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ok hamilton rant incoming sorry i had to wake up at 7 am and dis is the first thing on my minddddd
Cannn I be honesttttttt when Hamilton was big I was a teen but I was still like ok obviously this is politically weird what with the rapping slave masters and all. Obviously this is best engaged with as complete fiction inspired by looking at american history and going "what if it was like not super horrible and was cool actually" it’s america fanfiction, because anything less sanitized wouldn’t be green lit for Da Big Stage. I get that.
So when ppl turned on it and started saying it was problematic and tonally weird.... it kinda just made me think that yall were actually just super fucking stupid. because yeah. obviously. i figured we were all ignoring that cuz the songs went kinda hard?
Cuz like if the slavery thing, thomas jefferson mentioning sally in passing, and zero (or so minimal i cant remember it) mention of native ppl didn’t piss you the hell off already… if you thought this was at all based on reality like... I think you’re dumb !! cuz its not like we dont KNOW any of that, that shit is taught in school !!
And like to be clear this isnt a defense of its politics but i do think a lot of people never actually gave a shit about the politics. I think that a lot of (mostly white) people only turned on it because they thought it was something cringe that they used to like, because it certainly isn’t the case that suddenly a shit ton of white people started listening to indigenous & black people around them who said this was kind of weird and revisionist. so the only conclusion i can come to is a lot of white ppl who wanted to seem progressive and were embarrassed to have liked it suddenly remembered all of american history when it was relevant to them and were like "oh ok i can say its bad cuz of my politics and distance myself from it"
Like it’s not like anything in it was revealed to be secretly politically upsetting/incoherent. It was very obviously absolute fiction from the start and to treat it otherwise would've made it so unpalatable that you could only do it if u were doing it with ur eyes and ears closed. stupidddddddddd
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chris gets his gf of 2 months pregnant and they’re both rly panicked 😖



A/n: ofc! I put a slight spin on it! I absolutely love these requests I have coming in, you guys are amazing!! I hope you love it! And remember to leave requests in my inbox! If you don’t like the pre added name in my works you can simply put in your own or don’t read it, it up to you :)-Charli
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You and chris should have known to be more careful. You should have seen it coming from a mile away but you guys apparently didnt.
You and chris had only been dating for 2 months, so not that long. You two had been stuck in the honeymoon phase somewhat which meant your guys sex drives were at an all time high.
"fuck chris d-dont stop"
you moan out from underneath him as he steadily thrusts in and out of you.
"wasnt planning on it princess"
chris grunts out shifting his grip to your hips giving him a little leverage.
You thought you guys were being careful and you were. you made sure not only you took your birth control consistent but also made sure he wrapped it up before anything it wasn't until one late night when you guys ended up having lazy sex that you two were as protective.
"holy shit this feels so fucking good"
chris groans out as his tip slowly splits you open. You hum in satisfaction feeling him fill you up completely inch by inch.
You tipped your head back to rest on his shoulder reaching your hand back to thread your fingers through his messy hair as he bottomed out.
The next morning is when you and chris would find out the consequences of your actions the previous evening. You quickly wake up from your sleep stumbling quickly to the bathroom connected to chris' room lifting up the toilet seat puking into it.
"baby"
chris questions alramed by the sudden rapid movement this early in the morning.
"mhm"
you hum out heaing chris' footsteps get closer to where you were in the bathroom.
"whats going on are you throwing up"
chris ask trying to wake up fully as he stand behind you kneeling figure collecting her hair to hold it out of your way.
"mhm"
you mumble out again begin to feel yourself heave again and throw up some more in the toliet.
"oh ew gross babyy"
chris coos out using his free hand to rub your back comfortingly.
"ugh that was so gross"
you shudder out standing up flsuhing the toilet and turning around hugging chris.
"are you sick or something you think its the flu"
chris questions concerned about you.
"i dont know maybe"
you whine out not wanting that to be true.
"chris can you come here for a second"
you yell into the other room since you were in the bathroom. It like the middle of the month and you realized you had yet to get your period for this month which raised as red flag so out of curiosity you took a test and well it turned out postive.
"whats up sweetheart"
chris questions you coming into the bathroom.
"i havent gotten my period"
you trail off biting your finger nail nervously.
"okayy"
chris drags out unsure of where this was going.
"so i took a test because what if I was you know and well"
you trails off as you hold up the positive test.
"babyyy no no no what did we do"
chris stressed out staring at the two intersecting lines on the test.
"we fucked up i dont know what to do"
you huff out trying not to cry.
"hey come here its okay"
chris sighs out bringing you into a hug noticing you stressing out.
"im scared we cant have a child we barely can keep up with ourselves"
you ramble out thinking of all the negatives that can come along with this news.
"yeah i know but we'll figure oit out promise"
chris sighs out he knew he had to be the support system for you because this was definitely something you were going to need full support with.
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I GENUINLY HATE seeing ppl complain about lookism ‘getting bad’ because ppl been sayinh this stuff since i can remember😭 first it was cheonlang arc, then it was hunt for gun, then it was shiro oni and now it’s busan. Like can we PLEASE just at least be grateful for PTJ to even work on his manhwa’s.
Yes ik ik, PTJ can do better ofcourse. Especially when it comes to his lack of female characters or how they are used which i will make a separate post about.
But personally it just gives off the vibe that most of the fans (usually men) dont like shit and only care about power scaling or complain that ptj is lazy. Like the dude has more than 10+ other manhwa’s he works on no shit he reuses panels. It’s not even THAT big of a deal anyway? 😭
Like personally i LOVED shiro oni arc cause gun has been my fave since 2023. I didn’t have anything to complain about tbh, maybe we could’ve seen more about somi but that wasn’t necessarily relevant. You don see me hating on ptj saying he cant write, doesn’t know his characters and should stop his manga that was one of the biggest passionate and ambitious project in his life?
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good news i survived till 20
bad news must go update my passport
#IM GONA KMS I DONT WANA.... I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO ANYTHING PAPERS RELATED MY DAD DID MOST WORK WHEN I WAS 14 AND I DONT REMEMBER ANYTHING BC#of the didorder☝️#SHITTING MY PANTS#i need a job....i must find job..this cant continue...im 20 and useless#rumbling#dad said he gona buy cake today tho yoppe!!!*im gluten intolerant*#gif
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you: nicholas alexander chavez, the actor from ryan murphy's recent work
me, a mama's girl and daytime tv viewer:
#text post#general hospital#nicholas alexander chavez#spencer cassadine#sorry i'm still not over my shock at this lol#i remember asking my mom MONTHS ago (she follows general hospital news online) 'hey wheres spencer i havent seen him in awhile?'#'oh his character died off. the actor is doing some netflix show where he plays a murderer'#and you have to understand. i dont consume anything to do w true crime. but to my 63-year-old mother. ryan murphy doesnt exist#so bc of just how self-contained the archaic institution of network soap operas are. i just. idk i didnt assume it was a big role#it didnt register to me that it was the sequel to the dahmer show. is what i am saying. and i never thought about it again#mommy made it sound like he might be coming back bc soap opera characters fake-die all the time#and so i put the thought out of my head until completely independently i was watching a video about monsters: menendez being flawed#and i was like. going absolutely insane w how familiar he looked i was like 'ok i know that man cant be too famous but i KNOW him'#'i know him from something and i know him WELL from something. like whatever hes from is iconic to me'#and then the video creator said his name and i was like THATS INSANE WHERE DO I KNOW THAT NAME??!?!??#it's a name i read in the credits but probably never thought in my head at all bc sorry he's just spencer to me#so i googled it and i was gobsmacked. i was like MOM DIDNT SAY he was gonna be in THIS SHIT!?!?!?#i also do lay my life down on the defense that the cinematography of a prestige netflix drama makes him less recognizable to me#who knew him best under cheap soap opera lighting in basic back and forth dialogue shots. like#i have to be honest i never cared for his looks on gh bc he just kinda looked like too perfect. like he looked like a mannequin#i see it now though i get it#i get why he's very fan editable to the true crime girlies i get it#not that it matters. im just in mourning bc it never occurred to me the spencer era was over. i actually liked his character#i cant tell u why bc he wasnt all that distinguishable from all the other basic dramatic character archetypes. idk it was a good performanc#i cant explain to u what makes a soap opera character distinct while still being completely generic (they all are)#i also liked his relationship w his girlfriend in the show it was cute. he was evil but they were sweet#nicky please come back. im begging u. as your only general hospital era fan who is your age#i dont wanna watch monsters menendez i reeeeeally dont
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One thing i never thought i would ask before i imagine myself being an operator / drifter
Where are the bathrooms?
#i mean actual bathrooms. not just. you know. go to earth and dig a hole on the ground or something#i dont think the orbiter has one. unless there are rooms we cant go to or. um. let helminth handle the waste. i dont think so yeah#ive seen beds and shower room (ig) on the grineer ship but i dont remember anything like a toilet#i dont even remember seeing a bed on the corpus ships#(or i just have amnesia idk)#aaaaaaand the year 1999#holy shit wheres the bathroom#the backroom doesnt have one iirc. there isnt even a proper bed (no orokin chair isnt a bed) and shower room like come on#i dont remember the mall has one too#tbh i had this question because i was wondering how would drifter (and possibly the operator) handle their#um#lust#lets not even get warframes involved in this yet. how do they deal with that *themselve*#thats the problem#/half genq#btw in my au every warframe has a room and they all have a shower room in there#but i didnt really think about this whole problem before. i just gave them that when i imagine their interactions on the orbiter#warframe#ramble
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ive started to really despise self help posts because all they do for me is illustrate just how apparently fucked i am compared to most other people
#vent#bloody hell#like gods this shit works for you??#such bullshit#i know its not good to be mad at other people for being happier than you#but fuck dude why cant i ever get a win bigger than ''fine i guess i dont wanna kill myself''#like thats great and all but im still in the exact same hole as before!#ive never even needed self help posts in the first place- all i need is to pull myself together and fix things#... no thats a lie. i havent been able to do that in years.#call it lack of energy or motivation or willpower or whatever#nowadays even when people like my brother try to help me as much as they know how#i just cant manage to try#i tried so hard for years and where did that get me? burnout 2 electric boogaloo#i can try to light the spark like i used to as much as i want#never gonna catch if theres nothing left to burn#cant even slow down#because i know that wont fix anything#ill be just as exhausted as before because my energy levels are perpetually at 0 i guess.#''just try harder'' WHY???#WHY ARE YOU TRYING IN THE FIRST PLACE??#what is giving you the motivation to keep pushing on like that??#what could possibly be so important to you that its worth ALL OF THIS!??#i dont understand#i remember i used to push on despite everything#but there was no reason. i was fighting cause what else could i do?#but as soon as i realized that i ran out of steam. not quite the same when you realize youre ruining yourself for literally no reason#because you never considered doing anything else#what a fucking joke
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bbbaaaaawrffff
#whatever man. i hate how i cant just scream or ill get shit on but ppl only COME here when im doing smth they see as negative.#i dont want any of that. but i dont want to be fucking ENTIRELY alone#im so tired. no one fucking remembers me#im literally a dead girl walking. no one would see any difference if i disapeared forever. thats not a threat#but fuck i have to live KNOWING no one thinks of me or cares or anything and ill never have friends again
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ill be having such a good time then Boom, someone says something
#i love to drive... when i know where im going#im a great driver#but my navigation skills are so shit. theyre so shit#yall i cannot. for the life of me. read fuckin google maps well while driving#i cant judge the distance of a turn.. i think a right turn is a left bcs the screen didnt rotate yet and it's#and i cant remember road names bcs im a landmark man#it's so embarrassing. and all my good driving turns to shy shit bcs it's like. idk. i hate being weird. i hate feeling stupid#i hate being stupid#i hate being told im not stupid until i do smthing stupid again and they get annoyed and u can tell they took it back#bcs everyones right. everyones so right so im not mad at them. im not#im just mad at myself. like it's so fucked. i hate being fucked (literally) (asexual)#i hate getting marked for being wrong in math bcs i saw the + as a ÷ and i did the division right but no one cares abt that bcs it's weird#it's fucked it's so fucked im so fucked#it's so embarrassing. i hate being embarrassing#it's not quirky or cute or anything. setting the wrong alarm bcs i saw the 8 as a 6 is not funny. it's not when u keep doing it#and u keep doublechecking urself and get it wrong anyways#i hate being stupid. i hate being stupid. i hate being stupid. i hate being stupid#u think i dont want to just be normal and fun and carefree with things people find easy? you think i dont want an easy life?#u think i like making people's lives hard? you think i Like being a burden???#i dont wanna be here .
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"Missed connection (?) (aw & qb pseudo crossover, alan & tim, jack & paul, alan & barry)"
👁👁 you know I have to ask about it...
Thank you!!! Missed connection (name pending) is a fun one!! (lies)
in that fic I basically take the concept of tim dreaming about his alt universes' lives (canon) and the idea of alan not quite remembering barry (not canon, but you could read barry's absence in aw2 as alan deliberately forgetting abt him so he's far, FAR away from The Story), and have Tim recalling his (jack's) friendship with paul before time broke down while Alan being like man that sounds great :) why does this hurt though?
(...) Apparently he did that a lot, protecting me, getting me out of trouble…" A smile tugged Alan's lips with the scene, misplaced nostalgia apparently being a contagious thing. "Uh huh." He encouraged him. "This time, we…" Tim closed his eyes for a moment, trying to recall the scene. The memory that wasn't his. "We were on a road trip, or something, and God knows what I was doing, but I ended up getting arrested." Alan snorted. "Is this Sheriff Breaker's dark and troubled backstory?" "Hah! I wish. Thing is, he bailed me out, right? But not before I managed to steal this... stupid wooden ram statue from the police station." "Seriously?" "Yeah!" Tim's eyes squinted while a laugh bubbled from his lips, as if he really was telling him about his actual life, and not visions of another reality. "The bastard actually kept the statue, you know? He never let that one go, I-" His laughter stumbled a bit, but his smile didn't waver. "In the vision, no matter where he went he always brought that statue with him. A reminder. Probably to make fun of me or something." Alan's face hurt from grinning. His body wasn't used to this kind of joy anymore. His throat hurt, too, like heartburn (...)
BUT THATS NOT ALL because after stealthily pointing out the obvious parallels between pre-time break paul's and barry's relationship w/ jack and alan it asks the question what if we went further with the parallelisms? tim talking about post-time break paul without the context, just knowing that suddenly he hated his guts for some reason, and alan later (but juxtaposed in the narration) having echoes to Some Guy falling down Some Rabbit Hole, and feeling dread
it asks the question what if you met your best friend but he's a decade older and he's involved in some shady business? THATS RIGHT I lured people with tim and alan and quantumbreak only to reveal the secret topic of this fic being my Blessed Barry au 🔥🙌🔥
[ask me about my WIPS]
#fic tag#tani's personal shit#you know how alice suddenly remembered what happened in aw1 and eventually found the way to help alan escape? barry Cant do that#hes not an artist!#in my barry & jesse fic the concept was well he cant do anything but he can find someone who Might. now. what if that someone is Blessed#the fic doesnt really go into detail but I just want to put this concept inside people's heads#you know remedy likes do echo itself and make parallels to itself so. who's to say yknow?#///but also. back to the first layer. its about missing your best friend ;_;#even though he doesnt exist in your universe or you dont remember him at all...
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stands up. trigun / the locked tomb au. wolfwood being vash's cavalier. the ninth house genocide instead of july with vash being harrow. I know theyre not similar in personality at all thats not the point dont worry about it. knives (already a lyctor) forcing vash to also become a lyctor like the angel arm shit. I dunno who they'd eat it's maybe not that important in knives' case I don't think he'd give a shit but vash eating wolfwood-- [GUNSHOT]
#is this anything. does this make sense at all#can the lyctoral process be forced like that? I dont remember sorry its been a minute since I read tlt but I cant get this out of my head#knives pulling some hannibal shit or something I dont fucking know#sorry to trigun fans who dont know tlt lore (and vice versa) I know this sounds bonkers. thats because it is#trigun#the locked tomb
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wanted to go to the gym social tn but as I was getting my stuff together to go out, a friend said smth that rly pissed me off and now I'm too fucking angry to go out. fucks sake man
#fucking hate ppl commenting on my 'self control' for being sober bc I get it all the fucking time and its so patronising !!!!!!#even if its not intended that way. dont care didnt fucking ask. especially from someone im friends with#but whatever i should know better than to expect ppl to know me#maybe other ppl need discipline to stay sober but i dont bc the alternative is a non option and always has been. not that hard for me#and i have my own self control struggles w other shit man like im not pristine and perfect fuck off. you only dont know abt the#shit i actually fucking struggle with bc i dont know or trust u well enough for that.#and i HATE when ppl fucking imply im susceptible to peer pressure. im not. dont fucking overestimate your influence#ppl act like shit is a choice like actually i have a trauma rooted fear that comes from ppl in my family dying of substance abuse thanks 👍#which i dont expect strangers to know. but my friends should fucking know that!!! but i guess its not worth remembering#whatever it doesnt matter im prolly upset for other reasons im going to go out for a walk to calm down i cant be at home right now#even more fucking annoyed that im missing the gym over this. i shouldve been there an hour ago.#i mean i could still go maybe the cycle ride would stop me feeling mad and blowing everyone up once im there. i doubt it tho#UGH. fucking whatever. whatever whatever whatever. sorry for ventposting i was typing out a longass reply#but its not gonna fucking do anything except come across needlessly aggressive and ruin the conversation#even if i really really want to be needlessly aggressive. and ruin the conversation. but i guess i have the self control to not. lmfao#what if i just killed myself. anyway i think im gonna go get some shitty fast food on this walk and watch a horror movie when im back#.vent
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ahh when i did some long ass test for personality disorders and the psychologist was like 'you don't get results like this unless u were emotionally neglected. were u emotionally neglected' and I was like Shrug. apparently so
#i was gonna say i feel like just approaching it like that and not expounding#isnt great practice but honestly my memory is fuzzy#and i DID bring up wanting to test for it so maybe it was assumed i did know what signs of it are#ultimately this didnt lead to anything but i wish i had a copy of those results lmao#idr what the test was anymore. but its been a while since i did the mmpi#i have to wonder if its changed at all..#anyways im pretty sure this was at the very end of high school#ok just had a look at the old results and fuck that lol#i dont remember what any of this shit means frankly i just dont ruminate anymore and cant be fucked trying to do the test again
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Going to be honest it is really telling that you all are always preaching "celebrities can't be your friends" and "don't idolize celebrities" until it's someone you like. E.g. the whole david lynch situation. Nearly my whole dash has been people glorifying him its unbelievably obnoxious
#im so out of touch with mainstream shit i dont know basically anything about him other than a couple things he made#and i plan to keep it that way#i just woke up sorry if this is incomprehensible#EDIT IF ANY OF YOU DID THIS ITS OKAY IM NOT UPSET WITH YOU SPECIFICALLY. I CANT REMEMBER
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sorry i just. need to rant for a second
#cause dude the whole joost situation is SO fucking upsetting#he's mentioned over and over again how overwhelming this whole overnight success thing has been for him and to respect his boundaries#and instead of yk respecting his wishes “fans” go and make things worse by constantly overstepping and being creepy and weird like hello???#like why can't we all just be normal and take a step back and enjoy things#these people are gonna end up driving him off the internet and i wouldn't blame him one bit#and the worst part is the people who should get the memo obviously don't (or refuse to) bc this isn't an isolated instance#like its been going on for a while now#idk man i just think about how hard it must be for him rn#one of the things that turned me into a joost fan (besides his music) was his personality#like i obviously dont know him on a personal basis#but from the little bits ive seen he comes across as a really genuine and sweet and kind dude#super thoughtful as well. like i just love the way he thinks and his take on things#like i remember watching his eurovision interviews and just thinking oh man this dude's a ray of sunshine LMFAO#also the literal definition of resilience like dude's been through so much stuff and hes always managed to come out on top despite of it#and thats something i really admire about him too. like the way he put it as not letting your traumas be just that#but also something that can drive you forward#but yeah dude's had more than enough like he deserves to be happy and have some peace and ppl keep ruining it for him and it makes me upset#like i actually slept like shit last night and woke up feeling terrible and i wonder if what went down yesterday w the whole live thing#has anything to do with it lmfao#and you may be like ok well youre taking it too personally and letting it affect you#and yeah maybe youre right LOL but i cant help it i care about the guy and i want him to be okay#he seems to have a really good support system though so i hope things blow over soon and he can finally have some peace#anyway. rant over! 💋#raquel speaks
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