#i don’t really do attention seeking things enough to conclude i have hpd | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

stabyou · 2 years

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thinking abt how back in the day (like 10 years ago. i am getting old) my therapist at the time thought i had BPD before i mentioned to him about my bipolar, and even suggested i go seek further help to discern whether or not i have it... the reason i was told as to why i wasn’t ultimately diagnosed is that i don’t have issues with narcissism/self-grandiosity, and that my mood swings fit better under my bipolar label. but i have every single other symptom, and when people talk about bpd i find myself relating so much more than just a surface level. i mean. i thought i had it when i was a teenager and tbh it’s only gotten worse so... hm

#i gotta talk to another therapist soon pfft. it would just make it #i was diagnosed with HPD by the same person #which i know i don’t have because i’m not an attention seeker #i don’t really do attention seeking things enough to conclude i have hpd #but at the time bc of my drug issue i was fitting perfectly into that diagnosis #not so much now #so yeah i think i have bpd lmao. i’m gonna try and find a way to talk to someone about it #and just in general. cant forget my favorite personality disorder i have tho. my avpd #they’re like gfs all three of them. schizophrenia bipolar avpd all holding hands and making me disappear to the world when i’m sad #looking at my avpd symptoms is like getting slapped. it’s like a callout post #i’m just rambling hehe #honey’s words

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