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capicola323427 · 26 days

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THE LEGENDARY BATTLESHIP HALBERD IS SO SO SO FUCKING COOL!!!

Had this in the drafts for a bit....

Can we talk about the Battleship Halberd? I want to talk about the Legendary Battleship Halberd. To me, it's one of the best parts of Kirby Super Star and Super Star! You won't find a person who doesn't like RoMK. If you do, you're lying.

Here's a huuuuuge chart to help outline what I adore so much!

The Battleship Halberd has an entire hangar filled with several Meta Knight themed jets with bombs on palettes. I really wish we got to see them in action, I want to see those little jets fly. I don't think I've either seen fanart of it either. I should probably give it a shot and draw something using it.

I also love that the Battleship Halberd has a shitton of missiles, bombs, and nuclear bombs! I don't know why, but it's funny to imagine this warship in this cotton candy dreamy-weamy land having enough artillery and power to create a nuclear holocaust causing the Waddle Dee population's collective chromosomes to be rendered into a fine mush for decades to come. I want to see an AU where Meta Knight fucking does this. I want a fucked-up Fall Out esque AU where Meta Knight has launched Dream Land into a hyper authoritarian militarist state after bombing a good chunk of Dream Land. I'll have to think on this more. Anyways, it brings up a lot of questions. Mostly how and why the fuck does Meta Knight have so many different bombs, missiles, canon ammunition and possible nuclear weapons. How did he get any of this. You could say he had a lot of time to make it all but... I call bullshit. Did he buy it? With what money? How? Secondly, why would he need so much to take over Dream Land? Like, if Meta Knight wanted to he could have always just assassinated King Dedede and take the thrown during the resulting power vacuum. Slit the bloated greedy fuck's throat while he sleeps. Maybe he thought there'd be more of a collective fight from King Dedede's army? I mean, he does have a living airship but like... considering how much Meta Knight had and the sheer volume what he had did he expect King Dedede to have his own army with similar technological warfare? Given enough time I'm sure King Dedede could have something similar but definitely not during the RoMK era. It's just really funny, really confusing, and really interesting. I love the idea that Meta Knight is Dream Land and Pop Stars's sole military offense and defense force.

Something I noticed that wasn't used either, those weird looking robot machines with angler fish lights, drills, and a wrench. What the fuck are those? Why are those there?

I love that the Battleship has those satellites/sensor dishes, it really exemplifies the type of tech it has! It's probably meant to detect things coming at it in the sky but I do love the idea it can do limited interplanetary communications and full ground-based communication even more so when you see the land-line styled phones

Another thing I really love is that, even though it's mostly artillery and war stuff, there's little living space things! If you look closely you can see a large pantry with sacks of possibly flour or meal, large barrels filled with liquids that could be water or alcohol! We got brown beer bottles, large salt containers, two fridges and pots and plates. It's very nice, and if you scroll down you'll even see a barrack area. I'm not a huuuge fan of the whole "Meta Knight, Vul, Sailor Dee, Sword & Blade, and the Meta-Knights all live on the Halberd 24/7" because it invalidates the majesty that is Meta Knight's fuck huge military base! I want to pivot for a moment...

Images belong to RetroArchive

Look at this. Look at this.

This is a little pet peeve of mine, but I kind of hate that Meta Knight's military base doesn't get a lot of spotlight! I see a lot of derivative fan-content focused on The Battleship Halberd and its crew that seems to fall into this common trope that everyone sleeps, eat, pisses, and more on the Halberd! I see little focused on anything or even references to the fact that there's a huuuge base with large buildings and even a port! I just wish that got a little more spotlight y'know? I want to see more of that in fanworks! Also! I don't like Kirby OCs but I do want to see more implications that there are more people who inhabit the ship than just the main crew. It's weird that I have to say this and it isn't more common.

Anyways, back to the original topic. There's even a laundry room with a possibly Official Legendary Battleship Halberd uniform. There's a toilet too. Neat!

Anyways, to finish this post off I just want to list some headcanons I have regarding the Battleship Halberd and its inhabitants

Sailor Waddle Dee and Captain Vul are best friends till the end. They're surprisingly similar in a lot of ways and tend to work closely together when it comes to the battleship's upkeep and innovation.

Captain Vul is a heavy chain smoker of cigars and drinker of rum.

The Meta Knights are all regular enemies but are just wearing armor and taking up different weapons to look scarier and befitting of serving Meta Knight.

The Battleship Halberd doubles as Pop Star and Dream Land's form of defense both planetary and interplanetary. It makes most of its money as freights for hire, mercs for hire, or other misc. tasks at a high price. Despite this, they have a very strong moral code!

Meta Knight has a nice room on the Halberd and a personal apartment on his base.

Captain Vul views Meta Knight like a son. Despite Meta Knight being a eternal void-born being it's not weird because Meta Knight does act youthful in his ways underneath his persona of a cool suave knight this is not me fighting against 𝕯𝖎𝖘𝖌𝖚𝖘𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌𝖑𝖞 𝕺𝖑𝖉 𝕻𝖔𝖘𝖙-𝖂𝖆𝖑𝖑 𝕸𝖊𝖙𝖆 𝕶𝖓𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙 𝕻𝖗𝖔𝖕𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖆 i'm not owned i'm not owned I am NOT owned

Meta Knight has ran and will continue to run very intense emergency drills for almost any and all situations. Him fighting his own ship would be considered a drill to make sure the Battleship Halberd is fortified enough to survive himself being possessed and deciding to attack his own ship and crew. (It failed...).

Meta Knight does play favorites.

The Battleship Halberd uses three different fuel sources. Oil, Kinetic, and Alchemic Anomalous Energy.

I like to imagine Sailor Waddle Dee and Captain Vul hosting a Battleship Halberd only radio show. It's very problematic in nature.

Thank you for listening to my ted talk about the funnie ship from kirby

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hikikolol · 1 year

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*cravity as pervs*

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♡ park serim

i see this in a setting where you and serim met at the gym

you were having troubles doing weights alone without your best friend there to spot for you, she decided to cancel her gym subscription because she was moving in another part of town and the gym you both went to became too far

serim walked over and told you that he would help you

going behind you, he stared surprised at the view of your ass

serim's the type to feel guilty to be a bit of a perv but he couldn't help it, the sight was delicious

just so happened, a few days later, he was the assistant instructor for your yoga class at the same gym

oh serim had a field day, he stood at the back of the class. where you were

his perfect view

thank fucking god he had cycling tights under his shorts, it helped him hide his hard on a little better but it felt too painful for him

oh what's that? you need help arching your back? he's on it

if only you guys were alone, he'd make your back arch alright

he slowly leaned his body onto your ass as he helped you arch your back and man did that make you wet

♡ ma allen

allen's your best friend

he has always went to your place to wind down but today was different, he decided to invite you to his place today after a movie

giving you a perfect cup of hot choco, you went to cuddle up on him to watch another senseless series

what is that you feel?

oh he has a boner...from you sitting on his lap

looking behind, you see his eyes shut tightly but oh man was he riled up

i see allen as the type to feel really guilty to think about such erotic thoughts about you but he just can't help it when you look like that

the thought of corrupting you runs through his mind 24/7

it's a secret but he leaves his hoodies w you just to take it back unwashed so he can jerk off to your scent

his hands always lingered whenever you hug. specially way lower than your back

seeing you in leggings or skinny jeans riles him on too much

♡ koo jungmo

it's been at least a few months since you've started learning how to play an electric guitar, you were getting to an expert level on it

you have thought of cancelling your lessons but your teacher, jungmo, insisted that there were still things to learn

jungmo on the other hand just can't bear not seeing you all focused in front of him so even if you wanted to cancel on his lessons, he insisted and offered to come over for free instead

i mean, you did find a friend in him

he was always hyperfocused on how you'd lean down to look at the chords and strings of your instrument, leaning down gives him the perfect view of your chest

thank god he has his own guitar to hide his hard on every time he came

his favorite position is when he's behind you, staring right down at your tits whilst he teaches you where your fingers should be placed

his hands lingers a little too long on your thigh whenever he points out something you did wrong

the way he'd use his eyes to fluster you up is... god

when he gets home, he bolts to his bedroom just to think about you, you, and you. your tits, your ass.. fuck that feels good, so good for me

♡ seo woobin

woobin lives right next door to your apartment

the sweet neighbor who never fails to give you food whenever he cooks too much for himself, rather it isn't always an accident, he just wants an excuse to see your face

paying for such cheap rent in the bustling city warrants your walls to be paper thin

woobin knows this, but you don't

the moans you create at night flows through the walls and heightens woobin's libido almost every night when you pleasure yourself

does he feel bad for eavesdropping? yeah, he feels a sense of guilt

but your oh so good moans keeps him alive at the nights when he feels the loneliest

how he wishes it's his name coming out of your mouth

his hands linger a little longer whenever he gives you the casserole of a dish he made

giving you such a sweet smile every time you would walk past him but oh you were so wrong when this man is full of sweetness

honestly, he just wants to bend you in so many different ways until you could only scream out his name

♡ ham wonjin

working with wonjin at a local cafe was the most fun you've had in a job

he'd be very attentive whenever you would need help with anything

your work uniform though, consists of a loose beige colored shorts, paired with a white buttoned up shirt, all tied up with a slightly darker beige apron. it was a themed cafe, you were working with handheld animals whilst making the drinks

the shorts of your uniform was a great fit on you and wonjin would 100% agree

the amount of times he has thought about fucking you in the backroom...

your sweet smile that flusters him up in an instant

boners behind his apron every time you would lean down to pick something up

the way you would lean on the counter on your breaks, the perfect view for your ass to be out oh how easy would it be to fuck you right then and there, grinding on your ass

your shorts riding up whenever you would sit cross-legged on the backroom's floor eating your lunch

he'd be giving you the most dangerous stares unbeknownst to you

♡ kang minhee

your brother's sweet and kind best friend

or so you thought

minhee has been visiting your house for more than he visited his own

spending time with your brother is minhee's favorite hobby, mostly because he knows he'll get glimpses of you when he's there

you never kept your door fully closed, the noise of the house brings you comfort to know that you aren't alone

minhee knows this and fully takes advantage of it

when everyone is asleep, except for you

he'd sneak out of your brother's room just to take a peek into your room

laying on your stomach, ass perfectly in view for minhee whilst you watch on your laptop

you never liked wearing shorts when you're about to sleep so minhee has always had a field day at this time of night

wearing only underwear and an old tight crop top, this was such a great view for him and he'd thank god for giving this to him on a dailt basis

the amount of times he had to stop himself from going in your room to fuck you was immense

staring at you for straight 15 minutes, he had to get out of there and continue on to the bathroom for a quick session

♡ song hyeongjun

never did you think that your oh so innocent classmate could think of such carnal desire on your body and soul

hyeongjun just wants you

he wants you to ride him

he wants you to take all his pride away, strip him bare and let you use him

he wants everything you have to offer and he'd never shy away on any command you give him, just say. one. word. and he'll be on his knees ready to pleasure you

people were intimidated by you, you have a resting bitch face and no one would dare come close

except for the sweet angel that graces you with his everyday good morning smile and wave

you thought nothing of it, you do it back, but you just go back to your comfort resting face after

but hyeongjun lives for it, one smile and he's done

thinking of ways you'd have him under your hold

his hair bunched up in your hands as he oh so deliciously eat you out

your moans as he does his best to behave under you

oh lord what have you done

♡ kim taeyoung

you have always been on taeyoung's best interests

i mean, you've been his crush for the longest time

but recently, his mind wanders way too far

what would you look like when your body is sprawled all over his bed? breathing hard when he hits that certain spot

how would it feel inside of you? your mouth?

would you let him use you whenever he wants? would you have a high sex drive?

thoughts pondered on taeyoung's mind as he glances at your way, sitting beside him during a lecture

your skirt riding a little higher than you'd like but never noticed through the shaking of your legs

oh how nice would it be to just push that skirt a little higher to put his hand in-

"you good?" taeyoung's eyes shot up, giving you a nod saying that he was dazing off

how long could he still last without touching you intimately, he's losing his mind

maybe he should invite you over to watch some movies, maybe move from there, yeah

♡ ahn seongmin

the sweet sweet junior from your course

he gives you sweets every morning, saying it would energize you from the boring lectures

the sweet junior who chases you after class just to bid you a safe trip home and a good night ahead

the sweet junior who would sneak little notes in your bag without you noticing

the sweet junior who, behind those sweet sweet eyes, lies lustful ones

eyes that dreams of your twisted face of pleasure when he gets the chance to finally have you

the chance when you, completely mark him as your own

he wants that, he's dying for it

he wants you to let him feel all the pleasure in the world and he knows you can. with just one touch, he'll be gone

he wants the feeling to be edged by you, he wants to know how it feels to be led

the feeling where his world is gonna crumble down and all he needs is to scream out your name as he releases all his pent up juices when you finally let him

oh fuck he accidentaly whimpered whilst he gave you the deliciously wrapped candy

#cravity smut #serim smut #allen smut #jungmo smut #woobin smut #wonjin smut #minhee smut #hyeongjun smut #taeyoung smut #seongmin smut #cravity hard hours #hikikolol-vityy

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immanifesting · 8 months

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"one should be two things: fulfilled and persistent." QUOTE BY DIOR

THE BASICS LAW OF ASSUMPTION

WHAT IS THE LAW OF ASSUMPTION? The law of assumption states that, by assuming you are who you want to be, you become it. You manifest your desires by hiving a state of mind and the feeling that those desires, wishes, and aspirations have been fulfilled. HOW TO APPLY THIS LAW? Neville Goddard explains that achieving a desired goal has everything to do with your state of mind rather than mere action. You have to change your conception of self in order for the world to change. ASSUME AND FEEL The focus of the law of assumption is assuming the realization of your wants and the knowingness it invokes. So you must assume it, get in that state where you feel the knowing of fulfillment. WHO IS NEVILLE GODDARD? Neville Lancelot Goddard (February 19, 1905 – October 1, 1972), generally know as Neville Goddard, is considered to be one of the pioneers of the "law of assumption".

STATES: WHAT ACTUALLY MANIFESTS

WHAT ARE STATES? It's the quality of your present experience you are aware of. states is who you are being right now, and what you are choosing to be aware of NOW. HOW TO GET INTO THE STATE? Accepting and deciding you have your desire and fully embodying the fact that you already are the person who has your desire RIGHT NOW is how you change your state. Changing your state = changing SELF. YOU ARE IN MULTIPLE STATES EVERY DAY. IT'S WHAT YOU ARE CHOOSING TO BE AWARE OF. YOUR STATE OF BEING IS WHO YOU ASSUME YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU ASSUME YOU HAVE. (I AM / I HAVE) HENCE, WHY IT IS CALLED LAW OF ASSUMPTION. STATES ANALOGY It's your 19th birthday, you no longer identify as being 18 years old since you have fully accepted that you are now 19 with ZERO physical proof that your age changed. stepping into the state is exactly like that. it's a mindset shift, it's just accepting it's done. "ACCEPTANCE IS MADE EFFORTLESSLY WHEN YOU KNOW IMAGINATION CREATES REALITY." - Edward art YOU ARE ALWAYS IN A STATE You are always in a state and here's why: states is your awareness of being and you are ALWAYS choosing to BE someone or BE aware of something. FREQUENCY ★ Frequency in states is simply how often you frequently return to the state of already having your desire WHEN you 𝗻𝗮𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 think of it? it's never about how much you repeat something or try and hold the state 24/7, it is how frequently you returned to the wish fulfilled every time you naturally think of your desire. FELL OUT OF STATE? As I said, it's not about holding the state 24/7. it is how often you go back to the state when you think of it. so if you fell out of state, just go back! you don't have to make it a big deal or restart your journey again. FALLING OUR STATE ANALOGY: Let's say you forgot you are now 19 and you still revert back to thinking you are 18, do you panic or spiral if your age was reversed? no, you simply correct yourself and move on because you KNOW you are 19 now. (inner knowing) DWELLING STATE this is the state you often return to. it's the most consistent state you have been choosing to go back into, which is what you are experiencing right now. For example today you naturally thought of your sp probably around 10 times, during those 10 times you think of them; which state did you frequently return to? is it fulfillment or lack? the state you naturally return to is your 𝗱𝘄𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝘁𝗲 ★ let's say you went back 6/10 times, then your dwelling state is fulfillment! STATES > THOUGHTS Thoughts are just thoughts unless you identify with them. (assume it's true) First of all, manifesting is natural. You didn't consciously affirm 10k times for your circumstances to come true, right? you just accepted it as true for you (which is you embodying the state of experiencing it) ANALOGY: Kim Kardashian can think of being broke dominantly but it won't manifest unless Kim accepts it as true for her and actually think from the perspective of being broke. THOUGHTS DON'T CREATE This a reminder that you shouldn't fear or fight your own thoughts. fighting your thoughts is basically fighting yourself. Here's a valid argument: if thoughts create, then how come circumstances are happening without you even dominantly thinking of it? don't you think life would be so predictable if our dominant thoughts actually create? Because it's not your thoughts, it's your state of being that naturally expresses. Noticed how things in your life feel very "you" or basically on brand to who you think you are? because self is what expresses, not thoughts.

YOU ARE NOT PRETENDING.

Some might think manifesting using the law is "pretending" you have something until it manifests, but you are NOT pretending because you actually DO have it. "I am not pretending → I actually experience BEING that version. I have what he has, I feel what he feels, I see what he sees." - Edward Art this quote is just excellent because it explains everything: here in your imagination, you are being the version of yourself who has your desire; through your imaginal acts, you are actually being that version. there's no pretending here. when you decide it's done, you are simply the version who has it. when you affirm, you are thinking like the version who has it. when you visualize, you experience being the version who has it. there's no pretending, just being. THE DIFFERENCE ok so... whats the difference between you and the version who has your desire? NOTHING. you are them if you IDENTIFY as that version. through imagination, you have what they have. through imagination, you experience what they experience. so just start being it. drop the pretending act and just start being the version who has your desire. "my only goal is to experience it because that's what I will do if I were the person that I want to be." - Edward Art

YOU DECIDED IT'S DONE, WHAT NOW?

You probably heard "just decide it's done" so many times especially in states community, but what should you do now after deciding it is done? "After you have assumed the feeling of the wish fulfilled (deciding it's done and knowing you have it) do not close the experience as you would a book, but carry it around like a fragrant perfume." - Neville Goddard. basically, Neville said you shouldn't "let go" of your desire like completely forgetting it, you should wear it like it's part of your identity now (your I AM). Remember, life reflects who YOU are, not what you want or desire. "wear it like perfume" basically let your desire become part of who you are, the same how you wear your perfume, it becomes part of your identity and you know it is YOUR scent. I really like this perfume analogy because you can't see your scent (the same way you can't see your desires for now) but you know you are wearing it right now (you have it within) PERFUME ANALOGY you may forget you are wearing a perfume right now, but when you remember it (desire pops up) you immediately go like "Yeah that's the scent of MY perfume" (fulfilling yourself + identifying with it) this is what persisting actually means btw. when you allow yourself to become whom you want to be and keep wearing this state. persisting is not wearing it 24/7, it is gently accepting that your desire is yours now when you think of it. to answer the question, once you decide its done- it is done. you have nothing left to do but to stick to the decision that it is done (persisting in the new state)

KNOWING IS THE SECRET

What Neville meant by feeling is knowing, having the feeling THAT you truly already have it. The feeling is the secret to success. Neville went on to say the feeling is the key. Neville is referring to feelings as the KNOWING of the firm conviction that you are who you want to be. NATURALNESS of being the person who has your desire is the secret of your desires being expressed. because you manifest who you are. Have you ever lost your keys, but KNEW that you are going to find them and you did? That was it. When you knew that you will find them, you were sure about it, you were in the state of your keys being found = knowing your wish being fulfilled. FEELING IS NOT EMOTIONS if you are trying to make it about emotions, you will fail. Because a state is something to “wear” all day long and emotions simply don’t last so long. Think about some states that you already have. Who you are already, A dog owner? sp's girlfriend? And now, how do you feel as such? Maybe you feel some emotions here, but mostly you just KNOW that that’s you. It’s something obvious, NATURAL. Neville said that you need to feel natural about your desires. That’s what he meant.

NATURALNESS EXPRESSES

Neville stated that the time it takes for your desire to be expressed is how natural having your desire is to you. “The time it takes your assumption to become fact, your desire to be fulfilled, is directly proportionate to the NATURALNESS of your feeling of already being what you want to be… of already having what you desire.” – Neville Goddard the secret is NATURALNESS. this is legit the key to successfully manifesting fast and also the reason why you might be having "failed attempts" when manifesting your desires. when I say "natural" I'm talking about how normal it is for you to be the person who already has your desire. basically, how much you've accepted your desires as yours to the point that it feels natural for you to experience them. here's a little exercise: think of something you already have in your 3D right now, like your phone. you know you have a phone, right? when you think of your phone, you just know you have it. That's the naturalness I'm talking about. NATURALNESS IS THE KEY have you ever noticed how you only experience things that are normal for you? because you manifest what you think is NATURAL for you. your assumptions = things you have accepted as true and NORMAL for you to have and experience.? "an assumption, if persisted in will harden into fact" Why? because once you are persisting in an assumption, you are NORMALIZING this new story and consistently confirming that you are experiencing it. "how long does it take to manifest?" this is a frequent question that people ask all the time; neville goddard stated that it actually depends on how NATURAL the desire feels for you. "Why Do I fail to manifest?" "the fact that it does not feel natural to you to be what you imagine yourself to be is the secret of your failure" - Neville Neville continued to say "Regardless of your desire, if it is not natural, you simply won't experience it." yup, the law never fails, it's the law. so the fact that you don't have your desire right now is an indication that the law is working. because 3D is reflecting your state of being (your dwelling place aka your habitual/natural state) I personally think Neville was talking about not seeing and accepting your desire as yours. applying the law is a gentle acceptance; when you don't see your desire as yours, then it's simply not natural for you to experience it. WHY IT'S NOT NATURAL? it could also mean you are STILL DESIRING. your desire cannot be something that is natural for you if you keep seeing it as something you want to have. clue: if you already have it, would you keep seeing it as a desire? another reason is you are forcing your way to manifest your desires. you might be affirming 10k times and doing these techniques but is that really making your desires feel natural to you or making it even feel more "unnatural"? The feeling is the secret to success. Neville went on to say the feeling is the key. Neville is referring to feelings as the KNOWING of the firm conviction that you are who you want to be. NATURALNESS of being the person who has your desire is the secret of your desires being expressed. because you manifest who you are. Have you ever lost your keys, but KNEW that you are going to find them and you did? That was it. When you knew that you will find them, you were sure about it, you were in the state of your keys being found = knowing your wish being fulfilled. HOW TO ACHIEVE THIS NATURALNESS the secret is your IMAGINATION. when you are consistently and persistently fulfilling yourself every time you think of your desires in your imagination, you are making your desires NATURAL. Neville Goddard also explained that naturalness is a habit; if you are constantly fulfilling yourself with the feeling of the wish fulfilled- you are successfully making it a habit. "this is why we always tell you to go straight to the wish fulfilled every time you think of your desire; because you are making it a habit for you to think as if you have it. because by then it becomes your dwelling state, which manifests.

MY ULTIMATE GUIDE TO MANFEST ★

CHAPTER ONE: Burning Desire.

The only guide that you will need. CHAPTER ONE: Burning Desire. "All transformation begins with an intense, burning desire to be transformed. The first step in the 'renewing of the mind' is desire. You must want to be different [and intend to be] before you can begin to change yourself." basically, you have to realize what it is that you want and you let go of your old self. The logic here is: you cannot change if you are not willing to change. CHAPTER TWO: Detachment. let go of the past. the current shit. the circumstances. the distraction. detach from the 3D you are experiencing right now. let go of EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. Once you imagine a new story for yourself, you cannot condition it to the current reality, you have to completely separate the old from the new. “leave the world alone as it is and change the self.” CHAPTER THREE: A Desire Turned into a Present Fact. "Then you must make your future dream a present fact. You do this by assuming the feeling of your wish fulfilled." We must transcend vision into being, thinking of into thinking from. Imagination must center itself in some state and view the world from that state.” basically, you must stop desiring and actually see it as something you already have, something that is already present in your life. CHAPTER FOUR: Persist. Stay consistent and be committed to your new story, basically. Make it your goal to be consistent with your fulfillment. — every time you think of your desire, go straight to fulfillment. Think of it this way:

By constantly returning to the wish fulfilled, it becomes natural for you and it's the naturalness that makes it expressed. By also returning to the wish fulfilled every chance you naturally think of it, it becomes your dwelling state. Also, this is the frequency I am talking about, how frequently you returned to fulfillment when you think of it. Also, this is what repetition actually means. It's not forcing yourself to only have a single dominant thought 24/7, it's how much you repeatedly return to the fulfillment when it naturally crosses your mind. CHAPTER FIVE: Expression. “By persisting in the assumption that you already are the person you want to be, you rise above all doubt, fear, and belief in the power of outside conditions or circumstances; your world inevitably conforms to your assumption.” Neville continued to say: The results will follow just as surely as day follows night. Have faith in this planting until the evidence is manifest to you that it is so. That's it. that's all of the chapters. “What if it doesn’t manifest” That depends on your state. If you are in a state of fulfillment, your desire is inevitably fulfilled, but if you are in a state of lack, you will inevitably experience lack. THE TRAIN CHAPTER: ANALOGY FOR PERSISTING think of your manifesting process like a train. you have to stay on track (stay in fulfillment) in order to reach your destination (you having your desire) if you go off the tracks (go to lack), how are u gonna reach your desired destination?? You won't. unless u get back on the right track. Manifesting is exactly like that. Think of the tracks as destinations. which track are you aligned with? fulfillment or lack? either way, you will inevitably reach your destination - the only difference is where it leads you (the results) Being on track = staying aligned with the wish fulfilled. THE BUS CHAPTER: ANALOGY FOR WHY YOU EXPERIENCE IT IN YOUR IMAGINATION FIRST. Before I show you the analogy, you must first understand what the inner man and the outer man are. INNER MAN ★ • your inner self. who you are in imagination. OUTER MAN ★ • your 3D self. who you are in the physical world. "𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑: what your inner self is experiencing within shall be expressed, your outer self is bound to experience it in the 3D. "the 𝗶𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗿 self and 𝗼𝘂𝘁𝗲𝗿 self is not separate, they are ONE. the difference is, your inner self is the cause of change and your outer self is simply experiencing the effect of the change that occurred within.

Let’s say there is a beautiful scenery that the bus will pass by, the driver sees it first, right? He gets to enjoy the view first while the backseat passenger experiences the view last. It’s exactly like that in manifestation. Your inner man sees and experiences it first and so the outer man will inevitably see and experience it. Does the outer man panic if he won’t see it? No, because the bus is moving in that direction anyways and he will 100% see the scenery. So experience your desire in your imagination first.

WELCOME TO MY EDWARD ART NOTES

LECTURE: LAW OF BEING, LAW OF HAVING

•IT'S NOT THE SENSES THAT ARE IN CONTROL, YOUR IMAGINATION IS IN CONTROL — IT'S THE SENSES MIMICKING THE IMAGINATION. •THE CHANGE MUST FIRST HAPPEN WITHIN IMAGINATION — TO SEE THE CHANGE IN THE SENSES. •IMAGINATION CREATES WAR AND PEACE. — IT DOES BOTH. •WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT, YOU ARE ALWAYS ACCEPTING THINGS WITHIN. DO I LIKE WHAT I'M ACCEPTING WITHIN? IF NOT, CHANGE. •FIRST, FOCUS ON CHANGING YOUR IMAGINATION — IF YOU CAN REALLY HONE IT ON THAT — YOU WILL FIND THE SENSES CHANGING FASTER THAN YOU WOULD THINK. •BELIEVE I HAVE THINGS INSIDE MYSELF — TO SEE CHANGES OUTSIDE INSTANTLY.

LECTURE: DON'T TRY BUT EXPERIENCE IT. •WHEN YOU REMOVE THE WEIGHT OF TRYING TO MANIFEST, AND MAKE IT YOUR GOAL FOR YOUR IMAGINAL ACT TO EXPERIENCE IT, A HUGE WEIGHT CAN BE LIFTED OFF YOU. •YOU ARE WHAT YOU EXPERIENCE. •THE MOMENT YOU IMAGINE, THE EXTERNAL WORLD LEAVES YOU. •TRYING TO MANIFEST IS A BLOCK. •YOU CAN’T BE FULLY IMMERSED WITHIN IF YOU ARE STILL FOCUSED ON EXTERNAL. •EXPERIENCE YOUR DESIRE BEING FULFILLED — MAKE THAT THE GOAL. •THE OUTERMAN WILL SAY ITS IMPOSSIBLE BUT THE INNER MAN WILL SAY ISN’T IT WONDERFUL •THE STATE INSIDE YOU IS COMPLETE IT JUST NEED TO BE OCCUPIED. •“ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS IMAGINE YOU ARE DOING IT” - NEVILLE •IN THIS WORLD OF IMAGINATION, THERE IS A DREAM WHERE YOU ARE WHO YOU WANT TO BE. •START BEING IT. •PERSIST IN EXPERIENCING IT UNTIL IT BECOMES NATURAL TO YOU.

LECTURE: ALREADY BEING SO •DO NOT TRY, BUT EXPERIENCE IT. •TRYING TO MAKE IT SO — YOU ARE FOCUSING EXTERNALLY ON BECOMING SO. •YIELD ON ALREADY BEING IT — DO NOT FOCUS ON CHANGING THE OUTER WORLD. •YOU ALREADY ARE IT — IF YOU ACCEPT THAT, YOU’LL START THINKING FROM THE POSITION OF BEING IT. •FALL ASLEEP TONIGHT FEELING YOU ALREADY ARE IT. •GO TO THE END — IT ALREADY IS SO, IT'S NOT GOING TO THE END “TO MAKE IT SO” IT ALREADY IS SO. •WHEN NEVILLE WANTED TO GO HOME — HE ALREADY IS HOME, IN HIS MIND. •ACCEPT YOUR IMAGINATION WITHOUT JUDGEMENT. •“HOW IS IT GONNA HAPPEN” “IT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE” — JUST ACCEPT IT. •ACCEPT THAT YOU ALREADY ARE AND ALLOW THAT TO BE THE CHANGE WITHIN. •DON’T GO BACK TO THE ORGANS OF THE EYES AND SAY “I DON’T SEE IT” - JUST KEEP FOCUSING ON THE INTERNAL CHANGE. •IGNORE THE SENSES, IGNORE WHAT OTHERS HAVE TAUGHT YOU — OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEE THAT YOU ALREADY ARE IT.

LECTURE: THOUGH FALSE

THE ASSUMPTION IS FALSE BUT IF I WERE TO MAKE IT REAL TO ME, IT BECOMES REAL.

THE ASSUMPTION IS FALSE IN THE OUTER WORLD — BUT IT IS TRUE IN THE WORLD OF IMAGINATION.

WE PERSIST IN THE NEW STATE UNTIL IT BECOMES OUR NATURAL WAY OF BEING, THEN IT WILL NATURALLY COME INTO OUR WORLD.

WE MUST FEEL NATURAL ABOUT IT IN IMAGINATION, FOR IT IS AS WITHIN, SO WITHOUT.

YOU MAY NOT FEEL NATURAL TO THE NEW STATE IMMEDIATELY, YOU MIGHT— BUT IF YOU DON’T, PERSIST.

PERSISTING DOESN’T MEAN YOU ARE TRYING TO BECOME, IT IS BEING THE NEW STATE.

BEING IT MEANS TO EXPERIENCE IT.

“THERE IS NO FULFILLMENT IN TRYING TO BE."

THE ONLY FULFILLMENT IS I AM (I HAVE)

ALL STATES ARE DREAMS WAITING FOR YOUR OCCUPANCY.

CHANGING STATES — THE GOAL IS TO CHANGE THE SELF.

IF YOU HAVE PLANTED THIS IN YOUR MENTAL GARDEN, IT WILL GROW INTO YOUR EXPERIENCE.

LECTURE: THOUGH FALSE II

THE HARVEST YOU ARE EXPERIENCING WAS ONCE PLANTED IN THE SAME GARDEN.

YOUR HARVEST IS YOUR STATES.

EXPERIENCE AS IF IT HAS ALREADY BEEN SAID YES TO — FEEL IT REAL, AND MOVE ON WITH YOUR DAY.

REMOVE THE LOGICAL REASONING, THE WHEN OR HOW IT WILL HAPPEN, IF ITS POSSIBLE, IF IT WILL WORK — START BEING / EXPERIENCE THE STATE OF HAVING IT.

THE MORE YOU PERSIST, THE MORE NATURAL IT GETS.

I AM NOT PRETENDING — I ACTUALLY EXPERIENCE BEING THAT VERSION.

I HEAR WHAT HE HEARS, I FEEL WHAT HE FEELS, I SEE WHAT HE SEES,

I DO NOT QUESTION OR ARGUE — I JUST SAY YES TO EXPERIENCING IT AND YES TO EVERYTHING IN MY IMAGINATION.

I FEEL THE YES — NOT JUST SAY IT.

I WANT TO EXPERIENCE BEING X — I FILL MY IMAGINATION (WHICH IS MYSELF SAY YES) — TRUST THAT “YES” AND PROCEED TO EXPERIENCE IT.

MY ONLY GOAL IS TO EXPERIENCE WHAT I WANT TO EXPERIENCE BECAUSE THATS WHAT I WOULD DO IF I WERE THE PERSON I WANT TO BE.

IMAGINATION HAS ALREADY SAID YES.

IF IMAGINATION HAS NOT SAID YES, THEN YOU WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO IMAGINE IT.

LECTURE: THE FEELINGS WE SEEK

THE FEELING OF THE WISH FULFILLED MEANS — YOU MAKE YOUR FUTURE DREAM A PRESENT FACT.

IF YOU WERE WHO YOU WANT TO BE — ALL YOU WOULD DO IS EXPERIENCE BEING IT.

YOU MUST BE WHAT YOU EXPERIENCE IN YOUR IMAGINATION.

WHEN WE IMAGINE, WE ARE NOT PRETENDING — WE ARE IMMERSING TO BECOME IT.

WE DON’T QUESTION.

DON’T FORCE EMOTIONAL RESPONSE — IT COMES NATURAL AS YOU ACCEPT ITS DONE.

FEELING OF THE WISH FULFILLED IS SUBJECTIVE.

THE ONLY GOAL IS TO ACCEPT IT'S DONE.

THE WHEN HAS ALREADY BEEN ANSWERED — IT'S NOW.

THE HOW HAS ALREADY BEEN ANSWERED — IT'S NOW.

YOU WALK BY FAITH, NOT SIGHT — THAT IS THE FEELING YOU SEEK.

THE INNER MAN DOES NOT NEED PERMISSION — THE INNER MAN IS ALLOWED TO DENY THE SENSES IF IT WANTS TO.

LECTURE: ONLY ONE CAUSE

THERE’S NO EARNING ON THE INSIDE — ITS JUST ACCEPTANCE.

THERE ARE NO TWO GODS — THERE IS ONLY ONE — THAT ONE CAUSE IS WITHIN.

LEARN TO BREAK THE HABIT OF DESIRING SELF INSIDE — START BEING A FULFILLED SELF INSIDE BECAUSE THAT IS AVAILABLE TO YOU. ALL THINGS ARE INSIDE.

THERE’S ONLY ONE CAUSE — IMAGINATION.

THE ONE GIVES ME THE BAD IS THE SAME ONE WHO GIVES ME THE GOOD.

YOU ALLOW YOURSELF TO GIVE YOURSELF THE GOOD NOW.

LECTURE: THE PROBLEM AND SOLUTION

YOU CAN MAKE IT FEEL REAL. PROVIDE THE FEELING OF REALITY. YOU JUST KEEP ASSUMING IT IS REAL.

IN ORDER FOR ONE TO OCCUPY A NEW STATE — YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT YOUR MIND IS SIMPLY EXPRESSING YOUR STATE.

YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES IS JUST A STATE — SO IS YOUR DESIRES. BOTH OF THESE STATES COME FROM IMAGINATION.

I AM THE PROBLEM AND I AM THE SOLUTION.

WHAT'S CHALLENGING IS: IF ONE WAS IN A STATE FOR SO LONG — THEY IDENTIFY WITH IT AND SEE IT AS A PERMANENT REALITY — BUT REALIZE IT'S JUST A STATE.

THE ONLY REASON IT DOESN’T FEEL REAL IS BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT CREDITING IT WITH REALITY, THE WAY YOU ARE CREDITING YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES WITH REALITY.

BY LOSING HIMSELF IN THE IMAGINATION — HE BECOMES IT — AND IT INEVITABLY BECOMES HIS REALITY.

THE UNDESIRABLE IS JUST A STATE — ACCEPT THIS FULLY.

THE FIRST STEP IS ACCEPTING YOU ARE IN A STATE NOW — AND THEN YOU WILL BE ABLE TO ASSUME A NEW STATE.

LECTURE: THE NAME OF I AM

LIFE REFLECTS WHO YOU ARE, NOT WHAT YOU WANT.

I AM — IN THE PRESENT NOW.

CHANGE YOURSELF IN YOUR IMAGINATION.

YOU ARE IT NOW.

YOU CAN ALWAYS RESHAPE ANYTHING IN YOUR MIND,

REVISE IT AND ACCEPT THAT WAS THE DAY YOU HAD.

YOUR TOMORROW IS WHAT YOU DO NOW. RIGHT NOW IS WHAT SHAPES YOUR FUTURE.

WANT TO SEE THE FUTURE? CHECK YOUR STATE NOW.

THE IMAGINATION GIVES YOU WHAT YOU GIVE TO YOURSELF.

ALLOW YOURSELF TO FEEL — YOU ARE WHO YOU WANT TO BE.

YOU DON’T HAVE TO WORRY FOR TOMORROW, IT WILL SHAPE WHAT YOU DO NOW.

I AM — IS A PRESENT TENSE.

LECTURE: FREQUENCY

FEEL THE WISH FULFILLED EVERYDAY — HE MUST BE CONSISTENT ABOUT IT DAILY.

“FEELING THE WISH FULFILLED ONE TIME IS GREATER THAN TRYING TO ‘IMPRESS’ YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS OR REPEATING THOUSAND AFFIRMATIONS A DAY”

THE FULFILLMENT IS WITHIN YOU.

YOU ARE THE IMAGINIST.

FEELING THE WISH FULFILLED — FEELING IT AS A PRESENT FACT.

LEAVE THE WORLD ALONE — DON’T CARE ABOUT THE OUTER REALITY

GO WITHIN — CHANGE YOURSELF INSIDE.

WHO CARES WHAT THE WORLD SAYS.

IF I WANT TO SEE IT FULFILLED — I IMAGINE SEEING IT.

IF I WANT TO HEAR IT FULFILLED — I IMAGINE HEARING IT.

FEEL IT REAL.

WHAT IS SO IN IMAGINATION — EXPRESSES.

WELCOME TO MY Neville Goddard NOTES + Q U OT E S

NEVILLE GODDARD NOTES

N°1 : “You imagined yourself into your present state. If you don’t like it, you must imagine yourself out of it and into another. It is all a matter of moving from one state into another one.” N°2 : “Live in the feeling of being the one you want to be and that you shall be.” N°3 : “You, by your conscious assumptions, determine the nature of the world in which you live. Ignore the present state and assume the wish fulfilled. Claim it; it will respond. N°4 : Every moment of your life, consciously or unconsciously, you are assuming a feeling. “Don't be anxious or concerned as to results. The results will follow just as surely as day follows night. Have faith in this planting until the evidence is manifest to you that it is so. N°5 : “If you react based on the past, you continue in the same pattern, start being a new page.” N°6 : “Determined imagination & thinking from the end is the beginning of all miracles.” N°7 : “He is in the world, and the world was made by Him, and the world knows Him not.” N°8 : “The first step in the renewing of the mind is desire. You must want to be different before you can begin to change yourself. Then YOU MUST MAKE YOUR FUTURE DREAM A PRESENT FACT. You do this BY ASSUMING THE FEELING OF YOUR WISH FULFILLED. N°9 : “As we lift up our consciousness, our world reshapes itself in harmony with the level to which we have risen.” N°10 : “Now let this saying sink deep in your ear: BE CONSCIOUS OF BEING THAT WHICH YOU WANT TO APPEAR.” N°11 : “Prayer— the art of believing what is denied by the senses — deals almost entirely with the subconscious. Through prayer, the subconscious is suggested into acceptance of the wish fulfilled, and, reasoning deductively, logically unfolds it to its legitimate end.” N°12 : “It is not what you want that you attract; you attract what you believe to be true about yourself.” N°13 : “Regardless of what you want to be, you must declare you already are it and persist in that assumption. An assumption is an act of faith, and without faith it is impossible to please God. Your reasoning mind may deny wealth. Your senses deny it too, but if you have faith you will dare to assume wealth, thereby becoming the man you want to be.” N°14 : “I thought I could change others through effort. Now I know I cannot change another unless I first change myself. To change another within my world I must first change my concept of that other. N°15 : “Whenever your feeling is in conflict with your wish, feeling the wish fulfilled will be the victor.” N°16 : “The assumption of the wish fulfilled is the ship that carries you over the unknown seas to the fulfillment of your dream. The assumption is everything; realisation is subconscious and effortless.” N°17 : “Once defined, your conscious claim established, continue in this confidence until the reward is received. As surely as the day follows the night any attribute, consciously claimed, will manifest itself.” N°18 : “Such simple acceptance of your desires is like the dropping of fertile seed into an ever-prepared soil. When you drop your desire in consciousness as a seed, confident that it shall appear in its full-blown potential, you have done all that is expected of you.

N°19 : “The future must become the present in the imagination of the one who would wisely and consciously create circumstances.”

N°20 : To be worried or concerned about the manner of their unfoldment is to hold these fertile seeds in a mental grasp and, therefore, to prevent them from really maturing to full harvest.”

N°21 : “Why should you ask man for permission to express when you realise that your world, in its every detail, originated within you and is sustained by you as the only conceptional director”

N°22 : “By persisting in the assumption that you already are the person you want to be, you rise above all doubt, fear and belief in the power of outside conditions or circumstances; your world inevitably conforms to your assumption.”

N°23 : “You imagined yourself into the state you are now occupying, and you can imagine yourself into any state you desire to express. No outside deity moved you into the state of misery you are now expressing; you did it yourself because you forgot who you are. You are the being who conceived every state in the beginning and deliberately started your journey by moving into a state.”

N°23 : “Nothing comes from without; all things come from within.”

N°24 : if you would catch a large measure of life, you must leave behind the shallows and launch out into the deep blues where the big ones play. To catch the large manifestations of life you must enter into deeper and freer states of consciousness; only in these depths do the big expressions of life live.” (go in depth and trust freely your imagination)

N°24 : “Your world in its every detail is your consciousness objectified.”

N°25 : “quietly where you are and assume the mental attitude of listening; recall your friend's voice; with this familiar voice established in your consciousness, imagine that you are actually hearing his voice and that he is telling you how you already are who you wanted to be or to have; feel the thrill of having heard. Then drop it completely.

N°26 : “Remember the reward is to the one who endures. Standing still is the deep conviction that all is well; it is done. No matter what is heard or seen, you remain unmoved, conscious of being victorious in the end.

N°27 : “This rise is accomplished by affirming that we are already that which we want to be; by assuming the feeling of the wish fulfilled.”

N°28 : “To move into another state or mansion necessitates a change of beliefs. All that you could ever desire is already present and only waits to be matched by your beliefs. But it must be matched, for that is the necessary condition by which alone it can be activated and objectified. Matching the beliefs of a state is the seeking that finds, the knocking to which it is opened, the asking that receives. Go in and possess the land.”

N°28 : “Therefore, when you know what you want, you must deliberately focus your attention on the feeling of your wish fulfilled until that feeling fills the mind and crowds all other ideas out of consciousness.”

N°29 : “When a man learns the art of thinking from the end, that man is master of his fate. For he defines his end, he formulates an aim in life, and then feels himself right into the situation of that end.”

N°30 : “Imagination is the beginning of creation. You imagine what you desire, and then you believe it to be true. Every dream could be realised by those self-disciplined enough to believe it. People are what you choose to make them; a man is according to the manner in which you look at him.”

N°31 : “The man who at will can assume whatever state he pleases has found the keys to the Kingdom of Heaven. The keys are desire, imagination, and a steadily focused attention on the feeling of the wish fulfilled. To such a man any undesirable objective fact is no longer a reality and the ardent wish no longer a dream.”

N°32 : “Life does not care whether you call yourself rich or poor; strong or weak. It will eternally reward you with that which you claim as true of yourself.”

N°33 : “If you are dissatisfied with your present expression of life, then you must be born again. Rebirth is the dropping of that level with which you are dissatisfied and rising to that level of consciousness which you desire to express and possess.”

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circeyoru · 24 days

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Hi,

I love your writing a lot! It's really creative and life like, great job!

I have a very embarrassing question: is making a blog on tumblr easy to do? I'm trying to set my own up on my account for writing and I've read and watched videos on how to do it but I'm still unsure about going about without messing somewhere.

I know this is random question but I just don't know who to ask. You don't have to answer if you don't want to I completely understand.

Hello there~! Thank you for your praise and kind words!

No worries! It's not an embarrassing or random question. I'll try to answer with my own experience if that's okay with you. See if it helps you at all.

Making a blog on tumblr is easy. Super easy. Like I didn't even read or watch anything before I opened this one. Just takes an account and you to make it happen really. There's nothing to mess up because it's your blog and your blog means your style. There's no right or wrong in art so long as you think it's good then it is.

What I did was just set up my blog with whatever I had going at the time and started posting to see if anyone would visit my work. I experimented with the functions and stuff. That's all I did.

Before I opened this blog, however, I was a lurker on tumblr. I use it to read fanfics, headcanons, prompts, etc. All this is in another account now cause I like keep it separate (to not influence other readers and stuff). So in some sense, I have experience and know what or how I like my blog and posts to look like.

The question you should ask yourself before you make a blog would be: Will you put time into it or will you commit to it?

I'm not sure what or how you're using this blog to do, but you should expect some form of interaction and posts. For me I post my stories that I write on a whim and share my ideas for my fandoms and current obsessions. If you go back to what I posted in the beginning, they were works I wrote with my own ideas. Later on, there were requests or ideas sent in that I wrote for. Then asks on my work or something about myself or even these types of questions.

Point is, don't create your blog on a whim or just for a spontanous fun. Some reader might/will grow attach and want your work/response. There is commitment. I'm not saying to post 24/7, I'm just saying you need to know why you're making this blog to begin with. I take breaks and pause requests, even putting some of my longer series on hold so I don't get worn out to drop the story. My other friends on tumblr also take long breaks and map out their writing and posting schedule (way more organized than me, I'll admit). Either way, there's commitment.

One more. You will definitely have bad interactions or experiences, as much as I hate to name this here. Some irresponsible and selfish individuals might take advantage of you and try something. From the smallest rule breaking to the outright cursing sent to your inbox that demands an update from you. Be ready for those situations as well. I wish no one deals with those, I never even thought I'd have those as long as I'm nice, but you can't control others.

Still there are times where I feel so happy from this blog and the people that support me. Be it from anon thanking me for my work or asking more about my ideas, even giving gifts. A heart for my work or a comment is enough to make me smile. So it's not all bad. I say I continue even with all these bad things cause I think the positive ones outweight the negative. I've also made friends here, so I'm not dropping my blog anytime soon.

All in all. Ask yourself if you'll commit to this blog and if you really want to do it. Putting yourself on social media is a responsibility you take yourself.

I hope this helps in some way and you read this.

My Works: MASTERLIST

(sorry about the tags, it's cause I have no idea which side this anon came from so I'm doing both fandoms)

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See ARCH ENEMY Perform In Shenzhen, China With New Guitarist JOEY CONCEPCION

The Anty Krist YouTube channel has uploaded video of ARCH ENEMY's May 9 concert at NuBond LiveHouse in Shenzhen, China. The show was part of ARCH ENEMY's 2024 Asian tour, which kicked off on April 24 at Musinsa Garage in Seoul, South Korea.

Last December, ARCH ENEMY announced that it had "amicably" parted ways with longtime guitarist Jeff Loomis.

ARCH ENEMY founder and chief songwriter Michael Amott said in a statement: "It's been a joy having Jeff play with ARCH ENEMY for close to a decade, we truly had a blast touring around the world together! We were friends long before we played music together and we remain even closer buddies now, which feels great. We respect that he's in a place and time in life where he needs to step out of ARCH ENEMY and we all wish him nothing but the best moving forward.

"The only constant is change, and this is one of those moments where things had to change a little to move forward in a satisfactory way for everyone involved. With all that said, we are extremely pleased to announce that we have recruited Joey Concepcion as our new guitarist! Joey's a phenomenal talent and has been a friend of the band for a long time, he even filled in for Jeff on a couple of European festival shows back in 2018.

"We have touring and a myriad of other exciting things coming up on the horizon with ARCH ENEMY for 2024 and beyond and are thrilled to move forward, creating the next chapter and keeping the metal flowing!"

Loomis commented: "My time in ARCH ENEMY has come to an end. I have had a great time (9 years!) of playing and touring with them, but now it's time to enter a new chapter in my life. I wish Alissa, Michael, Sharlee and Daniel the very best and consider them all lifelong friends. I'd also like to thank the crew that have always been nothing but kind to me. Their hard work and dedication towards the band is incredible, and we wouldn't be able to put on the great shows without them. Thank you again for all your support over the years and Happy New Year."

Lastly, Joey Concepcion had the following to say about joining the ARCH ENEMY fold: "It's an honor and a privilege to be working with ARCH ENEMY and I'm very much looking forward to shredding stages across the globe together, playing for and meeting all the fans!"

Jeff, who was the main songwriter in his previous group, NEVERMORE, joined ARCH ENEMY in late 2014, but was not involved in the writing for the latter act's last two albums, 2017's "Will To Power" and 2022's "Deceivers".

In a 2018 interview with All That Shreds, Jeff said that he had "a lot of musical ideas" that he was hoping to contribute to ARCH ENEMY in the future. "I did write three or four songs for ['Will To Power'], but they didn't make it, only because it wasn't in the style that they were looking for," he said. "Fortunately enough, I was able to play guitar solos on the latest album, so that makes me happy."

Seven years ago, Amott said that Loomis is "a strong songwriter" in his own right, "but not in the style of ARCH ENEMY, I feel. He's always writing and recording with his own stuff," he explained. "He has a project called CONQUERING DYSTOPIA, he has his solo stuff, [and] he obviously wrote most of the NEVERMORE stuff. I've always respected him, and continue to respect him, as a guitar player — he's amazing and an amazing human being; he fits in perfectly. [There's] a great chemistry [between us]. But, you know, I've always written most of the music, so it's difficult to… I don't really wanna change the sound of the band too much. The band sort of started around my songwriting and my ideas, and those continue to be the most dominant ones, I guess. But, you know, who knows [what can happen] in the future?"

Loomis's second and latest solo album, 2012's "Plains Of Oblivion" was produced by Aaron Smith (7 HORNS 7 EYES) and featured cover artwork by Colin Marks of Rain Song Design, who had previously worked with ALL SHALL PERISH, THE END and XERATH.

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aphrodieties · 9 months

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hello, i hope ur doing well :) i was hoping if you can help me with this one question.

lately, especially since christmas is coming and i’m in an adult with nothing, i’m constantly searching for “quick money”, building a business, looking for part time jobs so i can have money but the biggest focus is that i want to manifest a large sum of money out of the blue.

but i spend all of my days worrying about how sad holidays are, hearing my family always stressed about money, and looking for a job while manifestation and fulfillment isn’t on my mind i those moments. it’s only like 1-2 times i remember in a manifestation sense like “wait i should fulfill myself”

if i’m not conscious of my worrying 80% of my day because i’m on autopilot, is that what’s holding me back from my breakthrough and why i haven’t manifested anything yet? how should i approach this ? i’m sad about that realization that i might have to catch myself every time and was looking to see what you might think of that

You are in a dilemma—you’re struggling financially around the holiday season and experiencing a huge amount of stress. As a result, you’re on autopilot 80% of the time and constantly looking for ways to make money; you don't have a second to breathe—much less focus on manifestation and fulfillment.

You want to manifest a large sum of money but you aren't sure if that's possible because you don't think you’ve been applying the law of assumption correctly or even applying the law of assumption at all and you think that the solution to your problem is micromanaging your thoughts 24/7, did I get that right?

Let me tell you—the only thing that is holding you back is you, no rule states, "You must have manifestation and fulfillment on your mind all the time, or else you won't ever manifest anything!" unless you create that rule.

Another thing is that being human is not a sin; we all get stressed and we all worry. The solution to this isn't micromanagement, it's disregarding these things—thoughts have no power, and they only serve as an indication of your state. If you're always worrying about finances, then that's an indication that you’re in a state of financial instability.

Change your state, and soon enough everything else will change too!

On the topic of fulfillment and manifestation; 1-2x a day is more than enough, but to me, it sounds like you're not fulfilling yourself. If you were truly fulfilled, you wouldn't worry about whether or not you’d manifest anything because you would be in a state of wish fulfilled.

"How should I approach this?" I think you should find a balance; do what’s best for you in the 3D, change your state, fulfill yourself, and persist! Don't question it, and just have faith in yourself.

I found myself in a similar position not too long ago; I was a full-time student working five days a week, and I was on autopilot most of the time too. If I wasn't at work, I would be at school and vice-versa. I struggled a lot in all areas of my life and I struggled with manifestation too, but things do get better! I have faith in you and you should have faith in yourself!

I wish you all the best. If you have any further questions, I would be happy to answer them.

#aphrodieties #law of assumption

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vanillaxoshi · 3 months

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Someone mentioned the plot holes or new problems the new episode created. Since BBB's elements never reverted back to being tier 1 whenever he was tired. And even then, being tired that much doesn't make any sense, since in movie 2, he fought Tok Kasa in triple split form, lost Gempa, reverted back, splits again, and fused 3 times!! And not one did any of those Elements, reverted back to tier 1.

It's like, their writing became so lazy, trying to appease the younger audience. So many things from the comics were rewritten or flat out gone. They really avoided Gempa and Hali.

I really wanted to see the fox too back in Sori, no lawyer Gopal. No mushroom people.

I don't remember the reason why they only have 6 episodes. It's really disappointing. Kinda wished they just continued the comic animation like they did for the Sori arc. I would've preferred that honestly.

Sorry for the rant. I just really love your takes on the BoBoiBoy situations and I have no one to talk to about it since my friend still hasn't caught up to movie 2 and beyond

As much as i like that drawback, that’s true on how it doesnt make sense at that moment. But that happening in Movie 2 really explains Boi’s 7 day coma from what i remember, Monsta adds things along the way from what’s seen throughout the series, which isn’t bad, but its not really thought out well.

Which i also would like to question is how weird it is for Oakutuat fruit can activate third tier just by being consumed, not by an upgrade from the watch that had been like that so from movie 1, where Ochobot gives the power watches an upgrade through the last of his energy

The watches, though i don't know how it initially functions, in terms of logic, i would just assume the watch passes it’s energy through it’s host’s body and process it something physical through mental capability, so the explanation for the drink to upgrade the watch is the same process but the opposite way. If it had been explained already, then feel free to correct me but for now, this will be my assumption/explanation to myself from how they were able to upgrade the watch in a sense

It's like, their writing became so lazy, trying to appease the younger audience. So many things from the comics were rewritten or flat out gone. They really avoided Gempa and Hali. I really wanted to see the fox too back in Sori, no lawyer Gopal. No mushroom people. I don't remember the reason why they only have 6 episodes. It's really disappointing. Kinda wished they just continued the comic animation like they did for the Sori arc. I would've preferred that honestly.

I want to be considerate from their choices at certain parts of the show, it's true they're leaning unto the younger audience more, but that type of reason does not excuse lazy writing, Their writing isn't straight up horrible, but it isn't the far out best either, just neutral.

They are still able to entertain their audience, even if some are disappointed and provide more additional quirks of their characters, those quirks can provide more ideas for the fans to produce their own content about the show, but once more, they shouldn't just go down that path and let their fans replace or do what they expected from the show.

I would understand the reasons why they had to change certain scenes, mostly because of limited episodes, which are 6 episodes per arc to fit it into 24 episodes to complete the season, and they also separated Gurlatan to have it's own movie to produce it more better, and the many changes were to fit the themes more. The Sori changes were made due to the limited episodes, which again, I understand.

For the younger audience part, I think i should bring up the ask that had pointed out about the Boboibot arc, because thats a good reason to say that the recent seasons and episodes dont really need to be more comedic and can lead on a more deeper darker topic, and if they say 'its a children's show you cant show that to kids' yeah, you can, if they're considered too horrific, then make it a bit lighter, it's not needed to fully change it.

Especially since season 2- movie 1 of original boboiboy was shifting to a more darker tone, I was shocked to see Ejojo being in a whole incubator and have his entire limb torned off, its was horrific but i liked it bringing a more serious tone for the future, a new danger to become. That might not be the case for some kids, but those type of things bring a more developed understanding kids can learn about and stuff who knows, and that's when deeper topics are brought up,

im sure that can be answered more better from other shows. And bringing in more of those types of stories can perhaps expand imagination stories too. not saying that the present ones dont do that, just saying. the next episodes arent fully even out yet im making a whole deduction about this.

but i guess this feels like a missed opportunity to kids, especially if you add deep topics related to the main characters, for example, Fang's moment of grief with the old man in the comic,

one could argue, that the comic is there to be of satisfaction for some people, The comic did came out first and brought out more of the creative minds of the comic writers and artists, which is great, but that means it just provided an available path that the show could've gone on

who knows maybe Fang's instance of grief or his lost of his family from his backstory could've resonated with some children who experienced the same matter. If it's too dark for some kids then let me bring up the quote "comfort the disturb and disturb the comforted"

and im sure its possible to enact that since some kids would not really care if those matters are involved, it's nice to resonate these type of things to children, for an example is the bluey show giving out experiences of how children handle their struggles and how the parents help, it genuinely shows the kids and adults different ways to handle the things they feel that are presented in the show.

this topic too was brought up to where i saw a video talking about Tangled and mother gothel's gaslighting and abuse. Someone on the comment section stated that watching the movie made them realized that they were in abusive household

who knows maybe you can stop a kid from doing slavery by showing them slavery and portraying it as bad, who knows, and if they ask what those topics mean to their parents and their parents complain about it instead of teaching it or explaining it then thats not really the show's fault, is it? i dont know, they could just see these from other kids shows.

also, it's not bad to make things more lighthearted, but yeah.

i've typed too much

#boboiboy #boboiboy galaxy #xoshi asks #xoshi answers #rambles #thoughts #these are mostly just my opinions and me concocting up options #if this sounded disrespectful that is not my intention #this became a whole essay or smth lol #this is what happens when i'm on the laptop

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aqua-dan · 6 months

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Fav artist for Garth?

I have been thinking about this ask for multiple hours, and I am unsure if I can pick a true favorite because there are so many wonderful artists who have drawn Garth over the years! However, I think I built a pretty solid list of my top 5 artists for Garth (oops!), so here goes:

#1: Phil Jimenez

I have so much love for the way he draws (and writes) Garth! Of every artist out there, I feel he has the most love for drawing Garth and I can feel that care and attention to detail in all his work. I am absolutely in love with the way he draws Garth's expressions too! He allows him to have exaggerated expressions and really allow us to feel the emotions of the story through the art. He's not afraid of showing him in painful and less than idealistic moments, and allows his face to reflect that. I think it's something that a lot of current comic book artists shy away from for fear of making characters look "ugly." But Jimenez goes all in on it and still makes Garth look stunning 24/7!

#2: Ramona Fradon

Ramona Fradon was one of the co-creators of Garth, and was, in my opinion, one of the most incredible people in the comic's art industry. She sadly passed away last month at age 97, and she only just announced her retirement from art a month prior to her passing. Her influence on the industry, especially for female artists, was monumental, and her art style stood out so uniquely amongst others. I've always loved how fantastical her art is. She creates fascinating underwater creatures and has an absolutely precious way of drawing Garth. I appreciate that she made the decision to draw him looking as young as he was at the time, especially since a lot of other teen sidekicks were drawn to look older. I feel very lucky that I was able to get a piece of art from her (the first pic in this section!) around the time of her passing. I will treasure it forever!

#3: Nick Cardy

There is something so charming about the way that Nick Cardy draws Garth! There's a simplicity and retro feeling to it that comes off as so fun! I don't know exactly what it is about his art, but it always makes me smile!

4: Mark Buckingham

Buckingham's style is like if "stretch and squash animation" was a static art style, and I LOVE it. It looks so funky and bouncy and expressive! It's one of those styles that I don't think everyone loves, but it really works for me and makes the comics extremely enjoyable to read for the art alone! It's not super polished and has some rough edge qualities, but that's precisely why I like it!

5: Lucas Meyer

Meyer is a newcomer in the scene of comics, but WOW! I am not immune to how gorgeous his art style is. I'm so happy that he's been named the ongoing artist for the current series! (Even if I can't get good writing, I'll at least take the nice art!) I think his style is so clean and pretty. I do wish that he went more "all-in" on expressions sometimes, as I do feel that his characters all look slightly generically pretty and don't emote particularly much. That said, the art is undeniably gorgeous, and he's already skyrocketed himself up onto my personal favorites list despite only starting with DC in 2022.

I do have a few honorable mentions as well, which include: Ivan Reis and George Perez.

There have been plenty of artists who did a great job, but these are my personal favorites! Thank you so much for the ask!

#Garth #Garth of Shayeris #Dan Says Shit

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bellaxgiornata · 4 months

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First, I want to wish you ( a little bit late however) a happy birthday!!! 🎂 🎂🥳🥳🎉🎉

I was busy and was only reading on your ao3 account, just got here and realized!

You are one of the two accounts that made me do a profile last September or October ( I don't remember exactly which one of these two months it was). I hope you're having an amazing pregnancy ( are you having nausea, did you have it already and it passed on the next stage or did you not have this effect? 👀, if you don't feel comfortable answering, that's totally fine, I understand) and I hope your hubby gives you princess/queen treatment like you deserve! 😌✨

Could I ask you how you post on tumblr? I want to post things like pictures or blurbs, but I have no idea how.

Do you also have tips on organizing time? I have a lot on my plate between uni stuff, looking for scholarships/opportunities and trying to have a life, that I have no stability and am very stressed.

To conclude this, I wonder how would traveling abroad on another continent be with either Matt or with Frank?

I definitely imagine that with Frank it'll be really nice. He'll always have everything planned and I see him informing himself as much as he could with knowledge to the max. He'll bring reader to museums or historical places. However, he could sometimes be paranoid or really almost always on alert. He's definitely a bodyguard boyfriend!

With Matt, I think I'll be hard on the way to go there ( either by plane or boat, it will be really noisy for him) . He could also be always stressed since he won't be able to understand the language spoken and might misinterpret things as threats. :( I don't see how reader and him could have a great time together...

What do you think?

Ahh thank you, friend! 💖 My birthday was actually back in October, but this celebration is sort of like a tumblr birthday! I've been here for just over a year now and it seems like a good cause for celebration! And I'm glad to hear I could play a role in you coming over here to tumblr as well! It's definitely fun being able to interact a lot more than on AO3!

Thankfully most of this pregnancy has gone pretty well in comparison to my previous with my first son. That one took place during COVID so it was isolating and I had 24/7 nausea and sickness. This pregnancy has had its issues, but thankfully everything has been working out in the end. I've only had a bit of nausea in the first trimester and then it comes and goes lately now, but honestly I'm just forever exhausted and uncomfortable being almost 36 weeks along now. And my husband is doing his best! We've got a toddler so this time around it's not always do-able to have quite that level of treatment, but he's very helpful and attentive!

For the rest of your questions, I'll answer them below the cut! Because this is quickly becoming long 😆

It's generally pretty easy to post on tumblr, whether you use mobile or a PC. There's usually a button somewhere that says create or something along those lines. And there's options to just write text or add in images or make polls, etc. If you sort of play around you should be able to see the different things you can do! You can always test out a post and see what it does and then delete it afterwards, too! I was a bit confused when I came here at first, but just playing around with everything had me realizing that it's pretty straightforward for most things!

As for tips on organizing time, I can share what helped me during the busiest phase of my life in my late 20s. I was in grad school for a couple of years while also running a wedding photography business while also planning my own wedding and trying to maintain my own social life and sanity. So I get the stress! What I found helpful was using some sort of calendar or organizer. I wrote down deadlines for things that were non-negotiable so that I could visibly see what was going on--days I needed to go photograph a wedding, days wedding photos were due to couples, when homework was due, what days exams were, or when projects/papers were due for grad school. Things like that that cannot be changed. Then I usually plotted out time to allot to each thing throughout the week and prioritized each one depending how long it would take/how soon I needed it finished. So I made sure I had time to work on editing photos every day to keep making progress on weddings (because I usually had a new one piling up more work about every weekend), and I usually allotted so much time throughout the week to work on schoolwork (because I was reading well over a thousand pages a week every semester). I felt like having the visual of a calendar allowed me to actually see where my time was being spent and how much time I actually had to get things done. And it made things feel a little less overwhelming and like I was more in control. And any extra free time outside of getting my work done was reserved for wedding planning of my own or doing something fun with friends or my now husband.

So for you, I'd say plot out when school things/homework/exams are due, when scholarships are due, and what days you have work (if you have to go into work). Then try to allot how much time you would need to get everything done and plan that into your days every week. Some weeks you may find that you don't have a lot of social time (I know I certainly didn't and that's rough), but unfortunately that comes with going to college. Unless you're like one of my friends who somehow skipped every class, winged every assignment, went out always partying, and somehow still got her degree. Still baffles me to this day... But generally, school is going to take up a lot of your time until you finish it. It's rough and I feel for you though ❤ Just make sure to take some mental breaks and don't overwork yourself. Allow yourself to say no to things you don't actually need to do as well.

Now onto the bit about Matt and Frank abroad!! And of course, these are just my thoughts on how I picture the two of them.

I do think of the two, Frank would be easier to actually travel with just for the fact that he wouldn't need as much accommodation since he does not have Matt's heightened senses or a disability, which would obviously add a layer into planning that a Reader/significant other would have to keep in mind when planning things with Matt. But to me personally, I still think experiencing traveling abroad with either man would be a fun experience for different reasons and I don't think Matt's need for extra accommodation would ultimately have a negative effect on a vacation, especially because I imagine he'd travel with a partner who makes him feel comfortable with who he is as a blind man dealing with the extra sensory input. Personally I think experiencing anything through Matt's senses with the way he 'sees' the world would fascinate me because I don't experience the world even close to the way he does.

That being said, with Frank I could see him having some things planned out, and in my mind I picture it being from his time spent in the military. He seemed to spend quite a few years in the service, which means he's done multiple tours to many different places worldwide, even if that means just passing through a country. But I'm sure he's visited a couple of interesting places on his own when he had free moments, whether alone or with his buddies, and I could picture him having a few places in mind he'd want to show Reader. But I could also see him having places in mind that he had heard about but never had the opportunity or time to go visit while he was abroad in the past because the military tends to keep you busy. So I'm sure there's places Frank would love to really explore. I could also see him being interested in the historical places, having read up on something that really stood out to him, but I could definitely see him interested in adventuring outdoors if Reader/his significant other was open to that. He definitely seems like he'd want to get out and explore the scenery and the sights and he probably wouldn't want to sit and relax too much on a vacation. And I agree, he'd have times where he'd absolutely be on alert. I think that's just how Frank is wired at this point, especially with loved ones.

As for traveling abroad with Matt, the actual getting to a different destination would be rough on him. Though we know in the MCU he's traveled to LA now because of his appearance in She Hulk, so canonically he's managed what I think is around a six hour flight. And from a brief check, it seems New York to certain cities within Europe would be a little bit longer of a flight by an hour or so. So, I think he could manage it, but I think it would be vastly unenjoyable because of his senses. And he'd absolutely need to accommodate for those. I also imagine he'd need time to decompress and recover after a flight like that before getting out and enjoying the vacation. Though I do think he'd have fun exploring restaurants and finding really great food to try, and I think he'd enjoy experiencing museums or art galleries whether there was a guided tour set in place for someone who is blind or visually impaired, or whether he got to experience things through Reader's descriptions. I think he'd still like to explore the city and visit historical sites, but I think Matt would really enjoy experiencing places that are probably a little less overrun with tourists and people that might overwhelm his senses. But also, getting Matt to stop being Daredevil for a bit and actually leave Hell's Kitchen might be hard 😆

#bellas 2.5k follower celebration #lots of questions here!!#but thinking about matt and frank abroad was fun!

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gardenerian · 1 year

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I know you've been on Shameless and Gallavich tumblr for a while and I was hoping you could give me some advice. I hope this doesn't sound too pathetic.

I'm a massive Shameless and Gallavich fan. I have been here for nearly a year and I feel very excluded. I really want to connect with the others in this community, but it's not working no matter what I try. I don't write, draw, make art or create gifs. I don't have any creations to offer and share. I know those types of things would get me some attention and for people to notice and interact with me. I like and reblog a lot of other people's posts daily. I leave comments on people's posts as often as I can to praise their work or to share my thoughts but I rarely get any responses from the person. I post random Shameless and Gallavich thoughts and head-cannons with tags but they rarely get many likes and no one ever comments to strike up conversation. I take part in the tag games and tag others, but week after week never get tagged to participate, but I participate anyway. Still, I never get comments on the stuff that I share about myself to let others get to know me. I have tried sending ask to people about things they have posted to strike up conversation, but I either never get a response or it's a one time response that doesn't go anywhere after that.

I suppose the gist is that I keep trying to strike up conversations to connect with the people in this community and it falls flat every time. I'm simply at the point where it makes me sad to come on here and to see how tight-knit this community is and how much you all interact with each other, hype each other's posts and make posts for and mentioning each other like on birthdays. I know you are part of an especially close group so it seems like you might be just the person to ask.

I'm not writing this as a complaint or to accuse anyone of anything. It's the opposite. I want to join in in this community and feel included. I want to no longer feel sad and ignored when I am on here trying to participate and interact. Like I said, I don't write or make art so do you have any tips about how I can get noticed and accepted into this community? I just want to make friends with all of you and finally feel a part of this community.

hi there 😭 i am so sorry you're feeling this way. wanting to connect is such a human thing, and it's not pathetic at all to reach out. i think it's great. so thank you for coming to chat with me about it, and i hope i can help ❤️

excluding people is never something i want to do. i want to engage fully and enthusiastically - i think we all do! and while there are so many ways to get involved, i do think engagement around here (on tumblr as a whole!) is different than it used to be. for me personally, i was on tumblr 24/7 for a long time, but now that i am working again, it's a little harder for me to be present as much as i want! it comes and goes in waves, really. sometimes i am tagged in things that i don't get to, sometimes i forget to respond to asks, sometimes i miss posts that go around during busy times. and sometimes i think i'm following people when i'm not! this happens to me a lot and it's super embarrassing 😭 and i think these kinds of things happen to just about everyone! sometimes we just can't be here the way we want, even if we love it. and we do love it! so much!

i'm glad you're participating! and i want to make sure that everyone knows that making or posting things is not a requirement to be here. there's no entry fee to enjoy fandom space. if you want to give it a try, please do! but you don't owe us anything; your presence is more than enough.

for me the answer was just to keep talking. i wish i had more direct tips, but i just have not shut up since 2019. people started talking back, but for a while it did feel like i was just talking to myself. i know you've been putting yourself out there, and it's really brave and wonderful. i hope you'll keep trying. there are people that will love you, and i'm sorry if i've missed you so far. i don't want you to feel sad here. if you feel comfortable, shoot me a DM! tag me in things! i will hype you up, i promise. i want to hear what you have to say, and i want to get to know you. there are friends here for you 💓 edit: join the discord if you can!

anyone else with tips is welcome to chime in.

#i really do mean it #i'm sorry you're feeling this way #i don't mean to overlook people and i don't think it's ever the intention for others #let's talk i am here for ya #mel answers

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separatist-apologist · 6 months

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Totally agree that nonprofit work is not really all it’s cracked up to be. I’m currently working in a position that college me would have thought was my dream job, and despite fully believing in the mission, the office politics and sexism can really drain away all enthusiasm for the work.

Fully understand how hard it is to walk away but I’m so glad you found another exciting opportunity. You deserve all the best and I hope this new job is everything you want. Also hope you have some time to decompress before you have to start! ❤️

Working for non-profits is sold to passionate, bright-eyed grads as working for a cause. They don't mention that the cause is capitalism dressed up like social justice. I don't regret my time at one, but I wish I would have known what I was getting myself into. Not that for-profits are any better, but they're honest, at least. Non-profits operate on shoe-string budgets and are designed to suck as much out of underpaid people (often who need the job in order to gain licensure, which they take advantage of) and then spit them back out, burned out and disillusioned while they continue the cycle.

It used to frustrate me that we spoke so often about ending cycles of violence for the community, when the community made up the non-profits staff to begin with. We could start ending those cycles IN our organization and instead upper leadership (who makes over 6 figures) created the most abusive atmosphere. On paper we'll say we respect transfolks, in the office people are endlessly misgendered and there is no accountability because its the CFO/CEO who are constantly doing it.

I thought becoming a manager would make me a more effective advocate for my staff and instead I sat in meetings where our CEO would tell us that she wanted our staff members to be scared and feel like they were being watched 24/7. I sat in board meetings where our lowest paid staff member (who was not making a living wage even in the Midwest where cost of living is low) was told she was greedy for wanting more staff members to help her fulfill a grant that tripled her caseload.

I think I did good things during my time here- I negotiated pay raises for my part time staff who were making $13 an hour when I started when both the fastfood place across the street AND the gas station advertised paying their staff more for a job that was a lot less traumatizing.

I expanded our programming and brought us into the vastly underserved, rural parts of the state where I grew up. And I kept my department consistently fully staffed by creating a culture in which (I hope) people felt respected and valued.

I still believe in the mission. I still think the work is important, necessary, and worthwhile. And I would never advocate for anyone to work in these places unless they absolutely had to. My advice will always be to stay just as long as you have to, and prioritize yourself first. Don't answer the phone when you're off work, don't take it home, don't let them put their deficits on you because they'll take and take and take and it'll just never be enough.

#anyway is this bitter? yeah a little #everything is bad under capitalism blah blah blah #but nonprofits are a particular brand of cruelty imo

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aelaer · 1 year

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Mental health/personal BS/the woes of experiencing major social anxiety as a loud-mouthed, opinionated extrovert

I shouldn't be unhappy. I have so many things to be thankful for. I'm not going to list them all here because I know there's people who are reading this who are going through troubles with the bottom two sections of Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs and it makes me feel bad to list my blessings when there's many here who are going through the bottom two issues, and if not the bottom two, then a big chunk of the middle section.

Thanks, verywellmind.com.

My problem is in the yellow section. The social anxiety still keeps me up at night. I have a strong sense of belonging in the real world, but in the online world, the smallest things just flatten me out and leave me wanting to delete everything I ever made and flee the internet because I'll never belong.

It took me about 3 years of therapy to get over not getting along with an online social group I was with for a year (that, ironically, turned out to be toxic) so it's not a surprise that two months later, I'm still upset with two community members blocking me with me not knowing what I did to upset them. I know there's a liberal "block" mentality on this website, but honestly? As someone who struggles heavily with social anxiety and not knowing if I'm saying things rightly? I detest it. I detest that it's normalized to assume someone's toxic and just block them instead of asking for clarification. I detest that everything is taken at a worst-case-scenario and that you're assumed to be a person of bad faith. I detest that communication -- especially as small a community as Doctor Strange-centric fans -- isn't encouraged.

I detest that I can't apologize for whatever upset them and trying to make it work out, or at least ending the relationship -- no matter how short it was, or how little was exchanged -- with closure. Because I'm a real person too, and when I see many mutuals interacting with people that have cut me off with no warning or ability to communicate, *it hurts*.

I know this is a me problem, that this is a "you take things way too personally" problem. I know that taking people blocking me straight to my heart is completely nonsensical. I know that most online relationships are pretty superficial.

But I wear my heart on my sleeve, and for the last 20 years, for as long as I've been on the internet, every block of an individual without communication or an individual that silently leaves to put their distance between us by unfriending/not communicating *hurts* as if I lost an entire community. And when I see many others in as small of a community as this fandom is on tumblr all communicating with one another and creating a group that I thought I'd be welcomed to, but I am not?

It makes me feel like I'll never belong in any community. I'm too brash. I'm too prickly. No matter that I try to be kind to individuals as people, the fact that I have strong opinions and that I welcome strong opinions will always ostracize me in some capacity.

But I don't want to change me to fit in, either -- I tried that in the past and it didn't work. My anxiety was on the edge 24/7, with me trying to say the right things all the time to just *fit in*.

But this idea that I'll never fully fit in because my brain is just too different, even in a fandom community which usually is open to those with large differences, just continues to make me feel like a freak of nature that will never fully belong, no matter how hard I try.

And I wish that it didn't hurt so damn much every time it happens.

#personal #mental health #the stress of work's just exasperated my stress online funny enough #i think of the stress of work and then just think of all my fears of communicating online

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cheriboms · 9 months

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BTTF Year-End Tag Game!

Thank you to both @bttf-dork and @future-boi for tagging me in this ;w; also pika ur comments about my art WAHHHH ILYSM <33 oTL

This year:

How many times would you guess you watched the first back to the future movie?

Since I only hopped on this time train towards the final third of the year lol: fully all the way through, at least 4! Otherwise I've jumped around a lot while looking for clips and references and stuff. So if I stitch all those together, then we'll say approx 5ish :) The first movie is my favorite one!

Did you get any sweet bttf merch? If so, what?

Noooo, I don't really have any merch for things I like, actually... it gives me too much anxiety to publicly show my interests ;w;

How many cans of Pepsi Free did you chug this year?

None LOL I don't really drink soda to begin with, but if I do, I prefer white (lemon lime) soda anyway :P

What was a favorite bttf fanfic you read this year?

I'm going to be honest, I... don't read fanfic very much. 🫣 I usually end up creating my own stuff (art/writing) when I have free time vs looking at other people's, which ik I need to get better at T_T So I don't have a loooot to rec... that being said I MUST shout out "Emmett's first weather expirement." by @alex-a-fans !!! <3 It is my greatest treasure of the year <333

I also really liked "incredible" by @penny-anna, which I read before I officially entered le fandom ;w; lone pine doc and baby marty my beloveds !!!!!

Finally, like basically all of the Doctober prompts from @doctorbrown *O* Days 8, 22, and 30 are some of my favorites, but I really recommend them all oTL theyre SOOO GOOOOOD !!!!!

A favorite bttf fanart you saw this year? (please give us a link, not a screencap/repost!)

See: everything I reblogged. Jk but fr, everyone is so so talented it's really hard to choose :'0 Here's a bunch of some of my faves in no particular order!!

Did you create any bttf fanart or fanfic? If you did, what one(s) are you proudest of?

Yes I did !!! It is actually the most fan content I've ever made for a fandom since I was in... maybe junior high? So like YUH. Tbh, it's very difficult for me to find what you would call 'pride' in my art so ehh >_>; that being said, I do think that I had a lot of good IDEAS for Doctober (esp days 19 and 28), but my execution wasnt really the best. I would have liked to draw days 17 and 24 (+ time travel day) a little more properly too; like, I'm not as disappointed at how they turned out, but I still wish they were better and/or I could have given them more time. The ones I most actually-tried-and-dont-mind are days 7, 9, and 21 + under the sea dance day. (So many links was probably cheating but tbf I've kinda bent the rules for the past few questions so... whatevs lol). I've ALSOOO still been working on my godforsaken essay, it is 40 pages rn but even tho it's not done, I'm INSANELY proud of it Q_Q

How many times were you late for school this year?

None! B) For one thing I'm graduated lol, but also I'm typically early gang. I'm that person who'd sit in the classroom by myself for like 5 minutes before everyone else would show up LMBO ^^;

Did you watch any other movies/tv shows with BTTF actors in them?

Yess I did!! A... lot actually :0 Most of them were by chance/pre bttf era, but still :P Here is my list as well as I could find, sorry it is soooo long, but what are ya gonna do:

Star Wars/The Mandalorian; The Addams Family (1991); The Tale of Desperaux (2008); Cyberchase; & Clue (1985) -- Christopher Lloyd, havent rewatched the latter 3 since I was a kid and literally went :0 to learn he apparently was in them. Also Kings Quest (2015) which isn't a movie/show but I think it counts uwu

Stuart Little (1999) -- Michael J. Fox, which also rocked my world to discover O_O like hearing it now I'm like "yeah thats him alright" but as a kid I would never have been able to tell you that was the same guy from that time travel movie, despite watching both way too much LMBO

Elf (2003) & Last Vegas (2013) -- Mary Steenburgen, nothing much to say except that she slayed ^_^

Love at the Christmas Table (2012) -- Lea Thompson, I didn't care for it and was shouting "LEA GET OUT OF THIS MOVIE, UR BETTER THAN THIS" like the whole time lol.

Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron (2002) & Curious George (2006) -- apparently these have Donald Fullilove (Goldie Wilson) in them? Same w Jason Scott Lee (Whitey) in Lilo & Stitch (2002)??? And Star Wars/Kenobi show apparently had Flea (Needles)????? ...HUH.

I binged both the entirety of Law and Order: SVU as well as Seinfeld this year w my sister; apparently Mary Steenburgen, Lea Thompson, & Casey Siemaszko (3-D) are in at least one episode of the former, while Elsa Raven (Clocktower Lady) and Ricky Dean Logan (Data) are apparently in a random episode of Seinfeld each. So like, technically I saw them, tho I don't distinctly remember it :'D Also, I have been making my way through Little House on the Prairie recently, which has Matt Clark (Chester the Bartender) in a few episodes !

Finally finally finally, I watched I Don't Feel at Home in This World Anymore (2017), as well as the LOTR trilogy like. Twice? And they all have Elijah Wood of course >:3c

Was there a memorable moment you heard a Huey Lewis song this year?

None in the wild, no :P But I did end up being in the top 0.1% of listeners for Huey Lewis this year... so UHHHHH take that as u will LMBO

How many times did you fall down this year?

Hmmm idk?? Probably at least 1 I would think ???

Did you get to see BTTF: The Musical? What was your experience like!

Nooo, I didn't even know it existed until like October !!! It looks super fun but atm/last I checked it doesn't come to where I live so :( I should listen to the soundtrack soon!

How many times did your mom retell the story of how she and your father met?

At least three times, and then probably a few times I'm forgetting :P

If you could describe your year in a BTTF quote, which one would it be?

The year in general is definitely "Oh great, the atrocity channel!" LMBO (but when hasn't it been since like... 2020? 2016???). For me personally, I think it's either "I don't know if I could take that kind of rejection." or "Don't talk to anyone, don't touch anything, don't do anything, don't interact with anyone, and try not to look at anything." ^^;

⚡️LIGHTNING ROUND⚡️ Did you get to: go on any trains, skate on a skateboard, ride a horse, drive a Delorean, run in the rain, go to a dance, hang up a clock, play the guitar, pull an all-nighter, read science fiction, or drive thru Burger King this year?

Your future is whatever you make it! So what are you going to make of this coming year?

I think I'm going to try to post more of the things I make, like my art and especially my writing ;w; Most of the time I'm quite George-ish and am too scared to put any of my stuff out there, for fear that no one will like it, so... I need to get better about that. Also I'd LIKE to get a full-time job and my own place some time next year, but we will see !!!

Idrk who to tag :0 ik @brinkle-brackle @mythical-bookworm and @alex-a-fans have already been tagged but havent technically done it yet... maybe also @backintime @tobytost @ectojester @stillpreoccupiedwith1985 @itsthemorph @doctorbrown @knickynoo and @fourth-dimensional-thinker :) but no pressure to do it, just didnt catch if youd been tagged or not!

#cherry tag games #back to the future #bttf-dork #future-boi #this took way too long to fill out LMBO #but im very happy to be included ;w;#so tysm !!! this was super fun :D

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