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southislandwren · 1 year ago

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crying in a coffee shop as i apply to a second shift quality assurance lab technician position at [redacted]. all this CDL nonsense was god testing me, it was always going to be [redacted] there was never any other option. i would be in the lab with my two bestest friends (A and M if any of you remember my [redacted] posting). i would work 10am to 7pm- at work while the neighbors are noisy and i would be off work in time for band/orchestra practice. i knew in 2020 this is how it would go and its all coming together now

#and idk why im nervous. im clearly qualified for this job. its just if my start date doesnt work for them #or they cant give me above 22 an hour #or im home for a few months and i cant take the noise anymore #i HATE living in a city i cant do it. but for low rent + no utilities + walking to work....#i could save up a ton of money and get out of there by 2028 or whatever #i could see my high school friends (hi remus hi audre) i could be with my parents #but bortle class 9? routine air quality alerts? the fucking NOISE and SMELLS???#idk man i am not meant to live in a city!!#but again. working with my best friends at a dairy plant 4 blocks from my house. going to the college basketball games again.#maybe it doesnt matter that they make you clock out for lunch and no names on the cartons anymore #maybe it doesnt matter than my boss got fired and theyve made a lot of bad changes #maybe it doesnt matter im going to be miserable for the next 4 to 5 years.#i HAVE to get 100k for my farm by 2030 i HAVE to #and [redacted] would probably help me get a CDL and they'll probably get me forklift certified #and worst case. i just apply for a different job somewhere else #its going to be fine. right?#hopes and dreams post #diary post

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