#i can’t just pic a favourite i will write an essay on this is you ask me such questions

[memeswithdrms]

what do you think was dnfs best date 🤔

idk how to pick the best one. the first that came to mind was this one (i fear i have lost the original pictures i can only find the edited ones with no text 😞) but this is when george said “cute date” for the first time it was a Moment

but also the stream from spain when they were both just walking around and went to that restaurant together and george was so soft always making sure dream is not on camera while he’s in his mysterious faceless girl era (dark times) and george telling dream he has to try and order in spanish for himself 😞🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 and someone gifting george a messi shirt and dream looking at him so Fondly

and hot pot dnf was also amazing because we got to see so much of it

[toomuchracket]

Omg I would LOVE to read about that. I feel like matty would be a little annoyed people loved girly but he’d still be so proud and he can’t be that agitated

i don't think he'd be annoyed per se, but he'd get so cutely grumpy about people repeatedly coming up to you for pics and autographs while you guys are out on dates, very "god, babe, can't they see i'm trying to romance you here?" lol (and then he'd be like "wait a min this is how you must feel with me. i'm sorry :((" lmao). but mostly, i think he's just a proud boyf. and i think he was with you for two really memorable fan interactions, one being the very first time you met someone with a quote from your work tattooed. the two of you were at a train station, and you could see a young woman a bit further down the platform visibly debate whether to come up to you and matty or not; you figured she was a 75 fan, so you just kinda smiled and said hi when she eventually introduced herself, and you were lowkey really shocked when she spoke to you like "i just wanted to say that i'm a huge fan - your last essay collection changed my life". you were like "wait you're a fan of ME?! that's so lovely lol i never really tend to meet people in public like this" (matty was also kinda surprised but so proud he genuinely couldn't stop smiling), and the girl was like "yeah! i have one of your quotes tattooed and everything!" and pulled up her sleeve to show you your words inked on her inner arm - your jaw dropped and you were like "no fucking way. this is so surreal. i'm so touched that you would do that!" and gave her a hug, and matty still just grinned along like "i could take a pic of the two of you if you want?", all proud boyfriend. he did, then the three of you took a selfie (the girl was like "i do actually love your band too, matty, i just stan your girl more lol") before the girl thanked you and left, with an "eagerly awaiting a writing collab between the two of you, btw", which you both laughed at at first and then seriously considered while you were on the train.

the second big interaction was while you were on a weekend break in edinburgh, and you dragged matty to rare birds bookshop (google it btw it's so cool) to do some shopping. even the staff getting excited when you came in and gratefully accepting your offer to sign some copies of your books was a huge deal for you (matty was like "it's adorable how genuinely surprised you still get at these kind of interactions. people love you, babe! taste"), but it got even better - while you and matty were browsing in the other room (well, you were browsing, and he was patiently carrying the stack the two of you had already picked out and smiling at how content you were), you heard a voice from the next room ask the staff if they had a copy of your newest book. you beamed excitedly at matty (smiling just as hard back at you), before you poked your head into the other room and jokingly said "hmm, that one's a bit crap, to be honest. the previous one is a lot better"; the heads of about five sixteen-year-old girls whipped round and all reacted in total shock, gasps, laughs, even tears from one of them as she clocked you. naturally, you ran over like "oh my god, are you alright? please don't cry" and this wee girl was like "i'm sorry i just love you so much omg this is so crazy", which actually made you tear up a bit like "you're so sweet, but really i'm just a girl! like you! not worth crying over, honestly" and give her a big hug (which made her cry harder lol). matty let you bejeweled have your moment, just stayed in the other room watching with a big smile on his face and filming a little bit of the interaction because he found it so endearing (and also so he could make a fancam of you for your bday <3), looking lovingly as you took the time to chat to the girls and personalise the autographs on the title page of each copy they'd picked up, and even showed them some of your favourite books and writers who inspired you, just like the girls all claimed to be inspired by you (which actually made you sob like a baby, bless you). after a good half hour of talking and signing and selfies, you were like "girls this has been so lovely and i've loved meeting you all, but i've left the boyf alone in the next room and i fear he might go rogue and pick too many books for us to actually be able to carry lol, so i'm going to say goodbye now and save him from himself lol" - they're like "oh, matty's here too? that's cool", and matty poked his head round the doorframe and waved like "yeah, i'm here. with a perfectly respectable number of books, actually, darling, thank you very much". the girls laughed and waved back, but that was the extent of their interaction with matty, too preoccupied with buying and reading everything you had signed or spoken about with them; he wasn't bothered in the slightest, though, just overwhelmingly excited for you. like, when you headed back to him, he gave you a huge hug and a kiss on the side of your head like "that was very lovely, sweetheart. m'proud of you, and i love that people love you almost as much as i do. but you're the best writer i know, so it's not really surprising"; you were like "love you too. couldn't do any of this without you in my life, inspiring me every day", and matty was like "ok let's go to the till before i cry lol there have been too many tears in this building today" (and then he bought and carried all your books for you because he's a simp) <3

[bigbrotherlouis]

i’m obsessed with joel farabee and morgan frost and you should be too: a primer

hello! welcome! recently i have become infatuated with morgan frost and joel farabee for a lot of reasons but mostly because of that one post that i spent like twenty minutes searching various blogs for that said “people are freaking out about sexualising hockey players, meanwhile joel farabee is one instagram comment away from telling morgan frost he’d suck him dry.” in my head rent free. hit a girl up if you have the post.

anyway! frosty and beezy:

[hard cut to me whispering “oh my god even their nUMBERS are friends” i’m fine.]

this is more like about vibes and less about facts, so you can google if you want to know more about their, like, bios and stats and stuff that’s not 99% rpf or conjecture. this primer is just the things that make me scream. however, that being said, they do play well on a line together and both are very good players.

joel farabee is american, from new york i believe but his dad is from philly, and falls neatly into the category of BORN TO BE A FLYER. longtime fan, hugely excited to play for the team, brings it up all the time.

morgan frost, from ontario canada, was not.

a real, actual tweet. he tweeted this with his WHOLE chest and then joined the flyers like three years later. i adore it. another real actual tweet i adore:

sweet, sweet joel. he misses his buddies :( no doubt including morgan because they are, by all appearances, obsessed with each other. i’m trying not to keep  using the word obsessed in this primer but it’s hard because they are. morgan’s a year older, a first round draft pick in 2017 and joel’s a first round pick in 2018, but they didn’t start playing together until 2019, i believe, because joel played for a college team in boston. side note: he also captained team usa and wore a number 28 in honour of claude giroux and i am absolutely not okay about it.

e! mo! tion! al! incidentally, frosty wears danny briere’s number when he plays for the flyers, which. take from that what you will. iykyk. their NUMBERS are FRIENDS. HERITAGE SOULMATES. joel’s been called up to play on the flyers (and did really well in the playoffs!) but we’re still waitin’ for morgan to come along too but the coaching staff hasn’t recognised the raw power of true love yet so.

at this point, you’re probably saying “sasha shut up about their fucking numbers and talk about why they’re obsessed with each other” but good news! i do not need to do that because the official flyers media has done that for me! (x) i’d recommend watching it because it’s a lot packed into a neat 100 seconds, but notable moments include the voice over saying “joel farabee and morgan frost have found that going at it together has its benefits” within the first thirty seconds. that is a real direct quote. i can’t believe it either. there’s also a lot of light homoerotic bonding over playing chel, them sitting across from each other  on their beds, the admission of being ROOMMATES (oh my god they were roommates), this shot of them sitting with their mouths wide open on either side of their dad,

and also joel wearing a hat with a canadian maple leaf on it, despite being from the the united states. wonder where he got that from. please watch the video.

when they’re not playing chel or, you know, going at it together, they’re being horny in each other’s instagram comments. there’s honestly.... so many of these that i can include but we’re just gonna go with my favourites.

when i say i think about this comment on a picture of morgan with isaac ratcliffe, a fellow flyers prospect on a daily basis, i mean it. i’ll be just doing my thing, minding my own business, and MORGAN MAKES ME VENMO HIM JUST TO TALK will pop into my head, completely uninvited. king shit for morgan to do and king shit for joel to admit on social media for the world to see, but joel admitting things he maybe shouldn’t is a running theme. 

cool. TOTALLY not flirting or anything.

joel. also both their exhibitionist streaks should be explored in fic more i am JUST sayin.

ok but bee you were lookin. like you can chirp but you were lookin, don’t lie. 

when ur in love with ur roommate but ur both hockey players so u can only communicate that love via chirping when he’s with the boys :(

what’s it called when you vibe really well with someone and also live with them and also comment on their shirtlessness and also maybe kiss them on the mouth a little? d... da... dating?? can’t be it.

morgan is a little more composed in the comments and mostly just posts inside jokes i cannot comprehend, or compliments. it’s still cute.

this was on a playoffs pic where joel’s wearing #28 love 2 see it love a supportive boyf always

this one was of joel with a fish he caught and i’m sorry but i did not want it on my phone.

but morgan can’t hide his affection for long. (me, in the distance: TWENTY EIGHT TWENTY EIGHT TWENTY EIGHT!!!!!!!)

there’s more comments but they’re boring and this is long, mostly joel chirping  morgan for wearing baseball or football stuff. however! they are also on twitter where they keep each other humble after incredible goals, like bros do,

this is DEFINITELY flirting. like, blatant. it’s like that kind of flirting when you’re thirteen and you don’t know what to do with your body so you just kinda steal your crush’s stuff or insult them because all attention is good attention, right??

but when push comes to shove, beezy is always gonna look out for his boy (because they are in love):

some important pictures of them together, for your pleasure: 

this is so DUMB and i love it

friends supporting friends!!!

this is them meeting their hockey dads :) so cute :) joel is promising g that he’ll have morgan back by ten yessir he will be respectful of boundaries and curfew. jake is high fiving morgan on getting some. this is facts i just call em like i see em.

and finally!

is this allowed?????  is this allowed???? it’s hard to tell but i’m pretty sure that’s joel on his knees for in front of morgan and i just??? how is that allowed???? it’s been five days and this picture has RUINED me. someone write me an essay to have on my desk by morning, stat.

also v unrelated but here is a video of morgan frost reading, proving he’s the smart one in the relationship. that’s not saying much but, hey! at least there’s proof he can read.

obviously different ships capture people in different ways but there’s something about them to me, personally, that is just so captivating. there’s a lot of potential for different fic vibes, and joel in particular always has a really fun voice to read (and also to write). they definitely have chemistry, they’re pitted against each other so there’s a good-natured rivalry going on, CLOTHES SHARING AND HERITAGE SOULMATE NUMBERS, and, like, they just genuinely seem to enjoy each other. someone PLEASE write more fic for them or by god i’ll have to do it myself.

ok that’s everything for now, i believe. they’re in love and don’t care who knows it and i’m obsessed. (however, i’m also obsessed with joel farabee and andrei svechnikov together, for which i have a one-picture argument for here.)

(p.s. anything not linked i screenshotted myself thank youuu for reading have a good day and remember: morgan makes joel vemno him just to talk 😌)

edit: hello. i wrote this on election night as a way to take off the edge of my nerves and it is not as funny or screechy as i wanted it to be so i’m going to add some now.  

[papa-1-rights-activist]

Could you tell us some things about your characters?

thank you so much for this ask :D sorry for such a late response, but ngl i got very excited and started writing shit down as soon as i saw it, but then it turned into an entire essay and i had to cut down a ton of stuff until i decided to write it in a list of some sort kjhgkjfgkfg

currently i have like 11 fan characters in total so i will start with 4 to not infodump too much at a time

and i’ll admit that literally all of these guys were made for shipping purposes, but they all have different personalities and dynamics with canon characters. i’m such a sucker for writing couples, so many things to explore, that’s like my favourite thing ;w;

it got very long so imma put it under the cut \o/ (hopefully it works bc tumblr has been pretty unpredictable lately)

sorry if it’s probably way more than just “some things” but i couldn’t help it, i just love these guys so much and i don’t get to talk about them often u v u

e n j o y ~

imma start with the one you guys are more familiar with

Lucas

one of the cardinals in Ghost’s church

Mexican

in his late 40s (like 46-47)

hardworking, ambitious

pretty composed

huge „your teacher from english class who’s also a dad” energies

his character can be summed up to, as someone has said, „he’d kindly but sternly correct your shitty posture”

currently takes the 3rd place of most „best employee of the month” awards (Copia is 4th at that time)

he and Copia start off as rivals for the 2nd place (bc no one can beat whoever is the 1st)

but wouldn’t you guessed it, they end up dating

Lucas has a fair collection of various rodents, including rats. Actually, he’s the one who infected Copia with love for them. Luc prefers ferrets (that’s a rodent right kjhfgkjgh)

he doesn’t really get angry, but when he does he really goes off

he writes poetry, which is actually very, very bad, but Copia loves it to bits which makes Luc feel validated to write more

because his language is so similar to italian, Lucas can implement a lot of spanish into his conversations with Copia, while the other will reply in italian and they will still understand each other (ofc there are some exceptions that result in miscommunication, but that just makes it all more fun)

Copia shared with him that he’s writing music for his album (even tho he wasn’t supposed to tell anyone) and Lucas was more than happy to help him in the process…which was mostly moral support and a few suggestions.

he loves calling Copia “cariño”, “mi amorcito”, “mi alegría” and other cute names in spanish

once Lucas mentioned he used to play flute and Copia immediately decided to include a flute solo in one of his songs, so Luc could play it. Unfortunately things didn’t go as he planned and he had to change it to sax solo

The thing about Lucas is that Imperator sees him as a threat. She’s been plotting with Copia to get him to papacy for a long time, but in the end she isn’t the one who decides who will be in charge, so Copia has to work hard to deserve it. He was already a hard worker, but unfortunately Lucas works harder. It creates this dillema for Copia, bc on one hand he does want to become Papa and in order to do that he has to get rid off competition. But on the other he loves Lucas and he wants what’s best for him.

(i’ll probably post the pic above in a separate post with other doodles, i just wanted to show sth new and relevant)

Elise & Greg

Imma put these two together bc it’s impossible to talk about one without the other.

they work together in a company that takes art commisions such as paintings & murals and their restorations. They’re both pretty skilled in those departments, except Elise specialises in art restoration while Greg specialises in murals and frescos. And ofc one day they’re hired by the church.

they’re both pretty good at painting (but the thing about restoration is that you don’t have to be a great artist to do that, it has more to do with chemistry tbh)

They live together and have been very good friends for a few years now

they both went through some traumatic events in their lives, but maybe i’ll leave that part for another day (or i’ll leave it in my fanfic they’re from that i need to finish ;w;)

they’re very supportive of each other, but also they like to mess with one another

their chat is filled with horny texts about other people

Elise

34 years old

British

a bit awkward, tends to stutter when nervous

very sweet overall, feels the need to be everyone’s therapist

autistic, which shows mostly through her sensitivity to certain textures

hates onions (bc the texture is awful)

gets very emotional very quickly when she sees cute animals. She will use her baby talk to speak with them (which is sth that Copia does too with his rats and once he catches her doing that as well, he feels less embarrased about it)

Cirrus was the first one from the church to actually talk to her and show her around, making her feel a bit more welcome in an unfamiliar place

she talks through her sleep. A lot. Copia finds it very amusing…and adorable.

she discovers that Papa III has fallen hard for her friend way before he himself realises that, but then she’s also the kind of person to not see her own feelings for someone

she finds working on restoration quite relaxing. It’s sth she can fixate over and do for hours (even tho it’s not recommended)

a bit of a workaholic

another thing she finds relaxing is sitting in a corner somewhere warm and doodling people she sees around the abbey (mostly those she finds attractive lol so mostly Cirrus and Copia)

eventually ends up with Copia and Cirrus in a poly relationship

she also finds Cumulus cute, but the ghoulette isn’t interested in another romantic relationship. the one she has with Cirrus is enough for her.

Elise’s relationship with Copia is basically two dorks trying to impress the other while trying not to be too obvious about it, while her relationship with Cirrus is bisexual equivalent of „shy nerd has a crush on a cool girl leading the cheerleaders squad and shopes she doesn’t know. She knows.”

(had to doodle sth real quick bc i can’t believe that i don’t have a single good pic of him lol)

Greg

37 years old

Polish (bc ofc he is)

pretty stoic, might come off as cold

he gives cute nicknames to people he likes (in polish ofc)

he’s actually pretty cheesy and wholesome, but you wouldn’t know that bc he shows his affection through a language that no one understands (which is what he wants, he doesn’t want others to know he actually cares)

has some trust issues, so it’s harder for him to become friends with people

huge Scorpions fan. no, like really, he’s obsessed and will share his music taste with whoever will listen (which is mostly Eli and Papa III lol)

knows a few words in italian, but mostly those related to art after he’s been studying it for a few years. He doesn’t speak it, but he can read it.

he owns a guitar signed by Kirk Hammett (his musical crush)

he’s the kind of guy who will call the person he likes „my dear”, „my love”, „sweet pea” in his mother language and then tell that person it means „dickhead”, „loser” and „lazy ass”

his stay at the abbey is just laying under the ceiling and doing fresco for most of the day, visiting Elise in her art studio and dealing with Papa’s bullshit

Papa eventually starts coming up to lay beside Greg on the construction and watch him work. They tend to just lay in silence while a mix of Scorpions and ABBA plays from the radio. There’s barely any space for a second person, but Greg would lie if he said he didn’t find it endearing.

one time Greg fell off the construction and broke his leg bc of that dumbass (but it’s his dumbass uwu)

anyway he eventually starts dating Papa III

Papa purrs to Greg in italian and Greg speaks sweet words to him in polish (tho it took him a lot of time to get comfortable with that)

their relationship is your typical „1 brain cell and 1 dumbass” and under certain circumstances simply „2 disastrous dumbasses”

they once burnt down Elise’s apartment on accident and the only things they managed to save were the art supplies and Greg’s guitar

anyway

here are these guys in comparison to their partners in this silly style, bc all the other drawings are outdated ;w;

Melea

45 years old

American

fashion designer commissioned byt the Ghost’s church

huge fan of old rock

for a long time her relationship with Papa III was purely professional. He came to her studio, she took some measurements, they discussed what he would like and then he left and they didn’t see each other until the next meeting to try the outfit on, to make some changes, or for another project.

well that is until she asked him to stop putting his face paint on so he wouldn’t ruin the fabrics

i share this popular headcanon that Papa III is pretty self conscious about his clean face, so it was kind of hard to convince him at first

eventually their sessions became that much more personal because of that

she’s a bit superstitious, believing that some things may cause bad luck

collects crystals with good energy

she’s in a way a modern witch…but it’s not like she tries to be one

knows french fairly well, which allows her to talk to Papa (who also speaks it) when they don’t want others to understand them.

huge mum energy

loooves watching conspiracy theories. Sometimes she will pick one of the more ridiculous ones during her sessions with Papa and will argue and try to convince him it’s true, making it seem like she fully believes it, even if she doesn’t – just to fuck with him

and a few times she actually did convince him. Then had to tell him she wasn’t serious and oh my god the millenials aren’t killing the pillow industry by going vegan

anyway at some point they start dating which eventually leads to them getting married ;w;

her relationship with Papa is very soft and romantic. they have the same energy as Morticia and Gomez in regard of how loving they are to each other

also some chibis of these two bc again, all the other drawings are a bit outdated ;w;

[attheexactlyrighttimeandplace]

Reblogging vs original content

I think people who make a point to unfollow and let you know that they dismiss your blog because it doesn’t have original content, implying that not having creatives skills make your way of blogging invalid are the most annoying kind of people that you can meet on this site.

I can not believe that they thought one second that others bloggers create content to please them and to meet their expectations. 

Even without original content, this blog is deeply personal to me. Every text, pic, vid or song thing that i reblog is carefully chosen and every choice not only supports the artists but have a strong meaning to me: i relate to the art reblogged emotionally, intellectually, spiritually sometimes too. In the same way, there’s a reason for everything i don’t reblog. 

I don’t need to justify why i’m not a creative person, why i don’t feel the necessity to  fix my ideas and emotions on an artistic support, whatever the support : drawing/painting, photography, essay, quotes or reading notes. 

I don’t need to justify why i can’t share what i experience through the art i reblog here. If you haven’t yet understand  that we are not all the same, that a lot of people rarely express their thoughts even on social networks, and that silence can be despite the appearances for some of us a way of “living” the art, then this blog is clearly not a place for you.  

However for the small minority who keep on coming to this blog and might wonder why i don’t post much more personal creations, just remember: 

English is the language used by almost everyone on this site but it’s not my native language, and i’m highly aware of all my mistakes. However to master it would require a lot more work than i’m willing to do considering my own limits, meaning my capacity to improve. Sadly, It wouldn’t be worth the efforts. 

I don’t enjoy writing, drawing or painting, taking pics, or traveling. However I love to brew ideas and extend concepts, to analyze knowledge and emotions, to play for awhile games of embracing different perceptions/opinions based on the inspiration offered by art and nature. But it’s not meant to last: i just free all those things in my mind when it’s time and don’t look to relive them through art. Anyway, It would be hard/impossible to export those mind games on tumblr without artistic skills or inspiration (that i don’t have in all cases).

I love to read and could share my favourite quotes but i don’t read in english. Quotes in french would be useful only to very few.         

I don’t feel sorry to be a part of  the forest of the silent lurkers and rebloggers of Tumblr. I’m totally at peace with it: i just don’t like to be judged and accused of not contributing, not being stimulating or entertaining.   

[amvkween]

☁️☁️2020 Cosplay Highlights☁️☁️

☀️ By now you’ve heard every variation of “man, what a crazy year”, and I’m trying not to look back too negatively, but rather, digest everything weird, unusual, unique or fun that happened and be content on how I made it to the end as a completely different person.

☀️ In terms of cosplay, this has been quite the year. Other than my interests in the community shifting, I think I’ve learned so much in terms of technical skills. The stuff I’ve been putting out at the end of this year certainly doesn’t showcase that hahaha, but oh man the amvkween stuff has come far.

☁️ We were ready to take the community by storm at the beginning of the year, and I think we put out some of the best stuff we’ve ever made. The costumes we put together for Katsucon, the photoshoots for our business cards and for the spring, and the Dead CMV were all back to back homeruns (in my opinion lol), and we squeezed a lot of creativity out before Canada went into lockdown.

☁️ After that, things got pretty crazy outside of cosplay- I lost my job and had to adjust to a completely different life, which simultaneously affected my creativity and passion in my hobbies. I had some photoshoot concepts planned that I was able to do at my parents house while I took some time to myself, and they turned out really well, plus they were relatively fun and easy to do, although extremely exhausting.

☀️ We had a parking lot convention to replace our beloved Anime North, which was a really great night to be goofy and stupid in cosplay. The fact that my friends are so down to cosplay naruto makes me so happy and I will forever be grateful for them and their continuous effort in my dumb adventures. I could write an essay about how much they mean to me in and out of cosplay but that’s for another time.... (I try to show my love in elaborate gifts lol)

☁️ Next came our Lips of an Angel CMV, which was fun to shoot, edit and looks pretty professional (for once lol). It may be our best looking CMV, and that’s thanks to badcosbois and lots of wine lol. I think this is where my approach to cosplay stuff started to change- that being making things that are genuinely fun to me and worrying about pleasing others after. It was also badcosbois semi-debut in a CMV, and they fricken nailed it.

☀️ Our last cosplay-heavy weekend involved the Mob Psycho and Demon Slayer shoots at my parents house again in the early fall, with the intention to do a serious Demon Slayer CMV. We got a lot of cool shots that weekend, but ultimately learned that serious CMVs are not for us. Specifically, serious CMVs are not for me- I can’t act seriously, especially without a lip sync,and it’s just not as fun to make. It’s not the kinda cosplay material I want to come out of my channel, and it left me thinking about where I want to go with this stuff, along with lots of other deep life questions haha.

☁️ We managed to crank out one last ultra-cursed CMV for Attack on Titan, which was really difficult to finish but I didn’t want to leave that project open-ended. It’s quite different than anything else we had made before- the irony was under a few more layers than usual, but I’m happy with my performance and the overall look. Editing CMVs is normally my favourite part of the whole process, and this time around I could barely get through it without anxiety coming up. It was super weird, but I decided that that was the time to really step back, put no pressure on myself to produce anything, and work on what’s going on underneath.

☀️ At this point in the year, I have a ton of ideas still, but no desire to do them right at this moment. That doesn’t mean amvkween is going anywhere, but I’m trying to be easier on myself and do things when I genuinely want to do them instead of doing it for numbers or attention, etc. I like doing cursed crusty cosplay because there are no expectations for things to look good- I can just be funny and stupid, which is all I really wanna do at the moment.

I’ve had a lot of time to think over whether or not this means I don’t wanna cosplay ever again, and have concluded that’s not true. I fricken love cosplaying, I love participating in fandoms and I love trying to find unique ways to make content. Making costumes and wearing them to cons to show the world your hard work is such a rewarding experience, and going to Katsucon this year was the best thing that happened to me, as well as a huge accomplishment for my ‘amvkween’ channel/content/whatever you wanna call it.

I’ve never been consistent in putting stuff out, so that hasn’t changed lol it’s just become more infrequent. That doesn’t mean I don’t care any less, I am still just as passionate in this hobby as I always was, I’m just trying to be easier on myself during these major shifts in life. It’s really fricken hard, I just wanna be back to how things were sometimes, but each day things start to get a lil clearer and better.

So now I am left with this novel I wrote, and I want to end it by thanking all of my cosplay friends and followers that have been with me through this year. Whether it was the worst year of your life, the best, or somewhere in between, I’m so happy you’re all here and you should be very proud of making it to this point. Your support- whether it be likes, comments, retweets, duets, tags or just checking to see I’m still here once and a while makes me so unbelievably happy. My favourite part of doing this is interacting with other people who are just as excited by the thing that I am excited about from all over the world, and every day brings a new lil experience.

You will find me more frequently on Tik Tok at the moment, but I’m always here on IG, Twitter or Youtube too. I’m about to finish Naruto Shippuden, which has really taken over my life lol so I’ll be crying about that.

If you made it to the end of this, thanks for reading, and yes, I have no shame and love sharing way too much of myself on the internet lol. Idk I like to be transparent and connect with others thru this… to add more personality behind the pics and videos… call me a child of the internet or whatever you want.

Hope you all have a wonderful New Year, I’ll see you guys soon!!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖

[lilydvoratrelundar]

1 (only if you want to though), 13 15,17,20, 26, 33 and 40

1 (selfie): hmmm I’m not completely lacking in self-confidence today so here’s an awful pic of me holding my collection of sonics from a few weeks ago (and yes, my hair is normally that awful, and also I’m sorry it’s over my face so you can’t even really see me but my hands were slightly busy at the time)

13 (how do you feel right now): pretty good, surprisingly. I’ve almost certainly felt shitter, let’s put it like that.

15 (personality description): an autistic pedantic nerd who’s hopeless at socialising and is only really confident in anything when behind a keyboard and with a certain level or anonymity

17 (opinions on insecurities): Well, I’m insecure but I don’t really have opinions on it? idk what this is asking? sorry? also sorry for incorrect question mark use?

20 (what is you favourite song at the moment): I’d say it’s a toss-up between The Visitors and I Let The Music Speak, with other songs from The Visitors album and Ring Ring album competing for third place. And yes, I’m still going through my ABBA phase, and it’s showing no sign of slowing

26 (idols): not really

33 (something you want to learn): I’d quite like to be able to play the guitar properly, rather than just strumming. It’d also be nice to do proper video editing or essay writing so that I can talk about my special interest a lot.

40 (favourite memory): I honestly haven’t the foggiest

[galvanismistheconcept]

tagged by the lovely @1waffle!

THE LAST:

1. drink: iced mocha w an extra shot.

2. phone call: my mom.

3. text message: my friend zaria @eggsacc.

4. song you listened to: if you seek amy by britney spears, omg...

5. time you cried: can’t remember.

6. dated someone twice: thank god, no.

7. kissed someone and regretted it: no.

8. been cheated on: yeah, lmao.

9. lost someone special: mhm.

10. been depressed: what kind of question is this? of course.

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nah.

3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. red

13. blue

14. green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. made new friends: yeah, but i think i lost most of em.

16. fallen out of love: twice.

17. laughed until you cried: that has never happened to me.

18. found out someone was talking about you: yeah, at my old job.

19. met someone who changed you: everyone changes me a little bit bc i always adjust to however people want me to be. that sounds weird, but like. yeah.

20. found out who your friends are: i think so, yes.

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: don’t have facebook.

GENERAL:

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: no facebook, remember?

23. do you have any pets: no. can barely take care of myself, so.

24. do you want to change your name: i wanna legally change my birth name to my actual name (it was jessica, in case you’re wondering).

25. what did you do for your last birthday: worked overtime, went to a brazilian steakhouse.

26. what time did you wake up: 9:00 am.

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: watching grey’s anatomy and writing essays.

28. name something you can’t wait for: moving out and finishing school and having a life.

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: i can’t rly conceptualize time, but it was some time recent today.

31. what are you listening to right now: no scrubs by tlc.

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i’m pretty sure i had a customer named tom at least once at my old job.

33. something that is getting on your nerves: horny grindr boys who send dick pics before actually speaking to me.

34. most visited website: tumblr, duolingo, and lifeprint.

35. hair colour: black, but i want to dye part of it some pretty color like bubblegum pink or plum purple.

36. long or short hair: short!

37. do you have a crush on someone: nope.

38. what do you like about yourself: i don’t give up at trying to make myself a better person; even though everything’s rough for me and it’s always been rough for me, i’m doing my best to survive it and grow from it.

40. blood type: o+!

41. nickname: lu, luc, luci.

42. relationship status: very newly single, someone please date me.

43. zodiac: western is aquarius, chinese is tiger (born in 1999, but before chinese new year).

44. pronouns: he/him

45. favourite tv show: i don’t watch tv.

46. tattoos: none.

47. right or left handed: right.

48. surgery: never had any, but i rly want top surgery.

50. sport: i love any martial arts! i’m a red belt in taekwondo.

51. vacation: i want to go Everywhere.

52. pair of trainers: i wear like a ton of diff pairs of converse. and also some hand me down nike skate shoes and some leather vans.

MORE GENERAL:

53. eating: nothing.

54. drinking: said iced mocha.

55. i’m about to: finish my homework.

56. waiting for: a new show to interest me bc i don’t like this one and i want to like a show.

57. want: money, to be as mentally healthy as i possibly can be, a boyfriend.

58. get married: yeah, sure.

59. career: i’m an ice cream man rn, but wanna be an archaeologist studying precolonial pilipino culture.

WHICH IS BETTER:

60. hugs or kisses: hugs; i hate kissing.

61. lips or eyes: i don’t care abt either in the abstract bc if i like you, then everything abt you is beautiful to me.

62. shorter or taller: i wanna be taller, gdi. but i don’t care abt others’ height.

63. older or younger: no preference.

64. nice arms or nice stomach: i don’t think it’s possible to have bad ones of either.

65. hook up or relationship: relationship.

66. troublemaker or hesitant: little bit of both.

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: no.

68. drank hard liquor: i wish.

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: don’t have em.

70. turned someone down: mhm.

71. sex on the first date: nope.

72. broken someone’s heart: yeah, lmao.

73. had your heart broken: uh? i think? maybe? i don’t have emotional permanence, so idk.

74. been arrested: no.

75. cried when someone died: nah.

76. fallen for a friend: yeah.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: i’m tryin my best to.

78. miracles: idk, idts.

79. love at first sight: not rly.

80. santa claus: never did.

81. kiss on the first date: i don’t like kissing, but do what you like.

82. angels: sweetheart, i am one.

OTHER:

84. eye colour: rly rly rly dark brown, almost black.

85. favourite movie: that’s a rough one. can’t choose one.

tagging my dearest loves @shadysoo, @midcenturymodernmediaconsole, @robynrihannas, @lesbianmei, @cascadiagreen, @xoche, @raingay, @violent-delignts, @gaybaeee, @milkvix, @alainafaithk, @eggsacc, and whoever else wants to do it (just say i tagged you)!

[aspiringwriter22]

do ya have any advice on writers block?

Read. Read a book or a magazine. Read the newspaper. Reread your favourite book or start a new one. Read the back of a cereal box.

Revisit people’s stories you love and see if something inspires you to write your own. Or revisit your own.

Tell yourself you don’t have writer’s block. At the very least, don’t tell yourself you do have writer’s block. Try to convince yourself you have something to say. Because odds are you do. You just need to find the right words. But don’t worry about being too fine in your first draft. First drafts are supposed to be messy and ugly. You can always come back to a bad page and edit it until the words sparkle. But you can’t revise a blank page.

Meditate. Clear your mind as best as you can. Rid the fears and doubts and worries that currently plague you. Leave the past behind you. Let the future stay in front of you. Focus on the present moment and go from there.

Write. Write something even if it’s the same word or sentence over and over again. Write your name. Write out the last text you sent someone. Write down what you need to get at the grocery store. Watch and wait to see if one word turns into a sentence before it becomes a paragraph.

Allow your characters to be their own characters. They’ll come alive. Give them space and time to do so. Let your story to come alive.

Draw. Paint. Sketch. You can still base your characters around stick people.

Dance like no one’s watching. Sing like no one’s listening. Do the same with writing. Write like no one is ever going to read your work.

Think about someone you love. Write a story about them. Or get him or her to tell you a story that actually happened to them. The reverse can work too. Think about someone you hate. Then plot their demise slowly, painfully. You’re a writer. Sadism is in your blood. (I joke.)

Listen to a band you like or a song you love. Use the lyrics as inspiration. You could copy down your favourite line and come up with a new verse.

Take a break. Take a nap. Take care of yourself, your body and mind, everything.

Switch it up. If you’ve been writing poems lately, write a short story. Working on a mystery novel that isn’t going anywhere? Start a fantasy piece.

Edit. Revise. Proofread. Edit that old YA novella you began but haven’t finished yet. Revise a personal essay. Proofread your blog post.

Change your location. Go to a coffee shop you’ve never been to before. Instead of working in your office, try your bedroom.

Call a friend or family member. Catch up with them. Ask questions. Listen. Enjoy all the awkward silences.

Talk to yourself. Pretend you’re having a conversation with one of your characters. Ask them about their life. What foods do they like? What are their biggest dreams? What kind of person do they aspire to be?

Watch a movie or a TV show or a YouTube video. Imagine their backstory. Envision their future. Who were they a month ago? Who are they ten years from now?

Listen to a podcast. Listen to the radio. Eavesdrop even. A conversation between two people on the subway can be a life-altering experience.

Go on Tumblr or Pinterest or Instagram. Find a picture that’s your aesthetic. Then write about it. What’s in the image? Who took the picture? Why did the photographer choose to capture that specific moment? Better yet what or who isn’t in the pic? What didn’t get captured?

Grab a writing prompt from an online generator. Go crazy with it.

Free write. Brain dump.

Exercise. Sweat. Stretch. Physical activity can stimulate your brain.

Remind yourself that you have a story to tell. And what a shame it’d be if no one got to hear it.

Embrace rejection and failure and whatever else is holding you back from writing freely. Remember the child in you who spoke without a filter. Who voiced ideas without thinking twice about what people thought. Be that little boy or girl again if only for a moment. Jot down what comes to mind. Don’t shoot down your ideas before they even make it onto the page. You don’t know what could’ve been.

Ask what if. What if this happened? What if that didn’t happen?

Personally I don’t think I’ve ever regretted a writing session, even the worst ones. But I do look back on the times I didn’t write for whatever reason, and I realize I’ll never know what I was thinking or feeling that particular day. It makes me want to write whenever I can, even when I feel uninspired or blocked or unmotivated or empty.

Happy writing. I hope something I’ve said helps.

[soooldout]

B.A.P, Infinite, Highlight bc I want to cause you pain 🙃🐥

EVIL (you know I wont have one answer for a lot of these omffff)

B.A.P

My first bias: Jongup (it was Matrix era lolol)

Your current bias and why: Yongguk (dont wanna write an essay here but he’s really the most inspiring idol to me)

Favourite song: ahhhh too many! everything! I really find it hard to skip any songs..but ok current faves might beee: Wake Me Up, Diamond 4 Ya, Dystopia, Fly High, Ribbon in the Sky, Pray, Walk, Killer, Do What I Feel, hmm ok that’s as far back as I’ll go

Favourite MV: Wake Me Up or Stop It (lolol polar opposites)

OTP: I haven’t had one until recently tbh but I really love DaeUp 

Member you think has the best smile: Yongguk (or Jongup or Daehyun…all of them tho ahh)

Favourite choreography: Skydive

Favourite era: Wake Me Up

Do you own any merchandise: nope

Have you seen them live: nope

Favourite voice/singer: Yongguk (rapping) Daehyun (singing)

Favourite dancer: Jongup or Zelo cant make me choose

Infinite

My first bias: Sunggyu

Your current bias and why: Sunggyu (Let Me Just Link You)

Favourite song: The Chaser, Can You Smile remake, In The Summer, One Day, The Eye, Paradise, Back, Julia, Just Another Lonely Night…ahh I have a lot more 

Favourite MV: Back or Bad

OTP: DONT ASK ME (woosoo or myunggyu)

Member you think has the best smile: ah don’t do this to meeee (Sunggyu really has the cutest one ok maybe Hoya too…or Woohyun *slaps self* but all their smiles are beautifulll)

Favourite choreography: The Eye or Back

Favourite era: The Eye or Bad

Do you own any merchandise: nope

Have you seen them live: nope

Favourite voice/singer: Sunggyu and Woohyun can’t choose

Favourite dancer: Hoya

Highlight/Beast

My first bias: Junhyung

Your current bias and why: Junhyung - he just caught my eye because of his shy and mysterious air but I fell more for him after watching their showtime and weekly idol eps, he’s so talented? and cute? and hot? ok stop meee

Favourite song: 12.30, Curious, Good Luck, Plz Don’t Be Sad

Favourite MV: Plz Don’t Be Sad

OTP: idk them well enough to have an otp

Member you think has the best smile: ohhhh…Junhyung

Favourite choreography: hmm I really like the Fiction choreo, I also love the Plz Don’t Be Sad one!

Favourite era: ok this is hard, I’m looking through their eras pics lol because I don’t remember them much ah…but they’re album cover pics and I can’t decide, someone send me good pics pls

Do you own any merchandise: nope 

Have you seen them live: nope

Favourite voice/singer: Yoseob

Favourite dancer: Gikwang

THIS TOOK HELLA LONG!! But thanks bb 😘

ask me

[leonbastralle]

Back On Track With Replies

elisabettasims replied to your photoset

I love her face.

me too ♥ genetics did well in the end!

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “T: Oh come on, mirror, aren’t I sexy?”

It was not shrek is was thinking about. Now I shall forever be thinking about different magic mirrors from different shows.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset  “T: Oh come on, mirror, aren’t I sexy?”

Am I the only person that thinks that the face in the mirror reminds me of the one from Shrek?

I have no idea, I haven’t watched enough movies with magic mirrors xD

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “™¥”

Not at all singing love songs. Nope, not at all.

AND IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEIIIIIIIII WILL AAAAAAAAAAAAALWAYS LOOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU

grumpysimmies replied to your photoset “M: DAMMIT! Stupid car. Should’ve stuck with Mousse Effect.”

lmaoooo dessert age is my favourite XD

alright if you say so ;) it required some thinking tho, Mousse Effect was a sudden inspiration and I love it.

grumpysimmies replied to your photo

omg look at these cuties ;-;

ikr ;_; they melt my heart. I can barely delete and pics of them, my laptop’s gonna explode soon!

grumpysimmies replied to your post “Untitled - Replies”

AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR ALL THE KITTIES!!

HOPEFULLY SOON CAUSE CORDIAL IS PREGGERS (shhh spoilers)

grumpysimmies replied to your post “Untitled - Replies”

I guess it's normal thinking a language isn't hard when you grow up learning it? English is a thousand times easier for me than German tho xD

definitely. it’s just more imprinted in your brain I guess xD you do things intuitively, though that’s how I use all my languages tbh...I guess it also depends on language families and stuff. (I should be able to write an essay about this probably, but I’m not)

smillingsection replied to your post “Tinyplies”

yay! she has stolen my heart

same ♥ I have no idea what I’d do without the pets I have alongside my legacies!

smillingsection replied to your photoset “B: Welcome home, Taffles!”

aww adorable bbs!

glitchy bbs xD

smillingsection replied to your photoset “Lil pirate ♥”

such a cutie! give me my heart back, you thief!

Never xD it’s what he does! I love him so damn much, I wish I’d needed a male heir! But keeping him around is the least I can do.

[lunatens]

ahaha, im excited too!! weehee!! i did a bit of research to find out abt my anon but to no luck lol!! aww, whenever i go hunting to find a nice pic to draw of him, i find myself drawing baby Josh more 🥺 cutie lil pie. N NOPE ITS NOT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR!! 😤 everyone deserves a Josh in their life! omggg i love the heart meme, n the fact u added my anon emoji plss, it did make me feel better💓💗💘❤🥰!! n go to sleep earlier ok?? like ik its annoying but take care of urself!! -🌸 anon

n do look at the new topic!! dear lord, i am speechless atm ah well lemme try...i'd use uhhh *searches up rare words on google* *wth is an ailurophile* *gives up* i'd use chaotic to describe myself n to describe you...dawn! ik its simple, but i like waking up early n watching the sun rise, n u make me feel that way T^T so yeah - 🌸 anon

ok listen im so sorry that im actually spamming ur inbox at this point lol! I really like this part of "Auguries of innocence" by William Blake that is "Man was made for joy and woe/ When this we rightly know/ Thru the world we safely go" i LOVE it (n loads of other stuff) but this is one i absofruitly love - 🌸 anon

(i’m just gonna respond under a cut so it’s better for ppl scrolling past heh) <3

yes yes it’s so exciting!!!! <3 also omg yes!!!!!!! shua is the best to draw i draw him so much he’s just so perfect yk???? best boy joshie <3333 sdlkfne I'm glad u liked the heart meme lol!!! i’ll practice making more so i can make better ones one day sdsfshkljh 

i’ll try ;-; at least for this week lol, but when i go back to school next week i’ll probably go back to my 4am bed time :(( sadness but i will try!! <3

also oho yes i just looked at it!!!! LOL chaotic is very fun!!! also SGSDFLEJBF STOP UR MAKING ME BLUSH THAT’S SO SWEET I-

ok hmmm *trying hard to think of fancy words and giving up lol* for me i’d use the word ~warm~ because i try to be very friendly and welcoming to everyone and create a space people feel comfortable in!! and for yOU, i’m gonna choose the word ~spring~ because you bring that feeling of like new life and refreshing air and happy times after a long winter!! (spring is one of my favourite seasons heh)

also omg pls don’t apologize, i love talking and hearing all about what you’ve got to say!!! u could write essays in my inbox and i’d be glad to read them lol <3 but ooh, that’s a beautiful line!! thank u for sharing it with me :3 i don’t read a lot of poetry, but i always love to hear about it, it’s so beautiful!!

hm, i can’t think of any personal fave words/sayings right now, but i’ll share with u a fun language fact if u like!! i think languages are super cool and i really would like to dive more into them once i graduate :3 but anyways i took ancient Latin in high school and absolutely loved it, here’s a simple word fact that i rlly like hehe!!

the english word “peninsula” comes from the latin words “paene” which means “almost” and “insula” which means “island”, because a peninsula is “almost an island” !!! there ya go hehe, i just think latin is a rlly cool language to study since so many languages stem from it!! 

[bfjooonie-archive]

... More ? Ok wait... I don't know what else to say. How about weird puns ? Quote what BTS just said in their songs ? You know Hakuna Matata from Boy in Love ? I guess they like Disney. Because they put Ratatouille in their new song. Which is cute, kinda, but mostly funny. Imagine Yoongi surrounded by Disney's stuffed toys characters ? How about Jimin ? I don't know what's more cute. A photo of it or his reactions with Kumamon... F.LWSAJt3rd

I really do hope you'll feel better soon... Don't think to much about things that stress you. Actually that's surprisingly one of the reasons people can get a cold. Stress. If you ever try to cook chicken soup, please be careful. Don't pull a Namjoon. Don't forget to drink water ! (again, not too cold). Do you have scented candles ? It can help you to relax. Or try to listen to BTS's remix, it helps me to sleep. And you need sleep.

I'm eating Big Hit right now... (you know those you can buy at Lidl ?) Sometimes I really think about why did Yoongi chose Father Louis Williams Suga Adams... Junior the 3rd. But then, he probably just put random foreigners names he had in mind. I'm going to keep writing the firsts things that pops in my mind... probably... I don't know you put pressure on me xD I'm really excited to see the stages for this comeback! The dance is great. There's Yoonmin too...

When you'll answer this (which you weren't supposed to apparently but that's ok), what is your favourite song of the album ? Would you like to be Kumamon and be hugged by Yoongi if you're sick or be Yoongi and be hugged by a Kumamon ? Mmh... Imagine Yoongi in a Kumamon costume hugging you and giving you chicken soup ? >

Staying true to the "Send in anon what you feel about me at first I was intimidated to even send something in anon because I'm actually really shy. So the 1st time I send you something truly was as Father Louis ! I never thought you would have answered and play with the game. Didn't even imagined you would remember(or maybe it's the fact there's not many anons going by Father Louis Williams Suga Adams Junior the 3rd ? It is mouthfull...)and that's just another reason why you're an amazing person

Can we talk about how cute Yoongi is with blue hair ? May his hair rest in peace later. Amen. But he looks so soft !! Your gif of it killed me, I blinked more than usual (I'm one of those persons who blinks a lot). I'm sorry I don't know what to write, in one hand I may come as a mother. At the other hand... I'm annoying. (I hope you're laying on a bed by now. Sleeping. Where I am it's 23:15 and Germany must be +1h if I'm not wrong.)

And so, as the sky started to darken, he closed his eyes slowly. Taking a deep breath, he focused on his other senses. How the grass was feeling ticklish, like a brush; the males crickets playing their cello in hope to find a female, and mate with them; the scent of the night surrounding him, a scent which can't be easily describe it. His shoulders drop, his face soften. Slowly breathing out, he opens his eyes... ah there it is. Peace. -Father Louis Williams Suga Adams Junior the 3rd.

I hope my last ask will make you feel more relaxed ^^ English is my 3rd language and I'm self-taught so I did a poor job at "Show, don't tell" + the fact there's a limit of characters we can put. I was going to write a small yoonmin scene but it just makes me remember Jimin in Serendipity instead. Anyway, hope you get better !!! 💛💙 - Father Louis Williams Suga Adams Junior the 3rd, living in the 2nd house of BTS Hell.

Okay you wrote me a freaking essay! hahah ♥

I think Jungkook, Taehyung and Namjoon might watch a lot of Disney movies? I dont know. Correct me if I am wrong :’) I could totally see Yoongi with lots of Animal + Stitch stuffed toys! That would be so cute :o Thank you for your getting well wishes! I really hope so too! It is most likely stress. I have a lot on my mind recently. I dotn even sleep well because of it so yeah. It will all be good in 2/3 months though. I think might make me soup. He is a really good cook! I am more of a baker :) Even my co-workers ask me why i am not making the lemon cake again lmao. They love that cake so much. I only had some colder/luke warm water so dont worry. As I said, I am mostly drinking tea! I have sweet scented candles! I would like some minty scented candles though. Just so I could feel like I am breathing. I am listening to the new album  on repeat. It makes me wanna be active! Which is good I guess. I dont want to mope around being sick. I havent sleept very well last night, i kept waking up, because of my throat. (I kept breathing through my mouth because my nose got stuffed during the night) 

I LOVE BIG HIT! Tbh i like them more than M&Ms. Also they are way cheaper. Thank god for that. And you have Lidl? That means you must be in a European Country! And you said Germany is +1 hour from you? You must be from a warmer country if English is self taught! That is so cool! 

I am sorry that I put pressure on you. Just wrtie to me whenever and however much you want! I love seeing your messages! I am really excited about the comeback stages too! I think it got leaked that they would promote Mic Drop too? I might be in my cold haze though. :’)  The dance is so cool! I am in awe! That choreo must be so difficult! It is so fast paced sometimes. 

My fav song would be: Serendipity, Best Of Me and Pied Piper maybe? I am not too sure yet.  What are yours?I’d rather be hugged by Yoongi! I just want to hug all of them. hajsdgfljkh That image made me laugh! I wouldnt be able to take him seriously if he tried to feed me wiht a Kumamon costume on! 

Yoongi is such a tsunderer. It is adorable and endearing. I wouldnt be able to imagine him any other way tbh. Jimin, yes! He would even post those pics of yoongi on twitter :’) 

Of course I would have remebered you! Your ask was so funny and nice! I love those little games to get over the awkwardness. It doesnt expose one completely at first which is totally okay! Getting used/warmed up to somebody takes courage and time! Youre amazing too, my dear anon! 

I loved minty yoongi and pastel blue is very close to that so i am all *heart eyes* His hair would have been all healthy again at this point. Bleaching all of that is such a shame. I hope he thought it was okay to dye it again. 

Thank you for loving my gifs! youre NOT annoying! Dont say that! youre fun to talk to! Mother me all you want :D Your little calming story is so realxing! Thank you! It makes me want to cuddle up in my blanket and forget the real world. 

I hope you had a good nights rest and a good day at wherever you are! School/college/work! 

[gigmusicdscvr]

Dear Music Bloggers, Keep Plugging Away !

Do you know how is it like to be a music blogger? People think it’s such a dream job for any music fan, you listen to music, write what you think, get free pass to watch your favorite musicians perform live, life’s a bliss. Well, the truth is in the beginning music bloggers have to put a lot of hard work with nothing as a return. It is such a long time coming story to get the recognition, will it worth in the end?   We get in touch with a cool and friendly music blogger who has passed those hardships, made name for herself, and be one of the rising music bloggers. In this #GIGCHAT, Mel from ‘Mels Jukebox’ (www.melsjukebox.com) shared her experiences, opinions, insights, and also tips for you who might also want to be one of us.

Let’s start with brief introduction of yourself !

 I am Mel and I run the music blog ‘Mels Jukebox’. (www.melsjukebox.com). On my blog I focus on live music reviews from concerts and festivals as well as artist interviews with established as well as new acts. I am on the wrong end of my twenties and I am based in the musical hot spot of London, UK. Originally I am from Germany, which is why you might find some bilingual articles on my blog every now and then, those mainly showcase German bands.

 How did you end up deciding to be music blogger?

I have always loved music and been going to gigs ever since I was a teenager. However, becoming a music blogger was just something that I wanted to do at some point in life and when I changed jobs it felt like the time was right and that’s pretty much it. I have always enjoyed writing. I even enjoyed writing essays at school. I did have a couple of creative writing classes along the way but that’s not mandatory you just need to have a passion for writing.

How long have you been doing this and will you do it for the rest of your life? How do you see the prospect on being music blogger nowadays?

I started my blog ‘Mels Jukebox’ in summer 2014 and in an ideal world, I would love to keep my blog running for as long as possible and take it from a hobby to the next level and let it become my actual job. There is so much great music out there and equally so many great music blogs. However it is a crowded market and you have to find your niche to stand out from the crowd. But as long as you’re passionate and enjoy what you are doing, there is nothing wrong with starting a music blog.

What is the most important thing as music blogger?  Do you manage your blog alone or have teamed up with friends?

 A nice personality and good writing skills are your best assets as a music blogger, I would say. The fanciest blog with the best photos is not going to get you far if your writing is boring and your content is lame. The readers want interesting content and they want some personality. 

On the other hand, being a nice person always pays off. Be it when contacting bands or PR people for interview requests or when actually interviewing an artists. People want to work with nice people, so be nice and everything will fall in to place. I run ‘Mels Jukebox’ on my own. I am still at that point where I can manage my blog as a side project to my full time job. I might need to expand at some point in the future, but as for now, it is pretty much a One-Girl-Show!

Do you think location/base have impact on the productivity and access for music bloggers? How does London (your base) support your work? 

I am really spoiled with my location I have to admit. Being London based gives you pretty much everything you could ever ask for as a music blogger. It is certain that all the big names will come though the capital and the underground music scene is also massive in London.  All these opportunities can be a bit overwhelming sometimes and you don’t know which concert to pick, so you can end up going to a gig every night of the week. Which is fun!

However, I am convinced that you can start a music blog from everywhere. There is so much great music out there and through social media and music being available online it is so much easier to discover new acts. And in case you live in a small town, there will always be a music scene.

Even my small home town (still) has a great music scene for up and coming bands. Just make it your mission and write about that band from your town. You never know where they might end up and the small acts will really appreciate your support.

Tell us about your very first interview experience? 

 My first interview experience isn’t too far ago, actually. I have been wanting to do interviews for a long time but could never bring myself to actually do it. So last year in summer 2016, I had the chance to do my first interview with a band at a festival. I was super nervous and downed an entire pint before starting the interview. This is probably not recommendable but it did the job for me. I was super nervous but after asking the first question and seeing the band happily answer my questions I relaxed and just enjoyed the ride. I can’t go back to not doing interviews now, it is so much fun!

How about the gig/show reviews, must be awesome experiences there, what do you say about that? Do you always get free pass from now on? 

 I’m glad you like the concert reviews. When I started out I would by tickets to shows and then review them afterwards, every now and then. But since I have taken a more serious approach to my blog, I have been getting a lot of press passes for shows and festivals.

It is a trade of work basically. You trade in your writing in exchange for a great concert / festival.

You also have great stage photos, do you also practicing photography for that? 

I am no professional photographer by all means. I have a normal point and shoot digital camera where I take all my photos on. Practice makes perfect. I also have the advantage of having an amazing concert photographer as my friend and she lets me in to some photography secrets and tips and tricks here and there.

Tell us ONE great experience as music blogger you want to share so bad? 

 I think one of the most random situations that have happened to me during my time as a music blogger was when I ended up around a camp fire in the backstage area at a festival in the middle of the night with some members of the band Creeper (If you don’t know them – check them out. They are amazing!) and we talked about Disney films.

 Best artist/musicians you’ve met/interviewed? 

Mickey Demus from Skindred.

 Advantage and disadvantage of being music blogger?

You get to meet so many great people. You get to see your favourite artists perform, you get to write about your experiences and also support your favourite bands. In addition, you get to support smaller bands with your work right from the start and to see them grow and evolve somehow makes you feel like a proud mum. The best thing, however, is when your hard work gets noticed by the artists.

 You will never have enough time to go to all the gigs that you want to, and you will be up all night writing that gig review and go straight to your normal job the next morning. A chronic lack of sleep comes hand in hand with going to a lot of gigs.

Tips for new starter? Something you want to warn them before fall into music blogging?

Always be yourself. Find your own voice of writing and stick to it. Give your writing some personality and people will come back for it. Be prepared to receive criticism. Especially when you are judging someone else’s work (be it a concert or an album / EP). There will always be someone that doesn’t agree with you, but as long as you stand by your opinion and you have a thick skin, that won’t harm you.

THIS or THAT time !

  Photography or Design : Photography. I’m no use at designing.

 Female or male musicians : Both. ☺

Band or solo artist : Band. I am just a band type of person.

Wordpress or Tumblr  : Wordpress. That’s what I use to run ‘Mels Jukebox’.

 Mobile Phone or Notebook : Phone. A smart phone technically is a small computer. ;)

 Last, message to music bloggers out there?

The one last tip that every music blogger will hear at some point: Keep plugging away!

 Mel is reachable in instagram//facebook//twitter//email

pic source : Melanie Jaekel