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7m7n7 · 5 months ago

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First off - yup, it seems i posted the wrong link, but hey, i can post the pic now. this person also was trying to implicate levihan and rivetra fandoms, saying they're not an eruri and following a lot of people who had beef w eruris. they do this a lot. ive seen them try to implicate levihans and rivaereris here and on twitter before as well, even tho anyone who knows them could tell. that's the issue, most people here don't know them enough and they're mad bc i tell people about it, particularly when it's a manipulation attempt where they try to disguise themselves.

and two more things about the so called "context" you added - which is funny bc looks like you picked a rather empty rb out of so many - ...if you think people in self-ship fandom are more maladjusted than shippers, you're either 1) lying shamelessly 2) have NO FUCKING CLUE what you're talking about. as someone who indulges in both (and usually just ship mlm btw, since it matters to you freaks SO MUCH), self-shipping fandoms cannot even be compared with ship fandoms. now, not every mlm fandoms are nearly as bad, obv. but even a surface level observation could tell you that shippers tend to be more obsessed, more competitive, more inclined to completely derp canon and engage in extreme OOC. second, why are you talking like tumblr is the end to the known universe? Most of the shit occurs on twt bc everything is searchable yet there are no functioning tags and dumb popular opinions get boosted and shoved in your face bc of the algorithm. you have barely any shippers (eruri or otherwise) even actively posting here, ofc you can fucking *avoid* it 🙄 try being on twitter and have them qrt every fucking levi related content with their disgusting degrading shit.

also its funny how you're so oblivious you can't even think to hide that you're obv engaging in this drama bc you wanna feel like a "legitimate blog" you attention starved mf 🤡

anyway, back to the main topic.

a lot of personality traits are social/performative, like being "polite", stoicism is also similar, but that doesn't make them coping mechanisms. coping mechanism IS a maladjustment bc its a response to trauma. it means that that person wouldn't have that trait without trauma. that's what i mean when i say cosmic called his stoicism "fake" 🙂 and a fucking braindead loser eruri anon already proved my point lmfao

this little insecure roach too threatened by levi's personality wants pretend he'd be like fucking MARCO of all people 🙂 and the same disgusting rhetoric, "oh heartless masculine alpha man" Hey, loser eruri cunt who was stalking me on twitter, im waiting for you to point out where does being masculine or alpha correlate with being heartless you fucking worthless trash 🙂

Aaaaanyways ^_^ those are @ anon by the way since you mfs have such a hard time differentiating who i am even talking about, though naturally applies to people who agree with what that roach is saying too 🙂

if you struggle to understand that, then you must be walking into street signs irl. I personally STRUGGLE TO UNDERSTAND UWU how can you even pretend that making a very defining part of his personality entirely about past trauma isn't woobiefication.

then you should also be able to understand my irritation to anything that resembles woobiefication towards levi. i disagree that i was hostile to begin with, but also with how you frame your own side, you're refusing to see it in context, even if CJ meant it in the suuuper niche way (which i disagree, bc they contradict themselves constantly) it's still an argument that helps people who resent levi. And CJ immediately got a fucking anon saying Levi would be like fucking MARCO LMAO. That alone should tell you anything you need to know. They wanna pretend he'd be like one of the most irrelevant, boring, unattractive characters in snk :))) So yes, whether in good or bad motives, CJ's arguments are still serving the same disgusting rhetoric average eruri stan uses.

also lol, youre saying you get hate thats why you're all soooo sensitive uwu, while being completely blind to the hate self-shippers get (or other shippers, but former one is here, happening IN FRONT OF YOU while the second one is mostly on twt). somehow only YOUR hcs are worthy of protection and you are the only ones who has a right to get mad at others :-( hmmm

"you perceive" and who fucking died to make you the authority on how *I* perceive anyone? you're COMPLETELY fucking off the target. If i had put CJ in the same category, i wouldn't have approached them this nicely :) theyre the one who accused me of sending them hate and blabbered endlessly after one comment, the one prejudiced against me bc i hate that ship is them. i already said that i don't have any problem with anyone *including shippers* who criticize the fanon or how fans behave in general - the problem is that it's insanely rare, and shippers themselves bully their own when it occurs. shouldn't your bestie cosmic know that better than anyone else? 🙄

your argument for "needlessly combative" be like

"i find it telling" girl, you fucking think im gonna answer every nonsense you mfs blabbered about? you losers went on for DAYS. you wrote a fucking NOVEL in which not one word worths a damn. and no, that panel @jayteacups posted isn't "telling" anything. everyone is shaped by 1) genetic makeup 2) their environment. it doesn't make those things "coping mechanisms". i don't see you guys blabbering about how being good isn't in his "true nature" bc he wouldn't be such good man if his mommy wasn't so loving and caring☹️ oh no instead you'll talk about how empathy is his "sole defining trait" (hilarious)

i used hypermasculine not in a clinical sense, lol. and im not a native english speaker. i meant that he's EXTREMELY masculine. it should be obvious to anyone who isn't just trying to derail from how i spoke about him before. and also LMAO i don't find "treating women badly uwu" and being a douchebag as masculine traits 😹 and he isn't characterized like that in self-shipping fandom, that purposeful mischaracterization of top levi fanon comes from haters (again, ERURIS), and the fact you adopt that same narrative says enough about where your loyalty lies. if you put OUR side with that side who constantly shits on levi on the same level, then you're part of the problem.

first off, i heaaavily disagree w the implication here that being "hyperaggressive" in bed or having a degradation kink (?) is "hypermasculinizing". those are separate things. a woman can be hyperfeminine and sexually aggressive, or be a sadist. it doesn't make them masculine. Aaaaanyways. "hyperaggressive sex dom who degrades women" like where, in bed? it's called kink and it's not how majority writes him anyway, he's usually a soft dom or vanilla, and there's nothing wrong w any of that. unless you bring to me where everyone's writing him like a misogynist who thinks women are lesser and argue it's canon, then you're full of shit. meanwhile eruri cunts characterize him like an ugly little doormat loser subservient to their self insert everywhere so that erwin comes off looking like The Superior Man and push it like its canon, it's not even a sex thing alone (actually the sex position is only there to serve this narrative too bc, again, they think bottoming is degrading) and anyone with half a brain can tell that.

also lmfao, i said it MULTIPLE TIMES that i see levi as a kind, heroic man FROM THE START. cosmic*joke* and now you are the ones who choose to ignore it.

Uhmmm, no. it has everything to do with eruris, bc that's the entire reason we're having any of this conv, CJ blamed me of things i didn't do, and part of it is bc eruri stans tried to push the hate /they/ sent on me before, even in contexts where the source was proved to be known eruri blogs by CJ. And theyve been trying to paint my /REACTION/ to their toxicity as not a reaction, but an instigator while they try to paint themselves as a "mostly peaceful" group when they're pretty much the source of all trouble in this fandom, and im the bad guy bc i out them. Like, what do you expect me to post about to prove my point LMFAO

two anons i saw they sent to CJ after CJ made that callout for eruris. i love the way the first eruri instinct is just to lie shamelessly in all contexts hoping some of it sticks 🩷 almost a talent!

also...derailment? if you mean that im bringing the topic to eruris like when CJ said before, then it's bc a lot of the times ppl don't know the source of a particular problem like i do, bc you guys barely engage directly w them here unlike us on twt. a lot of criticism of levi fanon for an instance people have that may seem unrelated to shipping at first come directly from them. Just a seemingly unrelated example is "levi is selfish" argument or when people say "oh you make levi a bland hero". Personally, if these takes were not related to shipping, i wouldn't care (unlike CJ, who'd froth from mouth at the idea of a morally impure levi lol) but I can %100 guarantee you whenever someone says it it's bc they have #That narrative for midnight sun. perfect fanon may not exist for anyone, but there's no other fandom that assassinates levi's character like they do.

that's bc it's used in a degrading fashion you absolute dumbfuck. that's why i say "degrading and emasculating" instead all the time and almost never "feminizing". you can actually feminize in a glorifying way but that's NOT why or how they do it. (also, don't go pretend making levi "toxically masculine" and "feminine" are similar levels of OOC either lmaooooo be serious. but anyway lets not derail.) shit like this should have made it fucking clear but i guess you need to be shoved into your face once more lmfao

all of this is just emasculation and degradation, so called femininity is just another tool. not only they do it but also they harass and mock people who like top levi and just mind their own business. the last one is about a dick size poll by the way, all eruris FOR SOME REASON UWU ganged up together to vote for that NPC so levi would lose lmfao 🥴 they're actually quite obsessed with the topic actually, wonder why!

"all you can do to stigmatize someone is claiming theyre eruri" Lol, like you stigmatize me and blame me of the source of every fucking bad thing that happens just bc i openly bash on a bunch of disgusting eruri stans? first of all, if an eruri is active in that fandom and isn't bothered about fanon at all, then yeah, they SHOULD be stigmatized. they can always come forth and criticize the harassment, fetishism, character hate, obvious ego wank their fandom participates in and prove themselves to be better. simple as that :)

you're pretty bold for someone who doesn't know such a fucking well-known steretoype. How the hell have you not heard "tall, dark and handsome" and "gentlemen prefer blondes"?

..just searched some things for you since you're so foreign to popular culture 🥴 searched the opposite too just to make sure lmaoooo and try not to be so fucking chronically online i guess!

I didn't say "cosmic" left invisible comments, i meant eruris orbiting that mf did. don't worry, i don't think mr high-and-mighty cosmic"joke" would ever engage in such suspicious behaviour LOL 😩

BUT this is the funniest fucking ""defense i ever saw LMAOOOOOO

lmao @cosmicjoke just curious...do you actually even believe what you wrote? or are you just that pathetically lacking in self-awareness? it literally takes an EFFORT to even scroll through how much you blabbered about me FOR DAYS, HOLY SHIT LMFAO. anyway, scroll away in this one i guess, since it includes some receipts from poor blameless wittle ewuwi fandom you're claiming is "mostly good" and just must be "defensive" to awful people such as myself :-(

Yeah, i said you woobiefied him (which is a degradation of character no matter how much you froth from mouth 🙂) and YOU wrote me 3 different wholeass paragraphs and in one of them accused me of sending you hate. And you still do, despite the fact i had literally no reason to do so. wanna suck up to eruri fandom that bad, huh? you're so fucking stupid and SO obsessed with retaining that moral highground you SO CLEARLY jack off to, you're even letting eruris who hate you using you to get back at me. who do you think those anons and sock accs you're chatting w are? "this dumb bitch comes at me with insults and accusations" what a hilarious sentence! can you write one sentence without projecting so intensely that you need to be in a mental ward?

"self shippers are so jealous uwu" OHHHHHH MY GOD LMAO. the fucking eruri rhetoric of GRAND PROJECTION. NO fucking self-shippers gives a fuck to eruri you absolute dumbass 😭 entire discourse happens bc eruris harass them (and other levi shippers) bc of THEIR OWN JEALOUSY holy fuck!!! how can you be so fucking disgustingly biased? and even though you know i also like rivaere and have no problem w other levi ships, you're trying to use me as a scapegoat to "prove" self-shippers are "homophobic" and against "gay ships" start discourse with real levi stans bc some of them also didn't validate your ridiculously awful levi takes apparently. even though you also should be well aware tons of OC shippers also enjoy or don't mind eruri, you're literally attacking people JUST bc they disagreed with you in a previous discourse, just like what you're doing to me right now.

LMAOOOO nobody's crying anything you braindead loser, and the only one getting "curb-stomped" is your pea-sized brain trying to generate a sentence that doesn't have five contradictions and failing pathetically. "if they just left a sentence exactly like what i had in mind uwuwuwu i wouldnt have started to froth from mouth uwuwuuw how dare they accuse me of woobiefying levi when i obv woobiefy him uwuuuwu 🥺" LMAO nobody is obligated to treat your fragile ass like glass, not my goddamn problem you're so fucking pathetic you start losing you GODDAMN MIND when someone strays a little outside what you deem as acceptable. i didn't throw insults or anything at first either, i just said what it is: that you woobiefy his character, and you clearly can't stand being told the truth. Once again: you %100000 woobiefy him and resent people who don't agree with you. the fact you're THIS vitriolic towards people (thanks for showing i wasn't the only one, at least!) acting like i tainted your honor shows that enough. you literally wrote a "call out" bc of one comment which YOU turned into a fight. you lack introspection madly and you constantly project, so ofc you're just gonna spiral into another fit of rage when you see this, but you can't fool people who are unbiased no matter how much you blabber on 🙂

Ohhh lmao, it reaaaaaaally couldn't be more obvious you have beef with people who like top levi. that's literally it. Do you fucking realize how goddamn creepy you are when you talk about how i must want to get "smacked around" by a man just bc i said you were woobiefying him? You're a fucking freak. You have no idea what i even like (since you're so curious, i enjoy a wiiide range of levi) but this doesn't have anything to do with what we talk, you think people don't woobiefy characters they like as tops? bc it's SUPER common in most fandoms. the way you immediate resort to talking about people's sexual fantasies is freak behaviour and shows where your true problem lies. and what does this even mean "what the actual reality of Levi's sexuality would likely be"? Do you think people who have trauma can't be dominant? "Assuredly wouldn't enjoy sexual aggression" Why, were you in the room when he was banging people? That's just your hc you're pushing as canon, AGAIN. You want everyone to act like their hcs are just ooc hcs, but they have to accept your hcs as canonical regardless of how much bullshit they are. There's this insane push against *any* top levi content from eruri stans which they dub exactly as you do even though it doesn't reflect the fanon at all, and it makes it TOO OBVIOUS what your real issue is. Lmao, an eruri shipper who has a problem w ppl who like top levi, what a fucking surprise! 🙂

also this is from that @p-ssypink imbecile who's also obv an eruri

stop projecting and pulling discourse out of your ass. "forced masculinization" levi is already a hypermasculine character in canon, you clown. which probably makes you cry :^) and what does this have to do with homophobia? you think all gay men are feminine? pretty sure such stereotyping constitutes as homophobia. anyway, i said "my deal is im in love w him" bc that clown said something like "your whole deal is your hate for eruri rather than stanning levi" i think that message was cut from the og. obv loving a character doesnt make anyone an authority. but "every eruri is out to get self shippers bc they're ego-maniacal lunatics who cant separate fanon from canon and only see levi as a smol bean omega bottom to be protected" Yes, you got one thing correct, congrats! :) 👏🏻 That's exactly how %99 of eruri shippers are like and anyone who has been in this fandom long enough knows that. But "to be protected" is misplaced, since they mostly get off on degrading and torturing him. sometimes they just like to pretend they have any sympathy for him since they've been accused of being levi haters since ALWAYS, lmfao, but don't worry, i can send you a lot where they admit that too. and ofc, the pretend sadness fits right into their agenda with that sad pathetic little doormat levi they want.

anyways. am i homophobic or are people who consistently emasculate a character in %99.9999 of their fanon bc they think being feminine or bottom is degrading the ones who are homophobic? or maybe calling him the f slur constantly, you'd think qualifies? you don't think treating him like a "little twink who's only job is to get fucked" is fetishistic and homophobic, is that tooootally okay for you? What about bullying and mocking people who think differently and forcing their hcs on them, is that fine?

"inability to top" hmmmmmm i wonder how do these people see t/b roles and why they're so aggressive about them 🤔

plotting to get a levi/oc video down....kudos on that courage to admit that on their main! 👏🏻

there are so many, this was veeeeeeery hard to pick tbh but here are just few examples. and no, these aren't just one off events or "bad apples" and all of these people are known eruris, and some have thousands of followers. you may accuse me of "making hating eruri my entire online identity" which is fine and dandy. but ENTIRE eruri fandom makes their identiy hating on what they deem is a threat to their glorification fantasy.

as a bonus here are some multishippers who love eruri talk about the same issue being so common as well 🙂

i think it should be clear why :')

and @jayteacups saying this nonsense, idk if theyre just playing obtuse but lmfao. some people just don't know mentality in shipping communities enough soooo

having an OC/self-insert have NOTHING TO DO with what im talking about when i criticize self-inserting/identifying etc with a character. and what i'm criticizing isn't even the fact they self-insert into a character lmfao, it's the entire toxicity it brings, bc through overly identifying w some inadequecy of a character (in this case it's obviously the fact levi's more popular and attractive than erwin that bothers them) they grow jealous and resentful, bend canon to alleviate their insecurity + derive ego wank and attack others who don't validate them. as a result, practically all they do is degrading levi in every way and use him as a validation device (and other characters too btw, just look at how they treat zeke) to make erwin come off "superior", gatekeeping levi bc they can't stand seeing him w other characters, even real life fangirls, both out of possessiveness but also bc it ruins their narrative where erwin's the "conventionally attractive" one. that's the reason for the push against people who like levi in a "hetero" way (read: Top, masculine, alpha, daddy, het, whatever bc they think it translates into "conventionally attractive" lmfao, and precisely why they love bi erwin but NEVER bi levi). and this isn't just against self-shippers, they treat every other levi fandom similarly, and these ships also get mocked as "self insert ships". ironic considering their treatment of erwin puts early ff.net mary sues to shame 🥴 they can't be honest about jackshit bc it ruins their glorification fantasy where erwin has to be the one that ship is all about. they're the definition of "have my cake and eat it too", they act like they barely tolerate levi just for erwin's sake but bitchfight over him every second with everyone, depict him as a one-sided simp for erwin, try to alleviate their insecurity by reducing him to a loser doormat while doing the exact opposites towards erwin.

⬇️ gotta be pretty self explanatory lmfao

^ Very famous and beloved people among eruris

despite the fact there's a lot of pushback, they'll still argue tooth and nail that women wouldn't like levi and would prefer erwin. Why do you think this is soooo important to them? :^) ⬇️ lol wonder why they want him to convince ppl he's "feminine" so bad! almost like it's bc they see it as unattractive and degrading! but sure, we're the sexist homophobes for hating eruri fans, right? oh and the white supremacist rhetoric also so common - bc i've never seen anyone refer to being blonde in MEN as a good thing outside eruri fandom - since it's a feminine stereotype. "tall DARK and handsome", no? :') But they'll use ANYTHING just to make erwin look better, so they're pretend it's related to generic beauty standards rather than, idk, fucking rantings from hitler's headquarters. maybe some other day i should post them calling him aryan, hmmm....

look at how they act towards even their own (rare good ones lmao) artists when they depict levi in a conventionally attractive way, they bash on it and call it "hetero" hmmm :')

Oh oops they already said the quiet part loud! 😱But going around shitting on artists and calling levi "erwin's submissive little bitch" is okay to you, right?

By the way, one of the anons cosmicjoke made a fake acc to come at me just now on twitter bc i called out one of the eruris calling levi f*ggot. Apparently according to them it's just no big deal, that's just calling levi "gay". :') linking it bc too many pics: https://x.com/emeraldsas77759/status/1801556666556559451

Just a small taste of what eruri fandom is like, since most people here on tumblr don't have a fucking clue. Anyway cosmic"joke", what an apt name. Now, you can puke blood all over all you want like the useless, pathetic eruri ass-kisser you are and write few other novels for my sake! don't get too comfy with those erwin stans who are now sending you their love instead of harassing you tho lmfao!

(^ bc they said levi had a bolo tie of his own and MAYBE he wasn't wearing erwin's bolo tie in the FUCKING OFFICIAL ART LMFAO)

"don't ruin the rep of our fandom they're not eruris uwu" Familiar argument, isn't it? :') bc THAT'S what they do, creating ungodly amounts of toxicity, shitting on everyone, intruding in everyone's spaces, then when they get even a little pushback, they start screeching like little rats trying to shift the blame on others. These are the people you defend when you defend eruris. But hey, you can continue to suck up to them, try not to step one milimeter out of line tho, saying levi isn't erwin's dog may get you death threats. Have fun, goodnight, good luck! 😘

#icb you bitchasses wrote shit like this 10 times a day about me thats insane like how am i being called obsessive aorund here

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haleigh-sloth · 3 years ago

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I would love to hear what your overall thoughts were on Snk if you don't mind sharing since I literally don't know what to really think of it and I don't really know of any blogs in Snk fandom. and I love your BNHA takes so much. I'm extremely attached to the characters in Bnha especially Touya, Shoto, main villian trio and the main heroes. Bnha has always gave me the feeling from the beginning that its going to have a happy and optimistic ending. I grew more attached to it for that reason.

Ask #2: I just started watching SnK a couple of months ago and I'm now on season 4 (now I've already seen the ending before I even started watching it.) I decided to watch because my bf has been watching the show for years now and I wanted to catch up with him. Before I started watching it I was aware that its not a light-hearted or happy show. Characters literally die left from right. I didn't really form a connection with the characters for that reason since I went into the show with that mindset.

Part 2. From the very beginning of Snk I already had the feeling it won't have a happy ending or satisfying ending for some fans. I asked my bf and he said (SPOILERS) that he can already see Eren dying at the end. For me I feel very neutral about the ending I literally have no opinion at all because I already seen the ending before starting the show and I have really no idea how I'm really supposed to feel about the ending. I never really look at Snk blogs since I'm not really that attached.

Two different asks, answering together to avoid the risk of getting more SnK asks because I truly don't have much more to say than what I'm about to.

I can direct you to a few blogs that talked about SnK, but I've seen said blogs get extremely hateful comments in their inboxes so I'll refrain from tagging them.

But anyway--I don't have any meta thoughts on SnK.

I can say that I truly enjoyed the ending and I don't feel that it could have ended any better. If the author was going to make the main character the final boss, then this was the best ending we could have asked for. If the author was not going to make the main character the final boss, well, there's no point in discussing it since he didn't take that route.

TBH all I really want to know is.....what...ending....did these people... want?

So, I can understand some people being upset that Eren was made the final boss, but there was...a ton of set up for that well before the manga ended. People had time to jump ship well before the ending came out. But regardless, I get it. If people aren't used to tragedy stories, then I can understand feeling hurt. But also, as the second anon said--SnK sets the tone from the FIRST. FUCKING. CHAPTER.

What does it tell us?

NOBODY is safe. ANYBODY can go at any time. Protagonist armor existed for a little bit, but it wasn't going to last forever, because Eren wasn't the kind of main character that had Main Character Syndrome™️. He isn't Izuku Midoriya, who is supposed to end up as this hero that redefines the meaning of the word. No, Eren was never that.

I started SnK when I was a senior in high school, in 2015, and then I got distracted from that and didn't watch or read it for YEARS. I only JUST picked it up in February and finished it off when the manga ended. So for me, my attachment I had to any of the characters had kind of disappeared. I didn't want Levi, Mikasa, Armin, or Annie to die, but I wasn't super attached to any of the other characters.

As for the ending--honestly. I only bitched about peoples' commentary earlier because someone reblogged a post of mine that talked about "series that betrayed their readers", and they put "snk" in the tags, and that irritated me.

I honestly don't know how else it would have ended besides the main character obliterating the entire earth. Like I don't know what people were wanting. That would have been a shit ending, how would that have been satisfying for anybody?

No, I think the ending where MOST of the main cast survived and got to live long lives was the best it could have ever been given the type of story it was.

As the second anon said, it was never going to be "happy", although imo, SnK ended as "happy" as it could have.

BNHA is definitely a happy ending type of story. It's not set up for horrible tragedy, and if Hori did for some reason shift gears and go that way (he won't) it would ruin the entire story and everything it's told us so far.

Suffice to say, SnK isn't really my type of story. I only finished it because I started it in high school, and had seen it was coming to an end so figured what the hay, might as well finish what I started. BNHA is way more up my alley. I'm avoiding stuff like JJK and anything that's grim dark and edgy for the sake of being....like that. It's just not for me, and I'm not in a spot to read stuff like that right now.

#anonymous #i don't wanna tag snk #so i'm not going to

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kirschetein · 4 years ago

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1x01 the fall of shiganshina, part 1 ↳ project #snk rewatch by victoria / @kirschetein

#*#snk #animanga #snk rewatch #1x01 #alrighty! that's all the gifs i have for episode 1 :-)#stay tuned for episode 2 guys!!!#do remember to check back my snk rewatch tag on my blog often #or track the snk rewatch tag on tumblr if u wanna keep up to date on all my sets!!#cause some sets like this and the one before will not be posted in the public edit tags like dailyanime or snkedit ^^#i love how this survey corps set came out omg #rly minimalistic! which is my style heh #i love the survey corps so much omg they r my heroes ;_;#kind of wanna stop rotting at home but also kinda don't wanna go back to work #if only i could make money just simping over snk

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nerdynuala · 4 years ago

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On a scale from Historia to Mike...

...how tall/short are you?

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sanderscat · 4 years ago

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guess which episode we rewatched today

#are you watching snk again??? yes. yes i am.#snk #attack on titan #levi #i lowkey don't wanna tag anything because i'm avoiding the fandom #but i love him okay #my art #sanderscat art #redraw

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mindninjax · 4 years ago

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A Soldier’s Duty

Pairing: Erwin Smith x fem!Reader

Rating: E

Warnings: None? NO WAIT ANGST

Word Count: 1.2K

Song: Murder Song (5,4,3,2,1)- AURORA

a/n: WOAAAAHHHH WHATTTTTT MARQUIE WRITING ATTACK ON TITAN??? I know right! It frick fracking surprised me too lol. I was just sitting and listening to the above song and all of sudden this CAME to me and my brain said “IT MUST BE WRITTEN MARQUIE” So I did. Apologies if it’s shit. I’m trying to wrap my head around writing for the characters of AoT so if Erwin sounds ooc just like... pretend he’s not.. please? Or like I’ll cry. jkjk but not really jk cuz I will cry. Ok So anywhooo I hope you enjoy it.

Erwin scribbles on the paperwork in front of him, the candle beside him spilling wax onto the dark wooden desk. It’s late and he’s been working diligently through the night filling out reports to inform the higher ups of the recent failure of the 57th reconnaissance mission. Frustration seeps out onto the page as his quill presses deeply into the parchment, leaving scattered dark imprints.

He’s familiar with failure, has tried many times not to let it get to him but sometimes, in the dark of night when everyone is asleep he lets loose. The commander can’t always be as calm, cool and collected as he is in front of the other soldiers. They were so close, had the female titan in custody, but they, whoever the enemy was, always seemed to be one step ahead.

The quill snaps from the pressure of his large hands pressing into the parchment angrily. “Shit,” he mumbles under his breath as two tiny raps on his office door draw his attention.

“Yes, what is it?” he says as the door opens and his icy blue eyes fall on the door.

He immediately calms down when he realizes it’s just you. Aside from Levi, he’s always felt he can be the most relaxed and himself around you, dropping the strong façade of “The Commander of the Scouts”.

Your hair is down, not in its usual sleek updo and your shirt is untucked with a few loose buttons. Your demeanor is relaxed as you stroll into the office. An expression Erwin can’t quite put his finger on dawns your face.

“I knew you’d still be awake, you’re starting to get as bad as Levi,” you sigh shaking your head and scolding him. Despite being ranked underneath him, he always feels a bit of shame when you scold him for not taking care of himself. Your eyes fall to the page he’s been scribbling on and the broken quill in his fingers and you walk over to take it from his hands and wipe the ink with your handkerchief.

“I swear the two of you, will be the death of me,” you say focusing on the ink between his fingers. “Failure doesn’t mean defeat, ya know. It just means you approach the issue from a new angle.” You finish and put the handkerchief back into your pocket.

It hasn’t been difficult to uphold the relationship of commander and subordinate between the two of you, but Erwin will admit at times like this the line becomes more blurred. It’s how the first time, the first mistake, happened. And after that you’d felt so good in his arms that he’d let it continue.

He likes keeping you close, you’re like his security blanket and heaven knows he deserved a bit of joy in his life. Which is why you didn’t mind his rule of “no attachments”. The few times he called you to his office after a stressful mission made you feel responsible for him in a way. You’d be lying if you said you didn’t enjoy how he'd ripped off your clothes and kissed you passionately or how you could feel his neediness to be warm and safe inside you.

He gazes at you, a wrinkle in his forehead as you read his thoughts of irritation. You playfully place your index finger on the wrinkle and say “Stop that, or it’ll be permanent and everyone will be afraid of you like they are of Levi.”

He smiles then, relaxing a bit more at your touch. He wonders why you’re here, a night cap perhaps? He could use it given the circumstances, plus you do look lovely in this lighting.

“What is it, y/n? What’s bothering you?” He mutters as he runs a large hand up your thigh. You place your hand over his and stop his movement, squeezing gently.

“I have a question for you Commander.”

He stares at you intently, a slight rustle in his pants as his title falls from your pretty lips. He’s a bit thrown off, you don’t usually refer to him as such unless you’re both on duty or when he’s pounding into you relentlessly.

“Yes?”

“Have you ever thought about having a family?” You ask him seriously. His heart skips a beat. Why would you be asking this? You two had been careful, right? He made sure of it, with perfect accuracy. You can see his mind racing and immediately tack on “It’s just a question Erwin, not a math problem.”

The assurance in your voice calms him a bit and he opens his mouth to say “No” before shutting it again. He contemplates lying to you but decides against it.

“Yes. A while ago..with Marie.” he responds. You nod remembering when he told you about her, the only woman he’d ever been in love with. He shuffles nervously, watching your pensive expression. “Have you?”

You walk to the window in his office to gaze out dreamily. “Of course. Many times actually. There have been times when I’ve thought to myself ‘I’ve seen enough of this nightmare’, and I plan to sneak out of here, find a nice strong husband who will love me forever, have a few kids and live out the rest of my life oblivious and safe behind the walls.”

Erwin stands and joins you at the window, frowning slightly. Not realizing the jealousy he feels at the mention of this made up husband, he says in a gruff voice that is reminiscent of him scolding a soldier “Is this your way of saying you’re planning to abandon your duties as a scout? You know the penalty is death.”

You chuckle, ever aware of his hidden feelings and picking up on the jealousy in his tone. “You’re always ‘The Commander’ first, comrade second. Haha don’t worry I understand.” you chuckle again not looking at him. He still stares at you, trying to gauge what you’re thinking and that weird expression that is still on your face.

“I think about running away and starting my little family, but I know I can’t be oblivious. I know that after what I’ve witnessed, every time I shut my eyes to sleep next to my “would be” husband, all I would see was our beautiful little children. Their eyes would be looking at mine, terrified and helpless as they slid down the putrid gullet of a titan. The last thing they would think was why their mother failed them, and the last thing I would think was that I should've never run away and they should’ve never been born.” you say not realizing the moisture falling from your eyes.

Erwin reaches out to stroke your cheek but you recoil from his touch. He’s confused and arches an eyebrow as you finally turn to look him in the eyes.

“You would charge a deserter with treason and have them executed, even after knowing the horrors of what we see everyday?” you ask him seriously.

He nods morosely. “It’s my duty as Commander of the Survey Corp.” he responds plainly.

You turn back to the window smiling to yourself sullenly. “I thought you’d say that,” you mumble quietly to yourself.

“I have one more question before you retire for the night Commander,” you sigh and turn back to stare intensely into his clear blue eyes.

“Would you charge a deserter with treason and have them executed, if they were pregnant with your unborn child?”

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