#i don't know what her reply would be but i think selena

[jhkfan123]

enchanted- tom blyth | ch. 2

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✦ii.

it was one event to the next. after the premiere, you had a few off days, but not before you had to slip into another gown and attend the academy gala at the academy museum in los angeles. todays gown was white, with a cascading, flowy skirt below the waistline. at the very bottom of the dress, tiny white bows. on top, a bow that also doubled as the off-the-shoulder sleeves. you'd never seen anything like it before. you wore your hair your favorite way, knowing there would be lots of paparazzi there. you had to walk around for what felt like an hour in your heels to get used to them. you were walking in the opyum heels from ysl, and the logo as the heel made it pretty difficult to walk. 

you had managed to hitch a ride with rachel, and according to her text, she was about to be outside your house. you grabbed your clutch and filled it up with all the necessities. lip gloss, a sample size of the perfume you're wearing, and of course, your phone and wallet. you got the text that she was there, and you rushed out the door. you hopped in the backseat with her. her dress was stunning. a gold corset-esque top, with a velvet body. her hair was done in curls and had lots of  volume. with smoky eyeliner and a nude lip, she looked gorgeous. she hugged you to the best of her ability while already seated. 

"this gown is extraordinary." she touched the tulle part of your skirt. 

"you look like you fell from the heavens girl" you replied. "do you know who else is going to be there tonight?"

"well, i heard that like, hailey bieber is going to be there, selena gomez, i think some of the kardashians, oh! i think meryl streep is going to be there. oh and tom is going to be there of course." this came as no shock to you, he had texted in the groupchat you guys had created during filming. it was called "behind the scenes (what the cameras really SHOULD be recording)"  you had come up with it, of course. it was a little less active after the premiers had finished, but people still communicated occasionally. for some reason, hunter and josh would not be in attendance, just you, rachel, and tom. 

"if i see meryl streep i might pass out." you commented. 

"you and me both girl." 

...

after multiple photos on the red carpet, you were heading into the building. making your way there, you found rachel again. you took her hand and walked in together. when you got inside, you maneuvered your way through the circular tables till your found your name on a card. you slung the long chain of your clutch over the chair and sat down, adjusting your dress. you had gotten constant compliments throughout the night. when you finally settled in, you noticed that rachel wasn't sitting next to you, but rather slightly across from you. there was an empty seat in the middle of you. when you checked the name card, you felt like a giddy little girl again. "tom blyth" was written on it. you looked down at your lap, trying to conceal the grin attempting to break loose. for some reason, you felt transported back to seventh grade, with your first crush. you couldn't wait.

when you finally saw tom making his way to the table, you stood up on instinct. rachel glanced over at you and did the same soon after. he came up to the both of you and gave you hugs. when he sat down in-between you, you felt like the air had been pulled out of you. you had no idea what to say to him. your last interaction had ended abruptly. you had no conversation to pick up from last time.  you thought of an idea, and quick. 

"how was the rest of the afterparty? clearly i missed it." he whipped his head around, unaware you were beginning a conversation. when he did, he made eye contact with you. 

"the afterparty? oh it was lots of fun. but i have to say, people were dropping like flies. you may have been the first one to, y'know, pass out, but other people followed soon after. I honestly don't know what they are putting in those drinks." you chuckled at his joke. "but yeah, it was fun. you missed karaoke, i know you love it." you really did. maybe your singing skills weren't the best, but it was always fun to hang out with friends and sing you heart out. you had gone to karaoke with tom once, but you couldn't remember most of that night. 

"ugh. that's so much fun. oh, did i tell you that i passed out and when i woke up, I was in my hotel? I honestly can't tell if i woke up and uber-ed home and just don't remember, or if i fully blacked out and i got home somehow, like with someone." odd choice. you felt embarrassed. your mouth seemed to keep running, like word vomit. "sorry, that was weird to say." 

you saw tom smile into his lap. you weren't sure if that was good or bad. "i think you would have remembered, at least slightly, if you had gotten home yourself." he said, quieter than before. 

"that's true. i guess it doesn't matter. whoever got me home was a real one, then." you said. his smile faltered for a brief moment. you looked around for a moment, begging to continue the conversation, but failing to think of anything more to talk about. luckily, he came to the rescue. 

"so, any new projects?" he asked you. the truth was, your agents had been sending you opportunities for a while, but you hadn't heard anything back from casting agents. however, you were scheduled for a final round of callbacks in a few days. it was a greta gerwig film. you would KILL to be in a greta gerwig film. little women, barbie, they were your favorites.  you'd never worked this hard for a role in your life. 

"well, i'm currently in callbacks for a greta gerwig movie. do you know what i would give to be in a greta gerwig film? and the answer to that question is my left kidney and more." when you looked up, tom was looking at you. for once, a man looked like he was truly interested in what you had to say. 

"i love greta gerwig. her movies are great. and that's really cool. i've had a few auditions and a few callbacks, so i'll hopefully book something soon." you smiled at him. when you smiled, he smiled back, and time stopped. that's what it felt like, at least. you looked at his alluring, yet kind of horrifying blue eyes. then you took in his whole structure. you swore you'd never seen anything like it. after a beat, a waiter placed food down on both your plates, along with rachels, and the others at your table. you adjusted to sit fully upright and forward, and heard tom clear his throat slightly. the meal presented in front of you was  steak with mashed potatoes, assorted vegetables, and chimichurri sauce.  everyone at the table seemed to have got the same meal. you heard rachel and tom laugh. glancing over, you noticed you had zoned out. for enough time, at least, for them to start recording a video. 

you decided to pick at your food. it was no use. the only thing on your mind was that look tom had gave you mere minutes earlier. you felt like it meant something. he had never looked at you that way, the way you had wanted for so long. while nothing was said, you couldn't help but feel like something had been said, just not directly. you came to the conclusion that maybe he wasn't totally uninterested in you. 

you tried to think of anything, any event that was coming up that you could invite him to. your next event was the golden globes, and that wasn't for a long time. until then it was mainly press. then you remembered. rachel was hosting a get-together in a few days. her and josh. he would definitely be there. until then, you would have to imagine what your next interaction would be. hope that it would be more straightforward than tonight. 

"hey, tom? are you going to rachels thing in a few days?" you nodded to rachel. he looked over at her and she looked over at you. 

"oh my gosh yeah i forgot. you never got back to me." rachel said. you both looked at tom, awaiting a response. 

"i wouldn't miss it." he responded. now you had nothing to worry about. except of course, for the nervousness you got in your stomach. it was abnormal, usually you felt very confident, and never got like this around people. but something was different. you felt giddy. and you loved it. you couldn't wait to spend more time with him. 

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[namorslutfanfiction]

girl I'm down bad for tenoch, like i havent been in a long time for a male celebrity. i am obsessed!! his birthday is tomorrow!

i have so much curiosity about him (as a person, you know), like does he believe in astrology? hes such an aquarius! and because of that, the answer could be yes or no hahah

I have been practicing my spanish more nowadays; i have read almost every single tweet this man has tweeted. im currently reading his book (which is amazing!! must read for people who want to know more about mexicos power dynamics, racism, colorism! very enlightening; as a latina myself, i could swap mexico to my countrys name and it would fit perfectly) (also he is very articulated, intelligent and funny! such an easy-going read besides the theme).

whats his favorite book? what kind of songs he listens to? share your spotify account with me tenoch!!

whats his comfort food? whats his WhatsApp profile picture? is it from a professional shoot or a selfie he took on his phone? did he cave in and bought an iphone? did he have pets growing up? whos taking care of his plants back home?

does he have a nickname? maybe 'Té', or 'Noche'? or is it something that has nothing in common with his name (my family nickname is completely different from my given name)?

and so on so on!! i need ANSWERS!! necesito tomarme un trago con el!! necesito pachequearme y hablar de la vida con este hombre!!!

Same. Like I literally found myself back on this godforsaken site after years because I needed to be able to vent about my love and obsession for this man.

Oh I would love to know his random opinions and his belief systems. I think he would find it amusing that we have looked up his astrological chart to the best of our abilities. Like he would definitely think "wow thats extensive" but he wouldn't make fun of it like some guys do.

So I know like very rudimentary Spanish that I learned because of my job. I got so often mistaken as some type of latin or hispanic person that it was easier to learn enough Spanish to get by and guests were always so understanding. "Oh she can understand us but it's hard for her to reply." I want to learn more Spanish but I don't have the time right now. I wish I could read his book but a translation isn't out yet.

As a filipino I feel like there will be a lot for me to relate to in the book considering the rampant colorism in all parts of Asia. Filipinos are often referred to as the 'Mexicans' of Asia. Which is weird but also fitting. What snippets of translation I've seen have been so interesting though.

I know he hates reggaeton with so much passion its kind of hysterical. I think I remember him mentioning one of his favorite books in an interview but I can't remember off the top of my head. I knoooow this man has all kinds of proud Latin music on his playlist. Also unabashed bangers like Selena.

He apparently has a screenshot from his whatsapp on his twitter somewhere and I think it's like a normal pic not anything professional.

DOES TENOCH HAVE PLANTS? THAT IS THE QUESTION I NEED ANSWERED BECAUSE I AM A PLANT MOM!

Did you see that interview where he was mad hungry and eating the food the interviewer bought him? I wonder if he's one of those mexican dads who is willing to try a bunch of stuff or if he's the type to always choose latin food over anything else.

I've seen some of his activist friends call him 'Noch' or 'Nochie' I also know that Diego Luna specifically calls him 'chiquitin'. And that makes me giggle because I think he smiles his stupid cute smile every time Diego calls him that.

LOL I have two first names and depending on who you are decides which one you call me. So I don't have any nicknames. Everyone would just get even more confused.

I wanna talk to him about everything, life, love, politics, bull shit, the things that make us happy, the things that make us sad. I wanna talk about our pasts, our futures, our dreams.

I want his advice. Like I bet he gives the best life advice.

thank you for the ask,

[eldritchsurveys]

1249.

1. What is your favourite kind of "-cide" (e.g., suicide, homicide, matricide, genocide..etc)? >> Patricide. Deicide's also fun.

2. Do you prefer soupy noodles or noodles without the broth? >> Noodles without the broth, 100%. I really just am not a soup person. Like, it can taste good, but I just do not like having to deal with broth. 3. Do you listen to Sublime? What's your favourite song of theirs? >> I don't. Santeria and Date Rape and What I've Got are definitely still nostalgia classics for me and I love hearing them in the wild, but I don't have them in my Likes or anything.

4. Don't you hate it when you comment/message someone a question and you know they've read it but they don't reply? >> Abso-fucking-lutely.

5. Do you have a virus scanner installed on your computer? >> I don't, Windows Defender or whatever does the job fine enough for my needs.

6. Do you think a pretty person with ugly teeth can ruin their appearance? .

7. What's up? .

8. Have you ever missed someone but felt like they had other friends and didn't miss you as much as you did? .

9. Are you pretty good at small talk/conversing with acquaintances? >> I don't find small talk to be difficult at all, I'm just not very fond of the fact that I rarely get to progress beyond small talk with people.

10. Who, out of all your friends, do you hang with the most and could never get tired of him/her? .

11. What was the last bet you made between a friend? Who won? .

12. Do you like the taste of white chocolate or does it taste kind of fake? >> I can't stand it. I don't care for sweet chocolate in the first place, but white chocolate is particularly off-putting to me. It barely tastes like chocolate at all.

13. Are you an automaton? >> Beep boop.

14. How would you react if you just found out your mom had an abortion before? >> She wanted one, incidentally. I wish my father didn't force her to have me.

15. Are your pets spayed/neutered? .

16. Don't you hate it when sites go under maintenance all the time? >> I would find that quite annoying.

17. Do you have polymastia (only the cool kids have been diagnosed with it)? >> I don't. I was born polydactyl, though.

18. Here's a good one: Do you know anybody who has a third nipple? >> I don't.

19. Ever seen a guy wear a kilt before? >> Many times. 20. Hottest guy you know and actually talk to? Hottest guy whose name you don't even know? .

21. Do you wear jeans that are boot cut, straight leg, flared, or what? >> Flares is my preferred style. I am so glad Old Navy still sells flares.

22. Are you expert at photoshop? >> I am not an expert at it.

23. Where do you buy your shoes? .

24. Have you ever seen the movie Selena, about the Mexican-American pop star? >> Long, long time ago. 25. When was the last time you had carrot cake? >> I don't remember, but now I want some. 26. Do you make sweet vids on your camera with your friends? . 27. Have you ever been to the Space Needle? >> I have not. 28. Can you sing the Peptol Bismol commercial jingle? >> I could.

29. Do you know any teenager guys who talk in a semi-high voice like they haven't even reached puberty yet? .

30. Are you feeling pretty complacent at the moment? >> I... don't think so?

31. Who all have you fallen in love with completely? .

32. Where will you be the most tomorrow? >> Home, although I will be going out for a couple of hours. 33. What's something you need to go shopping for in the near future? >> Groceries.

34. Do you have a shit ton of friends or just a select few best friends? >> Secret third thing. 35. What plans do you have for this coming weekend? >> Meetup group on Saturday.

36. What's something that you've been thinking about a lot recently? >> The agonies.

37. Can you say that you hate someone? >> I cannot say that.

38. What's something you really need to work on about yourself? .

39. Is there anything in your past you just don't talk about at all? >> I wouldn't say that. A lot of stuff just never comes up in conversation because it's pretty traumatic and/or unrelatable.

[elisysd]

36. And what hurts the most is people can go from people you know to people you don't

Masterlist - Previously - Next

Chapter soundtrack: People You Know - Selena Gomez

It had been so long since Julia had watched a Grand Prix at home that she didn’t know what it felt like anymore. She felt anxious to have very few information on how Ethan was feeling or how her dad was managing the expectations and his drivers. She couldn’t talk about race strategy, she couldn’t talk to her friends and the broadcasting was only showing the track and his complexities which she already knew by heart. It was the first Free Practice of the day, that would be now that she would know if her work would be paying off or if she had done a massive mistake.

Of course, the teams were all testing different things so it was still hard to have a real idea of what the race would look like in terms of competition, but still it would give Ferrari an idea about their pace comparing to the others and it was already a lot.

She watched the session carefully, still feeling very powerless to not have any data to work on and analyze but from what she could notice, it was not bad, especially for Martin who was challenging Kyle’s lap times and sectors. Elijah’s pace was also good but still behind, making Julia think they probably were not testing the same setups. Her eyes couldn’t help but wander in the back of the time sheet where Noah and Niels names were appearing. Since she had left them and despite the idea that they stolen her, it was not really working better for them. A part of Julia was disappointed for the drivers that were still her friends, but another one was still a little petty and glad that it was not working. After all, the upgrade Skoda had stolen from her was meant to work as a package with a few others that she had not the time to finish. She was relieved to have kept them for her even if it meant a whole season of misery for her friends.

Once the session was over she rushed to her phone to call her dad, eager to know what he was thinking about the practice.

“I knew you would call the minute it would be over.” he laughed.

“Can you blame me? So how is it?”

“Elijah struggles a little bit with the downforce but I guess it’s because him and Martin were on a different setup, we will correct that for the afternoon session. But it’s promising, Julia. You’ve seen it. P3 and P6 is not bad for a morning session with an upgrade as big. And the data we have with Martin matches the factory’s, so you can be proud of you and you can be happy. I know I am.”

“I’ll be proud if you manage a podium., until then I’m going to stress out. Could you maybe send me the data from the session, just so I have something to look over.”

“Julia, you know I can’t… Not without attracting the attention. Beside the head of the engineering department no one knows you are working on the car. And I can’t send data without them being protected. I’ll show you when I’ll be back home. We will look over them together.”

She sighed and mumbled but understood. He was right, there were sensitive data that couldn’t get risked to be let out in the open.

They exchanged a few words before hanging up and Julia notice a quick text from Martin that made her smile proudly.

The car was literally flying during the FP1. All thanks to you. I have a good feeling about the weekend.

She thanked him quickly before sending a text to Ethan to try to see how he was feeling about the weekend.

Ethan was staring at his phone, rereading Julia’s text. How come a simple ‘how are you doing’ was so hard to reply to? He knew that it was going to happen with the distance. It was like he didn’t know how to act with her when she was not around. He was always trying to see if there was an underlying message in each one of her words. Was she asking how he was or was she talking about how he was feeling with the car performance? Was it just a text out of politeness because she was still mad at him or did she genuinely want to know? It was stupid, he knew it. Julia didn’t have a twisted mind like he did. after minutes of trying to come with the perfect answer but failing, he sighed and put his phone aside, thinking he would answer later when his mind would be clearer.

“The week-end is going to be tough. Ferrari is quicker than anticipated.” Chloe entered the meeting room, her red hair bouncing on her shoulders.

“What?” he absent-mindlessly replied.

“Ferrari? They are fast.”

“Yeah…”

“What is wrong with you? You don’t have your head in the game.”

“It’s Julia. I involuntarily screwed up and I don’t know if she is mad at me or not.”

“Did you ask her?”

“No. I mean, I know I hurt her and that she has trouble to trust me but she said she would try but… what if she just said that to not make me overthink the situation?”

“I’d say you are overthinking no matter what. I don’t know her very well but from what I witnessed if she is really mad at you, she shows you.” shrugged Chloe, taking a seat opposite of him.

“I want to show her that I was serious when I told her that nothing happened between me and that girl at the nightclub.”

“Then, do it.”

“But I don’t know how?”

It was Chloe’s turn to sigh.

“Don’t you have a picture of you both that you could post to say that you mean it?”

“I have plenty of pictures of us.” he said, proudly.

He unlocked his phone and scrolled down until he found the perfect picture. It was a picture he had taken when he had been invited to dinner at the Leclercs. It was Julia and him, with a very affectionate Bailey. Julia was laughing as he was trying to avoid Bailey ‘s licks all over his face. It made him laugh and he hoped Julia would like the attention. He struggled to find a caption that wouldn’t be too cringe but would convey his feelings enough for her to know he was serious. He typed a few words, before erasing them and rewriting them again until he was satisfied. He had never publicly showed her on his social media, it was the first time but a part of him knew it wouldn’ t be the last. My reality check. Always. He added a red heart, just to perfect it and pressed the post button.

The meeting went on relatively well with explanations on what they would try to see during the FP2 and the rest of the day went by in a blur to the point that Ethan didn’t have seen the day flying. When he finally got back to the hotel he noticed his phone was dead. He plugged it in the socket and looked at the screen finally coming back to life. He ignored every notifications from his mom to Ashley and went straight to the only person he wanted to read but he only had two texts and they were not the longest.

I can see you reading my text. I guess you have more important things to do than replying to me.

The picture was cute but I wish you would just talk to me.

He could imagine her being hurt when it was the last thing he had in mind. He tried to call her but went straight to her voicemail. he kept on insisting until she finally answered.

“It’s late Ethan… I was about to calling it a night.”

“I just want to say sorry.”

“For what?”

“Ignoring you. It’s not on purpose, I promise.”

“I understand that you are busy and that you might not have the time to text me back, but please, just say it. Feeling ignored just to see you posting a pretty picture of us, a few minutes later is not a nice feeling…”

“You didn’t like it.”

“I liked the picture and I liked the attention, it’s just that I wish you would just talk to me first…”

“Well it seems that even when I try to do something cute, I fail. I’m just going to stop so it won’t give you any more reasons to complain.”

“I’m not complaining, I like it… it’s just that I would like for us to talk things through instead of avoiding each other.”

“I’m not avoiding you.”

“Really?” she asked suspiciously.

“Listen, it’s late for you and you were about to sleep so I’m just going to leave you.”

“Ethan…”

“Sleep well, Julia.”

He went to shower and came back to a text from the brunette.

I know the distance is not easy and maybe it’s also my fault for not trying hard enough to be there for you from the other side of the world and for doubting you. I just don’t want our silence to come between us. I trust you. I trust that you didn’t do anything behind my back. I believe you. And if you want to talk tomorrow before the qualifying or after or anytime, just let me know. I’ll be near the phone and I’ll be cheering you on from the sofa. Kick asses tomorrow. And fight out there just like you know how to do. Don’t let the Ferrari being too fast, I want my upgrade to be challenged. At least a little bit.

I overthink you overthinking everything. Look what you turned me into. A fool.

Yeah, but my fool.

It brought a smile to Ethan’s face. Indeed, he was her fool. She would be the only person he would allow to see him like that. And if she was telling someone, he would deny it.

He met Kyle in the paddock, an hour before the start of the qualifying as he was leaving the medical centre.

“Hey, mate! How are your eyes? Still on your way to blindness?”

“I can still see your stupid face so for now, we are all good. How you doing, you look tired. Did you spend the whole night on the phone with your girl? By the way, Romy really wants to plan a double date.”

“I wish. I’s more me screwing up even when I don’t want to.”

“What did you do?”

“I’m doubting Julia. I mean… I’m trying to anticipate her thinking badly of me when she doesn’t so I’m creating problems that are not supposed to exist. I’m just overthinking and it’s messing up everything.”

“She received a lot of insults and the media were not really nice, it took a toll on her but we are past that. She trusts me.”

“You need to chill, man. Was Julia mad because of the pictures from the party?”

“See! Progress were made, you’ve come a long way. Of course, not everything will be sunshine and rainbows. You both have a lot to work on but trust her when she says she trusts you.” Kyle said.

“It’s Julia we are talking about.”

“If you think like that you can kiss your relationship goodbye. It won’t work.” Kyle stated.

“I want it to work. It’s just that I can’t help but screw up even when I don’t want to. And i don’t know how to stop that.”

“Easy. Go with the flow. And for fuck sake tell her you love her!”

It made Ethan blush. To say that he didn’t think of it would be a lie. He wanted to tell her but he was not seeing himself dropping the bomb on her over the phone.

“I will. I’m just waiting for the right moment.”

“There is no right moment. Just don’t do it next to a dumpster, that’s not cute. Don’t do it like me.”

“There is one. Her parents wedding.”

“I didn’t take you for a romantic guy.”

“Shut up. But it’s a wedding, it’s all about love and engagement and I want to do that for her. It’s perfect.” defended Ethan.

“You grew up so much. No, really. Jokes asides you are not the little prick you were almost six months ago. You still have your moments, don’t get me wrong, but you are much calmer since she’s been by your side. I’m glad.”

“Thanks, Kyle. For everything. I don’t think I’ve ever told you but I consider you like my brother. Not by blood of course, but you’re my family. The one that I chose.”

Kyle smiled softly at him, at loss of words but still hugged him.

“If it’s a way to throw me off so I’m slower than usual, it won’t work. Just so you know…”

“I don’t need that to slow you down. Your granddad’s eyesight does the job very well for me.”

“I’m taking back everything I said, you’re still an ass.”

Julia was biting her nails of stress. She didn’t know is she was stressing out for Ethan, for Romy, for Kyle, for Ludwig or for her dad and Ferrari. Maybe it was a mix of everything. In any case, she was sitting on the edge of the sofa, her eyes glued on the screen as her mom was bringing them snacks and Louis was on the floor, reading a magazine about cars, something totally unusual but that made Julia smile.

Finally it started and it’s with an even brighter and bigger smile that she saw the Ferrari flying on the Buenos Aires track. At the end of the Q1 Elijah was in front of Martin, respectively P1 and P2. Ethan was only P7 but Julia was not worried. Ethan was always better in Q3 if he managed to go through the Q2.

Luck was on Ethan sides for the Q2 has he managed to set a time right before a red flag caused by Romy who crashed in the last corner of the track. Thankfully, it looked worse than it was and Julia breathed better when she saw the German getting out of the car visibly frustrated.

It all came down to the last part of the qualifying. Ethan was trying his best but couldn’t set a better time than P4. At least he would have a very nice place for the start, not what he hoped for, but still. Finally, and after an amazing last sector from Martin, he snatched the Pole right in front of Kyle for less than five milliseconds and Julia couldn’t help but let out a squeal. She had done it, she had managed to help her dad making a huge step forward in the comprehension of the car. She felt so happy that she could cry. She looked to her mom that had a proud smile on her face.

“Congrats, Ju’. That’s all you.”

“It’s just qualifying…. the real race is tomorrow.”

And what a race it was. Ferrari was fighting hard against Lamborghini in a beautiful battle that made Julia fall in love a little bit more with the sport. She was sure that her dad was on the verge of a cardiac arrest watching both of his car in such a close battle for the podium. Kyle was leading, closely followed by Martin who was almost in his DRS range, Elijah not far behind. It would all come down to the final lap. Julia felt like she couldn’t breath and when she saw Martin overtaking Kyle in the last sector, followed by Elijah who did the same a few meters before crossing the checkered flag. She could feel the tears streaming down her face. And with both Audi out of the points after Romy had to retire after an engine failure, Ferrari had just managed to caught up with the German team, now being only ten points away from their P3.

It worked. It worked even better than what her dad and herself expected. It was her work, her own blood, sweat and tears that carried Ferrari’s race. She could hardly believe it. She saw her dad almost tearing up and she saw Martin disbelieved face. He was a Grand Prix winner for the first time and she was happy and proud of him. She knew how dedicated he was and seeing his hard work finally paying off made her really happy. She saw her mom coming back with a bottle of champagne and three glasses that she filled for everyone. Julia wanted nothing more but to call her dad but she knew that he probably had a few interviews before. It was a beautiful double podium for the red team.

She enjoyed the win with her mom and the podium and right when it was over, she took her phone to call her dad.

“I’m so beyond proud of you! It was an amazing race! It was perfect!”

“I should tank you. It’s your win as well. I can hardly believe it. It’s a relief, really. It pushes Carlos’ threats away. Allows us to breathe a little. Wait a second, I’m taking the call for a FaceTime, I want to see my family.”

Julia let him make the change and gathered her mom and Louis next to her as she put the phone in a weird balance on the coffee table so everyone could see her dad and her dad could see them.

“I’m so happy for you, my love.” said Lyanna, tears in her eyes.

“That’s the drivers. Martin was exceptional today. I’ve never seen him race like this.”

“Both him and Elijah were on another planet, today.” commented Julia.

“I just… I wish you would all be there to celebrate. I miss having you all on the tracks with me.”

“Be honest, you miss me, especially.” winked Julia.

“I got used to have you by my side. I’m not the only one, I saw your boyfriend being exceptionally moody during his interviews.”

“I’ll call him later.”

She saw her dad looking away before turning his screen, letting Martin appear in the frame. He was sweaty from the race and probably from the champagne but his green eyes were shining in a way Julia had never seen them shone.

‘Hey guys! Good to see you! Louis, do you have new glasses?”

“Yes! I wanted a change. Ethan and dad helped me choose the new one. They are so cool, right?”

“Yeah! You look like Peter Parker.”

“I hope I’ll find my Mary-Jane soon.”

“No doubt you will.” said Martin with a smile. “Julia, I miss seeing you around.”

“I miss being on the tracks too but maid of honour duties…”

“Speaking of, you’ll come to the wedding Martin, right?” Lyanna asked.

“I wouldn’t miss that for the world.”

“Perfect! Will you bring a plus one?”

“Does Elijah count?”

“He is invited so no.”

“Then I’ll be alone.”

Lyanna nodded and disappear leaving Julia alone with Martin and her dad.

“You drove brilliantly out there. You deserve this win.”

“Thank you, Julia.”

“I’m proud of you, well I’m proud of the team overall. You reminded me why I’ve always been a Ferrari fan and why I will always be one.”

Ethan was about to leave the track when he passed by the Ferrari hospitality. He wanted to congratulate Charles for the race. He was gutted by his P8, a race thrown away after a way too long pit stop that made him go back on the track stuck in traffic. From the corner of his eyes, his saw Julia’s dad with Martin bent over the phone, probably with Julia. He was not mad. She had the right to call her dad, he understood why she was prioritising him, but seeing Martin next to him, he couldn’t help the pang on his of his dear friend called jealousy. Why was he always there?

He was about to go to them to show Martin who he was to Julia when he heard the voice of the girl he loved telling his biggest rival how proud she was of being a Ferrari fan. It was stupid, he knew that. It didn’t mean that she was not supporting him. Far from it, he had seen her text saying that the team screwed him up and that no matter what she was proud of his race. But he didn’t like to admit that Martin made him feel insecure. He was handsome, he was racing in Julia’s favourite team, Charles loved him and was always saying in interviews that Martin reminded him of when he was younger, he was a nice guy with a boy next door attitude that Ethan knew wasn’t fake. And he was now a race winner. Everything he was not. And he couldn’t help but wonder if Julia wouldn’t be better with him.

So he left, not without being noticed by Charles.

“Ethan, buddy? I s everything okay?”

“Yeah, yeah… I just wanted to come and say congrats but I saw you were busy so I didn’t want to intrude.”

“You don’t, come. Julia will be happy to see you. I don’t think you had the occasion to talk to her?”

“She is with Martin, I don’t want to interrupt.” he said bitterly.

“Oh, I see. Jealousy doesn’t have a nice look on yourself.”

“I’m not jealous. Jealous of what? Him?” he snorted.

“She chose you Ethan. She is with you. Really, you have no reasons to get jealous.”

“His stupid crush on her is ridiculous. I trust her, I know she tries to not entertain whatever he feels, I don’t blame her. It’s him who I don’t trust.”

“I mean… Julia is my daughter of course he has a crush on her. She is a mini me. And let me tell you that back then I was probably the most loved driver on the grid. All girls loved me so yeah, no wonder why Julia is attracting boys. She is perfect.”

“My dad would have a different opinion on that.”

“Your dad was jealous.”

“Jealous of what? You could hardly beat him on the tracks.”

“That’s what he said? I think he needs to rewatch a few races, he starts to loose his mind. But seriously, talk to her. I’m going to get my phone back so I can call my beloved wife and be alone with her. Take that as an opportunity to call Julia.”

But he didn’t. Instead, his feet led him to the Lamborghini facility where he almost cornered Christian to talk to him.

“Ethan? What is making you burst in here.”

“We need to talk.” he simply said, with a determination in the voice that Christian barely recognised.”

“Follow me.”

They isolated themselves in the little office at the back of the hospitality.

“Did you draft the proposal for Julia?”

“I didn’t have the time, yet…”

“Well take it! Because I can assure you that Ferrari is well on it’s way to have her next year and if they do, you can kiss the championship goodbye. Both driver and constructor.”

“Come on Ethan, I know she is your girlfriend and you love her but be realistic, she is not Adrian Newey.”

“Really? How do you think Ferrari became this fast overnight?”

There was a silence and for a moment Ethan regretted his words. He had promised to not say anything about Julia working on the side for Ferrari, but he wanted to have her next to him so bad that he didn’t care at the moment.

“She is working with her dad on the car. That’s what you are telling me, right?”

“I… It has to stay between us… please Christian. No one knows. Her dad wants to test her…”

“But how? Even if he bought back her contract she is not supposed to work with them this year.”

“That’s why we have to act fast to have her onboard. Buy her contract at her higher price than Charles that Wilhelm won’t be able to refuse. I don’t know, do something…” he begged him.

“Ethan, I just want to make sure of what you are telling me. Julia is not supposed to be able to work with any team yet. But her dad gave her access to enough documents that are meant only for engineers under contract with the Scuderia. She is not supposed to have access to them, right? So that means the team is getting helped for basically free and from the outside as she is not legally bound to them.”

And that’s when Ethan fully understood what he had just revealed and how big it was.

Author's note: Ethan, Ethan, Ethan... What did you just do? What do you think will happen next? Let me know your theories, I love to read them.

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Issues

Rick grimes X Reader

Reader has some suspicion about Rick and Jessie but will work out in the end?

Word count: 988

This is the first thing I’ve written so don’t judge and um lmk if you guys want pt 2?

My Masterlist

I was wondering, "Y/N," as I was strolling through Alexandria, how long it had been since we had last been in a setting like this. When I turned around, Rick was coming my way.“Yeah?” "I missed you," rick said to me as he went to give me a hug after not seeing me all day. I replied as he kissed the top of my head, "I missed you too." Despite being annoyed with him for spending too much time with that Jessie girl. Rick smiled and added, "How are you liking Alexandria so far?" "It's okay, I think we need to keep a closer eye on these people; they're weak, and we can't be weak with them," I said . This place hasn't earned my confidence yet. "Carl said the same thing that their weak," Rick remarked. I couldn't help but sound jealous as Rick made his way to our bedroom, "Seems like you've been a little interested in that Jessie girl," to which Rick replied, "I'm just playing the part here, Y/N it's nothing." Rick responded with a bit of attitude, "I'm just saying I mean you two seem a little close lately." I told him that I didn't like his answer, so I left our bedroom without being overly dramatic.

Rick makes the decision to follow me outside of our bedroom. "There's nothing to be jealous about Y/N I only got my eyes on you," Rick says with a slight grin as he leans against the wall. Before I went to bed, I grabbed Rick's face and gave him a quick peck on his lovely lips. "I'm going to bed goodnight, I love you," I said. "I love you too," Rick replied.

Before I went to bed, I began to think about the possibility that Rick is concealing his love for Jessie. She is married, but her husband is a jerk, so you never know whether she wants Rick. Can I just sleep in peace today, please? Though I say I'm trying to sleep, these thoughts take over. Following a couple of moments I feel Rick towards the bed so I cuddle with him and begin to float off to sleep.

The following morning, when I wake up, I don't feel Rick around me, so I think he went to work more shifts. After getting up, I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth, take a shower, and change into new clothes. When I was finished, I went downstairs and saw Carl holding Judith. "Good morning Carl and Judith" I said, kissing them on the forehead. "Goodmorning Y/N," Carl said with a smile on his face.

As I begin to make them breakfast, I wonder why Rick didn't wake me up before leaving; typically, he would kiss me and wake me up. “Hey Carl, does your father have to work shifts today?” I asked because Rick typically informs me of his shift times. Carl replied as he began to consume the breakfast I had just prepared, "No, Diana gave him the day off and said for him to rest for the day and spend time with the family."

I faked a smiled, "I'm gonna go look for him real quick if you have trouble with Judith I can take her to Carols for a while." I said to Carl, "No, it's okay, I don't really get to spend time with her like this." "Okay," I smiled

I began to walk outside in search of Rick. I start to think, "Is he cheating on me with her?" once more. Why didn't he inform me that he was off today? It feels like my heart breaks when I see Rick and Jessie walking somewhere.

I made the decision to keep walking and follow Rick and Jessie as they soon vanished into a house corner.

When I first saw them, my first thought was, "Are you fucking serious?" I tried to hold back tears by saying, "Wow, I can't believe the two of you," as I witnessed Rick and Jessie kissing.

"Y/N, baby, it's not what you think it is"

I replied, "No Rick, it's exactly what I think,"

"Y/N it's not his fault I kissed him, I'm sorry," Jessie said as she stood there feeling guilty.

"I'm not talking about this anymore, I'm leaving fuck the both of you assholes," as I made my way back to the house. Rick tries to stop me, "Baby, I didn't kiss her first, I'm sorry.”

"I don't care Rick you let her kiss you and you didn't tell me it was your day off" I said, trying not to yell at him, "as soon as you came I was going to push her away I swear Y/N I didn't think she liked me I was trying to help her with Pete" Rick said "whatever Rick if I asked you about her before and you knew I was a little jealous you should’ve kept your distance from her Michonne or any other person can handle Pete” I said with my voice full of anger and disappointment “Baby, I’m sorry, I was just trying to help, I want this to be a safe place for us,” Rick said as he held my face in both hands. “Alright Rick, it’s fine, I get it she kissed first, I over exaggerated a little,” i said as he pulled me in for a kiss. “You didn’t over exaggerate, it’s fine, I should’ve spent the day with you guys, not her" Rick said "I better not catch you doing something like that again with her." I said, "I ain't afraid to leave if that's the case grimes," still angry about what had happened. "Your not going anywhere baby, I’m yours and your mine," Rick said with a smile trying to make me feel better. "Start acting like your mine then" I said still having a bit of suspicion of the two as we made our way to our house. I begin to wonder still..

“am I the one he truly wants?”

[thedepressedjuggalette]

Me talking with my anxiety-riddled brain.

My Brain: *constantly thinking of how would be best to reply to the weirdo stalking my page* Me: You know this is kind of stupid. My Brain: What is? Me: Replying to that stalker. My Brain: How so? Me: Remember last time? The dude stalked my great aunt's house, my online activity, my workplace, my university... legitimately everything. The dude would twist words and make it sound like I'm a monster and tricked everyone we knew into thinking we were constantly sending him death threats and shit. My brain: What does that have to do with this? Me: Everything. This guy is starting here, what is stopping him from trying to track everything I do digitally until he finds me and shoots me for daring to like some random. My Brain: Are you sure that isn't just me being anxious-- Me: Bro I'm a fucking Hispanic Ace Woman, I can't be too paranoid considering that Republicans think that anyone that isn't so pale people you disappear in a white background is some illegal immigrant. They're even trying to convince people that Vivziepop of all people is an illegal immigrant. I'd rather not risk my life. My Brain: But they're not understanding-- Me: Look I don't owe anyone explanations, and I don't need to waste my valuable time arguing with someone online. Hell, I wouldn't be surprised if they take this as a win and keep stalking me. It's their choice if they don't want to have a life. It is their choice to waste their entire life hating one person. It's their choice to waste their life hating me because I won't bend the knee to them. They can waste their time. I'm not wasting mine. My Brain: But- Me: They pretend like FNGR didn't go on hour-long transphobic tirades when making hate and rant videos about Lily. They pretend that I didn't say that I thought Lily was in the wrong when biting off that artist's head. They pretend that what Lily said to that artist was worse than what the Steven Universe Fandom did to a literal CHILD. And they can't get it through their THICK FUCKING SKULLS that if they're telling me the absolute put their life on the line deadass truth and actually have a mountain of evidence... then I'd LOVE to see Lily behind fucking bars. I'd LOVE IT if they were to have a court case going and have it be all on the public Youtube sphere like the fucking Iilluminaughtii shit going on right now. My Brain: True... Me: yeah but here's the problem, they never show it to me. They just EXPECT me to believe them and take their words at face value. I mean yeah, Lily is a dick half the time, especially in the past. She was on some fucking rage timing that you'd think she was constantly playing Cuphead, but that's why I never understood why she didn't just only talk to close friends and just toss the whole Discord Server idea into the fucking trash. I don't see the point in even interacting with fans at all for any fucking public figure. It always seemed like a disaster waiting to happen. I mean fans are ALWAYS waiting for their favorite idol to mess up one time so they can have an excuse to maul that person alive. I mean look at Selena. The most beautiful Mexican-American artist of all time and she was MURDERED BY HER NUMBER ONE FAN. Yolanda Saldívar still has people waiting to fucking shoot her ass for what she did to Selena. To think, she murdered Selena over MONEY. My Brain: So we just stop responding? Me: Yeah, they're going to keep on expecting and believing the worst of me. That's how every stan is. I mean google is free, it's easy as fuck to find the website of the Canadian police! My Brain: Okay! Okay! Yeah. You're right. This is all stupid. We need to just ignore them. Me: Yeah, ignore them like how they'll ignore all the links and stories here because Lily is their Lolcow and they are going to keep stalking her. That's a fact. I'm going to just not engage. If they keep trying to spam me, I'll just find new ways to block them. Better than wasting my time responding. My Brain: But they are right about the whole re- Me: Yeah! I already deleted it.

[khaleesiofalicante]

Yeah, I'm not done unfortunately...

Although I love AJ and Lance with my heart, soul and more, Cami and Arjun are the most relatable sibling duo😂. Also, I'm really interested in her dynamic with Anjali, bc we all know Cami is a daddy's girl and Arjun is a mommy's boy, but how about the opposite??

I loved how she apologized to Régine about the Convo of wanting different things in life. I don't like people who dislike others because they are not like them or don't have the same way to view life

AND the conversation between Camila and Kincaid was TOP TIER. Like, Cami is right, Kyle and Victoria are bigoted and Kincaid doesn't do anything to stand up to them, but I also get what Kincaid said about how some people don't have the privilege of doing that. Besides the whole exiling thing...

Lance turning into a whore PLS JSHSJDJSKDK. Teenage boys are so dramatic fr

“I don’t care if you love me less,” Arthur said honestly. “Not if all that extra love goes to Lance.” Okay yeah. Completely normal about this🙂🙂

Harry and Arthur are the cutest and the fact they are a canon event just like Jackson and David's friendship means the world to me 😭😭

ARCAID'S FIRST KISS!!!! AND THE "I LOVE YOU"!!!!💙💙💙

“I’m in love with you, Kincaid,” Arthur told the other boy. “But Lance is my soulmate. He always will be. With or without a rune.” LET THOSE BOYS BE PARABATAI. THEY ARE LITERALLY SOULMATES YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO ME🥺🥺🥺😞

Malik can do no wrong in my eyes. I will protect him always😌. Selena and Gabriel living the best life ngl... And idk how to feel about this Hermes thing. I know he is hot and a dilf and smart and sexy, BUT IRIS NO!

“Not you,” Ragnor observed. “Is it because your family is not lacking bad bitches?” I'm gonna tattoo this sjhsjdjdkdk

“That woman made life hell for my uncle and his family. I don’t care what kind of bad bitch she is. She doesn’t have my respect.” IRIS IS MY FAVORITE I RELATE TO HER A LITTLE TOO MUCH OMG

“Lucifer,” Iris replied. “It seems everyone’s forgotten about him.” HER HER HER. SHE IS THE ONLY BAD BITCH HERE

“Why does everyone in your family think mine is made of monsters?” idk why, but this quote hasn't left my mind. It's just so heartbreaking, both because he loves his parents, and because it's partially true...

I love how Iris is so perceptive. Like she sees something in Kincaid few people see, she understands that Madeline is hurting her family, despite how good she may seem... AND SHE IS LONELY AND HAS A HARD TIME MAKING FRIENDS SO SHE'S JUST LIKE ME FR

“Men only wage war for two things,” Hermes smiled. “Love and greed. You know Lance better than I do. What do you think his cause would be?” LOVE LOVE LOVE OBVIOUSLY LOVE

“More like foresight,” Ragnor corrected. “I see in you, Iris, what I saw in Magnus all those years ago. I see potential. So, I hope, like Magnus himself, you will actually use it.” I sincerely think this is the highest form of compliment someone can say and I would die for it tbh

Other Max really has no sense of reason when it comes to David. He's ready to cause a disaster in space-time to be with David for an hour. Oh to be loved like that sigh😞

We'll explore Cami and Anjali as we move forward in the story. Desi moms and daughters are something else entirely I'll tell you that.

Girls who relate to Iris are superior. I said what I said.

Other Max is...WILD AF BRO. Like how is he not in prison or dead by this point I will never know.

[notebookmusical]

Okay part 2. I hope it's okay that I'm sending in parts because sometimes I forget stuff or lose track of everything I want to say. But last Broadway thing is that you can explain or spoil the Notebook characters thing since it confused me. I actually was reading about the staging of the rain yesterday which seems complicated. I'm always interested in this stuff like set design and some of the business stuff you mentioned too. The only thing with seeing this show is I heard it will really make you cry and idk if ive ever actually cried when watching a show before which seems weird cuz I saw Les Mis but don't think I cried. Did you cry when you saw the show..I'm just curious.

I also wanted to tell you that I slowly started reading again. I'm on like chapter 10 of This Summer Will be Different and also Funny Story. They're pretty different so can't really compare but I'm loving both so far so hopefully I can stick with it. I do think these two seem the most tropey compared to the other books so far and I think it's fun but it might also start to lose me so idk. I heard about both Happy Place and Funny Story also being made into movies too. Also it was just announced that Every Summer After will be a tv show apparently. Idk why cuz that reminds me too much of the summer I turned pretty, that's also a show. Actually I think Happy Place is supposed to be a show too. I guess I don't like when everything is made into a show when it could just easily be a movie. I get that you can add more stuff..I think I'm just less likely to finish a show than movie but I hope it's good. What do you think? I think they're easy to imagine as movies but it's just hard to imagine the casting if that makes sense. I also might try to read the Outsiders and Gatsby at the same time too apparently but we will see lol. I'm glad you've been enjoying your reads and always check out your recommendations.

Happy August! Lol I can't believe it's August already. I hope you have a great month. I remember I meant to reply to you sooner to say something about the anniversary of your eras show but for some reason I forgot. Then mine just passed which is already a week after yours but I still thought about you. I can't believe that was my last concert and my next will be my other favorite artist at the end of this month. For collabs, I just think about the re recordings and I think someone once suggested Noah Kahan on debut and I wouldn't mind that. I've also thought of Kelly Clarkson for debut which is something I would really want for 10 year old me and Tim McGraw so it can be kinda full circle and maybe how she collabed with Keith Urban. I haven't thought of any collabs for rep actually and I would even like it if it didn't have any..like 1989. I would say Halsey and maybe Selena if she decides to release Need. Lorde is also a popular answer I wouldn't mind but idk if these are likely. There may have been Sabrina Carpenter collab rumors at some point and I enjoy their voices when they sang together but don't know what it would be like or for rep or debut. Or it could just be okay..like the Gracie one so who knows. I would also love Soccer Mommy on debut since she covered a debut song and she's from Nashville. She toured with the National so maybe Taylor knows who she is and that would make me very happy. What about you?

What do you think of the possibility of rep being announced or released pretty soon this year? There's a lot of theories about it being announced possibly today actually. Part of me thinks she wouldn't release it for a while but part of me also thinks she would wanna release it before tour is over. I don't know how I feel about debut but I doubt they would be released this soon cuz we got a new album this year. I have no idea anymore though honestly. She also could release while she is on a break from tour next month so it's hard to know. That's what she did with TTPD. What do you think?

Soccer Mommy also just announced her new album yesterday and I am very excited for it! It's called Evergreen and comes out in October. I actually think this album will be a little different for her..like more mellow which I was saying reminded me a bit of Folklore. Now with the name..it also reminds me of Evermore too and I love that connection so much. It could be her version of a fall album which also reminds me of Red and the name having green in the title and green is my favorite color. I know that's irrelevant to the meaning but it was funny cuz it reminded me of Red. I totally recommend her music. I will listen to Clairo today and give my opinion but I like what I've heard so far. What else have you been listening to? Sorry if I forgot anything but as always I hope you are doing well and have a lovely weekend!

it's totally fine to send things in parts! don't stress about it my friend 🤍

and yes! happy to explain notebook to you, although i will be able to do a better job after i see it again — do you mind if we wait a few weeks and then i get back to you on the notebook! i have cried at many a show! i am a crier! i cry at everything! i was actually talking to my friend allison tonight about that; the shows i've cried the most at were waitress, and ragtime for sure. but waitress even more so (which means ... seeing it in san francisco in january with two of my best friends — who don't know each other — is going to be a fun way to start off a trip). i've cried at cinderella. for no reason at all. i think it'd be easier to name a show that didn't make me cry haha. it's just ... the magic of theatre! that being said ... i did not cry when i saw les mis on tour last year, so do with that what you will!

i hope you're enjoying your reads! i meant to reread funny story once it came out and still haven't, but maybe i'll get to that soonish. i do think that both of them are very, very tropey and i hope you're enjoying it! what are some of your favorite tropes? ever summer after is very much like the summer i turned pretty, but with older characters, so i'm curious to see how it does! i didn't realize it was being turned into a tv show! did you see the people we meet on vacation casting? do you have thoughts? i really liked emily in my lady jane, and i'm keeping an open mind on tom, since i haven't actually seen him in anything except for tiktok fancams and tumblr gifsets haha. he's a sweetheart though (we have mutual friends) and i'm happy for his success!

happy happy august!!!! i hope your august is going great! you're seeing 21p at the end of the month, right? i can't wait to hear about it! i don't know if i'll be around much at the end of the month since i'll be in new york but know that i'll be thinking of you and i will be seeing things on my phone (just probably not responding, since i hate typing long messages on my phone) if you want to send in a concert review 🥺! oh noah on debut would be so fun!! i would actually really love that! i'd also like kacey musgraves, or maggie rogers on debut! i was listening to halsey earlier today (i was spinning badlands on vinyl) and was thinking of how cool a halsey rep feature or 1989 feature would be! i've heard of soccer mommy but haven't done a discography dive in! but now that you've mentioned them, i'll check them out 🤍

did you see that maisie and holly are opening for taylor? 🥺🥺🥺 i'm so proud of my girls but also terrified for what their future concerts will be like haha. i've been seeing a LOT of rep theories and i do think the easter egg/clowners have a point but i also wonder if she'd do the same thing (announce a recording on tour) twice. personally i'd want her to wait until after tour, but i do see why she'd want to release it on tour. i just think that her (and ttpd) are everywhere and it'd be good for there to be a break haha.

i didn't know green is your favorite color! pink is mine, although i don't think that's going to be much of a shock! i was also spinning clairo's immunity on vinyl today! i feel like i've just been listening to a lot of my usuals (maisie, holly, sabrina, gretta ray — have we talked about gretta ray? i love her! highly recommend her!) and then musicals! musicals galore! a lot of sondheim 🤍 and a lot of olivia rodrigo in preparation for my concert tomorrow, and the japanese house for the concert i'm going to next week! eeeee!

hope you're doing well! thinking of you and sending hugs!

[youremyheaven]

I really loved your post about moon dominant men and women. maybe bc I had a toxic friend like that, i liked that you kinda said a lot of bad stuff about them/criticized their behavior 😭 i LOVED that with my whole RAGE. idk if you can resonate too with all that I'll say, but i remember my friend always wanted to be on a different side than me. she legit accused other people of doing really bad things to her and, or told me "That guy is really abusive" for no apparent reason and pretended as if, since she felt that, then it must be true (also she talked shit about women and PROUDLY believed that if she felt that way about them, it's because they are hiding something/being sus). I used to think she had a good intuition, but she let that thing be blurred by her projections so much that in the end, she wasn't reliable AT ALL and mostly she was just picking up on things about herself and "blaming" others. Reminds me of the meme that says something like "Me saying there are bad vibes in the room but I'm the bad vibes in the room" lol. Also if you showed her proof that, for example, her favorite actor was an abuser or something she always replied "I'm not gonna believe that, there isn't enough proof" she used to believe the dumbest and craziest stuff like birds have cameras, her phone camera is hacked and someone is seeing her?? but if you showed her something REAL and TRUE she didn't believe it at all and she always said something like "hmm im not sure" I remember one day she was telling me that Aquarius was a water sign (it's stupid ik) I showed her screenshots and pics of a book saying Aquarius is an air sign and she said "I don't care, I don't think that's true" she was such a toxic bitch who never apologized for shit because she was incapable of recognizing her shitty behavior. she always talked about her parents as if they were the worst for the smallest dumbest shit like, her dad didn't think buying x was a good idea. One day I was suicidal and she told me that it was too much for her and that she needed to "take time for herself" Selena Gomez who?? and then claimed that I ruined her perception of me bc of that and she couldn't take it anymore. like?? if your friend being depressed victimized and ruined it all for YOU maybe you weren't a good friend to begin with. And it's not like I was draining her every day with my problems bc I'm the type to keep everything to myself and not ask anyone for help. She was the only friend who felt that way about the situation (it affected her so much that it was one of her reasons for deleting me from every social media 2 years later, out of nowhere, and making me feel like im the one who hurt her legit blaming it all on me feeling depressed once) she was also 3x moodier than me, 3x more mentally troubled and she attended parties/meetings with this face 😒 almost EVERY TIME, but if you were sad/angry or disappointed and you showed it, she always made herself the victim or said something like "Yeah that time you cried I wanted to kill you" like babe??? you are always in a bad mood but when someone else was, you dared to take it personally and act like you always do and know better. im really sorry if this was long, but your post helped me process this more than i already did 😭😭😭😭😭

omg bestieee im glad my post could help you😭😩😭 and im so so so sorry that you went through all that

as someone who endured a lot of abuse at the hands of multiple Moon dominant people, i really couldnt hold back on those posts even though I usually dont talk that much shit on any of my astro posts,,

what you said about the hating parents bit took me back to all the times my toxic ex bestie would fight with her parents over the dumbest stuff (her mom didn't let her buy something from the grocery store, im not kidding she had a whole meltdown bc of this) and what u said about them not giving a shit about your feelings/mental health LMFAO sounds exactly right,, i was sharing some deeply sad stuff and they said "okay i dont want to hear any more" like literally they said that,, i understand how some things can be triggering to hear but ??? there has to be a better way to deal with that situation instead of telling the person who is having a breakdown that u "can't hear it". she never apologised or saw anything wrong with her behaviour either. all the empathy i never received has pissed me off so much man, i feel u,, i feel so wronged for having put up with that stuff and for thinking that this is just how it is.

anybody reading this, please cut those fcking people out. they dont care, they never will and you will lose your time and energy on things you're better off without. cut them out. zero explanation. you dont owe them one.

[criticalbennifer]

Jennifer Lopez in Her Own Words (and Everyone Else’s) 

She has been a dominant force in pop culture for 30 years. So how did Jennifer Lopez do it? Here, she, her friends, and her collaborators share the lowdown on J.Lo.

By:  In Style Editors

April 5, 2021

After three decades of nonstop performing, you would think that Jennifer Lopez might take a break. But…nope. "I'm in the best shape of my life," she says. And her friends and colleagues — Leah Remini, Ben Affleck, Michelle Obama, Marc Anthony, and many, many more — concur. Perhaps rapper Fat Joe puts it best. "She's Jenny the Icon. She's not just from the Bronx no more…"

In the beginning...

Abraham Quintanilla Jr. (father of the late Tejano star Selena, whom Lopez portrayed in Selena, 1997): When I met Jennifer, she had been mostly a dancer and at that time was focusing on acting. I recall that early in the Selena production, we filmed the Astrodome concert scene with 30,000 Selena fans as the audience. After it was finished, [my wife] Marcella and I were walking with Jennifer to the dressing rooms. Jennifer stopped and said, "Look at my arms. I have goosebumps." I asked her why, and she replied, "I've never been in front of 30,000 screaming fans." At that moment, you could see in her eyes that she had experienced the excitement of performing live in front of an audience and she wanted to be a part of that entertainment world, which is so different from the acting world. She had the vision.

Jennifer Lopez: Abraham is right. At that point in my career, I had never performed onstage in front of 30,000 people. I felt a huge responsibility to do everything right and to play Selena in the way that her fans and her family would love. I wanted to document her in history in the most beautiful way. I remember feeling comfortable up there and in my own skin and that performing came naturally to me.

Judy Greer (co-star in The Wedding Planner, 2001): Everyone on set was calling her Jen-Lo — there was no J.Lo yet. I'd like to think that it all started there, on a soundstage in Glendale, CA. (I am sure it didn't, but I can pretend I was there at the beginning.)

Lopez: The name J.Lo came from [the late rapper] Heavy D. He used to come by the studio for my first album [On the 6, 1999] and would call me Jenny-Lo, Jennifer-Lo, or J.Lo.When I was doing my second album, I decided to call it J.Lo [2001], and I believe that's when it really stuck!

Tyler Posey (co-star in Maid in Manhattan, 2002): I worked with Jennifer when I was 10 years old. She was always on time and always gave 1,000 percent when she was acting or talking to someone lower than her pay grade. Everyone was treated equally. About halfway through the shoot, she bought me an Xbox! I couldn't believe it.

On her incomparable work ethic:

Marc Anthony (singer and ex-husband): The thing about Jennifer is her ability to see and understand things before they happen. Before she even brings an idea up, she has visualized it a thousand times. And if anyone says it might not be the greatest idea, she'll say, "You just don't see it yet." Nine times out of 10, she'll nail it. She's the first one in the room and the last to leave. The hardest worker I've ever met. When we were together, it was quite the opposite for me. That has changed since. I learned so much from her. She's the original!

Michelle Obama: The world knows that Jennifer is blessed with many gifts — talent, beauty, and an unparalleled work ethic. But what impresses me the most about her is her unwavering commitment to leverage those gifts and use her platform to give voice to the voiceless. Whether it's working to improve health care for mothers and children, encouraging more people to vote, or singing her heart out at a presidential inauguration, Jennifer has always known that life is best when it's shared with others.

Ben Affleck (ex-fiancé and co-star in Gigli, 2003): I thought I had a good work ethic, but I was completely humbled and blown away by what she was committed to doing day in and day out, the seriousness in which she took her work, the quiet and dedicated way she went about accomplishing her goals, and then how she would go back and redouble her efforts. She remains, to this day, the hardest-working person I've come across in this business. She has great talent, but she has also worked very hard for her success, and I'm so happy for her that she seems, at long last, to be getting the credit she deserves.

Charlize Theron (actor and friend): Jennifer is an absolute powerhouse. I can't begin to comprehend how she does all that she does, always giving 120 percent, and she has made it seem effortless for 30 years. To call her a triple threat doesn't come close to describing her—she's all of the threats!

Lopez: I love what I do. I'm passionate about it. Every day does not seem like a job to me. I can honestly say I'm living a dream, and I'm grateful every day that I wake up. I have tireless energy for what I do. I also have an amazing team who help me in every single way both personally and professionally. I really believe the most important thing is to have great people around you.

Matthew McConaughey (co-star in The Wedding Planner): Jennifer Lopez — what can she not do? Extremely deliberate, intentional, fully choreographed, and self-aware, she even knows how to make accidents look like accidents. When we acted in scenes together, she would turn in take after take as if timed on a meter, 1:01, 1:00, 1:02, 1:01…yet you couldn't tell that she was keeping a clock. Her success is not happenstance.

Leah Remini (close friend and co-star in Second Act, 2018): I had actually never worked with her before Second Act. I'm messing around with her before we're starting, and she's like, "Hey, dummy, you want to go over the lines for the scene we're about to do?" She would do things where she would talk about where our characters just came from, like in acting class. I was like, "Oh, good for you. You're an actor's actor." I was thinking more about what we were having for lunch.

Lorene Scafaria (writer and director of Hustlers, 2019): People ask what it was like to be behind the camera for [Lopez's character] Ramona's dance in Hustlers, which was, of course, electrifying, but I was just as gobsmacked watching Jennifer in the diner scene, convincing the audience that doing something illegal and objectively wrong was not only a good idea but justifiable. The dark turn that [initially] scared studio heads out of a green light was now an amen moment thanks to the power of Jennifer's sermon.

Lili Reinhart (co-star in Hustlers): Jennifer never flubbed a line when I worked with her. Even shooting late into the night, she was always in good spirits and had high energy. Can we please do a Hustlersreunion at a strip club when the pandemic ends?

Lopez: I've had the same approach to acting and the same teacher, Aaron Speiser, since I first started in my 20s. We go through the script together, talk about who the character is, and consider the effects of what they experience. I've become confident in the process, and I trust myself more. When you start out, you are so afraid you'll forget something and that you won't be able to deliver in front of the camera. I don't have that [issue] now. I've always said that preparation and rehearsal make me very confident when it's time to perform, and with experience, it gets even better.

All about that J.Lo glow:

Fat Joe (friend and frequent collaborator): J.Lo is J.Lo, OK? So if J.Lo walks into the party, she will smell so good that when she walks to the other side of the room, you can still smell her.

Bozoma Saint John (CMO, Netflix): Her skin is literal perfection. That's it. LOL. There's nothing more to say because it's true.

Affleck: Where are you keeping the fountain of youth? Why do you look the same as you did in 2003 and it kind of looks like I'm in my 40s…at best?

Lopez: I don't have any [beauty] secrets except JLo Beauty — and I'm giving them all to everyone with every product. Ben is funny! He still looks pretty good too.

I also think I'm in the best shape of my life. In my 20s and 30s I used to work out but not like I do now. It's not that I work out more; I just work out harder and smarter. And it doesn't take me as long as it did in the past. I do it more for my health than I do for looks, which is funny. When you do things for the right reasons, you actually look better!

And her style:

Olivier Rousteing (creative director, Balmain): I worked with Jennifer for the Met Gala [in 2018]. We danced at the fitting when she was trying on her dresses — and laughed so much. But the best time of my life had to be the day after the red carpet, dancing with J.Lo at the Boom Boom Room [in New York]. Imagine how it feels when you're obsessed with her, you love her so much, and you dance with her, your favorite icon. That was one of the things I loved the most.

Donatella Versace (artistic director, Versace): On International Women's Day, I was scrolling down my Instagram feed, and I saw this image of Jen holding a card saying, "I'm limitless." That made me stop for a moment, and so many memories came to mind: from the first time we met in Paris, her incredible career, the moments in Versace that will remain forever ingrained in everyone's imagination, and so on… But then it hit me again. That word: "Limitless." It describes her perfectly. Her discipline, her courage, her resilience, her hard work, her intelligence… rarely have I met someone who had a dream and worked so hard to achieve it. When you are in the same room with Jennifer, you can almost feel her energy pulsating through her veins and filling the space around her. I love her with all my heart.

Tom Ford: It goes without saying that Jennifer is one of the most beautiful and talented women in the world. But the greatest thing about her is that she is a kind and empathetic person. She is spectacular in every way, and I have tremendous admiration for her.

On President Biden's inauguration:

Remini: Would you think that she was going to text you right back after watching her performance at the inauguration? No, but I knew that she would. I texted a whole paragraph, and then right away I saw the little dots [that she was typing back]. Like, "Baby, really? Was it good?"

Lopez: It was a huge honor to be asked to perform at an inauguration. When [then] President-Elect Biden's team called [my manager] Benny [Medina] and said that he'd asked specifically for me, I thought, "What am I going to sing?" I knew he wanted a touch of something in Spanish because that had not been done. I wanted to represent women, minorities, Latinos, and all Americans in the best way I could. The songs that I chose had huge significance to me, and the way that I chose them was very carefully crafted to be inclusive and unifying. I was very happy with the way it came out.

[As for the texting] we drove to the airport right after the performance, so I was on my phone and I got to answer a bunch of friends, my mom, and my family. It was at that time that I realized the impact that it had!

Her lessons to live by...

Fat Joe: We were shooting this video in the Bronx called "Hold You Down" [2005], and it was freezing. I had on this huge, bubble goose-down coat, long johns, boots with three pairs of socks, and warmers in my boots and for my hands. And here's J.Lo in a tube top and a miniskirt shooting that scene with me. And I never told her, but in my mind I was just like, "Man, this woman got way more money than me and I'm freezing, but I better not complain because she hasn't complained once!" So I don't care if I'm in the desert in 100 degrees—I never make excuses. Whenever I talk to other artists or need to give myself a pep talk, I go right back to that moment.

Lopez: I definitely remember being on the video of "Hold You Down" and how cold it was. I had to sing to the song, but my lips were frozen, and I couldn't move them. It's funny that Joe remembers that. But overall, I'm not a complainer — especially when I'm working on set. I am there to do a job, and that's what I should do. Believe it or not, I don't want to burden anyone with my thirst, or if I'm cold or uncomfortable. That might be something that my mom and dad instilled in me. You just have to be grateful to be doing what you're doing. It's a very Latino thing. Be happy with what you have.

...including the healing power of cookies:

Remini: We often have sleepovers. But if I'm having a hard week, my friend will do things for me. She's a big bath person. So she'll fill a tub for me, put rose petals in, light candles. She makes the chicken cutlets and rice that I like — her Puerto Rican rice. She makes my coffee the way I like it. She'll bring it on a tray with some chocolate chip cookies.

Elaine Goldsmith-Thomas (close friend and partner in Nuyorican Productions): To me, she's Jennifer — a girl who likes to cozy up on the sofa with her kids [twins Max and Emme] and her friends and watch old musicals, eat popcorn and maybe a cookie or seven. She's also a person who flew in for every chemo treatment I had 16 years ago, rubbed my bald head, and dreamed with me so I wouldn't forget that tomorrow was possible. And it was. She's an amazing mother, a beautiful dreamer, and the best friend I've ever had. Everyone needs a compass. Lucky for me, I found mine.

Ryan Seacrest (co-host of American Idol when Lopez was a judge from 2011 to 2016): Jennifer is obviously in great shape. She stays fit, she works out, but she eats what she wants, and I deprive myself. And she said, "Why are you depriving? Just have a bite of the cookie, Ryan. You don't have to have the whole cookie." And so I live my life now trying to think about having a bite of the cookie, not the whole cookie. It's not going so well.

Lopez: One day I'm going to let everyone in on my secret cookie recipe. It came from a secret couple, and these cookies are my favorite. Someday I'll give you the J-dough! And, actually, I think that's what I'll call it!

Jennifer Lopez: Mother, Icon

Kat Coiro (director of Marry Me, to be released February 2022): Jennifer was always FaceTiming her kids [on set], having them come visit, leaving a grueling week to go spend the weekend with them. As a working mom myself, it was nice to see someone who kicked butt at their job and gave themselves over fully to their craft but also spent every waking hour when she wasn't working being with her family!

Constance Wu (co-star in Hustlers): Her kids, sister, and mom would come to set a lot and are a big part of her life. They're all really kind and down-to-earth.

Lopez: It's hard for any working mom. You feel guilt anytime you have to work and cannot take care of your kids. It's a balance, and I do the best I can. It doesn't matter if I'm on location or if I'm in the house with them — we are communicating, we are laughing, and we are spending time together. And sometimes I'm even nagging at them to brush their teeth, get into bed to get up for school, all the things you have to do. I cannot begin to list the things that my kids have taught me about myself. I'd have to write a whole separate book on that.

DJ Khaled (collaborator on "Dinero," 2018): I've been blessed to work with J.Lo multiple times. She's so special and has a different kind of drive that very few people have — it's what makes everything she touches legendary. That's what makes her iconic.

Lopez: Honestly, I don't get caught up in those types of words [like "icon"]. I'd rather keep my nose down, keep working and doing what I do, like being creative and enjoying my life. When you start thinking too much about those things, you become egotistical. I'm interested in growing and evolving every day, being better as a person, better at what I do, and better at being a mom. I think what makes someone iconic is when they can create the different moments they can imprint on the world.

[someobscurereference]

consider: au where in Nohr, you are born with the name of your soulmate. In Ylisse, you are born with the name of the person destined to kill you. Odin looking an Niles and Leo thinking he's witnessing a tragedy whose ending they all expect. Laslow growing incredibly distressed when he learns of Xander's mark. Selena asking Camilla why tf she hired her if she had her name (Camilla mistunderstands as "why did you take me as your retainer and not your equal if we're soulmates?")

Oh, very interesting!! I quite like that--the striking difference between Ylisse, which is largely a culture of community and love, with a population born knowing from birth who will be your demise. Meanwhile, Nohr, which seems so dark and dreary and less filled with a sense of community outside individual families, is born knowing who will love you most in the world. Oh, the dichotomy...

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🔮The Oracle Bakery🔮

Emperor Belos|Phillip Wittebane/OC

Slow burn, enemies to lovers, Belos is a content warning by himself

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Chapter 6: The most excellent bread, Ginetoes

"Good morning boss- oh dude, did get any sleep at all last night?"

Katya was greeted by the grim, almost ghost-like apparition of her boss, head pressed against the counter while the rest of her body barely held itself up, knees bent and arms hanging loosely at her side.

The apparition that resembled her boss let out a groan, barely registering as witchspeak, her limbs moving on their own accord like those of a newly born foal. Somehow, despite the lack of coordination, her hands managed to find the marble top of the counter, palms pressing firmly into it and with great effort, finally lifting her body up. The bard couldn't help her mouth stretching into a grimace when her boss looked at her. That was a face of someone who has stared death in the face and said "fuck you". It was worse, she thought, than the morning after the failed petrification ceremony.

“I got enough .” Selena gasped out, just legible enough.

"Are you sure?" Katya pressed further, "Because you definitely don't look it."

Selena clumsily pressed her fingers under her glasses and tried to massage the ache in her eye sockets away through her eyelids. No, no she didn't get enough. Like an absolute buffoon, she decided to go out to perform some good ol' vigilantism, and because the adrenaline rush was still going strong after she came back home, she thought she was capable of doing a test bake of what Belos had asked of her. One attempt turned into two into three until Selena was trudging like a zombie through the kitchen at 6 am.

"Eh." Was the only reply given, followed by a 'thunk' as her forehead once more landed on the cool countertop.

~*~*~*~

It was a good thing that the entire bakery was close to being fully automated, thanks to Isabella and Waine enchanting it to the full extent, way before they locked their magic behind their respective sigils. All it needed was someone to maintain it and the kitchen would handle the rest: knead, bake, cook, clean, supply, you name it, there was an enchantment placed for it, lovingly engraved with runes, sigils and glyphs that Selena didn't even know how to decipher anymore. But, even if it could do that, most of the time the witches running it had no need for it. All three of the Fortunas who were the owners at one point or another enjoyed the process of baking, and would hire other witches to help for the enjoyment the company brings.

It was days like these that the magic ingrained into the bakery was more than welcome, Katya thought as she watched her boss trudge along as a giant slug. She was certain that she was going to be the half-dead one today, as the BATs meeting lasted longer than she thought. But apart from the occasional yawn that escaped her, she felt fine.

Ah, the wonders of youth. When pulling an all-nighter was naught but a minor inconvenience.

Making another cup of coffee, she set it on the counter, and like a mindless beast that has gotten a whiff of blood, Selena dropped the broom she was leaning on and dragged her feet to the magic elixir. She took it in her hands and her lips stretched unnaturally over her teeth into a smile, eyes wide and bloodshot, muttering a single 'thank you' before walking away.

"Yeesh." Katya exclaimed. This was the third cup already.

It was only by noon that Selena was finally starting to resemble a living witch again.

A very grumpy living witch.

"Ma'am if you already ate the scream-cakes, then I do not care if you didn't like the flavour, you aren't getting any replacements or refunds!" Selena went silent while listening to the person speaking on the other line "Well why didn't you return them when you realized you didn't like franken-fruits? You ate a whole pack of accursed scream-cakes, you don't think you could have stopped after one?!"

More silence. Katya tried her best to serve the customer at the till while Selena dealt with the complaint by raven.

"Ma'am. I don't care. No, I do not. Frankly, I think my mom would have personally told you to go jump off the Knee." Selena hissed, voice slowly rising in volume "Actually, you know what?! If you come into my shop and try to get a refund or replacement for scream-cakes that no longer exist, I am personally going to curse you and tell you the exact date of your death! Have a horrible day, ma'am!"

The Oracle hung up and resisted the urge to slam the poor raven away, instead placing him a bit roughly on the nearest table "You get out of my sight before I curse you too!" She warned, and the raven let out a scared caw before hopping away to somewhere safer. "Katya!" She snapped her fingers "Hit me up, I need more coffee."

"Maybe you should ease up on those. You don't look too hot."

"Nonsense!" She waved her hand away "I feel just fine!"

"Your hands are shaking, boss."

"That's the energy, that means it's working ." The grin was stretched too thin on her face, resembling a grimace more than anything. It was tempting to cut her off cold-turkey, but Katya was a little bit more afraid than she was mischievous at the moment. So she just handed over a fresh cup o' Joe, watching in horror as Selena's body gave a violent tremor and face cringed after just one sip, probably suffering from caffeine overdose 

"That's it, I'm cutting you off!" Katya finally had the courage to object. Selena gawked as the cup floated away from her grasp, jumping desperately to grab it. "It's time you got some sleep, boss, you aren't getting any more coffee until you do."

"Katya! Katya you can't do this to me!" Selena was fast to switch between desperation and anger "Katya, I am your boss!"

"And I am leading a mutiny!" The bard took out her tambourine, making Selena gasp.

"You wouldn't dare!"

Katya smirked "Watch me, punk."

It was a power struggle filled with sounds of ghosts moaning and tambourine rattling, but in the end Selena was out cold on one of the couches, courtesy of Katya's well cast sleeping spell. The caffeine was still working through her body, as even as she slept, Selena's body would twitch every couple of seconds.

"Alright folks, sorry for the delay, I'm free to take your orders again!" The bard announced to the small crowd that formed outside the doors.

"Good night, boss."

~*~*~*~

Okay so Katya was right to cut her off. Doesn't mean she was gonna be any less grumpy about it. 

The spell was a particularly strong one in order to knock her out despite all the caffeine she consumed. She only woke up when Katya gently shook her awake, telling her it was close to closing time, and she should move upstairs to continue sleeping if she'd like. Which she wasn't going to do, she wasted enough time with the unplanned (forced) nap. She had a recipe to perfect! 

(Not that she wanted to impress Emperor Belos or anything, of course not)

Her hands still would shake occasionally as she kneaded the dough. The side effect of the caffeine overdose, unfortunately, despite the sleep and time passed, was still very much so active. 

It was a simple recipe, but she wanted it perfect. Goop lemon and ginger and marjoram and basil, a simple spell to dehydrate them and grind into dust together, to be mixed with the flour and the baking powder. Of course, she sifted all the dry ingredients once she had them ready. Then the wet ingredients; water and, as the recipe required, a splash of warm wine, griffon egg yolk, melted butter and sweet cream. Some adjustments in measurements, a bit more kneading for the right consistency to form, and she was ready to wrap it up and place in the fridge. They needed to be rolled and shaped tomorrow, she didn't know what shape exactly, but she'd improvise. If it needed to be cooked in boiling water first and then baked, then she imagined a type of pretzel, perhaps? It would have to do.

She'll do all of that tomorrow. The guards, so far, would come in around half an hour after opening. There was enough time for her to do so, especially since she could just relegate the usual baking to the kitchen. Selena put everything away and decided to call it an early night. Which meant Midnight was taking the night off, she couldn't have a repeat of today in front of the Emperor tomorrow, she had to be at her best.

Not that she wanted to impress him or anything. Of course not .

It took a lot of twisting and turning (and a sufficiently charged sleeping potion) for Selena to finally fall asleep again. She didn't oversleep by much, maybe around 20 minutes, but she was up and at 'em after downing one fast coffee she asked the kitchen to make for her whilst she worked. The dough was rolled out and shaped (she experimented with that, from the classic pretzel to more ornate braids), then cooked in boiling water until they floated to the top. Taking them out, she put them on a rack where she coated them with sugar and finally put them in an oven, just enough for a crust to form. She tasted these the night before, in an exhaustion filled delirium. A very…unique taste, not one she'd call bad, but she never really made sweet pastries with so much basil and marjoram. One you'd have to get accustomed to, for sure.

How old was the Emperor, again? If gran met him in her youth after he already came to power, he must be old. That may explain why he was fond of such older recipes.

Selena couldn't stifle the giggle at the thought of an old, crusty grandpa being behind that mask. She remembered her mom telling her that bad people, no matter how pretty they are, tend to turn ugly with age, because the rot inside their soul has to come out sooner or later.

If that were true, then Emperor Belos probably wore that mask because he looked like a slitherbeasts behind.

The giggle turned into a full cackle.

By the time the gingertoes were done, the bakery was open, and Katya still hadn't arrived. That was fine, the girl knew where the spare key was. So, since the early morn was never too big of a rush, she had time to let the gingertoes cool enough to handle and pack them up. The Emperor never specified how much he wanted, she realized last night, so he would have to deal with a full baker's dozen. 

Yeah, she hoped he'd look undignified with that large cutesy box full of treats in his hands.

"Thank you, see you tomorrow!" Selena gave a small wave as the lady left. She always came in early and bought fresh bread, still hot and smelling divine. Her eyes lingered longer than usual on the door, expecting Katya to walk in at any minute, but still, the girl didn't show. She frowned, a little bit annoyed at the thought of having the store closed while she was away. Anxiety at an all time high, she got out from behind the counter and started wiping down the already clean tables.

Gotta keep those hands busy. If she didn't, she'd start thinking, and if she started thinking, she'd start overthinking, and if she started overthinking-

The sound of the chime above the door was more akin to a firecharge spell going off, making Selena feel like she was about to jump out of her own skin.

"Katya, there you-" she started enthusiastically, but it quickly withered away when she saw who entered "... aren't." She quickly regained her composure "Good morning, Emperor's guards, how can I be of service today?"

~*~*~*~

Selena started getting used to these walks, and even the palace halls started feeling more familiar. Which, when she thought about it, was not a good thing. Who wanted to accept this as their new normal? Not her, that's for sure. This time, however, her escort was stopped just short of reaching the familiar doors to the throne room.

"Hm, oh it's the baker again ." Kikimora huffed "You know, I'm beginning to wonder if you even have any customers, seeing how you have no issues abandoning your little shop so often. Is business slow, you poor thing."

Selena's lips spread into a thin smile "Well miss Kikimora, I can't very well say no to the Emperor when he so enthusiastically asked I be the only one to make his deliveries. Apparently, he only trusts me to do them, imagine that!" She let out through gritted teeth "I hope you'll excuse me for not spending more time on this lovely chat, but I'm afraid I can not keep the Emperor waiting. You know how he is." Without waiting for the guards, Selena walked straight past the demon witch and straight down the hall towards the Throne room. The guards scuttled after her once they picked up their jaws from the floor from the passively aggressive show they just witnessed.

"Good morning, Emperor!" She greeted loudly and cheerfully as she let herself into the throne room, feeling particularly bold after her run in with Kikimora. The poor guards stumbled in after her, unable to stop her as she waltzed into the throne room as if she had been there a thousand times before.

That will show Kikimora, she huffed.

And by the looks of it, Belos seemed caught off guard by the aggressively cheery disposition. He must have been standing and talking just moments before she barged in, but now it was evident his shoulders had tensed and that he had turned so swiftly to face her intrusion that his cape fluttered around him.

“I see you’re in good spirits this morning, Selena.” his voice didn’t show surprise, he schooled it quickly into a sort of friendly indifference. She felt his obscured gaze on her as she carelessly walked towards him.

“Well it’s a lovely morning, Emperor!” she was quick to respond, stopping a polite distance away from him and -oh! That was-

“That it is.” Belos turned back to who he spoke to earlier “Darius, have you met my little baker? Selena here is the only one on the Boiling Isles who specialises in human pastries.”

My little baker?!

What?!

Selena had to suppress the unpleasant shiver at that remark. What did he mean, his baker? Three deliveries and he had to make such a patronising remark? And his little baker?! Sure, she assumed he was an older man, but little ?!

“Well well, this is a surprise.” The other man was kind enough to fill in for her silence. “ Little Lena , I haven’t seen you trailing behind your uncle much lately. I suppose the bakery has kept you…busy.” he quickly glanced at Belos as he said that “How’s Sitrie?”

Ah yes. There were three of them, famously, at Hexside, the top of the Abominations track. Darius and Alador, rivals from the same year, and just a class (or two?) below them was her brother, Sitrie, who was pushed into advanced classes after his first year. Much against his will, as it so happened Sitrie wasn’t a fan of spending extra time and effort at school, despite his natural talent. But it was that laid back attitude, combined with not being a “professional” threat to the top spot of the Abomination track, that helped him not get into hot water with either of the two. When the three first met, Darius and Alador weren't at each other's throat - yet . Selena never found out what got in between them, but whatever it was, it hit strong and was bitter . Her brother never told her, either, and he refused to get involved, remaining neutral ground, in a way.

So it wasn’t a surprise Selena had met them both, while very young and very childish. She preferred not to speak of the horrid prepubescent years when she would wax poetic in her journals about her daydreams, in which the two were, in fact, rivals over her affection.

Being 13 was a horrible time for everyone and she had burned all those journals after it was obvious Darius was married to his work and Alador had actually gotten married.

(And if you asked her if she had spent over a week depressed in bed after Sitrie got the wedding invitation to the Blight wedding, she’d hotly deny it. She would not admit to how she gave way to the teenage crush-fueled curiosity and asked the spirits for guidance, and the vague answer of “Alador will wed an Oracle” gave her incredibly false hopes that came crashing down horribly all at once)

“It’s been too long, Darius! Sitrie’s well, he and Stella moved to the suburbs with mother, they prefer the quiet to the city, unlike me.” she laughed. Darius, however, didn’t seem to be in the same lighthearted mood as she was. Despite how casual his questions were, sounding like nothing more than two acquaintances just catching up, his eyes bore hard into her, making her squirm.

“Does your Uncle know you’re here? I would think Magnus would have seen you scuttling around the palace by now.”

Well she certainly hoped not. Magnus worked directly under Osran, the Oracle coven head, so he spent a lot of time shadowing him in the Palace. There were hushed whispers that he was next in line to the coveted title of Coven Head should Osran ever leave that position. Now, Selena knew that rarely were they there as early as she was, so she felt at ease knowing that the chances of Magnus seeing her were low. But now that Darius has seen her…she supposed it was only a matter of time. 

The man was a gossip, there was no way he wouldn’t let it slip that he saw his niece working deliveries for the Emperor, personally.

“No, we hadn’t had much time to speak, I was only recently requested to deliver to the palace by Emperor Belos.” she nodded towards the man in question “Apparently we both share a fondness for human sweets.” she added cheekily at the end.

Her little cutesy addendum earned a hearty chuckle from Belos. He moved closer to her, standing at her side. It was, however, the hand reaching around her back and fingers loosely gripping the shoulder opposite to him, both pulling her a tad closer to him and securing her in place in a way that was way too intimate, that made her drop the act for just a fraction of a second, her eyes widening and the corners of her lips downturning before she schooled them back into a smile.

Darius definitely took notice.

“It is a rare indulgence on my part, but one nonetheless.” Belos remarked, giving her shoulder a squeeze “I am sorry for cutting this… heartfelt reunion short, but we will continue our conversation at a later time, Darius.” he informed the coven head “ Little Lena and I here have much to discuss.”

Darius gave a short bow without missing a beat “Of course, Emperor Belos.”

Belos was quick to summon a guard (one of many placed in the Throne room), ordering him to take the delivery Selena brought up to his chambers. Slightly disappointed that she wasn’t going to see the Emperor struggle with the big cutesy box as she had imagined that morning, Selena did pout her lips in response, but still thanked the guard kindly for taking the burden off of her hands. As soon as she relinquished the box to the guard, Belos adjusted his hold on her shoulder, pulling her along with him as he led her out of the Throne room.

Panic filled Selena as he did, this being a completely new turn of events she hadn’t prepared for. Where was he taking her, exactly? And why? Couldn’t they just converse as usual in the throne room?!

“B-Bye, Darius, it was nice seeing you!” she called over her shoulder, catching Darius’ gaze out of the corner of her eye. The solemn look he gave her, combined with his rigid stance and clenched jaw, made her gut drop. In the short moment before the doors closed, she couldn’t pinpoint if he was uneasy or angry, but either way, he was not approving.

~*~*~*~

The Emperor didn’t release her.

It was an incredibly heavy silence, weighing down on her as he led her through the halls, his arm placed securely around her shoulders. He was dragging her along with him down with minimum effort. The subtle tightening of his fingers sent electricity down her entire left side, from her shoulder all the way down to her stomach - the adrenaline spike alone made her feel lightheaded, and the twists and turns through the unfamiliar corridors didn’t help the feeling either.

At one point -and she assumed it would have been hard to miss her seeing how she was constantly at the Emperor's beck and call- Kikimora had crossed their path. Her eye widened comically when she saw them, and she was left unable to form any coherent words, instead letting out a whimper, sounding like an injured beast. If Belos had seen her, he didn’t bother to acknowledge her, leading Selena right past the demon. And if she wasn’t so beyond herself at that moment, Selena would have gloated. As for now, she would have to save this as ammo for later.

Finally, they reached an unfamiliar door “This is the east wing drawing room.” Belos spoke up as he led her inside “It’s much more…private than the throne room. While loyal, the eager ears of the guards hear all.” he explained as they ventured further in, stopping in front of the seating area consisting of a sofa, a loveseat and a pair of armchairs, arranged so to encourage conversation and socialisation, with a low table at the centre.

“Please, take a seat.” He offered, loosening his grip as he directed her to the loveseat. She didn’t have much of a choice - it was more an order than an offer, with how he applied pressure to basically push her down into the seat. “Now, I have a little… surprise for you.”

Once he sat down next to her (way too close to Selena’s liking), he held out one hand that lit up with red magic - the glow was unlike anything she’s ever seen before. Each house of magic had its own unique colour, including Wild Witches whose magic was orange, and the Emperor’s coven, which was pure white. The closest in colour would be bard magic but…this wasn’t the same.

This…type of red, she didn’t recognize it.

Her train of thoughts was interrupted by a worn out notebook flying into Belos’ hand. Probably from one of the bookshelves that covered the entire wall. “Here we go.” he handed it to her “I think you’ll find this particularly interesting.”

Selena turned it over in her hands to try and find anything that would tell her more about the book, but it was just an unsigned notebook, with frayed pages and a worn out spine. No title or anything written on its cover. “What is it?” she asked and flipped through the pages. It was filled with illustrations of…fruits? Vegetables? Both familiar and unfamiliar to her, all accompanied by extensive text.

“It is a…personal journal of mine.” Belos explained “Would you like to know where my sweet tooth for human pastries came from?” This caught Selena’s attention fully, making her close the notebook and place it on her lap before she looked up at him “Now this is a bit of a secret, you don’t mind keeping it, right?” he questioned, placing one finger in front of his mask where his lips would be.

Selena nodded, now fully intrigued. “Of course not, Emperor.”

“I went there before.” he spoke fondly as he looked ahead, giving the impression of someone pulling back precious memories from the depths of their mind “The human realm.”

She had no doubts the revelation left her looking star-struck instantly, but at the moment she couldn’t help herself. The human realm? The human realm?! The oracle gasped and floundered in her seat, as if the shock made it difficult to articulate her limbs for a brief moment while she turned to face him more fully by climbing up onto the couch and kneeling on the cushions. The abrupt movement almost made the journal fall over from her lap, but she managed to grab it at the last second, holding it tightly in both hands.

“Th-th-the human realm?! You have?! What was it like? I mean - how…how did you even get there? How-”

“It was a long time ago.” he gently cut off her rambling. “There are a…number of ways to travel there, however the more time passes, the harder it is to find them, I’m afraid. I miss it dearly with each passing day.”

Selena stared at him with wide, awe-struck eyes “And…and what was it like? I-if you don't mind me asking.” she whispered in a high tone “In the human realm, I mean.”

Her enthusiasm was met with a soft chuckle “It was a wonder to behold, Selena. The nights were quiet and the rain never burned. The trees were green and the sky was the clearest blue you’ve ever seen, only matched by the cool ocean.” she could imagine him smiling behind his mask “The ocean didn’t boil. Instead it cooled you off in the summer sun.”

She sighed dreamily “It sounds absolutely enchanting, Emperor Belos.”

“Oh, it was.” he held out his hand and tapped the journal she held tightly between them “And this is what I wrote after I came back. Unfortunately as I realised I could not return, I grew nostalgic for the foods I tasted in the human realm. This journal was the research I did whilst trying to relive my memories of it.”

Selena was quick to open the journal once more and looked closer at the pages, paying more heed to the text as well.

It was fully researched and illustrated comparisons, in note and flavour, in sweetness and tartness and texture, between the foods and herbs that could be found growing on the boiling isles (both local and exotic) and the ones that existed in the human realm! Rath berries, slime lemons, blood apples and so many more, all in detail matched up to fruits and flavours one might find in the human realm. She felt her heart quicken its pace as it fell deeper and deeper in love with this journal “Emperor Belos, this is…this is the most amazing thing I’ve ever seen!” she let out breathlessly “The attention to detail, the way it is so concise in how it explains flavours, even going as far writing down how they change in texture and taste when cooked or fried, oh my goodness even the illustrations!” she looked up at him “I wasn’t aware you could draw as well, my lord!”

“You’re too kind.” Belos said with a lilt in his voice, making her think that he might be smiling “Would you like to borrow my journal, Selena?”

The look she gave him must have been comical, because a curt laugh actually escaped Belos upon seeing it “You…you’d let me borrow this?!”

“I think you’d make quite good use of it.” he hummed in amusement “You complained that there were quite a few recipes you couldn’t make because you couldn’t recognize the ingredients last time we talked. This journal should solve most of your problems.”

Selena couldn’t contain the excited squeal, hugging the journal to her chest “Yes!!! Yes, thank you so much! I’ll take good care of it.” she bounced slightly in her seat, joy radiating off of her in waves.

“I hope you won’t mind if I selfishly ask you to bring whatever new recipe you make for me to try?”

“My lord, I will personally bring you a new recipe every day until I have gone through every human book I have in my possession for this journal.”

The Emperor's laugh was beautiful and melodious, a rare occurrence that a very few could brag about hearing. In fact, it made Selena forget for a few moments who it was she was sitting next to, that she hated every single thing he stood for. In those moments, she only felt giddy to have made a man like him laugh so heartily, feeling like she had discovered a long lost glyph or spell and held it gently in the palms of her hands as it sparkled for only her to see. And for that moment, she wondered selfishly what that mirthful laugh had looked like behind the mask, would it look as charming as it sounded?

“I appreciate that, Selena.” She was brought back when Belos casually flicked a stray lock of hair away from her face, a playful gesture so friendly and intimate it shocked her back to reality. It felt like being dropped into an ice cold lake.

This was dangerous, he was dangerous. The way he kept lulling her into a fake sense of security like it was nothing. Making her drop her guard so quickly. It was going to be a constant battle, these morning exchanges.

“Of course Emperor!” Selena smiled as friendly as possible.

She needed to be on constant guard with this man.

[iammarriedtothemusic]

yeah… i don’t think i’ll be able to support olivia ever after what happened this last year. i was a sabrina stan before and will continue to be one, i’ve discovered josh’s music and adore his music now and beyond olivia’s music not being my taste, she just showed in the last year an utter disregard for sab and josh and the negative impact on their lives…

sorry i said what i said but i cannot support someone who a) tears down other women b) has such a blatant disregard for the aftermath of her music (not that she shouldn’t talk about what she wants to talk about, but hello damage control???)

Hi, anon! I am so sorry for the late reply, I was preparing my stuff for law school and things got hectic as of late but thank you for this ask! I agree with everything you said and I hope you won't mind me going into a kind of sort of rant in the next few sentences!! LOL

Honestly, I came from having lukewarm feelings about Olivia to just not straight up liking her, just for the way she handled the drama. I am also so tired of how her fans are babying her and saying that whatever she says won’t change anything and I’m like that’s not the point?? The point is to show that she actually fucking cares, which she didn’t show at all  😭😭 Also, even if we go with that argument and disregard "controlling" her fans, what about her friends who posted slutshaming/shady tweets about Sabrina? I heard this from a friend but her dad also apparently liked slutshaming tweets about Sabrina although I am unsure about that one but still, if she couldn't take the time to say anything to her fanbase maybe tell her friends to stop shading Sab and fueling the drama further?

They also bring up Selena's situation where Sel addressed her fans so many times to not send anyone hate and people hate on HB anyway and I'm like but notice how no one is blaming Selena Gomez for it? Because she actually took the time to "control" her fans, at that point, anything her fans do is out of her hands. But Olivia never took that time, not even once. I am not counting that fucking magazine interview because that was honestly so half-assed and performative I pretty much lost my respect for her. I'm sure she's a great singer songwriter or whatever, I'm personally not a fan of driver's license and I didn't bother listening to her other songs so IDK but just the way she handled everything left me uninterested about everything else.

Also, there's this thing Joshua said in a recent interview that artists are in some way too are responsible on how the conversations around their art goes and I remember it being quoted on a tweet and so many livies going wild. Like it's true tho, I think anyone with a platform is in a way responsible to how their audience reacts to the things they put out-- I mean small youtubers can do it so why can't Olivia?

And then there's what Louis said about the fandom being reflective of the artist and I had never fucking agreed more, IDK if it's just me but everything makes so much sense whenever I interact with someone on stan community and find out their fandoms LOL

Anyway, I think what I'm most angry about the drama is that Sab honestly had so many plans for 2021 but she had to take a raincheck because those obsessed weirdos would make it about that fucking drama. Josh too, he had to let the drama die down a bit because people were taking it too far-- I remember that one tweet about him in the hospital and all those livies tweeting he should've been dead. Let's not even talk about the SA and the coming out, at that point, even bigger figures where chiding in that it's impossible to say that Olivia didn't know how blew out of proportion everything was. The internet literally witchhunted Sab and Josh for a solid year (and even now TBH) and she stood there and did absolutely nothing. So yeah, I don't really blame you for not liking or supporting her, I don't really either.

I just hope her fans stops sending me hate anons at this point, the slurs are getting kind of old. Also forgot to add that everything you said just resonated with me so well that's my exact feelings thanks for the vindication op ily xx

[train-wrecc]

ALPHA.

• hamish duke x fem!reader

warning(s) ⚠️: none? somewhat angst (not really), death, mentions of blood

pairings: vera x niece!reader, hamish duke x reader

summary: y/n is vera stones niece who had been inducted into the hermetic order of the blue rose 4 years ago (senior in college) however when reviewing books in the reliquary/vault for an assignment she stumbles upon a certain fur coat, the hide of alpha.

wc (word count): 2.2k

gc (gif credit): unknown/google

-

y/n had barely set foot into the temple before alyssa almost tackled her to the floor. "geez, medicum, watch where you're going."

"magistratus! you're just the person i was looking for! im so sorry for bumping into you but uh, " the blonde gestures behind her with a hand, "the temple magus would like to see you..." she says, before plastering an awkward smile and walking off.

"and i thought today couldn't get any worse..." y/n mumbled.

y/n walked down the corridor before stopping at the large doors which the temple magus who just so happened to be her aunt, sat behind.

the doors opened before her, and she was met with her aunt and a large older man. "temple magus." y/n said nodding her head, glancing at the man that was stood beside her aunt in confusion.

"magistratus, welc-" vera was interrupted by the older man beside her.

"vera quit with the formalities, she's your niece!" he chuckled.

"edward coventry, the grand magus." edward extended his hand out for y/n to shake. she embraced his hand with hers giving a firm shake.

"your aunt has told me a lot about you y/n,"

"all good things, i assume." y/n responded.

"yes, of course, you could say im intrigued... meet me in the temple tomorrow afternoon. I have an interesting assignment for you."

-

the door clattered open as alyssa made her way into the temple where y/n and a few other magistratus' stood.

the others glanced in shock, "what is a medicum doing here?" selena questioned as she snickered at kyle as alyssa walked past the group.

"she's here like the rest of us, the magus wouldn't have allowed her to be here if she hadn't proven herself." y/n said in an attempt to get selena to shut up.

"are you sure? the only reason you're a magistratus is because of your auntie." selena continued.

y/n rolled her eyes tired of dealing with selena, "you're right, who else promotes us besides the magus? selena, why don't you keep your mouth shut, before i shut it for you, after all, my aunt is the temple magus."

before selena could utter a snarky remark edward strode in.

"okay! vera says that you're the ones with the most potential. potential will get you into the door, but it will not guarantee you a seat, " edward rips off the cloth which was obstructing the view of what appeared to be an obsidian block, "at the table." he continued.

"this obsidian block is estimated to be between, mhm, 1,500 and 2,000 years old." he gesticulates to the block.

"but spoiler alert. this is no ordinary... hunk of rock," he says, dropping a bug onto the rock which in turn burst.

"something is inside this obsidian that people don't want others to have. i want you to reverse engineer the magic protecting this stone."

y/n notices alyssa begins to write "deleatur?" on her notebook, as kyle glances at the word on the book before speaking up.

'of course he would, arrogant prick....' y/n thinks to herself.

"magus?" kyle steps forward, "with your permission?" he continued, as edward motioned towards the rock, as a signal to continue.

kyle raised a knife to his right hand before slicing it and muttering "deleatur", flicking his wrist toward the stone.

shortly after the flick of his wrist, his right forearm collided against his upper arm, his limb broken now, bone sticking out.

he gasps in pain, which puts a small smirk on y/ns face, 'serves him right...' roaming in her mind.

"you know how to heal that?" edward breaks the silence. kyle responded with a shake of his head 'no'.

"right. my driver will take you to the hospital."

kyle walks out of the room, hunched over, cradling his right arm the best that he can.

edward picks the obsidian up from its frame, "now that you know what you're dealing with, impress me." before he follows behind kyle.

"alyssa. make sure the temple gets a proper cleansing." are his last words.

"at once, magus." alyssa replied.

"now we know why she's here." diego called, his arm around selena's shoulder calls, a smirk on his face as she laughs before they continue to make their way out of the temple.

a sigh falls from alyssa's lips.

"don't worry about them medicum, you're not here for that. they just feel threatened by you." the y/h/c (your hair colour, i.e. brunette, blonde) girl spoke up.

"thanks, magistratus." alyssa responded.

y/n simply nodded in return, before stalking off to go pester her aunt, she had an idea about an incantation that might work on reversing the magic which was protecting the obsidian.

-

next day...

y/n's fist met the door as she knocked.

she could faintly hear the word "aperiatur" slip from her aunt's lips, as the doors opened.

"magistratus." vera greeted y/n.

y/n rolled her eyes, her aunt had always been so persistent in remaining professional at the temple, so that other members never thought y/n only got in due to vera.

"hey auntie vera," y/n says her words practically covered in honey.

"one. what did i tell you about keeping our professionalism and two. what do you want?" vera smirked knowing her niece too well.

a sigh came from y/n's lips, knowing her aunt had caught on.

"you're aware of the assignment of edward's that i'm apart of?" her aunt nodded in respond to the question.

"well i need to get into the vault, and before you interrupt me there's a book in there that i want to examine and see if i can find an incantation for the assignment." y/n explained, she had been planning on talking to her aunt the day before but something had come up.

"no." vera gulped knowing well she had given alyssa, a medium, access to the reliquary the day before. however the vault is different she reassured herself.

"of course, god forbid you do me one favour." y/n said her voice sour, her head nodding in false understanding.

"y'know ive worked my ass twice as hard as anyone else to be here, and yet i'm always getting criticized the most for every simple mistake that i make which aren't very many..." y/n began, her aunts answer irking her.

"and you decide to do alyssa the kiss ass a favour and give her access to the reliquary when she's a medicum, however, you can't do me a favour and let me use the vault once." y/n finishes brows furrowed, done with her aunt at the moment.

y/n began to stalk off before vera stopped the girl.

"y/n. you may use the vault." vera murmured.

the y/h (your height i.e. short, tall) girl returned to the room silently.

she handed y/n a necklace with a pentagon-shaped charm attached to it. "repeat after me. sanguis meus tuas laminate acuit." vera says the incantation.

"sanguis meus tuas laminate acuit."

with the movement of vera's hand, the bookshelves began to separate and opened to a corridor.

"y/n, sweetheart, you know i love you. the only reason i criticize you, harshly at times, is because i know you have the potential to be twice as great as you already are. greater than me." her aunt said dripping in sympathy and love.

however, y/n doubted that.

"of course i know because you remind me so often." the words slipped from y/n's lips, filled with sarcasm.

y/n made her way through the fear corridor and into the vault clutching the pentagon necklace as vera watched from the entrance.

-

y/n had been searching for the incantation for a few hours now and had yet to find the incantation.

she had rummaged through all the books that were out in the open and visible before deciding maybe there were some in hiding.

she had scoured high and low for books and had nearly given up before her eyes caught a rugged brown chest of some sort.

"this has to be it!" she exclaimed to herself, noticing the lock on the latch of it.

she'd assumed vera had left a while ago, and figured she'd have to talk to her about it the next day.

however, before she could even reach for the lock, it burst and the top of the trunk rose.

all she could see was some kind of fur coat before it had engulfed her and her vision was captured by darkness as she gasped.

(a/n: thank the lord she's a werewolf now, we can now get to the good part!!!!! 🥳)

-

a groan emitted from the y/h/c, as she began to stir. she felt like she was repeatedly getting pricked by something.

sweat dripped down her trembling body, teeth chattering from the cold. her eyes peeled open, vision fuzzy before it cleared. she wrapped her arms around herself, her arms met her bare chest.

her eyes widened in realization, she was naked.

eyes gazing down, she took in her bare body, painted red. her fingers met the dark red, substance. blood. blood, that was not her own.

"no, no, no, shit! what the fuck did i do?" y/n says in disbelief, hands twitching, as panic fills her veins.

she retrieves herself from the dirt of the forest as she makes her way through the large trees, hiding behind them every so often in order to not expose herself in case anyone were to be in the forest.

she nears a tent not too far from where she awoke and evaluates the area for anyone. it appeared to be vacant, so y/n made her way toward the tent in search of something to cover her bare body with.

however, when she neared the tent, her vision was once again met with blood. on the ground lay a man a hole where his heart should be. her vision became blurred by the tears that filled her eyes. this was the persons life she had took. a young man, who had his whole life ahead of him.

and it was put to an end because of her.

his blood was on her hands. literally.

though her hands trembled y/n had managed to rummage through his things, and find a change if clothes which we had immediately put on.

the pieces of cloth, which caressed her body, aided in warming her. she didn't waste another second and got to work quickly, digging somewhat of a grave for the male.

once she had covered the now cadaver-filled hole, y/n gathered a few leaves which took the place of which would ideally be flowers.

she sniffled, viciously blinking to try and rid her eyes of tears. y/n gently pressed the leaves into the soil, before getting up from her knees.

next came getting rid of any evidence that the man had ever set foot in the woods. she used a simple incantation to rid the small area of any objects.

after she had done so, she mad her journey near the edge of the woods, which she was quite familiar with, being in the order and they tend to venture in the woods often, especially when recruiting neophytes.

however, around fifteen minutes had passed, and y/n's eyesight was no longer a captive to the never-ending trees.

she no longer knew where she was... she'd never seen a house on the outskirts of the woods. she wondered if it had always been there.

y/n hadn't thought up a plan, before she knew it her legs were carrying her to the front door, and her curled fist met the wood of the door.

she truly hadn't thought about what she was gonna say, until she had knocked on the door.

what would she do? how would she explain her dishevelled appearance? the blood... oh god she had forgotten that she was practically drenched in the dark fluid from head to toe.

-

a/n: y'all this is so bad I'm sorry and it's on the longer side and like for what reason? 🤨😂

like literally nothing happened im so sorry this is literal shit...  obviously there WILL be a PT 2,

& sorry if the spacing is weird i’m on the mobile app...

also this is the only part that’ll be in third pov, i normally write first person but i was trying something different & i didn’t like it

& IM SORRY HAMISH WASNTIN THIS PRT HE'LL BE IN THE NEXT ONE I PROMISE !!!! 😔❤️🤞

[roseweasley-nextgen]

but i wouldn't marry you - scorpius malfoy.

a little scorose oneshot based on an experience i had.

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october 25th, monday morning.

why did they assign me with him to work on that essay... rose had her hair up in a bun and stared at the paper. he was really not someone that fit her idea of a nice school project partner.

"no, i don't like the sentence. that word just doesn't fit." she said. scorpius sighed: "how would you say it then? do you really think my english is that bad?" rose looked at him, "i'm sorry. i know i'm opinionated, i just want to end up having a good paper." "it's fine", he replied and explained: "for working on a school project it's really good that you are like that. but i wouldn't marry you. it would make my life complicated." she laughed because she couldn't believe what she just heard. "erm okay. now i would suggest we structure the sentence the following way ..."

it was lunchtime and rose and her two best friends shared a laugh. "no way, who does he think he is?" asked her friend selena, a blonde, eccentric and very honest fellow ravenclaw. "no idea, it was so random. and when i then made him a compliment on one of his essay ideas he told me to stop flirting. what are these guys on?" rose said and twisted her eyes. ava, her other best friend, suggested that he probably actually liked her. rose laughed: "girl, have you seen with how many girls he flirts on an hourly basis? that was definitely just a weird way of him showing that he has a typical fragile male ego." selena nodded her head, "it's incredible how many guys can't handle confident and smart girls anymore." ava started to agree. "you guys are right. he's just a weirdo."

a week later scorpius and rose met up again to finalize their essay draft and hand it in for feedback. scorpius already sat at the library table: "hi weasley, ready to critizise my language again?" oh hi malfoy, you really do have a very fragile male ego, huh?" rose replied and had a lot of fun watching his face drop and him trying to not take that comment personally. off to a good start, she thought and sat down. "can i use your ink please, mine just ran out." scorpius asked her in an overly friendly tone. "of course," she replied and pointed to hers. "merci", he said and she replied with "de rien." "you speak frech? i love the language and music." scorpius said and suddenly looked enthusiastic. "yes, my muggle grandmother is french and so is my aunt, i always liked it so i started to properly study it over the summer breaks." "that's amazing, now knowing that... i would reconsider what i said about marrying you and actually take you as my girlfriend." rose stared at him, the second time he managed to shock her with boldness. she completely ignored it and continued talking about how to progress with the essay.

"no way", said ava with her green eyes wide open. "he really likes you." "what are you saying, he just keeps getting weirder", replied rose and looked across the hall. "also, i don't even like him. no idea why he is acting as if i would want him. let's leave that topic, a guy like that is not worth our precious time." she looked at the slytherin table one last time and then focused on her friends and the food for the rest of the break.

[khaleesiofalicante]

Holaaaaa!!! ¿Cómo estás Dani? ¿Todo bien?

I've been feeling like my regular self which is good... it's crazy what the brain does to reality 😳

But anyways... I'm happy to be back with my fellow homos, homies and hoes 🥰

I'm finally caught up with LBAF IV, had to start over for a proper enjoyment 😌 I'm NOT letting anxiety take any more things from me!!! Fuck that bitch...

Fun Fact: my phone still suggests Shinyun after I type fuck... 🤣🤣 fun times! I now miss my wife!

Anyways, about the chapter...

The One with the Kite

He picked up Mallory from her bedroom and they portalled together to the Empire State Building.

She smiled. “Just this boy. I find him very annoying.”

Don't you dare! 😡😡😡

“Yep,” she said again. “It means unlucky.”

Like Max was meeting you 🤮

“Oh,” David replied. “I was sleeping.”

Daniela you better NOT fuck with my Mavid!! 🥲

“It’ll get the culture tubes,” Camila winked and walked away.

Fun Fact: I don't know the name of those tubes in Spanish even though I used them in high-school

No, I won't Google it...

He simply picked up a discarded stele from the table and walked back.

That sus behavior!!! Pay attention!!!

“Because you asked me to,” Gabriel smiled, rolling a strand of her hair with their finger. “You look breathtaking in the morning, Selena.”

Am I in love with them? Survey says YES!!! 🥰

“Why would anyone want to attack Chouchou at all?” Selena wondered out loud.

Exactly!!! Think people THINK!!!

“Excuse me,” Selena said incredulously. “Are you guys hanging out without me?”

THE DISRESPECT!!!

“Then tell her that!” Max put up his hands.

If she could, she would but she is an Alexandra!! We don’t do that!!!

“I’m a fucking boat!” Lexi yelled and walked away.

This we do... I love my twin!!!

“What?” Max laughed. “I thought you were gonna say my smile or some shit.”

🤣🤣🤣 he's an Alexander we're horny first

The sound of Max saying her name.

I will absolutely love the sound of Max killing you!!

Think, Max! He doesn’t want you. He isn’t good for you.

Biiiiiiitch.... I will end you myself!!!

Would he protect her? Would he save her? Would he risk his life for her?

Yeah probably but only because he is a Lightwood-Bane is not really about you!

So, David was the problem here. As always.

I need a drink every time I write Mallory pov.

I need a drink after reading her POV... you better not pull a Shinyun on me because I love hating her!

Thank you Dani!! You're the bestest best, the best supreme! 💚💚💚💚 I am love you very much!!

Hola! Estoy bien! (i wrote that myself! I'm sorry if it was incorrect! I'm going to try and learn Spanish by talking to you lmaoooo)

Also the number of times you called mallory a bitch and threatened her dsahdjkasj WE APPRECIATE THE PASSION!

i'm glad you are feeling better and enjoying stuff!! sending you more and more amazing vibes!

also omg seb stan gif?? you are 10/10.