#i couldnt hear it... i have a very clear memory of standing on the basement stairs watching them play | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

crypt1dcorv1dae · 3 months

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Honestly I'm eternally grateful for noise cancelling technology, I would probably be in fucking jail without it tbh cus overstimulation is one thing that makes me REEALLY PISSED OFF, but I do wish my earbuds' noise cancelling worked a little?? better??? Like I feel like the headphones I had were more... Like... Complete silence. Not COMPLETELY complete, I could still hear my own Bodily Processes and some louder sounds, but idk they definitely were like... Stronger than this. I could still use them I suppose, I would just have to charge them, but they just aren't very comfortable to wear for longer periods of time, especially with it being hot out

Sometimes I just want silence ykno? Just complete silence. Not even hearing myself, or my breathing or chewing or WHATEVER, just total... Nothing. Just sometimes.

#is it bad that i sometimes miss being (partially) deaf?????? like i got my hearing back and it just made everything so much louder #i was just a little kid and i getting it bck was honestly kina traumatic... everyone says i would startle at any little sound #and loud sounds really freaked me out...#im lucky that all it was was some neurological damage that eventually healed itself and i didnt need any actual medical intervention tho..#but i do sometimes wish it was like. optional. could just turn it all back off and just go by vibrations for a bit like when i was little #i always loved my brother's rock shows he did when i was that age cus the music was so loud and bassy i could really feel it even if #i couldnt hear it... i have a very clear memory of standing on the basement stairs watching them play #idk. i just miss it sometimes. life is so loud all the fucking time and i wish i had been given a choice is all...

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