#i don't care about anyone but nelly.

[binah-beloved]

haven’t played canto 6 yet but if you want one of my supports let me know.

i've been stuck in this manor too long.

[hauntingjasper]

We are all afraid of something...

I wonder what Prince Gumball's biggest fear would be?

There's an episode (Five short tables I think) where it shows that he's afraid of dying alone/his own mortality to some extent. I imagine that because he's long-lived and most likely has watched many people die before him, he's scared that there won't be anyone else by *his* side when it's his turn. There's no way of knowing when or how, he wouldn't be ready for it, so that's probably double scarier for him. He's an anxious fella

[calliesmemes]

IN-CHARACTER QUOTES FROM DISCORD

UNHINGED SENTENCE STARTERS FEATURING THINGS SAID BY MYSELF AND MY FRIENDS WHILE WRITING AS OUR MUSES IN A CRACK-BASED NONCANON GROUP CHAT. This post is dedicated to Em, Liz, Tanny, Nellie, Mel, Ange, and everyone else in the server who recognizes these quotes — you know who you are 😈

CHANGE gendered words and in-universe phrases as needed.

SPECIFY muse for multimuses.

“   Have you forgotten that you should not steal someone’s property? ”

“   I could slap that smug look off his face right now! ”

“   Your ears are a lie. ”

“   Woah woah that's - that's a bad word. ”

“   I don’t know if it’s allowed and quite frankly I don’t care. Fuck the rules. ”

“   Time for gremlin activities! ”

“   I hate this man. Let's prank him. ”

“   We are all going on strike today I swear ”

“   Looks like I need to invest in a kid leash. ”

“   DONT BE COWARDS!! JOIN THE STRIKE!! ”

“   I support her saying what needs to be said! I am done with the silencing of women!!!! ”

“   I like the dramatics. ”

“   I did not ask for a second opinion. ”

“   You seem to be doing a great job at being a nuisance. ”

“   NO BITING MY EMPLOYEES! ”

“   do you want me to bring you cheese? ”

“   Next move, start chewing on the door frames ”

“   I like crumbs. They are like a little midnight snack in my bed at night. ”

“   if he wants to be a worm, LET HIM BE A WORM ”

“   the rest of you suck my toe ”

“   To be fair I am simply vibing. ”

“   I am going to commit a war crime! ”

“   I am manifesting being happy. ”

“   Am I gonna talk shit WITH you guys? because im down to talk shit about pretty much anyone ”

“   Who says? We shall revolt without question. ”

“   Let's just start burning stuff. ”

“   Did you just call me... small? ”

“   Can I convert you with my kazoo propaganda? ”

“   We were radicalised by The Little Mermaid. ”

“   Penny in the swear jar, now. ”

“   My last words are, bros before hoes. ”

“   The old men are trying to be trendy. ”

“   I can do whatever I want too! ”

“   Can we go one day without an interruption from an American? ”

“   I am so sorry. He enjoys conflict. ”

“   Why is he so tall? ”

“   For legal reasons, kids, that's a joke. ”

“   Would you like to fight the adults? ”

“   You're not meant to bite people, it's frowned upon. ”

“   He’s a fun killer, don't listen to him! ”

“   Ow! Stop kicking me! ”

“   I have quite literally begged you not to kick, hit, or bite today. ”

“   BUT I thought we were buds, pals, amigos, chums, friends. ”

“   Oh shiiiii someone’s in trouble ”

“   How much caffeine have you had in the last hour? ”

“   I'll be honest they wouldn't be so bad if they didn't speak. ”

“   Is this goof meant to be dead or what? ”

“   I am a witch. ”

“   This one reeks of self confidence when he clearly doesn't think before opening his mouth. ”

“  I call bullshit on that rule! ”

“   The point is I have a cane and I’m not afraid to use it. ”

“   If you slap me, I’ll cane you. ”

“   Yippee for women. ”

“   FUCK THE PATRIARCHY ”

“   Sorry for being British. ”

“   Oi who's playing that ominous music? ”

“   I'm strong because I eat carrots. Oh wait or is that to see in the dark.... it's for something. ”

“   I will say sorry when i'm caught, don't you worry. ”

“   AND YOU CALLED ME UP AGAIN JUST TO BREAK ME LIKE A PROMISE! ”

“   ... He's done for. Broken beyond repair. Someone play Taylor Swift. ”

“   Please refrain from punching one another. ”

“   He is becoming one with the spider I believe. ”

“   If anybody asks I will say I made you, then you will not get in trouble! ”

“   Can I be a girlboss too? I am not rude to women and I do what i like ”

“   Yippee for patriotism! ”

“   … i could make you guys rat costumes ”

“   Do you think if we started stealing bread we would lose our jobs? ”

“   why do British people ”

“   … you all need therapy. ”

“   Do you ever feel if you breathe the wrong way he will bite you? ”

“   I actively avoid whatever this is. ”

“   CARRY ME. ”

“   What if, and hear me out, they both promise not to do it again? ”

“   I wanna steal all his socks. ”

“   My socks were stolen! ”

“   Hey, watch it now. Only I'm allowed to insult me. ”

“   You couldn’t whisper to save your life. It’s pitiful. ”

“   Both of you are insufferable. ”

“   The law is overrated. ”

“   I’m afraid. Miss, you aren’t my type. ”

“   No. I swear on my life. I am being a gentleman ”

“   I support women’s wrongs. ”

“   ONE FOR ALL AND ALL FOR ONE!!! ”

“   GET YOUR ASS BACK HERE RIGHT NOW ”

“   He bites? Are you .. joking? Please say you're joking. ”

“   If you like piña coladas and getting caught in the rain ifyou're not into yoga if you have half a brain if you like makin' love at midnight in the dunes on the cape then I'm the love that you've looked for write to me and escape 🎶🎶 ”

[girl-named-matty]

Hogwarts Legacy characters and my first impressions of them pt.1

Semi-in order of when you meet them.

Eleazar Fig: Cool guy, seems to care a lot about me so that's nice.

George Osric: This guy is TOTALLY the villain. Why would he just come out of nowhere and be acting so weird and like he doesn't want anyone else to hear what he has to say? (LOL sorry George 💀We all know how that ended)

Ranrok: Naww who is this- DID HE JUST KILL THAT GOBLIN?!

Professor Black: Annoying. Annoying, Annoying, Annoying. GO AWAY.

Professor Weasley: She's awesome, super sweet, and she's in Gryffindor and I'm in Gryffindor so that's nice. Oh, wait a Weasley???

Cressida Blume: She's cute. Has cute freckles.

Nellie Oggspire: I need to be her friend IMMEDIATELY.

Garreth Weasley: Oh this guys a cutie--OH SHOOT HIS LAST NAME IS WEASLEY.

Natty Onai: Her name is Natty... and mine is Matty... We now we HAVE to be best friends.

Professor Ronen: Oh, he seems like fun!

Sebastian Sallow: Woah wait why are they fighting. OH SHOOT IS THAT GINGER KID ABOUT TO DIE- Oh, never mind. Was this guy allowed to do that? Is he gonna bully me? Should I be suspicious of him? Oh, well either way he's kinda cute.

Professor Hecat: Oh, she's cool.😎

Lenora Everleigh: So cute and has a very beautiful name.

Sirona Ryan: An absolute queen. Gave me free butterbeer and she seems really considerate of the other shop keepers. Oh and she defends me so yeah absolute queen.

Victor Rookwood: Uhh who is this guy? Oh shoot wait is he supposed to be another villain? His top hat is kinda goofy ngl. Also what kind of a threat is "Can't drink butterbeer forever?". I don't know whether to be intimidated or to laugh. Maybe both?

Theophilus Harlow: MY EYEESSSSSSS! 😭😭😭 (Sorry but he looks nasty)

Professor Garlick: OH SHE CUTEEEEEEE.

Leander Prewett: Oh I HATE THIS GUY GET ME OUT OF HERE!!! SEBASTIAN SALLOW SAVE ME. PROFESSOR GARLICK HELP. (I promise I have changed my ways and I now love him)

Professor Sharp: OoOooo he looks intimidating but he is very handsome.

Amit Thakkar: CUTIE RAVENCLAW!

Andrew Larson: ANOTHER CUTIE RAVENCLAW! (throwing him in here now bc I'll tell you guys I didn't even know he had a name until like six or seven+ months ago so I got my first impression of him online LOL)

Lucan Brattleby: This kid looks fire. He's my little brother now and nobody can stop me.

Eric Northcott: He hasn't said a single word yet I do not like him. (Sorry Eric girlies)

Ominis Gaunt (1): Why does this guy keep talking to me in the hallways. Is he mad at me? WHAT DID I DO?! Oh, shoot wait is he blind? CAN HE SEE WITH HIS WAND??? DAWG THIS IS AWESOME. also he's really pretty.

Richard Jackdaw: Why does he look and sound exactly like Garreth? Is this another Weasley I don't know about?

Madam Kogawa: She looks cool. Kinda intimidates me tho and I have no idea why.

Everett Clopton: His voice is kinda annoying and we got in trouble but he did teach me how to go super fast on a broom so I'll give him that much.

Deek: AWWW I LOVE THIS GUY!!

Ominis Gaunt (2): WHY DID YOU YELL AT MEEEEE?😭IM NOT GONNA TELL ANYONE ABOUT THE UNDERCROFT I SWEAR. 😭😭

Percival Rackham: Don't like him. I don't know why but I do not like him.

Professor Howin: ...is that dodo bird actually gonna attack me or are you just saying that-

Poppy Sweeting: Aww she looks cute. She is very small but obviously that doesn't stop her from defending beasts from bullies LETS GO! Oh also she's got a cool hippogriff friend!

Imelda Reyes: Oh, I am going to beat her time by a LANDSLIDE just because she said that to me. (rivals to lovers fr)

Lodgok: Oh he seems really nice for helping us but should I be suspicious of his connections to Ranrok?

Gladwin Moon: Saw this guy earlier and he was acting weird. And now I figure out it's because of some statues. Can this school get any weirder?

pt.2 coming soon 👀

[tumblydovereviews]

Primos Was Okay (And That's Okay!)

On Thursday, after over a year of controversy, delays, and pushback from the general public, Primos finally premiered on Disney Channel, to a surprisingly stable reception.

First of all, congratulations to the cast and crew for the premiere! For a show that was on such unstable waters just a year back, it's great to see that Primos has seen the light of day and not simply became a tax write-off.

As anyone involved in the animation community in June 2023 may recall, Primos' initial response was not great in the slightest, and for good reason. Based on solely the theme song alone, the show featured grammatical errors, unintentionally insensitive names, and was dismissed by others as Disney's cheap copy of The Casagrandes. Comments from cast members such as Tater's voice actor herself only added fuel to the fire. The show, initially set to drop in the fall of that same year, was delayed to January, then June as a precursor to the Big City Greens movie, and finally, July of 2024.

I personally didn't care for the Primos drama too much. Sure, I liked the theme song's beat and for a while it became an earworm, but I wasn't looking too closely at being a consistent viewer on the show. I was mixed on the artstyle, the characters, and the plot, which, while not awful by any means, weren't anything amazing as well.

But, with nothing else to do, I ultimately decided to view the first episode of Primos on YouTube the day after the big debut.

And, the show was serviceable.

The characters weren't annoying, and there were some moments that made me chuckle a bit. The songs were serviceable, and the themes on self-discovery are unique. But, ultimately, I don't see myself with any reason to really engage with this show outside of just watching a few episodes. The story of Primos is all there, but on its own, it's just there.

If there's any character I truly hated, it was Tater and Nellie's mother, Bibi. Knowing fully well she didn't have the time or effort to efficiently take care of twelve kids on top of her two daughters and baby son, yet inviting then over anyways for the sake of 'memories' instead of listening to her kids. No wonder they address her by her first name.

As for characters I liked, I honestly enjoyed the three most 'normal' Primos in my opinion: Lita, Scooter, and Lucita. They get along well and have acceptable personalities. I can especially relate to Scooter and his anxiety, as a person who gets quite nervous themselves sometimes. Also, shout-out to Lucita, who's deaf and actually communicates through ASL on the occasion. Deaf representation is lacking in media, and I love how this show is helping us move one step further in that regard.

I also enjoyed Nellie as a character as well; it is admittedly a but weird how she's an eight-year-old with a Luisa-deep voice but her chemistry with Tater is great.

As for Tater herself, she's okay. She server her purpose as the disgruntled almost ten-year-old trying to find herself. Nothing too much or too little. I can relate to her in the sense of needing peace and quiet away from cousins; my cousins actually moved into my own house temporarily last year for a few months,

i talk about characters a lot in this show, because I believe that it's Primos' best achievement. In a way, each of the characters work off of Tater in their own way, keeping the show fresh and upbeat, but not being afraid to scale things back when needed. I thought that the Primos would act as nothing but plot devices whose only merit is to ruin Tater's life, but, thankfully, that's not the case.

Now, what about this show being mediocre? It can't be all that good, right?

Well, like I said before, the animation and art designs are not my favorites. I can't push back too much since the rough, earthy tone translate into the series as a whole, but personal preference is also a factor. The music and songs, while good for what they are, don't add anything too much to the series and I personally would have preferred if this show wasn't a musical al all; Disney Channel admittedly has plenty of those nowadays.

And, that essentially encapsulates my feelings on Primos as a while. On its own, it works for what it has, but compared to shows with similar plots such as The Loud House, it only holds a candle compared to the latter's sun.

And, you know what? That's okay. If anything, it's a miracle that a show detested so much by the general public during its initial preview became nothing but a mediocre addon at worst.

Maybe I'll tune into a few more episodes to fully solidify my thoughts on this show. But, for now, I'll only be an occasional onlooker exploring the world of Tater Ramirez Humphrey and company. I'm okay with that, and I'm sure you'll be okay too.

[honey-and-sims]

.・゜゜・𝘢𝘯 𝘦𝘹𝘦𝘳𝘵 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘥'𝘴 𝘥𝘪𝘢𝘳𝘺 ･ﾟﾟ･｡

Dear Diary,

I have been spending much of my time with Beth and Ozzy lately; I'm hoping to get Ozzy to be more comfortable around me. He was still a bit uncertain whenever I walked through the front door every morning and it would take him awhile to warm up to me. But, today, I think my daily visits have officially paid off!

My little boy walked right over to me, giggling and smiling as he neared where before he looked so timid, and said in the sweetest voice, 'Mum! Mum!' with the biggest smile on his face. I nearly wept with joy and when I looked over at Beth's face, I know she felt it too.

During most of my visits, Ozzy and I have been practicing learning more words while Beth stays nearby, usually busying herself with her knitting or reading. It doesn't seem like it now because he's so little but someday sooner than I liked, we'll be sending him off to school and I want him to have a better education than Lawrence or I had.

Most of the time though, it seems he is more interested in playing than learning.

Winter is approaching rather quickly and from what Lawrence tells me, it seems like it will be a harsh one. He spends most of his time in the field these days trying to prepare but even though he tries to hide it, I can tell he's running himself ragged. I worry about him very much.

Despite how cold and windy it's been though, we've all been trying to savor every remaining warm day. When the weather proves well-enough, Beth and I have been taking Ozzy to explore the bramble wood. He's a curious little boy and I love watching him discover things.

I can tell though that Ozzy's favorite days are the ones where Jackson can join us and brings his granddaughter, Nellie, along to play too; his son is studying to become a medical doctor so Jackson and Louise take care of Nellie often, which makes me feel sad for her sometimes.

She's a sweet little girl but she's a few years older than Ozzy and doesn't like to share. More often than not, they will start arguing over a toy and won't let up until an adult steps in to calm the situation. I worry about this sometimes and how it will affect the way Ozzy thinks he can treat this little one growing within my belly.

I am happy he has a friend though. It warms me up to hear him laughing, and I don't think anyone gets him smiling quite like Nellie, and it is sweet to watch them chase each other through the fallen leaves.

It does make my heart ache sometimes though, that in the moments where Nellie hurts my poor Ozzy's feelings, he still seeks Beth out for comfort over his Mother. And even though I try my best to hide it, Jackson still noticed my long face and asked what was troubling me.

After I rambled on for awhile, he confessed that he supposes if I only asked Beth, she would come help me raise Ozzy.

At first, I was hesitant to truly believe it, it feels like I'm yoking her with my troubles too much already. But he reassured me that Beth always wanted a large family after being the oldest of eleven girls and being with my little family helps with the lonesomeness she has now that her husband has passed on.

.・゜゜・𝘢𝘯 𝘦𝘹𝘦𝘳𝘵 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘩'𝘴 𝘱𝘳𝘢𝘺𝘦𝘳 𝘫𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘢𝘭 ･ﾟﾟ･｡

The Baudelaire's have asked me to move in with them to help take care of little Oscar. How I fretted over the day when I would have to part from the little one and now, I won't have to.

Oh, how relieved I am! So many nights I prayed for God to light the path and guide me through my worry of being alone once again, and He has answered my prayer with his His love!

I could not find the strength to ask, but in his wisdom, he passed it onto Winifred and I am so grateful for that.

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[artemis-melody]

things to do instead of scrolling

ask chatgpt for a prompt and write a poem/essay/story! This is soo much fun

read and annotate a new book! I love using sticky notes and pastel highlighters, it gives you so much more insight on the book

write a letter to your past self! talk about stuff that's changed and how you feel about it

get any assignments or your homework done early, ik you hoes are too lazy for this but try

go for a hot girl walk w music, like I love Catwalking down my street blasting lady gaga, nelly furtardo, and britney!!

bake with music!! making cinnamon rolls and listening to smth cozy is so fun ong

take a longgg everything shower and do your skincare after, I love taking care of myself <33

paint or crochet something small! there are tons of ideas on pinterest. If you can't already try learning it!

clean your room or your cabinets, maybe listen to music while doing it

make new outfits in your room, mix n match try on your shoes, and new hairstyles

go hang out with your friends or your pet! this is soo amazing

just blast music and dance in your room, don't gaf about anyone else

read the newspaper and write about your opinions!! If you're a psycho argumentative bitch like me you'll love this :))

give yourself a mani-pedi at home, just make a soak, then file, and use lotion

[nells-universe]

(⚠️pokemon irl / rotomblr blog, unreality warning!!⚠️ read ooc before interacting!!)

hii hello!! my name is nellie but you can call me nell :) im a girl and im 15!! i have audhd too so umm please be nice

i became a trainer last year but i finally wanted to set out on a journey, and im trying to become the champion!! i love aliens and cryptids and i really want to prove that they're real!! mostly because people still don't understand beheeyem!!

please take me seriously.

MY TEAM!!!!

peridot — espeon — my partner pokemon and best friend!! she loves going exploring with me and sleeping in the sun :D

bixbite — beheeyem — the first pokemon i caught in the wild (when she was still an elgyem!!) she's very curious and likes to follow me around!!

sapphire — boldore — my main battling pokemon!! i found her when i first moved to unova!! she's very affectionate and excitable!!

vivi — eevee — non battler and emotional support pokemon!! she has super cool fur and she's very soft!!

i also have an egg!! no idea what itll be but i hope to take good care of it!!

//OOC UNDER CUT

[also check out pokemoncryptids THEYRE VERY COOL AND INSPIRED ME A LOT!!!]

asks / anons!

musharna mail / malice is off!

pelliper mail is on!

magic anons are off!

in-character anon hate is on!

basically anything else that you can think of is on!

dni / boundaries:

- don't send me any asks that have romantic or sexual implications. this includes sexual humor, joke flirting, or anything similar. i don't care if it's a joke, it makes me very uncomfortable

- if you're gonna be a jerk you can just. leave. i don't need to put up with that 🫶 don't call anyone cringe, and don't bring that stuff onto my blog

- pokemon are treated very similarly to animals here, so don't sexualize them. don't be weird.

tagging guide / content warnings

#pkmn irl resources— reblogged tips and resources for making a rotomblr rp blog

#ic vent— in character vent posts

#blog boosting— new blog intros, reblogging for engagement

#non rotomblr blog— i'll occasionally reblog posts where OP isn't a rotomblr user, this tag is just so people know they aren't involved in any sort of RP

#pokemon pics— ...pokemon pics

- there will be a lot of references to illness, hospitals, or other medical related things. this is all tagged under the general tag of #CW: medical

- this blog will be fairly low stakes for now, but i do plan on making a bigger story for it! all potentially triggering things will be tagged with #CW: [thing], tell me if you need anything tagged or if i forgot something!!

other / about me!

- nell uses she/her, but when referring to me (the mod,) use they/them or he/him!

- i'm autistic and i have adhd! there might be interactions that seem awkward or unnatural, so please try and be patient with me ^_^

- pokemon is my primary special interest, and cryptids come pretty close!! i'm less interested in the supernatural side of them (mothman, jersey devil, etc.) but i do love aliens!! a lot!!

[ all likes and follows come from @.peridotporygon ]

[you-poopin]

from @nilesdaughter since my ask box wasn't open, even though I opened it? Anyway, song #13 is Who's Afraid of Little Old Me? by Taylor Swift, which was very hard to fit with Vaxleth Royalty AU, but I did my best! Enjoy!

Enjoy a look into the future of my Royalty AU (which is started here: A Glimpse of Light In A Mine of Gold - Chapter 1 - Dragon_Princess - Critical Role (Web Series) [Archive of Our Own])

The Asylum Where They Raised Me

“Is it always like this?” Vax asked the princess, who had all but collapsed against the railing when they stepped out onto the balcony. 

It was their first official appearance at a Ball as a engaged couple outside of Zephrah. Keyleth had been excited earlier in the day, flitting about and fussing with her gown and her tiara (things she normally didn't worry too much about, but she was worried about making sure everything went perfectly), chatting a mile a minute, and helping Vax remember all the names of the people they could bump into. 

Keyleth dragged her eyes up to meet his. Her face was flushed, but not from embarrassment or even the cold, just pure irritation. “Yes, it's always like this. It's terrible.” It was loud and people asked too many questions, people were looking at her, at them, and she hated it.

Vax stepped closer to her, taking note that they were still in clear view of the other party goers and unlike Keyleth’s father, most had strong ideas of what constituted as proper. And strong ideas about a princess courting a bastard. He didn't want to risk making Keyleth’s life any harder for doing anything deemed untoward by a nosy Nelly.

“Usually after the formalities, if he was invited, Percy and I would hide in the corner and everyone would leave us alone for the most part.” Keyleth continued, turning around so she could look over the forest and stars. Her hands held onto the railing. “But I guess I can't do that anymore.”

The de Rolos had not received an invitation to this particular Ball, and even if they had been, Percy was awfully busy doting on a rather heavily pregnant Vex in Whitestone. 

“Is this the first Ball you've been to without him?” Vax asked, his hand hesitating before settling on her forearm gently. The wind blew gently and sent the layers of Keyleth’s amber colored gown fluttering against his leg. 

Keyleth nodded. Percy was her dearest friend, her lifeline for the longest time. He was like her in all the ways many others didn't understand. She was safe when he was around. “Yes. Outside of Zephrah anyway. And now… now we're adults and I can't…” she took a shaky breath and tightened her grip on the railing. 

“Can't what, love?” Vax asked softly. 

“I can't do this!” Keyleth shouted suddenly. 

“Woah, woah, KiKi…” Vax said, stepping close enough to wrap his arms around her, not caring at all who might see. 

“No!” Keyleth yelled, writhing out of his grasp. Vax stumbled backwards, eyes wide, hands raised in front of him, palms toward Keyleth. “I can't do this, Vax! I can't do any of this! I feel like I'm going insane! I was raised for this life, to be a princess, and there's so many rules, especially now that I'm grown and… I'm in constant fear I'm going to do something wrong, upset my father, disgrace him, or something. I don't… it's so hard. And someday, I will be in charge of an entire kingdom and I can't do it!” 

“You can,” Vax said. “Keyleth, you can.” 

“I can't!” She shouted again, tears gathering in her eyes as the wind picked up around them. Clearly this had been festering for some time. “You wouldn't understand! You have no idea how different and wrong I am! You have no idea what it's like to be raised for a job you know won't be any good at. I shouldn't be a princess and I certainly shouldn't be anyone's queen.” 

“You're right, Keyleth,” Vax said gently. “You're right, I have no idea what it was like to grow up in a big castle all alone. I have no idea what it would be like to be raised to lead a kingdom someday. I won't pretend I have any idea what it's like, because that would be lying, and you know I never lie to you.” 

Vax could hear murmuring from the open door to the ballroom behind him, over Keyleth’s heavy breathing and the music still playing. He could only imagine what people were thinking; a crying, wild looking princess and her betrothed on a balcony, him looking for all the world like he was trying to calm a wild animal. He didn't care, not really. Keyleth meant more to him than nosy nobles, far more. And nosy, judgy nobles he did know a thing or two about. 

“I do know this, KiKi; I know that you are a kind, incredible, caring person. I know how capable you are. People can be terrible, my love, that I know as well. People will judge you for anything and anything you do. People will talk and gossip and complain about your ideas, your outfit, your dreams. But you're the strongest person I know. And you shouldn't care what others might think of you. You're perfect as you are.”  

The wind that had picked up around them slowed and Keyleth's lip trembled.

“You have to do what makes you happiest, what you believe in, and you will be a fantastic queen. I believe in you.” 

Keyleth threw herself into Vax's arms and he held her close, rubbing his hand up and down her back. She grabbed the back of his fancy jacket into her fists and cried into his shoulder. 

He didn't care who was looking when he pressed a kiss to her temple. “I've got you, my love. I've got you.” 

[onestormeynight]

Winterfest

<<You promised you'd come>> <<I never said I wasn't coming, I said let me finish this chapter.>> <<And how long will that take, Grumpy?>> <<I'll be delayed by an hour and a half tops. Please take a breath.>> <<Mom will drag you over if you don't come willingly.>>

Nellie rolled her eyes and took a long puff of her cigarette. Ida was working herself into a tizzy for nothing. Nellie said she'd show up for the holiday, she'd show up for the holiday. Not that anyone cared she wanted to be alone, it was about their feelings, not her. Though, according to her counselor, this was healthy for her. She just had to trust him on that.

Ida had spent the night before and morning of preparing for her first holiday dinner with the family. This year she'd offered to host so her mother would have less to worry about. She just wanted her parents to relax and enjoy this year. It was a great moment for everyone to meet Hans as well.

Eventually everyone started to arrive.

Nellie did eventually arrive much to the shock of Ida.

"I don't know why you're fussing so hard, Pushy," Nellie said. "I said I'd come, have I ever let you down?"

"You bail on Mom and Dad all the time!"

"But have I ever let YOU down?"

Ida chewed vigorously on her bit of turkey before dramatically conceding that no, Nellie had never let her down.

Once everyone was pleasantly satisfied with in their bellies, Ida ushered everyone to the living room for gifts.

"Look at our girls thriving," Rosie said to Robin once everyone was mingling again. "Ida did such a great job with this house."

"She did a great job cooking, too," Robin said. "She gets that from you."

"At least she got something from me; that girl is almost entirely you."

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[mostofthingsmostofthetime]

I finished the second episode of Heartstopper last night (wanted to post about it yesterday, but I was too tired from work), so here are some of my thoughts in no particular order for you now.

Good on Nick for checking up on Charlie after what happened. I found it odd, though, that he seemed more emotional about it than Charlie, but I guess they're in two very different places, mentally. One being 'why do I seem to like this guy way more than my other friends?' & the other being 'omg stop being so nice to me, your straight!' lol. Plus, I get that everyone deals with stuff in their own way & poor Charlie is probably so used to being mistreated that he might just be repressing the full weight of how his feeling as a copeing mechanism. It was also probably very cathartic to finally tell someone everything that happened between him & Ben (as I'm guessing he kept most if not all of it a secret from his friends & sister).

WE FINALLY MEET NELLIE!!!! And she is as cute as I'd hoped (though for some reason I expected her to be a different colour).

Sorry, Charlie, but Tori's right. Your hair looks exactly the same. Also, love that they kept the gag from the novel about her scaring him with her, always showing up suddenly without warning.

Nice to see that the outfits are on point for our boys so far with the plaid/black jeans (trying to impress someone, I see Charlie) & T-shirt/joggers (also what product is Miss Nelson using coz Nick's tops look soft as hell).

Wait, what season is it supposed to be because it looked really sunny when Charlie was walking to Nick's house (I know he was wearing a coat & hat but Charlie is always cold) but then suddenly it's snowing? Idk when Alice first came up with this story, but as a Brit, I haven't seen proper full on Snow since I was probably around eight years old. But hey, maybe in the Heartstopper universe, global warming doesn't exist.

I don’t care what anyone says, I will never get the fun of a snowball fight. If I go somewhere with a friend & they start throwing stuff at me, I'm leaving! Also, picking it up with your bare hands? One, it's been on the ground 🤢, and two, where are your gloves? Do you not feel the cold? Snow angles do look fun until I think about how my entire behind would be frozen/damp. Sorry if that makes me a "stick in the mud", I don't care 😝.

Damn, that is one photogenic dog & and aww, they already look like a couple. Also, give it up for Nick's freckles, the real star of the show 👏.

Omg, being in the same group as someone you hate must be so hard, but I get why Nick can't really say anything about what Ben did, at least not right now. Also, what is up with that Imogen girl? Mind your damn business.

I think it's good we get to see Elle longing for a bond with other girls that she just can't get from her male friend group. Makes her transition feel more fleshed out (for lack of a better word), you know?

Yay, we finally meet Tara & Darcy & they're exactly how I thought they'd be (except I imagined Darcy with brown hair for some reason). Ooh I didn't know Elle was artistic. I wanna decorate pencil cases now. Tara's pink puffa coat is so cute. What is up with adults dictating how long kids' hair can be? Like who gives a fuck! Also "gal pals" had me 😆.

Oh, thank god, it's just misinformation. For a second, I thought Tao was making shit up just to make Charlie get over his crush. Are kids really like that, though? I can't imagine kissing someone once & having people insist, I'm madly in love with them to this day, like move on already.

Ok, I officially really like the gay teacher, lol.

Love Charlie's sweater & Nick's coats are also very nice. Where are these kids getting their clothes? Coz I'm embarrassed by most of the stuff I wore as a teenager.

The big hoodie moment should be cute, but I just can't help thinking about how skinny Charlie is, which makes me ☹️.

Ok, so I didn't care much for the leaf animation in the first episode, but omg, the little fire crackles when Nick was trying to hold Charlie's hand? Screaming, crying, throwing up!!!!!!! & the hug before he left? Fucking crops watered for life, bitch!

Was digging Elle's outfit, very 70's vibes.

Ah, so their "secret" is out. Also obligatory: 🗣 LET'S GO LESBIANS LET'S GO 🗣

Can't wait for the next episode, but I practically passed out after watching episode 2 (manual labour is hard, kids 😭), so maybe I hallucinated, but did that Imogen girl ask Nick out? I thought she was daiting Ben? Or is that a different girl?

PS. I found out Aled won't be in the show, which I accept & the only reason I haven't talked about Isaac is because he hasn't really done much yet

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Till Death Do Us Part | Chapter 7 |

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Summary: As a result of Daryl's actions, Eddie comes to your defense. Pete causes the divide of Alexandria.

Warnings: language, use of guns, blood, typical twd things

Word count: aprox. 3K

Tags: @bigbaldheadname @daryldixcnswife @alanamarie @suniloli @fuseburner

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Typically at this hour you would be wrapping up whatever duty it was you were performing for the day. But after today, your only desire was to be home and not have to put on the facade of being a brave leader. And deep down you knew your temper was too on edge right now to face anyone. Besides, you wanted to use up fresh harvest while you could before it was back to cans, jars, and dried things. So, you did what you loved, cooked. But right now even that was proving to send you to your ends.

Daryl still hadn’t shown after your “talk” in the garage, it worried you that he wouldn’t show at all. Especially once he finds out about the words you shared with Rick. Maybe he was too wrapped up with that stupid fucking bike to realize the time. It was an attempt to reassure yourself but it didn’t work.

Stupid fucking bike, stupid fucking Rick Grimes, stupid fuck-, a sharp inhale left your lips as you watched the knife slide through the tip of your finger and not the potato.

Stupid fucking you for keeping the knifes so sharp.

You tossed the knife out of frustration, turning to run your finger under water, washing the blood that was oozing down. You tried to calm yourself, gripping the edge of the sink with your free hand. The pain in your finger grew, now throbbing with sharp stings. The overwhelming frustration you had been bottling all day was spilling over as hot tears blurred your vision.

You just wanted to keep your family safe. You wanted the boys to be safe, you promised Lizzie they would be. You wanted your husband to stand loyally by your side, just like Tommy has done. You just wanted to cook dinner.

“Y/n?”

Celia and Nellie rushed to your aid, both pulling their attention to different things. “Let me see” Celia turned to water off, grabbing a towel to wrap your finger. “What’s wrong?” Nellie asked close by your side. As you were about to speak, Tommy and Henry joined the kitchen, had been coming home from their day. “Rick, he wants to take Alexandria.” A deep breath left your chest, relieving yourself of the stress you’d carried all day. “And two guns are missing from the armory and I-I don’t think Daryl’s siding with us.” A sob almost slipped but you attempted to calm yourself as you didn’t want to be an emotional mess in front of the eyes of this many.

Silence hung over the room for a mere second, the two brothers glanced at each other before Tommy proudly spoke, “We can take care of it.” Just as you knew, undoubtedly loyal. “I already talked to Rick.” Celia walked with you over to the dining table, telling Nellie to go grab her first aid kit. “I don’t want a fight or a-a war. I don't want what we had to do before. I just-“ “It ruins all of our plans Y/n” Henry interrupted, “I know.”

As you conversed and spilled everything you had known to be true of that matter, Nellie ran into her brother, sneaking in through the back door in another attempt to avoid you. “What are you doing?” Nellie asked, startling the man. “What are you doing?” Eddie shot back noticing the first aid kit in her arms, receiving a glare at his childish response. “Y/n” Was all she replied, Eddie could see the stress hinted on her face, “What’s going on?”

Though your last words to your brother had been in anger, that didn’t mean he cared any less for you. “Well,” Nellie waved the first aid kit in her hand, “She cut herself while cooking but," She was hesitant to continue, not knowing if you wanted Eddie informed. But now she felt cornered, knowing there was no way of avoiding it. "She said that Rick wants to take Alexandria, and at the moment, Daryl’s on his side or that's what she thinks.” Unintentionally Eddie’s head drew back, how dare he? was the first thought shooting through his mind.

Daryl and Eddie had gotten into countless fights, verbal and physical, in the time of their lifelong friendship. Whether that was fighting over games as children or whether that involved you and Daryl's relationship in the first place.

"Where are you going!?" Nellie whispered with a harsh voice watching her brother begin to slip his way back out the door. "Imma take care of it." Ignoring Nellie beckoning him to come back, begging him to not make it worse. But he slipped away with every intent to prove to everyone that he was just as loyal and trustworthy as the rest.

"Had a visit from someone earlier." Rick stood where sleeping bags and pillows were once piled in the common area. Carol sat with her hands crossed over her clothed khakied knee, Maggie sat on the couch, and Michonne leaned on the closest wall. Rick's hands rested on his hips, as usual when he stood like this, "Y/n knows bout' Pete, she follows Deanna, won't do anything about it." Michonne rolled her eyes, she had grown tired of Rick constantly nagging about Jessie and Pete. She understood his intentions were good but had noticed a line constantly being crossed.

"Knows bout' everything."

Maggie never agreed with Rick's "plan" in the first place. Over these past two weeks she had grown to genuinely enjoy your company, along with your family. After losing the last of her blood family, she just wanted peace with her husband, as did you.

“We’re not gonna let this stop anything, alright? We’re not gonna let anyone make us weak. We-“

“The hell you doin’ man?”

Daryl’s low and gruff voice disrupted Rick’s brewing speech. Daryl stood not far behind Rick, his hunter abilities giving him a silent entrance. His clothes were dirty from working on his bike, though that was quite typical of him, but his chest was slightly puffed from anger. Daryl allowed, what he felt, enough time to pass for your talk with Rick before he even thought about making his way over. But he didn’t know he’d walk into what he had now.

Daryl thought Rick had stopped, he thought once Rick knew his “brothers” family was here, he wouldn’t want to take Alexandria anymore. He could insult himself for being so blind to what had been going on right in front of him. Perhaps he had gotten weak, gotten just a little bit too comfortable in your embrace.

“Daryl, I was gonna talk to you alone, I-“

“Ain’t nothin’ to talk about.”

If there was one thing Daryl drew a very fine line with, it was you.

Rick’s chest heaved with a sigh, “She threatened to cut my head off.” Rick could almost laugh at the memory, was wasn’t humorous was the seriousness hidden behind your eyes. “Yeah?” Daryl changed his position to stand in front of the man. Maggie and Michonne exchanged a knowing glance, “And I’d let her.”

Though this had been a thought in Rick’s mind, it wasn’t playing out the way he intended. But how could he expect Daryl to react about proclamations being made about his beloved wife?

“I’m doing this for my family. For Judith, Carl. For our group, our family. You said it yourself Daryl, we all deserve a place like this after everything we went through. But we gotta make it stronger.”

Daryl shook his head, “Nah. You got yer family and I got mine.” With that Daryl left with a scoff and a slam of a door, leaving the room silent.

Daryl returned to Aaron’s, going to clean up the mess he’d left behind. As Daryl pulled the garage door closed, he heard heavy footsteps behind him. He turned expecting Rick but was roughly shoved back by his childhood best friend. “The hell you doin’?!” Daryl yelled, returning the harsh shove. “What do you mean the hell?” Eddie shot back, repositioning himself from his slight stumble back. “Why you shovin’ me?”

A couple Alexandrian’s walked by, shooting the men odd glances. By now, most people had learned to shake their heads and keep walking.

“I walked her down the aisle to you and you’re gonna betray her like this? Choosing some fake fucking family over her?” Eddie spat at Daryl who couldn't hide the utter bewilderment on his face.

“You don’t know what the hell yer talkin’ about!”

The two men looked like they did when they were boys, pushing and shoving, calling each other names, and throwing insults. Aaron came out from his home and stepped in, not wanting a brawl in the middle of his driveway. "Alright alright." Aaron coaxed, "Eddie go, please."

After Daryl sat with Aaron and took time to calm down, that's when he returned home to you. A pang of guilt burrowing in his chest.

When he slipped into the shared bedroom, you were lying on his side of the bed with your back to the door. No covers lay on your frame, showing Daryl that you had simply come to lie down but fallen asleep in the process. The length of your hair was in a loose braid, something Nellie must have done.

She had picked up this habit in moments of comfort or silence. She always loved playing with your hair or Cecilia's even when you were children. Her hair never quite reached your lengths and thickness, a constant reminder that she inherited your mother's thinner hair. Opposed to your father's dark rich curls.

Daryl glanced down at his attire, stained with dirt and his hands with grease. He did as he used to, showering before he came to you. When he returned from showering, you were no longer on his side of the bed. You laid on your side, once again with your back to him, now wearing your silky nightgown. It told Daryl exactly what you wanted it to tell him. You were upset and you weren't giving in so easily.

He slowly lay down beside you and wrapped his arm around your abdomen. You could feel the hesitation in his touch. He knew he had to try to talk to you, to explain himself but he didn't quite have the words. "M'sorry. I'm with you." That was all he could say. He didn't expect it to be enough for you, he didn't expect you to roll over and shower him in forgiving kisses.

You remained silent but brought one hand down to hold his hand in yours. It wasn't much but it was enough for him. "I love ya." Daryl planted a soft kiss on your shoulder before making himself comfortable.

The rest that engulfed the two of you wouldn't last very long. It was soon to be interrupted a few hours later when the streets of Alexandria were empty and the only thing lighting them was dying street lights and dimly lit porches.

You were awoken by Cecilia flinging your bedroom door open, herself wearing her own silky robe and pajamas. At first, you were so startled you didn't quite hear what she was saying, too focused on your heart beating rapidly. She repeated her words more urgently and that's when it clicked, "Jace and Luke!" That was all you needed to hear to jump out of bed, following her out of the house and through the streets.

Daryl was farther behind you, shouting something about putting something else on. You didn’t care for anything he had to say, though maybe he was right. Your nightgown was slightly sheer, showing every bit of your tattoos and scars.

A group had formed in front of the Anderson home, “Jace, Luke!” You shouted approaching the scene, Daryl close behind you. You rushed to the boy's aid noticing their once-perfect faces bruised and bloodied. “Oh god” You muttered, Jace’s cheek was swollen, along with his lip that was busted and freshly red with blood. “Show me.” You demanded from Luke, who held a cloth to his nose. His nose was bruised and bleeding, leaving streaks of dried and fresh blood streaming down his lips and chin.

Your eyes met Tommy's, the worry and anger burning into his features. “Who did this?!” You shouted, whipping yourself around to face the crowd. Your hair followed along with you, only the ends now still being held in the braid, long pieces falling along the frame of your face.

Cecilia examined the boys along with you, Cecilia telling Luke that his nose wasn’t broken. Your eyes landed on Carl, who stood to your right with Rick and Michonne. He didn’t have any visible damage besides his hair being tousled and clothes misplaced.

Ron stood with Pete and Jessie, looking as if he had taken a few hits himself.

The thought crossed your mind that the young boys simply had a brawl in the street. For what reason? You didn’t know but it wouldn’t come as a shock.

Henry and Eddie were already there with Tommy. Cecilia had woken them up first and they were out the door in an instant.

“What is going on here?!” Deanna rushed to the scene, Reg tying his robe as he followed behind her. Everyone stood in some sort of sleeping attire, having been woken up in the dead of night for this. Some Alexandrians in the surrounding homes stood on their porches or peered through cracked curtains.

"He hit Luke!" Jace pointed a finger at Pete.

“No I didn’t! That kids a fucking liar!”

“You’re a fucking liar!” Carl yelled back at Pete, defending his friend.

“Carl!” Rick.

“Dad!” Carl again.

Deanna took a step forward, "That's enough. Luke, what happened?" In an instant, all eyes were on him awaiting an explanation. Despite the anger that raged within you, you could see Luke cowering away behind you. You reached back and grasped onto his hand, holding his arm closely by your side. You took a deep breath, taking a moment to regain your composure. You felt Luke's hand shaking in yours, and you gently squeezed it in reassurance.

"Me, Jace, and Carl were walking home, and when we...walked by Pete was sitting on the porch. He started saying things to us and then got in my face so I said something back and then he hit me."

Luke took a pause, "And then Jace started yelling and Ron came outside and he and Jace started fighting and then Carl jumped in."

Luke's words were stuttered and frantic, his eyes darting between you and Tommy. "He was saying things about Y/n and Dad," Jace added, who stood protected behind Tommy. You shifted on your bare feet uncomfortably, your eyes adverting to the ground impulsively as you rubbed your thumb along Luke's hand.

You were unsure now if you were holding his hand to provide comfort for him or yourself.

Deanna let a deep sigh escape her lips and with a shake of her head, she simply said, "Everyone go home. Pete, we'll talk first thing tomorrow." Disbelief and anger could be felt bursting into the air, "W-what? My sons were attacked!" Tommy's voice boomed, "They were forced to defend themselves!"

Deanna stepped forward, her voice quiet but firm. "I understand, but I'm not going to let this escalate any further. We'll talk tomorrow and sort it out then when everyone is cooled off and the boys have been checked." She started to walk away, her steps heavy with weariness. She didn't get very far before an eruption of yells and insults we're being thrown into the air.

"Fucking whore." Pete insulted, intended for you.

"Please I'm sorry. He didn't mean it he's just drunk." Jessie pleaded, tears silently rolling down her cheeks.

"What'd ya say?" Daryl spat.

"Don't Daryl." You extended your free arm out, blocking him from making any advancements. You had heard every single insult and name that could be said about you....but Daryl hadn't. From the corner of your eye, you saw Rick's arm extend to the back of his belt. He felt your eyes on him, stopping his movement and locking eyes with you.

You glanced at the firearm that poked slightly out, then you glanced at Pete, and back to Rick. And you nodded.

The yelling continued, arguments spewing from both sides. No one stopped, not even when Deanna intervened, telling everyone to stop and calm down.

Jessie pleaded with Pete to stop.

Jace and Carl were going back and forth with Ron.

Tommy demanded justice for his sons, as did Rick.

"Enough!" In a second Pete had a gun raised aimlessly, almost out of instinct everyone took a step back. "Pete! Do not" Reg pleaded rushing to the man's side, pulling at his t-shirt. "Get off Reg!" As Pete shoved Reg away from him, the sound of the gun filled your ears. You grasped onto Luke, pushing him back behind you.

Reg fell to the ground in an instant grasping at the wound in his chest which spilled blood. Deanna rushed to his aid, cradling him in her arms and trying to stem the flow of blood. Cecilia dropped down to her knees beside Reg, doing what she could in an attempt to save him. But there was no doubt that nothing could be done. The group stood stunned and wide-eyed, unable to comprehend what had just happened.

Tommy and Daryl had Pete down on the ground in an instant, kicking the gun away from his hands.

"This is how you want it to be, Deanna?"

Deanna's sad eyes looked up at you and then back down to Reg, her small hands cupping his face and holding him close. Pete's outburst was a sign that he was more than a drunk, more than a shitty husband. He was a threat. "Rick." Rick pulled the pistol from his waistband and waited for your command, "Do it."

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Kanau Postmortem!

​Hello everyone, it’s Chattercap!

Thank you to everyone who played Kanau! I’m really grateful that you gave it a chance 😭 since it is quite different from Karamu in terms of content and tone! Note that I’ll be spoiling Kanau in my thoughts/reflections below, so be careful if you haven’t played it! 

(Spoilers below!)

When I first conceived "Karamu," it was just going to be a short, one and done mystery for Otome Jam—a simple story centered around a couple interesting twists. However, when I was done with it, I found myself still interested in the story of Raku and Nelli, and I wasn't quite satisfied with where I left it. I kept thinking about why exactly they did the things they did, and what kinds of experiences would lead to such twisted adults.

The story in Kanau is actually one that I describe in Karamu, hinted at in vague descriptions. In Karamu, Nelli briefly reminisces about her childhood - finding solace in the fact that one day her father left and never returned. Raku also recounts an instance where Nelli showed kindness to a spider missing three legs. Nelli doesn't remember the incident, thinking that it happened in the last couple years, but in reality it happened QUITE a long time ago - 11 years, in fact.

Kanau is (for better or worse) Raku's "coming of age" story, haha! Both literally (as he undergoes his family's "ritual of adulthood") and metaphorically. Throughout the story, Raku struggles between his own identity and the "Kumode" identity. At the end, he finds a compromise, and this compromise is both a triumph and a tragedy - he makes his own decision, but it’s a decision that brings him right back into the arms of his abusers. I hope that after playing Kanau, it’s a bit easier to see how Raku and Nelli evolved into the adults they become in Karamu - and why they chose to do the things that they did.

The title, "Kanau," refers to the word 叶う in Japanese. It means "to come true/to be fulfilled" - as in "a wish or prayer coming true/being fulfilled." It's a reference to Raku and Nelli's parallel wishes/prayers - to be free from the abusive households that they're trapped in. Ultimately, Raku is unable to fulfill his own wish—to break free from his abuse. However, he still finds comfort in being able to fulfill Nelli's wish, the prayer that she thought that no one could hear (now...whether he went about that in the CORRECT way is, uh, up to interpretation). 

(For anyone that wants more details on the spidey lore - in the Karamu universe, there are no males other than Raku in the main line of the Kumode family! The females seduce human males and eat them after the deed is done. This is based both on jorogumo lore - where the spider demons seduce and then eat their human victims - as well as regular ol' spider lore! In some spider species, the female consumes the male after procreating. This is actually the origin of the name "black widow spider," although a lot of species of black widows don't actually practice sexual cannibalism.)

Regarding the topic of child abuse, I hope that I tackled it with sensitivity. I knew going into it that this was going to be a sensitive subject, moreso because the main overarching theme of the trilogy is trust and healing from trauma. Above all else I really wanted to avoid using child abuse for “shock value.” Hence why a lot of Nelli’s abuse takes place completely off screen, and you only see the effects it has on her. This is also why the few instances of abuse that do happen on screen are portrayed in silhouette (with the only really graphic image being an abuser’s comeuppance). 

There’s one more installment planned in this series! Hanasu (the third and final entry) will take place a few months after the events of Karamu (canonically, after the events of Ending D)! I think that Kanau is actually a decent standalone story, and, when viewed through this lens, the ending is happy; Raku and Nelli are free from their abusers, immersed in a world full of “color.” However, that ending is a sweet lie. It’s the ending that Raku wants to believe—that he “saved” this girl. But, of course, if you’ve played Karamu, you know that isn’t really true. After all, healthy people don’t do the things that Nelli does. Regardless of what Raku wants to believe, killing her father didn't "fix" Nelli. He freed her from the shackles of her abuser, but not the shackles of her abuse. The ghosts of her experiences haunt her into adulthood, tainting her view of her world, her relationships, and herself. And, of course, Raku is still under his family’s thumb, and he has lingering issues of his own. You can expect to see the resolution to these threads in Hanasu! (Will that resolution be sweet or bitter, I wonder?) 

I was originally planning to jump straight into Hanasu after developing Kanau, but after some consideration, I decided to let it cook a little more. I’d like to take my time with this project, both in terms of script and art—it is the last time I’ll be seeing these characters, after all, and I’d like to give them the resolution that they deserve. I’m currently tackling my biggest project (a fantasy/mystery story—with one love interest that’s pretty similar to Raku *wink wink nudge nudge*), and while I planned to develop the titles concurrently, I don’t want to divide my time and attention. I currently plan to finish the script for Hanasu this month, and I’ll start working on it in earnest later this summer. 

If you’re interested in seeing updates about Hanasu (and my other projects), I post most of my major announcements on here and Twitter. I also post frequently on my Patreon with sketches, writing snippets, sneak peeks, high resolution art, and weekly devlogs.​

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[namusthetic]

The Weird Relatives at the Family Reunion

Half the rumors at the dining table involve them, but they attend family reunions just to cause drama. Their alliance still stands, and gets stronger each gathering.

No.1 - The Chaotic

Is made 70% out of anger issues and 30% out of spite

Does not care about people's opinions and judgement

Has no patience

Mom friend, scolds you first and then takes care of you anyway

Has their life organized, knows what they want

Only listens to a few selected people whom they trust

Devours sexists for breakfast

Their resistance to caffeine is the same as that of a 5-year-old to sugar

"Bold of you to assume I've reached my peak of dumbass"

Avoids physical touch

Their love language is food giving / cooking

A public danger when driving (and in general)

Eats cereals from the box

Falls completely silent when angry

Probably made a deal with the devil for clear skin

Hates the government with a passion

Listens to hard rock, metal and techno, not necessarily in this order

Helps children with mischievous plans

Ready to throw hands and chew people out if someone is getting bullied

Slapstick humor

Plots new, fun ways of causing mayhem

Catchphrase: "Improvise, attack, overcome."

Playlist:

Don't Stop Me Now by Queen

Istanbul (Not Constantinople) by They Might Be Giants

all the good girls go to hell by Billie Eilish

Cigarette Ahegao by Penelope Scott

LA ESPADA by Eternal Raijin

Scopin by Kordhell

Besos I by Bo Burnham

Supermassive Black Hole by Muse

My Ordinary Life by The Living Tombstone

Maneater by Nelly Furtado

spy? by WHOKILLEDXIX

Let's Groove by Earth, Wind & Fire

No.2 - The Neutral

Always looks half asleep or annoyed or both

Sarcasm and dark humor

Done with everyone's shit

"save the bees, punch a racist"

comes off as kind and easy-going, but would watch the world burn and not bat an eye

Is inclined to tollerate you better if you offer them coffee or cookies or if you start talking about books

Will cover for you if they like you, tell on you if they don't, you'll never know which one it is until the last second

They'll sit down in a spot away from the family chaos to either ignore or judge everyone

Has a keen eye for body language and nonverbal communication

Bad at managing anxiety and stress

"binarism is for computers, do I look like a fuckin MacBook to you?"

Says they don't like kids but carries candy in their pockets for their nephews

Commitment and trust issues

Starts yelling when they get really mad

Their love languages are acts of service and quality time

Not easy to impress, unless you start the conversation quoting Shakespeare or Dante

Passive aggressive

Listens to literally anything except country music

Hates parents who don't take their children seriously, so they're always ready to lend a ear and give advice

Helps no. 1 plotting by giving technical details and suggestions

Catchphrase: "Oh, I haven't told them good morning simply because I don't think they deserve one"

Playlist:

These Times by Far Caspian

Treehouse by Alex G, Emily Yacina

Tired by beabadoobee

Summer Child by Conan Gray

Young by Vacations

Fourth of July by Sufjan Stevens

Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now by The Smiths

The Adults Are Talking by The Strokes

O Children by Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds

Sex, Drugs, Etc. by Beach Weather

Bitter Taste by Billy Idol

Obstacles by Syd Matters

No.3 - The Lawful

Sensitive, must protect

Love languages are words of affirmation and physical touch

Cannot cook for the life of them

Made of sunshine and rainbows

"Please, assume I have dignity"

Sweet but awkward

Wears sunglasses to hide the eye bags

Always rushing somewhere

Loves children

Takes things personally and thus gets hurt too often

Quotes cringy positivity lines

Hard working

Always brings something to eat

Is actually the most insecure about themselves and their body

No.1 and no.2 are ready to physically fight anyone who is mean to them

Cheers you up and has your back

Ready to forgive and forget, rarely blames people for stuff

Too willing to give second chances

Gives stern scoldings if they're mad

When something goes wrong they take it badly and get really sad

A cinnamon roll inside and outside

Knows how to play several instrument so they sing and play for children

Tries to keep no.1 and no.2 from achieving world domination

Catchphrase: "Even if the world is big, you're enough for it"

Playlist:

El Mismo Sol by Alvaro Soler

Brazil by Declan McKenna

OUR SUMMER by TXT

Baby I'm Yours by Arctic Monkeys

Hey Lover! by Wabie

Watermelon Sugar by Harry Styles

NIGHT DANCER by imase

HOME by BTS

Love Grows (Where My Rosemary Goes) by Edison Lighthouse

Bossa No Sé by Cuco ft. Jean Carter

Swing Lynn by Harmless

Promise by Jimin

[eatmangoesnekkid]

I generally do not care 5 cents about celebrity culture but I find the conversations around Ashanti and Nelly’s rekindled relationship interesting. Many say he should have proposed to her as soon as they got back together. Others think she did too much by buying him his dream car. The fact that Ashanti has that kind of wealth is remarkably outstanding and powerful. Archetypal energy! I don't think it occurs to anyone that maybe Ashanti does not want to be a wife and is content with living life on her terms. Even if she does desire to be a wife and they get married and have children, the social programming is so thick and deep and wide that women never allow themselves to consider the possibility that maybe a woman doesn’t want to be married and/or birth children. Ultimately this channeling is not so much about their relationship. It is, however, celebrating the awareness in how the ability to merely consider other options in how we perceive womanhood, this story, or anything else.... installs a level of freedom and expansion into our magnetic field that we can transfer into other areas of our personal lives. Transmutation. How we perceive -even something as distant to us as celebrity culture—is everything true and holy for what we create in our own lives in the future. There is nothing wrong with having the authentic desire to be married and have children. I find that when it's truthful, it is beautiful. And what's also true is that so many women in marriages are bored to death and miserable AF. Not all women enjoy being mothers or being married. Many will never admit that while they love and adore their children, they don't love motherhood and unconsciously numb out and dissociate. But I can feel it. I have always felt it. I started noticing these patterns in women when I was in my teens, but didn't have the language or maturity to name them. A pattern master is who I was by the age of 15. If you want to begin to master any part of life, you must be willing to look at the patterns and re-pattern your subconscious accordingly. That's why I truly believe one of the greatest uplevels happen when a woman stops believing that being a wife or having children is the ultimate prize and value metric. Having a lover (or lovers) who loves you, adores you, honors you, respects you, adventures the globe with you, invests in you and is not trying to control you or place you in a box as you do the same thing is the pinnacle of love and winning, whether dating, in a committed partnership, or married. The more you unlearn programming and conditioning, shift how you think and perceive reality, the more you realize that this world was built to extract from women, to shrink her spiritual capacity by tying down her life force energy, making her more subservient and exhausted than truly alive and free to pleasurably overflow in her body and life as ordained by Source to live. Less miserable exhausted women and more fully awakened pleasured women in touch with nature and ritual are essential for tapping into real healing solutions that open up the collective mind and heart in a violent chaotic world. Whether taking dance lessons, traveling the world, bathing in sweetwaters, making love, or getting married and having babies, accessing real pleasure has to be an important part of her life. Think about it: She is the only mammal on earth whose body contains an organ for which the only purpose is pleasure. This divine-given anatomical design has to begin to mean something to you. -India Ame'ye, A Plump Clitoris Venusian Channeling

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Rupelali's budding romance (Lari version)

What I always find endearing (?), is how Rupelali are just so ignorant of their own feelings for each other. It's not a simple misunderstanding type of situation, but rather "two people who have never experienced romantic love can't tell they love each other". Love, after all, is an abstract concept, especially for the both of them. Lari, as fond as she is of romantic novels, has never felt romantic love of her own, and fails to recognize the "heartaches" she feels when she looks at Rupert is romance (heavily hinted), and instead mistakes it as anxiety/nervousness/guilt, which is an emotion she's very much used to from her trauma of TL1.

What amuses me, is that SO MANY people knew Rupert and Lari had a thing for each other, YEARS before the two actually realized it themselves. In manhwa chapter 60, Tori first hinted at Rupert's feelings for her. Around that time, Louis had complained that he was already giving special treatment towards Lari. As crown prince, the maids and servants noticed when Rupert protected Lari from the arrogant knight, and how he defended her when she was framed. This gossip spread to the south, where Nelly and the Nanny had asked her about that palace romance - which of course Lari denied. Because, as far as she was aware, she was bound to Rupert though that promise in Chapter 32 - She was his maid, she belonged to him, and that's it. She earned enough of his trust so he'd protect her, and that's it. He may own her, but her feelings are her own

Besides, It's not like Rupert ever showed any romantic feelings for her. He's the usual Rupert - minds his own business, is rude, and condescending to her. He still insults her sometimes... where is the romance in that? Again, she's just his trusted attendant. Of course, others will see "romance" between them, but they don't know of their promise. But Lari's not dumb, when she realized Rupert yeeted to the South, even harming himself with Alchemy when he heard she was injured.... she admits, yes, she's become someone so important to him... those feelings *could* be of love... but... So she chooses to IGNORE her suspicion that he loves her. That's not something she wants to find out the answer to. After all, "he" killed her in TL1. He's treated her the same as always. She doesn't want to get ahead of herself and embarrass herself by jumping to conclusions either. So she chooses to run away, and not talk to him about it. Even when he proposes marriage - even though he was serious - the fact he was so nonchalant about it made Lari think he wasn't serious at all, and decline it.

Lari's characterization is consistent: She's been alone this whole time, she doesn't have anyone she can trust and talk to about things like this. She bottles up her emotions, trying to deal with everything herself. She convinces herself that Rupert doesn't like her, doesn't feel anything special for her, because he has Tori. She shouldn't get in their way, because she's an outsider. She doesn't want to talk to Rupert about it, because it's none of her business. Lari keeps on running away from her own feelings, and from Rupert as well.

After Rupert acknowledges that he really, really cares about Lari, really treasures and cherishes her, and vows to give her anything she wants in Ch 98 (but doesn't quite understand he loves her yet), Lari feels burdened by his feelings. It's getting harder for her to deny his feelings, and she feels so guilty and awkward, she starts hiding from him, but of course as tenacious as he is, Rupert always goes to look for her. He actually finds it a bit fun to find her during this game of "hide and seek" (he also gets Elaine and Louis to help lol). It gets to the point that Lari is aware, but full on denial of his feelings by the night of his coronation to Emperor. As much as she trusts him, her self-doubt blinds her:

Through Lehan's gaslighting, Lari was convinced: As much as Rupert loves and cherishes her, it won't be enough. He will choose the throne over her.

That is literally Lari's fatal mistake: she's so caught up in her despair, she makes assumptions out of fear. She's completely blindsighted to even the idea that Rupert truly loves her, and will choose HER over the throne. She understands how much she hurt Rupert, poor Rupert who was happy at how well they were getting along, living a comfortable live at the palace... all he wanted was the be coronated Emperor and have Lari be happy and congratulate him... but all he got was Lari, who had disappeared, and he found her unconscious in a sea of flames.

When she woke up, Lari finally apprehended him: He loves her, doesn't he? Although Rupert couldn't clearly articulate "yes", Lari knew it all along: he did. He does. But in her condition, she was unable to accept. So she chooses to break everything off. Otherwise she'd feel overwhelmed by the burden of everything in both timelines, and want to die. So Rupert allowed her to leave, because by being free, she would be "alive". While in the village, Lari again, knows full well how much Rupert love her, and how much she hurt him by feigning ignorance to his feelings. She just hoped he would have moved on by now... but she can't help but miss him, and all the time they spent together. While she hated House Belois, especially Lehan and Trash dad, she could never hate Rupert. She kept Lehan around to get updates on how Rupert was doing, after all. She really misses him, and the time they spent together at the palace. And when they reunited - she felt so relieved and excited to see him again, a feeling that she had almost forgotten after a year ... So by the time chapter 124ish comes around, that time apart had strengthened Lari's resolve: She has finally healed enough to accept Rupert's feelings, as well as her own. Her choice was clear: She will stay beside Rupert, and ensure he's happy and will protect him, because if not her, who else? She will protect him, herself. If he still loves her this much, then why should she continue to deny bother her feelings, and his? There's no point in her pointless shame and apologies, if he's really accepted them both as well. So the answer is clear: she chooses to, and will stay beside him from now on as "Lariette". :)

and I think all this is beautiful ;__;