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just so we're clear: the reason i used so many words to describe the steph &/ cass relationship in the fic that does not exist is because the theme of that nonexistent fic is about the wonderfully complex nature of aspec relationships and how language serves and also fails to accurately describe them and the way that the world can try to impose a type of relationship in an attempt to either understand or make more palatable what is not something that can be easily understood, and so boiling it down to steph/cass or queerplatonic steph/cass or steph&cass would go against what i'm trying to do, even if the fic in question literally does not even exist. so why am i still talking about this nonexistent fic?
this is an excuse to talk about my feelings regarding aromantic and asexual representation on ao3. (note that i say on ao3, and not in fandom in general because this is me talking about my specific personal experiences, which mostly take place through ao3)
BIG DISCLAIMER THAT I WENT BACK AND ADDED IN BECUASE THIS WENT OFF THE RAILS: this is based on PERSONAL EXPERIENCE and FILLED WITH MY BIASES and was written IN A HAZE. (that being said this is something i've thought a lot about over months if not years.)
that tiny disclaimer aside, it goes without saying that fandom as a whole is primarily motivated by shipping, and so fanfiction on ao3 is primarily focused on shipping as well. shout out to this one time i was in high school and reading fic and someone asked (with good intentions) what ship i was reading for, and when i answered none, they asked (again, with good intentions,) what the point of doing that was. this, as you might imagine, made me feel weird to say the least! anyways, go on ao3 and the majority of fandoms will have an m/m pairing in the top most written. go into a small number of fandoms, and an f/m or f/f ship will hold the top spot. (femslash in fandom is a completely different topic) how many fandoms have platonic relationships at the top?
anyways i got curious so working off the knowledge that i have i did some quick looks at a handful of different fandom tags. fandoms which had platonic relationships at the most popular that i expected: dream smp and teenage mutant ninja turtles (all media types). honestly i was a little surprised to see that platonic relationships were at the top for both batman (all media types) and batman (comics), and I was expecting umbrella academy to have a platonic relationship at the top, but it was actually Dave/Klaus! in dr who and related fandoms, there aren't any platonic tags that break the top 10. and ohoho, here's where we get into it: dimension 20's top written relationship was fig/ayda, followed by riz/fabian in second place.
luvo, why did you say here's where we get into it? well, i just talked about the way that fandom focuses on shipping over platonic relationships, but i'm here to talk about aro/ace characters! in ao3's advanced search, if you look for fics with 'asexual' in any category, there are as of 1/7/2025 a total of 67,515 works. looking up 'aromantic' in any category whittles it down to 26,845 works. out of the over 14 million works posted on ao3? (number pulled from wikipedia) these are small numbers, but IT GETS BETTER. if you click on the AROMANTIC TAG, the top written relationship in the AROMANTIC TAG is a SLASH SHIP. (Alastor/Vox, Hazbin Hotel at 533 works.) sort fics under the aromantic tag by kudos, and the first fic under the gen category instead of m/m or multi is the 6th work down, and overall, gen works account for 6,950 out of 18,413 works under the aromantic tag.
my point being, only a small number of fics written with platonic relationships add to aro/ace rep in fic, and following that, when aro/ace characters ARE represented, it seems to be...how do i put this...typically with a shipping lens?
let's take a step back. I want to ask the question of how many canonically aromantic and/or characters exist. just. exist. wikipedia has a decently respectable list of asexual characters in fiction, as well as a much shorter list of aromantic characters in fiction. quick disclaimer that some medias are not represented such as podcasts (jon magnus archives?) or ttrpg shows (riz gukgak?)
what i will point your attention to is: how many of these characters are made explicitly aromantic or asexual within the text of their media? answer: not a lot of them. the majority of these characters have their sexualities confirmed in behind the scenes type things, such as Victor's (Arcane) voice actor saying he's asexual in an interview, Lilith (Owl House) confirmed asexual? or aromantic? over a charity livestream and twitter, Max (Miraculous Ladybug) confirmed asexual in a tweet, etc etc. kudos to Todd and Yolanda (Bojack Horseman) for being confirmed asexual in the media they're portrayed in! these all taken from the asexual characters page, the trend follows in the page about aromantic characters: namely, that if characters are aro/ace, typically explicit confirmation of these identities takes place outside of the media they're portrayed in.
why is that important? because without an explicit confirmation, it makes it a lot easier for denial of these identities to occur. yes, maybe it was the intention of the creators, but look. once a story leaves the author's hands, it belongs to the audience and intentions often have little to no bearing. additionally, if you're reading this then you probably understand that people will also deny coding characters as being gay or bisexual without an explicit onscreen kiss or declaration or some such. and why is this important?
putting the pieces together: characters can be confirmed as allo lgbtq+ through physical acts portrayed explicitly in their stories. characters who are aro/ace, well. more often than not, they can't. they're relegated to being coded as such, and confirmation, no matter how strong the coding, can often be easily ignored or possibly never even heard of.
do not get me wrong, I GET IT. Characters exist in settings where they don't have the word aromantic, or maybe it wouldn't be in character for them to say it as such. I UNDERSTAND COMPLETELY. one of my most popular fics i've posted is about Riz Gukgak and his struggle with internalized aphobia. the words aromantic or asexual do not appear ONCE in the fic. In the sequel, A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT CHARACTER has to say the words, and RIZ NEVER ACTUALLY CONFIRMS HIS IDENTITY. I UNDERSTAND THE STRUGGLE.
let's continue down the riz gukgak train. here are the facts: a sizable number of fans of dimension 20's fantasy high would say that riz gukgak is heavily aro/ace coded, with scenes such as:
making up a fake partner ("Clearly you haven't been kissed yet." ... "Actually, I'm dating somebody in the Baronies." Fantasy High Sophomore Year, Sophomore Start, 1:26:55)
being told that he is afraid of his friends leaving him for romantic relationships, (âThe years will go by, and everyone will find someone that matters more to them than you do.â - Fantasy High Sophomore Year: Fearful Symmetry, 46:24)
telling his dad that he doesn't want to have sex ("yeah, I don't know... it just isn't happening yet? Like, not even just the act is not happening yet, like me wanting to do it." "It's not happening?" "It's not happening yet. And my friends are all like, [whispered] super horny." - Fantasy High Sophomore year, My Green Heaven, taken from a conversation around the 33 minute arc)
additionally, in an adventuring party episode of a spinoff series, the seven, Brennan Lee Mulligan says that Riz is asexual. ("...in a scene, Murph's character lies about having a partner, like a romantic partner, because Riz is ace, is asexual." - Adventuring party, season six episode eleven at 31:22 )
with all the love to my friends over in the d20 fic server for hunting these quotes down for me. truly my life is made all the better by the d20 fic community in a way that i will never know how to describe
here are some more facts! late march of 2024, with the release of the episode Baron's Game, I was lurking around the fhjy tag on tumblr. given the nature of the internet, there was discourse about riz and his identity, or his lack thereof. apologies to my d20 friends reading this who i love a lot, my rendition of a summary of said discourse follows below:
"if he's only coded to be aro/ace, that doesn't make him actually so. Brennan Lee Mulligan isn't the person who plays Riz, and him saying that he's ace is in behind the scenes content for a different show. Additionally, he only says that Riz is asexual, not aromantic. And even if Riz is aroace, aroace people can still be in romantic and sexual relationships, or a queerplatonic one!"
"why does it seem like everyone is ignoring the fact that riz is aroace? Kristen Applebee's sexuality (lesbian) would never be erased to ship her with a guy, so why are so many people doing it to Riz? Writing Riz in queerplatonic relationships is inaccurate because he's shown to be uninterested in relationships resembling anything like romantic ones, it seems like people are only interested in writing queerplatonic relationships as an excuse to write aromantic characters in the ship dynamic they want to," etc, etc. you get the gist.
let's get something straight about my stance on what people can and can't do with fictional characters: you can do literally whatever you want forever. ship riz in a romantic and sexual relationship. don't. whatever. i do not care. i do not care. he's not real. he's a fake character. he is a character. he exists for the audience to do literally whatever they want with him forever. i'll argue for someone's right to ship this character in whatever way they want. if they go down i go down with them-
ahem. sorry. my overall stance on fan creation crept into this thing that's supposed to be about how aro/ace characters are represented in fandom. whoops.
no, but let's talk about that. so, my personal interpretation of riz gukgak is that he's aroace and both romantically and sexually repulsed. i'm fairly confident in saying that my interpretation is supported by canon. some of my friends interpret riz and fabian seacaster's relationship as a queerplatonic one and they write fic about it, and i've read some it it, and i enjoyed it a lot!! and their interpretation is also supported by canon!! some people will interpret riz as simply being a late bloomer! or demi! or whatever! and guess what!!!! this will also have basis in canon!!!! gasp. shock. it's almost like stories exist for a wide variety of people to interpret them however they want to and i'm back to my philosophy on how we interpret stories in general stay on task luvo this is already too long.
so. recap. there aren't a lot of aro/ace characters who exist. often, their sexualities are reliant on coding due to the nature of the identity, and confirmation if it exists is often found behind the scenes instead of in the media. relatively, there isn't a lot of aro/ace fic on ao3. within that aro/ace fic, there's often relationships tagged with the typically romantic and/or sexual slash.
let's talk about aro/ace characters written in relationships of the romantic, sexual, and queerplatonic variety. mostly the queerplatonic variety. look, the thing is that sometimes it's easier to write a good story explicitly about being aro/ace if it's also a story about finding a queerplatonic relationship. sometimes it's easier to write a good story about being aro/ace if it's a story about finding a romantic and/or sexual relationship. writing the story comes down to the same reason so many aro/ace people struggle to find their identities in the first place: how do you find something that isn't there? sometimes, you do that by focusing on what is there.
let's keep going down this train. there aren't a lot of aro/ace characters. there are a hundred million different unique and complicated ways to have a romantic, sexual, queerplatonic, or straight up platonic relationship. Every single story written about aro/ace characters in relationships of any kind will resonate with someone, whether that's the person who wrote it, or someone who will read it. people write fic about characters in queerplatonic relationships that are exactly like what would generally be considered a conventional romantic relationship, and the only difference is that the characters refer to it as a queerplatonic relationship. thinking ungenerously, maybe this fic was written by an allo writer who just wanted to write a ship. The thing about fanfiction and its growing popularity, is that i would put money on the fact that this has happened, and at least one aspec reader stumbled upon it and their mind was blown and they felt seen.
the first fic i ever wrote with an aroace character tag was 1.8k words, posted over a year ago, and quite honestly i don't think it's very good. i wrote a second fic with the same character tagged as aroace again almost half a year ago, and again, not one of my personal favorites. but I got comments on those fics where someone felt seen, and were happy that they got to see this character be aroace, and were happy to see that this character got a happy ending, if a nontraditional one.
and remember when i brought up the slash fic under the aromantic tag? if you look under the tag Queerplatonic relationships, at the time i'm writing this there are 14,400 works. 5,941 of those are gen, the rest fall into m/m, f/f, m/f, multi, and other. the thing is, there isn't a signifier for queerplatonic relationships. a lot of the time to indicate one, authors on ao3 will use &, /, or a combination, or whatever. the fact of the matter is that the words romantic, platonic, and queerplatonic are doing so much work to carry such a wide variety of how a relationship is expressed, and even if there was a symbol to indicate queerplatonic relationships, (which there are in some places. the comic fan fiction author archive uses ~ to indicate qprs,) there are a hundred thousand different ways for qprs to look like.
um so. i started writing this like maybe 2 or 3 or more hours ago and i don't even know if i have or have ever had a point and this is extremely rambly and not organized in the slightest, but if i do have a point, it's something like:
there aren't a lot of aromantic characters. there aren't a lot of asexual characters. there aren't a lot of aro/ace coded characters. there definitely aren't enough to encompass the incomprehensible number of ways that people can experience or express their identities, and there are never going to be. the human experience is too wonderfully diverse for that, and it's too difficult to distill into the pitifully small vocabulary we have. my point might be to touch grass. by which i mean, don't like don't read, and remember that people are just that: people, with lives and worlds and perspectives of their own, and some of them you will never be able to understand, and sometimes you're not meant to understand them, and they are deserving of love regardless.
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Dear tumblr users, what makes you reblog art tagged and obviously descripted as PERC'ILDAN with PERC'AHLIA tag? It's two completely different ships. The art in question doesn't even have Vex'ahlia in it. Why???
Please, I'm begging you, read the tags, read the words under the art you are rebloging. Please.
#I'm so tired give me an A#perc'ildan#perc'ahlia#please READ THE GODDAMN TAGS#yes I'm a little bit pissed off because it happened not once or twice already#and THIS THING KEEP HAPPENING#stop#get some help#yes there are not only tags#i can understand (but not completely) someone not reading tags#but how can you miss BIG LETTERS directly under the art in the body of the post????
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IS FLYING GENDERED?
On the masculine default, typifying gender in genre, and women as the other in the transformers cartoons.
question for the ages
once again i said back in the halcyon days of watching g1 (aka 5 months ago) i was like. Nooooo, decepticon is NOT a gender that's Silly. It's funny, but as a Read Of The Text, I thought it largely unneeded. (The concept came about, as a joke, involving dismissing the bad guys using the same language you would abt women (sexistly) that they're emotional [heh, flighty], vain, and shrill) after all. If in the 80s era there are 5 whole named/speaking woman tfs, its only ever gonna get better from here right? (<- booboo the fool)
anyway
Let's consider the axiom that the assumed default gender is male, that maleness is often seen as LACK of gender, and femaleness and gender variance are the PRESENCE of gender. In certain reasoning and worldviews, of course (See Androcentrism). Then add that, for transformers, the assumed default thing a transformer turns into, is car. (Autocentrism, if you will)
(The most general term for what a tf turns into is "Alt mode" as some of them are not vehicles at all. The other mode is "Robot Mode", whether its humanoid or not)
So I will be laying out why I believe the cartoon iterations support: non standard alt modes = non standard genders. This is in spite of the fact that FIRST lady tfs were all cars. Sleek cyber cars, but still. For whatever reason, (possibly, the reason for everything in tf, toys) they might as well not exist for how woman tf characters presence in the cartoons progressed over time.
And, to be clear, this is a reading of how these works of fiction are created, not a new unified bioessentialism but for robots aliens I'm proposing for like. In universe lore reasons. I hate that idea.
That said, alt modes in order of most to least gender: Spider, motorcycle, flying (in general, with rotors, jets), tank, and then FINALLY, car. (water and space crafts are already too marginal to rank, but they too can be assumed in relation to default maleness, AND that in making one a woman, would still qualify as othering her).
The NUMBER one reason for this is the bizarre need to have an ESTABLISHED woman tf character before making new ones. AS YOU MIGHT IMAGINE. With a g1 gender ratio something like.... (counting even the most marginal cases for the ladies) 9:120? (That's a rough count from a quick scanning of the tf wiki g1 char list) Shits dire out here.
The second is, ofc, character design based. cis people [stand in phrase for the hegemonic world view] are not okay, and their opinions about how tf gender must need be depicted visually is. uh? Im not a fan. Size and shape dimorphism in general is a given, and specifically having women tfs as far more humanoid and curvy in specific. Also general cartoon lady face syndrome but, whatever. I think there's exactly one character here who doesn't have "lips" or "lipstick" as a distinguishing factor. I'm so tired.
Third is generally, the idea of The Girl Of the Team. When there's The Girl, she often isn't JUST a normal character, who happens to be a girl. See, of course, the Smurtfette Principle. But in my view there's also a trend to give The Girl "special traits" on top of "Girl", maybe even to directly combat the idea that the Girl Character has no other traits? To stop this from being a General Primer on Woman in Media, my explanatory focus is things specific to the tf franchise.
(A phrase I use for thinking about normative modes [in general, not just the Alt ones] in within the tf universe is "unique transformerdom" or, even more clunkily, "A transformer of unique transformerdom". The excessive verbosity is amusing to me personally. All I mean by it is to have an umbrella term for any of the ways tfs can be made unique from their peers in the non allegorical realities of the fiction).
I could, and do, and greatly want to, speak about this AT LENGTH. But it keeps spiraling away from me. So I'll say for now were looking at ways a character is being depicted different from her peers, not because she is the only woman (which she likely is), but cause she's a different kind of transformer, AND if she's othered for it.
(IN SOME forms of the lore. Being a transformer woman, IS A UNIQUE KIND of transformer unto itself. Let's just say I hate it and move on)
Fourth, is the gender of villainy. There is much to be said about gender presentation of villains, the ways they are allowed to be aberrant. We will get to it. There is also all the tropes specific TO evil women, and the modes of villainy open TO female characters. But a general thing I think impacting the gender ratios of the factions is the how "Good" and "Evil" female characters are written. I'll generalize and call this the "Damsel vs Temptress" dichotomy. (See concepts like the Madonna-whore complex). Transformers, is by and large, an action franchise. Unless special reasons are made, characters who can impact the actionâ have more screen time, and likely more memorable, and iconic presences. A villainous woman can be unchaste, violent, aggressive. While a heroic woman, even if not a literal damsel are more likely to be in a support role. The secretaries of the action genre: medics and techs.
(Another factor is that tfs are giant robots, and the good guys are often friends with tiny squishy little humans. These make very good damsel fodder, and can be taking up the spots on the roster that might, in a different franchise, go to women. Additionally, while woman characters in transformers overall is an interesting topic. When I say tf women, I'm referring to ones that are in fictionally, transformers.)
SO, now understanding our points of attack/obstacles for getting woman into transformers. (Getting established, gendering the designed, uniqueness of existence, and general villainy). Lets go over those alt modes, and the characters that have em, in more detail.
Spiders
The "Beast Era" (1996) intro-ed the spider ofc. And what don't we have with this one. She's a villain, but shes also misunderstood, the era and design style let to these more organic shapes. And they used them to make sure she was very sexy. She's genre aware, she's quippy, she's an absolute icon. So naturally. She gets ported to other later shows. Which means we just have sexy spider ladies running around when everyone else is a fucking truck and shit.
Her own origin is, well think of her as a "Bride of Frankenstein" to the resident evil scientist, also a spider. She was designed for, and manipulated by him in multiple ways. Her protoform (A blank robot base), was supposed to be one of the good guys (a Maximal), but was reprogrammed into a bad guy (Predacon). Even then, she eventually joins them, for her own reasons. She's not even the first predacon to do so, the difference? Well the characters are a lot more NORMAL about his autonomy. Both of these characters stress that being a predacon is an identity they still see as important. But only the woman is told that really, she is was was always MEANT to be a maximal. And while that's true in a sense. There's also a plot were she's forced (by plot contrivance, not the other maximals) to get corrective robot surgery for it. And when they think she died from, everyone's more sad for her boyfriend than for her. Ouch.
The second spider, in the 2007 show, is now one in a world where she is the only "techno-organic" transformer, hence, she is spider, everyone else is a vehicle. Similar to the first, her narrative is very gendered, but less in the way were, like, I do literally think the first was was experiencing in universe sexism from other characters. Here, they really focus on the "techno vs organic" narrative, and the tragic circumstances on how that happened. In this case its just real world sexist writing.
THIRD SPIDER, (2010), instead of misunderstood and tragic evil, this ones just super mega likes to cause pain evil. She also occupies a strange place between the typic vehicular tfs, and the insecticons. This is because she has a helicopter alt mode, and her robot mode is just, a lady with spider characteristics. And, more than just a passing bug like similarity, she has the power to control the insecticons (you know, cause evil woman mind control). However, she doesn't fit in with them either, as the insecticons are at the most insect like they've ever been, in look, living in hives and that most don't even speak.
They may vary in exact character, relationship to the story's moral conflict, and design. But they stay comfortably established, dimorphised, flirty and flirting with villainy. And bonus points, always, for black widow spider trope.
SO. SPIDERS. Established: â
ď¸ Gendered designs: â
ď¸ (Extremely!) Unique: â
ď¸ Othered: â
ď¸ Villainy: â
ď¸
Motorcycles
Tooooo my knowledge the first bike lady was in 2004, and fairly minor, in the actual plot, but rest assured, they did go the previously established woman route, by being pink, though, which one shes named after varies by language. But neither were previously motorcycles. (And yes, there is also this problem of mixing together or swapping out one woman tf for another. As if we have the ladies to spare). Even though motorcycle men also exist, this one just stuck for a bit. Maybe something to do with Those Movies. I think the Gendered Existence of a motorcycle is pretty evident though, general sex appeal, being smaller, the mode of riding a motorcycle is different, more physical and intimate. Mainly this ranks so high for the level of grossness they can pack in. Just how objectifying it can be, particularly with two instances where the human rider is an annoying teen boy. Naturally, I've also never seen a male and female motorcycle in the same room, but the approach to design tends to be different. And yeah most of em are Arcee, who's first alt mode was cyber car, but it's not just her.
Established: â
ď¸ Gendered designs: â
ď¸ Unique: â
ď¸ Othered: Depends on iteration, I do NOT like the way one gets called "tough, for a two wheeler". Villainy: â(they wouldn't need to be motorcycles if they weren't making them the Special Girl Autobot, after all)
Flying
General: It just tends to stick out when your one girl is only flyer in the group, even she's otherwise tactfully done. Only flyer of the Maximals, a falcon, only flyer of the dinobots, a Pteranodon.
Rotors
I can barely even figure this one. Maybe it's just a general, aesthetics and use case of the actually vehicles, the associations? None of these ladies (and special case) are very connected otherwise. As previously mentioned, the spider helicopter. ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ
A big one for this is the preschool demo shows, which are rescue team focused. In the first one the only woman on the human response worker team pairs with the helicopter, they mention she does medical at times. The helicopter is male, like the other tfs. But also he's afraid of flying, and while not the first case of a flyer with a fear of heights, their personalities are, pretty different. As he's both fearful AND effeminate, fine as character traits go but, with the tone of humour used, marks him as Other.
In the second, Whirl (pointing to icon) becomes a girl for the first time, now with standard humanized face. I assume as move to keep with the previous show of having a girl one, as there's no human team mates. She's also the only one who really likes rescue school. Aaaand that's all know of her. What more do you want from me.
Helicopters: Unique: â
ď¸ Othered: â
ď¸ (milder than some)
But why'd I call this section rotors instead of helicopters? That would be because one of the latest Sole Female TF we just put in everything⢠is a VTOL jet with rotors. She'll tend to be the only jet of her type, which is also smaller than the type of jet used for the villains.
And, of course, aside from alt mode, the thing that makes her stand out most in the cartoons? That she's very clearly a comics character. (I find the emphasize that she's "fan created" over done, as it only controlled minor aspects, and irrelevant cause tfs get completely overhauled in new versions all the time). From her design, which is a bit busier than most characters she stars with. And also uses Japanese aesthetic signifiers in ways that I think are a bit misappropriated and untactful. (VERY USamerican comics). Also, when she stars next to a guy, also from comics employing Japanese aesthetic, you can tell its not deployed in the same manner. (E.I she has hair and makeup, he has armor). Either way, her depictions have her either as badass sword lady on mission from god who's constantly getting hit on by an annoying guy. Or have her be from a different planet and has special telepathy.
Do we see how both her gender AND the cultural signifiers are having affects here? That the main woman tf in a series can be a literal alien even among our alien robots, with cultural signifiers they don't have?
Ratings Established: â
ď¸ (made the comics to cartoon jump) Gendered designs: â
ď¸ Unique: â
ď¸ Othered: â
ď¸ (SO SO EXTREMELY, using methods in fiction and real life)
Jets
I think my association of jets with tf gender is stronger, than some of the above examples, even if there's less reason to it. And why is that? Well, lets get socratic. Here's another question.
Is This All Starscream's Fault?
No. He's not real, he can't do things. But. His legacy as THE main stay transformers character that gets to subvert gender? Yeah. (Sure, the G1 autobots have their own effete, but he's not in every single cartoon they ever made now is he? Plus now that I think about it, he is a FLYING car...)
From the get, he's not a Man's man. He's shrill, he's manipulative and duplicitous, petty and emotional, cowardly and wheedling. He is, of course, the Perfect character. Now naturally, the 80s cartoon was not concerned with your paltry logics. Starscream and his ilk are the jets, but every decepticon can fly. The gun, the cassette player, the camera, the cassettes.
And each to a last, more masculine than he is. Vocally or behaviorally, physically. Every one of them fit the gender expectations more than he does. Even being a small time grunt, is a masculine trait, after all, more so than unchecked ambition. So its not femininity from flying, from jets. But direct relationship, reference, and descendancy from Starscream that makes it. I've yet to see female versions of Jet fire and or the aerialbots, for example.
So what to do when an effeminate male villain was less maltese falcon and more that man has effeminate hips? Well. We had to start getting his ass for being effeminate, explicitly. They made the female clone of him, which yeah, is an offensive joke stemming from the various The Gender Anxieties. (Transmisogyny, homophobia and sexism. General relation toxic masculinity. A heady mix of all and more).
But I mean. It's free girl tf... Once given a name in extra canon materials, she start's showing up in other things. Once you're in books, video games, comics, and most importantly, toys, you're real. And then eventually, her first non clone appearance in a cartoon, and how her presence shaped it.
That being, Cyberverse. Which is a cgi show, you need to know this for reasons of production. Making new models is expensive. This has always been the reason you just make recolours of Starscream and name them different things. Chicken or egg on this one, I don't know, But because CV has Slipstream, and the only difference between her and the generic "male" decepticon jet, is a more feminine face; Suddenly, any random decepticon goon can be a woman.
An absolutely revolutionary take for striving to populate a fictional world with gender parity. By at large it also means they're way more lady villains, and specifically flying model of villain. The show has other woman, but none who get the same androgynous body mold treatment.
Established: â
ď¸ Gendered designs: Mildly to NO. Unique: By design, no. Othered: Yes for the clone, and Screamer himself, I suppose. No, otherwise. Villainy: â
ď¸(That's, the whole idea)
Tanks
It needs to be said. Sometimes, when doing things that transgress a norm, anteing up is less subversive. This is another reason why gender variance, female agency and overt sexuality are more common traits of villains. When already defying strictures of society. What's one more.
That's Right. TANKS ARE THE BUTCH WOMAN OF TRANSFORMERS.
Alright. Let me back up. Strika is the stone cold knock out undefeated champ of lady tf designs that, actually has a reoccurring cartoon presence. She is, admittedly, only a reoccurring to minor character.
Her introduction is in another show with techno-organics, this one involved in the struggle between well, the techno and the organic. Strika as we see her, and as the design that will go on to be iterated, is not in her normal transformer body. She has been transferred into a 'vehicon' body. Without a preexisting essence contained in one, vehicons are not considered alive, in the way a transformer is. Visually, they lack the more human body plan, a standard face, feet and hand like appendages.
To further contrast Strika against the two techno-organic woman. Both of them are tall, and slender. Their softer organic shapes designed towards elegance or beauty, whatever your subjective opinion of that result might be. They both have romance subplots too. By the way. Or honestly one subplot and one main plot. Strika. In contrast. Is built like a brick shit house. Her face is. Minimal. And her goal: protecting her planet... by terminating the heroes.
Now, existing as a character that can be referenced for other media, and given the detail that she was a "Famous general", it's off to the races. She makes a wonderful big tank menace that can fill out a background shot, too.
Without her I hardly think we could have Clobber, also from CV. Who is. The true goat. The finest thing, the achievements of all we could ever hope for. A big fuck off woman, gender swapped from a previous male design with minimal faff, with now even more personality and show presence. Friends, wants, desires. Emotions. Thank God for Clobber, Thank Clobber for Clobber. Thank Randolph Heard and Mae Catt for Clobber.
Established: Depends if you want to count that Strika had so much swag they kept drawing/modeling her Gendered designs: FUCK NO Unique: â
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Cars
So now you have the final piece of the puzzle. In transformers, Autobots are Cars. Yes, there are plenty of autobots that are NOT cars, and there are cars that are not Autobots. But they're exceptions, they're aberrances. They're unique. And Autobots are the norm. They oppose the Decepticons. Decepticons are Villains. And Decepticons can fly. Modal simplified binaries and false dichotomy abound!
And the thing about those original Autobot woman, the one's who largely did not influence all of this? They were cars, it's true, but not like how the men where cars. They've not been designed from transforming car toys, with a shellac of humanoid gender over top. Their designed in the way of human gender. With the car on top.
When the preexisting clause leads to the original designs to be revisited, which, has largely only happened in more recent years. They aren't car woman robots. The cars are literally not part of their bodies, they are additional. Instead of a unifying identity of a robot who is a car, its Arcee and her backpack. Parts of cars get grafted onto their petite lady bodies, and placed anywhere out of the way.
In order to make a transformer a woman, they have to give her a gender, not understanding that that's always been the case. And to give her a woman's gender, she's got to LOOK like a woman, not a transformer. And to look like a woman, she's got to act like a woman. She must be heroic but reactive instead of active, or else, villainous, conniving and or self centered. To be a woman, we must have some other previous woman to explain her presence, or else explain it anew with her unique, strange, or exotic origin. How could she ever be a woman if she simply, existed, looked average, talked average. How could she be a woman if her body is hunks of ungendered car. How can she be a woman if she's everything we expect a transformer to be.
A woman is transgressive, a woman is not normal. Autobots are normal. Autobots are heros. Autobots are men. And Autobots do not fly.
#some shit#its not called cisformers#<- IT SURE ISNT FOLKS#a note on how im using citations here u can read BEFORE getting into the post proper#I'm writing this in mind that someone might have NO idea about tf. or. god forbid.#the general perspective of media trope analysis im working from.#So the links can be considered additional or further reading with intent of 1. if a more thorough understanding of a concept might help#2. something im eliding the name of for search reasons 3. a referential example of what im saying#4. a specifc reference/bit of info that might be unclear. in which case im usually linking to a SECTION of the page#5. JOKE#ALright now normal tag talking space.#THIS IS. serious media analysis done casually for fun! in that. I mean it. genuinely. But also im here for silly fun and im not trying#to be SOOOO academically rigorous that its still not. Posting. u know?#MUCH inspired. or i suppose u might say. encouraged to completion and whole hearted commitment by (fandom) silly serious analysis and#math theroying thematics#i have NO idea if this thing will be searchable with all the links and the words i used. but i prepared for it it case it is#AND I PUT A LOT OF WORK INTO IT!!!!!!!! SO its okay if anyone reads it!#but im also braced for bad faithing inwhich case. I will not be held responsible for my actions. thank you.#i have been told to tag this#maccadam#transformers#if someone tryies to kill me for it im not taking responsibility
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And the kiss! (in addition to this)
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I'm not tagging this because the tags are just me rambling about my thoughts on what a says here. I guess it could be t/w/c critical? But barely I think lol.
#i was gonna put it on the same post as the other#but it didn't fit#and i'm going to ramble a bit in these tags#i still don't know how i feel about this scene#the kiss itself? love it#i don't think a is above sharing a ~moment~#but the âi cannot allow you to fall in love with meâ is...huh?#why would you say that? what kind of sense does that make?đ#the thing that solidified my confusion at having a say that was the scene with the detective's bff - specifically if it's n#a will tell n this:#âbut loveâŚit is a weakness in my armour. i cannot allow that. if someone were to find that weakness and exploit it...â#âyou know I have experienced that once already.â#and THAT makes sense#a's desire to be a knight is what shifted their duties to their sister#and a's love for her - for their family - is what feuled them into challenging the lord who then kills them all#so a repressing their emotions and being almost fearful of their love for the detective and their desire to be with them#makes sense as the reason why a pushes the detective away#so wouldn't saying âi cannot allow myself to fall in love with youâ align with that more?#during my first read of b3 i thought it was a typo lol#but then i saw that there's an option where the detective can say âthis is just flirting and what comes next would just be a kissâ#thats paraphrasing of course#but yeah the detective can basically go âits not that deepâđ#so a saying that was on purpose and i don't really understand why#i mean obviously they think they aren't worthy of the detective's love#but idk man it just feels weird to međ#i'm adjusting it in my mind ngl otherwise zuri would back way off#because she isn't quite there yet lmao she knows she has feelings but she isn't calling it love rn#her response would just be her on the defense and deflecting and downplaying#which sucks because she's completely down for a moment at that point#it hurts more than she expects but she's down because she also thinks he shouldn't fall in love with her
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AO3 Etiquette -UPDATED
Based on both decent and not so decent replies, I have made some changes to my original post below.
It would seem a whole new kind of AO3 reader/writer is emerging and it is becoming clear not everyone quite understands how the website community works. Here is some basic guidance on how most people expect you to go about using AO3 to keep this a fun community archive that funtions correctly:
As well as likes, kudos is for when the story was interesting enough to make you finish reading. If it sucked or was badly written, you probably left. If you finished it, you liked it - so kudos.
If you really liked it, you should try to comment. It can be long and detailed or a literal keysmash. Writers don't care, we just love comments.
No critisism unless the author has specifically asked or agreed to hear it (so use your notes to say if you want some constructive feedback). Even constructive critisism is a no-no unless an author note tells you it's okay. No, posting it online is not an open invitation for that. Many people write as a fun hobby or a way to cope with, among other things, insecurity and just want to share. Don't ruin that for them. I've seen so many authors just stop writing coz they can't handle the negative emotions the critism brings, and it's only meant to be a fun thing shared for free (pointing out tagging errors is not included in this).
Do not comment to ask the author to write/update something else. It's tacky and off-putting and will probably have the opposite effect than the one you want.
There is no algorithm, it's an archive. Use the search and filter function to add/remove the pairings/characters/tropes etc. you want to read about and it will find you the fics that fit the bill.
For this to work, writers must tag and rate stories. This avoids readers finding the wrong things and missing the stuff they want. I don't care how cringy that trope is in your eyes - it gets tagged.
The tag exception is if you don't want to tag a million things or spoil your story, you can rate it as "chose not to use warnings," and maybe tag the bare minimum.
Don't censor tags. How can someone exclude a tag if the word isn't typed out correctly? There are no content bans for terms so don't censor them.
If the tags are mostly content/trigger warnings, especially if they are things considered very fucked up or graphic, you might want to use "dead dove - do not eat" to ensure people know that you're not messing around with tags and what they get is exactly what you've warned them about.
Character A/Character B means a ROMANTIC or SEXUAL relationship of some kind. Character A&Character B is PLATONIC, like friendship or family.
Nothing is banned. This is an rule because banning one thing is a slipperly slope to banning another and another, until nothing is allowed anymore. Do not expect anyone to censor for you. Because of the tags system, you are responsible for your own reading experience.
People can create new chapters and sequels/fic series any time after they "complete" a story. So it's considered perfectly normal to subscribe, even to a finished story. You can even subscribe to the author instead just to cover your bases.
Do not repost stories or change the publishing date without an extremely good reason (like a complete top to bottom rewrite or an exchange youve written for going public). It's an archive, not social media. No one cares what's the most recent, only what fits their tag needs.
Instead of deleting a story you wrote if you hate it - consider making it anonymous or orphaning it so others can still enjoy it, without it being connected to your name anymore. If you still want to delete it, fair enough.
It's come to my attention that metaworks ARE allowed on AO3, which is something I wasn't aware of. So if you do post an essay or theory, please tag it as such so others can choose to search for it or exclude it. Art is also allowed.
The only reason this archive works is because NON ONE PROFITS. Do not link to your ko-fi or patreon or mention monetary gain in any way or you violate the terms and risk having your account removed. If anyone does link, it leaves the archive open to people claiming it's for profit and having the whole thing removed.
I KNOW there's plenty more I missed but I'm trying to cover most of the basics that people seem to be struggling with.
I invite anyone to add to this, but please explain, don't berate.
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i will always love you | max verstappen social media au
pairing: max verstappen x fem bodyguard reader
what he wasnât supposed to fall in love with his bodyguard? this IS a rom com
MASTERLIST | TIP JAR
f1insider
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f1insider: red bull have confirmed that max verstappen will have a bodyguard for the rest of this season after increasingly aggressive fan activity towards drivers at races. what do you think about it?
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user3: i completely understand that itâs insane that itâs gotten to the point where he needs a bodyguard âŚ. but like JEALOUS
user4: i pray thereâs never any need for her to do her actual job
user5: f1 need to sort it out i agree
user4: i meant because i would be no better than a man im sorry god but i want to watch her fight someone đŤ
user6: this shouldâve been done so long ago but iâm glad theyâve finally made the step
user7: what i find crazy is that people can afford a paddock pass and wanna fight the drivers ??? what a waste of money GIVE THEM TO ME
user8: iâm being completely serious when i say ⌠any punk ass influencer tries to film max in the bathroom i want this bodyguard to shoot them with a gun
user9: no i agree
user10: and when i do it on purpose so she can beat the shit out of me ??
user11: choke
user12: she look familiar to any of you?
user13: i thought i had seen her before but like i just canât quite recall
user14: swiftie here! she was taylorâs bodyguard for a couple years so you probably have seen her in paparazzi photos or something
user15: taylor swift and now max verstappen i need her agent
user16: the thought of that massive hunk of a man cowering behind her is killing me
user17: itâs killing you? itâs getting me excited this is so romance book coded
user18: you peopleâs obsession with putting people in ârelationshipâ is the worst thing to happen to the sport
user19: i agree! (they would be unbelievably cute)
user20: iâm glad to see weâre all being very serious about the state of the sport where a driver needs a bodyguard and not the fact that said bodyguard is visually appealing
user21: sky i will deal with your bias if you give us the visual on her
user20: jesus wept
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yourusername: new job, same friendship bracelets
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user22: WE FOUND YOU
user23: hi mother !!!!
user24: we miss you serving face with taylor :(
maxverstappen1: you were a bodyguard for TAYLOR SWIFT ???
yourusername: you didn't read my CV? you had the last say on me being hired?
maxverstappen1: i let GP read them and he's never steered me wrong before
yourusername: that seems irresponsible
maxverstappen1: ANYWAY my point was going to be ... can we still get eras tour tickets?
yourusername: i can see what i can do
maxverstappen1: what if you just called taylor up?
yourusername: do NOT reference the kardashians if you want tickets
maxverstappen1: noted :3
user25: i can't have anything in this life ??? what do you mean you've worked with taylor and max?
user26: she looks so hot with a gun i'm starting to think the NRA are on to something
yourusername: absolutely not get out of here with that shit
user27: oh she educated as well? will you accept my hand in marriage?
maxverstappen1: đ¤¨
landonorris: and if i said you could guard me all night
yourusername: it's kinda my job to guard max all night
landonorris: but you'd rather guard me đ
yourusername: i doubt you'd pay me as well as max
landonorris: i can pay you other ways đ
maxverstappen1: lando i will break your fingers one by one
user28: max is out here like SHE IS MY BODYGUARD
user29: him being possessive... idk where to look but both of them - mark me scared AND horny
user30: TOO REAL
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maxverstappen1: simply lovely to be back on the top step in brazil, @yourusername you're clearly my lucky charm
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user31: max does a generational drive and immediately gets on instagram to flirt with his bodyguard
user32: he's so real for that because look at y/n
user33: i once thought swifties were crazy for being so obsessed with her but now i am just as bad lol
yourusername: nuh uh that drive was all you big boy
maxverstappen1: heheheehehe
maxverstappen1: did i make a good first impression?
yourusername: a very good first impression ;)
maxverstappen1: are you proud of me?
yourusername: very proud maxy
maxverstappen1: :3 thank you <3
user34: what in praise kink did i just read?
user35: i know he's done it in a very public forum but just leave them to do whatever they gotta do
user36: i know this man saw her in a suit and with a gun and fell to his knees
yourusername: well... close enough!
landonorris: idc about all of that ^^ i'm still going to shoot my shot
yourusername: is me rejecting you luck or talent?
landonorris: HUH ?????
yourusername: i may just be a bodyguard but i still have working ears đ
user37: okay so she does serve more than just looks ...
user38: she's got a fan in me now
charles_leclerc: let me just sit back and observe
yourusername: you good?
charles_leclerc: i am sitting back and observing
yourusername: you are observing very loudly
charles_leclerc: i am just watching max embarrass himself, this is very healing for my younger self
maxverstappen1: RUDE
yourusername: he's not embarrassing himself if it's working?
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redbullracing: statement regarding today's incident.
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user42: sorry red bull but i want that video tattooed on my eye balls
user43: i am so unbelievably hot and bothered after seeing that video
user44: red bull i'm afraid you'll have to take that video out of my cold dead hands
landonorris: i didn't realise the paddock came with dinner and a show today
oscarpiastri: lando they tried to kill max...
landonorris: well he was never in any actual danger with y/n around
oscarpiastri: do you ever read the PR briefs?
landonorris: PR whats?
oscarpiastri: this is starting to make a whole lot of sense
user45: they'll try to cancel lando for this but like he's being real
user46: no because why was george russell and kimi antonelli literally in the back of the footage eating LITERAL POPCORN
user47: i've never wanted to be two people so bad
maxverstappen1: i lived bitch
yourusername: MAX????
maxverstappen1: because of you, i'm forever in debt to you <3
yourusername: just doing my job :)
maxverstappen1: so you didn't just do it because of your undying love for me :(
yourusername: i think that would be inappropriate
maxverstappen1: THAT'S NOT FAIR, THEY CAN'T TRY AND KILL ME AND YOU CAN'T SAY YOU HATE ME IN ONE DAY
yourusername: oh maxy, do you need a cup of tea
maxverstappen1: and a hug ????
yourusername: yes, even a hug
user48: oh to have max that pathetically down bad for you
maxverstappen1
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maxverstappen1: can you people stop thirsting over my girlfriend please - i may not be able to fight but she can
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user49: HE HAD ENOUGH
user50: i mean i too think thirst comments from my literal friends would throw me over the edge
user51: he was like winning in brazil is not enough i gotta watch my gf beat the fuck out of someone and then publicly claim her
yourusername: you're puffing out your chest in the paddock when all the girls on the internet are thirsting over you - if anyone should be jealous it's me
maxverstappen1: but you're so much better than anyone else i am horrendously in love with you
yourusername: HORRENDOUSLY
maxverstappen1: i have never felt anything like this? im scared???
yourusername: no need to be scared baby i'm in for the long ride
yourusername: and i can and WILL protect you
maxverstappen1: i need to report a hostage situation? it's me in my bedroom - i need to be saved
yourusername: you're so cheesy, you're lucky i love you
user52: i have another hostage situation - it's me in this comment section
user53: watching them be in love is like torture to me i'm so lonely
user54: they need a trigger warning i fear
maxverstappen1: @landonorris @pierregasly @olliebearman suck on that
landonorris: LEAVE ME ALONE
pierregasly: don't hate the player hate the game
olliebearman: why did you say fuck me for ????
maxverstappen1: i've seen those looks ollie don't lie to me
yourusername: babe i think he might just be scared of me
olliebearman: WOMEN IN POSITIONS OF POWER SCARE ME I'M SO SORRY Y/N
yourusername: no worries ollie! max is just possessive
maxverstappen1: ugh duh! you're the best thing that has ever happened to me, obviously i want to keep you to myself
yourusername
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yourusername: and iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii will always love you! sorry it had to be done - whitney houston is a LEGEND
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user56: of course she knows that song, she's basically living that story
user57: OF COURSE SHE KNOWS THAT SONG IT'S ONE OF THE MOST FAMOUS SONGS EVER ???
yourusername: and you can bet your ass the red bull garage have been singing it non stop since i arrived
redbullracing: singing is our passion
maxverstappen1: they'd have to kill me to keep me from you DEADASS (pun intended)
yourusername: and that won't be happening because i'll be there to protect you
maxverstappen1: i'm not opposed to watching you deal with a problem in the paddock
landonorris:WHY WAS I MADE THE BAD PERSON WHEN I SAID I WANTED TO WATCH ???
maxverstappen1: because it was my life that an attempt was made on ?
landonorris: and?
maxverstappen1: AND?
landonorris: it would've made winning the championship much easier ?
yourusername: nuh uh i would jump into that red bull and win out of spite
maxverstappen1: it's true, i've been training her up
landonorris: you gonna let me have anything
maxverstappen1: nope :P
yourusername: nope :P
user58: oh they're so annoying đ
user59: true ride or die couples are so irritating
user60: i still wish i was them
danielricciardo: i get fired and you get a girlfriend ??? how is this fair
maxverstappen1: idk what you want me to say, i'd never give y/n up for anything
danielricciardo: not even a red bull maxiel reunion
maxverstappen1: sorry buddy, maxiel is dead
danielricciardo: EXCUSE ME?
yourusername: sorry daniel, there's a new sheriff in town - should've charmed max when you had a chance
maxverstappen1: try as he might, he'd never be you
yourusername: awwwww considering your massive teenage crush on him... i love you!
danielricciardo: so fuck me then?
fin.
note: TWO IN ONE WEEKEND WHAT?
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TO LIE AND LOVE LIKE YOU DO.
ellie williams & abby anderson x fem!reader.
part two of off to the races.
summary â itâs been months since you ran away from the loves of your life. you think you have escaped them forever â only for them to return, with a sick game of cat and mouse coming into play as they remind you just how much you belong to them.
warning tags â adult language. extremely dark content; m*rder, stalking, possessive and obsessive behavior, threats of kidnapping, lowkey blackmail (?), threats made with a weapon. strong adult content; slapping, spitting, double penetration, edging, mommy and daddy kink(s), gun play, bondage, threesomes.
authorâs message â let me know if i forgot any important missing tags for this. please proceed with caution as this part is extremely heavier than the first part; ellie and abby are so not nice in here, and it gets dark pretty quickly.
âWhere the fuck could she have gone?â Abby asked, her and Ellie frantically searching the penthouse. âShe knows better than to turn off her location, or leave unannounced.â
âShe was just here, sleeping and resting,�� Ellie stated, and their panic was overcomed with frustration and anger instead. You knew that if you went anywhere without them, that you had to tell them exactly where and your location could never go off.
They would chip you if they could. They have thought about it numerous times.
Ellieâs phone rang, and she grabbed it out of her back pocket, noticing Joelâs contact. âHello?â She answered, irritation playing into her tone. âWhatâs goinâ on, Joel?â
âThe police are heading to your place,â Joel said, and Ellie put the call on speaker. âI donât know what you two have done this time, but it is bad and I am not helpinâ out with any clean ups.â
âWhat are you talking about?â Ellie asked.
âIâm not some moron, Ellie!â He yelled, and she rolled her eyes. âThey know you killed someone. They know your girlfriend was with you, too. I called her, and asked questions.â
âYou did what?â Abby shouted. âJoel, what the fuck!â
Thatâs how they knew you had run away from them. You were a timid and easily frightened individual, and now that you were aware of what they had done, you scurried away and were going to hide. The pair knew they had some time to track you down to your home.
âFuck off, Joel,â Ellie cursed, ending the call. âWe have time to get her, to make up a story or whatever. We can avoid the police for the night?â
They agreed to find you and explain everything, to lure you back to them as they assured that there was nothing to worry about.
Abbyâs eyes go wide. âThe shirt.â
Ellie cursed under her breath, running to the closet and into the hamper â only to find the shirt completely gone. You had taken it, and now many possibilities surged through their heads.
âItâs gone!â Ellie yelled, and before the two could leave the penthouse to go to you, two detectives walked in.
The amusing yet realistic part of everything is that even though they knew that you thought you had gotten away for good, they were preparing on how to get you back, and never be able to escape again.
You had a particular interest in Philosophy during high school.
You loved to read the knowledge these scholar men would try to pass on, what they had to say about life, beauty, or death. You wanted to understand their wisdom, their perspective of all things, of everything around them, and how they got to a certain point about it.
You remembered a certain quote from Plato, of how Zeus feared the power of two humans mending together as one, leaving them with four arms, four legs, a head with two faces on it. However, he was so threatened by this that he split them into two, and left them to wander Earth to find each other again.
You had believed in that quote when Ellie and Abby entered your life. These two girls, the most threatening pair, would put a grand shift on your life, and how you perceived it as. They utterly shifted your world, they took you in, and prioritized your needs.
You were worshiped by them.
You couldnât see beyond the horizon of the world without them there, and in your isolation, you still didnât know how to.
More than sixty-five days since your departure, leaving them behind, and not hearing a single word from them.
When you came to your parentâs villa, your mother opened the door, and you sobbed into her arms, clutching onto her. She hugged you, stroked your hair, and didnât know if she shouldâve spoken or not.
Your tears soaked into her shirt, and she had to nearly drag you inside, afraid of what was happening with you.
âMy dear, whatâs going on?â She asked, clear to see the exhausted look on your face, your eyes bloodshot as she sat you both down on the couch. âI havenât seen you like this in a while.â
âI just⌠Abby and Ellie,â you sobbed, heavily breathing, and shook your head, still in denial of what they did. âI just need to be here for a while. Iâm going to transfer to Oxford.â
âYou already decided on Columbia,â your mother stated, and you continued to cry, earning a sigh out of her. âYou canât just drop it now.â
You wanted to scream, âthey might kill me if I return. They may never let me go after that.â You knew that they were combing through New York, probably already onto their next target â you knew the lengths they would go to just to have you back.
That was something you couldnât fucking stomach.
âMom, please,â you whispered, your voice jagged and shaky. âI just canât go back to the city.â You stared up at her, and she cradled your face in her hands for a moment before nodding, and let you rest your head on her lap.
âOkay, love. You can stay here,â she assured, rubbing your back, and let you sob until you finally calmed down and fell asleep.
The next morning, your father was telling you about Abby and Ellie, wondering if you had any idea about it.
âTheyâre in deep shit,â he said, glaring at you. âWhat are you not telling us?â
âI donât know anything, dad!â You denied, and your mother stood aside, arms folded. âJoel already asked me the same things that you are! I donât remember shit from that night!â
âSo you were there?â Your dad asked, and you fell quiet. He took your silence as an answer, sighing heavily and rubbed his temple in frustration. âYou werenât with any one of them? At all?â
âI⌠Ellie gave me some coke,â you confessed, guilt reeling into you as you were partially lying, and throwing her under the rug. âI was having a tough night after this guy was harassing me, and after she gave it to me, I was left with Dina and Jesse.â
An exasperated sigh came from your mother, simply frustrated that you had been doing drugs. You were never going to be her perfect daughter, and you didnât know how long it was going to take until she accepted that fact.
Your dad took a minute to process this information before grabbing your shoulders, and forcing you to look at him. âFrom here on out, you know nothing. Do you understand me?â
You nodded, and he brought you into a hug, coddling the back of your head. Your fatherâs affection was never this tender or earnest, and you knew he was only being protective for the family image, but you didnât care for that â your father was holding you for the first time since you were eleven.
You had to change your phone number, deactivate any social media you had, and new butlers, maids, and chauffeurs were put into place. Your parents allowed you to move to London a month later, staying in a comfortable flat, but were patrolled by bodyguards in answer to your paranoia.
After your readjustment to life, you prevented yourself from hearing anything Abby or Ellie, or if they were at trial. You needed to focus on yourself, get your shit together, and focus on your classes at Oxford.
A few months into the new school, you kept your head low and isolated â something you were used to doing when at Faye Academy, before they made themselves stuck in your existence.
You considered taking your courses online, but knew youâd only lose your mind being stuck in your flat for days on end.
All in four months, your life was granted something that youâd forgotten â freedom.
Not that Abby and Ellie were extremely possessive, but you haven't known anyone besides them in a while. You were able to make friends at Oxford, go out to bars and diners, without the fear they may kill someone who even breathed in your general direction.
It was a relief. And you felt human again.
Your parents constantly checked in on you, and often tried to visit. It was the first time in a while since they hovered over you, and were concerned for your well being.
âYes, mom. Iâm fine,â you assured over the phone, the device stuck between your shoulder and ear as you were returning your textbooks. âI finished classes early, so I was thinking of going back to Milan for semester break.â
âWell, honey, you see,â your mother started off, clearing her throat. âYour father and I were going to attend a gala tomorrow; Joel is throwing it.â
âI thought you guys cut him off,â you said, rushing out of the library, and to your car. âEspecially after everything.â
There was silence.
âMom?â
âEllie and Abby were found not guilty,â she said, and your heart sank to your stomach. âThe trial concluded yesterdayâ we didnât want to say anything.â
You froze in your tracks. âWhat?â
âThey didnât kill that boy. I guess he had enemies all along,â she continued, and your head spun. âIf you come with us, they wonât be there. Joel assured us of it.â
âSo everything is just fine now because theyâre innocent?â You questioned.
âHoney, youâre acting as if you know something,â she stated, and you exasperatingly sighed, continuing your walk to your vehicle. âBut Jerry and Joel did say they were going to get the girls in contact with a psychiatrist.â
âHuh, and why is that?â
âIâm not sure,â she muttered, and you hopped into your car, locking the doors. âWould you like to come? And maybe we can then spend a few days in the city. Shop around Fifth.â
âIâll think about it, momma. Still unsure about the city,â you said, and she sighed, visibly exasperated with your nerves. âI just donât want an accidental run in with the girls.â
âYou guys were so close,â she remembered. âI donât know what happened, but I hope you all make up soon; they were the best part of your life.â
âBye, mom,â is all you said, hanging up the call, and tossed your phone into the passenger seat, along with your book bag. You heavily sighed, staring blankly out into the parking lot.
They were the best part of your life.
They were the tragedy of you. They were Hell masked as Heaven, where their lure was nothing more than a ticket to damnation.
Yet, all of them were bestowed to you. You were their alter, their religion, the only reason as to why they believed in life, as you did with them.
But in your time of being free from their grasp, you could breathe, and find a newer light where nothing could dim it.
Your phone dinged, and your eyes snapped over to it, hands fiddling for the device. You opened up the lock screen to see a message from a random number.
Unknown: Image Attached.
You swallowed thickly, your hands numbing as you unlocked your phone and went to the conversation.
It was a picture of you from last night, hanging out with your friend, Delilah. She was someone you had been fond of since attending Oxford, and you had gotten close to her.
Unknown: Cute girl.
R: Who the fuck is this???
Unknown: Didnât know running made you so dumb.
Nausea washed over you, and fear rattled in your bones.
Unknown: Hi, little lamb. You miss us?
R: Iâll call the police.
Unknown: Iâll tell them you tampered with evidence. We wouldnât want that, right? Pretty baby like you isnât suitable for jail time.
R: You would go down with me.
Unknown: You betrayed us. What makes you think we wouldnât betray you?
You wanted to break your phone on your steering wheel, and you searched the outside of your car, checking your surroundings. There were only a few students, and it was still light outside.
But you knew they were watching you.
Unknown: You run again, and we will find you.
R: Why now?
Unknown: Had some troubles along the way, baby. But we took our time keeping tabs on you. Oxford treating you nice? Howâs every bitch who fucks you?
R: Youâre stalking me?
Unknown: You really are fucking stupid.
R: Donât think I wonât get a restraining order against you.
Unknown: Why would you want that, little lamb? After everything we have done for you? Didnât take you for an ungrateful brat, you know. We have been there when you needed us, taken care of you, dealt with people for you.
R: You mean murder people.
Unknown: Mhm.
Unknown: Be careful, honey. Scary world we live in.
You tried to send another message, but it wouldnât go through. âWhat the fuck, what the fuck!â You screamed, going to your phone contacts, and bringing your phone up to your ear.
âMiss, are you alright?â Carson asked. He had been your personal bodyguard since you moved to London, and was respectful of when you wanted to be alone. âAre you in danger?â
âI need my house and the surrounding area to be checked out,â you said, reviving your car engine, and pressed on the gas. âCheck for any sort of security cameras, too. Tell Rosaline to pack a suitcase for me as well, Iâm heading to Los Angeles.â
âYes, maâam,â Carson answered, the call dropping, and you put your phone in your lap. You were trying not to get into a car accident on your way back to your flat, but you needed to leave the city immediately. You were just happy you finished your courses on time, and you didnât need to worry about your education for a while.
About to reach home, your phone started to buzz in your lap. You pulled over to the side to look at the contact, only for it to be unknown again.
You hesitated on answering, just wanting to let it ring through, but a part of you wanted to know what sick agenda they had planned out for you. You knew they werenât going to stop, that they needed you vulnerable and scared in order for them to pounce at you at the perfect moment; just like a prey and predator situation.
A game of cat and mouse.
You accepted the call, putting it on speaker. âHello?â
âHi, bunny,â you heard Abbyâs voice, and your head spun. It had been so long since you heard either girl's voice, that you frowned at the sound of it, and almost how comforting it could be. âMissed you.â
âAbbyâŚâ you whispered out, tears pricking at the corner of your eyes. âI⌠You both need to stop this.â
âWhy, bun? You donât like it?â She asked.
âYou and Ellie killed Brandon, and probably many others,â you told her, sniffling as tears carelessly dropped out of your eyes. âI know you thought you were doing the right thing, but murder is wrong.â
âYou have the shirt, bunny,â Abby stated, and you went quiet. âWhy would you do that, hm? If you really wanted to dispose and run from us, you wouldâve left it behind, or turned it over to the police.â
You couldnât tell her your logic or reasoning behind taking the shirt. It even sounded unreal to you, unbelievable, given the circumstances, and how you ran off.
âI couldnât help but think of what would happen if you both went to prison,â you admitted, hot water running down your cheeks. âI⌠You and Ellie protected me, and I thought it was only fair I returned the favor. But that didnât mean I wanted you in my life again.â
Abby hummed. âAnd why is that?â
âIâm free,â you muttered, inhaling sharply. âYou and her wanted to keep me in a cage, keep me locked up forever. You have done it ever since you stepped into my life, and I couldnât see it until that evening.â
âYou make it sound so horrible, bunny,â she breathily chuckled, able to hear Ellieâs own laughter roughly in the background. âLet me ask you again; whoâs going to put up with you? Who was fucking there when Miranda Rhodes was fucking spilling rumors about you having eating disorders? Who the fuck handled Timothy Yales after he said he had sex with you after Winter formal?â
âHOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT!â You shouted, millions of emotions flooding over you, and taking you at once, drowning âI never once fucking told you or Ellie to go out of your way to do that shit! I can fucking handle myself, and being away from you both has proved that.â
âOh, bunny. You have no idea what youâre getting yourself into,â Abby stated, sharp and clear with you. She talked as if you were dumb, that you were about out of your mind.
You could nearly burst apart, everything of you filled with terror and rage. You werenât sure if they expected you to bow at their feet for all their maniacal endeavors they willingly decided to partake in, but you werenât going to.
You had come this far without them, you had managed to escape them for a good time, and you werenât planning on stopping everything now. You werenât going to surrender your freedom and life all for them, all because you knew what they were, and what they could do.
âIf I have to turn in that shirt to make sure I never see either of you ever again, I will,â you said, and hung up the call, dropping your phone back into your lap, and continued to drive back home.
The moment your car was parked, you rushed up the stairs of the building, and bursted through your front door. Your guards were all there, Rosaline getting finished up with your second suitcase as Carson approached you from the side.
âMiss, we have searched the area,â he stated, following you while you walked into your bedroom. âWe found no sort of threat, especially here. I have called your familyâs plane to be prepped and ready for take off to Los Angeles.â
âCarson, please close the door,â you said, sitting down on the edge of your naked bed. He listened, shutting it, leaving you and him in your bedroom as you looked up at him. âI need to ask a question, and this stays between us. Do you get that?â
âOf course, maâam. I am under your and your parents serving,â he reassured, keeping himself near the door, a secure radius between the both of you.
âIs it possible for me to avoid the law? Few months ago, I may or may have not tampered with evidence,â you blurted, and he inhaled heavily, but nodded, tuned in with you. âMy reason is so stupid, but Iâm regretting keeping it in my possession, and I donât want to anymore.â
âWell, what is it?â He wondered.
âA shirt,â you began, and he cocked his head to the side. âWith blood on it. Someoneâs blood who isnât mine, because my ex-girlfriends in New York beat this dude who was harassing me.â
âAnd you want to turn this in now?â Carson asked, and you nodded. âOkay, miss. Iâm going to see what I can do, and once I do, you can hand it over to me.â
âThank you so much, Carson,â you smiled, standing up. âNow, letâs head to the city of angels.â
You had your own bungalow at the Chateau Marmont. It was cozy and spacious, everything to your liking, but only stayed at it when you wanted to escape home. You had once brought Abby and Ellie, and to that, you had to undergo a whole alias, and a different room.
You didnât have much anxiety about being at Chateau, you were packed with protection, and knew the pair wouldnât make so much time or risks since their trial had concluded, also sure that Abby understood your threat about the shirt.
You had flown late into the night, it was about three in the morning of the next day, and you were drained with exhaustion. Sleep was becoming you, yet you were on high alert, and couldnât help but to keep checking your phone.
You worried that there would be another call, or a text; that they werenât quite finished with their game. In your isolation, you had much time to mull over Abby and Ellie, the things they were capable of, or the people they were.
You knew blood and carnage were them. Their beauty and charm was a simple mask that only you were able to see past as violence and cruelty rotted in their souls. Maybe they couldnât help how callous and aggressive they could be, but they lived off of it; it was all they were. There was nothing to stop them, nothing that could change them.
In a sense, you assumed your presence and soul balanced them out well â you were a complete polar opposite to them, and thatâs what stood out to people at Faye Academy.
They were terrorizing, vicious females, standing with you â a loving, and free-spirited person who didnât do much, and just kept to herself. Nobody understood or could comprehend it, but that didn't matter to them â you were the solace in their life.
You knew that they were still rough with people â mostly men â in high school, but you didnât know you were the cause behind each act of violence that they performed. But it made sense, even as you built a timeline.
There was Teresa Doles; she had nitpicked at your appearance for weeks. When you had finally gone to Ellie and Abby about it, pictures of her partying, doing drugs, and medical records of her being in rehab had been leaked everywhere. Her family came from a prestigious lineage, and her reckless behavior put a great indent to it. She had to move to England.
Jonathan White had to be admitted to the hospital after an event for the school. Doctors said they found traces of drugs and poison in his system â which made you laugh because he said he would murder you for rejecting him for Junior prom. You recall him shouting at you, calling you a series of derogatory names, but paid no mind. Ellie and Abby werenât happy when he told you such a thing.
Kayla Lynn was sent to the ER after her body had been found beaten and bloody in the bathroom. She was barely conscious, unrecognizable to those who found her â the doctors had to pull a tooth and fingerprints from her just to get an ID. You remembered how she bullied you for liking girls, calling you derogatory names, and even said she hoped you would be killed for it.
And you knew there just had to be more than those people. So many of your bullies either switched schools, dropped off the face of Earth, or were in physical therapy after you had told Abby and Ellie about what each of those people did to you.
You were too gullible and head over heels in love with the duo to know they were doing so much behind your back. You had been completely tuned in with love and the relationship, all you saw was them as your blessing.
They meant it when they said they would do anything for you.
âWe handled it,â Ellieâs voice would play in your head from that morning. It would repeat itself like a broken record, never shutting up.
We handled it.
We handled it.
We murdered someone.
You didnât know exactly why the murder scared you, or what provoked you to exactly take the shirt.
You were about to close your eyes until a knock tapped at your door. âMaâam, itâs Carson,â he said, and you welcomed him in, sitting up on your bed.
You turned on the nightstand's lamp, and he gave you a small smile. âI found a way to submit the evidence without it being traced to you,â Carson said, and your heartbeat went still. âIf only youâre wanting to give up the shirt, of course.â
âWell, that was quick,â you nervously laughed, staring down at your lap. âWhatâs the plan to turn it in?â
âI have trusted connections to the NYPD. Some officers work as guards like I do,â Carson reassured, and you hummed, chewing on your lower lip. âWe can send the shirt to them as anonymous, and you wonât have to worry about the shipping coming back to you; itâll be under my name.â
âAre you positive about that?â
âAbsolutely, maâam,â he said, and your body trembled, mind hazy. You knew it would be the moral thing to do; the guy harassed you, but Ellie and Abby couldâve done anything else besides murder.
The only murder you were aware of, of course.
These girls protected and defended you and your name. They would put the world on fire, yet never let a flame brush on your skin; they were the poisonous paradise you couldnât see as Heaven or Hell.
You had to release them, though. You needed to grow up without them by your side, because you were more than them, and they were more than you.
And if the shirt didnât get them anywhere, at least it was out of your grasp.
You got up from your bed, padding over to your suitcase and opened it up. You grabbed a brown paper bag, and held it close to your chest. âPlease make sure I donât get in trouble for this,â you said, pleading eyes looking into Carsonâs soft ones.
He could tell you were beyond frightened. That you were just someone who didnât mean to do this, that your kind heart thought you were doing something right.
You had absolutely nothing to do with this crime, but somehow, you looked ashamed and guilty as if you did. In a sense, you were â you called Abby about the guy, you knew very well what she was capable of. It was no secret how violent and cruel Abby and Ellie could be â physically or emotionally.
âYouâre safe with me,â Carson promised, and you smiled small, hesitantly handing him the bag. âAre you sure about this?â
The bag was out of your hold, Carson grasping onto it. âThey need to learn their lesson,â you said, all your logic and thoughts mixed up in your head, utterly brainless at this given rate. âAnd I just want them to stay out of my life for good.â
He just nodded, taking the bag with him as he exited the room, leaving you alone again.
You couldnât sleep after that. You couldnât even try to rest knowing you were going to ruin their lives, putting into consideration all they did for you.
But, you had just regained your freedom, discovered who you were without them. You were able to make friends without their eyes boring into your soul, you could live in peace.
You couldnât accept anymore threats or violence, just so you could remain theirs forever. Because you knew if they truly loved you, they wouldnât put you in harm's way.
You stared blankly at the ceiling, trapped in your mind when your phone had a sudden ring to it. Your heart stopped, and you froze, your body wanting to sink into the mattress.
You let your phone ring through, letting silence fall pass after the noise stopped.
Not even a minute ticked by as the phone rang again.
You reached for your device, answering the call and brought it up to your ear. âWhat?â
âSo much attitude, little lamb. Youâre going to hurt my feelings,â Ellie's voice came through, and you sighed, sitting up. âIâm starting to like this game. Because I know youâre fucking scared.â
You scoffed. âNo Iâm not. Iâm just wanting you to leave me alone.â
âYou canât deal with the idea of what might happen if we catch you,â she began, and shivers cascaded on your body, holding in your breath. âYou want to keep running, baby? I donât mind the chaseâ itâs exhilarating.â
âYouâre fucking sick.â
âYou knew that, bunny,â Abby joined in, taking over the call. âWhy are you acting so surprised? You fucking got off on how insane we got about you, donât act clueless now.â
âI was naive,â you retorted. âI was manipulated and blinded by you two.â
âManipulated? Big idea for you to get at,â she continued, and you heard Ellieâs cruel laugh in the background of the call. âYou knew what you were doing when coming to us about your bullies. You knew what we all would get out of it.â
âShut the fuck up,â you muttered.
âYou liked us hurting you too, bunny,â she stated, and your breaths were becoming uneven. âAlways in skimpy outfits, flirting with others to get our attention. We fucking saw through you. Youâre just as sick as us.â
âShut the fuck up, Abigail!â
âUsing my full name? Iâm so frightened,â Abby chuckled, amused and lightened by your poor intimidation act. âGot me shaking in my boots here, sweetheart.â
âI hope you dieâ both of you.â
âGod forbid, right? Then whoâll take care of you?â Ellie returned into the conversation. âNot even that Delilah bitch could do it. Or Holly, Nicole, Emily, Zayaâ no one.â
You fell quiet for a moment, your eyes widened in disbelief. âHow do you know them?â
âBaby, we told you this,â Ellie reminded you, sighing. âIf you were to leave us, we would get you again.â
You zipped your mouth, anxiety surging through you.
âHaving fun at the Marmont?â Ellie asked, and you shot up from your bed. âNice name you gotâ Emily Dickinson. Really⌠that name?â
âYouâre fucking here?â You asked.
Ellie snickered. âAlways in your corner.â
âI have people here, patrollingââ
âOh, we get it, you fucking princess!â She yelled. âWe know you have men, we arenât idiots. For a valedictorian, you are sure fucking dense. You think youâre always one step ahead, but you arenât.â
âFuck you, Williams,â you sneered.
âSee you real soon, lamb,â she said, and the call ended. You knew there was no point in trying to reach the number again, it was unknown and a useless line.
Ellie and Abby stood at the top of the hotel, Delilah beaten as cable ties strapped her wrists behind her back. âAlright, you bitch,â Abby picked up Delilah from the ground, adjusting the feeble girl on her feet.
âSheâsâŚ. sheâll hate you for this,â Delilah croaked out. âAnd no one will believe Iâve jumped to my death.â Her head was spinning, barely conscious enough to process what these two random, strange women wanted with her, or why they cared so much. She swore a second ago she was in her flat, sound asleep and relaxed, and now she was on top of the roof of the Chateau Marmont.
None of this made sense.
âWe are going to share this little secret with you since you will be dying,â Ellie said, taking out a cigarette from her pocket. âYouâre not the first person who has pleaded for their life, or thought their death wouldnât be convincing. We do this all for her, and unfortunately, she does enjoy it.â
Delilah shook her head. âNo, no. You donât know her whatsoever.â
âShe brought you here to your death, sweet Delilah,â Ellie continued on, puffing out a blow. âShe knows that whoever tries to steal or touch her, will be either beaten or killed by us.â
âShe wanted you dead,â Abby added, and Delilah broke into hysterical sobs. âAnd we do give our girl whatever she wants.â
Ellie cut off the cable ties, and Abby maneuvered the frail girl over to the ledge. âAnything else you need to say, honey?â Abby asked, and Delilahâs lips parted, prepared to speak. âI donât give a shit,â the blonde said, pushing her off as her and Ellie watched attentively, grinning to themselves as Delilahâs body splat on the concrete, blood making a river around herself.
It wasnât long until your guards were shouting, and there were sirens in the distance.
âMaâam, thereâs been an incident on the grounds,â Carson bursted into your room, and you swallowed thickly, your phone grasped in your hands.
You threw on a robe and your slippers, pushing your way through the men. âLet me go!â You shouted, Carson being the one to shove them off. âI need to see what happened outside!â
âItâs for your safety that you donât!â One of the men, Jackson, protested, but Carson seized your arm, and tugged you outside by your bicep.
âWe listen to her,â he reminded the group as they all followed you outside. You could hear a wave of voices and distress, police officers talking to one another. In your gut, you knew something wasnât right, and you were overwhelmed with nausea.
The noise drew you closer to the entrance of the hotel, where a symphony of shouts were clattering, and police lights mixed into the moonâs gleam. A part of you told yourself to get back into your abode, but you couldnât help yourself. Your feet tugged your forward, curiosity tingling in your body.
You shoved yourself through a heavy crowd, officers trying to get everyone to back away or stop filming what was happening.
âExcuse me!â You yelled, and pulled yourself further in.
You regretted listening to yourself for another time. Fiery and stressed voices shifted into echoes, banging off the earthâs walls, your eyes struck open by a corpse splashed on the pavement.
Your heart beated in your throat, vomit coating it, and knots twisted in your stomach.
Delilah.
Delilah was on the ground. In front of you.
Your brain didnât dare register any part of the gory, morbid scene that was plastered in front of you. Blood pooled around her head, her scalp visibly cracked open and her eyes open. You swore she was staring at you, everything in you shaking and trembling with great fear.
âMaâam, get back!â An officer shouted at you, taking you out of your trance. âPlease, this is a crime scene!â
âI⌠I know her,â you stated, and Carson approached your side. âThatâs my friendâ her name is Delilah Morse.â
âPlease sir, let us get through,â Carson chimed in, and the officer sighed, shaking his head. âThis is someone she knows. Only sheâll give you details.â
The officer went to discuss with another official, and your hand buzzed. You flinched to it, not realizing you kept your phone in your hold.
You received a message from Unknown.
Unknown: Want to keep playing, baby?
Unknown: Look at you, so scared and sick. Itâll stop once you give up.
A tear from you covered the screen, and Carson had to push you out of your stare. âMaâam, letâs go,â he said, and you had not realized the officer was holding up the caution tape to let you through.
You heard a femaleâs voice come to the side of you. âIâm Detective Anna Blake. Whatâs your name, and relationship to the victim, miss?â
You stated your name, your voice hush and shaky as you couldnât look away from Delilahâs body.
âAnd your relationship?â Anna asked.
âWe⌠I was her friend,â you answered. âWhat⌠what did she do?â
âIt looks like an apparent suicide,â she responded, and that was enough for her to gain your full attention, a confused expression plastered on your face. âShe dropped from the rooftop, and ate it right here.â
âThat canât be,â you shook your head. âDelilah wasnât at all suicidal, or had any ideations. She was the most positive person I knew.â
âYeah, but people have personas,â Anna stated, and you furrowed your brows. âShe couldâve been acting for you, and everyone else.â
âSheâs from London, Detective,â you said, and she stared at you appalled, but intrigued. âShe wouldnât kill herself here.â
Anna was quiet for a sparse second. âHuh⌠do you know something we donât?â
Why couldnât you just shut the fuck up?
There was an open entrance for the vehicles to come through, and for a moment, you swore you saw Ellie and Abby standing across the street.
You knew their silhouettes. And they were watching you, witnessing their crime.
You stared at them back, because now you accepted the truth that no matter where you ran off, that would be there. They would create mess and murder back to back until you gave up the running, and realized you only belonged to them.
Fear was a disease in you, and the only way to kill it was to face them.
Your mother wanted you back in New York. She gave you no choice but to attend the Gala with her and your father.
You tried your best to talk your way out of it, explaining that you had just witnessed your best friendâs corpse the previous evening.
Your mother said the Gala would be a great distraction. You tried to make any point or excuse to stay home, until your father had himself step into the argument. He tended to never insert himself into fights with you and your mom, but this time he felt the need to, and thatâs when you were left with no choice.
Of course, your main concern was that Ellie and Abby were going to be there, and confronting them was going to be an inevitable situation. You had to prepare yourself the most as to what to say or do if they were to be in your eye radius.
âThis dress is killing me,â you muttered, patting down the bottom part of the simple, yet elegant dress you wore. âAnd the corset of this is smashing my boobs.â
âYour dress is lovely, dear,â your mother assured, and you scowled. âYou have always loved long dresses like this; so long at the bottom, we canât even see your heels. And you always adored sleeveless corset tops on them, too!â
âYou look perfect, honey. You wore this exact dress for junior prom,â your dad reminded, and you shivered to the memory of it. Abby and Ellie were your escort â of course â and everyone adored your dress, even making it into a page in Vogue because it was Vivienne Westwood.
âI just⌠I donât want to see them,â you muttered, and the limousine came to a halt. âAnd it just doesnât feel right being here, having fun and socializing, when my friend just fucking died.â
âCherie, Delilahâs death was not your fault or anything,â your mother said, and you glared at her. âIt is unfortunate it took place at the same time you were there, but she was just an unhappy girl.â
You didnât want to converse with her anymore, only getting out of the car before any of them, and were immediately blinded by flashing lights. Your parents stood behind you, and you fixed up a promising smile, making your way into the gala.
The second cameras and screaming men were out of your way, you hunted down a busboy for a glass of champagne. âI will take that!â You grabbed the drink from the silver tray, thanking the man, and earned a groan from your parents.
âCan you at least greet people before you get wasted?â Your father asked, and you shrugged, letting him drag you over to the familiar faces of Jerry Anderson and Joel Miller. You hadnât seen them since the few days before the murder.
âAh, there she is!â Jerry exclaimed, and you exchanged a cheek kiss with him, and Joel. âWe heard you moved to London. Oxford, right?â
âYes. Itâs been quite delightful,â you shortly shared. âI finished exams early, so I came back into town for the meantime.â
âAnd do you plan to catch up with the girls?â Joel asked.
You knew at that moment that no one quite understood what really took place that night, and you would never confess to it. They all blindly assumed that there was a great falling out in response to the murder of Brandon James, that you simply didnât tolerate that behavior, and in some parts of that, it was true.
You had no place or reason to tell the whole truth, or to be honest, when there was an exact, appropriate place to share such a thing. Yet however, if you did, no one would believe you â there was no evidential proof or key to say that Ellie and Abby killed him.
They thought the girls were saints, who were being wronged by another higher power.
The actual case would have them dropping to the ground, and you couldnât exactly say, âAbby and Ellie are sadistic killers who get off to the pain and torture.â
God fucking forbid, though.
âIâm not so sure,â you answered, taking a light sip of your champagne. âI want to keep to myself for the meantime, and make more goals for my future.â
âWell, if they came tonight, Iâm sure it wouldâve been lovely,â Jerry said, and you dryly laughed with them.
Champagne wasnât enough to fill the hollow in you. You needed the strongest shit to exist at the bar.
You had a clear cue to let yourself leave their conversation, leaving you alone in the event. You went to the bar, and sat there, requesting a martini. You put your clutch purse in front of you, and sighed heavily, a migraine coming to your head.
You werenât used to going to these high class functions by yourself â hell, you didnât even go until the girls became a part of your life, and would be by your side at each and every one of them. It made your parents happy that they were there to tug you out of your shell, make you more extroverted.
A figure sat at the chair next to you, yet you didnât pay any mind to it.
Until they said your name, and the voice was familiar.
Your eyes flickered to the side, and you saw Dina. Your eyes widened, your body directing toward her, and she smiled. âHow have you been!â She cheered, pulling you into a hug, and you could only hug back. âYou fell off the face of planet Earth!â
âOh, yeah,â you broke the hug, facing her. âI⌠I decided to do school at Oxford. I just needed to get out of the city.â
âOxford is nice,â she said, smiling small. âJesse and I were worried about you. The girls said you had broken up with them.â
You gawked at her in disbelief as she went on to order herself a drink.
Who else was fucking clueless?
âWell, I guess,â you mumbled, your martini set down in front of you. âWe just had issues we couldnât resolve from the night before.â
âOh shit, that sucks,â she sighed, shaking her head. âThe breakup must have been terrible to have you move to London.â
Her glass of tequila on rocks came to her as she took a refreshing sip of it, and you were about to claw out your eyes. Either she had brain damage, was lying, or truly wasnât aware of what occurred that night, but must have since it happened at Jesseâs club.
âDina Woodward, be fucking serious with me,â you said, and she raised a brow. âYou know what happened. That night.â
She blankly stared at you.
âThat night⌠at your boyfriendâs clubâŚâ
Dina shrugged, and you were taken aback. âJesse must know, then.â
âEllie and Abby were accused of a serious crime,â she began, and you bitterly scoffed, âwhich they were found innocent to. They had to go through that trial alone, they went through Hell without you.â
âThey killed him, Dina,â you told her, yet lowered your voice due to the gossip crowd that circulated. âYou cannot seriously be defending them.â
âIâm not defending them,â Dina stated, and you rolled your eyes, downing your martini. âThey have plenty of enemies, and you know that, too. Everyone wants to see them at their absolute worst, and do their own dirty work to make it happen.â
You got up from your seat, grabbing your purse. âIt was nice seeing you, Dina.â
You shoved your way through the bustling crowd, and were stuck in the middle as soon as your phone began to buzz.
âNot this shit again,â you mumbled to yourself, and pulled out your phone, putting it up to your ear. âWhat the fuck can I do for you?â
âYou look pretty, sweetheart,â Ellie said. âDonât you worry, we arenât in your vicinity.â
âOh, Iâm so fucking pleased to hear that,â you exasperated, rubbing your temple in frustration. âThen how do you know Iâm here?â
âYouâre right, my apologies,â Ellie laughed, and you heard rustling over the line.
âBunny, we are going to play a game,â Abby came to the line, and your heart jumped rapidly. âWe can see you, but weâve made sure you canât catch a glimpse of us.â
âWhat do you want?â You asked.
âYou still donât get it, darling. But thatâs okay,â she took a hast pause, collecting her thoughts. âWe told you many times that if you were to run, we would catch you, because you are ours. You can hide, change your name, go to different universities, but we will always be there.â
You swallowed thickly, knowing you were getting stares to your frightened look on your face.
âYour parents donât give a shit about you, they only kept you away so their image wouldnât be ruined,â she said, and you knew that was more than true; your parents would do anything to remain prestigious and clean, and you were the taint in their life. âYou said you kept that shirt to return the favor, but thereâs more than that.â
âYou donât know what you are talking about, Anderson,â you scoffed, and she hummed. âI gave that shirt away; you and Ellie are going to prison for good.â
âWeâll see about that, bunny,â she said, and the line went flat. You rushed yourself to the ladies room, nausea building in you as the room spun, and your nerves weakened your muscles. Laughter and shouts from strangers rang in your ears as you dragged yourself further to the bathroom, and the sickening gut feeling came back to you.
You couldnât pull apart if you were truly just sick to your stomach, or your intuition was stronger than ever.
You pushed the door open to the ladies room, and to your luck, it was completely empty. You lunged yourself into a stall, and collapsed down on your knees, yucking it up into the toilet. Your anxiety and worry got the best of you, making you a mess so easily, and you were embarrassed by it.
You stood up after a few minutes, taking in slow, steady breaths, and gathered yourself, standing back up. You moved over to the sink, and settled your purse down, opening it up to grab your lipstick. You rinsed out your mouth with the faucet water, and sighed heavily, turning off the sink.
You reapplied your scarlet red lipstick, and put the item back into your purse, along with your phone.
Then a click was made from the side of you, gaining your attention.
The nausea came back, but not in a wave, yet in a violent crash. You swore your heart stopped for a moment, but could hear it violently beat in your eardrums while bile stung inside your throat, threatening to come out again.
Your body trembled, knees about to bring you down, and all you wanted to do was die at this very moment.
âHey, little lamb,â Ellie said, grinning in pride. Your body pressed back against the sinkâs counter, and tears approached over your eyes as you stared at her. âWhatâs the matter, baby? Cat got your tongue?â
âNo⌠no,â you said, able to take yourself to the bathroomâs entrance. You opened it, only to be met with Abby instead, a wicked smile playing on her lips. âYou are both not here.â
âOh, but we are,â Abby said, moving forward in sync to your steps going backwards. She maintained a fairly safe distance, but one close enough to grab you if you tried to run. âWhy so surprised, bunny? We promised this.â
Something about them was gravely different this time. There was a darker energy to them, a sense of evil and anger heating off of them as they stared at you down in the way the predator does when they have finally cornered their prey.
Yes, they got you, and you had no way out anymore â what a fucking terrifying and cruel revalation.
The cat got their little mouse, right by the tail.
You had fallen right into their trap perfectly, in all the ways they wanted you to. It took great cunning patience and practice to get you in this position, to have you trapped.
You were beyond scared; this was the reoccurring nightmare you dreamt of since the night you left. You always tried to consider or plan out what you would do if they were to approach you in any way, but you never paid mind to how methodical and intelligent they were.
You doubted their skills and abilities, and you were dumb to think they wouldnât get you any time soon, that you would be free from them for a few more months, maybe a year or two â maybe even a lifetime â you wished and prayed upon it.
You were stuck now. The cat and mouse game came to their precise ending.
âAre you going to kill me now?â You asked, and they hummed, shrugging to themselves.
âWell, if we wanted that, we would have done it back in LA,â Abby said, and your eyes averted back and forth between them, trying to see if there was a possible way out. âOr back in London, who knows. We had so many open opportunities to kidnap you, but we liked this little game.â
âIs that what youâre planning to do now? Kidnap me?â You asked, snickering dryly. âKeep me hostage forever? Wouldnât be anything new to me.â
âDonât act like you didnât like it,â Ellie told you, tilting her head to the side. âYou liked this claim we have on you. You will never admit it and thatâs okay, because we know it, baby.â
âNow letâs not be so rude,â Abby said, and you glanced at her. âLetâs say bye to our guests, and go back home, little bunny.â
Ellie and Abby had seemed to have enough time to decorate the penthouse. To your last memory of it, only the shared bedroom was furnished, and now, they had everything perfectly perched in precise spots.
You sat in the living room, on the black velvet couch as you stared out the window with a mindfulness of thoughts. The city was bustling, sirens louder than ever, and traffic stacked up. You tried to concentrate on the noise outside because it would be last time you would hear it.
The pair had finished fixing themselves up a drink, returning to the room, and sat across from you. You didnât pay attention to them, fits of rage and terror consuming you inside. You donât know why you thought you would actually escape them, and you had only dug yourself in a deep grave.
The familiar silence moved through the home, and you could feel their eyes spiking into you, waiting for you to say something. You had more than to say and ask, but you didnât know where exactly to start, or if you were allowed to question certain things.
âYou killed Delilah,â you blurted out, your eyes averting from the window. âYou killed Brandon James, and many others, I assume.â
âWe have,â Ellie answered, drinking her bourbon.
âI donât get why. Why do you kill people? How do you even get away with it?â You asked, and Abby glanced over at Ellie, communicating to each other through their eyes. âAre you in like a fucking cartel or some shit?â
âJoel didnât have an easy time getting to where he is,â Ellie began, setting her glass down, and slouched back on the couch. âHe has some connections, and so does Jerry. Itâs hard to get into it all, but they were doing illegal shit on the side to get money, build their legacies.â
âWe didnât kill until you,â Abby said, and you raised a brow, positioning your body in their direction. They could tell you were now intrigued, and you were; you were more than curious. âIt was two months into knowing you, and you told us about Rachel Wayne. Remember her?â
âOf course I do. That bitch bullied me like it was her lifeâs purpose,â you lightly joked, and she sighed. âWhy?â
âIt was the day when she beat you in the girlâs bathroom, ramming your face into the blow dryer all because you got a higher score on your SAT,â Abby said, and you hissed at the memory. You were a good fighter, but Rachelâs envy possessed her strength that day, and she kicked you around like an animal in the bathroom.
She locked the door, keeping her friends, you, and herself locked in, while they recorded the whole moment. You went home with a concussion, a busted face, and cried to the girls about it.
âWe were so fucking pissed,â Ellie said, scoffing to herself. âWe knew Rachel well. We invited her over to my place, and made small talk, getting the information out of her about what occurred. We got names, and everything.â
You remained quiet, but stayed tuned in and fully focused.
âWe got her high off cocaine, and once she was zoned out, we beat the fuck out of her,â she explained, and your heart thumped against your chest, about to pop out. âShe was crying, and screaming; but it made us think of how that was you previously because of her. Our anger overrode us to the edge, and we started cracking her body in. We didnât know we had killed her until she was completely fucking limp.â
âThose who had the video were dealt with too,â Abby assured. âIf they refused to delete it, we made sure their lives would be ruined, their parents would be left with nothing. We knew how to obliterate these spoiled fucks.â
âAre you serious?â You asked. It was rumored that Rachel ran away to her boyfriend in Spain, and refused to come back because her parents were assholes to her, and just a straight disappointment to them. âHow did you clean up your tracks?â
âWell, I called Joel in a panic, and told him everything,â Ellie answered, finishing her drink. âJoel told Abby and I to get ourselves cleaned up, and these men came over like an hour later, picking up after us.â
âThey wiped our phones and tracks completely,â Abby said, and slid you forward her glass of whiskey. âAnd then we did it again, and Joel quickly realized we were doing it for you. He saw that you were our purpose, so he let us use his connections, and everything.â
âHe was worried everything was going to collapse the second the cops came about Brandon,â Ellie recalled, and took out a fresh cigarette. âThat was a mess we had to fix, of course. Like, Iâd never seen Joel so pissed off before, it was insane.â
âHow did you get away with the murder?â You questioned.
âEasy shit,â Abby laughed, shrugging. âHe had himself in rough, bad business. We basically found someone who he owed money to, planted all the evidence and shit on that dude.â
âNow that motherfucker is serving life,â Ellie lit up the stick, inhaling sharply. âWe made sure it wouldnât come back to us.â
âBut the shirt,â you reminded them, and they stared at you for a moment before aweing at your little tactic. âThe shirt is with the cops.â
âIs it, though?â Abby teased, and a faint ding of the penthouse elevator chimed, footsteps approaching into the living room. âRight on time, too! God, I fucking love dramatics.â
Your eyes shifted to the noise, a broad and muscular figure walking to everyone; and you swore it was the night you were going to go into shock, or have an aneurysm.
Carson stood before you with the shirt in a clear zipped bag, and Abby stood up. âThank you so much,â she grinned, and Ellie shook his head. âYour money has been transferred to your offshore account.â
âWhat the fuck?â You blurted, Carson directing his eyes towards you. âYou knew?â
âIâm the one whoâs been cleaning up their messes,â he admitted, and Abby opened up the bag, taking out the shirt. âIt didnât take much to convince your parents to hire me. I just needed a believable resume.â
You shot up from the couch, staring him down. âYou told them where I was at, and everything! You are a fucking narc!â
âI didnât have to tell them anything,â Carson dryly chuckled, amused by your terrified expression. âThey were able to do that all on their own; I just gave them the starting point, and left it at that.â
You smacked him, the skin contact echoing in the home. He only laughed, finding you childish and weak, and shrugged. âIâll have you fucking killed!â
âLoved to see you try,â he said, and took his exit, waving to the pair. You stared at where he was in utter shock, widely appalled with slight betrayal hitting your heart. You had trusted Carson wholeheartedly, felt secure and safe with him, and it all was a blinding lie.
Ellie started up the fireplace, and your eyes flickered to the ghostly fire. âNo, no!â You shouted, trying to seize the shirt from Abby, but the auburn haired girl entrapped you in her hold, forcing you to watch the shirt to be burned.
âYou know, I hope you start to learn tonight,â Abby tossed the shirt into the fire, and you wailed, thrashing in Ellieâs arms, yet it was pointless; in every way, they would always be stronger, you being a weakling.
The shirt crinkled and disappeared in a matter of seconds.
Ellie let go of you, and you glared at her. âWe arenât done talking,â she settled you back on the couch, and Abby brought a glass of chardonnay to you. âNow we want our answers.â
âIâll fuck you up!â You spat, and they tried not to laugh. âWhat else shit do you have to say?â
âWhat did you expect to happen when you came to us about your bullies?â Abby asked, genuine and engrossed. âDid you think we would just have chit chats?â
You took a second to yourself, and you stared down at your lap, fidgeting at your dress. Before Abby and Ellie came into your life for good, they were notorious at the academy, and held that title with such pride. You knew what they were capable of, what they could do, and you saw them as your defenders from everything.
Did a part of you know what you were doing? Yes, but not that it would lead them to murder. You never understood or knew why they were so fixated on you, even before they decided to lure you into their lives. They had been riveted by you, and there was not a clear indication as to why, but you used it to your full advantage.
Your parents didnât care about you, and they knew that. All three of you played a dangerous, deadly role in the relationship; it was volatile and brutal, but it was all you had, and they were all you wanted.
You spent so much time running and hiding from them, you never took a particular moment to realize your role in everything. You took that shirt because it was a part of you; you had Brandon killed, he was a deadman the second you called Abby about him.
You were just as guilty as them, you were just as part of their games and murder.
No one else was going to do this for you, nobody would burn and tear apart the Earth just to have you in their grasp again.
âThereâs our girl,â Abby cooed, and you looked up at them, tears in your eyes. âYou finally understand. After these years, now it has come to you.â
âYou gave us the cards, we just played them the way you liked,â Ellie said, and you downed the chardonnay, exhaling shakily as you set it down. âWe knew you were too much like us, we couldnât deny you anymore. We had to have you.â
âEvery time you said we handled it,â you sucked in a hard, jagged breath, âwas that code for âwe killed someoneâ?â
âWhat else would it mean, princess?â She mused, burning her cigarette out alas in the ashtray on the coffee table.
A silence slowly creeped into the room, crinkling of the fire and outside traffic filling it as it lasted what felt like moments.
âYou know the first time we say you â God, we just knew we had to have you,â Abby spoke, and your eyes trained focused on them. âYou hypnotized us by simply existing, by being in our vicinity. It was like we were blessed to come across one of Godâs angels.â
You were always sure that they were attracted to you because you simply co-existed within their class status, and because they knew you were the only girl at Faye Academy that wasnât corrupted or tainted. You were like this fresh breath for them to use â and you still thought like that after everything they had done for you, and even prove that they did love you beyond your body.
âWhy me?â You asked.
âWe donât know what you did to simply draw us in, but we couldnât resist. Every time I saw you in class, in your nicely ironed pleated skirt, in your dark blue polo sweater⌠your makeup done so prettyâŚâ Ellie reminisced, a crude grin playing onto her lips as she recalled the first moment she laid eyes on you. âYou were so pure, so perfect for us. It was no longer about wanting you, it was about needing you â we had to; everyday that passed by where you werenât in our grasp, we could almost die from it.â
âYou will never truly know how much you have us at our knees for you, sweetheart, and thatâs okay,â Abby said, and you sucked in a sharp breath, not knowing you had been barely breathing the entire time they spoke about you. âBut understand the risks we would go through for you; we live and breathe you. We crave and yearn for you, despite the fact you are already ours. What is our purpose if you simply donât exist in our lives?â
There was not much you could say to that, only able to break down. They sat up from the couch, and Ellie reached her hand out for yours, softly looking at you.
âLetâs go upstairs, baby,â she gently spoke to you, and peered up, hesitantly interlocking your fingers with hers. She walked you with her, Abby trailing close behind as an easy quietude settled in place, though your sniffles were the only thing to be heard.
Walking into the bedroom, you were momentarily paralyzed by the memory of your last moment in it. You were on that same bed when you put all the pieces together, and had left them with no letter or anything; you took your absence, and that was that.
Ellie guided you over to the wall mirror, her and Abby brushing up close on your back, the two attentively admiring you. âWe would do anything for you, sweet girl,â Abby said, and your sobs slowly came to a halt. âWeâll always happily be your executioner, for the rest of our lives.â
âYouâre our girl,â she whispered, pressing a kiss to your shoulder. âBut I think you need a fresh reminder of what you put us through.â Her hand hid behind her for a moment, grabbing something from the back of her jeans. A gun came into your vision, and your breath hitched, but she kept it by her side.
Your neck was met with Abbyâs soft lips, her warm breath fanning against your skin, and her fingers loosened the strings of the corset. You softly moaned, Ellie fixated on the sight of you easily falling apart to Abbyâs kissing, and grinned to herself. âDoesnât take much to have you under us,â she said, and you eyed her, nodding.
The dress was undone, and easily dropped off your body, the duo getting the view they had longed for all this time. You were bare and exposed, only in underwear, and a primal urge had shadowed over them, wanting to ruin you without any thought.
âOh, bunny,â Abby whispered. âJust as perfect as we remembered.â
Her lips separated from your marked neck, and you whimpered as Ellie pressed her gun to your abdomen. âWhat a sweet sight that I will never get tired of,â she mumbled, kissing your cheek. âSeeing you fucking petrified as if we will kill you at any moment.â
âBut you wonât,â you retorted. âRight?â
âNo,â she promised as the gun was slowly dragged to your temple, and she clicked the trigger, only for the barrel to be empty. You flinched to the trigger, your heart racing. âBut we will hurt you, I can assure you that, little lamb.â
She used the gun to steer you to the foot of the bed. âOn your fucking knees,â Abby demanded, and you collapsed to them, your knees thudding against the cold, hard granite tiles. âAnytime you stop, we use this gun, and you can find out yourself if the barrel is cleaned out.â
âYes, mommy,â you muttered, and they amusingly hummed. Ellie kept the gun in position, using one hand to unbuckle her belt, and strip off her jeans as Abby did the same. It was a rare thing for them to have their straps under their pants, only if they knew they would have to handle you at any given moment, and this was one of them. You were going to come crawling back, and they were prepared for it, to claim and destroy you all in one.
âMama gets to have you first,â Ellie said, and you parted your mouth open, Abbyâs stuffing your mouth full with her cock, careless to your gagging. She had her way with you, her hand holding the top of your head as she thrusted herself into your mouth, trying your best to not pull back and gasp for air. The gun was there to keep you place, and you couldnât ignore how it pressed deeply into the side of your head.
âThatâs right, baby. Fuckinâ whore,â Abby said, and you tried to best out of your nose, desperate for more air. You used whatever strength you had, forcing your head back, and engulfed amounts of oxygen into your lungs. âWhat the fuck did we say?â
The trigger was pressed, and your ears rang with it. Empty, again.
âYouâve been away too long, princess,â Ellie said, and Abby retrieved your head, your mouth filled with the silicone object again. âWas too busy fucking other girls, huh? I bet they couldnât make you like this; I can see you fucking dripping through your panties.â
Your arousal was a wildfire in you, spreading through your stomach, and down into your thighs. You could feel the mess you were making, seemingly ashamed and embarrassed how you got wet from their threats, with a gun pointed to you that was possibly clipped.
âThere she is, now you are being good,â Abby praised, her thumb pressing away the tears that fell on your apple cheeks. âAlways doing your best for us, hm? Knew you missed us too, baby.â
Ellie crouched down to your level, the gun lined up under your head as her grin turned into a twisted smirk. âAll that we did for you, little one,â she mocked a frown, sighing. âAnd you just ran away like that? Coming home to find you gone, and betraying us?â
You were lightheaded and dizzy, your mind hazy, yet tried to stay focused. Your moans and whimpers gargled in your throat, drool running out of the corners of your mouth, and falling down onto your breasts.
âYou belong to us, and you better start getting that through your fucking skull,â Ellie seethed, her bitter fury coating her mind. âYou are only hurting yourself by doing the shit you do. A fucking brat you are.â
Abby decided to give up on you, your mouth hollow and free. She grabbed you by your throat, a sinister shade lingering in her eyes, and air whistled through her teeth. âLittle bunny, you have no clue what youâve done to yourself.â
You were put in the middle of the bed, and Ellie looked at her gun. âLetâs see if she can still take us,â she said, and Abby hummed, nodding. Ellie adjusted herself in between your legs, shoving them open, and stripped off your underwear, moaning at the sight of your cunt. âFucking hell. Sheâs fucking soaking, babe.â
Abby had bunched ropes in her hand, kneeling into the bed, and stared at your cunt. âWhat a sick bitch you are, bunny,â she teased, running a finger down your slick folds, and you whined. âAll of this from a gun, Ellie. She fucking loves it.â
Nothing else was said as Abby grasped onto your legs, and pushed your legs up against your chest. Her hands gripped on your wrists, having you hug the underneath of your legs, and made sure you kept yourself locked in the placement.
Ellie tied your wrists together, tight enough to not cut off any blood supply, and then went on to your ankles, knotting them in one. She used another string of rope to connect your ankles to your wrists, making your position trapped and stuck.
âWe donât want to hear you enjoying this,â Ellie said, and gave the gun over to Abby as the blonde sat herself in front of you. Ellie took off her strap, letting it drop to the ground, and took off her underwear, only to move herself over your face. She carefully lowered herself down on, and her aching cunt met your mouth as you obediently sucked and ran your tongue on it.
Abby slowly slipped the gun into you, yet you were soaked enough to let it easily be fucked into you. She pressed down onto your stomach as she rammed the cold weapon into your pussy, and you tried to muzzle your needy noises, tending to Ellieâs needs.
The auburn girl rutted herself against your mouth, eliciting shaky moans and cursed under her breath. âYeah, just like that, sweetheart,â she muttered, looking over at Abby while she continued to fist the gun into you.
You lathered Ellieâs slick on your tongue, pleased how it dripped over your lips as you moaned to the sweet taste of her. If your wrists werenât restrained, you would keep your arms around her thighs just to eat her out for hours on end.
Abby and Ellie were intensely dominant, it was unwonted when you gave them pleasure. They were refusing about it, saying that you were the one who needed to be desired and tended to whenever you wanted to be.
You couldnât tell if you were immensely desperate or if the gun was fucking you so well, that you were already at the peak of your climax. You denied your orgasm, needing to get Ellie to hers, and harshly ate her out, fucking her hole with your tongue, sending her into a moaning, pleading mess for you.
âOh shit, sweetheartâ yeah, keep going,â she softly moaned. âBeing such a good girl for daddy, gonna make sure to cum in your pretty mouth.â
âSheâs making a mess on your gun and sheets,â Abby said, and for a moment, your cunt was not filled until she pushed her cock into you. âThere we fuckinâ go, this is exactly what she needs.â
Ellie craned her body near Abby, the two kissing each other in a sloppy manner as the blonde roughly fucked into you. Abby kept her close as Ellieâs jagged moans and whines breathed into her mouth, doing all she could to keep herself up and close.
âYou going to cum, baby, hm?â Abby asked, and Ellie moaned against her lips, nodding. âGo on, cum for us. You can do it.â
Ellieâs orgasm came crashing down as she squirmed and cried out, twitching on your mouth. Ellie pushed herself up, kneeling beside your head and leaned down to kiss you, both of you moaning at the taste of her. You sucked on each otherâs tongues, Ellie slipping her hand down your stomach, and made way in between your thighs, rubbing your cunt.
She broke apart the kiss, her free hand gripping onto your jaw to make forced eye contact, and spat into your mouth. âMake us proud, baby. Want you to give daddy a good one,â she whispered, and you kept your eyes trained into hers as Abby pounded herself deeper into you, the squelching noises of your slick mixing in with your whimpers and throaty moans.
âSo fucking tight, never gonna get enough of this perfect pussy,â Abby breathed, her hands squeezing the back of your thighs. âMade just for us, sweet girl. Everything about you was made for us to worship and ruin.â
âNo one fucked you like this back in London, huh?â Ellie asked, and you shook your head. âOh, I know, sweetheart. Probably had to get off all by yourself while you thought of us, too.â
âJust⌠just thought of you two the entire time,â you confessed, brows knitted together. âI need you so bad, âm sorry.â
âWeâre here, baby,â she said, kissing the side of your head. âNext time you try to escape, youâll absolutely fucking regret it. Got that?â
You nodded, and a warm sensation kindled in the pits of your stomach, knowing the familiar feeling. You squirmed, and Abby glanced over at Ellie. âIf she doesnât understand, weâll just beat it into her,â she said, making it a sincere promise, and a chaste kiss was made to your forehead. âI would hate to do that, but it might just happen.â
Your approaching orgasm made it too troubling to know if they would harm you in such a way, but you were at the point that you couldnât put it past them.
âCum for mommy,â Abby insisted, and you moaned, your hips jittering as your climax broke out of you, broken moans escaping from you. âThat was fucking nothing, you crybaby.â
The cum from her strap leaked with yours, dripping out of your hole, and making a puddle in the bedsheets. She unknotted the ropes, tossing them to the ground shortly after, and massaged your wrists.
You laid there for a second before bursting out in a fit of laughter, the two confused by it.
âWhat?â Ellie bluntly asked.
âSurprised you even let me cum,â you said, laughing a little more. âUsually you have me work for it.â
Abby and Ellie looked at each other before their eyes went back to you as they puckered their lips in thought nodding to themselves. Ellie picked you up from the bed, and brought a violent backhand slap to your cheek, halting your laughter altogether.
âYou want to keep fucking laughing!â She yelled, giving you another one. âYou are even fucking lucky we are touching you. We could have had you strapped to a vibrator for hours, and hit you every time you tried to cum.â Your lightness turned into sobs, and you stared at her through glossy vision, your pout shaking on your lips. They had simply run over their limit and patience with you, and you no longer doubted the sadism they would lay on you.
Abby just stood by, soaking in your tears and how easy it was to crack you. It was enough for the both of them to get off. She took you from Ellie, putting your arms behind your back as her chest brushed up against it, and Ellie took off her shirt, harnessing back on her strap.
God, I know you hate me, you thought to yourself. But please, have mercy on me.
Abby spat down your ass, using the saliva as lubrication, and dipped you down onto her strap, your ass hole brutally being stretched open. She kept you steady and positioned right for Ellie, who was not far behind as she shoved her cock into you.
âRide us, bitch,â Abby said, and you obliged, hissing under your breath. The pain lasted longer than you thought, tears flooding into your ears while their size brutalized your cunt. âSuch a sensitive cry baby. So easy for us to break you.â
Your head fell back on her shoulder, looking up at her. âPlease, mama. âM sorry, Iâll be so good for you.â
Ellie grabbed your jaw, a violent smack struck against your cheek. âYou enjoy lying to us, all the fuckinâ time. We shouldâve disposed of you a while ago, see how you wouldâve done without us.â
âWhat a pity that would be,â Abby taunted, laughing breathily in your laugh. As they found humor at the thought of you being a lost lamb without them, you were ripping at the seams as you went on to ride them at a gentle pace for you, the discomfort shifting into grand pleasure. âI would like to see that. Maybe next time we will leave, have you feel what we did.â
âNo no!â You cried, shaking your head, and broke into hysterical sobs. âDidnât mean to go, swear I didnât.â
âYeah,â Ellie jested, that eerie smirk of hers resting on her lips. âBecause who will put up with you? Make you feel like this? Give into your fucking sick desires?â
âThatâs why youâre perfect for us,â Abby noted, her hand creeping up to your neck, and viciously gripped on your throat. âJust as twisted and fucked in the head as us, more than youâd care to admit. No one will want or need you the way we do.â
You refused to deny them that. They were what you craved, they were the epitome of your lust and dreams, everything you yearned for, and were the helping hand to expose who you were to yourself. You wouldâve done the same as them if they tried to leave; you would fucking slaughter those who they cared for just to have them again.
A match made in the ninth circle of Hell.
Your next high came to you, making it easily known as your noises got high pitched, making it an indicator. âLet me cum, please,â you pleaded, sobbing. âWant to cum, I need toâ Iâll do anything you want.â
âWe like you this way, stupid whore,â Abby said, and made the gun useful again, pointing it to your ribcage. âYou cum, I pull the trigger.â
You body tensed, and you nodded, trying to ignore your unbearable high as it was becoming raw ecstasy to you. Your thighs trembled, about to give up on you, and you looked at Ellie through wettened eyelashes, your face drenched with tears and sweat.
The bedroom was rare filth, you could smell sin and vices burning through it. Your life was in their hands in every literal sense, but you wouldnât have it any other way; you would rather die than not have them, and if that meant they would have to kill you themselves, you would let them. You were utterly nothing without them, and they knew it, too.
You had all the fucking wealth and privilege in the world to be someone, but you couldnât be if they werenât there on your side. You were them, and they were you. Your souls were eternally intertwined, and no matter where you went, you would always come back to them because they were it. They were all you sought out for.
Despite their desecration and souls being planted from Hell, they were Heaven and all things bliss.
You needed them. You would always need them.
You were winded out of your head as your orgasm stung inside of you, crying to be freed. You sobbed with it, shaking your head, but had to consider the gun that was indented into your skin. You had not known how much was passing when holding in your cum, but you couldnât take it, and it was easily making you fall apart.
âMommy, please!â You cried, blubbering in your tears. âI have toâ ahh, please! I canât do it, I canât!â
âYes you can, and you will, you fucking whore,â Ellie argued. âUnless you want to find out if the next shot has a bullet in it.â
You shook your head, and continued to break into sobs, your orgasm threatening to be released at the edge of you. It was becoming too much, your vision was blurring, and your heart was overwhelmed, almost frightened you would have a heart attack of some sort.
Ellie and Abby gave in, violently and recklessly pounding into you, putting your riding to a complete stop. You placed your hands on Ellieâs shoulders for support, Abbyâs nails clawing into your throat as she continued to hold onto it for leverage while she maintained to hold you at gunpoint.
Utter euphoria rode over you, your eyes rolling to the inside of your head, and your back perfectly arched, crying out for the both of them. Your nails scratched at Ellieâs skin, your eyes getting a hast look at her fucking your cunt. Your noises and voice grated like rust at the back of your throat, breaths shuddering in your ribcage.
âYou want to fucking cum, bunny?â Abby breathily asked. âCry for it more if you really want it, sweetheart.â
âMama, please!â You sobbed loudly, your mewls and cries faltering in your cries. âWant to be full of you, need to be bred by you two, please. Make me a pretty mommy for you, keep me trapped with you.â
They fucking lost it on you, ferociously driving themselves deeper into your wet, abused holes, and were coming to their own high. âYeah, baby? Want daddy to fuck a baby into you?â Ellie cooed, a faux pout dangling on her lips. âThen you wouldnât have anywhere to go.â
You nodded, on the brink of being braindead. âYes, yes! I wanna be leaking of you. Wanâ mama and daddy to breed me so badly, please!â
You were an incoherent babbling mess, your voice raw and rough as you cried with your noises of gratification. They easily had you at the tip, and were ready to push you all the way down, keep you sobbing.
âFucking cum for us, fuck!â Abby demanded, dropping the gun, and let go of your throat. She laid her hands on your torso, her nails scraping against your skin, and you hissed to it. Wanton moans and whimpers echoed throughout the room, and a second hadnât passed when your climax ran out of you, riding it out as the girls went on to fuck you.
You let them use you like a fucktoy until they had come to their own orgasm, stuffing their cum into you as a symphony of curses sputtered from their lips. All movements came to a stop, bodies trembling and sticky.
You had to internally keep yourself conscious, but it was seeming impossible. You collapsed onto the bed the moment you were unfilled with their cocks, letting them handle themselves before you.
You could feel a warm, wet rag running over your legs, and you stared up at the ceiling, your eyes lazily blinking. âWe need to clean you up, sweetheart. Câmon,â Ellie said, and picked you up, carrying you into the bathroom.
The three of you shared a warm bath, sitting in the middle of them as they cleaned you up nice and well, being sure to be gentle to touch you. You had missed the sweet scent of them, or how their violent hands could be so kind to your body, chaste kisses being pressed on your spine and forehead here and there.
It took you a few years for you to figure out your purpose with them, and all that they did for you. It was more than enough. To many, it would seem insane of your justifications and reasonings to why they did what they did for you, but no one else's opinion mattered in the fact. They worshiped you, they devoted every inch and breath of themselves to your protection and well being.
This is all you wanted. You and them forever the rest of your life. If carnage and bloodshed had to present, then so be it; because as long as you had them there by you, it was okay.
It was going to be okay forever.
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can you imagine if like. object show characters were active on tumblr . i mean fans on here but his account is dead so. i mean itd be fun
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Hello, Tumblr, my name is Liam Plecak. I'm sorry for the tag spam, but this is an urgent enough matter that I think warrants it.
For the past year and a half, I've been trapped in another universe with little-to-no communication to anyone else. I've been reading a few posts here and there, and I think some of you might be able to help with freeing me and my friends (I think some of you have powers?). Below is an in-depth description of where I am, what happened, and who did this to me. Please, if you can help, send me an ask.
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tags: fluff, shy!gn!reader, ftm!reader for Angel đ crushing/mutual pining, pre-established relationships, blitz's relationship/intimacy issues (but we gonna get that healthy growth we need), striker's is a bit suggestive!
Alastor
You weren't sure the barrier of touching Alastor would ever be something that would be crossed and you told yourself that you didn't mind. You chose to revel in the moments of when he sought out affections and physical closeness be it dancing or if he suddenly tugs you in to tell you something. Alastor is not very privy to other people's space and Heaven forbid someone enter his without permission. Quite the contradiction.
Now, if he notices you're purposely not trying to give him any sort of touch or affection, he will get rather annoyed. You, darling, are the only one who he doesn't mind touching him. Has he expressed this? No. Will he? Maybe. Did he expect you to be able to read his mind? Quite possibly.
Alastor hoped to have made a smoother transition rather than just outright grasping your hand. Even he seemed surprised by his own action, static feedback chirping from him. His ears flick and the slightest sliver of a blush creeps from beneath his suit collar.
"I don't mind if it's you, dearest. I... I don't detest your touch as much as the others." Alastor clears his throat, his large hand briefly covers your smaller one. Giving your hand a little squeeze, he stands abruptly and disappears into shadow and darkness.
You'd never seen Alastor embarrassed before. How cute.
Lucifer
He's a pretty affectionate guy, especially once he's comfortable around you! His heart warms as you mindlessly play with your fingers, eyes looking everywhere but at him. The more you feel his stare, the more the blush darkens on your face.
"Take it easy there, sweetling," Lucifer's soft tone eases your senses. Pressing a light kiss to your forehead, he pulls back. He offers his hand, palm upwards, giving you time to back away. His gentle smile deepens when you slip your hand in his, his thumb brushing along your knuckles. Tugging you to his side gently, your shoulders brushing, you continue on the sidewalk towards Hell's finest local cafĂŠ.
Husk
While not one for PDA, Husk doesn't mind affection behind closed doors. Preferably out of sight of anyone who may mock and tease him for it.
He didn't however expect you to be sitting on his bed, thumbs lightly pressing into the center of his paw watching his claws go from being exposed and then retracting thanks to your gentle manipulations. He snorts lightly, as silly as you were, he couldn't be mad at your fascination.
"You're lucky you're cute, hun. If you were anyone else I may not be as nice as I am with ya." Husk smirks. Maintaining complete eye contact, you raise his paw to your lips and give it a soft kiss, grinning as Husk jolts with a huffy mrow. "Sneaky brat," he sighs, falling back on his bed with an arm over his eyes.
Angel Dust
You want to hold his hand? Which one, babe? He's got six! :) Angel is understanding of your shy nature, though he hopes you'll be able to be more bold with him in the future. He won't pressure you, of course, but he wants you to know that you can trust him. That he is capable of taking things slow.
"Is this okay?" Angel asks, softly grasping your hand in his gloved one. When you make no move to pull from his touch, a happy wobbly smile wiggles onto his face. He lightly leans his cheek against the top of your head, a brief sign of his affection. He can snuggle you more later, but for now, he wants to enjoy the day with his favorite person.âĄ
Vox
Intimacy of any sorts isn't foreign to him, but he's not used to someone so good, so pure. And he's certainly not used to that innocent attention being directed at him. Any time you touch him, even if you only accidentally brushed past him, it leaves him buzzing. Craving for something more. He wants your sweet smile to be directed at him and him alone. It takes everything in Vox not to scream when you give his hand a small squeeze only to pull back, muttering apologies. Soon, he's reaching for you again, taking your hand in his.
"I didn't say that I hated it." Vox whispered in an uncharacteristically soft way. His eyes flicker up to your face, then back to see where his hand has dwarfed yours. With his free hand falling to your hip, lightly stroking circles there, he pulls you to stand between his legs. Your other arm slides to rest on his shoulder as his clawed hand curls around the back of your knee. Intimate but not forceful. There's no aggression in his movements. Lifting your head towards him, even with Vox sitting down, he's much taller than you. His eyes hold a silent question, one that you answer with that smile he loves so much and a nod, and his lips press to yours with your hands still joined.
Blitzø
Romantic gestures are a big deal for him. Big in the way that he struggles with them, but that he doesn't want it to be something that holds him back. He really doesn't. Familial and platonic he understands, but Blitz is pretty damned confused with the fact that you want to even be near someone like him. He doesn't want to inadvertently hurt you by acting how he does. He doesn't wanna fuck up, but goddammit, he really does want to be near you. He wants to be able to give you everything you could need and more, he just doesn't know how. How to unfuck himself.
"Sl-slow," Blitz's voice betrays him with a crack and he swallows thickly, taking your hand in his. Ever grateful that you're the ones in I.M.P right now. This is different. Intimate. He's shaky, palms sweaty. His brain feels foggy and it's suddenly hotter than normal. He feels dizzy and like the floor may break beneath his feet and swallow him whole. The second you start to withdraw, he's tugging you back to him with a soft, raspy, "No." This is progress. Progress is good.
Facing him now, your other hand slides up to his. Both your palms are pressed together. Blitz keeps his gaze on the floor, unable to help how fidgety he feels, even as he laces your fingers together, and leans his head onto your shoulder. He's not gonna let you pull away. Not yet. Please...
Loona
Lighting up a cigarette, Loona leans her back against a wall of some dingy alleyway in the human world. You had chosen to wait with her, both dressed in your human disguises, hoping that any second Blitz and M&M would return with the mission completed. Your sole purpose tonight had been to guard Stolas's grimoire and open the portal when everyone was ready to return home.
Blowing her smoke towards the sky, Loona hummed softly. "At least it's a nice night, huh?" She smiles lightly, grateful her tail was hidden in this form when you leaned against the wall beside her. You looked great; you always did.
A vast blue sky with billions of twinkling stars smiled down on you two. It was a nice change of pace from the hellish red glow of your home. This particular area of Earth was quiet. Peaceful, even. Nodding your head you smile at her, Loona swallows.
Her pinky finger lightly brushed your own, a gentle startled gasp leaving you. But you smile, albeit shyly, your hand taking hers. Not many words were exchanged, none needed to be. Just Loona smoking her cigarette and looking up at the stars.
Striker
Ain't you just the cutest little thing? You think he doesn't notice how worked up and shy you get when he's just finished wrangling in some dinner, with his bare, sweaty muscles on display. It's a direct, unvoiced invite for only you and yet you haven't taken him up on anything yet. Why?
"You scared of me, sugar?" Striker drawls, flicking his cigar butt into the dirt and crushing it with the heel of his boot. You look up at him with those big, beautiful doe eyes and adamantly shake your head that you weren't. "Then what is it, darlin'? Spit it out." He smirks, gold tooth glinting.
Cheeks heating, you gnaw on your lower lip. "I'd like to hold your hand." Striker blinks, clearly taken aback. That's it? You're getting so worked up like a nervous virgin begging for a thick cock because you want to... Hold his hand? He stops himself from laughing, he can tell that it's really bothering you. Heaving a sigh, Striker plops down beside you. Pulling you into his lap, his arms slide around your waist and he offers both his hands to you. He hides his reddening face at your back, the sound of his blood rushes in his ears, unable to focus on anything but how soft your hands are. And how well they fit into his. "Jus' do it then, they're yours to touch, ain't they?"
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Some of the reasons I think Stolas is on the spectrum
(finally getting around to popping this on up too).
He has special interests & misses social cues while being happy in them.
It not really normal to be happy reading legal documents when someone's life is on the line. But Stolas is just vibing that he gets to help with his love of words. Yay him!
Stims
He stims when both happy & sad to help regulate his emotions.
His happy stims are:
*clapping when he gets to take Via to the circus, because he thinks they can enjoy it together.
He also does this with contract reading.
*He hopps up and down when his dad gives him a new books. Also when getting ready for his date with Blitz. He's just so happy he needs to hop.
His sad stims:
*are bang his head again and again about the engagement.
*He self sooves with chest strokes when Blitz says his outfit is too much.
*He hand rubs and wringing his hat when worrying about Via in LA.
Special interests
The there's that Stolas info dumps on the playdate with Blitz all about his books and about plants.
Stolas also feels he has to explain why Blitz horse joke was soo funny. And why's it so funny?
Because it's accurate. I love his little cutie.
But he's also kept up his love of plants as a major hobby now he's an adult. When most people tend to swap interests as they age.
Side bar
His comfy resting hand position is t rex hands. This tends to be an autistic thing. Also works well as an owl.
Sensory issues
Stolas appears to also have some sensory issues too. When his a child he appears to be struggling when Mr Butler touches his hair out of nowhere.
But he's fine with Blitz doing it when they're kissing. This shows a lot of trust between them.
I think it's likely sensory issues are the reason why he swaps into his comfy, very old robe, as often as he can too.
Specific communication issues
While Stolas is very good at some communication styles, he's pretty bad at others.
When the audience think it's another joke about wanting to keep a puppy; he immediately knows Blitz's is panicking the studio. And tries to get to him.
However he doesn't get that his dirty talk is way OTT, because he's mostly likely coping it from the erotica. Not lived experience.
Speaking of erotica.
There's obviously a rule that reading is allowed at the diner table. But Stolas doesn't get This book isn't appropriate to read there.
Another rule he appears to follow more rigidly than most probably would; is that when you get an appointment you wait till you're seen.
Ozzie's ment to met Stolas at noon, but doesn't make it till 4 pm because of problems with work.
Stolas is only a couple of days out of the hospital and is probably feeling horrible.
But he sticks around a minimum of 4 hours to be seen, because he feels he has to.
(I'm assuming he also got taught you turn up earlier rule, but this just a guess).
Stolas genuinely wants to do something Via will enjoy, and he's fine taking Via to stylish occult when she asks.
But didn't get it till she's crying and sad that she wasn't enjoying Loo Loo Land.
"I take it you are.. not having fun." She needs to spell it out. Sarcasm isn't easy for him to interrupt.
His was obviously thought taking his daughter and his lover out to a theme park would be a good way to introduce them.
It's the sort of plot that only works on a novellas. And that's probably when he got it from. (Probably worked great for Gabrielle and Alejandro).
These are examples of him Masking, and not understanding why it didn't work.
Stella's being dangerous to be around = take Via out somewhere for her to have fun to blow off steam.
Wanting your lover and daughter to like eachother = ask IMP to tag along as the completely unnecessary bodyguards.
He doesn't really get that flirty with his affair partner, in front of his kid while going through a divorce isn't a good idea...
He also struggles to understand when his flirting comes off as condescending too. With "ittybity imps like you" or calling him Blitzy in public. He's most likely him coping language from other goeita.
But Stolas is very good at knowing when knowing when Blitz is fine being picked up, when to reassure him with face stokes, or how to calm Blitz down from a panic attack in just a few seconds.
So it's not that he's just never learnt these skills. It's just that some communication skills are harder for him than others.
But if you disagree that fine. đ I just wanted to put down some of my thoughts why I think he could be.
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can you write how any of the om brothers would react with a bimbo(in a gn way) mc. like they are stunning and so so sweet.. but just so fucking stupid it's honestly astounding .
Obey Me! Brothers with a Thembo!MC
Tags: Lucifer x Reader, Mammon x Reader, Leviathan x Reader, Satan x Reader, Asmodeus x Reader, Beelzebub x Reader, Belphegor x Reader, Thembo!MC/Reader, Fluff, Soft Romance, Comedy, Protective Characters, Domestic Moments, Gentle Teasing, Affectionate Dynamics, Wholesome Vibes, Slice of Life.
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Lucifer
At first, Lucifer is utterly baffled. How can someone so stunning be so naive? Heâll try his best to guide you, carefully explaining things, but after a few blank stares, his frustration will start to show. Heâs constantly torn between wanting to help and wondering if youâre messing with him. Eventually, though, he finds your innocence endearing and even refreshing. Heâll start sticking around more, ready to gently steer you away from troubleâoften with an exasperated sigh, but always with a soft, knowing smile reserved just for you.
âMC, I asked you to write your name at the top of the form. Not sign it. And why âBeautiful Geniusâ? ... Never mind, justâplease, no more surprises, alright?â
Mammon
Mammon is immediately charmed and overwhelmed. Heâs head over heels for your sweetness and good nature, but it never ceases to amaze him just how oblivious you are. Heâs fiercely protective of you, always standing up for you when others might tease. While he loves bragging about your beauty and kind heart, he conveniently leaves out the moments when heâs had to explain the simplest concepts. Your innocence and cheerful demeanor are his favorite things, and he wouldnât trade them for anything.
âYou really gotta stop givin' stuff away for free, MC! And whatâs with buying a lamp for 100,000 Grimm? 'Cause itâs shiny? Come on, you're better than that!"
Leviathan
Levi is completely flustered by your innocence. Heâs used to complex strategies and serious gaming, so interacting with you is like trying to explain the basics of a game to a toddler. Despite that, he finds your undivided attention both adorable and overwhelming. Every time you cheer him onâeven when heâs just rambling about something nerdyâhe melts a little. Your constant sweetness makes him feel warm inside, even if you don't understand half the things he says.
âW-Wait, youâre cheering me on? Weâre just in practice mode, MC⌠No, no need to bring snacksâoh, but you did anyway? Thanks, I guess?â
Satan
At first, Satan tries to keep his composure, despite how shocked he is by your cluelessness. Heâll be patient, explaining things in detail, even as you misunderstand or misinterpret. Instead of getting frustrated, though, he finds your quirks fascinating and kind of endearing. If anyone dares to mock you, (Satanâs wrath is swift and brutal). Over time, he comes to cherish your unique interpretations of things and even looks forward to them.
âMC, Shakespeare isnât a vegetable⌠Wait, you want to make a âHamlet saladâ? No, thatâs not whatâoh, you know what? Fine, letâs just read it together.â
Asmodeus
Asmo is completely smitten with you. Heâs in awe of your beauty and your adorably naive misunderstandings. Every time you misinterpret something, he finds it endlessly amusing. Heâs always showering you with compliments and making sure you feel appreciated. Heâs also more than happy to explain anything you donât understand, often in the most dramatic and theatrical ways. Asmo is incredibly proud of you and loves showing you offâthough maybe not when you mistake sunscreen for tea.
âDarling, youâre absolutely stunning, but sunscreen goes on your face, not in your tea. What kind of skincare routine is that?!â
Beelzebub
Beel is the epitome of patience. He loves how sweet and genuine you are, and heâs more than happy to help you out when things go over your head. If you ever get confused or make a mistake, Beel gently explains things without ever getting frustrated. He loves spending time with you, and even when you accidentally order fifty cakes, heâs just happy to be there with you. Honestly, he thinks thereâs no such thing as too much cake, especially when it's more for the two of you to share.
âMC, when they asked if you wanted one dozen or two, they meant for you to eat, not order. But hey, no big deal⌠More for us, right?â
Belphegor
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KĂśnig wanting to be tied up but heâs nervous to ask
Tying up subby KĂśnig
Smut Ahead!!
A/n: This scared me to be completely honest, like how do I write this đ BUT I CAN DO THIS.
Sorry for the wait, I wanted to make sure that this was good for all of yâall :)
Tags: gn reader, afab reader, fat friendly fic, no pronouns except for âyouâ, sub KĂśnig, dom reader, bondage, degradation (m receiving), after care included, slight obsessive KĂśnig, toxic masculinity mentioned, gender roles mentioned, KĂśnig being a wuss, what color have we agreed his eyes are??? also this fic is a lil silly, donât take me too seriously, gets better as you read lol
KĂśnigâs huge and beefy. Heâs not made to be gentle, vulnerable. When youâre in military you gotta have muscles, not feelings. But lord does this big man just want to be put in his place.
Whenever he had the time - or privacy - bondage was always his favorite to pleasure himself to. The lack of control, putting your body in the hands of someone else, having to take everything you were given.
The soldiers he worked with didnât have much of a filter, using any chance they could to compete in some stupid testosterone pissing match. They boasted about coming back home to their submissive wife that they could fold into a million positions. Talking about how strong and dominant they were - but KĂśnig couldnât help but wish for the roles to be reversed.
Being a dom never really did it for him, he didnât get all the hype. Heâd much rather be the one being played with like clay. Pushed and pulled in all directions, used like a doll, treated like a slut. But he could never tell the other men this! No, heâd be ridiculed! I mean, he breaks open doors for a living! He canât whimper and beg!
But oh lord does he.
He loves his relationship with you. He doesnât think he could ever find anyone who cares for him as much as you do. God youâre just so fucking perfect. You understand him so well. You donât make fun of him, you know that he comes with a lot of fucking baggage. Youâre so patient with him, especially when his anxiety is taking over.
Heâs been too scared to go too far with you in the bedroom. He wonât even let you touch him, worried that heâll turn into subby mess right under your hands. Heâll finger you or eat you out, never using his dick. If you ever complain or feel bad about the only one getting pleasured, heâll just tell you that you deserve to feel good, so why donât you just sit back and let him play with your body?
You guessed that he was just too anxious or insecure to actually fuck yet. You remind him every day that you love him and youâd never leave him, I mean, even that bulge is impressive. If he let you suck his dick once youâd be his forever. Heâs so fucking hot and god wonât he just fuck you already!! Nothing could turn you off of an absolute hunk of man like him.
Youâve been begging more and more every day, even resorting wearing only his shirt and your underwear, hoping heâll rip it right off of you and take you right then and there. Crawling into his lap and grinding down. But of course heâll just effortlessly pick you up and set you down next to him, giving you a kiss on the head as a sort of apology and racing to the bathroom to deal with his massive⌠problem
You rolled your eyes, seriously?!?!?
You know that heâs jerking off. This is ridiculous, he obviously wants to fuck you, what the hell is going on? You canât do this anymore! Thatâs it, youâre confronting him and getting a goddamn answer.
Your knuckles knock against the wooden door of the bathroom, âKĂśnig. Get out here. Right now. I know youâre jerking off in there.â
KĂśnig felt heat rush from his tummy to his cock, goddamnit now he was even harder. He strained against his pants painfully, a soft whimper tumbling past his lips. Youâve never been so demanding before. He hate how much it turned him on.
With a large hand clumsily hiding his bulge, KĂśnig stumbled out of the bathroom. He was sheepish, refusing to look you in the eye. He looked so fucking pathetic. And he still looked sexy.
âKĂśnig,â you drawled out his name, frustration evident in your tone - it sent another rush south, KĂśnigâs eyes almost rolling back into his skull at the sound, âAre you gonna keep beating your dick in the bathroom or are you going to fuck me?â
You could practically hear KĂśnig gulp, his hand squeezing down over his hard on. His wide eyes flickered down to your lips, you looked so hot when you were angry.
He nodded slowly, never breaking his gaze from you. Heâll probably last long enough, he just has to go slow - thatâs all! He just has to keep focusing on being strong and manly and he wonât melt at the feeling of your pussy around his cock! Oh god, who is he kidding, he canât stay dominate around yo-
âYou want me to top you, donât you?â
His heart dropped. How do you know? Heâs quiet, he never has told you anything about his preferences! Heâs in the military! He acts like all his peers, right?
His thoughts are racing and you can tell. His eyebrows are furrowed, eyes moving back and forth - something you realized that he does every time heâs deep in thought. You let out a small giggle, âKĂśnig, donât be so oblivious, baby.â
You walk up to him, hand reaching up to hold his face. The simple touch has him sinking into your hold. âGod look at you, itâs not hard to tell. You always liked it when I took charge,â you leaned forward to whisper in his ear, âYou want me to tie you up? Ride your cock until you canât see straight? Prove to you how much of a slut you are?â
His knees almost buckle under him, youâre all he could ever want. Heâs fantasied about you so many nights, worried that heâd never be enough for you. Worried that he wouldnât live up to your expectations. But thatâs okay, you have all the time in the world to prove to him what a good boy he is.
He couldnât even think, stumbling as you dragged him into your shared room. You quickly tore off your shirt and pants, only allowing him enough time to take off his shirt before throwing him down on the bed, climbing onto his lap and straddling his thick, muscular thighs.
You looked so pretty on top of him. He loved being under you, he wish he could spend the rest of his life right here.
You playfully rutted your heat down on his rock hard cock, KĂśnig threw back his head. He let out a loud whine, fingers digging into your hips. âYou know KĂśnig, Iâve been planning for this for oh so long. Iâve seen how squirmy you get whenever someoneâs tied up on TV. How you grab something to cover your lap. But youâre just so obvious, huh baby?â You squished his cheeks between your fingers. Your voice was so condescending and he couldnât help but thrust his hips up into you.
âGod, youâre such a whore for me KĂśnig.â
He whined, loud. His pretty pink lip caught between his teeth, brows drawn together. He watched as you opened up your bedside drawer and pulled out a bundle of delicate black lace. His face flushed, cock throbbing against you.
He stayed perfectly still for you as you gently grabbed his hands, leading them up the headboard, and tying them together in a neat little bow. The intricate fabric looked perfect next to his bulging muscles. You ran your fingers up and down the sprawling vine like veins in his arms, you could feel him quivering beneath you. His shallow breathes and occasional low moans tumbling past his mouth.
He gave an experimental tug to his bindings, he could barely move. A rush of blood flowed down to his cock. You were so strong, tying him up so tight, leaving him to your mercy.
You could feel him harden even more, a smirk gracing your face, âYou like that baby? You like being tied up under me?â His head quickly nodded, his pretty blue eyes looking up at you.
âMaybe I should just leave you hereâŚâ you trail off, leaving kisses along his collarbone, âall desperate and whiny⌠I mean, itâs only fair after making me wait this long.â
You donât think youâve seen KĂśnig so panicked before. His eyes were blown wide, hands tugging at his bindings so he can hold onto you and keep you right where he needs you. âN-no! Schatz please⌠please! Bitte mein leibling⌠I- y/n, I canât-â His words slurred, strung together by his thick accent.
âCome on KĂśnig, stop blabbering. I know you can beg me better than that.â Your words shut him right up. You could see him process, his mind clouded with lust.
âLiebling⌠ich braunche dich, I need to have you t-touch meâŚâ he pleaded for you, lips trembling and dick pressing against your thigh. âI want to be inside of you so bad, maus⌠fuck, Iâm so hard for you y/nâŚâ How could you deny him when he was begging you so sweetly?
âOnly because youâre being such a good boy for me.â You smirked as you oh so slowly unbuttoned his pants. He thrust into the air uncontrollably, even the slightest touch drove him mad. âAh-ah, stay still KĂśnig.â His teeth dug into his lip at your words.
You pulled him out of his boxers, his cock slapping up against his tummy with how aroused he was. Pre cum slid down to his base in pretty droplets. You wrapped your hand around him, barely covering him entirely from just how big he was. KĂśnig let out small breathy whimpers, the heat of your hand was just so warm and nice against his hard on.
You gave him a small lick at his tip, the flavor of his cock spreading deliciously across your tongue. KĂśnig let out a loud, drawn out groan. More and more peals dribbled from the slit and you quickly caught them in your mouth. KĂśnig pulled down on his restraints as you slowly took the head of his dick in your mouth, sucking gently.
He loved when you treated him so sweetly, so softly. So lovingly. But lord could he not wait for you to fuck him up.
You started bobbing up and down on his cock effortlessly, taking him nice and easy. You looked up him through your lashes as you hollowed your cheeks and it sent his stomach in knots. It felt so good, the warmth and wetness of your mouth was like heaven. Your teeth grazing the skin of his dick, a small reminder that he was under your mercy and control. To another man it might be threatening to think that their pleasure could so easily be turned into something so painful if the person blowing them off only clamped slightlyâŚ
But it just pushed him closer to the edge. Being placed in between those pretty jaws of yours, so sweet but so dangerous. Of course youâd never hurt him, at least not more than he could handle - or enjoy.
He thrusted up into your mouth only for your hands to hold down his hips. Your eyes glowered at him in warning, you were in charge of his pleasure. He whimpered as a sort of apology, too enraptured in the sight of his cock disappearing between your lips to form words. Your saliva pooling at his base and mixing with his pre cum.
He couldnât wait any longer, his stomach tightening in short spasms. âMaus, I- Iâm gonna⌠âM gonna cumâŚâ His breath came out heavy in between his words, your mouth never ceasing as you watched him stumble his words out.
Your lips pulled off his cock with a small âpopâ, hand lazily moving up and down on his length. âYeah? You gonna cum? Am I making you feel that good?â His eyes watered, your words so teasing and mean but so arousing. You let out a little chuckle at his state, feeling him twitch in your hand, âGo ahead, cum for me. Cum for me like the slut you areâ
You brought your head back down on his dick, moving fast and rough. He loves the way you talk to him, the way you treat him. Like heâs yours. He pulled harder on the lace holding him in hopes of grounding himself, hoping to somehow deal with the overwhelming pleasure you were giving him.
You let his hips thrust into you as he chased his orgasm, loud whines and strings of your name leaving his mouth. You kept your gaze on his face as his brows pinched and eyes closed tight. You felt his cum spill past your lips and leaking down onto his lap. You kept sucking his off long past his high came down, aftershocks twitching throughout his body.
âW-wait itâs, itâs too much- ngh! Oh my godâŚ- y/n!â You giggled watching him squirm with overstimulation. You laid one of your hands down on his hips, pressing down against him. The other hand traced up and down his cock. It was still hard, pressed against his tummy and smearing left over cum on his skin. He jumped with each ghost of your fingers and whined for your teasing to stop.
You eventually slowed your hand, grinning at the mess KĂśnig had become beneath you, âAlright pretty boy, so fucking sensitive, huh? But if youâre too sensitive for me to even touch you, how am I going to properly fuck you?â
Standing at the edge of the bed you slowly pulled your underwear down, looking at every twitch of KĂśnig cock as he watched you. You climbed into his lap, your bare cunt hovering above his dick.
Tears fell from the corners of his eyes and he gazed at you as though you were sent by god just for him. âDu bist so schĂśn, meine Liebe.â
KĂśnigâs lip quivered as you lower yourself down onto him. His hard cock stretched out your walls so wonderfully. So hot and thick, and all yours. You threw back your head at the feeling of KĂśnig disappearing into you inch by inch.
âKĂśnig you feel so fucking good baby, filling me up soooo muchâ
KĂśnig searched for your eyes, needing to know just how good he was making you feel. Him. Not anyone else, him. He felt like heâd cum just at the thought of pleasuring you so well.
His hands shook in his bindings, he craved the feeling of your skin. He needed to run his hands up the curves of your tits, and down the fat of your hips. He needed to grab your stomach and grope your thigh. He just needed to touch- but he was a good boy. He wouldnât beg you to untie him, no, he needed to prove he could be nothing but a toy for you to use. This was all about you.
God, you.
Your hips met his and the final stretch lodged a moan through your pretty lips. KĂśnig involuntarily bucked into you as a tear rolled down his cheek at the bliss of being inside of you.
You reached down a hand to dry his face, your other hand pressing down against his lap,
âAw, Baby, itâs okay. Donât get too excited though, you keep still.â
Your voice was soft but firm. So melodious. It sounded like honey to KĂśnig and you could feel him throb inside of you as he held back another thrust.
You teasingly rolled your hips with his full dick inside of you, head thrown back and thoroughly enjoying yourself. KĂśnigâs teeth burrowed into the soft plush of his lip, overwhelmed by the sight of your heavenly state and the overstimulation to his cock.
His jaw dropped open as he felt you slowly rise up until only the tip was encased in your warmth, and then quickly falling back down to his hips. You watched as KĂśnig whimpered, eyes screwed shut as pleasure shot through him.
You picked up the pace with each movement, up and down, up and down. More and more whines tumbling past KĂśnigâs lips as they harmonized with your own moans. Your slick and his cum mixed together over his hips and the insides of your thighs. You reached a hand forward, tracing patterns on his stone hard stomach. It was like chiseled marble, perfectly sculpted all for only you to see and to touch.
He jumped, the muscle in his tummy jumping at the feeling and relaxing at your chuckle.
âI donât think Iâll ever get used to how sensitive you are, KĂśnig.â You leaned forward even more, lips teasing his ear. âItâs gonna make fucking you a lot harder for you and a lot more fun for me.â
You straightened your back, mean grin gracing your features. KĂśnigâs eyes reached the back of his skull, too pleasured to feel real fear at your words. It only pushed him further to finishing. His stomach muscles spasming in preparation and his body tensing.
You suddenly stopped, his cock fully encased in your tight warmth. A twisted cry came from KĂśnig, desperate for you to continue but not daring to thrust his hips into you. You leaned against your arms propped on his chest, staring deeply into his eyes as he stared back.
Your voice was low aa you spoke, âAre you gonna cum again, KĂśnig? Cum for your first time from my pussy? Cumming like the pussy drunk slut you are?â
A small sob left KĂśnig, tears falling from his face. It was as all so much, almost too much. Having you be everything heâs ever dreamed of. He nodded his head, your word bouncing around his skull.
âY-yes meine liebe, please. Please, let me. I love you.â Another sob, âNgh, Iâm- Iâm your slut y/n, Iâm your whore.â
âAwww.â You smiled wickedly at him, crashing your lips against his as you continued to ride him. His cock reached all the right places, leading you to your own release. You bit at his lips and even his tongue, his moans filling your mouth. Drool dribbled down his chin and slid down his neck.
Your pussy clenched around his cock, gripping him like you never wanted him to leave. The sound of your skin connecting was like music to KĂśnigâs ears. The sound of accomplishment. The sound of his love in physical form. The sound of you taking him and putting him right where he fucking belonged.
His tummy tightened again, dick pulsing inside of you. You felt your own stomach pool with pleasure. You momentarily broke from KĂśnigâs mouth, saliva stringing you together. His tongue lolled out, desperate for your connection to resume.
âCum for me KĂśnig, cum with me and prove to me that youâre mine and only mine.â Your lips reached his yet again as your hips moved faster and faster. You even allowed KĂśnig to sloppily thrust into you. Each time your bodies met it felt like heaven, pushing you further and further to what you knew would be an other worldly orgasm.
All that mattered in this moment was you, it didnât matter if he fucked before or if heâd cum from someone else before. It felt like he was doing it for the first time. Like this was the only time that mattered. The only person that made him feel this fucking good. This fucking loved.
The pleasure rose and rose, until it snapped. Euphoria rushing over your bodies in waves. A strangled cry pushed into your mouth from KĂśnig. You could feel him filling you up, warmth spreading throughout your body. You did a few more slow lazy thrusts before pulling yourself off of him, sitting up and looking down at the mess you made.
God he was pathetic, tears drying against his face, lips swollen and bruised, and his eyes looking at you with pure admiration.
You lazily crawled off the bed, leaving KĂśnig whining for you. When you returned you had a warm wet towel. You sat next to KĂśnig and gently cleaned him off, careful to not overwhelm him too much. You could feel him jump underneath you every now and then from his overstimulation. When you were done you quickly cleaned your self off and laid the towel on the bed side table, turning back to KĂśnig who watched your every move with a soft gaze.
You untied the lace around his wrists, holding them in your hands and massaging them lightly. âDoes your skin hurt at all baby?â
âN-no. Well, not unbearably. The sting⌠feels nice.â His voice was husky and low. You smiled at him, before lying down and cuddling up to his chest. He was damp with sweat and his flesh was feverishly hot under your hands. His arm snaked under you and held you tight against him. He leaned down and pressed a kiss to the top of your head.
âI love you so much maus, thank you⌠thank you for making me yours.â
A/n: oh. my. god. Itâs finally over. I finally finished it. Sorry for being gone for so long! Hope this makes up for my absence :)
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SUMMARY âł Damian meets a stranger in the bathroom. You grin. âCool. SoâŚ?â You pat the space beside you again. Against Damianâs better judgment, he steps closer. He is measured and deliberate, eyes scanning you for any sudden moves. Thereâs a mix of curiosity and resignation in his eyes. He sits down beside you, maintaining a respectable distance and cringing at how dirty this floor could be. pairing: damian wayne x gn!reader warnings: references to drugs (molly and cocaine), blink and you miss it underage drinking. tags/notes: pre-relationship, hiding in the bathroom at a party, conversations in said bathroom, soft & melancholic, inspired by this song wc: 1.8k
Damian Wayne is a sort of⌠enigma, to his peers.
He is the son of Bruce Wayne. It is known. He carries himself a certain way. He possesses a level of discipline that far exceeds his age. To those around him, Damian is often seen as aloof and distant, his demeanor cold and calculating. He has little patience for the frivolities that occupy the minds of other teenagers.
He is the son of Talia Al Ghul. It is not known. He has been trained in the way since he was young. His lineage defines him. He is the sum of his choices, even if they never really were his in the first place. There is a constant battle in his heart. There is little that can take his mind off of it.
So, he tries to find things that will.
He isnât one for parties. Sweaty, drunk teenagers aren't to his taste. He tells himself it is part of maintaining appearances. Like when he must show himself at his fatherâs parties, this canât be so different. He can play by the rules. His posture is always straight, his expression impassive, a silent observer rather than a participant.
People avoid him. He is untouchable, closer to heaven than Earth. His peers might admire his skills, his intellect, and his undeniable presence, but they rarely try to breach the wall he has so carefully constructed around himself. Few try to understand the weight he carries, his burdens. Fewer succeed.
The party is at a low. The music is faded, people are leaning against walls and chatting lowly to each other. They smile at their friends and their âfriends.â They lean into each other and whisper into each otherâs ears. They interlock fingers and drag them away from the party, no doubt off to find somewhere more private.
âŚThe air in here is suffocating.
His legs carry him away, passing hallways and doors and couples who donât care about public indecency. He slips into the first slightly ajar door with the lights on and slams the door closed, sighing. This bathroom is quaint, for his standards anyway. He looks at himself in the mirror, bracing himself on the sink. The music is more muffled here, but the oppressive silence of the bathroom isnât much better.
Until, that silence is broken by a mutter of, âUh, hi.â
Damianâs head snaps to the side, one of the rare times he's caught off guard. How did he not notice you? Youâre not particularly being sneaky, nor do you look like someone who is capable of doing so. Youâre leaning against the bathtub, entirely relaxed and content. You look like someone who is completely satisfied with their circumstances.
You give a small, quizzical smile. âThereâs room enough for two if you also got tired of everyone else.â You scoot a little and pat the space beside you invitingly. âUnless youâre looking for molly or something, âcause I donât have any. Also, nobody does lines in the bathroom anymore. That's clichĂŠ.â
He deadpans. âIâm not.â
You grin. âCool. SoâŚ?â You pat the space beside you again.
Against Damianâs better judgment, he steps closer. He is measured and deliberate, eyes scanning you for any sudden moves. Thereâs a mix of curiosity and resignation in his eyes. He sits down beside you, maintaining a respectable distance and cringing at how dirty this floor could be.Â
You watch him, unperturbed. âI like parties, but I get tired of them fast. Too many people, too much talking,â you hum, stretching slightly. âI hide in here to get my bearings. What about you?â
Damianâs mouth opens before he can stop himself. âI donât see the appeal,â he admits.
âNeither do I. Kind of,â you shrug. âI only ever go with my friends. Nobody else matters as long as Iâm having fun with them.â
Damianâs gaze drifts away from you, focusing on a spot on the tiled floor as he processes your words. Thereâs a flicker of contemplation in his eyes.
âIt is kind of⌠lonely, though. Isnât it?â you ask tentatively. âBeing around so many people, and still feeling like itâs just you. That thereâs no one that really gets you.â
Damian's eyes flick back to you, face passive. His posture has untensed. His mouth twitches, considering.
You blink. âOkay, that was deep out of nowhere. I think the punch is hitting.â
Damian lets out a short, quiet laugh, the first sign of genuine amusement you've seen from him. His inhibitions have been lowered. From what? He hasnât taken so much as a sip from any drink at this damned party. Is it you? Do you have that effect on him?
âI donât usually waste my time with meaningless events if I can help it,â he mutters, foot knocking against yours.
You raise an eyebrow, looking at him with mild curiosity. âAnd yet, here we are. Funny how that works, huh?â Damian nods slightly, his gaze shifting back to the bathroomâs muted dĂŠcor.Â
You let the silence stretch between you for a moment, both of you caught up in your own thoughts. The bathroomâs fluorescent lights flicker faintly, casting a soft, intermittent glow. The muffled thud of bass from the party outside makes its way into the room, but it feels distant and irrelevant now.
âSo, Damian,â you start, trying to shift the focus away from the awkwardness of the situation, âwhat do you usually do when youâre not at these kinds of parties?â
âI didnât tell you my name.â
You scoff slightly, rolling your eyes. âDonât try to be humble, itâs not a good look for you.â He raises a brow as you turn to him. âDude, youâre the son of Bruce Wayne. Of course I know your name.â
His eyes squint, a hint of amusement peeking out. âYouâre bold.â
âItâs the alcohol,â you shrug. âIâve already made out with a random guy a while ago. Not much farther I can fall from grace.â You look over to him, raising your eyebrows. âUnless you wanna make out?â
You laugh at how his expression turns sour. His eyes widen at your bold suggestion, the brief flicker of surprise giving way to a scowl. âIâm not here to indulge in such⌠frivolities.â
You chuckle, shrugging it off. âFair enough. Just thought Iâd offer.â
He seems to relax a bit more, a quiet calm settling over him. You lean back, crossing your arms behind your head and gazing at the ceiling. Damian remains still, his eyes fixed on the bathroom ceiling as if it holds the answers to his unspoken questions. The silence between you stretches out comfortably, filled only by the occasional distant thump of the party music.
âI like art,â he mutters.
âArt,â you hum. âCool. What do you like about it?â
Damianâs gaze remains fixed on the ceiling, his tone soft and contemplative. âI find it⌠grounding. A way to disconnect from everything else.â
You nod slowly, processing his words. âWhat kind of art do you like? Paintings, sculpturesâŚ?â
He hesitates for a moment before answering. âAll kinds. I appreciate technique and craftsmanship. But I also enjoy seeing how others interpret the world. A glimpse into their mind.â
âSo you have an eye for detail,â you say, glancing at him with a thoughtful expression. âI get that. I think I like art too, in my own way. More abstract stuff, pieces that make you think.â
Damianâs eyes flicker towards you, a hint of curiosity showing. âLike what?â
You shrug, a little embarrassed. âI donât know, really. Pieces that challenge conventions, make you question what youâre looking at. I guess I like things that have a story or provoke some kind of emotion.â
He nods, considering your words. âDo you have a favorite artist?â you ask.
Damianâs lips twitch slightly as he thinks. âCaravaggio.â
âCaravaggio?â you smile, nodding appreciatively. âYeah, I can see why youâd like him. His stuff is intense and dramatic, definitely fits with your vibe.â
Damian raises an eyebrow. âMy âvibeâ?â
You chuckle softly. âYeah, you know. Intense, serious. Not a bad thing. Itâs just⌠who you are.â
He looks away, heat rising to his cheeks. âI suppose.â
The silence stretches again, more comfortable this time. The distant music has gone back to an upbeat pick, but in this private bubble of yours, you donât notice it.
The conversation flows easily, surprising both of you. Damian, who usually keeps his thoughts guarded and emotions locked away, finds himself oddly at ease. Heâs spent most of his life around people who either expect something from him or are intimidated by his background, but with you, thereâs no expectation, no fearâjust a simple, genuine exchange.
After a while, you shift slightly, getting more comfortable against the bathtub. "You know, itâs kind of funny," you say, breaking the silence. You lean your head back over the edge, turning to him. âI feel really comfortable with you, a total stranger. Feels like something out of a weird indie movie.â
Damian smirks at that. âPerhaps youâre just strange," he jests. His voice is softer now, less guarded.
You smile, pleased. âItâs one of my better qualities.â
"You've certainly made things more interesting," he replies, surprising himself with the admission.
The conversation drifts to other topicsâbooks, places youâd both like to visit, even the absurdity of some of the things youâve both encountered in your respective lives. Damian tells you as much as he can without revealing too much, while you share some of your own experiences.
Thereâs a comfort in the anonymity, in not having to be anyone other than who you are in this moment.
Eventually, you check the time on your phone and sigh. "I should probably get back out there. My friends are going to think I got lost."
Damian nods, though thereâs a hint of reluctance in his eyes. "Yes⌠I should too." Not to mention he came alone.
You both stand up, and thereâs a moment of awkwardness as you face each other. You extend a hand, for lack of anything better. "It was nice talking to you, Damian."
He hesitates for just a second before taking your hand. "Likewise." His grip is firm but not overly so, and for the first time in a long while, he feels a connection with someone that isnât tied to his family, his legacy, or his duties.
You grin and give him a small wave before slipping out of the bathroom, leaving Damian alone with his thoughts. He watches the door close behind you and then looks back at the mirror, catching his own reflection.
He doesnât recognize the person staring back at himânot fully. For the first time, heâs allowed himself to step out of the carefully constructed persona heâs maintained for so long.
And maybe... he doesnât mind that.
âŚYou were quite beautiful, werenât you?
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Ooh I'm happy to see you open again! I love you writing. Please, I would like to make a request too. 𼺠My request is where MC/Yuu broke their ankle, they got sad because they unable to celebrate Christmas with Silver. Hopefully you can accept this.
COMMENTS:Â Sure!đ I really thought I would write little for this one, I don't know how so many words appeared. đ
I hope you and all enjoy âď¸
CHARACTERS:Â Silver (special participation of Lilia and Grim)
TAGS:Â Fluff; GN Reader; Can be read as platonic
WORD COUNT:Â 1.210 words
Christmas doesn't exist in Twisted Wonderland. You're the one who told Silver and the others about this holiday in your world.
âIt sounds like a heartwarming holiday.â Silver tells you. âI understand that you miss it. Are you going to celebrate it at Ramshackle Dorm?â
You say you could do it, but since Christmas isn't a holiday in Twisted Wonderland it's hard to find decorations. And even though you like Grim and the ghosts you'd still feel a little sad that there are so few people.
âI understand. I also always celebrated my birthdays and holidays with few people. Usually it was just me, Father and Malleus. Then Sebek and his family started joining us. And now I have had the opportunity to celebrate certain dates at this school with new people and you. I can see how difficult it will be to have so few people with you again after these experiences.â
You ask if he's also going to spend the winter break with few people.
âProbably with the same people, I believe. Most of the days should be spent with Father and once or twice we should go to see Sebek and his family. Malleus must also come for a visit.â He smiles, looking into space. âI wonder what it would be like if you were with us.â
You smile and look at him hopefully.
âHmm? Would you like to spend winter break with us? But wouldn't that interfere with your holiday?â
You explain that no, that Christmas can be celebrated in any home. And you also wouldn't mind not celebrating it that year.
âPlease don't say that. Your culture should be celebrated if it means that much to you. Especially such a merry holiday.â He thinks for a moment. âYou say this Christmas can be celebrated in any home.â He smiles again. âNow that I think about it, there's someone in that house who would love to experience a completely new holiday. In that case, would you like to join us this year?â
You accept the invitation and the two of you end up agreeing that you and Grim would spend the winter break at Silver and Lilia's house in Briar Valley.
But before that day arrived, you ended up slipping on the ice that had formed in Ramshackle Dorm's backyard and breaking your ankle. Grim was very worried but followed your instructions to go and get someone from the infirmary. But halfway there he saw Silver sleeping at the foot of a tree and went to wake him up.
âSILVER! SILVEEER!â
Silver wakes up, not because Grim spoke loudly but because of the urgency in his voice.
âGrim? What happened?â
â(Y/N)! They slipped on the ice and are in a lot of pain and their ankle is swollen!â
âWhat? Did they sprain their ankle? No! Tthat doesn't matter now. You go tell the infirmary, I'll go get (Y/N).â
â(Y/N)!â You hear Silver shout as he runs towards you.
He didn't stop to ask if you were okay. He could see from the poor condition of your ankle that it was a serious fracture. As soon as he got close to you he immediately knelt down and picked you up in his arms. He had that serious expression that would probably turn anyone away.
He didn't run because that could hurt your ankle even more, but he walked as fast as he could, which in itself was faster than most people walk. He also carried you in his arms as easily as if you weighed nothing, but with the same care as if you were something of inestimable value.
When you arrived at the infirmary, Grim and the nurse were already waiting for you. Silver carefully placed you on the bed and he and Grim left for the nurse to examine you and take care of you. He almost had to take Grim with him by force because he wanted to be with you so much.
After the nurse takes care of you and puts the cast on your ankle, you can receive visitors. Silver and Grim return and Grim immediately jumps into your lap. Silver stands beside you as if guarding you.
âDon't worry, I took care of that ice for you.â Grim tells you after you calm him down and tell him you were fine now.
âAfter nearly burning down Ramshackle Dorm by melting the ice with his fire breath and magic.â
âCollateral damage. But I didn't burn down the dorm, it's fine.â
âBecause we protect the dorm with our magic.â Another familiar voice enters and approaches you. âKhee hee hee, it was a fun exercise. How are you (Y/N)?â
You tell Lilia that you are okay now, but you remember that the next day you would go with them to Briar Valley.
âI really wanted to go with you guys.â
âWhat do you mean by âwantedâ you don't want anymore?â Lilia messes with you. âAnd why did you think you could no longer come with us? It's not like your ankle is a problem. I'm sure Silver will be happy to carry you around if necessary. Khee hee.â
Silver blushes slightly, but smiles in agreement.
âGrim and I can take care of the decorations. And I'm sure Sebek and Malleus would love to help too. Unless...â Lilia makes a dramatic heartbroken face. â...you broke your ankle to get rid of us. *sniff*â
You laugh and guarantee that you didn't do it on purpose to hurt yourself.
âSo be prepared to be well tomorrow so we can go, okay?â
âHave you already packed your bags?â Silver asks you. âIf not, I can do it for you. Just tell me what you need and I'll get it all ready. And if there's anything else you need to do, just let me know. I'll take care of everything for you.â
âAnd I can babysitter Grim on the meanwhile.â Lilia laughs as Grim complains about not being a baby to need a babysitter.
When they are about to leave, you ask Silver to stay just a little longer. Lilia takes Grim with him and leaves Silver behind with you.
You share with him that you don't want to be a burden to them. You don't feel right about having him and Lilia as your personal nurses while they should be enjoying their winter break.
âYou would never be a burden.â Silver assures you. âWe will be happy to help you with your recovery and having you with us at this time of year. Besides, I could never leave you alone here with an ankle to take care of. I know Grim and the ghosts would help you with whatever you needed but... I want to be there for you. I want to be someone you can count on. So please don't feel like you are asking or receiving to much from us. I would do this and more for you.â
He kisses your forehead and then smiles sweetly at you.
âI'll come get you tomorrow. I hope everything goes well with your recovery until then.â
If you ask him for a kiss on the lips, he will blush a little while smiling and will give you a sweet and delicate kiss. âWould you like me to come and keep you company in your dreams?â
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convenient pt.4 | ÂˇË ŕź spencer reid ,,
pt. 3 (you cannot read this without prior reading)
summary - you donât need help with your biology anymore, you need help understanding the chemistry that seems to be growing between you and spencer.
warnings - jealousy, dickhead guy, unwanted flirting, awkward spencer, mentions of getting run over and pouring rain, studying.
genre - college!fem!reader x earlyseasons!spencer, fluff, angst if you squint, jealousy trope
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sat in a plush office chair, in a cool room, in a comfortable dress shirt, surrounded by the people he trusted most, spencer couldnât seem to live in the moment.
now thatâs not something you would suggest to the man when heâs sat in front of multiple gruesome photos and case files, usually he would be 100% focused, no bullshit, no wandering thoughts.
but suddenly he felt light, airy, like these cases were just another day and he would be confident either way. it wasnât completely untrue, but it was odd. everyone else seemed to notice.
âspencer, are you okay?â aaron hotchner startled the man with his stern and concerned voice, everyone looking up at spencer as a natural reaction. spencer looked around the table, noticing a growing grin between garcia and morgan.
hotch continued, âif you need to sit this one out, by all means.â
spencer shook his head and adjusted his posture, picking up a profile to skim over. there was a small giggle from garcia that brought the attention of aaron.
âwhatâs going on?â
âreidâs distracted because of a certain someoneâŚâ morgan replied, biting the end of his ballpoint pen. garcia slapped his shoulder.
âdonât tease him, meanies. keep going, hotch.â
they were right. he was distracted and felt far away most of the time. he wanted to go somewhere comfortable, like a convenience store with a pretty employee to talk to.
ricky, a handsome guy a few years older than you, was annoying logan with questions he couldâve answered himself. he tagged along with logan to your weekend study session at a small cafe not far from the college. the tall man was mostly agreeable, except for his apparent obsession with straight black coffee. he had had two cups of it already.
âso, y/n. what do you study? wait donât tell me. nursing, because you seem to be healing my broken heart. psychology, because youâre making me crazy? or is it music, because your voice is like a song?â he leaned forward from across the table, disregarding the punch in the shoulder from logan. you only glared and returned to your expensive textbooks, leaving your drink to turn cold in its abandonment.
âdonât try anything, ricky. sheâs basically taken.â she warned with a smirk. you lifted your gaze and rolled your eyes,
âyouâre nonsensical. youâve had too much coffee,â you stop filling out a questionnaire, âheâs not even that⌠heâs⌠ugh, i donât know.â you place your pen down and stretch in the stiff wooden chair.
ricky laughs, clapping his hands together, âokay so you totally have a crush on a guy.â
âi do not.â
âi guess iâll back off with my advances, unlessss, you truly donât have a crush on your lover boy?â
âi do not- but still please back off, youâre gross.â
logan and ricky shared a glance and went back to their work silently. like they knew something you didnât. your brain had turned stuffy, you need to get some air, you needed to get away from the truth.
garcia and morgan appeared so suddenly spencer thought turbulence had pushed them into their seats in front of him. his gaze snapped from the airplane wing to their two giddy faces and immediately knew what this conversation was going to be about. it only made him a little bit uncomfortable, these types of conversations. girls, flirting, being happy around someone he doesnât work with, it was all unfamiliar. it seemed he chose the best people to talk about it to though; garcia had given him a little too much information about his crush from her unwanted snooping, and in the process morgan was also given all of this information.
âyes, okay, i told derek all about your girl but i couldnât help it! heâs very persuasive!â garcia pouted. spencer thinned his lips and nodded, expecting a surge of conversation but he was only met with silence. morgan and garcia shared a glance.
âlook, spencer. weâre only doing this to distract ourselves from the case we just closed, and to help you. if you donât want help, if you think this⌠thing, will die out, then tell us. but, if you do want some adviceeeâŚâ morgan spoke smoothly, quiet enough to avoid attention from anyone else.
when spencer stayed silent, thinking about how he could never use you as a distraction, morgan whispered, âif nothings happening, you gotta light the match.â
you were standing on an uneven step ladder when the doorbell rang with 10 minutes to closing. you rolled your eyes, thinking youâd have to stay even later because of this customer. but your demise quickly turned to calmness, a little bit of panic, when spencer appeared in the entry way.
you nearly fell off the ladder, dropping the pile of juice boxes in your hands onto the floor. you cursed under your breath, watching from above as spencer picked them up for you.
âthank you.â
there was no need for formalities anymore, it was like you had known each other forever. spencer was silent again, it was becoming his thing.
you clear your throat, âi changed my medication.â
he glanced at you, brown eyes observing your tired expression. he came here unconsciously. he had already had some take out, he didnât need any coffee, and his fruit bowl was stocked to the brim. spencer walked to this convenience store, the result of the action being evident through the pain in his feet.
the phone in your back pocket caught spencerâs attention, before he promptly looked elsewhere to avoid looking like a creep.
âgood, im glad.â
are we really back to this? was one awkward conversation all we needed to go back to strangers?
you stepped down, âno more bruises.â
spencer placed his fingers delicately on his healed cheek, holding back a smile that you actually remembered that.
he asked, âwhoâs texting you so much?â without much thought. he didnât think about how it sounded, like he was protective or worried, or what it implied. he didnât even have your number, why should he be so upset?
âoh itâs just logan and ricky.â you replied simply, folding up the ladder and glancing at the clock placed above the register desk, âare you getting anything?â
because it didnât seem weird if he came here for you instead of his groceries.
âlike your brother, ricky?â
there was a small match burning in his stomach at the sound of those names. he felt like taking your phone and snooping until he reached the end, until his fingers hurt. spencer felt like asking intrusive questions, before he bit his lips to stop himself.
you made notice of his hands fiddling in his pant pockets, rolling your eyes. that made his tongue slip.
âhow many guys do you know?â
you looked at him with surprise, walking over to the register, âyou think iâm a whore?â
spencerâs heart skipped a beat, âno not at all, i just- i didnât word that right.â
you shook your head and laughed quietly, starting to count the change sat on your swivel chair. something was off. the street was empty. âdid you walk here, spencer?â
spencerâs breath hitched. oh god, were the only words circling in his brain. when you used his name, it was different. this was weird, he needed to get out of there.
you looked so effortless. he looked so anxious.
âyeah. i did.â
you nod, âokay, you can help me lock up then.â you pass him a set of keys for the window covers, and add, âyou can walk me home, to make up for the other day.â
spencer nods with a small smile and begins locking up.
you lead the way out of the store and around the corner to a set of traffic lights. the streets are silent and misty, but neither of you felt the need to jay walk in an attempt to speed up this process of awkward walking.
spencer watches you from his advantage point. at how you bite the inside on your lips, how you look at the concrete pathway.
âwhatâs wrong?â you donât react, instead push the pedestrian button and sigh.
âitâs monday, spencer. you were going to âretryâ, âbe betterâ? iâm not 100% sure what you meant by that, but you said that right after you told me you were going to ask me out so.â
spencer gulps and nods, hands going back to their safe space in his pockets. âyeah, i said that. but iâm going to have to delay that again. this isnât really,â he motioned towards the weeds, litter, and flickering street lights with his eyes, and you nod with a smirk.
âromantic?â
âromantic.â
you smile at each other, and for a second heâs utterly entranced before a wave of wind and tires pass him. before a soft hand is hard on his upper arm. his eyes trailed the car, heart beating nearly as hard as it does when he looks at you.
âjesus, are you okay?â you asked worried, and when he nods with a simple stare accompanying it, you look away.
light a match.
you hand leaves him quicker than it got there.
in front of your apartment building, you notice loganâs window alight behind white curtains, and turn to face spencer.
âthank you for walking me home. i would invite you in but itâs 1:20am and i donât really⌠know you.â
spencer furrows his eyebrows slightly, looking at you expectantly. your faces turns cold, slightly sorrowful.
âspencer, i donât know you. i know things about you but i donât actually know you.â you yawn, wiping a hand over your eyes, âmaybe iâm just tired and overworked andâŚâ loganâs voice echoes through your head as you look over the tall, tired and handsome man in front of you, âif youâre not going to ask me out first iâm going to ask you out. so, make a decision.â
it felt wrong being so stubborn and solid with him, but with school and family stress you truly didnât need any unknown feelings to topple on as well.
spencer was taken aback. he didnât know one couple where the girl asked out the guy, he didnât know someone could like him that badly. he didnât know what to say.
âgoodnight, spencer. iâll see you.â
you turned and pushed on the pull door, before pulling on it. heart thumping in your ears, you slowly held a hand over your mouth, impressed with yourself.
but you lied, you werenât going to ask him out. you have no idea how to ask someone out.
the convenience store wasnât so lonely tonight.
logan was arguing with ricky over his choice in deodorant almost louder than the terrible radio music playing throughout the store.
the beating of rain was creating a calming background to this chaos, as well as keeping customers away. all but one, of course.
spencer had an excuse, he was supposed to bring food for the team tomorrow, and this was the closest store. totally. but as he stood under the cover of the stores overhead steel, he felt another match being burnt in the bottom of his stomach.
a tall and toned man with bright blonde hair was leaning over your register and talking to you, making you smile and laugh. your arms were crossed, you were leaned away and you avoided eye contact, but spencer didnât see any of these signs as the waves of jealousy drowned him.
spencer looked out onto the street. he had no right to feel that way, this was his own fault. he felt even weirder and out of place than he usually felt.
the doorbell rang and your fake smile turned real. logan watched from the toilet spray section and smirked when she recognised the purple-sweater adorned man. ricky stopped his flirting and turned to meet spencerâs eyes, they sized each other up. the blonde man smiled and looked back at your much happier face, âso this is lover boy?â
you smacked his arm hard, receiving a squeal in return. âwhat? no. ricky this is spencer, spencer this is ricky.â
spencer gulped and ignored the stranger and you. he went for the fruits section. ricky glanced at your confused face, âi might be a threat.â
âin your dreams.â you rolled your eyes and pushed his elbow off your desk. logan approached the counter with a basket full and pulled her hair back into a ponytail. you noticed rickyâs change in expression when looking at her and held back a smile.
âyou didnât get anything for me?â he asked, voice teasing. logan took out a block of mint chocolate and threw it at him, which he caught perfectly with a smirk on his face.
âwhatâs wrong with lover boy?â
you glare at her, deciding avoiding that nickname was out of the picture. your shoulders slump as you begin scanning her items while making sure spencer wasnât in earshot. âi mentioned you two, and then he went weird.â
âi mean, if i liked a girl and she told me about two guys- sorry, two people with guy names- iâd be pretty jealous,â ricky inputted.
âis that all? some jealousy got to his head?â logan pressed.
you seriously doubted he would be jealous over that, he seemed smarter than that. he was smarter than that.
logan paid and left, literally dragging ricky behind her, as he waved and winked at you through the windows.
the store was eerily quiet, the only noise coming from the thunderstorm brewing outside. it felt uncanny and uncomfortable. you needed someoneâs cologne to wade through or something.
turning while shaking your head, you grabbed out some posters taller than you and turned to have the life scared out of you.
âjesus! i thought i told you to walk louder.â
his groceries were perfectly in line to be scanned, a small smile appearing before promptly vanishing. spencer avoided your eyes, a beating all he could hear.
âheâs yourâŚâ
you sighed, disappointed spencer even thought that dumb blonde was someone to you, âacquaintance.â you finished his sentence. âiâve known him for two days and he a flirtatious dick. everyone named ricky is a dick.â
he pulls out his slim wallet to hand you a $20 bill, fingers skimming each other. one glance.
spencer nods and nearly leaves before you stop him, âcan you help me?â
spencer is on the top of the ladder outside, barely staying dry underneath the steel overhead cover with the top corners of a food poster in his hands. you tip toe to give him a piece of double sided tape. the laminated photos wave in the wind, spencer sticks his tongue out in concentration and you smile at the innocent act. leaning against the wall, quickly glancing inside to make sure nobody wanted to check out, you begin talking.
âthank you for doing this, i totally wouldâve fallen and died if it werenât for you. what can i do to repay you?â
spencer thought for a moment, looking down at you, ânothing. you donât have to do anything. just keep talking.â
so you did, because you didnât know if youâd see him again after tonight.
PART 5
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⢠tags â fem!readerďšestablished relationshiďšfluffďša bit suggestiveďštoxic relationship
tom is always composed and distant when others are around, his poker face never betraying much emotion. he doesnât indulge in pda, but his eyes often linger on you a moment too long when heâs made sure no one is looking.
rarely shows affection outwardly, but when he touches you, itâs always with purpose. a hand on the small of your back, guiding you; fingers brushing against your jaw, reminding you of his power over you.
likes it when you sit on his lap, especially in front of others. he wonât say anythingâjust grabs your wrist, guiding you to sit without a word. once youâre settled, heâll rest a cold hand on your thigh. it sends a subtle message that youâre his, reinforcing his control over you and everyone around.
when itâs just the two of you, he likes having you closeâidly toying with your hair or tracing his name on your thigh while heâs reading or strategising.
mostly calls you by your last name, the same way he calls everyone else. occasionally, heâll call you things like love, darling, and pet. he says it with a slow, almost condescending drawl that gives the impression heâs savouring the syllables on his tongue.
pretends to hate it when you fuss over himâespecially when you adjust his tie or push a curl of his hair away from his forehead. heâll roll his eyes or mutter something like, âi can manage on my own, thank you,â but deep down, he finds it oddly soothing. the small, almost maternal act just gets him in ways he doesnât fully understand.
he may not express concern in obvious ways, but heâs always watching. when you enter a room, his gaze discreetly scans for any threat. if someone dares insult or harm you, theyâre screwed. tom will handle it in the shadowsâsilently and mercilessly.
if someone really gets under your skin, tom doesnât hesitate to send his cronies to deal with them. you donât even have to askâheâll notice your irritation and handle it discreetly. whether itâs a nasty hex or making their potion explode in class, tom ensures they pay for bothering you, all while keeping his hands clean.
if you snuggle into his side or playfully kiss his cheek, heâll act annoyed and insulted, sighing as though youâre interrupting his important work. âyou really are a needy, insufferable little thing, arenât you,â heâll murmur with a barely concealed smirk.
often manipulates you without you even realising it. tom always frames his possessiveness as concern and his control as a form of protection, but beneath it all, thereâs a genuine care for you, albeit toxic and twisted.
though tom sees everyone else as beneath him, he holds a rare soft spot for you. he may never admit it, but you see it in the way he allows you small freedomsâlike teasing him, stealing food from his plate or running your fingers through his dark curls.
despite his own lofty ambitions, he is surprisingly attentive when you rambling about the most random, mundane things. whether youâre excitedly describing your favourite book, the details of a dream, he listens with an intensity that almost surprises you. he doesnât say much, but his eyes never leave your face, taking in every word as if it matters deeply to him.
tom wonât coddle you, but he always keeps an eye on your well-being. if youâre overworking yourself, heâll insist on a break.
heâll save you a seat next to him in class or meetings, hand you the book youâve been searching for before you even ask, or casually drape his cloak over your shoulders when itâs cold without saying a word.
when youâre asleep, tom lets his guard down completely. if he has nothing else to do, the boy can literally watch you for hours, his usually blank, cold eyes softening just slightly before he presses a tender kiss to your forehead. when you wake up, of course, heâs as distant as ever.
tom is highly disciplined when it comes to academics, but he enjoys having you by his side while studying. heâll let you sit next to him in the library or the common room, occasionally glancing at you while you work. if youâre struggling, heâll lean over and explain it in detail.
kisses from him are slow and languid, always controlled, as if heâs relishing the power he holds over you. soft, cold lips barely brush yours at first, teasingly close but not enough to satisfy. he likes to make you lean in for more, only granting you a deeper kiss when he decides. his hands always rest possessively on the back of your neck or waist.
enjoys teasing you, both physically and verbally. heâll brush his lips against the shell of your ear, nibbling at your earlobe and whisper filthy things just to see you squirm. heâll smirk at how easily you react, eyes lighting up with sadistic amusement. âyou get worked up so easily, love,â heâll drawl, fingers toying with the top few buttons of your shirt and slipping dangerously low on your collarbone, toeing the boundaries but never quite crossing them.
even when heâs being more⌠soft, tom keeps some degree of dignity. if youâre tugging on his tie or messing with his hair, heâll let you indulge for a bit, but then his hand will come up to grasp your wrist, stopping you. âenough,â heâll say softly, but not without affectionation
he likes it when you card your fingers through his hair and tug it gently during sex. he may let out the slightest sound of approval but quickly regains his composure, gripping your wrist to slow you down. âimpatient, are we?â heâll chide with a raised brow, though the way his eyes darken with lust betrays his enjoyment.
loves leaving hickeys on your neck, collarbone, or anywhere that will remind you of him long after heâs gone. itâs possessiveâhis way of marking you. heâll kiss the sensitive skin, biting just hard enough to leave a bruise, then watch your reaction with a smug, satisfied smile. âthere you go,â heâll murmur, ânow everyone knows who you belong to.â
playful in his own sinister way. if you try to pull away from his teasing, heâll pinch your ass or thigh just hard enough to make you gasp. the smirk only widens at your reaction, and heâll say something like, ârunning away? i donât think so.â long fingers linger on the sore spot afterward, tracing the sensitive area with a feather-light touch, knowing it drives you mad.
when he wants your attention, he will let his breath tickle your skin, leaning in close without touching, making you anticipate the next move. hovering just above your lips or trace his mouth along your jawline, only pulling away when you lean in for more, leaving you craving his touch.
has a fixation on your neck, often letting his lips brush the skin there when he kisses you. heâll nip at it gently, knowing exactly where to kiss to make you come undone. loves how sensitive you are, how you react so easily to his attention in that area.
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