#i ate everything

[inkskinned]

i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".

it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.

do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.

but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.

do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).

you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.

walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.

no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.

do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."

you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.

there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.

i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.

he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."

[insomniphic]

Telemachus doesn't want his cool and awesome hero dad to realize he's a boy-failure LMAO

[swannsways]

favorite Angus Tully's quotes, The Holdovers (2023) dir. Alexander Payne

[pien-art]

Moiraine taking a break bc that is what she deserves !!!

prints available here :3

[megueggu]

pet her! for @pup_hime ✨

[mochiiniko]

someone get these kids some therapy asap

[tw1nkee28]

AAA I LOVE THIS SO MUCH

I really love your personas design, they're so silly 🫶

I need to draw them sometime

ALSO I LOVE THE DRAWING OF MY SONA IN THE CORNER

HES SO SILLY

THANK YOU, I EATED IT ALL

Persona reveal-ish?

Plus a tiny bonus Tw1nkee

[dwn0012]

Hey man.

[tomwambsgays]

so i just finished midnight mass the other day......

[linoyes]

lee know on lee mujin service

[ricky-mortis]

Curtwen Week Day 1: Pre Canon/London <3 :)

[starkittnd93]

Yeah so I did the ISAT Random Color Palette Challenge!!!

I had a lot of fun doing this! I wanted to try something new with how I used the colors, and I’m really happy with how it came out :D

There’s another one but it’s kinda spoilers, so…

ACT 6 spoilers under the cut! (kinda-)

[jasperbitez]

ive got some art in the works that are some real head scratchers so in the meantime im posting yaois to cope with the stream that i drew while waiting for said stream to start

theres a chance theyre gay, a possibility even

[yourfatherjustinmcelroy]

They killed and ate the artefacts When things had gone awry. They killed and ate the artefacts, And gnawed at their supply.

They held each other hand in hand, Sought refuge in the storm. They oft prolonged the final stand To keep on feeling warm.

They killed and ate the instruments From which their magic poured. They killed and ate the instruments- No more music to be scored.

And when it started drying up, And stomachs soon would ache, When all they had to cherish left Was all they could forsake,

They killed and ate the artefacts, The instruments and radicals And when their living use was done, They killed and ate the animals.

[ceratedfish24]

I think the first time Scott did something kind to Etho he didn't even realize it was a big deal, just reflexivly did it and immediately thought nothing/forgot about it, and Etho is left standing frozen eyes wide like oh snap I'm interested in this guy now. So Etho starts watching Scott from a distance now and notices how Scott keeps doing these kind things for other people and that's how he falls in love.

YES!!! YES! YES! YES! Scott is so kind to everybody he meets, and Etho is so used to fighting for his life and becoming a product of by his circumstances, whereas Scott is so stubbornly kind, refusing to let his hardships corrupt his loving nature. It happens when Etho is scoping out the competition right before 3rd Life, and Scott is going around introducing himself to everyone. Right after Etho finishes a playful stare down with Bdubs, this pretty boy comes right up to him, an enemy to be, offers him a smile, and wishes him luck in a game they’re both about to compete in. Immediately after, Grian calls Scott over to make fun of him, which means Scott didn’t really get any time to think about Etho’s reaction. “You can’t be nice to the competition, Scott! We’re going to war! Stop making my game friendly!” Etho just watches him go… He can’t actually be that friendly, right? Well, he really was, and he continued to be.

Scott excitedly congratulates Grian on his win. He defies the Boogeyman Curse instead of going after his teammate. He sacrifices himself for Pearl. He has no resentment towards Martyn after Limited Life. He teams with Gem, a new player who may be in need of guidance. He treats Cleo’s win with all the seriousness and excitement of a full-length season’s win. He negotiates and reaches out to Etho, who has never done anything for Scott or grown close to him or proved himself to be a good teammate for other people.

And, on top of all of that, Scott does really well.

At first, Etho assumes that Scott is just really kind to people he’s close to, such as Jimmy, Cleo, and Pearl, but then Scott extends his kindness to Etho in Limited Life, making polite conversation with him despite them being on different teams and having so much more time than anyone on Etho’s team. Then, in Secret Life, Scott humors him even though he knows that Etho’s trying to distract Scott from pursuing Bdubs during the infamous game of tag. At the time, Etho couldn’t explain why he found himself stumbling over his words, as he found himself so distracted by how the light reflected in Scott’s eyes. Finally, Wild Life is what tears Etho open like a gash in a place he already knew was tender. Etho isn’t oblivious, at least not to his own feelings. He’s known that he’s felt something for Scott for a long time, but a crush isn’t exactly an optimal in a death game.

Scott, so willing to grant Etho a place on the Gs, smiles and shrugs and tells Etho that he doesn’t care if Etho’s “not a good teammate”, and Etho’s heart bursts in his chest. He’s been given a chance that he doesn’t feel as though he’s earned from someone who doesn’t know him all that well. Everything that’s been buried deep in his chest finally erupts to the surface and he wants to grab Scott and get him somewhere safe and warm. He wants to hold this man’s hand and be as close to him as physically possible, but he can’t. They’re in the middle of a death game. Etho isn’t about to dump all of his years of internalized yearning onto Scott in the middle of a death game. They can talk afterwards.

Except, of course, Etho manages to create a more urgent matter to talk to Scott about after Wild Life. If they were a mainstream pairing, there would be two hundred fics about that kill by now.

[shadowhunter2003]

We don’t talk about the foreshadowing beauty that is Elucien enough.

Because tell me why when Elain is being put in the cauldron, we see Lucien struggle to get to her, break the magical binds that he is being chained in , to protect her, while sneering at the King and Hybern’s guards. Then it is later revealed that Lucien is Elain’s mate.

Or the fact that when Ferye enters Elain’s mind in ACOWAR she describes it as sealed blossoms — indirectly saying that her mind longs for sunshine to fully blossom. Then, when they ask Elain what she needs she says sunshine. Later it is revealed that Lucien is the son of Day Court’s High Lord, a court that is the literal embodiment of sunlight.

Or the fact that when Elain is described in hewn city as being drained of life in a black dress, the one bright detail in her outfit is a pearl hair clip. Then later it is revealed that, Lucien gifts her pearl earrings during Solstice.

Or the fact that Azriel gifts Elain a rose necklace during that same solstice, after it is said that Elain is hurt by rose thorns while gardening. A direct contrast to the enchanted gloves Lucien has gifted her, which later is revealed that, if worn, would’ve saved her from those thorns entirely.

Or the fact that Elain, who was once a social butterfly, becomes withdrawn in ACOWAR and struggles to find her spark. Yet, later it is revealed that her eyes spark, when she is talking to Lucien for the first time.

Its so subtle you won’t even notice it unless you take a read back.