#i couldnt help myself so i took more but shorter videos

[mitamicah]

Got home from the Berlin gig and I am not sure how I am alive!!

Wow that was another great gig!! Häärijä basically just went full out but also we had the most wholesome supportive jere moment when a transflag got thrown on stage and he was confused about what the flag meant yet eagerly listening to us explaining and fullheartedly abracing the flag and transgender people when having listened to us (almost cried at that moment 😭)

Two people got to share the stage with jere for icip and salena joined for the second round cha cha cha

That is just to name a few general highlights

Then there are more personal highlights like meeting you wonderful people in the queue and from the tumblr kääryleet - all if you are so kind and nice and freaking talented; the amount of trinkets i have now is insane but I love every single bracelet, picture, sticker, pin, keychain etc. 💚

A smaller little highlight was that I got to taste marli glögi and I actually like it - to me it tastes like melted slushice 🤣

Got to give mikke a new round of stickers and the merch stand and he remembered me from Stockholm 😭

Also got to meet häärijä again and got a longer (but not long really) conversation, pictures and alot of hugs - of course he got a sticker too :3

Thank you also btw to everybody being so kind and genuinely happy about receiving the stickers - it really warms my heart to know that this idea got to bring some extra warmth into an already packed day full of love for all of us 💚💚

Thank you and i will probably go to bed soon hoping i can sleep with all these experiences running around like goblins in my brain 🤣

[rubyatarah]

Rant // TW for car accident, feeling down, minor injury,

excessive whining, vlogbrothers youtube video reference, beautiful old tacoma met its untimely end and i’m being ridiculous, should just be grateful everyone was alright but thats not enough i must ruminate all night even though sleep would be very good

i am sad and upset because someone not paying attention totaled my truck that i was very attached to and now my independence feels like its been stolen from me but i feel bad for being upset because the person who pulled out in front of me was very stressed and they didnt mean to hurt anybody. not sure if their rear driver side door ripped off when they rolled or when i hit them but their dog ran away scared and it took a whole group of folks half an hour to find it. kind people passing by stopped to help, an old high school friend came and gave me a hug, my ex boyfriend up the rode came to pick me up, it was all so hopeful. a sad day and a very reassuring one. but it seems i’d only just forgotten about old wounds that made me terrified of driving or being in a car and now i think they’re back for some more torment. this is so cute for me. just being dramatic because everyone is okay. my foot is hurt from braking before smashing my front end in and being trapped there but mostly i’m actually mourning in earnest the loss of my dearest most reliable and nonjudgemental friend, a white 2001 toyota tacoma. extended cab. with a winch and an arb bumper and a matching canopy and stupidly big tires for such a little truck. haha still laugh about that and not be sad soon hopefully. little things break my happiness and that is a personal failure sure but my happiness is still broken and no one can take that away from me. jokes aside im suicidal lol and survivor’s guilt over a vehicle you accidentally personified that’s 1 year older than you is not something they tell you about in high school health class. can you tell it was my first? worked 6 days a week for a year at the closest full service restaurant i could ride my bike to to save up enough for such a beautiful thing and it took just about 3000000000 times shorter of an amount of time for it to all be over. i always felt a little sad when i put a sticker on the topper window in case it didnt live on forever with the truck. dang it dude. makes me think of when hank green said something like: “its much more difficult to build than it is to destroy,” but thats not what thats supposed to mean i dont think. anyway was that him or somebody else and he was quoting them? sorry if i love hank and john. i don’t have a dad ok let me have this one thing! ok its just that i couldn’t escape when i was dealing with a lot of not awesomeness at home or otherwise before i had the ability to drive myself wherever i needed to be and now that’s over for a bit and its not a good time of year to do that. alaska is very cold in the winter and my mountain bike does not suffice in the snow and ice. also fat biking sounds miserable no offense fat bikers you are valid. also south central alaska is not a very walking friendly place! also also, i just love that truck like a person. so stupid that i couldnt protect it and give it the long happy life it was entitled to. it has been in my very dramatic opinion the only stability i have had ever had and it’s comforting that i made that happen for myself but just as opposite of comforting that someone could unintentionally just take that away in the span of some seconds. hope none of you read this and hope youre all well and wearing your seatbelts always. <3 love and hugs. not sure if adding the pictures is a good idea or not since i know anything i see about a car accident makes me sick and i dont want any of you to feel the same❤️ :/ if you have questions or want to see pictures dms are open 🦦