#i didnt know hwo to name this one

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tged webtoon ep 153 spoilers n thoughts below yadda yadda

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THE RENDERING BEING BLOWN AWAY IS SO GOOD ABDBDHSHAHAHAHAHA

i LOOOVE visual gags like this WAHAHAHAA like i thought itd be the usual "jesus fuck hes tonedeaf", still silly haha but like we saw already BUT THIS RESOLD IT FOR ME HAHAHAAA LMAO

i had to double take too i had to scroll back up (while giggling like mad) and really Look at it and confirm "WAIT HOLY SHIT LMAO ITS NOT RENDERED"

extremely obsessed w verkis' expressions this chapter in general HEHEHEHE

LIKE HE LOOKS SO DAMN HAPPY IN THIS PANEL HERE ITS A LIL FREAKY ALMOST WAHAHA

gigglin a lot at the two of them just. spinning and sinking down LOL verkis just couldnt bother w a better portal style, thats so real of him tbh like if it works dont fix it

ALSO SUHO'S BODY IS STILL THERE EXISTINF yknow i thought itd be like a case where he like, died or smth but ig not!!! yippee for still being alive but also,,,, what state is he in,,,,,,

like. time HAS to have passed on earth, theres no way it was paused; when cheong shim (i hope that was her name its been a while) got transported and later verkis checked on her dad, its clear that time had passed since she "died"

so suho has to be in like, a coma or smth like that right? cause hes not dead, but then whos taking care of him??? his whole family has passed and bro only had that one friend and who knows where or what that friend is up to,,,

is this like a magical coma?!?!? where hes just. still in the boardroom suspended in. uuh soullessness??? im so curious,,,, need the next ep now

or well, wait he might not be in the boardroom i feel like someone would HAVE to find him n like. idk bring him to a hospital, bc he has to pay rent for that n like the moment rent stops rolling in of course a landlord would notice 😭 aaghh so many questions im genuinely so excited for this arc

AND JAVIER

JAVIER RESOLVING TO BRING HIM BACK OOOHHH OOOOOHHHHH shaking him shaking him shaking him

idk hwo to explain how this makes me feel but ooghh my silly boy,,,, ASK HIM IF HE PLANS ON STAYING,,,,,,, u goofball,,,,,,,,,

god javiers come to love lloyd sm that he'd fight him to keep him by his side EXPLODES EXPLODES EXPLODES PUNCHJNG THE WALL

"i will use my powe- wait wtf MY MANA"

ITS SO INTERESTING THAT HE DOESNT HAVE ACCESS TO HIS MANA HERE NOW

ik its like "duh its another world" but tbh i thought since he had a manaheart, the mana comes from that, or like he just. has mana in his body? idk if it makes sense but yeah, i didnt think of mana being an energy that comes from their world, i thought it came from them themselves if that makes sense

SO HIM BEING MANALESS IS SUUPER INTERESTING tho im sure javier could still like drag lloyd back hes a strong guy lol

i wonder then if lloyd feels it too?!?!? the lack of mana?? especially bc of his heart being yknow. all kinds of shit goin on w it

like can he still use his skills?? will the status windows still appear?? his mana in lorasia does seem to be unique after all, considering javiers interaction w it when fighting the bone dragon; maybe he still has mana?!?!?!

SEOULLLL HERE IT IS!!! wow its polluted damn omg quite the poor first impression for javier 😭 "its like hell,,," nah bud ur just in the city youll b ok 😭

AND THE LAST PANEL OH MY GOD

LLOYD AAAAHHH AAAAAAA IS HE OKAY

HE LOOKS SO,,, NERVOUS? SCARED?? HOLY SHIT AAH GOD HIS EXPRESSION

we dont see him being terrified a lot but when we do its like OUCHH YEEEOUCH god i hope he will b alright U HAVE JAVIER W U ITS OK

im wondering what it is specifically that hes worried abt,,,, being in the same world as himself? seeing the place where he lost his past family all over again? a combination of those maybe?? or maybe its an old anxiety of being out in seoul and not in his boardroom/in class/working, not entirely sure,,, or maybe im overthinking it and its the whole earth being manaless thing fucking w his body like i mentioned earlier lol

either way oooohh i hope he'll b ok,,,,

VERY excited for next week PLS I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS,,,,!!!! see yall then o7

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Is the post you made about burr about historical burr or musical? Because if you’re talking about historical then it’s completely biased lmfao. You’re reading Ron chernow so I’m not really surprised you have that opinion but Hamilton was completely in the wrong for his treatment of burr historically.

Disregarding the fact jefferson was one of the most prolific slave owners of the 18th century, and the fact Hamilton advocated for runaway slaves who escaped to Britain to be returned to their US masters and that he bought slaves for his brother-in-law, Burr treated his household slaves very well in comparison to his contemporaries and insisted they receive an education.

The point that he didn’t have an opinion on anything was something false that Hamilton and other federalists used in order to promote their own narrative and careers. Burr had clear and concrete ideals, evident from the way he voted in elections and what he promoted. He did not however clearly associate with a single party which made people think he wasn’t trustworthy and was very flaky which just isn’t true lol.

And what secrets are you even referring to? Is it the manhattan well company or what?

You are just regurgitating 18th and 19th century slander lmfaoo

damn thats a long ask, but let me get into this.

so it was sort of talking about both, i was listening tp the song and found the lyric funny, but it applies to history too.

theres several parts to this, and you got my curiousity spiked so i looked into this:

- 'Early in his political career, Burr also introduced a bill for the abolition of slavery to the New York state legislature; the bill was voted down. However, Burr was a slaveholder for most of his adult life. His parents, grandparents, and wife Theodosia Prevost were also slaveholders. While surviving records are scarce, it appears that Burr often bought and sold enslaved people as his finances rose and fell; the few named individuals seldom appear more than a handful of times in his papers. On the night before his duel with Hamilton, he put his affairs into order in the event that he did not survive. Instead of freeing the enslaved people in his household, he left them to his daughter Theodosia in South Carolina, where they likely would have been sold. So while he was outwardly a manumissionist, he never backed up his words with any actions.'

(roughly paraphrasing from a text)

- as fpr hwo he treated his slaves, i loojed and couldnt find any info about it, can you send me your source?

-now, for the thought that he didnt have an opinion, i will admit i mispoke. what i meant to say that yes, while he had opinions, however loojing at all he wrote he does seem very selfish, doing whatever benefited him the best. i understand why he didnt choose, seeming to only become democratic republican when he saw an oppertunity out of it. even if he did have his own opinipns, it doesnt seem that way to me, or clearly alexander hamilton.

-alexander also did nothing wrong by choosing jefferson over burr, it was a personal choice, he did what he thought was right, you cant bash him for it, esprcially with burr stealing his Father-in-laws seat. he chose wjo he thought would be better for america

-burr was a pretty secretive person overall, but i didnt know about the manhattan well company. however he had a whole secret colored family with a slave from india, and knwoing how slavery was, thers a good chance she didnt havr a choice about it, which might (MIGHT) have been SA or rape. now, this is a small chance, but still, plus having an rntire colored family is quite a secret. then theres also the whole burr conspiracy, and so many others succh things which show burr had so many secrets. clearly, he was a hypocrite, denouncing one thing and doing the same thing in secret. so yea, he had secrets.

also, damn u actually scanned my posts to find what im reading? read it, its good trust me. and, if youre so concerned in what im reading, can i reccomend you a book? its called infinity alchemist and its by kacen callender and the protagonist is a bly named ashen woods eho is chaotic and ramsay thorne is the best fucking character and no its not related but still!!!

(also ps to those who hate on burr, remember he was a real person, and dont make assumptions, he had a gpod sife too, he was a feminist (tho he might have been another one of those male feminists who claim to be so but just gave a tendancy to SA women (neil gaimon)) but he could have actually been a good one idk this is history)

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fave moments from the beta pt 2

all clips uploaded by digital preservation on youtube

reasoning as to why i included clips under cut:

23: i like how adamant sam is about them not going... bc she's right 😭 going back out is just. dumb. i get its a horror game and shit and stuff has to happen bc plot conflict blah blah but it always bugged me how mike is like "ok everyone stay here! its safe here!" [immediately leaves] GOD. it doesn't even matter here anyway since they still end up leaving anyway but i liked seeing her act a bit more adamant abt how dumb and unsafe it was leaving the room

plus i rly like how sam's the one to say the until dawn line... ANS AND LOOOOOVE love how em tries her best to reassure sam and stuff... and how sam directly tells em to be careful.... MMMM EATING IT UP!!!!! it's def sort of similar to em telling sam to make it back safe in the main game. im just desperate for sam / emily interactions if you couldn't tell. i love them. AND THE WAY SAM WALKS CLOSER TO EM AND THE WAY SHE SAYS THE LINE . TUUYUYMM YUUMYMY

24: OOOUUUUUGHH THIS SCENE.... i just.. the way ashley waits until after they leave to speak up abt it (so theres no confrontation)... the faith sam has in emily all of a sudden... ash having this negative perception of emily... despite literal seconds later admitting that she's afraid for her (and mike's) safety.... sam pretty much being on em's side the whole conversation despite also having her doubts abt them leaving too.... ITS SOO GOOD. my thoughts are all jumbled rn but just know i like this clip a lot. rly shows sam's development in relation to emily and it shows a bit of insight into ashley's character as well. like YES she has this warped negative opinion of emily, but she's still afraid for her going back out there. i do think the main game portrayed (albeit. was a bit over the top w/ it) ash's anxiety better but you see a glimpse into that part of her mind in this scene and i love that

25: i could absolutely be misremembering (since it's bneen a while since i played this scene) but i LOOOVE how they included "jess" straight up calling out ashley's name to lure her in THAT much more. because they know how to hunt their prey right? and so they mustve known that ashley is the "weakest" out of the 3 and therefore would be more likely to succumb. yeah its a bit dumb hwo no one else was able to hear it and that they sort of just /let/ her go but 🤷 i rly like this "revamped" version of this scene. plus, i didnt include it in the vid, but the buildup to finally opening the trap door is sooo good

26: i like how sam is jsut ":) hey guys" also i think i like this version a bit better? in terms of like. EVERYONE meeting up again in the mines, instead of sam using her rock climbing skills just to separate from the group again. yeah its a bit more unrealistic that they jsut so happened to stumble upon each other but 🤷🤷 and that sam and emily basically split off again anyway a few moments later but🤷🤷🤷

27: love how sam forced emily to take control of the buckets even though it was literally her idea to move them. girlboss

28: more silly emily lines and interactions between her and sam... beloveds

29: LOVE HER LITTLE "hah" AT THE END OF SAYING THAT

30: we already know my opinion on this scene. i eat it up every time i see it

31: yeah. "empty"

32: i like how the beta shows this more caring side of emily... plus these interactions between em and josh were something i never knew i needed. i LOVE how em is the one to remind sam that he's hurt and whatnot

33: i dont know how they knew but i LOVE how in the beta they were able to find out thatit was hannah based on ? her jewelry i believe? it was somethign like that. instead of sam and mike reading her diary and piecing shit together yk. i just think finding out /that/ way makes it more. i dont know. sad. and also kind of concerned hwo theyre not talking abt josh's death assuming they saw him w/ hannah? but who knows maybe they didn't. also love how em is constantly asking what couldve happen to [them] and what happened to [them]. i just like that parallel between jess' death and finding out its hannah

34: more of emily's stupid lines fdklgldfjng

35: self explanatory dfgjkdfg also love how she just falls during the last few seconds of the clip

36: just wanted to ibnclude sam w/ the flamethrower bc i think it's cool<3

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overall, i think the beta had a TOOOON of potential. there are some scenes im glad they included / revamped, but there are other times where im a bit disappointed over the direction they decided to take it. it would've been kind of cool if it had more of a like. puzzle-y type aspect to the gameplay? but im not entirely sad they took it out. i think that esp worked well w/ the "josh" saw trap and stuff. how you had to complete these riddles and stuff to "save" his life? it gave a more genuine comparison to saw and stuff. and how even if you completed everything it actually meant nothing? i feel it gives that scene a more tragic undertone if that makes sense. while the choosing between ash or josh is sooo good and interesting, i liked the beta's version of the trap as well

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S2 05

Joyce byers put every single one of Will's drawings on the fucking fridge she has an ENDLESS supply of crayons and markers and I JUST NOTICED THE TAPE ON THESLEEVES

gOD Hes. DRENCHED

his bowl cut is so dry <3

MIKE IS TRYING TO MAKE HIM FEEL SO MUCH BETTER AUGASKHDJH

also are the Byers just ALWAYS sitting to the left of Nancy/Mike i cant remember their last name rn but ?? For some reason theyre like ALWAYS on their left???

HOPPER WEN TINTO THE SHIT HOLE FUCKING ROOTS KNOWING DAMN WELL THE UD IS POISONOUS BC HED BEEN THER EBFEORE AND JUST DIDNT THINK ANYTHING WOUL DHAPPEN?????????? SIR

AUGUAHDHKJASKJHD KJHADS NOW EL IS GONNA HAVEA KHTUHSADL HARKDJSHF SK

THEY ARE BEST FRIENDS THEY ARE BEST FRIENDS !!!! I ADSHASDLKJH im sorry i cant accept romance unless theyre polyam i don't make the rules

KSJHKSJDFHSDFKJH ONLY A MONTH

HIS LITTLE HOOD AND SLEEPING BAGGGG EeverY time i see Joyuce with a phone and stuff IM JUST!! LIKE !! GIRL WALK AWAY ITTS GONNA EXPLODE

dONT!!! say THATTT about my dad hes gonna be OKAY

Im entering this space now with the knowledge that something is gonna happen to Bob I just know it and im grieving him already he hasnt even shown up in this episode yet or the last one buT IM GREIVING MY IDEA OF THIS PERFECT HAPPY MAN WHOMST I ADORE

NOT THE CIGARETTE BREAD CRUMBSSSSS AKJHDALKDJASK JH

give that bitch a nicotine addiction

LUCAS' FAMILLLYYYYYYY I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND LUCAS JUST BEING ABLE TO LEAVE A MEAL LIKE THAT????

GIRLLLL NOT YOUR CAT IM SO SORRY !!!!!! This is the first time that Dustin's done something that i JUST LIKE I UNDERSTAND I GET IT obviously not wanting to upset his mom BUT,,,, baby boy ..... you gotta clean that up now .... you gotta bury that ????

HOW do they handle a second uh. DIAHDkjhd Egg beast. D'art.

IM ALSO KINDA SORRY TO D'ARTANGAN HE'S... ACTUALLY JUST A BABY WHO DOESN TKNOW ANY BETTER HES JUST DOING WHAT HE'S SUPPOSED TO!!!!!

EL girl did you HITCHHIKE ????? YOURE. insanely fucking lucky holy fUCK??? i mean she could have exploded them but STILL ????

Is that the same hosue that Hopper and Joyce visited??? I don't remember it being .... Like this ????? IS SHE GONNA EXPLODE THE DOOR EL PLEASE YOU CANT JUST DO TTHAT okay nvm that was more peaceful

OOASDIAKDJAHKJD Im assuming that Terry is repeating something she saw and wanted desperately to remember and ik the lab room with the kids in it has rainbows on walls or th epain kind alooks like that BUT ????? its SOMETHING obviously

THIS bALDING man. i LOVE when theres always a guy who'se like oh I know EVERYTHING you dont even KNOW and they.... actually know don't shit

MONSTER HOUSE LOOKIN' ASS IS BACKKKKKK

PULLING A FAST ONE ON MAX FOR LUCASSSSS i take it this is when he's YEAHHH GONNA TELL HER THE TRUTH ABOUT WILL !!!!!!!!! AND EL !!!!!!!!

Max is still giving me baby egg vibes

LUCAS IS SUCH A STORY TELLLERRRRRRRR

KSJHKSJDHFLKSDJ JOYCE LOOKING ALL OVER THE PLACE BECAUSE IT LOOKS INSANE AND BOOOBBBBB BO BO IM

ME NOT READY FOR WAHTEVER HAPPENS TO/WITH HIM !!!!!!!! he is BEYOND SWEET and he jUST wants to help he wants to help so bad i ador ehim i adORE HIM

THE PUZZLE MASTER HAS ARRIVEDDD

HES SO CONCERNED HE'S SO LOVING AND HES TRYING SO HARD NOT TO ASK QUESTIONS AND THEN HE'S IMMEDIATELY LIKE OH WAIT FUCK NVM I GET IT

H OPPER BIRTHING HIMSELF OUT THE TUNNE LLL where the fuck is he ... gonna come out of im gonna lose my mind if it's near Dustin

FUCKING ERIKKAAAAA I LOVE HERRRRR DAKJDHAKSJD

im still so skeptical of Terry and El's relationship and this being home and whats wrong with Terry and IM LIKE AKJSDASLDJALSKDJH idk what to think or whats the truth i gotta wait to watch more so i understand more theories and shit bc i dont even knoWWW HWO HALF THE CHARACTERS ACTUALLY AREEE

but something just feeLLSS WRONNGGGGG like .... ,,,,,,,

IS SHe stuck in the UD like Will??????

BOOOBBBBBB HES SO. I AM GONNA LOSE MY MIND WHEN WHATEVER HAPPENS HAPPENS TO HIM EM I AM GONNA BE SO UPSET I HATE THAT YOU LEFT ME :)))))))))) WITH TTHAT AN DNOTHING ELSE

I want to do cocomellon shit to Ted's brain (negative) (explodes him) (explodes him) (explodes him)

IS THIS WHEN STEVE ADOPTS THE CHILDREN SOMEONE TELL ME HOW CLOSE HE AND DUSTIN GET THIS IS IMPORTANT I LOVE DUSTIN SO MUCH I AM GOGIAHSD LOSING MY MIND

Hopper IS you gIVE UP i fyou paSS OUT IF YOU DIE ANYTHING IM GONNA . IDEK . AUUGGHGHHAKSDJASIUHDASKJDH

MAXXXXX GIRL I MEAN YOURE SO RIGHT FOR NOT BELIEVING IT AKSJDHASKDJH BUT GIRLLLLL PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ohhaSDKJADH

EXPLODES BILLY WITH MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

is this the Russian plot that i've seen mentioned a few times or is there more like the ,,,, the lab doing their best to be like ooOoOooOOO The Stinky Russians Will Get THeir Hands On It ,,,,, Cold war bullshit ??????? or is there an ACTUAL russia plot

This guy is RIGHT to insist that like you know you gotta convince people that you're telling the truth - but AKJSDHAKSJDH HS SO ASKJHDKAJH FUCKING FUNNY

oh yeah i dont think dirt's supposed to do that KJSDHKJDSHFKSJDFH

TERRY HELLO GIRL OH did she? actually miscarry???? okay okay c section baby that is VERY alive OH BUT THEY TOLD HER THAT THE BABY DIDN'T MAKE IT. YEAH SEQUENCE OF EVENTS JUST LIKE I THOUGHT. OH THE RAINBOW ROOM IS THAT !!!!!!!!!! THAT WAS THE GIRL FROM THE FIRST SEASON

EXPLODES HIM EXPLODES HIM EXPLODES HIM EXPLODES HIM EXPLODES HIM EXPLODES HIM EXPLODES HIM

BOB IS TRYING SO HARD OOAIFUAKDHS ADKLHFKHJSDA

OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY

CRASH THE CAR BREAK THINGS ITS FINE

BOB DOESNT EVEN ASKDJHAKSDJH KNOWWWWWW HES JUST GOING ALONG WITH IT

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HES JUST GOING ALONG WITH IT HE JUST HE LOVES JOYCE SO MUCH ANDHE TURSTS HE EVEN IF HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND WHATS GOING ON !!!!!!!!!! HE JUMPED INTO THE HOLE TOO I JUST GOD I ADORE HIM SO MUCH IF HE. IF HE GE,,,,,, IF SOETMHGISNSD HAPPENS TO HiM I tNIS HSAE

I AM FRAGILE. I AM FRAGILE. I AM FRAGILE.

WHO THE FUCK !!!!!!!!!! IS THAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHITE VANS COMING FOR KIDS AGAIN FUCKING ON THE NOSE BULLSHIT

PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE PPOISDFJLKD I AM MAKING THE SAME NOISE AS THE VINES IM JUST MAKING SOUNDS AND SCREECHING

ASKDASDHKSJHFDSKJHF BOB ISNT EVEN JEALOUS LIKE GOOD FOR HIM GOOD FOR HIM GOOD FOR HIM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BRO THE . FACE WILLIS M AIKGING AKSDJHASKJHFD OG DFKH STOP

IT FROZE ON IT

IT FU CKING DROZE ON HIM MAKING THE FACE STOP

THERE IS. music? at theending but its not a SONG it's like a half in the UD and half not ????? ig bc it closed on Will seizing and his connection to the vines that are no longer "in" the UD?

(also bob is safe i live free another day)

Stranger Things S2 01

this is just me live blogging watching ST none of my thoughts are v coherent enjoy <3

STARTING OFF REAL INTERESTING BUT REAL TALK when you have like a cool haircut how do you expect not to be found if u do a crime???? LIKE I LOVE YOUR MOHAWK AND I GET IT U DONT WANT TO COVER IT BC OBVIOUSLY BUT!!!!

this is NOT the focus obviously its about the fact theres other kids from the lab BUT AKSHDAKSJDKH

DUSTINNNN!!!!!!!!! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH IM SO GLAD WE'RE STARTING ON HIM KISS KISS KISS

not the reagan sign STOP STOP ITS BEEN 2 SECONDS I HATE TED THATS HIS NAME RIGHT FIGHT KILL DESTROY BITE BITE BITE BITE

also the boys have grown SO MUCH !!!!!!! i forget there was actual real time between when these were filmed KSJHD im so excited to see Will and his perpetual bowl cut

JOYCE MY MOM!!!!!!!!!! SHES SO PRETTY AND SO CONCERNED I JUST LOVE HER

THE CHIP EATING DUDE FUCKING !!!! REMINDS ME OF THAT FUCKER FROM MONSTER HOUSE???????

THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE REMINDS ME OF THIS ASKJDHASKJHDKAJSH

Will is so tiny ..... and little? oh hes being teleported into the fucking upside down again baby boy im so fucking sorry also ilu but why would you just walk outside away from wher eyour friends WERE to look at the horrifying shit world you were trapped and almost died in ????? aSDKJH

Im gonna have to DM you on discord or something so i can properly save all the things you have to say about the timelines and how the Russian shit plays into that because was anyone calling El (im assuming he's referring to her) is Russian??? IK this is possibly the third (?) timeline we've seen (genuinely let me know if i can do that its ok if not i forget tumblr has Dms)

ALSO WHO IS THIS GUY IM CRYING HES!!! WHAT A PI??? WHO ARE YOU

NANCY AND STEVE ALSO BESTIES IM CRYING STEVE IS hes trying so hard are they dating my brain is so full of queer shit that im so deadset on platonic hetero relationships - i paused for one second and unpaused and they kissed SO THAT ANSWERS MY QUESTION

idk what relationships to pay more attention to bc the dynamic between Mike and El interests me the most because of how compulsory everything feels and how El is going to navigate a completetly new environment and how Mike will cope with that? (im assuming its not well)

OH is this the !!! the guy that i see people talk about all the time YEAHHH THE BLOND MULLET MAN AND MAX what the fuck is his name Billy??? He looks trans

CRYING AT CHECKING OUT H IS ASS GIRL WAHT ASS HES FLAT HE HAS NOTH ING AKDSHASKHDKAJSH and those jeans are supposed to be supporting cheeks

I love Mr Clark so much and everyone who looks bored in his class just doesnt GET IT

BUT ALSO MAX I GET IT QUEEN the boys all staring are so good I FORGET THEY GO AS THE GHOST BUSTERS FOR HALLOWEEN

JOYCE MY MOM WHO IS THIS GUY HES??? GOOFY AND SHES SO HAPPY ??? BOB !!! i have no initial bad opinions of him bc hes silly and goofy and he makes Joyce so happy and she deserves to be SO SOSOS OS HAPPY and nothing but happy

IF i have to endure another god damn Hopper flash back im gonna throw up and scream and cry and lose my mind and I won't recover and I'll never come back

Im in call while I watch this episode because i really wanted to get through while and actually use my brain bc i don't that often - but my roommates bird is sitting next to her mic and farting really really softly into it and its making me lose my fucking mind

CORN MAZES WHEN YOURE TALL LOOK SO EASY AND LESS SCARY WHENEVER IM IN A FUCKING CORN MAZE ITS TERRIFYING AND I CANT SEE SHIT BC IM LIKE 2 FEET TALL

NANCCYCYY AND JOHNANATHANANSDNSAKDJ BESTIES BESTIES BESTIES BEST FRIENDS IM MAKING THEM A FRIENDSHIP BRACELET ITS THEIR FAVORITE COLOURS AND THEY NEVER TAKE THEM OFF

ADN STEVE TOO!!! IM SORRY YOURE A THIRD WHEEL BUT its the start of season 2 how do we feel about polyam relationships between them where the audience for that point me in the correct direction

DUSTIN IS RIGHT ALSO I LOVE HIM i love his little hats - MAX IS ALSO RIGHT

God i feel so ba for Will like to be??? singled out like that especially in elementary school? hell.

WHERE ARE THEY GOING TOGETHER WHAT IS HAPPENING ISNT THIS THE LAB ??? ougHHH THAt needle sound was unecessary

REALLY starting to see how this might be a different timelinei have no idea how ???? Joyce would.... trust them??? UNLESS THIS IS A HOSPITAL no its not ho films ina fucking hospital like this

also theyre mentioning the upside down

I understand needing to go back to the only place that fully understands that it exists and you need a place to talk to someone and also monitor him physically without being dismissed as insane - but i dont understand how Joyce OR Hopper would trust the Lab again after everything happened??????

I'm glad that he's actually getting help, and im glad that Joyce and Hopper are there to make him feel safe and support him given everything but !!!!!

this iS THE. He has PTSD. when did they get the word to describe that akjhaskjdh NVM HE JUST SAID IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALSO IS PRETENDING LIKE EVERYTHING IS NORMAL HELPFUL BC IT SURE THE FUCK IS N OT FOR ME ????????? also who is this DR hes kinder but "i need you to trust me" to JOYCE AFTER THE BRENNER SHIT ???

also them NOT MENTIONING IT WHEN THEY LEAVE BUT JOYCE UPSET ABOUT THE WHOLE "i need you to trust me" THING B UT NOT BRINIGN UP BRENNER?????? susususususus timeline shit anyway EM @ me tell me wahts up kiss kiss mwuah mwuah

OH they've upped their guinea pig game on entering the upside down and the gatelooks fucking uglier and uglier LOVE THE TORCH glad it works but no wonder the gate looks angry???

DUSTINNN I LOVE H IM I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

ough i have a feeling her older brother is gonna ..... trigger me a lil but we'll get through it

THEM BOTH HAVING A CRUSH ON HER!!!!!

If YouR fRiEnD jUmPs OfF a ClIfF 🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪

THEYRE GOING OVER TO HAVE DINNER WITH BARBS FAMILY STOP STOP STO PST OPST OPST IM GONNA CRY Oh they hired a P.I okay yeah the bald guy he..... HIS CARD STOPPPPP

realizing they defenitely can't tell her parent's what actually happened to her an di hate that im gonna oaufkahd girl im so sorry im so sorry im so osrry UPSET BC SHE AS A CHARACTER DID NOT DESERVE TO DIE I WISH THEY HADN'T DONE HER DIRTY LIKE THAT

all the photos of her would make me so ill to look at like god NANCYYY THE GUILT AND B LAME GIRLIEEEE

also Mike rebelling after experiencing that kind of trauma and losing Will and El even though Will came back he's not the same of corse he's struggling - calling it with the !!!! WALKIE TALKIEEEE girl i miss her too

YEAHHH ITS dustiNNNN BUT HE AKSHDKAJSH

DUSTINNN IM KAHSDKJH I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HES SO SILLY !!!!!!!!!!!!! HES THE SILLY IN MY HEART

HONESTLY props to him again for not like invesigating something that was probably gonna be HORRIBLE he'd survive a horror movie

JOYCEEEEE IN MY FAV SHIRT SHES SO KISS KISS KISS KISS

Johnathan is such a good brother bro BUT ALSO WILL IS SO RIGHT I GET IT I GET IT I UNDERSTAND TREATING IT LIKE ITS NORMAL MAKES IT WORSE !!!! SOMETHING HAPPENED PLEASE ACKNOWLEGE THAT and JOHANATHANNN HES THE FREAK AND A WEIRDO

STOPA SDADKSHJ iT S THAT WHY YOU DONT HAVE ANY FRINEDS SHUT UP STOP STOP /POS

BOB i love you so far and ik that being a step parent in these situation (even tho hes only dating Joyce its the same) is so hard especially when there are kids involved BUT YOURE DOING SUCH A GOOD JOB

AND THEYRE ALL WATCHING THE MOVIE TOGETHER AHHH

ew the phone the trigger GIRL YOU GOT THIS ITS OKAY ITS OKAY BUT ALSO THATS SUCH A HORRENDOUS RINGTONE WHAT THE FUCK

love me a tech who accidentally ignores the alarms going off (i couldnt hear the song playing it feels important - unintentially placing importance on all the music in this show now thank u em)

OohuaAHDAKJH OH WILL IS GONNA get ,,,,, yoinked back again isn't he ouguhadhAKHDJS interesting that it really only affects the *outside* like doors are now portals in a way ? i cant remember if it affected the inside of the arcade immediately or not

OH MIST LOOKING MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wood Waffle Hours !!!!!!!!!! OH NO CABIN HOURS??? IS SHE. IS SHE. BIG EYE BALL EMOJIS LET ME SEE MY GIRL LET ME SEE THE BABY GIRL !!!! this entire scene makes it seem like shes a fucking AKSJDHA freak ass creature

HER HAIRRRRR SHES SO CUTE STOPPPP HOPPERS LITTLE SMILE IM TEARING UP AND CRYING ACTUALLY LOOK AT THEM LOOK AT THEM LOOKA T THEM OUGHHAHAHHHHHHHH IM HEAVING

thank u for reading these were my thoughts

[plush-rabbit]

Dabi Dating Headcanons

Request: So for the request i was wondering maybe like dabi with really really beautiful and kind s.o, like people always start with her or text her and harass her but she loves him from the bottom of her heart and comforts him, he bascially gets really jealous and they fight in an alley way and a few villains who are after dabi see them fighting and decide to try to attack her infront of him, he toasts them but he is scared that now his s.o hates him and think hes cruel only for them to hold him and tell him nomatter what he does she will follow him to the depths of hell itself if it means she gets to be with him

If you dont like it its okay you dont have to do it i completely understand

A/N: Took a little bit of a different turn but ya know, yeah. Hope you like it!!

Dabi doesn’t like to think of the relationship that he has with you as something official. He comes to your home, eats your food, uses your shower and rests his head on your chest as you tease with his hair. He doesn’t want to have anything deeper with you, he just wants something fun for the meantime, but even then, he can’t help but use the key you gave him to open your front door in the dead of night. He holds your key close to him, wrapped around some thread that hangs on his neck and that’s enough for him. He cares for you in his own way and somehow that’s enough.

You aren’t like him. You live a normal life that could have been his, but isn’t and never will be. He doesn’t want you roped with his “business” life. It’s not something that you can handle, and even if you press for more information, he won’t give it to you. He rather see you pout and drop his hand than see you covered in ash and the scent of burnt flesh. It's easy to keep you in the dark, to flip the blinds when he’s home with you. He makes sure he isn’t followed, that any trail that he left is gone when unclasps the key from round his neck to enter your home that smells like honey and vanilla.

The few times that he does stay with you, it’s mainly for him to rest. He gets to enter your home during the frigid weather and you always welcome him with open arms. Your place is small and filled with different sorts of knick-knacks from your life- photos that cover the wall, posters put up in frames, figures that you tell him not to touch, and empty soda cans that you promise have been rinsed out, and it's home to you. You tell him that it’s home for him too- he does have a key after all, but he doesn’t want to call it home. It’s all temporary. He’s sure of a few things in his life, and one of those things is that he’ll die when the time comes, and he doesn’t want you to go through that grief. Yet, he still comes home to you; he lays on your chest and falls asleep to you playing with his hair.

One fateful night, he finds you out and about in the streets. You wave to him and rush to be by his side and when he asks what you’re doing out so late, you tell him that you had just finished eating with some friends. Whatever the reason, it isn’t important. It’s late and you’re out here, and he’s going to take you home. When you ask if he’ll be joining you, he denies the offer. He has other affairs to tend to for the night. When he sees you frown and visibly pull away from him, he scowls and promises to try to make the time sometime this week. He doesn’t like to be away from you for so long, but sometimes, he just has to.

On the way home, you and him are followed by thugs. It starts off as a gradual process- following, and then it escalates to them yelling out obscenities that make you hold onto Dabi’s hand and push yourself close to him. He keeps an eye on them, watching how they still remain at a distance, but not missing their quirks that protrude from their body. He’s sure that he can recognize them but he makes no attempt to actually think of who they are. So far, they aren’t messing with either you or him, so there’s no reason to start a fight over just suspicious people.

Starting a fight isn’t something that he’s willing to do without proper cause- or if it were the last resort- and he’s less likely to start one now when you’re so close to him. He would rather not have you be so close to him during something like that; both out of fear that you’d run away and that you’d go and call for the authorities. He likes having a place to stay even if it isn’t consistent. When he sees them approaching, he frowns. He doesn’t want to lead them back to your place, and walking around in circles isn’t going to be good for him or you, so for now, he makes the best- and rash- decision to enter an alleyway. As suspected, they follow and they block off the exit.

He stays as emotionless as he can, urging them to go away by using intimidation. It doesn’t work. They still approach the both of you and he can feel your grip on his tighten. The words are less than kind and if he were anyone else, he’s sure that it would warrant a reaction, but he’s heard it all before and even worse. It truly means nothing as he stands there and listens to insults thrown at him. Even in such an alleyway, you both remain illuminated and when the group of thugs notice you, they start to direct their insults towards you.

You call his name and hide behind him when the group steps close to you and the only thing he can think of is to protect you. His hands lift before him and his burns as blue flames wrap around his arms and shoot outwards, burning the men to a crisp. Their screams are dulled out by the crackling of the flame and when he flowers his hand, with smoke heavy in the air and fading out from his arms, he feels relaxed, like weight that has been lifted for just a few moments. And then he hears you cough, wet and racking through your body and when he turns, you’ve stepped away from him.

The alleyway is filled with the scent of charred bodies and with the sound of your coughing up a lung into the crook of your elbow. Nails pierce into his palm and he stands tall as he looks at you. He tells himself he doesn’t care about your opinion of him, but he does. Maybe it was the late nights spent with you that made him soft, that made him open up for just a bit, but he cares and he hates how you haven’t met his eyes. His arms hurt, and he can feel the metal that decorates his skin sear into him just a bit deeper, and he waits with a wounded look for you to finally look at him.

When you do look at Dabi, he’s prepared himself to handle your rejection and fear. He’s still except for a twitch in his jaw when you stand before him, your hands slowly lifting to cradle his face. He has to resist the urge to lean into your touch, but even so, he lets out a sigh. There’s a poor attempt at a joke that leaves his lips that you should run before he burns you too, believing that you’re just in shock and soon enough, you’ll wipe clean yourself to rid of his existence in your life. You give him a sad smile and shake your head. You know who he is, you know that he protects you, and you want him to be in your life, and you'll be in his. You care for the burned man who has finally leaned into your touch, and when he can hear sirens off in the distance, he pulls you away and races to your apartment, ready for the day to be over with.

[fictionfixations]

3.2 Genshin Archon Quest / Thoughts

GENSHIN SPOILERS

I just did the 3.2 archon quest

i started it at midnight, it has been 5 hours and 30 minutes since then

jesus fuck

so anyway

HOLY SHIT? SO MUCH HAPPENED and im gonna need to reprocess that when im not very sleep deprived NO CAUSE WHAT??? i cant right now but just

also greater lord r i really dont know how to spell her name but i assume you know who i am talking about by greater lord, because there is only one but so when she sacrificed herself or whatever for irminsul (i dont know if i spelled that right either)- to be honest i was really tired and yawning and felt like collapsing and resting but i really wanted to hear that story because you cant redo the quest and while you can relisten to the dialogue its not the same but so she did that whole thing and everyone forget her? it pains me, not to mention how the traveler reacts when we're in the grand bazaar at the feast where shes surprised that kusanali 'returned' to the akademiya

a secret. i wont be surprised if there turns out to be fics in the future where the traveler instead tells people about greater lord rugghadevata that does not look right, oof. uhm. but so yeah. ALSO SCARA??? apparently hes in a coma- WHO TF IS THAT DOOD WHO WAS REVEALED FOR I THINK 3.3 THAT WE ALL THOUGHT WAS SCARA?? WELL IT CANT NOT BE HIM--

LOOK- NO BUT SRSLY?? i dont know if this is a leak or not, it just invaded my youtube recommended so i couldnt do shit about it because it was in the thumbnails but i THINK its not..? idk man but so anyway

jesus fuck they overhyped the boss fight- not that it wasnt cool, because it really was, but jeez it was a little bit easier then i thought haha no but since we got a shot of its battle mechanics it helped me get a hang of it easier? i ended up one trying it, but not without IMMENSE panic and character death uhh. okay so like you know how that text appears at the top of your screen to guide you?? okay so you know hwo like barely anyone read the vision hunt decree text on raiden's fight because they were trying not to die?

bro it was saying something which i now know is about stunning him and i could barely read it because i was just being attacked man i mean with trial and error i figured it out AND THEN HIS LEGS

i didnt know if we were meant to attack it or not man ;_;

ALSO ELEAZAR IS GONE

WOOOOO

anyway im gonna go sleep for like the next few hours because i actually have school and i got super immersed into the game to where i just completely zoned out and forgot about time and shit

AaAaa oh oh yeah not to mention nahida saying that we're like i already forgot what it was called but like.. there were 3 other people the fatui i think classified as not from this world, which nahida thinks one is the heavenly principles, but the other 2 we dont know, and the 4th is us. The thing IS is that our twin is NOT classified as an external person, like they BELONG in teyvat, which is.. ..huh...? and they were like there for khaenri'ah and had their journey through the 7 nations, which we knew what happened but this is more confirmation ig? and then towards the end we dont know. ..huh.? what the fuck idk man im gonna rest on it and hope i dont stay confused (i mean i sort of understand?? its probably one of those things ill have to look back on in the future when i understand)

[spiritwinding]

for the duration of the classic games, sonic was Incredibly reserved. talked to no one and only used sign language when necessary, had no social life outside of talking to flickies and other woodland creatures, just was Completely isolated from people. he was SUPER close to his parents, and having them die made him essentially swear off of. talking to people. to steal lyrics from wicked: 

too long i've been afraid of losing love, i guess I've lost well if that's love it comes at much too high a cost

meeting tails and his relationship with him is what made him talk and start to accept friendship back into his life, that he Needs companionship and can’t get by on his own and that a life alone is a miserable one, but it was a gradual process that spaned the adventure games and sonic heroes, so here’s a rambly post about some of how sonic went from a hermit to the VERY anime friendship guy he is in sonic forces!

sonic is pretty prickly and easily irritated in adventure 1 and is still stuck in his Cool Lone Wolf kinda ways? avoids amy very obviously, openly says shes weird, frustrated with knuckles, very dismissive of tails etc. at the same time when he gets separated from tails when they crash in sa1 he’s genuinely sad and concerned for him, and prioritiizes how chaos would feel if locked in the master emerald while still rampaging. he very clearly cares about people, he’s just. distant and has kinda bad people skills. during sa1 sonic starts to realize he needs to listen to his friends and be more tolerant with them, though (amy stopping him from destroying gamma, how theyw oulda probably noticed birdie had an emerald if sonic hadn’t blown off amy so quickly, everyone bringing the chaos emeralds at the end), and he starts to? get along better with them? calls knuckles buddy in sa2, definitely gets along better with amy, puts a lot of his faith in tails when he gets shot out of the ark, AND fights with shadow at the end, is much less prickly in sa2 and just in general starts to embrace this group theyve kinda scrapped together

speaking of sa2, though: shadow! sonic has always had a short temper depending on the situation, but particularly in sa2 he didnt take kindly to a) being accussed of shit he didnt do and b) excUUse me how dare you copy me? like me?? still, he was definitely intrigued by shadow, and sonic is Painfully curious by nature, not to mention the whole affinity for chaos energy thing. kinda lilke a pull to the stuff. i also think sonic GETS aloof grumpy characters, because even if he wasnt ever grumpy, just short-tempered and kinda irritable, he was definitely aloof, and gets what it’s like to struggle to connect with others when you’re afraid of losing them. throughout the game they both come to respect eachother, and ultimately the fight they have at the end is. the first team fight sonic has? he has to put his trust in someone in the battlefield, really learn how to keep an eye on himself AND whoever hes fighting with, which is different than not hurting civilians for example. they both constantly ask eachother how theyre doing and sonic suggests to shadow that he needs to rest and that he can tag in. like regardless of everything that happenned during the game sonic cares about shadow, and whether by necessity or otherwise, trusts him to fight alongside

so when shadow, someone sonic probably considers somewhat of a friend, who was fighting with him and who sonic wanted to keep a close eye on, dies when he’s right next to him AND super sonic it doesn’t Feel Great. sonic felt responsible for shadow falling, for one, and for two, that’s someone he cares about dying. again. when thats what he wanted to avoid by essentially dissappearing from society: he didn’t want to lose people. of course losing shadow si very different and less painful than losing his parents, but it’s a reminded of what he’d been running away from all this time, and what he’s potentially going to go through again if tails, knuckles or amy die, too.

so he goes on another ‘vacation’ between sa2 and heroes-- distances himself from everyone else again, both to Repress and also to start to start to go back to the lonely nomadic lifestyle. the thing is, after going through what he did with everyone, tails in particular, he misses them. he misses company, now that he got it again, and realizes he doesn’t want to be alone again. being alone sucks, no matter how much you double down on it.

and tails and knuckles Show Up-- like they find HIM rather than the other way around. they come back, like a boomerang, and all three of them go to defeat eggman again, in an Entirely trio-based game, where sonic learns hwo to be a better teammate, and how to depend on others in a fight again. shadow turns out to be okay*, and at the end everyone refuses to let him fight neo on his own, and he’s? kinda overwhelmed? that he’s gathered people who are willing to support him, and that return like boomerangs, too

he wont be alone, because his friends will always be there to have his back, and he can always count on their help!! superpower of teamwork babyyyy. annd at the end, instead of going off on his own, he TAKES tails and knuckles with him!

sonic at the end of the day needs companionship. he leans towards ambivert and needs a Lot of alone time, and loves his personal space, but he needs to know someone is there to have his back ykno? he loves people, and needs people, and hates being alone like... in life. not like running alone or travelling alone, but just. having no one in his life is almost kinda terrifying. he knows what thats like and is aware he doesnt want to go back to having no one know his name except for the local flickies he saved from eggman.

*note: sonic definitely has unresolved shit from Everything That Has Ever Happened, aside from his parents deaths, because he’s so desensitized to all of it and just.. always Has to function, it isnt a question, and shadow ‘dying’ isnt an  exception. definitely not as bad as other stuff, like the guilt for everyone who DID die, but he never worked through? much of it? because unless it specifically worms its way to the surface, sonic doesn’t know it’s There, and even if he picks up on somethig he won’t adress it unless it’s Baaaaad, and that’s only a recent thing. repress and move on, thaaaaaaat’s life pal. it doesnt help that sonic is honestly seen as Emotionally Invincible by everyone around him, so who would think he has baggage abt somethign that happenned when he was 13? (btw he was 13 in sa2 which is a Yikes!) he feels he failed shadow, particularly because it was. the ‘death’ that happenned right after he also blamed himself when his mom died in his care. he works through the occasisonal thought about it by just! trying his best! not letting it happen again! but again, never worked thru it, never told anyone. someone write this w/ me somehow blease

[omgchickmik]

story

My story. 

one of my earliest memories was playing with my favorite toy horses. Big Girl, Joe, Jane and Jim. I was playing them with my sister and I think my grandma had gotten me them. There was just something about horses that I absolutely had to have. Growing up was spent in the pool, riding bikes with my best friend Niki, swimming at grandma and grandpa’s, tree house adventues with my sister Kristi and Niki and playing and playing with Barbies, Maple Town and of course horses. 

I was a bit of a stinker if I didn’t want to do something, I DID NOT WANT TO DO SOMETHING. Like dance. Fuck dance. So I would sneak over to grandma’s house (mom and dad would freak like you would wtf is my child!?) and I would be at grandma’s and be like grandma will tell you that dance sucks and I shouldn’t do it. Grandma and grandpa always had my back. 

The biggest best thing evvver was taking horse back riding lessons. I started when I was in pre school and it was the best thing evvver. I would watch any tv show, westerns, Mr. Ed anything that had horses in it just to watch horses. My sister took lessons with me but soon it was just me taking lessons. 

I remember the first time I fell off, I was cantering and froze when the trainer asked to slow the horse down. around and around i went faster and faster then the horse cut down the middle I fell but my leg was still in the striupp so i got dragged a little bit till the horse came to the trainer and stopped. My mom flipped. but i was like ok, i get back on now. That’s what jim from man from snowy river said. not shaken up at all. 

I wondered why there was a blimp in my mom taking me to lessons and my grandparents. Bc apparently after that my mom was like i am not taking you riding anymore and of course in came grandma and grandpa to take me to lessons. I remember i would blow kisses to them everytime i passed them by in the ring :). 

All i wanted was a horse. my mom said when i was 10 i could get one. so when i turned 10 and didnt have a horse of my own i was a bit upset. and durning this time my family decided to move to west palm beach, about an hour away from where i was. but all my best friends were there and grandma and grandpa i coulnd’t believe this shit! and no one asked me! sooo i hid, threw out checks i thought were going to the house, what a brat i was. and made a fuss when it came to moving. 

we did move and i found a best friend there, jackie, she had not 1 horse but 3!! the coolest person ever. we hung out all the time, playing barbies, horses, pretending to be horses, being tom boys, swimming having the best time. then i started taking riding lessons and the cooolest thing i started showing horses! my dream come true! and so was jackie! 

soon we got a call from her mom i wanna say who said go to this barn and try out this horse. so we did. his name is sinful and we became bessst friends. first we leased him and showed him then turning 11 my dad, grandpa and a neighbor built me a barn! and sinful came to stay at our house i had a horse!! We did all the compeitions and won so many as well. we did western, english, jumping but i would say our favorite was trail rides and trail rides with jackie. 

in middle school jackie and i had different classes and i didn’t have that many friends. i took to another favorite thing of mine. movies. i would watch, the lion king, twister and the cable guy. enter jim carrey. i wanted to be jim carrey., i would dress up like ace ventura nearly every friday for ace ventura fridays. i was not cool but jackie accepted this and contuned being my best friend.

in high school i took drama and was introduced agaikn to chorus something i did in elementary school. and the chorus kids took me in and introduced me to broadway. 

i thought broadway was trash but they took me to see rent and i reconsidered. i was then deciding i wanted to be maureen in rent and needed to go to nyc stat!

i got accepted into amda and as my parents tried to convince me not to go i went and made some incredible friends and actually learned how to dance. all the while i was there i was still missing sinful and horses. so when i came home to go to fau - i was not happy about - i made a point to get back into horses and started competing in the jumpers with alfonso. 

the coolest horse show is called wef. and i wanted more than anything to ride in wef. i got a job to pay for lessons and by the 4 years i finally got to show in jumpers at wef! while at fau i met some amazing people and roomed with one my best friends smisek who introduced me to alternative music and a person who just loves music and i wanted to love music as much as she did. 

so we went to some shows together and saw eric hucthinson. during this time my sister was making a album of her own and performing something i never thought one could just do. and while at amda i started making up songs for people but didn’t think anything of it. till i saw eric and he was funny and also made up songs. so smiske and i went to open mics and as a grad present my dad got me a keyboard that i took to nyc. 

moving back to nyc i went to auditions for theater but didn’t care and came home and said i was going to pursue a career in songwriting and they were actually excited, which surprised me. 

i went to see eric play and asked him after hwo to get a start as a songwriter and he suggested, playing open mics. so i did. 

i met a boy who turned out to be  a shit and wrote songs about him, then met a very nice producer and he recorded and helped me put together my songs. and i finally had something to offer and started playing out. 

my mom says you never know if you dont ask. so i asked this one artist if i could open for them. they said yes. then i wrote to eric asking the same thing. then i saw him in person randomly at a bar and talked to him and after that he wrote me back saying to look out for dates. i did. and then he reached out to me to open for him.

i did a fucking great job on that show! and he asked me to open for him again. during this time i was working at a riding barn in the bronx and had to yell to talk to students and compete with all the other trainers talking, so my voice was upset. needless to say at the next show my voice bombed and cracked in multiple spots and i felt like a complete failiure. 

i went home and decieded to change my voice teacher and found ron. and i decided to leave my teaching job and try to get a job at soulcycle. 

while working at soulcycle i was working with ron on finding my voice. i got signed to this silly college label and released my first full length album with dave and did a kickstarter to help get a little bit more money to finish it. 

playing a show for one of the pre kickstarter shows i met brian. i wasn;t that into him at first, as his friends introduced him as a douche. but when he came to another show, brought people and hung out at karaoke later i began to get into him. 

we started dating and then we fell in love! 

i got to open for dweezil zappa bc my dad had entered me into this submission to open for him. after soundcheck he asked if i would be interested in joining his band and going on tour. i thought he was crazy. but he was serisous. 

he sent me about 40 songs to learn and i went to la to rehearse, ron and i worked over time. i got to go on my first tour! it was so cool! i had a bottom bunk and would make sure i prioritixed my voice when it came to the tour and go lots of sleep. we played amazing places like red rocks and also got to to europe for the first time and went to finland and even norway! the band is incredible and made me feel so good and happy to be with them. i wanted to be able to pursue my own music so i didn’t continue in their band but i hope one day they ask me to sing with them again. 

back in nyc i was at soulcycle and they were kind of poops to me. but i started a musical sketch team called misc. filled with amazing funny peoeple and we make up funny sketches with music and my good friend pete plays all the music for us! but that started bc the magnet theater would never let me into their musucial improv teams so i created my own. 

brian and i got married on a rooftop in bk and it was amazing! so perfect! we did so many of the crafts and all of the flowers. we got this cute dog finn and cat hiccup!

i then thought it would be fun to move down to nc to be and spend time with my family and sinful! so we moved here last oct and have been since. its been fun to have a yard, dishwasher, dryer and washer! I now teach my own spin classes and i get to see sinful everyday and try to make him the happiest pony ever! finn loves going to the barn too! and it’s been fun spending time with my nephews and niece. i hope i help them feel better about somethings like school they don’t really like. i also helped kim move out of mom and dads house and into her own and aj into his apt which was so cute. and now i am finally learning and developing the business side of my music and all my little side hustles. i feel really happy and grateful. 

[pastelingo]

:^) 9, 10, 11, 24, 28, 29, did you cut your hair?

9)Do you feel pride in who you are ?-Uhhh I dont know somtimes sort of, self accetance let alone pride is rare, mostly I'm just working on it 10) Who are some supportive idols in your self discovery ?-I think Elena Geneveine (hope I didnt fuck that up too much) had a role in it, which might be odd because she's a trans woman as opposed to ftm yknow, and also when I started watching her she hadnt really transitioned yet, but she helped me understand being yourself alot more and start questioning more I guess, then also I imagine Jamie Dodger, or SkyLarkElevrn (yeah everhones youtubers) they came in later and kind of just helped make me feel better and more hopeful about it, ans motivated to keep going and be myself and all that shit. I dont knkw jjst other trans people on the internet being themselves and talking about their transition and talking about gender dysphoria and hope and everything play a big supportive role for me I think. Of course friends and stuff helped me alot with transitioning and coming out so much, like my old group with marina and rachael, today my awesome friends help support and validatetm me so so much.11) Talk about your first crush-uhhhhh I think my f i rst crush was some random kid named lucas in kindergarten, then there were a couple middle school crushes cause yknow, then I guess the first r eal one would be marina ha yeah. She was my best friend for several years in late middleschool/early highschool, I had feelings for her the second I saw her ha, she is a really amazing persom who is incredibly kind and yeah idk look her up on this blog if you want more idk24) Hwo do you feel about the word queer ?-I don't know alot about it as a slur and everything, I know when I first started transitioning I appreciated it as an 'umbrella word', now just I dont know not alot of opinions on it but it should probably be used carefully..28)Most annoying question you've ever gotten ? - I dont know, I remember omce a woman at a change room like chased me into the room and wouldnt let me close the door until I told her my promouns (not like aggressive cahsing and refusomg tonlet me close the door jjst like follwoijg me amd standkmg im tje door asling over and over)29)How do you feel about getting questions about your sexuality/gender ?-I don't know I think it's all good and dandy but when its strangers asking me about it in public and stuff it makes me feel kind of alienated and lame but, sometimes they need to ask or are just curious or talking, just feels kind of lame but still yeah all good I dont know. Not these questioms though like this is jist fun qoo tall about yourself ask prompt thing or qhatevr

[weeavile]

uhj so this is kinda freaky n i didnt rly wanna tell anyone abt this but im kinda freaked out myself so . under the read more if any1 wants 2 read some spoopy shit 

 suzette (my mother) went out n bought these old dusty moldy ass chairs frm the op shop down the road n ever since we moved them into the living room some weird stufs being going on .

my cat who weve literally nvr had a problem w noise wise just starts yowling for minutes on end whenever he walks into the lounge n wont go NEAR the chairs like hes absolutely terrified of evn walking past them . i told my dad n he just chalked it up 2 the fact mayb the owners before us had some cats or something ? but stiles has nvr acted uparound other cats before so ? wth the fuk ?

anyway thats kin da freaky amiright but we were all just like eh must be some old cranky lady haunting the chairs or seomthing so we made a joke out of it i guess n named them. ones beatrice n the others janice . fuk janice. 

the other night i stayed up til like 3am n i wazs so fukin tired i dont evn remember crashing but i was rly out cold dude anyway . sometime during the night i literally jolt awake like legs kickking up n everything i was scared shitless . my heart was already beating violently in my chest n i was sweating piss n for whatever reason my eyes immeditelyt fly 2 the corner of my room . i kid u fukin not right there next 2 my closet was this shadowing white blurry figure  kinda like i was someone shortsighted without glasses on . it wasnt rly the figure of a person it was just like . a blob of white space . it freaked me out hwo i could see it so easily cuz my room is in the darkest corner of the house its Always pitch black u cant even see a hand in front of ur face man .

i couldnt take my eyes off it n truth be told i rly didnt want 2 either i was too scared if i evn blinked it would move closer . that didnt matter though cuz it felt like it was getting closer anyway jahajjsjd i hadnt even blinked n i got the feelign it was moving towards me without it evn moving ? god it was a fuked up feeling . in a moment of shear impulsiveness i scrambled for my phone beside me w shaking hands literally PUNCHED my fukin password in just 2 turn on the flashlight . whn i shone it in the corner ther was Nothing . not even an item or furniture i couldve mistaken for the figure . my body was still coiled w tension like i had not stopped sweating it was some instinctual fear shit ughf 

anyway long story short i pulled the covers over my head turned my back away frm the wall n passed the fuk out a lil while later . i dont know what the hell that thing was n this is the first time anything like this has evr happened 2 me jhjhg janice probably wants me dead

[magiii]

BLUH THIS TOOK LIKE 3 DAYS SORRY IDK HWO TO COPY AND PASTE IN MOBILE Tagged by: @softsummerkisses thank you!!

A- age: 16 (17 in a month :0)

B- birthplace: Los Angeles (it’s a big place so good like finding me)

C- current time: 6:25PM

D- last thing you drank: Dr. Pepper (which is somehow the same thing jake put o,o)

E- easiest person to talk to: @kit-chats!!

F- favorite song: Ready to Go (Get Me Out My Mind) - Panic! at the Disco and Kitchen Sink - twenty one pilots

G- grossest memory: ...please no, everything from age 15 and before

H- horror yes or no?: Somewhat?

I- in love? aah idk confusing feelings i guess

J- jealous of people? jealous that they can make friends easier than i do ;;

K- killed someone? i hope not

L- love at first sight or should I walk past again? hm not rly? i kinda have to get to know them first

M- middle name: Hoanglong! it’s my viet name that means “Royal Dragon” which is synonymous with “Golden Dragon”

N- number of siblings: One older sis

O- one wish? For all of my friends and close ones to find success in their own dreams and that they can do whatever they need to be happy in life and have a stable mental health.

P- person you last called? I think my dad :p

Q- question you’re always asked: how are you feeling?

R- reason to smile: My friends and hope of the future

S- song you last sang: Die Anywhere Else from the Night in the Woods Soundtrack

T- time you woke up: ...5pm

U- underwear color: I have different colored underwear, but most recent was orange i think, good thing no one will see it.

V- vacation: Minneapolis, Minnesota, I’ve been there once and the small city environment was really relaxing and I didnt have a care in the world.

W- worst habit: Messing around with my retainer, it’s been 2 months and it’s already scratched

X- x-rays: uhh, only got xrays from the occasional dentist check up

Y- your favourite food: Alfredo pasta, more specifically the ones served at Disneyland

Z- zodiac sign: Leo!! 

Tagging: @notjaesshh @kit-chats @grimjades @rox-lalond @benzopyrene-612  @luna-lalondegood​ @starfish-rose @k-a-n--a-y-a you guys dont have to do it and im sorry if i forgot anyone! anyone can do it if they see this on their dash too!

[sadrien]

Ok so YES I love the long distance internet friends au but consider! Long distance wrong number au

honestly anon, thank you so much for this tonight. 

i took long distance and made it loooooong distance to the point where it probably doesn’t make sense, but ~~suspension of disbelief~~

texts between adrien and the mystery person (wow i wonder who) are in italics because theyre in french. also i didnt want to bother anyone so ‘numéro inconnu’ is from google translate so im sorry for….that

finally i tried to streamline how i do texts for this just because the way i do texts is usually a lot clunkier? so it looks more like wanna chat but isnt in like….the contact names are still what the other person would see? like when it says pretty boy thats ninos contact name for adrien and—

frick just tell me if its too confusing and tell me how to fix it im really tired

[on ao3 in case the read more is a butt and wont open]

2:51 PM unknown number: Did this work????? unknown number: a;slkdfjadj its me btw unknown number: I mean duh its me who else would it be unknown number: If you screenshot this conversation al I swear to go d Ill kill you

Adrien squints at his phone. Not only does he not know this number, but the text are in French. That’s…unusual. He thinks that it’s a lucky coincidence that his father is from France and insisted he learned the language before replying.

2:52 PM numéro inconnu: I think you might have the wrong number. numéro inconnu: Sorry if my French is bad I don’t speak it often and I write it even less

unknown number: Ohmogd unknown number: IM SOSO RRY  IDNT MEAN OT unknown number: AHHHHH I MUSTCE TYPED IT IN WRONG???????? unknown number: Im sorry IM osrry Im sorry Im s orry Im sorry!!!!!!!!!! ; ^ ;

It takes Adrien a minute to translate the texts with the typos. He’s not nearly as fluent as he thought he was. His dad will be thrilled about that. Maybe he needs to mention to Nathalie that starting Chinese has left him a little rusty with his French…

Not that this is going to be a thing. Because it’s not. He’s not going to keep texting some random stranger from— Wait a minute.

2:54 PM numéro inconnu: On the off chance of sounding really stalkery numéro inconnu: (I’m not sure if that’s the right word, I had to use Google Translate) numéro inconnu: Do you live in France?

Yup. That question is just as creepy as it sounded in his head. Adrien spins slowly in his chair as he waits for a response, completely disregarding the homework he needs to have done before he leaves for fencing.

2:57 PM unknown number: Ummm unknown number: I dont know if i should be telling you this random stranger I texted by accident unknown number: But seeing that its a big country unknown number: ANd idk how youd find me to like murder me or something unknown number: Yes. Im from France unknown number: Why??

3:01 PM numéro inconnu: It’s just that numéro inconnu: I live in the United States so… numéro inconnu: I’m trying to figure out how you got a wrong number that…wrong numéro inconnu: That sounded mean I’m sorry!!!!!!!

Adrien puts down his phone and groans. Scaring people off from literally an ocean away. He’s always known he’s not the greatest at socializing but this is some next level shit. He stares at his darkened phone screen for a minute before deciding that whoever he’s been texting is probably extremely weirded out and won’t be replying.

He’s strangely disappointed by that.

And while he could go back to doing physics work, he’s not going to. Because now he’s distracted and he doesn’t really want to be thinking about sound waves right now. Maybe in like fifteen minute, because sound waves are cool and add a whole new layer to music that he kind of loves, but not right this second.

The next time his chair spins past the desk, he grabs his phone and pulls up his conversation with Nino.

3:09 PM pretty boy: Have you ever been texted by someone who has the wrong number before?

duuuude: yup duuuude: it was weird af duuuude: didnt turn into a full convo cause they never responded

pretty boy: What did they send?

duuuude: a rad horse painting and the message ‘jen painted another horse’

pretty boy: Ok wow yeah that is kind of weird

duuuude: yeah i didnt respond duuuude: but then the next day they asked about florida?? and flooding??? and were like yo have you seen or called anyone and i was like oh shit i should probably respond because this seems important incase theyre looking for someone

pretty boy: Yeah that sounds like a smart move pretty boy: Did you ever hear back from them

duuuude: nah duuuude: unfortunate too i wouldve loved to see more horse drawings duuuude: anyway that was kinda a random question any reason why you ask?

pretty boy: I got a text from a wrong number pretty boy: From France

duuuude: what the fuck duuuude: bruh international texting fees duuuude: good thing youre rich my dude

pretty boy: Nah it’s ok it was all iMessage

duuuude: bless duuuude: so was it like duuuude: in french

pretty boy: Yup

duuuude: aw man you lucked out duuuude: is it like a full conversaiton??

pretty boy: Idk they haven’t responded in like 15 minutes pretty boy: It was nice while it lasted

duuuude: :/ rip

Adrien blinks in surprise when a notification from the unknown number pops up at the top of the screen. He clicks it immediately, not even reading any of the text before he does.

3:27 PM unknown number: I dont?????? KNow???????????? unknown number: My friend got a new phone and wrote her number on my arm but her writing is always kinda a mess and also I smudged the numbers because IM a mess and I unknown number: Somehow???? unknown number: PLUS I managed to add the us country code????

numéro inconnu: Well I’m pretty sure that’s just a 1 so that’s understandable

unknown number: And any other numbers I needed??? Hwo did I?? unknown number: I don t know how I did it D: unknown number: Ohmy god and I just realized you probably dont want a million texts from a total stranger in a language you barely speak?? unknown number: IM SO SORRY ILL STOP NOW unknown number: YOU SEEM REALLY NICE SORRY FOR WASTING YORU TIME unknown number: OK BYE

3:36 PM numéro inconnu: It’s fine! numéro inconnu: My dad is actually from Paris so I do know French numéro inconnu: I can’t really say I’m totally fluent in it but I spoke it a lot when I was little numéro inconnu: This is good practice! numéro inconnu: And you’re weren’t wasting my time at all, I promise

Good going, Agreste, he thinks to himself. Over enthusiastic and weird. He tries not to think about it too much and goes back to physics. Physics with its constant equations and complex numbers and waves and waves and waves and waves. It gets a little easier when he’s able to connect it to something he knows. He can hear frequency in his music and beats when he tries to tune instruments. He finds his fingers itching to spread across the black and white piano keys and lose themselves in the music.

By the time Nathalie is calling him for fencing, he’s mostly forgotten about the conversation he had with the stranger across the sea. Not entirely, it’s still in the back of his mind, but he’s moved past the disappointment of likely never speaking to them again. While he’s fencing, his mind has no room for those thoughts and he throws them away. He won’t be needing them again.

When Adrien checks his phone after practice for schedule updates from Nathalie or texts about the weekend from Nino, he finds a single text in French at the bottom of his pile of notifications.

He can’t stop himself from smiling as he opens it. He’s not exactly sure what time it is in France right now, he assumes it’s fairly late and doesn’t expect a response anytime soon, but he replies quickly anyway. His reply is short and simple, but he doesn’t know what else to say, so it’ll have to be enough for now.

Maybe this is a one time thing. Maybe it isn’t. He’d like it to be the latter, but right now, he’s just winging it.

4:02 PM unknown number: Well if youre really really sure… I mean I wouldnt be talking to you often obviously!!! But it might be cool to know more about America? Ive always wanted to visit and wow this probably is super weird and Im so sorry for that like this conversation hasnt been weird enough already ahahahhhhhhhhh but um. I just mean to say that if you wanted to maybe keep talking I wouldnt mind?

5:19 PM numéro inconnu: I’d love to keep talking if you want to! :)

[nootnoot-fantrolls]

I was tagged by @fwippytrolls RULES: Tag 9 people you want to get to know better. A few people. If you’ve done it already skip this. ♡ Relationship status: Single pringle ☆ Pets: HHHH I HAVE 5!!! I have three cats, Goofy (my big fat ball o love) Minnie (the elegant queen), and Camelia (The little shit). And two dogs! Teddy (the one who thinks he is in charge but in reality he just barks a lot) and Kory (The fat lump with fat lumps all over his body) They are my loves and i miss them terribly  ☆ Last song I listened to: Golden Days, PATD ☆ Favorite TV show: I dont really watch TV, but ive been watching more with my friends like Hannible!! ☆ First Fandom: My first fandom i officially joined was homestuck, sweats. But before that i was into Shugo Chara, didnt really become a part of the fandom though because i was too young to know what it was. ☆ Hobbies: Drawing, Video games, writing, D&D, rping, uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dabbing into existence  if you did this before, dont worry about doing it again. ill try to name people that werent named before... but i probably will tag those who have had this before. gomen ;w;

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