#i didnt mean to post this just save as a draft oh well

[dollfat]

no one asked but i played the iron throne at least a dozen times and wanna write down my advice for freeing all the prisoners

BEFORE GOING DOWN IN THE SUB

this should be the first thing you do after long resting.

longstrider on everyone. boots with click heels if you have them. potions of speed or haste right before opening the hatch recommend. any gear that allows free movement as enemies will try to ensnare you. misty step also useful.

im writing this assuming you broke wyll's deal with mizora as i have no experience with the other way. i dont think it changes much besides difficulty freeing ravenguard.

this is not an exact guide due to the random nature of the game. the rounds will become less and less predictable. if something goes wrong in the first couple turns its easier to start over. like if all your attacks miss or the enemies successfully ensnare you. or highest initiative goes to the player in the back of the party, they'll have to travel farther or waste a bonus action jumping over the others. and every movement counts in the first few turns.

COMPANIONS TO BRING:

Wyll for plot reasons, i usually give him the click heel boots

shadowheart/ any cleric who knows sanctuary, guardian of faith, or spirit guardians

any class with multiple attacks like fighter, ranger, barbarian, etc

rogue or monk who can dash as a bonus action

GENERAL TIPS:

every door can be opened by shooting at a nearby lever, there's no need for lockpicking or knock spells. this is why multiple attacks are essential.

prisoners cannot be moved by force, i.e. being thrown or teleported with dimension door. none of them will try and attack enemies or help others, just disengage and dash. i dont recomend using sanctuary on them as that might mess with their pathfinding, maybe i was unlucky tho.

this level is huge and prone to glitches as more enemies spawn. using followers like a ranger's companion or spiritual weapon is risky for this reason. or maybe my steam deck is just weak.

ROUND 1:

go down the ladder, you'll be in a four way intersection. there are people to rescue to the North (same direction facing when level starts) East and West. you do not need to go south to save anyone.

there are two doors you can open in that immediate area, the prisoners may talk to you as you pass. you can free them now or on your way back. as they have the shortest distance to run, they're less of a priority as the prisoners down the halls.

to the West is ravenguard. player 1 should get as close to the door as possible with dash and misty step. ignore enemies for now. shoot the levers by the doors where there's people if you have extra moves.

to the North is a room filled with water, one person is behind a door you can shoot with an arrow and a woman tied down you HAVE to free with Help. get as close to her as possible.

enemies will keep spawning in this North room so dont try and fight them. player 2 that heads this way should be able to dodge attacks or shrug off a lot of damage.

to the East is an enemy who will likely opportunity attack you. ignore for now but plan to kill as it will try and trap the escapees.

player 3 should get as far into the East hallway as possible. from a certain position in the room you can shoot both door levers without moving. plan to kill both enemies as they'll attack escapees. characters with multiple attacks highly recommended.

player 4 is for assistance. i recommend a cleric heading West toward ravenguard to attack the enemy in the hall. you'll want to cast sanctuary on ravenguard as soon as he's free. he's unlike the other prisoners as you can control him.

ROUND TWO:

in the West hallway, free ravenguard and the prisoners to his left. as soon as you can control him head toward the ladder. a cutscene will play before you can leave the room. after the cutscene ravenguard cannot move and will need to be helped or wait till the effect wears off next turn. cast sanctuary on him ASAP. attack nearby enemies but dont worry if you dont defeat them this turn.

in North room, free tied down prisoner and one in the cell. start heading toward the right hallway where omelleum is. enemies will continuously spawn from the center so dont try and fight them. just hope they dont kill the escapees.

East room, shoot levers to free escapees. attack enemies who will try and stop them. if escapees are ensnared you can Help them or wait for condition to end.

in the East hallway there are explosive barrels. if theyre in the way the escapees will attack them. this could cause injury and activate the lever to close the door. the npcs are not smart enough to hit the lever so you'll waste a turn opening it again. move the barrels or make sure the player doesn't block their path.

West. once sanctuary is cast on ravenguard you can finish off the enemies in the East hallway or start heading back to the center room with the ladder.

ROUND 3:

if something goes wrong and you cant complete these actions this round. keep moving/attacking and try again round 4.

West. once ravenguard is free make him dash toward the ladder. do not make him attack or he'll lose sanctuary.

mizora spawned crabs around ravenguard but he should be protected by sanctuary. the player should not attack them as they'll explode and cause splash damage.

once every escapee is out of the room you can ignore the enemies and close the door. they'll attack the door or growl. start heading back to the center room.

North. ignore enemies and continue heading to the right. shoot the lever to open the door. you'll need to Free omelleum like the tied down girl. attack enemies if you have a spare action but do not leave omelleum's side.

East. finish attacking enemies and help anyone ensnared. start heading back to the ladder.

Center. the two escapees in the North hallway are at the biggest risk due to the constantly spawning enemies. if they are lucky and outrun them, you can start closing doors on the enemies by shooting the levers at an angle or with a thunder arrow. the enemies are not smart enough to attack the lever.

if the escapees cannot outrun the enemies, this is a good place to cast spirit guardians or guardian of faith.

be sure not to block the ladder or escapees will lose a turn.

dont forget the two prisoners in the center room if you didnt free them while passing by.

ROUND 4+

each player should be heading toward the ladder in the center room. do not block the ladder. make sure you're close enough to get to the safe pod in one turn with dash.

Omelleum has a move like dimension door that will allow him to teleport himself and one ally to the safe pod. once in the safe pod do Not go back out. you could block the ladder or risk not returning in time.

[ultimateinferno]

I got possessed with a compulsion to post a collection of memes that sum up my Mistborn OC, Brace. I'd post a photo of him but I hit the image limit. So here's every pic on my art blog tagged as him (if tumblr permits) (I don't post him enough to have it count as a lot)

[dojae-huh]

For some reason I got a message saying that something went wrong with my ask,so I’ll send it again. Basically I was sharing the views from this twitter user about the airport video:

“i have some points that id love to highlight regarding this particular matter:

1.🐻 gave him a POKE . one fingered light POKE. and the expected move for this relay thingy is you know.... the same one as the previous player gave to the second person which in this case IS A POKE. but no . no. mr. jaedobaiter here just had to positioned his hand like THAT.

2.that was definitely NOT what poking is . by any means.

3.notice how 🐰 didnt prolong his "mystery poker" search cause well. he probably kinda knew who the perpetrator was. yeah. mmmhhhhmmm”

My point is that these were exactly the same things that went through my head when I watched the second video (https://x.com/jaedoloops/status/1844700811588460855?s=46&t=rTl1nDzicm9BJ7P539UIhw); like not going to lie that grab was crazy. At first I hadn’t seen this one and was like ok why is everyone talking about this? (In jaedoland of course) Like guys it’s just a silly teasing moment…then I saw that second video and was like OH…

Also about the sweater thing; I thought exactly the SAME thing; I saw a close up video of Do and was like…yeah that’s not yours. Anyone who’s a big fan of him knows exactly what kind of fashion he tends to go for and it’s definitely not disheveled/with holes. But you know whose style is a perfect fit for that sweater? Right.

Between this and that fancall with Jae giving a TMI about him I’ve been woken up from the jaedo slumber; I’m not going to lie I was coping by watching DJJ content (which I have some thoughts about that I would like to discuss here,but since I wasn’t here during that era I’m not sure if they’re talking points that have already been covered,but we’ll have plenty of time to rediscuss certain things I’m sure)

Link

It is better to pre-save a long post as a draft. Usually Tumblr refuses to send Asks with full unedited links (what seemingly happened in your case), but sometimes it mulfunctions and loses a message.

I saw another post noting the difference in Hyuk's and Jae's hands (with magnified close ups). I didn't mention it before because to make the conclusion about Jae (the one you wrote down) with conviction we need to know how Haechan himself poked Jaehyun (with a pointed finger, or tapped with an open palm). Whether Jaehyun indeed changed the gesture to a new one, or followed suit.

It's nerdy nitpicking, honestly. For the sake of being factual and not going into shippery rosy land. Jaehyun does like to pat Do's butt in any case. And a crowd of fangirls around won't stop him.

About DJJ period. Tumblr has Archive option, you can sort posts by year and month (just open this blog in a new tab, outside of your feed, Archive will be in the header). Thus you can catch up with what was discussed in 2023 about the unit and JaeDo flirting and giggling. To be honest, I didn't write much back then (as I already proved my point about dating in 2018-2019), just enjoyed bts videos on my own.

[rrxnjun]

CONGRATS ON UR MILESTONE U DESERVE IT SO MUCH🥳🥳🥳

oh my u got me blushing with that🥹🤭 but thank u for understanding💕 but i wish i wasnt this busy that i can barely open an app and just reply to someone🥲🥲

OH GOD IM READY TO CRY!! WILL GET SOME TISSUES WHEN U POST IT!!! although i'm kind of happy about it cuz i think i'm due to a good cry (also started to write my reply the day before u posted the fic and i couldn't finish writing it☹️ so now that i probs failed my exam this will be an amazing remedy)

OH MY LIEBESTRAUM MY BELOVEDDDD U JUST MADE MY DAY WITH SAYING THAT IM SO HAPPY OH MY GOD!!!!!🥳🥳🥳

im sure u did justice to them!!! but thats for sure that it was like 19736474 times better than the ones online cuz i actually understood ur one😵‍💫so thank u again!!!! and simple songs are the best i love them so muchhhh

THAT KINDA SOUNDS FUN BUT I UNDERSTAND THE ANXIETY PART CUZ I COULD NEVER DO THAT!!! the fact that u got so stressed u started to use german must have been a crazy amount of stress dude😧 LMAO IM GLAD IT MADE U MORE COMFORTABLE THO AND I HOPE U WILL ENJOY HUNGARY THEN🥳🥳 well there are definitely people who speak english and there are also many things written in english and if u need help with travel/public transport i can recommend u an app that u can set to english!! but the people are well kinda rude most of the times☹️ but my exchange student friend didn't really have any problems with anything!! she could only speak english and thai so she only used the app and in shops there is most likely a person with basic english knowledge and she didn't have a problem at all!! SO I HOPE I DIDNT CHANGE UR MIND ABOUT COMING HERE CUZ ITS VERY PRETTY AND STUFF!!!

GOOD LUCK FOR THE REST!!!! I HOPE IT WILL STAY STRESSLESS!! WELL MINE IS DEFINITELY GOING! CANT SAY ITS GOOD CANT SAY ITS BAD ITS JUST GOING🥲

oh my u are not annoying at all!!! i understand that so much daniel is such a lovely guy!!!

U SHOULD ADMIT IT TO URSLEF ITS FUN🫡 damnnn tbh very understandable jikjin is such a good song so ur spotify wrapped is going to be amazing😌 TREASURE MAP IS SO FUNNY!! although i don't think i ever finished it .-. but all of the ones i saw were so fun!!! AND ADMITTING TO BEING IN LOVE WITH MY BF JIHOON IN BROAD DAYLIGHT IS CRIMINAL /j also about the posts i saw u make about jihoon, i understand u so much dude🤭 that guy is just so amazing and cool and everything🥲

thank u for not minding them what u wrote means a lot;-;💕💕I HOPE UR DAYS A FILLED WITH JOY TOO U ARE AMAZING!!!!💖💓💝

(and also expect another ask about me yelling how much i love ur new chenle fic sorry not sorry🫣) (liebestraum anon💕💕)

THANK U SM!!!! ❤🤍 it means a lot🥺🥺 awh i wish u werent so busy either bc it must be stressful. i do have a lot on my plate too but im still on this app more than i should be so props to u i think😭😭😭

omg noOO ☹☹ i really did activate my inner john green at the last two scenes because of the looking for alaska reread but hopefully it doesnt bring tears altho it was a cathartic write for me bc i resonate w chenle sm 😭😭 (not on the rich part im very much broke). and noo ☹☹ i hope the exam went better than u anticipated,, however it really do be like that sometimes and remember that one failed exam doesnt define u and you'll do better next time!!!

havent made any progress w liebestraum since my last reply bUT the outline is all finished and i have a little something in my drafts to tease it however im saving it until im at least done w 3/4 of the fic to post it bc we both know how it went the last time i posted a teaser for it 🤡

DHSJSK im glad to hear that also i think it may be bc im the first slovak person actually fluent in english to try to translate the song 😭😭😭 (yael is popular w the younger generation i think)

I mean i was stressed BECAUSE of the german i didnt just randomly bust it out bc of stress 😭😭 the lady at mcdonalds understood eng thank god but the other one did not and was rlly rude abt it telling me to get german lessons ☹ first of all i DID,,, for 6 years‼‼ second of all do i gotta learn the language of every country i visit now??? U WORK AT THE MAIN STATION OFC TOURISTS WILL BE THERE. the only german words that left my mouth that day were hallo, winston blau bitte, danke and auf wiedersehen 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i was less anxious abt vienna bc i was like i mean i learned german so i cant be THAT lost but i dont know a single word in hungarian so that might be difficult- DJSJS however if those plans do come true i will hit u up and u can send me all the tips and tricks (and also your address so we can hang out /j)

"ITS GOING" GIRLIE THE WAY I FELT THAT

not admitting yet i need a week or two more and to actually learn their names bc i still struggle with jeongwoo junghwan and jaehyuk for some reason. DO THEY HAVE TO ALL HAVE J NAMES ????? i saw only a few treasure map eps but once i stan someone new i tend to go obsessive and watch most of the stuff thats out so pray for me 😭😭😭😭 also im happy to announce to you that your boyfriend is now OUR boyfriend !!!!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳 hope u dont mind sharing ❤❤❤❤ you cant just expect me to see a guy with painted nails and not fall in love with him like. come on. this was given.

hope u enjoy my fic and that i dont disappoint, im def looking forward to hearing your thoughts!! also i hope u have a nice evening and weekend, love you lots xx

[postapocalyptic-cryptic]

ok I’m back I did some actual research this time Transformers: Lost Light?

HI AGAIN dlkjfhlkj

(for this ask game!)

favorite character: oh absolutely Drift. idk what it is about him he's just making me insane.

least favorite character: from a "god I hate your guts" perspective it's Getaway but like. I like him because he's well-written and interesting. From characters I didn't really find interesting? I never really got into the Scavengers.

brOTP: Drift and Rodimus the BESTIES. Whenever I write them just assume they’re amica because they are. It doesn’t matter that they never mention it I just know they are in my heart.

OTP: Drift/Ratchet I’m just. I’m squeezing them. So nice to have your OTP be canon.

OT3: shocking from the person whose brOTP is Drift and Rodi and whose OTP is Dratchet but. Drift/Ratchet/Rodimus. Ratchet and his emotional support 2/3rds of the Lost Light command.

NOTP: God I don’t even know. There aren’t any ships from Lost light that really squick me out or make me upset bc I’m a huge multishipper. I guess Getaway/Tailgate, but I mean that was supposed to be horrifying, that was the whole point, so I don’t even know if it counts.

favorite storyline: oh wow so much of it was so good I don’t know how I could choose but I guess it’s the Dratchet storyline. The way their relationship develops so beautifully even though so much of it is in the background. Ough. I have a whole folder of screenshots of them being cute in the background.

least favorite storyline: like I said, I never got super into the Scavengers

what I wish had happened but didn’t: two things. first:I wish there had been an early on Megatron and Starscream encounter. I don’t think a Megatron redemption debate is complete without them interacting. second: I wish Drift and Rodimus had talked more about Drift’s exile. I want to see them working through that.

what happened I wish didn’t: ratchet,,,,

EDIT: I DIDNT POST THIS??? I SAVED IT AS A DRAFT BY ACCIDENT??? I am SO sorry I promise I wasn’t ignoring you oh my god

[uiharu-and-company]

Muahahahah! Here we go again!

THE SHIPPING EXTRAVAGANZA DAY 2

(Hilda)

(Please note, I will not do ships that have huge age gaps or are considered illegal/immoral) This time it’s the Hilda fandom! Let’s see what we have!

Frilda! Frida/Hilda:

This one is cute honestly! And I mean the whole ‘I’m your familiar’ stuff is just SO GAY. LIKE WHAT- To reference these guys are only like twelve so I suffice to say I ship them when they’re older, like late teens. I ship it a lot!

Frida/David:

I agree with my friend, they are pretty cute. Again ship them when they’re older, don’t see a ton of chemistry, just lots of cuteness. I ship it somewhat.

Hilda/David:

Makes sense actually, and they would have awesome chemistry. Like “Hey David! Let’s go do *dangerous thing*!” And then David says “Oh no here we go again-”. Kinda cute but I don’t personally ship it. Still ship worthy though.

Frida/Hilda/David:

Ooh a poly! I mean I can totally see their friendship becoming something romantic. Full group chemistry? Or just good interactions? Well duh totally. I like it, but not a huge shipper of it personally.

Gerdanna! Gerda/Johanna:

Okay cute and total power couple vibes. Enough said.

Gerda/Kaisa:

Not shipped as much, but it feels like sketchbook with a little more frick Alhberg and I will murder you if you hurt my librarian.

Sketchbook! Kaisa/Johanna:

Ah yes, what most of my blog is devoted to. Love them, love how they would interact, love everything about this! SKETCHBOOK FOR LIFE. PLUS LIKE- WHY NOT. It’s adorable and I ship it one hundred percent.

Gerda/Kaisa/Johanna:

Another poly! But this one combines all the ships listed above! Love all the silliness that goes along with this and it’s honestly super cute! Ship it for sure!

Bellkeeper/Woodman:

More of a crackship? But someone made a literally amazing fic about these two, which was awesome. Plus they are super similar. Not cute per say but cool.

Alfur/Johanna:

Sorta goes along with stories where Alfur is secretly Hilda’s dad who got turned into an elf. Makes sense sorta?... I don’t ship it but cool.

Alfur/Bartell:

Haha, honestly just makes for silly situations. Plus Alfur would be that oh.... how do I cope with my crush.... I KNOW LETS RIGHT A BUNCH OF CONTRACTS! Ship.

Alfur/Adeline:

Also ship. It’s like total nerd love and that episode in s2? Cuteeee.

Alfur/Bartell/Adeline:

Also cute, feels a bit like this is just mixing both but I can sorta see it. How about this “Adeline’s first pigeon ride.” The chaos that would ensue- Hahaha!

And that’s all I got at the moment! Do tell me if I missed anything in this fandom! Tune in next time for A Certain Scientific Railgun!

Edit: I JUST REALIZED IT DIDNT POST YESTERDAY BECAUSE I HIT SAVE AS DRAFT- SORRY, ANYWAYS HERE!

Edit 2: I THINK I FIXED ALL THE TYPOS AND FLIPPED PARAGRAPHS. MAYBE.

[stray-tori]

TPN S02E10+E11 Initial Thoughts (anime-only)

Sorry for posting this so late (it was finished in my drafts for like a month why did I NOT POST???). since i dont have a lot to say for either, I’ll combine ep10 and ep11 into one post.

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Season Thoughts overall

Overall: not a lot of hype or feelings. I don���t really want to say I don’t care but I was more invested in singular elements than actually seeing it unravel in front of me. I personally like that better than hating it (which I’m glad I don’t particularly feel betrayed or anything), though I guess based on the angle you could argue that anger often comes from a place of caring in those situations so-- maybe it’s a bad sign, but either way, I prefer it this way. the time when it was just stressful hurt.

Though it also hurts to know it’s truly over now (well, there’s the manga, but knowing that I waited for... little payoff haha) -- especially when they kind of teased how it could continue. I respect wanting to wrap it up but tbh just cutting it when they stay behind would have done it too pff-

maybe this will change upon rewatch but for now, here’s my “hype”/investment chart for tpn over the weeks:

I don’t want to call it “quality” because I’m not sure I’m being fair to that at all. I can tell its faults and at this point, I don’t care that much, but that is how I felt each week. active discontent is worse than being neutral for me.

I do think a 12th episode would have help not rush the Ratri exposition as much and maybe have some more of a through line to their quest. Even if it's more slideshow i would have liked a bit more context personally.

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EPISODE 10

that was truly a doctor stone moment where they just built something super impressive (the balloons) out of.... somewhat nowhere haha.

I'm so glad Vincent stuff was just a classic CW cliffhanger-force pfff- I mean why it exists is questionable but I’m glad they didn’t force a conflict into it so late.

Mujika and Sonju went brrr on converting all those civillians haha

Will Emma ever get an epic action shot again, probably not.

Week 4 of wondering if the hideout Cislo or Vincent referenced will come back. at this point probably not but I guess if everyone is basically on their side already, they have the time to go collect every human in the world. [future tori: sadly the show did not] - or Mujika may help collect other humans and bring them to safety! I think I would have preferred a grey ending a la "we go over but who knows what happens" there but I'm still curious how it'll pan out specifically.

When Emma spoke to everyone over the farm speakers I was big emotional--

Somehow all the moms are instantly on their side despite being brainwashed all their lives? I guess maybe Isabella planted the seeds all this time and that’s the implication. It fell a little flat though

Also it implies that the sister/mom that urged Phil to get ready actually knew of the plan right? WHY IS EVERYONE SO OMINOUS pfff-

MICHELLE THOUGH!!! Its herrrrr. that’s a nice nod.

i liked how the tunnels of Sonju and Mujika came back around plot-wise :)

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EPISODE 11

they didnt forget the kids from the mass production farms hazahhh (?) :D

it is kind of hard to unthink that none of the GF kids have reacted to Norman being alive lmao

i would have accepted a cut after the gate closed too tbh, but on the other hand it was rly nice to see the kids in the human world and see some of the frames of the demon world quest

in particular the one on water because it's also in the ratri exposition so I like that it's not completely random.

it is however very random and while I love to put some pieces together myself, I feel like there’s WAY TOO LESS to go off of in this case.

If you're gonna do a charlotte at least give them the 12th episode to work with but oh well

I feel like they could have done the slideshow over the ending but I guess saving effort wherever possible is a goal here sadly.

it's just.... the minimal runtime really hurts it - like a lot of it isn’t downright bad but it’s just so short-lived that it falls flat

as someone who's written very time-jumpy stuff too, I also sympathize because it's kind of hard to do a quick time "overview" right without just throwing in random moments.

I don't mind the slideshow for the exposition, it had a nice astethic and I don't have anything against it inherently bc you can't really quickly show moments after each other if it's not still images. like if its animated its kinda jarring bc stuff moves and its also just on screen for a short moment so i personally dont have anything against the slideshow itself

I do like the general ideas and concepts but it just felt like "okay that happened"

Because it feels like they are building on something with like that standing on water creature in the Ratri exposition and then in the time skip frames, but stuff around a lot of it and other things are just missing and that's why it falls kind of flat. Idk if that made sense. I'm not really angry or upset anymore, which I'm glad about. The elements i like i like and that's that. Though of course. I'll miss the anime. Even the mess of s2 haha because it still had those elements and I could see how it could have worked. Episode 9 however was insulting pff.

I would have also liked some info about how and where they live now tbh 

like that weird on water dragon and the demon in front of it appearing during the ratri expostion and then with Emma - maybe he's like..... the promise manager? "hello we would like to apply for a promise slot. thank you"

it's funny they were fine in the human world immediately when it was set up as "maybe unwelcome". and where did they even get out?? is there just a big ass gate at the ocean haha

I guess the gate just stays open and they can visit Mujika and Sonju from time to time or something? :D Or did they close it? NOBODY KNOWS bc everything is vague

The last episode (ep10) left me wanting nothing.

This episode at least left me wanting more. More of their quest getting all the children. More of the trio in the human world. Just more... And I think that’s better than not caring at all.

[bravescribbles]

Trouble in Paradise Pt. 2 Power couple pt. 5

Here comes the angst! Dont say I didnt warn you...!! I also made a post before this one about some spotify playlist I made about the pairings in this ship except for Dickinette and Brucinette just cause I don’t have a particular feel for their music amongst my collecetion. But if you want to ask questions or make any suggestions about music choices, please let me know and I will be more than happy to discuss about them. Now here comes the angst 

There was a shooting in Paris at an event that Sabine and Tom were catering at while at the same time Scarecrow attacked the post office where Mari was receiving a care package from her parents.  Marinette was infected with fear toxin that made her hallucinate that her parents died in front of her while having Damian appear and kill her whilst saying that he never loved her and the arranged marriage was a bluff for his affair with Lila Rossi

 While real-time in Paris they were shot at close-range point blank with a muzzled gun in the midst of the shooter rampage. Batman and associates arrived then gave her the antidote for the toxin but in the hospital where she is recovering she sees the news about Paris. 

"Among the fallen were award winning bakers Tom and Sabine Dupain-Cheng owners of Tom and Sabine Bakery which had multiple store locations though their original was here in the heart of Paris on Ducal St., they are survived by their only daughter Marinette Dupain-Cheng- Al-Ghul who is also more commonly known as the fashion mogul MDC This Paris News 7 with the latest update, back to you Paul in New York."

Mari after that loses it completely, she had to be restrained and held in a psychiatric ward for a bit just for the safety of herself and others around her. She had to be placed in a medically induced coma just to let her body heal properly. Damien, on the other hand, is about to destroy anything in his warpath, first his wife was attacked by the Scarecrow and was made to be seen Ra's only knows what terrors. Him not knowing that he, himself was part of the terror that scarred his wife. Second his beloved aunt and uncle was murdered. Though he has his suspicions that it may have been an enemy of the League who killed them. *T’was not*

 Hell was about to rise and no one was safe from his wrath. Once Damian gets to Gotham hospital, the doctors inform him about his wife being in the psych ward and her mental instability. Added punch to the gut she's pregnant. Only about 6 weeks but with everything that has been happening and her body being generally small the safest thing is consider an abortion and try later. Damian does not take the news well. 

There may have been mistreatment of medical equipment added to the bill along with threats of harassment against the doctors...

He finds his disregarded family waiting outside her room and snarls in disgust because how dare they try to show sympathy for his wife in order to gain his trust. Bruce, Dick and Tim are the ones outside of the hospital room with Babs and Cass coming from the cafeteria with coffee in their hands. 

“You have no business being here, this is an Al Ghul matter, which makes it a matter of the League.Not that is should concern any of you, leave now ibn kalb*” dismissed Damain despite protest from everyone. 

He walks into her room and sees all the machines hooked up to his queen, who looks like shes been to hell and more, he grabs her hand tightly and leaves a kiss on her forehead, whispers to Mari’s abdomen

" hello amira*, i am your alab*, your mother is asleep right now, you have to help me wake her so we can be a family together." 

Shes in a coma for about 2 weeks. There’s constant news coverage about her condition from the scarecrow attack along outpouring support from celebrities, actors, and average clients along with her Paris friends. Neither Sabine or Tom have any other siblings or family that collect their body. Gina has unforgettably passed away 3 years ago due to age, and decaying mental health. 

Damain doesn't leave her side the whole time, he’s there during visiting hours every single day, he’s relentless about his search for Scarecrow in order to enact revenge for harming his wife and unborn child. He has lost a portion of his muscle mass due to not working out and lack of nutrition, he also has a growing 5 o’clock shadow growing due to lack of hygiene. 

Though at night, Damian calls a truce with his father to take down the scarecrow, though on the other side of the world he has a secret op group that is hunting down the shooter that killed Sabine and Tom. They were not successful in that mission. 

When Marinette wakes up though, she wakes up in the middle of the night, precisely when Damian and batfam take down the Scarecrow. Though all the boys have to physically hold Damain back from not taking of Scarecrow’s head right off. So she freaks out again though this time due to her scarecrow vision’s making it actually seem Damian ran off with Lila. When Damian finally gets to the hospital, he has to calm her down without mentioning anything about the baby to not further stress her out. 

“Oh beloved I was so scared when I woke up, nobody was there and I thought you had left me alone”

“No my queen, I was taking revenge in honor of you, I’m ashamed that the disgrace of a father denied me my trophy but be rest assured that the enemy is contained.” 

ibn kalb-Son of dog, amira- princess, alab-father) These are the rough translations, i did some research about son of dog, appearantly is an insult, though i can always be mislead, the other translations are from google so in case they are  wrong let me know and I will adjust. 

So this Pt. 2 of troubles in Paradise but by no means is that the end of it. We still have to see about the baby though and who shot Tom and Sabine, what is their motive? Let me know what you think! (I swear I thought I posted this yesterday but my dumbutt forgot to change save draft to post now.... oops

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[fourthwingingit]

Two

Edit: tumblr didnt post my edits from my original post (like you know when you save something as a draft and go oh wait there are some errors like no header and awkward phrasing lemme fix them) so im gonna repost this eventually but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Edit 2: tumblr sucks and never lets me put the thing so... This is for the anon who requested a fic of touch starved clark and conner with the prompts 'nobodys ever done that to me before' and 'i just want to be held' sorry it got angstier then i ment it to.... hope you like hurt comfort

Clark hovered awkwardly outside the door to conners room. He was nervous about seeing the teen with everything between them and what he wanted to ask him.

He took a breath. Conner almost certainly knew he was there already. But that didnt matter.

Ma always said that manners matter

He knocked.

From inside came a muffled, annoyed, and clipped

"What is it clark?"

Taking that as the best invitation he was going to get he opened the door and went in.

He looked at conner. The kid was on his bed, facedown on top of the covers like an angsty teen in a movie.

Clark thought he looked too small for the position he was in. Like he was waiting for some blow that was going to take a part of him with it to land... or like it already had and he was cradling a hole

Clark shook off the disturbing thought and steeled himself. He swiftly walked to Conner's bedside, and said, eloquently,

"Well. I... you see...... uh... lois- i mean to say..... uhh"

Lord this was already going to hell in a handbasket.

Conner turned his head enough to raise one eyebrow

"What the hell was that?"

He sat down a respectful distance away (as far away as he could) and tried again

"Hmm... you see i uhh- hmm you know how uhh.... things umm. Sometimes.... uhh"

Conner slowly turned his head the rest of the way to clark, confusion now written in every line in his body. great.

Clarks back bowed fast. Like his head gained 20 pounds in a half a second, his arms planted themselves on his knees and he gave up trying... he'd try again some other day. Maybe tomorrow. Or maybe lois should do it.... Kal-el you coward.

"I... i dont know, ive got nothing."

But now he was scrambling, he needed a reason for being here. And what came out was;

"Ma told me shes uhh, seen you acting in a... less than..... ideal...... kind of.... way.?"

"Wow."

"No yeah i heard it"

"That was some next level awkward," and there was some distinct venom in that voice shoot. "if its that hard to be around me then you can find the door. I certainly dont need your pity handouts anyway."

Well.... shit

"No thats not.... im.... i wanted to ask- uh... whats been bothering you..... sport."

He now had what bruces kids called The Awkward White Man Smile... great.

Suprisingly, Conner chuckled.

Maybe a small part of Clark's brain said its not hopeless?

"Right now? Your social skills."

Banter! He hung around batman! He could do banter.

"Aww man and here i was thinking i was handing out winning lines."

"Oh no, youve gone senile a little early, well... maybe not early... good thing you've got Kara."

There was a small smirk playing at conners lips and an actual opportunity. God was real and he loved Clark Kent.

"At least I know I have two good boys to pick me up after im down." He looked away fast.

Silence stretched on

.......

Awkwardly

Oh lord he messed up the moment

He presumed too much and their only friendly interaction in over a month is ruined

"Two?"

The voice Conner used was so painfully soft and small. Like it didnt dare to hope anymore and had stopped trying a long time ago.

Clark never was good at leaving voices like that alone. And he was always more comfortable when something needed doing anyways.

Superman courage steadied him enough to take a risk.

He reached out his hand, and ruffled Conner's hair, trailing his fingers down after to rest on the shoulder closest to him and said.

"I have two kids dont i?"

More silence

Conner was frozen beneath his fingertips

He panicked

Oh god

He had fucked it up

He had fucked up enough times that conner didn't want anything to do with him

Okay damage control

"That is...." Conner stiffened further "if i haven't been so horrible to my eldist that he doesnt want anything to do with me"

The silence was now so deep he could hear the dust motes brushing against everything

He heard a tiny sniffle

And then he telltale sound of tears hitting bedsheets.

His head whipped around, his glasses flew off somewhere into the room. He barely noticed.

Shocked, he started to speak but Conner cut him off before he could finish the first syllable.

"You know when i was in Hawaii i used to watch families. Specifically parents and children. I'd be so jealous of-"

Conner cut himself off.

"Nobody's ever- i mean...... parents do that to their kids.... the hair touching thing.... Nobody's ever-" his voice broke, he cleared it. "Nobody's ever even tried to touch my hair if we werent kissing."

He gave a pitiful, watery laugh and, after a breif, stunned, pause, started rambling about how "of course i get it cut, like, the barber touches it and stuff..."

And it all hit clark.

Somehow it had never occured to Clark, that even though Conner looked like he was so much older than Jon, he wasnt.

He wondered who raised him

Who fed him

Who hugged him through nightmares

Clarks heart broke

Because he was certain the answer to most of those kinds of questions was 'Conner' and none of them were "Kal-el" or "Clark Kent"

Clark turned a bit and ran his hand over Conner's back softly, cutting off his rambling and said in a voice that was somehoe warm but still felt guilty and mourning;

"What do you want? What can I do?"

Conner was stunned. Kal had never given him anything like this. So he kept talking to give his brain time to catch up.

"I don.... i- i used to watch families... in- in Hawaii, and I'd get jealous of the kids, that they got to have families. Got to have parents. I dont..."

Clark turned a little to properly face his son and grabbed his hand.

"What can i do Conner?"

One day ago Conner would have asked for a lot. To never see Kal again, the superman title, his spot in the JL, even some time with Jon. But now?

Conner shifted, he sat up as best he could. And guided Kals hand to the side of his face, through tear tracks, held it there for a second, and then slid it into his hair. All thr while leaning into it like it was the only support he needed.

"I just want to be held.... without expectations..... without titles or rules or anything in return."

Connor wouldnt meet his eyes, or look up from the bedspread during his request.

For the second time that day Clark's heart broke. But now he had something he could do.

He reached out with his other hand, guiding his son into his arms, and gently layed them down

He kept one hand on the back of Conner's head, stroking the strands there. And one hand on Conner's back slowly moving back and forth.

From the first point of contact, Conner's world narrowed to the hand Kal had put on him. And now, there was more. Now he was allowed to reach out. He wanted to get closer. To bury his face in Kals chest and curl up small. To let the world fall away around them. Until nothing existed but them. Holding each other forever.

Kal seemed to read his mind, and guided his head to tuck itself under his chin and pressed them closer together.

No promises, no strings, no obligations after.

He could leave whenever he wanted.

He wanted to stay forever.

Conner wondered breifly what was like to be held by a father. If it felt as nice as this. Like everything crashed in on him, but it was okay.

Maybe, he thought.

They had a maybe.

And this maybe was a lot of ground to stand on.

[nikatyler]

No way, simmeronnie is doing replies again? :o It’s been a month, I know. It’s been hard, exams and all that. I’ve talked about that a lot. Now I’m in so much better place. I’ve read what I wrote in my diary a few months ago (February and March to be exact) and wow...just wow. If you compare me from now to me from those months, you wouldn’t even believe we’re the same person. Right now, I’m the happiest I’ve been in a while. Back then, I’m honestly surprised I didn’t give up. I was so tired of everything.

Onto something else. I thought I’d catch up on a lot of blogs now that my graduation is done, but actually, I got carried away reading a good book (and therefore I didn’t actually catch up on too many blogs). Guys, you all need to read Illuminae. I finished the trillogy today and man, it was so good. Don’t get intimidated by how big the books are, yesterday I read over 400 pages and I didn’t even know how. It’s just so good. Read it. Seriously. I hope you like a good plot twist because these books are full of them. It’ll leave you speechless.

I’m just excited I can read books that have nothing to do with exams again, okay? Tomorrow I’m starting...I’m not sure. Probably The Burning Maze by Rick Riordan. FINALLY.

Anyway, blog stuff. I thought I’d only do the latest replies since my activity feed was broken, but now I was able to scroll down a lot. I wasn’t paying attention and suddenly I was at comments from April. So yeah, that thing I screamed about this week, apparently it’s fixed itself. Though I’m still not sure if it shows all of the comments. Oh well. I worked with what I was able to get.

By the way, in these replies, I did not include the “congrats” comments when I said I got through my exams. But I saw you all, and honestly, thank you so much. I was thinking about this the other day, and I think one of the reasons why I made it through high school was simblr. This is my happy place. Most of the time.

autistichatkid replied to your photoset “Oh no. OH NO. Guys I fried another one of my sims.”

ronnie pls be more careful you know how these things go

*looks at my own sunburnt arms* I won’t ever learn

starburstshores replied to your photoset “Nerine no that’s not the way”

Jesus can walk on water, Nerine can swim through land

she’s a Reverse Jesus

starburstshores replied to your photoset “Nerine: “Wakey wakey…” Regan: “Huh? Wha - Nerine? What are you doing...”

This is some Edward Cullen shit she’s pulling ��

Let’s be real, even with how Regan and Nerine’s story is going, it’s still a better love story than Twilight  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Hold on, do people still say that?

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Regan: “Hi mum! What’s up?” Miracle: “Regan, you might want to sit...”

OMG WHAT"S HAPPENING OMG

alfalfalegacy replied to your photoset “Regan: “Mum?” Miracle: “Yes sweetheart?” Regan: “He’s going to make...”

Yoo he better make it ����

autistichatkid replied to your photoset “Regan: “Hi mum! What’s up?” Miracle: “Regan, you might want to sit...”

oh god no

I can’t explain how I felt writing this. I’m not too empathetic when it comes to other people (and it sucks), but when it comes to “ok how would my character feel in this scene”, I’m immediately in their shoes, and let me tell you, I actually cried, even though I knew damn well how it was going to end. But I also knew what was happening next, and that’s why I cried too. Writing is weird sometimes.

alfalfalegacy replied to your photo “Coming soon…”

Marie looks super pretty in this!!

Thank you. I forgot she was this pretty. I couldn’t believe that when I loaded her for the first time after all these months. I mean, in the regular legacy, I don’t even see her around anymore too much.

vintageplumbobs replied to your photoset “Nerine: “I hate to be doing this, but it’s the only way. I’m sorry...”

Eeeeeeeeeshk.

pxelatedtrash replied to your photoset “Nerine: “I hate to be doing this, but it’s the only way. I’m sorry...”

I stopped liking her when she would always shut Regan down but now I really don't like her and i hope beyond belief that Regan can get away.

dandylion240 replied to your photoset “Nerine: “I hate to be doing this, but it’s the only way. I’m sorry...”

Wow I didnt like her before I definitely don't like her now.

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Nerine: “I hate to be doing this, but it’s the only way. I’m sorry...”

Ahem

Hmmm I had a feeling that thee was something wrong with their fast developing relationship

There indeed WAS something wrong with her. I hinted at it a few times, sometimes it was just a little thing that probably only I saw as foreshadowing, but it kept getting more and more obvious towards the end. And wow. Yeah. She really went that far.

Also, can I just say, I weirdly enjoyed seeing how at first, everyone was like “yaaaaas, mermaid girlfriend”, whereas now it’s more like “oh no. OH NO. STAY AWAY FROM OUR GIRL”.

dandylion240 replied to your photoset “Regan: “Because…because I love you. You’re right. You’re all that...”

Nerine is awful! Someone please save Regan!

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Regan: “Because…because I love you. You’re right. You’re all that...”

EXPLAIN DIS NERINE!

fishingforsims replied to your photoset “Regan: “Because…because I love you. You’re right. You’re all that...”

My brain rn is just “!!!!!”

She just wants her. That’s her explanation. She doesn’t care about anything else, as long as her beloved human will stay right there in Isla Paradiso.

I’m just now thinking, how the hell did I go from the first story idea for Regan to this. In the original story, there were no creepy psycho mermaid girlfriends. There was...a lot of Bridgeport...some cheating...a lot of guilty feelings...more feelings towards Courtney...Felix didn’t end up with her in that storyline but there would be a love triangle with another person...and considering I’m not actually the biggest fan of love triangles, I as a writer am glad I somehow ended up with a psycho mermaid girlfriend story. It was way more interesting to figure out and write.

But if Regan could decide, I’m pretty sure she’d rather end up in a love triangle 😬

Let me tease you though: There’ll still be a lot of Bridgeport later.

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photo “Gwyneth Ellen Clare flirty | perfectionist | family oriented | neat |...”

Was it cliffhanger? Le gasp

Anyway I'm looking forward to see you BRP!

Oh I just saw the tagsXD Don't mind me I think I have to go to bed

Wait still a cliffhanger. Just not as big as I initially thought. Don't mind me��

Haha no worries, this happens to me all the time, I forget to read the tags or caption and then I’m like huh??? What’s happening?? :D But I’m glad you’re looking forward to the BPR, I’m happy to be finally posting it. I’m not sure if it’ll be just as fun as my NSB, but it certainly won’t be as sad as the current story. You guys deserve a break.

Oh, another teaser: Guess what you guys will get in my BPR? An idiot to yell at. Not Ross-level idiot, but still an idiot.

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photo “Coming soon…”

*patiently waits*

It’s coming...very soon!

cloudberry-sims replied to your photoset “Nerine: “Now. You were supposed to move out of the houseboat by the...”

Oh that's evil Nerine...

‘Cause baby she’s a nightmare dressed like a daydream

I’m sorry, I can’t stop referencing Taylor Swift, that’s just who I am

melien replied to your photoset “Regan: “This place is heaven on Earth.” Nerine: “Wouldn’t it be great...”

So yeah this was the post where I kind of figured out something seems off... if I'm not mistaken there were also posts where George warns her but I didn't think much of them

One of the things I enjoy doing when I finish the first draft of something is going back and making hints. Tiny little pieces of foreshadowing. And then it grows and grows and gets more obvious. This was never going to end well. I think I already hinted at it when Regan was saying goodbye to her family before going to Isla Paradiso, though I’m not sure. But I think I left first little clues there.

melien replied to your photoset “Nerine: “I hate to be doing this, but it’s the only way. I’m sorry...”

I first saw pics, then the text... and thought wow damn can mermaids do this? But yeah I love where this is going. I like this kind of creepy

Yeah I had to help myself with Photoshop here, there would be no other way to make it clear that she enchanted/brainwashed her. But damn, it would be cool if something like that was actually in the game. Sea creatures like mermaids don’t always have to be nice. What about sirens from the old mythology? I mean, what they did was getting people killed.

sinfulwunders replied to your post “Today is my graduation day and I’m already almost crying even though I...”

My graduation was last month and I was balling my eyes out �� I understand how you feel

Ahh yes...I was in a car today and we were driving past my high school. I started thinking about it all again and I just can’t believe that just two months ago, we were still sitting there in a classroom, praying for it all to end. And now it’s over and it’s weird and I want to go back because somehow I miss it.

dandylion240 replied to your photoset “George: “I’m worried about you. There’s something wrong. This isn’t...”

George take her away before it's too late!

He kinda...I don’t want to say he fucked up at this point, but if he hadn’t walked away, things could’ve really been different, huh?

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “George: “Regan, what the hell is going on?” Regan: “You wouldn’t...”

Girl you are definitely not feeling well and this isn't love:/

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “George: “I’m worried about you. There’s something wrong. This isn’t...”

Girl you do sound like zombie!

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Regan: “You say that as if it was a bad thing. Get lost, George. I...”

Whaaaaaa?

There better be a wizard near you to un-zombie you, Regan!

That’s how it is with brainwashed people, isn’t it?

No, all jokes and dumb remarks aside, when I wrote Regan in this brainwashed state, it was so hard. Not that writing was hard, handling my feelings was hard. I knew she was hurting everyone and I had to keep going because I wanted to tell this story. Like I said, writing is weird sometimes.

Also, speaking of wizards...how convenient it is that her brother is one now? :D Which actually...I didn’t plan for him to become a wizard just to save her. I didn’t plan for him to befriend a fairy just to save her either. It just all sort of happened. Just like life, huh? Nothing is perfectly planned, you just have to play with whatever you have, and I was lucky this time.

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Weeks had passed since my last meeting with George. Things got better....”

Yeah I wonder why? Maybe because they are worried about you, too? You never came and anything could happen to you!

She doesn’t care about that. Well, she does, but she doesn’t know that with this whole “your family is useless and I’m the only one who matters to you” haze Nerine put over her.

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Regan: “Hey mum. How’s life?” Miracle: “What did you just say?” Regan:...”

Miracle, come and get 'er before it's too late!

She would. Honestly, I believe she would, if things weren’t already hard at home for her.

Can we just take a moment to appreciate Miracle for everything she’s gone through? She was “unwanted” at school because she was half alien, she had to share a room with an awful bully at university, then when that hell was over, she became a mother to six children, and now this...when I think of all that has happened, I realize how strong she actually is, because none of this made her give up.

I’ve had so many issues with her story, but looking at her from this perspective, maybe I shouldn’t have.

dandylion240 replied to your photoset “Miracle: “Regan - he was asking about you. He was looking forward to...”

Ugh your girlfriend doesn't want you. She wants to control you. There's a big difference.

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Miracle: “Regan - he was asking about you. He was looking forward to...”

Sure your girlfriend WANTS it not YOU!

SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK AND HOPE REGAN IS ONE OF THEM

I shouldn’t joke about these things but...it’s how I cope

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Will: “Sorry I left you waiting. I was with my mum.” Roan: “That’s...”

Nerine happened, Roan

Pretty much

autistichatkid replied to your photoset “Will: “What do you mean?” Roan: “Most mermaids - or so I’ve heard from...”

IM SO GLAD WILL AND ROAN ARE THE ONES TBAT ARE GONNA GO RESCUE HER AAAAAA

I was so happy when I figured that out too?? Honestly I thought Will and Roan were going to have the least interesting story but then they prove me wrong and uhhh

I love them so much??

melien replied to your photoset “Miracle: “Regan - he was asking about you. He was looking forward to...”

Poor Regan, I believe she's strong enough to get out of this mind funk... or someone cares about her enough to save her

It’ll all be revealed soon...

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Will: “What do you mean?” Roan: “Most mermaids - or so I’ve heard from...”

Omg

OMG

I actually really like when supernatural creatures have their let's call them quirks which define their difference to humans! That's really really cool!

Actually, me too, even when it means bad things for the main characters!

[magicalusuki]

progen dragon sharing, inspired by a post by @goannafr that ive had in my drafts since may 12th of this year! wow i am good at being late

varsha- custom progen

so the colors i chose for varsha.... well, i didnt choose them. which is fully. i was in school in the middle of a movie in health class, and id snuck onto my phone and made an fr account because the registration window was about to close and i was going to be busy the rest of the time it was open, or maybe i was just too impatient.

i didnt realize you could even change the colors of the dragon- i just chose the breed and my flight (wind), and actually moved to ice almost immediately after because wind was such an impulse decision. 

i actually hated her colors once i realized that i could have picked them myself, because i would have probably made a seafoam/rose dragon. but now i love her. it might have been cool if she at least had a different blue for the wings, so if i could remake her (and assume she got the same tert) i would give her storm wings. it brings out that gray tert in a really cool way and just makes her a biiit more interesting. i mean, look at that! it look great with her apparel, too.

i chose to make her a fae, because i though that they were cute. i didnt like any of the other starter breeds when i joined because i was a coward. i wanted the cutesiest dragons ever, which is funny considering now varsha is super badass

i had like... the vaguest clue of what fr was, because i was in the neopets community and a ton of the blogs i followed were into it, but i didnt really understand it in depth. fun fact! my original username was twinkling. 

exaltation

so when i first joined fr, from what i remember we had... very few tert options. i believe we had basic, crackle, underbelly and circuit? and with varsha’s tert being grey, and yukienne’s being denim... basically nothing looked even slightly decent.

on top of this, i really wasnt in the forums or community much at all- so i wasnt aware that maybe exalting your progens wasnt a great plan, and how special they can be. and i certainly wasnt thinking about future genes. i mean, its been 5 years and STILL the best tert for varsha is stained and i dont particularly love any i have for yukienne!  ive grown to like stained on varsha, but for real. even irishim couldnt save that grey tert, and i used to be OBSESSED with irishim

.im not against geneing yukienne fully and i have a few options planned, but denim is not.... its not an easy color to work with, which sucks because sky and violet work together so well, and then you have this random greenish-grayish blue. why. which is why he is not gened at all because oh my god. please fr give me something that makes denim purpley ill die for you

this is his current most likely scry but im still... not sold... at least sky is one of my favorite colors on site! hes still a pretty lucky random progen all things considered, i know some people were truly cursed. they also have a pretty okay range, so thats nice! i brought these guys back as quick as possible and was so excited i got the option so do so.

lore and clan roles

in the end, exaltation gave my progens a lot of character- although i was so upset about having done it for literal years, lol. my clan lore felt super weak up until bringing them back.

varsha is clan leader, but im undecided about yukiennes role- all i know is that he did essentially abandon varsha in exaltation and didnt actually fight to earn his right back to this plane, and she resents him for that. i can imagine they did talk initially about him rising up the politcal ladder rather than being involved in the war itself, and i imagine initially he was actually quite gentle and perhaps a bit skittish- she had more pity for him then, and understood he wouldnt fare as well. maybe she even thought it would help his confidence. but seeing him live a bejeweled life as she fought endlessly.... well, thats just not great. on top of it, he sees himself as responsible for their return, not acknowledging varshas efforts, and he does this despite the fact that there was no evidence of it.  so yukienne likely doesnt do much in the clan, and i imagine varshas bodyguard- nevara- keeps an eye on him until or if varsha decides hes trustworthy to help. in the end, he doesnt especially want to do things for the clan anyways- he doesnt feel the dedication that varsha does, and though varsha doesnt realize it hes worn himself. hes tired of lies and a political lifestyle, and i dont imagine hes as confident as he might come off- its likely more a force of habit, and in saying it was because of him they got home, he just more than anything wants validation that his suffering was just as painful and he worked just as hard as varsha. but she really cant see that. in her eyes, hes still sitting on a pedestal, lying and spoiled rotten. even if now hes just lost and tired more than anything else.

varsha obviously is very strong willed and stubborn, and sometimes has difficulty empathizing with others- particularly those she perceives as having caused her harm. shes not especially friendly, and a bit paranoid. still she cares a lot about others, particularly her clan members who she views as her responsibility, and so she pushes away her own feelings best she can. shes more prone to trust those from wind than from any other flight, and is working on her distrust of those from ice. 

she has a close bond to nevara due to her wind heritage and time spend together on the battlefield, and trusts her deeply. she also deeply trusts aer, the very dragon that first found her and yukienne, and the only from the clan at the time that did not know of her exaltation until it was too late. she appreciates the effort on her behalf to keep the clan in order and understands aer was also very hurt by what her clan members had done, and is glad to have someone from that time who had missed her. 

varsha also finds amaryllis sort of cute and charming.the wind heritage probably helps yet again in this case, but even beyond that, she appreciates someone so unfit for the role trying their very hardest to play leader to keep their clan together in her absence. she sees her somewhat like a little sibling, despite not having a large gap in age.

since mako worked so close to both amyrllis and aer during her absence, she was one of the first ice flight members in their clan that she warmed to. with her optimistic and free spirited attitude, and the fact that shes still willing to work in a political position (unlike amaryllis, who was happy to retire) she helps to balance out varshas negative views of people and also is very useful in giving intel and helping create strong bonds between their clan and others, since varsha... would probably never do so on her own, but does see the necessity.

yukienne, at this point, lives a fairly solitary lifestyle. being rejected by the person he admires most as well as feeling he betrayed and failed her, he sees himself unworthy of deeper relationships. at the same time, he is stubborn and unwilling to discuss and feels he doesnt deserve sympathy or to explain his side. all interactions and relationships he has are shallow. at the very least, he is genuinely very proud of his appearance, so thats probably the one thing he has actual confidence in.

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May 13th-May 19th, 2019 CTP Archive

The archive for the Comic Tea Party week long chat that occurred from May 13th, 2019 to May 19th, 2019.  The chat focused on Damsels Don’t Wear Glasses by J Alice Bown.

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RebelVampire

COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB START!

Hello and welcome everyone to Comic Tea Party’s Week Long Book Club~! This week we’ll be focusing on Damsels Don’t Wear Glasses by J Alice Bown~! (http://damsels-dont-wear-glasses.com/)

You are free to read and comment about the comic all week at your own pace, so stop on by whenever it suits your schedule! Remember, though, that while we allow constructive criticism, our focus is to have fun and appreciate the comic. Below you will find four questions to get you started on the discussion. However, a new question will be posted and pinned everyday (between 12:01AM and 6AM PDT), so keep checking back for more! You have until May 19th to tell us all your wonderful thoughts! With that established, let’s get going on the reading and the chatting!

QUESTION 1. What has been your favorite scene in the comic so far? What specifically did you like about it?

QUESTION 2. In so far, what aspect of the world-building catches your interest the most? Why is that so? Also, what theories do you have in regards to differences between places like Persephone and Hestia?

Delphina

For serious scenes, I think I gotta go with the big swordy magic scene where she saves Jake from being crushed by the statue (http://damsels-dont-wear-glasses.com/?comic_id=202) because the lighting effects are gorgeous and seeing Lave doing big magic stuff with her sword was really really cool. For silly scenes, the one that always sticks with me is Lave trying to be a host and failing miserably. (http://damsels-dont-wear-glasses.com/?comic_id=123)

keii4ii

2) I really liked this page. http://damsels-dont-wear-glasses.com/index.php?comic=20180423 How she just asks a random person on the street for a magic shortcut and gets an answer right away. While it's always been clear that magic is an ordinary thing, this kind of little details really shows exactly how ordinary.

Capitania do Azar

I really like the prologue, particularly the part where they climb the lamppost. There's just so much character into the entire scene, and the exchanges are really cool. It's a very strong beginning for a story too, imo!!

2) http://damsels-dont-wear-glasses.com/index.php?comic=20130423 I really think this part has a lot to show about world building like, here's this weird magical event going on, but everyone is just "I was just trying to show you something cool urg" and "well this ain't it"

duskglass

for the worldbuilding, i especially love the variety of creatures/nonhumans we've seen so far, and how well integrated they are with the setting! it's got a classic urban fantasy vibe while also being very fresh and unique

RebelVampire

QUESTION 3. At the moment, who is your favorite character? What about that character earns them this favor?

QUESTION 4. What do you think Lave’s backstory is? Do you think she got all her scars from her job, or might some of them predate her job somehow? How do you think Jake will change the way Lave handles and deals with her life?

ClauseArt

heeey I just saw this! This is my comic! Thanks for taking the time to read it! c8

RebelVampire

1) i definitely gotta go with the scene where jake is in dream world like place with aishe. I really love how this scene just suddenly adds 1000 layers of mystery. Plus, i really just love the change in color scheme. It really gives it this other worldly feel that gives me goosebumps. Plus, I also just like Aishe's design. 2) I've really been enjoying the differences in magic. Like, for example, how most zombies actually suck cause ya know...theyre dead. I feel this adds such a great twist what we expect, cause every change I feel fits a more logical setup for what the magic does. Again, like how the zombie thing makes 1000% sense cause dead bodies are not the sturdiest. I am curious about why Lave had such a reaction to Hestia magic schools, but I don't have any theories outside of magic must be viewed very differently in places.

3) Kestrel because he's such a precious failure at life. Like...he just cannot catch a break and for some reason that makes him super endearing to me. Plus now hes got the whole aishe connection thing going on so that makes him double interesting. But mostly I want to boop him for all his failures. 4) I would think some of her scares would have to predate her job. Cause she's...she's got a lot of them. And considering she mentioned having been in jail, I'm kind of struck with the idea that maybe she ran with a gang or something. She super gives me the impression of someone who mostly raised herself and didnt have a huge loving family involved in teaching her how to deal with life. I think Jake will be a good influence on her though and teach her to be more careful. Cause she seems very fun loving and reckless, and while that can work when youre solo, its not great when you have other ppl. Like i think the Kestrel thing was a good example cause I felt Lave perhaps was too loose cannon with it, which semi resulted in Kestrel almost kicking the bucket. And Jake is like 1000 times more fragile, and I think it'll force Lave to see that she cant protect anybody if she goes around without a plan.

ClauseArt

@Capitania do Azar that scene with Kest and lave interacting around the lamp-post was actually the moment I decided Kest worked well as a main character. He was honestly going to die in the original draft. @keii4ii thanks! I super love just....the mundane feeling of everyday magic. @Delphina Honestly Lave just being a f--k up is probably my fav part of writing her character, especially for comedic effect XD Next to drawing glowy magic scenes of course.(edited)

@RebelVampire Oh wow this is a lot. Thank you! ;-; dammit I really can't respond to these kind of questions cus spoilers. But I'm glad you noticed a lot of my characters having...well a habit of messing up (and Lave did not handle that first chap well cough) XD Also Aishe is my fav character to draw, because Kest is my fav character to draw only its + because glowy effects. I do really like when more real world logic is put in fantasy, like corpses making for bad heavy hitters unless they're in a swarm. So I'm super glad you liked that!

Capitania do Azar

4. If Lave's style has always been what we've seen so far, then all those scars don't surprise me at all! They'd be the natural consequence of past encounters, work related or otherwise. It just kinda feels that everything ends with someone getting punched around her

3. I've really liked pretty much everyone, but I think Lave's my favorite cuz she's sturdy but messy and I feel there's a lot to be learned about her aha

And also she prolly also has a lot to learn

RebelVampire

QUESTION 5. What has been your favorite illustration in the comic so far? What specifically about it do you like?

QUESTION 6. Why do you think Jake is in Persephone with no guardian? What theories do you have on Jake’s hatred of non-humans? Will Jake be able to overcome his prejudice?

Capitania do Azar

6. Jake feels a lot like is somebody important's family but important could mean a lot of things. And has for his discomfort, I think it mostly stems from not knowing/being used to all this magic, which gives me the idea that some of these cities are less magical than others

5. Not an illustration, but I really love how in the last pages, as the sun rises, the colors become brighter and the sky becomes pink!!

It really helps bringing home the feeling that the night is over and the quietness of early morning, which is kinda fitting since they also stopped fighting

Delphina

I think I gotta go with Lave as my favorite character too because competent + ridiculous + magical +swordy is my entire jam so she's sorta the best of all worlds. Gena holds a special place in my heart too because she's clearly trying to keep a lot of things together.

Illustration-wise, I love how things like Jake's anxiety (http://damsels-dont-wear-glasses.com/?comic_id=198) or Chirovision (http://damsels-dont-wear-glasses.com/?comic_id=237) or Aisheland (http://damsels-dont-wear-glasses.com/?comic_id=225) traveling through magic spaces (http://damsels-dont-wear-glasses.com/index.php?comic=20170501) make the palette and rendering different depending on the mood. Really good use of a more abstract style to convey tone and worldbuilding.

(Now I want there to be a DDWG theme park where there's weird places like Aisheland)

varethane

Lave is my fave!!!! I love her goofy attitude paired with how much butt she kicks when it's necessary. I love seeing people underestimate her and then get surprised, haha.(edited)

My favourite illustration is.... hard to pick, but probably this page: http://damsels-dont-wear-glasses.com/?comic_id=206

Capitania do Azar

oh yeah, I really love the color work for those scenes, it carries out the emotions very well

RebelVampire

QUESTION 7. Which characters do you enjoy seeing interact the most? What about their dynamic interests you?

QUESTION 8. For what purpose do you think someone sold Kestrel the cursed orb? How does this tie into the axe theft mystery Lave is asked to solve? What overall is going on regarding these illegal items, and how will it tie into the story?

Capitania do Azar

7. Anything that comes out of Kestrel's mouth is gold, but when he and Lave bicker it's even better!!!

Please just let them bicker more for my amusement

8. It really feels like someone's around trying to spread SOME mayhem and if one object was possessed then maybe it's not the only one... could be a tricky situation

Delphina

Will second that Lave and Kest definitely need to bicker more

RebelVampire

5) im kind of cheating by saying i really like the extra page about the leylines http://damsels-dont-wear-glasses.com/index.php?comic=20160620 its really simplistic yet i think the illustrations work super well to help convey all the world-building information. its just a nice combo of huge info drop with some pleasant visual accompaniment 6) I assume Jake is probably an orphan from some important family? Or that Jake's family is super high up in rank somehow and just went "nah man we dont want this kid no more." while i def think some of jake's hate comes from ignorance, i also get the impression that jake had a bad experience with non-humans. something about jake's reactions just really strike me as ptsd. overall yeah, i think jake is gonna have to overcome it. plus, exposure breeds familiarity. its hard to be in the lion's den and continue to hate the lions.

7) jake and basically any non-human. I really just enjoy seeing jake's various reactions of "eww no" and then having to be confronted with the fact that not all non-humans are bad. It just makes me more and more curious about jake's past. plus, all these interactions really serve as a great tracking devices for how jake evolves in opinion. 8) With Kestrel, I kind of think someone is trying to draw Aishe out. I mean Aishe does have pretty neat butterflies and powers, so I can't blame them. Though I assume its a revenge thing cause I get the impression ppl arent all that happy with Aishe. But thus why other illegal items are being involved because you need powerful stuff to get to the powerful people.

Desnik

That leyline page is gorgeous and informative, I love the combo of worldbuilding and infographics

RebelVampire

QUESTION 9. What sorts of art or story details have you noticed in the way the comic is crafted that you think deserves attention?

QUESTION 10. Who exactly is Aishe and what are their goals? What does this have to do with the undead from the first chapter? Why did Aishe help Jake? What will Lave do when she learns about Aishe?

RebelVampire

QUESTION 11. What do you think are this particular comic’s strengths? What do you think makes this comic unique? Please elaborate.

QUESTION 12. What do you think the story with Chiro is? How did he wind up as Lave’s roommate? Will Chiro and Jake learn to get along? Also, do you think there might be anything special about Chiro that might affect the story?

AshAngelV

6. I think he's come from an entirely different world that doesn't have non humans and magic.

AshAngelV

11. The world building and color scheme are definitely strong points. It feels fully fleshed out and magical, but also very grounded like it's this amazing magical place that's also totally normal. Also, the characters. Having a bunch of flawed characters with baggage is always more interesting than having perfect characters with no problems and even the bit characters feel dynamic. Like they have their own story and interests rather than being part of the scenery exsisting only for the MCs to interact with.

RebelVampire

9) The thing I appreciate the most details wise is just the physical flaws. Especially Lave's scars. Adding details like that can be really tedious, yet it really helps deliver so much character that I always enjoy when the time is taken to include things like that. 10) I feel like Aishe is probably some necromancer from the past who is trying to rectify a mistake that was made. I think Aishe helped for the reason they said: Jake did a kindness and gotta pay that shit forward. I feel like Lave is 100% not going to trust aishe and basically just encourage everyone to do the same. Maybe suggest Kestral seek professional help. But yeah, I don't see a green butterfly person flying with Lave XD 11) I think this comic's strengths lie in two areas. First, the implementation of magic. There are clear rules, there's enough deviations from the standard to be interesting, and the fact its presented as a normal culture thing is well-integrated. second, the color palettes are really amazing and suit the tone and atmosphere of each scene really well. 12) I feel like Chiro might be a bit special since that one person did wonder what species Chiro was or something like that. And that because of this specialness Chiro was outcasted. Hence why he wound up with Lave cause ya know, outcasts gotta stick together. I think Chiro and Jake will bond for sure down the road. Cause i mean Chiro did just help save Jake's butt, and thats gotta earn him some Jake points right?

AshAngelV

12. I think Chiro might be a vamp that just stays in bat form or maybe only has bat form.

RebelVampire

QUESTION 13. What are you most looking forward to in the comic? Also, do you have any final thoughts to share overall?

QUESTION 14. What do you think Kestrel’s role will be in regards to the larger story? Can Kestral and Aishe be detached from one another, or is the attachment permanent?

AshAngelV

14. I think he'll be the guy that's in a constant state of terror and peril. And I think the detaching will be up to Aishe.

ClauseArt

man its super hard not to chime in on these ahhh D8

Delphina

Rebel makes such good questions XDD

varethane

I am looking forward to several things! - what is Jake's deal and how is he linked to aishe -Lave's bite mark scar!!!! what is it!!!!!! -what will Kest do next -more Lave plz(edited)

RebelVampire

@Delphina thank you for saying so~!

13) im looking forward to more aishe doing aishe stuff just cause i dig that aesthetic a whole lot. im also looking forward to learning more about jake so more concrete theories can be made about wtf jake's deal is. and also why nobody else could take jake besides lave cause i mean seriously...theres gotta be more sane choices XD 14) Kest is gonna become a real mage and do magic stuff. also ya know, hide out with lave cause now the ppl he owes money too are probably gonna be out for blood. as for detaching...maybe not so much. i more feel like once Aishe is done with their tasks, their essence will just kind of disappear and merge with kest.

AshAngelV

Hang in there Clause.

ClauseArt

@AshAngelV I will try D8

I can at least promise a lot of these theories are gonna be answered sooner or later

RebelVampire

COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB END!

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Hhhh bunni legs pain accomplishment day

I HAVE FINISHED THE SHOPPING OF HELL

Tfw u only get paid 4 days before christmas and have to rush everything aaaa

It was bad enough today so i'm so glad i got it done before it got even more busy!

Misc boring essentials i bought for myself: new phone charger cos broken, new trousers cos i spilt hair bleach on my only two pairs, new shoes cos my left shoe literally snapped in half down the middle like wtf even happened there, cheap pink hair dye from a discount store cos i wanna try different colours but in a thrifty way

Now for EXCITING CHRISTMAS PRESENT TIME!!!!

First off SO MANY pc and xbox 360 games from Every Charity Shop In Cardiff, St Mellons, Rumney and Llanrumney. My sis has been trying to find some games to play but was like 'dont worry about it i can just wait til the charity shop gets something good'. So i thought i'd get some stocking stuffers via all the charity shops on my side of town. By our powers combined we will blitz the entire vale of glamorgan's discount gaming scene!!! I found SO MANY good stuff for £1/£2/£3 like holy shit i love when charity shops dont know the proper price for shit XD

speaking of which i also found a WEBCAM for £2! If its that cheap it probanly isnt great but itd still be fun to play around with! :D and the same store also had an old vintage G1 My Little Pony coffee mug in excellent condition. Oh god the nostalgia! My support worker gave me a lift to llanrumney so i had to awkwardly explain why i had an armful of weird 80s mugs and big teary eyes!

Speaking of vintage, i found this new vintage toys and games shop in cardiff called Galactic Attic! The name hooked me in and then they actually DID have pokemon inside! As well as all sorts of stuff ranging from 40s to 90s, wow! There was even a lil pile of old 90s gaming magazines in the corner, covered up by a bunch of boxes. I'm glad i noticed them! I got the announcemt issues for pokemon diamond pearl and platinum in a weird old pokemon fan magazine that i loved as a kid. Im kinda sad that nowadays we just have one official magazine fpr each console and not the wild madness of amateaur journalists failing horribly to get news from japan. Shame they didnt have Beckett Pokemon cos that one was infamous fot drawing its own terrible interpretations of pokemon sprites to avoid copyright. And speaking of terrible, they even had bootleg pokemon!! I talked to the cashier and he was like "you know those are fake right" and i was like "yeah its so nostalgic thats why i want em" and he was like "lol yeah they actually sell pretty well so i'm not mad my supplier ripped me off". It was a pretty good and awesomely terrible fake at the same time? There was this exact replica of some japanese display stand for the product and then the actual pokeball toys looked perfect BUT the mini pokemon inside were.. Really not. I am so damn happy with the surprise inside my one, surprise inside has never been more accurate! I can't take a picture now cos my phone is charging but REGICHEETO. Just..just imagine that, and whatever you're imagining it is probably worse. I love it so fuckin much. Also less hilariously there were some bootleg mini pika plushies with actually (as far as i can tell) their own unique design? They have cute lil winter scarves and an art style that reminds me of the Magical Pokemon Adventure manga. A really cute and good bootleg that i would have loved to see as a real product! The only way you can even tell its a bootleg is because there's no marking on the tail. I dunno, maybe if i still have some brown fabric in the cupboard i could fix it? Or maybe its unique tail makes it even more special! I mean there's Cosplay Pikachu with its double tail marking so maybe this is her cousin Accessory Pikachu with no markings? He just likes wearing scarfs and hats and stuff. OMG HE'S THE POKEMON GO EVENT PIKACHU!!!!!!

Along the miscness of finding a few things for myself, i also found: cute lil pokemon pencilcase, kingdom hearts blind bag, cheap copy of Fruits Basket volume 1 cos the new remake is coming out soon and i wanna Get Hype! The KH blind bag was really weird cos i didnt know they now have an entirely different set as well as the keychains i bought before. Its kind of a shame the art style doesnt match cos vexen is only in the keychains, alas! But i do really love these ones! Theyre apparantly made by funko pop but dont have the art style AT ALL, they just look like really accurate versions of the characters in mini form. Its kinda like the 'distance animation' style in steven universe? (Incidentally they also do SU ones but they missed the opportunitu to actually use the distance style, lol) I got a Sora in his kh2 outfit and i'm decently happy with that, its not one i really wanted but its not a bad one either. But i think now i've tried the fun of surprise once i'll just buy the actual ones i want off ebay later. They have roxas in his organization outfit! With a happy smile!!!

Oh oh and then EVEN MORE XBOX GAMES OF THE WILD THRIFT STORE VOID! i managed to find the whole fable series, two assassins creeds, saints row, gta, some misc shooter games and racers that she wanted but i dont know much about, mass effect 2 and ff13. I think maybe one or two others cos i cant fully remember right now. Theyre all in separate bags strewn across the room and my shoulders feel like death so i'll sort through them later.

Aaaand i wrote up like 14 paragraphs more but tumblr didnt save my draft fpr some fuckin reason and now im way too tired to do it again

Briefer summary:

* had a huge horrible panic attack getting stuck in a skyscraper shopping centre clothes place full of screaming and every perfume smell and WHY DO I HAVE TO NAVIGATE THIS HELL MAZE TO FIND THE ESCALATOR and seriously i was my most primal animalistic self and i went full fight or flight on this bitch

* had a lovely time visiting Cool Shop Grandma and rambled the story of how i met her and how we became friends but hhh too tired to rewrite. But anyway today i gave her a christmas pikachu plush as thanks for everything and cos her shop is moving on to its next location soon. She got really teary and gave me a big hug! She's gonna be at a comic con in march so i hope i'm able to go to that and see her again.

* went on a wild goose chase looking for harry potter merchandise and eventually found a gold plated replica of the movie prop version of the time turner and HELL YES my sis will love it!

* rambled about several market stalls that were cool but i can make a separate post about that in the morning when i find their contact details to advertise them

* got a plushie delibird and decided to take selfies with it everywhere to try and fight my social anxiety somehow. We went to a neat lil restaurant and had cheesy fries and a coke float!

* asked for a refund on an item for the first time ever and im proud of myself

* went off on a mystery bus trip to buy a preowned 3ds and pokemon games from a lady in an online preowned stuff facebook group and it didnt go horribly and i am glad! She was really nice and i witnessed A Good And Smart Parenting Moment and man it healed my heart and i wish i'd been raised that way. Again i'll probably ramble about the details later when im less tired, it really touched my heart seriously! And now i have MANY GIFTS FOR SIS!

* in total i was out present shopping from 9am to 8pm and i clicked my shoulder out of its socket for a split second from.all the heavy bags. Now im in a lot of aches and i need a sleeps

The End

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Dear Future Self... - June 2, 2022

Wow I honestly don’t even know where these last few months have gone. I literally can’t believe it’s June already.  I just posted April’s update as it was sitting in my drafts. I remember writing it and the reason I didn’t post was because I wanted to talk about an update with Nate but it got too late so I just saved it as a draft and never went back.  To update on Nate... I think at the time I was still not sure but his birthday had just passed and we had had a really fun weekend celebration but then weeks went on and his busy season mixed with mine. I don’t remember where it even stemmed from but I just started getting frustrated that we talked less and felt like we weren’t connecting anymore. We had a call that felt alright to bring us back and talked about how we felt disconnected but really I think I had disconnected myself by that time that I knew I was just going further away. It didn’t end the best, we were frustrated at each other and both felt each other wasn’t putting any effort in to make anything work or to even conversate. It got to a point of literally texting 4 times a day maybe for weeks, even weekends seemed to come and go and we had nothing so we said it wasn’t working and just stopped talking. I’m not mad. I mean, I feel he was pretty immature about it because there was several remarks leading up that he made of “are you too cool to start a text now” when I didnt text him at 6am on the weekends because I don’t wake up that early and he hadn’t even said goodnight the night before and ignored me which again like whatever Im not being petty but that he made those comments that he was upset I wasn’t texting him first even though he was up before me just felt childish. Then tries to call me out when I tell him how he’s making me feel and he completely disregarded all my feelings and told me he wasn’t taking responsibility for anything so oh well. I’m glad it ended when it did and its okay. We had a fun run and I realized a lot of what I do and don’t want in a relationship. especially how I certainly don’t want someone SO individual that they don’t have the courtesy to hold the door for me. Like he viewed me more as a friend than anything and thats fine because yes I want to be someones best friend but holding hands in public or those little touches or simply holding the door open is a SIMPLE gesture for a man to do, I dont think that’s asking too much. ESPECIALLY considering I was spending $160 ON FUEL alone just to visit for 2.5 days and then on top of that buying half of our meals for the weekend. I spent SO much money just to be constantly going out there, I would tickle his back every single night we went to sleep, I gave him a massage or two every single weekend I was out, like honestly I look back and I think to myself, what did he do for me? Other than cook because I was in his house as a guest which I couldnt say he even did every time it was every once in a while because we mostly ate out every meal, but honestly what did he do for me? So its okay and Im glad I had that trial and run to see what it’s like to “see someone” again.  Anyways. Condo stuff is still just as frustrating. Lots of back and forth and legal stuff. I love Mel but man shes just all over the place all the time and I can understand but she’s got to rein herself in and just stick with something. The selling every car, switching up jobs, one day shes alright the next she hates her life its just emotionally a lot but I love her to death. I just want her to be happy and out of this bankruptcy and condo and we can all just move on with our life.  House stuff with trav is better now. It was bad for a bit, I really dont like the realtor they got because hes pushy as hell and so damn unprofessional. Im reporting him when we’re done because he’s been the worst person to deal with. He got trav and his mom riled up messaging me because I didnt agree with the first offer within the first fucking hour. It was just all way too much, we shouldnt have even tried to list the house until we had things in order about the split of it so that caused so many more issues i ended up just backing out of everything and saying fine take it all and be done. I think he moved back to the island because he’s not living there now but too bad he’s still responsible for the payments until it sells! I dont care. But I’ve been praying more this past week and asking for peace and reassurance that Gods going to provide and I have been feeling a lot better. I dont think about him very often and I dont have the same anger I did a few weeks ago so thats all thanks to the Lord.  I’m still working a lot and really just focusing on that, I’ve been drawing more again finally and just relaxing. I really want to enjoy summer this year and go to all the little events and things and just focus on things that make me happy. Not on what will make someone else happy or what more can I do to feel like Im doing something right. I'm just working, focusing on my health and being the best version of me. I definitely let these last couple months slip by so fast without continuing my inner work questions to keep unpacking things and to keep my mind in that growing and learning but I also don't want to be super hard on myself because I did a lot of that for many months and I’ve come a long way and sometimes it’s okay to just live in the “settle” and live in the moments and come back to those growing points again. I do need to find a better balance. I got a little caught up in the looking to date again area and went on some dates with Mitch which he’s the absolute sweetest gem of a guy but just not someone that I’m looking for for life sadly and Im sad that hurt him even though he completely understood and heck man he’s definitely been the most understanding guy I’ve ever come across but I really do want to find someone that has the same beliefs and goals in life as me. Not that 36 was too old but he wasn’t the biggest adventure guy and thats okay too but he was more on the home body side than going out to hike and explore and doing different activities and keeping busy with hobbies like that, he was more work and stay home doing other work or watch movies. Thought it really saddens me because Nova and Zona played so well that I haven’t seen her play with another dog like that since Clark. Made me really just want the best life for her and to meet more dogs that she can really play with. Man i love her so much haha. I can’t believe she’s 4 next week. She’s the most special breathing animal of life.  Anyways thats a big ramble and that catches you up to date on most of the things happening. other than talking to Marc who's from Edmonton but I'm not going to get excited or start talking about that yet cause it’s still so early even though we seem to have everything in common and he’s damn attractive but let’s wait for that update another day.  Oh and the the battle of Alberta happened!!! But flames lost so that sucks. 

Good night future self. 

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Next up is Bear Juan!

So this one is interesting for many reasons: Firstly, I get to look up what bear pride is. Secondly, I did not know anyone cared about this character. And thirdly, I get the challenge of drawing a murder victim. All of this will be elaborated shortly.

For those who don’t read all of blabbing, look forward to Lesbian!Maya on Sunday!…. A lesbian for fathers day… why not!

Normally I would write this bit right after I finish the Image ten add it to queue/drafts till I’m ready to post it. For this one I did it because I finished it late at night. Why? Because I managed to make this one in one day! I mean it took ALL day but I’m still proud since a) the others took around 3 days (I did work my job however) and b) I managed to make up the time I lost with Sebastian’s jacket that took way to long (since then I lost ALL of the time I saved but more on that next time). Well technically this took 2 days since I spent an entire day just planning his outfit but more on that later.

Now before we get to the nitty gritty I’m sure a lot of you are wondering the same thing : what on earth is bear pride? Well normally I don’t bother explaining the flags I’m using and what they mean, and honestly I really should. A lot of people didnt know what asexual was on the Edgeworth drawing and I’m fairly sure I didn’t even use the word, just the nickname “ace”. Soooo that’s my bad. Not everyone looked this up like I did when doing some soul searching so allow me to educate on this one! As far as my research goes bear pride is a subculture of gay pride for the love of burly men. You know hie gay men have the stereotype of being “feminine” whelp bear pride will have none of that. They are manly men who love other manly men! Kinda like the opposite of lipstick lesbian (more on that next time with Maya). So why bears? Well what’s more manly then a bear? Now I get the SLIGHTEST feeling that the person who requested thisbon  AA Amino requested it for the fact that Juan is known for bears (still embarrassed I didn’t pick up on that right away) buuuuuut I don’t know you or your life, nor do I really know Juan or his life. Either or I also couldn’t help making him a literal teddy bear just for the mental image.

Everybody on the same page now? Yes? Good! Let’s move on to the flag then! So this flag is a lot of neutrals and a lot if warm colours so in theory, while it does have one more colour ten the gay flag (and as we all recall THAT was a challange), these colours should all mix well. Because of this it was tempting to put ihim in a kinda manly lumberjack look (again canadian-ness bleeding out) but I juuuust did that with Phoenix and I didn’t want to be redundant. That being said, as soon as I saw that brown my brain went straight to leather jacket. So that’s what I googled until I found the right one. Easy peasy! It’s nice when a plan comes together! Also added a bear paw patch just for fun. Ok so, so far we have brown jacket, black pants, grey belt and in theory i could put white anywhere so that leaves us with yellow, cream and orange to fit somewhere. I’m fairly sure this part took the longest because I do NOT work with orange or yellow a lot nor do I wear them. I started looking into the bull fighter look because that’s the pun in his name but nothing really caught my eye that I could put under a leather jacket. I didn’t want to cheat and just look up “yellow pattern shirts” buuuuut I did. (Spoiler alert : I hate to admit it but I had to do that for the next project too). My feeling on the shirt I picked go up and down, I loved it when I picked it, liked it less when I out it under a jacket, now I like it more the more I look at it. *shrugs*. The only colour left to implement was the cream and conveniently enough Juan has a scarf in his design so BOOM, cream coloured scarf.

As for the pose… I had no clue. None. Zip. I’m trying to do a different pose for every one and this guy I was creatively bankrupt… then again maybe that’s what I get for limiting myself to just having characters stand around like morons. My solution to this was looking up “celebrity poses” and finding a man that isn’t removing his clothes and replicated it (sorry guys).

I was sure that I would have issues drawing this guy for one reason : he’s a murder victim. What does that mean? It means their are a very limited resources on him because he isn’t really given the oportunity to live. Victims in these games make victims essentially dead on arrival, made to be killed. At their conception is their death. Because of this thery’re really don’t NEED a lot of art on these guys. Especially THIS guy since he’s known for being in costume. The only images available are his mugshot, crime scene photos (in costume) and flashbacks. Now in theory I could use the anime but that has a different issue, being I promised my bro that we’d watch it together when it’s availiable in English but we can’t do that until he finishes the second game but we’re on Adrian’s first testimony and he’s frustrated because he doesn’t voice act the girls and he has school so we have been waiting for TWO MONTHS for him to finish school so we can marathon it and……. … … the point is I didn’t use the anime. The good news is I didn’t need too! I don’t know why I didn’t have trouble with his face but I didn’t. Oh well, don’t look a gift horse in the mouth, as they say.

… well I guess that’s it! Next time I’ll write this ahead if time and not on the fly. … BYE!

[deuce-duce]

CROOKS

Today is Mike Pinto day! It explains so much in such a short song that I really dont need to say anything else! Other then one side shoving something down your throat saying you have to eat this! And the other allowing you to eat what you want. That being said the Bible states you will know my children by their fruits... while one side defaces property and projects their truth destroying the community the other does things that truly promote growth and change.

Is my mind geared differently...? I'd say, but does that make me wrong... idk I'm just anonymously prijecting my truth. With so much effort money and power pushing one direction and agenda leading you away from spirituality and righteousness you kind of have to think why... if something isn't real then why put so much effort into making others believe that it isn't real? It would be like me saying "look there's an apple..." and them saying "no its not its a peach!" were all just animals living a biological experience, right?! Thats true but animals aren't conscious beings with logic reason morals and beliefs and the ability to decide. Animals are instinctive and only know 1 way 1 set of skills. Do you think i could teach algebra to a lion?? Asking for a friend!! The whole biolohical approach is qhat I believe to be the easy way to go! Perfect excuse to justify doing anything and everything i want wheter it's right or wrong... I think i may have mentioned my platform only a couple handfuls of times but has grown exponentially. Thats what is foretold about planting a righteous seed.

Im just me and always have been! I let myself get swept up in the chaos that was being shoved down my throat but have come to the realization that what you 👀 is usually not real! Or a way to lure you down a road you might regret later. Same goes for the things that you hear! Its all about what you feel! Life is a feeling process! Thats how we connect to the holy spirit and gives our lives true meaning.

Now my belief or theory about why sex and other worldly pleasures are becoming more and more popular to younger and younger crowds, and promoted to the masses is because by fulfilling your human desires you slow down the development of you emotional growth. Not to mention that some emotions are fopaw or frowned upon to even experience in todays society. A man shouldn't cry so on and so fourth... i love crying and it usually happens not when I'm angry or sad about my life... but when I see something truly inspirational or moving, or see someone going through something truly saddening. By inhibiting emotional growth it leaves us relying on our minds to decipher good and bad and the unfortunate part about that is our minds are easily tricked or manipulated.

I believe the reason my thought process is so different is because of what I have experienced through fudemental growth and development periods in my life. Does that make me wrong dumb or stupid not by any means. A message from my big bro said hey man don't be shame for who you are or your sexuality... its probably because of all the opiates and drugs you did during puberty that have made you think the way you do... and have changed you. These are Kind of lies he projects and believe me they sound good until you actually look at someone who really has done drugs their whole life... because in reality i spent the majority of my childhood either locked up or going through what I have explained to you. Barely smoking weed or drinking. I didnt start using drugs until I was 20. I definitely went hard though, it started with ex then dilaudids then coke and mushrooms didn't do acid until i went to a concert and discovered the Dirty Heads! My twin flame was trying it for the first time as well and she told me she saw my aura an orange is pink color. At this point ill never do another drug other then hallucinogenics they are here to raise our conciousness and open our eyes. Best advice is go with one or two people you trust to a concert or out into nature! AMAZING!! just think about what's being shoved down your throat... you can always hurl it up most just regurgitate it though... Everybodys got choices!

Now something i touched on in a conversation I had the other day was i have been told that all of this happening because im a rat or a snitch and you know by accident I guess was when i was 14. does that deserve a life sentence?? I don't think so... but my clarity of a rat or a snitch is... if you and i go rob a bank together or some type of dirt and I get caught, me giving you up to save myself is what I would consider a snitch or a rat... kind of like 69. but if someone or someones went out of their way to lets say beat up your mother or little brother or... lets say kills someone in your family or even burned your house down... would notifying the authorities be snitching... especially if you didnt know who did it?? Thats for you to decide.

Now unfortunately I have more then 1 reason to say fuck 12 but its crazy to know that where one is supposed to beable to go for help, there is none. So if playing this 🎮 the same way the opposing side does, just with a little more tact and creativity makes things worse for me then so be it! I know I'll lead my life alone and don't want to get anyone involved while this is in full swing. after experiencing the Darkside meerly by happenstance, everything i have ever built or created being taken away from me by unnecessary pressure to chase after women and or contantly be toyed with mentally and physically id have to say my growth game is strong! Now is it growth into what society sees as growth..? I guess not ill probably never beable to chase again sadly enough... it sucks. Just because I accel in certain areas of life doesn't mean I can rise above whats occurred. And what your actually capable of and whats expected of you are very different things. Which is why i have my own set of standards and criteria. unless someone is going to teach me in a way i know im not going to get in trouble or get the shit kicked out of me, which is going to require a lot of communication between thw two parties, then "ill just keep making the same mistakes... hoping that youll understand" (anyone know those lyrics)?

One song that i just listened to that relates to this along with Mr. Pinto, is Revolution by The L81s.

Have a great day everyone!

P.s. just an FYI I know i have left it up to to believe what is you want but if i were lying then why do I face so much adversity... the other thing is if i die because what I've written then I guess you'll know whether or not i was lying im just some religious kook right?! If they haven't figured it out yet... i save my posts as drafts on purpose... why you might ask... idk... just know I do end up realizing who the good people are. It has nothing to do with what color your wearing but something you do or don't do after i walk by...

One song to close with is Money 🌳 Kendrick Lamar

And if your still having trouble figuring out who to believe... ask my brother to see his chest tattoo!! Oh and also you want to see some shit pop off have anyone that likes to show off and brag about tappin this... approach me during the day when I'm not sleeping and I guess we'll find out whats real or not its probably a big group by this point but I've always wanted to die!