#i def have more to say abt it but i am tired rn

[ceramicbird]

so i've seen the sara mini episode.

[chososcamgirl]

HEHEBEBS WJEJBE HI SIGMAA IYAAAA‼️‼️RISE AND POSTTTT CUS ITS SJAP WEEKEENDDDDDDD RAHHH 🐺‼️🔥 DAILLYYY CHECK IN HRUUUUU😼😼😼 HOPE UR VERY VERY SIGMA TODAY CUS I AM🐺⁉️🔥

I JUST SAW UR CAT REVEAL OH MY GYATTTERSSSS 🥹🥹 SOO CUTE WHAG THE SIGMA I LOVE UR CAT SMMMM

I HAVE MY FIRST PRESENTATION ON OCT.7 FOR SCHOOL AMBASSADOR 😣😣 PREPARING MY SPEECH RN‼️ PLUS I SPENT 4HRS ON MY SCHOLARSHIP COMP YESTERDAY AND IM ONLY A QUARTER DONE. CHAT WHATTT ☹️☹️ ITS OKAY THO ILL LOCKKKK IN 🙂‍↕️🤞🔥💪

Heh.. the toge ask… I wasn’t joking abt that… I’d jump off a cliff IF HE WOULD JUST GIVE ME ONE CHANCEEE PLEASEEREEEE SEGMNDBENENBEBENENENEN ANNERNDNDNJEJXJE. I ENED HIM IN MY VEINSSSSS (beep stop possessing me your starting to rub off on me 😫😫) 🔥😫🤤🤤🤤

I WOKE UP AT 6PM TODAY ☠️ BUT ITS OKAY CUS THAG MEANS LESS WAITING TIME FOR SJAPPPPP ARJDNDNENDBENJELDDKEN IM SO EXICSTED IN SHAKINGHHHHHGGGG RNNNNN ARNFNNFNENDJDNDNENEJE

OKOK ANSWER TO THE LAST QOTD…. I WOULD WORK IN LIKE A RLLY CUTE LIBRARY OR SOMETHING THAT SCREAMS GIRL NEXT DOOR VIBES IDK.. AND LIKE MY JOB WOULD START LATER JN THE DAY SO I CAN SLEEP WELL 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️‼️🔥 JUST SOMETHING RELAXING AND CUTE 🐺🔥

QOTDDDD IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY POWER WHAT WOULD IT BEEEE 🐺‼️🔥

OK BYE POOPOOO I LOVEE UUU (patiently waiting for the next chapter 🥰🥰)

- 🐺

HI ALPHA!!🐺🐺

i am SO tired rn i am about to go to sleep but i NEED to answer ur ask because ily and also bc i couldn’t go to sleep without LMFAO. YES SJAP WEEKEND IS HERE!! ONE POST DONE ONE MORE TO GO! (hopefully on time this time round)🙂‍↕️‼️ i am doing so good rn!! i worked today and as usual work was v fun like I LOVE IT! when we are both sigma… it’s a good day😈😈

THANK U!!! he says thank you too and he thinks ur very sigma🫵🫵 DONT STRESS TOO MUCH!! I KNOW YOULL DO WELL!! u have the power of the pack (NAME STAT) and u r the most alpha out so you’ll do AMAZING🙂‍↕️🫰 LOCK IN!!🔥🔥

LMFAO beep is a bad influence on EVERYONE not them getting to u too.. toge ask is so real tho i will admit🙏 6PM?? HELLO ?? HOW DID U SLEEP IN SO LATE IM CRYING😭😭 i’ll get out the next chap on time just for you🫵

ALSO YES GIRL NEXT DOOR VIBES!! so cute i love it we are #twinning also YES heavy on relaxing because duh we must love our job 🙂‍↕️ we should def work in a library together

AOTD‼️ mind reading or teleportation!!! i think those would be the coolest + most useful powers out there. WBY!!!? ILY ALPHA!!! 🙂‍↕️😈🐺 STAY TUNED FOR TMR GOODNIGHT!!

[superevilstudycat]

answers 4 dis ask game:

your favourite playlist (made by yourself or someone else)- https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6lKN0XzDLXKBtjSJCeM0FH?si=40fc7e91b1e64b67 teehee  how many houseplants in your room, and what kinds are they? omg, i lots n lots n lots…abt 12? most notably 2 spider plants, my roommate’s monstera, a million bazillion succulents, ponytail palm, propagating green onions, + i also have a lemon tree but i had 2 move it out of my dorm bc it got too cold. it has a lemon growing on it rn! V excited <;3 your favourite “grounding” activity (anything that involves using the hands/doesn’t involve “spacing out” or escapism - something like gardening, knitting, dancing, cooking) def journaling! taking time 2 work thru my thoughts and even to just draw n brainstorm new projects is v relaxing 2 mi. also,,,, i’ve invested sm $$ into cute stickers n washi tapes n gel pens…its a bit of a problem, i wont lie D:  an account on social media whose posts make you smile @veryluckyclover on instagram dot com! Luv elle’s work  5 tv shows that cheer you up She-ra Fruits basket Horimiya Over the Garden Wall Steven universe :O how you get relaxed when you’re struggling to sleep when i cant sleep, i usually just try 2 use that time 2 b productive + dont try 2 force sleep. i like having a cup of tea and doing a little studying or getting around 2 watch smt your favourite board game NOT a gamer, but i’m pretty good at scrabble and i like winning. So.  if you were going to write a non-fiction book on any topic, what would it be? ladino! i know very little about it and am extremely not qualified but i would love an excuse to take classes and learn more abt it  a quote that you would consider getting tattooed or putting in a frame luv luv luv arabic poetry n there r so many 2 choose frum but that’s too vulnerable 2 say out loud atm (i will make a post later) (be warned)  something you’ve created in the last year that you’re proud of (a playlist, a piece of art, some writing, a craft hobby, a social media account, etc) i made a cross stitch 4 a mitski lyric + earlier today i made a book compiling some of my fav poems!  a tip or hack you’ve learned that makes cleaning or tidying easier having lysol wipes around! V versatile.  if you could make a candle that smelt like anything, what would you pick? i’m a big fan of jasmine scents but probs my ex-gf an artist (of any kind) whose work you look forward to seeing Mitski :3 alsooooo @veryluckyclover on insta dot com (their art is holding mi 2gether is2g)  how you wake your body up when it’s feeling tired, achy or needs a stretch cigarette and espresso romano, lord forgive me  a bath, shower, beauty or toiletry product that makes you feel revived, or that you always re-order when it’s running out not a singular product, but here’s my skincare routine:  The Ordinary Squalane Cleanser  The Ordinary Hyaluronic Acid 2% + B5 The Ordinary AHA 30% + BHA 2% Peeling Solution The Ordinary Buffet The Ordinary Natural Moisturizing Factors + HA Daytime: [JMSolution] Glow Luminous Flower Sun Stick Rose SPF50+ PA+++ 21g ; Nighttime: LANEIGE - Water Sleeping Mask EX no idea if i’m using them in right order but ummm my skin feels pretty good! I also do facemasks once in a while, vaseline 4 my lips, and regular sunscreen every day :P 

[perce]

forces myself to get food before i go to bed and rewards myself with cocoa for actually eating bc my returned lack of appetite lately has been making my health worse than it already is and my comfort food (drink?) of choice serves as bonus calories

[kvgehiras]

HELLOO !! i hope ur doing okay <33 could i request for kaoru general dating hcs? i love your writings (☆▽☆)

HELLO!! YES YES ND THANK U !!!!! hope u enjoy~

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

• kaoru def started liking u years ago

• hes a pining FOOL

• there was this bookstore that u'd go to at times bcs it was just so peaceful

• nd this one day kaoru walked in nd saw u

• u were reading this book that u had bought as u were leaning on the wall

• nd his brain goes empty

• but he makes his way towards u anyways!!!!! bcs hes not a pussy (*｀へ´*) 彡3

• ....or so he thought

• he walks in ur direction, sees that u lifted ur head to look towards him, nd then a takes a u-turn, nd just . goes to the other section of the bookstore to hide from u

• (at this point his actual intention to just sit peacefully in the bookstore in the ac doing absolutely Nothing has vanished from his mind.....what a dumbass)

• u on the other hand r like (・・？)

• "am i intimidating....other ppl......."

• so like a normal person u decide to just leave nd read it at ur place

• kaoru is too late unfortunately the dumbass comes back nd sees u gone nd hes like :(

• so the entire day hes sad

• UNTIL!!!!!!! HE SEES U AGAIN THE NEXT DAY AT THE BOOKSTORE

• hes patting himself on the back for showing up in hopes to see u again nd actually finding u

• so true kaoru now Pls Make A Move

• u look up to see the same dude again but this time talking to himself nd ur like ???

• so u approach him

• "hello do u uh...need some help?

• nd hes just Frozen

• his brain is going fight or flight mode rn

• but this is kaoru so he has another mode along w fight or flight : flirt

• so he does just that

• "oh i was here to ask if u were uh . free for like! a coffee! or smthg!!!!"

• nd ur just like

• "hm..... my schedule is free today...ok! let's go :D"

• nd ur heading out alrdy but hes just standing in place like Did It Just Work. Oh My God It Worked

• so now yall like to meet in diff cafes every week or so (ˊᗜˋ*)

• nd it's so fun!!!! kaoru is like...weirdly knowledgeable abt diff cafes nd their speciality .... it's weirdly....attractive

• how dare he be physically Nd brainiacally attractive....not fair kaoru

• but u see . while u were starting to like him more than u had expected he was stuck in one place

• his brain kept yelling at him to do smthg abt his crush but also he didnt want to be a douche yk.... he alrdy has a reputation of being a playboy but he!!!!! genuinely likes u!!!!!!

• so he just never does anything. keeps pining for u. (loser)

• nd at one point when u guys were at a cafe sitting inside bcs it was just v hot outside nd also no one was there

• so ur just like . casually .

• "hey kaoru do u wanna date?"

• nd he looks up at u. thinks abt it a lil. then goes RED

• like not just red he goes RED. w the caps lock on

• poor boy has been pining after u for so long.....give him like a lil kiss or so pls...

• "i- i uhm- u- u like me...?"

• hes Struggling

• it's so visible it physically hurts so u go sit beside him , grab his face, nd give him a smooch

• u pull away, his face still in ur hands, nd hes leaning into ur touch when u say

• "yes. i like u. let's go out?"

• nd he gives u the biggest grin nd kisses u back (#kaoru1stwin)

• but the pining doesnt stop even after yall start dating LMAO

• usually hes v confident that hes dating u. definitely boasts abt it to his friends

• izumi's Sick N Tired of his ramblings

• koga has threatened to smash a guitar (not his. just someone's) on kaoru's head if he keeps talking abt u for the nth time

• unfortunately he doesnt stop

• u see....hes a lil puppy in love

• but a hidden one

• in front of ppl hes SOOOOO CLINGY. STICKS TO U LIKE A GUM

• LOVES PDA. KISSES U IN THE PUBLIC

• expect him to latch onto u more (holds u by the waist, playing w ur fingers) if someone tries to hit on u

• when u get home expect him to be whiny but dw give him loads of kisses he'll be fine after that!!!!!

• u guys still go to cafes !!!! except this time kaoru has enough courage to call them dates

• would go to cafes that yall used to go to when yall hadnt dated yet nd would be like "i used to sot here nd w every sip of my coffee id do the 'y/n loves me, y/n loves me not' thing....nd the coffee would always end at 'y/n loves me not'....i think the coffee is bullying me y/n"

• DO U SEE WHAT I MEAN WHEN I SAY HES A STUPID LIL PINING IDIOT!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS SO EMBARAZZING KAORU

• "bully Nd liar!!!!! bcs look im here as ur s/o now :D"

• expect ur face to be peppered in kisses after u say that no kaoru does not care abt the ppl that r staring at him rn (on kaoru's behalf, im so sorry fellow customers (⌣_⌣”))

• would take u to the bookstore every anniversary!!!!!! nd then reenact the first time he met u

• "kaoru this is the third time im seeing u reenact this pls"

• "nd u'll have to see me reenact it again!!!!!!!!!"

• overrall hes a big whiny simp. save urself /j

[miioouu]

hey uhh idrk if this qualifies for an emergency request but i am PMSing rly rly bad rn and could def use some comfort fluff:/ sooo i was wondering if you could do tsukishima(happy bday to the light of our life!!), daichi, and suga with a fem!s/o that gets hella bad pms(v sore boobs, cries at pretty much anything, headaches, rly bad pre period cramps, bloating and therefore not feeling good abt their appearance, tired, mood swings, etc.) if you can't thats fine but tyyy:)!!😘😘😘

I'm PMsing right now too sooo this one us for the both of us and anyone who's dealing with periods right now dudndj.

Thank you for requesting!! ❤️💜❤️

Tsukishima Kei

Let's be honest here, Tsukishima absolutely has no idea what's going on. Why you're haunched over and you look so tired, why you're clinging to him lika a koala to a branch... He doesn't know what's happening. And do you think once he figures it out he'll know how to react? No way! He'll just be awkward about it like "Um... Y/n ? Are you ok?" Um obviously not Kei! But it's just because he doesn't know what to do, he was never told what to do, he never experienced anything like that before. One thing he does know about though, is that whenever you feel down, you always demand a hug or cuddles. Will it help you out right now? Will it help you when he comes over and find you sleeping, frown on your face from the pain, he'll slowly slip behind you and wrap his arms around you, give you a soft kiss on your cheek as he holds you tight? Will this help you? From the frown dissappearing and being replaced by your wonderful smile, he assumed that yes, yes it did help you! Honestly, if all it takes from Tsuki to make this week feel less like hell, is to be nice, he'll do it, just for you!

Daichi Sawamura

The moment he sees you holding your stomach, looking sick as ever, he knew what's happening and he'll try his best to make you feel better. He knows you can't control your mood swings, he'll never snap back at you. He knows all you want to do is lay in his bed and hug him all day long, he won't stop you. And he knows you're feeling pretty down, so he'll cheer you up. As his fingers are playing with your hair, his other hand caressing your sides, his eyes looking deeply into yours with a big smile streched on his face, the sweetest words would fall out of his lips "You're so beautiful my Y/n, you really are! You're so cute, so nice, so kind... You're just amazing, perfect! I love you..." And he didn't mean to make you cry, absolutely not. But he realized it's not a bad thing, when your arms tightened around him, your face nuzzling into his chest and your voice barely above a whisper yet loud enough for him to hear "I love you too Sawamura... I love you so much!"

Sugawara Koushi

Just like Daichi, Suga would know immediately and would go out of his way to make you feel better. What helps your cramps? A good hot cup of tea? He got it! Chocolat? Got it ! A heating pad? On it! Ran out of pads/tampon/whatever ? He's got your back! And once he knows all the things that make you feel good, you won't have to tell him, he'll have them right with him all the time. Not to mention, he already knows when you get your period, so without even telling him, he brings you a hot cup of whatever you like to drink on the first of your period. He knows it's not only that, the moodswings, the dropping self confidence, the over emotinal state, he knows about these, and he'll try to help you. He doesn't really know how though? A simple word would do it? An embrace is just fine? Even if you say yes, he feels like he needs to do much more. Cuddles and kisses, compliments and praises, surprises and sweet texts, he's so extra with his love, but for you, it doesn't matter. As long as his y/n is smiling, he'll do anything.

[yttdch3]

Please evaluate on OCD Sou evidence I’m so here for it

i stalled this ask for a while with the intent to put something very concise together but my motivation’s been low so i’m gonna have to free-form it, sorry anon i also want to note that i am a person with OCD, so a lot of this is personal to me - I’m not just some rando being like “haha sou wash his hands so he has ocd” bc I’ve def seen that stuff and, I’m not gonna get into how exhausting that is rn y’know

Anyway what originally got me thinking abt this and what’s probably the biggest piece of evidence is what kanna says about him during the second main game: 

Kanna：

"Sou had been fretting about it since yesterday."

"He was going "I don't know the password!", taking his beanie off and putting it on..."

"Suddenly, I looked at Sou's hands, and was struck by how clean he kept them even in these circumstances..."

What Kanna is describing here is kind of on the dot OCD tendencies. He’s been dwelling on it for an excessive amount of time and he’s exhibiting repetitive compulsory behavior in response. Then she goes on to mention his hands were clean enough for it to be noticeable, and I think that could point to him experiencing compulsive hand washing as well. I think it’s also notable that it was Kanna who said this. There’s this sort of embarrassment and guilt that typically comes with experiencing OCD symptoms, and the more uncomfortable the situation you’re in is, the more you feel like you HAVE to hide what you’re experiencing. It makes sense that Kanna would be the one to see the most prominent symptoms in Sou, because he’s a lot more comfortable around her.

Sou is also very obviously touch averse, and I think that paired with the fact that he could be compulsively washing makes a pretty good case for it being due to some kind of obsessive fear.  In the island game he’s pretty blatant about it, when Mishima grabs his arm he immediately freaks out and tells him not to do that. Additionally, if you get his ending he says, "...Oh, but no hugs, please. that's not my thing". It’s a little more subtle in the main storyline, but he’s going to be hiding a lot more in this situation so it kinda makes sense. Sara can shake his hand, and she can high-five him, and in both instances he has really sudden changes in composure. I don’t consider Sara’s narration to be entirely accurate, so I think what happened during the handshake was something along the lines of Sara seeing just a moment of Sou’s discomfort with touching somebody showing through, and her not really knowing what to make of it, so (being in a scary situation herself) she assumed it was something scary. The game reflected that with the “scary face” cg because it’s her point of view. When she high-fives him he just calls her weird which is pretty silly but it definitely indicates discomfort.

There’ also like, SO much in the nightmare he has at the beginning of ch2pt2 and the sequences with shadow sou. Admittedly I’m pretty tired after writing all that so I’m gonna glaze over this for now and hopefully elaborate some other time, but these sections really feel like he’s experiencing like, a cycle of obsessing over past and possible future events, and repetitive intrusive thought. Thanks for coming to my ted talk

[icarianiscariot]

i am,, an actor,,, everything is a performance. this is a vent and it. got very long? anyway

i keep forgetting that i'm in a relationship slkjdflksdjlkfjdsf which is shitty but. i dunno. i haven't really told many people or made a big deal out of it and,, i kinda. regret? maybe? getting into it? it's not BAD it's just. boring?

no offense to them but i just. am bored. and they're like.. hm. like, they would be in the high school friend group adjacent to mine, if we were in high school together? in the sense that i. don't vibe w their specific personality type, if that makes sense? idk how to explain this hmmmm

i'm a quiet person generally, but that also comes with the idea that when i talk, people do hear me. or, i'm very very chatty, and i end up with a lively conversation. but it's like...... half the time i don't think they've heard me at all. or like, they aren't really listening? i'll say something and then they're on to a different topic entirely, which. is annoying.

and it's not even in the way that ADHD brain goes ZOOM, it's genuinely like. what.

and, again, no offense to them but i am just. bored. we don't talk about mutual interests very much, or if we do, they are pretty stubborn in their opinions? and it's not like we're getting Excited Together about the thing. our shared interests will come up and it's just a passing comment or something.

i keep forgetting that we're supposed to be in a relationship.

AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABT IT RN EITHER FOR A VARIETY OF REASONS

1. it's their birthday month and i am not that cruel

(1a) they mentioned that april is a depressive time for them bc they've had a lot of people leave their life in various aprils through the years, and a traumatic incident happened to them in april, so it's a hard time for them. i KNOW i shouldn't guilt trip myself over this, but like. it would be a dick move to ditch now, after they've admitted this fear of theirs

(1b) they have also told me that, alongside this april-induced fear of abandonment, they specifically are afraid of me getting bored of them. FUCK--

2. they're getting a new job which means they might be able to visit me soon

(2a) i am tempted to wait until after we've met up irl BECAUSE that'll be kinda like. when i'm for sure "yes i have enough feelings for this to continue" or "no apparently i don't have enough feelings for this to continue"

(2b) yes it's a long distance relationship, which isn't actually a big deal to me, i'm okay with that!! we're adults and having a ldr isn't my issue with it.

it's such a coin toss on if i'm going to like. feel desire to hang out, too. bc i really truly do enjoy their company! i want them in my life in some capacity! but. like. as friends, i think? 60% of the time? 75% of the time?

we have super great chemistry sometimes!! like, i def do understand why i agreed to be in a relationship with them.

it's just. in between those times, i'm. ugh. i feel like i have more interesting interactions + more chemistry with my friends than i do with them. OTL

i guess we just. go with it. it's certainly not a BAD situation. primarily, i feel guilt whenever i experience attraction to anyone else and i feel bored with the relationship and sometimes, to be completely honest, i dread phone calls and long conversations. my attention is elsewhere 80% of the time.

and that makes me such a shitty partner, i know!! like, jack, if you don't have feelings then just break up!!

but i DO have feelings for them sometimes! and i don't wanna be that douchebag who's like, "hey we should break up" *two weeks later* "baby i miss u so bad i want u back" (and, part of me thinks that. if i break up with them, i'll hate myself, bc then i'll want them More)

it's just. a pendulum. and i'm tired and i'm BOREDDDD.

"you should communicate your feelings" RIGHT YES OKAY HOW.

hey, so, i know april is a terrible month for you, and your birthday is coming up, and you have this fear of people getting bored of you, and you've been planning on flying halfway across the country to visit me, and you've told me already that you're kind of in love with me, but...

LIKE HOW SHITTY CAN I BEEEEEEEEEEE

i do like them. i like them a lot. i do! i'm. hm.

conflicted.

i'm just gonna leave things be. it's fun to have a partner, on the good days. we do cute shit together, which is lovely. and like. seeing things and thinking of them, sharing cute stuff with each other, having someone to just... know is mine and likes me that much and ??

UGH. ugh ugh ugh ugh.

"if you're having these thoughts then maybe you should just break up with them" BUT IN LIKE 24 HOURS I'LL BE CRAVING THEIR ATTENTION AND AFFECTION--

in the long run, yes, it would be better for me to break it off, bc i'm. i'm not,,, suuuuuuuuuuuuuper emotionally invested? i am! but i'm not. but ALSO there's. no harm. in keeping it going? because i AM to a degree emotionally invested, and i DO like them a lot, and things ARE pretty good.

i just. i knew this would happen, bc my attraction to people ALWAYS only lasts for like 2-3 weeks? we've been dating for like, a month and a half or so now. and i Can Tell, i guess.

i dunno. i dunno i dunno i dunno.

[alittleemo]

thanks for tagging me gab @12monthoctober and eden @pianoandcookiedoughlover and faith @shades-of-greens <3 (i did not realize how many times i did not respond to this dfjhgjlkds you are all darlings <3)

1. why did u choose ur url?

i was tired at lunch one day and figured, ok im short, im also vaguely emo but not committed enough to go full out, so bam im both a little emo (as in noncommittal) and a little emo (as in short) <3

2. any sideblogs?

technically i have one now but i mostly have it to save the url, if i ever actually decide to start streaming ill prob make a blog specifically for that!! (though i think I’d use my alittleemo handle for it anyway so who knows then)

3. how long have u been on tumblr?

a little over a year now!! i think i made this blog in february of 2019 but started using it march/april of last year

4. do u have a queue tag?

i still do not know how to use the queue function dfjkhgkldjsjdflkh

5. why did u start your blog in the first place?

nearly all of my Pinterest feed was tumblr memes anyway so i figured why not go to the source of it all /hj. also i wanted to find more people into aftg and skam

6. why did u choose ur icon/pfp?

matching pfp with gab’s dsmp side blog!!! ae asked me if i wanted to match and i couldn’t pass up the opportunity :D (plus clingy duo / tommyinnit supremacy) i think it’s pretty fitting honestly <3

7. why did u choose ur header?

i love taking shitty pictures of jellyfish and i thought this one ended up looking really cool 

8. how many mutuals do u have?

13!! i have immense fondness for each of you <3

9. how many followers do u have?

39 babey!!!

10. how many people do u follow?

97 currently !!

11. have u ever made a shitpost?

what is anything i post if not complaining or making dumbass posts (affectionate)

12. how often do u use tumblr each day?

yikes. I mean like i am def here several times per day (its gonna be more now too now that its summer) but i feel like i sort of j scroll through my dash and only rb a few things compared to how much i actually see yk

13. did u ever fight/argue w another blog? who won?

no i hate confrontation but i also would rather j block someone trying to start smth w me

14. how do u feel about "u need to reblog these" posts?

going to steal celia and gab’s response bc yall are more coherent than me - sometimes it's too mentally draining to read abt terrible shit all the time. calm down. not everyone needs to read everything. i don't need ur guilt-trip rn. u can get across that a post is imp. w/o that statement. idk. sometimes i ignore them out of spite. i know that i rb a decent number of activism posts but i dont like those ones as much bc the guilt tripping isn’t the way to go

15. do u like tag games?

yes if u ever tag me j know i would instantly deliver cookies to ur house if i could <3 i do however often forget to respond to them until later (hi this tag is from over a week ago dfjkhgljdksh)

16. do u like ask games?

yes i love them immensely i j often again forget to actually finish them whoops

17. which of ur mutuals do u think is tumblr famous?

ik that i have a lot of relatively famous mutuals-in-law, but as for my own mutuals i’d say @lunawedlers and @lesbeanadiamcnll, i feel like yall have such good vibes in that respect <3

18. do u have a crush on a mutual?

like gab said, yes but platonically <3

tagging @coffee-and-moo, @alinastarkovaz, @lesbeanadiamcnll, @lunawedlers and any other mutuals who’d like to do so!!! (as always feel free to ignore as well <3)

[luobingmeis]

what are you in school for/what is your thesis on? i have trouble with using too many sources. my bibliography for this semester's term paper is like four damn pages long

i’m in school for english!! and, overall, my thesis is on gender in lord alfred tennyson’s idylls of the king (basically king arthur legend with victorian ideals). more specifically, my paper is focusing on four couples (gareth/lynette, geraint/enid, lancelot/guinevere, and guinevere/arthur) and how societal expectations of gender are enforced/defied/navigated within each couple. even that is kinda simplifying it, not that i think that i need to “water down” my ideas for them to be understandable, i’m just currently in the state of “i am so frustrated and tired rn that i am using like 10% of my brain” ajkdsjkdsjkds

i see the irony in me, an english major, bitching abt having to use A Lot of sources but my justification is that i have arguments that are supported by the text itself and that i know i can argue, and while i can def use these sources as points of comparison/disagreement, it’s just frustrating that for So Long we were told that these sources Make Or Break Our Paper and then my advisor was like “no??? i want your ideas, not another writer’s???” 

(like, i relied too much on my secondary sources for the first 11 pages of my essay and my advisor made me rewrite them completely. like “open up a new document and restart my thesis” completely)

and tbh usually i don’t bitch abt sources bc i like integrating other texts but like. it’s just frustrating that i was told by professors who aren’t my advisor that i should be quoting other sources at least 2 to 3 times each page and that thesis is basically just “us connecting what other people say with our source text” and then my advisor (imo rightfully so) was like “i completely disagree with that, i want to see how your argument differs from what your sources say” so sometimes i feel like i’m just shoehorning in outside sources, which doesn’t feel fair to my writing or the writers i’m citing akjdkjsdjk

i feel like being able to integrate secondary sources is very important in writing!! having the option to agree or disagree with a writer and then expand on your beliefs can be very fun and interesting!!! but, for example, one of my really good friends has told me abt how her thesis doesn’t feel like Her Thesis, but instead she’s just repeating what other people have already said. so it just feels like there was so much emphasis put on Use Your Secondary Sources These Are So Important Make Sure To Talk About What Other People Have Already Said that we had to sideline our own ideas, to a degree

[jjkfire]

yeah i def feel they’re tryna focus on selling rn but then i mean they’re company cause it’s def the company who are coming up with the selling and merch. I think it’s also cause they’re at the peak of their career and they all need to start in listing in the army etc etc. So they’re tryna get the most out of it. I wish we get our storylines back tho with the next album i mean mots7 was the most personal so there’s that. I can’t rly hate it bc everyone does it, but also it bothers me a lil too

anonymous said:

girl what you said abt bts being sellouts recently? i feel you. i'm trying so hard to get back into them it's so HERE LOOK AT THIS now that i feel like i'm getting suffocated. i miss the actual deep storylines and plots of their albums and songs and when they use to do halloween dance practices :( i'm so glad they're getting the recognition they deserves bc they're such amazing boys but also,,,, it's so exhausting now :/

//

yeah i think the fact that they have to enlist soon defo has influence on it. i also think they’re trying to get their strategy down before they enlist. this is so they can go to shareholders/investors/whoever with proper numbers and be like see this is what we can do, and what we can generate. then they take that model and apply it to TXT and all other artists directly under big hit. i think jin is delaying his enlistment till end of 2021 but can’t rmb if i read that from a credible source. anyway, i really wonder how they will handle things during enlistment and post enlistment.

and though you didn’t necessarily talk about it. i really have a bone to pick with the ads/brand endorsement that they are in. i mean some of the vids are pretty boring... or just like does not inspire me to buy the product. legit the guys getting caught with iphones despite being samsung endorsers is a big lol and if i am allowed to be a little critical, is sloppy on bts’ part. anyway I feel like the execution is trash when it comes to their brand endorsements lol. big hit nails the in house content production but when they partner up with other companies, it’s not great. though i feel that’s mostly on the brands and less so on big hit/bts.

these brands want bts as ambassadors to tap into the purchasing power that ARMY has. it's millions of people willing to buy anything they endorse but I just think they could do so much better. take brands like nike and adidas when they make ads, that shit moves you. you're like yeah that's sick!!! (e.g: nike’s you can’t stop us ad). yeah yeah they can’t go all out for a brand endorsement but i think they can do some low effort stuff. like downy for example could've done smth like make the guys make a fragrance, an exclusive limited edition product or capitalize on the fact that jk loves doing laundry.... maybe a cute little laundry day with jungkook and the boys lmao idk something that's just a little more genuine. it doesn't have to be cringe or high budget but at least it doesn't make me feel like it's just their name on a product. baskin robbins though they made a ‘bts flavour’ like the guys didn’t even have a hand in making the flavour? a video about them choosing the flavour would have made me go like ok i wanna try it. also they could get bts to work at a baskin robbins shops undercover or smth. idk something funny, something meme-y but perhaps bc of covid this wasn’t viable. anyway seeing them pose with ice cream doesn't make me feel like buying it lol. for Hyundai they could've done an outdoor camping episode, or a cute video about a road trip??? SOMETHING. like make me believe they actually like the products they are trying to sell at least. I want the ads to be more than them just saying look at this product hehe. like have you seen Thai ads? their stuff is top tier. and I remember the brands behind them because that's just the impact it has. maybe brand ambassador type products just are meant to be low effort. but a great brand related celebrity endorsed ad would be this one by budweiser & dwayne wade.

and to the other anon, i wouldn’t classify bts as sellouts as per se but bighit definitely has a very aggressive sales strategy. can’t say i’m the expert on sales and marketing but idk if this model is sustainable. i think first, fans who have been fans for a while will begin to get fatigued. maybe newer fans still don’t mind it or perhaps like it even, but eventually they might get fatigued too. but that may take years so perhaps big hit has it under control. can’t say i can fully understand because i’ve always been that person that has only ever voted, streamed and basically do things that are free in order to support them... i did buy tracks on melon in the early days to help lol but i’ve never felt the absolute need to buy everything they release, the albums and all the concert dvds or summer/winter packages. so i (and perhaps we) are not who they are targeting. maybe other people think differently and will always buy and never get tired of all the constant ‘buy this!’ type messaging.

but you are right haha i do miss the deep story lines, the goofy dance practice vids, the silly vlives where it wasn’t some curated event where they are doing smth (tho i like those too!!!) i just miss namjoon straight rambling for 10 minutes about his outlook on life, eat jin, jinminkook antics, [miss tae, hobi’s and yoongi’s vlives too] and i miss jungkook’s fancafe chatrooms... i remember one concert where in his ment, namjoon (and im paraphrasing) was like someone said something that made me sad. they said they felt like as bts achieves more, bts feels even further away from them now. (-- he went on to say not to feel like that, but i honestly can’t remember. i think this is the if our music can even make you feel 1% better ment but then again i am also not sure ahahahh!)

i didn’t feel that then but i feel that now haha. there isn’t anything wrong with it and i guess it’s just the reality of life! so so so happy for them and everything that they’ve achieved. amazing that they have a fan base that is so dedicated to them, and that continues to grow. perhaps i am just getting old...

[dulharpa]

this is for hayley! @whistlingwillows a dear friend <3333

it’s meant to be a birthday present haha. i just want to shower you in love;;; so thought maybe i could go through as many of your fics and comment on them :^)))

(TO EVERYONE ELSE: please go to @whistlingwillows blog and read her fics!!! they are SO FCKIN GOOD AND AMAZING AND UGH HER MIND (it’s a lot of mcu and her bucky and steve fics are a*. i DEFINITELY RECOMMEND))

i wish you a VERY happy birthday and i hope we stay friends for many more years <3333333333 

i’m going through your masterlist heehee ;)))

ah first off, nice theme! i never could rlly see it before because i’m always on mobile heehee. also sorry for not reviewing them before??? i don’t usually read fics on tumblr as you’ve probably guessed;;

anyways, IM GON REVIEW THE SHIT OUT OF THESE >:DDDD

far from home -  bucky x stark sister!reader

firstly, i like how youre introducing the reader from buckys pov, like you can sort of already gather what shes like from them

‘Bucky can hear Tony’s soft inhale, feel the intensity of the man’s glare directed at Steve. He shouldn’t be eavesdropping, but a twitch of muscle would be enough to alert both men that he’s here. With the amount of tension crackling in the air, a brush against the wall would be equivalent to a thousand cymbals crashing in cacophony.’

IM CRYING ALREADY. the imagery in here is GLORIOUS. your tone here is so fitting! oo and the alliteration here is perfecto

ooooooo!! the backstory coming in  👀👀

‘despite what some people think that Steve and Captain America are two different personas, there will always be parts of Steve in the Avenger, and parts of the Avenger in Steve. They both want to believe in something good. They are, after all, one in the same.// Just as how Bucky and the Winter Soldier are the same man despite everything. HYDRA simply amplified the hate, fertilized the seeds of rage, curated the quiet thunder within his soul, within James Buchanan Barnes so that the Winter Soldier could thrive.’

yIKES! lol this is very character study like! nICE. it hurts tho, my poor children, i love you both 

oo ‘starlight eyes’ that is a very nice way of describing them

‘“Then what was London?” The protesters. “São Paulo?” The earthquake. “Vancouver?” Freezing cold water.//“Look, I care if Stark’s gonna run us over trying to find her. I care enough because she’s part of our team. Come off it, Steve. I know she can take care of herself. I’m gonna take a nap. Dr. Cho said no partying post-Singapore and what do you know, we throw the biggest party ever.’

ooo singapore uwu and london? (coincidence? haha jkjk) and the hints abt reader and buckys background are so good?? but so annoying??? like i just wanna KNOW yknow?? 

‘The water runs copper and the sting bites at his palm as he tries not to think. Tries to focus on the numbing cold that runs over his skin.’ 

your imagery is so vivid?? im actually in awe??? i am so regretful i havent kept reading your fics. like i know they are amazing, i just keep putting them off??? idk man. hopefully this makes up for it (gd tho, im still not done with commenting on one fic. this is what im doing with my motivation teehee ;)

‘ He feels weak. Tired. He wants to go back to bed but he also wants to stay out in the sun for a few hours more. The sun kisses his skin through the windows and he squints against the blue sky, wondering ‘

mood during this quarantine lol

‘“Oh, right.” Your voice is flat, uninterested, cold, as you stare at him. “You killed my parents.”Shit.‘

 OUCH LMAO THATS C O L D, O GOT +100 PHYSIC DAMAGE FROM JUST READING THAT

ooo robin as a nickname noice. very much gives me batman vibes lol

oh! and the way of doing the ‘flashback’ is neat! very original. it both tells us what happened AND buckys reaction to it again. he can re-analyse himself and reader. very cool

‘If you walk away now, don’t bother coming back!” Silence. Bucky can hear his own strained breathing, your soft sigh as you soaked in his ultimatum.’

👀👀 yikes that ultimatum. :// not good bucky. tbf theyre both trying to hurt each other but Yikes

eyy!!! readers pov!! finally! and the switch after we find out the outsiders pov? brilliant

oh no :(( more angst

‘When’s the last time you saw your therapist?”“Don’t have one. I’m perfectly capable of taking care of myself.”’ they BOTH need therapists;;;;

very good fic!!! :DD they rlly do hate each other! i definitely like how you went back and forth with the timeline! it gave me a v strong idea on what yn was like even before we rlly got introduced. i am now very curious on where reader is? i love your characterisations! 

i will read the 10k+ fics but heck the last one took me ages lolol (i will comment in the future tho!! i promise <3 ) (that took me over an hour jjhghgdjh)

slipping away- amnesiac modern bucky x reader

omg,,, AMNESIA! >:DDDDDD

‘ Put your fucking seatbelt on’

oh no, istg theyre going to have a car crash arent they (’ doesn’t put the seatbelt on to spite you.’ NO PLEASE PUT IT ON U DUMBASS)

ok,,,,, at LEAST he put it on before he got hit, thank heck. but still. youre so cruel to your poor characters lmaoo

oh gosh

‘You fall apart slowly, like pieces of you peeling away until you’re nothing more than your broken heart. The sobs that wrack your body are relentless and you shove your forearm into your mouth to muffle your cries. You want to bite into your skin. You want to distract yourself from the agony tearing you to shreds. You want to feel anything but the pain.///Tears sweep into your hair, cloud your vision and your whole face floods with heat as you try to breathe through the pain. You’re cleaved into pieces on that bed, eyes squeezed shut as the tears keep flowing, and your throat burns’

this hurts damn, it is so vivid?? i can really feel it 

i am so glad you got into writing yk?? so glad

NO PLS, TELL HIM. TELL HIM :((( ‘shes nice once you get to know her?? shes known nat for years now!! years!!

oh god ‘he looks younger without the burden of your time together’ this is so angsty omg

‘Well, he was stumbling through his apology and I just let him finish.” Your body fills with warmth as you remember his embarrassed smile, the way he shoved his baseball cap farther down his head, chin tucked to his chest, trying to hide that face. “When he was done, I opened my mouth to say something polite but what came out was ‘You look like someone I’d very much like to kiss’.”

this is so soft i stg im crying in the club

OH SHITTTTTTTTTTT , you left it off like that!!! thats so cruel!!!! i can’t!!! how dare you!!!! :””””””((( im typing this with tears in my eyes ill have u know!!

anyway!!! very good fic!! you could honestly make that into a longfic very easily lol. i felt too many emotions :(( 

i was just about to say where is the fluff!! where is it!! when i saw the next one and yay :))) pls i cant have more angsty stuff rn

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cookies and rings and things bucky and reader

‘how much do you love me?’ ‘count the snowflakes, multiply by a million’

did you have to start the fic off with such a SOFT line? its so soft! so TENDER 

‘He wonders what kinda insane person wears socks without any clothes on, but then decides that it’s the kind of person who’s fallen in love with him.’  jesus, the soft moments filled with love are the greatest <3

you can write fluff so well, whyd you have to pain me with all that angst ;””””) (1/10 hurt, 9/10 comfort is the way to go lolol) (jkjk ill read the angsty ones too when i have the spoons) (gonna reread that hydra steve one and ik thatll fuck me UP)

‘ Then, he can feel the cold metal of the ring she slid onto her own finger less than twenty-four hours ago and realizes that he had thought a lot of things shouldn’t be possible, and yet they still are. ‘

you literally brought me to tears reading this softness, you have truly found my weakness

‘ She’s so damn gorgeous with flour on her face and eye bags beneath her eyes that he’s sure she will inevitably make his heart burst ‘

he already likes her so much! i can’t believe this is affecting me so much :’)

‘Bucky is quite sure Sam is in love with his girlfriend in the fact that he’s in love with the fact that his girlfriend is possibly in love with Bucky’

this is so soft??? sam loves reader bc reader loves bucky sm. pls my hear <3333

you do fluff SO WELL DAMN 

‘F.R.I.D.A.Y.’s voice echoes in his small little perch and he still thinks it’s weird without having the side effect of Stark in his suit chasing after him to hear the A.I. but he shoves that uncomfortable feeling of the dead man out of his head. That is too much regret to unpack right now on a mission. ‘

yike bringing back that reminder oof

but thats so soft??? (i am def overusing soft but,,,,, i love it and the vibe) she sent him cookies! god i can feel the love  

‘She expresses her feelings through cooking, which Bucky has learnt the hard way. One time, they got into an argument over something stupid—he can’t even remember what started it—and came to the kitchen at 2AM to see her sitting at the kitchen island crying her eyes out and surrounded by baskets of muffins.’

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 my hEART

you show how much they love each other in so many ways??? i am dying

“Alright, I like it.” Rolling his eyes, he pecks her forehead and she smiles victoriously. It’s so adorable that Bucky, with less than three hours of sleep, adds, “God, I want to marry you.//”“What?”//Oh.Shit.

oh my god! i am literally tearing up!!! AGAIN!!!!!!!!

oh shit o am literally crying

your fluff got me crying harder than your angst i hope youre happy

I really hope you enjoy reading this?? i keep forgetting to like text you but i wanted to do something for your birthday. especially in quarantine when everythings gone crazy. one year i swear ill do something REALLY good for you. not making promises bc i hate if i dont. but ill like, learn how to podfic because you D E S E R V E  I T 

ive spent like three hours doing this lolol 

thank you so much for everything hayley!

[saercms]

so i’m abt to make the most lacklustre intro for myself and my muse in a While.. i promise i’m not as boring as i might seem in t-2 seconds glkjsdfk but hey guys !! i’m lia, a uni student from a v bizarre tz if i do say so myself, and i am Never prepared for anything — case and point, i still haven’t changed the sidebar pic for this blog, and i only changed it to saerom’s like, an hour ago SKDGFGJDKFS i don’t have any pages up yet, but i will soon so sit tight while i sort them out ! anyways i’m literally copying my small key points thing i had for her when i was gonna use her on an indie.. but never fucking did, y’know, like a good mun ! so forgive me if they’re a little.. :/ messy skgdjkdfg so here’s my chaotic leo, a bitch who prob has a knife kink and is perhaps one of the least-liked people in her gang and beyond !!!

*✧･ﾟ [ PARK CHAEYOUNG, CIS FEMALE, SHE/HER ] So, KANG SAEROM, you think you have what it takes to join ROSE GOLDEN? At only TWENTY-TWO, I hope you know what it is you’re signing up for. There’s more too it than just the reputation. Being CANDID might help you out, however let’s hope they don’t get tired of you being CUNNING. Good luck to you. [ lia, 18+, gmt-3:30 ]

fun fact: i waited until some of you posted yours just in case i had to edit mine bc.. romy originally had some psychopathic tendencies ( which with her soon-to-be disclosed criminal bg is.. Yikes ) and was kinda Fucked. the look of this rp, for me at first, made me wanna scale her back a bit bc i thought she would’ve been too dark/chaotic/whatever otherwise but ! we’re sticking to the original !

ok so kang saerom is.. a piece of shit KSJGFDS

grew up in an overall loving, middle class home with her parents and big brother

baby of the family and got away with everYTHING

much of her early bg is still underdeveloped but she was a fairly average kid ?? 

when she grew older, she was neck deep in this desire to always get involved in dangerous shit, like

idk who or what corrupted her still.... but she got corrupted quickly GKJDS

graduated high school and p much abandoned the family, went off and decided to con people for a living for a while

not like she wasn’t lowkey scamming people back in hs however.. hs kids could scam people, idk sfgjkfd

she also dealt drugs to boot ! got in with whatever group of fellow grifters she met when moving around and rubbed elbows with a coke supplier one of them was good with and it just went from there ?? 

we love a businesswoman !

at some point in that stint, she found rose golden and.. yeah, that’s where she wound up fdfgj

she’s been with them for about two years and has sort of climbed up the ranks to be one of their hit(wo)men.. which makes you think “ lia, aren’t you being a bit too Cracked and making her a criminal mary sue ? ”

to which i say no......... and i’ll tell you why

can you tell that the antonio garza effect affects me too ?? anyways KSDGJGKDS

as i said, romy is That Bitch who goes to the next extreme in what she does, anything for a power trip, so the more illegal or dangerous in this case, the better

it comes from this feeling of boredom and she def got bored of the drug gig, so she thought of the other roles within the group and ?? murder sounded fun ig ?

DFKJFKL but ofc she had to be trained and shit, but she had the sneaky part down so. it involved Everything Else

but yeah, now she kills people for the gang ! fun !

which.. is kind of a jump from selling coke, sure, but nonetheless —

PERSONALITY AND SHIT

just so we’re clear, when she was younger, romy def didn’t exhibit as many of her messier traits as she does now, but she did have a way with deceit and a sort of glibness, although it could be rather genuine more than it was fake ( like it is now )

but we’re here to focus on present!romy so.... yeah dsgkjgds

one thing she isn’t is completely without self-control; she carries herself in a cool and collected way and isn’t prone to Snapping for little or sometimes good reason, emotionally or physically for that matter

but killing a man for taking the last chocolate glaze ?? not as unlikely as you’d think ! 

.. same can be said for taunting or challenging people

or starting a physical confrontation to prove a Point, etc

so there’s still some leeway there

p detached, couldn’t care less abt most people ( some of which might even be in rose golden but anyways )

can be promiscuous...... we’re gonna leave that there KGSDJDG

i will say that she’s sexually fluid though so !! ladies hit her up !

and men too ig........ as long as you’re not musty

she’s also rather callous and snide, clever and self-involved

v versatile ( keep her track record in mind folks ! KFSDGJGDF ) and is responsible where she thinks it counts, for example her role in the gang

she hasn’t rly felt guilty for her actions.. like ever but i wouldn’t discount such a thing as being impossible

she’s honest where it counts, and sometimes beyond that, despite her still being prone to lying ( which, y’know, is good in her situation ?? sgklgsdjf )

she def thinks she’s Somebody by now........ and try as some might, you can’t rly put her in her place from that standpoint SGDFKJFDGS

anyways i suspect the senior members of the gang get annoyed with her bc of her moments of Clear disorder so perhaps she’s on thin ice ? perhaps not ?!

so that’s everything i can think of typing for her rn, albeit p all over the place and Negative sdfkjgkdsf but if you’d like to plot, hmu ! i’m also over on discord and don’t mind giving out my username !

[violixs]

HI MAE !!! i haven’t sent in a ask in so long AHHHHSSJSIEBSJDBIM SO SORRY i hope your break was nice !! bbokari stickers AGH.. actually yuta is one of my nct biases so feel free to spam me all you want… AND THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LEARNING KOREAN ADVICE !! i will def be starting that when summer starts when school ends.. which is so busy with preparation for exams ahhhh but how have u been mae ? i havent sent in a ask in so long.. over a week T-T buttttt my sisters wedding was so fun !! ah everything was perfect and i cried at the vows which all my cousins got on camera 🥲 but there was a unlimited boba bar which i drank like 5 cups of taro milk tea from !! I WILL BE READING YHE HYUN AND LIX DRABBLE AND WILL HE SENDING IN AN ASK ABOUT THAT AFTER THIS I PROMISE and the binnie idea save me !! he’s so intimidating but such a soft goofball in the inside.. AND I HAVE SO MANYYY SKZ FIC RECS THAT ARE DEF WORTH THE READ !! if u still need some i have a lot 🤓🤓AND 8K MARK ?? i bet it’s great mae !!! i cant believe i’ve missed so much of your content I WILL BE CATCHING UP ON ALL OF IT RN

funnily enough while u were away i’ve still been on break and as an extremely exhausted introvert i have been inside a LOT and staying up later so! i have put out a lot i hope u enjoy it ajdhsh >_< i am okay! rn a little crampy and tired but we won our football match today and i played okay too so… overall pretty happy!! and i’ve even getting more interactions lately which is very lovely too hehe

starting w the WEDDING AHHHH i knew that’s why u were ia so i have been anticipating it!!!! unlimited boba bar wtf ???? that sounds perfect??? and so delicious??? genius idea… but the vows omg </3 i personally don’t want to get married but just? that seems so lovely and special and :( it must have been so lovely! did u get to do the speech like you wanted to?

no problem lovely!!! i have actually been doing much more korean recently than before bc if holidays and stuff and it reminded me of how much i genuinely enjoy learning it.. like today i was watching linos live and i understood a good chunk and i was so proud!! and even just getting the gist of what a conversation is abt it feels v rewarding so i hope when u start u enjoy it too <3 but hohoooo u will regret telling me yuta is one of ur nct biases because my feelings for thag man. are strong to say the least i love him so much he is so !!!! and HES GONNA BE IN A HOT SEXY ACTION MOVIE VILLAIN YUTA !!!! so excited i cannot wait

i rlly hope i get the chance to write the binnie fic i have not written enough for that man!!! but i have so many ideas at the moment that are no where near getting written it is slightly terrible but! i just hope i can finish the hyune fic before anything! i was doing some editing before so rn we’re at 8.7k for that and there is still.. at least 3 fairly large chunks to be written. 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 pray for me this will be a while! but for once i have it planned out and my writing style has improved a lot since my last long fic so i hope that it’ll be worth it in the end <3

[ishikawayukis]

i agree cora fanclub hehe 💕

omg really sf9 doesnt know how to avoid spoilers 😂 i vaguely knew that chani was part of sf9 but i dont know much about sf9 tbh, maybe i should check them out 🤔 what are your fav songs/mvs/cbs etc??

OMG YEAH when that happened to hye-na, same i gasped even tho i literally knew it was gonna happen, like you said this show is just so wild like you think youve seen enough but it shocks you even more!! the ending of the show itself is another cliffhanger asdhdjak AND I LOVE WHEN WE ALL LIE STARTS PLAYING HAHAHAH what an iconic ost

oooh i loved mystic pop up bar!! it was so cute (and the guy who plays woojoo’s dad is in it too i think) and strong woman do bong soon was one of my very first kdramas <3 OMG IM WATCHING VINCENZO RN only on ep 2 but i hear good things about it so im excited!! and descendants of the sun too ofc (did you watch crash landing on you?? it was so good even tho i cried a lot 😭😭) and omg i feel you abt memories of the alhambra lmao i wanted to watch it bc of hyun bin but i just couldnt make it past ep 1 😂 i also watched a good amount of sisyphus but ultimately could not finish it lol but ill have to check out some of these dramas you mentioned!!

oh but girl are you sure u wanna hear all my kdrama recs ive watched a lot (i literally have a SPREADSHEET for kdramas and anime too agshsja im a virgo okay). my all time favs tho would prob be crash landing on you, run on, and hyena (all on netflix i think), but i also liked bring it on ghost, true beauty, and marriage not dating if you want something lighter? at this point tho ive become tired of the miscommunication trope in romance dramas (which admittedly true beauty had some of, but it was hilarious so i forgive it) so i tend to be picky abt that 😂 im just like, cmon this is such a non problem that could be solved if yall just talked to each other….i def left some out but this is getting long so ill spare you but pls i love kdramas (clearly)!!!

for the sf9 recs i made this not that long ago and i think it's a pretty good place to start LMAO and they really don't i think one of the first videos i saw was of them trying to play chani's part on sky castle but honestly it just made me more curious to see what happened.

i have 3 episodes left and i don't know how am i gonna survive because the last one i saw yesterday destroyed me i haven't cried that much over a drama in, well, i was about to say a long time but that would be a lie LMAO

vincezo is so good!!! i truly truly recommend it. i even got my sister hooked on it and she doesn't tend to watch kdramas. i haven't watched crash landing on you yet but i'm very intrigued by it since a lot of people like a lot! and memories of the alhambra had such a good story idea but idk they ruined it for me the ending was bad, the way they handled a lot of the storylines was bad, i remember that drama and get mad not gonna lie

gonna check out some of the ones you mentioned! and yeah if it's a romance drama i tend to not watch it unless the world of it it's entertaining if that makes sense. like i'm not really here for like you said dumb miscommunication and just issues that can be solved easily, if it's romance give me a world shattering issue and not just a i heard you said this and got mad and didn't ask you so i assumed whatever i wanted kinda thing

[starrysamu]

🥺 will u still be popping by every so often? i also like chatting w u !! im,, glad my words were able to do something. i totally understand about how its easier with the screen,,, o god i ranted and spilled everything out to a friend on here things and felt much better about than when i talked to irls?? it's funny you bring that up because i see myself more as an optimist and i have def not been doing anything to keep me lasting longer aljdfjsf. we're opposites in many ways huh. ⭐ (1/?)

+ but that's okay! I'm glad you're taking care of yourself. I've been taking a lil bit better care of myself too so don't worry about me! I'm more worried about you because you've finally gotten through next time and i'm sure it was tiring. i just read through your love letter and it was,, so sweet. i hope you take some time off because you deserve it! and i dunno if you mentioned it, like if ur in school or something but i hope you're focusing on work/studies + taking care of yourself. (2/?) ⭐

+ i think im planning on rereading next time tonight when i finish all the homework i want to finish. also i forgot to mention, your ending to your love letter was so cheesy LOL. but for one thing, (in which i say a lot i think, or rather will say [this may make sense to you later or it'll confuse you more ik im being cryptic LOOOL]) i love how you depicted MC and samu. they are flawed. and they're human. they're perfectly imperfect and i love it. (i forgot what number this was i am smolbrain/?) ⭐

+ this should be the last one. but u know sometimes u have to sand down ur brain to let her grow again. sand away the not so good stuff and grow some better stuff. i dont know what im saying LOL. anyway. take care of yourself! don't burn out! drink water! eat fud! i truly really hope im not annoyign you with these asks. and hopefully i dont annoy you when i reread nexttime alsdjfajf (LAST ONE IDK WHAT NUMBER IT IS) ⭐

the way i’m here more often than i should be ........ i have four minutes before i have to go back to my scheduled Working so let’s see if i can hit every point before then HAHAH

i THINK .... everyone obviously has a lil optimism and pessimism in them and i think whatever mindset keeps u floating rn is what u gotta do. u just gotta survive these days man. like i was reading this article and it was like “your main goal should just be to survive” and it was in ref to corona but i think right now everyone’s kinda feeling that way w everything so idk, being optimistic rn is what’s (sort of) keeping me afloat. of course, that’s changed within the past week i’m ngl HAHAHA

ALSO . I THINK IT WAS YOU. BUT I SAW YOUR REBLOGS. I HOPE IT WAS YOU. OTHERWISE I MADE A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF AND WILL MAKE A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF RN - 

but when i say i was completely, utterly, absolutely shocked. like i really really mean it, rereading it for ANOTHER TIME? i’m pretty sure that’s 40k+ words easy, AND you took the time to comment what you liked about it too?? I REALLY DO NOT KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS HOW HAPPY THAT MAKES ME FEEL. I THINK ABOUT IT QUITE A BIT ACTUALLY. like i’m just so ... so so so honored that someone really took the time out of their day to do that? i dunno. mainly because as time goes on, i think there are a lot more things about next time i would’ve changed, and i ... think it’s just not as good as i thought it was kinda thing? like i thought it was decent but as time keeps going i am less confident in it? i’m not sure how to phrase it any differently i suppose, but frankly i don’t ever want to look at it again. so it’s really really nice for someone to do that because it just makes me really really happy. so thank you, thank you, thank you so so very much for doing that. it really means a ton in ways i cannot express 

ALSO U MIGHT JUST BE ONTO SMTH ABT THAT BRAIN THING. I’M SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT IT. UR RIGHT. also u r NEVER annoying me u are an absolute joy to speak to in fact i hope I’M not annoying you. if i was right as to who you were, i hope you’re having a good break and taking care of yourself when you can! please please get some rest and be sure to hydrate <3