#i domt wanna go lmao

[shippingmyworld]

What the fuck do you mean it's December 31st of 2024

[lonelyplanetfag]

it's so over

[noellevanious]

LMAO the hosts on this weird npr show, where they go around and drink wines from the new england area i guess? keeps saying this mixologist on with is a wandering rownin (said with as much white english on it as possible). and he responded "yeah i domt wanna be a white guy saying im a wandering samurai."

[wewfimapuppie]

idk if i am protecting myself in any way here. but this is my final log.

i am going to have to take the message at face value. i saw the wkrd frighgebed and scared and idk how he perceived what i was doing. i felt like fuck it yknow i might be wrong but this is how its going for me. i felt it was the best thing to do? idk i def said weird shit.

theres no way around it this time. i went manic. i lost my shit. i imagined all that. i scared him.

to me it felt so real dude. so real. it felt like crazg things were happening to me. and i dont have a good support system so idk haha. i hated taking pills. i felt so awful. so i just wanna rely on God for now. and therapy. i'll find a way.

i'll also lay low. wear a black face mask. sunglasses. black beanie. on my way to work and way out. no one will know its me. i'll change and wear a dif sweater and bring a dif jacket yknow i even wanna dye my tips orange like. i feel so embarrassed and i dont wanna see him or have amyone that knows see me. im hiding. im scared. im disappearing. i will just work, head to Tijuana, get uber eats on fridays and some white claws or adjacent when we get comfy. and we dont talk to anyone except maricruz and our coworkwers yknow. stay vigiliant. i rather you dont talk to anyone anymore. we can make friends some other way.

i rather we focus on paying off our debt. and we drop this. we are at a point where we are questioning a text he sent us. we cant do that......

i rather like i said, we lay low, no attention towards ourselves and we wear a mask and domt do shows we are an online act idk. i wanted to be like yahoo lets do shkws z and this happened instead? i went manic? so idk i need to just dont interact w ppl like natasha i look stupid and crazy i have no supplrt to tell me um this is mania.

i can still paint, i can still sell, i can still make music even. but i cant expand or be public in san diego nah nope. i dont ever wanna see him or anyone. this is embarrassssing dude.

lets jjst keep it simple. food. paint. youtube. spotify. cookies and weed. some alcohol. lets just chill yknow? like back to the status quo? but this time we start fresh i guess. but for rn i rather be alone lmao. i feel cringe.

hopefully i can just focus on the job and getting my life together. thats all i can do. ni modo yknow? what else can i do? stay stuck on this? lets just move on. and focus on keeping ourselves afloat. safe. we will be okay. i still want to pray.

the last thing i'll say though is idk why he said that he blocked me bc i sent him noods when

1. he hearted them

2. he djdnt blkck me

3. i blocked him that time

4. i didnt sent him noods this time?

also i specifically have not mentioned his name jjst ryan and my complaints are like... justified?

so my theories on that is...

1. that... wasnt him...

2. he is like.... a psychopath and it isnt even me!! to twist it. make me feel like i went crazy??

3. hes saying a lie to cover why he really blocked me and its i seem crazy.

its just weird he said 2 wrong things. that i ever falked shit abt him and that i sent nudes now kr that he bloxked me when i did it 3 years ago? like he has reason to say jt was fhe Gkd stuff....

he also just ignored anything i said. about the holy ghost stuff. he didnt talk about God at all. the message was like in broken english it was weird. maybe he was scared? but why say a lie ljke that? when i felt its either im crazy or im...on to something. .

and why did he unblock me at all? to warn me or settle it? its still weird to ignore my one accusation. bro. whats with the staring.

but idk its weird like its enough where theyd know what happened. the email. the calling. ryan. the other subtle ways of contact.

so idk i think he couldnt say its bc you seem crazy and he gave you that reason as to why he blocked you even if it doesnt make sense. eventually we're gonna have to accept this is his response. idk abt what he knows abt me and ryan but i know he knows that unsolicited nudes thing is whack bc be liked them and he never blocked me i blocked him... so wtf.

i hate that this wasnt to me, a proper response. like ok i was frightening shit. but wait ur saying u blocked me? nah u blocked me now. no njdes. so idk what to make of this response. to believe it? theres an incorrect factoid.... that isnt it. so shit what now? now that is what will drive me crazy is saying that shit when that didnt happen.

thags what makes me think maybe he was a... cooky guy. bc hes lying. hes manipulating the situation. he didnt explaim himself. just said i was scary and a lie.

idk what it is at this point. him. me? what are the next steps? well... i rather we pretend it didnt happen. im never contacting him or seeing him. im leaving him alone. i dont want to make it worse. i can find "normal" love like tanner. no celestial shit. just hey we fit.... i wish it was normal. i'll pray for it.

but we forget him Riv.... he's gone. whatever it is you thought... his response, whether you believe it or not, could be his real response. and theres signs that your perspective is skewed. and this is it.

i know the nudes thjng sticks out to you Riv. but what are you supposed to do with that suspicion? i cant go see him and be like "was that really you?" like shiiiit no. so now what?

that is why i wanna tell you this; i need to feed you and pay your debt so im getting u a job. but i will also tell you this; if its meant to be it will be. if that isnt him, the real him will appear. but if not, you have more to live for

so. we forget any of this ever happened. we are in incognito mode. we keep it chill. focus on your mental health.

start working. start forgetting. get good at hiding. keep it simple. we can walk away from this bruv. who says we need to acknlowledge this happened? im dropping thjs. even the lie. it could be a cover up to a harsher feeling. we was nice enough to wish me good health....

i will be w say sd and just surviving. this is my last zane log tbh. for my safety and wellbeing.

[matamisin]

why do our bodies need sleep like why cant I just plug in to recharge this slab of meat of a body while I do stuff

[strawberry-jammers]

replacment

a tubbo x reader (platonic) where the reader seems...off

this is really short, and kind of based off of @helliontherapscallion ‘s fic “the ashes of yourself” but only slightly. (mainly inspired) 

anyways enjoy :D

also i didn't bother editing it, so spelling errors lmao

(Y/n) sat listening to their favorite music disc, tear streaks made of rocks on their face. They layed on the ground, a bottle of half dranken whiskey in their hand.

"Hm hm hmmm…" They hummed along to chirp, rolling on thier back, trying not to spill their alcohol all over the floor. 

"Has anyone messaged me today…" They mumble, dragging their hand threw the air to get their communicator up and running. 

Scrolling threw, all they see is a message from tubbo. Baisically their only friend at the moment. 

"Im coming over tomorrow so we can hang out! Im bringing my son , and my husband so you guys can meet! Ive missed you a lot, so we can all bond for once :D" oh he deffinetly used auto correct like i do. 

I look at when the message was sent 

7:04 pm march 31

Its April, hes comming over today and im drunk as fuck. SHIT!! 

"Tubbo please dont bring yur son im absolutly hammerd rn I domt waana infulence him pleaaaase" fuck correct spelling. As i was about to hit send, there was a knock on the door. 

I got up from the floor, turning off the disc. I grab the whisky and stumble over towards the door. I open it. 

Tubbo and his son is the first thing i see. "Please go im kinda dru-" i look over to see a tall enderman hybrid….someone i really didnt wanna see. 

"Get out." I say staring at him. Their all shocked to say the least. 

"What- (y/n) you doing alright-" 

My fiery glow gets brighter slightly. "I dont wanna see that son of a bitch near my property." I saw, stumbling and sluring threw my words slightly. "Besides im kinda drunk and dont wanna get hammerd around your son tubs. Now get him the fuck off my property. " I saw pointing at the shocked enderman. 

"Wha- (y/n), are you alright!? Your not one to dri-" he stopps when he sees my glow getting brighter and brighter. 

"Ranboo, take Michael and go back to snowchester, i need to take care of them.." The enderman nodds, taking their son and leaving quickly. 

"(Y/n)...come on." He takes my whisky, closing the front door. Noticing of how i melted the doorknob. 

"(Y/n) you cant be drinking...your 15.." I sat on my couch (after putting chirp back on of course). 

"I know im fucking fifteen, s'why i only drank half." Tubbo put it in the trash, bringing in some lava for me to drink.

"Drinking any of it was a poor desicion jammers. Here take some lava, sense water will hurt you.." I chug the lava. Its been awhile sense ive gad any lava.

"(N/n), what happened earlier? Did he do something to yo-" 

"He took my place in my family." Tubbo sat slightly shocked. "What do you mean?" I put the glass down, and stared at tubbo blankly.

"Fucking philza. I whent to his house a few weeks ago, and saw no photos of me or Wilbur. It was just enderbitch and techno." 

"His names ranboo… anyway, philza replaced you two??" 

"Yeah, and im not even dead!" I saw, turning off the music, chuckling slightly. “Getting replaced fucking sucks... you ever been replaced tubs?” he shook his head. "Not that im aware of...but Tommy believes I replaced him with ranboo, but we're just married. I still talk to Tommy all the time.." 

I stop. "Its always ranboo…" i get up, taking care of the cup once holding lava. I toss it in the sink, standing in the doorway of the living room. "Philza used to beat himself up over wilburs death. He must of gotten rid of any memory of him out of shame, pushing me away in the process. Fucking pussy…." I take out the disc and put it in its place. 

"He kinda is….hey, how bout we call ranboo and Micheal back over! You need to get alomg with boo sense, it isnt his fault your dads an ass… we can team up to fight him!" Tubbo says jokingly, but really he wants to fight the avian. I chuckle. 

"Im still drunk tubs. Maybe tomorrow. How bout we just hang out for a bit?" He nods, gestering for me to sit next to him. I do so, putting on another disc to listen to.

We sit in peace till I eventually fall asleep. 

Later

"Hey are they okay? They didnt seem the best when we left." Tubbo looks over at the sleeping (y/n). "Yeah, they seem to be better."

[dolanswhore]

Are you doing requests? If so can you do one where Y/N pranks Grayson back by "breaking up" with him? Saying she has had enough (and if Grayson cries even better). I just wanna see him cry because he is scared he lost his girl. i love him i swear lol

Thanks for your request babe!! I DID A BIG PLOT TWIST LMAO

It wasn’t her idea at all, it was completely Ethan’s which even took convincing, but after days of him saying how funny it would be, even though she found it quite cruel she played along.

Grays mouth was slightly ajar, not believing the words that fell from her mouth. “I’ve had enough I cant take this anymore gray I’m done!”

Instantly his heart dropped to his stomach, lump forming over in his throat, eyes glossing over as his mouth dried, asking one more time not believing the words. “What?”

“We need to break up gray.” Gray couldnt control the tears that slid past his eye lashes, dripping to his cheeks and falling in a zagged path. The moment she saw the red eyes, heard his nose getting stuffy, her heart dropped not expecting this. Her arms were around his neck, pressing as many kisses as she could against his jaw. “It was a prank! Ethan made me go along with it I’m so sorry.”

She now sat on his lap, arms tight around his neck, head in the crook of his neck, he sniffles and she leans back, taking the pads of her thumb, wiping the tears. “I’m a fucking idiot, I domt know why I did it gray.” Tears swelling in hers now.

The sudden vibration of laughter from grays chest caught her off guard, and the one behind the door as Ethan appeared. Gray couldnt stop the laughter that filled his body with joy, his thumbs now removing the left over tears against her face. Ethan tricked her.

“That’s alright baby, we were actually pranking you.” Look at both of them with an annoyed look, attempting to get off her dummy of a boyfriend but failing as his arms take a hold of her waist.

[rpersearch]

Hiii!!! I gave a hyper fixation on blue exorcist so wanna do a mlm rp but with ocs n such!! (Not with the brothers you sick weirdo)

I dont mind what tou do for characters as long as you play Yuiko/my oc's brother and Bon/an oc like him

Rules:

1. Dont be a bigot (don't be rude basically)

2. Domt be weird

3. Dont be op lmao

Please be below 18, im a minor

It's going to enemies to lovers, if your interested dm on insta, twitter, or discord. PunkCat42

For discord its PunkCat#2910

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[sarohara]

Stranger: M

Stranger: Hei

You: Heyo :)

Stranger: Who 👀

You: Yo

You: ahahha

Stranger: Lol m or f? 🤣

You: F 🤣

You: Why r u laughing? lmao

Stranger: Because u dodged the question ☠️

Stranger: Well not now

You: I'm freaking good at this

Stranger: So norwegian?

You: Oh, actually i'm not!

Stranger: 👀

You: whaaat 🤣 i just like this country

You: It's a nice place

Stranger: It is

Stranger: So whats up?

Stranger: And where u from

You: Nm i'm just bored

You: I'm from Brazil

Stranger: Ohh brazilian

You: Yessir

Stranger: Sounds spicy

You: Dudeee

You: Wym spicy 🤣 that's kinda..

Stranger: Yea, brazilians are hot

You: Kinda used to these comments

Stranger: But wait wait wait, how old are you...

You: waiting waiting waiting..i'm 16, hbu?

Stranger: Then you must be hanging in the wrong places 👀

Stranger: Ah 20

You: I mean, people always says that on OMEGLE

Stranger: Ah ure in omegle a lot

You: Shit 🤣

Stranger: Well its not the best website to make friends

You: I didn't say that

You: I'm not on omegle a lot oke

Stranger: Mostly everyone here is horny

You: Yeah ikr..freaking horny guys

Stranger: Yeah

Stranger: Well well

Stranger: Hows school

You: Nice question 🤣

Stranger: Ikr ty

You: Well, they gave us a break so it's cool rn

Stranger: Nice

You: How's...college or work or life?

Stranger: Studying

Stranger: Going good, not bad

Stranger: Just chilling right now since break and stuff

You: That's awesome

You: What r u studying?

Stranger: Computer science

Stranger: Soooo got any hobbies?

You: Oooh computer science... my brother too, he's also ur age btw 🤣

Stranger: Haha niceee

You: Yesss..dancing's my hobby

Stranger: Oh

Stranger: Any certain genre/type of dance?

You: Yea yea i was gonna say that

You: Hip hop

You: wbu?

Stranger: Ah i domt dance, but i like playing video games amd watching series

Stranger: :)

You: Oh that's cool tho, what games?

You: And dude, i do like watching series as well, it's my jam

Stranger: Damm, what u watch? I mostly play league of legends

Stranger: You hear bout it?

You: Famous LOL

You: Yeah for sure

You: the 100, You, umm, stranger things..prison break, awae.. a lotta things

Stranger: Oh u play it?

Stranger: ☠️

You: No but all my friends do! ahahhaah

You: what u watch?

Stranger: Anime, netflix, kinda a bit of everything i guess haha

Stranger: Wbu

You: Netflix and I already told u ahaha

Stranger: Oh must have forgote haha sorry xx

You: Yea, right up there but I thought I was asking which series lmao

You: ur fine!

You: you were*

Stranger: Ehh attack on titan, u heard about it?

You: Umm, it's an anime, isn't?

You: I don't think so

You: I mean, I don't think I've heard about it before but is it good?

Stranger: Yeah ofc, if you like gore and super sized naked humanoid creatures eating humans

Stranger: 🤷‍♂️

You: it seems ineffable 🤣

Stranger: 😉

Stranger: Thata anime for you

Stranger: Haha

You: Ahaha good to know that

You: wyd now btw?

Stranger: Oh

Stranger: Just chilling on my bed and enjoying my self, what about you?

You: enjoying urself? nice detail i would say

You: Um, i'm just listening music

Stranger: I mean, it depends on what u consider enjoying your self might be

Stranger: I enjoy my peace u know

You: That was what I thought

Stranger: U sureee did 👀

You: Wym? 🤣 I'm serious

Stranger: Oh haha

You: Don't u even dare

Stranger: Good good then 🤣

Stranger: Sorry sorry haha

You: 🤣🤣

You: how's the peace over there?

Stranger: 😂

Stranger: Its boring but also relaxing

Stranger: Peace

Stranger: Something people take for granted

You: Yea i'm sure about that 🤣

Stranger: Sooo

You: but is it really? that's the intriguing question. we'll find out in the next episode 🤣

You: Soo, what time is it?

Stranger: now, its

Stranger: Soon 10 pm

Stranger: What about brazil

You: It's 5:45 rn

You: pm

Stranger: Oh ic

Stranger: What will you do later today

You: Nothing really, and what? wanna go get some food later or something?

You: nah im joking lmao

You: what r u gonna do later today?

Stranger: Haha ure cute, maybe one day we can grab food

Stranger: Mah just eat and go to sleep

Stranger: And maybe something more, we will see

You: aw! hahahah

You: Oooh same, i think

You: but that's all I do every single day, nothing really plausible 🤣

Stranger: 😉

Stranger: Haha, well its vacation, what is there to do

[hxrryspotter]

I don't understand why people are so pissed off and aggressive with you. I'm so sorry you're getting attacked, like even if people don't agree with every single word you say the way you're attacking you is gross and proving the point that people are full of hatred that they're trying to hide by lashing out and saying your being unnecessarily angry. Like??? I'm not sure I articulated well and I'm sorry. My point is you keep doing you this is your space

no no you articulated perfectly! yeah i just ?? don't kno why they cant block me? im not ashamed to say ive blocked people. i did that bc i didnt wanna argue with them??? its the internet we all have our own opinions tbh?? but once you say racist things or homophobic things on here, im gonna probably call you out. its like... i see so many opinions i domt even agree with on my dash but i dont make a fuss?? i scroll away?? or make my own post abt the problem?? i usually just add a comment to a reblog lmao but i never ever go into anyones inbox and argue with them or speak ill of their parents or tell them 'i hope ur parents kick you out when they find out ur gay'. like... that's wild. sorry @white ppl that ive seen and experienced the hard life you can have for not being white and fitting in with white society's beauty standards, sorry ive seen how it affects my family as a whole, sorry it makes me bitter that racism and homophobia are literally everywhere :)

[mcpussy]

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[ghoulmumma]

Ugh

[smilemoritz-blog]

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