#i cant even using a fucking flag pin

[thundersyst3m]

Happy pride month for meee :3

[lord-shitbox]

whole ask game with mezumaru

Why do you like or dislike this character?

many reasons. he's silly and pathetic but also has his fucked up&evil (silly style) moments + very transgender coded + the skull is baller + he comes as part of a 2-guy set so i can think long and stupid about him & gozu. i am Almost Always insane about a set of characters because I like looking at how they go together

Favorite canon thing about this character?

umm prob the fact that he wears the skull because his face is really girlish. [trangdesnder flag emoji]. i like his hair too. the fact that hes over 400 yrs old is funny but also gives me eternal headaches because iirc nurarihyon married yohime when he was like. 106 years old or something? so hes fucking 500? i think i just spent an hour looking for the panel that specifies nurarihyon & yohime's ages [something something youre turning 17 and im turning 107 ? i dont think it was 1007] but i cant find it. whatever

Least favorite canon thing about this character?

i could dislike nothing about mezu.

ok actually the fact that hes a minor character & a lot of fine details abt the gyuki clan often contradict or dont go along with other worldbuilding because theyre minor characters and shiibashi forgot 👎👎👎👎👎👎👎

If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?

um... i think a form of animation that uses interesting media would be extremely swag. like stop motion or the mob psycho whiteboard effect or the collage-style animations that look like moving quilts. gyuki clan spinoff series when

What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

reminds me of him. tonchinkan feast & villain teniwoha also

What's something you have in common with this character?

long hair and trans gender

What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?

😂😂🤣🤣😀😂🤣🤣🤣😂😂😂😂🤣🤣😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😂😂🤣😂😂😁😂😁😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣😂🤣

ITS JUST ME AND 2 OTHER INSANE BITCHES ON PIXIV

What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

not post or care about him ever (me and the character with 2 moments of plot relevance)

Could you be roommates with this character?

ummm. i think so. I'd make him do the dishes

Could you be best friends with this character?

having a hard time with this one. his best friend is already gozu and im Sorta like him but I don't go with him as well

Would you date this character?

if he didnt look and act like twelve years old

What's a headcanon you have for this character?

gyuki clan has few to no women in it so it takes him A While to figure out women are real. he thinks women are just dudes in drag or something

What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?

👾🐸 :3

Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character.

i dont have the flavor of gay that lets me remember what any of those are. overalls and lots of pins/patches. converses. loose sweaters. colorful (but not super vivid) wardrobe

What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

gozumezu idc if its platonic or romantic

What's your least favorite ship for this character?

have i mentioned how like 3 people on the planet ever post him. gozumezu is the only ship if at all. but i would not like mezu x rikuo (not much chemistry imo, especially night rikuo)

What's a ship for this character you don't hate but it's not your favorite that you're fine with?

have to make up another ship for this.. wait maybe kappa x mezumaru has been a thing? i get that.

How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

Gyuki & Mezumaru are pretty close i enjoy that. Like even though Gyuki was in his merciless evil scary era he had a little guy clinging to his leg. found family for Real

How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?

N/A i would like to see him develop a good one w/ rikuo's friends though. apologize to maki & torii & yura for trying to kill them in the bath

Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?

gozumaru

If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

i write stupid little drabbles of them sometimes..gotta keep him silly thats all

If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to ths character? Something you don't like?

he's a significant character in 2 of these and one of those is in French.

Favorite picture of this character?

What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?

sugihara kei from yakuza's guide to babysitting is the same genre of "silly/pathetic guy that gets bullied by his buddy with bonus moments of scariness"

What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

uhh. this would've been like. over 3 years ago so i don't Remember but I know it was favorable. here's the first time I drew him (late 2020) holy shit i did not know what was coming to me

FREEBIE QUESTION!!

umm ok so I think the gyuki clan gets a gaming console & gozu obviously has bad violent gamer rage but will calm down when removed from the situation. however mezu in gamer voice chat picks up the foulest nastiest language ever & will not stop spouting shit for days. gyuki and gozumaru have to regulate his gaming time severely over this. also he will NOT leave animal crossing once he picks it up

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[moonssugar]

10, 16, & 20 for the pride asks please! :)

20. Have your ocs helped you in self discovery? How?

lets start off with 20 because its defintely the funniest lmaoooo

my main character sam is transmasc (a trans boy) and my tertiary protag is a lesbian (aubry) and she discovers this as the story goes out and let me to tell you there is nothing more hilarious than 1. writing and thinking extensively about how your character is a lesbian and pouring so much into that while being in total denial about yourself and 2. discovering even more about your own inwards trans feelings by giving your transmasc oc 90% of your personality and also through metaphor and symbolism by making a lot of the story a trans analogy. but wait, the character i see the most of myself in, sam, is transmasc but aubry, the second character i see so much of myself in, is a lesbian so how can these seemingly contradictory things be true simultaneously you ask? well it turns out that im a transmasc lesbian. who couldve saw that coming, right? (me. i saw this coming). still the funniest fucking thing about me like "yeah go ahead and tell yourself a story and accidently awaken something in yourself, this will be so funny and cool" and honestly it is so cool! one of the most writing things ive ever done

10. Does your oc celebrate Pride? How?

yes they do! sam has been to a local pride parade/event at some point with his parents (who are bi4bi). he also has a trans flag hanging up in his room that dual functions as a symbol of pride and also a window curtain that turns his room pink and blue at certain times of the day (its intentional). chelsie celebrates pride as well, mostly through self expression like with her clothing and style but she loves pride events too and collecting little pride themed objects that end up in random places. i feel like chelsie's way of celebrating pride is chaotic and spontaneous which suits her. both of them have pride themed bracelets and backpack pins, you know the baby queer stuff i love (i still love the baby queer stuff idc) and sam has trans, bi and rainbow themed tie dye shirts he made and loves to wear. aubry has never seen any pride flag or been to an event and she didnt even know gay people existed as well people and not the boogyman or theoretical person she heard about in church until she realized she was gay and met other queer people (and she literally has two dads LOL). but once she does she cant get enough of rainbows and the lesbian flag which in the alternate universe world where shes from no one knows its meant to symbolize queerness. so she gets to walk around with flags and colors that no one recognizes except her and her family. its hilarious, its her own "no one knows im a lesbian" pin. they just think shes from a different country or something (where all the pretty girls are from). sam and chelsie gifted her a lesbian flag through their mail system once she returned home and she cherishes it. mostly, i'd say my characters celebrate pride through living, being who they want to be and uplifting each other amd they love their glitter, music, make up, tie dye shirts, flags and rainbows too

16. Did you ever change an oc's identity when they were already established? Why?

my character's queer identities have been pretty solid since inception and through their development, its one of the things that have changed the least about them. sam used to be some flavor of trans/nonbinary but there are other nonbinary characters in my story now and sam ids with transmasc the most instead of nonbinary. chelsie has always been transfem as far as i can remember although i mightve imagined her cis one single time and then said "nah im gonna trans your gender no way in hell youre cis" when i didnt feel connected to her characterization [transgenderfication beam]. and aubry has remained gay as hell even as she started off as a completely different person that split into two then i used one half of the personality, refurbished it by gave it some religious trauma, pining and autism to create modern aubry then used the other half for something else. everyone else's personalities have started at the surface level idea of who i think they are and deepened and complexified from there and thats even more intricate than i could describe in one sitting and not always specifically about their queer identity

oh i almost forgot! one character (benjamin, aubry's father) has a bi panic awakening after he went through life identifying as gay and instead of a guy being the source of the panic it was aubry's mother (valid, i'd panic if i saw her too). his character started off as gay but aubry didn't hatch from a magic egg or grow from a pumpkin in a patch or fall to earth like a shooting start (amos's many joke versions of the birds and bees, amos is married to benjamin and is her dad #2) so i needed an explanation for that. he also discovers he's polyamorous in the process so good for him! other characters have become noticeably less cis over time but were already kinda gender weird to begin with if i squinted hard enough. like are you really cis if im writing you? be fr

also, sam's parents in my mind

[butch-bakugo]

Not to be an ass but yeah...

This lesbian was assaulted.... This trans woman was found dead.... Bi women get beat up on trains and are more likely to be hurt by their male partners than straight women..... This trans man died defending lesbians in germany.... These gay men are in camps in russia... This nonbinary person was killed.....

Amazing how you hear about violence aginest gay and trans people but i litterally cant find a single vetted article that shows violence aginest aro/ace pple for "aphobia". Like its always these excuses;

Aroaces face corrective rape! the "corrective rape" was not corrective and happend because the aroace person said no to sex and it was just mysogny because the aro/ace person was afab n would you look at that, the rapist was a cis man. Thats mysogny. Not to mention 80% of aro/ace people are cis women, trans men and afab nonbinary people aka the people raised litterally taught from birth that sex is not something for them to enjoy and they exist to please.

Doctors consider lack of sexual/romantic attraction to be a symptom instead of an orientation! Because lacking the desire for sex and relationships is a hallmark sign of trauma, abuse and mental illness. Its litterally symptom #1 to struggle with sex and commitment when your traumatized and ive litterally never met a not-traumatized aro/ace. I know this because im a traumatized aro/ace and no, "aphobia" isnt traumatic. Honestly, even if your aro/ace as a result of trauma, thats valid, just make sure your healing and that your honest about it.

Well, when i wore my ace pin, someone called me a queer! Thats a sign that me, being cisgender and heteroromantic asexual, am really queer! Experiencing misplaced oppression at the hands of homophobic and transphobic people dosent suddenly make you gay or trans. Also, they dont know what any of the flags mean so why tf would they care that you dont fuck unless its Tuesday? They just assume all little pins with a bunch of colored stripes mean child groomer gay pedo tranny, not demiaroace or wtf ever. They litterally only hate you because they assume you fuck the same gender or dont identify as ur brith sex. Thats it. It also dosent help that you go running around saying "im SOOO gay" and "im such a dirty little queer." When you are neither. When you say ur gay, they are gonna think ur gay. If they know ur cis and het and dont have sex, they dont give a fuck.

Well, your theory falls apart that aro/aceness is mostly brought on by trauma and mysogny when trans women, amab enbies and cis man aro/aces exist! Ok, you still havent disproven my point because 1. transfems and amab enbies usually have gender dysphoria which, speaking from my own experiences, complicates sex and makes it harder. Gender dysphoria is a mental illness and unless you bring to me 5 examples of cis het men who identify as aroace, you dont get to use them as a gotcha. Ive been gay for almost 10 years and ive still never met one, online or irl.

I also never stated that aro/aceness was purely brought on by trauma/mental illness and mysogny, its something that can just naturally happen. Ive just never seen it genuinely happen. Usually the person has trauma/mental illness or is afab or is trans or all three. All of these things, according to proven psychology, can affect the sex drive, attraction and desire for committed relationships.

Thats why every aro/ace you see is either really young and in pain, still healing from trauma or is older and admits to holding on out of spite or admit that its trauma related. There are always gonna be exceptions but unless those excepts make up more than 25% of a thing, im not considering it something totally stand alone. Its also why every ex-aro/ace carries the same story: they identified with it when they were younger and healing from some traumatic shit, they got older and got help, they healed and magically they werent adverse to sex and relationships. That dosent happen with gay pple or trans pple usually. Like 70% of today's aro/ace people are allo 5 years later. If not 5, then 90% by 10 yrs. If not 10, then 99% by 20 yrs.

Its not a coincidence. Adversity towards sex and relationships usually has a foot in the graves of social oppression, trauma/abuse and mental illness. Usually once someone feels empowered by their minority status, heals from their trauma and copes with their mental illnesses, they arnt aro/ace anymore. I speak from experience watching pple i knew when i was 13 go from traumatized and a "romance and sex repulsed" aroace transmasc nonbinary kid who hates allos and gags at sex scenes to being 20 and seeing them all just be ur average bisexual transmasc nonbinary person who kisses and fucks like everybody else. They might throw an arospec or acespec label in their like demi- or -flux but its usally just labels that mean that they are normal person who dosent fuck on sight or isnt always thinking about sex.

Im not saying that every incident of aro/aceness is a result of trauma/abuse, mental illness and bigotry but i am saying that coming to terms with that shit usually makes someone less aro/ace. Im also mentioning how many times ive seen aro/ace people throw out excuse after excuse and label after label that all boil down to telling someone to stop getting therapy and just identify as this because "all labels are vaild and inate to you. You'll always be this." Then they mob you when you get help and openly say your not aroace anymore and ur labled a "traitor" who "wasnt an actual aroace and is just a troll" cause you dare to talk about rhw toxicity and fandomization the aroace communities suffer from. I know this cause im aroace and i dont touch those communities with a 10ft pole. Aint happening. I see a person with a demigreyromantic pin and i turn the other way hopeing to got they didnt see my aro one cause i refuse to talk to pple like that.

The definitions of romance and sex are fluid for a reason and just because you think you dont fit the societal definition of a "average amount of sexual and romantic attraction" dosent mean ur right about society and dosent make you akiocupioangleddemiaroacefluxspike, i promise. All these bajillion labels fall apart the moment you mention that its completely natural for a human's desire for sex and romantic partnership is supposed to fluxuate over the course of your life and multiple things influence it. Im not opposed to microlabels and sexuality modifiers and other things people do in an attempt to find community with others who have the same experiences as them and i never have but what i am saying is that little shit like that dosent oppress you on a societal scale and never has and to think critically about yourself and others to understand that what your feeling isnt always the truth and emotions can betray you.

You arent always a trustworthy person and its always best to make long term decisions on a full stomache, a mid mood, in clean clothes and plenty of energy with enough time to be sure. Quick decisions can fuck you up and the amount of spite and toxicity coming from the aroace communities when you even so much as glance critically at them is worth a few months of deliberation before you go in full speed. Just dont come crying to the normal aroaces when you hit a brick wall 5 ft in and get bombarded with cishet sob stories of people who lost their partner cause they didnt disclose their aroace status, cupcakes and dragons, the gay dads kicked me out copypasta and a bajillion people claiming that their oppressed with their only sources being "trust me bro" and " how dare you question my experiences". If you arnt 100% informed, ur on a hundred blocklists just for mentioning that you dont like the ace flag or some meaningless shit like that.

Trust me, dont bother.

[yellowbentley]

dont read this im not 15 anymore i shouldnt be doing this

my fucking god the guy i like makes me want to tear my hair out. we hung out on saturday n the feelings are reciprocated so we cuddled and kissed alot. aloooooooot and i was over the moon with that but i swear every 10 fucking minutes he was asking to touch my boobs. im not exagerating. he kept saying he wouldnt do anything i dont want to do and im sure he wouldnt hurt me anyway but dude still. what part of im not interested in that dont you understand

not even just that but a few times he was on top of me and he pinned my wrists above my head which i didnt really want already and ALSO he put a hand on my throat not squeezing but still there and i REALLY didnt want that this is the least of my concerns here. i didnt think he had it in him honestly hes the dorkiest looking motherfucker. i could snap him in half. anyway.

hes so painfully my type i want to scream. he has it all. why did i give him my number why did i let us be friends im ace why does my type have to include having a dirty mind. i hate it here

we couldnt find the tv remote at one point n he reached between my legs and told me to take it out n ive told him to stop making gross jokes where im the focus ive told him im uncomfortable and hes not funny and he doesnt care I KNOW ITS A RED FLAG I KNOW I KNOWWWWWWWWWWW OKAY but every single other fucking thing about him is so fckng endearing. hes gorgeous. hes a genius. he likes anime and spiderman. his laugh lights up a room. when he talks in hindi i cant stop myself from smiling. he bought me pocky. he sleeps on an air mattress. ive never seen him in anything other then a turtle neck. he likes fruity smelling soaps and candles, its the only luxury he allows himself. he has the coolest fucking glasses.

yesterday he asked if we could put a name to this, i couldnt get the right words out and ask him to be my boyfriend properly, half because im easily flustered because I Dont Do This amd half because i dont want him to be. im a coward and i run from my problems so last night after chewing on it for 2 hours i texted him saying basically that i really wanted to date and be official because i like his dumb ass but i also know we arent compatible and its better we stay as friends. which sucks. im a coward and deleted snap immediately after so i havent seen if he said anything. i missed talking to him today. i got used to texting him all day so fast. i miss good morning and good night texts. last time we didnt talk for a day he tried other methods and asked if i was ok n if it was his fault and like it is but it isnt dude its complicated i hate myself i hate myself soooooooooo bad. did i mention this was the day after he saw me kinda cry out of frustration and sadness and he said it was one of the worst things hes ever seen/felt 🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

he already said that if we dated it wouldnt be forever. he wants to fuck eventually and he wants it to mean something and not be with a hooker (i dont know if ive said this but if i dated someone i'd be fine w them getting a lady for the night LMFAO) which is fine! hes a cishet guy thats his right to want. im just so mad because now we've kissed and we've made out and i remember what cuddles are like and im SO MAD. this is the most ive felt towards anyone in the 3+ years and i cant have it because of my stupid sexuality. i wish i had said no to hanging out. i wish i had self restraint. i wish i hadnt hugged him. if he asks to hang out again im gonna say no. i want to show off my books and coins and wrap ourselves in blankets hes so fucking warm-

god damnit. God Fucking Damnit im not a teenager anymore.

im not ashamed of being ace or whatever im proud of it I Am Just Me im just a person but god it makes me mad sometimes because ive missed out on people ive wanted before and i will again and to be entirely fucking honest i dont know if i ever will. i dont think its even worth it. the older i get the harder it will be to say im not interested because people will assume im either waiting til marriage or im a prude and it will be more common place because everything is only ever sex sex sex and im tired of it man.

im like 99% sure he told me to stop texting him because he wasjacking it yesterday. ye gods.

tldr im so mad i like him so much and i cant have him.

im going to fucking bed

[mani-giunte]

A summary of Måneskin's secret London gig so that I can remember this night forever:

- the venue had a capacity of 800 people. It was TINY. so small and lovely

- the crowd was super excited, cheering at every little tiny thing before they came on

- 'HIYA BITCHES' *BAM BAM* *opening chords of indp'

- opening chords of zitti e buoni and everyone goes absolutely batshit crazy

- they played chosen!! and a medley of take me out/somebody told me! and beggin' and close to the top! the old songs were out in full force

- paura del buio my beloved

- damiano stage dives pretty chill. then a bit later vic stage dives and after getting back on stage immediately gives thomas the eyes and then he also just gets straight into the crowd

- thomas stage dives like he was born to play on his back on top of a crowd

- when they stage dived the security ppl had to hold their feet it was so funny

- there was one twat who was doing something annoying, idk what but at the start of one song damiano just turns to this guy and goes 'stop being so fucking annoying' and at the end of that song he just tells the guy to fuck off cause he's ruining the show for everyone and security lead the guy out. After that damiano takes a huge breath and is like 'sorry guys, I just got really annoyed. Anyway,'

- for your love my baby

- all the songs were like 2 mins longer than the recorded version just so that thomas and ethan could go absolutely batshit crazy with new riffs and rhythms it was so coooollll!!!!

- in the middle of iwbys when the murder kids are jamming, damiano's just like 'aight I want you all to get on your knees' and then we kneel down and sing the chorus like twice then he's like 'one two three four' and JUMP

- this happened again in the iwbys encore

- i wanna be your dog featuring thomas shredding on damiano's shoulders, those two vibe so hard it's awesome

- at the end before lividi sui gomiti damiano shushes everybody and you could hear a pin drop. then the schoolkid 3 start picking random ppl out of the crowd to come on stage and dance with them and they go wild

- i swear nothing in the world is sexier than vic playing the bass riff to for your love

- they talk about the mammamia videoclip and 'these three motherfuckers used me'

- the sweet sweet shredding mmmmmm

- ethan goes so hard all the time what a man

- also threw 2 sets of sticks into the air: one after the main show, one after the encore

- vic and thomas both stage dived once more each

- 'are you having fun??' 'I CANT FUCKING HEAR YOU I SAID ARE YOU HAVING FUCKING FUN???'

- yes damià we were having the time of our lives

- overall I get the impression that because there were so few ppl and they weren't performing to cameras, they just let loose and did whatever the fuck they wanted and it was incredible, we all felt so safe and treasured :)))

- thomas just dancing

- also sticks the pick in his mouth when he wants to use his fingers

- vics leotard mmm oh boy

- tbh all their clothes were insane as usual ::))))

- coraline was so gentle :')

- someone brought along an Italian flag and they were like 'eyyy Italian flag' someone also threw a pride flag on stage and damiano danced with it a bit

- they just vibed so hard with each other, you could tell they were relaxed and giggly and just messing around on stage having fun

- the sound check and technical guys all had 'puppet' on the backs of their tshirts

- the strobe lighting was crazy

- did I mention I was like 4 rows back?? and had such a good view!!

- set list was indp, zitti e buoni, take me out/somebody told me, beggin, chosen, coraline, la paura del buio, for your love, mammamia, close to the top, I wanna be your dog, iwbys, lividi sui gomiti, then iwbys again for the encore

- tysm må for a beautiful evening 💘

[writingletterstothefire]

Burn For You

Word Count: 1.53k

Pairing: Loki x Reader

Prompt: “I’m sorry if I gave you the wrong impression.”

Warnings: physical fighting for training purposes, Loki being an asshole, maybe swearing?? i cant remember. if i missed any PLEASE let me know!

A/N: this is my submission for @morsmordre-writes / @buckysmischief ‘s writing challenge! it’s a bit rushed because i’ve been trying to write while prepping this whole month for my sisters wedding (which is today 💀) but i hope you all enjoy!

It was no secret that you and Loki did not get along. In fact, it was extremely well known, to the point where your fellow Avengers went out of their way to keep the two of you apart.

Training never went well when the two of you were there. Poor Thor spent so much time trying to occupy Loki so that he wouldn’t notice you had entered the gym, but Loki had seen you before you’d seen him. He managed to trick Thor into believing that Wanda was flagging him down, and by the time Thor turned his attentions back to his brother, Loki was already across the gym.

“Care to spar?” Loki smirked, towering above you as you tightened the laces of your sneakers.

Ugh. You knew it would never end well. One of you would end up in the infirmary, like always. It was usually you, but you prided yourself on the fact that you’d managed to get Loki in there at least three times. One of those times had been four days ago. Now Loki was back, and he was clearly ready to even the score. He hated being bested by anyone, but especially you. You’d been a Valkyrie before Asgard had fallen, and you were one of the few in the tower who could take Loki on.

“I’d love to,” you smirked, “but are you sure your ego isn’t still too bruised?”

“I assure you, pet, I am fully recovered from your feeble attempt to wound me,” Loki rolled his eyes. You loved that you could rile him up enough for him to display such childish behavior. “I was in the infirmary no longer than an hour.”

“Yes, because you used seidr to heal yourself. If you’d left it be, your arm would have stayed broken for at least a week. We heal quickly, but not *that* quickly,” you crossed your arms, the action causing attention to be drawn to your chest. You saw his eyes flick down momentarily, and an idea sparked.

Loki prided himself on being essentially unattainable. No mere mortal could turn his head, not even the Black Widow herself. However, you were no mere mortal. You could use this to your advantage.

“Are we going to get on the mat, or are we going to stand here all day?” You asked boredly, careful not to show any sign that you knew you’d caught his attention.

Loki’s eyes, which had quickly snapped away from your chest as you began speaking, narrowed. He silently turned and walked onto the mat. You followed, bracing yourself the moment you stepped foot on the mat. Loki didn’t play fair, and you knew it. You were right to trust your instincts, as the second you had both feet on the mat, Loki whirled around and swung one powerful fist in your direction. You ducked expertly, grabbing the offending arm and landing a single jab to his abdomen. You heard him grunt, and he pulled his arm from your grasp, dropping to kick your legs out from under you. You jumped, narrowly avoiding his swinging leg, and he rose to his feet just in time to be knocked off of them, with your arm coming across his chest and your foot locking behind his knees and pulling. He landed flat on his back with a pained rush of air, and you were quick to straddle his hips and pin his arms down.

“I win,” you smirked.

“Again,” Loki growled. He was angry, and you could see his jaw clench harder as you subtly pressed your hips harder into his.

“You sure you can handle getting beat by a valkyrie twice in a—“

Your retort was cut short as you were slammed onto the mat, Loki using your cocky attitude as the perfect distraction to flip you onto your back.

“You know, if you wanted to fuck me, all you had to do was ask, pet,” he hissed in your ear, one of his hands squeezing at the flesh where it was resting under your ass.

You blushed profusely, suddenly thrown off and unsure of how to respond. You didn’t expect him to turn this around on you, and now that you had his attention, you didn’t know what to do with it. All that came out when you tried was a lot of sputtering and incoherent words.

“I didn’t— I’m not—!” You took a frustrated breath, trying to collect yourself. “I-I’m sorry if I gave you the wrong impression—!”

“I assure you, I have the right impression,” he smirked, two fingers coming to grip your chin. “Fear not, pet. I burn for you the same way you burn for me.”

You shoved him off of you, storming to the bench. “My apologies, Odinson, for the miscommunication, but you are incorrect in your assumption that I am at all interested in you.” You angrily packed your wraps and water bottle into your bag and stormed out of the gym, looking to get as far from Loki Odinson as you possibly could. What was wrong with you? It was as if you’d never spoken to the man. He showed interest, which was your goal. Why were you suddenly unable to handle it?

You hurried to your room in the tower, only to be met at your door by the very trickster god you were trying to avoid.

“You know, the elevator is quite a bit faster than the stairs,” he said boredly, eyes half lidded and filled with an emotion you couldn’t quite figure out.

“Haven't you ever heard of boundaries? Personal space? Time alone? Any of this ringing a bell?” You rolled your eyes, pushing past him into your room.

He just chuckled and followed you in, shutting the door. “Why don’t you just admit that you wish to bed me?”

“Must you be so crass?” You asked irritatedly.

“Must you avoid the question?” He asked, his smirk a permanent fixture on his face.

“Must you—” your growl was cut off by his lips on yours. You stiffened, before slowly melting into his touch. The kiss was incredibly soft, his lips moving slowly against yours.

He pulled back slowly, keeping your faces just inches apart.

“Must you always talk back?” He whispered, his breath tickling your lips.

You just answered him with another kiss.

[someone-always-cares]

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[image description: an sac webcomic page. rami jolts awake in panic, suddenly sitting up in a bed and room that is not his own. the room, at least the small corner of it shown with a bed and cuboard, in in mostly pink tones, with a small shelf next to the bed. rami is wearing different clothes since seen last, a white sweater with pastel rainbow stripes is covering the pale hospital gown.

beside him is a white and grey borzoi with a starry collar which he turns to, fear gone and looking half asleep too. the dog has sat up to face him and he stares at it in dazed confusion, before it reaches over and licks his cheeck, to which he makes a slightly disgusted face at it.

he reaches up a d gently pushes the dogs face away with a hand that, if one were too look rather closely, would notice the brand new scars across his fingers. he furrows his eyebrows slightly at the dog, which is now wagging its tail. behind him, the shot has zoomed out to show the rest of the bed, where another dog, a wagging corgi with a red collar, which is looking up at him. behind them is another smaller figure next to a large doberman pincher with a pink heart collar. while rami is tangled up in a hot pink duvet that matches the pillows, the blond figure is burritoed in a black blanket, and facing away from rami with the dobermans head resting on top of them.

half of the bed is shadowed by a transgender pride flag pinned up like an awning, between the shelf and the wall ove rthe bed, making a cosy little shelter. on the walls are a couple worksheets and several posters for tips on mental health, including tips for sleep, panic attacks, and handling stress. end id]

happy trans day of visibility!

fun fact!most of this room is based on my own. or at least, it was. i did this page well before the cover, over 3 weeks ago and the room was based on my corner of my dorm but then all this shit happened and now i no longer live there. more on that under the cut

also! the dogs names are anubis, zuel, and ceberus! i cant remember which is which. i tried to check my fucking. files. but i guess i never wrote it down. if it matters my files do say zuel is a 9 year old girl, anubis is a 5 year old boy, and ceberus is a 3 year old girl. and yet my files dont say which dog is which

[image description: a photo of a fairly chaotic corner of my old dorm. on one wide is a wide wooden shelf with a few pieces of art, on the other side is a wall covered in pin boards filled with various artworks. between is a bed with a stickered bedpost, and behind it is a aromantic pride flag covered in badges next to a few mind posters on mental health, and another artwork. above, pinned between the shelf and wall, is a trans pride flag, covering the chaos nook and alos serving as a hammock to a mothman plush. end id]

my old dorm. pretty much all that art and badges and shit is from various comic cons. apart from redbubble stickers and some things i got at pride. i have more but its in storage even before this, sadly. also not pictured but i made my pride hole bigger by adding a nonbinary flag later to extend the roof

so i used my room as a basis even if the room in comic- which is xandras- is an proper room and not a shared dorm. took the basic setup of a pride hidey hole, as well as the shelf being the same design. and i also had the mental health tips heavily based of the tip posters i got from mind, a uk based organization for mental health. the unamed worksheets were also based off some of mine that are now in storage so i could use them as referances and had to google them but theyre worksheets for cognetive behavior therapy. also the clock on the shelf is based on one i had? have? idk where it is it might be in my suitcase for all i fuckin know

[clippy]

So you're excluding Nonbinary people from your Pride pin set but include Ace people, who aren't inherently LGBT+? The Transphobia jumped the fuck out! Huh! 😜😜😜

based on how this is worded you seem more interested in just calling me transphobic rather than having a constructive convo but i just want to say a few things here:

1) im LITERALLY trans. obv im not saying trans people cant have internalized transphobia or contribute to NB erasure but. yeah.

2) i am making all this merch by hand and producing it does take time and money, of which i dont have a lot of. i initially started out with the 6 most popular pride flags i’ve been seeing people use on their merch as well, because i dont want to pour money into something that wont sell at all

3) the white stripe in the trans flag is for NB and GNC people -- and i do know and understand that the NB flag being its own thing is an important thing to a lot of people -- but again, for time and money reasons, i wanted to do the trans flag in my initial run

4) i literally said in my etsy listing that i intend on adding the NB flag (along with the aro flag) later on. i haven’t had time since i started making them to do so, though. i’ve even asked on my blog for other flag ideas -- i want to make these as inclusive as possible by the end of it

5) you could bring up the point of leaving out one flag without throwing a whole other group under the bus

i do apologize for leaving out the NB flag. it was never my intention to seem like i was looking over them, and i have full plans to add the NB flag to my merchandise as soon as i am able. but again keep, in mind i am an independent creator, and as such, i do have tight budgets to work with when creating merchandise and i wanted to get something out on etsy & tumblr for pride month that was more all-encompassing before making more specific flags if there was interest in the broader ones

anyway i’ll update my merch post once i have more flags added to it -- i am still open for more flag ideas for them. if anyone has any other questions abt this feel free to ask me off-anon or via DM because i currently do not have the fucking energy to get into discourse right now.

[peri]

❗🥰🏳️‍🌈🤔?

THANK U NOVA I APPRECIATE U SM

❗ when/how did you realize you were LGBT+?

skipping details of all my questioning and life-long suppression due to living in a extremely religious and homophobic household, i’d say i officially “realized” when i got a huge crush on an old bi friend (now ex) and found myself saying yes when she asked me out. this was maybe back in late 2016? idk for sure, timelines are hard for me. and yes it took me getting in a relationship to finally “realize” (or at least start identifying as lgbt)

🥰 have you ever been to a pride parade?

unfortunately no :

im hoping to go someday!!

🏳️‍🌈 do you own any pride things? flags, pins, etc? 

no for the same reason listed above :

🤔 did you have any childhood signs that you were LGBT+?

so. fucking. MANY.

the only reason i hadnt embraced it / identified as it / etc etc sooner was Only due to the fact i was made to feel ashamed and hide my feelings abt these things. this goes for both my gender and sexuality.

sexuality-wise, ive always loved girls. i never saw anything personally wrong with girls kissing girls / anyone who wasnt a guy even from a very young age which, i didnt understand when my parents would point and say thats bad. but because of their behavior and hatred toward it, and my used-to-be quiet nature, i learned to not voice myself on it around them that eventually led to self-hatred and a tough time accepting myself for a long while. many more signs of my sexuality throughout my life i could list but yknow.

gender-wise, ive always felt a disconnect to gender. as y’all know, im nonbinary - agender if we wanna be specific. i feel no connection to gender whatsoever, but just use the umbrella term of nb more commonly.

anyways, tying up with my butchness as well i suppose, i never liked wearing makeup. my sister is big on makeup and has been ever since she learned how to use it. she used to always wanna put makeup on me and ive only allowed it like 3 times in my life, however every time led to me feeling really bad and i wasnt sure why / couldnt identify it bc i thought for a long time that i was a “girly girl” and even a femme when i first started using the lesbian term. but yeah i just really didnt like it and i wasnt sure why, considering all those things. spoiler alert: it made me dysphoric. as did everything i used to do to attempt to perform femininity because it caused me to be seen as female, tying me to a binary which i later learned was very damaging to me.

i remember the first time she put makeup on me, i was probably 5? 6? and it was only lipstick and some eyeshadow + blush i think. but after 5 minutes of it on, i panicked. i wasnt sure why at the time. i remember vividly, i wiped it off in the middle of the room and said “this isnt me, this isnt me!” and started crying and my sister made fun of me for being over-dramatic and told the whole family about it. at the time i wasnt sure why i had that reaction and didnt know until i embraced the fact i was nonbinary and also butch. so like. double-whammy. (not to say nbs cant wear makeup! we absolutely can. but for me, being afab, makes me uncomfortable and dysphoric.)

i kinda went on a longish one abt my gender didnt i. KDJDDJF i could say MUCH MORE abt it all bc talking abt gender is like. almost a special interest to me?? i love talking abt it all.

❓ when did you start questioning?

sexuality, i started seriously questioning the label of it all around age 14/15 id say, and facing thats what i actually was finally.

gender, i never rly had a … “questioning” moment for? i kinda just always. was. just didnt have the words for it. which ig u can say the same for my sexuality, but this was much easier for me to accept once i found the label for it. however i didnt come out abt it until i met my gf actually, bc i used to think it didnt matter enough to mention since, at the time, she/her pronouns were fine with me and everything like that (which i ofc later found out makes me v uncomfy, alongside other things like that) but im rly glad i did and embraced it more and allowed myself to be my most authentic self💚

💚send me an emoji asking pride month questions!

[lovebunnie]

Do all the asks coward

1. what does your wallet look like?

-i got it as a present from my uncle for christmas and its really expensive but also so ugly im sorry uncle tom. its like that ‘southern fashion’ bullshit that white MAGA moms wear. but it was better than my old wallet, which looks like this and i got when i was 12:

2. favorite color?

- baby pinnk

3. do you own a pride flag, or more than one?

-heres the thing: my parents basically know im not straight but i havent told them. my brother has thought i was a lesbian since freshman year, i have a small pride pin on my backpack, ive never been on a date, its complicated. but no, i dont have one. maybe one day, hopefully.

4. describe your favorite outfit

-black pants, platform doc martens, hoodie under a jean jacket, one clip on earring, and holding my crushes hand :]

5. when was the last time a girl made your heart flutter, and what’d she do?

-okay so theres this girl in my theatre class who is really cute, and she put her head on my shoulder and shes pagan so she drew a little sigil on my arm that means “safe and homely” so like :)))))))))))))

6. do you use nail polish?

-i do, i mostly do black tho

7. do you keep organized?

-absolutely. i have things online filed accordingly, i pick out my outfits the day before, my binders are neat, i learned how to army fold my shirts, i keep my shit CLEAN

8. ever take naps?

-only accidentally. ill be laying in bed watching youtube and next thing you know my autoplay has me watching a markiplier video even tho i dont like him and its 4 hours later

9. who was your first crush?

-idk if this is a real person or not so ill do both. my first fake person crush was either troy from high school musical or frankie stein from monster high. and my first real crush was on a boy named dominic in elementary school. i told him i liked him at the end of 5th grade because i thought i was switching schools but then i didnt and we never spoke again.

10. what are your crush tendencies? fall hard or often?

-both both both. i am the worst with crushes. i have crushes all the time because im romantic and a fucking fool. i have 3 crushes off the top of my head rn and i like them all for different reasons. thats not to say that i want to date them, but its that i like them a lot and i kinda wanna kiss their cheek or hold their hand idk

11. describe your ideal day

-play overwatch with my best friend (u gonble >:) ) then hang out with my cat, go get a smoothie, buy some cool shoes or something, take a shower and be asleep by 9 :,)

12. describe your ideal date

-i have stated that build a bear is an amazing first date and im NOT BACKING DOWN. ITS CUTE AS FUCK AND ILL ACCEPT NOTHING LESS!!

13. whats your favorite food?

-either sushi or strawberries :3c

14. who do you feel most comfortable around?

-my theatre class, people from camp, and gobble

15. what is your favorite compliment to receive?

-i dont have a favorite, any and all are going to make my face go red so i have to cover it and maybe make me cry

16. did you/do you like highschool?

-the first 3 years fucking sucked but senior year has been amazing so far. mostly because i just kinda stopped giving a fuck but its amazing

17. favorite animal?

-i think its cats now. i really like cats

18. do you like your name?

-eh, its okay. its pretty but also it seems like there are 60 million fucking people named grace and its so annoying. i wish it was something more unique idk

19. what kind of weather is your favorite?

-a light rain. no swinging trees or thunder, just lots of rain. its nice to stay inside and feel secure

20. do you believe in horoscopes?

-absolutely not. but theyre fun if you like them

21. tell us about your music taste

-its horrific. to sum it up, my two favorite musicians are the gorillaz and frank sinatra. take from that what you will

22. have you had your first kiss? if so, what was it like?

-i havent had my first kiss yet. gonna be honest, i felt like i was going to, a few times at camp and recently when classes ended. but yeah, nothing yet

23. did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a kid?

-i went thro cycles of favorites. but one ive had for years is a plush shadow the hedgehog from universal studios i got when i was 6. i used to carry him around, even to a pool once

24. what time do you usually wake up and go to bed?

-if you know me, you know i go to bed ridiculously early. i usually get tried at around 6pm and fall asleep between 7:45 and 8:30. and i always wake up before 6 am. i havent slept past 6 am continuously since the end of junior year. please help me

25. what dream trip would you take with your wife?

-maybe to go explore new york, just the two of us that sounds like fun :]

26. do you have any pets?

-i have 2 dogs and a cat. the family owns the dogs but that cat is mine

27. what pair of underwear is your favorite?

-uhhhhhhhhhhh i have some with rainbows that are cool? i dont have favorites, none of them are cute anyway

28. what makes you smile?

-funny jokes make me smile real hard, and if you compliment me at the right time, i kind of pull my legs up and hide my face? its cute and charming i promise

29. what makes you feel heavy?

-in both the physical and metaphorical sense, eating bread

30. what makes you feel better?

-watching bo burnham always makes me feel better, hes my go to whenever im really depressed

31. how do you show your love?

-i show my love in everything i do. everything i do is for love, i love love so much its sickening

32. when is it time to get a haircut?

-whenever u want to lol?

33. where would you live if you could live anywhere?

-maybe san francisco, its beautiful and i love the city

34. do your friends and family take good care of you?

-as much as i allow them to. sometimes i go days without communicating and i know thats annoying but my friends put up with it (they shouldnt have to, i know) and my family is okay. its cliche to say, but they honestly dont understand what im going thro alot of the times, esp with my anxiety and shit

35. have you always used the labels you use now?

-back in the beginning of highschool, i used they/them pronouns and identified as asexual/aromantic. eventually, it didnt feel right, so i know identify as cis and bisexual and that feels right to me

36. what makes you laugh?

-my friends, when people shit talk gobble and i in overwatch even tho???? we didnt know him?????? and the mcelroys always get me

37. who is your favorite fictional character?

-too many options, see list here

38. who do yo admire?

-my father when hes not threatening to throw my phone into a fucking lake and my friends for putting up with me

39. describe yourself in three words

-i am baby

40. how long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 

-usually about 45 min, more or less as each day goes

41. what do you wish you could tell your younger self?

-listen: STOP GIVING A FUCK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE. YOU WILL NEVER SEE THEM AGAIN, BE YOURSELF. STOP HIDING AND BEING SCARED OF YOURSELF, BE GENUINE!!!!

42. what would you do if you win the lottery?

-get my parents settled, see about other family members, and then distribute the money to charities accordingly, starting with flint and getting them water

43. would you call yourself a romantic?

-yes

44. what is your gayest childhood memory?

-my mom had cosmos magazines

45. do you have tattoos or want any?

-i dont have any tattoos but ive been obsessed with them since the 6th grade. id love to get tattoos, i just dont know what or where and also im afraid of pain

46. whats your worst habit?

-either biting my thumbs, starving myself, or ghosting my friends. prob ghosting my friends

47. what are you proud of?

-i guess coming out of my shell finally? idk, i actually have friends now and it feels amazing tbh. im in 5 group chats now. i havent been in a group chat since 6th grade. :))))))

48. did you know that youre actually a gift to the world, for real?

-hi i love you?

49. whats your favorite memory?

-there are so so many. but what comes to mind first is our dance night at camp where we all stood outside and i finally gave ian my tumblr and we all ran inside to dance to mr. brightside then ran outside again and we requested nightcore and rivers was fucking dancing their hearts out and we all sang along and im going to crying just typing this out

50. do you have a sweet tooth?

-i guess so. too much makes me feel like shit but i do really enjoy smarties

51. what do you like most about yourself?

-this is dumb, but my sense of style. since i got a job ive been wearing shit i actually like and its amazing. ill admit i have cool clothes

52. what makes you fall for a girl?

-besides acknowledging me, probably getting to know me and not like, putting me on a pedestal. idk its weird, ive met a lot of people this year who like to place me so high it feels like i cant make a mistake around them without disappointing them. idk, i want someone to call me out on my bullshit instead of assuring me im okay. i want to know what i do wrong so i can fix it

53. make a recommendation

-for what? uhh okay for music, listen to ‘clay pigeons’ by michael cera (yes i know michael cera) and for television, watch bojack horseman and for movies, watch the docuseries called ‘7 days out’ on netflix

54. have you ever had your heart broken?

-yeah, when i broke up with maddy because we werent ready to date. i cared and continue to care about her and i didnt want to hurt her but i knew its what we both needed. its what i needed, atleast. and i cant be a good girlfriend if i feel like im doing badly. but also ive had friends break my heart and family break my heart. but im okay now, this heart is ready to be broken again

55. when do you feel most yourself?

-def when i was at camp, that place is magical in the way it allows you to be yourself. but also when i talk to gobble because hes my best friend and when im at college, we can talk more and its gonna be dope as shit

56. name a gorgeous celeb

-jake gyllenhaal jake gyllenhaal jake gyllenhaal 

57. what are some of your favorite songs this week?

-fake happy by paramore, im not okay (i promise) by my chemical romance, tomorrow comes today by gorillaz

58. tell us 2 or your biggest hopes and fears

-biggest hopes: i publish a book someday & i get a job doing something i love

-biggest fears: i end up homeless and broke & something horrific happens in college

59. what flavor chapstick/lipbalm is the best?

-raspberry i guess

60. are you okay?

-i answered a lot more honestly then i shouldve for some of these and i start new classes tomorrow so im feeling really anxious so im doing alright i guess.

gobble you test me but i do love you

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[rabbithaver]

IM SO PUMPED I CANT WAIT

my parents just let me use some of my savings to get some stuff, and omg. omggg. i got two games on Steam because it's the summer sale ans everything is fucking dirt cheap. but i *also* discovered NASA's online gift shop, which is HUGE.

i'm really fat. like... i wear a 3xxx unisex shirt if they run kinda big, and im ok with my body. it's not like i'm physically able to lose weight anyway and even if i could, i dont really mind being big and soft. it just means i am the best at cuddling. but unfortunately it means 80% of retailers dont carry clothes in my size, so i end up burrowing through Amazon and other websites in an effot to find the shirt for me.

thankfully, NASA has a fucking HUUUUUGE gift shop full of things other than clothes. accessories, jewelry, hats, ties, posters, pens, movies, pins, medallions, books, novelties, patches, toys, puzzles, models, collectables, videos... i WISH i had the money to buy it all, because i absolutely would.

the things i got:

a basebal cap with various patches from historic missions on it (i need a hat anyway, im very light sensitive when im outside and itll help shade my eyes)

a little 3D puzzle of the Curiosity rover!!! my babe!!! my daughter!!! my lovely child!!!!!

Curiosity mission patch

Curiosity mission medallion

space shuttle pendant

nasa logo pendant

round International Space Station pin with the various flags of the nations that have taken part in the ongoing mission

bronze pin of the ISS itself as it appears today

large NASA logo pin

charm keychain with astronaut, earth, american flag, space shuttle, and NASA logo.

ill take off the american flag bc i dont want nationalism associated with my science. borders and nations turn humanity against itself when we should all be allied as one, working with one another for progress, diacovery, science... yknow.

but yeah im just!!!!! SO excited!!!! the Mars posters rhey had were REALLY really nice, too, but also expensive. i think maybe i'll be adding those to a wishlist of mine, idk

[newleaf]

gonna bitch abt my roommate tw for unkind words coming from my mouth and racism and homophobia

i honestly wouldnt mind my roommate if she wasnt absolutely terrible inside and out. shes blatantly antiblack under the guise of “i only want to fuck black men” and using the fact that youll spread your legs for any black man who hits u up on tinder to go on and on about how much you “know” about like youre literally downright embarrassing! when she was talking to this guy she met on tinder and we (the other roommates) wanted to meet him she said “hes not like you/not your kind of people” ect. like you mean hes black. you literally mean hes a black man youre a fucking joke!! the fuck is wrong with you there’s little that separates you from a racist white southerner from the 60′s. it’s downright fucking repulsive how she speaks about black people, then speaks in AAVE when shes trying to be cool or funny, but she just sounds fake, disrespectful and stupid. she thinks it makes her cool or whatever but its...not. also her constant comments on lesbians? enough. she had the gall to ask me to get her a rainbow pride pin like choke. fucking choke. my flag isnt a fucking accessory so you can pin it so you can fit in with MY PEOPLE, to use your fucking words. you will never touch this flag if you cant even deign to muster support for anyone other than cis gay men. and even that you still fling slurs like faggot and dyke with not a care in the world. she outed my fucking boyfriend, to someone he knows. and it was someone you just kind of wouldnt tell if someone was lgbt. how dense, how stupid, how callous do you have to be to gossip about someone’s sexuality like i have never been more close to hurting someone than i was when i heard that. the fuck ive never been so upset at a person before 

[pettyvamp]

listen i know companies are not our friends and they dont care about uh blah blah blah whatever but this month they are pandering to us and bc the entire lgbt community wants to forget lesbians and forget our flag and forget to make art with us and forget to make products with us it also means that companies leave us out too. i can find straight ally pins on targets website and people can find rainbow, bi, trans, and pan flags in stores there but yet nowhere have i seen a single thing solely representing lesbians and you know what im tired and that shit does hurt after a while. it seems like no one wants to make specifically lesbian products and im so fucking tired of people making excuses for when were left out. like yeah i get that "you can support actual lgbt ppl who are selling lesbian merch" but like listen to me real quick. i cant order anything online bc my parents will see it but i can go to the mall or even to pride with my friend as an """ally""" and if given the opportunity to buy something while there i could have it and just hide it. but here i am stuck with people who dont want to acknowledge that i exist when its literally the first fucking letter of the acronym like fuck i had more actual products i could buy when i ided as pan which isnt even in the acronym (not saying pan ppl arent valid or dont deserve merch too just like theyre not literally the first letter yet still forgotten) im just im so tired and im a fucking water sign dominant person and were 6 (technically 7 cause its 1am but you get what i mean) days into pride month and ive reached my fucking breaking point where i start caring and im just disappointed im so fucking disappointed honestly

[yvvaine]

I was wondering if any [past or present] Jonerys, Pro-Daenerys fans like myself feel this way.....?

Firstly Id say please be nice i just enjoy analyzing the shit out of fandoms I like, (im a history/polysci major ((with an emphasis on Peace Justice and & Conflict Studies)) all i do is analyze and try to be diplomatic lmao) but considering all they petty drama between both ships as well as pro/anti Daenerys stans ON BOTH SIDES I’m going to be “That Person” and at least ask for people to be respectful/civil, I want to hear from everyone and their metas/what they think which is why i tagged like, all the tags, no matter if you love her/the ship or cant stand it, as long as everyone can keep civil So firstly I’ve loved Dany both books and show from the beginning. She’s gorgeous, wants to be the best person she can be, and her hair/fashion style game is always ON POINT.  That being said, somewhere around season 5 i think i’ve found my opinion on her cooling a little bit, ep after ep, till now. Like I still like her bc she was my first character love on the show but I’ve def soured in my opinion on her. Maybe it’s because I love learning about the subject that im more baised (im hoping thats the case) but she just seemed to have no interest in actual governance, just the reputation (esp of being the ‘rebel queen’)/the awe/the power/the thrill of the adoration that went along with it to the point where I feel like though she still wants to be a ‘good queen’ or at least wants to be seen that way, she doesnt want to do much work for the title. Like yeah she freed all the slaves and that was a def progressive and awesome move on her part (major props! slavery is sin and im glad someone recognized that who had the power to do something about it) but she didnt handle that aftermath or ensuing problems well at all nor really mulled heavily on the subject to find the best solution. She just got fustrated with pretty basic/common (albeit complex in themselves) issues of standard governance and kind of went agh! fuck this! (obv not actual quotes but that was the vibe I got). And then ESPECIALLY after season 7 her character has kind of nagged at me in the back of brain which i hate but its inherent like its just a feeling i cant help it?? I just dont know why to be honest that Im feeling so negative towards this character i used to love.  The whole ‘ bEnD thE knEe ‘ thing w/ Jon and yet pinning it on Jon’s pride not equally on his and her own was more than a little hypocritical, when hon they can discuss it later like at that point they have two common enemies the WW and Cersei they both want to do away with, and then again with the Bend the Knee or Die bit w/ the Lannister soldiers. In fact the whole sequence before that point felt kind of villinous I dearsay, I mean  deliberately burning the harvest that most of westeros needs for the winter or even strategically not willing to try, and well, nOOt intentionally burn the food considering its winter, the harvest is over (so likely not much is gonna grow in the time being) when she has a G I A N T ass army of her own to think of feeding???? Like i get it is war shit happens soldiers die but the F O O D ? Was that an impuslive in the moment mistake or did she just not give a fuck? And back to the aftermath scene/Bend the Knee 2.0, her speech was again quite hypocritical...and burning dickon?????? not willing to keep prisoners???? either bend or die??? I actually am glad she did away with Papa Tarly bc he was an awful human, but dickon????? a young idealistic man about to loose his father??? the heir to a major ally/house???? And honestly that bend or die strategy is soooooo dumb bc now she cant trust any of them like theyre only bending the knee out of self preservation homie, no one wants to die. they bend  the knee to survive and now they all of the sudden think youre their queen? Nah fam, prisoners were better, all you got are spies in your camps or people willing to backstab you at the smallest promise of coin. And i dont want that for my girl

IDK the whole “im gonna BREAK THE WHEEL,,,,,,,,yet im stating my claim mainly on my housename (aka the predominant force of said wheel for a literal dynasty) and the fact that i can scare people who otherwise are unconvinced bc lets be real westeros has had a bad run of rulers a lot of which were Targs in the past couple decades, into submission bc ill burn you otherwise???” doesnt sit well with me nor does it feel like the character ive been rooting for the past five-ish seasons. She just doesnt seem to put into effort on understanding Westeros, why things go wrong, being self-critical or sharing the blame,thinking on what a “good” ruler would do.... anyone else feeling this way and if so do you think this is just shitty writing? D&D butchering her character? or a new arc for her? perhaps the way shes always been? She just seems like a tantruming child bratty and entitled idk (a beautiful child but still)  As for jonerys...... im not gonna go into it much but how are other shippers happy????????? I honestly dont understand. I was SO looking forward to this season/this ship. like so much! But it felt so forced? And i know a lot of people claim its cause its rushed but tbh we’ve had a lot of romances in a similar time frame that felt like A C T U A L romances.....even Talisa/Robb who the Northerners will prob compare any of this too were so much better. THIS WAS MY EPIC SHIP DUDE. I feel the dany side of things (took a while but theres def heart eyes) and yet Jon???? He felt hollow. Still does even after sex. Im so disapointed but more than that I cant see the romance or the chemistry. He looks constipated. Hes never smiled like with his teeth around her the way hes done w others he cares deepily about (ygritte, toramund, sansa, even fkin gendry in the first scene they had together). He never reveals anything about himself. And between the “my queen” ep (and remember he was look warm when discussing her to toramund throughout it) and the previous the only thing that changed was that he saw the actual difference dragons made against WW. You could argue she saved them all too but that doesnt make you fall in love w someone out of the blue and also people have saved his ass before and??? Sansa w the vale anyone??? (Not an argument for jonsa js its happened) (though ill admit ive transitioned to loathing jonerys and loving jonsa more as a potential couple in the space of seven eps where if you asked me I wouldve been like PSH u cray. I never thought it would happen in a mill years but D&D ruined my ship and here i am! Shipping aside tho since its best too look at these things as neutral as possible).  Anyways the sigh of his after she left and when he pretended to be asleep.... idk. The only scene that felt genuine and where Jon smiled and it didnt look like a full on grimace and they actually kinda joked around was really nice and at the pit at the finale and if they do a LOT more of basic romance stuff like that I could ship it again but. It was followed by boatsex and boy.  I was hoping boatsex might rekindle my like for the two together. I could see the chemistry the passion. I was hoping the passion would overwhelm me and make up for the rest. But instead......like there was no foreplay, it lasted 2 seconds, and it was overplayed by brans voice and a reminder of future conflict or at the very least major angst b/w the two. i didnt see the parallel between regear and lyanna playing alongside their scene as anything romantic or that it should be taken as such. and the look they shared.... I was hoping jon would bring it bc Dany’s look in her eyes is like soooo smitten and adorable and say what you will I still have a space in my heart for her and still dont want her to suffer, but again Jon looks like oh shit/constipated. And not in a good oh shit way either.  There is a bunch more too but Imma stop there bc Im just tired at this point.  So many things were just....off this season. And it cant all be blamed on the “rushed” time frame. I’ve read the undercover lover theory and hon it makes the most sense (not perfect sense but still, more than what we’ve been poorly spoon fed) but im not willing to believe it just yet. Still, maybe D&D are just butchering a lot of things like making the romance believable and stuff for the sake of time that could be true i guess. But they like to go AHA GOT U so  Idk I dont find a lot of meta in the jonerys tag bc honestly (((((i think its bc the tag and ship are more popular and theirs more people both good and bad)))) it doesnt seem like snowballing theories is something all fans take really well in the tag at all. But whatever. I really want to know, is there any meta or theories im missing to either validate the icky feeling Im haveing about D or her “romance” or on the flipside anything that might make me change my mind about it? Theories, meta people! I just want to reiderate im not trying to hate on anyone or any point of view and I will flag any comment anti one ship or person or another if its plain hateful or rude. I just want to understand it and see what Im missing, esp because of how much I was looking forward to her arc and jonerys’ dynamic and how much the words “falling short” dont seem to cover it. And to see if im not the only one to either have critique on the ship or her character [or even actually change ships] Also i apologize for how much ive said “IDK” i just..... I DONT KNOW 

[sleepykichii]

11 Questions Tag

i was tagged by @pinkheichou @tiny-heichou and @salbelni so that's uh...that's 33 questions holy shit this is gonna be forever long lmaoo

Rules: 1. Always post the rules 2. Answer the questions given by the person who tagged you 3. Write 11 questions of your own 4. Tag 11 people

idk if it’ll tag you guys if i put them under the cut so! i tag: @tokyo-ghouls-eat-rawmen @kingtatsunari @bertoltssweat @sluttttysurveycorps @piningmarco @lesliebruhleria @iviarka @softymir @dallyingdivergent @levi-nyanchou @noodlesforlyfe  don’t feel obligated to do this!! 

1. Is there a book/movie that you’ve read/watched many times? Which one? i usually dont like rewatching/rereading things but my guilty pleasure is snk, i love to watch the dubbed episodes and compare it to the subbed episodes, i love going back and noticing details i couldnt bc i was reading subtitles, comparing manga panels to anime scenes, yknow, lil things like that 2. What do you love most about your friends? they try their best to cheer me up when they know i'm feeling down~ 3. Ever been a witness to someone doing something hella embarrassing? (You don’t have to tell anything about it) uh yeah, my best friend irl fell and literally slid down her stairs when she was drunk after prom last year and wanted to do it again 4. A fandom you didn’t think you would ever be a part of? tbh danganronpa. on my old blog, before i got back into watching anime, i thought their hair was rly...unique, to say the least, and didn't think i would ever give it the time of day 5. Do you have a “trash character” you like? komaeda :') and ouma, i know a lot of ppl rly don't like him lmao 6. Pastel or Black? black, i love pastels but i look rly good in black lmao 7. Pet peeves? when ppl ignore/interrupt me, unneccesary loud noises, lack of privacy, AND WHEN PPL CHEW WITH THEIR MOUTH OPEN OH MY GOD 8. If you had one free wish what would it be? (Wishing for xx/endless wishes is not allowed) i would wish to bring immense joy to myself and every person i crossed paths with! 9. What are your favourite tropes/AUs for your ships? holy SHIT im a slut for AUs. i lovelovelove actor AUs, zombie/post apocalyptic AUs, high school/boarding school AUs, college AUs, summercamp AUs, band AUs, coffee shop AUs, apartment AUs...i could rly go on but i'll stop lmaooo 10. Are you an emotional person? VERY 11. Are you more attracted to popular ships or rare pairs? i dont rly have a preference, if i see a ship i like, it's popularity doesn't concern me c:

1. Whats your favorite book? i rly don't know, i haven't read a book in forever fml i've already read all the books on my shelf and they're like...8th grade reading level :-// my most recent read was more than this by patrick ness and it was pretty good! 2. Do you collect anything? stickers!! i love stickers so much lmao what else...cute pins, and i'm slowly building a collection i call 'roadside paintings' where -- you guessed it -- i pick up deserted paintings on the side on the road. i currently have two hanging up in my room! 3. The last Song you listened to? sir sly - high 4. Do you like Tea? If yes whats your favorite kind of tea? fuck yeah!! tea > coffee, all day every day. i rly love blueberry acai green tea and papaya passionfruit black tea!! 5. Whats the first Anime/Manga you ever watched/read? if u wanna get technical, sailor moon was the first ever, but naruto is the first one i went out of my way to watch. the first manga was shugo chara! i would probably still read it bc the characters are adorable and the plot is interesting! 6. Whats your favorite childhood movie? pokemon 2000!! 7. Your favorite poem? the universe took its time on you crafted you precisely so you could offer the world something distinct from everyone else so when you doubt how you were created you doubt an energy greater than us both -rupi kaur 8. Your favorite Painting? i don't rly have one!! 9. Whats the most amazing thing that happened to you? still somehow being alive right this very second 10. Whats the Title of the last Fanfiction you have read? i wanna say it was something simple like 'roommates' or along those lines, i honestly haven't read fanfiction in a couple weeks;; 11. Write 3 Book, Fanfic and Manga Title that you totally recommend! i have the comprehension skills of a potato so idk if you mean three of each or three total so i'm just gonna do three total book: more than this - patrick ness (rly good, rly weird. makes you think about our reality a little more. worth a reread when you're finished so you can piece all the information together) fanfic: blue bear - afishoutofwater (snk/eremin - i was in tears by the end of this, it's so sad but very well written. major character death & angst, just a heads up!) manga: killing stalking (hoo boy. this isnt for the faint of heart, lots of dark themes along the lines of torture and murder. not everyone's cup of tea, and that's okay!! <3)

① What are you most proud of? this is probably stupid to be proud of but it's the first thing that came to mind even though i wasnt that good, i made it into my eighth grade talent show playing the keyboard i got up there in front of the entire middle school and fucked up tremendously BUT I DIDNT CHICKEN OUT! so!! +1 point for tay woohoo ② Have you ever been so impressed you were left speechless? if you mean impressed by someone's level of stupidity, yeah lmaooo, otherwise not rly ③ What’s your favorite time of day? 10AM - 2-3PM, i'm the only one awake during these hours (unless my mom has work) and the house is completely silent for once ④ Is there a certain song that gives you goosebumps everytime you hear it? history maker from yoi gave me goosebumps for a while but no song has consistently given me goosebumps lmao ⑤ Is there something, let it be a hobby/food/movie/book/song/etc., from your childhood that you still love today? i still collect stickers and i still rly love beanie babies...i also don't mind watching the berenstein bears/dragon tales with my niece bc those were my faves when i was a kid ⑥ What never fails to make you happy? my morning solitude and fluffy art/fanfics of my otps!! ⑦ Do you dream? If so, which one was most memorable? i dream sometimes, but my fave reccurring dream is where everything is neon, like the saturation has been yanked up 100%, and i'm just walking down a sidewalk minding my own business, and then it starts raining acid and everything starts melting away until i'm just kinda floating in the void lmao i usually wake up right after everything disappears ⑧ Who’s your favorite tumblr artist/writer/editor/etc.? Feel free to name/tag more than one! the first one that came to mind was @glassesgirl0401, rarepair mom for life ; v ; ⑨ What’s your favorite fanart? Could you please link to its source? omg i love every piece of fanart tht i reblog i cant pick just one!! i rly love how everyone has their own art style and ways of drawing certain things differently, the individuality is what makes art so amazing! ⑩ What’s your headcanoned sexuality/gender identity/romantic orientation of your favorite SNK character? omg there's so many tht i like aaaaa if i had to pick just one, it would be armin and he's hella gay :3 ⑪ ^May I draw them with their pride flag’s colors for you? AAAAAA PLEASE?? that would be so great?! thank you!!! <3

here are my questions, i tried to make them interesting! 1.) If you had one, what was your 'stereotype' in school? (jock, nerd, goth, etc) 2.) What are your favorite and least favorite foods? 3.) Who is your favorite character from your current fandom and why? 4.) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? 5.) What are your favorite hobbies? 6.) Spring, Summer, Fall, or Winter? 7.) What's one obstacle you've overcome recently? 8.) Yes or no: Pineapple on pizza? Fries dipped in mayonnaise? Ketchup on eggs? 9.) What is your most resourceful skill? 10.) If you could pick three fictional characters to bring to life, who would they be and why? 11.) What is the end-goal for you; What do you want to do with your life?

thanks for reading this far lmao sorry that took a lot longer than i thought it would