#i couldnt find a better vid for this scene

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9-1-1 ✦ S6 EP1 — LET THE GAMES BEGIN

[4uru]

My personal problems:

My clusterfuck of a rant (ft. Cassandra clare)

Buckle up besties bc im about to trauma dump. Like actual baby gay trauma.

(@faithfromanewperspective you wanted to know, i dont think i can freestyle angst on an ask like i can on a post so here it is)

Tw: incest, gender dysphoria, homophobic parents, sexual assault.

In our country you have to give a board exam (goverment??? Exam??? Similar to SATs) at the end of your 5 grade. So you need a primary school certificate (PSC)

After my PSC, my parents fixed up my Tablet. And went to work., i sat on my leaving room couch with blankets and pillows for a whole month (there was a dent on the couch when i actually got up for 6th grade) and i surfed the internet in those weeks.

I saw the malec video on yt ( i didnt click on it and didnt think much of it)

So my friend told me to watch anime. Somehow searching 'anime' on yt lead me to an anime 'Super lovers' (yaoi, pseudo incest, pedophilic and rapey everything under the sun you can find, its in super lovers) also i was like 11. 5 years old at this point. I have no concept of whats right or wrong. And bc of these animes (theres so much of it) i thought incest was fine. I also got into Todobaku and bakudeku. And thats part was fine i was mainly watching edits on yt. Then i started reading yaoi mangas and wattpad stories and gacha vids (And yes incest is still featuring on these stories for the most part)

Somewhere along the line, i was like, this feels weird (it was a particularity bad wattpad story with incest i think) i was already consuming gay content for months by then. (I still hadnt started 6th grade mind you.) and my standard for content increased a bit. And i stopped engaging with incest fics and mangas completely. After i distanced myself from it i realised how fucked that was and moved on from it.

But i still engaged with gay content. Somehow i stumbled upon the malec vid again. I watched it. (The first time im seeing live action gay ppl on screen) then i got into thai bl. ("Love by chance" was my first) the thai bl scene was a bit better. Around this time i read bl, watched bl and started to research about gay culture and what not. I figured out i was attracted to girls before i even went back to school

When i went back to school I became friends with a girl (lets call her bunny) I knew bunny since 5th grade but i didnt talked to her that year. she was smart and cool and i had a bit of crush on her from afar.

(5th grade before gay awakening) One time in my school bus while guessing one of my "friends" crushes i asked if he had a crush on bunny, he laughed, i "joked" if i was a boy, i would grow up to marry her. That 'friend' emptied his water bottle on my head as a response.

In 6th grade, the first week (maybe 2nd /3rd January), bunny and i got selected for a group project along with other friends. Me and another friend went to bunny's house for the project. The other friend left. After that friend left bunny and I started to unpack our traumas for each other. Family troubles and what not. I (being the dumb bitch i am) told her that i liked her (and also the water bottle thing) and that i liked girls too (at this point I identified as bi)

In class 6 and of fuckery happend, but me and bunny became bsfs so fast, with in a day. And we were inseparable. I asked her out and she laughed in my face. And we laughed about it years later too. 6th grade ends with her being made at me for smth i didnt even do wrong and some other shit with out toxicest friened. (We werent hanging out by the end of the year)

(Also i finished all off the percy jackson and percy jackson spin offs in 6th grade) and i also told my dad that i liked girls too. He conveniently forgot it for the nest year.

I come back for 7th grade knowing I was bi or pan (couldnt decide which i identified with the most) i start hanging out with a group of boys. Then covid happens.

Lockdown at the begining was fine (terrified but fine) around the second month of lockdown some genderfuckery started to happen. I would forget my own gender (round the time i was falling asleep or waking up). I started consuming for trans stuff around this time. And i journaled on my sketchbook with doodles and cried on it. I had terrible dysphoria. And i didnt even have a name for it in the begining. And one day the pain became too much and i broke in front of my mother. I came out to her. She ignored me. (Muslim parents) she said i was just a tomboy and "theres nothing wrong with me" and other stuff. I was sure i was trans. And non binary (trans tiktok helped with that bit).

My dysphoria became worse as time went on. Just before time of my birthday. My step mother bought me some books i asked for (queer books) and it had Chain of Gold She saw that it had just come out and thought i would like it. So i was reading chain of Gold. And i didnt get shit. I maybe read 100 pages before i decided that i needed context. I went on goggle and searched the best ways to read cassandra clare books in order and they said that Series wise is best. So i started City of bones (worse mistake of my life)

It was on yt so i started with it first. I already knew before starting that jace and clary werent related and incest might come up. (I didnt know it was that levels of fucked in the books) i just saw a pinterest meme where it was said rather jokingly.

Anyway i finished the whole part one and two of The mortal instruments. I read it for Malec bc they were the only gay characters. I have 101 problems with this series but my most major one was Malec. So at this point in my life i was a closeted trans, (multispec) queer kid Something about reading Queer characters tell each other horrible things about bejng closted and bisexual made me hate myself more. Malec didnt not develope my internalized homophobia, it definately fueled it tho. After my birthday i got grounded (my parents found out the queer content i was engaging with. It was very traumatic. I came out to them and my dad to my face said that i am not queer, instead i am fetishizing queerness and i was engaging in perversion.)

Alot happend many times my parents tried to distance me from queer culture and media but gave up.

As 7th grade ended me and bunny reconnected (shit also happend when my mother read our chats)

Around 8th grade i cried and begged to my mother that i am not going to change and all that jazz, she didnt say anything. But she became more on gaurd, she would analyze my interactions with other girls differently (one time while riding in her scooty, i was in the back said and waved to a girl that was starting at me for some reason) my mother told my dad that shes afraid im flirting with girls AS IM ON THE SCOOTER WITH HER-

In class 8 bunny pulled some shit (i explained it in another post i think) also i finally watched the shadowhunter series show malec healed the wounds that book malec anf my parents left. I was for the most part okay i think (academic studies were my biggest problem)

In class 9 around second half of the year i joined tumblr (helped my mental health immense, finding other gay ppl) and i asked for a book from my step mother (it was a bangla book about a trans girl) my dad delivered it to me. And said that he got that i wasnt going to change (BC LORD KNOWS THEY TRIED) he told me to study well so i could go live abroad bc this country will have me dead. I agreed and took the book (i couldnt finish the book, it was too dark for me at times, i gave the book to bunny).

Bunny and my relationship is vented about in another post. I wont get it.

So my problem with cassandra clare happens for three major personal reasons, one of them i didnt even mention bc i still feel weird about it.

1. The Malec part.

2. The incest part : reading TMI made me relive that first part where i engaged with incestuous content. And just disturbed me to my core this time around EVENTHOUGH I HAD A MILD HEADS UP i didnt know the extent of its fuckery. I dont know why but it just turnt the disgust at incest meter up the roof. Like completely fucked my brain and i wasnt okay. (I was 13/14 my birthday fell in the middle)

3. The sexual assault of Aline.

(Tw: my SA)

As a child (9/10 yrs old) i was assulted in an crowded elevator, my dad was in the elevator, i didnt not see the assulters face. I just remember being sqished against the wall, with a mans hand jammed between my legs. I rember trying to flatten myself against the wall to get away from the hand but it woulnt stop. The hand was knuckles deep between my thighs. I didnt see the mans face. I dont rememeber what he looked like from the back. After we got out i told my dad. He barely reacted and said 'people are assholes'. I told my mother about it.... Earlier This year. I thought if i had told her, she wouldnt let me hang out with dad anymore. He was so nonchalant about it that i thought i was over reacting.

Reading the Aline SA scene fucked me up. It was the first time i had come across an SA scene in a book, before that it was lightly mentioned. In the Aline scene, my mind visualised the whole thing. And it nearly drove me to a panic attack. I was 13 at this point. And in the books it was never brought up again, like it was no big deal. Like it was normal. It was for shock value. And i fell for it.

And the rest of the tsc is still bad writing and i hated it. But tmi fucked right up mentally and yeah. I have other posts explaining my journey with it, under the tag auru's tsc rant. Those explain it better.

[incorrecttwoset]

Lesson time with Dani:

The lesson here is that... there will always be someone better than you. (Cries in corner. LOL jokes)

But seriously thoooooo, they all sound so gooooood. Literally right after rewatching the vid (because wifi curfews a bitch) i felt like composing a piece! Even tho i didnt know how to! The inspire...

Also gOD that intro. So cute, so adorbs. Oh yeah, is it just me or does Bretts shirt a little loose? I swear, he looks like a block when he raised out his arms.

The first piece (the sacrilegious piece, if you can screw it slowly you can screw it quickly), after a couple rewatches because they all sounded fucking aMAZING, was actually inspired by the little jazz thingy the sacrilegious boi did. Like, damn. This guy even made that sound good. Also, our perfect pizz boi has rETURNED! We must rejoice. (And they really did show us that if you can screw it slowly, you can screw it quickly. Oh god that phrase sounds WRONG AHAHAHA)

The second piece (the one dedicated to Ling Ling, our Lord and Savior) I feel like, really represents the path and way to Ling Ling. Aka, a small series of screw ups leading up to a big screw up, and then learning from the screw ups to play perfectly. Also, the lil chants- aUGH MY HEART JUST GOT SHOT 40 TIMES. And the last part reminded me of like either pag or tchiak because of all the string crossings and that last note. Really nice!

The third piece... Alex, can I use your piece for my wedding someday because hOLY SHIT THAT SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING A PROFESSIONAL COMPOSER WITH YEARS OF EXPERIENCE WOULD MAKE LIKE WHAT THE FUCK HOW. The first part made me think of like, of course, the country side and just frolicking through the mountains like in the first scene of the Sound Of Music but jollier. Little faeries and pixies weaving through the air, toadstools littering the forest floor. Yeah, those vibes.

The second part of Alex's country side piece... damn. That part made me think of walking down the aisle, and saying vows at the altar while a soft breeze flows in the wind, white and pink petals dancing through the air. Which then transitions into the couples first dance together as man and wife, while family and friends cheer and throw rice grains. (Please tell me this is a regular wedding thing) Man, twoset would be so proud of us.

This SONG (check your grammar there jake) is about memes, but I was a little too bAMBOOZLED by the fact that this guy is 15. And wrote this fucking masterpiece. I... I couldnt find the memes, it was too amazing. I only got two, which was the first part (b flat) and the last part (15 notes a second). Please tell me all the memes I missed. This SONG is too amazing.

The last piece had me sHOOKT. This was made when she was tHIRTEEN?! NANI THE FUCK (yes i say this unironcally shoosh) Like it might be a lil short bUT HOLY SHIT HOW. HOW DO I GET THIS TALENT.

Also, Twoset if youre reading this, (i lowkey hope not and i know that you wont since yall dont act like you have a tumblr) your "butchering" is insanely good. I dont really play an instrument but i do have a lot of reference (aka hilary hahn, these recordings can only capture a drop of your perfection. And ray chen, the emotion when you play? OH JESUS WOW) and let me tell you. That sounded like the best sight reading i have ever heard. You may have screwed up a little in some parts but they still sound amazing, even without practice. So keep believing in yourselves and gO PRACTICE.

Also alternate vid title: twoset proving that composers with unpronounceable last names are actual gods for 13 minutes and 53 seconds.

[littleredinmotion]

Top 10 Klaroline Fandom Moments

This is it guys. Tomorrow is the beginning of the end. With Klaroline coming back tomorrow, I’ve been thinking a lot about the past 7 years and all the great memories I’ve made in the Klaroline fandom and I thought it’d be cool to flashback to some of my favorite moments this fandom has been though starting with number 10 and counting all the way back to number 1...

10. The Originals

More like the announcement of The Originals. Ever since they were introduced, fans (especially Klaroline fans) had been begging for the Original fam to get the spotlight they deserved. When it was first announced that the Originals were getting a spin off, I was the first person to say how excited I was because 1) Klaus is my favorite and 2) it opened the gate to making Klaroline more that just a supporting ship. Many other people in the fandom agreed. There were so many fanmade trailers and manips that kept the hope for Klaroline alive even though the writers stupidly tried to keep them apart for 4 seasons. I mean who can forget the iconic fanmade Klaroline/Originals poster that made it in an actual magazine! 

9. Comic Con 2016

Probably the most unexpected attack of Klaroline feels I’ve ever had in my life was in 2016 when Candice and Joseph were at the same SDCC party together much less ENDED UP IN 3 DIFFERENT PICTURES TOGETHER. No one was expecting Jodice to interact because... well... the cast hates giving us what we want. But out of the blue we were graced with these horribly lighted and Persia filled pictures that to any other fandom may have been nothing but to us it was HUGE that they were even breathing the same air!

8. The Meltdown Post 5x11

Watching 5x11 live for the first time is still one of the best times I’ve had watching TV in my entire life. Seeing Klaus and Caroline kiss after YEARS of waiting was the most rewarding experience (even though they havent breathed the same air since). I remember so vividly watching that scene and screaming and crying and jumping up and down and I don’t think and moment of TV will ever give me that level of excitement ever again. But to make it better, I loved seeing everyone else in the fandom react to it as well. Knowing that after all the years of waiting that we all rejoiced together at the same time was such a cool thing to experience that I’ll cherish forever. 

7. British Acting Lessons

This video was iconic and legendary in the Golden Age of the Klaroline fandom. Oh how I wished they would have made a part 2...

6. TVD endgame

Going into the TVD series finale the only hint from Julie about Klaroline is that we would “sort of” see them which was easily taken to mean “you’re gonna be let down” because we had been let down so many times that it was almost second nature... BUT BOY WERE WE WRONG. Seeing that Caroline’s last scene on TVD being her smiling at a letter from Klaus with Alaric saying “that’s the beginning of another story” was more than I could have even dreamed of. With no promise that The Originals would even be picked up for season 5 or that Candice would even crossover at all, in that time, the entire Klaroline fandom took that ending as a sign of endgame in the future. The promise that Klaus was still waiting “however long it takes” and that their story was only just beginning wasn’t a “and they lived happily ever after” ending but it was pretty dang close which was more than I could have ever imagined. 

5. Shooting the end of Season 4

Along with the British Acting Lessons, Joseph and Candice made it so clear that big things were in store for Klaroline. Knowing that they were shooting 4x13, 4x14, 4x17, 4x18, 4x19, and 4x23, the fandom was in full swing and we were THRIVING. Seeing all the BTS photos and watching slowly to see how all this new Klaroline content would unfold was such a thrill. There was always new content from the creators and the fans and it really was the most fun time to be in the Klaroline fandom. Of course with it all ending with Klaus intending to be her last love and waiting for her however long it takes, that was more than enough to sustain us throughout the Great Klaroline Drought that is finally almost over. 

4. The Summer Before S4

This time was so especially important to me and I am so thankful for it because this was the time when I hastily binge watched all of TVD SPECIFICALLY for Klaroline. Before I even watched the show, I can say I shipped Klaroline. If it weren’t for this amazing fandom with their fan vids I never would have known about this beautiful ship or even watched the show at all. I remember watching a Klaroline vid and thinking “wow they have so much chemistry and seem like something I would totally ship I need to check out this show.” I without a doubt watched this entire show solely to see Klaus and Caroline interact and I still do to this day. I remember waking up at like 5 in the morning one day in August before school just because I had finally gotten to the episode where Klaus appeared and I’ve been hooked to that man ever since. Though I didnt join the fandom until season 4, I am so thankful for the fans that came before me because it was THEM that led me to Klaroline and have absolutely changed my life. 

3. The Date

Finding out that Klaus was gonna be Caroline’s date to Miss Mystic Fall put the entire KC fandom into a frenzy. I remember everyone speculating about what would happen and while most of our headcanons never happened, those scenes are still some of my absolute favorites. During that time the whole fandom was so positive about Klaroline becoming canon and everything was going our way and it was so much fun. We’ve been though so many hard times as Klaroline fans but the weeks before 4x07 were definitely some of the greatest times in the Klaroline fandom when things were actually going our way. But I’ll never forgive Plec for cutting out that scene where apparently THEY KISSED and all we got from it was that iconic still....

2. Shooting The Originals 5x13

Knowing that Klaroline was gonna be in more scenes together and SEEING THEM ACTUALLY FILM THEM are two completely different things. I remember when the videos from them filming in NOLA were released that I actually couldnt believe it. It had been so rare to see Candice and Joseph in the same picture together and have it not be a manip but to have actual footage of them playing Klaus and Caroline in the TO finale was such a triumphant moment. Knowing that no matter what the final episode of The Originals will end with Caroline in NOLA just like Klaus said he wanted in the pilot was such a great way to bring things full circle. Seeing the videos it was like I could feel the fandom rising from the ashes. I’m so thankful that the KC fandom never once gave up on them but we finally are getting the respect we deserve. 

1. The Australian Promo

If you’ve been in this fandom for a while you already know how ICONIC this promo was. Before 5x11 aired, all we knew was that Klaus was making an appearance and that he was gonna have at least one scene with Caroline. THEN the Australian promo for 5x11 dropped and THE FANDOM WENT NUTS. Before the promo a couple optimists guessed that maybe Klaus and Caroline would finally kiss but after how horrible the writers of TVD and TO had been to us since The Originals started, most of the fandom was super doubtful. But about 24 hours before the episode actually aired the promo dropped in Australia what confirmed that in fact Klaroline was gonna kiss. Usually I hate spoilers but having a 24 hour notice before your OTP officially becomes canon gave way to the best experience in fandom I’ve ever had in my life. The entire fandom was so HYPE and we were all 100% prepared for the Klaroline kiss we had been waiting YEARS for (lol we WEREN’T ready for the hot Klarosex though). Seeing that tiny glimpse of Klaus and Caroline leaning into kiss in that iconic gif from the promo still gives me chills. I have never seen a fandom so excited and hyped as I did in those short 24 hours and honestly it was my favorite experience as a Klaroliner.

It’s been a great 6 years being part of this fandom. I can’t wait to see how it all will end. Let me know some of your favorite Klaroline fandom memories and why! I’d love to reminisce all the good and bad times we’ve been through together. I can’t wait to take on this one last ride with my Klarofam. 

[tetsuroutxt]

haikyuu characters + kpop

basically, which haikyuu characters would listen to kpop and and what would they enjoy realistically?

as the kpop industry is kinda saturated with idols, obv i couldnt include every group/artist. also its important to note that kpop would be a really niche interest unless they’re a trending group (eg. twice), regularly promoting in japan (ie. bts, apink, ikon, shinee), have established themselves because of hallyu (eg. dbsk, suju, big bang, snsd). if a artist/group met any or more of those conditions, the more i took them into consideration for this. 

I also took into consideration characters who are more likely to enjoy browsing the internet. those who put in a good amount of effort to look for music are very much more likely to come across it!

bokuto koutarou: only aware of kpop songs that go viral. often the very high-energy & catchy songs.

really really loves bts:  DOPE / war of hormone (HELLO HELLO)

he just really loves their intense choreography & how energetic their music is

just imagine him finding dope for the first time.

always attempts to learn the choreography, maybe just parts of it that he thought was the coolest

favourite korean songs thats not bts:

call me baby (he LOVES every single part of this song..)

RHYTHM TA the dance is simple & the song is his style

sugawara koushi: generally an open-minded individual... has the ability to appreciate many kinds of music

likes surfing through various mvs on youtube when he's bored, so he’s prob seen like most of ur favs, and surprisingly keeps tabs on the ones he likes.

likes shinee’s releases because enjoys the harmony of all their voices blending, very smooth and light. 

replay / your number / dont let me go

also likes charting/trending korean songs that aren't necessarily idol/kpop based like this

good vocals and songs with warm tones are a must 

azumane asahi, yamaguchi tadashi, yachi hitoka: the three of them enjoy cute & soft music

yamaguchi & yachi are both huge huge fans of iu. they love you & i, as well as good day!

peach is another strong favourite!

asahi loves how sweet kissing you sounds. he also likes nonono because the lyrics (its there in the vid!) are always super encouraging and comforting.

while they like mainstream songs, its not far-fetched to imagine them surfing the internet, due to their introverted natures, and uncovering sweet sounding korean indie music like rainy day and how do you think. yachi and yamaguchi like to share songs with each other since they trust each other’s taste.

tsukishima kei, akaashi keiji, ennoshita chikara: anything that’s layered and made with artistry. 

akaashi was almost a kpop anti (hates rhythm ta so fucking much lol) but then he found this and thought otherwise

just once you hit that part of youtube, the same type of music fills the entire sidebar. its a whole new world of music which is exactly what tsukki, akaashi, and ennoshita are after.

part of ennoshita's fascination of this music is the cinematography also he likes being unique for the music vids. its undeniable how high quality kpop music videos are... the camera-work, the selection of sets and props & lighting to create certain moods such as across the universe

tsukki is just an avid listener of music and enjoys being informed and up to date on all kinds of music. very attracted to tracks that are very well produced and well crafted such as bawling

akaashi is naturally thorough and doesnt like to settle for music readily available around him, he truly loves the meeting new sounds and styles, especially anything thats a clever/creative hybrid of genres such as neon bunny’s romance in seoul (jazz + electro) 

oikawa tooru: open-minded, but mostly he loves anything feel-good and cute.

enjoys often very catchy and upbeat hits:

cheer up - twice /  very nice - seventeen / party - snsd 

usually a pleasant hummer and has a nice soft voice when singing. knows how to be obnoxious though

he cant help it because the songs are so FUN iwa-chan, 

also songs that make him feel nostalgic and longing, especially if the vocalist is good at conveying emotion

like taeyeon’s rain ... also loves why though. dbsk’s why did i fall in love with you?

though updated with some trends (twice, seventeen), only truly familiar with older generation of idols.

hanamaki & mattsun: always looking for entertainment, yall know how they’re like lmfao.

they know kpop thanks to oikawa who showed them cheer up... found it cute and rly love dancing to the “sha sha sha” and chorus.

both curious, they did their own research and exploring and came out with their own likes and dislikes.

prefer sexier/non-cute groups: mini skirt -aoa

also ring ding dong (started liking it ironically to piss off hajime but now finds genuine enjoyment in it. they know the chorus dance)

it g ma because kohh features (they were shook) but also because of its meme factor. listen to it please oh my god [TW: lots of BRIGHT flashes in that mv..] the squawking and yelling annoys hajime so much wtf which may or may not contribute to why they both like this song so much. oikawa doesnt like it either ("its so ugly!")

generally prefers k-hip hop scene over kpop 

sunshine - verbal jint feat chancelor / jet lag - paloalto

kuroo & yaku: idol fanboys confirmed (see ch 200.)

as confirmed in ch 200. they are both huge fans of perfume, an electropop girl band, even to the point where they are familiar with the names of the members

thus i think its fair to say out of all the hq characters, its these two who are most likely to get to know their idol groups & not just be passive listeners.

upbeat, quirky electronic groups... the nu abo album by f(x) basically embodies this...

kuroo didnt care about kpop until he decided to give super junior’s hero album a listen during the time it was just released and very hot and popular on the charts. unexpectedly really loved the tracks & shared with yaku and kai. kai likes it too but isnt into idol stuff (more into rock) as much as yaku and kuroo. this was gateway into kpop for them. they’re mostly familiar with idols from sm ent.

iwaizumi hajime:

kpop anti

with oikawa being relentless singing the same repetitive hook choruses over & over ("cheer up baby! cheer up baby!" "gee gee gee gee baby baby~") & hanamatsu joining in because they’re hanamatsu

he hates it 

like A Lot

(needs better company)

(would probably like baby baby & winner's rock influenced music tbh)

give him time

[haectemporasunt]

26, 32, 33, 39, 43, 44, 50, 10??, 4, 35

26. Favoritepsychological Horror Movie

Ah geeze already a tough one right off the bat.  Um uh I’ll just choose one:

The Babadook! I thought it did a great job of showing the stress the mom was under, and I think (though some people disagree) that it kept the kid from being frustratingly annoying. The picture book was very well done, and scary, and I wish there had been more sequences involving it sharing creepy stories.

32. FavoriteAnimated Horror film

I’m blanking on any animated horror films i’ve seen, sorry! I’ll just post this, which did make me jump, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHpuAAnHdEc, but alas i ve failed you :(

33. Scariestnon-horror movie

 Friday the 13th:  slashers aren’t really horror, fite me B)

Snark aside, there s plenty of movies that had scary bits in them that tore me up as a child. how about I put … the pressure chamber scene in License to Kill. The Bond villain knows one of his men isnt loyal so shoves the guy in a pressure chamber meant to get divers acclimated, you know. And the guy is begging and pleading and screaming in agony as the pressure increases. And he knows what’s going to happen, and I as a kid knew something unspeakable was about to happen, and then the Bond villain cuts a tube leading to the pressure chamber, and we have enough time to watch the doomed man inside gaze out as his head swells to monstrous proportions… and then SPLAT, the viewport is smeared red. The man burst.

It’s that the guy had time to know what was happening to him, and the way his head got so big. (shudder)

39. SomethingI used to be scared of that I now love

i hope you’re not trying to get me to admit that, although when i was little i was scared of it, nowadays i think the xenomorph is kinda hot!! because you’re wrong!!!!!

I do like Phantasm a lot more now than I did as a kid. When I was a kid the silver balls killed so brutally and so suddenly, they were horrible. But now that I’m older I guess I’m more used to sudden death happening in movies? I dunno.

 43. FavoriteHorror novel

I ve searched for years for good horror novels, and if anyone has suggestions i m more than happy to hear em! But one of my favorites is still Shirley Jackson’s Haunting of Hill House. Very well written, you get into the mindset of the protagonist, and it’s not very comfortable in there… I also identify a lot with how the protag identifies so strongly with a place and feels increasingly isolated from the others.

44. ScariestDocumentary

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g-SL4ejpP94&list=PLu3Kxnrkh94_qbd5XYXdzze2AYMh8Gd-_&index=4

i’ve wracked my brain but this is the closest thing I can think of. Real documentaries are scary in the numb real life sort of way where you realize that things are getting worse

not really ‘scary’

but anyway, this vid definitely gave me the creeps!

50.  Scariest movie ever

This is a cop out answer because I don’t know the name of the movie, but it scared the heck out of me. It was a haunted house flick, and a bunch of teens investigating it, and i was sitting their gripping my knees at eleven pm watching them get killed by supernatural phenomena. The glass in the windows wouldnt break so they couldnt escape, and I especially remember one scene where there was the stairwell up to the second floor, and the steps just led up into darkness, pure blackness. And at one point the camera just focuses on it, and we enjoy the tingling terror of waiting–something’s gonna happen, any second now, we’ll finally see the spirits haunting the house– and silence.

and then as the teens, unnerved, turn to walk away further down the corridor, it seems like it was a fakeout. Or, since it was an older cheaper movie, maybe just a straight up error.  And then! One of the teens screams like an animal as she falls to the ground and starts getting dragged up the stairs by something invisible. The other teens yelling and crying as they try to hold on to her– and then, in my memory, it’s fuzzy. On the one hand it seems most likely that they pulled her back, and comforted her, and then tried to escape out the garage or something.

but /i / remember her slipping out of her friends’ grasp and choking as she disappears into the darkness. And she’s never seen again.

and that was the scariest thing i ever saw in a proper published horror movie.

10. ScariestWitch [??]

hmm!!!!

it’s me. i am :3

Eh, well, there’s a witch from a children’s story I heard on the radio nearly twenty years ago, a witch who would turn her victims, animal and human alike, into stone, and arrange them in a stone circle up in the mountains. It was terrifying, hearing her horrid laugh echoing over the howling wind … I still think about her a lot. Even at the end of the story, when she’s turned into stone herself, it’s said her last shrieks still echoed around and around inside the stone circle …

4.    Favorite Scary Short Story

I have a more typical answer, and a better but technically incorrect answer because I never managed to find the rest of the pages of the ripped-up book.

The typical answer is: Room 1408, by Stephen King, because it’s the only short story that’s ever legitimately frightened me. How the room shifts subtly, and then not so subtly, and the goofy-when-you-try-to-describe-it-but-scary-when-I-read-it telephone voice blaring out scary nonsense.

The other answer is:

some years ago I was in my uncle’s home, looking through his books. He and I have a similar taste in literature so pretty much everything was a gem. Uncle did sometimes kinda cram his books into the shelves, though, so some got bent or bricked up by other books–which is annoying if you’re trying to survey all your options. So I was yanking out a couple books, when five or six yellowed pages fluttered out from behind some old tome and fluttered to the ground.

I pick them up, worried I’ve damaged a book. But no: these were free floating, they were the wrong size for all the other books on the shelf. And I read them. And they were a story about a man who was a caretaker for an old house. He was also exploring and investigating it on the side, because–the townsfolk claimed–the place was haunted. He walked the grounds, he found cold spots. Things moved when he wasn’t looking. There were secret passages leading to strange rooms. A weird house, to be sure. But haunted? The man scoffed.

And then, in the second week of his stay, he found he could no longer leave the house. The gate wouldnt budge. He would have to find a different way out, or hope that the woman who brought him food would show up a day or two early. I’m not describing this very well but I assure you the atmosphere was dense–I could feel the stress and isolation of this poor man who was rapidly running out of food, and the growing fear that there was indeed something stalking him through the rooms. He couldnt sleep without a light, but it had to be small so that there’d be little fear of it falling over and starting a fire, and even then he would wake up several times in the night to the sound of creaking floors a room or two over.

I was rapt. This is the sort of thing that happens in a gothic story, a guy stumbling across a scary story in a crumbling library. I remember the man was trying to use one of the secret passages  he’d discovered, hoping it would lead off the grounds to freedom. His light flickers, and there’s something in the tangled ivy coating the dank walls …

And that’s where the last scrap of paper ended.

Boy howdy i’ve searched a long time for the rest of that story!

35. Scariestgaming experience

We werent a gaming family, my brother and i, until highschool nearly. The first game that scared me was JumpStart Adventures 4th grade: Haunted Island. it is an edutainment game. Yes, i am rightfully ashamed of my fear.

The island in which the game is set has multiple pathways between the minigames, all dark paths in groaning woods, your feet clattering over crumbling bridges, ghosts whirring past, howling and heavy breaths coming nearer… luckily for me, because i got easily lost both in real life and in game spaces, the game would auto-move you if you clicked on a map the minigame you wished to get to. So you click, your character clipclops along, takes a left, a right, etc, Boom youre there.

but one day, I x’ed out of the map and couldnt figure out how to get it back. this was halfway through a ‘move’ and in trying to get it back i stopped my character mid-travel. So. for the first time in the game i was really deep in the woods with no idea how to get anywhere. i was trembling, i had to keep going, but in what direction?

i kept moving, and i would jump every time a ghost popped up, and (do remember this was a time pre-gamefaqs) i was in deadly fear that something was following me. as far as i knew the game could actually do that.

my parents gave up on me playing the game because the Big Bad of the game, a witch (scary, but not the scariest), flew into the clearing i was in in order to give me a quick minigame, and when she burst into view i screamed out loud at three oclock in the afternoon.

i did not have a good first impression of fourth grade.

and the worst thing to me was not just my cowardice at giving up but, the goal of the game is to save your classmates, theyve all been transformed into monsters. so when i stopped playing i had in essence abandoned them on that haunted island.

i preferred the ClueFinders games anyway, haha

[travellerandreamer]

A love story  (story still on the works)

i think I want to write for dramas, movies and soap operas. I have this wild imagination in my head when I go to sleep I ALWAYS think and imagine my love story and i should write it down for future purposes. I’m really not good with words but the thought of will be enough for now. 

THEME: GETTING OUT OF THE FRIENDZONE, MARRIAGE 

WILL, male lead: 28 yrs old, a real estate agent, the youngest of 2, might be insecure of his better older brother. IS IN LOVE WITH HIS BESTFRIEND IN COLLEGE but his besftriend is marrying someone else. they met in jollibee while ordering the same thing they became friends (spoof of that jolibee commericial). will is kinda shy but once you get to know him he is warm and fuzzy. he is the type of guy you introduce to your parents but sadly he’s always gets stuck in the friendzone.  A charming young man that doesnt care about what people think of him and allows himself to be a disappointment so that there will be no expectations of him

SOPHIA female lead: a finance analyst in a company, only child, grew up with her grandmother since 3 when her mom left her cause she an ofw while her dad has another family. been single for a year cause her bf went abroad and couldnt take the whole long distance thing while she was willing. now she’s 26 and wants to get married and have a family. 27 is her ideal type to get married since girls “age faster” and wants to have a baby before 30. guys usually dont want to date older women afraid to be a “leftover” (see chinese leftover women for refrerence) she is a planner and she likes thing organized, she follows the status quo, she always wants to live up to peoples expectations of her and just follow what people think about her, she doesnt really know who she is 

FIRST SCENE: wedding reception 

Will and Sophia got invited to the wedding of the bestfriend of will who he is inlove with all his college life while the guy is the boss of sophia. 

WILL being heartbroken and all took a botte of jack daniels and went outside to drink while sophia is scanning for potential bachelors for her to date since time is ticking and wants to meet her the one to live happiliy ever after with Sophia getting her hopes up went outside for a walk sees the slightly tipsy will was talking to himself and self pittying him because he wasnt able to tell his bestfriend he loves him and sophia heard about it and couldnt help but comment on how pathetic he is and will being tipsy was overly confident and ask sophia to drink... sophia ended up drinking because he got annoying anyway, will whines about why he’s always being friendzoned and he gives everything to the girls and yet they chose the other person. sophia being the strong independent woman that she is, she tell him that women ________ (i dont know this part ) 

but anyway, that bottle of jack wasnt enough, they’re slightly drunk and wants to drink some more so they go to a bar, drinkssss, dancing like crazy and ends up at the hotel. 

Morning comes and sophia wakes up, saw will half naked and as very shock but she llooks down and her dress is still intact she looks very pleased so  she went straight to the bathroom, looks at the mirror and she looks like a freaking mess, makeup smeared all over, her hair is like hagrids. she went back to the room and carefully gets her bag and shoes and walks out more like fast walking. 

and she’s trying to recall what happen. (clips of the night appears)

will finally wakes up and went straight to the bathroom to vomit. after coming to his senses he is very surprised that he’sin a hotel. he sat on the bed and he’s head hurts so much. he trying to look for his phone and was found on the floor. picks it up and had 259857 misscalls from his bestfriend. a text from his bf saying where did you go last night. and he clicked the photos and there it was the pics of last night’s shinanegans. ( pictures of drunk selfies, drunk dancing vids) he was so shocked. 

sophia goes home to her apartment and finds out that her housekeys are gone. call her bf and went to her house. her bf saw her face laughs and asked what happened she said later and went straight to the bathroom to shower. after showering she asked for clothes to borrow and called the landlord about extra keys cause her’s was lost. her bf asked what happened again and tells her the story about it. 

after 3 months, sophia went to a cafe on a sunday to do some work and will went to the same cafe and they saw each other and looked away.  (this part needs editing)

SCENE: they talk about a plan sophia will make will out of the friendzone while will help sophia look for a potential husband.