#i cried while writing this shi bra

[my-fancy-hat]

The process of creating is the active, constant question of the self, to question the extent of my capacities to convey a message worth of people's respect and admiration. To me, Look Back is a tale of self-reafirmation for Tatsuki Fujimoto. I'm aware it came out in the gap between part 1 and part 2 of the author's best seller, Chainsaw man, which makes this oneshot such an intimate soul-shaking story after what may be the pinnacle of his career. This made me question, why would he write this kind of story after CSM (and Fire Punch) anyways?

Through Fujino and Kyomoto's journey (which funnily, their names convined are Fuji-moto) we are put in the shoes of the stirring yet self-doubting mind of the creator: "why do you draw manga? why do you create?" is the question the protagonist has to find the answer for. Fujino navigate her life for her passion and pride as a talented story-teller artist, while Kyomoto does so for her love for art itself in a more reserved and personal way. Combined, I think they are the rope that pushes Fujimoto back and forth in his mind, the fear of the creator to tell a story worth of people's respect (Fujino) while being faithful to oneself (Kyomoto). Fujimoto knows there always will be an expectation, a mark above his head everytime someone is aware a new story has his signature, so it's understandable for anxiety to take the worst of you, the fear to be openly judged by the masses. So why do you even bother to get through that unpleasant thing? will I ever surpass what I made in my past projects? why do I keep creating? is this all I will ever be? the entire process is tiresome, boring, a never-ending task, I enjoy art better as a consumer anyways, so why?

If there's only one person who my art made their day better, made them smile or excited for what is coming next, then it was worth every single second I spend working on it.

It's a reafirmation to keep going. That I was born to live into this world for this sake, and I'm worthy to connect and receive this love. This is my place.

I deeply respect you for it, Tatsuki Fujimoto.

[mydekuacademia]

Never?

Nobody suggested this, I just got bored on vacation and decided to write this lol

Synopsis: Shinsou finds out his S/O has never had an orgasm and decides to help :)

Warning: NSFW, mentions of female anatomy but not necessarily female gender

"You mean...never?"

"No, Shinsou, never."

Shinsou chuckled and shook his head in disbelief. "You've seriously never had an orgasm."

"Shinsou!" You crossed your arms over your chest and blushed.

"Sorry, sorry," he put his hands up placatingly. "But, haven't you been with other people before?"

You glanced at your feet, unable to look him in the eye. "Yeah, but they didn't care about my pleasure. They pretty much just used me to get off."

Shinsou gently grabbed your chin and tilted it up to face him. His face was pinched with worry. "It was consensual though, right?"

You nodded vigorously. "Of course! They just didn't reciprocate."

Shinsou's face lightened a bit.

"But don't you...I don't know, masturbate?"

Your face flushed tomato red. "I- uh- I don't really..." You buried your face in your hands.

Shinsou chuckled and rubbed his hand over your shoulders. "Sorry, I didn't mean to embarrass you, kitten."

You sighed and leaned into his shoulder. "It's fine, I'm just not used to talking about it." He kissed the top of your head.

"And that's perfectly fine."

The two of you sat in silence for a few moments before Shinsou spoke.

"(Y/n)?"

"Mhm?"

"I could help you, if you want."

You sat up and faced him, noting how a small blush colored his cheeks.

"You mean, with...?"

He nodded and looked you in the eye. It was easy to see how serious he was. This wasn't some bad joke.

"But only if you want to, kitten. I'd never do anything you're uncomfortable with," he quickly clarified. You grinned at his sincerity.

"I know you wouldn't, baby." You leaned over and placed a light kiss on his lips. "I trust you."

Shinsou grabbed your hand and kissed your knuckles. "So what do you say?"

You looked at your hand in his and thought for a moment. You knew he'd never hurt you, but this was a big step. Still, you trusted him with your entire being.

"Okay."

Shinsou grinned at you before leaning in and gently kissing you. His soft lips tasted like the coffee that was rapidly cooling on the table next to your couch. He released your hand and placed it on your cheek, deepening the kiss. Before the two of you got too into it, he pulled away.

"(Y/n), please tell me if you want me to stop. No hard feelings if you do, okay?"

It was as if he knew you were starting to get a bit nervous. You smiled gratefully at him.

"Thank you, Shinsou."

"Of course, kitten."

With that, he reattached his lips to yours with renewed vigor. He placed both hands on your cheeks, and in response, you placed one hand over his and the other on his chest. His heart was pounding almost as hard as yours.

Shinsou's lips slowly began moving against yours, and you matched the pace without a second thought. He picked up the pace and moved his hand down to your shoulder, his thumb lightly stroking your neck. You responded by throwing your arms around his neck and pulling him closer. He pulled away for a moment, eyes hooded.

"Are you sure you want this, (y/n)?"

"Yes, baby."

He resumed kissing you fervently, gripping your waist firmly, then sliding his hands to your hips. When he tugged at the hem of your shirt, you pulled away just long enough to throw it off and into an unknown corner. Shinsou kissed down to your jaw, then to your collarbone, lightly nibbling at your soft skin along the way. You sucked in a light gasp when he kissed the spot right where your neck meets your shoulder, which prompted him to latch on and suck a light red spot onto your skin.

You whispered Shinsou's name like it was a prayer as he continued to kiss down to your chest. He paused to look up at you, making sure it was okay to continue. You nodded, but tugged at his shirt before he could go on.

"Aren't you a bit overdressed?" you said with a cheeky grin. Shinsou grinned back and pulled his shirt off over his head, tossing it away. You traced a hand down his toned chest to the firm plane of his stomach, noting the abs that hadn't been there a few months ago. "Much better."

Shinsou blushed at your actions. He was proud of the progress he made while training with Aizawa, and holy shit did he look good. You couldn't help but stare.

After a brief moment of admiring his physique, Shinsou placed his hands back on your waist and placed more kisses on your collarbone. He looked up into your eyes for a second, then moved down to your chest. The open-mouthed, wet kisses he left on your sensitive skin had you seeing stars.

"Can I take this off?" he asked, toying with your bra strap. When you nodded, he took it off quickly with expert fingers.

"Oh, done that before, have you?" you joked. "Not many people who don't wear bras can get it off first try."

Shinsou smirked. "What, like it's hard?"

Oh god, his expression and the teasing lilt to his words had heat flying to your core. You were so fucking lucky to have him.

Shinsou placed his hands on your waist again and slowly slid them up to your ribs, just under your breasts. His eyes remained firmly planted on your chest, almost in awe.

"You're so beautiful," he whispered, looking up into your eyes. Your heart thumped heavily in your chest. He kissed down your sternum, then moved to your right breast and kissed around your nipple before taking it in his mouth and sucking lightly. At the same time, he placed his other hand on your left breast and traced circles around your nipple with his thumb. You drew in a quivering breath and ran a hand through his unruly hair. He switched sides after a moment.

"Shinsou," you whispered. "Please..."

You didn't know what you were asking for, but Shinsou seemed to understand.

"Of course, kitten."

He kissed down to your stomach and stopped above the waistband of your jeans. "Let's get these off, yeah?" When you shyly nodded, he undid the button and zipper and slid your pants off, leaving you in only your underwear. He brought his face back up to yours and kissed you deeply. Tongues tangled and hands grasped at each other. Slowly, Shinsou slid his hand to your hip and played with the waistband of your underwear, then moved to the front, directly under your bellybutton. He pulled away for a brief second.

"Just checking, you're still okay with this, right?" He was sweet to keep checking, you truly loved him.

"Yes, Shinsou. I'm okay with it," you said quietly. You kissed him again.

Shinsou's warm hand carefully slipped into the front of your underwear and between your labia. You gasped into the kiss when the tip of his finger barely glanced over your clit. He smiled at you, eyes hooded. Your head gracelessly fell onto his shoulder when he pressed down on your sensitive sex. Shinsou chuckled and kissed your shoulder before beginning to rub circles onto your clit. A low moan escaped your lips.

"Does that feel good, kitten?" he whispered into your ear. You nodded into his shoulder. He continued his ministrations, speeding up his fingers. You moaned again, slightly arching your back and kissing his neck.

Fucking hell, you felt amazing. His fingers were making you see stars. You had to make him feel this way too. You slipped your hand down his bare chest to his jeans, but he quickly grabbed your hand.

"I appreciate it, (y/n), but this is about you," he said. He laced his fingers with yours.

Before you realized it, Shinsou plunged a finger into your heat, continuing to stroke your clit with his thumb. He started pumping his finger in and out slowly, then gradually sped up until he had a quick rhythm. When he added a second finger and curled them in a "come here" motion, you cried out and squeezed his hand tightly. You wouldn't make it much longer.

"Shi-Shinsou..." you whined.

"Shh, kitten," he soothed. "I got you."

Your body trembled with unreleased tension. You needed to cum, now. "Shinsou, please," you begged. "I need...to..." A twist of his fingers cut off your plea.

"Cum for me, (y/n)." With that, he pressed hard onto your g-spot and frantically rubbed your clit, and you were gone.

"Ah!" you cried out loudly. "Hitoshi!" A wave of pleasure crashed over you and you collapsed onto your boyfriend's chest, a panting mess. He withdrew his hand and hugged you tightly.

"Hitoshi, huh?" he chuckled. "Well now I won't accept my surname."

You laughed with him and snuggled into his chest, still blissed out.

"I love you, Hitoshi."

"I love you too, kitten."

[courage-a-word-of-justice]

Demon Slayer 21 - 24 | Given 7 - 11 (FINAL) | Astra 9 - 12 (FINAL) | Fruits Basket 20 - 24 | Dr Stone 8 - 11 | Cop Craft 8 - 10 (not including recap ep.)

Demon Slayer 21

Ooh, butterfly titlecard.

Well…at least we know Muzan…wasn’t always Muzan Jackson.

Can demons go to hell…?

Aw, seeing Rui become human again (at least in his head) was pretty cute.

Shinobu is off her rocker!!! (a continuation of a comment I made in the collab post for last ep.)

“…don’t forget about the other one!” – The other…what, exactly…?

This girl…is Kanao, isn’t it…? She’s the “other one”!

I was almost hoping Shinobu’s shoe blade would stab the crow…it ruined a perfectly good buch of Giyu reaction faces…

Ukogi! You came back to me!

Why can’t the girls wear trousers too…? (someone grumbles “Because that’s not in accordance with the times in the Taisho Era) I don’t care, let girls wear pants! This is not Strike Witches! Update: Shinobu wears pants, actually…*people collectively facepalm*

Kakushi means “hidden/to hide”. It makes a lot of sense, to be honest.

Given 7

I like the ambient sounds in this show.

If Akihiko learnt you thought something was wrong with him, he’d beat you up. Stat.

Haruki and Akihiko: masters of reading the room. (When they’re counted as a pair, that is.)

I just realised Akihiko is daling with Mafuyu because of Yayoi…Yayoi is what Kasai could be and Ugetsu/Akihiko is what Ritsuka/Mafuyu could be.

Dr Stone 8

Note Jasper says “baka musume” – he still acknowledges Kohaku is his daughter even after disowning her.

“We’re neither gods nor geniuses,” says Senku, a genius…hmm.

Suika has such a cute voice that it’s easy to guess her gender…*hint hint*

Was it “kitto” (certainly) or “Kinro” Ginro said in his sleep…?

I think the eyecatch might be iron sand (some form of it, at least).

Fruits Basket 20

(no notes here, sorry!)

Cop Craft 8

What was that black thing that appeared before the plane broke apart…?

Ohhhhhhh…kay. That was not something I signed up for…

Isn’t there some kind of magic Tilarna can use to get back into her body?

I find it ironic that Seven Miles (a place name, I presume) is 3 miles away…

Given 8

I never skip the OP…so I guess it helps that I found Marutsuke and Kizuato on Spotify. (<-Here you go.)

Indirect kiss…!

I’m reminded of what Boueibu said about umbrella colour being a reflection of your personality when I see Mafuyu with a disposable umbrella.

“Hiiragi Kashima wants to be forgiven” sounds like a LN title.

(I had some notes here, but I forgot them…such is the life of watching on phone but writing the notes down later.)

Demon Slayer 22

I LOLled when Tanjiro asked what a Hashira was…(does he know what it is…? Should we know at this point what it is, or did spoilers ruin it for me?)

Wisteria pattern!

LOL, I like Mist Hashira already!

Only Shinobu has a hiragana first name (out of the Hashiras)…hmm.

Shi-Shinazugawa…? Isn’t that the surname of angry-for-the-sake-of-angry mohawk guy from Final Selection…?

Tanjiro uses his head…once again. (That joke never gets old! What do you mean, you don’t like it…?)

Hashiras’ jackets say korosu (to kill) while ordinary slayers get horobosu (to destroy) and Kakushis’ jackets say, well, kakushi (to hide).

“I wonder if the sky is blue.” – Is this person (master of the mansion)…blind…?

The bandage-head Hashira who says “flamboyant” all the time…he reminds me of Senku…(in a bad way.)

I wonder if Giyu will be punished…? A few comments this episode have suggested such an outcome.

“…devours humans…”

Rengoku (flame Hashira)…I think I once saw him being referred to as “Blaziken Head” by someone on the ‘net…LOL.

How does the Master know this…? The Kasugai crows, right?

I just realised the love Hashira has a skirt…

Poor Giyu has his head turned away…he’s too embarrassed to even blush.

Fruits Basket 21

I noticed the fanclub only ever calls Hana “wave girl”…

I love how the narrator, a middle-aged man, has to voice the thoughts of a teenage girl.

Fruits Basket 22

(no notes, sorry!)

Dr Stone 9

H & N, huh…?

Astra 9

So…what is the sphere…?

Luca’s real dad vs. Quitterie’s mom = art vs. science, LOL.

…I almost cried when everyone started crying…

Uh…random question I didn’t think about when it was revealed, but should Luca invest in a bra…?

You can see Gruppies and waves on the wall while Kanata and Luca talk…and shrooms...and coral…

Wait, so these guys are all…aliens? Polina is the only one from Earth…? What about the sphere???

Cop Craft 9

Why did the intro get moved to the middle of the episode…? Also, I’ve noticed there’s a special episode next week…it means there really was a budget and/or scheduling stuff-up along the way somewhere, just like you can suspect with an anime that moves as terribly as this one.

There’s a strange dent in Kei’s leg…specifically, on his kneecap…

Astra 10

Guardian Enzo said no one’s mentioned the Astra crew never said they were from Earth before…now I’m noticing it too.

W-WHAT?! I was right????? (see this post for why I suspected Charce to be the culprit)

Demon Slayer 23

3 episodes until the end, huh…?

Why does Sanemi taunting Nezuko remind me of a sexual encounter…? (with the “You know you want it” etc.)…Uh, bad news, guys. Sanemi is 21 and Nezuko is 14, so no shipping unless you don’t mind 7 year age gaps and an underage girl, all in the one ship.

Mist Hashira? Using rocks to flick at the esteemed guest (Tanjiro)? Hmm, he ain’t quite my type after all…

This Kakushi that keeps punching Tanjiro seems to be a woman…or just a guy with very long eyelashes. Update: Nope, definitely a woman. The Kakushi dynamic almost reminds me of Jessie and James from Pokémon…

Heyyyyyyy! Don’t underestimate a girl!!!!!!!!!!

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh nope. Nope. Nope. I was hoping we wouldn’t hear about how Zenitsu’s hands were the size of a KFC spork, but…eeeeeeeeeesh…

I never thought I’d be so happy to have Inosuke silenced by spider daddy…well, here we are.

“…I’ll become an old guy and die.” – Wow…even I don’t think of that stuff…

I wonder if Muzan had anything to do with why the Master’s head looks the way it is?

Dr Stone 10

(no notes, sorry!)

Given 9

I wonder if Akihiko ever liked Yayoi in the first place…

I noticed Ritsuka says “atarashii hito” which is translated to “someone else”…the English suggests more intimacy than the Japanese…hmm.

Mafuyu, my boy…! (I bet you could call all of The Seasons “my boys” now.)

I love how Take acts as Haruki’s straight man.

I was wondering why the ANN review was referring to Given as “Wonderwall” – that’s the name of the next episode.

Fruits Basket 23

“What are you doing?”

Astra 11

Only one ‘til the end…oh wow, where did the time go??? (Also, ep. 12’s title of “Friend-Ship” is terrible…a terrible pun…)

Duuuuuuuuuuuuuude, I saw the Seira = Aries thing right away…it’s exactly the same as what breaks Juuni Taisen for people…

Wait, but couldn’t Charce, as the king’s clone, becom the heir to the throne instead…?

Oh, that…that joke’s absolutely terrible…! *shakes head* Did you know I was holding my hand over my mouth for basically that entire climactic scene?  I think summer might have a fighting chance in the end-of-year rankings for once!

Demon Slayer 24

I love how Tanjiro is “that headbutting kid” now.

There are cute little butterflies on the title card.

It’s good to see the return of Murata…and those transition faces.

Considering spiders are pretty gross if you think about it, both sides have a point…

Murata’s a more fun character than I thought a bit guy would be…in fact, that might explain why we learn his name, as opposed to being a nobody (like the female Slayer on the mountain that got killed by Spider Mama).

“I think we’re a lot better now.” – Aside from Zenitsu’s hands, that is…*makes disgusted face and thinks of KFC sporks*

Sleeping Ukogi is totes adorbs…*face beams with happiness*

Uhhhhhhhh…I reallllllllly dunno what to feel about Zenitsu’s love of girls. He’s no playboy, that’s for sure. Unfortunately (?), I do agree with Zenitsu on how Inosuke deals with girls though.

Zenitsu’s an M, I tell you! An MMMMMMM!

Wow, someone put real effort…into Zenitsu playing tag with a girl…sad life.

“A girl was able to do that to something that hard?!” – Nyeh-heh-heh-heh…call me dirty-minded, but…because this is blowing into a gourd we’re talking about, it sounds funny out of context.

Lemme guess…Aoi is this blue grumpy one. That’s why I dropped Divine Gate (since characters matched their colour schemes too well). Update: No, this blue one was talking when she mentioned Aoi, so Aoi is one of the three mini butterfly girls, I think. Update 2: No, the sentence was punctuated funny: “You’ll be up against myself, Aoi and Kanao there.” Turns out Aoi really is blue grumpy girl, because the sentence is missing a comma after “Aoi”.

“Please forgive me.” – Hey, Moya, you were right. Plus, that random Haganezuka appearance was funny – that’s been the first time in a while that I’ve laughed at Demon Slayer properly.

Apparently Shinobu and Tanjiro on the roof is a meme now. Now I see why.

“…with their instincts laid totally bare.” – I feel like slayers and demons aren’t so different, because even thought both fight for survival, slayers fight for revenge (in a sense, bloodlust) and demons for actual bloodlust.

“I feel like I can rest easy now.” – Sounds like an early death flag to me! (I may be an anime-only watcher at this point, but I encountered some spoilers that showed me Shinobu’s fate. Be mindful of that if it seems like I’m accurately predicting the future.)

Shinobu and Tanjiro…hmm, what a combo.

I love how the Zenitsu and Inosuke in the background react to crimes they’re being accused of in the foreground.

Cop Craft 10

Emails, emails…can’t anyone talk in person these days? (As much as I love emails, I gotta critique that.)

Hey wait. I thought their AI wasn’t so good…

Kei’s birthday is the 18th of June 1993…? Wow, I didn’t know he was 26.

New what now??? This really is straight outta Compton, if you know what I mean…

The march about aliens here reminds me of the climate strike the other day.

Given 10

Smol Ritsuka…

This show is hilarious when it needs to be. I’m really gonna miss it.

“Kedama” means hairball. “Tama” is a cat’s name, as implied here.

“Mafuyu” has “winter” in it to make a set of 4 seasons though…

Oh, so that’s why they’re – and this show is - “Given”.

Fruits Basket 24

Did Tohru vomit…or was she just catching her breath…?

“…when you are.”

Was this “monstrous Kyo” scene halfway through the manga or at the end? I don’t remember anymore…

Astra 12 (FINAL)

Hmm…I heard about gaman (“tolerance”, “persistence”…or maybe “working through hardship”…?) being a concept in the past few years and I think it’s very much embodied in the streotypical Japanese man…or just Kanata. Who knows?

So…what language are Kanata and co. really speaking? It seems like English, based on the spaceport screens (I rewatched ep. 1 today, I should know), but they’re speaking in Japanese for the sake of the fact it’s anime, right? Update: I also noticed quit a bit of the spaceport advertising is for Lucy Lum, while there is special attention paid to Aries’s eyes in ep. 1.

This is what they mean when they say “history is written by the victors”. To build from that, my idea is that the hegemonic idea becomes the truth, i.e. majority rules wins the ability to write history itself (e.g. patriarchal values, able-bodied people’s values etc. write history, not the minorities).

Aries may have eidetic memory, but she sucks at names. That’s consistent with ep. 1 too.

Oh, right! Kanata’s right arm is his dominant one!...I never knew such fond memories could be made of a single character’s appendage…who knew.

LOL, Charce brought out his sparkly face again.

Ooh, older!Ulgar is hot! Me likey!!!

Ooh, Funi’s star ornament. Ulgar still has one!

I swore that was Quitterie…turned out it was Funi. Oh well, Astra lied to me again. (I’m fine with that.)

You can even see Luca’s femininity for once…!

Ooh, red tulips = true love, white tulips = forgiveness/worthiness. Normally tulips represent “perfect love”. Perfect for Kanata and Aries, don’tcha think?

I was wondering why Kanata had a new black hand. (Maybe it was a glove or something.) Nope, it’s a prosthetic.

I don’t actually know how to say that joke about being a right-hand man in Japanese, despite hearing it from the show twice (I went back and tried to listen again). Somebody tell me, please!

I noticed one of the people in the cast list had an exclamation mark next to their name…well, that was funny for a second.

The one unrecognisable song was Astra-gou no Bouken (Adventure of the Spaceship Astra).

Well, that was a wild ride. I’m definitely sad that it’s over, but remember what they say in the show itself – look forward, not back. See you next time!

Given 11 (FINAL)

Come to think of it, if you interpret Kizuato one way, it means “Traces of Scars”, but this song’s title is in katakana so you can’t tell…

This is like a marriage proposal…

I’ve noticed something – ever since I started engaging with BL and yaoi in earnest, I’ve realised there’s this fear of “not being masculine” enough by both members of the couple. That’s probably what Ritsuka is going through with the box.

What did Ritsuka even bump into on his way out, though…?

Oh, science curriculum, huh? Me, I’m a student of the humanities, so I wouldn’t know about that feel…I was always average at English anyway after essays started coming in…

Oh, we’re back at Harusame. Didn’t think we would be.

I love how Mafuyu’s handle for the band is “Kedama”…the name of his dog.

Update: Turns out the SNS account for Given (band), as well as Mafuyu and Ritsuka, are real...on Twitter. I’d assume Haruki and Akihiko join them for the movie...?

Dr Stone 11

Ooh, lyrics! Finally!

I almost expected Chrome to go, “What’s soap?” – he’s never seen it before, remember?

Note Kaseki means “fossil” in Japanese and contains the kanji for “stone” in it.

Ginro just yelled the Weekly Shonen Jump motto…coincidence? I think not!

Team Shiny Spear Tips Forever complicates things for the crew.