#i didnt put way too much thought into this its just for fun
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crispymiilk · 6 months ago
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autism crossover
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dreamsy990 · 2 months ago
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drew some of my fav ody designs! wasnt originally meant to be also replicating the styles but thats sort of just how my brain works. except i didnt copy the lineart styles of anyone here so its DEFINITELY a bit uncanny for a couple of these (LOOKING AT YOU QINNY IM SO SORRY) but whatever
the designs featured here (from left to right) belong to: me, @gigizetz, @neal-illustrator, @irunaki, @bigidiotenergytm, @qinnyanimation, and @foopsie-daisy
#WAUGHHH IM SO NERVOUS TAGGING PEOPLE COOLER THAN ME#HEAD IN HANDS HEAD IN HANDS I NEED TO STOP PANICKING OVER STUFF LIKE THIS#bc like I KNOW THEYRE JUST PEOPLE. I WOULD BE SO HYPE IF SOMEONE DREW MY ODY ID LOVE TO BE TAGGED IN THAT.#BUT WHAT IF I AM SHOT. WITH A GUN. gfrdfvb vfrdedrf#i am a very normal non anxiety having person i swear guys#worst thing i did here was have odys hands very visible for the qinny one. because i didnt realize the way they draw hands is very realisti#BUT THEIR WHOLE STYLE HAS REALLY REALISTIC ANATOMY I SHOULVE KNOWN#irunakis style is SO fun to draw in bc its a lot like some of my older art so its very familiar yk yk i wasnt worrying too much about makin#-things accurate. but i think that accidentally made me too comfortable and so i ended up straying a bit too much#i think a lot of irunaki and qinnys styles specifically is in the lineart. so me using my normal style of lines makes them less recognizabl#anyways. neals odysseus i have shit talked in private (its a good design it just feels uncanny w/ jorges voice to me) but hes really-#-interesting to draw. i wanna do style studies on neal their characters have a very. idk animated feels like the wrong word but like.#something like animated. feeling to them. theyre very distinct in shape i wanna do studies thats it#bigidiotenergy i found this morning while FINALLY looking at cloudysseus art and instantly fell in love w their design#i need to ruffle his hair. hes so silly. absolutely incredible design. but GOD was the style a nightmare#it was too late id already comitted to trying to replicate the styles. but ohhh my god its so far from my own it was so hard#theres so much detail in places i dont normally put any at all#and its like. WAUGH its scary i need to do anatomy studies in general maybe#uhh havent commented on the gigi one. he was really easy to draw though lol. weirdly enough gigis style was close enough to my current one-#-that i didnt have any trouble whatsoever? and i think its the most accurate too but only because of the lineart styles being similar lol#ALSO NOT TO PLAY FAVORITES BUT FOOP ODYSSEUS IS MY FAVORITE#I LOVE HIMMM I LOVE HIS SILLY SHAPES HE LOOKS LIKE A WEIRD CAT KINDA. HE INTRIGUES ME.#my ody feels kinda lame next to all these guys gbfdefgbf#but oh well. hes ingrained into my mind now i cant change him at this point /silly i am actually happy w him but i might make changes#thaats thoughts on all of the odys here. anyways art tags time#doodles#odysseus#epic the musical#OH MY GOD EDIT I FORGOT TO DRAW FOOP ODYS SHOES. HEAD IN HANDS. IM SO SORRY
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milkbreadtoast · 7 months ago
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my s class hunters does a really good job at gradually raising the stakes without feeling like a pointless power creep and keeping me extremely invested and i keep saying this but I really do think it's bc it's a story grounded in love at every turn... the bond between the han brothers especially is extremely compelling and beautiful and makes me feel like a knife is being stabbed into my heart and twisted all around... i love them so so much 😞💔❤️‍🩹❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥
#(another tweet liveblog that im crossposting here)#im up to ep 102 in the webtoon now btw!!!#s class liveblog#also it took a while for yj to completely grow on me (i always liked/loved him but it's prob bc they#lightened the tone of his chara or w/e as ppl were saying... in the beginning at least#that ive been holding off calling him a 'fav' (im kinda picky w protags/have side chara liking syndrome...#even w twsb i didnt rly start biasing yeseo until i read the novel... cedric was my 1st bias#(and w orv ive only read (part of) the webtoon and yjh is my bias so mdnfn)#(​i rly loved yj from the 1st few ch tho but yea i can kinda tell the webtoon lightened his chara a lot... not that i think its all bad bc#its been fun to read at least dkfbdn)#but now that im further in im just like... wow. he's such an incredible character and protagonist. wow#def as good of a protagonist as kdj (and i personally like him better bc he's a big brother HHHHHNG.#i love him just like i love jung yeseo...#i love him SO much. he's just incredible#and yea dont tell me about the novel bc im going to read it myself but#yeah i rly cant wait to experience his original characterization and get intimately aquainted w his narration/internal thoughts...#REITERATING...DONT SPOIL ME ANYTHING FR#also just more abt the webtoon but... biwan-nim is SOOO good at drawing expressions & portraying emotions#i fucking feel every emotion that yj feels and it fucking breaks my heart and makes me cry uuuaaaghh T___T#yoojin.... TT__TT💔💔💔#also god he's just... so fucking COOL. and not just in like a cool savvy protag kinda way#(bc usually i kinda sleep when protags r like. Too cool/op skfjksdj but he's not like that at all)#i mean as a person... he's so incredibly... oughhh#as a person... as a big brother... T__T...#i cant even put it into words. he's just... i love him so much. it hurts.... im so deeply invested and rooting for him at every step...#he and yoohyun deserve the whole world i really hope they can get their happy ending together T_T💔💔💔❤️‍🔥 please...
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imflyingfish · 10 months ago
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working in an art gallery and talking to a lot of full time artists has given me CRAZY imposter syndrome btw lmao
#i went to a local gallery today (not the one i work in)#and i was looking at this one artists work#and she used a lot of patterns but didnt go up to her#she came up to me as i was looking at her work like ' hi i see youre looking at my work which one do u like most' like okay#i had my headphones on at the time so it did scare me#anyway im really stuck thinking about her work#like shes got this lovely cluttered and messy and chaotic style with still life in one dimension#and she uses pattern and quilt-like grids and so much colour#and the chaos of her work is by far the best part#how nothing stays in their boxes andeverythings falling#its homely and DRAMATIC. which is a mix that doesnt always go together but is held together by the chaos of her work#AND THEN SHE PUTS COLLAGE QUOTES ON IT 'fly high in the sky like a butterfly'#AUUUGGGHHH it pisses me off so much. REALLY? THATS THE BEST QUOTE? no song lyrics no deepp meaning nothing to express the narrative? bitch#love her style but its KITCH shes KITCH her quotes are KITCH her subjects are KITCH <- lives in kitch central of the uk but WHATEVER#by the way im not exagerrating with fly high like a butterfly she really thought that was the quote to describe this chaotic scene like she#eight years old like what the hell. there ere others too the pissed me off#and then i talked to her and she was like. WEIRDLY insistant tht even though she used stencils and that her dughter and husbnd drew anythin#mildly complicated that she had still done a lot of work I HADNT SAID ANYTHING#but she was just BRUSHING OVER whenever i mentioned her patterns and stencils like she was ASHAMED#like what the hell im all for having fun with what you draw but youre three times my age and i can draw a bird better than our adult daught#also i spoke to her turns out she knows my stepdad so that was an odd link but whatever#anyway artists that give me imostersyndrome are my boss who does realism in WATERCOLOUR#oh the woman in the gallery also gave me a printed card whcih was cool since i was going to buy one just to be mad at
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chisungie · 5 months ago
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thetangibleghost · 7 months ago
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I gotta confess it is so much more fun talking to Sal as if he is a separate person like he wants and not a member of the system. He's super creative like. Its just fun.
#It was hard to understand because they were wrapping up a bunch of stuff kinda fast. and it seemed like they were introducing new#things too? The fight scenes were cool.#person with Delusional Disorder: so hear me out#playing a dangerous game#Were bonding over sailor moon#JK btw like dont worry. The delusions dont really work like that. You could say i guess that thats his personal delusion?#idk its kind alike a severity scale MOST if not all of us have the truman show delusion. to some degree in some form. the specifics very#and then certain alters have additional delusions.#there all pretty bizarre. like I think thats the category you could put pretty much all of them in#which is interesting#some of them are more whatever the one where you think people are after you is called#so technically we would be mixed type? but idk if we would even fall into the type-able like... because the way it interacts with our DID#at first i thought my therapist was totally bullshitting this but the longer im like. living alone away from family the more sense this#diagnosis makes?#esp cause last time i googled it there was like. no fucking info. jut the wiki page about how this disorder gets misdiagnosed in people who#are part of grand conspiracies and how when thats not the case theyre basically just doing it to them selves :/#but i guess theres more research now? or something because now theres like medical articles!! and they make way more sense and actually#align with what we experience so thats super cool#its still kinda like. Huh??? but i guess it runs in families and i can totally think of several family members who i think have this#I also had drug induced psychosis i think. so- interesting how my therapist was able to parse that. i should text him.#omg yeah so apparently Sal (or specifically one of his alters) has seen just the end and ive seen just the beginning!!#i know thats so silly and like. Too Perfect. kind of thing but its fun!!!!! He said it was confusing and he liked it but it took him a#couple watches to know what was going on.#he actually didnt know what season he had seen (other than it definitely wasnt the first one lol) so i read through the ep titles until#he reconized them. he stilll didnt reconize them really but like half way through the last season (I went out of order) he was like#“this sounds sorta right. there was a lot of space fighting and stuff”#he had to think about it for a minute because i guess he just hadnt consider that that was the end#he was relieved to hear that theres specials and stuff after#but maybe hes lying 0-0 thats always interesting !!!!#syst
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where-does-the-heart-lie · 3 months ago
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More Doki Doki Battle Academy OP AU
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even MOOROEEE of themmmmmahhhhhhh babyeyyy i even added some dialogues fir some extra flavourrrrr (kuma and bonney's gif there would be a sprite he would have in his dialogue scenes. i dont think it would be a gif like this, more like everytime you look back at him, bonney would be in a different spot)
original DDBA designs post (has more lore there, go look at it plese :3
ASL dialogue video
imagining the vinsmoke/strawhat beef going like this video
design stuffs and more lore:
preface: sorry this is so much writing and im not going to grammar check it cuz aint no body got time for that.
The world of this au is like pokemon with different gyms you can fight through and beat, there's a big league of pro fighters, and there are schools for teaching you to be a better fighter.
One of the schools is called the Germa 66 Private Battle Academy, it goes from grades 1-12 and its where the Vinsmoke siblings all went too (at least until sanji broke off from the family at some point) and its run by Judge Vinsmoke, their father.
i am thinking that the Vinsmoke kids would still be genetically modified and Kuma would be a cyborg in this too.
design stuffs:
Ichiji: i tried to make him as punk as he would feasably get away with living under his father's rule. Big "combat" boots, fingerless gloves, black undershirt. He likes his style and would probably go all out if he didnt have to conform to his school uniform, thus i put a little heart on his boots.
Niji: i also made him like his style. The rings on his fingers, his nikes shoes, his big headphones. Like a gamer who thinks this is what fashion is. I think he would love listening to music too so i put his heart on his headphones.
Yonji: big stakly guy. Hes a lot more hands-on than his brothers so i put lots of emphasis on that area. i put his heart on his hand wraps because i think he would really love fighting. I think that Yonji is most like his father in that enjoyment, but i think Judge wouldnt like how casual Yonji's style is.
Reiju: y2k queen. I love this design on her so much im so bummed that she would have already graduated from the academy and i cant put her in a Hit Me Baby One More Time-esque uniform outfit, shed fucking KILL THAT SHITTT. Anyway though, reiju's heart is subtle yet in plain view, the locket around her neck. i dont think she would let anyone look at the contents but i do think that absolutly it would be her mother on one side and her brothers on the other. She wouldnt like people looking at it because that would mean someone could see that her dad isnt in there and she would get it a lot of trouble with her father about it.
Power ranger fits: i made them full on power rangers. its what they deserve. Since reiju has a butterfly motif in canon, i thought it would be fun to also give her brothers a bug motif of their own. ichiji is a wasp, niji is a dragonfly, yonji is a stag beetle. If sanji stuck around, hed probably be a lady bug lol. Also the masks they wear, the eye window part, it’s like tear tracks coming out but in a way that doesnt look like thats what they are. But it’s meant to show how judge forcing his children to be these people is causing them pain.
thank you @zethsdumpster for being my Vinsmoke specialist and helping me come up with a lot of their design stuff!
Doflamingo: i tried to make him a Nasty Nasty man. Like if a used car salesman made it big. Like if Macklemore was MackleMORE. i love the idea that he likes to tan himself, but he doesnt take any of his clothes off to do so, so he just has the absolute craziest tan lines ever. i put his hearts on the gold chain around his neck, he loves his wealth but not much else. i love the idea of him having two very expensive watches on each wrist. there may be more watches up his sleeve too. i also gave him fluffy dice around his neck, like he's one of the cars that he's selling.
Rosinante: i couldnt get away much longer without putting the heart man into the heart 'game'. i couldve went off more with the hearts of his design but i didnt want him to become nearly as flashy as his brother. i wanted him to be understated and fade into the background when doflamingo is around. he is dead in this au btw sorry :/ this is his design when he passed, but doffy's design is present day him. anyway, Rosi's hearts are everywhere, its in the outline of his big huggable fluffy coat, its on his hat thats pulling him down, it would be on his shirt too if it wasnt covered by his coat in this image.
Bonney: SHEEES SO CUUTEEEE AAAAAAAA i love her. I based her design off of Avril Lavigne with her iconic necktie/tanktop/baggy pants looks. i tried to make her outfit look like she could feasibly fit in it when she ages herself up, especially her big ol shoes. the heart in her design is in her neck tie. The stereotypical visage of a dad is a man in a tie who goes to work, and she loves her dad, so her heart is in her dad tie.
Kuma: I didn't change much of him from his design in canon, but since bonney would be more in his life in this version, i wanted to give him more visual indicators of her being there. like the height chart on his leg, or the fuzzy hat she crocheted for him (she also made her own hat for herself). Also, the pattern on his shirt is one that looks like a paw, but if you took off that outer layer, if the pattern continued, the design would be a sun, and i just think that was really clever ehe ehe.
Hancock: Basically i tried to make her the baddest bitch in the universe. My program crashed like 3 times making her which is so funny. Procreate couldnt handle her. I based her design off of Medusa. at first i had her snake be made out of marble, but it eventually wound up at Obsidian. She has no visible hearts on her design and thats because it would be the scar on her back, which she tries to hide. i like the idea that this very visibly revealing outfit would be perfectly tailored and reinforced to never move a single inch to let anyone see what theyre not supposed to. I dont know how i would justify her being able to turn people into stone in this AU, so im just not going to make a decision on whether or not she can do that.
ive been working on these designs off and on ever since i made the first post on this au and im real happy i can finally put more out.
if you got to the end of this, thank you so much for reading~ i hope you enjoyed :)
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pwnyta · 3 months ago
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OK lock in. I had another idea so I doodled out another messy comic... Hear me out.
Soulmate AU The kind with the names on the wrist!
Robotnik had been soulmate-less for a couple decades before it finally showed up on his wrist but at that point he was over it. Hes already jaded with the idea of love and longing for family.
Meanwhile Stone was brought to an orphanage where they had his name surgically removed from his wrist when he was very young. He doesnt remember the name that was there.
When they meet, Robotnik smacks Stones hand and feels the connection between them but is confused as to why the name is different and thinks Stone is some type of plant for GUN to manipulate him or something...
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But he also kinda likes the feeling he gets when he touches Stone and gets a little addicted to it... sort of like he enjoys the jolt of the quill. For Stone he just knows being around Robotnik makes him happy no matter how much Robotnik smacks him around.
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Since Stone is always wearing suits, Robotnik never saw Stones wrist until Stone put up his sleeves while helping Rob recover from his injuries. When he asks about it he also learns a little about why he himself never had someone adopt him (he didnt have a soul mark until he was in his like 20s) and also he suspects that maybe Stones name isnt actually his real name.
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Blah blah shenanigans s3, explosion, Rob is miraculously alive still... w/e. When hes finally back on earth and he knows how he feels about Stone he decides to go out of his way to learn who Stone is and find out about his family to finally learns Stones real name to confirm hes THE ONE. (+finding out Stones parents died in a crash (or w/e) and Stone as an infant miraculously survived! So he definitely WASNT abandoned.(Had he been abandoned Rob woulda dealt with them))
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Rob has great news to share with his very pessimistic, way-too-understanding-as-long-as-Ivo-is-Happy-its-ok Soul Mate.
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And thats all I got..
Anyways I couldnt think of a name for Stone... You can suggest them if youd like.. Im not continuing this tho, I just thought it was a fun idea.
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livin4woso · 9 months ago
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Silent until spoken too-(arsenal x adhd! Reader)
Summary- growing up reader has always been told that they talk too much or too loud so when transferring to a new team they decide to take a new approach dont speak unless spoken too. Yet it only takes the young aussie to break the readers doubts and the rest of the team follow in persuit.
It was a fresh start for you but this time you need to make a good impression. The words of your mother rang in your thoughts,'no one likes the loud girl' it was something as much as you tried to explain she never understood your talkative behaviour or uncontrollable volume when you speak.
It was when you were 18 that you were finally diagnosed with adhd it was like a weight lifted of your shoulders that you never knew you were carrying to begin with. Knowing this information gave you clarity of why you did certain things yet you still could never justify them and you let the words of ignorant others to swirl in your mind.
Don't be the loud annoying one. Instead, be the opposite. Be silent until spoken too.
The first day of training had arrived quickly and you sat and hyped yourself up in your car to get all of your pent up energy out as you couldn't get rid of it by talking someones ear off then you had to do it some other way. You made your way into the changing room to be introduced to all the sqaud, which was relatively quick and filled with hand shakes and a few hi's and normal chat.
Until you reached the young aussie midfielder, she was a little bit older than you as you were just freshly 20, and she was 22, but there was something different about her a welcoming energy. "Hi, im kyra, but you probably know that.. wait, unless you didnt sorry i shouldn't assume" the words tumble out her mouth at rapid pace yet too you it was the perfect speed. "Hi im y/n nice to meet you" you say back holding your hand out "also i do know that you're kyra so don't worry" you reply letting go of her hand before making your way to your cubby to put on your boots.
Training began, and the negative thoughts still swirled in your mind each time you began to get more talking, which caused you to shut down into silence again, giving people one or two word answers. Yet eachtime you were with kyra you forgot all those doubts and it was if she just knew how to make you talk.
As you walked into lunch the words speeding out your mouth as fast as they could and your conversation getting gradually louder without you realising until one of the older girls commented "y/n can you stop shouting please the person you're talking to is right next to you not a mile away" lia said not meaning any harm but it sends you spiraling that if one person thinks that then soon enough everyone else will "oh right yeah im sorry" you respond in barley over a whisper while toying with the braclet on your wrist.
"Erm im sorry I'll leave you be now you probably want to talk to your other friends" you say to kyra with a forced smile as your thoughts consume you "no its okay come sit with us im sure they would love you and i like listening to you its fun" she said grabbing your hand and dragging you to the table where lessi and vic sat so there wasn't much of a choice.
Dinner was great, and it felt like you could speak without worrying that you are talking too much. Then came something slightly worse there was a pre training meeting which was going to cover what you were doing for the next couple weeks and important dates. Its not that you hate meetings but trying to sit still for so long without irritating the person next to you was the challenge.
The meeting dragged. Well, for you, it did that one hour felt like a year and of course being new you were sat right at the front next to kim and leah so you had to be on your best behavior. It started off okay. You could focus when jonas was talking, then you heard the clock tick, and that was all you could focus on. Then, about 20 minutes in your legs started bouncing, but that wasn't enough, so you started playing the finger drums on your thigh until kim gave you a death stare from next to you. After 40 minutes you'd zoned out completely just staring at the board as you let your thoughts wander you knew you shouldn't have but you couldn't help that you either had the attention span of a goldfish or could only pay attention to one thing.
The meeting had ended, and that's when leah snapped you out of your trance by waving her hand over your face "oi y/n, were you even listening to what i was saying.. the meetings over, " she said."Oh right, yeah, my bad, sorry, I'll get ready to go home, " you said, staring up at her, but as you were about to leave the room, she stopped you.
"Look i dont know whats going on but next time you need to pay more attention you were distracted the whole time and it might just have been nerves becauses it your first day but next time just be more aware" she said in a serious tone yet it had a hint of politeness to it as she meant well. However, at this point, you knew you couldn't hide your adhd forever, and it would give you a reason for your behaviour. "Oh right im sorry erm its my adhd its just hard to pay attention in meetings when i dont have something to fidget with but next time I'll be more prepared" you say your voice laced with worry waiting for her response.
"Well, why didn't you just tell us in the beginning we would have been much more accommodating for you" she says smiling back. "Honestly im not sure its just hard to talk about" you say back.
Since that conversation with leah, life and arsenal had become so much easier, and unlike the words of others, being the loud girl isn't so bad after all. You can't be the annoying one when you accompany yourself in people who don't find you annoying.
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whatifitis · 3 months ago
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♡ 150 reasons - LN 4 ♡
Summary: 150 reasons why lando loves you
Author's note: idk i thought it'd be nice
CW: literally just fluff
Hi baby!! :D
I saw this trend on tiktok just now and wanted to do it for you. I love you a lot and you know how hard it is for me to show it sometimes. I thought this could be a nice small way to at least show you a bit of how much I love you. My love for you knows no boundaries. <3
P.S. if there’s any misspelings dont say shit cause im dyslexic and you know that :(
Your smile
Your eyes
The way your eyes sparekl all the time
Your rosy cheeks
Your wavy hair (you hate it but u love it)
Your heart
Your brain
Your patience with evrything (including me)
Your honesty
Your inteligence
Your humor
The way you’re always there for anyone. Doesnt mater if u know them well or not
You always listen to people and help them when they need it even if your tired
You challenge me and help me become a better person
You never judge me
You make me feel safe
You believe in me, even when idont
You inspire me everyday whether it’s work related or just life in general
You’ve seen teh good and the bad in me and you still love me
You laugh at all my jokes even if they suck
You’re my best friend (🎶you can hear it in the silence🎶)
You respect my space when i need it, even if i go about it awfully (when writing ‘about it’ i accidentally wrote ‘tit’ :I)
You give the best fucking hugs 
When i get anxious, you always help me, even if it’s just when you sit with me and help me breathe 
You took the time to learn about me and my mental struggles so that you could help me better
You make life so much more better 
You remind me that i’m worth more than i think i do
You chose me
You make me blush and happy
Your music taste is amazing as well (btw i got us tickets to see Noah Kahan)
You’re like my personal google and dictionary
You get along with my family
My mum loves you (i think she loves u more than she loves me ngl)
You get along with max and you mock sometimes and it makes me laugh so much
You stay even if im mean and dont deserve it
You sacrifice a lot
You always put others before you 
You don’t mind my gaming (even when i keep you up late with my screaming)
You always listen to me talk about the things i like 
You hold my hand in public (it sounds stupid but it makes sense ok so shut it) <3
You never give up on me
You bring out the best in me
Max said he hadn’t seen me so happy until i met you
You make me feel lucky to have u
You support my career and stuff even though it gets really hard sometimes
You make the bad days better
You make everyday better as well, not just the bad ones
You never make me feel bad or ashamed about feeling certain ways
You always validate me when i need it
You never lie to me
You always tell me straight up when im the one in the wrong
The way you smell
The way you look when u see me
The way you hold me tight even if i’ve just raced singapore and am sweating out of every crevise
You stay strong for the both of us
Your attitude
Your kisses
You’re always down to play video games with me (IM SORRY FOR IT TAKES TWO I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS HARD)
The way you call me your love
You stand up for me even when im not deserving of it
Your cooking skills
The way you play with my hair
How we’re able to joke with eachother
The way you tell stories
The way you talk in general
How funny you were when telling me about work and snot shot out of my nose 
You match my freak
Your singing (even if its off key sometimes)
You never doubt me
U dont mind my clinginess (sorry about scaring u in the shower the other day as well)
You never tell me to go away
You always communicate with me
You plan things for our future
When you send me vlogs when im away (or even when im home but youre at work)
You make my heart feel full
You’re consistent with loving me. Whether you’re sad or mad or happy or anything, you still love me the same
Youre never too busy for me
The way we can just sit in silence together and do nothing but still have fun
The way you help me pack when im getting ready to travel
The way you pack my favorite snacks for me when im going away for a while
We can share victories together, big or small (lol big or small, ya know, like dicks)
You never make me feel alone
You watch stupid ass movies with me all the time
You dont get mad at me when you try to teach me to play valorant (it’s fucking hard, csgo is better anyways)
The way your face lit up and you started talking faster when you were talking to me about your favorite artist
The way you speak to me so gently when i need it
The way you make a playlist for every mood possible
The way you make a playlist for every book you read, even if the book was bad
How you insist we don’t have enough driving playlists so we always make more
The way you introduce me to new things (i still wont try fish, screw that)
Youre adventurous
You put up with my shananigens
The way you made a million stickers on whatsapp
How you always say ‘i love you’ with the ‘i’
When you tell me goodmorning and goodnight even if youre mad at me
How you help me dress better
How u kiss me in a way that screws me up forever
How you always ask me about my day
How you always put your leg on mine
How you show me how forever feels
How you put up with my stupidity (I REALLY THOUGHT THE MATTRESS WAS GONNA HELP)
You’re gonna be an amazing mum someday
How you spam me with tiktoks
Your laugh is the best sound ive ever heard
Youre beautiful inside and out
How u were able to make me laugh even after i’d poked by hand with a knife when i tried cutting an avocado
How you helped me escape the bed sheet when we discovered my new found claustrophobia
How you always rep mclaren and quadrant merch
How you always make backed goods and make them healthy sometimes so i can still eat them
How when we’re out and you can tell im anxious
And when you realize it you find small ways to ground me like holding my hands or tapping my foot with yours
You love the pictures i put in the new digital frame (you cant lie and say u dont like yassified alonso)
If im hungry in the middle of the night, you join me in snacking or ordering a whole pizza
How you know you’re lactose intolerant but still eat dairy filled foods
And how you lock me out the room when you have to deal with the aftermath of eating dairy
How you're already naming our future children
How you laugh til you cry at 3 in the morning from watching tiktoks 
And waking me up to watch them with you
How you get so excited when talking to me about the last book you read 
How you tell me about the book theories you hear and your own theories (violet’s mom was definitely venin)
How when u find me snacking in the middle of the night, you don’t question it
How we have dance parties in the living room
How you quote random things all the time, especially tiktok sounds
Your love for musicals
How you say “me and boq” every 5 mins
Your unconditional love for not just me, but everyone 
Your love knowing no boundaries
The way you didn’t get scared away when faced with so much hate and shit when we first started dating
Your strength
How you learned the “wait, they dont love you like i love you” thing in different languages
Your high streak on duolingo
Your creativity
Your piano skills
Your love for celsius (although it’s not good for you and you should probably slow down on them :( try coffee instead)
How you and my mum go shopping together all the time
How you’re invited home more than i am…
Your dedication to work
Your work ethic (it’s not the same as the reason above)
Your vast knowledge of everything in Marvel
How you interact with the fans
How you show me off in every way possibel (i might've said this already)
How you help me with quadrant shit
How you give me a room tour anytime youre somewhere new
The light you emit
The way you make everything so much brighter
How you always try to learn new things (we should try tarot reading again, that one was fun and we can scare the shit out of max with it)
The way you never let go no matter what
The way you always give back to people
The way you live everyday like it’s the last
The way you love me and hold onto me
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pinkmoonastro · 9 months ago
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Sexual Fantasies: Mars in Composite 1/2
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TAROT EDITION
Im on my 50 shades of grey erotica shitttt make the pronouns fit however you need to
1H/Aries: The Devil: This person has stamina for daysss. They love to see you whimpering, gripping the sheets begging for mercy. Sex with them is so much fun, its so spontaneous you love having sex all over the house. Sitting on top of the bathroom counter pent against the mirror thats still steamy from the shower yall just took. Bodies still wet. 9 of Pentacles: Come put that pussy on my lap! They want you to come sit on their lap and tell them about your day. Page of Pentacles: Lets go on a date but heres the twist he has you put on vibrating panties. Foreplay the entire car ride to dinner. You arrive at a very nice restaurant, one of your favorites. You get settled in the vibes are emulate the lights and dim the music is soft and comforting. Your making eye contact over a perfectly sweet and sharp glass of wine. He begins to enjoy watching have control over you with the push of a button. Ace of Wands: He's going to teach how he likes he likes to be touched. He talks you through it very softly but still so direct. Two of Pentacles: This goes along with touching him, he wants to put you to work so attentively you notice every little twitch and deep breath. Song: Discipline- Janet Jackson
2H/Taurus: Six of Cups: They love to buy you gifts. They want to know with certainty there serious about you and want you to enjoy the fruits of their labor. Thats the type of love they make too. Slow and steady you gotta get yours first. Seven of Pentacles: He takes you shopping then bends you over in the dressing room lifting up the dress he just bought you. Ten of Wands: He hand feeds you grapes as he's bonding you up. You feel the pressure from the ropes, deep breaths send shocks through your body. Your calm. Bent over on all fours. He looks at you and ask, Are you ready for your discipline? Judgement: Giving you backshots your bodies mesh into each other so well the rhythm so perfect. He leans down towards you feeling his weight on your body makes you moan he pulls you up towards him ''shhh be quiet". Four of Pentacles: He's so attentive to your body massaging you from the scalp to the soles of your feet. He knows all the tricks he has up his sleeve for you and needs you as relaxed as possible. Song: Say Yes- Floetry *i pulled a lot of the same cards in 3H and had to re pull you should read that one too*
3H/Gemini: King of pentacles: He plays it cool in public you may even think he's not even interested but in reality hes undressed you with his eyes so many times thinking about all the different places and positions he would put you in. Ofc sexually but its more than that. He has plans to change your life, making sure he's forever imprinted on you. Nine of Wands: You would go to war for each other. The bond you share deeper than you ever thought it would be. You balance each so well. The physical and spiritual have come together in harmony. Nine of Swords: Girl... You wore him out. He didnt know you could go for so many rounds. You drained everything out of him literally. Justice: He's never experienced sex the way he has with you. He's so happy to have met someone like you. It feels like hes been waiting for so long. Always being the person to satisfy in the bedroom but never satisfied. He feels he met his energetic equal. Five of Swords: The way he eats your pussy puts you in a trance. He moves his fingers in and out of you so precisely feeling your ques making your body levitate. It leaves you speechless. Song: Speechless- Beyonce *this one isnt as sexual i pulled alot of the same cards in 2H you should read that one too*
4H/Cancer: Four of Cups: The sexual appetite is unequal someone can also be ungrateful for the efforts applied by the other. Knight of Pentacles: This person can look so unsuspecting then you come together and they end up being so freaky your truly surprised to realize they study tantric sex practices. Always learning something new about sex teaching their partner new ways to experience something they may have done many times before. The Fool: Late night pull up, Off the don julio act a foolio! They pull up on you with the vibes. The mood is set, lights dim, incense burning, smoking and sipping the conversation just flowing over a fire ass playlist. Yall take yall time catching up its no rush. Then you get to doing what grow folks do when they grown and in love. Ten of Swords: This person will literally go to war about you. This makes me think of a video i seen where a couple was on an escalator and a person pranked them by flirting with his girlfriend infront of him and he yolked him up and she was so unbothered. Nine of Wands: Yea this placement gives toxic vibes, a lot of jealously and possessiveness. Some people like that though. Song: Mine- Kevin Gates / Hate it here- Moneybag Yo
5H/Leo: King of Pentacles: Its early in the morning, He's in the kitchen leaning against the countertop drinking a cup of coffee on a business call. You approach him still naked and blissful from last nights rendezvous. Ever so lightly kissing his left cheek then the right. Moving your way down to his neck, then the chest, making your way slowing down his body unzipping his pants looking into his eyes as he attempts to maintain his poise. Emperor & Empress: The fact that i pulled both the cards together says alottttt. This is a vibe. Your energy flows so well together. Sex with this person feels like you've met your equal. The relationship is so fun because you both enjoy the same pleasures, you both feel lucky to be with one another. When on dates everyone pays attention the energy is so strong, almost intimidating. You look so good together and everyone can tell it goes down in the bedroom. The intimacy builds stronger through the patience and the simple pleasures you experience together. Queen of pentacles: It turns him on to see you relaxed and in your element. Your tied to the bed eyes covered your senses are taken on a journey. Lighting brushing a peony up your body then bringing it around to your nose. Deep inhales and light moans taking in the light citrus scent. The room is covered in fresh flowers, it smells like love. Song: Dangerously in love- Beyonce *the cards picked for this one.... chefs kiss*
6H/Virgo: Knight of Cups: Both of you let the flood gates loose if you know what i mean. I just keep thinking about that 50 cent song have a baby by me baby be a millionaire. They think about what life will be like once you have a family together. Two of Cups: A dinner date but its in house candles lit the night is beautiful the stars are out. He cooks you a wonderful meal you enjoy it over a nice glass... or two or three... of wine then you become the meal. Page of Pentacles: Your meeting his family for the first time everyone loves you. Your sitting at the dinner table hes on the left of you. He puts his hand on your thigh squeezes. Your legs brushing up against one another. Adrenaline ripples like waves through your body. Six of Pentacles: He calls you over to him he has a stack of money in this hand smiling at you he re positions himself in the chair he pats his lap and motions for you to come to him. Straddling him you whine back and forth feeling him grow under you. Kissing, your bodies pressed into each other the bills start to shower you. Three of Wands: Laying in bed watching the sunrise talking about your future together, creating scenarios of what life will be like once you have children together, what their names will be, how you'd imagine they'd look, what you'll be spending time doing. Manifesting your life together watching the sunrise in each others arms. Song: Baby By Me- 50 Cent
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mythalism · 18 days ago
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re: my last post but being a little nicer and less pissed off this time. i am really just a vibes girl at heart like truly when i take the myers-briggs i am 99% intuition and 1% thinking and my intuition is always right but thats a post for another time. and i obviously value objectivity and i have done a lot of very logical, grounded analysis of v*ilguard placed completely within the text but i also believe that some things are. just vibes.
sometimes, you can FEEL when something is off. when something is made out of love and when something is made out of... whatever else. with v*ilguard, what comes to mind is fear, anxiety, insecurity, scorn, derision, and hilariously, pride. i feel the fear and anxiety of backlash and being canceled on twitter in the sanitization of the lore and the lack of flaws in its major characters. i feel the insecurity in the way they marketed the game as something it was not and tried to hide the lack of worldstates and wiped out the south of thedas as if the franchise's established history was something to be ashamed of (i havent forgotten the interview where they made fun of zevran and didnt know who he was). i feel scorn in the way lore that people spent 10 years analyzing is retconned, ignored and simplified, or how characters like varric become cheap plot devices and grabs for nostalgia rather than the fully fledged characters they used to be. i feel derision in the ridiculous fucking dialogue that uses the vocabulary of a 4th grader and sounds like a bad middle-grade novel. i feel the pride in ahistoricism of the narrative, in its condescending overall theme that feels intended to punish players who drew the "wrong" conclusions from their past writing, or the way they thought they could divorce a game so completely from its beloved roots as if the past three games that got them their place in the industry was a gangrenous, rotting limb they could not wait to cut off. the only time i ever feel any love from that game is in a couple of solas's better moments when it feels like trick's love for him is banging on the walls and screaming from the basement and you can only hear the slightest echo from under the floorboards.
when i play inquisition and origins, in contrast, i feel how much the devs loved that world, those characters (most of them... and with viv and sera and you can FEEL how much the lack of love from their writers stands out in comparison to the others. also anders.) and perhaps most importantly to the whole experience, ME!!!!! the depth and complexity of the lore and characters feels like a bridge that creates a relationship between the developers and the player borne out of our shared love for the world of thedas. they littered clues and mysteries and puzzles around that game because they knew we'd be smart enough to figure them out and would have so much fun doing it. they gave us morally complex characters because they trusted us to evaluate and draw our own conclusions about them. they allowed us to make complicated and sometimes fucked up decisions because they had faith in their audience to act like adults playing a fucking video game. for adults. da2 is being left out of this because there is definitely some hatred in that game but they managed to spin it to be juicy and interesting so it gets a pass and for the most part you can tell the characters at least were loved and they had faith in the audience to handle a balls to the wall banger tragic rollercoaster of a story. v*ilguard is like if someone made cocomelon knockoff youtube videos for babies except they fucking hated babies and were just using these videos to put on their resume for their next job. and maybe there were a few people there who DO love babies and want this to be something more than cocomelon, but they're the minority, and you can feel how the end product is not just making fun of the audience but of them too.
the whole game feels like an insult to the players and half of its own developers, and is trying to make fun of you for being there and playing the game in the first place. "here is your nerdy gay fantasy RPG slop that you whined about for 10 years, fucking shut up already and leave us alone." and we literally know this is true. gaider has tweeted about this several times now, a new thread a few days ago about how much of bi*ware at large HATED dragon age. the jason schrier article from 2019 uses the term "black sheep". its why half of the developers fucking left over the past 10 years and the only people left to make this game were people WHO THINK YOU ARE A LOSER AND WANTED TO MOVE ON TO MASS EFFECT!!!!!! and even the people who didnt want to move on to mass effect think you're stupid and interpreted the last game wrong and need to be taught a lesson. god no fucking wonder i never want to play this game again. i said i was going to be nicer and less pissed off at the beginning but you can see how riled up i got just writing this. rancid vibes.
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dasketcherz · 1 year ago
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thought i'd share my thought process for this fun lil piece / outfit in full display that i whipped out for beckory on valentines cuz i really had a lotta fun making it <3
OKAY first off, big thanks to @leaky-heart for helpin me gather some really cool outfit refs and for lending me resources where I can find a ref for bonnie's guitar in a 3d space. Thank you bestie, yar a life saver <3
Second, @/littleleaflings' jacket—goated af, will never stop gushin bout it aaaaAAA <3
Okay so looking at freddy & bonnie's designs—i am in love with how their dominant and accent colors are opposite of each other like a yin and yang situation. So i absolutely tried to incorporate that when rearranging the palette unto beckory's outfit
Fronnie's colors arent the only contrasting elements about them. Aside from their earrings, even their symbols are a pair—i love how freddy's is a lighting bolt but he is also associated with stars on the side cuz of his branding. While bonnie's is a star but he also has lightning bolts on the side (the purple accent in his fit) to match freddy
And to sprinkle a bit of beckory flair, i put stripe lines across their pants (if you look back on my ref sheet for the squad, the three amigos all have stripes somewhere in their fits, i purposely designed that to be their thing) just to also unify the patterns from their top
i gave tony a scarf to match greg's bow tie accessory. Its a combo homage to bonnie's headband and bunny ears in a way (cuz the ribbons on its ends look like droopy rabbit ears) i gave them gloves to compensate being unable to add punk bracelets on em cuz it would be too much for the overall look (same logic applies to the star shades, its to match with the top hat)
Also this was such a pure coincidence but i also realized beckory wears their fazwatches in the same placement as fronnie wears their earrings on. That actually makes me very happy, i think its a really cool coincidence
And as yall can see, Greg's jacket initially had stars on his sleeves (like it does in the ref), but i decided against putting it in the final cuz im startin to think it might look cluttered and hard to read from afar and tbh, I really liked how the translucent sleeves turned out... I didnt want the star pattern to cover it up lol
And thats pretty much it, thank you coming to my ted talk!! <3
if youre interested to see more of my art process compilation like this you can check over on my ko-fi page, you can support me by buying me a latte cuz I am planning to post more exclusive stuff like this over there in the future so I hope yall look forward to that! I deeply appreciate yall and thank you so much in advance!!
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pottersmiracle · 1 year ago
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Did you draw me?
Sean Diaz x Fem! Reader
warnings: fluff-daniel annoying sean but reader finding it cute-estaban being a stereotypical dad-flustered sean-sean calls reader amor (love)-use of y/n-i think thats it
summary: its a normal Saturday afternoon at your boyfriends house, you would go over there most weekends and his family loved you. This time while your hanging out with his brother and dad you catch him drawing you.
a/n: finally writing for the loml - sean listens to the smiths fight me on that - not proofread don’t kill me
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“Come on! I wanna show you what i made!” Daniel pulled your hand to drag you to his room and your boyfriend sitting next to you rolled his eyes, “dude leave her alone! She doesn’t want to see your project.” You gently smacked his arm, “yes i do actually.” And you followed Daniel to his room.
Seans dad laughed at him, “you’re lucky she puts up with you.” Sean shook his head and mumbled, “it’s shocking isnt it.” Sean got off the stool he was sitting on and went to the couch as he dad laughed again, he laid on it with his sketchbook in hand.
After a few minutes you and Daniel came out of his room and back to where Sean and his dad still were, “have fun?” His dad asked. “Yeah! Y/n thought it was cool.” Daniel said excitedly as he say on one of the stools. I nodded in response. His dad laughed, “thats good.”
You listened and watched Daniel and Esteban joke around about his school and other things for about 10 minutes before you decided to check on your boyfriend. You walked around the couch so you were behind him, you were gonna scare him but then you looked closer at his sketchbook. You watched him add more details and you smiled when you notcied it was a drawing of you, Daniel, and Esteban but the main focus of the drawing was you, you had the most details.
“Did you draw me?” You asked him making him jump and sit up, “w-what? What are you talking about?” He asked, a blush spreading on his cheeks. You smiled wider, “let me see your sketchbook.” He closed it quickly and held it to his chest, “no.” You both didnt notice Esteban laughing and watching you guys.
“Please?” You practically begged him with the sweetest voice you could give him. He didnt budge though as much as he wanted to, but you eventually grabbed it from him and he jumped off the couch to chase you, you ran into the the kitchen and stood behind Esteban and he helped hold back sean as you flipped through the pages to find the drawing.
“Hey! Dad- let me go! Give it back!” Sean struggled in his dads arms and Daniel laughed watching the chaos. Sean saw as you flipped to the page and he groaned and stopped struggling, his dad stepped closer to you so he could see it too.
“Aww Sean.” You said looking at the drawing. He didnt respond, he just hung his head in embarrassment. “Aww.” His dad teased him poking Sean in the sides. You leaned against the counter and flipped through other pages of his sketchbook, that wasnt the only drawing he’s done of you.
“Alright kids its time for me to get back to it. You know where ill be if you need me.” Esteban said squeezing you and seans shoulder softly and ruffling daniels hair as he walked past him on the way to the garage. “I have to finish my project in my room any way.” Daniel said running to his room.
“Oh don’t hurry back!” Sean said to daniel and walked towards you. You closed the book and looked at him, he was closer to you now and you couldnt help but recognize how tall he was compared to you.
“They’re amazing Sean.” You said softly and wrapped your arms around his torso and hugged him. He hugged you back, “thank you amor.” When you pulled away he kissed you softly, lifting your chin up towards him.
“Make sure you guys are keeping it pg in here yeah? You are in a public slace.” You heard from his dad making you both pull away, “dad..” Sean groaned shaking his head as you both looked towards the garage and saw esteban walking towards the counter and picking up a tool, “forgot this. Have fun you two,” he joked, “but not too much! Don’t do anything i wouldn’t do.” He winked at the both of you making Sean groan and you laugh.
He walked back down to the garage and you heard the door shut and Sean sighed, “my room?” “Sure.” You said still laughing. He grabbed his sketchbook off the counter and took your hand with his empty hand and you both walked to his room.
You two ended up taking an amazing nap together.
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is-on-its-way · 1 month ago
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a peek into mulders trauma re raising a little girl…
Inspired by this tweet:
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He sighed as he put the key in the door, his face prereddening at knowing what was in store. Emily had been chattering the entire way home about telling mommy the exciting thing that happened at target. He had tried to smile along and be normal for her.    
She poked him in the chin with a tiny slightly damp five year old finger, bringing him out of his gloomy reverie.
“Poppa, are you sad?” She lifted her head off his shoulder and peered around to look at his face.
He couldn’t help but smile at her, she melted his heart. Every word, every gesture, and angle, so like her mother and yet so like her. Freer than Scully, untouched by the trauma and the heaviness of their world. His heart fluttered with the surge of adreniline he felt at what couldve happened to her if she wasnt just innocently lost and the store employee hadn’t found her. 
“No bub, I’m just a little shaken up at losing you in the store.”
“But it was fun!” She kicked her feet on his hip as they walked in. 
“What was fun?” Scully said walking out from the kitchen a spoon in her hand, her face lighting up when she saw her daughter’s smile.
The pang of guilt hit him hard.
She took Emily’s face in her free hand and kissed her cheek. “Hi my baby” 
“I got lost.” Emily said proudly.
Scullys eyebrows shot up “Oh?” 
She glanced at mulder amused, but cocked her head when she saw him ashen faced. 
“Where did you get lost?” She asked jovially her eyes lingered on him for a moment, it felt like enternity. He was supposed to protect her, scullys only child. He almost… he couldnt think about it. 
“Target!” He heard her say through a tunnel.
“Well tell me all about it while poppa puts the stuff away.” She leaned forward to take emily from him. All he could manage was ‘Thanks’ quietly as he helped her into Scully’s arms. He pulled her ridden-up shirt down and then went to the bathroom with the drug store things they’d picked up. A new pink dinosaur toothbrush and equally jarring bright pink toothpaste with cartoon characters on the tube for Emily and some stuff the house needed. 
He stood in front of the sink and held the little toothbrush in his hand. So small the tiny bristles. Kid sized. 
She was so tiny for her age. Just like Scully had been, or so she’d told him at Emily’s first pediatrician appointment after they’d brought her home. 
He sank to the toilet and held the brush in his hand as tears blured his vision. He could’ve lost her. He had lost her. He could’ve really lost her. Just like Sam. Just like Scully. Her joy, and her innocence, and her fierce fearlessness lost. And it yet again wouldve been his fault. Having to come home to tell Scully. He sat up at the thought rubbing his face, trying to escape it.
Visions of fleeing sprang from deep in his psyche as they did whenever the universe made him aware of just how much of a fuckup he was. 
They’d be better off. He invited chaos into their lives. 
They didn’t deserve that. 
He didn’t deserve them. 
A soft knock on the door told him he’d been in here way too long. 
“Mulder” she called through the door. “Are you okay?”
He wiped his tears quickly but more came. “Yeah” his wobbly voice gave him away.
She opened the door.
And when he looked up at her blinking, life falling apart in his hands, she came to him and knelt between his legs and closed hers around them, holding him together. 
A hand to his cheek, her gentle soothing whisper “Its okay.” 
“No its not. What if she had…” His voice shuddered
“But she didnt, kids get lost in stores, it wasnt anything more than that.” She stroked his hair.
“I was so scared.”
“Oh mulder.” She squeezed his fingers in hers. “I know.” 
And he was bending over to bury his face in her shoulder as she wrapped her arms around his neck. He pulled her onto his lap from her kneeling position. And she breathed an “Oh” in surprise, but only hugged him more firmly, as he tried to calm himself down.
When the tears stopped falling, he asked quietly “Where is she now?” 
“Watching Mr. Rogers or…” She checked her watch. “Lamb Chop probably by now.”
He looked up at her bleary eyed “I’m sorry.”
She shook her head slightly with a sad look on her face. “Theres nothing to forgive, except maybe yourself.” She brushed her fingers on his chin. 
“I don’t deserve you. Either of you” He wanted to give her an out.
She leaned her forehead to his. “Of all the people in the world, you are the only one who deserves us.”
He pulled her fingers to his lips, but couldn’t meet her eyes.
“I’ll say it until you believe it.” She whispered, lips at his ear.
He sighed into her collar bone.
@today-in-fic if this qualifies…
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sramoonlight · 2 months ago
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Robin for a night
Content you’ll see here: bat sis, batfamily, reader
English its not my first language so please be patient!
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The batcave wasn’t a place where they usually hang out, but since you moved to the manor you had the weird idea to wait for them to go on patrol or see them once they come back, usually you do it alone maybe with Titus or with Alfred the cat but this time you were playing cards with Cassandra.
It as 12 o’clock and you were waiting for Damian, well, Bruce was
— Achu! — You sneezed covering your nose, you thought you were starting to get sick but there was nothing staining your hand
— Gezz (reader) maybe you caught a cold after all this nights — you knew that wasn’t true, you don’t sneeze without reason only if-
Damian appeared taking his usual militar position next to his father, he looked normal but he can’t lie to a twin sense
— Im ready for patrol, father —
— No, you’re not, you’re sick — You pointed causing Cassandra to raise an eyebrow not knowing why did you say that, of course, for her eyes Damian was absolutely good
But then he sneezed, a deep one that you knew he was holding back
— I can’t take you out like that, you can get worse — Bruce said taking off the domino mask on Damian’s face, he groaned on response not happy to put on time out
You chuckled at his reaction looking at your cards again, you kept playing with Cassandra as you overheard the conversation behind you.
Damian hates when someone sees him as weaker, but about this? You can’t argue with your dad, because you know, once he gets a very bad flue you’ll get one too
— But you’re right, it’ll be hard without Robin — Your father said and Cassandra looked at him, you mumbled something to ask for her attention in the game
— You can pick a replacement, I’m sure Tim would be happy to be Robin again —
Another groan, Damian doesn’t look happy about it
Eye contact
Your head moved to face the floor, you can already know what is in his mind and you need to think in something to not do it
— I request (Reader) as my substitute for tonight — damn demon!
— I can’t, we don’t look alike anymore — you tried to convince Bruce that it was a mistake
And you had a point, your hair was longer than Damian’s so it would be weird to see Robin with at least 20 cm longer hair
— You can have the hoodie at all times, it won’t be weird, Damian does that sometimes — Your instantly looked at Cassandra, she chuckled at your reaction.
— That’s fine with me, I’ll use this to bond more — The worst was that Bruce is happy with that
Damn family!
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The Robin costume felt weird on you, you had almost the same seizures as Damian but you need to take a deep breath every some time, you loved your father but he doesn’t have any chest.
The Batmobile doesn’t feel weird actually, it’s like being in a car that has ultra futuristic mechanics, not too futuristic, without knowing much you can point at certain buttons knowing what they do.
Going back to the point, Damian let you borrow his katanas just because you didn’t have your weapons at the manor
And god, you can’t say that you missed the feeling of having that on your hands
— Let’s go Robin — Speaking of feelings, you have to admit that being called Robin gives you pride
Like if that tittle gives you magic.
You ran along Bruce chasing minor delinquents, just a few punches and they’re out
Who said that being a vigilante could be this fun? Still, you had to pressed back the smile on your face, Damian doesn’t smile when he’s on patrol
— You’re enjoying yourself — Bruce said looking at the way you kicked the thief’s face, not too hard because you didn’t wanted to break his jaw
— sure I am! This is so fun — you cleared your throat adjusting your voice to sound like Damian’s it wasn’t perfect but you can say it gives the vibe.
Being a vigilante felt so refreshing, you didnt punched to kill and that makes your heart feel lighter
— Robin careful! — in a blink you saw one of the thieves approaching with a name in his hands
And in a blink you unsheathed the katana on your belt
Cling cling
One more hit and you’ll be over with this, you just need to disarm him
“Go for the chest!”
A voice shouted and without hesitation you obeyed thinking it was Bruce giving you an advice maybe to end this duel faster than ever
But you couldn’t be more wrong.
You didn’t notice when something red stained the katana, neither when you felt your hands so wet that you had to let go of it, but instead of being dropped to the floor you could see how it is standing by its own
Well.. not like that
— Oh, oh god — Words left your mouth, not impersonating someone but being your true despair, you just stabbed that thief.
Hands shaking as you looked at your father, with eyes as open as yours Bruce doesn’t know what to do, like time was just stopped
Should you take it out? No, that’s stupid
And even if you tried, your hands are shaking enough to not let you do anything else
Why does this disturb you? You’re not new to killing people, but it was the first time in weeks
The first time Bruce saw you doing it.
Your head screamed to you, asking to run, to do something and you can only see how Bruce punched his opponent before running towards you
Your body moved by its one, you ran away as quickly as you could, running away from what Bruce is planning to do to you
Of course he will, right? His number one rule is no killing and you just disobeyed.
It doesn’t matter if he shouted your name not caring if he was on patrol, your legs couldn’t stop moving
You screw this up, on your first night as Robin
What is he going to do to you?
What is going to be your punishment?
Your lungs asked for air but you didn’t listed until you found a place to hide, the hood wasn’t up anymore and you had to cover your ears
Not because it was loud out there, but because you wanted to stop the screams on it
Screams that you hear when it’s dark out there, when the moon can’t be seen and you’re alone on that London room
And what makes it even worse, the way you can’t find air, the suit felt too tight for a moment like it was suffocating you
— (Reader)! — you heard someone calling you but you can let them see you, you know that when you panic and cry like this you can only wait for punishment.
Heavy breaths, your heartbeat feeling even more lauder now that your hands are on your ears
You’re alive and they’re not.
— Hey little one, come here — a pair of arms took you out of your hideout, you tried to fight back, pushing him away to do something
But he embraced you, that pair of arms hugged you tightly
— Shh, it’s okay — Bruce hugged you trying to calm you, to calm the voice in your head — I’m not mad, it’s okay —
A kind tone that makes you cling to him, the tears don’t stop but instead you have someone to hold you
— Oracle, send someone to.. — you didn’t hear that last words, instead you keep sobbing in your dads arms
And that man doesn’t let you go until you can’t cry anymore, it felt like hours.
He didn’t cared, he kept rubbing your back as your hiccups made you sound like a kid, and you were, the worst of all was that you were a kid playing to be a vigilante
You rubbed your eye wiping away the tears, finally you could speak
— What happened there (reader)? You were doing so good — Bruce didn’t stopped talking to you in a kind tone, you wondered if he just do that by his own or if he learned to do it
— I- I don’t know, I was just fighting and then my instinct told me to do it — a short explanation let Bruce humming in response, another rubbed in your back asking you to continue.
— I didn’t want to, I wear I didn’t —
— I know, don’t worry, Oracle made sure that he’s okay — You felt better knowing that you didn’t kill him.
Bruce wiped away the tears in your eyes, you could only hear the silence as he let you thought for a moment
He pulled up the hood hiding your face from everyone, his arms lifted you carrying you like a big baby, or that was what you feel
— Let’s go home, we had too much for tonight —
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The sun went up and you didn’t notice when it was another day, you hugged your knees on the floor
You don’t know where you’re at, you just know that you jumped out of Bruce’s arms to hide again, not even taking off the Robin suit
This time no one went after you, knowing that you needed time to process.
Someone knocked, now you could see that you were under a table on the library and that someone was Jason.
— Space for one more? — He joked getting under it with you, his legs sprayed not even trying to fit in, just being by your side as you kept in silence
— I know the feeling, you were used to do bad things and once you do them again it hits you — words that didnt helped your heart feel better, instead making you remember the moment
— When I was your age I did one of those too —
— No, you didn’t —
Your voice sounded rough, consequences of crying and not getting any water after it.
— I did, as Robin too — Jason hugged you by the shoulders pushing you closer — I was so mad that I moved without thinking, and once I knew, that man was on the floor — you looked at him, he looked back
He wasn’t lying, he had the most honest eyes you had seen
— How do you deal with it? — you asked, not because of his story, because you knew he used to kill as much as you did.
He thought for a moment, his hand rubbing your shoulder
— You never do, you just live with that — the answer was one you were expecting, your mother used to say the same thing when you ask that question
— But, that doesn’t calm the storm in your heart — He pointed at the symbol in your chest
— You did bad things, but it’s on you if you want to keep doing it — it felt weird, the man who killed, that doesn’t hesitate before shooting someone said that to you — Change for the better, and undo all the pain you caused —
In a moment you hugged him, hiding your face from the world
— Let’s get you out of this thing, little one —
Your head doesn’t hurt anymore and the screams are no longer there, you still need to take a moment but you know that no one blames you for what you did
You’re a different person right?
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