#i compared this to going to the dentist. you do it bc you have to but you won't go just to get used to it yknow?

[daz4i]

yknow i noticed the small steps method doesn't help me and only stresses me out more. and like i just get stuck on the first step anyway and never move on to the next one, i'll probably even go back to the start eventually really. i'm apparently an all or nothing guy i can't think of an action as multiple actions bc it stresses me out i just need to either do it or not. the problem is i usually end up not

[mainfaggot]

I hope she fails to get into med school and i hope her boyfriend breaks up with her

In my bio lab rn my partner is so fucking annoying she is clearly projecting onto me

[ovaruling]

hey girl! happy to—the buccal fat removal was pretty simple compared to the other surgeries, but it was still very painful. as i understand it, the surgeon made incisions on the inside of both of my cheeks, and entered that way, and sucked out the “buccal fat yolk,” as he called it. he explained to me that there’s a pouch of fat there that is yolk-like, and does not usually disappear, even with dramatic weight loss, except in cases of extreme malnutrition where there is no reserve left. that’s how he put it, anyway.

so, he essentially stabbed inside my cheeks through up where the “cheek fat” was, just under my cheekbones, and sucked the fat through those incisions and stitched them from the inside. it was, as i said, extremely painful, and eating and drinking was very difficult for a long time. the scars are inside my cheeks and i can still feel them if i run my tongue over them.

the entire cheek area on both sides, inside and out, is mostly numb. sort of like… when Novocain has started to wear off at the dentist.

but i get sudden, electrifying wallops of pain where the buccal fat used to be at completely random times. i get at least one or two a day. it is pretty agonizing, ngl. it feels like instantaneous nerve pain, if you’ve ever had a dentist nick a nerve on a sensitive tooth. it runs through the cheek into my sinuses and down into my gums and it takes my breath away. when these episodes first started happening i genuinely thought i was having a stroke.

i get a lot of migraines now (brow and temple) and my jaw sits really uncomfortably—i’m always having to bite my inner cheeks or suck my cheeks in manually, or else they become fatigued.

a good experiment is—try to hold your mouth open as long as you can. just—open like a crocodile. as wide as you can go, until your cheeks reach the utmost point of fatigue. that’s what it feels like all the time if i try to relax my face—unless i am constantly drawing in my cheeks or making a “duck face,” my cheeks feel fatigued. i don’t know why—maybe they’re strained without the fat there to support them. collapsing, i guess.

it’s really uncomfortable tbh. i’ve gotten used to it, but it sucks.

and it just looks weird as hell too. all it did was age me and make me look dehydrated and starved.

ykw, i guess it really has affected how i do everything with my mouth and facial expressions. they all had to change in some way to accommodate the new “dimensions.” i wish i could show a before and after pic, bc i had a ton of nice healthy buccal fat and now i just look soooo hollowed out and honestly i look so bad lol. i smile differently, i make all my expressions differently. what feels “natural” is kind of weird—cheeks sucked in manually, or lips sucked into my mouth manually. biting of upper and lower lips into the mouth. just… a constant need to draw the face inward to relieve the cheek fatigue.

which leads me to say that once again there does not seem to be a resting position for my face anymore. it’s a neverending strain on the cheek muscles. maybe that’ll change over time—or maybe i’ll strengthen the cheek muscles with facial yoga, idk. but for now it’s a constant nagging need to keep my cheeks sucked in or my lips drawn into my mouth, like this…

…so that they’re supported in some way from the fatigue. idk, it’s really weird. hate it.

the sudden pains are pretty bad too esp bc i never know when they’ll happen. there’s no trigger, really, but i have noticed that cold or hot drinks/foods mean they’ll happen within the half hour. the worst is when they happen WHILE i’m drinking hot coffee or am mid-chew in food. i’ve almost choked a few times that way, lol. super annoying.

that’s all i can think of for now! hopefully that helps a bit. please feel free to ask any specific questions i didn’t answer!

[spaceoperetta]

today I learned a new phrase!

tw suicide, long post where I talk about how awful I've been feeling

'passively suicidal.'

of all things, I saw it on a twitter post about kendall roy

and, uh, that's what I'm going through right now I'm having a bad time.

I'll be fine I'm not going to do anything but I have cried every day for the last two weeks. don't give yourself constant jaw pain by letting a new-to-me dentist file down the side of your tooth. (I needed a filling replaced early bc of pain but it was nothing compared to this, I'm so stupid and instantly knew something was wrong after, I legit got home and wanted to hurt myself, but when I called the dentist back they wanted to file more shit down to fix it and, no.)

Ways to fix it run anywhere from 'get the filling adjusted by a different, trusted professional' (done, but they can't build up what was ground down) to 'try a mouth guard' (better but doesn't fix the issue) and I guess I'll need a crown or to cope with unending pain in my jaw for the rest of my life. except they make crowns off your current tooth and it's not right! and I got a filling since then elsewhere! something I am utter shit at because I caused it by saying yes it's not like I was hit by a car

hurts to talk, no singing from me, and I still can't do all that much shit with my wrists and therefore hands because, still recovering from wrist surgery. and my neck's been hurting for two months.

going to see a new therapist next week, at least. unfortunately due to my first hand POV of my siblings extensive health issues I always think my health issues will never go away/get worse. because that's been my past two years and also my past six months

anyway turns out 'passively suicidal' is the correct phrase for what I went through in college due to my whole breakdown and it's back except I'm not in school and it's in my body and even though I know it doesn't matter, they're issues I caused myself, one way or another. (and that's what's driving me crazy with self-loathing amidst the pain)

working on fixing things but I have no energy and mostly just sit around like a lump and crying a lot. I need a routine but that's hard when all I want to do is sleep or do nothing, barely keeping on with 'massage healing surgery site 3x a day' my first one was at 2pm today.

so, uh, I'm feeling up there with said college breakdown for worse consistent feeling in life. I'm not going to do anything I just feel sad and upset and awful most of the time either that or nothing and I have successfully zoned out for a few hours watching streams or internet videos. I have trouble imagining any future for myself, career-wise, personal life-wise, anything. I've never been good at that, and granted, I've spent more of my adult life being depressed than being productive.

anyway, hopefully like the mountain goats say, there will come a day when I will feel better, but when that day's coming, who can say?

I got some prozac from my pcp but haven't started it yet due to imagined, easily resolved barriers

I just feel like if I don't fix things it'll be like this forever and this will never go away. because it's fucking jaw pain and I have to fix the bite issue. my orthodontist said my bite's always been shit and my dentist said my bite is 'perfect' and uh I believe one of the more than the other.

I've just had a lot of health issues this year and half of them were caused by saying 'yes' to something I shouldn't have and now I'm in pain and the other half were 'so you played too many videogames two years ago to distract from the desire to self harm and now you just think about how that harmed you even more than that moment of slapping yourself would have'

yes I know it's all stupid

[bnuuys-writing]

Hello @bnuuys-writing , hope you are doing well :)

I read your Sebek X Dental Assistant! Yuu fanfic, and its the only thing I have been thinking about for nights.

I made some sketches at school, and I hope you like them (I apologise for the messiness and smudges, I was just rushing these and I'm cursed with sweaty hands)

I seriously haven't been able to get the scene of Mama Zigvolt pulling on Sebek's ear out of my head, it just so funny 😭

I just imagine Papa Zigvolt to look like your average anime male protagonist, but with glasses and an emotional stability (almost) comparable to Azul.

The girl in the 5th sketch an oc of mine OC, Shoko Naimoko.

I didnt really know what to do with Sebek's clothes. I was kind of thinking about drawing him just wearing the Disomnia uniform, but I have terrible memory and drawing without reference, so yea :,)

The dentist ladiesss. I imagine them as 'big sister' and 'get in bitch we're going shopping' vibes. But now that I think of it, I should've drawn them as those blonde triplets from Beauty and the Beast.

I have no idea how to draw buildings, so heres a wonky looking version of how I imagine the dental clinic to look like 👍

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I would like you to know, this is exactly how I reacted when I saw this in my inbox. As for the building, it is PERFECT bc that is def how a dental clinic feels LMFAO.

As for the hygienists, I ABSOLUTELY LOVE how you drew them (because they're actually based off the 3 ladies I work with LMFAO, I told them about this story and how I based the hygienists after them so I have to 100% show your art to them now)

AS FOR THAT LIL SAD MR ZIGVOLT, THAT IS A KEEPER, THAT MADE ME CACKLE SO LOUDLY!!! And yes, you are 100% correct. Wee lil anime lad. Also your OC is so pretty!! Lemme give her a pat on the head!!!!

AS FOR SEBEK? BARK BARK BARK RGGRGRGRRRR I LOVE HIM let me just--

IF YOU DRAW FOR ME, I WILL PUT IT IN MEME FORMAT OF HOW MUCH I LOVE IT BC I LITERALLY CANNOT DRAW TO SAVE MY LIFE!! THIS GOES OUT FOR EVERYONE!

Literally, thank you so much for doodling something, this literally made my whole month!!! LEMME GIVE YOU A SMOOCH BC THATS BEAUTIFUL! MMMMWAH!

[oakfathers-embrace]

Goes without saying but this is ooc!

Last Song: Biscuit by Chanmina!

Favourite Colour: Would anyone be surprised if I said green? And yellow, most all yellow but I specifically love lemon and mustard yellow.

Currently Watching: Nothing at the moment but I'll probably stick Ginny and Georgia on in the background once I've the energy to draw again. Its so fucking cringe and I love it.

Last Movie or TV show: I watched the American Squid Game, it was a shitshow.

Spicy/Savoury/Sweet: I have a hella sweet tooth, I haven't been to the dentist in forever and I think I'll actually deal them psychic damage when I do finally go.

Relationship Status: Single, probably for the best considering I'm not exactly stable for dating atm.

Current Obsessions: Bg3, Outlast just as a whole franchise, Saw my beloved 💕, been getting back into eso, I'm also specifically unwell about Sceleritas Fel, he's my goofy little guy!!

Last thing you googled: I couldn't remember the name for Smokey the Bear and was trying to compare him to smthn, so I googled 'American forest fire bear'.

Tag: @astariondisapproves @ask-thebladeoffrontiers and @ask-laezel bc my beloved bg3 wife doesn't get enough attention (and I've also had zero ideas for how to interact with them)

people i'd like to know better!

Thank you @wanderingisobel, @rotatingremains and @aeternaamantess for tagging me! <3

Last song: I, Carrion by Hozier

Favourite colour: Not really a colour, but black probably.

Currently watching: Game of Thrones hehe <3

Last movie/tv show: Game of Thrones lol

Spicy/savoury/sweet: Savoury

Relationship status: in a relationship

Current obsession: BG3, Hozier, God of Warrr and GAME OF THRONES AAAA, Robb Stark….

Last thing you googled: antifa (dont ask) and dot copy and paste ...

Tagging: @vspin. @anderwelt, @tugoslovenka, @yaoiconnoisseur, @catching-fire-in-the-wind, @hazellblogs

[carrieway]

Ok but can we talk about How small g’s Teeth are-

ABSOLUTELY !!!!! i positively LOVE teeth i will always be up for talking about teeth they're so !!!!!!

OKAY SO !!!! gerard's teeth are quite short, as it's esp apparent in the top right corner, and that's usually called microdontia !!!! it's usually passed down via genetics n such (but many outlier things can cause it too) n is a very interesting happenstance- according to google/ncbi it has a one point five to two percent of happening, and it's found more in afab people than amab !!!! so it's quite neat that someone like gerard (theoretically) has it :D

Onward To The Fang,

as you can see from my screencaps taken from the helena mv, gerard's far left (yellow) incisor is spaced out a little more and very sharp seeming, compared to the far right (blue) incisor that looks like a more typical one. your tooth can end up that way due to development or even chipping, but i don't think it's caused by chipping simply because of how it appears to be placed

and their two front incisors (grey) are very neat and tidily together, which is very interesting bc the rest of his teeth seem more spread out !!!! (also they are Very Square)

you can see it a lot more here !!!!!!!!!!!! (the helena video is quite good for all your teeth screencapping needs🦷📸) also to be noted, gerard's right canine is very apparent as well, and while most canines are going to be sharp bc that is their purpose, i felt that gerard's always stuck out to me a lot more. similarly to mikey, they both have some fangs going on 🧛

Bonus Time !!!!!!!

gerard has/had a missing tooth !!!!!! (as well as many fillings)

in lotms, it's mentioned (by both ray and gerard if i remember correctly) that gerard had a rotting tooth while recording for the bullets album !!! i myself haven't had one but with what tooth pain i do get, it's rather amazing they managed to do something like that with such a most likely intense jaw pain. apparently the dentists didn't know what was wrong with him or what to do for a while too, but i think it most likely ended with gerard getting said rotting tooth removed :D (plus if you look closely...a little grey-ish tooth :D)

i really love the first image because it's such a clear photo of their bottom teeth (as well as the third photo !!!) but unfortunately the magazine cover it was featured on photoshopped the fillings to be whiter >:[ which i dislike personally, imagine you're insecure about your fillings and you see the cool guy in that cool band you love has them too :0

anyway, that's what i have for now about g's teeth !!!! ive been highly interested in teeth since i was a kid, it's always fun being able to talk about very niche topics :D

[pockyxx]

“ how the haikyuu captains confess ”

daichi x fem! reader, kuroo x fem! reader, ushijima x fem! reader, bokuto x fem reader and oikawa x fem! reader

genre: fluff.

daichi 

people already though the two of you were dating

he always does typical boyfriend things i.e holds bags, compliments, the only thing that was missing was  physical intimacy 

he’d be on the fine line of romantic and straight forward 

he kinda already knew that you knew he liked you 

he got the team’s advice on what to do but it was useless bc they’ve never been with a girl RIP 

“Y/n, I’m glad I caught up to you!” He seemed a little more nervous than normal but you brushed it off as just nervous for his up coming practice match. 

“Hey Daichi-san, what’s up?” You closed your locker, finishing up with your own club activities. The two of you continued to walk while also keeping up the conversation, Daichi holding the door open for you. 

Your heart slightly fluttered as you walked so close with them, wondering if today was the day that Daichi was finally going to confess. One of the first years had accidentally let it slip one day when you stopped by his practice. 

“Well, actually, there’s been something on my mind. It’s been on my mind for a while, honestly.” He stopped walking, nervously opening his backpack to grab something. 

You gave him an innocent look even though it’s been a moment you’ve been waiting for for a long time. 

“I like you, y/n. Like a lot.” He extended his hand and offered you your favorite candy bar, something that he always carried around with him. “I like when I get to see your bright smile, and your laugh makes me feel so warm inside. I just like the person I am around you and how you make me want to be a better person all together.” 

It had been clear that he hadn’t exactly planned what he was going to say but it was still meaningful nonetheless. 

“It took you long enough.” You flashed a cheeky grin, “Hinata told me by accident, I’ve just been waiting for you to finally spill the beans.” You laughed, filling his heart with joy. 

“So this means you’ll let me take you on a date?” He wondered, blushing and making a mental note to make the younger boy run extra laps. You nodded rapidly, taking his hands in yours, proceeding with your walk. 

kuroo 

have you seen how he talks to his team 

he would have his confession planned for a week 

He’d be rehearsing that shit in the mirror every morning

he’d probably get really freaked out the day of though 

when you say you like him back and confess in a similar manner he’s as red as a tomato 

he practiced on kenma and get his advice

“Are you a carbon sample? Because I want to date you-” Kuroo was instantly cut off by his younger friend who was still glued to his game. 

“You’re really going to finish off such a sentimental confession with a stupid chemistry pick up line. That’s gross.” He commented as Kuroo was left scratching his head. He’d been planning on confessing to you for a while now but was still stuck on what to say. 

“But she loves when I made chemistry jokes.” His face dropped, conflicted with what to do. Was his friend right? Do girls not like that sort of thing? 

“Well you better decide quick because her she comes.” You had turned the corner with all their refilled water bottles and his heart began to race up. What would happen if you said you didn’t like him back? It would create such an awkward relationship between you two; which wouldn’t be good between a captain and a team manager. 

“Here are your waters.” You passed both volleyball players their drinks as you rested your hands on your hips, “what were you guys talking about?” 

Kenma kept a straight face while Kuroo flushed slightly. Pressing a finger to your lips, you thought of a way to lighten the clearly tense mood. 

“You’ve defiantly being improving your serves, Kuroo-san. I’ve been keeping ion you!” You covered your mouth, not wanted to let out a laugh at such a cheesy joke. That was Kenma’s cue to walk off, giving Kuroo the thumbs up to proceed-- it was now or never. 

“Well, there’s something you should know too, chibi-can.” He swallowed any anxious nerves he had, “You make my heart flutter every moment I see you; you just take me breath away and not just because of you looks. I like how funny you are, and you always seem to put a smile on my face. I know this is very random but I’ve been holding in my feelings for a very long time and I thought I was going to explode not being able to tell you.” 

You smiled, bashing your eyelashes, you never knew your captain had feelings for you. Heck, your crush had feelings for you. 

“So basically, what I’ve been meaning to ask is; are you a carbon sample? Because I want to date you?” He held his breath, wondering if Kenma was going to be right. His heart pounded even faster at the sight of your lips twisting to an even bigger smile (if that was even possible). 

ushijima 

it could go one of two ways 

either he could be super blunt and hit you with the ‘I like you y/n.’

OR it would be over the top and only because he consulted tendou

tendou’s probably watched a handful of romance animes and has ushijima prepares chocolates, flowers, the whole 9 yards 

ushi is just nodded and taking notes like... 

just confess to her at the summer festival, girls love that, bonus points if you do it under the fire works.

tendou’s words rang through ushijimas head as he walked side by side with you at the summer festival. he’d done everything tendou had instructed him to up until that point. he’s bought you the best taiyaki, he’d let you hold his hand as to not get lost in the crowd and he’d even won you a small stuffed animal that now rested under your arm pit.

“I think the fireworks are about to start.” you hummed as wakatoshi realized he needed to get into the right position.

“then why don’t we go someone more private.” he offered you a rare smile as your cheeks started to burn up with fluster.

it wasn’t like ushijima was a cold heart person but seeing him suggest something so thoughtful, your heart fluttered with the idea that someone greater was about to happen.

nodding, you let ushijima pull you off as the two of you got a better of the sky that was soon to be filled with a display of lights. he’d taken you away from the crowd, up on a small empty lot of gross that was elevated compared to the rest of the festival.

“y/n, I enjoyed tonight.” he cleared his throat, catching your attention. you nodded in agreement,

“hopefully we can go to more festivals today, of course if your not busy with volleyball!” you smiled happily. ushijima was quick to respond.

“I’d like that very much.” he paused, “y/n, i’m often told that i don’t show emotions well or that i’m very blunt.”

you watched him with curious eyes, stating that that wasn’t all ways a bad thing.

“that’s right. this is a time where i think it’s good to be blunt. you see, y/n, i enjoy spending time with you and that i like you, very much.”

bokuto 

it accidentally slipped out 

he always gets a little shy when he think about it so he simply doesn’t 

you’ll be something fairly mundane and he’ll just pause and go 

“you do that so well, that’s why I think I’m in love with you.” 

you’d get flustered because it was so out of the blue 

he’d fill akaashi in the next day and akaashi would make him re-do the confession

“You’re so good at cleaning the white board, y/n, but I guess everything you do is good because that’s why I like you.” You and Bokuto had class room chores together after school and he was watching you, in a hazy spell, resting his hand on his head. 

You blushed, not knowing if Bokuto was actually being serious or if he was just being overly kind. You just pretended like you didn’t hear him, continuing with what you were doing. If you can confessed your feelings back and he wasn’t serious, you would’ve died of embarrassment. 

“Bokuto-san are you going to help or not?” You turned around seeing Bokuto covering his face as he rested his head on the desk. “Uh, Bokuto-san are you alright?” 

He looked up at you only for you to see what you recognized as his emo mode. You frowned your eyebrows as he jumped up, bursting out with emotion. 

“No! I just confessed to the girl that I like and, and, and I wasn’t ready!” He grabbed his bag and ran for the door, “please forgive me for not doing my share of the work, y/n.” 

You were left speechless, watching as the gray haired boy ran away. You laughed realizing what he meant and put you into such a happy mood you didn’t even care that you had to finish all the chores. 

The next morning, you were greeted at the gates of Fukuordani by Bokuto who held a box of you favorite snack and a small teddy bear. Shyly extending the gifts out to you. 

“I bet you know what I’m going to say, so just, uh, please take these.” It had been what Akaashi had instructed and you took them with pleasure. 

“These will make up for all my hard work yesterday keeping out classroom spic-and-span.” You giggle, Bokuto looked at you with pouty eyes as you continued, “and if you didn’t run out so quickly you would’ve know what I like you too.” 

His eyes gleamed as you covered your slightly blushing face with your hand. Bokuto engulfed you in a hug and the two of you becoming boyfriend and girlfriend. 

oikawa 

he’s been confessed to so much that confessions make him nauseous tbh 

he’d make it very personal and romantic, though 

if not romantic he’d want it to be just the two of you 

he knew if he told any of the third years about if his plans, they’d ruin the moment; showing up to film the whole experience (mattsun and makki) 

he would secretly be the most nervous out of all of them 

You were helping Iwaizumi and taking over his cleaning shift with Oikawa. Oikawa was kinda glad the ace had a dentist appointment, so he could finally get you alone with out his team mates or fan girls there to ruin the moment. 

“Say, y/n-chan, I’m pretty lucky to have such a pretty girl helping me clean up.” His eyes were on the ball he was rubbing the marks off of, not really seeing your expression, defended by the sound of his heart thumping rapidly. 

You frowned, liking Oikawa was no easy task because everyone seemed to like him. Sure, he complimented you now, but he always compliments girls. It hurt your heart not knowing how sincere he was. 

“Don’t worry about it Oikawa-san, I’m always happy to help.” You sighed, finishing pumping a deflated volleyball. The Oikawa you had grown to love wasn’t the pretty, flashy volleyball player but the determined captain who always brought out the best in his teammates. It was the hard working, smart and passionate Toru that made your heart do flips. 

“Y/n...” His voiced trailed off, you noticed there wasn’t a cute little ‘chan’ following it. You turned to face him, not realizing your vision had gone blurry from tears pooling in them. 

“Are you alright?” Out of concern he placed his hands in your shoulders and that seemed to snapped you out of the spell you’d fallen under.

Rubbing your eyes, you nodded, looking down at your feet to avoid Oikawa’s gaze. You wished he’d let go of you, so you heart could just go back to its normal pace.

“Y/n did I say something to upset you—Im sorry.” He seemed to be holding his breath until he saw you shake your heard, reassuring him he’d done nothing wrong. Toru sighed.

“I hate seeing you upset, do you know that?” Surpised, you looked up at him, almost beckoning him to eleborate. Oikawas mind was racing— he wasn’t planning on confessing right there and then but he decided to sieze the moment.

“Out of all the girls I talk to, you’re the only one that makes me feel like this...” With your mouth gapping he took your hand and directed it to his chest where you could feel his rapid heartbeat.

“Oikawa-san...” You trailed off, at a loss of words. Between the hand touching his toned chest and the honey-like words coming out of his mouth, it sent you into over drive.

“Everything about you makes me crazy and-and well y/n... i like you!”

Nodding off, your brain couldn’t fully comprehend what your body was doing. leaning forward, reaching up to his lips you. kiss. him.

“Woah.” Oikawa breathed out, shocked at how you reciprocated his feeling until he was brought back to his usual behaviour, “so... you wanna go out with me?”

[thoughtfullyyoungduck]

Birthday

Summary: could you do a hs losers x reader where the readers new to town and hates her bday bc each year her past friends and family had always forgotten or did nothing so when richie finds out her bdays coming up he tells the losers and they all plan a special surprise party and richie saves up and gets her something super special and the losers r all like wow he’s never gotten anyone anything like this b4 so she finds out that he likes her or something so it’s like the best bday she’s ever had

Richie bikes swiftly passed you, faster than he usually does, which can only mean he’s trying to surpass you. You barely refrain from flipping him the bird in public, as you too throw your weight into peddling. It’s no use, Richie is more athletic than you by a long shot, and he’s been practicing with Eddie for track. You’ll never be able to catch up with him with no viable effort.

‘You asshole,’ you yell out to him, noticing an elder woman pledging through her yard too late to stop your exclamation. She regards the both of you with malcontent, stabbing her hark too brutally in the soil of her allotment for it to be a coincidence.

‘Not my fault your short legs can’t reach the peddles.’

You growl, lifting up from your saddle to race faster, but Richie sees you do it and does nothing but laugh.

Any other time you might give him hell for it, but today, you are in no mood to indulge in Richie’s escapades.

It’s your birthday, and while for most that equalizes a fun day stacked with presents and cake, to you it stands for a day full of misery.

Your birthday is cursed. And no, that is not you being dramatic. At your ninth birthday, your cake got slammed into floor, therefor ruing the gift your parents had been working on for weeks, and which was their only present.

At age ten, you fell off your brand new bike into a ravine and had to go to the hospital to get eleven stitches. On your fourteenth birthday, you and your parents got into such a huge fight they send you up to your room and forbad you from sneaking down at any point in the day.

There are more examples to back up your claim for the terrible birthdays, but you have tried to desperately block them all out, so you won’t rehash them.

That’s why your so peeved that Richie is forcing you to the quarry.

‘If you could tell me where I’m supposed to be going to bet u could find a short cut and be there faster than you.’

‘Nice try Dora, I’m not telling you anything. It’s a surprise.’

‘Alright, I get two attempts. If I can’t guess where we’re going, I’ll do your homework for a week.’

‘And if you do guess it?’

‘Then you owe me a favor and no matter for what reason I cash it in, you don’t get to complain.’

‘Fine, bring it miss know it all.’ Richie slows down to slide next to you, the wind picking up as the two of you descend down the mountain. His smile is mischievous and cheeky, probably too confident to think you’ll be able to reckon the spot he has in mind.

If only he knew that you had limited the possibilities to two places, the exact amount of guess you were granted.

‘Hm, are we going to the arcade?’ Your first theory is. Richie doesn’t have anything on him right now, except pennies that have been rinkeling inside his pockets the entire bike ride, the only thing he needs to go to the arcade.

Richie smirks, and shakes his head. ‘Try one my dear, may I say that the odds aren’t in your favor right now?’

His impressive ego in the way he taunts you with the right answer fuels your desire to be right. ‘Are we going to the Barrens?’ You sing, smiling wide as Richie’s shrinks.

‘Eh, no?’ He says, but he sounds petulant. ‘Fuck this shit, what gave it away?’

‘A girl never reveals her secrets’, you say covertly, forgetting momentarily about the agitating day. You suspect that might have been Richie’s intention.

It’s not like the Barrens is such a stretch in the first place, the losers and you have made that place your own, but you do hypothesize that he may have planned something special for you.

Your theory turns out to be true, as you can spot a long table at the end of the dirt path you and Richie are currently riding on to get to the clubhouse. The table is stacked with a variety of candies, your favorite, drinks that are sweet enough to rot your teeth, something Richie should be more aware off - having a dad who is a dentist-, and a giant cake with eight candles on. Each one representing a loser.

You say nothing as you approach, in a sneaky way torturing Richie a bit more before revealing that you’re at the verge of tears of this nice gesture. Richie slows down his speed by dragging his shoes along the dirt, glances darting nervously towards your face.

‘I know you said no parties, but how else was I supposed to show off my rocking dance moves?’

‘Do you mean the moves you make that look like you’re dying?’ Stan chides, him and the rest of the losers rolling up behind you two. They’re all walking next to their bikes, and Bill’s hands are smudges with cake residue he somehow missed while cleaning up. They didn’t want to be here before you and ruin the ‘surprise’, but it’s clear everyone has worked hard to organize this for you.

‘Fuck you Stan the man, the color green doesn’t fit you.’

‘Happy’, Bev grounds out, leveling Richie with one look, the way only Bev can, and then address you. ‘Birthday.’ She hugs you despite you still holding your bike, and you let it clatter to the ground with a loud bang.

‘Thanks Bev.’

‘Happy Birthday’, the other losers also call out, because there’s just too many of them for each to wait their turn.

‘We hope you don’t mind we don’t have any presents, we spend basically all of it getting ingredients for the cake, which we had to redo- twice.’

They don’t offer any other explanation about why the cake had to be remade two times, but by Eddie’s scowl you can fill in the blanks.

‘No, honestly, this is already too much.�� It is too much, but their efforts are so kind and heartwarming that you have to bit back a happy squall. No one has ever bothered to organize anything for your birthday, whether it be purchasing a two dollar present or even ordering a cake, but these people that you had met less then a year ago were willing to scramble together all the money they could, just so they could turn your day special. Thank god for moving to Derry.

For the first time in years, your birthday has brought smiles and laughter, and no tears and weeping moods.

‘Nonsense my dearest young lady, this is but a blip on our radar, a speck of dust on the tv, nothing compared too-‘

‘Can we please cut the cake now? Before something else goes wrong with it?’ Eddie glowers, refuting to wait for an affirmative.

‘Don’t forget the candles,’ Ben says as he follows Eddie to the table. You’re about to join them, when a hand on your wrists stops you.

‘Hey, Y/N? You really don’t mind this right? I know you said you didn’t want anything but I know how nice it is be caught off guard with something like this.’ Richie rubs the back of his head as if that makes him see any less anxious. It’s incredible how smart someone can be while simultaneously also being so dense.

‘Richie’, you say as you smile, unable to hide it any longer. ‘It’s amazing, thank you so much. If there is any way I can repay you I’ll do that. I’m really happy with this.’

‘That’s good, not that I was worried about it, who isn’t a fan of everything I do?’

Rolling your eyes only spurs Richie on, but it’s become an automatic response now, you can’t help but do it.

‘Oh, I almost forgot. I did get you another gift. Two actually, if you count my huge dong as one.’

‘Gross Richie, why do you always have to add something sexual to everything?’

‘It’s my game babe, love it or leave it. Anyway, here is the gift if you want it. If you don’t that’s fine too.’

‘Don’t get all shy on me now Rich’, you tease as your bump your arm into his while grabbing the package. ‘I’ve just gotten used to your antics.’

The package isn’t heavy, but it also isn’t light. It’s wrapped in enough layer that you can’t feel what’s inside of it just by holding it, but that was probably Richie’s intention. That or he is simply horrible at wrapping up.

While you carefully peel off each layer, you begin to speculate on what it could be. It could be a gag gift, but Richie looked sincere, and his eyes behind his glasses are magnified in true anticipation, a gag gift wouldn’t illicit that response.

As soon as the final layer is detached, you gasp, armored by the actual gift. It’s a blue bracelet, covered in butterfly pattering. You once mentioned having a similar one as a kid that you loved but lost one day while playing outside and had been sad about for weeks.

You can’t believe Richie had kept it in his mind, and had gone out to look for it.

‘Richie… I don’t even know what to say right now.’ You exclaim, squeezing the bracelet in your hand tightly, a blush covering your face. Richie’s mimics yours. ‘Thank you’, you say while reaching out to him and kissing him on the cheek. Richie face burns a brighter red.

‘Yeah… glad to be of service.’ His mind is ball parks away, and he is left dazed.

‘Come on Y/N, it’s time for you to blow out the candles.’

You go easily, letting your hand linger around Richie’s, deciding mentally that you’ll do it tonight before you go home. Your birthday has already been better than anything you could have imagined, and maybe it has one more miracle left to give. If Richie says yes to your question about going on a date, then this will truly have been the best birthday you have every had. By the love struck expression Richie is walking around with, you have an inkling as to what his response might be.

You blow out your candles, but you don’t need to make a wish. You already have everything you could possibly want.

----

‘Off course that asshole buys her a gift, but never returns the money I loaned him so long ago. I’m not a fucking bank.’

‘I think it’s cute.’

‘No, Eddie is right, I’m also waiting on my refund.’

‘It’s adorable he bought her something, he really can’t hide his crush anymore.’

[baekhvuns]

hihi there! could you please do a reaction (?) of what type of Dad’s the ateez members might be?? the fluff is unreal

ateez reactions ; requested (f)

。。。ateez as dad's ( wholesome af )

── kim hongjoong :

everyone wants to be his kid.

sPOILS HIS KIDS the royalties

takes them to his studio, makes them sit on his lap while he teaches them how the machinery works.

will be a bit stricter once they grow up but is super loving towards them.

painting his kid’s pinky finger busting an uwu

buys their kids the latest fashion trends and then customized them and gives them as christmas presents.

his kids are shy, so they hide in his pants whenever there’s a public press conference atiny’s favourite thing

or they hide in his jackets while joong talks about ateez.

will break stereotypes between father and son duo in south korea, not the typical father.

── park seonghwa

the soft one.

the real dad.

would nag at his kids once they grow because, “wHeN i wAs yOUR aGe!”

the type to attend every event involving his kids, first musical? dentist appointment? he’s got it.

has a camera on handy to capture candids and then frames them around the house.

the dad who makes lunch for kid’s because he heard his kid bragging about the lunch he made to his classmates.

his kids instantly fall asleep on his chest because he’s really warm.

imagine his kids getting his sparkly eyes.

i would loose it

toothless and mommy’s lil dragons that’s your family groupchat name, thank me later.

──  jeong yunho :

the child dad the gif has me crying

when he picks his newborn, his hands are bigger than the baby itself.

kind of scared to hold the child because he doesn’t wanna hurt them.

carries his kid everywhere.

his favourite thing to do is to place his kid on his shoulder while the small bub plays with yun’s hair.

his kids hold his index finger bc his hand is too big.

cups his kids cheeks on a regular.

best at games + teaches them hacks.

compares his hands and feet with his kids.

teaches his kids how to dance before they can even learn how to speak.

bridal style carrying his kids everywhere.

“hihi, i-i’m dada!”

──  kang yeosang :

i see him as a pretty strict dad.

the type you see early mornings with newspaper in their hands, glasses on the nose, and one leg over the other.

if you bring back bad results from test, expect a glare from him.

but then secretly goes to your room and leaves some extra food with a letter saying sorry. ;-;

since he’s kinda shy, his kids never leave his side and are always sitting with him on his laps at a occasion.

his kids protecc him devastated

the quiet dad, always fascinated by how their kids little bodies work.

the type to take his kids on surprise long drives while you stay home.

stops by mcdonald’s to grab fries and happy meals.  

his deep soothing voice puts his kids to sleep, even if he threatens them to go to sleep or he’ll take there toys away.

──  choi san :

a mountain.

always carrying his kids over his shoulder wbk dorito bod

pretends to wwe throw them onto the bed but instead huddles them into his chest while his back hits the bed.

the type to cry when he sees his kid walking for the first time or anything for the first time. the cancer is coming out

him letting his kid put their fingers in his deep dimples while he smiles happily.

imagine his kids get his dimples and duality

pretends to bite their kids fingers playfully but ends up kissing them.

won’t leave anything out when it’s for his kids.

him and the kid’s throw random pranks on you.

“(y/n)! SHE SAID DADA! GET THE CAMERA!”

──  song mingi :

“i’m a family oriented man.”

his kid’s are always the best dressed, fashionista song’s da the house.

a hands on dad.

willing to learn how to change the diaper.

is always holding his kids propped on his waist.

throws his kid in the air and catches them, lowkey confused at times but his kids find him adorable.

would do anything for his kids, wants to be provide them with anything.

like yunho, he compares his hands with his kids and laughs.

his kids dress him up in a tutu, he won’t even mind.

if his kid is on the floor with a mess, he will join them instead of cleaning it up.

makes sure his kid sleeps beside him.

when his kids grow old, and it’s time for boyfriend and girlfriends.

expect his inner leo to come out,

wait he’s a leo, that means his kids are his baby cubs ;-;

──  jung wooyoung :

get ready.

is more childish than the child instead,

loud

is always giggling over whatever his kids do, literally encourages them to be more louder.

really playful.

his kids get his playfulness and they create problems at school, when you and him get called from school complaining about the kids, woo’s laughing while you’re mad.

when woo hears the teachers complain about them, he high fives them secretly.

buys his kids toys every time he comes back from concert overseas.

dresses them up in his snap backs and takes selfies then uploads them on fancafe.

shows his kids off to everyone.

i think as his kids grow old, he will of course, mature.

and he might get a bit stricter but it won’t be like the traditional relationship between a father and a son like joong.

the type to have more freinds then his kids, he’ll be having more fun at his kids wedding rather than his kids.

a fun dad.

──  choi jongho :

whenever he breaks apples his kids look at him with wide eyes, “wahhhhhh!”

and he responds with his gummy smile ;-;

looks strict but is a hilarious dad,

the type of dad who’s shy and stern in front of others but back home he’s a goof ball.

dad jokes everyday, all day.

carries his kids on his biceps as if they were monkeys, and then they scream and he joins and you run out to them just having fun.

the type to sit still while his kids use your makeup on him and decorate his hair with your hair pins.

you come home to find jjong wearing your red lipstick.

sings them the best lullabies.

his kids would be the next singing prodigy’s.

always stacked on diapers and pretty clothes.

is the youngest but is more mature than most the members.

[hongssami]

On the Count of three

i have nothing to say, it’s all in here. written in a daze and while i was at work bc i’m a big loser for bang chan and he lives in my head rent free (((:

// kiss kiss fall in love with chan. that’s it. that’s the plot; minho ver, changbin ver, hyunjin ver

subtle friends-to-lovers; and there’s something else in there, i don’t know what it is hmu if you figure out what it is

description: You don’t know what it’s like to fly, you never tried it before. But you reckon it was quite similar to kissing Chan. You think it’s embarrassing when you mention it to him. He thinks he’s fallen in love.

w.c.: 1.7 k+

[masterlist]

“On the count of three, okay?”

It was always a hushed whisper, a still amidst all chaos. Something about the lulled syllables that carried themselves delicately into your ears that gave you unexplained comfort, even as a child. Perhaps it had something to do with the person saying it. Whatever it was, you were eternally thankful for the grounding it provided.

You’d first heard it from your mother the first time you went out to get your first milk molar removed. You had closed your eyes, almost at the brink of tears, but you promised you would be strong. She held your hand when she breathed it calmly. “One, Two,” and there was always a pause before the ever gentle, “Three.”

It hurt. But your mother and your dentist had commended you for your bravery.

Your hand never let go of your mother’s that day.

***

It left your neighbor’s lips when he held on to you the first time you rode a bike. Felix, you’d recalled his name, was like your little brother that lit up every room with his mere presence. The brightest boy you knew supported you by holding onto the seat of your bike while you’d shakily pedaled along the sidewalk. It was a bad idea but you didn’t care. Felix’s voice was a bit louder compared to the times your mother had said it, but the carefulness was still there. “I’m letting go,” he’d said. Your heart had leaped in panic for a second. “I believe in you.”

You blamed your naive self for believing him so easily when he’d uttered, “On the count of three.”

“One.”

The sky was a pretty blue that day.

“Two.”

The only clouds that seemed to loom over your neighborhood were cheery, fluffy ones. You’d took a deep breath in an attempt to steel your nerves.

“Three!”

You fell over in two seconds, laughing along the way as you planted your knees awkwardly on the cemented pathway.

You still have the scar from that day.

***

Your friends spoke it with you on the day your college entrance exam’s results were released. The letters in your hands waiting to be opened. At first you were anxious; several ‘what if’s’ crossed your mind in what seemed like a million thoughts per second. Then you were excited; this marked a new milestone in your mundane life, the beginning of your coming of age. Finally, only one thing settled in your mind.

College.

The word echoed in your head. What would it be like?

Suddenly, one of your friends prompted everyone to open their letters. “On the count of three!” This one was the most excited you have heard it being said.

You’d counted to three with them. You’d cheered for them.

You had passed.

***

You figured those words wouldn’t hold any sadness to them, for all your life it only affirmed anticipation and solace. Whether it had lead to a failure or success, those five words you held dear always comforted you.

So when Bang Chan held your hand and laughed his heavenly boyish laugh, you urged yourself to pull yourself together on the count of three.

You found it to be the hardest thing you had to do in your life.

One. 

Stop worrying about your hand being sweaty or else he’ll notice you blushing. The grip of his hand on yours tightens the deeper you go into the crowd.

Two.

Breathe in, steel your nerves. Realize that that was a big mistake because now all you can smell is the faint yet dazing scent of the sandalwood in his perfume. Then breathe out.

Three.

Clear your head of all the ‘what if’s’. Chan was only there because you got lost in the carnival. And his fingers were intertwined with yours.

Your head spins.

***

The next time you find yourself in a similar situation with Chan was in your college’s auditorium. Being the main character’s love interest’s understudy surely had it’s perks. You didn’t like this one.

“Hey,” Chan’s voice could not compare to anyone you knew. It was gentle and caring like your mother’s, but also carried a hint of playfulness like Felix’s. His eyes mimicked those of your friends back home ─ full of wonderlust. Only then did you realize that Bang Chan, the boy with the heart of gold and laugh of pure bliss, had stolen your heart for good. “You okay?”

Here comes the fun part, a small voice in your head teases. You were going mad.

Clad in his stage costume, he emanates what you can only describe as protagonist charisma. His dimples are more showy than usual and the way he carries himself as some sort of regal being kind of makes you want to laugh if it were not for the fact that he was staring you down.

“Should─” you swallowed your heart in your throat. “Wouldn’t it be best if we rehearsed the kissing scene?” You want to bury yourself in a hole, but you will yourself that this was only professional. It was for the sake of the betterment of the entire play.

Still, you’ve never wanted the floor to swallow you whole so much until that moment.

His smile widens, almost as if he was waiting for you to ask. “Sure,” he says, and you’re positive the buzzing in your head isn’t because of your earpiece. He leans in without warning and your heart leaps to your throat again. It was a quick, innocent peck but it left you breathless nonetheless.

“Sorry,” he leaned back, though only so much that you could still see the way his eyelashes lazily met his cheeks when he blinks at you slowly. “I thought you looked scared. I hope you don’t mind.”

You went onstage without practicing the scene and ended up winging it. Chan had muttered a silent ‘one, two, three’ in your ear before diving in and you felt like flying.

***

You don’t know what it’s like to fly, you never tried it before. But you reckon it was quite similar to kissing Chan. You think it’s embarrassing when you mention it to him. He thinks he’s fallen in love.

You only got to tell him (and a bunch of other crewmates) this because of a silly round of tipsy truth-or-dare at the post-premiere party. Chan doesn’t know it, but when he dropped you off your residence you found yourself counting to three again.

One for the whole minute it takes for him to say something. And of all the things he has to say, he starts it off with your name. You don’t think you’ve ever knew how much you loved the way your name sounded until he lets it slip slowly out his plump lips.  One was awfully long this time.

Two for the two times he hesitated to hold your hands. It was a devastatingly amusing and very endearing sight to see him fiddle with his hands for the entire time he rambles on about how he was glad that you got to be his love interest for tonight. “Not─ not that I wanted the original actor─  Or that I only want you as my love interest for tonight─  Arggh!” You could only disguise your equally flustered state with a small giggle, and he smiled sheepishly down at your hands in his in return. “You get what I mean, right?” Two was the kindest it has ever been with you that night.

And three for the three words that leave your mouth before he finally kisses you for real. He would playfully argue that he said it first but you didn’t really care. All you remember was his hands circling around your waist protectively as his lips take their sweet time moulded against yours.

You realized the first few seconds in how completely wrong you were when you described kissing Chan as ‘flying’. It felt nothing like fireworks, or butterflies in your stomach, or anything your friends say their first kisses were. It felt so close to something nostalgic, almost iridescent. Like a shower of spring colors, but not like the blue sky whenever you went out to play with Felix when you were younger, this was brighter. Like that one summer day you ate your favorite ice cream with swollen gums, but without the pain, only relief. Like the last moments you spent with your childhood friends before going to college, heartwarming and homey. Chan felt like all of those, all at once when he giggles into the kiss and moves his hands to cup your warm cheeks delicately. Captivated and out of breath, you lose your footing.

He catches you just in time, but his hand on the small of your back does nothing but push you to lock lips again and you hum, contented. Now the only thoughts that flood your head are how cozy it is in Chan’s embrace and how full his lips are when he moves them in a slow, silent waltz with yours. He licks at your bottom lip and your fingers lose themselves in the cloud that was his hair at some point, you don’t know when, but you couldn’t dare to give in in fear of your knees becoming jelly.

It’s crazy, you think, how beautiful it unfolded when you part at the same time only for his pleasant gaze to marry yours under the horrendous lighting the entrance to your apartment offered. He sighed against your lips and you shiver, elated. You don’t want to pull away and you can tell he doesn’t too when he presses one, two, three kisses down your jaw.

Reaching three had never felt so fulfilling.

[springday-aus]

Enemies to Lovers!AU with Xiaojun

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Group: NCT [+ WayV]

Member: Xiaojun / Xiao Dejun

Genre: fluff, comedy, romance 

Type: Bulletpoint AU 

Word Count: approx. 2.4k

so, you’re Xiaojun’s enemy (he thinks of it more of his number one attacker tho)

it wasn’t hard considering he’s always on fight or flight mode and considering his friend group….

fight mode is always activated

(ง’̀-‘́)ง

so it started when you became friends with Ten

the guy is so sociable, so you were bound to meet him and his other friends someday

but jesus christ, there were soooo many of them

it was a party; he threw a literal party of just him and his friends

and then there were others who turned it into a rave (i.e. Hendery, Yangyang, Chenle and Donghyuk)

anyways, you got to mingle and make so many new friends

it was going really well

until Xiaojun entered the picture

things went well with him too, until you made a joke that didn’t exactly land with him

but it landed well with the others

Lucas: “who in their right mind would like mint chocolate”

Xiaojun: “but I like mint chocolate”

You: “then you’re not in your right mind lmao”

YangYang: “I mean, is Xiaojun ever in his right mind tho”

everyone laughs

except for one person

Xiaojun stood up, staring you down for a hot second, before trying to argue back

in which YangYang was the main responder

you didn’t really think much of it, laughing away with the others

but, to him, you just declared war that day

it shouldn’t have bothered him as much as it did

but it did

so, from then on, things just got rockier

bc he started picking fights with you over the littlest things or he would argue with your points no matter what

you didn’t really think much of it bc he was also being picked on everyone else and you were like

every man for themselves huh

it wasn’t until he personally attacked you

it happened on Halloween

and he made an underhanded comment about how he’d look better in anything compared to you

so you made a “friendly” bet

but then you lost

bc Xiaojun looked better in the Jasmine costume than you and he def knew it too

and when he smirked at you

the grudge had been built

that’s probably when the mutual enemy status circulated around your friends

although, if they’re being honest, it’s so entertaining

especially since most of them like to gang up on Xiaojun too

and because of that unity, it’s only made things worse

from what the others can tell

you two don’t hate each other, but you def don’t get along

it ranges to food (e.g. mint chocolate chip incident that NO ONE lets go)

Lucas: “mint choco ain’t shit”

You: “retweet”

Xiaojun: “the attacks”

YangYang: “we cannot trust a man who eats bread with fucking lao gan ma”

You: “you eat what with bread?”

Xiaojun: “shut up. all of you.”

to activities

cue you two fighting about what movie to watch

Xiaojun: “Titanic is a classic!!!”

You: “it’s a joke, there was rOOM ON THE FUCKING DOOR”

Xiaojun: “IT’S ROMANTIC. HE SACRIFICED HIMSELF SO SHE CAN LIVE.”

You: “THAT’S NOT ROMANTIC. THAT’S SUICIDAL, DUMBASS.”

this feud is def bc you’re both petty as fuck

the bickering is nonstop

but, if the nct boys are being honest

they’re lowkey confused bc Xiaojun is supposed to have a really high emotional tolerance

he doesn’t even yell this much at YangYang or Ten

(excluding that one time he hit YangYang with that pillow very hard)

but he does blow off his top when it comes to you

which is sus to a lot of the boys

whenever someone does ask him tho

he just kind of……………

mumbles underneath his breath and then moves onto something else

meanwhile, Yuta: “isn’t he always like that?”

Kun: “who wants to tell him”

lmao, I’m kidding

kind of

anyways, you two are really just going at it

what changes?

you have to go to the dentist and get your molars removed

which means someone has to take you and go pick you up

obviously, Ten was going to do that, considering you two were the closest

so he dropped you off and you had your surgery

so what happened?

welp, your buddy Ten forgot he had a prior engagement and, hence, was unable to pick you up

cue him spamming the groupchat

and Lucas exposing Xiaojun

Lucas: Xiaojun isn’t doing anything Xiaojun: you don’t know that Lucas: I do tho, go pick up (Y/N) Ten: I’ll buy you anything from that green tea cafe you like for a week Xiaojun: deal.

so he came to pick you up, both willingly and unwillingly

and you……. you were more than a hot mess 

you were just a mess 

you basically were just blacked out that entire time after they gave you the laughing gas and completed the surgery

so you remembered absolutely nothing.

your roommate: “this is what you get for doing drugs”

You: “IT WAS PURELY FOR MEDICINAL USE”

You: “IT’S NOT LIKE I DID CRACK”

either way, your roommate let you know of the situation, taking note of how your enemy had to take you home

which

again

no recollection

your roommate: “he’s fucking hot tho”

You: “ugh, I know”

but that’s also when you decided

Ten is a dead man :)

Ten: “I’M SORRY”

You: “YOU BETTER FUCKING BE”

Ten: “I KNOW”

Ten: “............................................but………………………………….”

Ten: “maybeyoushouldalsothankhimfortakingcareofyou”

You: “sorry not sorry, I’m contemplating murder rn”

Hendery: “what do you call a murder against a friend?”

Kun: “don’t”

Ten:

You:

Hendery: “it’s a homie-cide”

You and Ten: “NOT NOW”

anyways

you knew he was right

so after you calmed down, you went to Xiaojun’s place (thanks to Ten), with some sweets to thank him

Lucas opened the door, let you in, and left to go to the gym with Sicheng

Xiaojun came out of his room, a couple of minutes after, disheveled from his nap

and when he saw you in his living room couch, his eyes widened, darting around to avoid looking at you

You: “hi”

Xiaojun: “hello”

You: “why do you look so scared? I’m not gonna jump you”

he stays quiet, the blush becoming more apparent on his cheeks

You: “Ten told me you took me home after my surgery, so…………………… thanks”

Xiaojun: “he bribed me with pastries”

You: yeah, sounds about right

You: “still”

You: “um, I didn’t know what you would like, so I brought some sweets you can just go through”

Xiaojun: “thanks”

it’s silent for another moment and you consider bolting out from the apartment, Wizards of Waverly Place, Harper-style: “see ya in p.e.!” kind of a thing

but he speaks up once more

Xiaojun: “are you feeling okay now?”

You: “uh, yeah, my jaw still kind of hurts”

You: “but I have meds they prescribed to me for the next month or so”

he decides to stop beating the bush: 

Xiaojun: “so do you remember what happened yesterday?”

You: “to be completely honest, no”

Xiaojun: “you… did a lot of things”

You: “what do you mean I did a lot of things”

Xiaojun: “you also said a lot of things too”

You: “..... are these things recorded?”

Xiaojun: “maybe”

Xiaojun: “some”

You: “dELETET HEM”

you actually considered tackling him, but deemed as too Yang-Yang-like

You: “what did I say”

Xiaojun: “I didn’t realize you thought I was handsome”

You: “wait what?”

Xiaojun: “you said, you had a crush on my ‘fine ass’”

You: “you know what? I think I’m gonna pull a Jack and commit suicide, goodbye”

Xiaojun: “ah, ah, ah, you said like, which is… present tense”

You: “semantics”

Xiaojun: “but did you like me at some point?”

You: “does it matter?”

Xiaojun: “yeah, it kind of does”

Xiaojun: “bc even tho we bicker, it’s, like, our thing”

Xiaojun: “plus, you’re kind of cute when you’re threatening to rip off my eyebrows”

You: “I did what?”

Xiaojun: “it’s no different from how you treat me now”

You: “I thought it’s because you don’t like me”

he just kind of shrugs, rubbing his neck rather sheepishly

Xiaojun: “you’ve seen my friends; arguing is our way of showing our affections”

You: “so, you’re saying this is your way of telling me you like me?”

Xiaojun: “I mean………“

Xiaojun: “are you saying you like me?”

You: “are you saying you like me?” 

*cue another argument about who likes who*

eventually, he found a way to shut you up

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

cut to Lucas and Sicheng coming back from the gym to you and Xiaojun making out on the couch

Lucas: “NASTY”

Sicheng: “what did we…. miss?”

Ten somewhere: I fucking called it.

anyways

you both decided to date that day

and you two still bicker an insane amount, which includes you nitpicking Xiaojun’s tastes to Xiaojun refusing to delete those videos of you under the laughing gas despite your threats

but, the only difference is, your arguments can end with a kiss

and it always freaks out the guys whenever you do

Donghyuk: “I’m too young to be seeing this monstrosity”

Mark: “ngl, this is nice for them—they’ve stopped arguing”

YangYang: “I weirdly prefer them arguing over them with those sappy eyes tho”

You: “we can hear you”

Chenle: “but when have we ever cared?”

You: “I’m gonna beat your ‘01 liner ass istg—”

Xiaojun: “calm”

oh, you know what’s fun about your relationship?

you two can’t agree on some stuff right?

so whenever you have to decide something, say a movie or dinner, you two just heads-or-tails it

(there’s also this cute app where you put your options on a wheel and let that decide—the amount of times you’ve used that on your dates…… anyways)

most of the time, on these dates, you seem more like an old married couple and it’s super cute

it’s bc you’re already used to your worse sides coming out—the really petty ones, the screaming ones, the ugly ones

ofc these aren’t from serious arguments that occur

(remember folks, it isn’t healthy for you and your partner to always be fighting)

but when serious arguments do occur, you both take time to sit down and talk face-to-face

it’s hard to get into actual arguments with him, especially since he really is understanding and tries to pay attention to the smaller details

Xiaojun: “I like learning more about you”

You: “you can’t just say that kind of shit to me”

like, yeah, he’ll debate with you all night about why he needs to read the words of his book out loud but, by the end of the day, you’ll lay your head in his lap and listen to his voice as you fall asleep

speaking of which, you love listening to him sing to you

he gets a bit embarrassed sometimes about it, but seeing you smile so brightly at him makes him forget about it

because even tho you two bicker about little things, in the end, it just makes you two laugh at one another and how ridiculous you’re being

I almost forgot, so Ten thinks of him pairing you two off right?

so, whenever he does something annoying to either of you, he’ll constantly bring it up

Ten: “I guess this is how you two treat me, your personal cupid—”

Xiaojun: “yes, yes, we are grateful for you”

You: “but it would be nice if you would stop making those annoying sounds”

Ten: “what annoying sounds?”

YangYang: “that’s just you talking”

okay, no, but yeah—the nct boys are glad this rivalry is over because it was really just…. stupid to the core

but also bc you two look super sweet together and seeing you two making each other happy rather than annoyed is adorable

but just bc you two got together doesn’t mean the pettiness isn’t still there

You: “what type of freak sleeps with their eyes opened?”

Xiaojun: “I’m sleeping next to you, of course I need to keep both eyes open”

You: “RUDE”

Xiaojun: “and yet here we are”

You: “son of a bitch”

Xiaojun: “YOUR son of a bitch”

You: “eh, I’ll take it” 

[olwolo]

quackity looked at two of the most chaotic and dangerous people on the smp and thought, nothing could go wrong if we put then together right? Plus I love how phil and techno are each others moral compass (techno more to phil ig, kind depends too) so yeah he will probably do something abt it! Techno's instructions being the main reason tho but idk I feel like the stasis chamber makes more sense with the way techno acted with the enderchest and all that but MAAAN the way I NEED a syndicate prison break in rn ESPECIALLY AFTER YOUR LAST POST!! Because it's something that will probably happen eventually considering techno wants to know what's happening in the prison (I really don't think it's all to help dream tbh lol, the prison is really fucked up rn so it's anarchists right to fuck everything up even more maybe?) but yeaaaah bc of that I feel like c!techno was 100% aware of what would happen too lol like I think he wouldn't be so impressed if Quackity was being genuine but man has gone through enough betrayal to start trusting his enemies now lmao the warning of hating being lied to on his bday tho, nice touch JUST. really nice. Chaos team is hunting this man down when they're free lmao and yeah I feel like techno feels like a comic relief character (a bit due cc!techno personality) and ig people are not used to those characters being strong and dangerously smart, I love it,, and the interactions was SO GOOD!! c!techno is so chill with everything and the fact that the trusts in his friends is one of the reasons he wasn't worried :((((( syndicate my beloved :(( I'm so excited. I wonder if the training with ranboo and niki will be something we will see or if it's going to be a behind the scenes thing,, phil said they have been training for that (help the syndicate members when they need maybe) in his last stream and IDK if he was talking about that exactly but :( I'd like to see some filler training arc tbh :(( Plus If wilbur happens to be out there when they start the chaos I'm all in!! As long niki has her time to shine, yes I'd love to see!! And may I add one more (maybe lowkey controversial idk) opinion but I feel like few people were too quickly to judge when c!techno said he doesn't know why dream was there,, like,, man never did shit to him what did you expect ffkfnfkfk they only really had a small conflict in their needs/opinions when c!techno was partnered with c!tommy and even then he was willing to drop it for the favor. c!techno is such a lawful character to like his owns morals and ideals it's so interesting to see!! He will do what he promises and follow his believes no matter what other ppl say and I really enjoy seeing him constantly follow this path tbh!! But again, that could always be just me being a techno apologist but his character is just really cool for me, especially personality wise.

Btw if you're free to rant about ur latest masterpiece, I would love to know the thought behind each one of their masks, if u have any to share !! 🧨

my bet is on the statis chamber being used first as well but i just really want to see a prison break in, cause what's the point of having a prison plot without at least one big break in/out ya know? and man c!quackity's about to have another dentist visit huh 😔 and the line about lying on techno's birthday ties so well as a set up with what's happening. about being the comedic character i saw someone compare c!techno to deadpool and it clicked to me why i'm not at all bothered as some others seem to be when it comes to the joking nature of c!techno, because i'm used to this type of characters from reading comics sgdhks but like with how dark the smp's story can get i feel like a character that doesn't treat everything 100% seriously all the time is very needed and that's why i enjoy c!techno so much. and god i hope we will get some good old fashioned training arc, just to sprinkle in more anime references to the bleach basement. and like with c!techno and c!dream interactions, what did y'all expect?? their interactions thus far have been positive. it's probably the sbi fanon leaking into how some perceive the canon and the metagaming but with how much techno goes about reciprocity, dream saving his life, overall them allying a good amount of times and c!techno not knowing about shit that's happening outside his cozy cabin of course he will act friendly towards c!dream. we will see if that changes if he learns about the shit that dream has done but looking at his reaction to c!tommy's death i wouldn't hold my breath for a serious change in that aspect sgsj and yeah!! c!techno being so lawful to his beliefs is a trait i really enjoy seeing.

and about my latest drawing i was just sketching around and the boom. the thought of the syndicate break in popped into my head so i wanted to draw something with them and since it's supposed to be a secret organization my brain automatically went to the conclusion that the syndicate wearing masks would make the most sense and because i already draw c!techno with a piglin skull for a mask the obvious route was to base the masks on skulls too. so i went with a crow for phil (of course), cat for niki (bc her mc skin has cat ears and i don't draw them as a part of the character design), enderman for ranboo (based on how i tend to draw the mob) and not included in the drawing but techno has a pig mask to match the rest of them!!

[ill-be-istj-if-no-one-else-is]

hii, i wanted to ask a question about my bestie xx

i’ve typed her as an enfj bc she’s always seemed like a high Fe type to me and the enfj function stack and descriptions of them on various websites were describing her very well. me and her are very different “people-wise”: she always talks abt ppl behind their backs while maintaining friendly attitude talking WITH them, always compliments ppl to get something she wants(some of our teachers always loved her bc she knew how to get their love and trust); then me…i’m an isfp…totally opposite, i have only a few friends, i hate talking behind people’s back, never “sucked up” on anyone, including teachers(some of them still love me, but for different reasons), i can’t compliment people i don’t like(tbf, i can’t compliment AT ALL, very bad at words, unlike my friend) and etc. I also don’t like lying to people and friends, and she, on the other hand lies or manipulates her words quite a lot(sometimes it helps her getting what she wants tho, i must admit).

But i’ve noticed recently that she’s very secretive…like…really secretive. She never shows her true feelings or struggles to her friends(or me, at least, lmao)…We both keep our feelings inside, but I have high Fi and I thought this kind of way of dealing with emotions was kinda Fi-ish. Not that she shows her friends her fake emotions, but more like she deals with them on her own.

also, she’s very impulsive in terms of her interests? more than me sometimes(and i have aux Se)…she gets heavily invested, for example in her choice of her future career and has her future in this career all planned(what uni will she graduate, how successful she might be, how “cool” will she be, etc.) and she talks about it(her new interest/hobby or her career choice) so passionately, that you think “omg, she REALLY wants to be a therapist/marketing specialist/dentist/whatever”, and she seems really invested in it, but then she DROPS it…like, she suddenly “realizes” it’s not what she wants or that that profession isn’t as good/profitable as she thought. She also cancels plans last minute a lot. It can be her, who encourages and organises our friend group’s gathering, but then gets out of it last minute herself, sometimes trying to make really pathetic excuses(but sometimes they’re very well-thought, such as “my parents asked me to babysit my little siblings” so none of us could blame her for telling that she won’t go w us last minute). I’m not telling it’s always lies. I’m sure sometimes her parents really don’t allow her to go somewhere or ask to babysit, but why does she always tell us that last minute!? sometimes she does things for her own benefit, like she’d rather go out with a person who has a good camera(so they could take pics for her), rather than someone she’s closer to and will have better time with. she’s also very insecure deep down. me too, but i don’t want people’s approval as much as her. she’s always scared to gain weight or look bad to her boyfriend, even though he’s the nicest guy i’ve ever met and has always told her that she’s the most beautiful girl ever and he would love her no matter what. perhaps i could also describe her as “all talk, no actual actions” and it hurts me isfp ass very much :((

we also have a lot of passive aggression in our relationship, bc we’re both hate conflicts in some way, and sometimes supress our anger towards each other(i tend to sometimes burst out tho), so ig she’s more passive aggressive than me and never tells me what’s wrong, therefore i can never tell if i offended her or not. idk, maybe she thinks the sam abt me?

she’s not a bad person tho, she’s a good friend and we’ve been friends for a long time, but sometimes she acts very very strange and i’m not the only one who has noticed this.

maybe you could help me…from what i’ve described, does she seem enfj type 3(have difficulty telling what her wing is)? ty in advance ❤️

Based on this it sounds like you are both in your mid-teens, and so honestly I would just give it some time if you want to type her because while your personality certainly exists at this time, it’s very much in flux. A lot of this just sounds like she’s dealing with a lot of insecurity and expectations and it’s hard to say if it’s typology governing these actions or if it’s just like...being 16 or 17 (which is what I’ve assumed from this).

I’m not sure what her type is but here are a couple of things that might help you, and I will say that ENFJ doesn’t sound wrong given that assumed age. It could be - looking at ENFP or ESFP wouldn’t hurt - but a lot of her behaviors seem in line with high Fe and even with Ni I would expect a certain amount of impulsivity and indecision at her stage of development.

First, try to think about her in terms of who she is without comparing to yourself. I don’t know for sure if you’re an ISFP - you might be, or you might not be - so if you compare to yourself and you are mistyped then you’re working off an incorrect basis for comparison in the first place and that will make everything harder. Try to think how she compares to people you know in general - and especially your peers. Is she more impulsive than most of your classmates? Less? Around average?

Second, I have found the idea that high Fi users are more private and high Fe users are less private to be absolutely false; I think it is partly based on a Tumblr user who mistyped as an Fe user for a long time but then realized they were a high Fi user and was trying to make that fit and it’s persisted long past that. A lot of high Fi users, especially extroverted ones, are very expressive, and a lot of high Fe users can be private - Fe users are typically very attuned to what others think of them and so might keep their emotions on lockdown or hide them in order to elicit a certain response (Fe-dom 3s, for example, will absolutely do this). As a rule thinkers and introverts are more private with their emotions than feelers and extroverts but that’s about the extent of it.

And finally, and I tell most people this especially when they bring up not just a typology question but also some conflicts or personal difficulties; I get that you are asking me for help with MBTI, and that’s the main help I feel like I have any ability to give and I know unsolicited advice is often unwelcome so feel free to ignore, but: MBTI does not solve interpersonal (or intrapersonal) problems. It can be a very helpful and powerful tool, but knowing is only half the battle (or something). A person who knows literally nothing about MBTI but is an empathetic and thoughtful communicator who does not shy away from healthy confrontation will do better than a typology expert who lacks even one of those traits. If you want to know her type, review the first few paragraphs and see if that helps and feel free to revisit after some time, but if you want to like, know why she keeps flaking on you, then unfortunately getting over the fear of confrontation and potentially upsetting someone will be a far more effective use of time.

[shmaptainwrites]

congrats on 1k mimi akdjsj you're insanely talented & i'm so so so happy for you 🥺

could i ask for a 🌸 for Criminal Minds please? hehe

hm you can just base it off what you know about me/feel about me from our interactions? but I'll provide you with somemore details just in case:

idk if you care about harry potter houses but i'm a Slytherin

really short (155cm) but will literally try climbing up stuff to reach for things before getting someone taller to help

i like taller people. HAHAHAHA all my crushes have been taller and older than me, it's literally what my friends know me for at this point 💀

likes to pretend I'm a badass but 10/10 tears up &/or cries at the smallest of things

in the same logic, i get hurt really easily by people's words lmao 💀

my love language is touch!!! i LOVE hugging people i love (but sadly nobody hugs me 😭😭)

not very physically fit :( I'm more of a brains > brawns kind of person 😳 i'm by no means the worst at sports but im also not the best yk.... just somewhat average :/

i love to watch ice hockey games!! fav team is the Dallas Stars 🤭 i also love rollerskating & have plans to pick it up as a hobby soon (after my exams)

i'm more night owl than early bird

i love food!!! and bubble tea!!! but i have really bad eating habits like I'll literally go a whole day without a proper meal bc i was too focused on writing or reading or whatever i was doing lmao oops. also by food i mean those rather unhealthy fried stuff so... 💀

gets anxious and nervous very easily 😭

i'm not as bad around friends but i am VERY anxious and shy around strangers.... literally i have only ever looked my dentist in the eye like,,, twice?? even after so many appointments 💀💀

i love telling people i love them because nobody says it to me😭 because I really want everybody i care about to know that they're always loved!! 🥺🥺 (also bc my grandma passed on like 5 years ago while i was out with friends and my one biggest regret would always be that i never got the chance to say goodbye to her face to face & i never told her i love her 😭 and this really kinda haunts me till today)

okay that ended up being a long list skfjsk SORRY 💀 I'm bisexual but predominantly prefer males,,,

thank you for doing this!! i love you so much & i am genuinely SO happy for you akdjsks 1k is so amazing & you're so kind and awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sending so much love and good vibes to you 🥰

okay so after much deliberation i honestly ship you with derek!

although you might not be more like physically active compared to him the man is big and strong and tall so he’s literally a dream guy. he’d love to watch hockey with you (like seriously we know he actually likes hockey it’s canon it’s perfect) and you’d go all out especially when your teams are playing against each other

he’s really really sweet and patient so i can see him always being there for you when you’re anxious and making sure you have whatever you need

also he’d be sure to show you love in lots of hugs and you’d exchange i love yous religiously it’s probably the thing you say most to each other

honestly i think it’s hella perfect y’all would be so cute together 🥺

[i-am-just-a-kiddo]

ok so I tried to come up with three characters like you did for me but this was very difficult. so feel free to ignore some if you don't like it or feel like talking about someone else :'D but the beauty ghost/liu qianqiao (word of honor), yu tangchun (killer and healer, bc i know you like our opera boy) and seo moonjo (strangers from hell, bc i am always curious about you and this dentist lol)

Aaaah thanks for these! 💗 It’s been a joy to answer them, so I hope you can get through my ramblings about them. 

Referring to Give Me A Character

and I’ll break their ass down:

How I feel about this character

All the people I ship romantically with this character

My non-romantic OTP for this character

My unpopular opinion about this character

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

My answers under the cut: 

Liu Qian Qiao/ Beauty Ghost (Word of Honor) 

How I feel about her: I love her and she deserves better. I’ve not finished the drama yet and I know surprisingly little spoilers about her. I just love to see her acting on her own accord, standing up for the person she loves. Being protective and so caring of Luo Fu Meng, it breaks my heart. From what I’ve seen, she’s gotten on my radar only recently - after they saved Luo Fu Meng from the prison, I got really excited to see more of her and them in general. 

I think she deserves better than that pathetic man whose name I don’t bother to remember. I’m scared of what the show will do to her but I’m so excited to see more, especially now that Scorpion got them in his clutches? She’s on par with him and I’m curious which direction this will go. However, as with many C-dramas unfortunately, she does not really feel tangible to me? There is always something missing, just a small piece that will make her feel more true to me. Maybe the drama will deliver on that? I’m not sure what to expect. 

All the people I ship romantically with her: Luo Fu Meng!!! Lesbian ghosts rights!!! Their recent scenes have been breaking me and I just want to see more of them. I want to know more about their past together, about their dynamic. Luo Fu Meng is her master but right now, Liu Qian Qiao is the one guiding and caring for her. It shows how equal they actually are, even if not in their title. Liu Qian Qiao’s devotion to her feels so burning and determined - whatever she has going on with that man just pales in contrast. She was ready to risk it all for her and she would never abandon her. She’s willing to do anything and I’m just praying for their lives - please don’t fuck it up, @ show writers. 

In short, I just need more of them. Please. 

My non-romantic OTP for her: I loved her interaction with A-Xiang a lot - she truly seems like an older sibling to her and it’s precious to see. I can see them being easily annoyed with each other but also fiercely protective of the other. I can see A-xiang being an unstoppable whirlwind and Qian Qiao trying to ground her, while being incredibly fond. I can also see A-xiang pulling her older sister out of her own head, grounding her and validating her? Tell her that she is more than she thinks of herself, and that she deserves a lot more than she allows for herself. I need more of their interaction because I’m weak for found family tropes and I need more of the ladies doing their own thing outside of Wen Kexing’s or someone else’s periphery. 

Also I want more interaction with her and the Evil Bodhisattva???? The potential that friendship has? Please gimme. 

My unpopular opinion: I don’t know any opinions? I’ve not yet dived deeply into the WOH fandom because I’m not done with the drama yet. I’ve generally seen little content about her and the other ghost ladies, which is a pity. Once I get there, I’m excited to dive into all the fandom has to offer. 

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: I’m on episode 24, so I can’t really judge what the show is gonna do to her, but so far I wish for more depth. Less of that horrible man being affiliated with her. Less of her being subjected to violence. More agency. More of her and Fu Meng interacting, caring for each other, being in each other’s space. I hope her to survive and not be killed, so I’m crossing fingers. 

Yu Tangchun (Killer and Healer)

How I feel about this character: OH BOY. I have freshly baked feelings about him, get ready. Warning for spoilers:

First of all, I always felt the drama did not dive into him as deeply as I had wished. Something was always missing there, but I can’t really name what. Maybe more depth, other than just being sick and out for revenge? He had more potential and I will get to it later. But from all I’ve gotten from him, I love how strong he is, and how much bravery there is in such a small body. He has his own mind and own agenda and doesn’t allow people pushing him around - I also love how deceiving he can be, even to his friends (namely Chen Yuzhi when he asked for that drug). He is a clever fox and I love that for him. Which also made him incredibly unpredictable to me in the beginning - I just couldn’t quite place him? 

In the end, am just incredibly fond and he deserved so so much better than the show ever gave him. 

All the people I ship romantically with him: Zhan Junbai, with all its flaws. From the first moment on, their tension just made me go ???????? the whole time. It was amazing and unsettling to watch, see its development and knowing this could not end well. A very delicious dynamic that always treaded the line of will they or won’t they (whether that refers to killing each other or otherwise). At some point I felt a little more invested into their plotline simply because it was so interesting and unpredictable. The mutual attraction is undeniable, which made what happened later even more heartbreaking and fucked up.

It could have never worked, even if Zhan Zhunbai had been less of a dick. They deserved a different ending - at least Yu Tangchun should have been the one to kill him, or at least they should have had a proper showdown together. After all - they were more than friends at this point. 

My non-romantic OTP: I loved his friendship with Chen Yuzhi, but I must say I would have loved to see him more with Chu Ran! If we imagine a different ending, they could have bonded together so much over what Zhan Junbai did to the both of them. They are both so gentle and headstrong, I wish we had gotten more of them together. It could be relaxing and freeing for the both of them. 

Also I’ve always wondered how exactly Yu Tangchun’s friendship with Jiang Yuelou worked? I think this got way too little spotlight. 

My unpopular opinion about him: I have no idea what is popular and what isn’t? Maybe that I sort of enjoyed the idea of Yu Tangchun joining Zhan Junbai, even though I knew it wouldn’t happen. Let me dream, that could have been a different level of conflict. 

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: Oh boy. Oh boy. SO MUCH. Spoilers ahead if you haven’t finished the show: 

First of all, his ending?? It felt way too rushed and while not out of character, he deserved so much more than his death being an afterthought to the plot and a few sad gay flashbacks. The entire ending felt rushed and oh boy, could I rant about it here, but I will try and focus on Yu Tangchun. So yes, give him the respect he deserves. 

Another thing which I have mentioned above is that I wished they had given him more depth? Just a little bit more other than the trauma and agony he went through. I also wish I had seen more of his opera and his story with it - how he got there, how he thinks about it. We only ever got glimpses and I get that a show can only focus on so much, but still. 

I also wish his ending with Zhan Junbai had been different - in a sense that I wanted him to break Zhan Junbai, lure some genuine emotions on his face other than anger. I wish they had gotten more….closure? I don’t even know. It didn’t feel satisfactory at all. Zhan Junbai went through so much trouble to keep him and then suddenly he let’s him go and then he dies? It just went too quickly. If at least Yu Tangchun had been there to kill him in the end, or at least get some sort of closure. I’m rambling now because I don’t know what I wanted for them but it was certainly more than what the show gave me. I am so frustrated about the ending of the show, help me. 

Seo Moonjo (Strangers from Hell)

How I feel about this character: Conflicted. That is the short answer to that, but of course I’m not here to give a short answer. Do I have to clarify that I do not condone the actions of a cannibalistic serial killer in real life? I hope not. Okay, let’s get to it then. 

Seo Moonjo (or Mr. Dentist, as I lovingly call him) to me is incredibly intimidating. Part of it is that Lee Dong Wook does an incredible job at depicting him as charming and terribly unsettling at the same time. From the first second he shows up on screen, you feel this presence - and you feel intrigue and fear. Which is what Seo Moonjo wants, it’s what he preys on. 

So when I think about how I feel about him, I think he is one of the best villains I’ve encountered recently, simply because he makes me feel the same way he makes Jongwoo feel. I’m very fascinated? I feel Seo Moonjo is a very lonely person, lost in his own ideals and morals. He has absolutely no sense of social propriety and does not intend to learn them. He’s so caught up in his own art and his desire for a certain life, it’s almost pitiful how much he desires it. But of course, once I feel a sliver of pity, he reminds me that he is - indeed - hell personified. I am still lowkey mad that he charmed me (why is being a villain so sexy smh).

Summing up, I love and hate him. What a creepy bastard.

All the people I ship romantically with him: Yoon Jongwoo, despite all the cruelty of it. I think comparing this show to NBC’s Hannibal is very valid, even though these two never got a proper development of their relationship like Will and Hannibal did. I absolutely think that Seo Moonjo is in love with Jongwoo and wants him to be his, wants to wrap him up in his life and make him the ‘perfect art-piece’ he had always wanted in his collection. No matter how sick it is, this obsession is probably the closest Seo Moonjo can get to feeling love - he does not know how else to love. 

So what do I want for them? I want Jongwoo to get his revenge, to make Seo Moonjo suffer as much as he did. I want Jongwoo to see eye to eye with him so they can walk with equal footing. I want Seo Moonjo to realise that Jongwoo has as much power over him as he thinks he has over the other. After this, they can be murder husbands for all I care, in true Hannibal-esque fashion. The emancipation of Jongwoo needs to happen first, and Seo Moonjo needs to realise that he is not the invincible one in this relationship. After that, they can have a good time together, no matter how fucked up that time may look like. 

Also, I am convinced that he ‘dated’ Yoo Gihyeok in a twisted way, before he went and fucked up his plans; and before Jongwoo came to cath his eye.

My non-romantic OTP: As mentioned above - Seo Moonjo is a lone wolf. Yes he had his pack and someone that guided him on this path, but none of them ever come close to him to see his heart. The show itself doesn’t give him much space to see a potential friendship except the one he has with Jongwoo. Jongwoo would be the answer for this as well. (also to be fair, I don’t wish anyone to be friends with him damn)

However, if I could explore more dynamics he has with other people, I would love to see it with Officer So. I think she is an incredibly interesting and strong character and the few scenes they had together were fascinating - she came as his patient and ended up being his enemy. In another installment of this show, I would’ve loved to see more interaction like that and see the development of them being pleasant acquaintances (and maybe Seo Moonjo realising that she too is worth his attention) to enemies. I want Seo Moonjo to find respect for her.

My unpopular opinion: I’m not into depicting him as fancy rich, as many do in fics. Yes he’s a dentist and surely has a ton of money, but I like the idea that despite this wealth, he would always be a shabby sort of person. Not decked out with a luxurious rooftop apartment and wearing dress-shirts every day and expensive watches; but rather using his wealth to make himself safe from detection, finding remote areas, buying utensils and appliances for his ‘art’. So no, I reject the vision of him lounging on the highest building in Seoul with a minimalist empty apartment. I see him in a ratty rundown but expensive old mansion/house that has many corners for his artistic endeavours. I’ve already picked the perfect house for him in Busan, on the top of a hill overseeing the city and the harbour. 

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: I’ve mentioned it above, but I wish Seo Moonjo had gotten to feel more pain. We got Jongwoo’s liberation and Moonjo being proud of his ‘artwork’ while Jongwoo kills him, but that was not the revenge Jongwoo needed. In the end, Moonjo still lingers with him, as a constant presence, and he never got a taste of his own medicine. While watching this show, all I wanted was Jongwoo to break Moonjo’s heart. This would not make up the suffering Moonjo put him through but at least they would be equal. So I have my own revenge fantasy with this character that is more than ‘merely’ killing him. Being killed by Jongwoo just felt like an honour to Seo Moonjo and I’m not satisfied with that. 

Phew okay I’m done! Thank you for giving me something to ramble about, it was a joy!!