#i cant stop thinking abiut them

[bynapo]

oh My god . is that

[hacksawboy]

im doing brush testing soz chat

[be-good-to-bugs]

itd be so cool if the shitty people in my life were not shitty and were actually slightly decent

[venomgender]

CALE!!!!!

[olvitier]

Sorry its so late buf i am in an Edling mood tonight and I will never stop thinking about the idea of how theyre the epitome of right person wrong time.

(obviously in a context of like fandom shenannigans where canon events arent 100% set in stone like edling arent canon but also idc !! they are to me! im ignoring it let me be insane) ANYWAY

Even if they wanted to be together post promised day Ling has all the responsibilities of Xing and his clan and Edward would never hold him back from that for a second. Im of the opinion that brotherhood Edward feels a lot of guilt for wanting love from the people around him particularly those he sees as good (winry, alphonse, etc) especially if hes done things hes perceived as hurting them (maes’ death, the transmutation, etc etc). Which is why I think Edward connects with Ling so well cayse he doesnt carry the weight of a lot if his past mistakes, and then when the stone happens its like goddamn it i roped this guy into my shit again. Like i dont know Edward doesnt really dedicate himself so fully to people outside of winry and ed a lot so its interesting like!!

He cares about a lot of people like the majority of the allied cast and we see him be openly affectionate towards Nina and Hughes pre their deaths but I think Ling is the only person hes ever decided to stick with WITHOUT alphonse? I may be wrong but the whole sure Ill stay with you and trust my brother and Winry to stay safe and follow you around the outskirts of the east for a week till the promised day to protect my new friend is so??? what?? huh???

But anyone my point is post promised day Edward cant really ever see a future with Ling because of all the responsibility Ling holds outside of him and its veyr tragic imo like especially because in a different scenario if Ling didnt have those responsibilities and Edward wasn’t so dedicated to the people around him to a fault of never thinking about his own desires I think they could have the possibility of a future.

Like I have read a lot of fanfiction abiut Ed traveling to Xing and living with him there but?? I realistically cant see him ever doing that just solely because Edward is not the type of person to settle down! like its my one and only criticism of the fma manga is that I cannot see Edward ever being satisfied with a simple life? Like even in Fma 03 which is my favourite interpretation of Edwards character once he gets stranded in our world he learns?? Rocket Science?? For the chance to get back to Amestris but he doesnt really seem to take that goal all that seriously especially considered Alfons ends up getting involved in a lot more aircraft projects than Edward like Edwsrd genuinely enjoys learning!!

Im pretty sure he was the one who dragged Alphonse into Hoenhiems office when they were kids after he left, probably to Al’s reluctance of if they were allowed in there, and started ripping through all of his old books just to learn. Edward never stops and it gets so bad that he never stops to even consider himself constantly worrying about getting his brother back or improving the states of others lives especially when! ya know! the whole country is at stake!!

So in a circumstance post promised day where Ed decides what he wants to do (my personal favourite interpretation is either an alchemical researcher outside of directly performing alchemy, ie revolutionizing the circle matrixes and discovering nee combinations or becoming a professor of some kind) I dont think he would give that up to settle again. And obviously Ling cant exactly up and leave being Emperor unless he decides he doesnt want to, im not the most knowledgable on Lings characterization so I wont speak there but!

They have so much fun together and compliment each other and genuinely care about each other so much but their happiness and fulfillment as people to themselves and others make it so its nearly impossible they would ever realistically end up together and its really doomed and tragic!! idk i think about it a lot.

[madxzxz]

ITS SO COLD ITS SO CHILLY the only reason I left my bed was because I had to use the restroom and so when I was finished I instantly got in the shower well not instantly something I never do is run the shower to let it get hot before getting in which i magic maybe but I just turn it on and scurry to the back on my tippy toes so I don't get hit but I couldn't take the risk today because if my body temperature dropped any lower I would have started taking damage now I'm all warm wrapped up by all the drops of water mmm and I'm brushing my teeth and now I'll be able to brave the day conquer it even I have Russian starting in 5 hours and idk if I'll be able to do anything but wait for it to start but that will be enough also something I commonly don't do it wash my legs well only the calves and shins if I am feeling lazy I stop at the knees and skip straight to my feet but I wash my feet separately from my body in part because I might be self conscious about them I have very clammy hands and feet and I cannot wear socks in doors I can but it's not as comfy and my feet are really sensitive to temperature and it will never be a winning situation because I have poor circulation to them so they are naturally cold and on the verge of necrosis so times like these when it's cold is just horrible but as soon as I put socks on they are getting cooked and theyre like help I can't breath its too hot and we're drowning in sweat so sad so sad but i think id always pick uncomfortable cold over uncomfortable heat because uncomfortable heat quickly makes me irritable but also there was this one wuestion abiut being stuck in a hot sandy desert or a cold arctic desert and I forget what I choose and my reasoning id have to get thw question again and fully interface eith it also when i brushed my teeth it gave me a flash of wasabi peas in my mind and I got a craving and the whole time the mintiness was stinging my tongue thats all i could think about but why do they sell wasabi peas in such big quantities how do you eat that many I mean I can the last time I ate wasabi peas I ate like half the bag but my taste buds were singed and I couldn't taste anything for days so like who's eating that much wasabi peas which makes me think of mental images again and like I can't create them but they definitely pop up in my head a lot not of my own creation and if I can its pretty situational like the exercise to close your eyes and picture an apple its really hard for me in that context but if I'm thinking of an apple ive seen in recent memory it gets more vivid but it needs a lot of context to ground it it cant be just the apple it needs to be the fruit bowl and all the other fruit surrounding or the produce isle or a cartoon depiction in a classroom/school kinda setting but then like with the wasabi peas thing Ill just have shit pop inti my head and its like hey remember this isnt it similar to whats happening now and im like yeah actually ive never thought about it like thst thats pretty cool thanks brain there was this one time it's either the smell or taste of ladybugs but I told my dad that the taste of metal is the same as the smell of ladybugs I think that was it and he was like what does that even mean that doesn't make sense why do you have those experiences even and I was like ok I guess I just won't talk to you then lol but then there's also bad images like if something sharp gets near my face I have a chance of getting images of eyes being gouged and it's not that fun and if I go on escalators i have the chance of seeing like final destination type stuff and I have to jump off at the end to get over the metal platform at the bottom or top and back onto the normal flooring

[telemartus]

cant stop thinking about the Democracy with mullets. sorry but i think i'll have 2 draw it.

[taireierre]

consider: poly og archive aquad

[william-afton-positivity]

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[zubatz]

idk if this is just me but i keep thinking about the stuff that people consider weird abiut me and how it compiles into who i am as a person and i think its really cool. im queer, im autistic, im mentally ill, im disabled, i sleep with stuffed animals, i have 13 self-done tattoos, i cant drink coffee, i like my tea with whole lactose free milk and honey, i stop to pick wildflowers for my sister when i see them, i collect pokemon cards, and so many other things. all of these contribute to and make up who i am as a person and i am unashamed of them. i know people think im strange and it doesnt bother me bc i love who i am and everything that makes me this way

[compromisedlezlove]

I keep seeing that blocked number pop up on your phone logs. I dont wanna be crazy but you only had 3 numbers blocked, so its gotta be her calling you..i cant stop worrying or wondering if you still talk to her when im not around. Whats stopping yoi from downloading a text app? Or when she calls you can see, then you call her back on an app. Call my fuckin crazy idc. I even asked you about your tablet and you still never brought it inside but allowed me to break your phone yesterday... "Oh i didnt think abiut it" or "i forgot" NONSENSE!! YOU KNOW HOW BADLY IT HAS BEEN BUGGING ME YOU HAVE YOUR TABLET WITH YOU. Yet you STILL keep it in your van. idk none of this makes sense to me... I seen her number pop up when she called last time and it was blocked, i have this stupid feeling you're going in and deleting them when I ask about it so i dont get pissed....but shouldnt you WANT to tell me if someone who puts our relationship in danger contacts you??? Im so confused. I STILL tell you who im texting no matter what, and im not the one who cheated.. I mean shit you READ OVER MY SHOULDER, like I got shit to hide..excuse me???

The sex is nice. Im really loving it, but its not fixing what I was hoping it would...my broken fuckin heart..

I wish none of this had happened. Im soo fucked up in the head..

[moonlit-void-to-the-far-unknown]

AHHHH I CANT WAIT FOR THE JOHN MULANEY TRIO ONE, I LITERALLY THINK ABIUT THAT ALL THE TIME HE’D LITERALLY PUSH THEM TOGETHER AWWWEE

John would pull all the stops. Just using everything to make it happen.

And it would. Oh it would but it would be slow. And it would kill John but he loves this irl slow burn. Just

“And I realized I was writing fan fiction about my two friends and I was addicted. I couldn’t stop imagining them getting married, having babies and me a proud 37 year old father to a 27 year old man....And his soon to be wife and as he would say baby mama”

Like you know he would be like us with that shit just needing the irl fanfic to fuel him.

[vinegarandpain]

i remembered something i didn't want to

and now i cant stop thinking abiut it

why are memories coming back now???

i dont want them. i don't want to remember anything.

[teddy-feathers]

look my problem with the au megamind where Roxanne is the alien and megamind is the reporter is i cant stop thinking about what i want out of that and how its probably not what other people want out of that which should mean 'oh shit i gotta write it' but really means 'in the next couple of months im going to rewatch megamind and be extremely frustrated because idk how to write these people as is let alone in an au'

but here are some thoughts

Itd have to take place on megaminds home world so like. have to develop that culture and frame it as the usual and other things as oddities

metroman still shows up at the same time the baby human does

roxan richie and metromans rivalry is less of a game and more of a metroman one up'd her ome to many times so now shes gotta take him out

its fine not because shes incompetent- in fact her death rays and pointy sticks are ingenious and have 0% public property or civilian causalities - but because metroman is not only impossible to kill, he adapts to anything that gets close (anything that doesnt kill him makes him stronger literally)

i guess this means theres a good chunk of the story that is centered around human adaptability vs perfect hero dudes adaptability

Roxanne Ritchie is actually a noted scientist or something at the local research facility - i figure blue people planet is really advanced and everyones at least a little technosmart but while it doesnt come as easily or naturally to Roxanne her way of thinking is really unique n shiz and shes an asset to every team....

but if you see her in a mask with some project from the lab macguivered into a gun trying to kill metroman well, no ones getting hurt and humans need hobbies and everyone respects the mask desptie the fact shes the ONLY human on the planet so its not like its hard to figure out who she is

she does spend a lot of nights having to rebuild projects and apologizing and such but basically everyone plays the plausible deniability card and asks her questions abiut what went wrong and okay so the masked menace failed after you let them steal our project but lets pretend for a moment the goal was to fix crops how would you say this did? and grumply shed revamp the guns weird side effect into an alien pollinating crop duster or whatever

got carried away when REALLY all I WANTED to say was

Whille Roxanne Ritchie is adaptable ingenuity and gets away at the last minute NOT because no ones trying to catch her but shes just that CLEVER and thinks ahead and shiz....

Megamind is the guy trying to interview her in the middle of a fight like he thinks he's cute - i mean he is but shes chasing after metroman and skids to a stop because this jerk stepped in for a comment. or shes lining up the perfect shot but theres a close up of megaminds reporter bag in the way

the thing is that maybe... blue people arent violent. a natural disaster hit recently and theyre coming back from it and if the two adopted alien kids want to play extreme tag well no ones getting hurt and Roxanne Ritchie will grow out of her competitiveness no doubt caused by just how superior EVERYONE on the planet is by finding her own niche and metroman will grow up and stop bating her because maybe he IS still better than everyone else and thats met with "oh very nice we're proud" but it doesnt really validate him or make him feel special because its just treated as a special thing he can do by everyong but Roxanne Ritchie and once he's found something that makes him feel good regardless of the attention or lack of it he'll stop playing too

but megamind? megamind has an imagination that loves drama and blowing things out of proportion and thats part of why his reports are so popular? like yeah everyones treating this super hero showdown with indulgence but megamind is good at framing theatrics so that this news story is actually a compelling narrative? and also everyone can see the tension is going to have one of these three "kids" confessing live someday

and maybe he gets carried away. one of those 'aw well next time you could do x or y' or has some technological creation that accidentally actually makes Metroman flinch during an interview

and Roxanne Ritchie starts paying attentionto him for the first time.

and minion warns him but he doesnt listen. minion is lower class and is afraid of being replaced like a pet like some people do but Roxanne Ritchie Ritchie doesnt have a minion and even if she did theyre Best Friends not like those other blue people minion uperclass people.

and he carelessly says something unforgivable and Roxanne Richie uses his ideas and actually succeeds in killing metroman

so she goes to prison - a place they had to build just for her because this hasnt happened since stars knows when

and somebody else is doing the camera because minion left just is gone and megamind looks defeated but testifies against her and is quiet and subdued and stpps being a reporter for a bit

and.... idk. i feel like we'll have to resolve the whole class system so minon goes underground and finds other minons who are unhappy with the way of things and if theyre ALREADY rebuilding society after that huge natural disaster that DIDNT blow up their planet thanks TO a minion well ehy cant they fix this too?

so theres a rebellion going on and theyve got a secret weapon to make blue people listen and idk but i feel like it's Metroman

and... how do stories like this go ive forgotten

minion wouldnt tell megamind or he would

metroman would break Roxanne Ritchie out of prison during the first riot of the minion revolt?

they talk and compare why they hated eachother and slowly work together and are actually a great team?

and then they need a reporter to make themselves heard as something other than minions going crazy

and so of course they go to megamind for help getting the story out

something something megamind is minions sidekick for this adventure

"Roxanne Ritchie was raised by the planet and turned against it and instigated civil unrest and killed a person who was also the good child etc etc instead of just growing up to face your problems"

"actually im alive and i finally found my place? helping out the real heros?"

"i mean i did try to kill him, but he forgave me and we're kinda working together because planet of moms and dads that raised us? yall actually are the ones who need to grow up and let go of the traditions that dont serve etc etc"

and megamind does a huge public apology to minion

and... uhhhhhhhhh fuck i really dont know how these storyies go

the blue people start making amends

metroman basically becomes a social worker for minion childern because finding their original families is a bit hard and most of these kids are just going to end up being raised by super dad but at least the rebellion minion families are actually geting to be their own family units and in a couple gens thatll be normal

Roxanne Ritchie goes back to being the token human in the lab and hangs up her super suit and is generally dissatisfied with this

until one night a hero breaks into her apartment to make her answer for her crimes and so for a legit hot second theyre fighting and megamind says something and Roxanne apologizes and then fighting stops being an argument and goes into banter flirting

the worss "where theres evil good will rise up to fight it" peob comes up a lot in this fic in different iterations

anyways megamind isnjust basically like hey wanna do this like. for the rest of our lives dramatic battle showdowns like its entertainment but like no theyre doing this for real?

the answer is hell yeah

and its a polyship and sometimes Roxanne is helping with the kids and then Megamind bursts in to "save" the family from her evil clutches and 90% of the time everything is improve

megamind kidnaps Roxanne to make metromind save her and a good half of the conversation is that hes an idiot for coming shes tried to kill him three times this week and hes bitching because do you know how hard it is to find a sitter for 30 odd minion kids this short notice and they better make it up to him

Roxanne is not superdad but the 30 odd minion kids adore when she comes over because they mob the villain so hard until finally mega comes to save her because hes actually very good with the kids

of course this poly ship isnt complete without minion and at some point minion and mega realize theyve actually been married for years and Roxanne and metro tease them shamelessly for it

minion and his race need a real name obviously

when Roxanne was a... graduate her senior project theses thingy was essentially "im going to go back to planet earth itll be great ive figured out were im from and how to go there in a reasonable amout of time" and everyone had to sit her down and explain that unlike metroman they knew where she was from the planet was just destroyed.

they never figured out where metroman was from because his direction sharply changed to follow baby Roxannes course and mirrored her coding despite very obviously how he had originated from elsewhere

this is important because his race is basically coming to conquer the blue people planet soon - the group finds out - and will download all the survival upgrades metroman has gotten to become unkillable and then just come down to the surface and be unstoppable taking the place over and whiping out the planet like theyve done many many times

a good chunk of the time trying to figure out how to stop them when this planet is REALLY against murder war and violence for good reason and even if they WOULD do that its impossible over looks some alone time that leads to megamind and metroman figuring out how to like kill him so when the bad guys show up theyll go "whelp better not fuck with them" and leave but between roxanne and minion they manage to not only stabilize metroman (Roxanne blood transfusions maybe???) but they manage to scare the aliens so bad they tuck tail and leave speading rumors that these are the scariest mfs in space (go minion)

metroman never lets Roxanne live down saving his life

eventually space humans show up to check the place out

megamind loves everything human despite most of the planet thinking theyre primitive and showing it

roxanne is reluctant to meet them at first but then really relates to them?

for a good long while it REALLY seems like megamind and Roxanne are just going to go on space adventures with the humans leaving metroman and minion - who really doesnt like them and also they kinda rub him the wrong way because he's non bipedal and they kinda make fun of him in a 'we totally dont mean anything by it lighten up' sort of way.

they don't go of course but they may have stolen a lot of atar charts n shit and who hasnt wanted to take a road trip through space with 30 odd childern who will need names and personalities and may be chopped down to a slightly more reasonable number by this point?

metroman loves space karaoke and his natural abilites mean he learns languages fast but no he still cant carry a tune

megamind and Roxanne still duke it out on various alien cityscapes

minion usually breaks them out of jail if theyre not to be let out the next day because nothing was actually damaged that didnt belong to them.

one memorable occasion it was metoman in a fight with megamind and they wont say what its about but both look very put out and minion looks smug

it doesn't matter in the end because Roxanne teams up with the childern to propose to them first

apparantly i had a lot more ideas about this then i meant to? i mean its not well thoughout out and despite the drama a good half the fic is just going to be cute relationship building stuff between the four of them

[disappearingcigarette]

i really wish i wasnt hyper aware of everything that i do

like if i was able to just be an ass and not know so many of my problems would be solved

and i know!! im annoying!! its annoying to be around someone who’s sad about their dog 24/7 and also finds ways to bring it up bc theyre attention seeking and wants everyone to know about their sadness!! i know it makes everyone uncomfortable but i continue to do it!!! if i could snap my fingers and not be sad anymore oh my god i would!! just to stop being annoying but i literally have nothing else to focus on that i care about. i dont care baout school ebcause i feel like a failure because of how other people talk about their majors and how its like their third choice but this major was my first choice!! this school wasnt even my first choice but bc i know some other person didnt want to go to the school i was going to and so many adults didnt react in the exact specific way i wanted them to react i decided to go to a totally different school!!!!!!!!!!! and im writing this out in a stupid ass tumblr post because i want to capitalise off my sadness because what else can i do with it and also the hope that someone sees this and i dont even know what she’d do because how do you react to someone just spiralling for no reason like genuinely my life is fine theres no reason for me to complain but i am and i know that its bad to minimize my struggles because other people have it worse but im my own person and need ot prioritse myself like i know!!! i know all the things i should be doing!!! i wish i didnt!! i wish i just festered in my sadness and got over it like a normal person but i have issues and want other people to feel bad for hurting me but not so bad because im toom uch of a coward for that but im still an ass so i changed my stupid discord name to “overly sensitive” ebcause thats what i got called because someone continued to be an ass!!!! like why cant i be that deluded that i cant see everything wrong with what im doing!!!!!! but i see it all!! i look at what i do and i think about it every day of my life it htink abiut what i should have done for my dog and everything that i ddi wrong and everything that im doing wrong for the people in my life thatll die next and i can just feel!!!! my death apporaching!!! i know that im doing to die and i dont know how but its always going to happen until it eventually does!! and i just feel like my life it written and ive been so stupid and unaware of myself for however long i didnt know i wsas queer and then oh if i look back at my life like holy shit its all there so every time im out doing something it feels like its an omen for my death like i could feel my dog’s death coming because a snake got caught in our house and i didnt save it what the fuck!!! ishould have saved that snake because then my dog died and i know i know its not connected because obviously there was a lot going on with my dog but it hjust.. i hope this makes sense please make sense. i dont know who will see this but i just feel like nothing. like not even feeling like garbage i feel like a void. like i cant be a person because what kind of person is like this??? i  just. i must be the problem because how can the world be this bad like i must be doing somehting wrong. and i know i have people that care. about me but it doesnt feel real and when i die in a car crash those people will cry and they wont know that i couldnt even remember them when i was alive. im not gonna kill myself by the way it just gets hard and its very hard now. ill be fine in a week like its just because im tired and in my own head. there i go minimizing again hahaaaaa. its ok.

[tynarax]

self acceptance

the last days i thought a lot about stuff, so much that i finally start to understand things i never thought i would. i thought abiut my past the things ive done, not to feel sad about them but to keep them in my memory and to better understand myself. in the past i have always searched for excuses for the bad things ive done, i took an narcisists test to excuse my mistakes, mistakes that hurt people, the reasons why i cant be happy with anyone is because i cant be happy with myself. i always keep pushing beyond my limits to find excuses but never even waste a single second to start accepting me for who i am and today i will change that. i will think about my past mistakes and the excuses i came up with, i will ask myself the real reason why and stop beeing a coward who hides himself behind layers of lies and excuses.