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ur-fave-hoe-cas · 3 days ago

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I...

I dont know

Shit doesnt feel right

Im crawling out my fucking skin rn

But this happened the last time i...

Yk

Too so maybe its that?

Or maybe its the fact i just fought with my brother for the first time in 8 yrs

And as much as ik thats not gonna happen i just want shit to go back to normal

How we used to be

Without being constantly afraid cuz of our shitty fucking parents tho

Maybe its because it was never supposed to be like this

Maybe its cuz i got shot AGAIN

And last time i got shot i fucking DIED

And beat up AGAIN

And i dont remember anything AGAIN

And the fact that fucking maybe if my emotions didnt decide to fuck off at the most inconvenient times shit would have been FINE and we wouldnt have fucking thought

And i woke up in a ditch with no idea how i got there and no idea whether or not i was even gonna be able to GET home without fucking dying and having no idea where i was

Or maybe its cuz i cant be mad about any of that cuz it was. My. Fucking. Fault

But idk ur guess is as good as mine ig

Can i come over once i get back?

@ur-fave-hoe-cas

Sure, that'd fine with me

#they say this in a way that sounds genuine not bitchy

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mamawasatesttube · 15 days ago

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kon sweetie im so fucking sorry that someone would even say something stupid like that oh my god.

#rimi talks #paraphrasing the beyonce gif bc i dont remember exactly how it goes but.#sometimes people follow me and i really genuinely don't know why at all because their blog header and desc make it extremely clear #that they are someone i want on my block list PRONTO. like. what are you doing. why are you coming into my house #have i not made it clear enough that i hate that shit. why are you trying to follow me. get OUT of my activity page block button SAVE MEEE #PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY READ COMICS AND ARENT STUPID SAVEEE MEEEEEEEE #anyway i apparently have not been clear enough about my opinions so let me speak my truth.#i think jason todd is really fucking annoying. i don't like 99% of fan content about him and i don't like 99% of his fans.#i think that jay // tim is a dumb ship and i think that jay // kon is an even worse one and i think jay// tim// kon// sucks SHIT #i also think that you should simply read comics before you start posting about the characters from said comics.#like i recognize that i cant stop anyone from posting bad opinions but i would love to not see them <3 #anyway im chasing people out with a broom. OUT OF MY HOUSE. OUT. OUT #IM A COMICS BLOGGER. NOT A ''BAD TELEPHONE GAME ABOUT SOMETHING SOMEONE HEARD ABOUT A COMIC ONCE'' BLOGGER #OUT OF MY HOUSE ! ! ! !! ! ! !!#merry shitscram. now scram your shit and go. is this anything #<- i have to make bad jokes or ill die. you understand.#and like tbc this was just case of ''blog desc header and top posts were all really fucking annoying''#and not ''something actively harmful or evil'' like its fine its just Extremely deeply not my cup of tea yk #but i do also have to be dramatic about reading words in an order that i really hated sometimes. or i will also die.#anyways. take my hand. read superman (1987) 155

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xxcherrycherixx · 2 months ago

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That ending was kind of shit...

#minors dni #arcane #arcane spoilers #im sorry but you cant kill off the best characters and expect me to enjoy that ending 💀#poor ekko #the only people to win here are cait and vi and not even vi truly won here. like yeah she got the girl. but she lost her sister to get her.#i know i love maddie (even more now she turned against cait) but jinx was the death to truly piss me off.#like maddie i thought she died when ambessa shot at her and cait- so i was like oh rip- oh wait shes still alive- oh rip again #but jinx dying after all this? horrible. like you really couldnt give that poor girl one chance at happiness #anyway im still living in the other dimension with powder and ekko. that shit was romantic af even for straight people #i didnt really care about the cait x vi sex scene?? im gonna be fr i only just remembered it. like yeah it was kind of hot but-#idk how to say this but cait and vi really dont do much for me as a pairing 😬 its like yassamy or luz amity-#like good for them i guess but theres nothing really to keep me interested? like oh they just end up happy... thats kind of boring. 😬#maybe its because im aromantic- i just dont get anything from seeing domestic happy relationships?? i like drama.#but at the same time i like powder x ekko so idk #arcane season 2 #arcane season two

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celebration-of-the-ordinary-life · 6 months ago

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if u. follow me for my art. i am very sorry. because 90% of the time, if i did not spend 3 hours doing it, it will probably be nothing more than a snip tool screenshot & not a properly saved .png file

anyways i pizazzed up the watermark from astral duo euri. i thought the flowers would be cute n funny. now every drawing will be given flowers against their will ✿. here is a peek into some of the headcanons i want on quincy

#the wiki says hes “covered in countless scars” or something right ? (double checks)#yes yes . “said to have countless scars although none are visible to the eye” why not ? hmm ?#i actually /gen dont know if theres a lore reason to that. i havent seen/dont remember seeing anything about it #but im still actually getting through the main story (i am extremely lazy. maybe you can see why i like this guy)#i also cant remember if the quote from astral duo was that they DID burn down some degree of the forest or just “almost did”#but id like to assume they did start some degree of fire and as such #(presents quincy with a burn scar of some (currently undecided but notable) size)#i also bet a lot of his scars are probably animal-related. like bites or scratches etc. not sure what shit that guy gets up to to get scars #then again he probably has a good few from his youth too during tribe time. so. variety #okay ive tangented enough down here. goodbye #nu carnival #nu: carnival #quincy #nu: carnival quincy #nu carnival quincy #sketch #doodle #study #my art #nuudles #quincy nuudles

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britneyshakespeare · 2 months ago

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you: nicholas alexander chavez, the actor from ryan murphy's recent work

me, a mama's girl and daytime tv viewer:

#text post #general hospital #nicholas alexander chavez #spencer cassadine #sorry i'm still not over my shock at this lol #i remember asking my mom MONTHS ago (she follows general hospital news online) 'hey wheres spencer i havent seen him in awhile?'#'oh his character died off. the actor is doing some netflix show where he plays a murderer'#and you have to understand. i dont consume anything to do w true crime. but to my 63-year-old mother. ryan murphy doesnt exist #so bc of just how self-contained the archaic institution of network soap operas are. i just. idk i didnt assume it was a big role #it didnt register to me that it was the sequel to the dahmer show. is what i am saying. and i never thought about it again #mommy made it sound like he might be coming back bc soap opera characters fake-die all the time #and so i put the thought out of my head until completely independently i was watching a video about monsters: menendez being flawed #and i was like. going absolutely insane w how familiar he looked i was like 'ok i know that man cant be too famous but i KNOW him'#'i know him from something and i know him WELL from something. like whatever hes from is iconic to me'#and then the video creator said his name and i was like THATS INSANE WHERE DO I KNOW THAT NAME??!?!??#it's a name i read in the credits but probably never thought in my head at all bc sorry he's just spencer to me #so i googled it and i was gobsmacked. i was like MOM DIDNT SAY he was gonna be in THIS SHIT!?!?!?#i also do lay my life down on the defense that the cinematography of a prestige netflix drama makes him less recognizable to me #who knew him best under cheap soap opera lighting in basic back and forth dialogue shots. like #i have to be honest i never cared for his looks on gh bc he just kinda looked like too perfect. like he looked like a mannequin #i see it now though i get it #i get why he's very fan editable to the true crime girlies i get it #not that it matters. im just in mourning bc it never occurred to me the spencer era was over. i actually liked his character #i cant tell u why bc he wasnt all that distinguishable from all the other basic dramatic character archetypes. idk it was a good performanc #i cant explain to u what makes a soap opera character distinct while still being completely generic (they all are)#i also liked his relationship w his girlfriend in the show it was cute. he was evil but they were sweet #nicky please come back. im begging u. as your only general hospital era fan who is your age #i dont wanna watch monsters menendez i reeeeeally dont

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angellurgy2 · 4 months ago

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bbbaaaaawrffff

#whatever man. i hate how i cant just scream or ill get shit on but ppl only COME here when im doing smth they see as negative.#i dont want any of that. but i dont want to be fucking ENTIRELY alone #im so tired. no one fucking remembers me #im literally a dead girl walking. no one would see any difference if i disapeared forever. thats not a threat #but fuck i have to live KNOWING no one thinks of me or cares or anything and ill never have friends again

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jrueships · 9 months ago

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ill be having such a good time then Boom, someone says something

#i love to drive... when i know where im going #im a great driver #but my navigation skills are so shit. theyre so shit #yall i cannot. for the life of me. read fuckin google maps well while driving #i cant judge the distance of a turn.. i think a right turn is a left bcs the screen didnt rotate yet and it's #and i cant remember road names bcs im a landmark man #it's so embarrassing. and all my good driving turns to shy shit bcs it's like. idk. i hate being weird. i hate feeling stupid #i hate being stupid #i hate being told im not stupid until i do smthing stupid again and they get annoyed and u can tell they took it back #bcs everyones right. everyones so right so im not mad at them. im not #im just mad at myself. like it's so fucked. i hate being fucked (literally) (asexual)#i hate getting marked for being wrong in math bcs i saw the + as a ÷ and i did the division right but no one cares abt that bcs it's weird #it's fucked it's so fucked im so fucked #it's so embarrassing. i hate being embarrassing #it's not quirky or cute or anything. setting the wrong alarm bcs i saw the 8 as a 6 is not funny. it's not when u keep doing it #and u keep doublechecking urself and get it wrong anyways #i hate being stupid. i hate being stupid. i hate being stupid. i hate being stupid #u think i dont want to just be normal and fun and carefree with things people find easy? you think i dont want an easy life?#u think i like making people's lives hard? you think i Like being a burden???#i dont wanna be here .

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lemongogo · 1 year ago

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me admitting that i dont hate ast*rion after all .

#like him.even . maybe.#i just drew him and i was like teehee~kicks feet and giggles and thenni remembered who this was and #my face morphed in2 thousand yard stare guy #IM SRYYY IM SRRYYYYY #IM FALLIBLE !!#wat do u want from me. if its good taste in characters wwll. u r in tha wrong place .#though i do think its bc like . like tell me why he has 90x the content of anyone else #if i hear wyll say well met one more time im gna blow up our camp.IM SOOOz give me something anything pelase please #like he’ll have nothing for 30 long rests save for a line here or there #but astarion will just want to chat u up every night like can u equal it out please pls ❤️ karlach even .#anyways . i hate gale tho HATE GALE . GALE HATERRR ☝️☝️☝️☝️#idk if its because i found him last or what but atp i dont care to get to know him #this game is legit saur fun . the exploration especially #like i spend 90% of my time opening every vase and crate and reanimating the dead on every1.talking to all the animalz #speak w the dead* i mean #also just rhe potential 4 the funniest mistakes ever #when auntie ethel disguised herself as mayrina in fromt of my eyes i didnt process it and killed her indtead of ethel HAHAAGAHAHAHAHHA #like the sjock of messing smth up so badly but u cant do shit abt it like ok!i guess !#karlach pushing 1hp shadowheart in2 firepitcon accident and killing her . happy family❤️🫶#bg3

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twistedchristianscience · 10 months ago

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stands up. trigun / the locked tomb au. wolfwood being vash's cavalier. the ninth house genocide instead of july with vash being harrow. I know theyre not similar in personality at all thats not the point dont worry about it. knives (already a lyctor) forcing vash to also become a lyctor like the angel arm shit. I dunno who they'd eat it's maybe not that important in knives' case I don't think he'd give a shit but vash eating wolfwood-- [GUNSHOT]

#is this anything. does this make sense at all #can the lyctoral process be forced like that? I dont remember sorry its been a minute since I read tlt but I cant get this out of my head #knives pulling some hannibal shit or something I dont fucking know #sorry to trigun fans who dont know tlt lore (and vice versa) I know this sounds bonkers. thats because it is #trigun #the locked tomb

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phagodyke · 2 months ago

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wanted to go to the gym social tn but as I was getting my stuff together to go out, a friend said smth that rly pissed me off and now I'm too fucking angry to go out. fucks sake man

#fucking hate ppl commenting on my 'self control' for being sober bc I get it all the fucking time and its so patronising !!!!!!#even if its not intended that way. dont care didnt fucking ask. especially from someone im friends with #but whatever i should know better than to expect ppl to know me #maybe other ppl need discipline to stay sober but i dont bc the alternative is a non option and always has been. not that hard for me #and i have my own self control struggles w other shit man like im not pristine and perfect fuck off. you only dont know abt the #shit i actually fucking struggle with bc i dont know or trust u well enough for that.#and i HATE when ppl fucking imply im susceptible to peer pressure. im not. dont fucking overestimate your influence #ppl act like shit is a choice like actually i have a trauma rooted fear that comes from ppl in my family dying of substance abuse thanks 👍#which i dont expect strangers to know. but my friends should fucking know that!!! but i guess its not worth remembering #whatever it doesnt matter im prolly upset for other reasons im going to go out for a walk to calm down i cant be at home right now #even more fucking annoyed that im missing the gym over this. i shouldve been there an hour ago.#i mean i could still go maybe the cycle ride would stop me feeling mad and blowing everyone up once im there. i doubt it tho #UGH. fucking whatever. whatever whatever whatever. sorry for ventposting i was typing out a longass reply #but its not gonna fucking do anything except come across needlessly aggressive and ruin the conversation #even if i really really want to be needlessly aggressive. and ruin the conversation. but i guess i have the self control to not. lmfao #what if i just killed myself. anyway i think im gonna go get some shitty fast food on this walk and watch a horror movie when im back #.vent

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lokh · 8 months ago

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ahh when i did some long ass test for personality disorders and the psychologist was like 'you don't get results like this unless u were emotionally neglected. were u emotionally neglected' and I was like Shrug. apparently so

#i was gonna say i feel like just approaching it like that and not expounding #isnt great practice but honestly my memory is fuzzy #and i DID bring up wanting to test for it so maybe it was assumed i did know what signs of it are #ultimately this didnt lead to anything but i wish i had a copy of those results lmao #idr what the test was anymore. but its been a while since i did the mmpi #i have to wonder if its changed at all..#anyways im pretty sure this was at the very end of high school #ok just had a look at the old results and fuck that lol #i dont remember what any of this shit means frankly i just dont ruminate anymore and cant be fucked trying to do the test again

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commander-gloryforge · 9 months ago

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#damn . if i like. ever did something wrong i wonder why they dont just talk to me about it #like idk i thought when they like. vagued about *someone* i had to convince myself that it wasnt me #like i literally went through our messages to make sure i didnt say anything wrong #but apparently it was me after all? i just wish they wouldve. idk. talked to me about it #it feels so hypocritical? why are you allowed to say what you think and im not #unless i actually did what you claimed but i cant remember this happening nor can i find messages where it happens #and even then instead of vaguing about me when you know im not doing well you can just approach me #or is there a whole different reason? do you avoid me because of something else? am i just not on your level after all?#if it was any other person i wouldnt have cared so much but they were one of the first friends i made there #we worked out so well in the beginning and now you realised im not who you thought i was and instantly replaced me #why does this shit ALWAYS happen to me? is there something wrong with me or is it everyone around me?#this is why i dont approach people. this is why im so intimidated by others. it doesnt work. ill always end up being less.#everyone always ends up being better and more and i am the replacable one. idk. just sucks

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jackass-jones · 2 months ago

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Time for me to be completely changed as a person! *just watched falsettos*