past shippuden..he didn’t really mature at all? maybe thats just me. I’ll probably have more stuff to add for him, i’ll think of it later or put it in my headcanons post.

😭im so tired yall i will make a better post later on.

[eminsunnytoons123]

And this is an treat for all my besties, Sisters, Brothers, pen pals, my two girlfriends And my boyfriend like: @cheezekennith @aquamarine-dream-queen @nuggetaubrey @iggyguyy @bluebird-in-a-cagedrawing @mysafespaceblog13 @ducktoonz903707 And all of my other besties, Sisters, Brothers, pen pals, my two girlfriends And boyfriend =^_^=

Heres another plot of the story of how Sunny And Salieri met...

So, as I Said in my yesterday post where I Drew young Sunny, I Said this: "And i'll soon make a story how Salieri And Sunny met in my AU. But to start a little bit, when Sunny And Salieri met in the first year of the westley school, they first dislikes each other, but Sunny soon developed a small crush on Salieri even tho he is the popular And tough Guy in the school... And Salieri started noticing that And he started teasing him a little bit for that. And as soon as they graduated, Salieri kissed him on the cheek, leaving Sunny having that memory until he is now 28-29 years old, And when they face each other again with Sunny with his students And Salieri with his students. (I'll say more tommorow ^///^;)"

Well, let me start a little more slower...

So, when the first year of westley/eastley school, they were both either 13-14 years old together. Salieri was the popular Guy in the school, And even talented, so was Sunny, And Sunny was actually there a new student. Salieri didnt like him so he played that "served" trick on him, heres the video:

And Sunny kinda disliked him for that, but then he slowly started kinda developing a crush on him, you wonder why? Well... he didnt know why either, he even didnt understand why he had a "crush" on Salieri after Sunny Got served by him. Then after a few Days when Sunny started developing a crush on Salieri, Salieri found out about that because he constantly noticed Sunny blushing And being kinda nervous around him (not too much), And then Salieri started teasing him for that And calling him some cute names, but he was still bullying him. And then soon, when there was the second year of westley/eastley school, Sunny confessed his love to Salieri (read this story now down below): ↓

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It was probably 4 PM at that time, after an hour when the last class of the Day ended... Salieri was behind the school, clearly waiting for someone. He looks kinda annoyed And he had his hands on his hips..

Salieri: where the heck is that Sunny boy? I swear... If he doesnt appear in a couple more Minutes, i'll kick his ass...

As soon as he Said that, Sunny came behind the school too, And he was running to Salieri And he stopped beside him, he was taking a few breaths from running... Salieri looked at him And he scoffs.

Salieri: ah, there you are, Sunny boy! I was waiting here for about half an hour! What took you so long!? You're Lucky I didnt had to kick your saxophone ass...

Sunny: Sorry to keep ya waiting, Salieri... I forgot about the time, I-I was sleeping on the roof of the schoo-

Salieri puts his hand on Sunny's mouth, not wanting an explanation now

Salieri: yeah, yeah. I dont care. Just tell me why you called me here for.

Sunny gently moved salieri's hand away from his mouth And he sighs a little bit

Sunny: Alright... Im sorry if this will be kinda awkward, but.... You know? When I came here into this School, you were kind of like an nice-looking Guy to me...

Salieri raises an eyebrow, clearly kind of surprised And unamused by Sunny's comment of calling him a "nice-looking" Guy, And he crosses his arms over his chest.

Salieri: oh? This is something new coming out of your mouth.

Sunny: well, yeah, but... Even though you were kind of bullying me And getting me served, I still thought you were a Nice-looking Guy... And kind of an attractive Guy...

Sunny blushes a little bit And he scratches the back on his neck. And Salieri raises his eyebrows a little bit And he chuckles

Salieri: ah, really? You think I am attractive, Sunny boy?...~

Sunny looks at him directly in the eyes And he blushes again

Sunny: well.... Yeah..

Sunny wanted to say something more but then Salieri speaks up

Salieri: I knew it. I always knew you founded me attractive, Sunny boy... And you arent bad yourself. Even thought you can be an idiot sometimes. But I like Guys who are idiotic..

Salieri then laughs a little bit, And Sunny awkwardly Chuckles a little bit..

Sunny: Heh, yeah... I see.... But, I gotta now get to the point why I called you here..

Salieri raises an eyebrow And he still had his arms crossed over his chest

Salieri: go on and spill it, Sunny boy.

Sunny takes a deep breath And sighs deeply

Sunny: Alright... So... T "Top" Salieri? Uh... I... Damn it- I LOVE YOU!! I LOVE YOU, T "TOP" SALIERI!! ILOVEYOUMORETHANANYTHINGELSEINTHISSCHOOL!!

Salieri gasps a little bit.. And Sunny blushes like, A LOT, And he puts his hand over his face And he Closes his eyes, kind of embarassed that he yelled that out, even tho no one was really at school, only him And Salieri. Salieri then smirks a little bit And his eyes close a little halfway, And he speaks up..

Salieri: aww, Sunny boy... Thats something very sweet coming out yer mouth... And I gotta admit. I really love ya too, even tho I bully you And served you during your competition.. But I still love ya, Sunny...

Sunny Opens his eyes slowly And he moves his finger for his one eye to look at Salieri, And he speaks up quietly enough for Salieri to hear

Sunny: really?..

Salieri takes a step closer to Sunny And he puts his hand on Sunny's hand that was still on his own face

Salieri: ofcourse, you little dummy...

Sunny then moves his Hand away from his face, but he was still blushing. And he smiles warmly And speaks up..

Sunny: oh, Salieri... Well...

He swallows hard a little bit And looks at him again

Sunny: D-... Do you wanna be my boyfriend now...?

Salieri smirks even more and he blushes too

Salieri: ofcourse I will, Sunny Bridges!! Why wouldnt I!?

Sunny smiles even more, And he tears up a little bit And he hugs Salieri very tightly And he Closes his eyes tightly. Salieri hugs him back. Sunny then whispers enough for Salieri to hear.

Sunny: I love you, T "Top" Salieri... I'll never leave you nor stop loving you...

Salieri smirks in a warm And friendly way, And he whispers back to sunny.

Salieri: I love ya too, Sunny Bridges... You better dont leave me, you little dummy... Neither will I leave you...

Then they both look at each other directly while still having their hands on each other's shoulders, And then they kiss on the lips......

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And thats how they started dating! (I'll put this on a full post to have a spotlight)

And on the fourth year, they graduated, Salieri kissed sunny on the lips, leaving Sunny flustered And having that memory in him always.... But, if you're wondering: "oh Emin? Are they still dating after the graduation?" Well, kinda yeah.... but, they didnt make any interaction or contact, Its Unknown why...

But as soon as Salieri Got back in town with his students (And since he is now 28-29 years old like Sunny), they met each other again, And Sunny And Salieri both immediately remembered the time they kissed for the first time And started dating...

I may write more tommorow ^///^;

And I hope y'all will like this, And I wanna hear y'all's opioions on this in the replies or reblogs =^////^= 🧡💛 I may make a comic or some doodles And drawings of how they started dating =^_^=

And also, this is just in my AU. I know they both hate each other on the Show, but I just had this Idea of shipping them.

[hostilemuppet]

So the first piece of art of yours that I saw was the comic where two of Bruce’s kids came out has trans to him and Branch tells him he’s a good dad and Bruce said he wishes their parents were supportive of him.

After that I came upon the one where JD decides to pierce his ear. And ends up with a date with a trucker.

And after that it was your first Floyd/Creek comics where Creek thinks he’s tricking Floyd but Floyd his aware and using him to get expensive stuff!!! It was between those three that I started following you.

While your style has changed since those little comics, I’ve always found your art amazing!!! And funny!!!

I keep coming back for more art and comics. I don’t read most of the asks you get so what ever happens on chapter 14 will probably be a complete surprise for me.

I do have a few questions from those first comics, have you ever considered drawing Bruce before he came out has trans? Maybe a little comic flashback of him coming out to his family? Also why was Branch so surprised? Didn’t he know Bruce was trans? And or was he… wait is Branch a he or a she? I forgot to ask before I didn’t understand in the story, if Branch came out has a boy or a girl. What I was going to say was Branch surprised that he wasn’t the only trans in the family?

As for the JD comic, have you ever considered drawing that date JD had with the trucker troll?

Also I think I once saw a Spotify playlist for Fleek with a cover of Floyd eating sushi from Creek’s back? Did I imagine that? Cause I can’t find that art on either of your twitter accounts.

Speaking of Creek’s back, what does he’s tramp stamp look like?

first of all tysm! thats very kind of you 😊 ill go through em point by point:

1- the comic where branch finds out bruce is trans wasnt related to the tdau at all, it was based on actual canon, so that version of branch wasnt intended to be a trans he/him butch he was just a cis dude. branch didnt know bruce was trans bc he wasnt even a year old at the point of the breakup and bruce had been living solely as a man for years, maybe as young as 13? (he wouldve just decided "can you call me a he? and grandma can you start buying me boy clothes at pop troll walmart?" i dont think he wouldve had the resources available to know what transgender even meant at that point) and never ended up telling branch before the breakup bc... well hes like 6 months old. and he doesnt need to know anything about "spruce"s body. and over the years bruce just kinda forgot that branch didnt know, which is why he mentioned it so casually

2- i did actually draw the troll jd had a date with! his name is clyde (although i think calling him clyde S.D. ale would be cute. like clydesdale, and also ale like the alcohol). this art is old atp so maybe ill give him a fresher coat of paint, just like im planning for jds manic pixie dream rock troll girlfriends who hate him

3- i. yes. yes i did draw floyd eating sushi off creeks back and ass before 😭 based off a very good screenshot from captain laserhawk with rayman eating sushi off a cow woman. i drew it twice in fact, with the second being a redraw. here are both of them

i considered redrawing it a third time bc i massively overhauled how i drew trolls but i think if i keep doing it itll stop being funny

4- creeks (NON CANON) tramp stamp, i think would be ocean themed with seashells and waves. maybe ill design creeks tramp stamp today, but again its NOT CANON its not actually a thing in the tdau. unless alex wants it to be

[aonungyou-shit]

By Blessings of a Great Mother

DNI/BYF

Tsireya x Fem Lo'ak's twin Reader

I WANNA WRITE ABOUT LESBIANS! BECAUSE I JUST AAAAAA.

You had Rizz.

Often you kinda mocked Lo'ak for still being single at your Grown age.

But nonetheless you were happy with the life he was living. It had been a couple of years after the RDA showered their face around Awa'atlu

Leaving you to deal with the trail of sorrow they often left.

But you thanked your lucky stars that Neteyam had been fine. That he had been sound and well and that you watched him fall in love.

You and Tsireya weren't exactly a couple. But no one could deny that ever growing tension between you two. The loving gazes the touches that often lingered far too long for it to be anything but longing.

You were her opposite and maybe that's what drew you so close to her. Yes Her parents didn't fully agree with her decision at first. Saying that you would not bare children. But eventually seeing just how happy you two were it was enough to allow such a pair.

And it was happy life you were living.

You two were happy.

But you knew that Tsireya had once had a dream of having a child. And you often heard her say that she was fine this way. That she loved you and that, that was all that was needed.

But you did see her eyes often gaze at her nephew and neice. Ao'nung being a doting father to his little girl. How neteyam seemed to be build into being a father to a strong son.

Yes you loved her and yes maybe in some distant past you wanted a kid too. But things change when you're in love. You didn't need a babe to solidify how much you loved her.

But love made you do things for the other. Sure you couldn't have a babe but that didn't stop you from praying and wishing such a thing to Eywa. Often when you weren't busy or when Lo'ak decided to leave you alone, you would leave to go seek guidance from the great mother.

Praying that if she was ever so kind to you as she had been now. To give you a sign as what to do in fulfilling your love's wish.

But that was all you could do.

Realistically there were no options. But it didn't hurt to ask or pray for guidance

You two had decided that tonight would be a good night to head for a little swim. Sometimes date nights like these were rare, or wouldn't be out in the sea where you spend almost all the time now.

It be secluded in your pod. Or maybe deep in the little forest where you would let her do your hair. Or you just enjoyed the view of the sky.

Tonight you two decided to have fun in the water instead of worrying about hunting or teaching the young kids.

"Want to race?" You asked her watching her smile widened, That smug smirk that ran with her brother.

"You're so on!"

You two laughed as your ilus took you far. A small chase ensuing as you continued to swim with your ilus.

Your laughters were all you could hear. Tsireya's laugh was enticing. and it was sweet, what had reeled you in , in the beginning.

Stopping once you two didn't notice how far you two had gone.

"Beat you!" She said now coming close to you.

You laughed. Rinsing off your hair as you looked at her. "that you did Ma 'reya"

you guys closing your jap. Giving her a kiss before looking at the stars.

"tonight's a beautiful night don't you think?" You asked her still holding her hand

"I think every night is beautiful" She said before turning her attention to where you two were. Far, outside the reef. "uh. i dont think we're meant to be this far"

"Ah shit i didnt notice we went this far when i was trying to kick your ass"

"Hah! Don't boast to me my love. I've Been doing this for years"

" i know. Tis why i love you so."

You two decided to go home. But an alkula had sertain other plans.

Your ilus saw it before you. but their cries of fear sure alerted you and this was the moment you knew to get thee fuck out of there.

"run!" You yelled on instinct as you did your best to keep behind Tsireya. If the worst came of it at least it be you to take the blow.

Your heart started pounding and you tries your best to contain your breath. But you felt the pain of your ilu's fun getting chomp. Throwing you off the poor thing as you watched your Ilu Swim away.

You Swamp up. Losing sight of the Alkula as you yelled.

"Ma 'Reya!" You yelled. Finally getting her attention.

Turning Quickly she saw how you had lost your ilu and the Alkula was heading towards you. In a brash move she headed to you.

It felt like time was stopping almost. You felt like you couldn't hear as you begun to sink. You hadn't noticed but in the harsh throw from your ilu you had a massive gash on your thigh. And the Alkula was getting so much closer.

You felt yourself cough and gag The water stinging your open wound. And then you saw Tsireya. Barely avoiding getting hurt herself before she picked you up and you two swam on her ilu.

You were losing consciousness, You didnt notice that your blood and her's were murking the water making it easy to escape.

all you knew is that Tsireya was safe. and really that was all that mattered to you.

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Once Tsireya had Gotten to shore she screamed! She yelled for help as loud as she could while her arm was losing blood. Her eyes on you as she did her best to drag you out of the sea!

Her yells had alerted everyone she was sure. But she couldn't focus.

the ringing in her ears were deafening.

The water was murky with blood. But in the glistening seafoam she saw a small little body.

Had a child been abandoned near shore?

She didn't know. All she knew was to grab on tight as she too began to lose consciousness.

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When you gained consciousness it had been the morning after.

Your sides hurt. Your head hurt but most importantly you were worried about Tsireya. Standing up rapidly you gained the attention of Ronal and her daughter.

"Mawey Y/n! Mawey!"

You opened your eyes and you saw what Tsireya sustained. Her upper left arm was bandaged up too.

A bump on her head. And you swore your heart broke as you looked at her. But in her arms. Tightly wrapped was a babe. Its tail swinging. back and fourth.

"Reya?"

"I dont know" She admitted no doubt about to ask about the strange babe in her arms.

"Seems Eywa has blessed you with this child" Ronal commented.

The little girl was not Metkayina but it was not Omatikaya either. Her skin was darker blue. Darker than your own. With the markings of the sea. A Foamy white hue lingered on the flat of her nose and cheeks.

Her specks glowed in a hue that reminded Ronal of Atokirina's that she would see only as a sign of good fortune. Her hair wasn't that normal Black that all Na'vi's had.

It was mostly a dark hue of brown. One that in the rays of the sun shone a little more lighter.

She was unique. She was a gift for those prayers that you would make.

You looked at her. Her little face looking at you. Large Darker blue eyes staring at you. It reminded you of Tsireya's curious doe eyes.

"what are we to do with it?"

"You prayed for her did you not?" Ronal asked you. Many times has she heard the prayers to Eywa. And as the one who interpreted the will of Eywa, She would hear those answers.

"You did?" Tsireya asked.

You couldn't help but laugh a little avoiding eye contact. "I mean yes. I know you say out love is enough but i think you do crazy things for the people you love"

She smiled. Queezing you tight with her hurt hand before sitting down next to you. Her mother now leaving you two. Going to tell your worried family that everything would be alright.

You two sat there. Staring at this strange babe. Off was she. Beauty was she.

Your prayers had been answers.

And No doubt she would be one of a kind too.

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yeah im kinda spewing baby stuff cause like (baby fever tm be hitting but like yknow)

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[fm-r-iznow]

DAYS GONE 2

WHERE IS IT SONY?

Okay so I have been Holding off on buying a PS5, due the price and my lack of funding I was the same about ps4 but after a sudden windfall i bought it and i went crazy. I actually felt like I was people. Now I could bore you with a list of games. But the game i really enjoyed the most was DAYS GONE

I think i got half way through until I stopped. Due to personal issues and crysis but the main issue is the delay of DG2. I even stopped playing all together my life had turned upside-down. Well but now im picking up the pieces and I'm playing switch and im enjoying these horror games as well as open world games. Now at this time I could get 10 PS5's if I wanted. But if I'm going spend 500 bucks on a game system. Then I'm going to buy synth plugins for my laptop because im making music again after a year of nothing thanks to a crappy daw update on FL STUDIO which did nothing to help so now I have a new daw.

But back to my point unless Playstation changes their tune i will not buy anymore of their products. over the years i baught cassette tapes vhs cdrs and a camcorder which for the $$$ it's pretty good. So unless SONY changes its tune i won't be buying anymore of their products if i want to play Katamari its on Switch. And if I want to play tenchu that came out on Xbox. Then I'll get an Xbox my final point is this. Jeff Ross should think of putting the game out on Xbox Switch or pc. I mean Sony is playing unfair expecting exclusive content and then be inconsistent on this game and why????

I remember countless games that were crap and they nade a series of crap churned out like digital dingle berry dyarrrheia. SONY is not a nurturing corporation.

their creators and customers alike are suffering. If i buy a console, their are quite a few i can get

now I can buy that Moog I've been pining over for years. Long before Ps5. I thought who needs that? PS4 is satisfactory. I don't need bells and whistles or better frame rate. I don't care about that

im still a casual gamer i have things I do that give more satisfaction spiritually. Gaming is only an escape and decompress

to me long before i even picked up a joy stick i drew and imitated my comic book heros. Now if I want a camera I'll buy a fuji or a Canon. Now I know 1 guy can't hurt a major corporation buy doing a personal boycott. But at least i have other options that i can invest my money into. So Jeff Ross i can only hope he knows has the same options. Which he may not contractionally. And I hope thats not the case. I ALSO dont appreciate click bate youtube videos eluding the game is coming out with DAYS GONE II coming and a month later nothing zero!! Well I think I said everything I'm spent. I should be sleeping. its it 4.30 AM in the morning so good night sweet dreams....

[cyanlastride]

can i be honest?

always.

it came to me in a dream. well not quite-- a daydream, not a nightdream. if thats what daydreams are. yaknow, i never thought of them as daydreams, i just thought of them as... thinking. daydream kinda diminishes it, dontcha think? like, as a society we put such little weight on dreams. theyre annoying to hear about -- i dont think that, but as far as im aware thats the popular perception. but thinking, well, smart people do thinking. and of course, im a smart person, so i must be doing the smart thing. i dont think i ever consciously thought that, but i still never bothered to actually sit down and ask someone what daydreaming is. so, goes to show ya, i guess. blindspots and whatnot.

sure.

anyways, where was i? right. "Legends of Anchor". it just sorta, came to me. it came to me, and i thought, i can do this! this is something i can do! was it close to what i was supposed to do? i dont know. i didnt particularly care. in that moment, i just needed something i could do, so i could do it. so, i wrote it down, in my little notes app, and the next day i did it. and then later, today, many days after ive handed it in but before ive got a mark back for it, i saw the note and deleted it.

yeah. i was here for that. it was like, not even 15 minutes ago.

yaknow, it had a new line after it. like, an enter. a press of the return key. like i wanted to add more. like i couldve added more. but i didnt really think about that. i saw the note, opened it, and deleted it.

do you want to continue it?

no! god no. not right now, at least.

why not?

im ashamed of it.

you did me. are you ashamed of me?

no, no, im not expla--

also, i totally helped you with it. it was kinda weird writing about myself, which is why we made a

third person to be a narrator, right, and i get that. its semi-autobiographical for you.

right. so why are you ashamed of it?

because it wasnt what was asked for! it was barely 700 words, and there was only one drawing, and it wasnt even a good drawing, and sure we added the little background bit but that only further undermines what we wrote, and it just...

it wasnt a good project.

yeah. its not what the assignment called for.

but its real. its truthful. its me.

i mean... kinda? its you, as a character.

you submitted yourself as a character for the creative writing class, and did well enough there. why should yourself characterized do any worse than me characterized?

because she'll see you as a character that i created, not as someone real. also, those are two different projects, with different aims, and different expectations...

but its a character. she asked you for a character. and you gave her one. sure, its not exactly in the format she asked for, but the work is all there.

is it? what work, exactly?

we put in work to do that. even if its just me, there's still art in choosing what to tell and what not to tell. we highlight that, with the gaps in the lorekeeper's knowledge. i am not something that can be totally picked apart and identified, replicated, none of that. i am not a science. i am a person. i change, constantly. just like you. in that way, im not a character. characters only change along a strict set of axis. if they change on too many, or too few, or ones that the audience isnt excepting, thats bad writing. but thats also real. thats how real people work. we contradict ourselves, constantly. so yeah, theres work there. theres art there. we made a character. and we drew her, with our limited drawing capabilities. is it good? maybe. maybe not. is it passable? i think so. and thats all we need. we pass this project, we pass the course.

but what if its not passable? what if we fail?

then we'll take another course, later. boo-hoo.

but--

failing does not make you a failure. people cant be failures. or successes. its not really a metric applicable to humans. people are just people. they fuck up. they learn. they grow. they help. they hurt. they keep going.

ill disappoint my professor.

do you really think that?

yes.

and youre worried about that?

yes.

then dont do it again.

but this was me doing it again. i never learn.

we will. eventually. we just have to keep trying.

that fucking sucks.

yes. yes it does.

i dont want to drop out again.

good. i dont either. keep that. keep that fear. keep that anger. when shit gets rough, think about how empty it was. youve got one advantage: yes, youre back at the starting line, but youve seen the view from halfway down. by some fucking miracle, youve seen it, and youre here to remember it. that doesnt put you ahead of anyone else. in fact, it puts you behind most people. but you know what that does mean? it means youll think twice before jumping again. and it means youll stay further from the edge, so you dont slip. and if you do fall, and you see that view again, at least youll be able to appreciate it.

an odd thing to find strength in.

strength in change. its either that, or hate. ill take change over mênis any day.

sometimes mênis is necessary.

sometimes. but not every day. it cant be every day. rage simply doesnt last that long. it kills you eventually.

change kills you too.

true. but the thing it kills lives on in the thing it creates. change is a force of creation and destruction. mênis is just destruction.

it feels like there should be one for just creation.

perhaps there is. perhaps one day we'll find it. perhaps we've had it before, and we've lost it, and its waiting before it lets us find it again.

or maybe its just for better people than us.

maybe.

[intolerancecare]

Karma

I think I always get Karma. A bounced backed act. There is this one karma that I always think about once in a while. When my grade 6 classmate said the 3 words in a bus on a school field trip. We were just 12 years old. He's been calling me his bestfriend since we were in grade 3. I shouted at him, grabbed his hair to pull his repeatedly. It was so embarassing.

I felt guilty weeks after that incident. A conversation in my head goes " Who will I like? Maybe someone like Jhim, an achiever. They are actually the real bestfriends." I was also a bit guilty because he has a collection of drawings similar to my Kuya. Their superheroes. You know, when we visited Jhim's house, I learned that his nickname is similar to my name. Amazing right? I dont really have crushes then. He just happen to be a typical choice. (If that question will be asked)

A year after, we became classmates again. Jhim transferred to my Kuya's school. CA sitted at the back row. Beside him is a transferee whom he kept on calling "my love" loudly. I was like "Are you bragging?" They don't seem like a real couple. He became grumpy. Totally different from the old CA.

There is this substitute teacher in Science whose first name is like my kuya's grandfather. We are closed and I know that we mutually like each other (he's gay) as a teacher and student. One day, I saw him in the quadrangle with his older students. I went to him, but he surprisingly grabbed my hair and shook my head repeatedly. What is that? A joke? I really hate this pushover type of personality but sometimes I really am. Was it because of what I did to CA?

Anyways, a few years after I learned that he has a new girlfriend. I was so glad to know that it was Joy. She was a transferee and we have never been in the same class but before I heard the news, we always bump into each other and smile in the corridors or in the qudrangle. IDK, I just like her. I think she likes me too. I also don't know who introduced us, but we did talk. And I am really glad that CA found her. I just hoped that they are still together.

Another side story, Same year in grade 6, Jhim's house got burned. Like my tito's ship. I saw him again at my cousin's graduation. (He was the altar server together with two of my former classmates. I was so proud of them. Just the 3 of them from my grade school) He went to Saudi too. Like his father. As a nurse. Just saw him in my newsfeed. Then after a few years, I had this dream that I was in my workplace and that someone whose name is April came. I didn't saw anyone in particular. Just know that somebody came. There is another April in the park. Days after that I learned about his engagement on FB. He is marrying a single mom. It was not really a big deal. Back then I have already fallen, tripped and skipping and jumping to save my fainted heart. Another friend of mine from my Kuya's school had the same fate. But I am still happy for them. They have two lovely wives. And they look really happy. They migrated to Australia. The place for our godparents. Once I asked him. When did he decided to take a leap? I thought we were like the traditional bunch. Didn't see his reply but a thought inserted that it was his wife who gave me a satisfying answer. Lucky him (if it's real)

Now, here's the thing. I am finding the culprit to my demise. I have gotten to know the names associated with my kuya incuding the 1st fiddle photographer. His story is kinda quizzical. I wanna ask him if he knows CA and My friend Christine Mae whose surnames are the same. Is your mother's surname like them? You already met my Kuya? Why did I get here? Dunno, I just love Nancy Drew, Stepanie Plum, Alex cross and the women's murder club. Maybe that's why.

The uniform... same as ours. Are you in an alternate world? I love cross episodes and multiverses. Have you been to Kuwait? You know anyone there? Do you know an alternate universe there? Do you know the fallen?

I know some English connections around here. He can speak French. (I think) Are you a storyteller too? Fiction or non-fiction? Interesting.

Why not post your own story?

[cleetus42]

told myself i didnt want to go to school today. i ended up forcing myself to. form was like everything just bubbling. chemistry happened and i looked at what i had been assigned and i just. cried. like i put my headphones on and stayed quiet. wrote some things down. i didnt want to bring attention to myself. i got up to go to the bathroom. dried my tears. came back. they still kept falling. went back in the bathroom. stayed there for who knows how long. i was sad. i think. i considered hanging myself from the little beams above the bathroom stalls. but. i didnt want to traumatize anyone. i stood there. still. in the dark.

A came in briefly but assumed i wasnt in there and left. i could see her silhouette.

W came in and asked if i wanted to talk. i told her i was okay. she said my drawing was cute and she knew i drew it. i smiled. she left after washing her hands.

i stayed there. M asked if i was there. he asked me to step out. i did. told me he'd been around the school looking for me. etc.

i guess i came in because i thought id feel better with like. human interaction. but like. i didnt. i think this whole stop feeling sorry for yourself, look how many people are suffering etc thing doesnt work on me. it makes me foster self-hatred. id rather feel bad for myself to be honest.

i dont really want to think about the rest. i just remember when i got home i kind of just. felt like i was insane. like i needed to be put on some anti-psychotics or something. i dont know. like. cutting my hair made sense to me. going to school and hiding in the bathroom made sense to me. i know on the outside it looked. unhealthy. erratic. but. it made sense to me.

i thought thats all that mattered. i watched beautiful boy. i skipped the shower scene. cried at the end when that woman talked about her daughter who overdosed.

4pm i think i watched waking life. i thought maybe because it had wiley in it it would cheer me up. i liked it. the stuff about free will. dreaming etc. it made me feel like. i dont know. heard? my parents dont really want to hear about any philosophical things i say. my siblings dont really care. i dont have online friends who want to think that deep.

i know im loved. i know that. i just dont know if im seen. like. i long to be understood. i long to not have to mold myself around others. i just want to speak with no filter. say whatever pops into my mind. and have a meaningful discussion about it.

fuck. i feel like nothing i just wrote really spoke from how i actually felt.

why cant i claw out my heart and write with my own blood.

[ducknotinarow]

💭 for all Raphs: Technology, Flowers, Regret, Change, and Dreams

| Send 💭+ a topic Kezzie whhhhy XD i'm put it under a read more for length mostly. I'm gonna included some au stuff only if I got something to say for it cause I can, but they will stay under the verse of the iteration I'll specify the au sections ofc. Any talking bits are main verse only tho. 87

|Technology|

"Eh that's more Donatello's thing." Tech isn't really in Raph's skill set, sure he isn't the meat head many other Raphael are but it's still not something he deals with too much. Mostly due to growing a bit of a distaste for his twins inventions and ya know one making him feel like he was gonna die? Yeah raphs not the biggest fan with most technological things. Raph often feels tech isn't all it's cracked up to be seeing how often it sort of fails even. He thinks tech should stay simple as simple as possible at that. But don't mean he won't listen to his brother ramble about his inventions like he used to before. It's sort of how hes trying to meet his brother in the middle when it came to their argument |Flowers|

"Eh I don't think much about 'em, long as they aint mutant ones trying to eat me at least."

Flowers are nice and all but I can't really say Raph is much for flowers, nothing against them he just dont see the appeal himself. He thinks they are pretty of course, they are very pretty. The closest he has interest into flowers is he really like the Sunflower painting by Van gogh as stated Raphs dose has a like and interest in art himself so of course he tends to stray more that way.

But Flower also relate to romance so lets go there uwu

Raph figured out he was more in favor for men when it came to his attraction. Not sure he had a type he just knew what he found to draw his eye like a well dress guy in a suit and tie looks good. SO it is funny that Casey in his trash attire as Mikey would call it drew Raph's eyes. Casey is wild, crazy and totally violent and despite it Raphael took a liking to Casey right away. Raph's pretty hands on with his and Casey relationship not really holding back how he feels and Casey seems to take no issue with how over the top Raph can be. All took was for Casey to say he thought Raph was funny for those seeds to plant and turn more into love than just Raph having a crush. Raphael likes that Casey seems to like Raph for the things that are who Raphael is even when he sometimes feels those things might make him come short compared to the rest. He knows he can make Casey laugh and even feel loved and safe so he takes pride in that.

|Regret|

"...I regert not being a better brother."

Raphael loves his family its kind of all he really has, I mean that's a tad obvious of course. They are the only ones like them and I would say Raphael is pretty close to all his brothers to different degrees. Of course, he is sarcastic to them all but they seem pretty used to the snippy behavior he has demonstrate time and time again. Mostly they blow it off or get annoyed but that's just brothers for you. He is arguably the closest to Donatello. So any fight between them tends to carry more weight. Raphael still blames his and Donatello's fight on himself. From being a jerk towards his brother when it came to their inventions something that Donatello takes a lot of pride into. To not even being away they went through some heart break. Raph really wants to re patch things between especially after Don's time ad a little turtle again where he just spent time with them he's seeing he misses that and feels it is his own fault why that happened.

|Change|

"Eh I don't change much i'm always as I come off."

I dunno if it fits but I'm going with it, I like that despite how negative Raphael can be when it comes to being hero sometimes first to make things out for humans to deal with themselves not understanding why it has to be them to fix the issue. Heck sometimes he doesn't even want to fight instead he pitches they just go home. Much like the time he got to go to the boat party, when seeing people need help? Raphael at his core dose in fact want to help. When he thought he was going to die it was how he wanted to go out even. Raphael can act selfish and sometimes he is even but even when humans don't always have the best opinion of them, Raph with change his tune because in truth he isn't that selfish that he won't help someone in need.

|Dreams| "You uh ya don't wanna be bored with what I dream about now would ya? Nah course not I bet that yappy Raphs dream got way more going on."

Raphael sometimes dreams about Casey, but not in a way you might think. He dreams about them and a life they maybe can have. Raphael has said it from the start he is nuts himself he don't know why he could see forever with Casey from the start he just knew it was what he wanted. He dreams of calling home the same place Casey dose. He dreams of mundane conversations about things being broken or needing to be fixed in their place. The idea of lounging on the couch with out having to worry about falling asleep because if he dose they can stay there all night or Casey could carry him to bed for the night. Maybe little foot steps are in those dreams he hasn't thought to much on that outside knowing he might have to keep telling Casey he can't lay eggs despite being a turtle u-u

Raphael just get's a bit too embarrassed this is something he dreams about just something so normal despite everything about himself, their relationship even Casey himself not being normal he likes to think they can have their own normal.

03/07

|Technology|

"I ain't the geek of the team 'hat's Don's 'hing. Me? I rather break stuff, mostly bones. But ya want the best guy for the job? Ask Donnie hes the wiz"

Yeah Raph ain't much for the tech stuff he tends to keep things more simple as well. Honestly he don't have the patience either. Raph is a more street smart turtle anyway sure he likes to read but his cleverness is far more on the being able to think on his feet aspect over how his twin brother tends to work. Brains and Brawn for a reason and Raph's pretty happy sticking to be brawn he approach to tech isn't to hack its just to smash it. least he tends to know when he should grab something for Donnie to check out later. |Flowers|

"Roses are nice." Despite Raph being mister tough guy we all know this boys got the biggest soft side to him. Raphael never had love on the mind though. Leo may be a romantic and Don dreamed to have a family his own someday. Raphael? nah romance wasn't in the cards he thought. Sure Raphael felt attraction being bisexual he dose tend to lean more towards men himself having a thing for muscular builds. Raphael wouldn't really turn down a chance to get intimate.

Then he gained feelings for Casey. And that was a problem. Casey struggled because of his fathers ways and instilling homophobia into poor Casey. Raphael? it wasn't that it was because Casey is his best friend. His only real friend. Casey the one person in the whole world hell universe that understands and gets him. Nothing about Raph seems to deter Casey away from him. Casey likes Raphael as he is, the broody, grumpy turtle he can be yet here's Casey draping an arm over his shoulders and telling them they should fix their bikes together well letting Raph have a space to air out his temper with out judgement. Casey this chill near laid back guy and well hes good looking. He looks out for Raph as well. Sure Casey likes to tease Raph but he never annoys Raph, despite being able to get on anyone nerves Raph even jumps in defense of Casey. And when he got feelings romantic feelings? Raphael wanted to deny them bury them and hope they die because he didn't think Casey would feel the same. What if Casey was grossed out by it?

Lucky for him Casey actually liked him back, so because Raph was the one to confess first he tends to try that more on his end. Like when he first told Casey he loved him he gave him a rose. He's seen humans do it before, and I like to think it's still something Raph dose for casey to this day present them with a single small red rose. Usually it's for no reason at all sometimes it's on purpose but he will kick Casey's ass if he teases him to much for it. But Flower mean feeling bloom and well that why he likes to do it. Cause Casey was the one to bring that out of Raph.

|Regret|

"....I regret hurting them."

Is it a surprise? his biggest regret is that he broke up with Casey, that he pushed Don out of his life. Raphael is closest to his twin and his best friend they are the ones that Raphael finds peace around the most. But Raphael will never truly forgive himself for what he did. Raphael dosen't know if they ever fully forgave him either. When Casey's needy side get worse Raphael complies because he knows it was his fault when Don shuts him out hes not as quick to push them to speak.Raphael knows he caused some scares himself.

Raphael knows Donnie gone through stuff he wont talk about he always is there if Don wants to talk or not. Raphael was in such a bad spot mentally. He was depressed deeply depressed he was listening to all his negative thoughts allowing them to rule his mind to points he couldn't. He believed how he thought. Deciding to do something so stupid like hurt his twin someone he shares a very special connection with.

And even if he knows better what it means to stick together he knows he can never truly make up for what he did. But he tries. It is part of why he got so close to his niece. Why he always has her side even on things he don't agree with. Raphael wants to prove he won't leave again. By trying to make up for it to Donnie through Ariel.

SK!Casey au: Raph is going to hold some regrets once the truth is out well at least to Raphael that Casey is the killer Raph is sort of regretting how open he was with Casey about everything even if it did sort of save his shell to express his views and thoughts. He regrets going to look for Answer more, because it shattered something for him. Casey to him was this goof ball good guy who treated him and his brothers so kindly. So how can this still be that same guy?

|Change|

"..i'm tryin' I am really tryin'" Rapheal was at his lowest more than once when his anger was so bad he almost hurt Mikey, his pride winding him a victim to Bishop, his depression making him do a lot of stupid shit. Raphael is trying to be better. Trying to change for the better if he is? Well he's not sure but hes too stubborn to give up. When Summer came in his and Casey life she was the light that he needed to start changing for the better, trying to be better about how he lets his mind work. Basically he's learning some self love and keeping to it.

SK!Casey au: Raphael, admittedly can be selfish sometimes he doesn't feel some issue should be his and his brothers problem when the death started Raphael didn't care often fought with Leo about it not being their issue to deal with. Raphael's tone dose change once getting a reality check twice. Once after seeing Buck begin one of the victims it starts to make Raph rethink a lot. That maybe there is something to the whole code of Bushido Leo is so all about. And then when he learned that killer is Casey? Lets just say there is bound to be more change for Raphael. Because he dose still love and care about Casey but how can he be okay with what Casey is doing? Not that he's getting much choice here. Casey isn't giving him that choice.

Even once Casey has him caught Raphael's not sure if he can just change how he feels. He's going to learn Love can be just as confusing as anything else. That emotions can change and be twisted even uwu

|Dreams|

"hmm I don' really dream?"

Raph is someone who doesn't recall his dreams all to well because he has narcolepsy, Raph's know to be night owl himself out late doing who knows what esp when he was going around as the Night watcher for a time. It dose add to why Raph's kind of just a grump over all. He feels rested after he sleeps but grows tried as the day goes on so it's not uncommon for him to be napping around.

Now he dose have other dreams. He dreams Summer to have a life where she is just loved and happy. He dreams of growing grey with Casey. he dreams of having his brothers there when finally dies hoping hes first to go. He dreams of just peaceful days laughing in the kitchen with Casey. It's all he wants.

CC AU:

When Casey asked Raphael to move in with him he asked if they were serious meaning the relationship. He was fine having fun but Raphael would like more, for all he knew Raph was just someone convenient or easy a chance to get their dick wet even maybe. Truth was far more than he thought he could ever have. Casey loved him and wanted to be with him. So Raphael said yes, and headed home but his trips out sort of put a target on his back seemed he made a pattern that someone noticed right away. And Raphael was caught and taken away. The whole time Raphael was captured and held he dreamed of the farm. He dreamed being with Casey on the porch sitting together as the sun would start to set. Casey's arm over his shoulders well they just talked on about the farm. Going on from the horses like Zombie to a cow or something he saw in need of a home.

Raph would wake up to the curl truth and slip back to that escape from his hell. All he wanted was to get back to Casey he wanted to return to the quite of the farm. He wanted to return to the peacefulness Casey gave him the clam quite of a county night the deep blue sky full of stars. Just like Casey's eyes he always loved the ocean but he was finding that a land lock area called to him more.

12

|Technology|

"Yeah, ain't my thing can' understand half the gibberish Donnie says as is. He's the expert." I find it funny how often Raph in 12 just breaks things to get them into cells and such because he just doesn't not have the time to wait for Donnie to like hack into. For being a ninja Raph tends to gloss over the stealth often. I do like that Donnie at one point tells Raph he's got it when Raph's ready to do it again even taking on of his sai, though more precise than Raph is when he just jams his sai into something to bust it up. Considering Raph is often shown opposite on the thought process to Donatello. Even Mikey seems to understand tech a bit better from how he learned to use cell phone signals to track the pizza boy, able to do the same so they could find Casey. Yeah Raph is safe to say technological illiterate because even Leo can understand to a degree what Don is saying once dumbed down a bit. Raph will pick on Donnie for it but doesn't stop him from just assuming Donnie will know either. |Flowers|

"Case could pick a dandelion out of the side walk and give it ta me and it would be my favorite flower."

Raphs feelings for Casey started the day Casey saved him from getting ran over by the train, Casey didn't have to is the thing. Him and Raph had been at odds the second they met. But Casey saved him. Raphael's feeling for Casey only grew from then because Casey much like then was always there for Raphael. Casey actively listens to Raph even when it might not seem like he is, Casey became somewhat of a safe space for the turtle he could vent towards. Casey never saw Raph's anger as a bad thing either likely because he deals with his own anger issues and it just felt nice for Raphael to have someone in his corner when sometimes its like he never did. His feelings just grew and grew till he realized what he felt was romantic. I honestly think no matter what happened Raph would struggle to confess because what if confessing made him lose his friend? Raph just got lucky there was excuses for why he wouldn't or had to. But after some time Raphael felt kind of bad for keeping it to him he thought maybe the feelings would fade? They only grew he found he loved the big things about Casey and the small things. He loved how Casey was loyal, Casey values friends and family. Casey someone Raph can spare with in a fight, share interest in hobbies. Casey got dark hair and deep brown eyes, and cute little freckles uwu Boy can't help it hes hooked.

Raphael might not always be the best partner he will and often makes mistakes but hes willing to talk them out and fix things. Because at the end he knows he loves Casey And he just wants to do right by Casey. He soaks up every moment with them patrolling or holding them at night eve.

|Regret|

"Mona, how I was to Donnie, how I treated Leo when he was named leader, how I treated Mikey for years, not better watching Spike, not noticing Casey was spiraling sooner, not being able to protect them..all of them." Safe to say Raphael hold a lot of regrets, i'm gonna dive into a few though.

Mona: Raphael got along with Mona pretty easily and he even tried to convince the others they should work with the salamadians but after their first fight they weren't willing to trust them. Raphael did make friends with her and yeah he did find her to be attractive but that was about as far that went. He had Casey and Casey is his whole universe. But he still nearly lost Casey even thought they broke up for a time, happy to see it wasn't true. He did keep his friendship with mona and it paid off well that they had allies in space. However Dregg soon found out about this friendship and used it. Mona betrayed Raphael's trust and called them for help Raph of course came to her aid like he would any friend he cares for. But then it was revealed to be a trick. Luckily Donnie and April were back on the ship. But he put Leo, Mikey and Casey all in danger. Raphael was pun intended shellshocked by it all. It took Casey to snap him out of it. But thing is? this has stuck with him it's why he never wants to talk about Mona once they got through everything. Mona showed him that he may want to protect those he cares for more than anything but somethings he can't protect them from. It's a near fear he has been made to realize and it keeps him up at night. I like to think he might break down one day and confess this fear. Something he is reminded of later when Giant big mutants attack them and take everyone away. He is able to get past fear and save them but the fear has very well been cemented in his head and he blames it all on Mona.

Donnie: Raph feels awful for what happened when Donnie got sick he was hurt with Don sure and even tells him when confronted but he feels so bad for not being there when Donnie needed him, even if Raph is going to be there when Don's illness and stupid gets the better of him Raph still feels that guilt. Don is his brother and well to Raph there just isn't an excuse to him not to protect them. That his brother and Raph would be lost without any of them. But even more so with out Donnie.

Casey Spiraling: Raphael is meant to be Casey boyfriend and best friend. He knew all of the stress Casey keeps from the others. How he broke one day because despite hoe he carries himself it was just too much on his shoulders. Raph knew it was because of his mother Casey strives to keep it all together best he could as well. He knew Casey went to see his mother just before he stopped responding. Sure Raph had no way of knowing what was going on but he could have found out he could have been then for Casey sooner. So Casey would gone of the deep end. It's why Raph promises Casey mom he'll do better, why he will make the same promise to Casey dad. Raphael wants to be there for Casey no matter what it is

Raph soon learns all he wants to do is just protect those he cares for, he knows that is a big thing to ask but he dose he has so little and he might not be able to fully shield them but he wants to protect them all with all he has. He doesn't care if that price is himself in the end. Foot!Casey au:

Raphael wonders if he had been far more open with his feelings for Casey even when they were together if maybe he could have stopped what happened. If he had shown Casey just how much he really loved them feeling it wasn't enough could he have helped Casey sooner? If Raphael had made his devotion better know, let Casey see it wasn't ever light heart that Raph's love for Casey burns as hot as his temper then maybe Casey would understood he really dose love him. That he loved him for real, it wasn't about anything physical only. Sure that was fun and sure it how Raph got his emotions through but he should have made a better effort to word those feelings. Even when he has Casey back he worries about it all.

|Change|

"Change is natural, all stuff changes." Raphael and Splinter's relationship wasn't always the best and it wasn't all that bad either. Raphael just really seeked his fathers approval but all he felt was that he was just wrong. That Leo was the favorite the better son and more. That no matter what Raph did no make how good he was in sparing and even art it wouldn't ever be enough for Splinter. And this did put some strain there he loves his Dad he really dose, why he freaked out thinking they had died during the kraang invasion. Raph biggest issue with Splinter is when it came to dealing with his anger. Raph just holds a lot of emotion in him and Splinter tells him to be a stone in river and let that stuff roll over him. B ut that isn't who he is. HE tries he dose but then the water gets to high and he feels like he's going to drown. Raph is fire he is meant to burn.

Raphael just needs to learn that fire isn't always destructive.

|Dreams|

"...yeah I actually don' sleep much."

Sometimes Raph dreams nice things about him and Casey and their little family. He dreams about them just being together, cheering Casey as his games and such. Hanging out with Angel or his brothers for get together even. but not always are they nice dreams uwu.

Raphael deals with a lot of nightmares, sometimes he just doesn't want to sleep at all. He rather skip it if he can or survives on small naps here and there. His best sleep is when Casey's around. He likes having Casey curled up against him, even if he doesn't sleep he least can doze well holding on to Casey. He keeps them close and buries his face into Casey hair. When he dose dream he seeks out Casey for comfort. Dreaming about losing Casey, losing his brothers, April and more. It's always the same reason because he didn't do enough and it plagues him a lot. So sometimes he fakes that he's going to sleep and waits till Casey out before he just cuddles in against Casey. Sometimes when he really bad he'll ling his fingers with Caseys and hold their hand through the night.

SF

|Technology|

"Uhg still no." I'm running out of things to say here XD Raphs and tech just don't mix XD |Flowers|

"...I kind got good with making paper roses."

And yes he dose want to give them to Casey uwu

Reason behind Raph knowing how to do origami is because of Splinter. When Raph was younger his anger was far worse and he often got into fights with his brothers so Splinter as punishment made Raph sit down and learn orgiami as a way to work through his anger but also because he would be task with giving what he made to who he owns a sorry towards. Because it takes a lot of time and effort to fold the paper just right it means Raph really has to sit and think on what he did wrong.

It can also be seen as a symbol of luck, becuase one has to sit with their emotions at the time it's like they are being put into every fold even Raph's love for Casey when he makes them hockey sticks and of course roses.

|Regret|

"Not fighting betta." He dose feel better after Casey talks to him when Splinter was take from them but it still sort of eats away at Raphael. He just wants so much to protect those who he holds dear his world is so small, because his world are the people in his life. Losing anyone of them is too much. All Raph had is his fists but sometimes punching just isn't enough. What dose he do when fighting people off isn't enough? It was enough to get Splinter back, it isn't enough to get Donnie to stop blaming himself for everything that goes wrong. It's not enough to get Leo to understand they don't have to shoulder everything alone it isn't enough to help keep Mikey from getting hurt it isn't enough to protect Casey from harms he never knew about.

If Raphael was a better fighter? its why he trains and lifts weights even outside usual practice why he likes going out on patrol with Casey it's kind of like Leo wishing to sharpen his own skills.

|Change|

"Eh I don' 'ike it much."

Raphael isn't on to take to change well he kind of finds comfort in things staying the same it makes it more predictable that way easier. But he also knkw that's some changes are good. When his feeling sfor Casey changed, when they met April. There are good kinds of changes of course there is. But it's the bad ones he don't handle well

When they lost Splinter for one. Thar was a change he didn't handle well missing even the smallest thing about his Dad like thier silly apron. Raphael acted tough as he always dose but emotional? He was a mess he felt lost aimless with out Splinter around sure they could talk and reach his sprit but it wasn't the same. He missed the way they patted his head or grabbed his face to force his attetion on to his father. Way he tried so hard to beat through swarms of bad guys to get things back to hiw it was before.

|Dreams|

"Eh I don' really dream. Dreams are for sleepin"

I have also gave SF Raphie a case of necolyposy uwu boy dosent really get that rem cycle of sleep which is when people dream. Raph dose sleep heveaily once he is out but he dosent ever sleep for long which is why he often is able to up and about with Donnie because well Raphael knows He's at least awake too so he likes getting to spend the time around his brother. Sadly this is likely when he annoys donnie most resulting in Don's revenge to teach Raph wrong. But then he has todo deal with Raph being an idiot later so really he's cause his own pain later.

MM

|Technology|

"Donnie might be a total weeb but he's the tech guy."

I mean outside his cell Raphael's nit much if a tech person still. As the other Raph's they just are not tech savvy so to speak. Dumb? Sort of but street smarts still even when Raphael's in the middle of raging out we do see him able to think on his feet when seeing the car circling donnie and mikey he did at least think of how to stop the car by hitting its break. Happily calling himself awesome for it after. Least when he has a plan often he don't and just either gose all in or decides they could just go home really challenging some 87 raphie here. |Flowers|

"Uh dunno guess rose, sunflower, hibiscus, lily? Thise are flowers? They are nice I guess?"

There is a reason I picked those. Raphael knew if able he would like to go to school so he could make friends later it's because he wants to join a team he just thinks it be fun to meet other people and such. Romance neber crossed his mind let alone his sexual preferences and what not. Even after Raphael starts to sort of get that intrest and such he dosent really know what label fits him. When he dose get intrest he dose know he likes Casey in that way at least Casey's nonbinary though so he's not sure if that really factors or not he just knows he thinks Casey's attractive uwu he likes all thier freckles and their dumb smile. Like most my Rpahs he likes Bisexual male leaning. Especially because Raphael took a major liking to any old movies they watched thar were about sports teams like Remember the titans Sunshine may have made him think about kissing boys as well.

I mentioned off hand he has a crush on the rap singer Drake as well but he don't know that how he feels. Much as much as I like to joke about it this idiot isn't gonna notice that he's romanticly intrested in casey either right away. Despite the obvious signs being there uwu

|Regret|

"Kind regert tellin' my brothers I didn' want thier faces ta be the last thing I see."

Raphael likes to play cool especially around his brothers. Mostly his brothers. Cool os not caring and being the bug tough guy. But deep down? Raphael loves his brothers so much. You can see how much he looks out to protect them with out a second thought even. This don't fit anywhere else I just feel like bringing it up I like to think Raph shell is still cracked thanks to superfly. So it severs as a nice reminder now.

|Change|

"I mean a lot changed now so guess 'hats cool?"

Raphael happy for the changes going on, mkre family is nice having other mutants around helps him feel less alone, less alien even. He gets to go to school and well I thinks he's friendly with some he still really only has April and casey as real friends Casey being his best even if they had a rocky start and nkt many understand how thier friendship works.

|Dreams|

"I dream 'bout fighting a lot. There's no problem there."

Raph, even tells the others he dreams about fighting but not so much actual dreams he has at night just something he felt would be love todo. He still has he rage issues he just full of it and he needs to work it out he dose try to keep it in check he just always feel mad but things like going out into the city, messing around on tje roof with his brothers anything hands on even dose seem to help he dosent really knkw why he so angry and he tries his best not to take it out on his brothers. He very easily could focus it on like Leo when he snitches on them instead he keeps it in and let's it come out more as teenage mood swings and attitude which has a lot todo with how he carries himself around and speaks towards others.

Fighting and sports is a very good way for him to work it out least tap into he as an outlet but this means he may loose control and go to far maybe even. With out meaning too.

That why he dreams of meeting someone who will just get him understand him in a way no one else has. He just feels so alone despite being surrounded by a family. He's not a bad person he's just overly excitable at times and very passionate about what he likes.

[b-ritney]

I had 2 dreams last night that I believe are worth sharing b there is def something wrong with me lmao

The first one went like this:

I was left alone at a beach house in a bustling little town.. I explored the house for a while but decided to go outside and look for shells well I found a bunch of extraordinarily colored clams and went to grab them to look at but put them back bc I knew they were still alive. Well they got mad and a few of them started chasing me and then all of them started chasing me and then more came from out of nowhere and I was being chased by a legion of angry clams..... then it goes blank idk lmao

The second dream:

I was with my friend out in the middle of nowhere and we came upon this really busy gas station that I guess is the last good one before you really hit the open road. Well we stopped there and went inside and as soon as we came in the owner said, "Oh good" and threw us uniforms and made us work... well we started laughing in disbelief bc what the hell lmao but he was really serious... sooo we started working but decided to start fucking around with customers and acting dumb bc we didn't want to be there. THIS IS WHERE IT GETS INTERESTING

A group of 3 cyclist in full cycling leotards and helmets ride their bikes up to the side of the building and get off to come inside for something.. well one of them looked really familiar and I looked at my friend and said "hey I know him" and she goes "yeah me too" then the guy unzips the top half of his outfit to cool off and I realize it's Jamie Campbell Bower lmao.... BUT to be inconspicuous he has covered his tattoo's and drawn over them... more specifically the heart on his chest he covered and then drew a heart with a smiley face in it... lmao anyway I say to my friend audibly "OMG it's Jamie Bower" and his friends start looking around panicked bc lol they've been caught, so one guy goes "hey we want 3 hunny buns" and I was like "you can have them I dont know what the hell Im doing back here so just take them." well he ends up paying anyway and Jamie is just looking at me and my friend the whole time... well someone else in the building must have recognized him and put it online bc a swarm of teenage girls shows up and Jaime runs for the hills.... Literally... and SOME HOW... he get's a microphone and speaker and sets up a meet and greet on the hill outside the gas station and me and my friend get special treatment for some reason he said... I can't remember why lmao... that's it bahahahaha

[ratguy-nico]

People so sorry for yestarday I was in a low moment but colapsing actually help, I haven't slept this well in months... well, to be honest, I have hardly slept at all 😅

My brain doesn't take well good news so i was happy saturday and sunday my brain was like Why are you happy? You dont have to be happy, this is not about you. So yeah, my brain hates me.

But today Im much more better so about the piece. Is obviousley not finish, but let me describe a little of the process and refences and why this outfits were choosed.

The first one (bottom one) is for The Frond Files, and by now you have may notice I really like Gene's segment on this episode so I think it doesn't need further explanation. Gene Long Hair Supremacy.

Second one, in early seasons this was Gene fancy outfit and I actually really miss it. I remeber being 12 and dreaming to have a tuxedo t-shirt, I dont know why I though it was the coolest thing ever XD and the hair, damn, this is one of my fav Gene's hair (yeah I have an actual list of favorite Gene's hair leave me alone) and maybe cause of the hair I was trying to give it a Draco Malfoy little sassy spoiled brat vibe. My girl is a diva. Both of my girls.

Third one (depending on the angle) I really like mini chef Gene XD dunno why, he's not gonna inherit the restaurant and even if he loves fancy food he's not that into cooking but I love a chefsito moment. But I choose it mostly for the pose that actually come straigh from this frame:

And a fun fact this is from "Something Old, Something New, Something Bob Caters for You" (one of my favs episode of all times) (season 8 you will always be precious for me) and it actually doesn't appear on the episode XD I was so conviced that it did. I have seen that episode a hundred time and I was like whaaat?

So yeah love the pose, super sad that it didn't make it to the final cut.

Fourth one Girls being Girls being Girls doesn't need to be explain is one of the most iconic Gene looks, she's a Diva, she's a girl that knows what she wants and she's not gonna take no for an anwser cause she knows she's a Star.

The last one comes from "Tina Tailor Soldier Spy" and for me is just the most Gene outfit ever, not inherently feminine (even though is literally from a girl's garbage) is not masculine either but is super campy, is just a unique mix of a bunch of things that shouldn't work but it does cause is all Gene, and they can pull off anything.

Finally the secret... one of the things I love the most about Gene is the fact that Gene is Gene XD She is a girl. He is a boy. They are any of the above in and out of menu.

And for me is not a headcanon is something that the serie has made very clear, and yeah of course Gene is only 11, and what? I knew I was trans at 7 and try to tell my family at 12 so yeah, I don't know how age is an impediment for you to know who you are.

And the fact than Gene is unapologetically Geneself is what makes me fall in love with them over and over again every fricking time.

So yeah. Happy Geneuary, I love Gene, i don't know if you notice.

People if being honest I didn't want to posted this draw at all, in fact I almost deleted the whole thing 😅

No joking I change the BG like 20 times. I was gonna post just the lineart even if the flat coloring was done, then I was just gonna post the scketch, and finally said fuck it and just didn't look at the drawing the whole day and right before going to bed, posted it trying to not look at it so my brain would not go rampage mode.

Of course Im not happy with it I think you are already use to this shitty behavior from me but this time is not only because of the execution but the idea itself didn't convince me, I select what I thought were the most iconic Gene looks without really thinking about it, just put the first thing that came to mind.

Actually the Jessica one, from "Tina Tailor Soldier Spy" was a last addition.

So yeah I was working on it and start like... Wait you didn't drew Beef Squatch, you didn't put the movie final outfit? you didn't put Cheerleading Gene? The Runway Club? YOU DIDN'T PUT THE OUTFIT THAT MADE YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH GENE IN THE FIRST PLACE? (Banjo outfit from "Spaghetti Western and Meatballs" Season 1... yeah I fell in love quickly, Im an easy man)

So yeah it was like why I didn't thought this through T^T but hey... no positive shit I could add except that I really like how the secret turned out XD but very glad you actually like it.

Sorry you have to deal with my shitty attitud I should learn to shut up and just let you enjoy but is so frutating cause I don't understand why you would like what I made? It just doesn't make sense. Im sorry, really. I will try to be more positive in the future or at least try to not say how I feel.

Geneuary prompt Fashion/Secret

So...yeah... flat colors, no render, a mask of color and about the secret:

[genshinlover101]

may i request a s/o who's really smart but weak when it comes to physical activities(like senku ishigami from dr.stone tho),with sara,beidou, and 2 other characters of ur choice.take care,thank u and dont overwork urself!!<3

Her with a Smart but Weak S/O 

Characters: Sara, Beidou, Yelan, Shinobu x gn!reader

Warnings: none

A/n: I’m gonna be completely honest and say I have yet to watch Dr. Stone, I searched up his wiki page and scanned over his personality section so I hope that’s enough to grasp a smart but weak reader <3

• Sara was both a cunning strategist and physically talented. She was both brains and brawn, someone who you revered and highly respected. The only thing that blinded her was her loyalty towards the Shogun. The path that she dearly sought was clouded by her own mental barriers. 

• However strong or smart she was, Sara deeply admired you. Your barrier was something that was visible and easily overcome. No matter how often you guided her she simply could not grasp why she was so inept at being a normal average person without duty.

• She envied your ability to think outside of the box. Sometimes when she was in a pinch you’d save her with your abstract solutions, a strategy that she wouldn’t have even dreamed of. Even if you couldn’t accomplish it yourself, your greatest strength was all you needed to overcome your greatest weakness.

Sara crunched the seventh disposable paper in her hand that night, her hand rubbing her forehead in frustration. No matter how many strategy books she reviewed, how many formulas she created, or past performances she retraced, she could not figure out how to overcome this band of Nobushi. 

It was like a slow burn to hear her groan in the middle of the night, trying to sleep but your brain in a million different places at once. You felt as if Sara’s anxious state was like a template for yourself, peaking at her sitting at the wooden desk with nothing but a small candle lighting the dark space. 

You had decided enough was enough, creeping up behind Sara to see for yourself what was so difficult. Analyzing the Nobushi camp, looking at areas to infiltrate it. Before she could write whatever she was about to on her eighth try, you lowered your hand upon hers taking control of her feathered pen but not letting her leave your grip. Surrounding her crouched body with your own you drew a diagram of exactly how to approach the situation with the least amount of casualties.

It didn’t take Sara long to follow your plan, the genius of the Tenryou Commission’s General not far behind your own. However, being a general was the exact thing that was holding her back, not knowing how to think beyond her own knowledge and training. “This is brilliant,” she muttered, her lips barely parted as she looked at the simple solution.

“I cannot partake in such a plan, but I’m sure someone as strong as a Tengu will be able to take the lead,” you reassured her. 

She clenched her fists together in determination and in partial relief that she would finally be able to retire for the night. “I am grateful to have someone as intelligent as you alongside me. I am regretful to say I couldn’t have even imagined this as a plan of attack,” She looked down, not meeting your eyes once as if she was ashamed. “I will gladly honor this plan, it is a pity you cannot be beside me while I do so, however.” 

 • Beidou was admittedly stronger than she was smarter, but that didn’t mean she was stupid. After all, who else could lead a whole band of pirates in an organized fashion? Who else could bypass the great Tianquan? Who else could spread their name far and wide to strike fear in the hearts of all Treasure Hoarders?

• When it came to anything else other than battle and war, Beidou was somewhat dense unless she’s encountered it before. Math Equations, Civil ministry, law? She looked to you for that. After all, connections were a resource, she would be stupid not to rely on you every once and a while.

• She envied your book smarts. She never listened when the adults said, ‘listen to this in school, because you’ll use this in your adulthood’, therefore she somewhat lacked in logistics. But who knew you’d need to know geometry and physics to aim a cannon whenever you needed perfect accuracy. 

Beidou scratched her head at the bill that was given to her the moment she anchored at Liyue Harbor. Not understanding the many numbers and terms used in the document, all she knew was that she had done something illegal and had to pay a great sum of money. Rolling her eyes as she was looking forward to relaxing and stuffing her mouth with something other than saltwater fish for the first time in two weeks. 

What did she do when she didn’t understand something though? She called upon her partner in crime. “Bring me the brains of the crew will ya?” Beidou told a crewmate, knowing exactly who she was talking about even without her calling your official title or name. 

It didn’t take them long to drag you against your will to the same dock, no matter how smart you were, you couldn’t stand your ground against even an average crewmate. Beidou turned to face you with a goofy smile, her movements very animated, her affection for you not very well hidden. She wasted no time shoving the scroll in your face, you already knew what was coming. 

“Beidou sometimes you can be insufferable,” you sighed. Despite your teasing comments, she knew you adored her, your attitude was the least of her worries. You skimmed over the contents of the document, calculating all her tolls and legal terms that her muscle of a brain couldn’t comprehend. 

“You can solve it though right? I mean- you solve everything don’t you sport?” She put you in an annoying headlock, her arm wrestling with your neck so you didn’t try and escape. You were about to speak against her, your mouth only opening a smudge before she immediately cut you off. “Listen, don’t tell me all the boring details, I just wanna know the damages and if I can squeeze outta it you know?”

• Yelan was smarter than stronger, to be able to manipulate her targets and mask her true identity from even her closest confidants. Everyone could trust Yelan, but Yelan could trust nobody, only using her resources to serve as an intelligence the Tianquan. 

• When it came to Yelan’s allies she always believed in ‘you scratch my back, I’ll scratch yours,’. However, for you, it was more like ‘keep your friends close, your enemies closer,’. Your smarts were enough to be considered a threat if you ever accidentally found something out of your bounds.

• She was rather sly, if you found out about her real line of work you’d be immediately thrown in jail. But for her, you were a treasure trove of intelligence. She would consider losing you as a great loss, something that she would struggle to recover from for years.

Yelan stood leaning over the wooden fence that oversaw Liyue Harbor from Yujing Terrace. The moon hanging overhead as she waited for your arrival, you were late much to her dismay. She always looked forward to her meetings with you, the hair on her skin tingling with excitement as she thought of all the little intel she could dig from you.

Her thoughts were interrupted by your arrival. “Ah my dearest,” her hand wrapped on your chest into a warm embrace. “I apologize for not being awake this morning to greet you, you know- it’s just simply too early for me,” she always knew how to butter you up. Your toes squeezed at her unusual affection. She knew how to bend her words and exactly how to touch you to get your attention. You felt weak in the knees, even weaker than you normally were.

You hung yourself over the railing, looking at only her, despite the beautiful night view. She scooted closer to you with a smug look, covering your ear with her hand when she whispered to you. “Did you hear?” she asked trying to strike up a conversation. You stared at her emerald eyes, her face so close you could see her vibrant purple makeup. 

She took your silence as a no, grabbing your shoulder to get impossibly closer. “I heard from the great vine, the Qixing may be planning something special for you,” she relayed, such harmless information. Something that might’ve even been fabricated in order to get what she wanted from you. “Would you like to find out?” 

You took a minute to think, a bead of sweat dripping from your forehead in peril. Gently nodding in case you might regret saying yes. “You first, you remember our deal no?” She asked you, her head cocked at an angle with a smile that meant death to you. “In order to get information from me- you must give me something equal in return.”

• Shinobu was admittedly smarter than stronger, but not by much. How else would the Arataki gang stay afloat? Without Shinobu’s quick wits and physical competence then the entire gang would probably be locked up and abolished by the Tenryou Commission.

• Shinobu looked up to your quick wits and plans. Sometimes even she came to a mental barrier on how to get her friends out of trouble, but you never failed. Even if you yourself couldn’t help her physically, your wits was enough to impress her.

• She admired how capable your sheer intelligence was. It was a good change of scenery after being surrounded by grown men who steal candy from kids on a daily. You seemed civil and put together, someone who she didn’t have to worry about for once.

If Shinobu didn’t wear her mask 24/7, you would be able to see just how deep the scowl on her face was. Yet again the Arataki Gang had been reprimanded by the Tenryou Commission. Usually, she just had to convince them to apologize to General Kujou and they’d be granted freedom at her mercy. But this time they’d truly done it, a stray member who had escaped confinement relaying the situation to her.

You didn’t need to be told twice about the whole ordeal, already knowing Itto had probably done something horrible to serve such a big sentence. Shinobu stood still trying to think of all the possibilities and best course of action. Even though Shinobu has extensive knowledge of almost everything, it seemed the whole shock of the incident shook her to the core. 

You normally didn’t want to backseat Shinobu’s concerns, she was plenty capable. But this wasn’t a manner of undermining her competence, it was to be her supporting crutch when she needed it most. You placed a warm hand on her shoulder. “Would you like me to try and talk to the Tenryou Commission?” you tried to convince her.

She felt cold blood run through her veins when your words processed through her mind. when she realized she wasn’t alone she felt a sense of relief. Since she couldn’t trust the gang to do most difficult tasks, she had forgotten what it was like to rely on others. Regardless, she was always one to reject the help of others when she knew she could do it herself. “No need,” she took your hand from her shoulder.

Even though she was stubborn, your mental support was all she needed. “I know when it comes to physical labor you’re not the best,” she tried to say in the nicest way possible. “But your support is more than enough, if there comes a time when I need you I’ll call upon you.”