#i cant stop thinking abiut them

[narppo]

oh My god . is that

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[hacksawboy]

im doing brush testing soz chat

[cent-scratchnsniff]

reread tiphs dialog recently. i love them lots

[pilonciillo]

i genuinely don’t know how i’m supposed to act at my age

[venomgender]

CALE!!!!!

[olvitier]

Sorry its so late buf i am in an Edling mood tonight and I will never stop thinking about the idea of how theyre the epitome of right person wrong time.

(obviously in a context of like fandom shenannigans where canon events arent 100% set in stone like edling arent canon but also idc !! they are to me! im ignoring it let me be insane) ANYWAY

Even if they wanted to be together post promised day Ling has all the responsibilities of Xing and his clan and Edward would never hold him back from that for a second. Im of the opinion that brotherhood Edward feels a lot of guilt for wanting love from the people around him particularly those he sees as good (winry, alphonse, etc) especially if hes done things hes perceived as hurting them (maes’ death, the transmutation, etc etc). Which is why I think Edward connects with Ling so well cayse he doesnt carry the weight of a lot if his past mistakes, and then when the stone happens its like goddamn it i roped this guy into my shit again. Like i dont know Edward doesnt really dedicate himself so fully to people outside of winry and ed a lot so its interesting like!!

He cares about a lot of people like the majority of the allied cast and we see him be openly affectionate towards Nina and Hughes pre their deaths but I think Ling is the only person hes ever decided to stick with WITHOUT alphonse? I may be wrong but the whole sure Ill stay with you and trust my brother and Winry to stay safe and follow you around the outskirts of the east for a week till the promised day to protect my new friend is so??? what?? huh???

But anyone my point is post promised day Edward cant really ever see a future with Ling because of all the responsibility Ling holds outside of him and its veyr tragic imo like especially because in a different scenario if Ling didnt have those responsibilities and Edward wasn’t so dedicated to the people around him to a fault of never thinking about his own desires I think they could have the possibility of a future.

Like I have read a lot of fanfiction abiut Ed traveling to Xing and living with him there but?? I realistically cant see him ever doing that just solely because Edward is not the type of person to settle down! like its my one and only criticism of the fma manga is that I cannot see Edward ever being satisfied with a simple life? Like even in Fma 03 which is my favourite interpretation of Edwards character once he gets stranded in our world he learns?? Rocket Science?? For the chance to get back to Amestris but he doesnt really seem to take that goal all that seriously especially considered Alfons ends up getting involved in a lot more aircraft projects than Edward like Edwsrd genuinely enjoys learning!!

Im pretty sure he was the one who dragged Alphonse into Hoenhiems office when they were kids after he left, probably to Al’s reluctance of if they were allowed in there, and started ripping through all of his old books just to learn. Edward never stops and it gets so bad that he never stops to even consider himself constantly worrying about getting his brother back or improving the states of others lives especially when! ya know! the whole country is at stake!!

So in a circumstance post promised day where Ed decides what he wants to do (my personal favourite interpretation is either an alchemical researcher outside of directly performing alchemy, ie revolutionizing the circle matrixes and discovering nee combinations or becoming a professor of some kind) I dont think he would give that up to settle again. And obviously Ling cant exactly up and leave being Emperor unless he decides he doesnt want to, im not the most knowledgable on Lings characterization so I wont speak there but!

They have so much fun together and compliment each other and genuinely care about each other so much but their happiness and fulfillment as people to themselves and others make it so its nearly impossible they would ever realistically end up together and its really doomed and tragic!! idk i think about it a lot.

[jjcocker]

hm

Thinking abiut ......Tthe rockrs (remaking my how they got 2gether lore ++ Also wanting to make one for srocker but theyre not nearly as fleshed out as jj 😭i mesn. He kinda is but i dint knoww)?guhhhhhhh Thought dump

uh Imoodranr to note ill ev talking avout uh sthuff like suicide andall. bb careful ok

uh uh uh uhhhhhh Okay so likeeeee. jj was fuxken Deoressed during the . the obetime shge cmstoppped making music

frankly i wana chabge the time where she started #/Girling . Bc i think its be really funny if she like. stopped w her career whn she stil was an egg and then came back with like. jj knockersHAJAHAJSHDJAJSJS SORRY.

Therye so cute id eat glass for them

What if they sorta cracked each others eggs somehow.... Like idk srockee r helps her out she hlps him too

MULTIGENDER YURI. BTW

Oh uh back 2 the first Point uhhhhhh sorry. Uh so jjwS like depressed rihht. She felt erhere were obly 2 options. either ending her career or her life

idk I'll be real i do not think that her first attempt was after the injury. Shse had multiple (esp when she was like.. a teenager (16-18) bc shewas having a horrible gedner crisis and also jsut. Going "fuck everythign 🖕" and runibg away frim homr (bc in my loreeeee shes adopted abdthe only perdon who cared abt her was hervsister(erina)(bc i hc her ro ve her suster)}OWWFUCK MY HAIF IS ITHCY

Yeah im just considering making her even worse ans givinv her pixiv fic writer-levels of Issues.

i remember uh a post That might be really insensitive bc I never had it but i akso thougt of . like. jj bejgn used just bc of her fame. Uh like uhh. I dont knowwww i never had it but like people whod just. pressure her itno sex and then leave her. Bc like. BANDO DE INTERESSEIRO tehre I cant word it englishly

I JUSUT RRALIZED THID POAT ISA LIE THIS IS JIST ME TRAUMATIZING JJ LOL

Her srudet isfn safe either. Ever aince he qas little he had the expectacration that he Must be good ar stuff . like. he was the Golden Child. and then as you kniw golden chukd burnout..adn jg got even wirsr

I dfk i font Lore him as much

i mwan i do just make him me

buf cooler

and more transgendef

Anyways they both have beef with tsunku (silly way of saying They bigh vave relgionus trauma

jj also had a seuxkaify crisis for yrs and in those same relarionships that shed get used in shed force herself to be So Heteronormative . Shitty relationship after shitty relationship . Abd jnternalized gomophobia Okay ill edit tbus post later im tried oftypinh

BY LATERe IEMANN Now CHrALSLHO, N

ok so jj was like suuuuuper duper depresse d during the. parada in music. Its ljke i said theree eyah!!

and when shefinsly got better (phsyically) she fot worse (mentally). I dont know maybe she just. The Anxiety..mixed w the Presure of being back ons stage

important ish to note ghat she DID NOTT EAT WELL like she Wouldnt eat a proper breakfast. Not even in an inability 2 get up/executive dysfuction (is that the right term) way but more in a "i dont deserve it" way

thya all chanhed when she met srocker!! waow

Hinestly. why Did she start doing guitar lessons ?

anyways.

He was like. a chulll guy. And like she actually staretd tobturst him (SOEMTHING THAT WAS GRADUAL,BTW. SROCKER FELL FIRST AND REALLY QUICK THO . AS IN LIKE IMMEDIATELY FINDING HER THE HOTTEST SHIT EVR HES RIGHT FOR IT BTW AND..YEA

And srocker notices that jj doesmt seem .. too well? She still doesnt eat well btw. but like she has someone she actually kinda Trusts :)

Somehow they got 2 know where each others house is. idfk how hyey js did

at thispooint sr lives withj Pierce (police call guy ) annd jj Alone . <- unrelated but what if sr mover in w hertobher houde wthen thhey gir togrthr.

and um uh so (a scenario that i plan on making s fic of) is like. sr makws jj a meal bx hes concerned. Cause zhre looks like she hasnt eaten s good meal in a while K.(bc she really Didnt .)i dont renemveee thst k whar the hell

this is a reocurrint htibf!!!!! I think he likes to check up on jj v v often. Ans she feels. Weird. like Why is she cared about . Idk I'm projecting a bit of me here it mkaes her feek Weird when someone cares about her bc it's just ..... Why are you worrying about Me ? There are people who go thru so much worse adb yet. Me?

idk. the pinung gets more. pining-y

and also rhe uh first kiss thing. Lien that other ppst. i didn tmKNOWWS What to Go with! idk they smooched and started for eealissiseses dating.

oh yea and also during the time shes known him shes been eating better + just feeling Better. un gnersl. Because uh she has a cute lil freak that loves her ^_^ ♥︎

[miodaibukis]

veronico emmm yap to me plz about veronico gib me hcs gib me au ideas..plsss.... jut yap as much as u want

heh BET ANON!!!

vampire veronico (au)

catgirl veronika x nico (au i took this idea from someone who drew veronico)

scene kid veronico (au)

headcanons :

nico sometimes is too scared too sleep in bed with veronika cus she bites them while shes asleep

veronika paints nicos nails black (HEH REAL!!!)

veronika helps nico with their eye liner (i actually dont know how to spell that so apologies)

in winter veronika made a big ass snowball and hit nico with it not knowing veronika was gonna hit them ,

veronika helps nico defend themselfs and scare people

they often cuddle ejjridksksk thisbis is so csnnon im so Insane abiut them

veronikas body is either REALLY cold or warm , nicos body is warm

they own a lot of cats

the cats they own would get scared of veronika and scratch her but nico would try to get the cats to warm up to veronika

THEIR KID IS RAN FROM BANDORI ITS REAL!!! CANON!! (i cant spell their last name.. i think thats their name... i think.)

they both love sweets

fat YAPPING SESSION ABOUT THEM!! :

oh boy og boy where do i strta!!! i love tjem sososo much i started liking them before the veronico comic. I never knew that comic existed untill someone told me about it which i got so happy realizing they had some official art , i started liking them as soon as i finished watching drdt , i thought they dynamic was cute and i was a huge fan of rarepairs , and i usually was a shipper based on designs, i was back a verturo glazer (i still like them but not a lot) and i shared my positive thoughts about veronico in a discord server which i got more people into liking it , since im also autistic my special interest is veronico , i really dont like seeing their antis beacuse people who hate them dont bave a reason for it , they call it "one sided" or think that veronika doesnt respect nicos boundaries ,, whixh both is FALSE , veronika respects peoples boundaries if someone asks her to stop she WILL stop. she never forced nico to kiss her , she likes scaring people , nico doesnt hate her or whatsoever they didnt wanna kiss her , which i understand since in drdt, the series veronika and nico didnt rlly interact much , when i started drawing , i made 2 ocs that i shipped with , one is a demigirl with a them pref (My main oc) whos called syko and one oc thats a female and named alex , i started making sykos and alexs relationship something like veronico , alexs personality was something close to nico and charles. sykos personality was something like veronikas and areis , (SORRY FOR MY OC YAPPING SESSION) also new darling by maretu always reminded me of veronico , i was a huge fan of maretu and vocaloid so thats the reason why i drew veronico as miku and teto , eijsisis i love veronico..

[my-castles-crumbling]

hi!! this is just a bit of a rant, bc i dont want to tell anyone i actually know about it... bc i think i have a crush on my best friend who has a boyfriend.

a very nice boyfriend who she loves a lot, and i am so so happy for them. like, seeing her blush and kick her feet abiut him is so adorable and i love that for her, genuinely. the problem is that her boyfriend (who lives two hours away) gave her permission to kiss other people "for the bit," so pretty much every time we hang out we end up making out. like, a lot. yesterday i was at her house with two other people and she was cuddling me during the movie, and she was holding ny hand the entire time, and we were practically in each others laps. she sings to me all the time, i cook food for her, she does my makeup, and her mom thinks we've been dating for 5 months, and shes so sweet and funny and she'll take my hands to start ballroom dancing when she's got her headphones on, but i don't mind that i cant hear the music. i know its platonic but she kisses me like she means it and i cant help but wonder what it would be like if she didnt have a boyfriend.

i feel like this is the problem with gay girls 😭 female friendships are usually so close, emotionally and physically, that she literally gave me a hickey platonically. like what 😭

i know i should stop kissing her. its not right of me to let myself get a crush on her when shes not single (and shes my best friend, i dont want to ruin that.) but 😔. ill miss it lmao

do u have tips for getting over a crush?

Hi!

Honestly, the best tip I have is to let yourself feel. Meaning, let yourself cry, let yourself write sappy poetry, let yourself talk about it. Don't bottle it up. But...yeah, kissing her probably isn't the best idea, either. It's not fair to you, especially since she's giving some confusing signals. And it's okay to say that you just don't want to kiss her atm.

Sending love!

[buriedclown]

Sat on the bathroom floor. Shaking. With that familiar nauseous feeling. My head feels heavy. My neck hurts. Theres blood everywhere. I try to keep my eyes open as i clean. Im tired. My hands shaking as i struggle. I try to find the source. Nothing. I sit for a moment. Drowning. Feeling like this is it. I finally went too deep. And then its gone. Im still shaking and my head still feels heavy. But theres no blood. The tissues and wetwipes all clean. And now im just surrounded by nothing. I can still feel it yet i cant see it.

What just happened. How did this happen. Did anything really happen. Or am i truly losing my mind.

Still feeling nauseous i drag my shaking body to my bed. I check myself over again. Nothing. I think about the next few days. I think about the hospital down the road. I think about the train on wednesday.

I lie down and tell myself ill be fine.

I think abiut what ive eaten. Or lack thereof. My apps been deleted again. How fun. My body seems to return to how it usually is. But i cant rid myself of this dreadful feeling that what i saw was more than just my brain messing with me. But i dont know how to say that without people thinking im fucking insane. I dont even know how to tell them my meds dont work anymore. Or at least theyve stopped working recently.

I cant sleep. I dont feel hunger until im shaking and collapsing under my own weight and even then i question if i truly need it. Strange dreams haunt me but im too afraid to tell people as i cant cope with questions about it and then something happens and i feel like i cldve helped prevent it. I cant leave my room unless someones with me nevermind the house. I refuse to answer the door. Everyones out to get me. If i answer they may break in. If i go to uni i may be attacked. There waiting for me. And i dont know how to stop it.

I feel like im finally losing it. And im fucking 24. No this body is 21. Strange. To say the least.

[madxzxz]

ITS SO COLD ITS SO CHILLY the only reason I left my bed was because I had to use the restroom and so when I was finished I instantly got in the shower well not instantly something I never do is run the shower to let it get hot before getting in which i magic maybe but I just turn it on and scurry to the back on my tippy toes so I don't get hit but I couldn't take the risk today because if my body temperature dropped any lower I would have started taking damage now I'm all warm wrapped up by all the drops of water mmm and I'm brushing my teeth and now I'll be able to brave the day conquer it even I have Russian starting in 5 hours and idk if I'll be able to do anything but wait for it to start but that will be enough also something I commonly don't do it wash my legs well only the calves and shins if I am feeling lazy I stop at the knees and skip straight to my feet but I wash my feet separately from my body in part because I might be self conscious about them I have very clammy hands and feet and I cannot wear socks in doors I can but it's not as comfy and my feet are really sensitive to temperature and it will never be a winning situation because I have poor circulation to them so they are naturally cold and on the verge of necrosis so times like these when it's cold is just horrible but as soon as I put socks on they are getting cooked and theyre like help I can't breath its too hot and we're drowning in sweat so sad so sad but i think id always pick uncomfortable cold over uncomfortable heat because uncomfortable heat quickly makes me irritable but also there was this one wuestion abiut being stuck in a hot sandy desert or a cold arctic desert and I forget what I choose and my reasoning id have to get thw question again and fully interface eith it also when i brushed my teeth it gave me a flash of wasabi peas in my mind and I got a craving and the whole time the mintiness was stinging my tongue thats all i could think about but why do they sell wasabi peas in such big quantities how do you eat that many I mean I can the last time I ate wasabi peas I ate like half the bag but my taste buds were singed and I couldn't taste anything for days so like who's eating that much wasabi peas which makes me think of mental images again and like I can't create them but they definitely pop up in my head a lot not of my own creation and if I can its pretty situational like the exercise to close your eyes and picture an apple its really hard for me in that context but if I'm thinking of an apple ive seen in recent memory it gets more vivid but it needs a lot of context to ground it it cant be just the apple it needs to be the fruit bowl and all the other fruit surrounding or the produce isle or a cartoon depiction in a classroom/school kinda setting but then like with the wasabi peas thing Ill just have shit pop inti my head and its like hey remember this isnt it similar to whats happening now and im like yeah actually ive never thought about it like thst thats pretty cool thanks brain there was this one time it's either the smell or taste of ladybugs but I told my dad that the taste of metal is the same as the smell of ladybugs I think that was it and he was like what does that even mean that doesn't make sense why do you have those experiences even and I was like ok I guess I just won't talk to you then lol but then there's also bad images like if something sharp gets near my face I have a chance of getting images of eyes being gouged and it's not that fun and if I go on escalators i have the chance of seeing like final destination type stuff and I have to jump off at the end to get over the metal platform at the bottom or top and back onto the normal flooring

[observaureium]

hotch is very high-strung. he cant help but admit that, he prefers order when it's possible and he tries to keep his appearance tidy to reflect that. it's not quite his fault that his ties are a bit tight around his neck and there are few, very few, fewer than few even, moments he felt himself suffocate under the urge to fix every mistake. to stay in control. and yes, he's always been attracted to women whose hair was shing and smooth and their fashion simple yet attractive; they were the very picture of effortless perfection.

but now as he stares straight on into the eye of the beast, he is astounded. not by an overwhelming urge to do something abiut the mess but how content he is to just let is.

the belly of the beast being that one curl at the crown of reid's mane that just wont go down.

it sticks out like a sore thumb given the fact prentiss rossi and garcia always had their immaculately styled (whatever hairspray they had must be as strong as the single strand of self control hotch had left in him to not run up and kiss reid breathless every morning), hotch's hair was too cropped to have the chance to rebel, and morgan's hair... was not at all capable of that. so, it should bother him. drive him wild. but it didnt bother him at all.

no, the only thing driving him wild was how adorable reid looked. well, it was the only thing until hotch's ear catches the rest of their conversation as he walks on over. that strand of self control was withering more and more by the second.

"...er, i woke up late so i didn't have time to check my hair in the morning and i guess it must have a mind of its own--oh, good morning hotch!" reid says, turning from jj.

"good morning, jj and reid, your hair-"

"--is a mess, i know, i'll-"

"don't touch it. it looks good on you."

no matter how many times he's seen reid grow flustered, he doesn't think he'll ever stop adoring it. the way the red spreads over his face and the quirk of his lips. the way he smiles is tilted to one side, uneven, the patches of flush from his surprise too are imperfect. there were very many imperfections, little details missed on spencer reid.

yet high-strung, monotone, by-the-book hotch... loved them all.

"really?"

"yes, it's cute." and that was the last thing hotch said, with the very ends of his self-control strand intact, before he walked away with a smile let loose on his face. little did he know that reid's face mirrored his own, and stayed there throughout the entire day.

what didn't stay throughout the entire day was rossi's hairdo. whatever hairspray he used was no match for the breeze, and he wasn't half as cute as reid with his loose hair or two.

I'm sad gimme some nice fluffy hotchreid thoughts plsss

[telemartus]

cant stop thinking about the Democracy with mullets. sorry but i think i'll have 2 draw it.

[taireierre]

consider: poly og archive aquad

[william-afton-positivity]

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