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haven't felt like drawing was working for me this week. yet I drew (one good drawing and 6 shitty/joke doodles)
#redrew osha and ciena so many times#the human spirit is so breakable#did the first four today listening to temptation of the force#and the last 3 on sunday#my art#star wars#ciena ree#lost stars#aight not tagging anything else that's enough#i don't really like any of this lol
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don't show him modern technology; it won't end well
bonus under the cut:
#i'm not sure if ford would really be interested in using the internet much#but i could see him wanting to look something up real quick and ending up reading something so outrageously wrong#that it pisses him off to the point that he gets into an argument about it lol#gravity falls#stan pines#stanley pines#stanford pines#digital art#my stuff#anyway i really don't like how this one turned out#but i don't feel like changing it#bc i already spent way more time on this than i actually wanted to#and i don't wanna look at it any longer
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kofi doodles!
transfem Nagito x Chiaki for eatcrow
Izuru interacting with someone for Ren
#an art#sdr2#super danganronpa 2#izuru kamukura#mahiru koizumi#chiaki nanami#nagito komaeda#Komanami#Ok so. In my mind. Nagito would not take any better care of herself as a girl#She'd be like wow other girls are so pretty not me tho haha I'm gonna keep wearing my ratty clothes because I Suck :)#So that's why she doesn't look much different#And my idea was chiaki being like oh I don't really do stuff like makeup and hair...or nice clothes.....#.....but I think every girl should be given flowers :) (chiaki also doesn't take good care of herself lol)#Ok ✌️✨️🩵 bye
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Idk if you've read deceptibee before but if you have,how would the primes react while Op and Megs are fighting over custody of bee and Dent his shoulder,I can imagine alpha trion giving Op a long aft speech of why he's a terrible friend
actually, i think OP is quite good at telling himself what a terrible friend he is. a bit too good if you ask any of his siblings.
it is another of the very few things the primes refuse to accept optimus' opinion on
haunted au
#hey i got an ask#Anonymous#transformers one#optimus prime#alpha trion#haunted au#my art#sorry i know this isn't really what you asked for (╯▽╰ )#but i don't really see alpha trion (or any of the primes actually) telling optimus he's a terrible friend#they're there to help and support him in any way they can. they'll try to correct him if he makes a mistake#but they won't berate him for something he's very likely already recriminating himself for#the only times they really start yelling at him it's when he puts himself in danger for no reason and even then it's not so much that#they're angry as much as they're scared he'll get himself killed#but to call him a terrible friend and chew him out for a genuine mistake? i don't really see it#that's their baby brother. he already has too much in his plate as it is. they won't be yet another thing that pulls him down.#so. yeah ajkshdkaka#also just to be clear i haven't read deceptibee!#i've just seen some of the fanart going around!#so if this is a bit vague that's why lol#tf one
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how's the other guy holding up
#submas#emmet#sketches#//#submas angst#this JUST in you can draw fanart .#THEY DON'T TELL YOU THIS BUT YOU REALLY CAN JUST POST LIKE. MOSTLY UNFINISHED DRAWINGS THAT ONLY CONVEY SOME OF WHAT YOU MEAN. AT 4 AM !#see it's very hard for me because i have a lot of serious THOUGHTS about these characters but#not the patience for the necessary care that would go into drawing them properly. or writing fanfiction long enough to get the point across#either way#i have a lot of thoughts on pretty much every aspect of how i think everything happens for SOME reason but I PERSONALLY#i personally think that emmet would take leave from work#maybe i will make a proper post about this another time but i was like#thinking just about. as much as he loves his job. he loved it when he was doing half a job built for 2 people. and the other person#was one of his favourites in the world#i don't think it would really bring him any sense of normalcy. to go do his job alone#and i don't think that keeping gear station in optimal working condition ''for when ingo gets back'' would necessarily be his top priority#the priority rather would be to try and get him back LOL#and it's important to ME that emmet actually succeeds in this#for a variety of reasons. but it's 4:30 am and i'm a little too tired to get into the intricacies of my imaginary reunion scenario#this is unrelated to that but i have also been thinking about like. i bet emmet would hate condolences#my friend said something that made me think about this a while ago but y'know#''i'm sorry for your loss'' do you literally not know that he likes winning more than anything else 🙄#anyways that's enough of that. i have more to say but maybe not in the tags. and another time
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Blood Blossom Au: Baby's First Commissioner Meeting :)
TL:DR This Post: Danny (orphan) gets poisoned with blood blossom extract by Vlad. He runs away from him and ends up under the care of one Pre-Robin Battinson Batman! Starry is loudly pushing her batdad agenda.
(Also known as "Late At Night, When The Nightingale Sings" on my ao3!)
This was a fun rough idea I've been sitting on for weeks, thinking about how Commissioner Gordon and Nightingale's first meeting might go.
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Commissioner Gordon likes to think that he's adjusting to the new normal of Gotham very well, -- the new normal being grown men running around dressed like bats, in military-grade strength body armor, committing acts of vigilantism, -- and slowly, little by little, he was no longer being surprised when this new normal pops up out of the shadows like the world's most terrifying daisy. His shaving lifespan thanks him for it.
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The kid is a surprise though.
Granted, he seemed to be a surprise to the Bat too.
There's been a string of murders lately, -- which, in Gotham, is kind of like saying there's been another storm during monsoon season. And there's just been another; in some dilapidated building down in south Gotham, with the broken, boarded-up windows and mildew-crawling walls to match. The victim is a man in his thirties, multiple gunshot wounds to the chest, left in the center of the room for the blood to pool out around him.
The place is already secured when he arrives, the building swarmed with officers and the forensic detectives. The Bat emerges shortly after he does -- or, he might've been here the whole time, hiding someplace dark and shadowy. For his own sanity, Gordon doesn't think about it too hard.
The kid is a surprise, and he appears like a bolt of lightning.
He shows up in the middle of a conversation Gordon is having with the Bat.
A whistle, sharp and loud, slicing through the air, meant for open air rather than a confined space. Gordon's ears pierce and protest the sound, and the solemn, murmured chatter floating through the room abruptly cuts off like the swing of a gavel. As he turns towards the sound -- as they all do -- he swears, up and down, that he sees Batman's shoulders jump, just slightly.
At the source, perched on the window, is a boy. A boy in a gray-blue scarf and an oversized black hoodie, one that hangs off his frame and has ace bandages wrapped around the wrists in some attempt to cinch the sleeves. The hood is up, big like the rest of it, and threatens to swallow the upper half of the boy's face whole in the fabric. What upper half Gordon can see, is smeared with some kind of opaque, black face paint. He's holding onto the side of the frame with one hand, on his hip is a grappling hook. A familiar grappling hook.
Gordon has multiple questions, and his officers tense up.
Martinez puffs up, brows furrowing as his face shapes into a frown. Shoulders rolling back. "You can't be here, kid--"
The reaction is immediate, like a spark to gunpowder, the boy yanks his fingers from his mouth and his mouth twists into a scowl. Head snapping over to Officer Martinez, his hood manages to stay on but Gordon swears that as he bares his teeth, the glint makes them look sharper than they should be. His voice is rasp and quiet and harsh; snappish in its hissing; "Put a fuckin sock in it, Martinez. I'm not stayin."
Martinez reels back, and the boy immediately veers his attention off him. Like a switch, his demeanor drops. Despite half his face being covered, his mouth twists into a cringing, apologetic smile. Slanted and off-beat, embarrassed. It'd be disarming if this wasn't Gotham, and if he didn't just hiss at Martinez like he was about to bite his head off.
"Sorry." He whispers, voice deceptively polite and softer now. Gordon has to strain his ears to hear him. "I was looking for him."
He points his finger towards-- Gordon? No, Gordon follows the direction, and finds himself looking at -- the Bat.
The Bat, who always looks stiff as a pole, now looks even stiffer. Somehow. Well, the explains the grappling hook attached to the boy's waist.
"What are you doing here?" The Bat says, gruff and unable to completely smother the stumble of surprise in his tone.
The boy still holds a sheepish smile, and slips off the window ledge. His feet hit the creaky boards with a near-silent thud, the Batman finds his feet and rapidly begins crossing the room.
Gordon notes the slight tremble in the boy's legs as he straightens. He adjusts his scarf, which droops close to his knees now that he's standing, and slings a backpack -- how long has had that? -- off his shoulders. When the Bat reaches his side, he does as he always does, and looms over the boy like a spectre. A threatening mass of shadows cloaked in all-consuming black. Standing next to him, the boy looks teeny in comparison.
The Bat is a man who terrifies even the most hardened criminals, Gordon has seen grown men shiver in fear at the mention of his name. And yet when the boy looks up at him, he doesn't even flinch.
Instead, his sheepish smile melts away like ice under the sun, holding only traces of his previous embarrassment. It remains as a shadow on his face, a small upturn at the corners of his mouth. The boy pushes his hood back just enough to reveal glinting, ice-flint eyes surrounded in tar-black face paint. He holds the backpack up with one arm. "You forgot this."
#I have never seen Batman (2022) so really I'm just using battinson and crew as templates for my fic. but hey what else is new lol#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc fic#dpxdc au#dp x dc au#dpxdc fanfic#i dont know shit about detective work or true crime so forgive me for any bad terminology or incorrect procedure for how these things work#just a fun rough idea for how i imagined gordon's first meeting with nightingale goes LMAO. im sticking to the idea that danny doesn't#officially join the field for a *while* due to more than just health reasons. so his first appearances are brief and usually to give B smth#danny: im only here as express delivery for vader's little brother over there. yall stay safe tho.#bruce: *kill bill sirens bass-boosted* ohmygodwhatishedoinghere#batman: how did you get here... | danny: you have so many spare grappling hooks it was pr easy to just grab one and go#also danny is whispering on purpose because he doesn't have his ghost form to fall back on as a secret identity. so he *is* actually taking#extra steps to keep his identity safe. and people usually sound different when they're whispering. he also has personal beef with#office martinez despite the fact that they've never met. Danny's HEARD of his ass. he hATES his ass.#Martinez: *to batman* freak | danny: im going to Bite Him. | batman (reluctantly): hmr. please don't. | danny: im going for his shins#Martinez and Nightingale have this whole thing going on between the two of them. danny WILL slap a sticky note on Martinez's back that says#'asshole' on it and its the one spot square on his spine that martinez can't reach.#someone: why are you beefing with like. an actual 12 year old | martinez: HE'S A LITTLE RAT. THAT'S WHY. he's here to torment me#battinson: *did you grapple the whole way here* | danny: yah. it was kinda fun. i would've gotten here faster but i kept having to stop#battinson: *hnnn* im driving you back | danny:.. are you sure? | battinson already pulling him out of the room: y e s#i've been thinking about this for literally WEEKS. what did bruce forget? good question! i'll figure that out if or when i get to this#danny has Issues behind the word freak so its like a mini beserker button for him regardless of who the word is aimed at lol. lmao#martinez calls batman a freak once while nightingale is within range and its just the doom ost as danny simply Disappears from sight#like oops. you are now. In Danger. rip couldn't be me.#blood blossom au
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dark side of the moon
#chonny jash#cccc#cccc heart#cj heart#art#I really do not draw Heart enough... that's something I'd like to change#despite my haterisms I actually like Heart a lot. believe it or not#I also realized I don't have any Heart only pieces on this blog so I wanted to change that LOL#I don't know how happy I am with this image but also I'm sick of tweaking it so I'm posting it as it is. I DON'T CARE!!!#<- this is me casting away the perfectionism demons. GET OUT!!!!!#also I won't lie I did not plan for their silhouettes + the moons to form a heart shape together but I mean. I'll take it
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for all the amicability in the whirlwind later on i think it's really important to never lose sight of why dru was turned and then why she in turn sired spike. she was tortured and turned for angelus' enjoyment, her continued suffering brings him pleasure. he owns her, she is a Thing to him and she has no way to escape this. she makes spike to be "her brave knight" a position that, especially in fairytales, means a very romantic man physically protects and serves a woman who is usually gonna end up being some kind of damsel in distress.
while yes dru is evil and a vampire she's still obviously very upset about what happened to her and those moments seem to be her times of lucidity, not delusion. not to mention that she's already been beaten out of the notion that she can escape angelus, she tried to as a human and it didn't work, it likely won't work now either, especially if darla sides with him. but with spike around there's someone who basically always takes her side and fights to keep angelus away from her. who is, at least, a buffer between her and her tormentor. he also takes care of her and validates her, something neither darla or angelus seem to be interested in doing at all.
i feel like people tend to intellectually remember what happened to her but forget that it you know, has long lasting consequences when say, they evaluate her behavior in late s2 when angelus comes back. like... yeah ofc she goes back to appeasing him and shit. spike's a wheelchair and she was beaten into shape to be "daddy's little girl" (gag) YEARS before she even MET spike. her abuser is back and her defender is out of commission not to mention her whole view of reality has been actively warped by the most narcissistic sleezoid around.
and all the reasons why people love spike or point to as why he's better with buffy or whatever.... dru was the one who saw those first and picked him because of those. like... it's wild to see people act like they spent a loveless century together and spike was just used the whole time when we SEE them literally in love, he states MULTIPLE times she means so much to him and we get an OUTSIDE SOURCE CONFIRM THEY HAVE "AFFECTION AND JEALOUSY FOR EACH OTHER". we have the spike we know of today because drusilla saw the hero in him and wanted him to rescue her. and ya know, he kinda did. multiple times. over a century of deep, mutual horrifying love. you only even GET spike and buffy in the same ROOM because he loved dru so much he saved her from a mob, traveled with her across a continent (maybe 2 depending on direction) and over an ocean for even a SHOT at a cure. like... cMON.
this got a little off topic into some of my pet peeves but also kinda not because just-- i don't think people always remember that dru is still a victim and a victim who was intentionally frozen the moment of maximum despair and internal destruction. then spent about 20 years being groomed by her tormentor before she ever had anyone care about her as a priority. i think people tend to forget that it was angelus who wanted to turn spike into a monster and drusilla who wanted him to be a hero. it's dru who gives him his swagger, his confidence, his love for life, who encouraged his romanticism and adored his poetics. it's not that she groomed or built him, but just that she saw all that potential already in there and facilitated it and nurtured it. sure in a fucked up vampire way but still.
#train.txt#meta#ats meta#btvs meta#drusilla#spike#sprusilla#i got annoyed at the strawmen who live in my brain again lol#but i also just think.... people tend to forget how damaging angelus was bc he's so fucking lame in the main plotline lol#dru is like the poster child for an imperfect victim#she's tragic but has also committed her own crimes#it does not however stop her from being pitiable#or make her interactions with angelus even ones where she seems happy not insidious and bad inherently#spike could've ditched her at any time in that century if she really sucked that bad but he didn't bc he loved her#implying it's because he's just that much of a beaten dog is just... why do claim to like him as a character then?#like buffy's not gonna fucking make him LESS of one she literally uses him as a self-hate sex toy for a whole season dude#why do you want to imply that spike is forever trapped in a cycle of being sexually used and emotionally abused as a fan of the character??#when his literal best trait is his love????? why are you intent on condemning him for it??? what are you??? angelus???#are we trying to beat the manly into lil willy again like????#i'M JUST SAYING IT FEELS SOMETIMES LIKE WE INTENTIONALLY DON'T GET DRU MISCHARACTERIZE SPIKE AND NERF THE SHIP
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So far, out of all the JazzProwl apocalyptic ponyo au fics, wich one was the closest to your creative vision?
Like, what was the closest to cannon we got so far OR what wasn't meant to be cannon but was so good you rolled with it?
And anything you'd want to see moving forward??🎤❓
I think the closest to what I imagined would be Two peas in a pod
GLC added Blaster in it which was a complete surprise to me but I just ended up loving Blaster haha
#I don't really have any expectations#like#it's not a restaurant for me to order lol#it's a collective street Performance and I'm just happy to be there and see what other people do :D
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Me, every time anyone says anything about "waiting for The One God has for you"/romantic soulmates/etc: Stop, stop, stop! Why are we implying that everyone has a soulmate when everyone does not have a soulmate? God's going to get nasty letters saying "Where's my soulmate? Why haven't I found my soulmate?" and do you want Him to have to deal with that? I don't think so! Stop spouting heresy being so silly!
#This came to me while I was eating my salad#salt and light#But seriously like the idea that there's only one person for any other person no more no less because ~God says so~ is absolute nonsense#Because *waves my hands towards everyone who's ever wanted to get married but never found someone ever*#and the “no marriage in heaven” thing because some people end up falling in love again after death parts them from their first spouse.#I would really really love to find someone and settle down in the future#but it is absolutely not guaranteed and the odds that God is just going to drop my ~one and only~ in my lap#because I could ~never be fully happy with anyone else~#is like. nil. highly implausible.#Love is a choice and and action and I won't deny that many people are incompatible with many other people#but like. there's not just one person ~Guaranteed and Divinely Intended~ for you.#That's just not how it works.#God can set the perfect guy/gal down in front of any of us and we could screw it up. This whole thing leaves no room for human agency man.#Free will* exists and I will die on that hill#*human free will is not the same thing as Divine free will and will always have some limits placed upon it by our nature as limited beings#but I don't believe our whole course was charted divinely for us at the beginning of time either (hi Arminian here)#but that's a whole other debate lol#Yeah. All that to say. We are not promised a spouse.#And that's okay.#As this coming Sunday reminds us we have something far better offered to all of us.#Trite as it may be to say... He should be what we look for.#Anything else is an add-on.#...holy cow that was a rant in the tags but I stand by it.#Starlight's Nonsense
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ford's canon appearances in season 1
#ford pines#stanford pines#....ugly as hell WHOA WHO SAID THAT#i'm a weak soldier i would not be able to stand any of the stan twins s1 adult designs..... then again boyz crazy is#technically a fucked up teen stan and the adult stans we see in dreamscaperers are. fine. doesn't beat mullet stan tho#....the s2 designers really pulled all their weight for ford huh#even if it's at the cost of making s2 stan look jarringly different than his s1 self lol#ford really made stan younger by like 20 years kasdkshdkaj#ttp!ford.... i know theres many things wrong and cursed with him but.... where his eyebrows...#also getting reminded of the made up swine before time stan#and they picked that design of all things to make a statue out of ://///#don't they know that stan fans wouldn't accept anything that isn't hairy and fat give us the old man dammit#(also urgh getting reminded that all of ford's stuff is bill centred booo boringgggg)#anyway it's funny that gideon's ramblings about the author is now canon#cos the scene of him writing next to the prism is a hint to the carpet diem ones#and him digging that hole was likely implied now to be him wearing his invisibility robe that doesn't work half the time
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#pokemon#pokemon sv#grusha#iono#snowshockshipping#aquanutart#not an update to the post but!! i was working on this since before i wrote it and now i finished!#so even though there are barely any actual pokemon in it... (shoutout to rotom and bellibolt) ...i'll put it up!#it's canon in the dlc that grusha was one of iono's original fans#and that her content used to cheer him up#..though it makes me feel kinda bad how he rips on her newer content LOL so i'm choosing to interpret it how i want#which is that grusha was one of iono's original stans but is just cringing so hard about it now#that he doesn't want anyone to know because he thinks it's 'uncool'#look i don't think you can be that fixated on what's cool or not without being incredibly scared of looking uncool yourself#iono is supposed to be sneezing because of that anime thing where you sneeze if someone is talking about you#but alternately she was just out in the snow with grusha#(btw sorry if penny is ooc here. i actually only know her from the tcg card because i (still) haven't gotten to actually playing sv whoopss#(and i haven't seen her in the anime yet either so i kinda just was like.. 'who else probably watches streams?' and included her)#i meant to make stuff about these characters back when they were just revealed and we didn't really know much about them yet#so this may be a holdover from that whoops
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i see so much of "jily is married but regulus had a silly crush on his brother's married best friend" but what if it was the opposite?
jily is married, bartylus is married (having tryst w evan now and then) but lily knows james has that silly crush on regulus forever because his type is mean ppl and she loves to tease him about regulus for years and one time they got together at family gathering (maybe christmas week?) and lily dropped the bomb at the table "yk james had that crush on you when we were back at the school, right regulus?"
now james is spitting his drink, regulus' jaw on the floor, sirius has the most frightened expression on his face because he did not know that, barty and evan is looking each other amused because well, well. i guess they didn't bully james and his squad for years for nothing.
#this hc is really not my thing#like my characters are very diff#but i really entertained this idea bcuz why not#if jily is together u just know rosestarkiller together as well#poor sirius tho#also#james still has that crush on regulus lol#jegulus#jily#rosestarkiller#bartylus#marauders#marauders headcanon#agon's headcanons#jegulus brainrot#i got out of my comfort zone for this one for sure#but don't expect any jily hc's#this was only one time thing lol
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Memories
Old man Fiddlestan, my beloved-and what's this? It could be semi-canon compliant :O ?!?! Woof- this is one of the saddest things I have ever written. I know some of you gremlins (affectionate) love that sort of thing, but I don't. I like really really don't. This is my comfort ship, so I don't even know where this came from other than trying to figure out how they *could* work in canon. Truthfully though, I prefer my Fiddlestan heavy on the comfort when it comes to the "hurt/comfort" genre. This is my only “angsty” (i.e. no immediate happy ending) Notes-app fics, so don't get used to this level of sad from me lol.
“Stan?” an oddly familiar voice called. Mr. Mystery, Stan Pines, glanced up from the flyers he was organizing and found that Old Man McGucket stood in the doorway of his front door. The last tour of the day had just left, it was dinnertime, and he was exhausted. Stan rolled his eyes as he unfurled his tie, wishing Soos was still there to escort the crazy old man off his property. No matter what he did, the old hillbilly always managed to find his way back to the Shack. “Sweet Moses McSuckit, what are you doing in here? Shoo, scat, or whateva will get rid of ya.” Hearing no movement, he looked at the man again and found he was standing erect. His blue eyes were the clearest he had seen them in no less than a decade.
Wait, what did he call- oh. Oh no.
“Stan…ley? Did I…did I do somethin’ wrong?” the other man asked, his hands twisted in knots in front of him. Memories flashed through Stan’s mind; Ford falling through the portal, Fiddleford finding him passed out in the lab, working together to bring Ford home again…being together. Being happy. They had been happy, if just for a little while, hadn’t they?
Then there was the cult, and his discovery of the damn memory gun that had finally ruined everything they ever built. He took a hesitant step forward, a thousand thoughts roaring in his mind at once. “Fidds? Wha-what do you remember?” A bandaged hand snaked up and rubbed over the faded scar on the side of his head “I…don’t rightly know. Did we…I think we had a fight? I just woke up in the…in the dump. N’ I don’t have any shoes. Do ya know why my arm is in a cast?” Fiddleford looked so lost.
Stan knew in his heart that all of this was fleeting- “clarity” would hit Fiddleford every few years after he had finally wiped his mind of himself. Almost like his brain was trying to jumpstart itself back together. The first time they thought it was a miracle but…it didn’t last. It just started a trend that would follow them both for the next almost thirty years. Fiddleford would seemingly “wake up” and be lucid for a few weeks in the beginning, then eventually only a matter of days. It had been so long since the last time that Stan would wager, they only had maybe a few hours together if he was lucky.
The last time Fiddleford was himself…they had fought. Stanley thought he had figured the only way Fiddleford could stay; he needed to remember. Remember everything he had ever forgotten. At the time, Fiddleford had been unwilling to try. He didn’t think he could handle it; he knew he had forgotten what he had for a reason.
Stanley had gotten as close to begging as he ever had in his life since surviving Tijuanna, and when it had no effect…Stanley had told Fiddleford to leave and never come back. He had left that night, and by the next day he had faded away again. After a while, Stan thought his last words had been the final nail in the coffin that was Fiddleford’s mind. He carried that weight along with every other mistake he had ever made. But here he was. Fiddleford. His Fiddleford.
He took a deep breath before he opened his arms up. “Hey, don’t worry, it doesn’t matter. I’m right here.” Fiddleford rushed through the doorway, melting into Stanley’s open arms. “I went away again, didn’t I?” Stan could feel Fiddleford’s tears soaking into his chest, his own whispering at the edges of his eyes. Yes, and you will leave again. You will leave me and I will be alone all over again, you fucking asshole. “Hey cowboy, didn’t I just say not t’ worry about any a’ that? You’re here now, n' that’s what matters. You’re…you’re home.” A haggard laugh vibrated through the smaller man’s chest into Stanley’s own. “I know I keep tellin’ ya, tellin’ me not t’ worry is like” “…tellin’ a fish t’ stop swimmin’; I know Fidds, I know.” Fuck was really the only conscious thought that went through his head as he held his one-time lover. He couldn’t believe he was doing this, again.
Fiddleford looked up, eyes wide and searching Stan’s face. “How long do ya think we have?” Stan shook his head, unwilling to lie even if it eventually wouldn’t matter because he wouldn’t remember. You’ve always been the only person I couldn’t lie to. “I dunno, it’s been…a while. Probably not very long.” Fiddleford closed his eyes before he said “I need ya t’ know somethin’, Stanley.” Stan started to shake his head. “Fidds, you don’t have t-” The look on the other man’s face shut Stan right up-he had always had that ability. Stan wished he didn’t miss it as much as he did. “I need ya to know that even when I’m not here…I miss you. The part of me that’s somewhere in here-” A weathered hand tapped the side of his head to emphasize his point “ misses you. I’m just so sorry, Stanley. Sorry that I’m a coward. I’m sorry that I’m not strong enough to be here all the time…but I’ll never stop tryin’. I’ll always try n’ come home to ya.”
Stan thought of the thousands of times he had chased Old Man McGucket, the neat little character that Stan had to compartmentalize his Fiddleford into when he wasn’t himself, out of the Shack. How many times he had found him curled up like a cat on the back porch. How every time they “met”, McGucket would say how nice Stan was or how good he felt to be around him “for some reason.” How many odds and ends McGucket would gift Stan from the dump for exhibits at the Mystery Shack with a large smile and nothing substantial behind his eyes.
It would be so much easier if he would stop trying to come back. Maybe the hole in Stan’s heart the size of the sweet, certifiably insane man would scab over. How many times had Stanley mourned him? How many times was he willing to hurt himself? They were now nearing their sixties, how long was he really willing to do this song and dance?
What’s one more time? he softly thought, his hand coming up to tenderly cup the grizzled face of Fiddleford Hadron McGucket. Mad scientist, friend, and unfortunately for them both…the love of his life.
“I miss you too, Fidds.”
#bbuzz28#my writing#fiddlestan#stanley pines#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#if anyone ever wants to expand on this idea please feel free to-bc I think its an interesting concept overall#I simply do not have the heart to write something so very sad LOL#also something I couldn't think of how to do justice was Tate in all of this#because like-Tate knows *something* is between his father and Stan#I had a line that was like 'The wide berth he gave Tate McGucket whenever they were in the same vicinity. The weight of similar eyes#to his father never leaving him whenever they were found to be in the same place always feeling heavy.'#but I couldn't figure out how to make it really fit in a quick lil one shot#and Tate deserves more than that#bc don't forget Tate is *literally* the only thing that holds Fidds mind together at any given time in any just about any timeline :')#but yeah the idea of canon Fiddlestan is actually incredibly sad bc either its this or Fidds wiped Stan's memory of him#which I recognize *is* a trope...but that just makes me so v sad.#I know people explore fiction in ways to help them feel bigger feelings- but I just want them to be happy#maybe that's naive but its my truth#alright-that's enough yapping in the tags#again if anyone wants to expand on this feel free and send me a link :)
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bride of heisenberg
#my art#breaking bad#I don't really feel like this is done but I can't justify spending any more time on it so it's done LOL
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I FINALLY FINISHED THIS!!!!!!!! I might tweak some of the wording, but this is for my school project explaining what goth is ☺️🫶



#YIPPEE 🎉🎉🎉🎉#Of course; this is only a light overview and doesn't delve too deeply into the history of it all#Buuuuut if you guys would like for me to explain the whole deal with visual kei and it's history then I could maybe do it in the future :3#not now though my brain needs a break 💀#i procrastinated too hard on this#Also for those wondering why I put so much emphasis on the politics while most people say that goth “doesn't have any politics tied to it”#it's because every aspect is very much political!!!!!!!!!! even if people themselves don't recognize it as such#<- which is why everyone (including myself) shit on conservative “goths” LOLL#my art#school#school project#comic#educational comic#goth#goth subculture#goth history#alternative#punk#counterculture#To add/clarify: I said everything began in the 80's because a. the beginning of goth in the late 70's and early 80's really blends together#b. goth's heyday truly became what we know it as from the 80's onwards#and c. I was just too lazy to go back and change it 💀 LOL#if you guys are curious about anything lmk
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