#i don't know what the truth is
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Doing a rewatch of Midnight Mass 'cause it's that time of year. This series had so, so many epic monologues, but this remains one of my favorites. Mike Flanagan will own my heart forever simply on the power of this one scene, that hit me like a sledgehammer because it was like he reached into my head, snatched up my thoughts about organized religion, and put them on the screen for everyone to see.
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#midnight mass#book II: psalms#riley flynn#father paul#still can't reconcile the idea of a “loving” god who would allow the kind of suffering we see every day#and yet Jesus preached a gospel of love and forgiveness and tolerance#which i am so in tune with#so why the dichotomy?#i don't believe we're here only to suffer#and yet so many of us do#i don't know what the truth is#and neither does anyone else#and anyone who swears they do is a liar#faith can only take you so far#before you require absolute proof#and i've yet to get that#sunday night ramblings
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biting my tongue so hard it's about to bleed
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Expertise can't help you here.
#dungeon meshi#kabru#laios touden#falin touden#Happy Thistle Thursday once again. Have I been holding on to this comic for several weeks? Sure have!#I forgot how long it takes for Chimera Falin to come into play.#I still really love my 'better drawn' art of her - unfortunately it was several weeks too early for the anime only folks.#Slowly getting the hang of drawing Laios. I don't know why I struggle so much but I am getting...somewhere.#Meta time: God damn I love how the chimera shows off the expertise and gap between Kabru and Laios.#The truth is: they are both *right* and they are both *wrong*.#This creature is a combination of monster and human and they only have the skillset to deal with one of those.#Kabru goes for all the human vitals - but she isn't human.#Laios tries to approach her as a monster and is struck down by the humanity he sees in her.#She is something new that defies what they *both* understand about the world. And that makes her such a perfect antagonist.#The damsel was the dragon all along!#...She is really so cute though. Terrifying! But adorable. I am so excited to see the boom of fanart for her.
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i'm one hundred percent certain that after percy and annabeth made out underwater. and he wanted to make their relationship official. the question was not "will you be my girlfriend?" but "can i be your boyfriend?" i don't care what the canon says. percy gave annabeth the space to take the lead in the relationship. because after a lifetime of being abandoned by everyone she dared to care for. and then watching her on the brink of a panic attack at the thought of losing him the last four years. he wanted to honor a new beginning between them by follow her lead and moving at her pace.
#i will not accept another answer#(i'm easily persuaded)#i don't care what the canon says#(unless it was exactly this in which case that was good story writing)#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo text post#pjo#pjo headcanon#percy jackson#annabeth chase#percabeth#percabeth headcanon#percabeth fluff#percabeth cute#percabeth romantic#percabeth rant#but in all seriousness#he for sure did this#not bc annabeth is a controlling partner like percabeth-opposers claim she is#but bc she is a girl who experiences love the same way the moon feeds off the suns reflection#never knowing truth warmth#only it's echo#and percy intends to make her feel like she's his entire world#like she's the reason the sun shines so brightly#so fuck off
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going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:
There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’
like wow babe. good fucking point
#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point#not a shitpost#cptsd#and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer#the truth is i know why i wasn't loved#i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings#i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing#i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance#the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it#i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer#and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!!#because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that!#it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs!#so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't.#when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to#you can look for answers and reasons and explanations#but that's not actually going to FIX your situation.#and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job)#because you don't need answers--you need a new situation#*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme*#and yes. walking out isn't always possible.#but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap.#stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air#new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust#like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be#when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole
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It could get worse and it DID get worse
FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT
MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)
#deltarune#undertale#deltarune fanart#undertale fanart#utdr#crossover#crossover comic#comic#twin runes#twin runes comic#twin runes au#kris dreemurr#frisk#lesslo#my art#and we're also getting more hints to frisk's little secret#not long until the truth comes out I'd say#depends on how long they can keep in the guilt#but as we've established#this place is kinda made to amplify these feelings#kinda like it was made to teach someone a lesson#HMMMMMM#lesslo seems to know this place preeeetty well#don't tell me they kept him prisoner in there because he kept making everyone's life worse#yep#that's totally what happened#apparently he's immune to guilt though#cheeky bastard#I WAS PROMISED A MINOTAUR AND NOT SOME BITCHY CUPID
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Bingqiu AU where Luo Binghe's the chosen village sacrifice to the evil deity who lives up the mountain.
Normally the village sends maidens, but they've more or less run out of expendable girls of the right age and, ahem, "virtues". So of course Luo Binghe's early life bad luck kicks in. In the wake of his mother's death there's no one to really care about what happens to him, he's fairly pretty, and the village leaders decide that if they dress him up like a girl the teenaged homeless kid should pass well enough. And hey, y'know, he's probably got a hard life ahead for him anyway -- dying in a brothel of some venereal disease or on the streets of exposure or starvation. At least as a sacrifice, everyone else gets to benefit from his loss! And the kid will get added to a shrine and be remembered as a hero! If anything, he should be happy about this!
Binghe is not happy about this.
But he's also a skinny underfed nobody who is easily overpowered, dressed up like a bride, and tied to a post. So. Not much he can do but wait for the evil deity to come and do whatever horrible thing he's gonna do to him.
Meanwhile, Shen Yuan is pretty sure he's been isekai'd into the over-powered hero of some kind of supernatural adventure story? He's not totally sure because he doesn't recognize the setting, but the signs are there. He's got a shrine-like base of operations (though it seems to have become corrupted/ruined, probably he has to restore it somehow), he has a very resilient and handsome new body with spiritual energy of some kind flowing through him, and a very clearly magical sword. Plus lots of neat starter powers! Though it feels like he has other abilities that have been blocked somehow? Probably he has to level up in order to access them.
When he treks out of his "base" and finds what seems to be a distressed maiden, he takes it for his beginner hero mission. The girl claims that she's been doomed to be sacrificed to an evil god. That sounds a little above Shen Yuan's pay grade for dealing with, so he unties her and decides that they had better just get out of the whole region altogether. He already packed up anything useful from his base, anticipating he might get caught up in an adventure once he left, so they follow the river away from the settlement until they reach another one.
While they travel, Luo Binghe tells Shen Yuan about the cursed deity, Shen Qingqiu, who was cast out of the heavens for slaughtering one of his brethren and has apparently being do-who-knows what to maidens from the local village in exchange for his "protection" ever since. Sounds like a real asshole! And also mid-level boss type bad guy at least. Shen Yuan hopes he doesn't have to fight him, but he probably will.
Thank goodness he found Binghe, though! Clearly the helpful little sister type! He's definitely going to require her assistance if he's going to figure out how to navigate this world and level up his skills enough to take on a god.
#svsss#bingqiu#scum villain's self saving system#scum villain#luo binghe: I don't know why the evil deity toys with me this much but as long as he is amused then he's not killing me#luo binghe: each day he lets me live is another blessing especially since I have no hope of escape#luo binghe: is it for some sick amusement that he drags me to and from the dens of monsters and feigns ignorance?#luo binghe: if I reveal that I know the truth will the ruse end? does he do this with all his sacrifices?#luo binghe: or is he toying with me because he knows that I'm not really a maiden at all? standing on this knife's edge is unbearable#luo binghe: and yet somehow this is the most stable my life has been ever since the death of my poor mother#luo binghe: the world is cruel -- perhaps if I become whatever it is this god desires I might be shielded from more of it for another day#luo binghe: wait I have heavenly demon blood? then... perhaps my dark master considers me a suitable companion thanks to this?#luo binghe: are we two companions in this wretched world? outsiders sharing scorn and thus only able to find solace in each other?#luo binghe: is this what it feels like to care and be cared for? it's been so long I had almost completely forgotten it#shen yuan: gosh these upgrades are getting convoluted I wish I had a skill menu or something#shen yuan: oooh neat a slime! easy exp!
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thinking about how law was (apparently??) being raised in the one piece catholic church™. thinking about how he specifically refers to the victories of the strawhats as miracles. thinking about how luffy has a god's devil fruit. thinking about law inclining his head and closing his eyes like he's praying towards the end of gear 5 luffy fighting kaido. is this anything.
#one piece#one piece spoilers#trafalgar law#and I guess I'll throw in a#lawlu#this isn't even me lawlu truthing tbh#i don't know what it is. but this post has been pinging around in my brain for 24 hours#law being raised catholic funny as shit to me btw#90% of his damage i'll chalk up to The Various Traumas and the rest is the catholicism#chinhands. is there a pope in one piece.#also sorry about the horrific quality images these are phone screenshots of a random streaming site
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yes louis and armand had filthy kinky sex between this:
and this:
y'all felt this, don't lie. feel free to argue with the wall. and don't just take it from me:
#loumand is hot i don't know what to tell you#discourse with the vampire#loumand#like come on - if i could make gifs i would include armand's cat-like slow blink#fyi - that look on that day is the last time i even kinda root for this relationship#once daniel and louis learn the truth - louis get the fuck outta there#loumandiel?#sure why not#inspired by one of my moots :)
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bsd 118: behold!! the tanizaki lore you've all been waiting for
the tanizaki lore:
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd 118 spoilers#bsd spoilers#bsd 118#on his deathbed (well yk) and all he talks about is how the truth abt naomi's family is in a hidden note in the pen on his desk#if that isn't the most junichiro thing to do then i don't know what is#on the plus side we're GETTING SOMEWHERE 👀👀
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behind every successful cumplane ship is Luo Binghe and Mobei-Jun depressingly making out with each other
#you can't say I'm wrong#cause it's the truth!#probably already said before but ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯#svsss#shang qinghua#shen qingqiu#cumplane#mobei jun#luo binghe#i don't know what Mobie-Jun's and Luo Binghe's ship name is lmao#blorbo#ily shang qinghua 💞
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Canary in the coalmine
#postal#postal dude#p1 dude#postal 1997#postal 1#I don't know what this even looks like my laptop vs tablet screens are like the 1 always lies 1 tells the truth riddle#One day I will draw something not edgy Dude can pet a kitten or something I promise#my art
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add charles swearing on purpose in a press conference to test out whether max's punishment was a one time thing to the list of things that i would click off a lestappen fic for for being too unrealistic!
Unfortunately to reality check everyone for a second as fun as it is to sensationalise for rpf purposes I don't think Charles swore in that press conference on purpose and I think his whole "oh noooo I'm going to have to do community service with Max" smile act was more a result of an inside joke between the drivers (since he said it in the direction of Carlos and Lando) who all already thought a swearing penalty was ridiculous.
The statement specifically mentions monetary fines, which confirms to me that Charles' penalty was the catalyst for the GPDA to act but I'm sure all drivers had input and Max and Charles probably had the most since they're the two who have been penalised for swearing and were amongst the first two drivers to follow the GPDA instagram.
#i know i'm usually the one doing sensationalist rpf but just this once let me speak my truth#bc tbh the truth is lestappen enough. max and charles would have been the ones to bring it to the gpda likely via seb#and it's likely what they were always yapping about in brazil!#we don't need to sensationalise it#lestappen#gpda instagram
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Thanks for listening to my sad backstory. Anyway, here's Wonderwall.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan xichen#lan wangji#madam lan#This normally would have been two separate comics but I felt like it was a far better joke to have them together.#Enjoy the rare double feature comic!#I was listening to this episode - scripting out and preparing for a longer and heartfelt comic on this scene.#And then Lan Xichen pulled out his flute and started playing unprompted.#I could not contain my laughter. I know it is trying to be emotionally resonate and the flute is pretty but...#It really does have the energy of “Okay thanks for listening to my tragedies and traumas. I don't know how to segue out of this.”#This madam lan design is inspired by Qourmet's design! Really good stuff that I was not able to do more with in this one panel.#Speaking of...I know it is ambiguous on purpose and we are only told what happened through LXC's POV but...#I always interpreted madam lan's passing as a suicide. I think LXC was told it was illness to soften the blow.#She was stuck in a house with maybe a servant coming by to give her food. One day a month she saw her children.#Of course she was warm and loving in their memories-#She was trying to give them a version of her that would be remembered as such. She wanted to protect them from the truth.#She did her best but she was already dead a long time ago. She must have felt like a ghost haunting a house.#Love to her was waiting. And both her boys inherited that view of love.
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very hypocritical of aemond to call rhaenyra's children bastards when rhaenyra is literally his father alicent fess up why does your son look exactly like your ex gf? 🤨🤨🤨🤨
#don't know what this post is just ignore me#this will probably be the only hotd post i ever make you guys scare me#but i need to speak my truth!!!!!#aemond targaryen#rhaenyra targaryen#alicent hightower#rhaenicent#rhaenyra x alicent#alicent x rhaenyra#house of the dragon
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so so excited for The Ties That Bind, I love keeping up with it's progress and can't wait until the final product!!! Here's a quick question: Is Rabel pronounced Rah-bell or Ray-bell? I keep pronouncing it Rah-Bell but idk if that's correct. Love ur work and have a good day! :)
Thanks! It's the first one, like scrabble
#rabel#nat#Rabel's name has had a different explanation pulled out of my ass for every different version of the story#the honest truth is that i took it from the word rabelaisian without really knowing the definition#I was just like yeah that looks like what his name would be#I don't think he's even called by name at all in the current version#ttbasks
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